#im just so tired actually

[gayemoji]

#im just so tired actually #whats that one. luke corkisuruiea video. #Close Twitter! For! The! Love! Of! God! #sound advice #technoblade #m #death tw #cortisol

[itrulyhatethisworld]

i just wanna cut everyone off and rot away in my bed

#actually bpd #bpd culture is #bpd feels #bpd fp #bpd problems #bpd safe #bpd thoughts #bpd vent #depressing life #depressing shit #bpd #depressiv #sorry for being depressing #i’m bored #im bored #i just wanna sleep #i hate it so much #i hate it here #why am i like this #i hate this #i wanna die #i hate everything #i’m so lonely #i’m outraged #i’m going insane #i’m just a girl #i’m sad #i’m so sorry #i’m so tired #i’m sorry

[steddieas-shegoes]

It’s been done in every which way but Eddie being in an accident of some kind that leaves him paralyzed, but his doctors believe he could walk again with intense physical therapy

He’s stubborn and absolutely hasn’t dealt with any of the trauma of the accident and takes it out on his physical therapist, Steve, who is used to patients being pretty angry about their situation

He always meets Eddie where he is though, tries to keep a smile on his face and joke when appropriate and even shares his cookies from his lunchbox with him

Eventually, Eddie starts making some progress, but instead of being happy about it, he panics and cancels all his PT appointments for the week

Steve tries calling, texting, emailing, doing everything he can to encourage him to keep going, but it all goes unanswered until Gareth, one of Eddie’s closest friends, calls him on Eddie’s phone

He’s depressed and he won’t get out of bed, he’s given up. He’s tired of being in pain and having to try to so hard just to move his damn legs a little

Steve isn’t usually this personal with clients, and tells Gareth he can’t discuss anything medical with him due to patient confidentiality, but insists he should try to drag him to the office the next day before it opens

And somehow, probably through guilt, Gareth manages to wheel a very sullen and grumpy Eddie into the side door entrance to the office at seven in the morning

Steve tells him to come back in an hour to pick him up and Eddie ignores the goodbye Gareth says to him

And Steve pretends nothing is wrong at all, goes through the usual temperature and blood pressure check, asks how he’s feeling and gets a grunt in response, asks if there’s any pain and gets an eye roll

But Eddie met his match in Steve because Steve then pushes him to the center of the workout room, where a large mat is out and a walker is set to the side

“What’s that?”

“Your walker.”

“I don’t need one seeing as I can’t fucking walk.”

“You are today.”

And Steve knows he’s pushing and he hates being pushy

But he knows what his clients are capable of, and he knows without a single doubt in his mind that Eddie is ready to use the walker for five to ten minute increments. He has the leg strength and the stubbornness, he just needs the belief in himself

“Do you want me to hurt myself worse?”

“Of course not. And if you get tired, the seat on the walker is right there. But you can walk and you will walk.”

“And if I call Gareth to come get me right now?”

“Then I don’t believe my services are of value to you anymore and I’ll wish you the best.”

It pained Steve to say it because he knew he was fucking good at what he did, maybe the best in town. His clients often had to wait for his availability to open for weeks or months at a time because of how many people were referred to him

But he said the right thing because Eddie huffed, groaned, and cursed under his breath before wheeling himself to the edge of the mat to hold onto the walker

He pulled himself up

His legs were shaking from not being used for the last few days more than the bare minimum, but his determination was clear

Steve slowly pulled the chair away as Eddie unlocked the brakes of the walker and glared at Steve as he took one step, then two

Sure, he was relying pretty heavily on the walker, maybe more than Steve would’ve liked to see, but he was moving

He made it across the mat and then locked the brakes, sat down on the pad on the walker, and gave a sarcastic grin to Steve

“Happy?”

“Are you?”

And maybe Eddie wasn’t ready to be asked that because he was suddenly sobbing, covering his face as tears flowed down his cheeks

Steve gave him a few seconds before moving to kneel in front of him, pulling his hands away

“You deserve to have your life back, Eddie. You’ve been lucky to have the chance to walk again. Let’s not waste it, okay?”

Eddie spent the rest of the session walking across the mat and taking breaks every two minutes or so

It was better than Steve even expected, but he reminded Eddie not to do too much at once

Eddie didn’t miss any more appointments with Steve, and every appointment, he seemed to be more charming and flirty, more like “the old Eddie” according to Gareth, who drove him most days

Steve never admitted it out loud, but he knew what he felt for Eddie was different from other clients. It felt more personal, and it felt like it could be more someday

When Eddie graduated to a cane, Steve’s services were officially no longer needed

And Eddie decided that he should probably take Steve out on a date

“Since I can walk and hold your hand now,” he winked.

Steve should say no, but he doesn’t

Because holding Eddie’s hand feels even more right as his boyfriend than it did as his physical therapist

#steddie #steve harrington #eddie munson #stranger things #headcanon #physical therapist Steve #idk going through my notes on things I’ll never have time to actually write #but maybe someone else does #I’m literally ignoring work so hard right now #I’m just tired!!!! #im just a girl who doesn’t wanna work anymore!!!! #cw: injury #cw: mention of accident

[thehealingsystem]

It's so wild to me that as a community we're still so hostile to multigender and genderfluid people existing in gay and lesbian spaces.

You...are aware that people who are both men and women are allowed to be gay, right? And lesbian? Their other genders doesn't cancel their connection to womanhood, or manhood, or whatever else they id with. They are allowed to be gay despite their fem-alignment, and they are allowed to be lesbian despite their masc-alignment.

It comes from these weird online spaces that the standard to be gay or lesbian is to be a "non-woman" or a "non-man," which is inherently transmultiphobic and...extremely ahistorical. And completely misunderstands nonbinary identity. So if you're both then you just don't belong anywhere I suppose.

#they treat these people as abnormal when really shoving anyone into categories of non-women and non-men is fucking #completely out of touch with how identity works #like i saw a demiboy lesbian flag and the comments are just FILLED with teenage queers getting so mad for no reason #saying shit like im in your walls or your father left you or whatever #please this is so CHILDISH grow UP #multigender #genderfluid #gay #lesbian #lesboy #turigirl #queer #lgbtq #just a he/they transmasc nonbinary boydyke lesbian VERY tired of this nonsense #actually erasure of multigender experience and that one of our genders will cancel out the other #made me very resistant to the fact that i may still be connected to feminity and girlhood #even though i am undoubtedly am #transmultiphobia

[fanofthelamb]

im gonna be real i had so much fun drawing some of these faces i didnt even pay writing much attention. they both are stupid idiots with stupid idiot faces i just wanna draw their bastard faces!!!!!!!!!!

#cw nudity #cw suggestive #i dont actually think its suggestive its not meant to be but the lamb is butt ass NEKKID!!! so #just in case? #idk how to draw shit but you know what its the having fun that counts!!!!!!!! #im so fucking tired im so tired but i cant sleep i just want to think about these little guys.... #narilamb #cotl lamb #cotl narinder #cult of the lamb #cotl

[thelostpretzel]

magic potions from vending machine

#heroes of the city #these are actually my OCs as drinks #but i have no energy to mumble about them #but i ah so want to do so #eh #im just tired as fuck #original character #or something idk #potion #fantasy #high tech fantasy

[megamixsmania]

My new son btw

#captain laserhawk #bullfrog #this show is SO good hello???? #ngl i watched it just for rayman but its genuinely an amazing show #also jumped when i saw sam fisher #so glad bullfrog is voiced by an actual french guy bc im tired of french characters being voiced by obvious non french speakers omg #cl bullfrog #captain laserhawk art #anyways everyone watch this show for the grenouille assassin

[clownsuu]

Hey I'm Panic, and it's time to Gay!

Biblically accurate gay people jumpscare

#This #took way longer than I expected dear g o d #It looks a lil rushed at the end Ngl I got really tired LMAOOO #I got so tired of not liking how I draw Wally I just said “F it” and made him biblically accurate #I can’t even tell how accurate this is or not my eyes and hands hurt JDHFHDH #T h o u s o u l h ur. T s #I hate coloring smh #Anyway #welcome home #welcome home wally #welcome home howdy #wally darling #howdy pillar #do I tag this as ship-? #Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm #im not sure actually LMAO #I will just because I can #Wallypillar #howdydarling #Howdy is #very weird with his head anatomy #Like bbgrl why ur ears so hIGH-

[surfacage]

can you maybe chill

#honkai star rail #blade #dan heng #trips and out falls 38275643985092 pictures of dan heng blade and jing yuan #i dont actually play this game #(yet) #(its downloaded) #dan heng internally: im so fucking tired bro #dan heng externally: :| #are we just going to ignore that #ignore what #the six foot five tall human rights violation #yes #dan heng we cant just ignore him like hes decoration #its fine blade is busy #busy with what #contemplating the 2746th attempt on my life

[oifaaa]

Wait shit just thought of something

(If you're about to comment any of the other bats just know you are wrong)

#dc #dc comics #if your wondering why i picked these options #theyre just the ones that imo #would make for some good avatars #but really #i wanna see what everyone else thinks #as long as its not a bat theres no bad suggestions #im definitely missing some obvious options #but its late and im tired #so im hoping you guys can just remind me of the actual dc avatar

[nordidia]

having a very rough night so raph doodles needed to be made

when in need, mash two interests together

#i love him so muhc ghghgh #and uh please stop sending me asks straight up demanding me to draw more /nm #if u've sent me an ask just regarding art before pls dont feel anxious this is about people actually DEMANDING like im some sort of machine #im absent due to my work/mental health situation going up and down #tmnt will ofc always be special interest but right now its in the back row #theres little time for anything but work and meetings and thinking about work and.. well.. monster hunter escapism egsfkhjhh.. #but yeah i promise im still here #and i want to draw him when i can #but stress is high right now and drawing takes too much wrist stamina to do often now #i hope u understand #sorry if i worded myself badly im very tired and stresed n its ... oh its 5am great. wellp. goodnight skafklgsjdklfnshh #my art #rise of the tmnt #rottmnt #nordidia art #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt raph #id in alt text #also one would think my art style is easy on my wrist but #i gorilla grip my pen and when i learned to write as a child i held the pencil jank #and it stuck like that #so its really rough on my hands #sadly

[scourge-sympathiser]

SCOURGE SUNDAY 015/???

a mask of my own face. id wear tht

#scourge wc #warriors #warrior cats #scourge warriors #wc scourge #scourge #scourge warrior cats #bloodclan #scourge sunday #i will be honest i am saving this in my draftz at 2am aftr franticly finishing it so uhhh he got a bit rushed at the end. rip #the mask waz gonna be a lot more like. halloween originally n thn the sktch just kinda started going towardz rubber doll n i accepted this #it did come abt bcuz the lemon demon song is in my scourge playlist lol not sure why but im like no this is a scourge song actually #im right i think #ok im actually so fucking tired i actually work in the morning tomorrow so uhhhh yeah see u. later. #whn im actually at work n posting this from my draftz lmfaoo

[bluegiragi]

giving season ✨

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Ghost visits Soap while they're both on mandated leave for the holidays. He'd like to say that dropping off something for Price was the only reason he made the trip but...that would be a lie.

#i literally made this comic from start to finish in two days #thats the strength of this brainrot #i took a lot of influence from umikochannart if any of you know her #particularly the outlined highlights and the use of screentones #i really liked doing this actually but colouring always tired me out so this isnt setting a precedent for coloured comics in the future #im just #i wanted to do something special #for the holidays #and especially for these two idiots who deserve each other #happy holidays to everyone but especially gay people #ghostsoap #simon ghost riley #john mactavish #john soap mactavish #cod mw2 #giragi art #comic art

[itrulyhatethisworld]

taking applications now for someone to murder me

#actually bpd #bpd culture is #bpd feels #bpd fp #bpd problems #bpd safe #bpd thoughts #bpd vent #depressing life #depressing shit #sorry for being depressing #depressiv #i’m so lonely #i’m bored #im bored #i just wanna sleep #i hate it so much #i hate it here #why am i like this #i hate this #i hate everything #i wanna die #i’m outraged #bpd #i’m going insane #i’m just a girl #i’m sad #i’m so sorry #i’m so tired #i’m sorry

[asliceofzosan]

i've seen figure skater sanji and hockey player zoro before. idk if its been explored but i'd love to put it out there:

hockey player sanji (specifically goalie bc he desperately wants to avoid being checked) and then pairs skater zoro.

pairs skater zoro's long time partner has been nami. though many people ship them together a Lot, they just know each other super well. Well enough to try dating and both of them realized they don't swing that way. in fact, it makes them a really good team. they fought long and hard to claim top spots in competitions because they portray a chemistry that's separate from the rest. plus zoro can carry nami like she weighs fucking nothing. so their lifts are so much more dynamic. they even have a whole next to impossible combination that they're trying to get the ISU to name after them officially.

sanji plays for the East Blue Straw Hats in the Grand Line Hockey League – a formidable rookie group that took down lots of big names in the preseason. they want to make it all the way to the postseason playoff finals but always seem to fall short. but theyre so determined. they reignited a lot of old sparks that were no longer there for old fans and brought in new and curious fans. sanji is the starter goalie and a damn good one at that. it makes sense bc goalies are often doing splits on the ice just to make a save. he's perfected the technique that utilizes just his legs to make saves that make the crowd go fuckin insane.

we have the usual "i booked the rink to practice before you did" trope but a little more spice. in actuality, sanji loves watching pairs skating competitions. his favorite pair rn is franky and robin (mostly for robin). and he adamantly does not want to admit to anyone that he watches zoro and nami's routines much more frequently. (and if anyone asks, he always says its bc of nami. its never just bc of nami.) and zoro's besties with luffy so he always watches their matches even if he barely understands the rules. and he definitely does not stare at a certain blond starter goalie most of the match thats fucking ridiculous

one day zoro and sanji are invited to do one of those comparison videos between hockey players and figure skaters. both get to laugh at the other even Attempting to do their sport. zoro frankly looks ridiculous in all of sanji's usual goalie get-up. and sanji couldn't land an euler to save his life. the video producer suggests they try a simple pairs skating routine. sanji is like "oh i couldn't do that–hEY WHAT THE FUCK MOSSHEAD PUT ME DOWN" because zoro lifted sanji and had him sat on his shoulder like it was normal.

zoro smirks, "you might be lighter than nami, actually. wanna be my new partner?"

sanji knees him in the stomach before skating away while blushing so hard he could melt the ice beneath him.

#listen #both figure skating (most especially pairs skating and ice dancing) AND hockey were my hyperfixations at one point #and zoro? built like a pairs skating man #sanji? has the ass of a hockey player #iT MAKES SENSE TO ME ! #but also the dichotomy of zoro doing a graceful sport and sanji in a fast paced brutal game #idk man im too tired to psychoanalyze why i think pairs skating actually works well with zoro's philosophy on strength and balance #and sanji's phobia of being checked tied to many little league games that led him to become a formidable goalie #i COULD GO ON #But i will sleep instead #one piece #sanji #roronoa zoro #zosan #niki's log: op #niki's fics: checks and balances #dO YOU GET THE PUN IN THE TITLE GOD IM SO ANNOYING !!!!! #lowkey my contribution to zosan week even if it might not fit any promprs #i just wanna feel included

[blxxdy-knucklez]

It's such a shitty feeling literally wanting to crawl into a hole and stop existing, but knowing you promised someone you'd never give up on them; so that means staying alive even when you really don't want to. Because then the preemptive guilt kicks in, in case it ever does happen (again, and it's a success that time)

#.txt #personal #vent #bpd #actually bpd #bpd vent #bpd fp #bpd favorite person #it almost was last time #and im just so tired