#and fewer bad days

[pleckthaniel]

my meds are working i think.

#i just... i have been laughing so much more #and i baked a pie for the first time in years #i stood up long enough to bake a pie! #and ive been crying a lot more which i know sounds bad but like #i was unbearably sad for years and literally Could not cry even though i was super like. existentially depressed #and its not like im not depressed anymore like i still have all the same thought patterns and stuff but its just #like i have more access to my emotions and the bad ones are kinda. #not tamped down actually cause thats what they were like most of the time before. almost hte opposite #like i opened the faucet and now i can just be sad when im sad instead of releasing the sadness slowly in general misery over three weeks #which is sorta the opposite of what lexapro did to me #and its not like i dont have bad days #like i had my period the other day and literally did not get out of bed lol #but thats a separate issue and now that ive separated those things i can address them both separately you know #like thats solvable. i will solve it some day #i thought i was going to solve it this summer but that. didnt work out i guess #but maybe in the fall ill be able to see a doctor who'll put me on hrt? allegedly the university doctors are trans friendly #fuck dude i just. im dumping a lot in here im just. even though things arent perfect i think i really have been having more good days #like on average per month #and fewer bad days #and i didnt even. realize that it could be like that honestly #i thought i was just doomed lol #and maybe im not??? its big. #personal #uh i cant do the reblog settings on this for some reason but yknow #dont rb. obviously

[whentherewerebicycles]

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#my sister in law is pregnant #her due date is two weeks after mine would’ve been #they found out the day I lost the pregnancy #I’m genuinely happy for them and so excited to be an aunt #but I also feel just #something beyond gutted #why did my baby have to die #when so many other people’s babies don’t die #why is my baby dead #why is my baby dead!!!!!!!!! #my brother was so gentle and careful about telling me but also he’s just understandably so so so so so excited #and I am so happy for him I love him so much I’ll love their kid so much #but I wanted a baby and I don’t have one and I don’t know if I’ll ever have one #I just have $14k in medical debt and one fewer fallopian tube #I just feel #kinda hollowed out #i want it so bad and I don’t know if I’m going to get it and everyone I mean everyone around me is having babies #i want it more than anything and in my heart of hearts I don’t think I’m going to get it

[cosmicdreamgrl]

drinking mocktails at almost 1:30 am because i can't sleep due to jet lag and having too much on my mind? sounds about right

#i had time to process #and honestly i won't ever stop making stuff for my friends #if people feel uncomfortable in that regard & don't want to interact with those posts? i can't do anything about it #however i don't think it's fair to indirectly make us feel bad for something we can't control either #and if this mentality persists? i don't have to be the one to tell you that fewer & fewer people are going to want to make anything #the motivation to do so these days is already at a low #people are just trying to still find the will to do what they love #that's all #steph.text

[yeonban]

Negative Character Traits. Below is a list of 102 negative traits to describe your character. Bold the ones that fit. Tagged by: @hunting-songs Thank you!! Tagging: @effigist, @antinomos, @minban, @blindfoldcd, @furiaei, @gameswillbeplayed, @halchron & whoever else wants to do this!

Aggressive - pursuing one’s aims and interests forcefully, sometimes unduly so Aloof - not friendly or forthcoming; cool and distant Arrogant - having or revealing an exaggerated sense of one’s own importance or abilities

Belligerent - hostile and aggressive Big-headed - conceited or arrogant Bitchy - malicious or unpleasant Boastful - showing excessive pride and self-satisfaction in one’s achievements, possessions, or abilities Bone-idle - lazy Boring - not interesting; tedious Bossy - fond of giving people orders; domineering

Callous - showing or having an insensitive and cruel disregard for others Cantankerous - bad-tempered, argumentative, and uncooperative Careless - not giving sufficient attention or thought to avoiding harm or errors Changeable - irregular; inconstant Clinging - overly dependent on someone emotionally Compulsive - resulting from or relating to an irresistible urge, especially one that is against one’s conscious wishes Conservative - a person who is averse to change and holds to traditional values and attitudes, typically in relation to politics Cowardly - lacking courage Crass - lacking sensitivity, refinement, or intelligence Cruel - willfully causing pain or suffering to others, or feeling no concern about it Cunning - having or showing skill in achieving one’s ends by deceit or evasion Cynical - believing that people are motivated by self-interest; distrustful of human sincerity or integrity

Deceitful - guilty of or involving deceit; deceiving or misleading others Detached - separate or disconnected Dishonest - behaving or prone to behave in an untrustworthy or fraudulent way.* Dogmatic - inclined to lay down principles as incontrovertibly true Domineering - assert one’s will over another in an arrogant way*

Fastidious - very attentive to and concerned about accuracy and detail Finicky - fussy about one’s needs or requirements Foolish - lacking good sense or judgment; unwise Foolhardy - recklessly bold or rash Fussy - fastidious about one’s needs or requirements; hard to please

Greedy - having or showing an intense and selfish desire for something, especially wealth or power Grumpy - bad-tempered and irritable Gullible - easily persuaded to believe something; credulous

Harsh - cruel or severe

Impatient - having or showing a tendency to be quickly irritated or provoked Impolite - not having or showing good manners; rude Impulsive - acting or done without forethought Inconsiderate - thoughtlessly causing hurt or inconvenience to others Inconsistent - not compatible or in keeping with Indecisive - not having or showing the ability to make decisions quickly and effectively Indiscreet - having, showing, or proceeding from too great a readiness to reveal things that should remain secret or private Inflexible - unwilling to change or compromise Interfering - tending to interfere in other people’s affairs Intolerant - not tolerant of views, beliefs, or behavior that differ from one’s own Irresponsible - not showing a proper sense of responsibility

Jealous - feeling or showing envy of someone or their achievements and advantages

Lazy - unwilling to work or use energy

Machiavellian - cunning, scheming, and unscrupulous, especially in politics Materialistic - excessively concerned with material possessions; money-oriented Mean - one who makes no effort to understand or empathize with others Miserly - of or characteristic of a miser Moody - given to unpredictable changes of mood, especially sudden bouts of gloominess or sullenness

Narrow-minded - not willing to listen to or tolerate other people’s views; prejudiced Nasty - behaving in an unpleasant or spiteful way Naughty - disobedient; badly behaved Nervous - easily agitated or alarmed; tending to be anxious; highly strung

Obsessive - a person who is affected by an obsession Obstinate - stubbornly refusing to change one’s opinion or chosen course of action, despite attempts to persuade one to do so Overcritical - inclined to find fault too readily Overemotional - having feelings that are too easily excited and displayed

Parsimonious - unwilling to spend money or use resources; stingy or frugal Patronizing - apparently kind or helpful but betraying a feeling of superiority; condescending* Perverse - showing a deliberate and obstinate desire to behave in a way that is unreasonable or unacceptable, often in spite of the consequences Pessimistic - tending to see the worst aspect of things or believe that the worst will happen Pompous - affectedly and irritatingly grand, solemn, or self-important Possessive - demanding someone’s total attention and love Pusillanimous - showing a lack of courage or determination; timid

Quarrelsome - given to or characterized by quarreling Quick-tempered - easily made angry

Resentful - feeling or expressing bitterness or indignation at having been treated unfairly Rude - offensively impolite or ill-mannered* Ruthless - having or showing no pity or compassion for others

Sarcastic - marked by or given to using irony in order to mock or convey contempt Secretive - inclined to conceal feelings and intentions or not to disclose information Selfish - lacking consideration for others; concerned chiefly with one’s own personal profit or pleasure Self-centered - preoccupied with oneself and one’s affairs Self-indulgent - characterized by doing or tending to do exactly what one wants, especially when this involves pleasure or idleness Silly - having or showing a lack of common sense or judgment; absurd and foolish Sly - having or showing a cunning and deceitful nature Sneaky - furtive; sly Stingy - unwilling to give or spend; ungenerous Stubborn - having or showing dogged determination not to change one’s attitude or position on something, especially in spite of good arguments or reasons to do so Stupid - having or showing a great lack of intelligence or common sense Superficial - not having or showing any depth of character or understanding

Tacky - showing poor taste and quality Tactless - having or showing a lack of adroitness and sensitivity in dealing with others or with difficult issues Timid - showing a lack of courage or confidence; easily frightened Touchy - oversensitive and irritable Thoughtless - not showing consideration for the needs of other people Truculent - eager or quick to argue or fight; aggressively defiant

Unkind - inconsiderate and harsh to others Unpredictable - behaving in a way that is not easily predicted Unreliable - not able to be relied upon Untidy - not inclined to keep one’s possessions or appearance neat and in order Untrustworthy - not able to be relied on as honest or truthful*

Vague - thinking or communicating in an unfocused or imprecise way Vain - having or showing an excessively high opinion of one’s appearance, abilities, or worth Vengeful - seeking to harm someone in return for a perceived injury Vulgar - lacking sophistication or good taste; unrefined

Weak-willed - lacking the ability to resist influence or to restrain one’s own impulses; irresolute

* = Depends on who you are. There traits aren't an inherent part of how he'd act with 99% of people, but they do come very naturally when facing off against those he cannot stand or who he believes deserve it.

#muse: tobias. #* tobias. / development. #Me reading this as if Tobias isn't MY own oc: Inch resting........... (taking notes) #Honestly fewer than I imagined there'd be?? I'd love to come across one of these for positive traits too to compare things #Overall he might very well be the nicest. or at least the most open. underground leader in the whole wide world LMFAOOO crazy!! #If he hadn't lived at Wammy's for 9 years he would have been sooo much worse but thankfully that saved everyone from what could've been #Watari: Is murder wrong? #Baby Tobias: Not necessarily #Watari: .........Is torture wrong? #Baby Tobias: Not necessarily. #Watari after nearly a decade of trying and failing to change his mind on that: You should strive to help as many people as you can #Teen Tobias: ........Okay well I can do That (<- refusing to elaborate on what methods he'll use to quote unquote Do That) #It's too bad Watari died before Tobias left Wammy's bc he would've gotten a headache a DAY hearing about his approaches

[pepprs]

it’s that time of year where i want to remake my blog so so so bad it’s unreal and then i don’t. lol

#i have way too many followers to be doing the shit i do on here and im kinda getting tired of it. i wish the crab post hadn’t blown up #purrs #i just don’t want to lose the years of posts or like my sideblogs being attached to this blog or anything. and i would want to still be #pepprs but i wouldn’t want ppl to find me easily. idk. ughhh. head in hands #delete later #i wish there was a function to like remove followers en masse. that would fix me #all of u who like regularly like my personal posts would stay of.c it’s just like the literal resacteds of ppl who idont even know and i #feel claustrophobic on here sometimes and all i do is just close the app when i feel like that. but idk #it’s not sustainable. and i miss the freedom that comes w like having fewer ppl perceiving you iykwim. maybe i’ll remake for 2023 idk #i think tumblr has started recommending me to new users too like it’s that bad. and idont ahve any ill will towards ppl who follow me or #anything like i appreciate it. i just want privacy and i get so many asks and stuff all the time ajdni don’t want to sound ungrateful bc i #rly do appreciate it but also i have abt 2% social battery most days and i feel guilty and stressed bc the amount of ppl who want to talk to #me just keeps growing and growing and most of the time i want to hide and just reblog posts and not think abt it. that sounds so mean and is #very very evidential of my lockdown induced mental illness and again i do not want to sound ungrateful bc i really am. im just tired and #overwhelmed and overstimulated every day and i need… whatever you call this. even though i already isolate myself too much irl anyway

[loveisbraveandwild]

it’s kinda crazy to me how over the last 5 eras ive been like “taylor is at her happiest ive never seen her so happy” with literally every album !! when rep came out i was like “this is it this is peak happiness taylor” and then lover came out and she was HAPPIER and then folklore and evermore came out and she was even HAPPIER and looking at the midnights content i’m just like !!! girly is even deeper in love than ever before and more secure and happy in her relationship and self!!! than ever before!!! it just brings me so much joy how increasingly happy she gets all the time!!🥰🥰🥰

#like OBVIOUSLY she has bad days through all of this #and shes still filled with anxities #but fewer and fewer of them are abt the romantic stability in her life and the way she feels abt him and how he feels abt her

[lover-of-mine]

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#mood stabilizers pros: fewer bad days #mood stabilizers cons: no idea how to regulate myself on bad days #i have no idea how to regulate anymore lol #and the michael news put me on a high #but im having a i dont want to be person day #so my brain is like NO ❤️ #thoughts thoughts thoughts

[qsmprambling]

If cookie access is going to be a big concern with holidays and such coming up, maybe it's worth flagging it with the admins. Maybe add some kind of banker to the bakery that only eggs can access and parents can give cookies to? Or just make it easy and have it that everyone's cookies are worth 1 point.

#Honestly I'm not a fan of the cookie system #and share the general opinion that it sort of takes away the opportunity for bonding that the previous system encouraged #but I also understand this eliminates the need for admins to track player activity #but with the amount of people away and off and especially with holidays coming up #the half-points from anyone but parents is going to put a lot of pressure on people to stock up for themselves and others #which involves them playing extra days #which reducing the checkmarks to 3 was supposed to help reduce #honestly they should just switch it back to everyone being able to do anyone's quests #because there are times parents simply can't help being away #and that puts a pressure of other islanders to save their kid #which takes a lot more work than it does the parent #Like it would take someone 6 days to save enough cookies for an egg that isn't theirs #what about their own? #what about multiple eggs? #There have been actual days where Bad has had to complete quests for 6 eggs AT THE SAME TIME #again I get this also encourages involvement from more people on the island #but the quests aren't even fun for people so the motivation to do them will probably fizzle out with time #and thus fewer extra cookies #right I'm rambling stopping again pfft #tl;dr interesting system but will need tweaks I think @_@ #like before this people only needed to log in 3 times a week with their egg to keep them safe #and STILL there was at least one egg almost every Sunday doing their quest last minute with a babysitter #just making it so anyone's cookies will add up to 1 point will alleviate a lot of the stress I think #even if it does mean that 1 person can only take care of max 2 eggs a week (and half of another) #ramble

[lamphous]

hello. kindly begging you to share how yoga helps your tmj i’ve been clenching my jaw since birth

lmao yes lifelong jaw issue gang ! so I've been mainly doing stuff for the shoulders, neck, and upper back, which I've found helps in that once those areas are less tense, I actually have room to work my jaw in addition to being able to focus on it more specifically. also all the muscles are all connected etc so lower the tension overall helps prevent me clenching my jaw even more against the pain and it's a whole feedback loop yk?

I've been mostly following this youtuber, yoga with adriene, and during all her routines she's also always reminding you to relax your face and shoulders etc, which helps build the habit which I am.... notoriously bad at lmao

bonus pro tip I got from a regular who also grinds her teeth in her sleep: put a cork or smth like that (I use the little plastic guy they put in kinder eggs lmao) between your teeth for a while before bed to stretch your muscles one last time before your unconscious self fucks up all your hard work of the day.

(and obv take it out before you actually go to sleep so you don't choke to death)

depending on how bad a day it's been, sometimes I can get it between my back teeth on the really bad side, sometimes just between my front teeth, but just having it there while you mindlessly scroll for an accidental hour before actually going to sleep helps

#bad jaw gang rise #my main problem is when im asleep bc i have anxiety dreams every night lmao so its like a hard reset every night #but its helped a bit so far and given me the room and also energy to focus on my jaw #like the goal is fewer days where i wake up literally unable to open my mouth more than a centimeter lol #achievement unlocked: message answered #anonymous

[countess-of-edessa]

the way people jump to the defense of video games whenever someone is like "what a stupid hobby to spend more than the barest amount of time killing effort on" really just reinforces to me that video games is objectively one of stupidest things to waste your life on

#well I don’t think it’s not worthwhile!!!!!! Well that is because you are addicted to video games. #everyone has a hobby and mine is video games!!!! any hobby that involves physical effort be it a sport or art or wood carving #is worthwhile. you are putting something into the world #video games does not put anything into the world. and is less likely to #negatively impact all the other parts of your life. i have never heard a woman complain her husband is playing golf 12 hours a day everyday #to Be a human being in the world you have to participate in the human experience #effort creativity exertion earnest attempts to succeed #video games a facsimile of effort and toil and experience that give an ultimately hollow sense of accomplishment #because men (and everyone) these days have fewer outlets than ever by which they can express those things organically #especially in a high-adrenaline high physicality way #and i think a lot of men would like to but find themselves unable #and like sorry about the industrial Revolution and it’s consequences on the human race guys but you still have to do something about your #life despite it. I’m sorry you can’t go fight in a cool war. #maybe take up boxing #or woodworking #or rugby #if video games are anything more than a passing way to spend a small amount of leisure time i think they are bad. so. #text posts that i think will probably be fine but might get reblogged by the wrong people and make everyone mad at me dot com

[jacks-manidiary]

I& wanna meet more canonmates so badly except for I& really don't because um. The Darkness consumes me&

#jack's rambles #and it's embarrassing how little I& remember from L'manberg or even Snowchester #and well. almost everyone I& knew well either hates me& or hurt me& in some way that I& have very complicated feelings about #there are a lot of Tommies. few of them would want to apologize. much fewer would want to read depressive posts about ruining my& life #but I& do miss Tommy. so badly. he was my& brother despite it all #sometimes it's literal sometimes it's not I&'m not yet sure #and. as bad of an influence as Wilbur was to me&. we got along well #he was more understanding of my& depression/whatever mental illness I& had #to Niki I& can only apologize. I& miss you dearly Niki and wish I& remembered more of you #and Tubbo. you were kind. it hurt more to disappoint you than anything you've ever done to me& #man. man I& miss all these people. miss the old days. #they sucked. those days were awful. why do I& miss and remember only the worst of it all #dsmp kin

[koheletgirl]

im not saying streaming services and binge culture don't do horrible things to television - because they do - but some of you were clearly not here 10 years ago when the standard was dragging out shows way after the creators run out of ideas as long as it's still profitable

#like. i am and always will be pro weekly releases and i hate hate hate that everything is measured by bingeablity #but im afraid some of you dont know what youre talking about #this is not about shows getting canceled btw that's not what im talking about #im talking about the creative value of the media #which is affected by a number of factors and imo a show getting too few episodes is hardly ever one of them #it's a problem when a show is not built to have fewer episodes. when a season doesnt get the budget it needs #when a story cant properly be told because someone cut it short #but ''shows are too short these days'' isnt a problem im sorry it's just not #have you guys seen british television #sorry im rambling. its just that. the bad thing is that everything is commercial. this is what's bad for art and it's been that way forever #but there are different types of storytelling and there are different types of shows #and some of them are meant to have 20 episodes a season and some of them are meant to have 7. that's fine and good #i just said all this to shosh and then felt like posting it #🤎

[msfcatlover]

Web!Bruce keeps... tethers, for lack of a better word, on the people he cares about. The same strings a lot of Web avatars use for manipulation, he... tries to limit his use of. Let the strings sit lax, present in case of emergency, there if needed, but not to be used. When his worries get the best of him, he coils them around his fingers, pulling the tethers just tight enough to feel the life thrumming at the other end, the current emotional state of that person, just as a check in. A quick twist to make sure Dick’s okay. A light tug to make sure Damian actually went to bed. A small pull when Tim’s been quieter than usual and Bruce can’t figure out why.

It soothes Bruce’s nerves to have those silent check-ins.

It also means that despite never being prone to pyrophobia before, cases involving fire fray Bruce’s nerves more than anything, as the longer any of his people spend in close proximity to flames, the more chances there are each of their tethers might burn away. A nightmare he’s encountered more than once when he went for a check-in and found only a slack, frayed thread where a sturdy tether was supposed to be.

(Bruce has on occasion yanked all the strings attached to someone hard enough to physically force them closer to him. If he holds them tight enough, he can induce paralysis. If he winds them right, he can leave someone all trussed up and immobilized. In his weakest, most paranoid moments, he has used this to try to force someone to stay safe, but the Fear... the Fear of someone else having control over your actions, imposing their will on you, of knowing your weaknesses & taking advantage... that’s what the Web wants. Realizing he’s Feeding on someone he cares about is usually enough to snap Bruce out of it, and when it’s not, the resulting damage to their relationship is punishment enough for him to resist the urge for years to come.)

#batfam crossover #tma crossover #tma #batman #bruce wayne #bruce wayne's control issues #Web aligned Bruce Wayne #my writing #mine #// #Bruce is 100% the person you want around if anyone else has been exposed to mind-altering substances as he can restrain them harmlessly #and to a certain degree tamper with their emotional state to make it not so bad. Bruce is also the one everyone is genuinely scared of havin #to deal with when he's been drugged for... basically the exact same reasons. You do not want to be around Web!Bruce on fear gas for example. #Bruce's specific aspect of the Web is actually having your trust used against you but he mostly Feeds on the fear you're being set up. #Due to the former he can actually /only/ attach lasting tethers to people close to him. Short term tethers can be attached with a touch and #are very useful in a fight but fewer threads means worse control and like I said they only last a few days at most. #Everyone knows Batman controls Gotham from the shadows. Everyone knows he has a finger in every pie. If anything happens it's because Batman #wants it that way. (And just like every other avatar of the Web Bruce is largely being given far more credit than he deserves.) #Being /THE/ Bruce Wayne does make him one of the most trusted people in the city though so he has more control than you'd think. #He's rich enough to be useful. He's too stupid to be a threat. People let themselves be vulnerable thinking they're manipulating him. #And Bruce gets one or two thin but lasting threads on them just in case for the future. #This is for the record why the Court of Owls ended up being one of his first cases. Which is how he met Dick. #Bruce knew he'd really fucked up after he tried to take Robin away & force Dick to stay on bedrest...and Dick took a lighter to every thread #before climbing out the window & heading back to Titans Tower. There was a good few months where there was no tether between them. #Bruce spent the whole time metaphorically sinking his teeth into his own fist to choke down the bitter loss of control. #Bruce avoided Dick for fear of that Fear. He did not want to look into Dick's eyes & feel the fulfillment of his own aspect being invoked. #Which also lead to Bruce not apologizing for... a while. 'Cause the next time he saw Dick it was because of Jason. #(Dick was almost suffocating in how protective he was towards Jason specifically from Bruce whenever he was around.) #(Jason felt a lot less protected than he felt like a prop in their arguments truth be told.)

[ivan-fyodorovich-k]

I think you can make the case that fascists, broadly, have a weird and dangerous obsession with the physical, physical beauty, physical strength, etc., without then saying that any concern for physical health is therefore fascist and to be anti-fascist you need to abandon any notion of physical health

#could you guys not take your batshit ideas to their most insane conclusions for five seconds #I guess this is vagueposting but i continue to see things to which I want to reply #but that I don't want to see on my dash #do you seriously not know that it's possible to be unhealthily obsessed with being 'thin' for its own sake #but simultaneously that it's bad for you to be huffing around extra pounds #this goes well beyond these theories about how bodies have a natural equilibrium weight at which you'll be hovering #I'm not saying this as a paragon of physical health myself I ought to lose a few pounds #but baby #if you are eating 4000+ calories of processed foods a day #that's bad for you #and you're gonna have a surplus of pounds that will diminish if you eat fewer and better calories and fuckin move around more

[bare1ythere]

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#a B in a bio class isnt the end of the world. a B in a bio class isnt the end of the world. a B in a bio class isnt the end of the world #I have such a complex about doing bad in academics but especially in bio because like. thats supposed to be the one thing im good at #but this class keeps throwing me curve balls and im not doing Bad but not good enough to the point that I feel sick to my stomach #at the thought of studying for the exam #and i dont have enough time i dont have enough time to study for my chem final which is in THREE DAYS. #With everything else also happening #I just feel so overwhelmed. I feel like i felt so much more confident in previous finals seasons #i dont know man academics were so much easier for me in high school #i dont even know if i wanna be a doctor anymore. i dont know if the dread I feel at the thought is because im just lazy and uncompetitive #or that its a sign that im going in the wrong direction #and the only thing im confident in anymore is my love for fandom stuff #but even then i dont feel good about my art half the time #im just tired of being stressed I guess. why do i have to kill myself for 8 months a year only to come out of it for like a week or two #to catch my breath. i feel like im going insane #this cant be right. this cant be right #shut up me #i did way too much this term and it almost killed me. but i feel so weak and lazy for not being able to do it all #Im already taking fewer classes next term and an extra year to graduate. I dont know why i cant handle the pressure the way my siblings can #ugh. whatever #i ha. i dont have time for this #vent

[unofficialadamtaurus]

gotta say going from writing for relatively large fandoms (Bleach, One Piece, Marvel) to RWBY has been interesting

#unofficial adam vents #less engagement fewer comments/reviews fewer niche fics etc etc #the latest chapter of HP has gotten approx 200 readers on FFN #that was uploaded yesterday #normally it gets about 21/day on non-update days #for comparison... #Rewind (bleach) averages about 40 readers/day on non-update days #and got over 700 readers on its last update #i already wrote that post about how abysmal the review/comment ratios are across fandoms but still #it's worse for RWBY #as I said before: I pity new writers #oh and idk if my stories just get fewer views on AO3 or what but I get so few comments there #the new chapter has zero 🙃 #feels bad