#idk i just have a lot of thoughts

[lihhelsing]

Steve who keeps using famous rockstar Eddie Munson’s DMs as a place to store notes for himself (grocery lists and to-dos) because he knows Eddie will never see any of that.

Until the day he does see it and asks if Steve remembered to buy onions. It turns out Eddie’s been reading Steve’s lists for months

#eddie munson #steddie #steve harrington #steve x eddie #idk I just have a lot of thoughts #specially late a night #might make this something bigger

[trashcreatyre]

Sometimes I think I should just have this as my banner so I don't have to keep explaining this every time I talk about liking Elise as a character or like 06 at all

#trash rambles #sonic 06 #the thing is i dont even have a problem with this scene other than the kiss #like idk #i feel like it wouldve been a million times less weird if theyd made it like #a forehead kiss or something #or like #made it kinda like the revival scene in tangled? like? tear based? yk? #or just not have that bit at all cus it wasnt the kiss that brings him back #so theres no real point of it being in there other than to force a romance plot that dosent really read well #idk i just have a lot of thoughts

[cruel-style]

I feel like most of fans (at least on tumblr anyway) are super disappointed in Taylor, but also know that complaining incessantly about her actions does not do anything considering she is no longer in this specific online space. Us complaining to each other doesn’t really do anything.

#text #idk I just have a lot of thoughts

[jacobbellaendgame]

Rewatching New Moon. Does anyone else find it ironic that Renee gave Bella a scrapbook and Charlie gave Bella a camera for her last human birthday? So she could document her senior year aka life? And the first picture she takes is of her fellow seniors aka human friends? And her next gift is the dreamcatcher from Jacob, another human friend?

Not to mention the gifts are for Bella. Not only does she not allow Edward to give her a gift, but the very next gift she gets from Alice is a dress to wear for her party that she doesn't want later that evening. This gift is for Alice.

Rosalie gives her a necklace that she then tells Bella that Alice picked out. Again, not for Bella.

Then Emmett gives her a radio and installs it in her truck. Something to upgrade "that piece of crap". Not for Bella.

Carlisle and Esme's gift of tickets to go see Renee is a gift for Bella but Esme says the line: "Plus you've been looking kind of pale lately." Again with the physical (aka superficial) emphasis.

So it basically boils down to this:

her parents - gifts for her life, to make memories

Jacob - gift to help her with bad dreams, he got it because he saw it & thought of her

Jasper & Alice - gift to help dress her appropriately for the party she didn't ask for

Rosalie - gift to accessorize that Rosalie didn't even pick out for Bella herself (this gift is picked out by Alice - Rosalie is also one of the ones who doesn't want to see Bella become like them)

Emmett - gift to dress up her truck because it's not good enough

Carlisle & Esme - gift for her to see her mom which is thoughtful (reiterated by Carlisle's line of "Something to brighten your day") but also unintentionally on Esme's part, emphasizes Bella's looks (and can also be seen linking back to the later scene of when the Cullens vote for her to become like them or not & C/E purposely choosing this gift to urge her not to in a way)

So it's all connected in this film which Chris Weitz (and yes, Melissa Rosenberg, grumble, grumble) is not given enough credit for.

Especially when you look at the birthday party scene attack vs the scene with Paul fursploding, and then the later scene of Jacob and Edward getting into it after Jacob phases.

Edward pushes Bella out of the way at the party, hurting her worse, when it become apparent that he could have moved to confront Jasper while the others got Bella away, or be the wall in between them that then pushes Jasper back.

Jacob phases before he gets to Bella, jumps over, and after standing protectively in front of her, rushes to confront Paul. The battle takes place away from her and moves away. Bella is not hurt.

In the near ending scene, Jacob grabs Bella's arm which prompts Edward to act and push Jacob away. Jacob phases and begins to rush toward Edward. This time, Edward moves her away for safety (indicating that he's learned) and tells her to run. Jacob stops rushing him when Bella maneuvers around Edward and gets in between them, telling them both to stop. Neither hurt her.

So not only does it show the contrast between the two supernatural beings but it also shows the difference in Bella's relation to them when it comes to her safety and being around them. While they address Emily's scars with Jacob saying Sam got angry and she was standing too close, we see clear indications that yes the wolves can get angry, but with Paul and then Jacob, we never see Bella get injured in a similar manner. And she was a lot closer to Paul fursploding than Jacob & Paul was a hell of a lot angrier.

Plus the contrast shows how Bella is not able to protect Edward physically as she is or protect herself, around vampires. With Jacob, she is able to warn him and tell him to run though had Paul given chase, she wouldn't have been able to protect either of them as she is, around werewolves. In the forest scene, she isn't able to protect either of them technically but they both give her the power (and choice) by stopping when she asks them to, these two particular individuals.

Edward (and certain Cullens by extension) realize the fantasy is up in this film and Bella is still a fragile human. While Sam worries and forbids Jacob from seeing Bella (before he finds the loophole) to keep her safe, once Bella finds out the truth, she is never in danger with the wolves. (and I would even argue she was safe in that Paul scene; I truly think Paul did that because he was angry and as a scare tactic) They live in reality (hence the whole 'why are you dating a bloodsucker' thing) and they never lose sight of the fact that Bella is still a fragile human (until she isn't). (and let's not even talk about the fact that Sam aka one of the wolves found Bella in the woods as well as Jake and the Quileutes helping Billy to look for her while Edward left Bella in the forest alone and unprotected and lost, knowing Victoria was looking to get even with him, and the Cullens vanished beforehand at his urging)

I just love the way they showed the obvious contrasts here in this one film, which of course leads not only to Edward's proposal in the end as well as Bella's initial choice, but also into Eclipse where Bella will have to choose to finalize that choice.

Which is interesting because:

In the party scene, Edward didn't give her a choice, and barely a thought. He reacted. (for further contrast, watch how Carlisle moves Esme out of the way without hurting her though she's not the target and can clearly take care of herself; also watch how Emmett doesn't move Rosalie out of the way because again she's not the target & she can take care of herself)

In the Paul scene, Bella was given the choice to run and she did. Jacob reacted but still kept her in mind.

In the forest scene, Bella was again given the choice and both Edward and Jacob kept her in mind.

Very interesting indeed.

#idk i just have a lot of thoughts #like i love chris weitz okay #some might say this movie was geared more towards team jacob #and introduce the wolves #but it also began to show the difference between the two groups in bella's life and regarding her safety #twilight new moon #i'm talking about the movie only btw #my posts

[stuckinapril]

friend wanted to see my tumblr, and when i told him i can’t show it to him bc it’s basically my personal diary he went “oh so I can’t see it but a bunch of strangers on tumblr can??” he literally does not get me. no one will get me like the people in my phone get me

#It’s just so different #even though it’s public it still feels secret and safe. i feel comfy sharing a lot more on here than I do in my actual day to day life lol #in my head I’m also just speaking to myself 90% of the time which helps #if a friend off tumblr saw my thoughts I’d feel so weird ab it #esp bc they might get the vagueposting about certain situations and tell mutual friends #no thank u. this is for me. I’m not about to start censoring my thoughts bc someone I know knows my tumblr #u guys literally saw me have LIVE BREAKDOWNS #meanwhile I’ll have the worst fucking day in history and tell no one about it. I’m already cripplingly private but way more so in real life #this is basically a low stress journaling outlet for me. it’s so important for me to maintain the separation #like this is actually my diary & has been so handy for letting out emotions / articulating thoughts / staying on track !! #& I’ve met so many kind people on here who actually get me. which is so hard to find irl bc I’m surrounded by pre-med gunners/overachievers #who are by standard not very good w emotion & can be competitive/judgmental. or at least it’s hard for me to be vulnerable in front of them #and I’m part of that crowd so I reserve my emotions only to a handful of very close friends #it’s nice to hop on here and express negative emotions!! or positive emotions!! just whatever I want and it’s low stress and people get me #I don’t have to worry about judgment or competitiveness etc etc #like everyone on here is so kind & nice & understanding. & just a breath of fresh air from the types I run w. it’s just nice to have this #so idk that’s why I think I’ll always be strict about keeping the worlds separate. it just works #p

[marisatomay]

the council has conferred and it has been decided that the most painful ages to happen to a person are 12, 17, 19, and 23

#source: it came to the council (me) in a dream #look. a lot of thought went into this actually and i stopped at 23 because my grandpa has a saying. #you have to keep kids alive until they’re 23. after that everything will start to sort itself out. #not that everything gets Good or even Better. just that after 23 everything is just. Less. you’re not 23 anymore. #idk it’s hard to explain if you’re not there yet.

[tshortik]

Cryptic visions of space and time...

#essek #essek thelyss #critical role #mighty nein #caleb widogast #this works on its own but it's actually part of a bigger fancomic idea i have #but i still have to figure out if i even want to invest so much time into something like that lmao.. prob not #i already made a concept document for fun and its way too long.. unfortunately i rly like it #i rly believe in the idea tbh i just dont know if its physically possible because i work fulltime LMAO #its a lot of fun tho #here i am 3 years late idk why the essek thoughts bubble out NOW ignore me

[chitsangenthusiast]

red is to spider-man as pink is to miles, in that pink is the color of: self-expression, confidence, compassion. if you side with miles, if you want to support his growth, you're going to be in pink

that being said...a pink robe can be removed, and pink hairdye can be washed out

#have LOTS more thoughts to thot around this and all the other colors in the movie but. just gonna leave it as this for now #like. dropping this here mostly bc i thought i lost this on my twitter and nearly had a heart attack lol #atsv color theory masterpost you'll never make it out of the notes app but you'll always be real to me #atsv #spiderverse #miles morales #my writing #<- idk how else to tag it for now lol

[chiptrillino]

...older Fire Lord Zuko with a sheer top and his tits out you say?

ID: three drawings of aged-up zuko from Avatar the last airbender as fire lord. on the left side a full body of zuko front view. In the middle, zuko from the waist up leaning over a cluttered table growling and spitting flames at the viewer. In the third image on the right, zuko from the waist up sits bored and exhausted in his chair. cluttered desk and paperwork in front of him. End ID

I probably did advertise the sheer top wrong! it's more like a robe! just… a bit seethrough… because… you know… self-indulgence…? for me… ? for us? (yes he only has one lense in his his glasses becasue we in the fandom just know why!)

art-blog: chiptrillino-art

#chip!ask #chip!art #zuko #atla #fire lord zuko #me finishing art??? uhm... maybe? idk #listen sometimes you need to like... just go by vibes because you have to get it out of your system.... #and you don't feel like fact checking if this is accurate or not you just saw it thought it was preatty kind of fit and went with it #that... that is the result of that... -sweats- #and then you kind of like it a lot.... #also fight me i refuse to give him a propper top knot! #it will always be messy... some how... this guy is just a mess... fight me! #the loser lord #said apriciative #i was vary close to give him just a monikel but i didn't know how to attach it #also glasses gaang yaiiiii

[journey-to-the-attic]

one thing about ik is that she will always reach out

#obey me #art #i had the idea for this and managed to bulldoze through drawing it all without losing motivation halfway through #but Do Not expect me to post art this frequently in future #idk how to do panels so if the middle bit with the text might be laid out weird #i added the stars and feathers and stuff because there was a bunch of empty space around the boxes #obey me satan #jtta ik #(btw the crumbling symbol next to the exploding feather is the wrath symbol from in-game) #(with the pride symbol attached upside down at the bottom) #(not so much symbolism as it is just me whacking you over the head with the point but it looks cool) #i had a lot of fun doing satan's more monstrous design so i might try my hand at some of the other demons later? #i do have some ideas for levi (deep sea creatures are just really fun) #also happy nightbringer release day!! it showed up on my homescreen like half an hour ago and i was like “wait what” #for some reason i thought it wasn't releasing til next week?? #the new genshin patch is today as well so looks like i'll have plenty to do with the rest of my free time for the easter hols #(i promise i'm also working on the next chapter of jtta but i am so stuck on how to get lucifer actually Talking) #anyway. here's a gold star for making it through all my rambling in the tags for anyone who did so: ⭐

[saturnsocoolioyep]

In the same vein as "I've been taking my medication for long enough that I haven't experienced any symptoms in a while, I must not need to take it anymore! (Spoiler alert: the meds are why you haven't had symptoms)" I present to you a similarly clownish thought process- "I haven't experienced that trigger in a long time, maybe I was just exaggerating how bad it was and it'll be fine to engage with this! (Spoiler alert: take a fucking guess babes)"

#on a definitely unrelated note the contamination obsessive thoughts are in fact still there and still upsetting #turns out when you take care to avoid things that trigger and upset you... #those things still trigger and upset you even if youve avoided them for a while #😱🤯 #ptsd #cptsd #trauma #recovery #disabled #autistic adult #actually autistic #<- idk if thats a good tag or not it just came up suggested when i typed autism so #ocd #<- not dxed and not even sure if i feel comfy self dxing w ocd but i definitely have upsetting obsessive + compulsive tendencies + thoughts #that i struggle with a lot so #medication #trauma recovery #triggers #arfid #disability #neurodivergent #neurodiversity #audhd

[dreadark]

that ivan loves till is the most obvious thing about them

but. does ivan know that…?

the ivan that regards his own feelings as shallow, the ivan that learned how emotions are expressed only from copying others… does he even know that the love he’s felt for so long is love? probably not. and part of the reason is the one he loves himself

because the easiest example he has of love is till's feelings to mizi. till outright calls it love, and ivan watches him so much he has to be aware of this and till’s love to mizi is totally unselfish, right. he doesn’t seem to actually want much from her—just that she's still there and still "mizi"

but ivan can't be satisfied with just watching he… wants. ivan wants till’s attention, till’s affection—

surely this selfish wanting can’t be love

...no wonder he was never able to express his feelings straightforwardly when he belittles them so much but he can’t stand not having anything either, so he does… whatever he does instead to get any scraps of attention he can, from someone he's convinced doesn't care about him at all only showing affection when till can't see it, right until he knows he's going to die

but ivan's feelings for till are all he still has of himself... to think of them as shallow...

I've seen this translated as "I should've been kinder" to him (till) or to her (sua)

but really, the one he should've been kinder to was himself

#alien stage #alnst #alnst ivan #ivantill #i have a lot of thoughts on till -> mizi too but this is long enough #just attempting to rewrite my twt rambles more coherently #idk why i wrote this so dramatically tho... #'thank you for being the victim of my shallow emotions' is going to haunt me to my grave #ivan's character is just a careful balance between his natural freak nature and his extreme depths of self-loathing #making him the most miserable guy ever #...really once you realize so much of what went wrong is thanks to ivan just hating himself too much to even think of them as friends. well #c...can we bring him back... don't die like this..... #(also you know. with the implications of how 'pets' are treated #wanting someone physically must feel... even more wrong

[noisyghost]

rambling out loud about the one year timeline of how getting bit by a werewolf affected ark/his body <3

#OC #ark #posting bc u guys seem 2 like this guy #he was p skinny most of his teens/twenties bc he would just. skip meals #not even on purpose he just wouldnt pay attention #hes a lot healthier now :) #also i guess i should tag #gore // #idk if i really have the audience for it here anymore but god i wanna draw some fucked up werewolf infection/tf shit #this isnt nearly as gross as i wanna draw it but it's a little gross #i have thoughts on what the first month of werewolfery would look like and its. nasty. lol #body horror my beloved <3

[evilkitten3]

was fucking around on google images and i ended up stumbling on a reddit post from three yrs ago with a picture of iroh grabbing azula during a fight scene...

this is the only time i can think of when azula seems completely terrified.

he grabs her and she's scared shitless

but he just redirects her lightning and she's just bewildered.

i wonder what she was thinking there

#atla #avatar the last airbender #azula #azulaposting #iroh #like my first instinct is to read into her relationship with iroh and/or ozai #but if we're being real it could just be a ''wtf is that allowed????'' moment #iroh may have fucked up ba sing se but like. he killed a dragon #or. pretended to have #people thought he did anyway #i just think it's interesting #trope-wise azula is ''the dragon'' of the cast #and iroh is a helluva lot kinder to the real dragons than he is to her #did she think he was going to kill her? or just seriously kick the shit out of her #idk it just looks like azula was expecting something significantly worse to happen

[butchwherewolf]

ok, but, the series so far is doing a phenomenal job at showcasing just how prideful and unjust the gods are towards their children, how it's making the viewers look at the gods with contempt and asking 'how could you ever think to do this to your own child?' Percy's anger at Poseidon's abandonment (even if Percy is his favorite son, he grew up without his father and only 'earned' his attention when fighting Clarisse, like Percy said. Then, it's only when he's falling to his death in Athena's temple that he finally intervenes, but only sending a nereid in his place.) Annabeth blatantly stating that she knows her mother will protect them - not only in a sacred temple, but a temple to her mother nonetheless - only to boldly accept that she's willing to die as punishment for her mother's wounded pride (yet here she is, a girl with no family besides Luke, who still had faith in her mother to guide and protect her. especially after the entire encounter with Medusa, Annabeth still stood by her mother's side and how 'just' she is) Clarisse desperate for some form of recognition from her father, desperately fighting the new kid so that she can get some speck of glory because this unclaimed child killed the Minotaur while she's done nothing but try to live up to her father and be a 'proper' daughter of Ares (only to have her only gift from him broken, lose the fight to the new kid, and not even considered for the quest despite being one of camp's most skilled and proficient fighters) All of this just... building and building on how unjust the gods are to their own children, how those demigods suffer as they try to earn their parent's attention - not love, attention. We are only halfway through the first season and it is so deliciously setting up the precedent for why Luke will betray Camp and the gods, why others are drawn to his beliefs even when he's less Luke and more Kronos.

Because, really, with the way the gods have treated them so far, could you really blame any of them for turning their backs in the hope of a better future?

#percy jackson #pjo tv show #pjo spoilers #pjo tv series #annabeth chase #clarisse la rue #luke castellan #pjo #idk man i just have a lot of thoughts and so far im absolutely thrilled with the changes theyve made to the books

[carlarte]

Oh, Hazel, look! The field! It’s covered with blood!’

Fiver is my favorite character in Watership Down, he's just like me fr. I was afraid this wouldn't read especifically as Fiver, but alas... i liked my initial sketch a lot so i kept it as it was.

#my art #digital art #artists on tumblr #watership down #so just to make this absolutely clear.. this is fiver XD not an attempt of a book cover #even tho it looks so much like many watership down covers tbh #i didnt even realize until i was actually googling images for reference that i found a lot of wd covers have a rabbits profile and the fiel #what a bummer #but i still like this a lot #everyone and their moms thought about the same thing i guess #me included #anyway FIVER MY BOY #I LOVE HIM HES JUST LIKE ME #IDK WHY EXACTLY BUT I RELATE TO HIM SO MUCH #its like 'yeah i also have visions of chaos and death and despair its called having anxiety and depression' #ok no forget that