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brick-a-doodle-do · 1 year
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reviewing all 25 of my fics !!!!!
i have never read my writing! i just did. some was good, some was bad, here's my review and at the end there's a tier list C:
curiosity one
actively throwing up i hated every little bit of that i'm so glad i'm rewriting that oh my god why was that so popular?? 🤢
i can confidently say i no longer feel this way vvvv
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curiosity two
ehhh getting better but still not the best. but at least i didn't cringe my way through the fic this time!! :D
curiosity three
writing is iffy because i'm mixing two different writing styles together
HOWEVER i LOVE the h/c in this therefore it is so far my favorite chapter :D
"tommy calm down, it's just a drink, see?" is just WJKEJFNRDNF i love it for no reason :D the interactions in this i admit are really nice
curiosity four
supposed to be an exiting chapter but tbh i did not execute that too well
uhh yippeee he's out!!!
curiosity five
mmm mm m mmmm idk how to feel about this one
very fast paced i will admit
this whole series is so fucking rushed 😭
curiosity six
meh
dialogue is pretty cool tho
overall this series is rushed and poorly made lmaooo
wilbur chocolate 1
okay this is pretty good
not lovely but it's readable and i honestly love this au so i'm not gonna diss it too hard
wilbur chocolate 2
i like this one
dialogue go brrr
also i feel like i executed wil's panic semi-well? i definitely made him have some trust in tommy way too soon but yk
i'll run away and hide with you
ehhh there's nothing technically wrong with it,,,,,
no real comments it's fine ig
spy au: unofficial prologue
idk there's nothing wrong with it like this fic !! :D
2022 summer exchange
again too rushed i need to draw out trust it doesn't happen in two minutes!!!
"you're pretty" makes me happy tho. don't ship dnf too hard but i like it :DD
ghosts are better than humans
writing is iffy but it's cute !!
company & repairs 1
first fic and it's mid. i got fanart for it though, that's pretty cool :D (i toooootally didn't ask for it, i got it just by pure chance. totally!)
mm i could've written his injuries better
i like my use of internal questions
dude in my earlier fics i was so scared to write like product names and the word "scream" and "yell" bc i didn't want it to come off as cringe like wth that is literally so bad
i let go, when i should've held tighter/an inconvenience, at best 1
typos are bad. bad bad.
writing can 100% be difficult
ended up deleting it to redo it bc after all this worldbuilding i need to redo some things :)
also dialogue is everything but accurate
never fucking again.
ok ummm i could've done his pain a lot better
i've gotten better at writing mental health so i'm going to rewrite this someday
but to be fair i wrote this alongside many other things that day---i was doing a bet,,,,
writing is actually kind of decent and i love how chill tommy is lmaooo "well, he fucked that one up" "at least he got his powers working"
apart from thattt i LOVE this au and am excited to write the first chapter :D
oh, george
okay time to see all the hype around this. 93 notes???? this better be good
not worth all the notes (sosososo grateful for those btw almost 100 notes that is AWESOME) but i can see why it was liked. i can usually tell if this community will eat smth up or not,,,
don't fall
i liked that
definitely my favorite so far
writing is decent and it's fluffy so i like it :DD good job me C:<
heavy is the head that gets no sleep
mm cute i like it :D
top for sure
2022 secret santa: too good to be true
okay the idea for this was like actually awesome, i loved having dream like kinda do into that trance thingy and having it fade in later. and i like how i incorporated "bitter stares" into it.
however there's a severe lack of dialogue and the action is drawn out, far too short and not properly there
it also felt rlly short so there's that,,,
the act of making noise 1
i like this one! it could be a little bit better but tbh it's a good au and i like the writing a lot more than some of my other fics so it s a win from me :D
i also think i has a nice flow to it? that could just be me tho
counting down the seconds
v bad i can see why this didn't do too well
deleting it cause this au is on hiatus,, might give it out as a prompt now :D
uhh writing wasn't too good and it was very boring, way too long asw,,,
mere monstrosity
I LOVED THAT??
it's actually well written??
WRITING SHANE IS SO FUN HIS DIALOGUE IS THE BEST----
this is such an underrated fic of mine istggg
top fics for sureee
sfdjsdjgdnf SHANE'S DIALOGUEEEE!!!!! I WILL GLADDLY WRITE MORE OF HIM!!
the little things (written)
badly written, fluffy, one of my oldest fics
cory's notes give me life tho <333 "your writing makes me feel warm" AJGFSAJDGEFJDNF i love cory smsm :D
shroud, you savior?
eh
good fic idea, poorly executed
and oh my god in my earlier fics i'm realizing how oblivious i was to how puncuation worked, especially for my dialogueeeeeee!! it makes me feel terrible reading it,,,,,
also the amount of fluff-to-angst ratio is good, but again i need to write panic better,,,,
hush 1
YES! I LIKE THIS! to be fair it's my newest fic but STILL i like this a lot!!!
good angst, suspense could be a tiiiny bit better but i still rlly like this!!! top fic for sure C:<
switched
fluff. fluff fluff fluff. writing aside the mouthplay scenes are the best things ever i am so happy this exists !!!!!!!!!
wow i have an excruciating number of fics. i did not like reading them :'D
tier list time >:D (more under cut)
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hush 1 (writing, dialogue, plot, everything is good imo)
don't fall (if the writing for this was better it'd be #1 !! the fluff, this entire au in general, "i won't hurt you" mmmm this is a yummy fic !!!)
mere monstrosity (speaks for itself. i loved this fic! it's a bit rocky in the beginning but i just love shane sm <3)
the act of making noise 1 (YES this is good. the overall plot is iffy but i like chapter one so far, hopefully i can take this au in the right direction !!)
curiosity killed the cat 3 ("it's just a drink, see?" mm yummy)
heavy is the head that gets no sleep (prime boys my belovedd)
spy au: unofficial prologue (i just have a thing for spy!dnf <33)
wilbur chocolate 2 (like i said, dialogue go brrrr, and it's actually a decent sequel. wilbur chocolate beloved asw >:D)
wilbur chocolate 1 (angst beloved)
ghosts are better than humans (it's simple. i didn't overdo it,,,)
i let go when i should've held tighter/spy au 1 (spy au belovedd!!!)
never fucking again (love this au sm, my opinion is swayed again)
switched (tinies overcoming their fear of getting nommed is such a high trope for me,,,)
oh, george (my opinion is swayed bc of the tiktok it's based off of)
2022 secret santa: too good to be true (honestly despite my lack of flow & dialogue its pretty good)
2022 summer exchange (honestly idk why i don't rlly like this---i'm making a part two so some part of me should enjoy it?)
shroud, you savior? (ok this fic is an era to me it brings back positive memories :] also ppl like this so i meannn)
curiosity killed the cat 2 (he and wilbur talk, what's not to like? i like this chapter a lot actually)
the little things (little streamer au my belovedd)
curiosity killed the cat 6 (everything is revealed!!!! and wilbur not being able to really do anthing cause a. he's in tommy's storage and b. he's a traitor, kidnapper and villain in tommy's eyes)
i'll run away and hide with you (idkkkk why i don't like this either. to be fair nothing's really wrong with it,,)
company & repairs 1 (again memories and also idk this was my first fic, i think nostalgia is helping my decision)
curiosity killed the cat 4 (he gets out, that's pretty cool)
counting down the seconds (eeeehhh this used to be a cool au of mine but that was before i just stopped working on it and i realized it wasn't that cool,,)
curiosity killed the cat 1 (No.)
i switched these around so much lmaoo but i was dead set on the last two. curiosity was so bad wtf??
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silverskye13 · 21 days
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Will enby Helsknight/trans Tanguish/top surgery scars/stubborn avoidant Welsknight in a gender crisis make it into the main story of RnS? Like, a full acknowledgment of it? Because yes, us on tumblr are aware (and happily bully RnS Wels for it) but I’m curious to how it may be brought up in the main storyline instead of rambles and drabbles. (Don’t get me wrong, those rambles and drabbles are what get me through the day. But my best friend, who isn’t in the MCYT fandom whatsoever, just caught up with RnS and doesn’t use tumblr, and besides spamming her with tumblr posts I wanna know how much I can revel in the glory of the skrunkles with her!)
That is a great question, actually. And the answer is I don't really know.
So this is one of the downsides to writing things chapter by chapter. If I had gone into this going "oh heck yeah they're trans", this would've come up in the plot way sooner. It's nice information 1) for all the trans folks reading and 2) because it has the potential to inform the themes in the narrative. This whole story is about two chief things I think: death [the inevitability of] and identity [what defines you and why]. Why should you care if literally no one else (including the universe) does? That would be so cool to speak about in terms of a trans allegory! Why do you care about gender when it's just one thing in a world of crazy things? Or at the very least, how does it inform your identity? But this is a change I made on a whim suddenly, and I know Exactly Where I Want This Plot To Go, so trans topics and allegories as Plot Points probably won't happen.
On the more technical side of introducing trans characters -- how do you do that without just dropping "oh btw they're trans" in? Like, how do you make it a relevant thing to talk about, that doesn't feel forced or shoehorned in, especially this late in the story? Probably me overthinking, but I read it done wrong so often. It gets tired. And if I ever work on my original stories, there are trans characters in there! If I can figure out how to Do It Well in a fanfic, then I can figure out how to do it in original fiction someday maybe. So I kinda wanna take the introduction seriously? I've actually been thinking about it so much I've thought about rewriting the intro to the next chapter ahaha [it already needs rewritten in general, there's a lot going on, but the intro was going to be Helsknight waking up from something, and he sleeps shirtless, and not addressing top surgery scars then would be kinda silly I think.]
I can say at the very least, Gender Avoidant Wels probably won't factor in the story much. He is a character, but I don't think he'll become Enough of a character to faithfully address something like a trans self discovery arc. At best his issues with gender might be mentioned in passing.
Sorry! I know you probably want a better answer! My answer is basically: I don't know I'm still working on it. I want it to be there, but the capacity it's there is undecided.
That being said, I've been sitting on this glorious ask since the shenanigans started and the temptation to just Do That grows every time I read it:
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wehaveimagineshere · 7 months
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Request for Admin Ren! Could I request a scenario for Gale to react to his gender neutral crush accidentally saw him half naked because he was changing out of his dirty clothes? Their immediate reaction is to cover their eyes to look at the floor, apologise profusely, and leave! They're still embarrassed even when he finishes changing clothes but promised him that they would be more careful & tell them if there's anything he would like them to do to make it up to him! Please make it implied/suggested!
So I had to watch some romanced Gale scenes and I can't tell you how much I giggled and rewatched his little bop at the very end when you ask "Are you asking me to marry you?" His little wiggle is so funny. I sent it to Frost with tears in my eyes.
Okay so while I was editing, I realized I went off script just a liiiiiiittle bit. And typically I'd go and fix it but it was something that I kept referring to the rest of the prompt so I just kept it, cause otherwise I would've had to completely rewrite a good portion and I'd already been working on this for a while. Hopefully that's okay!
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A blessed stream.
A strip of running water you could dunk your aching feet into but, more importantly, a strip of running water you could finally clean your dirty clothes in.
"I can get it started," you'd offered, shouldering off your pack in the middle of the camp. "Pile up your clothes and I'll take them to the stream."
"No, you shouldn't do it alone," comes Karlach, stabbing a pole into the ground to start pitching her tent.
"Then set up their tent," responds Shadowheart, already ruffling through her belongings and making a pile of dirty laundry. "The sooner we all set up, the sooner we can help them."
Dumping out your pack to make room, you start making the rounds. Shadowheart gives you explicit instruction to not mix her clothing with the others, a small pack pushed into your hands. Wyll also has his own separate pack, but with the promise that he'll do his own clothing. Astarion gives a playful little thank you and something about his underwear you tune out.
As you head for Gale, you're situating the different packs in your arms and on your shoulders, not paying attention to what's in front of you as you pause by his belongings. "My pack has room if you need." Wiggling that off your arm, you sling Wyll's pack onto your back. With your arms a bit more free, you finally glance up.
And your eyes snag on what you see.
Bare skin, muscles shifting as Gale tosses his shirt into a pile of clothes. Your eyes linger on his shoulders before dipping down to his waist, and when he notices your stunned presence and turns to face you, your gaze catches on his stomach.
"Give me just a moment, please," you hear him speak. "I'm almost done sorting."
Your lips press together as you watch his muscles dip, the way they ripple when he moves, the way they stretch when he reaches for something.
Oh gods. Stop staring stop staring stop staring--
"Okay. All ready." Tying a pack, he holds it out to you. "I'll make sure to settle quickly so I can help." When you don't move, you can practically hear the smirk when he says, "I believe my face is up here."
Face threatening to melt off your skull, you spin on your heel, palm pressing against your eyes as you turn your back to him. "I'm so sorry, I--"
"Not that I don't like being ogled at."
"That's so rude, I didn't--"
"I assumed my physicality wasn't as it was, what with sequestering myself in a room for a year. I suppose I had nothing to worry about."
If someone were to touch your face, they'd be singed. "I'm so sorry!"
He chuckles. "It's alright."
"It's not! I was staring and that's rude and there's a whole consent thing and--" oh gods you're rambling "--I shouldn't--I'm leaving."
Quick as a rabbit you dart off into the trees, head ducked to hide your molten face, hoping no one else in camp watched your absolute trash fire of a bluster. Reaching the isolated stream, you set all the packs onto the floor, crouch down, hide your face against your knees, and breathe.
In. Out. In. Out. It's not the first time you've seen a shirtless Gale, but that had been with his consent, a moment shared between the two of you. Not in the middle of camp. Sure, it wasn't your fault he'd foregone a shirt, but you didn't have to stare.
Gods. Why couldn't you just be normal? You're an adult, for crying out loud, not some bumbling teenager. The butterflies in your stomach around the wizard was one thing, but you just always became so self conscious--
Scrubbing your face, you inhale deeply and rise back to your full height. Stepping out of your shoes and rolling up your pants, you grab the first pack and get to work, hoping you can work off the embarrassment.
It works. You start feeling your heart calm and thoughts settle, finding a rhythm and ignoring your cold hands and feet.
"How can I help?"
Heart stuttering, your bottom lip gets trapped between your teeth as you turn. "Hi."
Gale smiles. "Hi." He's fully clothed this time, though he does kick off his shoes to join you in the stream after setting down more packs. A finger is held up as you open your mouth. "No apologies. You did nothing wrong."
You frown. "Ogling is wrong, Gale. At least in public." A tilt of the head. "Ish. Public-ish. That doesn't matter." You huff, feeling the creeping embarrassment return. "I feel bad. I feel like I did something I shouldn't have and the only way for me to feel better is to try to make it up to you somehow." Rubbing your forehead, you give a helpless shrug. "What can I do? Aside from, you know, making sure I don't do it again?"
Brown eyes study your face, a smile growing only to turn into a smirk as he steps closer, hands coming to rest on your hips. "I have many different ideas." He leans in, breath tickling your lips, voice dropping. "So many different ideas."
A different kind of heat floods your body as you swallow. Settling your own hands on his chest, you mutter, "Any I should know about?"
His lips catch your own, hungry but controlled. "Shall I show you?"
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septixtrash · 2 years
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Payback and Retribution Pt 2
Pairing: Soldier Boy x Supe!Reader
Warnings: language, mentions of death, mentions of gore (very little), mentions of drugs, depression
Word Count: 1.2k
Summary: You finally meet The Boys.
A/N: I'm so sorry it took me so long to publish this, my app I use to write deleted my original file so I had to rewrite it all over again. I haven't said what powers the reader has because it's a secret for the next chapter! Hope everyone enjoys this, I'm so thankful for all the support on Part 1! ❤️
Taglist: @spnwoman @veronicawritesstuff @atrxdxs @globetrotter28 @bronze-metal @deanwinchesterwifesstuff @buckybarnes-1917 @octobers-snow @faithm120601 @siospins2 @liuope @bxwitched @itsdesiree86 @epiphany-of-a-madwoman @bxrbiewrites @caffeinefueledfangirl @secretdreamlandmentality
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“You must be well fucked in the head, agreeing to this…” Butcher tells you as you follow them both down to the parking garage.
He's right…
You walk right up to a beat up van, reaching for the handle. Butcher grabs your shoulder, scoffing. “Oi, just 'cause we're wanted doesn't mean we drive shitty cars…”
“That ain't mine.” He clicks a car alarm and points the opposite direction. “She is.”
“No fucking way…” You run up to an old black 87 Cadillac Brougham. It's in good condition too…
“I always wanted one! Vought wouldn't let us drive ourselves, had to have someone else drive for us. Ugh.”
Hughie grins. “I thought the same thing. He really looks like he owns a van!”
“Fuck off. Get in the car so we can fucking leave.” Butcher hops in the driver seat, Hughie sitting next to him.
You barely have time to climb in before he speeds off… dickhead.
“You didn't know the truth, did you?” Hughie turns around in his seat. “Before we came?”
You shake your head. “If I'd known sooner, they'd already be dead.”
It's still hard for you to wrap your head around the thought of it all… Ben's alive. Your own team betrayed you. Vought was behind everything and you'd been blindsided. It somehow hurts more, knowing that you’d been set up, that you’d been lied to. You think it would've been easier if you never found out the truth. Because through all the heartbreak, the tears, the endless nights high off your ass, desperately trying to savor the memories of him, it all meant nothing in the end.
As much as you'd rather be out hunting them all down, you knew you had to find Ben first. It wouldn't be right, getting revenge without him…
Hughie looks up at you, “I know how you feel… in a way at least.”
You raise an eyebrow, “and how's that?”
“A-Train killed my girlfriend Robin. Ran right through her… We were on the sidewalk, she took one foot off it, and then… then she was gone. The only pieces of her left were her arms that I held. He kept running, said he couldn't stop. He didn't bother apologizing, he lied to the media and Vought covered it up. They tried to buy my silence, but I-I couldn't take the money. It didn't feel right, being quiet about what happened. Why should I keep silent when he doesn't suffer any consequences. Butcher found me soon after…”
Poor kid. “I’m sorry… No wonder why you hate supes.”
You wonder what's Butcher's story…
“Don't be. Not all supes are like that, you know. You were always one of my favorites?”
You laugh. “Seriously, me? Why?”
“You weren't born a supe. You know what it's like being ordinary. You fought for the little guys, showed us that anyone can be a hero. I remember my Dad playing your old films, I used to want to be just like you…”
Your ears turn red. “T-thanks kid.”
You never felt you deserved to be a supe. To be called a hero. You just did what you felt right and helped others, because that's who you were, even before taking Compound V.
Maybe that's where it all went wrong, signing up for Vought's experimental program. At the time, it seemed like a good idea. You were young and needed the money, you were already struggling to make enough to get by. They offered a good hefty paycheck to those willing to try a serum they were working on. Of course you said yes, what a fucking mistake that was…
Pain, unlike anything else you'd ever felt. The serum rushing through your veins made it feel like you were dying. At first you thought you were.
They didn't tell you that most of the other subjects died. Their bodies rejected the serum. You somehow were lucky.
You got powers, but they came at a cost…
Vought made you their superhero. Dressed you up in latex and spandex and made you part of Payback, the first official supe team.
You thought you were fighting for freedom, but you were only fighting for a corporation.
You killed whoever they asked, saved whoever they wanted, all for ratings. That's all that mattered. How well the public responded to you.
You had it all, the fame, the drugs, the freedom…
You put on a face in front of the cameras, made it look like everything was fine, but in reality you were breaking inside. You'd never been so stressed before becoming a supe, but Ben, he made it look easy.
Maybe that's why you fell for him. He didn't have to put on an act, he was truly himself on and off the camera. He didn't care what anyone thought and that's what drew you to him. He taught you that you how be yourself again. But no one knew that…
Butcher turns around facing you. “Oi, we're here.”
You exit the vehicle and follow closely behind Butcher. He leads you all to a industrial looking building. Climbing the staircase, he stops in front of a door and unlocks it.
Stepping in, you have three pairs of eyes following you.
The place definitely didn't read: ‘We're wanted criminals.’ It was almost like an office, something you didn't expect from someone like Billy Butcher.
You face towards the only other woman in the room, a woman with long black hair.
“Hi!” You wave at her. “Nice to see Butcher has a woman on his team, I can already feel the testorone building in the room."
The woman uses sign language, signing hello.
Hughie laughs, Butcher just rolls his eyes. A man with a buzzcut stands up, “She doesn't talk. Her name's Kimiko. I'm Frenchie."
"Couldn't of guessed with your accent..."
The other man in the room turns away from you, grunts rolling his eyes. "Can we just hurry this up?"
“Who are you?” you ask, curious as to why the man clearly didn't like you being here.
“That's M.M.” Frenchie looks over at him. “He's got issues with Soldier Boy.”
Soldier Boy wasn't a good person. Everyone knew that. But he was only good to you.
There was so many things Ben didn't tell you; dark things he wasn't proud of.
Butcher pulls you from your thoughts. “Now that everyones here, let's go over the plan.”
You take a seat on the couch next to Kimiko.
“Your boy’s in Russia. We have a favor to our source, kill a target. Kimiko and Frenchie are already keyed in that. Once they're finished we'll be given the location.”
Kimiko pouts, signing something to Frenchie. He shakes his head at her then shrugs.
“You don't know where he is?!”
You should've known things weren't fully fledged out, but you expected a little more especially when these people were widely known supe killers.
“Oi, calm down will ya?” Butcher shouts.
Hughie looks away, rubbing his neck. There's a lot of tension in the room...
You face Butcher. “Who’s your source?” You rub your temples, sighing.
“Russian mobster, Little Nina. Frenchie here used to have a thing for her, now he owes her a favor. She told us if he does this for her, she'll tell us where the facility is.”
There has to be more than he's letting on… “What's the catch? Surely it can't be that easy, what's the favor she want?”
Frenchie speaks up, “She needs someone killed. But not by me…” he faces Kimiko who frowns. “Kimiko is the only who can do it.”
“Why her? No offense…”
“Because she's a supe like you. Little Nina knows that Kimiko doesn't want to do it, that's exactly why. She's doing it to get to me,” He sighs.
You get up from your place on the couch, rolling your shoulders, cracking your neck. “Well, when do we leave?”
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jessource · 8 months
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THE GOOD WITCH BY MAISIE PETERS LYRICS
still argue like my mother and suppress stuff like my dad.
i don't think i wanna get better.
the way i loved you, i will not be embarrassed of that.
you broke me big time.
you give up like a ghost leaving halfway through the band.
i let you butcher my big heart.
you broke my heart and my self-esteem.
came a boy and left a man.
this is armageddon.
i knew loving you was letting you leave.
i am exhausting and you're not in love.
i'm the best thing that almost happened to you.
i stay up, you're sleeping like a lamb.
you're gonna walk into some underground bar.
goodbye from your biggest fan.
i wish i would've seen it sooner.
you got two types: countryn and western.
this is my coming of age.
lost my page when you kissed me.
the love we had was covered in snow.
told her you were just a friend.
was i just an idea you liked?
yeah, i'm sure there was heartbreak.
i saw you and your girlfriend.
i'm dating but dating just for sport.
i am unhinged.
it was endless roads in the same old boots.
loving you was easy, that's why it hurts.
i'm delaing with the heart you broke.
you built me like a promise 'til it broke me like a curse.
we could live off magic and maybe's.
you couldn't have loved a girl any harder than you loved me.
i'll leave you behind, but that don't mean it's easy.
it wasn't real, but it was for me and you know that.
one day, you're gonna wake up.
oh, is she just like me?
i'm throwing you a bone.
still don't play the black keys.
how's it feel to have made me cry?
got the news just last month.
i've pleaded.
i'm not holding my breath.
i wish it was two weeks ago.
you swore that you'd be there for me.
mr i don't want a label.
you're kinda awful, but you're not awful on purpose.
you look better, what the fuck?
i tried to rewrite it, but i can't.
if a man says that he wants you in his life forever, run!
well, fucking sue me, 'cause at least then we could talk.
you took what you took and you left what you left.
i'm kinda busy but like, stay in touch?
i sleep through the night.
if i'm tricky, why'd you kiss me?
has she got a better body than mine?
i know the girl that you want and it scares me.
oh, mr bruce wayne, where is that cape now?
you're laughing like a kid.
i thought i gave you the best of me.
how come you're taking me from your arms?
oh lord, i'm going back to therapy.
if you don't love me, why you'd act it.
what was cheap to you to me was all i had.
maybe you're lost and you just can't see what you have.
i will try forgiveness, but i will not forget.
you couldn't keep what you couldn't tame.
i was good to you.
i still love you.
you still get to me, but i still let you.
you were it for me.
if i'm not careful, i'll wake up and we'll be married.
do you love her?
you're pretty like a girl, till you're vicious like a man.
i beg you, and you don't understand.
i am not allowed to want you any longer.
now we're living the dream and i hope we never wake up.
will you tell me just one more lie?
it's sad and it's true.
we don't speak 'cause it's too tricky.
you touched me, now your touch will last for centuries.
i wish when we went to the beach that day we'd taken more pictures.
bye bye from your girl.
i'm doing better.
i've been lied to.
i can write you out the way i wrote you in.
you said we're like your mom and dad.
i'm the greatest love that you wasted.
you got every single thing you want and i just watch.
i gotta get my act together.
you burnt down easter island as if it wasn't sacred.
i still want you back.
taste my venom.
pretend that it's what you wanted.
i know how your tone works.
you pushed me out quicker than it took me to put my jeans on.
don't you know that you're losing this?
i thought it would be us for life.
but now you're gone, honey, i can't sleep.
you made me little miss unstable.
this song's for you, and it's all we have.
i gave you all of myself.
oh my, what happened here?
yu gave me the world and you gave me your word.
you'll throw your rocks and you'll scream that you hate me.
still flinch at the sound of a door.
i'm on a one way trip to take over the world.
a haunted house nobody lives in.
wow, hey, it's been forever. do you wanna get a drink, like together?
i save you a seat and you say you wanna stand.
of course, you couldn't read me.
i can finally breathe.
what about (name)?
you're just a boy, and i'm kinda the man.
you wanna hear about it?
i can't help thinking that she's got a better body.
everybody pretends that they're great but what if you actually might be?
yeah, i know you did bad, but if one more person says it i might go mad.
the worst way to love somebody is to watch them love somebody else and it work out.
you think i'm alright but i'm actually bloody motherfucking batshit crazy.
take the hand and go with him.
run.
i'm just talking to your memory.
you'll see a pretty little thing catching eyes in the dark and it's me.
i'm not gonna wait, now i know better than that.
she stays up, he's sleeping like a lamb.
i had to let it go.
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cilil · 5 months
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20 Questions for Fic Writers
Tagged by @verecunda. Many thanks! ^^
1. How many works do you have on AO3?
Currently 91.
2. What’s your total AO3 word count?
257,032.
3. What fandoms do you write for?
At the moment Tolkien only.
4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?
Bedtime, Little Flame (Angbang)
Through a Thousand Dreams (Angbang)
5 Times They Gave Gifts & 1 Time They Gave Themselves (Angbang - hey look @verecunda a familiar one XD)
My Beautiful Servant (Angbang)
Through Ice and Fire (Angbang)
Hmm. Interesting. I think people like the Angbang :D
5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?
I respond to all comments... sooner or later. Or at least try to. Sometimes I lack either time or social battery, but I always see the comments as they come in and appreciate them (regardless of how long it takes me to express that)🤍
6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?
I think that would be ... and in the darkness bind them. It's not too angsty for Olórin/Gandalf who is the POV character in this, but for Melkor and Mairon it's very tragic (we all know what happened).
7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?
Hard to say. I think most of my fics either have a happy ending or are just PWP... I'm going to go with The Rogue Royal Wedding which ends on a high note with wedding and all (who would've guessed :P).
8. Do you get hate on fics?
Not really. I don't think anything I do is relevant enough for that... all I had so far was some random homophobia in my Tumblr inbox.
9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?
Oh yes. Oh yes I do. A lot. Soft sex, dead dove, anything in-between, you name it.
10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?
I had an idea a while ago, but ended up not writing it.
11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?
Not that I know.
12. Have you ever had a fic translated?
I've had offers, but I had to decline because I wasn't comfortable with the way I was approached.
13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?
I'm doing it as we speak! Stay tuned for that ;)
14. What’s your all time favourite ship?
You're going to be shocked, but it's Angbang.
15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?
The one WIP I know is dead for sure is the long fic for a different fandom that I no longer want to write for. A shame really. I have some 5+ years old Silmarillion WIPs too, but I do plan on rewriting those.
16. What are your writing strengths?
I think I'm good at coming up with and exploring all sorts of different dynamics.
17. What are your writing weaknesses?
I lack some practice with long/longer fics. I think I could pull it off, at least once I work on that, but the other issue is that I need something new and fresh regularly so it's also hard for me to stay motivated.
18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?
It could be neat for atmosphere or flavor, but shouldn't come at the reader's expense, as in the author needs to make sure a translation is provided or some sort of other way to understand what's going on - unless, of course, the entire purpose was that something is being said that the POV character doesn't understand.
19. First fandom you wrote for?
Hmmm... my first writings were technically fandom stuff, but also not because it quickly evolved into my own work so...
20. Favourite fic you’ve written?
Genuinely no idea. There are always new projects I end up loving. Tags: @maironite @i-did-not-mean-to @curufiin @fraeuleinfriedhof @demonscantgothere @a-world-of-whimsy-5 and everyone else who wants to! Tell me something about yourself, beloved friends and mutuals!
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sunkensinkers · 2 years
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after midnight | Eddie Munson
|| volume 2 spoilers ahead ||
Now, most of if not all of us are rather upset about the lack of acknowledgment of Eddie’s death considering it was never mentioned by any of the Hawkins gang after the time skip, probably not to Lucas and not to Mike when he returned with the Lenora crew. Regardless, this is what i think would have happened post-demise in the upside down. ((also posted to TikTok: @/munsonmadnezz. unless otherwise discussed with myself, permission to copy, rewrite, redistribute or translate is never to be granted, nor are my works to be claimed as anyone else’s.))
As the sobs that shook his body finally calmed, Dustin remained on his knees cradling the senior whose eyes were still open, too scared to close them.
"You know, I don't know how I'll do it. How I'll be able to gather up all the little sheep the way you did." He started, sniffling. "You came up to me and Mike and really just made it seem like we were already part of Hellfire, we just didn't know where the meeting room was." Dustin laughed dryly looking down at the would-be graduate, praying he would laugh too.
"The Weird Al shirt was one of my favourites you know? Called it my good luck shirt. I met Suzie in it at camp." Dustin sighed, pulling Eddie a little closer as he felt him slipping away. "Oh you would've loved Suzie.. Can't say she would've felt the same about you, though." He chuckled, shaking his head as he imagined their first meeting.
Sweet Mormon Suzie meeting Eddie 'The Freak' Munson, leader and dungeon master of Hawkins High's Hellfire club, a supposed satanic cult. Her first impressions of Munson being that of worry and concern but soon becoming relief and happiness seeing how much Dustin laughs and truly loves being around him, becoming a completely new person that makes Suzie fall in love even more.
"And Will, you would've liked him. He was our last dungeon master and he had awesome campaigns he did. Will the Wise.."
Dustin's mind drifted off, part of him still choosing not to believe he was holding one of his best friends bodies, lifeless in his arms while his mouth still managed to ramble off about new recruits for Hellfire.
"Eddie, I don't know how I'm- How I'm gonna tell the others that you're gone.. I need you to come back so I don't need to okay? I need you to come back to us Eddie please!" Dustin's throat swelling as tears started falling once again. "Eddie you gotta wake up come on, come on!"
"Henderson!"
Dustin's head snapped toward the voice seeing Steve, Robin and Nancy all running across the field.
"Steve! Steve you gotta help me man we gotta get Eddie to a hospital!"
The 3 of them slowed as they realised what was going on, seeing the youngest of them clutching a blood stained Eddie Munson whose eyes bore open with an unmoving chest, Robin gasping and Nancy covering her mouth in shock. Steve looked around at the countless demobats on the ground, relieved to know the hive mind was broken but felt a pain in his chest thinking 'what if we destroyed it sooner?'.
Steve knelt down to his friend, a hand on his shoulder as he turned to look at him. Steve's sympathetic eyes looked into Dustin's, him immediately shaking his head knowing what Steve was saying.
"No. No I can't leave him here he has to come back to Hawkins, we can't."
"Dustin buddy we have to go back."
"Not without him."
"We won't be able to get him through the gate Dustin come on."
Steve tried hooking his hands under Dustin's arms, Dustin fighting to push him away yelling for Steve to let him go, stumbling back as he did. He looked over to Robin and Nancy who now had watery eyes quietly asking for their help, receiving understanding nods.
"We have to go buddy. I'm sorry."
Steve wrapped his arms beneath Dustin's own gripping his wrists as Dustin screamed and fought back, Nancy and Robin going for Eddie as Steve struggled to pull the 15 year old up and away from the deceased, Robin cradling Eddie's head as he was set down on the concrete.
Dustin's cries echoed through the streets as Steve fell back against the curb, hugging the boy tightly against his chest where what once welled a small pang now had fully tightened in pain as his best friends cries of anguish made his ears ring. He looked through watery eyes at Nancy and Robin who were still sat by his body, Robin fixing Eddie's hair muttering numerous 'it's okay's whilst she adjusted his jacket.
Steve held onto Dustin as he cried, accepting that Dustin was not ready to leave behind someone he looked up to, not just yet.
~*~
"We can't leave him here." Dustin sniffled relaxed as Steve's arms hung over his shoulders.
"We can't bring him back to Hawkins, we'd hurt him or ourselves trying to get him through the gate."
"I know but.. We can't at least leave him here I mean. What if the demobats wake up? He'd get hurt out here too." Dustin's voice cracked thinking about it.
“I told him not to be a hero..” He whispered thinking about how to make Dustin feel better but still get him back to Hawkins before Robin spoke up.
"We could always bring him back to the trailer?"
~*~
As Steve and Dustin dragged the makeshift sled across roads and grassways back to the trailer, Nancy and Robin fixed up Eddie's room putting his mattress back on his bed trying to make things look as homey as they could for a dark, desecrate dimension, covering the torn open vent with cd racks and an amp, Steve and Dustin arriving right as they finished.
Robin and Nancy joined the boys outside, grabbing the foot end of the sled and carrying Eddie through the door and to his room.
"Careful. Be careful with him." Dustin reminded as the four of them set him on his bed.
Dustin sat beside Eddie adjusting his hair once more reaching over to a dark comforter pulling it over his friend while Steve, Robin and Nancy quietly left giving him some space.
"I'll get another weird Al shirt for you. My old one doesn't fit anymore but, maybe I'll cut part of it off and get my Mom to sew it in and it can become my new good luck shirt. I'll wear it with my Hellfire shirt maybe or.." He hicced trying to hold back more tears as he thought more about the future of Hellfire without Eddie. "Or maybe I'll find a way to bring my old one to you and you can have it and it'll be your good luck shirt, huh?" The boy struggled to speak as he constantly stroked and smoothed the comforter over Eddie's shoulders. "I'm really gonna miss you buddy."
Dustin hovered over Eddie's chest, silently crying as his heart ached. This man he'd known for such a short time somehow had an immensely profound impact on him. Teaching him to not give a shit, to not give up and that there was never any shame in running.
He just wished he would've taken his own advice one last time.
Dustin sat up inhaling deeply, wiping away tears and snot against his sleeves, looking at Eddie once more.
"Well I gotta go buddy but.. I promise you, I won't change, I won't. I'll bring those little sheep home and uh.." He paused holding his hand beside Eddie's head looking at his unwavering eyes as they remained open, hoping for one last blink but sighing in defeat knowing they wouldn't. "I love you, Eddie."
Dustin gently closed Eddie's eyes, holding his breath as he stood and walked to the door finally prepared to head back to Hawkins. He paused seeing Steve stood beneath the gate who sent a gentle smile his way.
"You gonna be okay, Henderson?" Steve queried.
"Yeah it's just.." He shook his head, looking back at Eddie, feeling the metal of his favourite necklace between his fingers. "He was supposed to graduate next month."
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need1etail · 2 years
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DawnDove anon: sorry for late response. 4th of July was crazy around these parts 😅
I should have added a /lh tag, because I hope my message came off as joking, since that was the intent! I also get why TigerDove shippers like them, but for me...I don't support it myself 😆 they give me icky vibes. I like to personally imagine Dawn survived her murder and went on to become ShadowClan leader. If I had it my way, during the events of Tiger's SE, he would've died at the end (how interesting and tragic would that have been?! such a missed opportunity, since big charries rarely die now, but especially in their own POV, much less SE! since this was before Bristle, we'd only seen it with Gray Wing, I think). Dove would still go on to join ShadowClan, but Dawn would serve as a second parent to the kits and they'd raise them together, sort of how people view Freckle and Maple when Freckle thought Maple was Birch's mate and the father of her kits :D so even if they weren't a thing in OOTS, I like to imagine DawnDove grew to love and care for each other after Tiger's death, and he supports that in StarClan...oh, and that one kit is named Flame 🤓 bc wtf...Birch gets a kit named after him, and Dove wants to be all poetic by naming kits Shadow and Light, but no Flame mention?! Booooo! So I'd love if that was a name, too, since Dawn ALSO didn't name one of her kits Flame. I mean, can I even get an Ember, Scorch, Soot...something for poor Flametail? lolol
I'm so sorry I forgot to reply to this 😭 I kept trying to think about things to say and then it completely slipped my mind. Tbh, I can agree with you when it comes to TigerDove. It's not my cup of tea, but I respect people who ship it, I'm absolutely not the type of person who goes after ships just because I don't like it auidshausd, but I will not argue with people who dislike it, bc I can see where they're coming from. (Also dw, I understood that that was lighthearted <3)
But DAWNPELT DESERVED TO LIVE and to become leader tbh, it just made more sense than a second Tigerstar??? Dawnpelt has a BIG role in this rewrite and possibly TBC if I ever decide to go further with this rewrite (don't get your hopes up, I want to work on other books not just fanfiction asudhasd but it's a good thought.) I would say more about Goldenheart and Dovewing's relationship but I'll save that for the tags for people who don't want spoilers adsadi. TBH I really think that one of Dawnpelt's kits should've been named after Flametail. Unfortunately I already have names figured out for GoldenDove's kits and one could be seen as homage to Flametail but it's not anything like Flame- or Fire- or anything. (i'm gonna be honest i'm not as happy as everyone else about birchkit and rowankit either audshaoisd idek if they needed a second litter uasdaod. And one of the kits should've been named after Dawnpelt and Flametail, maybe even Ivypool or Whitewing).
SORRY for that ramble, I really love the idea of DawnDove, I wish I had thought of it sooner tbh, but GoldenDove is locked in at this point lol, and I'm very excited for Goldenheart's arc with his kits and Dovewing, and I'm hoping you guys do too <3.
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new fic up! (hylia x link)
Ahhh it's done!!! I've been slaving away at this fic for three weeks and it's finally finished. Granted, I was enjoying my break from school, so I got busy with friends and family, but I'm really glad I had the time to finish this because I'm very happy with how it turned out!
I've been on a Hylia/Link kick for a while now, lol. It just tickles my brain right. There's so much potential and so much soft ground that I am willing to dig my hands into and get dirty with. Plus I just needed to see more smut in the Hylia/Link tag, lolol. There's more where that came from!
It's funny, because the fic started out very differently. The first draft was very different and I liked the direction it was going in, but I got stuck and couldn't figure out where to go with it. Then I got a flash of inspiration and made a few changes to the order of events, and BAM! It just started flowing like water! Crazy how that happens!
Oddly enough I wrote the last 4,000ish words first, then went back and added the beginning to tie it all together. I would've finished sooner, but I had to rewrite some parts of the beginning soooo many times that I was honestly questioning if I'd ever finish it. I had the same problem with another fic, "i am yours and you are mine", where i would get stuck and bang my head against the keyboard for three months trying to unstick the writing. Thankfully I now have a tried and true method of getting stories unstuck that was very useful here, and allowed me to push through the last few hundred words :)
If you ever feel stuck with a story, it's best to take a step back, and even though it sucks, delete the parts that aren't working. In the end it will help your writing be much smoother, because it forces you to think more about what the story is doing, and that makes it a much stronger story.
I had a blast writing this fic and I'm very proud of it. Look forward to plenty more fics this year!!!
As always, have a wonderful day!
-Hy ♥️
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loliwrites · 2 years
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It’s been awhile but I am back!
Pre-relationship A&A🥺. Maybe it is just a few weeks after they have met and they’re shooting the film Addi wrote. Something about it is off so she makes a change to the script forcing Alex to adapt quickly. After they shoot the seen Alex thinks that Addi hates it so he tries to make it up to her.
XoXo 🫁
PS. I have missed you🥰
Hannibal🫁 ! I've missed you too, friend! I don't know if you've seen, but we've got another Non on the loose. One I've affectionately deemed the Copycat Killer🫀 They're a cheeky little one.
Anywho, you know I'm always on my bullshit for pre-relationship A&A. I love good, ol' sexual tension (when it's consensual and goes both ways). And I like that you've come up with this suggestion because this sort of thing happens quite frequently. Maybe not so much with movies, but definitely with TV. You've got the script pages you're going to be shooting that day, and then all of a sudden, for whatever reason, the writer comes at you with brand new pages... sometimes an entirely new scene, and you're like, where the FUHCK am I supposed to get all of these props before we shoot this in 2 hours.
One moment you're on the green revisions and suddenly someone's handing you some fucking Goldenrod or Salmon pages and you're like why would you do this to me? Do you hate me? Do you live to make my life harder? The answer's yes.
We digress. The point is: the director gives Addi an ultimatum. Either she goes and rewrites the scene, or they'll have someone else rewrite it. And the thought of someone else butchering her movie makes her want to vomit, so she relents and hides off in some corner of the soundstage with her laptop and starts rewriting.
She's almost finished with it when she hears Alex come on stage. It's very evident when he arrives from his trailer. His lispy lilt of a cadence seems to float through the soundstage like music. He's also got a barrage of women that follow him. Addi thinks that's funny. That although they've been hired as hair, makeup, or wardrobe people, it's funny to see him walking around with a gaggle of women running after him, picking at his hair or his clothes for minuscule fixes.
She runs off to print the pages and get them to the people that need to have them. Any writer will tell you that this isn't the way they'd like to have their work seen. Written with such carelessness in a matter of minutes without the courtesy of planning or editing. And yet, Addi's handing over these new pages so a group of people can commit it to film. And if this truly is only a couple weeks since they've met -- surely before they trek over to Germany to finish principal photography, and maybe even before the sex scene incident -- then Addi's still in the phase of being polite and careful around Alex, despite feeling the flirtiness between them.
Alex takes the pages from her and starts to look them over, and it's evident to Addi that he looks a little thrown by the whole thing.
"It's brand new?"
He glances at her and she has to avert her eyes elsewhere because, shit if this isn't embarrassing. Handing Alexander Skarsgård some half-baked pages.
"They requested a last minute rewrite." When he doesn't respond right away, she looks back up at him. But he's just reading over her new words, and for the life of her, she can't tell what the expression on his face is. It doesn't look good.
To be honest, she doesn't blame him. She had to fill in a part of a dramatic scene that he'd probably been practicing for weeks, maybe months, to make sure he was hitting the correct emotional beats at the right moments. And now she flung new words at him. As if he's just going to be able to hit those notes off the bat when the cameras start to roll. She all but hightails it out of there, beyond mortified at the thought that he may think she's a talentless hack. If she had stuck around, she would've been able to hear what Alex truly thought sooner.
The scene gets underway and it's taking everything in her to remain in her little space in video village without bursting out in tears. Alex is... he's having a hard time with this scene. He's fumbling his new lines, he looks beyond distracted. Something's not clicking and the only thing that's changed are the words so her immediate downward spiral is that she's just ruined the movie she's worked so hard on. And more than that, it's evident that everyone on the crew has taken note of Alex's newfound difficulty with the scene. The director and producers alike are now all giving him notes and he's quickly becoming disenchanted with all the noise.
They struggle through. Somehow, someway, they feel they've at least gotten enough to splice together a halfway decent scene and the AD calls "moving on!"
Addi just nearly makes it out of her seat before she hears, "come with me," behind her. And the realization that it's Alex makes her heart drop. She looks back to find him already addressing the gaggle of women still following him, asking them to give him ten minutes.
Before he even receives the acknowledgment of his request, he turns for Addi, sets his hand on her upper back, and ushers her off the stage and into his trailer.
She couldn't feel more awkward if she tried. Alex flinging himself back onto the couch, Addi standing in front of him like she's waiting to be chastised. It hasn't dawned on her that he may have called her in here because she's looked positively gut-wrenched since she was tasked with the rewrite.
"What was that all about?" He asks, very innocently.
She shrugs, "they wanted a rewrite. Said I could do it or they'd find someone to do it. I know it was shit,"
He takes a breath, then pats the spot beside him on the couch. He's not satisfied until she actually does sit down next to him. "It wasn't shit, I just... I liked it the first way. I liked hearing your voice in the other version," he smiles at her when she looks up at him. "Not the studio's voice,"
"Well until you start cutting my paychecks, the studio gets what it wants."
Alex nods slowly. He knows how these things work.
“Sorry you had to change things around so quickly. I know you like to have time to prepare, and I handed you pages of flaming crap. I just—” she looks down at her hands in her lap. For a moment it’s nice not to have to be looking at his expression — one she knows would break her heart. “I just had to do what they wanted.”
Alex doesn’t cut in. Judging by the size of the breath she takes, he knows she’s not finished.
“And I hate that. I hate that this industry isn’t merit-based. I hate that it’s only about who you know. I hate that I’m at the mercy of executives who can’t even name the Axis Powers. Yet they’re telling me how to change a script all about the Axis Powers. And I hate how they can make me feel this stupid and worthless and not even give a shit that they’ve made me compromise a good story. My art. And mostly I hate that I want nothing more than to please them so I can stay in this industry for as long as humanly possible.”
Then slowly and quietly, Alex says with a smile, “you’ve made it.”
She flicks her gaze in his direction.
“You’ve made it as an artist when at the beck and call of authority, you push back for creative individualism. You’ve made it to the club. Glad to have you,”
Addi leans into him almost subtly; just barely resting her shoulder against his. “They don’t make you do anything to compromise the art,”
“That took twenty years.”
“And you’re a man. So that leaves me fucked and free at seventy,”
Without asking, Alex reaches around her shoulders and takes her into a hug. Truthfully, she’s happy he didn’t ask. Had he, she might’ve brushed it off under the guise of not wanting things to feel too emotional. But just as the embrace began, a knock on his trailer door quickly pulls them out of it.
He pauses and gives her his quick, undivided attention. “Good, kid?”
She nods, reassures, and all too quickly rises from the couch and heads toward the door. Alex moves too, and resituates himself in his makeup chair just in time for the entrance of his glam team. And like a fleeting breeze, Addi’s out of his trailer and on her way back to the stage.
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darkpoisonouslove · 2 years
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For the winx rewrite
❌ Share a plot point you were planning that has been scrapped. (If you haven’t changed any major plot points, share something minor you’ve altered.)
Thanks! I love to talk about the rewrite. I haven't scrapped a lot of ideas about it, though, because when something doesn't work, I tweak it until it starts working.
What I was thinking was that on the show Earth people didn't bat an eye when a shop about magical flying animals opened in Gardenia. So I wanted to change that into Winx being investigated by the government on suspicion of genetically engineering mutated animals because I thought that would be fun. However, season 4 got crammed with several different subplots and I won't have time for that now. It is joining the pile of canon divergences instead.
And something that will come up a lot sooner - I was planning for Winx to accidentally set Alfea's library on fire instead of Cloud Tower's when they break into the restricted vault. I would've removed the fire completely but it is the thing that first introduces Daphne so that's not an option. However, they will get expelled for sure if they set the library on fire so I decided to make it just an illusion that could leave them with brain damage instead. And Daphne's voice in Bloom's head is what helps her snap out of it and save the other Winx.
Send me change-themed asks + my wips if you want to request specifics
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