#i think things arent as bad as they were still

[killjoygem]

Thought my mental health was doing better but it turns up all it needed was one little thing to go wrong for it to fail me again :')

#i think things arent as bad as they were still #but i feel that familiar pit in my stomach #maybe i can trick myself into thinking im a rich person with oodles of money #losing my bus pass isnt a big deal i have plenty money #and paying for the bus is just what real adults do #its what i will have to do after my next birthday #okay now im not even tricking myself im just talking myself down #i used to pay for the bus. it was quite this often but its fine #soon ill be permanently living in dundee so i wont have to go back and forth #and by term time i'll wither have my pass back or have a new pass #cannot stress enough that i am just writing this for myself #to calm my nerves #i know it probably seems weird #im just reasoning with myself

[dodecademons]

Funny how like 90 percent of people wanting the wilds back hate to acknowledge the fact that it's partly their fault. I want the wilds to be renewed as well, however if I DARE say yall aren't ready for it and a small part of me thinks some viewers are undeserving I'm the bad guy. Right because the vast majority of you didn't openly admit to skipping over the boys parts in the show, smh. If you arent watching the whole episode why would they want to renew it? They want views, they want money. Do I want the wilds back? Of course. Do I think the gretchen clones deserve it? No. Be better.

#just say you hate men and quit pretending it's 'only because streaming sites hate women/wlw' #you guys LITERALLY THREATENED the actors who played the boys just because they took a job in a show they thought was cool #right and you think you deserve the show to be renewed #you arent ready for that conversation yet though proven time and time again #was it only because of that? absolutely not but dont be so willing to place the blame when we blatantly see where some problems come from #am i annoyed that my replies have been deleted on some the wilds post JUST because i said i didnt mind the boys storyline? #yup #live with the consequences of your actions #the wilds #i want the show back but some of you were really nasty just because a man existed and thats not cool #in the words of waverly earp 'reverse sexism is still sexism wynonna' #shoni was cute leatin had potential but you dont get to be a horrible human #there were so many reactors skipping the boys parts or just saying things just because the boys existed and i cant watch them anymore now #THATS LITERALLY WHAT THE SHOW IS ABOUT #the show is literally about the effects misogyny/the patriarchy has on women and men #if you actually watched the show for it's content you would see that #gretchen is the bad guy for going to extremes and subjecting children to trauma just because she doesn't like men so quit acting like her #I'm not sorry for saying facts #if you're offended you might be the issue so lets take a look at that #the whole the thing is boys vs girls so why in tf would you think they wouldnt at least be brought up a little like in s2 #ugh #i still hate amazon for canceling it

[dilf-phoenix-rights]

Insane to me when ppl criticize a mystery series having mysteries left “unfinished” at the end. Girl, it’s not “unfinished” it’s setting shit up for later, and, as someone joining in on a mystery series, you signed up for that being a possibility.

#aa opinions that annoy me #aa4 and dgs1 are not ‘unfinished’ they were meant to focus on a certain arc and set up things for a separate arc #aa4 just got shafted because capcom demanded an aa5 while Shu Takumi was too busy to write it but that’s not aa4s fault #and if you still feel that way about dgs1 knowing that it gets tied up it dgs2 youre insane #I can understand finding it worrying because of things that happen like the aa4 to aa5 transition #because gaming companies have ruined your trust #but to call it bad writing when you are playing a game you are well aware is part of a series #just sounds really short sighted #because the only alternative is to either simplify the story till it has lost so much that it isn’t the same anymore #or to haphazardly rush everything in one game #which would again take away a lot of other things and it would feel cheap #——— #DGS 1 & 2 spoilers coming up #Like say whatever you want about the pacing of dgs1 #(I loved it personally personally) #but so much of dgs2 would NOT have fucking hit the way it did without the character explorations in 1 and the time given to stew #If you think Kazuma dying in like episode 1 before we can get to know him at all #and then rushing Ryunosuke’s grief (which now surrounds a guy we arent nearly as endeared to) identity crisis and character development #through 1-2 1-3 and 1-4 so that you can get to a case 5 where ‘WHOAH that guy we dont know is back’ #and then rush through the ruinion and brewing tension and explainations that were in 2-4 and 2-5 now into one case #…is somehow better than properly exploring Ryuu’s growth and the people & relationships he makes along the way #while ​letting Kazuma haunt the narrative for a good chunk of the games before suddenly being there again but not how we remember #than…idk what to say

[meatheadmutt]

why am i having to hold a gun to googles head to show me articles on the long term effects of hormonal birth control on the endocrine system in adult patients who began usage as a teenager

#barks #i just wanna know if having a hormonal iud as a teenager fucked with my shit or not #causeeeeee i switched to copper a few years ago and everything was gucci in the coochie until a bad summer hit #lo and behold i call the gyno and she puts me on nuvaring because my symptoms were a sign of hormonal imbalance #meaning i got my ass fucked up from the first iud. right? #fuck if i know i wish they didnt make it my responsibility and then not actually give a shit as to what really happens #the absolute hell you can go through both on and off of birth control is out fucking rageous #'cool my cramps arent as bad but im a raging bitch i want to rob a bank and i want to kill everyone and then myself' #can you please for more than five fucking seconds think about the actual effects these things have on us that arent 'harder to get pregnant #also never listen to anyone that tells you you cant get your tubes tied and still be able to have children down the line #they always wanna bitch and moan about it but its literally reversible just like a vasectomy. not as easy but still possible! #do we get mad at and blame the kitchen counter when a baby smacks their head against it? no. the baby is at fault #tell me why something i have no control over is the reason i have to bear the cross #instead of the dipshit baby that cause the issue in the first place being at fault????????????????????? #im going to burn this world down i swear to god i hate it more every day #the beauty is evident but the horrors persist #hi if you read all of this

[timeisacephalopod]

Part of being Canadian is how similar we are to the US, and honestly not a single person on earth I think could genuinely pin point the difference between Canadian and American culture but the average Canadian. Americans assume we're the same as them (we aren't), even a bunch of Canadians think we're Americans, especially around voting seasons, and about half our cultural identity is "we're Not American!" but there are some cultural differences and if we all spoke French equally we could have had a language distinction but nooooo. Despite not being America unfortunately such a fuck off massive country right below your teeny tiny ass country (population wise) does result in a cultural avalanche from said fuck off massive country. Especially when you share a language.

The war of 1812 will forever be funny to me though because Americans were like "hmm maybe Canadians would also like to tell the British to fuck off, we will invade to show them!" And Canada was like *burns down the white house* and we've been tentatively chill with each other ever since lmao (even when we probably like. Shouldn't be cool with America but like. We could not risk that implosion politically or otherwise it'd be suicide).

#winters ramblings #apparently americans think they won the war of 1812 and you did not. you did not achieve your goal #and a bit over 100 years later canada would nicely ask sempi to be free and britian decided yeah i guess #you guys did a vimmy ridge in WW1 i guess you can be yourselves #and native people- still unable to vote and would be ineligible for another some 50 years or so- were probably like ??!!!!?!!! #REMOVE these pale faced demons!! and i cant say i blame them for that even if my settler ass does not mind being from here #no fucked up spiders very few fucked up bugs ok seasons amd weather where *I* live anyway #i cant complain too much aint no spiders the size of my head OR fucked up weirdo beez on steroids that look like some feckin #HUNGER GAMES ass shit and not an earth bug. if i lived on either coast though my opinion would be different #especially the east coast FUCK their ocean-y assed winters lake effect is bad enough. the SNOW BELT is bad enough #i cando without that shite too although outwest aint better especially in the praries but still no fucked up bugs so 🤷🏻‍♀️ #anyway i do genuinely believe if youre not canadian you wouldnt even know the difference between America and Canadian culture #OR the difference of history and even CANADIANS dont know our voting system isnt the same #like we dont even have half the shit Americans do like an electoral college and canadians STILL think we need to vote #as if we're in a 2 party system. we arent. arguably were in a 4 party system but 3 if you reasonably dont count Greens #its fuckin weird though because youll see people talk about canada and america interchangeably #and like i cant evenblame em when even some canadians get confused or WORSE actually WANT to be america #usually conservatives who like deepthroating boot #although i do think this is somewhat odd as a phenomenon because America doesn't have ONE culture #what canada is near idential to is NORTHERN Americans like the south is a whole Thing with a textured history #like obviously the north is too but culturally i get that more than what the south has going because you could even argue #the south have MULTIPLE cultures and in the north you could at least argue the coasts are distinct culturally #like they got terms like pacific north west we dont have ANY of that we are an EXTREMELY small rural country #its strange to confise it with America but at the same time like. yeah that makes perfect sense to me. and not all at once lol

[sendmyresignation]

anyway finally finished girls to the front. obviously had a lot of opinions about it. i have a lot more respect for the day-to-day lived realities of riot grrls and the underground community fostered. but like. man. is the music so secondary. my main critique of riot grrl is it took many of those bands growing out of the movement amd growing up to hit something truly, artistically great (music-wise).

#i think about marcus calling dc punk like. musically rigorous (in a way she was implying was 'macho' to a degree) #and how (1) most of the dischord stuff was still very much diy it was just naturally growing more experimental in a posthardcore landscape #but also (2) i dont think thats inherently.... a bad thing???? i guess i just dont see practicing a lot nd being passionate about your craf #as unpunk or some chauvinist methology that keeps girls out #like yes. allowing women the space to be imperfect. important! bc women arent allowed to play annoying shitty juvenile music #but that doesnt mean naturally developing as a musician and valuing tenchique and theory spits in the face of that #also of course sara marcus' perspective is pretty wack its easily the drawback of the book #she makes a lot of snap judgements and incorporates odd grudges that make me not trust her wholeheardly #lots of heroworship too. #the jessica hopper stuff is the most wild bc ive now become invested in hoppers like. career and shit #and even as someone who disagrees woth hopper on a lot i thought the book went Out Of Its Way #to shit on her in a way that kind of directly ruins her reputation as a music critic and such #and its so disheartening bc theres no grace given at all. #like again these were young girls and women- im willing to imagine theyve grown and changed and evolved #but marcus doesnt really care #or at least never interrogates that in the text itself #anyway! still positive experience to have a concise timeline and such #my posts

[arielluva]

the cd burner i ordered arrives tomorrow!!! (technically today) ooh ill finally to burn a cd!!! my parents always did it for me but now i finally can yippee

my utena cds reawakened my love for cds after like 3 years of barely using them... it feels like im returning home from the war (spotify) to my beautiful wife (physical media)

#oh cds my beloved.... #also reminds me of some ig reel i saw of a teenager burning a cd and people were getting mad in the comments about it #'gen z wants to have our childhood so bad its cringy' like. what #gen z arent all 12 years old a good chunk of us grew up with cds and vhs tapes 😭😭 #i literally listened to cds everynight to go to sleep for like. 10 years. its not some foreign thing to me #the people in that comment section were literally acting like gen z has never seen a cd before and thinks its trendy #its like a different reel i saw where some older guy was like 'gen z doesnt know what this means!!!' and then blew on a game cartridge #like wow thats sooo crazy ive never seen that one before (i have had to blow on cartridges before) #he acted like recent consoles dont use cartridges still like. i may not have had idk. an nes or anything but ive blown on a ds cartridge b4 #not to mention growing up with my dad who blows on cartridges still (who actually had older game consoles) #but whatever. at least tomorrow i finally get to burn a cd for the first time. yahoo

[nytfythfhtyf]

white women over the age of 27 are like “wow its so soft and cozy ☺️💕”

#they were specifically talking about a breakfast nook and the bench. didnt have cushions. have fun with your sore ass #killing and biting forever #home town is much less insufferable to watch cause they arent annoying #but they still have bad taste #they still take beautiful houses i would love to live in and they tear the walls down and paint everything white #the houses i like are an endangered species #hgtv #i say things #i learned my lesson to not use a picture of a hospital bc everyone on tumblr thinks theyre the funniest person on the planet

[silouvertongues]

watched rwrb 👍🏼

#read the book like three years ago probably so i don't remember All the details they left out tbh #movie was fun and silly tbh I had fun had me grinning and everything #i still think there's something Off about the two of them idk maybe its just the avting but it wasn't as bad as I thought #alex is soooo cute tbh made me wanna read the book again #also taylor DOES have insane eyelashes doesnt he lol #anyway . good movie not as bad as i thought it was gonna be i thought id be cringing through the whole thing but they were both ok #obviously wish there were a few more quotes and moments from the book but . not surprised that there arent #h talks

[bugdogg]

if i ever seem brave for some of the stuff i admit on here, just know its cause idk how to keep shit to myself. i cower at the thought of judgement and then proceed to expose my whole ass to tumblr anyway, because i dont have a working filter

#tags are filled with worried rambling again #i hear a laugh track play whenever my anxiety flares up #im scared of what other people think of me which in itself is funny #ik others opinions of me arent an indicator of me being a bad person #other people arent gonna kno my whole personality from the stuff i draw #i fear judgement despite experiencing nothing but positive feedback on this site because i keep reading into the small things as negative #i know all this and still wither away in my shell knowing all this im saying is what id tell others if they were suffering with it #i walk in this circle and do it thousand times til i pass out from the exhaustion and later wonder y i was worried in the first place #i want to be able to say “who cares they dont know you” but ive been raised by people who spent almost every conversation- #with me basically saying they know me very well and know whats wrong with me and ive been raised believing everyone knows more than me #i worry of being so serious and actually genuine like this but this is how i like to be sometimes #stupidly thinking too much into things and laughing at myself for it and wondering why i would put myself down on something id encourage- #others to do #i worry about losing people because they wont like all of me but they wont know that unless they see the whole picture #i find myself disgusting w/ my thoughts and the things i wanna create but i dont think that of others and its strange #weird ass moment here..... #i had a really good day today got a job and finished my first tattoo #im happy right now despite the shit i just spewed #im figuring myself out for the first time in maybe years #i just wish all the hateful shit i absorbed over those years fades away soon #and i hope i stop caring so bad lol #anywayyyyy have a wonderful rest of your weekkk <3 if u read this

[milkweedman]

Im like 5 rows into this scarf and have already hit the commission mood of 'why did i take a commission i hate doing them so much i am never taking another commission again' except i actually have 2 commissions and i mostly took this scarf one as some twisted procrastination technique for the other one

#part of it is that i find them stressful and the other part is that its very hard to actually craft the thing i set out to craft #instead of some unrelated thing. so there is no creativity no fucking around and no whimsy #which is most of the fun for me >:( #also had a terrible weekend which is not helping. got offered a... idk bonus i guess to work this weekend at my old job #the pay of which is like double what my standard was there so thats nice #but every second of it sucked so bad. just finished and am very relieved #but ugh. has reminded me that i never want that job again and it is not (as i had been fooling myself into thinking) #easier than updating my resume #on the other hand re: the resume i took a wpm test #--quick sidetrack but i couldnt figure out why google was turning up weird business websites when looking for said test #until i figured out that i had not typed 'wpm test for resume' but 'wpi test for resume'-- #and i found that my wpm is currently 67 even when my hands still arent great and i havent written a thing in months #when i was a transcriptionist my highest sustained speed with acceptable (to a pretty thin margin #i think we were required to have 95% accuracy or so) was 98. so its definitely degraded but still decent #thats the only positive thing i have to say about the resume though lol

[pleckthaniel]

my meds are working i think.

#i just... i have been laughing so much more #and i baked a pie for the first time in years #i stood up long enough to bake a pie! #and ive been crying a lot more which i know sounds bad but like #i was unbearably sad for years and literally Could not cry even though i was super like. existentially depressed #and its not like im not depressed anymore like i still have all the same thought patterns and stuff but its just #like i have more access to my emotions and the bad ones are kinda. #not tamped down actually cause thats what they were like most of the time before. almost hte opposite #like i opened the faucet and now i can just be sad when im sad instead of releasing the sadness slowly in general misery over three weeks #which is sorta the opposite of what lexapro did to me #and its not like i dont have bad days #like i had my period the other day and literally did not get out of bed lol #but thats a separate issue and now that ive separated those things i can address them both separately you know #like thats solvable. i will solve it some day #i thought i was going to solve it this summer but that. didnt work out i guess #but maybe in the fall ill be able to see a doctor who'll put me on hrt? allegedly the university doctors are trans friendly #fuck dude i just. im dumping a lot in here im just. even though things arent perfect i think i really have been having more good days #like on average per month #and fewer bad days #and i didnt even. realize that it could be like that honestly #i thought i was just doomed lol #and maybe im not??? its big. #personal #uh i cant do the reblog settings on this for some reason but yknow #dont rb. obviously

[tklpilled]

sorry i cant shut up about how i hate him i have to cancel out all the people who do like him /j

#i dont get it!! i really dont!! #i especially dont get the people who ship him and deku #coming from someone whose current favourite ship is dazai and chuuya: that is an abusive relationship lmao #i saw a post trying to explain how they werent and then like most of their points were about deku. bro hes not the abusive one #and then the ones that were about bakugou were just like. really shitty tbh #like they were just small things?? and you can tell they dont know what abuse is like bc abusers literally can be nice sometimes #they arent assholes all of the time #i mean bakugou is but he's just kinda. like that #but anyway before you call me a hypocrite theres a Huge difference between trying to kill each other consensually #(which okay that sounds bad but idk how else to describe them LMAO) #and genuinely being a dick to someone for no reason #even if abusive is too harsh of a term for you. they still are very much not healthy #maybe he gets better!! idk im not finished!! but i dont think i could ever ship them because bakugou has been like this their whole lives #even if he changes (which im not sure he does but again i dont know) it still won't erase. all of that #overall i really dont care if you like him i just dont understand you <3 /lh #kaz speaks

[floralovebot]

do you think that winx club season 3 gets way too much praise and is overrated, or is it justified?

i mean? yes and no? the first three seasons are hailed as the best for a reason, and while i do actually like the later seasons and appreciate the ones i don't, a mix of nostalgia and the first three seasons (and first movie) having been planned out from the start will usually beat the rest.

season 3 itself has a lot of memorable and favored aspects! the winx are now a fully established group and are close friends, the big bad villain feels much scarier and more impactful than the previous ones, enchantix, the girls are dealing with extremely traumatic events (which they did before of course but the whole sacrifice for enchantix thing amplifies it), and it genuinely feels like somewhat of a closure to their youth while also being a beginning of their maturity. They're all making really big decisions in s3, ones that affect other people too. S1 and s2 are still wonderful in their own right, but they've been leading up to s3 in very direct ways.

I don't think s3 being overhyped is a bad thing honestly. There are plenty of people who have criticized its shortcomings! Not to mention, it's really not just s3 that gets "overrated". All of the first three seasons get overhyped and hailed as the best, totally perfect seasons, especially in comparison to the later ones. I do think this is a little unfair since s5 and s6, while having plenty of bullshit, are really nice seasons and most people would like them if they had come out earlier. Nostalgia does play a big factor in how much people are willing to.. idk... be nice to the seasons? There are a lot of things in the later seasons that most fans would genuinely be fond of but aren't willing to give a chance specifically because it's from a later season. (like s7 is literally my least favorite season out of all of them (yes including s8) but even then it still has aspects that i genuinely enjoy.)

a big reason why s3 feels overhyped is that people aren't willing to even talk about the later seasons. so like... yes s3 is a little overhyped, and yes i do think people should give the later seasons a chance, but in the same vein, i don't think it's Bad that s3 gets so much praise. there are so many aspects of s3 that are just so good and i don't think it's wrong for fans to praise them! i don't think we should be praising s3 less, but i do think we should have more room for the other seasons and more tolerance for genuine enjoyment of them.

#like... ive seen people get hate anons for liking the later seasons ajkdghakdg #and thats bullshit!! #like again s7 is literally my least favorite but there are still parts of it that i really like #and that i know a lot of winxers who like the early seasons but are skeptical of the later ones would also like #for instance!! roxy having a bigger role the trix getting an upgrade bloom not being the Main character for one second #more lore about alfea and its past! the animals of the season actually being useful and not just child candy! #ive also seen a lot of people enjoy the look of tynix (its definitely more varied but way more praise than butterflix gets) #and like.. thats just one season! s5 and s6 are so much better!! #BLOOM ALMOST DIES IN S6 and yet no one cares or wants to analyze it because its not from the early seasons!! #she literally gave up her life to give the winx magic again like bro the bloom defenders would eat that up!! #and they should!! but they almost never do!! #aisha has a HUGE role in s5 but since no one wants to give anything past s3 a chance it never gets talked about!! #ANYWAY #the praise of the early seasons and especially s3 feels so apparent Because everyone immediately assumes theyll hate the later ones #or they go into it hating it dont have a good time watching and then talk about every single Bad thing in them #and they just arent talked about or shown as much as the early ones in fandom #answered #ik this isnt the answer you were looking for but like. it true #and listen im not trying to force people to enjoy the later seasons but they really arent As bad as people think they are #most fans havent even watched them but still go around hating them as if the later seasons killed their whole family #its funny akjdghajdgh

[earanie]

so.

#first of all ive already been told exactly how stupid i am by my dear friend so i know #im dumb #But stiiiilll #remember how last week while i was having an all around breakdown i wrote to Them™? #it was just a stupid text like how you doing #But I mean stupid!! stupid!! so stupid! riiight? #what was i hoping? idk. I just wanted to hear from them and so well i took the matter in my own 2 hands #I missed them and I wanted to hear from them since I think about them 24/7 anyhow #and guess what? they answered me #(we're supposed to be friends of course they did) #and alright we were having a nice convo #i was kinda afraid they'd be kind of stand offish #not bc of anything but probably not to try and lead me on yk? #that's what id do probably - kind but not too involved as not to give any false hope #and im so glad bc they arent doing that! we really did have a nice convo #ok at some point they answered kinda weirdly but that's probably just them being a v bad texter #which - fair - im not that good myself #thing isssss... the convo is still going on. 6 no 7 days later? #they're offering info that they don't need to. asking questions too! it's like they're actually enjoying talking to me! #I want to cry of happiness okay #and ik this doesn't mean a thing - i know it. i know how things stand. I am okay with it. #But to know they still enjoy talking to me and sending their precious little time chatting with me - i mean. fuck #and each time the convo was kinda dying down they still managed to keep it going 😭 i could cry #and today we've really been going back and forth and it's the best thing that's happened to me all month ok? ok. #and they've just asked me how was my morning. totally unnecessary question. im so happy i could die #yes im delusional but im in love so please god please universe - just keep thing convo going a bit more #just let me have this - it's such a small joy and such a small hope - just let me have this for a little while more #I wont go crazy - or i will but it won't hurt me worse than ive already been hurt so the danger is worth it #god I love them that's so awful

[yelloworangesoda]

i hate the food situation at my house so much for the love of god. theres only so many times a man can eat ramen with nothing or tuna with nothing

#theres no fucking. ingredients. theres nothing to add. i used to walk around my kitchen trying to look up stuff to make with what we had but #it required like. an onion. an egg. a spice. a vegetable. and we dont have that #and something about me. idk what it is idk if its me or my dads fault but i cant ask for it. i cant. i think part of it is bc i need the #ingredient for my one thing and then. it goes bad and its my fault and i feel bad #i hate my food situation so much. my dad makes this food in the microwave that he knows i dont like or eat. but if i make something else he #gets offended like thats not fair #and i feel bad for complaining bc i should just get a job and buy my own food but im not gonna do that bc im not gonna get a job. #i have trust fund money. like a decent amount from when i was hit buy a car #i should move out of state like right now. and live off that and when it runs out. ill just lay in the street i guess. i hate my life so #much guys its not funny. idk what to do. theres no fixing this theres nothing i want to do and nobody can help me bc theres no solution #everyone ignores it bc theres no solution to my problem. im never gonna be happy. its never gonna be worth it #nobody wants to tell me thats life suck it up or die bc they know id rather die by a mile. im so embarrassed of my stupid life im such a #failure. i want to kill myself bc i dont want to work like how pathetic is that. thats so stupid. i dont really say it to my parents bc they #would just laugh at me. or yell at me. i dont know what to do. i dont know what to do. i find myself hoping i get in a car accident and die #anytime i go out. i hope i dont wake up in the morning. i hope something bad happens and its not my fault so i dont get the blame i just get #the benifit of not having to do this anymore #god thats so. dark. its how i feel. #its getting to the point where i dont feel like i should say im not gonna kill myself at the end of these. im still not yet. but it feels #like a yet situation. like its gonna get to the point where i start trying again. #im still not there yet though. please dont… well idk what happens so suicidal adults. call the police on me. my methods arent any more #refined than they were when i was 14 trying to drink. nail polish. #simons spouting #vent :( #suicide //