#indulging sadness

[mroddmod]

everyone be quiet i'm manifesting

#the bad batch #tbb #star wars #star wars the bad batch #sw tbb #tbb omega #tbb wrecker #tbb crosshair #tbb echo #tbb tech #tbb hunter #mods art #mods draws #my art #YAYYYYY ITS DONE #i've been tinkering w this for like a couple weeks now i think #just on and off #whenever i was nervous about their fates or just generally sad about them i would work on this #it was supposed to make me feel better but it would usually just make me more sad 😭😭 #but i still really like how it turned out!!! so that's cool #very self indulgent but!!! whatever #i think i'll add this to my inprnt soon too :) so keep a look out for that i guess lol #okay byeeeeee #ALSO THE NEW EP WAS SO GOOD #okay bye fr

[mourninglamby]

xoxo

#sad soidraw self indulgent pretty stuff #points if u get who the lamb is #it’s easy lol #c!tommy #my art #my ocs #dsmp

[tteokdoroki]

☆༉ — SATORU GOJO. pretty brown eyes.

about. gojo might be the one with the six eyes, but there’s nothing special about those. your brown eyes are real weapon, here.

warnings. minors, blank and ageless blogs do not interact ! sfw, fluff, hurt comfort. slight hints to insomnia, idk how infinity works sorry, reader has brown eyes, afab!reader.

“you could kill me if you wanted to.”

it’s the dead of night when he whispers your name. though low in volume, his tongue curls around each syllable loud enough for you to hear him. “

“‘toru, what are you on about—” digging the heal of your palm into your eyes, you dislodge the crust from your lash line and groan. the red lines on your digital clock read sometime between three and four am— but the digits blur as your mind swims with sleep.

“your eyes. they’re so perfect.” a loving grin etches itself onto his face when you crack one open to look at him, masking over the exhaustion seeping from his pores and the anxiety that spikes in the sapphire pools of his own eyes. “you should be able to get away with anything because of them.”

“baby,” you reiterate and roll over to face him fully. gojo gets like this when he’s overworked and worried, when there’s something big on his mind you’re not quite sure you’d understand. you move to jab a thumb into his forehead, right between his brows to alleviate the ache in his skull but you don’t let your disappointment show when rough skin meets the dull buzz of his infinity.

you forget that his six eyes flow in the dark — that his blue eyes are not as blue as they seem. “you’re talking nonsense, it’s late. get some sleep.”

“my eyes. they could kill me if i worked too hard.”

satoru’s eyes are a lot stormier than most would expect, they can be dark and cold. like an angry ocean tired of tournament. they can be bright, full of hope and loving — you notice that change whenever he’s with your students. they hide behind the frame of his ability, the one that hardly ever turns off despite how it really could kill him.

his mind is always running, his body almost always on empty.

in the moonlight, you see a faint sliver of silver between the flecks of diamond and stormy skies.

he swipes a gentle thumb just over cheek yours to catch a fallen lash. “but yours,” gojo continues, voice thoughtful and low. tired above all else. “those pretty brown eyes…baby, they’re dangerous in a different way. beautiful in another that makes me feel safe. puts my mind at ease or somethin’. one look ‘nd I’d be doing anything for you,”

there the two of you are, face to face in the dark — cheeks pressed to pillows and heads under the covers as if you’re children shielding yourself from the world. creating the safe space to let satoru confess.

“if those pretty brown eyes were the last thing i got to see before i died. then i think i’d be okay.”

“don’t say that.” your face crumples and his infinity falls away as if gojo had been anticipating your touch, the buzz just shocking through your skin as you wrap your arms around his larger frame, pull his head down to your heart beating in your chest. “you’re not allowed to die, satoru. not yet.”

“i know.” for once he’s grateful he can’t see your eyes — he hates the way they shine when you cry.

“i need you.”

“i know.” he’s quiet. “i need you too.”

“then rest, you don’t have to keep watch.” gojo feels the shake in your lungs as you speak. you worry too much about him. but with your hand cascading through his soft locks, and the other squeezing him close he’s finding it hard to resist.

usually when he lays next to you, he’s stiff as a board, always anticipating whatever danger might come next. but the biggest threat to him of all is you, and those big brown bambi eyes of yours — the way they’re wet with love, shiny with tears because you adore satoru gojo. you care about him way too much for your own good.

those eyes of yours are convincingly treacherous , he can’t help but let his body sag and let go of his cursed technique while you rub his back and soothe him.

“you’re dangerous, yanno,” satoru grunts, lips dragging along your skin with every word. “especially when you look at me like that, with those puppy dog eyes…can’t say no to you.”

but you smile as he drifts off, his tall frame heavy against you — your lashes blinking soft against his forehead as you curl around him protectively. “i’d rather use them to get you to rest, rather than kill you. ‘toru.”

your words are wasted on deaf ears — his deep snore indicating that gojo is finally asleep, doing himself a favour and locking his pretty blue eyes away.

꒰ end. — all rights reserved © tteokdoroki 2023. do not copy, repost, translate & recommend elsewhere.

#gojo x reader #satoru gojo x reader #gojo fluff #gojo angst #gojo x yn #satoru gojo x you #jjk x reader #jjk fanfiction #jujutsu kaisen x reader #idk im sad and i love him #self indulgent slay #✧ ₊˚੭ — writing #tteokdoroki #✧ ₊˚💭੭ — aali just posted #angelshubnetwork

[lil-beanz000]

Thanksgiving is always a hard time for me every year, lacking family takes its toll. Sometimes it's just nice to pretend....less lonely

#my art #sad today #doodle #rottmnt #tmnt #sona #some self indulging #rottmnt donnie #rottmnt leo #beantalks #rottmnt mikey #rottmnt raph #turtle tots

[emkini]

I think about Zuko and Ursa a normal amount

#atla #avatar #avatar the last airbender #zuko #ursa #atla fanart #em draws #illustration #I had heart of stone from SIX playing on loop while drawing both of these #because I enjoy hurting myself #I am on a fucking roll right now apparently #cannot go five seconds without drawing something #the stuff I've been posting is so incredibly self-indulgent but y'know what. I do not care #normally i'd have a modicum of shame but nope #if I want Zuko to look sad in his mom's robes then that's what he's going to do <3 #privileges of being an artist #yes it's 4:30 in the morning shut up #id in alt text #edit I fixed his wack ass face

[mecachrome]

🤨 low q oscar eyebrow dump

#buzzfeed ojp saved my life and fed me 100 years of microexpressions i could've put the entire thing here. but i resisted #oscar piastri #* #tbh this has been sitting in my drafts for weeks because it is so stupid and incoherent but hsdklfh it's fine #been going thru it lately and my health is the worst it's ever been and it is making me quite sad ngl 😔......... sigh #self-indulgent gifsets 2 soothe the soul 🧡 #also started another of my fav oscaryfaces in general which i might still do ❓ but the eyebrows needed their own place imo

[felsicveins]

Burnt bridges

#yall were eating too good its time for something sad #trolls 3 #jd ex husband #trolls oc julien #john dory #jd trolls #john dory trolls #living up to the name Epic Gay Divorce #maybe julien in his own way tried to reconcile but it came across as almost threatening? #so they had an argument and jd realized that julien hasnt changed at all so he wanta nothing to do with him #and jd isnt running away. julien just wanted to say something hurtful #jd mustve shared that he felt guilty about brozone breaking up so now hes using that info against him #THIS IS SO ZJCJEJJDOJEHWIJVJEHROVJEHSJOCNEJVD #very indulgent #trolls #trolls band together

[muzzleroars]

danse macabre

#ultrakill #gabriel #v1 #gabv1el #doodle tag #rise and fall au #fallen gabriel #love thinking about gabriel losing his mind for a minute after becoming a full fallen angel #where he just really indulges in his anger and pent up violence all for himself #he rebels against everything he ever was and how stifled he has been his entire achingly long existence #no more rules. no more grace. he's goring demons and tearing machines apart limb from limb #needless to say. v1 is NO moderating force lol #it loves running around like this with him far more reckless than it could afford to be before #and finding a love that engages in its cruelty with it to its full extent makes it just as bad #he does eventually come back to himself as this just isn't him #but i love them having a full villain era where they become actively avoided #(but hell won't let their prey get away...sad!)

[diurnalvl]

seven years ago, they used to be friends. almost.

1 / 2 / ?

#diurna draws #vox #alastor #staticradio #radiostatic #radiosilence #onewaybroadcast #hazbin hotel vox #hazbin hotel alastor #hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel fanart #gosh i love doing more complex shading to make fake screencaps it's so satisfying. #sorry for using my personal vox design this is purely self indulgent. hey maybe vox only starts wearing bowties after this #anyways part two is going to be uploaded in a bit my doves <3 #vox made his way through the trapdoor that's why he's initially on his knees #...not any other reason... #he's so danger unaware to alastor going haywire #thing is i feel that during their friendship vox was long used to alastor hurting other people in front of him that it just... #doesn't occur to him that alastor would've ever hurt him in that way. #shame #because it never occured to alastor that vox would cross that line and ruin their friendship. #alastor is somehow desperately angry and desperately sad #and angrier still that vox gets to make him feel that way. #suddenly #alastor feels a pearl of absolute hatred form inside of him #he's never felt so strongly about something in his entire afterlife #if only my shitty little aces could communicate and stop being insane for one second. sigh.

[ryoalouette]

Machi's Idea #4

The JL can't understand what's wrong. They did their best effort to honor the king of dead and celebrate accordingly with the most strict protocol. Yet the king seems equally dull and annoyed. The JLD knows what's going on but they decided to say nothing in the hopes that this would teach the JL a lesson. Jason tried to explain the situation but none of the "adults" (aka Batman) listened to him so he decided to get his point across by getting into a fist fight with the king. One hour later they are kissing and Jason is explaining to the JL that ghost bond through fighting.

#dp x dc #dc x dp #dpxdc #dcxdp #Machi's idea #so apparently Machi don't wanna return to Tumblr #big sad #darn you purge #anyways #writing prompt #prompt #The King's partners are very pleased with the new addition #Batman can't believe his son was trapped in a harem #Is a policule tyvm #everybody is dating everybody at the same time and they all love each other #Jason is just happy that he gets to live a forbidden love cheesy romance with a king #even if he was welcomed with open arms into the family #he still likes to pretend and Danny loves to indulge him #shower thoughts

[gingacd]

somebody called you something sweet once

#my art #soldier tf2 #tf2 #i needed to draw a self indulgent sad looking wet soldier #he's very. augh #yall aren't ready for the soldier lore I made up one time lol

[annabelle--cane]

"ugh I hate grimdark" well I love seeing fucked up shit. I want to see characters solely make each other worse in brand new and beautiful ways. I want events to go catastrophically wrong nearly every time and I only say "nearly" because I want there to be just enough hope that it can get brutally squashed at an unexpected tragedy. I want there to be no morally good characters, only fucked up little weasels. sorry.

#sad endings!!!! unclear moral lessons!!!!! indulgence in despair!!!!!! #marina marvels at life

[eerna]

what makes Cinder such a compelling 2012 not-like-other-girls protagonist is that she is surrounded by Other Girls, and she loves them. Iko and Peony are the most stereotypical teenage girls obsessed with pretty clothes and boys and pop culture and she would die for either of them in a heartbeat. Iko rolls in with makeup smeared all over her plastic face and Cinder is like "ayy girl slay!". she knows that she is JUST like other girls in all the ways that matter.

#love it how deeply envious she is of any sort of femininity presented by girls!!! #love it how she is like ''i laugh at silly girls but that's because i am a sad sad person who is afraid of indulging in my own silliness'' #i am about to meet iko again and i can't WAIT cinder and thorne are iconic but we need some more girl power #well actually thorne is also a girl's girl but in a man way. he is one of the girls. the other boys aren't but he is #maaaaaaan i love good YA. i adore good YA. kids read good YA #tlc liveblog

[ahollowgrave]

-- shrouded safe in soft moonlight.

#Pigeon Screens #Odette Hollows #FFXIV Screenshots #Hyur #Middie #Midlander #Sad girl hours??? no.... indulgent sad girl hours

[rakkuntoast]

i like doing silly self indulgent low-effort comics

#my shitty art #qsmp forever #qsmp philza #qsmp #philever #forphil #caramelduo #apparently thats the new name for the duo since some stuff with dttwt #i like it better ngl #also hope i dont have to mention it everytime but yes this is the characters and purely platonic. #most of my enjoyment of this duo its just the onesided nature with phil sometimes indulging 4ever's antics to cheer him up #i really like their silly dynamic im still sad it's on hold cuz lore has been insane lately #but also im glad cuz it def made q!phil and chay's perception on 4ever improve a lot. which makes me happy #also sorry i like rambling in tags <:)

[nyancreeperpony]

This might just be me, but I am starting to notice a serious trend of independent animation being critisized simply for being self indulgent.

It happened with Hazbin Hotel in 2019 and it's currently happening to The Amazing Digital Circus now, which is which very sad to see. It's not enough to be pattern but it's definetly enough to be noticeable.

A lot of people who don't delve to much into creative mediums seem to forget that art: ALL ART, is a self indulgent medium. The target audience, when creating a project, is yourself. If other people like it and want to see more, than cool. But at the end of the day, you (or in this case, Gooseworx and Vivziepop) are the target auidence for their/your projects.

"All the characters in Hazbin Hotel reek of Tumblr and teenage edge" Vivzie designed all the characters when she was in Highschool and wanted to reuse them for her series. Of course they have 2010s Deviantart vibes, she grew up a 2010s deviantart kid and wanted to keep that vibe.

"Jax is total Tumblr Sexyman Bait and everything is too colorful and bouncy and annoying!" Gooseworx said themself that they like Jax's character archetype which is why they wanted to include him. Also have you SEEN Goose's other work? Bouncy and colorful are their thing.

There are plenty of things to critisize about HH (And it's spinoff HB) and TADC. Even as a fan of these works, I have my issues with them, some even as a result of this self indulgence, but disliking them so vehemently simply BECAUSE they are self indulgent really discourages people from making art, especially in fields such as animation.

TLDR: If you want to see more independent animation and art being made, you have to let people get a little self indulgent. You might not like it, but at the end of the day, it isn't made for you. And that's ok.

#I'm just sad that Digital Circus is lowkey getting the Hazbin Hotel treatment. Same with Hazbin too. #Hatred of both is...a really small minority #Thank god #Most people like these pilots for good reason #But I feel like the small yet loud minority does not understand how art works sometimes. #And coming from someone who wants to make webcomics someday. Webcomics that are extremely self indulgent. #It's sad to see. #hazbin hotel #helluva boss #the amazing digital circus #nyanbles