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izvmimi · 1 year

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where there's smoke, there's fire - izuku x reader

summary: it's hard to get out of a loving relationship.

cw: yandere, horror, home invasion, manipulative behavior, abusive relationship, reader's kinda sick in the head too, smut, fem!parts, noncon/dubcon, oral sex (fem!receiving), penetrative sex

a/n: idk every overpowered person needs a killswitch ig.

You awake from a nightmare.

It's the type that has you bolting straight up to a sitting position, head pounding, throat dry and heart thumping in your chest in a frenzy. You're not sure what the dream was about, just that you were out cold for an unspecified amount of time, and while a sense of malaise is still set deep in your bones, there's an even more substantial leaden feeling in your arms, as though parts of you are still waking up.

And something is wrong, something that isn't neatly contained within the realm of REM sleep. You can sense it, keenly. It is dark in your room, and when your eyes finally adjust, you’re shocked to realize that your home is filled top to bottom with a thick haze of smoke.

Gasping, you then cover your mouth, remembering everything fire safety has taught you. Yet somehow, something about the smoke is wrong. There's no alarm going off from your smoke detectors, and you had an inspection recently, so you know those work. The smoke seems... wrong: too thick and evenly spread to be coming from a fire whose heat isn't close enough to feel. When you crawl out of the bed carefully, kicking off satin sheets, and using your fingers to make your way through the dense veneer, you realize it's still cold in fact, cold enough that you are shivering.

Perhaps it is fear that keeps the fine hairs on the back of your neck on end.

Still trailing around your mattress you maneuver further, waving a hand through the smoke. Maybe if you can find your phone, left charging on your dresser for once and not thrown irresponsibly on the other side of your bed as you slept, you can figure out what’s going on and call for help.

Your heart is still pounding, a thump, thump, thump, that is relentless.

The smoke smells wrong.

You find your phone, and somehow manage to turn on your flashlight.

The smoke is...

purple.

Your eyes widen with realization and you start to turn quickly.

"Izuku-"

There's a flash of green that seems to leap out of the darkness before you can begin to scream, and a body collides with yours, with the sensation almost like being hit by a moving vehicle in terms of speed and power; it takes your breath away, and a hand clasped firmly over your mouth refuses to let you draw a breath.

The smoke doesn't dissipate, not yet, but you can see him now, almost too clearly, and then your eyes water and your vision clouds.

"I missed you," he says, matter-of-factly. As if he hadn’t just broken into your home. As if he were welcome.

You try to say something but both the hand sealing away your voice and the firm hold he has on your body, pressing it close against his as he leans you against the dresser, allows you no such justice. Your phone crashes off the surface too loudly, and the squeak of the legs as the dresser slides across wooden flooring pierces through your ears.

Izuku's grin is wide and unsettling, like a feral cat delighted to finally have caught its unsuspecting prey. His teeth are disturbingly white in the dark, and his eyes still gleam like electricity in a storm. He doesn't need to use OFA to trap you, and nevertheless, you can see it ripple through his body as a form of intimidation.

By now, he knows that you've already given up flight, and he loves that you know that he knows. You stare at each other for a moment, recognizing the gravity of the situation, and time freezes for a split second.

Then it resumes.

"Say it back," he mutters now, dropping his hand. You'd forgotten to breathe in all this time, not even daring to inhale from your nose, and now suck in a huge volume of air, crying as you breathe it out.

He lets you weep silently for a few more moments, your hands digging deep into the edge of the dresser, watching you with the blank expression that is so unlike him but also far too much like him. It's the one that is devoid of his usual compassion, once he's decided that you are in no way worth saving but rather something to be dealt with. Swiftly, efficiently. When you catch it and recognize it for what it is, your blood runs cold and suddenly your tears dry up. They’re pointless.

"Say it back." his tone is more demanding now, and you shake your head.

"I didn-"

"Say it back." he repeats again, and he advances. The smoke is starting to clear finally, ever so slightly, and you can see a little more of him. He is superficially the same as you remember before you disappeared on him just a few months ago - same broad shoulders and imposing height, heroic frame despite the boyish, freckled face - but there’s a faint pallor under his skin, and he's just very slightly more gaunt, something you can peek from the neckline of his plain blue t-shirt, and there is a very slight tremulousness that extends to his fingertips that reminds you he is much more angry than he wants to let on.

You step back reflexively and consider standing your ground, and then you remember that the same hands that once held your face gently have leveled a building to that same ground, and you swallow hard.

"I-it's been a while." your voice is barely audible, weak, not much more than a whisper.

"That's not what I asked you to say," Izuku catches immediately. But he allows it, leaning in, and his face is all smiles again. Your stomach turns and again you're leaning back, but all that is behind you is a hard surface, and he even helps you up there, immediately hoisting you onto the short dresser so that your back presses against a mirror, something that can so easily break.

It’s not really that unlike you now that you think about it. You are just as fragile.

He snorts.

"Did you think I couldn't find you?" he asks.

You shake your head and he laughs, and quicker than a flash he's grabbed your face by the underside of your chin, squishing your cheeks together in mock intimacy.

"How cute."

Your throat dries up again enough that a sharp breath would make you choke and sputter.

His eyes dart back and forth, inspecting every part of your body, from your face to your neck, bosom to your upper limbs, then your thighs, bare in pajama shorts. You feel unreasonably vulnerable, like he has x-ray vision, seeing to the very center of your person. There is an impulse to cover your chest, despite being covered tastefully in a tank top, and when you try to cross your arms, he forces them back to their sides.

There's a gasp you let out and then you bite your lip silent, afraid to make him angry. Izuku glares at you, licking his lips.

"You realize I only let you go so you could get back to your senses, right?"

This has you taken aback, despite all your fear. What does he mean, 'get back to your senses'? You meant it when you left. Things had felt wrong for far too long, and the walls were starting to close in... calling too much, worrying too much, comments about your clothing and your comings and goings, nervous about any men who he wasn't aware of becoming too familiar, even your own brother... It had all become too much the longer you dated and suddenly you were a frog nearly half-boiled, realizing it was almost too late.

Maybe it is too late now. Izuku, you can tell, is still in his own twisted way, in love with you.

After all, his hand is running gently the length of your thigh as he waits for you to speak. You won't speak, but you know you can't look away, lest he throw a real tantrum. As if stalking you right now and demanding you tell him you missed him is not tantrum enough.

The smoke continues to clear.

"You're taking too long to apologize, my love." he says, once his hand has reached your face again, and he's tilting your face to look at him. You allow him to move you, like a warm life-size doll, not a human with thoughts and feelings of your own.

"I've missed you so much... sure i've been busy, but going home to that cold bed without you, night after night? How cruel can you be?"

He turns to look at your own bed, smaller than the one you shared but still enough space for two.

"Do you still sleep on the left side?" he asks. This time he's not looking at you, still staring at the mangled sheets on both ends.

He turns back to you now, expecting an answer, and when you don't give him one immediately, he repeats himself again, sharply.

"Do you?"

"Yes." you admit, wondering why it sounds like a grave confession. He smiles, and you try not to look at him. and yet he tilts you face back in his direction before asking you another question.

"Bunny, you're so cruel, you know that? Valentine's day?" he asks. His eyebrow raises and he tilts his head to the side. "How could you leave me on Valentine's day?"

When should I have? you ask in your head, thankful he can't hear your thoughts.

"I had a ring, love. I wanted to marry you, maybe that day even. We could sign some papers and disappear with each other for a little while… It could have been such a beautiful thing, you know how badly I need a break! So imagine how it felt to see that you were long gone!"

Izuku's grip on your chin tightens for a moment, then he pushes you slightly. The back of your head taps gently at the mirror behind you, but it doesn't hurt and the glass doesn't break, even if there is a sting where his fingers pressed onto your skin.

He steps back and laughs again, really laughs, hands running through his hair as he doubles over in amusement.

"I looked so stupid! flowers and chocolate and stuffed animals and sparklers... I was going to fly you up to the highest point and write our names in the sky.. I was..." his voice trails off, and he is staring off into space. You are shaking now, crying too, somewhere between terrified and enraged the longer he speaks.

His eyes narrow as his gaze snaps back to you from your sniffling sound.

"Say what you want to say, dove." The edge in his voice is palpable though, as if he is expecting a hit that he will return with just as much fervor.

“You can't force me.” Vitriol seeps from your voice but it’s shaky and unconvincing.

And so he laughs, again, sinking down finally onto your bed, and laying backward, an action that makes you almost furious. A mocking laugh, arms spreading like he would make a snow angel; bile rises in your throat and you fidget but you don't move, knowing that your break for it has to be smart if it will be successful.

"But you can make me fall for you?" he asks, through humorless chuckles. "That's not fair, is it?"

Bolder now, you retort, "I didn't make you do anything."

Izuku doesn't like this response, moving fast enough that one second he's off the bed and right in your face and the other second has you thrown onto the mattress itself; so fast that you barely register it until your back is where his back was, and he is hovering right on top of you.

"You approached me first." This is said harshly, as though he is regretful of that fateful encounter and you resist the urge to spit in his face.

No, you just said hi to him first, and he was smitten that you'd given him any attention, The cute but admittedly terribly awkward boy sitting alone in a coffee shop, with an extra chair that you'd wanted to borrow for your friends. Maybe you'd given him too long of eye contact, maybe it was the fact that you didn't know who he was yet; maybe you had flirted a little the second time you met, but who wouldn't when having a chance to meet the charming hero on television, the one who hugged children and petted dogs and smiled to the camera and disappeared villains in the blink of an eye?

How could you have known he had a couple screws loose? He was so good otherwise.

Until the paranoia set in. the obsession with you and your safety and your innocence and you belonging to him and the constant explaining away of unhinged behavior, and the long periods of absence with sudden, extreme and unending demands for intimacy - he was making you as crazy as he was.

"I didn't know you were insane." you finally say, looking straight up into his eyes, brazen behavior arising from three years of almost pulling your hair out and three short months of fear.

His eyes widen, and for a split second he looks furious, and in his eyes you suddenly see a storm - in fact, you imagine your entire home up in flames and lightning instead of smoke - and then he kisses you.

You fight back, but the grip on your wrists is like wrought iron - in fact, as though making a mockery of you as he leans all of his weight on top of you, he shifts your wrists forced at your sides to rest above your head, then uses one hand to keep them together, the other stroking the side of your face gently. The longer you kick at him, the longer he presses your legs down, then adjusts his weight to pin you fully, the longer you can feel your head start to spin from lack of air in your lungs.

"Settle down." he orders you, once you're almost dizzy, as the fight quickly makes its way out of you. He forces his tongue down your throat and suddenly, eventually, instead of biting you accept it, because this is a body you know, and a body that you've fought but you've also held, and the taste of his tongue is the same as it's always been.

His weight is familiar, and the way he sucks your tongue and his lips clash with yours is intimate, and again your fighting spirit drains further and further. Your limbs grow limp and he adjusts, now less on top of you and more fitted against you, large body accommodating to the spread of your legs.

He pulls back, and your eyelids flutter. Izuku looks at you with an unnatural amount of love, an unsettling amount of love, a love that is crushingly abundant and inescapable.

You hear him whisper, "that's my girl."

It should make you angry, but instead you're tired, exhausted even, and then you're comforted, because why fight him when you won't win and when he loves you anyway?

Will anyone else ever feel this strongly about you, enough to remove any obstacles in your path, even if it is your own silly will to be free? Will anyone else be so willing to be your own personal monster, at your beck and call?

You have the power to make the prison your home. After all, you are not only stuck to him, he is just as much stuck to you.

Deku is a good hero. Izuku is a good man. He is your man.

He’s strange, and he’s terrifying, but that’s because he is special. Unique. You have to understand where he’s coming from. If not you, then who else?

Your hands curl into his hair, tugging softly and your body shifts too, legs wrapping around his waist keeping him snug against you. You know if he wanted to, he would as easily melt into your skin as he wishes you would consume him. After all, what else runs through his head all day? It is only natural that separation from you should make him this anxious, this self- and outwardly destructive.

There is tragedy just as much as there is comedy and joy in fate.

"Do you love me?" you ask, as you feel Izuku grow against you with every wave of his body against your center. He nips and bites at you relentlessly, leaving hickeys everywhere he can reach. Marking you, marking you, marking you.

"Yes," he whispers. He kisses your earlobes, and your hands reach the side of his face, cupping them so that he faces you.

"Do you love me enough to ever let me go?" you ask again.

Are your eyes pleading for mercy? You know that they are wet with tears, but you can still see him. He's beautiful when he's not angry, when he's not afraid or stressed or vengeful. The sweetest man. A man you've loved. Someone you still love even if you are afraid.

Izuku shakes his head quickly, and tears fill his eyes.

"I love you too much for that to be possible."

You nod, and a tear slides sideways down your cheek. He'll never understand. Maybe one day you’ll accept it, when you’ve both grown too old to argue.

"Good."

He dips down low and kisses you and this time, you accept him more readily. It takes not long for your clothes and his clothes to be shed, and your naked bodies to press together fervently, the once freezing room now hot with twisted passion. Izuku bites your lower lip and asks you who else has touched you since him.

“No one, Izu,” you whisper.

He’s pleased to hear it, not that you could safely give him any other answer. His cock presses hot and heavy against your pubic bone; he hasn’t entered you yet, and you wonder how he’s managed to wait this long before stuffing you full.

Izuku kisses your forehead, then your nose, then lifts himself up so that he’s rested on his haunches. You gasp as he drags your lower half upwards to his mouth as easily as lifting a glass of water, and sips, then gulps your center down, thirstily like your pussy is an oasis and he is a weary traveler seeking solace.

He’s moaning, palming your ass cheeks with fervor as he slurps you down - worse so because he is loud as he eats you up - your back arches and you grab fistfuls of his hair as you whine and mewl and squirm under his touch. It’s too much, it’s always too much and yet you can feel your head swim with pleasure the longer he goes on.

After all, he just loves you so much, he just has a heavy-handed way of showing it.

“God, you taste so good,” he whispers into your folds. “You’re so beautiful, you’re everything, I need you so much, bunny, don’t you know?” His tongue circles around your clit, licks long stripes to the taint, dips into your center; he sucks at your folds, bites gently even, ignoring the straggled gasp you let out, or the way your legs tighten around his shoulders as you tense up and explode into climax.

As you shudder and shake as he lets you go, laying you back down to recover from the first blinding orgasm, he whispers that you are beautiful again, and again, and again.

You know you’re beautiful. He’s told you so many times already, enough that even if you stare at the mirror and think of yourself as less than perfect, you can hear him over and over again in your head.

Beautiful. Perfect. Gorgeous. His.

You are his.

Izuku takes no time filling you to the hilt once your breathing evens out - or once he runs out of patience - and you wince as you adjust to his size, but it’s a mostly pleasurable burning stretch as he bullies his way into your pussy, letting out a sigh as he nestles deep where he belongs, and he actually smiles, relief that you can see in the dim light when he presses his forehead again close to yours.

“Don’t we fit together perfectly?”

“Mm, ‘zuku,” you reply in the affirmative. Mollified and malleable you are now, as you should be for him, your voice is soft, barely a whisper, wavering only with the twitch of his cock inside you.

Izuku kisses your earlobe, and rolls you so that you lay above him, forcing you upright.

“So I can see you better,” he says as he nudges you, and understanding, you support your weight gently with your palms. He won’t make you ride him, he’ll do all the movement himself, but he loves to see the bounce of your breasts as they do now with every thrust upwards. Every gasp and sigh as you hold on to him, the twist of your features, the way you throw your head back when he has a firm grip on your hips and really goes to town; how you shake when you climax, squeezing your quivering thighs together in time with your fluttering walls, drawing in deep breaths for lewd, lewd moans.

Izuku plays you like a fucking fiddle.

He pleasures you first, because oh goodness, he can outlast you nearly any day of the week, drawing climax after climax out of you until you’re dumb and quiet, waiting for the thick spurts of cum to fill you up.

He’s done this enough times, until you’re craving and needy and forget why you’re mad in the first place.

Dick sick and sick in the head, just as much as he is.

And just like that, he forces his way back into your life. Legs tangled together as you sleep, lives intertwined anew like nothing ever happened.

You’ll become a very good liar yet again, but for now, as he rests, his face nestled into your bosom and hold unbreakable and inescapable, you decide to sleep, and leave your love problems to the morning to come.

#izuku x reader #izuku midoriya x reader #izuku smut #izuku midoriya smut #yandere izuku x reader #yandere x reader #bnha x reader #cw noncon #cw dubcon #thoughts: izuku #daydreams: bnha #mimi's notes

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m4rs-ex3 · 2 months

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i "did a thing" if you will

kefta's oh me oh my!!

*canonically ignorant keftas

(individuals n in-depth analysis aka rambling under cut)

darkling

i mean. what do you want. B L A C K.

the pattern (which you must zoom in to see) is a swirly deal, different from the sun summoner swirls; more like wood grain

sun summoner

sun rays! swirly swirls! yellow! idk just look at!!

squallers

more swirls! these were kinda hell but idk i like em

inferni

first big divergence: orange as opposed to red. i made sure not to have any repeat embroidery colors.....even though i changed alkemi so there is no red anymore.............anyway. i'm iffy on this one bc i suck at drawing fire but i think it turned out (it's mostly just the upper side panels cuz they look a lil too fur-ish)

tidemakers

they were teal in the show right?? idk but. this one might me my favorite, but i do fear it's a lil complicated, but then again: i can do whatever the fuck i want. and no i cannot draw water without copying the great wave. whatever it's sick

heartrenders

coporalnik were harrdddddd. heartrenders are--naturally-usually symbolized by the heart but i hate drawing real hearts so cartoon hearts it is!! kinda feel like that kinda heart wouldn't exist in this universe..... but hey look it pointy

healers

heart but upside down!! (seriously what r u supposed to do.) plus bandage imagery, as a treat. these two were really just Vibes.

durasts

also pretty hard, also mostly just Vibes. btw it is a distinctly different shade of gray (1 of 50, i've heard) from the squaller silver. u will not catch me lacking nice try bud

alkemi

the most notable sticker-outer--yea she's green. i mean cmon we have enough red and no green and everybody knows science is green. anyway this is another one of my favs. vapor clouds and bubbles what's not to love

i do love the embroidery in the show, especially how, yk, much there is of it, and how identifiable it makes it, but on the other hand the books only ever mention the cuffs and hems so i like to think i struck a nice balance

#and yes. no tailors i know #full transparency 1 i was lazy 2 i've never liked the red and blue and the white would feel rather flippant #and 3: the excuse #true tailors are rare enough that they can choose whatever the fuck they want #anyway #grishaverse #shadow and bone #shadow and bone trilogy #shadow and bone netflix #s&b #s&b trilogy #s&b netflix #grisha trilogy #the grisha trilogy #soc #six of crows #leigh bardugo #kefta #kefta designs

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emerxshiu · 1 month

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FORGOTTEN LAND'S SECOND ANNIVERSARY :3

I AM SOOOO BACK

I started this drawing yesterday around afternoon and finished it just a few minutes earlier.

I went with a messier type of drawing instead of more clean like the elfilin one from yesterday, i find it fun doing it like this, mostly cause i dont have to worry about making it perfectly so i dont get as frustrated as normal. Id place this one as my second best digital drawing. im pretty sure i havent posted what i consider my best digital drawing here, tho i do have it in instagram, i might post it here one day, tho these two are way too tied up, i love how this came out, its not exactly like how i imagined it but its really close to it, and also itd say that since i dont tend to play around lighting that much, this was such a joy to draw and i cant help but stare at it a lot, at least until i start hating it because i made quite a lot of errors. i also changed my elfilis gijinka just a tad bit from last time, but its not that big of a difference, mostly.

ofc i had to draw elfilis for forgotten land's anniversary, i tend to deny it in my head but yeah they're my fave of the kirby characters even tho i hate them a bit. I wanted to draw some more doodles, like, elfilis eating cake, kirby car, a bunch of other stuff (not elfilin cuz i already drew him yesterday) but when i tried i couldnt draw anything more, guess this drawing burned me out a lot, huh?

you can definitly tell i spent all the efforts on him cuz if you look a bit closer to the bottom part you'll see its almost barely detailed, but i mean, they're the focus so make sense i guess for me not add that much detail there. um also, maybe because i dunno i had OVER 130 LAYERS jeez no wonder firealpaca was slowing down so much, i need to manage my layers better next time, tho i did do something i keep forgetting, wich is naming them (most of them at least) that was a real life saver

Also, antares (fecto elfilis' spear/cadaceus), as always, was a pain to draw, but this time its probably been draw the most accurate out of every other drawing ive made with it in it, i didnt notice it was like, a little curved when it reached the blade

some close ups since his face is a bit hard to see

silly :3

fun fact! actually, this is technically a redraw, somewhere around between february and march i started a fecto elfilis drawing for the first anniversary, but i couldnt finish it in time, and i never finished it

thats...quite the improvement! (i remember being so proud of it)

also his wings are like that cuz i did not want to draw the pattern, its way too hard, i literally copy pasted it, wait, i was talking about the 2024 version but i looked at the 2023 one and i just noticed it also has the pattern copy pasted, i guess some stuff never changes since i still abuse the ctrl+c ctrl+v to this day

Also i ended up making a huge error there, i was planing to add the phantom spears from orbital pulsar (the attack he does first when you battle them at lab discovera) but theres an innacuracy, when they do the attack, they always close their eyes, i had actually sketched him (well i mean both these drawings are basically the first sketch (2023) or second sketch(2024) with some color, shadows and lighting. i didnt do lineart in the 2024 one cuz i wanted to be a bit like the og i made (too bad i sketched that one with black since the og was sketched with white due to me drawing the bg first)) with his eyes closed but them decided to make them open for a reason i cant remember, maybe i thought itd look nicer? idk

ive had the idea of redrawing this for quite some month now so it was kinda already planned

background cuz i think it came out really pretty

doesnt have the little stars since without elfilis and the structures it looks fucked up. the actual sky in game is more blue, but the clouds have some orange, in the 2023 ver. i made the sky orange, and in the 2024 ver i wanted it more accurate, but i didnt wanna loose the orange sky, so i did a gradient. pretty...

also here's a screenshot i took when i was like halfway trough it, its barely noticeable but i changed his mouth in the final drawing

I really love katfl, like a buncha whole lot, its basically almost my first mainline kirby game. 100% the demo, finished the game in almost one day, i literally play it monthly, like, every month i put the card in my switch, start it up, get morpho sword, and go shred elfilis in lab discovera. i would probably not even be here on tumblr and the kirby fandom if it werent for it. and i love it so much i genuinly cannot express how much i like it and treasure it with words or anything

Thank you for reading my unnecesarily long rambles lol

I hope i'll post tomorrow and dont forget like usual

Jambuhbye!

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laurialartsandvids · 1 month

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i know i know! its been a hot minute since i posted, but i SWEAR ive been drawing. in fact, i can post 4 DRAWINGS TODAY! i was inspired by fortnite of all things to make OCs loosely based off of ancient greek gods. feel free to not read the rest of the yappity text unless you care about my thought process, you can just look at the spilly pictures

!!!DISCLAIMER!!! im not a scholar on greek lore nor do i even try to be accurate in any way, if anything you can consider these queer OCS with parallels. im not trying to step on any toes here but if you have a genuine complaint dont be afraid to leave a CIVIL one in the comments please.

|hermetikles(he/they)|

this was my first one and it was based loosely around hermes. at this point i havent really figured out what i wanted to do so i kinda just made a design i thought looked neat and drew it. i did intentionally give him an extra pair of small wings on his legs for extra speed. also they have a sentient bag, i thought that would be fun and also messenger)

|aeyron(he/him)|

so this one is based off of eros. you might be able to tell by now a pattern of me kinda wanting to make a more 'modern' clothing style for the OCs, and yes thats kind of intentional. i later on decided i wanted to have a mix of what could be considered more stereotypically ancient greek styles(like that golden shoulder pad thing and the white robe/cape) but also other clothing styles i felt fit and that i liked. i felt the red hair fit because that kind of dark red evokes feelings of romance to me, and the tied up hair kinda looks like love hearts if you squint hard enough.

|nethaea(she/her)|

this one is based off of athena and probably the design i put the most thought into. first of all, owl mask and theming on the helmet: apparently according to my 5 minutes of wikipedia research that is a common athena symbol, so i added those here. the purple kind of sash thing and the blue scarf/tie thing around her neck is based around what judges wear. so athena from what i know is described as someone able to make logical decisions and someone knowledgeable, so i thought making her a judge kind of character makes sense. that said, the helmet and armour still nods to her being a badass godess of war, but in my imagination she would be more of a war strategist/planner now instead of being on the front lines. you might notice by her appearance that she takes a lot of similarities from a hazbin hotel character: yes, this is intentional. sera was a big inspiration for this design.

|apheno(they/them)|

apheno is based off of apollo. i made this one just today but im not so sure about it so idk i might update it. first of all, the blue hair and fur on the shoes/coat: because apollo is associated with and god of the sun, i thought giving him a kind of sky theme by making the fur and hair look like clouds would fit. this sun ordeal also inspires the orangeness of the coat and that spiky yellow design on it, which is supposed to be like a rising sun. there is also the bow which isnt too special but an inclusion i thought neccesary since apollo is also known as the god of archery.

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okay im done! i might make more of these, but for now these are the four i have made. ive also been designing lore and stuff for these but its far from being anything solid so no sharing for now! this is my first big post like this so i dont know how to sign these off, uhhhh lmao!

#oc #oc art #original character #Spotify

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camellia-salazar · 7 months

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Even more ponified Ed Edd n Eddy. Almost done (until I draw more).

Double Dee did a spell on her, the same one Twilight put on everyone but Rarity on that one episode of MLP. Just so she can hang out with Kev in the clouds.

(And yes I'm a stinky Kevnazz shipper, a multi shipper, and yes this is my second favorite ship or tied to first I can't decide).

Personally I think he's not that cool. Mid character. (Lies in sees potential).

The Cul De Sac kids because I want to see them and the Eds in the same page. Also the more I draw these guys the less stiff they feel idk.

Oh and kevin quoting that same laugh that I took from the game Mis Ed-ventures whenever you lose your life or get caught in said game.

The Kanker Sisters about to throw hooves. Idk what they're fighting about and I doubt they know either. Also May cutiemark reveal.

The Eds and the Kankers. Just to see all of them together, full body.

Transparent and more undercut:

Almost done with pony Peach Creek for now. Here are some things about ponified Cul De Sac kids.

Sarah: her and Jimmy wishes to be alicorns someday but are otherwise content with just being themselves. Pretty much close to match her brother's strength.

Her cutiemark is kinda hard to explain. It's a heart that's loud if that makes sense. Sarah can be caring to those who she deemed deserves it and she can be a loud mouth. (I might change it into something better but idk if I should save it for some other character).

Jimmy: A pegasus who's dream is to be a fashion model. He can't fly but only because he wasn't taught how to, but after a while like in season three or something idk I'd make a fan ponified episode where Kevin teaches him how to fly and Eddy joins in somehow. Not explaining it all here but I've been thinking about it.

Jimmy's cutiemark is meant to match Sarah's, which is a heart with a halo. (Not too sure about that one but as long as I gave them sort of matching cutiemarks then I guess I'm good).

Jonny 2x4: he's the only spotted pony in the Cul De Sac. Sometimes the others can't tell if his spots are dirt marks or actual spots. For the most part they are legit spots but at times there are dirt spots too. This version loves playing in the dirt as well as climbing stuff.

He doesn't have a cutiemark yet. Too occupied with Plank to try and get one. (When he gets one tho idk it might be an acorn. Or a melon. Maybe both. Maybe even two acorns).

Plank: speak of the devil. Plank is as mysterious in the pony world as much as he is in his original one. He only ever really hangs out with Jonny and pretty much tells him what to do most of the time. They're inseparable though.

Plank is as much of a blank flank as Jonny. Tho Jonny might draw him one eventually. (He just doesn't know what it should be yet).

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It's crazy how I'm unsure about Sarah's Jimmy's Jonny's and Plank's cutiemarks despite two of them not having cutiemarks yet.

Thanks for reading and viewing my fan art, have a great day/night! 👍🌟✨

Edit: oopsies did I forget to post this? My mistake original gangsta.

(this was in my drafts)

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thisdreamplace · 1 year

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hi dreamplace. i need some advice. i’ve been wanting to manifest having a hairless body because shaving is like a killer. 💀 it’s so frustrating seeing the 3d with unwanted bs. so i looked into laser hair removal today and I have enough money for the down payment but then i have to pay monthly for the rest. that sounds like shit for me. 😭😭😭 if a do it, i’ll have to force myself to find a job to pay it off. idek if that’ll work out well for me bc life has been such a struggle for me, sadly. in the end, i guess it’s best if I keep trying to manifest the hair away. bc the money situation stresses me out. so ig the i just need advice on, what do you do when the 3d is showing what you don’t want continuously?? it’s not even just the shaving that gets on my nerves, there’s a career path that I want but literally everything i want just never shows but it dangles in my face lol. just like the laser hair removal. i literally got a full consultation with the nicest woman ever. i got excited, just for my ass to not be able to do it. 🤣 it’s sad but i have to laugh. just ugh. i wish i had a secret code to finally get shit to go right for me, even the smallest things. 😩

hewwo <3

if the 3d is continuously not showing me what i want, i move into acceptance and surrender. bc im done. i'm not about to keep getting so caught up in smth when i have a choice, and could be using my time to enjoy whats going on in my present life. period !

here's the thing about it, u have to feel out ur feelings and allow them to be there. allow the disappointment and frustration but also surrender to it. it essentially feels like giving up. the thing is, u get a lot more clear about everything thru this and youre not so clouded by ur own fears anymore. for example, in ur ask u are so focused on how hard u think ur life is. but its like. to be fair i'm not going to tell u to keep sitting there and trying to force in ur hair being gone thru a manifestation bc clearly its been frustrating for u. however ! even after being so close to get what u want, instead of being open to it u went back to the drawing board talkin about some "even if i got a job whats the point nothing works out well" like !! wat ? how are u going to let life change and allow in ur blessings when u rather reject them... immediately ! so what if u fail ? u did smth different, u stopped pouting about lack and u tried to do smth u enjoyed. that counts for so much more than people give it credit for !! i would really urge u to stop using ur life till now as a blueprint and allow life, when it comes knocking with opportunities, and to allow yourself, to be open to whats coming into view for u. the more u focus on that and less on problems (past or imaginary) the more you'll see things shifting. thats just a fact ! plus i do wanna say too many of yall are obsessed with these wizard results (idk how else to call them rn) that u can't even see a success in front of you. and trust ik those type of successes exist bc it has happened to me plenty. but ALSO. life is a journey before it is wizards of waverly place. in my mind, i would have been like omg ! laser hair removal ! i can afford it rn and the consultation was great ! THIS MUST BE IT. but u saw it is as NOT a successful manifestation and ur saying maybe u should just sit there hoping ur hair disappears ? idgi. sometimes things just kinda appear, thats true. sometimes you actually go through a process and get to experience life. and that is amazing and exciting !

also emphasis on ALLOWING. allowing change, allowing opportunities, allowing emotions, allowing fears, allowing life to be what you want. bc rn this was a moment for u to see even if life gives u what u want, ur not going to allow it. but like a post i recently reblogged said, an anon was saying how they finally realized they already had so much of what they were sitting there thinking they lacked ! like omg, its so insane but so beautiful when we wake up to it. u only saw obstacles in that moment, which highlights ur focus ! let this be a moment of renewal and moving forward in an entirely diff direction ! <3

the secret code is fully you and the way you are perceiving life. its not any technique or challenge out there. our good doctor joe dispenza could really help u on this if u like reading. reading his book, "breaking the habit of being yourself" was the most pivotal thing for me to finally realize how i had been so caught up in who i thought i was, that i wouldnt even allow things to be different and yet i would sit there frustrated about why my 3d isnt shifting in the ways i intended. that book really makes you confront who you actually live as, and helps you start making the shifts into who you actually want to be. this is how your life begins to truly change.

#this ended up much longer than i intended #but i hope it is helpful <3

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astrovagrant · 1 year

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darcy thoughts;

is like 5'10", a kind of lankiness in the limbs somewhat offset by the fact that she's not super hard-edged - soft in the chest and stomach and thighs but hard to tell under her weird desertgear overalls. arms and legs are actually pretty muscled.

can really fucking haul ass (has a long loping stride at speed) when she has to; is a pretty good climber and overall capable of surviving most desert conditions on her own. knows better than to brave stupid shit like sandstorms and stays out of them if she has any choice.

keeps live plant samples on her person (i mean literal plants like tree seedlings not Plants) in her terrarium and has a second one on bec (her drone)

bec has a Land Form (legs, less power draw) and an Air Form (hovering/can fly, big power draw) and solar panels that mostly keep her ready to go. she's also loaded with tons of sensors and measurement equipment and a camera or two.

hair is always a bit of a nightmare to manage; she settles for finger-detangling and putting it up in a big clip most of the time.

since her hair is darker it's more obvious that she has fine curly hair on her forearms and a darling strip of fine hair down her belly underneath her navel when she lifts her arms to stretch - [v*sh averting his eyes Immediately]

is kinda meh about guns mostly bc she has an aversion to blood (yes this is embarrassing, yes she swallows the aversion when v*sh is attempting to hide injuries)

earth sign. gives wildly astute observations and advice before awkwardly pausing and saying "uh, maybe i shouldn't have said that, my apologies"

can get semi-frequent nosebleeds if she doesn't drink enough water bc the desert air really takes it The Fuck out on her. nosebleeds suck for many reasons for her.

relatedly: big water advocate. drink your Fucking water.

sleeps with big noise-cancelling headphones on bc it's one of those little travelling adaptations that make her life way easier

HAD a toma named yoyo (idk i'm drawing names out of a hat here) but her toma is how she and v*sh meet - he's making a Quick Getaway and her toma was the only one saddled, so he made off with it while she was getting bec ready for travel and was gonna get out clean except someone had A Braincell and shot his ride. he was eventually going to let it go but it's kind of immaterial at that point.

darcy had hoofed it out after him At Speed (far closer and faster than the people hunting him) because THAT'S MY TOMA - oh my god they shot him. You Got My Bird Killed. basard.

she activated a guilt debt on him and made him tag along after her for a cloud survey a few towns over, which went actually very well bc he is actually highly intelligent and just entered compliant service-mode (for the most part.) bc he DID feel bad

after which she released him from her service (as if that would've stopped him if he'd actually wanted to leave) and they continued to run into one another in stupid situations / travel in the same general direction

#eventually meeting insurance gals (married) and then tiff n nick #darcy #i guess also #vash tag #since there's Lore in here #long post

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dragonofthestone · 1 year

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@muses-of-kira ✏ || Cloud Boy practice!

So decided to do 2 drawings:

first one is a very wet Kumo- floof is down

And this, this is pure self indulgence to the core and I'm not sorry based on an idea of a Human Kumo / Aerugonian (Prince? Noble? idk Family be of some high standing with political sway none the less even if not royalty in this au)

Instead of his glorious crown of horns I tried so hard to give him like a fancy hair piece thing- with gemstones in it and made of like silver, as well as ear clasps cause Idk I liked how they look.

(It's not supposed to be a head band perse but eh it kinda ended up looking more like that)

And of course his signature scarf? choker? Couldn't not at least give him that much.

#shiroi kumo #ic #I've been wanting to try my hand at drawing human Kumo for a whiel and you gave me reason alright #ffu #my art #dragon draws #kumo shiroi #self indulgence at its finest

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lazuilis · 1 year

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hi!!! for the ask game: 4, 10, 19 (also, have you finished reading jwqs yet? i think you mentioned a little while ago that you hadn't finished it yet, but if you have i'm curious to know what you thought of the ending)

4. Fav character/subject that's a bitch to draw i tried to draw tidus from ffx the other day and i never realized how hard it would be to draw his hair. never doing that again ! also i have alw struggled when trying to draw hua cheng....idk why 10. Favorite piece of clothing to draw i kinda just want to say none because i am so bad at drawing clothes LMAO but…i do like to draw anything flowy and fun. so like ribbons or super loose skirts/sleeves 19. Favorite inanimate objects to draw (food, nature, etc.) tree/branches/stuff made out of wood. idk why hehe. also smoke/clouds

and i have not finished it yet sadly 😭 i have been really slacking off lately but i did just read like 30 chapters this weekend 👍

(i sometimes livetweet my distressed reactions as i read, but not here so i dont clog up my blog) if u are wondering i am currently at ch 164!

#ask #art ask #ty for helping my boredom also

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havethetouch · 1 year

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What are your top 3 most important OCs (main fursona excluded) and why did you pick them? :3

Okay first off... faahhhhahahahahakkkkkkk this one is hard and it hurts my feels a lil bc how do you expect me to choose? Or rather... how the F do you expect me to pick only three this is outrageous XD So.. hhh.. here goes nothing I guess? (Mind, I have more but I battle royaled them against one another mentally to pick for this one because 3 (three), the audacity.

First up we go with Alhayra I guess, which probably does not come as a big surprise. She was created around 2011 under less than ideal "circumstances" (if you know you know if you don't, don't ask). She is a hybrid of a Binturong and a Clouded Leopard and takes bit more after her Binturong momma Rehani visually but she has some Spotting and Markings on her that nod to her Clouded Leopard father Riyadh along with a longer, thinner cat-like tail and of course her face shape and snout are a bit finer and longer. If it weren't for her funky ears (which neither parent can really account for or explain) she would probably pass rather well as some sort of feline. Like I said her coming to be was not really the best thing ever but I can't bring myself to regret her existence because I loved her from the first moment my mind cooked her up and when she was on paper I knew I would love this OC forever. She has all the design elements I adore because even if I slowly start to go a bit wilder again with my designs back then I had a huge thing for favouring blacks, whites and grey characters so Alhayra hits all the sweet spots by being mostly black with white/ silver markings and of course - to no ones surprise who takes one hard look at my gallery - long silver hair. Also she has the thing i like to do with lot of my chars were you have some expectations because of how they look and they are the opposite, like Alhayra is a lite dainty thing technically but she can and will body you and wipe the floor with you if she needs to because I like deceptively small/ weak / fragile looking chars that can and will fuck you up. (idk man i grew up on Asterix among other things) So yeah look wise Alhayra has it all for me too which makes her enjoyable to draw. But eh... without saying to much about the before mentioned circumstances: Alhayra had some baggage attached to her that made it hard to work with her, on her, or the story I had to rewrite from more or less scratch because I became rather overprotective of her and didn't want to bring too much attention to her after some shit went down and sometimes I simply couldn't either. Which is why she is even more important now I guess. She has a history, she has baggage, she had to fade into the background for a while until I felt better and now she is back in action and marks closing a chapter, staring anew, reclaiming what was mine to begin with. She is a desert bandit in her story but she was born a rebel and she remained one. Drawing her these days makes me grin, so expect more from her in the next year or even this one if I manage.

Second up we have Siti. Siti is a fossa and she is a pirate and she is the reason why I have:

an epic story to play in

9 other amazing new characters to play with that came to life between 2020 & 2022

even more amazing characters that are not mine per se but that I spiritually adopted as also my children that I'm also allowed to play with

a compass tattoo which also happens to be my first that I spontaneously got etched into my skin in honor of Siti and everybody else and the story

reprieves and spots of peace from a lot of hardships in my life since 2019 - 2022 kinda decided to suckerpunch me ultra hard (and my family too) and last but not least

Siti is the reason I have the privilege and joy of being closer to a magnificent person and human being who i love very much and would move mountains for.

Any yo if a character gives you all of that you bet your ass they are on my important babes list. And now I think I need to rewrite my character creation process now that I say it here I guess or maybe not let's see how much I feel like editing - but basically for context i wasn't into doing group stuff anymore and weary of connecting with people in general but also with characters of other people because reasons but in 2020 @zelendur approached me with an invite to her pirate story ( which I had eyed from afar for a bit before that, especially Yadira) and it meant so much to me for reasons I can't even put to words properly but it did mean the world it still means the world to me to have been invited to this project and Siti basically sprung to life the moment it was said "you have to have a connection with an existing crew member to get aboard the priate crew" I pointed to Yadira, and a few hours later we had a connection, a background story and I had produced a sketch, the very sketch of the headshot above to be exact. While not fully fleshed out I haven't had a character spring forth to life in such a quick and detailed way in ages so it was amazing. I might also have projected a lot of my life into Siti... i mean you can find something of me in each character sometimes it's rather on the nose and sometimes it's more abstract but with Siti I wove a lot of stuff I had to deal with into her storyline. Example being that she grew up on an island were she was ostracized by her people rather early on and therefore grew up very isolated among her peers and it of course had an influence on how Siti deals and interacts with people and how she holds herself and all that stuff and it is related to the isolation I experienced from age 11 onwards with my own peers in highschool which did me no favours either. Her running an undercurrent of aggression that is hidden well under a calm and pleasant surface and a kind smile is also rather something taken directly though in Sitis case her aggressions stem from the fear of loss first and foremost. But yah Siti has some rather big chunks from me that dictate her demeanor. Sorry baby :) And like I said after Siti came a colourful cast of other pirate characters that I love to bits and that helped me get through a lot of stress and hard times since they've been around and it started with a hand held in my direction and a golden eyed character that sparked to life in a matter of hours because of it.

(cw: death/grief; passage is marked below) Third is Imago, she is really really old. I made her as a teenager, I used her as OC in the sonic fandoms back in ye olden days on animexx in rpgs (among with a shitton of other characters from the same universe as her). Mind, she was never much of a Sonic character to begin with and I never drew her as such but that is beside the point tbh I wanted to play with her and the others so that's what I did. In the end i got some epic storybeats out of that and my brother from another mother who was the only one who stuck around after the stories ended and things got harder in both our lives. We are in contact to this day, we were so fucking young when we met and at some point we also realized oh shit we have the same birthday too ain't that a coincidence? And it's mostly thanks to Imago and her brother Silence that we had so much to do with one another in the beginning and the rpg which lead to a over more than a decade old friendship (and damn let me think soon... yeah 3 or 4 more years and it will be two decades bro ain't getting younger) So ah fuck, so Imago is almost existing for 20 years now and the stories my bro and i are working together on is likewise this fucking old holy shit this only occured to me when I had to think about it lol. What else needs to be known about Imago is, that she is made from grief. Her story is kinda hard and tragic but ends hopeful and with being reunited with her brother and a lot of other shit. Look I do not want to roll out Imagos whole story mainly because it is fucking long and would take forever to explain (which makes sense I had almost 20 years to build this one and honestly her story spans over millenia in universe because she technically got killed and cheated death and stuff, it's a lot) and also because i dunno talking about Imago with my bro is easy, he knows her and everything but talking about Imago in general is hard. (cw starts here) Like I said, she is made from grief. She was made after I was introduced to the concept of grief and loss for the first time in my life when i was old enough to comprehend and still too young to deal. I had a person in my life, who i regarded like a second mother (I called her catmama) . She was my mothers cousin and my fathers best friend since their teenage years; they knew each other for so long too. She died when I was 13, I have recently realized that I am now almost a year older than she was when she died. And that fucks me up a lot because I can't imagine having my life cut short now, just like that, just like hers was and at the same time i can't believe I have now officially outlived her on top of that. Loosing her fucked me up, even so many years later it still fucks me up because time does not heal all wounds you know? You just learn to deal with it but it does get better that at least I can promise you. Imago came about because I missed her so much, I missed my mom. So I made Imago in her honor and gave her a lot of characteristics that I had admired in my teens about my catmama. Imago is strong, like she was, she is kind, she doesn't take no shit and has a spine of steel and despite her hardships she never gives up and never looses her kindness... and well Imago does die too in her story but she also manages to come back even if it takes a lot and isn't easy but for me implementing these story beats was important and healing and this is why Imago is one of the most important, if not the most important characters I have. (cw end) You will not see all too much of her because I rather write with her than draw her and also because i would rather avoid her getting too much attention in general and especially attention of the thirsty kind (which has not happened yet and i rather keep it that way yaknow?) But who knows if I draw something very magnificent with her I might. Given that I just realized how much time has actually passed since then i might be obligated to draw something epic. Imma put a pin in that for now.

#touch answers #my ocs #Touch speaks

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marc-spectorr · 2 years

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Hey Callie!

It’s Birdy! 🦜💛 I’ve actually been communicating with you out of anon so I like kinda forgot I hadn’t responded back yet 🤦🏻‍♀️🤣 Now I’m wondering…would it be weirder to stay on anon or weirder to come off anon?? 🤔

But anyway! Yeah I wasn’t sure if people named themselves so I was like eh I’ll just call myself Birdy 😁

When I wrote that, I hadn’t realized you hadn’t seen Inside Lleywn Davis yet. Good thing I didn’t say anything else 😬 Tell me when you’ve seen it because I think I figured out why it hit too close to home for me but I can’t say without bringing up a major plot point.

Totally not trying to be creepy but just thinking that we’re in the same time zone and in another post you were complaining about the heat and going to Disney world….I’m assuming you live in a southern state? Obviously you don’t have to answer that if you don’t want to! I live in one as well and thought it’d be funny if we lived in the same state. 🌴🌞🍊

Also came across a post you made about almost calling a patient Oscar?? I work in healthcare so something else we perhaps have in common? Lol Couldn’t help but chuckle at the thought of us working in the same building everyday, our heads in the clouds daydreaming about Poe Dameron and having NO idea there’s a fellow closet fangirl who’s a coworker 😂 I doubt you work in the same place, I just thought it’d be hilarious 😁💕

Omgosh I used to love to travel before I got busy with work too. Of course I only ever flew up north to visit family but I used to love being in the airport and on the planes…me and my best friend used to drive to Orlando all the time but life has gotten in the way recently. Where would you like to travel to next?? Like realistically, not like fantasy vacation ☺️

I like cooking too but I tend to pick the most complicated recipes for some reason 🤣 my mom always looks at me so exasperated like why can’t you cook something simple?? Lol I actually tried to cook a Guatemalan dish (do I really have to explain why 😆) called tapado the other night and it was SO GOOD. Omgosh it was like this seafood stew but it had bananas? Got the recipe from Pinterest lol But I almost sliced my freakin finger off trying to peel a yucca root. My mom and I were laughing our asses off (hey it’s either laugh or faint) because we were like (you have to whack the shit out of it to even cut it) “what kind of Tarzan shit is this?? Why can’t you just cook chicken?? Are you too good for just plain chicken now?? Who’s out in Guatemala looking at this tree trunk thinking CAN I EAT IT THOUGH?? You know you’re never going to actually cook for Oscar Isaac right??” I almost peed myself I was laughing so hard!!🤣🤣🤣 Other LESS DANGEROUS hobbies I have are drawing, junk journaling, singing, writing poetry, and editing videos. I have a vlog channel on YouTube that I don’t pay nearly enough attention to but I love editing my home movies for my family ☺️💕💜

Can’t wait to hear back from you! Big hugs!! 💕🌸🌼🌺🤗

—Birdy 🦜💛💚

P.S. I watched Dune last week. Have you seen it yet? Cuz UGJSOENBEOWJLWODIDHEBO DEJSJSNDCIWODJR

heyooo birdy 💚🧡💚

omg we’ve been communicating off anon?? *tries remembering all of the blogs i’ve been interacting with in the past few days* this lowkey reminds me of a movie which i cannot for the life of me recall the title lolol. but it’s definitely up to you if you wanna stay anon or not! as long as we’re chatting, i like it either way :)))

ahh not creepy at all haha! i actually live in the northeast! yeah it’s hot here but you guys down there??? idk how y’all do it,,, the heat there is another level 😭 the only place i’ve visited in the south is florida and i was not vibing with the weather there at all skskksk. i prefer cooler temps like those in autumn/spring tbh. i hate sweating 😵‍💫 and yeeees!!! i work in healthcare too!!!! wow isn’t this crazy lmao. but ugh that would be so funny tho if we’re working together not knowing how big of a simp we are for the same man 🥲 my coworkers don’t get the whole simping culture unfortunately. must be nice not being hyper fixated on someone :////

as for where i wanna travel next, i’ve been planning a road trip to montreal some time this summer 😭😭😭 idek if it’s going to happen tho bc i can only go during weekends and it’s hard for the others to take off on those days. i would head there by myself but im not strong enough to drive the entire six hours LOLOL. i’ve been to toronto and the length of the ride was brutal i cant imagine driving there on my own.

HSJDJDBJDKSJJ HEY OSCAR WOULD BE SO PROUD OF YOU FOR COOKING GUATEMALAN FOOD HAHAHA. okay now im hungry after reading what you said and it’s only 8am ;-; i haven’t even gotten out of bed yet lmfaoao. but i wanna try this recipe out one day 👀 the only thing ive been cooking lately is pasta and chicken dishes since they’re easy and don’t take too long to cook ahjsjsjsj. also oOo a vlog channel :oo ohmigosh when i was younger i was obsessed with yt vloggers and vlogging in general. i even created a beauty channel but was too afraid to post lmaoao.

ahhH i havent watched dune yet 🤭 but ohhh goshh ive seen the gifs. im not ready to see oscar in his dilfiest role yet. i’ll let you know once i get to it plus llewyn davis!!! im still on a star wars high right now and mentally preparing myself for the mandolorian 💀

anywaaayyy love you birdyyy. you’re always a hoot to talk to :))) see you in my inbox hopefully soon 💕

#asks #🦜 anon

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kittytual · 10 months

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🦋🌷🌤️🍧 meowwwww meow meoww meow

RUBS HANDS TOGETHER MEOWMEOEMOW

🦋: (butterfly emoji) FINALLY soemone asks abt my wip hiii <3 so im currently working on a few diff wips rn, the most notable is a fic ive been working on since march 2022 called lavender. and its abt like. the parallels between two chars, kurapika and neon from the hit shonen Hunter X Hunter. yeah! also theres a whole leopika side plot and neon dealing w comphet. idk i like when togashi draws paralells between two characters u wouldnt think to be alike in anyway, ESPECIALLY w villains or antagonists, so thats kinda the main part of the fic as well as kurapika trying to overthrow the nostrade foundation. it takes place post-yorknew during the greed island arc

some other stuff im working on is. yes, Another fic but this time its a pjsekai one, abt mafuyu realizing she's transmasc (uses she/he/they) and that being like. an act of rebellion against his mom in a way, like not catering to her idea of them and finding out and reclaiming her agency/identity. and mizuki helps him bc they're also trans (specifically transfem) but deals w their own issues as they havent rlly told the rest of niigo that yet. the last thing is a poem abt my issues <3 bc all my poems r abt that, usually mental health and transness, or both. it also has like. theatre/play motifs which is funny bc im not even a theatre kid but yk. anyway i'd like to write abt aromanticism or aplatonicism poem-wise someday as ive been thinking a lot abt that lately

🌷: (pink flower emoji) ig like the fact that ive written 40k words before. ik ppl have written WAY more than that but yk

🌤: (sun in front of cloud emoji) honestly A LOT like........ its rlly hard to do anything writing wise as i dont always have the energy or motivation. currently its hard to brainstorm wips and feel like im connected to them at all, but hey!! im trying :3

🍧: in my notebook in middle school GHJDSHGFDJGH i used to always get in trouble bc of it. i did this in early high school too until i made the switch to using my laptop

summertime writing asks!

#ty for the asks ren!!! meows #asks #i love talking abt my writing even though my ideas only ever appeal to me FHGDJKGHJGH

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armyhome · 2 years

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drivers license | Kim Namjoon

⇢ pairing: Kim Namjoon x Female Reader.

⇢ summary: Driving all night trying to found a destination that is not you.

⇢ autor notes: First: I know I'm late to Moonie bday this year, but with a new job, new responsibilities were demanded, second: well I wrote this one the moment Livs dropped the song, but everything became so chaotic between the fandoms, got me afraid to post and only make it worse? Idk, but I'm here to ask kindness, her songs inspires me a lot and I care about her if you don't feel the same way, it's okay, just don't bother me pls.

⇢ word count:1.1k

Right now our memories are like a kaleidoscope, fragments of good and bad moments spin around really fast like the road being swelled by my car, I couldn't stop driving since I pick my license, tears run to my face and I press the accelerator more, he probably with her right now, fuck!

I work so hard on this license because Namjoon say so many times he was so afraid to drive, and wanna to bad travel around because no one in their right mind wanna drive in São Paulo with this terrible traffic, he didn’t know how expensive was this license??

“Take it easy, you are going too fast!” I hear his voice, nice now I’m hallucinating!

"You are not real so why do you care?" I go faster, I wish he was here so I can scream right in his face.

“Why you can not see for the bright side, you will have more independence now..” Okay, I should punch him.

“I don’t know if where you are from this kinda license is cheap, but here is enough money to travel for another country!” I punch the steering wheel “I always say to myself: Don’t be that kind of girl who do everything fo love, remember what this made to you mom, BUT I WAS SO STUPID IN LOVE WITH YOU FOR CHRIST NAMJOON!”

I put the car on the roadside, I need to breathe. Why I was being so emotional about this why? Even in my high school days, I was like this, how can I get so madly in love this time, when he was probably whit that blonde perfect girl that was part of his composer team?

The thing I didn’t understand was the song, why he writes something so beautiful when don’t mean it? Namjoon’s feelings were so superficial?

We both are not perfect persons, and that was a fundamental part, the fact I could see his scars and he sees my scars and realizes that even being in different shapes and drawings they kinda look like.

Maybe she understands best than I do, but will I find someone who understands me as much as he did? We used to know so much about each other, more than our close friends.

“Stop crying…” And here it goes his voice again.

“Okay, I know you are just a hallucination from my subconscious, but maybe there is my answer and I don’t know!” I dry my tears using the back of my hands and turn on the car again

“Why did you compose that song when you didn’t mean it?"

“Who says I didn’t?” I laugh, out loud and put the car back on the road.

“If you mean, why you are not here, but with that blond girl? Why you are not here to see me driving like you say that you wanna do so much?” He sigh and don’t say a thing “You don’t mean what you wrote about right?” And silence one more time.

It was late, almost breaking down when I finally diced go home, the Marginal was getting full of cars, people going to work, I almost crash into the car in front of me because of the BTS logo stick, the red light was on and I didn't notice, so the Eldorado shopping as projecting the members face promoting the new movie, and one more time I almost crash, this time in a light pole, I would need so much therapy, oh lord, so the car next to me start to play their songs I give up of being sane. When I park the car the skies were blue like just winter could provide, with no summer rains clouds to interposed that beautiful blue. It’s over, you need to be forgotten everything, no one gonna know about this freakout moment, it’s over, time to come back for a normal life.

The bird sings like it was saying that should be the time to get out of the house not get in, he wasn’t wrong, but today I need a rest, and later I walk and found some inspiration to write, this creative block was killing me, this filling unsolved is killing me.

When I get inside, my heart falls “What you are doing here?” I ask Namjoon sitting in my favorite chair, he looks at me “You should be with your new girlfriend, did she knows that you are here?” I didn’t let my heart feel hope because of his presence “Are you even real?”

“You didn’t notice, but I was really the whole night…”He shows his cell phone, a call with more than five hours “I think your smart call is on, and when you say my name he calls me”

“Okay, now I know that I have to erase your phone number, don’t worry, will not happen again, bye!” He looks at me for a long time “BYE NAMJOON!”

“I just wanna say that, at the time I wrote that song, I really mean, I really think was forever, I sorry that I can’t keep that part, but you still important to me, I don’t wanna be erased of your memory” He get up of my chair “Don't lock your self in your parent's story, you are not your mom and your dad…”

“And you don’t have a tour to plan? Why are you here, Namjoon?” I look inside his eyes, I will not forgive him if I see pity in there, there is not on there, I go to the kitchen to free myself from his presence, I need water.

“This is the last tour before I go to the army for two years, I hope you can go, I truly hope you reconsider living with us, our relationship should not interfere with those things, you are an amazing professional…” I put the glass on the balcony with more strength than was needed.

“If is because of my work don’t worry, I already found someone perfect for my spot, an amazing professional, don’t worry, now can you please go?” I show him the door “And give me back my keys, I don’t need to find you in my house anytime you are here” He put the keys in my hand.

“I really mean, the song and wanna you in the concert” I took a deep breath..

“Please, tell those things to your new girl, write for her a song that you really mean, go to the army and after that come back for her, on a rainy day, like a proper kdrama, I don’t care, I’ll live my life from now one, and will not involves you at all, okay? Now goodbye Kim Namjoon! For real!”

I watch him leave, my heart breaks every step, but I will keep strong, I will keep going, no one dies because of a broken heart, one day I will use that driver's license for something bigger than traveling with Namjoon, but right now, I will found a way to heal my broken heart.

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