#km;i

[epicsauce]

learning that self deprecation isnt cool and just makes the people around you uncomfortable unironically improved my mental health a lot. like if you just stop saying negative shit about yourself you will genuinely like yourself more and other people wont be repulsed by your attitude and you will have more friends. it's true.

#people will fr go ''god im such an ugly loser LOL i suck at everything i do and i should just kms“ #and then go “why does no one want to be around me” #maybe because your attitude sucks. maybe because i said 'those mean things you say about yourself arent true' #and you spent five minutes arguing with me about how im wrong. #00

[inkskinned]

it's been said before and i'm sure said better than i can phrase it. but really, really - if you like making "i'm going to kill myself" jokes, please try switching to being ironically conceited instead.

anytime something goes wrong, say things like "ah well at least i'm beautiful and charming and everyone loves me." when you forget something, try "my big huge brain is so smart and thinking about too many other very big wizardly thoughts you wouldn't even understand." when you're frustrated by one of your symptoms, start talking like you're in My Immortal. "Life has come for me but my eyes are beautiful pools of gorgeous fire and my hair is amazing. I stuck my middle finger up at life and told it to fuck off and it did."

just... try it for a month or two. try saying the most absurdly self-congratulatory shit you can think of.

i know it's tempting to make suicide or self-harm jokes. and for me at least, a decade ago (!) when someone suggested i stop making those kinds of jokes, i was kind of at a loss for what to replace them with. i wanted to make light of these moments, but genuinely (at the time) my first thought really was suicidal ideation. there was a part of me that even felt like ... i was kind of "making light" of that voice. that if i could say i want to die lol, it would help take the sting out of that genuine (albeit passive) desire. like i could turn my illness into a joke.

when i started complimenting myself instead, it felt awkward and stupid. it felt really, really ironic. what i was actually saying was nobody would ever think this stuff about me, that's what makes it so fucking funny.

but. the effect was immediate. first thing i noticed was the people around me. when i dropped a glass and said ah my skin is too beautiful and sleek the glass has swooned and broken for me, other people were suddenly overjoyed to jump in with the joke. rather than making an awkward moment, we'd both start cracking up. ah princess sleek hands, i've heard of you.

i was 19. i hadn't noticed i'd been making others tense when i said i want it all to end. i know now that it's incredibly hard to know how to walk that moment - do you talk to them about your concern? do you potentially make them uncomfortable by asking if they're okay? do you ignore the situation? do you help them pick up the glass, or do they need to do it by themselves? are they genuinely made suicidal over this small moment? and most importantly, how do you - without professional training or supplies - actually help?

most people want to help you pick up the glass in your life, they just have no fucking idea how to do it. they don't want to make anything worse. they don't want to make assumptions about you. they love you, they're scared for you - and being scared makes people kind of freeze up. it's not because they don't love you. it's because they do.

now when something bad happens, my first thought is how can i make a stupid joke about this. it isn't my brain saying you're a dumb fucking bitch. i spend more time laughing. i spend more time being gentle with myself. i spend more time feeling good.

and the thing is - what's kind of funny - is that you'd be surprised by how many people agree with you. the first time i said i'm too pretty to understand that, someone else said to be fair you're the prettiest person in this room. i promise - you really don't know how kindly your friends see you. but they love you for a reason. they sort of reverse-velveteen-rabbit you. your weird and ugly spots fade away and you just become... the love they want to give you.

go love yourself ironically. the worst thing that happens is that you end up tricking your reflection into actually loving you.

#something something toxic relationships notwithstanding #(re: the friends stuff) #most people love you. automatically. for being alive. like people are just MADE that way. #and the reason kms jokes don't always land is bc people fucking love you and are like - ahhh how do i help #let them help you!!!!!!

[caluski]

So sick of this overly negative meme that shows up every single fucking month so made my own version.

#Like thought we were done with the self depreciating jokes where the punchline is 'I wanna kms'. Whatever #pogaduchy

[naomistares]

this one part from harrow the ninth always made me really upset. so i made a four page comic out of it!

#its the way that this was the day harrow decided to live forever #and not die #what if i kms #so many implications #i wanted to do this years ago but i sucked back then #art #artists on tumblr #the locked tomb #digital art #tlt #gideon the ninth #harrow the ninth #htn #harrowhark nonagesimus #griddlehark #the body #vomit cw #blood cw

[endlessmidnights]

I hate when people say suicide is the easy way out, they have no idea the pain you must be in to want to end your own life

#tw sucidal ideation #tw selfhate #mentally drained #sorry for being depressing #anxitey #i hate me so much #tw depressing thoughts #tw sui ideation #depressing shit #mental health #tw depressing stuff #please let me die #please let me kms #let me go #you’re losing me #you’re on your own kid #mental problems #i wanna die #i want to disappear #i wish i was dead #i’ll never recover #what is wrong with my brain #tw sui vent #tw self h4rm #mentally fucked #so fucking exhausted #tw sui talk #very unstable #im going to kms #what is wrong with me

[lilysofthevalleys]

#self destruction #tw self h4rm #self destructor #i’m not here #self h@rm #tw depressing stuff #i wanna kms #tw depression #imma kms #the perks of being a wallflower

[girlyteengirl16]

healing is taking too long what if i just kill myself

#trauma #i wanna kms #mentally tired #i want to die so bad #mentally unstable #recovering is hard #healing #i can’t move on #mental abuse #tw depressing stuff #tw depressing thoughts #i want to be okay

[not-so-rosyyy]

MESSI clapping with the crowd at the Oscars 2024

#HELP MEEE THIS IS SO ADORABLE I WANNA KMS #messi #anatomy of a fall #oscars #oscars 2024

[todostoast]

you ever just want to cut even if you don't really have a reason just because you miss the feeling of the cuts or am i losing it

#mentally unstable #vent blog #i wanna kms #tw depressing thoughts #i hate everything #vent post #cvtaddict #tw sh related #baby cvts #i wanna die #i want to cvt #depressing shit #cvtt!ng #cvtting addict #sh cvt #i wanna cvt #shblrr

[tootles338]

I’m not a fucking victim to you

#i wanna kms #im just a girl #girlblogging #lana is god #coquette #girl interrupted #girl interupted syndrome #this is a girlblog #girlhood #this is what makes us girls

[pinkistufff]

idk how much longer i can force myself to stay alive

#depressing shit #i wanna kms #kms #tw depressing stuff #tw depressing thoughts #tw vent #su1c1dal #su1c1d3 #drug overdose

[aeirithgainsborough]

Cloud Strife & Aerith Gainsborough FINAL FANTASY VII REMAKE (2020) ➙ FINAL FANTASY VII REBIRTH (2024) dev. Square Enix

#rebirth spoilers #ff7 rebirth spoilers #well i finished and ive cried for many hours no one talk 2 me #aerith gainsborough #cloud strife #clerith #clerithedit #ffvii rebirth #ff7rebirth #videogameedit #video game #dailygaming #** #ok im going 2 kms now

[wolfythewitch]

This progression is so funny to me what happened to you my dude

#at some poiny km gonna have to give him a besrd and i Reall dont want to #the early stages of a beard are #so hard to draw

[tojisun]

dbf!simon but he's actually nice (basically not dear john! simon) teehee <33

he is so sweet and indulgent. he spoils his pretty darling because all he wants is to see you smile. he pays for your tuition, your dorm rent, your groceries. he gives you allowance, and tops it off when you off-handedly mention that there's a new necklace you really want to buy.

he drives you around in his car; picking you up from uni turns into an impromptu trip. he lets you pull him into different shops, and even asks if it'd be okay for you to show him what you want to buy. so you do: you model every clothes you pick, every accessory, and simon's there to compliment you. to praise you. to help you with the zippers or strings or buttons.

he buys you designers, but also those silent rich brands.

but the thing that he does that you love the most is that he lets you talk. vent. ramble.

you pull him into his living room and open your heart out, and simon's there to listen throughout. there are days when you need his help and he offers it with no hesitation, and there are other days when all you need is someone to listen to you and simon is even better at that.

at the end of it, he pulls you to his lap and presses a kiss on your temple.

"what can i do?" he asks.

"just.. please, hold me. just that," you reply, shy after your break down.

and simon does so, careful as he wraps his arms around you before tucking you underneath his chin. he rubs his palm on your back and rocks you two as new tears spill from your eyes.

you two sleep there, on his couch, sometimes. tomorrow, the two of you will wake up with a kink on your necks or backs, but you always feel a whole lot lighter and simon thinks how the backpain is all so worth it.

he cooks you breakfast.

(he's not really good at it so you take over. simon sits on the island in the kitchen, watching you as you flutter around, humming softly to yourself, and wonders if it's too early to give you the gift stowed in his dresser.)

(it's a diamond ring.)

#simon ghost riley x reader #simon riley x reader #simon riley #simon ghost riley #suns #heavy on the paying of tuition because i just paid mine for the summer sem and im cRYING #REAHC KM SO SORRY

[telltaletypist]

the funniest consequence of that halimede rp twitter account breaking containment to the point that most people don't know she's a fictional character from a visual novel is that nobody knows that her joker origin story is fumbling this bad bitch

6'1 btw

#telling tales #heaven will be mine #halimede #like i would kms

[gyllenhaux]

mads mikklesen's crush on hugh dancy is the reason hannibal's obsession with will is so believable on screen

#hannibal #hannibal nbc #hannigram #mads mikkelsen #hannibal lecter #hugh dancy #will graham #fuck hannigram #i know what you are mads #i'd do the same tho #stop that gay shit #kill them #im going to kms #AHHHHHHHHH #my boys