#i’m in bed just losing it over this

[inkykeiji]

oH?????????? MY GOD

#i’m in bed just losing it over this #with my retainers in (both of them!) and my squishmallow in my arm #as my boyfriend gets ready for bed #in the washroom #just listening to me go OHHHHH MY GOD #oh my fucking god h #i #i am #l #actually losing my entire mind #the shig one is gorgeous too but WILL YOU LOOK AT BIS #HIS FACIAL EXPRESSION?????????? #he’s so sexy!!!!!!!!!!! wow!!!!!!! #jesus christ #jesus christ on a BICYCLE #okay okay i’m going to bed now i just #had to come scream in the tags for a moment #oh my fucking god the things i’d let him do to me #the things i’d do to him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #clari loses her mind over dabi #<- genuinely should be a tag tbh

[pinkspiraling]

i’m still talking about Hot Bartender i’m sorry i can’t stop i want to throw things at him rn

tw sex

what i can’t wrap my brain around is like…what’s he even doing? i know he was hanging out with his friends earlier and i’m guessing he’s home by now. so like if he’s at home why is he not thinking that he wants me there??? he could be having sex with me right now but he hasn’t asked me to come over after i asked if i could see him. why the fuck is he not interested in having sex with me tonight. ik ik i should be respectful that people don’t always want sex blah blah blah but idc i’m just being crazy, let me be crazy. CAUSE WHY!!!! W H Y don’t he wanna fuck me!! it was unbelievably good last time! and he was talking like he likes me! but he don’t fucking want me so i have to burn down his apartment building /j

#besties i think i’m losing it just a little like i’m so mad and sad and sleepy and conflicted and i wanna scream #i could literally just text him but now it’s late and i’m kinda over the idea of driving all the way there now #and like. if i don’t feel wanted then i don’t want to go. if i have to beg for a text i’m not going! #i’ll cry alone in my bed instead. and hope that next time it goes better #pink’s word vomiting

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

one thing abt being disabled/chronically ill that some people don’t get is that sometimes body maintenance that ensures you have the absolute minimum amount of function can also be something that takes away a lot of control and autonomy. you can argue till the cows come home that making those decisions to try and help yourself (or realistically to try to make sure things aren’t worse than they already are) is something that exhibits control and autonomy and stuff, but they can be so limiting in practice because they’re things that take up so much time but have to be done to do anything else

#i have to sleep a lot. i’m at the point where functioning requires 8 hours of sleep if not more #I should probably be getting 10+ but i’m a student and i work so 8 is the minimum. but then also getting ready for bed is a whole process s #the whole thing can take 10-12 hours depending how much im sleeping. just to make sure i can do anything #that is time in my day i cannot use for anything else. it’s not ‘oh but i can push through it’ because i can’t without spending the next da #lightheaded and nauseous and vaguely dizzy and with such intense brain fog I can’t think with my fatigue so bad i genuinely don’t know how #get myself to work a lot of days. my abled peers don’t have to deal with this at all. they have unlimited study time if they want to #and yeah it is a choice i’m making that’s true i could just not do. except i would lose my job and fail out of college because i would not #be able to get to classes or do my homework or think. but being told ‘but you are making choices about your life’ when i have lost so much #of what i used to be able to do because i am spiralling down and continuing to get worse is so. #literally last year i would wake up at 6:30 and then go to school till 3 and then go to my internship until 10 and get home at 11 and be in #bed anywhere from midnight to two in the morning and then wake up the next day and do it all again. i graduated with a 3.9 gpa and made it #into my top college while dealing with my cancer symptoms and then the two surgeries about it #but now i lose half my day to just making sure i can get out of bed. i can’t go anywhere because my body is physically too exhausted #any extra time goes into doing homework or occasionally time to myself #not decimating my health by doing minimum body care responsibilities isn’t freeing. occasionally i have a good day which is freeing but tha #usually goes into just. other things outside class or work or eating. I don’t go do something for myself or go do something fun on good day #because I still can’t. good days just mean i don’t want to lie down on the pavement when i’m going somewhere #I just. I don’t magically have control over my life because i try to get enough sleep. i lose half my day to doing that and ultimately it’s #just a bodily function that would have to happen anyway #this is a vent post im just having a really hard time right now because it feels like im in exponential decline. it was nowhere near this #bad last semester. my grades are tanking and i have no free time because anything outside of sleep is either work or school #vent tw #yall can rb this just ignore my tags completely #disability #chronically ill #i keep trying to explain to people how pots works because that’s all logical but there’s no way to explain what it’s doing to my body or ho #i feel all the time. the last time i felt this bad was when i had a bad flu or immediately after surgeries because i don’t react well to #anesthesia and always come out of them feeling like shit. and now i just feel like this all the time and it’s only getting worse #I can’t even stay up late anymore because my body feels like it isn’t counting the sleep even if I get 8 hours #I can deal if I have a free day the day after but that just leaves Friday and Saturday nights and I usually still have to do homework

[ssreeder]

How do you plot and think of ideas for your fanfic? It's very detailed

I take a simple idea & over think it.

#that’s really all it is… #I decided PRISONER ZUKO #& then over thought that idea until Sokka got dragged in there with him #doing chores: over thinking #running errands: over thinking #laying bed: SUPER over thinking #I probably have 20k of just notes #& then comes the research #like… so much research #I’m constantly clearing my internet history #so people don’t see my googling: can you kill someone with a stick? #How long does it take a body to burn into ash? #what does it feel like to lose an arm? #& an assortment of so much more horrible questions lol #sorry if this isn’t a detailed coherent answer #I just overthink and research until I’m exhausted #ask #liab #ria #thank you for the compliment btw #It was nice to hear honestly

[vulcannic]

after spending some time on twitter, i’ve kinda realized how stressful and annoying it is to have sideblogs for every one of my interests on here, so i’m thinking of possibly leaning more into being a multifandom blog???? i would still post star trek because it’s the love of my life, but i’d also reblog my other interests like ofmd, wwdits, fotc, etc etc to this blog too? i’d tag everything so people can filter out what they don’t wanna see, but idk yeah it just feels right

#text #i know it’s stupid to say but the idea of becoming multifandom again after like idk 8 years is scary lol #i’ve been a star trek blog forever #but i literally have like 6 sideblogs for all my interests and it’s just…. a lot #this is my main and then i have my art blog but that’s all i want #plus a lot of my twitter mutuals are coming over and they’re following my art blog because that’s the handle i go by on twitter #but i ONLY post art there #here is where i do my silly posting but nobody knows to follow me here or i’m afraid nobody wants to because they don’t rlly knkw star trek #and tumblr doesn’t allow you to reply from sideblogs so i can’t even interact with people from my art blog #idk i’m just feeling a lot of emotions about twitter shitting the bed #i’m just really afraid of losing that sense of community i’ve gained from being of twitter

[tafadhali]

Me coming home from the con with a hangover, a black eye, and my second third cold this month: That was fun!

#lol #the hangover was at the con i'm over it #the black eye doesn’t hurt much and is fascinatingly colorful #but is mostly an absolute mystery as it happened in my sleep #the cold is nascent and i’m really really mad about it #this was a 100% masked event and i was so looking forward to NOT getting sick at a con for once #i only feel mildly under the weather so far but i had an awful cold over christmas and new year’s and i want a break #i also had/have my first real period in nearly a year and so this was also a weekend of copious bleeding and cramps #idk why my body decided to just lose its shit for my first in person con in 5 years #anyway i'm grateful today was early release due to weather because i’m going back to bed now #updated because i remembered i had a very mild cold 4-5 weeks ago in addition to the killer one 2-3 weeks ago

[vampirebutterflies]

listen ‘ere boy there is a voice in ur head telling u ur fine and you don’t need to go to therapy tomorrow and that voice is a f u c k i n g liar don’t listen to it boy don’t fuckin’ listen to that rat ass bastard it does NOT have ur best interests at heart

#vent in tags etc etc #aim losing my mind over here #it’s fine #see the thing is I’m so deeply lacking in like. the emotions edition of object permanence. I can have a massively heartbreaking reaction to #smth and then once I’m out of that moment and even slightly distracted it’s like nothing ever happened ?? #so like yk I was nearly [radio static noises] over talking to my therapist abt the young csa thing and I’m meant to be starting emdr tomorr #tomorrow* except like for the past two weeks I’ve overall been fine regarding that?? instead it’s the ed and other traumas flaring up so ?? #idk how Specific emdr is I honestly don’t know much about it yet but like yk now I’m wondering if I should delay starting that in favour of #talking about the other badtimes tm rearing their heads atm. todays in particular was unexpected it happened this morning and it’s only just #like. hit me and started biting and it’s ?? also dumb cuz like on one hand I’m pretty okay but on the other hand the other half of my brain #is spiralling hysterically to the point where I’m very glad I’m already in bed and like I know [redacted] won’t help but it’s like my brain #is just so lost about how to hold these things and what to do at all so it’s just pulling out the bad coping mechanism and insistently #thrusting it in my lap and waving its arms like it wasn’t even That Bad tm of a situation today but it Was some very specific factors which #are holding hands with Other specific factors and then The Location Of The Events is just #yea okay maybe I will talk to her abt this / these things instead if I can #ah the joys of heavy personal responsibility at a very young age and the severe guilt that gets bred from that and the fantastic experience #of things being so far out of your control and almost destined to fail and the absolute wonder of The Actual Person(s) To Blame Having No #Consequences For Their Actions and ending up feeling like you failed and you’re a complete fraud cuz no good you do will make up for that #one situation and yeah okay I’m gonna go sleep #ugh

[hellfireeddiemunson]

my cat is acting like. super duper weird and lethargic and i’m freaking out a bit but i literally have nothing i can do besides what i’m already doing

#i’m just very nervous i don’t want to lose her :( #she’s just acting soooooo off and it’s only been in the last ???? 6 hours and i was asleep for 2.5 of them and idk if she was acting this #way before i got home from work or not????? idk but i just am anxious i want her to be okay :( #she’s never had any issues before and she isn’t showing toooooo many bad signs but she’s just acting so Wrong compared to normal #idk i’m just eutjejfjsjgjjefjsjfj #i’m gonna keep her in my room tonight i think bc otherwise i’m scared she’s gonna hide behind my parents bed and ….not make it…..and then we #literally won’t be able to get to her bc of how my parents bed is built like fhsurjsjdjfjfiejrje fuck #i’m gonna clear a spot on my floor for her food and water and a litter box so she can do whatever she needs but idk #i don’t know the last time she ate but she’s also not a cat who eats A TON so it’s hard to keep track of it Anyway #i know she’s had water but also ???? idk how much bc now she just sits over the water dish and doesn’t do anything ???? idkkkkkkkk #i just !!!!!!!!! don’t know what to do at all ilove her so much :(

[rosicheeks]

You no longer pop up in my notes when you like/ reblog from me and I hate it!

Bah that’s concerning 😔

I guess just in case anything happens I’ll leave my backup here - rozicheeks

#I’m super nervous I’m going to be shadow banned or just straight up nuked soon #I did make a backup blog #I haven’t posted it yet but maybe I should just in case #I’m so so so so scared I’m going to lose everything I’ve worked on #dumblr why do you suuuuuck #bahhhhhhhhhhhh #first the messaging #and now this #I’m so sad #thank you for letting me know #I was going to wait and post my backup when I get it all set up #but I’m scared I’m going to go to bed #and wake up and I won’t have a blog anymore #🙃🙃🙃🙃 #so follow me over there just in case 🥺 #ask #anon

[fizzytoo]

now i understand why my mom was so pissed when i waited till the last minute to do my school projects 💀 my brother has a science fair project due next week & i’m just finding out he avoided FOUR (4) weeks of work

#i didn’t think it was that bad #this whole time he’s been lying about how he’s doing it and i know we shouldn’t have just trusted him 😭 #now i’m anxiety ridden over someone else’s assignment #and don’t get me started on latine mothers and their sons bc my mom is babying tf outta him and i know getting upset won’t help the #situation but damn 💀💀 she just told him to go to bed and worry about it tomorrow #++ what’s REALLY making me lose my mind is that a few days ago he asked me to help with the drawing part.. like ??? i rlly thought he was #on track w the plan he made in the beginning so i didn’t think anything of it and now?? babe LAMISKDJD #he kills me istg #*fizzyspeaks

[handcat]

am i autistic gang, yes or no

#it’s taking am i autistic quizzes time #quiz said yeah #and other quiz said 50/50 tho #brain hurty i’m just gonna go to bed actually #there is certainly Something going on up in me noggin #but a few too many ppl have assumed i’m autistic or adhd recently and it’s making me over analyze my behaviors #like hmm i do repeat things a lot #i can’t tell if people like me or not #i do freak out when my routine is interrupted #losing the fight against the autism allegations #but also i need someone else to tell me bc i can’t trust this bitch (me) #idk i’m also just having a moment this evening #need to have a therapist who i can list all of my behaviors to and have them tell me if they’re normal or not #my previous therapist wouldn’t do that tho bc he’s a bitch #said there was no normal #like girl yes there is fuck off and tell me if it’s normal to watch the same few 5 hr long video essays on repeat for weeks #unable to watch anything else #only reviews of media i’ve never seen #brain is soup man idk #maybe it’s not autism and i am simply Strane

[myfirstandlast]

im scared bc now that i’m essentially getting this public school job i know my body and mind have begun to settle into its fugue state where i have no thoughts and make no progress and waste literally all the time in the world because i just can’t imagine any other options it’s how i wasted four years with my major it’s how i ended up joining gr**k life it just feels like this is it and i trap myself

#let’s say i miraculously get a car and to move out post-september getting my license #it definitely won’t be until christmas at the earliest because i have to finish out the year #but as soon as the year is over my parents are back on my head about applying for master’s programs which i still don’t want to do #i don’t have a break to be free #and i’m certainly not gonna to be inspired to find my dream artistic lesbian job in middle of nowhere GA at an elementary school of all plac #like everyone too old or too young to understand me. no real work friends no real ACTUAL friends im just going to be going to work and going #home. oh lol i started crying typing. im really over talking into the void i need someone to hear me and help me #but even if up to that point EVERYTHING somehow falls into place. now i’m entirely alone with more bills no resources no one to call and no #idea what i want in any capacity. like i feel like a caged animal i feel insane #im falling into my coma of uselessness and i already lost the entirety of my adolescent young adult years i don’t want to lose my 20s too #not to be like 30 is ancient your life is over then obv not but i don’t care about what i do in my life at 30 and beyond #i want my life to be happy NOW i WANT the best of my life to be in my 20s where i can get away with the most stupid fun because i’m just #young and gay and i still have an excuse for not knowing what my life is yet. i cant breathe not knowing what i want to do but at least its #an excuse. i feel like dying i feel like my insides are rotting to black ash we’re social creatures and im suffering #i sound so stupid. i know i really know. but the people i see living the life i want carefree making money as it comes #have parents who lovingly text them who care but stay out of the way who are supportive but aren’t up your ass and down your neck #they’re just people that would raise kind smart independent individuals and im none of the above so i don’t have a good shot as it is #but i still want to be free. i want to die but i want to be free just a little before then #i hate my life. i hate waking up in my bed every day and seeing my bedroom and being in my house. i want it to be over

[slvttyplum]

ovulating with satoru is hell. you want him to bend you every which way and slut you so badly that your claws literally dig in your thighs to stop you from jumping on him.

humping the bed when he’s not around, staying extra long in the shower to play with yourself, you would spiral.

if he were to fuck you while you were ovulating, there was no chance in hell; he wouldn’t take the chance to cum inside you, and you wouldn’t want to stop either.

one day, you couldn’t help yourself, you had to have him. he just got out of the shower with the towel hanging low, showing his happy trail and his wet hair.

he looked so fucking good, you couldn’t just ignore it, so you jumped on him and started to ride him without a care in the world.

he let you take him over and rock your hips on top of him with your hands placed on his chest and your head thrown back.

“ahhh, fuck, this feels so fucking good.” your teeth biting down on your lower lip, and your eyes squinted, trying to take in his dick pushing into your sweet spot.

this is what you needed. something big and hurt by stretching you out and pulsing against your walls, not your fingers or grinding against a bed.

satoru shifted as you clashed down on him repeatedly. you felt so good that he didn’t know what to do or say; the only thing that could come out were a series of moans and groans.

your pussy tightening around him every time his tip hit or grazed your sweet spot, and your stomach sucking in trying to hold in your climax.

if it weren’t for restraint, you would’ve come right then and there on his dick, but you wanted to enjoy this and savor it.

satoru’s hands that were placed firmly on your hips to keep you in place from falling by how you were bouncing on his dick, sliding up to your shirt, and sliding under the fabric.

gripping your breast and playing with your nipples, the sensitive sensation sending chills down your spine and a lump in your throat.

“stop… stop don’t i’m gonna cum.” if he kept messing with your nipple, you were going to explode, but your body didn’t hold out on your strain.

your pussy clenches once more before your back arches, and your mouth falls open as you start jolting on top of him.

this went on for hours and days of you clinging onto him to please you, and he did.

your walls were pulsing and craving for him every minute of the day. it felt so good when he was finally inside of you, hitting all the right spots.

as much as you were scared he was going to lose it and cum inside you, there’s no way he could wear a condom, you had to feel his flesh.

so the only thing you could rely on was hope and plan b.

but to both your surprises, it was you who was begging him to cum inside you, arching your back, and fucking yourself onto him to feel every single inch.

“give it to me, please, cum inside me.” he didn’t even hesitate and pushed his cum deep inside of you, even letting it leak out.

“look at that,” with a sly smirk on his face. that night, satoru rushed to the nearest store and got what he needed, and you took it.

the next day, you were in your right mind and embarrassed.

“ugh, i don’t want to talk about it.”

#jujutsu kaisen #jjk #jjk x reader #jjk x you #jujustsu kaisen x reader #x reader #gojo satoru #jjk satoru #gojou satoru x y/n #gojou satoru x you #jujutsu satoru #gojou satoru x reader #jujutsu kaisen satoru #satoru smut #satorugojo #jujutsu gojo #gojo smut #jjk gojo #gojo x reader #gojo saturo #gojo x y/n #gojo x you

[woundedheartwithin]

I love driving, I really do, but why is there construction on every single road in Texas at all times?

#she speaks #txdot stay losing tbh #all they do is drive 45 and tear up perfectly serviceable roads #had to take Mickey to the groomer and stepped in a pile of shit on the way to get clothes from the laundry room #turns out Ollie needs to go to the vet #naturally our groomer and our vet are in two different /counties/ #so it was 30 minutes to the groomer #and then we had to double back and drive an hour to the vet #and the vet fucking closed for lunch #so now we’re just sitting in the truck like 😐 #and of course I forgot to bring poop bags for the poopy dog #so I had to use a grocery bag I found under the seat #and the wind caught the bag while I was trying to scrape up all the mucusy bloody shit #and so it got all OVER the bag #thank fucking Christ we’re in a truck #cuz that shit went in the bed lmao #BUT three days ago I would have been in the worst mood imaginable #and I’m actually pretty chill lol #it’s all more funny than anything tbh #I’m not too worried about the dog cuz he gets into shit all the time and that’s probably what happened #not my first rodeo as it were #but no I actually do enjoy driving a lot #and my mom was like well you’re driving then when we decided to take the weeny too #like I wasn’t already gonna be driving anyway 😂 #and I was like yeah? of course? that’s fine?

[myname-isnia]

My symptoms always tend to get worse at night, and if I attempt to lie down my cough becomes unbearable, so instead of sleeping I went to do gift shopping that I suddenly remembered I haven’t done yet

I ordered stuff for literally everyone and spent half my allowance send help

#I put new year’s shopping off every year and then scramble to get it done #I always lose track of time when it comes to the end of December. it just flies by #and I’m not even done bc I decided that for grandma and school administrator I can get smth from the store #tea set for baba I think. and maybe chocolates for administrator? #but for everyone else. friends teachers dad. all finished #there’s technically other people like my dad’s SIL or my uncles or my little cousin #but I don’t see them nearly enough and it’s not like they’re gonna get me anything #that sounds bad but it’s the truth #plus my cousin’s birthday is on January 4th I’ll get him something then #thank god I’m not catholic am I right. cause it’s the 24th rn and if I was I’d be screwed #would have to pull an Eden Starling and start giving away my own possessions #oh btw when I say half my allowance I mean a pretty significant sum #bc I live alone and dad always chucks big amounts at me bc it’s easier than having me pester him all the time #I spent the equivalent of 60 dollars which doesn’t sound like much considering I covered 10 people #but 6000 rubies ain’t the smallest amount of money y’know #but then again along with the 6000 I have left on my card I also have 15000 stashed away physically in a cupboard #so I’m anxious over nothing #look it’s nearly 7 a.m I should really go to bed #it’s just that this damn cough just will not stop

[insanechayne]

~ ~ ~

#I sat here wondering if you were dead just for you to message me at midnight #tell me the nonsense reasons why you couldn’t be around today #and it just hits me how little you care about me at all #I miss you so fucking much #and I know you’re right here but you’re not the same person you used to be #I miss that person more than words can say #I miss when you gave a shit about our friendship #I miss when you were my best friend #I feel like I’m losing you over and over again every day and it’s killing me #now I just get to sit here crying over you like a fucking fool wondering what’s the point of any of this #I should have just gone to bed two hours ago and pretended everything was fine #but I just needed to stay up until I heard from you because I wanted to know you were alright and safe #I’d never get that same courtesy or treatment from you #but then I forget that to you I’m just another one of your mistakes #I just hate all of this so much #personal