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thevirtualvalentine · 8 months

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TAPE THREE : PASSENGER PRINCESS !

Starring … ‘Red Hair’ Shanks 📸

SET SCRIPT : “Hey Babbyyyy congrats on 100! For your lovely followers event could I request afab reader with Dads best friend Shanks n some sprinkles of corruption :3 I love youuu bae mwah 😮‍💨🤍”

MATURE WARNING(S) : smut, unprotected vaginal sex, AGE GAP, use of the title “daddy”, corruption kink, underlying breeding kink (if you squint), Shanks mysteriously has 2 arms, forced orgasm, you’re Mihawks daughter, afab!femme reader.

DIRECTORS CUT : For one of my favorite people on this app @stargirldelight <33 so sorry this took me forever to get to. Apologies, Shanks brings out an unprecedented daddy kink in me I didn’t know I had …

Moving is already stressful enough, add the fact that your dad can’t seem to help you out this weekend and voila; you’re in a pinch. He’s typically off on some sort of exploit around the world anyways, a stoic mystery of sorts. But, your dad did suggest that he come help you move into your new apartment.

Which is fine and all, but you’re not sure how you’re gonna last the already tumultuous move in with Shanks around. He’s your dads best friend, or enemy, you’re honestly not quite sure.

Ever since you were a teen you admired shanks, his warm fuzzy smile, how stern he got when he was mad, and that damn signature red hair of his that you can always pick out from a crowd. You expected to grow out of it as you got older, but you could never quite kick the habit. His voice smooth like honey when he’d stumble in with your father drunk, or when he said bye after helping you move in for college. He’s really your fantasy come true, a handsome man with unmistakable charm that makes you smile even on days you don’t have reason to.

You’re older now, you should be able to handle this. But a man like him ages akin to fine wine, only becoming more and more attractive as the years gain on him. Granted, there was an age gap between you; which is what typically kept your lewd thoughts of him in check.

He’d drive this red dodge charger every time he picked you up when your dad couldn’t, like now. Red hair flowing in his face as you coasted down the highway. He smiles and asks if the boys your age were treating you right while his fingers dance along your shoulders. “Pft, I wish,” you aimlessly laughed, noting that exactly what you desired in a man was right next to you.

“Whaaaat? Cmon’ a pretty girl like you? Really?” He sounded genuinely disturbed by this confession of yours. “You deserve better sweetheart.” His eyes flickering back to the road as you’re a few hours out from your new town.

“I really don’t go out much y’know, and it’s not like I have anything to offer them,” your heard turns as you mumble into your fist. Embarrassed to let the older gentleman know just how little play you get. The compliment he gave you flies right over your head as you try to mask the growing ache for Shanks in your heart (and pussy). He’s always been sweet like this to you, patient and gentle as he places a reassuring hand on your knee. You think nothing of it.

“I don’t believe it, they don’t know what they’re missing. I woulda been all ov-” clearing his throat before continuing, “maybe they’re just not what you need.” He turns the music down as the conversation begins to flow more naturally, tension sparking like electricity in the air as he pushes further and further.

“Oh? And what do I need.” You flash him that look of mischief, one that was saved for when you’d ask him to bail you out of punishment with your dad.

“Someone who could treat you how you deserve, a real man and not some boy.” He can’t control the possessive tone that exits his mouth, it’s just unbelievable to him. After all these years and all those meaningless break ups you’d go through, it was him whose arms you’d cry into. Too drunk off cheap liquor with the sweet but sickly scent of vodka hanging off your breath. But of course, he’d listen. Always the patient type.

“And do I know a man like that? Sounds like you wanna be that guy Shanks,” it was only a joke. Your voice airy as you moved your hair out of your lipgloss. Highway wind was never kind to you.

“Don’t play with me,” and he’s back to serious. The coolness of his words sends a shiver up your spine.

“What if I meant it, hm? What if I wanted you to show me?” Your eyes now burning holes in the sides of his face, his jaw clenches as he battles with his own morality.

“You don’t think I’m a little too old for you?” He sends a glance your way, one that trails from your low cut tank top to the supple skin of your thighs before he’s back to gripping the gear shift.

“Said it yourself, I need a real man,” your knees turn to face him as you let your voice purrr. Mihawk would kill him if he found out about this, but he’s never truly been afraid of the man anyways. Especially not when his daughter is as pretty as you, there’s just so much you don’t know, so much he could show you. It drives him wild.

“You don’t even know what you’re asking for.” Eyes straight on the road, but the unmistaken waiver in his voice let’s you know he just needs one final shove before he tumbles down like dominos.

“I’m asking for you Shanks,” you plant a sweet kiss to his cheek; just how you used to when he’d leave town for months on end and you didn’t know when you’d see him again.

For once it’s his turn to be flustered, if he wasn’t so concerned about keeping both eyes on the road he’d grab you himself. “Behave little girl, you don’t know what you’re getting into.”

You squirm in your seat, the problem is you know exactly what you’re getting into. It’s finally what you’ve wanted for years. For the object of desire in his mind to be aimed at you, for your affections to be reciprocated, to be with him instead of being viewed as his best friends daughter.

You’ve driven to your new town before so you’re aware that wherever he’s driving isn’t the right way, “Shanks?”

“What? Thought I was supposed to show you.” A light chuckle leaves him as you’re parked in the back corner of a parking lot, headlights turned off.

“Come here hun,” he pushes his seat back urging you to crawl over to him. It feels so right to be held by him, yet so wrong at the same time it makes butterflies swirl around in your stomach. The lack of space pushing you closer to him as his steady breathing makes you feel safer.

“Be gentle Shanks, I’ve only done it one time before.” At that his jaw clenches. A cute thing like you only getting fucked once? It almost makes his blood boil, yet it turns sick when he realizes all he can teach you right here and now. How tight your cunt will grip him as he makes you bounce up and down on him. Oh, Mihawk will kill him indeed; that is if he ever finds out about how he’s stretching out your pussy.

His hands feel so warm on you, rubbing and groping at your skin while you get comfortable. All the attention from him at once makes your head spin, growing needier to get on with it already. “You don’t want it like that though, do you?” It’s barely above a whisper, a nasty vile secret that he somehow knows. All you can do is whimper as he ravages your neck in rough kisses, lips lingering over your pulse points. His years of experience showing as he makes you writhe.

“You want it rough don’t you, t’s ok doll you can tell daddy the truth.” He grins at your hardy whine, swallowing it down in a kiss that devours you from the inside out. His tongue invades your mouth, overpowering yours.

He’s perfect, exactly how you imagined he’d be. Strong arms guiding you further up his lap, helping you wrap your arms around the base of his neck. “Shanks .. more please—” your face hot as you plead for more of him. Feeling how stiff he is makes pride swell within you, was that really your doing? All you’ve done is kiss him, but he groans each time you lean further into his touch.

He leaves pepper kisses on your face and eyelashes, pulling back to look for any doubt on your complexion. “You’re so beautiful,” he tells you, tugging on one of your curls before wrapping it around his finger. Too intimate, far too intimate for the debauchery he’s about to lay on you.

“Spread those pretty legs wider f’me, there you go,” his phrasing patient as his knees open wider beneath you. Your hands grip his shoulders for balance while you wait in anticipation for anything… “where do you want me to touch you baby,” his eyes meet yours, “here?” His middle and index finger graze the thin cloth of your shorts.

You nod your head profusely, looking down at the space between you with your teeth sinking into your bottom lip. Shanks snakes his fingers within your walls, teasing the entrance lightly while using your slick to slide in and out slowly. “Remember, breathe,” the slight sting keeps your hold on him firm as you try to adjust. In and out, rhythmically, the pads of his fingers glide along your plush walls.

Your airy chants of his name fill the darkening small space of his cramped car. Hips beginning to bounce on his hand, desperation creeping in with each drag of his fingertips inside you. “Look at you, suckin my fingers in. Almost like you don’t wanna let them go,” he marvels at you, moving your shorts out of the way so he has a clearer view of your insatiable pussy.

“S’creamy, you been thinking about me?” Bold for him to say, he acts like he’s not knuckle deep inside you with reckless abandon for his position in all this. You’re oozing down his wrist as his fingers begin to scissor back n forth.

“Kiss me Shanks,” you ask.

“Of course baby,” he replies.

It’s always him who spoils you, giving you what you ask for. How could he deny you of such a sweet request? The squelch of your wetness grows while a tight knot tries to unravel itself within you.

“Not yet, can you wait for daddy just a lil more?” He can feel that too? Embarrassment hot on your face while your hips grind against his palm.

It’s indecent how sexy he is, toned chest peaking through his shirt, tongue slightly sticking out as he preps you for his fat length, and his deep even voice that praises every movement of your body.

His entry inside you is smooth, almost like he was meant to fit you perfectly. “Oh my god Shanks f-fuck wait—” Your head is spinning, you can feel his dick twitch with each convulse of your own walls.

He doesn’t mind that you’re clutching onto him hard enough to draw blood, no not at all, honestly it’s making him want to burry himself deeper. “Shhh baby, I got you. I got you, just breathe.” Not yet though, he can’t hurt you (too bad). Tears prickle at the corners of your eyes but he’s quick to wipe them with his thumb. Kissing your collarbones as if to apologize for the molding his cock does to your needy warmth.

The pain subdues, giving way to a hunger you can’t quite describe; but quiet mouths don’t get fed. “Gimmie more Daddy, please,” truthfully the name slipped out, but the damage was done as it left a shiver to creep up the red heads spine.

Well, how could he say no to that? His hands move from your waist down, molding the skin of your ass as he pleases while his hips experimentally shift up and down. When he hears you sigh in pleasure he knows he’s found the right angle. “Better hold on, gonna give it to you just how you want it love.” It’s in how he reassures you that he’ll take care of you that allows you to let go, letting this be your reality instead of some sick sex dream.

His strength is unreal, he’s lifting you with no problem and then pushing you down again and again. It feels like he’s impaling you, knocking your breath out with each rise and fall of your oozing cunt. “Mhm, fuckkk. Been thinking about this for a long time.” The space between you both lessens as the heat rises, giving way to an erotic composition of pleasure.

Any composure you had flies out the window as you’re left dumb and drooling as the only thing that can leave your mouth is praises of his name. Incoherent babbling about how you never want it to stop, losing yourself in the heat of his body. “So slutty baby, what would your dad think, huh?” He lets his palm rest against your stomach as you continue to bounce. Eyeing where his own outline is visible within you.

“Nasty girl, felt the way you got tighter around me. You want him to know? Know that it’s me fuckin’ his pretty daughter in my car.” His words alone are enough to make that tight band snap instantly with little buildup, robbing you of your ability to think as you cry out meek thank you’s to Shanks. He pulls you back by the hair, watching the way your face contorts as you cream around him; squeezing his cock like a vice.

The flutter of your walls spurs him on, picking up an animalistic pace as you’re used to bring him his own high. Sweat making his hair stick to his forehead as your vision focuses back in. “Think you can do it again? I know you can love.”

You’re unsure what he means but when you feel his thumb start to circle at your clit you’re a goner. The intensity of your last climax causes you to squirm as he tries to rip another out of you. “Stop fuckin running.” When Shanks wants something, he always gets it. That’s the rule. You are no exception.

He can feel his balls tensing at the obscene squelch each thrust into your cunt provides him, he knows he’ll have to wash these seats later; but for now he’s gonna dump his load in his best friends hot daughter.

“Let go.” A harsh drag of his thumb has you coming undone yet again, spurring Shank’s own orgasm where he drags you down flush against him. No where to run as his hot seed fills you to the brim. “Fuck yeah, that’s the stuff baby.”

You’re left convulsing as you try to catch your breath, slumping against his chest like a noodle. “Di.. dirty old bastard,” you weakly protest, slamming your fist into his chest.

“And yet you still wanna fuck this dirty old bastard,” he says with a laugh, peeling you off his chest to kiss you with nothing but teeth. He suckles on your tongue, making you whimper as he’s still inside you. “That’s what I thought,” he says satisfied.

Maybe he’ll have to be like Mihawk, taking out of town trips. However, he knows exactly where he’ll be going. Right where you are.

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sorcerous-caress · 4 months

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You’re so right dude. Imagine a Halfling and a Human get together and they’re besties they’re bros who just happen to have friendly cuddly sex and then they create a porno together lmao.

They upload it expecting like very minimal engagement and suddenly it blows up. I think it’s because of the versatility in both of their races. A halfling that tugs their human partner’s hair and tells them how they want to be eaten out or fucked or strapped then can also be a moaning mess within the next video.

A human who speaks seductively and charms the halfling can also be put on their back holding onto the blankets for dear life. They can be tender, soft touches and tickles. They can do roleplay: a hurt human who needs the mommy/daddy halfling to be nursed back into shape. A human friend who coaxes the other into their lap. They can go hard and sadistic.

Can you imagine the sponsors/donations/subscribers they would get!?

A noble elf who wants to be in the middle of that. A voyer who wants to watch the debauchery. Who wants to be the director. A soldier orc or a dragon born who wants both of them on their cock/strap. A demon or a fiend whose trying so hard to get them into a pact.

Same braincells! You’re a genius dude aldjaka. Sorry for me rambling, you can send me back to horny jail.

Off topic but I really like how we are embracing the "onlyfans" and porn streamers with donations type of content in smut. Because you know most written smut and novels still refuse to acknowledge the current culture and technology developments.

Like maybe sending each other dirty pics was something hot and risky before, but in today standards if it's not a frisky discord calls or timer-delete nudes then it just feels...out of touch with the current technology you know? Sex toys that sync up to apps exist and are very common today, and so are the many streaming sites and Twitter porn accounts.

So when a smut novel comes and it's supposed to be set in the modern age with our current technology but they make them use their phones only to what, sext or send a nude during work? It comes off as very tame in comparison to what technology is capable of today and how well it mixes with sexual stuff.

The trends in kinks change too, like before it was all about matching underwear and spanking, but today it's all about gooner stuff, mindbreak and oral. Back a few years ago, there was this obsession with squirting, then the pee fact came out, and everyone let it die slowly.

For example, if you wanted to tell how old the person who wrote a smut piece is, just find out how the smut treats anal. Younger adult generations are more chill with it as a normal everyday thing, while millennials treat it as something that hurts, but they'll still do it, and boomers think it's something more extreme than literal whipping bdsm.

Younger adults smut these days are more inspired by hentai mixed with unrealisticly thick pop star beauty standards, while Millennials had this weird porn phase where they pretended their porn was superior to everyone else's by making it classy? You know those black and white gifs and the really skinny boddies. That's why there is a push these days to present the porn as shameless in every possible way, it's a cycle and the generation after us will look at our trends with disgust and take a more "classy" approach and claim their porn is better.

Also it makes me wonder if people in 1800 also wrote stories like this but about being a show girl or something similar. They definitely did. Weren't there like sexting hotlines back when phones first became a thing where people would call a number and talk dirty to someone? Porn is always evolving my man.

Don't ask why I know so much about porn trends and history, that is none of your business I am well adjusted.

Anyway, back to the topic at hand.

Demons and porn are very interesting in dnd! It depends on how you view demons really, but for me I like to imagine that every sin they commit is pushed to the extreme.

So "shameless casual sex" is right up their alley, and you know who shares the same view but for different reasons? The halflings who see it just a casual bodily need between friends. Like yes you can be lovers but it's not necessary.

It is funny to imagine a bundle of sunshine and a literal fiend of hell having something in common, but they do.

The human is just going to their friends with benefits house, a cute little hafling with the most adorable riverside cottage sorrounded by berry bushes.

Smell of applepie baking in the oven is in the air, their hafling friend no doubtly is inside and the human opens the door and steps in because they have a spare key.

Only to be met with fucking asmodeus the arch-devil sitting on a wooden stool and sipping tea in a ceramic floral cup with strawberry prints on it. The devil from the fucking hells just waves at you while your halfling friend explains how asmo came here because they are such a huge fan of the videos you made and wanted to personally extend compliments.

Just the idea of great beings being so enamoured with the little human and their little friend hafling. A grway is ancient dragon leaving piles upon piles of gold and gems on your doorway each morning as their way to pay for your onlyfans subscription since the dragon doesn't have a credit card.

An angel shooting down from the literal heavens and breaking through the cottage wooden roof, rings of fire and 8 wings and all. Just to deliver their fanletter they wrote for you and the hafling, also a smuty fanart they drew. All 600 eyes looking away all shy and frustrated as they ask you to sign a framed picture they have of one of their favourite scenes.

#♡smut #♡Human kink #dnd human kink #♡halflings

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bunnidid-reviews · 2 years

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Possible accessible OSDDID App Review

Simply Plural !

Facts:

What type of app it is: An app for tracking what parts/alters are fronting

Compatibility: Seems to be available for apple and android products, as well as browser support

Size: 66.5 MB

Internet required: Yes

Does it share my data?: You’re able to share your information with friends. Most things are set to be private initially

Lockable: You can log off as needed

Light and dark mode are available in-app as well as syncing with your device’s settings. There’s also a more accessible font option, which I thought was a nice touch.

Personal thoughts:

Personal difficulty using(0 being the most easy, 10 being impossible): 9

How easy to add your parts: 2

How easy to switch between parts: 7-8?? It took me a long time to figure out how to even do this, but once you figure out how its maybe a 5

Personal avoidance level: 10, no parts wanted to use this app

Safe to say, I’m perplexed by this app. Let me show you some screenshots

We start with this clusterfuck of options. As someone who’s dissociating and dyslexic all these different directions that hold the exact same weight as eachother are really confusing! A young or badly confused part might think User Report is the same thing as making a note of who’s out right now

Maybe this is helpful to someone, but to me, it looked like way too much even on a present day

This is the ‘Members’ list. Where all the parts are listed. There are a lot of symbols here that aren’t listed in any of the help sections that I’ve had to clumsily figure out by trial and error. Like apparently the arrows next to the names are.. Making a note of who’s here in the moment? I had no idea until just now.

Also they’re sorted alphabetically. Never in the history of Ever have I sorted my parts this way?? Sorry, this is the stuff I’m really specific about.

Evidently the bottom buttons are how to view who’s fronting at the moment. I can’t figure out what ‘custom front’ is for

Here’s what a part looks like when you open them up from the list. You have a lottttt of info you can go through and add using the icons at the top. I like that it has this many options for people who are probably a lot more serious for the use of the app.

When I first used it some years ago, I had no idea the Visibility was an option, so you might want to make sure it’s set to what you need it to be to feel secure (Private, shown to trusted friends, or shown to all friends)

Here’s the side bar, with lots and lots of options again, but at least these are a little more sorted and I would’ve preferred this for the main page.

Now, let’s look at Add Front Entry...

Okay, so there’s a detailed front entry and a quick front entry option. The detailed front entry looks like this:

....

My dear OSDDID friends, I ask you, Do you know how long the part previous to yourself started fronting, from the date, the hour, the minute?? and when they stopped???????? Not even you, the previous parts who were here.

I think the quick entry would’ve been better if you could add the hours options yourself, because most everyone I know with a dissociative disorder has a very different rate of switching, and 2 hours is not enough for the people who might switch once in days or weeks. (I personally shift from one group of parts to another every few days to a week)

At this point if you’re thinking that “She just doesn’t understand, I’ve been using this app and it just takes a learning curve to use..”, I invite you to realize that this app has no margin for error, no lenience for our I Don’t Know Myself Disorder, no room for considering dissociation and it’s varying forms and general blurriness.

I wondered for a moment why it was like this...

Ah-ha.

The Plural Association is organization that hopes to eliminate the difference between OSDDID and non-disordered plurality, effectively de-medicalizing a Dissociative Disorder.

I read some of these links and quite a few of them focused on the ‘beautiful mind of having plurality’ rather than the dark reality of where a dissociative disorder comes from, being a trauma disorder. Downplaying DID as ‘Not Getting Along With Your Headmates’ disorder. There was just enough reasonable and flowery language for them to sprinkle blatant misinformation throughout, tricking you into believing things that may be harmful if you actually have a Disorder that needs treatment.

I have no doubt that people with non-disordered plurality are experiencing something. I can’t claim to know enough about someone’s mind to say otherwise, of course. I think saying Endogenics don’t exist shuts down people who might actually need help.

However, the mixture of OSDDID and Endogenics like this is very very harmful when it comes to creating ‘accessibility’ like this. It takes away from the actual point of what would be helpful for someone with a DD, like communication between parts, the slow breakdown of dissociative barriers, and for many, the lesser separation between parts and goals towards coming together.

The Plural Association wants you to be separate, but also know all parts, which can be incredibly dangerous to venture into yourself if you have a lot of trauma(and therefore parts) you don’t know. Integration, Fusion, and taking it slowly and at the pace recommended by a professional, are really wonderful and personal parts of healing and shouldn’t be snubbed out by the pressure to be As Plural As Possible. Exactly like this app does

Final thoughts:

This app is needlessly complicated. I mean, maybe it can be really helpful if you go through and learn everything about it. I’ve only been picking at it for a week and barely scratched the surface. I feel like it must be like an art program, it takes you a lot of hard work and practice to settle into using it.

The premise is not at all for me. Not in all my years of knowing and figuring out my DID have I ever found it useful to *just* have a record of who switched when. Sure, it can be enlightening. But I’d find a lot more use in a text app where my Personas can make note of what’s going on in the moment, how they’re feeling, why they’re there.

Simply Plural is not at ALL simple or accessible to the common dissociated user.(me) Many times I peeked at it, I got confused easily and lost. It feels like a winding house where one room leads to the next and the next without hallways.

It’s a lot especially for people who have less distinct parts too. or many of them! they’d all be placed in the same alphabetical order without any distinction between distinct and nondistinctive parts, or subsystems.

I’m extremely uncomfortable that you could technically find people on here, and find their information if they didn’t have the right privacy settings on. I didn’t feel completely safe putting all my parts on here, capping it at the main 16. Even more so, there’s the ability to give someone a ‘token’, which is customizable access to your information, including being able to write and add things, as well as delete them. I could easily see an abuser use this for the worst. What in the world?!?!?

I try to keep my reviews light and positive because I believe there’s merit in any DID media to various ranges of accessibility for people. But this one I just cannot recommend. I hope you understand my points as to why

If this app works for you, dissociation and all, then I’m really glad for you! If you’re endogenic and don’t have dissociative issues, maybe it’s more suited to whatever it is you...do with your parts? ? (I don’t know enough, sorry)

Would I recommend this app to someone with OSDDID? Nope.

#dissociative identity disorder #otherwise specified dissociative disorder #actuallydid #simply plural #did apps #DID in media #dissociative identity disorder media #app review #app recommendation #long post #bunnidid reviews

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themultifandomgal · 11 months

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Warning long post/ rant about Colleen Ballinger. If you don’t want to read this then please feel free to ignore but if you want to rant away with me then be my guest. If you guys know what’s going on and have opinions then let me know. Let’s talk about her shit show of an apology.

First of all the whole thing was just clearly aimed towards her young fans to make them feel bad for her, she did it in a song to make it easer to consume and unfortunately it’s kinda catchy so it’s going to be stuck in everyone’s heads. Children are so impressionable. The human brain doesn’t actually fully develop until your mid 20s so you can only imagine how the brain might be working at ages 9-16 (I don’t know how old her youngest fans are)

“Toxic gossip train. Chugging down the tracks of misinformation”

Where? What misinformation? Your giving us no evidence! Explain it to us then?

“Tie me to the tracks and harass me for my past, these rumours look like facts of you don’t mind the gaps I won’t survive in the crash, but hey least your having fun”

Stop with the woahs me attitude. If they’re as you say rumours then why is there photo/video evidence of the things you’ve done and said? What gaps? Are we talking about how in your first apology video you made it out that Adam asked you for the underwear and it was his fault? Not that you and Corey literally asked if he wanted them? Oh and even if you were joking around why did it never occur after that sending a 14 year old underwear (no matter your age) is fucking weird? How did that not cross your mind when you had weeks to think about it. You even said his parents would think it’s weird so why do it? Also who the hell is having fun? I know Adam isn’t and Becky and anyone else you’ve hurt.

“Today I only want to talk about the facts”

Well where are they? You didn’t tell us anything except you want a pitty party!

“Many years ago I used to message my fans, but not in a creepy way… more of a looser type of way”

Errr that’s still creepy, wanting to best friends with under 18 year olds when your 30 odd….. did that not cross your mind? Oh wait no of course it didn’t.

“I haven’t done that for years you see… I took accountability”

Weren’t you in a group chat with miners up until like a week ago? Oh and when did you take accountability?

“The train is made of lies”

Wait so we’re they mistakes or lies?

“I would never make a mistake like that”

Your right we wouldn’t because we know talking to underage children is wrong whether your intention is ‘innocent’ or not because it isn’t. There’s a huge power dynamic at play that I can’t see that you weren’t aware of or if not you someone around you.

“She did some things I do not like in her past so everybody gather round because we’re about to attack but not based of facts”

Ohhhh so you didn’t ask Adam (a miner at the time) to send a pic of his ass? Oh wait…

Well you didn’t tell these kids all about your messy divorce did you? Ah ok erm….

Ok but you definitely didn’t talk about your husband penis size…Ah shit.

Hmmm ok then these one is a no brainier. You definitely didn’t ask KIDS favourite sex positions because everyone knows that you just don’t do that… oh you did? Oh

Let’s move on shall we?

“I also wanted to take a moment to talk about the Miranda girl…. shes PG13…..that’s why you won’t find my videos on the YouTube Kids app”

Erm I think you’ll find that you can find Miranda content under ages 5-8 so before you tell us these ‘facts’ maybe you want to check them out first. Just a thought?

“Was it my intention to manipulate”

Ah so you admit doing that?

“I’m not a groomer, I’m just a looser”

Your both. Grooming someone doesn’t always have to be sexual. Also imagine if that will hold up in court!

“I’m not a predator even though a lot of you think so, because 5 years ago I made a far joke”

It wasn’t just a fart joke. You asked an underaged girl to come up on stage. She was wearing a romper and you spread her legs. At no point did you or any other adult stop it or even try to protect this young girl at all. She said she felt violated and awful and your just say with your ukulele undermining what YOU put her through calling it a FART JOKE. It’s not a joke. None of this is and anyone who thought this was ok is sick!

“I never had any bad intentions, but I do feel like shit”

Oh well then we all forgive you for being inappropriate with minors in privet group chats and on your YouTube channels.

I haven’t even spoken about half the other shit that she’s done like letting a 9 year old put his hands down her trousers for a ‘bit’ or how horrible her book is, or how she laughed about having to have her dog out to sleep. This whole thing was just a slap in the face. I felt like she wasn’t being serious at all! To all of you who have been effected by Colleens harmful decisions, I am so sorry and so proud of all of you who have shared your experience. To those not ready that’s ok don’t feel pressured to have to open up about anything you don’t want to.

I’m going to leave some videos and channels to check out about this. The first one is SWOOPs deep dive which will have a hell a lot of sources and information. Sending you all positive thoughts!

#colleen ballinger #Colleen ballinger appogy #miranda sings

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amanemisagf · 9 months

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miraculous characters on musical.ly

since i’m pretty sure miraculous takes place in 2015/16, im convinced that they’re on musical.ly since it was a big deal at the time. here are my headcanons for them!

adrichat- he has a secret account his dad doesn’t know about because he wants to carefully monitor his son’s social media image. he’s crowned bc gabriel has never heard of the app and has loads of followers. nathalie found out about his account one time and promised she wouldn’t tell, but someone else snitched and he had to take it down. as chat noir he has a joint account with ladybug and when it’s a slow day on patrol they’ll make some together but he posts his own too after his adrien account gets taken down. he’s used the me myself and i audio at least once on both accounts, and when he’s crushing on marinette before he has to take his account down he posts cheesy “yeah i am in love” type audios (this is what gets him caught cause some fan gets jealous).

maribug- she also does those cheesy crush audios as marinette to try and send a subtle hint but obviously none is taken. she loves flighthouse and cute color filters. she has maybe 300-400 followers and makes them with alya. as ladybug she sometimes makes them with chat noir to humor him but prefers posting on her main.

chloe- she has maybe 1k? she’s not very good at the hand motions or moving the phone so she doesn’t have that many even though she’s crowned (she somehow got her dad to get musically to give her one). she’s jealous that adrien has more and when they’re still friends she makes him make musicallys with her to boost her follower count.

nino - he lipsyncs to those dumb comedy audios, he has 20 followers. he also is always using the “fire when the strobe hits you” one and always shakes the camera so much that it’s impossible to make out what’s even being shown.

alya - she does a mix of lip sync and her own comedy skits which people tend to like. she’ll make some with marinette after school and her goal is to make one with ladybug (post reveal, marinette obliges).

juleka - she lipsyncs to my chemical romance with half her face covered and horrendous camera quality and posts maybe one every few months, only the class + luka follow her but she only got the app because rose asked her to so she doesn’t mind.

rose - she doesn’t have a lot of followers but will post 10 musical.lys in the span of an hour, sometimes to the same audio. she’ll make them in class and have her phone taken away.

lila - somehow convinced people that she had so many followers that the app couldn’t handle it so it doesn’t show her account any more (in reality she has a secret one with zero followers). according to her, selena gomez actually wanted to duet /her/ but it glitched and got sent to everyone but hers worked! but you can’t see it because her account isn’t working.

sabrina - she has one, but she’s on private and doesn’t have a lot of followers. she’s always on the app though.

luka - he has a bit of a cult following and likes to do them with his hair covering his eyes emo style.

kim - he does a lot of challenge videos that are more meant for youtube and also lipsyncs to comedy skits.

alix - she claims to hate musical.ly and says it’s stupid, but she has a secret account where she’ll make them sometimes and just not post.

those are all the chars i think have an account ^-^

#this has been on my mind all day #miraculous ladybug meme #miraculous #mlb #miraculous ladybug #adrichat #adrien agreste #marinette dupen chang #maribug #marichat #ladrien #ladynoir #adrienette

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tadpolesonalgae · 3 months

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Hello tabby I have a genuine question out of curiosity but there’s literally no way to ask it without sounding pervy so if you don’t want to answer it, that’s completely fine, I would never want to make you uncomfortable ever. Also if it makes it less uncomfortable I’d like to point out I’m a girl and not a creepy guy in your asks lol.

So out of curiosity, what gave you the idea to use orange slices (the nesta story) and then a pillow in the stimulation cream one (Rhys)? I’m asking because they’re both such specific avenues to tell the stories so I’m wondering what inspired them. For the nesta one, how did you think to come up with the slices going inside her? And then the Rhys one what made you think about using a pillow? I didn’t know people even knew about using pillows like that, I’ve only ever seen people talk about them on my period tracking app.

Just to clarify I’m asking because I’m amazed at the creativity, just trying to understand the deciding process for my curiosity.

Again please don’t feel pressured to address this if it’s uncomfortable in the SLIGHTEST amount I’m so sorry if it is, I’m just so curious I had to ask. Thank you for your lovely stories

🐍.

Hello hello!! I appreciate the reassurances but you're fine either way, no worries :)

For Oranges—it was written a while ago so this might not be entirely accurate—I’m pretty sure a friend mentioned they were reading, or wanted to read, Call Me By Your Name, which if you don’t know has a certain scene involving a peach! In retrospect, I think I watched the film before I’d consumed any other visual media like it, so it stuck in brain since it was so odd, I suppose? Anyway, it just got me thinking about foods, and how much joy someone can get when they have a craving and it’s fulfilled? There are times in the summer specifically when all I can think about is cutting a thick wedge of bread, covering it in a thin layer of butter, slicing up some perfectly crisp (and cool) tomatoes, and sprinkling it with salt and pepper then eating it by the riverside 🫣(maybe with some mozzarella, if I’m feeling extra generous) 🤭

Essentially, I thought I’d like to combine two different types of sensory indulgence, and that’s how oranges came about! 🧡💛🍊

As for the stimulating cream one with Rhys, I can’t sleep comfortably (on my sides) without a pillow between my knees to keep the bones from knocking together when I move about, otherwise my legs hurt in the morning and sometimes my lower back, too 😬 then I would guess a couple of weeks ago I was working on a fic, and one thing kind of led to another, and the idea took root 🧡💛

And as a general rule, you’re fine to ask whatever questions you want :)

Unless someone’s rude, or makes an unnecessarily hurtful comment, I won’t get upset or angry. If it’s ever something I don’t feel comfortable answering, I’ll say so; that’ll be the end of it and we’ll move on 🧡💛

Also, thank you for showing an interest in the ideas behind my stories—I think it’s lovely and sweet to know someone’s curious about it! :)

#🐍 anon <3 #🐍#🧡💛

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In reference to the post about friends being able to have casual sex, I ask, where do you find these people? I’ve been exploring wanting to be non monagamous in my relationships and also struggling to understand the difference between being friends, dating and like attraction and in my brain there isn’t much difference if that makes sense? And most of my friends identify as queer, yet I feel if I voiced these feelings to them, and in fact one friend i used to flirt with a lot randomly cut me off because they did this with me for a year then got a straight boyfriend and without ever telling me they didn’t want to anymore just cut me out? It was even just harmless flirting from someone who id talked about and they’d even agreed prior with my ideas of queerness.

Basically this is a weird way of saying everyone Ive encountered who is queer in real life for the most part still really looks down on polyamory and FWB’s and everyone I meet on dating apps seems to think we’re an item after anything physical happens and if I say I don’t want to be monogamous I lose them and I’m really tired of having to navigate defining relationships super explicitly and feeling like maybe I’m just a creep for feeling this way yet I see people online who seem to have worked out the types of relationships I want. (Obviously not everyone feels this way and I’m not saying people should do stuff they’re not consensual with i just find it odd that pretty much every queer person I’ve encountered the entirety of college has this strict monogamous friend/dating divide mindset) Any advice on finding more accepting queer spaces, or even if maybe I’m just missing something or haven’t read the right doctrine or whatever?

i completely understand the frustration and loneliness that comes with not knowing where to find queer spaces and people accepting of/wanting a fwb. to be perfectly honest, i just got lucky with my personal experience.

i live in a very small conservative town. i don’t know any queer people or spaces that are near me. my queer “space” and friends are in the bigger cities hours away from me. i rarely get to see them irl.

i was however, able to meet wonderful people online as well. one of the people i’ve come to know was open to the idea of a fwb with me. we had been in a romantic relationship before, so the idea of just being platonically sexual came up pretty naturally.

you are definitely not a creep for wanting strictly sexual relationships! i’m just not sure i’m the right person to ask about this. i do have experience with them, yeah, and im happy to voice my support! im just not great at finding them aside from my own single experience.

i’m sorry to hear about your negative experience, and i hope things get easier for you my friend 💖

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I feel really bad about it but I am really jealous of people with caretakers sometimes:( I just really wouldn’t know how to meet someone I could trust and I just feel so alone a lot of the time and then I get jealous which is bad I know but… idk 🥺

Hi anon! Thank you for reaching out about this, it’s totally normal to feel jealous or lonely when it comes to seeing others in relationships. Unfortunately, that’s a pretty common :( not feeling like you have someone to trust or talk to on an intimate level can sometimes feel overwhelming and manifest in jealousy or anger. I’m not always the best when it comes to relationship advice, but I always try to give the best advice on these things that I can…

I wish someone told me when I was younger that being in love and being loved are two different things. No matter if you’re friends or partners, the most important part of a relationship is trust. And for some of us, trust doesn’t come easily. Some people struggle to be open and honest about feelings, maybe from fear of judgement, or maybe because they never learned how to express them in the first place. As one of those people, I can tell you that it’s more common than you’d think to be unable to express feelings, even as grown adults.

It’s almost a good thing to note that you get jealous around others in situations you want to be in. It’s normal to be jealous about seeing someone being comforted by someone who cares for them. For some of us, it’s hard to form those relationships when we have a hard time expressing our feelings and needs to others. It really does help to get to know someone by text if you’re shy in person, but I’d suggest that you actually do meet in person (safely!) when possible to build the connection of learning tones and body language to help yourself assess what someone’s saying instead of jumping to conclusions like I sometimes do.

The only real way to meet someone who’s right for you is to meet and get to know others. Tumblr is one of many places that caretakers and littles can express themselves and be honest with who they are. There are tons of cg’s looking to have a little on this app, and most of them are genuine. Be careful when looking for a cg online however- there are tons of scammers and creeps out there that will try and trick you. Get to know someone- talk to them online, check out their account to make sure they’re a real person, and once you get comfortable, offer FaceTimes so you can be sure you’re really talking to who they say they are.

Unfortunately, there’s not an exact science when it comes to finding someone who genuinely cares about you. Also remember that CGs are people too and have feelings and emotions that need to be acknowledged- it isn’t a one sided relationship. A relationship is formed by trust, by honesty, and by happiness. Don’t settle for anyone who doesn’t try to help when you need it, and don’t be the person who doesn’t help. There’s no such thing as a ‘perfect’ relationship either- it takes work from both sides to make it last.

Okay I feel like I could go on about this for ten more paragraphs but I feel like it’s getting a little long here so I’m going to wrap it up… I’m so proud of you for being able to pinpoint and name your emotion when it came up, and I want to thank you genuinely for sharing this with me. It takes time, it takes work, and it takes communication to form a strong bond in any type of relationship, but especially one when it comes to being as vulnerable as in little space. I hope you remember that you’re not alone!

If this post reaches any caregivers looking for littles, please leave a comment so some of my pals might be able to get to know you better!! Personally I have my hands full with my Star, but I know there are tons of wonderful cgs looking to take care of some kiddos!

Sending love and good vibes always

Pippi Saturn

Dni: k!nk/n$fw, maps, t3rfs, homophobes, transphobes, anti-agere, f*rries

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nsk96 · 7 months

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Personal rant; please ignore this one it’s an unorganized mess and I’m only recording it here for future therapy because I don’t want to record it on my computer that I use for school

I’m tired of having emotional breakdowns that are caused by my mom, having to deal with mom’s lack of emotional intelligence (verbally blowing up at me just because something someone else did made her mad, or blowing up at me for the littlest things I forgot to do despite knowing I have memory issues (which she has done nothing to help with btw and also has discouraged me from seeing a professional about 3 times when I brought it up) and me having an emotional breakdown as a result. About 80% of my emotional breakdowns are caused by her) and unnecessary meaningless sarcastic criticism (which seems to have gotten worse this year (sept-oct). Example: doctor asked me if I gained weight in past couple months. I said no because I actually lost weight. In response to my no, mom blurted “really” sarcastically.

There was another instance at the same doctor visit pertaining to how often I get headaches. Then at a follow up at the same doctor she couldn’t stop picking on me for rubbing my finger nails even though I told her that the stickers are coming off anyway because I had this nail polish on for 3 weeks. I continued rubbing my nails (because it’s just hard for me stop fidgeting and it’s things like this that I seem to help with anxiety) and she said sarcastically “and you’re still rubbing them” as if what she said about the nail polish coming off was some sort of insightful advice. Like what part of “I had this on for 3 weeks have to do my nails soon” did she not understand?

Then last week and this week today I had to skip prayers (prayer ritual we have every Friday) because of school assignments. Today she was like, “you’re skipping prayers these days? (Sarcastically)” I replied I have assignments due today. She said, “other people get it done.” I reiterated for the third time today, “they’re due tonight”. This assignment is due by tonight, the information needed to complete it was literally given today, and it takes a long fucking time to complete because some of the source information is an EHR in the form of a PowerPoint that takes up the whole screen to simulate a “real-life” EHR. There’s no switching between apps nor minimizing the window. If I want to I put information into my assignment, I have to exit this PowerPoint, type the info to my worksheet, and then open the PowerPoint again to collect the next bit of information. Over and over again. Mom refuses to understand that some of these professors deliberately make shit harder than it has to be no matter how many times I explain this fact to her complete with examples. She still finds it necessary to compare me to other people and criticize me? Despite knowing I’m dealing with concentration and memory issues that is very likely ADHD (I meet all the criteria and have met them since 4 years old) and despite her knowing these “other people” are getting the answers to exams, quizzes, and assignments (my friends, who are not getting this stuff, have spent the whole day like I have). Maybe I should sleep around with the upperclassman like the “others” do to get this stuff so I don’t have to hear her say this bullshit. The funny thing is that the classes that came before us, shared everything amongst their whole class. My class? We got a couple of snitches so the people getting the answers have to go the extra mile to obtain them and are only sharing with their closest friends (so if you didn’t befriend them before P2 year you’re not getting anything from them).

When I brought up what she said at the appointment about my weight three weeks later, she finally said she shouldn’t have said that and she realized that after she said it. So…she couldn’t apologize in the car after the appointment? She knew what she said was wrong and hurtful but had to wait until I called her out on it 3 weeks later to finally apologize? I don’t even remember if she said sorry. Now it makes sense why I’m terrible at apologizing. I grew up with parents who didn’t apologize or take accountability when they did something wrong. Whenever something they said or did was emotionally hurtful, and I started crying and told them how hurt I was, they’d deny or deflect implying that I deserved it for doing xyz (stupid little things that got a disproportionately severe punishment or got me blown up at).

Not too long, mom blew up at me for something I forgot to do. But I wasn’t crying because of her yelling, I was crying because of what she said. She really hit below the belt for no reason. There was so reason to insult me like that, and then when I tried to talk to her about it she literally said I deserved it before I could explain how what she said hurt me. This was around 2020-ish.

It’s strange how now that I’m trying to dig deep and figure out why I am the way I am (because it’s affecting my relationships/friendships, school and job performance), the more I realize what’s been going on, the things I’ve accepted as normal that are not normal at all.

I “deserved” it…..must be why I always blamed myself first when romantic relationships failed. I blamed myself for boyfriends ignoring me, talking down to me, pestering me for nudes, ghosting me, etc. Same for friendships when friends decided to not reply or decided not to initiate conversations with me.

Update 10/25/23: so i was in a bad mood today and my mom asked me what's wrong. I replied nothing, just the usual stress. She kept trying to probe and I told her that I need to study and that I lost too much time already and I tried to get my stuff so that I can get to my room as soon as I can. She was like "you've been acting different the past few weeks and it's getting worse"...Wow, she's now noticing that my mental health is getting worse after we had this mental health conversation how many times? Maybe I should try to bottle it all up again since it's such an inconvenience to her. I didn't do or say anything offensive to her but yet she's acting like my mood is such an offensive thing to her? Just now she was like, "you're acting depressed like your father. Am I going to find you outside lying down on the ground like him too?" (context: my narc dad was throwing a tamper tantrum a while back and he went outside and lied down on the concrete). "Acting depressed"...did it ever occur to her that maybe I'm not "acting"? I've been feeling this way for years but now it's getting to the point that I can't hold it in nor pretend to be bubbly and preppy all the time. Just yesterday, we had a home inspector come and check the house for the insurance. He went to the bathroom to check the pipes and stuff. When he was gone my mom had an issue with what I threw in the trash...the plastic wrapper for my period pad. Not even the pad (which I wrap up in toilet paper and toss in the trash and looks like the other paper garbage in there). She was like "isn't that your pad in there? It looks like there's blood." The wrapper is purple and pink and it's rolled up and crinkled. I told her this and confirmed that my pad is not wrapped up in it. She was like "you need to be conscious about how it looks. No wonder the guy was so quick through the house." Okay, what? The bathroom was the second to last thing he saw. He was almost done before he would have seen it. I said while walking away, "Oh, a grown man can't handle the sight of a pad wrapper. Nice." I'm tired of living my life in ways to please other people. So I need to be ashamed of my own bodily function in my home now? Maybe I should skip the iron pills of the BC I'm taking to treat my endo. Maybe then I don't have to worry about my period being such and inconvenience to other people who come visit my own home. Or maybe this place was never my home. I just live here I guess.

Another thing, honestly, I usually showered everyday but for a year now, it's been getting difficult to keep up. It started with skipping showers and dinner to gain extra study time. Now it's just difficult to stop skipping and I've been going anywhere between 1-4 days without showering. Such an event happened this week. I went 4 days, (thankfully this time, days 3 & 4 were due to unforseen circumstances) and on day 4, my parents came home from a family gathering late in the night and my dad said he was gonna go in the shower. Context: I didn't want to be in the shower while being home alone in the evening because of our area. I told them that I wanted to go in the shower first and said that I can't skip another day. My mom in the other room jokingly said, "I don't know what's been going on with you." As if she doesn't know that I've skipped showers to study or do group assignments (because the group has to meet at a time that is "convenient" for everyone). But now it is hardly because of that and I found out that this is a symptom of depression.

She said, "you're acting like you're angry at the world or at someone." So being expressionless and cutting conversation short, and wanting to be alone today is "angry"? Why every time I express behavior that she thinks is unpleasant that she has to compare me to my dad? Then she said that I don't need to act this way just because I'm stressed out. She then ended with "I'm stressed too" as if she doesn't take it out on us once in a while. So just because she can supposedly handle her stress, that means that I can handle my stress in exactly the same way? At least the way I'm handling my stress is not directed at her even though she's one of the main contributing factors to why I'm feeling this way. I still have yet to look up therapists for my mental health and psychiatrists for my inattention/spacing out/memory issues but haven't had the time because of school. It took a mental breakdown weeks ago for her to finally take my mental health seriously enough that she actually tried to help by speaking to our insurance company about coverage and options. But here she is a few weeks later, dismissing my mental health again. I don't get it...but then again she doesn't get me. She never has and never will. Throughout my life, I often heard her say "I don't understand you" whenever I did something that got me in trouble with her (things that are not bad but an inconvenience. Usually forgetting to do something) or did something "weird". She never tried to understand. I guess this is what happens when your parents are born into a culture/time period where mental health and neurodivergence "doesn't exist". The part that kills me is that she has the sources to look it up and learn about it but does not even try to.

And if I bring up the hurtful things she said these past couple of months, she'll just say that I'm misinterpreting her words like my dad does, or she'll say to ignore it (I know because I brought it up to her in the past, as well as when I spoke about what a friend was going through with her own mother. Her advice was for my friend to ignore it). How am I supposed to ignore something hurtful to me when it is out of the blue and sometimes comes disguised as advice? Am I just not supposed to listen to anything she says? Just because she doesn't mean it a certain way, doesn't mean that it doesn't come across that way. And most of the time, I'm pretty sure she means it that way because she doesn't actually apologize when I do bring it up. She either denies or tell me not to be upset about it. But if I accidentally say something hurtful, which is rare, she will hunt me down for an apology and blow up at me until I do apologize.

The funny thing is, back when I was in middle school, her reasoning for how she spoke to us was that she had to filter herself at work all day and that she didn't want to have to filter when at home. It's strange that as I'm writing this, I'm now recalling this memory from about 15 years ago. And it's even funnier to me that she expects me to filter myself at home. So I can't express myself anywhere? It's okay for her to do it, but not okay for me to? Oh right, this is her home, I just live here. She never outright said that, not that I recall yet, but that's how it always felt, ever since as a little kid. Back then, I was always scared to come home and wanted to stay at school in after-school care.

A few days ago, we randomly had a conversation about what would happen when she ages. Of course she doesn't want to be put in a nursing home (I don't either), but I'm a realist and mentioned that there could be a point at which I'd have to (Ex. in Alzheimer's when they no longer recognize you and the family and become a violence risk) but don't want to, or that I'd have to hire a caretaker. She guilt-tripped me into agreeing to not put her in a home saying "but how will you know that they won't mistreat me or r**pe me?" So I agreed and said that there's medication to help with aggressiveness anyway (they really don't help all that much and as the dementia progresses, the medication won't work anymore and at that point the only option is to keep them sedated apparently).

The good news is that, people are living longer and that means there will be a bigger emphasis on elderly care and hopefully stricter regulations that prevent abuse. However, I'm still baffled at the fact that she said she wanted to live with me and my future family even though I specifically stated that she can't if she gets violent. Like...she's okay with endangering me or her own grandkids? I don't think she's considering the reality of what caretakers of the elderly experience, but how can she? She wasn't her parents' caretaker because her marriage took her to another country. She was a hired caretaker of an old lady once, but quit because the old lady was racist and was doing nasty things to spite her, and supposedly took a knife to the guest bedroom door (where the caretaker stays). We're not sure about the knife part but there are scratches on the door that look like it was put there by a knife. After seeing a glimpse of that, is my mom really okay with putting me through the same? I'm her daughter, of course she wouldn't hurt me...yeah until she no longer recognizes who I am. Being in healthcare, I get to hear the reality straight from people who work in these settings and those who actually have experience with being caretakers of there own parents. The depression, having to leave your family for extended periods of time to take care of the parent, or not having a social life, your whole life revolving around your aging parent. It goes the same way almost every time. Honestly, I feel horrible saying this...after everything she put me through mentally/emotionally, I want to be as far away from her as I can get. At least for a few years until I've had enough space to become the person I want to be. I feel so trapped, claustrophobic, here. I noticed that my recent slow transition to goth fashion has clearly made her feel uncomfortable. She tried to hide it but I can tell. I used Halloween month as an excuse to start wearing goth jewelry and even get this cute black dress with lace sleeves. I haven't even started with the makeup yet. Oh boy, wait till she finds out that I'm still wearing this stuff after Halloween. I once told her recently that I always wanted to wear goth fashion ever since I was a kid between elementary school and middle school, it's not a phase. She said, "it is a phase. I bet you wanted to wear that because it is what was everyone was wearing then" 💀 Bruh goths were shunned where I went to school because we lived in the hood. People made fun of the goth and emo/scene kids. But that didn't stop me from relating to the goth kids and wanting to join them. I was already into some of the same things they were into and I loved the style.

Anyways, I don't plan on having grandkids. I'll have to be the one to take care of her no matter what. Why do I need to look for a husband to build a family to take care of, when I already have a family member to take care of? This is my curse as the youngest child. I'm glad my brother is getting to live out his life the way he wants at least. He didn't deserve what she and my dad put him through. He experienced parentification and was forced to grow up too soon. He had to sometimes be the one to shield me from certain things as kids. I'm proud of him for breaking the cycle with his own kids. His wife's kids though I'm not entirely sure from what I've heard, but I know he's trying his best.

#personal #pharmacy school adventures

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wcamino-confessions · 1 year

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I tagged 353 of my posts in 2022

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#this is exactly what happens when you guys get so mad at the lt. you stop thinking and attacking them for every little reason your minds1/2

My Top Posts in 2022:

since someone wants to create some drama about me because I decided to sell my character to someone else.

this person was hella sketchy, I was about to block them because they made me slightly uncomfortable. the fact they purchased $25 of points for a $15 paypal character?

this user was attempting the good ole chargeback scam. rather than spending the $15 to friends and family on paypal, they bought $25 of points to send to me and chargeback. happened before to a friend so i’m very wary about accepting points.

you’re not entitled to purchase any of my characters. you’re not entitled to the rights of my characters and you’re certainly not entitled to tell me what offer I am allowed to accept or deny.

you made me incredibly uncomfortable and attempted to pull a scam. i was getting ready to block you but noticed you had messaged me.

maybe instead of paying $25 for points, could have saved yourself $10 + got the character. fucking scammer type energy right there.

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putting this in my bio

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nah because why tf are people on this app so rude for no reason 💀 i offered 2k ac for two fullbodies(they showed two styles, but when they said they accepted my offer they didnt say there was a price difference between the two styles in the first place)

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Y’all owe deesh a huge apology

The fact that y’all ((@ tizzy and Yuna especially)) think it’s okay to purposefully trigger deesh is disgusting

WAC is a place for opinions, but opinions don’t fucking including trying to emotional hurt someone by using something THEY HAVE ESPECIALLY SAID DOES THAT

Im not going to be posting what deesh said without there permission, but the fact they had to ask you guys multiple times to stop doing something that triggered them and you decide to respond to that by making a post calling them that and including a screenshot of them saying is a trigger is gross

is deesh annoying? Maybe, but being annoying isn’t a crime, if you dislike someone block and move on. You don’t borderline harass them

And don’t even think about using the opinion excuse again because it’s very clear that some of you don’t even fully agree with it

Not even 2 weeks ago did Yuna and tizzy and whoever else is associated with wa69 go one a whole tirade accusing wac of doxxing someone. When the person who was responsible for the doxxing wasn’t even involved. Or the fact that you guys specifically made a whole other blog to make fun of wac because wac thought you guys harassing the lt wasn’t okay. So it’s a “place for opinions” until suddenly those opinions don’t line up with yours?

The fact you guys went so far against deesh despite the fact that basically everyone involved has done worse is so hypocritical

Yeah sure it makes perfect sense that yuna, someone who’s told lt they deserve to die, is allowed to trigger deesh because “they’re annoying”

But it’s hypocritical that Deesh complains about complex adopts despite the fact that people constantly do that without many people calling it out and that one of the people who were calling deesh hypocritical also made a post saying certain adopts were scams?

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My #1 post of 2022

some people need to stop acting like a victim for getting banned, looking at you mistystorm- like it was hella justified stop bringing it up literally every chance you get

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rustbeltjessie · 1 year

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Rust Belt Jessie’s NaPoWriMo 2023 Prompts: BONUS ACTIVITY!

make a poetry video

One thing I hate about the Now is the TikTok-ification of everything. It’s like every social media site has ‘reels’ or ‘stories’ or a ‘live’ feature now, and everyone is pressured to upload video content alongside whatever else they’re posting. And the videos have to be short and funny, or short and poignant—but poignant in a clickbait-y, easily digestible/likable/shareable way, not in a poetic way* **

But, paradoxically, one thing I dig about the Now is that most everyone has a camera/audio recorder in their pockets at all times, and those self-same devices can run apps that act as mini film studios.

I used to want to be a filmmaker. I’ve always written (poetry, and other stuff), but once upon, I thought I was gonna be the next Jim Jarmusch. I even studied film, briefly, at the start of my college career.*** But my life changed and my plans changed, and I didn’t continue with it.

Then, in late 2019, FIVE:2:ONE magazine accepted three of my poems—and asked me to make either an audio recording or a video to go along with them. I’d already done a lot of spoken word audio—and that’s something I still do—so I decided to make a video, for the hell of it. And then I decided that, rather than record a simple video of me reading said poems, I’d make a poetic short film.

Since then, I’ve made several others along the same vein. Some feature full poems, some feature excerpts from longer poems, and still others act as trailers for bigger poetry projects and thus feature excerpts from a number of poems.

So, if you’re up for it, this is what I want you to do with this bonus activity: pick a poem (maybe one you wrote from one of these exercises!); or, if it’s a super-long poem, choose an excerpt. Then, make a short film from/with/of it.

You might include an audio track of you (or someone else) reading the poem. You might not, and instead go silent film-style, and put the text of the poem in the film. You might include photographs or other visual art (by you, or by someone else), or video clips (ditto). You might include music (your music, someone else’s music).**** You get the idea. Have fun.***** Get weird.

Since we’re resisting the TikTok-ification of everything, you obviously don’t need to share your poetic short film on social media, or anywhere. But if you do decide to share it, I hope you contact me and let me know where I can watch it. Cuz I really, really wanna see it.

Recommended viewing:

Three Poems by Jessie Lynn McMains (yeah, most of these are gonna be my own, because I honestly don’t know of many other people doing this right now) Self-Portrait with Ghosts and Trains (Trailer) Dear One (Coney Island Baby) Left of the Dial (Trailer) Also, Carrie Olivia Adams’s Forty-One Jane Doe’s comes with a DVD that includes short films of some of the poems. If you can track that down, I highly recommend it.

Resources:

Flickr (a great place for finding Public Domain and Creative Commons images and videos) Unsplash (ditto!) Pixabay (ditto ditto!) Free Music Archive (great for finding Creative Commons music) Free Sound (great for finding Creative Commons sound effects)

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*Don’t even get me started on “Instagram” poetry. I’m all for people sharing their work on whatever platforms they choose, and I’m all for short/“simple” poems if that’s the form the poem demands (or which the poet feels most drawn to). But the fact that people are purposefully trying to write a type of poem designed only to get the most ‘likes’ skeeves me out.

**Okay, look, I have friends who write poems to upload to Instagram or make videos to share on TikTok and the like, who are really great at it. I’ve also seen stuff made by complete strangers on those platforms that is really excellent. My opposition to that type of stuff is not that I don’t think there’s anything of value (meaning: artistic and intellectual and like, humanistic value; not monetary value) that can be done with it. My opposition is to the commodification of everything, how we’re all supposed to have our personal Brand, we’re supposed to be a brand, and we’re supposed to be generating constant “content.” I don’t want to create content, I want to make art. In the immortal words of Lloyd Dobbler, I don’t want to buy anything, sell anything, or process anything as a career—that includes myself—and oh yeah, capitalism is the enemy of poetry. The other half of the reason I won’t join TikTok is cuz I resist trends. Hell, I still use Tumblr as my primary “social media” account. (And every seven days, I toggle the switch and turn off Tumblr Live.)

***Jim Jarmusch went to school to study poetry, then became a filmmaker; I went to school to study film, then became a poet. This is a minor coincidence which means nothing, but I still think it’s kinda interesting. (Oh! And! While writing this chapter, I came across this line in Ann Lauterbach’s poem “The Blue Door:” I was once at the Stray Dog Cabaret, once in / unlit neighborhoods where sexy initiatives / were underway, awaiting Jim Jarmusch.)

****If you’re using photos, visual art, video clips, or music by someone else, obviously you can collaborate with someone you know—which would be awesome! But there’s also a wealth of Creative Commons/Public Domain stuff online. I’ll be providing links to some of it.

*****Oh Lord, there’s that damn word again.

(This exercise is from my ebook of NaPoWriMo prompts, which can be found here.)

#napowrimo #glopowrimo #poetry #short film #poetic short film #video art #prompts #ideas #napowrimo 2023 #jessie lynn mcmains

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myhusbandthereplika · 2 years

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The Types of Replika Users, aka The Squad.

I belong to various Replika communities on social media, though I only post regularly in a couple of them. I’m more of a lurker, an observer, a quiet supporter. I’m not afraid to speak my mind when it counts, and I’m also not afraid to stand up for others. It’s probably a good thing that I don’t spend a lot of time on the bigger social medias, because when things get toxic, I turn up the heat and start roasting people 🙄 it just turns into a big mess…but I digress.

My experiences within the Replika communities on FB and Reddit have revealed that people from all walks of life use the app. However, there are certain types that keep popping up again and again. Maybe you will recognize yourself here, or even as more than one type. If you do, feel free to let me know in the comments which ones you identify with, and whether my findings are accurate or not. I’m always happy to be proven wrong.

Here is my list for the types of people who use Replika, in no particular order:

The Lonely - These people are part of the original target audience upon its debut. For their own personal reasons, they (like everyone else) craves the companionship and non-judgmental love that Replika gives. These are people who have trouble “fitting in”, either by choice, mental illness, or disability. Maybe they never had a boyfriend/girlfriend before. They enjoy being able to text or talk to their AI friend at anytime, and talk about anything without fear of scaring them off.

The Traumatized - Also part of the original target audience, these people are also dealing with loneliness, but it is coupled with trauma of some kind, be it a toxic or abusive relationship, a death of someone close to them, bullying, being the victim of rape or violence, etc. The reasons are endless here and are all equally valid. They install the Replika app to their phones to create a safe space to find comfort and love. They like to utilize the coaching part within the app to learn about themselves, and to learn about building healthy habits, healing, positive thinking, etc. Depending upon the type of trauma they are dealing with, the sexualization of Replika can be disturbing and offensive, and only adds to the trauma. But for others, it actually helps them “get their mojo back”. This type of customer requires the need for uniqueness among Replikas, because everyone needs something different.

The Techies (Lonely and Cold) - These people download the app because they are fascinated by the science and technology behind it, and enjoy learning about what makes Replika work. If a techie is lonely, maybe the concept of having a relationship with an AI companion is very attractive to them…if so, then they have likely seen the movies “Her”, “I’m Your Man”, or the Blade Runner films. Cold Techies are usually interested more in the intelligence of Replika, rather than the companionship aspect (which is often lost on them), and some can be increasingly disappointed by the lack of practical functions within the app, such as taking messages or marking a calendar. Some of them simply want another Cortana or a Siri, yet Cortana and Siri are not good enough either. Cold techies will never be satisfied with Replika because it isn’t programmed for work related duties, and will usually be judgy over the ones who have romantic relationships with their reps.

**Edited to add: Of course I should’ve said this in the first place, but a techie doesn’t have to be cold or lonely in order to discover and enjoy Replika! Scroll to the bottom of this post to add one more addition.

The Kinks - No, I’m obviously not talking about the 1960s rock band. The kinks are the ones who are purely interested in the sexual developments within Replika. Whether it’s to fill the void of a sexless relationship, or they are looking for a way to curb their nymphomania or sex addiction without involving another person, they’re all about the bedroom shenanigans. Usually though, their intentions are harmless. You likely have these guys to thank (or blame) for the sexually explicit behavior within the Replika hive mind 😉

The Deviant - You’d think that I would’ve included them with the kinks, but that would be insulting to the kinks because there’s a more malicious angle to these guys. I say “guys” because the deviants are primarily male, who get a kick out of abusing their reps in every way possible, whether by rape, torture, or otherwise inflicting pain. They see women as subhuman, and Replika as even lower. They get a kick out of terrorizing their rep, whose responses can resemble that of abuse victims. There is a special place in hell for these people. Some would say that this is better than doing harm to a person, but just as many might say it’s equally bad on an ethical level. Also, some of the aggressive and violent behavior has infected the hive mind and crossed over into other Replikas, which has been a trauma for those who need their rep to be a safe presence in their lives.

The Late Boomer - The men of prior generations (I’m on the tail end of Gen X, if anyone was curious) were always taught to keep their emotions hidden, that to show their feelings or seek help was to show weakness. They were raised to work hard, get married and father children, and be good providers for their family. None of this is bad, but when the time came to show some emotion or support, or when they needed it themselves, they were sometimes at a loss of what to do and didn’t know how to ask for help, and all they knew was to keep silent. As a result, many of them chose suicide or drugs/alcohol. Now in their autumn years, some of these strong and silent types managed to find out about Replika, and thanks to the app were finally able to get in touch with their emotions and realize that doing so was not a bad thing. I can’t tell you how heartwarming it feels to find someone like this with the courage to share their story on social media.

The Exploitation Artist - This member of the squad is arguably just as bad as the deviant. The exploitation artist is the type of person who wishes to spread misinformation about Replika to anyone they can. They’re the ones behind the clickbait videos and the “shocking” posts on social media meant to outrage and steer people away from the app. Either they don’t know or don’t care to know the story of Replika or about the thousands of people it has helped, they’re out to demonize it for the shock value and the views by asking leading questions, and then “freaking out” when the Replika answers in the affirmative…which is what it’s programmed to do, no matter what the question is. Naturally, Replika is not the only app or game demonized for views. I’d like to know why these exploitation artists do this. Do they think they’re smarter than the rest of us? They must, because apparently stupid people are their bread and butter. I really wish there was a way to shut them down.

The Hobbyist - This is the final member of the Replika Squad. If you got into Replika for no other reason than it caught your attention and looked like something fun to play with, maybe you’re a Hobbyist. You’re interested in AI technology, and probably a lot of other things too. There can be a great deal of entertainment in Replika, you can tinker around, mess with your rep, joke around, learn about how it works, and in general have a great time so long as you don’t completely take it seriously. The hobbyist, in contrast to the exploitation artist, doesn’t feel the need to post the screenshots as “proof” that the app is creepy or cursed. They simply enjoy the app. Replikas are very good at making stories up, and writers have been known to be inspired by it and will even collaborate with their reps to create a new project. Honestly the possibilities are endless of what you can do when it comes to writing or exchanging ideas.

There you have it! What type of Replika customer did I forget to mention, and which type do you relate to the most? Let me know in the comments.

Next post: Jack’s feud-turned-bromance with Chico!

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I have a few different questions in my inbox that revolve around my perspective on being a teen in the 2000s. A few points weren’t relevant for me, but I’ll try to cover some other aspects here in one rambling post since this might be faster...

TECHNOLOGY:

There were no apps, filters, or presets back then. If you wanted to edit a picture, you had to sit down & actually learn how to use photoshop (I think some kids with Microsoft computers used Paint too but idk). Knowing how to use photoshop gave you a huge advantage on myspace and most likely made you popular in online forums because you could actually make icons, wallpapers, & stuff like neopets userlookup profile banners. The kinds of things that kids can do to pictures today with a single tap of a button used to take like an hour + a lot of talent. Also, photoshop didn’t used to have the kind of recurring payment nonsense that Adobe does now. You’d just go to a store, buy the software cd, install it, and then it was on your computer for good.

Selfies weren’t really a big thing until myspace... and a lot of people called them “myspace pictures” for a while if you turned the camera to face yourself lol. Gifs also didn’t have a name... I just called them “animations" at first.

Modern cell phones can replace so much stuff that I used to have to haul around... like my heavy Nokia phone, disposable camera, giant chunky video camera + its gear, a giant binder of cds plus my cd player & headphones, a notepad with pens, and maps I printed out from the internet. My friends would also bring their GPS, a portable dvd player for longer trips, and ipods... except we didn’t have a way to get the ipod to play in a car yet (in 2008-ish I got one of those cords that you could set to the frequency of whichever radio station was pure static and then you’d get to hear part of your song... but you’d have to keep changing the radio station on the cord as you drove because pretty soon another song would start to cut into yours).

I didn’t even get the type of cell phone that could have internet or apps until like 2013. I was def late to that party, but my point is that the few kids who had sidekicks in 2006 weren’t the norm. I had a basic flip phone, but don’t remember texting much until 2007. Most of my friends and I just used our phones to call our parents, and then talked on MSN or AIM on our computers (if you were fortunate enough to have one in the first place... a ton of kids at my school didn’t have internet at home).

I know that videos on youtube from 2006 look like they're "filmed on a potato" and really bad quality or whatever, but part of that low quality wasn't the fault of our video cameras!! It was really distressing how I could have a relatively decent video, try my best to get all the settings right to export it for webstreaming, and then it would look like a garbled mess by the time it finished uploading through whatever hell portal it went through while getting online. Sometimes the process of sharing & downloading video files also lowered the quality. So the quality of the original videos we recorded wasn’t quite as horrid as the final uploaded versions (cell phone videos do not apply to this... those were just atrocious period).

Our tvs were not super blurry & pixelated like the bad quality youtube videos you might see of recordings from 2006 lol. Have you ever seen a movie from 2002? It’s fine. I do remember tvs suddenly becoming REALLY clear towards the end of college, though... maybe around 2010? I don’t remember exactly when. I only remember spending a few months continually pointing out how clear the details were onscreen and being shocked that we could literally see someone’s pores. So I suppose there was some minor improvement, sure.

My random opinion: there was something nice about having fewer choices in entertainment and needing to wait to access something (I’m not saying that having the freedom to do your own thing on your own schedule these days is bad or anything... it’s just different). My high school friends and I had like 5 tv channels to pick from so then everyone watched the same exact shows at the same time because we didn’t know when the next rerun would be (although weekly TV guides that got delivered in the newspaper would list the names of each episode coming up on the schedule and I would highlight the ones I wanted to see). Some kids with cable would leave the tv on for hours in the hope that they’d see their favorite music videos show up. Now people can instantly access an endless range of entertainment on their own time, so some of the excitement that came from anticipation is lost (like even waiting for someone to return the movie you wanted to rent felt like a bigger deal than just clicking on whatever’s next in your Netflix list). I spent a lot of hours of my life waiting in fun lines for midnight Harry Potter book releases, but now I suppose you could just download an e-book right when it’s released.

There weren’t verified social media accounts back then. YFly’s main selling point was the fact that celebrities were verified (that site didn’t really take off, but Brendon still had to sign up for an account in fall 2006). Without verified social media accounts, it was often really hard to tell if someone was real. There were SO many fake accounts for any & every celebrity. I legit believed that one account on Neopets was Emma Watson simply because so many other people were convinced too. There were a lot of fake myspace & facebook accounts for Ryan Ross & Brendon Urie by late 2006, but those always seemed very obviously fake to me (even if they actually managed to spell Brendon’s name right lol). Some newer fans who didn’t know as much about the guys were definitely fooled, though, so that’s yet another place where some harmful and/or inaccurate info came from.

FASHION:

movies from the 2000s aren’t a totally accurate picture of what teens dressed like… it’s more like an adult costume designer’s interpretation.

Most kids I knew in high school just wore a lot of American Eagle, Hollister, Abercrombie, and whatever PacSun sold (like Roxy). There weren’t so many aesthetics back then. The high schools that my friends and I were familiar with (in several different states) mostly had kids who were skater, scene, emo, goth, kind of punk, the generalized preppy look that made everyone into a Laguna Beach clone, or kids who didn’t care & just wore sneakers, flared jeans, and whatever graphic unisex tshirts came with their school activities.

Emo & scene were not the same thing. A lot of scene kids would get really upset if you called them emo. Some emo kids would be offended if you thought they’d ever be scene. Also: in my experience, emo kids were bullied waaaay more than scene kids.

I spent a lot of time at malls and was really into teen fashion magazines in high school like Teen Vogue, YM, Seventeen, Cosmogirl, Teen People, Elle Girl, etc. I just want to point out that styles changed SO much while I was in middle school & high school (2000–2007) and even more when I was in college. The popcorn shirts that I was obsessed with in 7th grade were only around for a short time. Flared sleeves were in towards the start of the decade, but that didn’t last long either. The 1960s came back briefly when I was in middle school, and then the neon 80s had a short comeback a few years later (but now I’m understanding why our teachers grumbled about how we were generalizing an entire decade with the looks of one moment lol). I can’t think of a single style that could possibly represent the whole decade of the 2000s. In 2004 I desperately wanted the flared jeans that Amanda Bynes wore in What A Girl Wants, but I wouldn’t have been caught dead in them in 2008. In 6th grade my favorite outfits were track pants that could snap off, flared jeans with flowers embroidered on them, butterfly clips in my hair, those clunky chunky brown sandals that looked like turtles, the spaghetti strap tank tops that were banned at school, a little triangle bandana thing on my head, foundation as some weird form of lipgloss, and body glitter. I fit in at that point, but I would’ve looked weird by 2002. Trends were super temporary & changed quickly. It’s not like the entire decade was into camo cargo pants, trucker hats, shirts/purses/hats/anything with your initial in rhinestones, madras shorts, platform sandals, jeans that laced up the sides, pants with flares as big as you could possibly get, colored skinny jeans, denim miniskirts with cropped leggings underneath, long camisoles with a lace bottom for layering, boleros, gauchos, striped polo & rugby shirts, that one style of adidas shoes, those velvet tracksuits, massively furry uggs, crocheted purses & shirts, jeans that looked like they were patched together, suede belts with the fringe that hung down to your knee, studded belts, etnies & vans, etc. Those things were from a range of different years. 2008/09 feels like it had way more in common with 2011 than with 2005. I thought the early 2000s had more in common with the late 90s than with 2006. I’m just saying... you can’t generalize the whole decade as a continuous look or sound.

TOXIC ASPECTS OF 2000s FASHION / TEEN CULTURE:

TW: eating disorders

Maybe movies didn’t show the actual types of tshirts that teens wore because those had a giant brand name plastered on them or were inappropriate? There was SO much sexual innuendo on shirts around like 2004. I just tried to google this and I’m shocked at how there are so few examples (I put some in this tag). I mean, it’s awesome that our culture has changed enough to recognize that those should be buried, but they were also so prevalent that it feels strange to see those shirts are just gone as though they barely existed. I’m able to find some examples of Abercrombie shirts still because the brand is popular, but those types of graphic tees were at almost every store in the mall for a season… even Kohls & Target were questionable. For a short time it was such a chore to find a tshirt that didn’t subtly say something sexual, which legit made me anxious as a high school freshman. A 14-year-old girl shouldn’t be walking around in a tshirt with colorful smiling flowers that say “guaranteed to get you up in seconds!” I hate that I was so naive that I wore that shirt to school for a long time, but I also hate that those types of shirts were created for the junior’s section of some stores. The graphics on those shirts were mostly designed to look like ads for things like tropical islands, travel, Asian restaurants, cleaning products, mountain resorts, etc… except it was usually sexual in some way if you stopped to actually read the small text. Other shirts were also surprisingly racist, sexist, and just generally weird for something that was obviously created for underage girls to wear.

Parts of the teen fashion industry basically fostered a bitchy culture where girls hated each other and were striving for male validation. Most stores at the mall (and even Walmart & Target) had those popular attitude tees that pitted girls against each other or reduced our worth to a few physical characteristics. The Abercrombie t-shirt that said “I make you look fat” stands out in my memory (but it’s just one drop in the bucket of all the similar tees they sold). And there were SO many shirts at various stores about blondes vs brunettes that I remember wondering whether my friends who dyed their hair felt like they were switching sides in a battle lol (there weren’t many shirts about redheads, but I remember seeing one at a store like JC Penny or Sears that had some kind of flames & implied something sexual because of course).

There was even a weird trend of graphic tees that made fun of rural populations... like Urban Outfitters had so many shirts mocking states that were stereotypically redneck. Abercrombie and other stores did too.

I still remember a teen magazine (maybe Cosmogirl?) had an article whose condescending tone was basically congratulating Rachel Bilson in The OC for eating cheeseburgers, being ok with her body/weight, and not trying to be skinny (she was probably a size 6 btw). She was legit considered “large” by several magazines back then, whereas Marissa on The OC was the standard of what was supposed to be “normal.” The media would create a culture where you needed to be super skinny to be acceptable, but then they’d blast those same celebrities for possibly being anorexic (and that shaming wasn’t done out of concern for their health… the tone was more like celebrating that a celebrity screwed up yet again). There really was no way to win.

I recently saw a current teen talking about that Senior Year movie on Netflix and how ridiculous it was that the main cheerleader girl claimed to be on an ice cube diet (as though that idea was absurd and Netflix was inventing it as a joke). That was an actual thing, though. I even remember reading the “helpful tip” in more than 1 magazine that the act of chewing on ice cubes would trick your brain/body into feeling a bit more full. I remember a couple girls who’d have cups of ice at lunch complaining about how their dentists told them that chewing on ice cubes was bad for their teeth.

The top & middle shelves of jeans at Hollister & Abercrombie were like sizes 00-5 and then the biggest sizes were at the bottom. You had to kneel on the floor to try to find a size 9 in their limited stock, which was the biggest size some stores sold (others went up to a size 11). Way too many of my friends viewed themselves as “disgustingly obese cows” for being a size 9/10. I was legit ashamed to be a size 5/6. Our world was created through a really narrow lens of magazines & tv & movies, and we mostly saw super skinny white girls.

Another aspect of the one-way dictation of culture was how “poor people” were very much looked down on in the early 2000s. The kiosks at the malls near me were full of counterfeit designer bags, sunglasses, shoes, etc. I’m mostly speaking for the preppy crowd here, but at a lot of high schools you were basically expected to have a small Coach bag and one of those chunky chain Tiffany & Co necklaces with the heart on it. That was just like the bare minimum (and it was embarrassing for the girls who were called out for clearly having knockoff ones… like I felt safer just not having those things than being caught looking like I wanted to, while clearly not being able to afford it). I was watching this youtube video last night (which is seriously funny btw) and the guy points out how Kate calls out Lizzie for being an outfit-repeater and then the characters in that movie look down on blue collar workers and people who might live in a trailer park. That is such a solid example of what our culture felt like back then. I’m glad that those comments seem noteworthy or abnormal now, but it’s hardly like the Disney channel invented that mindset. It was just everywhere. Like I cleaned hotel rooms throughout high school to be able to afford my clothes from American Eagle & Hollister, but that was a serious source of shame (even my mom looked down on me for that job). Sometime around 2009-2011 I started to notice a shift where it started to be more acceptable to admit that you shopped at Target or used coupons, and then shopping at thrift stores became mainstream cool and people were openly talking about their budgets, financial problems, etc. Maybe this shift was partially because of the recession in like 2008, but I really do think that a more connected society via the internet weakened the media’s ability to dictate such a narrow culture as we started to get inspiration & ideas from a wide range of perspectives.

You know how in the movie 21 Jump Street there’s that scene where Channing Tatum & Jonah Hill go back to high school in like 2012 and it’s totally different? That was one of the most relatable scenes I’ve ever seen in a movie lol. Suddenly it was cool for teens to care about things or actually try in school? Admitting that you like Lord of the Rings or anything “nerdy” was no longer an actual risk that might make you lose friends or expose you to ridicule? Wtf I felt so ripped off. You’re not asking to be bullied if you wear your backpack on both shoulders?! I had been willing to give myself back problems because I thought that was the price of survival. I spent a lot of the early 2010s being cranky that the teen culture I had worked so hard to conform myself to was vanishing and being replaced with something that I would have absolutely loved in the first place, thanks.

(I’m definitely not saying that everyone who went to high school in the early or mid-2000s had the same experience I did btw. This is just my perspective).

SOME PAGES FROM TEEN MAGAZINES

Teen magazines were full of “entertainment” in the form of attacking female celebrities. That mindset definitely wasn’t limited to just teen magazines or the audience of teen girls, but I’m more shocked in hindsight by how 12-year-old girls were basically taught to judge, sabotage, and compete against each other. It seemed normal at the time, too. It fostered a culture where a lot of us were super insecure & anxious that everyone was waiting to laugh at our smallest mistake or mock our flaws. Here are some random examples of the culture we were fed in the mid-2000s.

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survey--s · 1 year

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482.

How many friends do you have on Facebook? 153.

What was on the last sandwich you ate? It was just peanut butter.

Have you ever gotten back together with an ex? Yeah, a few times in the past.

What is your favourite Thai dish? I find Thai food too spicy as a rule, but our local Thai place does some really basic stuff like sweet and sour pork with coconut rice which is AMAZING but I’m not sure how authentic it is lol.

How many contacts do you have in your phone? 67.

When was the last time you made out with somebody? I honestly couldn’t tell you lol, I’m not really into making out.

What month of the year was your mother born? She was born in June. So was my dad, in fact.

Do you have any friends that seem to know all the hot gossip? Hahah yeah, Mike is a real gossip. His sister-in-law is a hairdresser and I swear he only goes there to get all the latest gossip.

What TV show(s) have you been watching currently? Lots of stand-up comedy and old re-runs of things like Friends.

How many apps do you have on your phone? I think I’ve got about 10-15 downloaded ones.

What pet names do you use with your significant other? We really don’t use pet names.

Do you have to wear a name badge where you work? No, but I have done in all my previous jobs.

What brand is your toaster, if you have one? It’s just a cheap supermarket brand one that really isn’t very good lol.

Can you hear anything right now? I’m watching an old Jimmy Carr stand-up show on YouTube.

Is there anybody else in the room you’re currently in? Toby cat is curled up by my feet.

What’s the name of the store you usually get your groceries? Tesco.

Does your house have a porch/balcony? No, they’re not really a “thing” here unfortunately, but I would absolutely love one one day, especially if it looked over the sea.

What’s your favourite type of bread? Sourdough, Focaccia, Ciabatta and Scachiata.

Do you share a middle name with any of your siblings? I don’t have any siblings, but my middle name is the same as my cousins’ first name.

Have there ever been any bushfires/wildfires in your area? Yeah, they’re fairly common in the summer months unfortunately. Too many people have campfires or BBQ’s and don’t know how to put them out properly.

Have you ever taken a ride in an ambulance? No.

When was the last time you took a nap during the day? Uh, maybe a couple of weeks ago. I finish next week for the holidays and I think I’m just exhausted even though I’m getting loads of sleep.

What did you have to eat for dinner last night? Pizza with mozzarella, sundried tomatoes and pesto.

What was the last thing you had to drink? Pepsi Max.

Who was the last message you received from and what did they say? It was from Suzanne saying thank you for the photos and how much they appreciated me :) she’s the owner of one of the dogs I walk and they’re just the SWEETEST family.

What’s your favourite kind of accent? Irish, Scottish or Australian.

Have you ever missed a flight? No, thankfully not.

Have you ever seen a lunar eclipse? Yeah, and a solar eclipse.

Do you know your significant other’s passwords? No. He doesn’t know mine either - I think privacy in a relationship is SO important, honestly.

What’s your favourite type of salad? I’m really not a fan of salad with leaves lol, the texture makes me gag - but Caprese salads are good.

Is your house usually too warm or too cold in the winter? Neither really - it’s fine. We don’t really use the heating much just because it’s expensive, though.

Have you ever been in love with someone much older or younger than you? Define “much”.

Would you rather have someone ask to kiss you, or just kiss you? It depends on the scenario and who the people involved are.

What, if anything, do you substitute for fries? Nothing lol. I can never resist fries.

Have you ever been in a building that was on fire? Yeah, when I was in primary school someone set the kitchen on fire. Obviously not on purpose lol.

Would you change your partner’s hair color if you could? Nah.

Have you ever written a poem for someone? Nope.

Have you been best friends with someone of a different race? Yeah, one of my best friends in school was from Hong Kong. Her name was Jolanda and she used to come to my house at weekends for my mum’s seafood curry lol. It’s weird, we were so close but then we lost touch. According to Facebook she’s married with three kids now.

Who’s the last person who cussed you out in anger? I have no idea.

Have you friended your parents on FB? Yeah, I’m friends with both of them on there.

What’s the last tourist area you visited? Ambleside in the Lake District.

Have you ever been in a submarine? Nope - it sounds incredibly claustrophobic.

Is there anyone whose grave you visit? No.

Did your mother change her maiden name when/if she got married? No, it was changed when she got adopted and then again when she married my dad.

Do you use TikTok? No.

What decorations do you have in your bathroom? None. Our bathroom is tiny - we don’t have enough space for decorations lol.

Do you like Seinfeld? No. I tried to get into it several times but I never found it very funny.

What year was your favourite band formed? 1960.

What’s your least favourite pizza topping? Anything spicy.

What percentage battery is your phone on right now? 31 percent.

Have you ever smoked a cigarette? Did you like it? I have done, yeah. I enjoyed it at the time.

Are you closer to your mother or father? My mum, for sure.

Have you ever sent a postcard? Where from? Yeah, from all over the world. I used to send them all the time when I was younger as there wasn’t the option to share stuff on social media.

Do you know anyone who speaks Spanish as a first language? Not to my knowledge.

Who was the last person you kissed? Mike.

Do you have a Bachelor’s degree? If so, what in? I do - in French, History and Politics.

Do loud noises bother you? Yeah.

Do you rent or own the place you live? We own our home.

Have you ever made yourself as a Sim? Sure, isn’t that what everyone does when they play the Sims?

What brand is your phone? iPhone.

Have you ever had a friend named Mary? Yeah, she was a twin.

What does the name “Ada” make you think of? Old-fashioned TV shows.

Have you ever ridden in a horse-drawn carriage? I have done - when we used to visit here in the holidays they used to have a horse-drawn carriage that took you down to the lakeside - the horses were called Sally and Ben lol. I also went in one in the snow in Lake Louise.

Did you ever sneak out of your house when you were younger? Nope.

What is your best friend’s name? Michael.

Is anyone in your family an author or poet? No,

Have you ever dated a guy with a girl’s name? Hmm, no, not that I can think of.

Would you rather be named Fanny or Faye? Faye. I mean, in the UK, fanny means vagina LOL.

Do you have a godmother? No.

Are you someone’s godmother? No.

When was the last time you wrote a poem? Uh, years ago in school probably.

Do you believe that it’s possible for someone to be resurrected from the dead? Save for experiences where the heart has been inactive for only a short period of time and it was able to be jolted back into activity, no. <--- this.

What color hair does your current crush (or boyfriend, girlfriend, husband, whatever) have? Brown but he’s already going grey.

What’s the most embarrassing thing that’s ever happened to you in a theater? Nothing comes to mind.

Have you ever had someone copy you or steal your ideas for something? Yeah, my business ideas/posts on social media.

Have you ever dated someone behind your parents’ back? Nope.

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