#i might or might not be shaking

[hereforh]

I Don't Wanna Face The Music

Louis likes to think he's a pretty normal, typical lad. He likes spending nights at the pub with his mates, he loves football and is very close to his family. So when he moves to London for uni, he doesn’t think much will be different.

Until he makes these news friends who are nothing like his mates back home and change his life for the better - and this one boy who messes with his head from the get go and makes him question everything he has every thought about himself.

#ok so... here it goes. my first published fic. (definitely not the first one I write though lol) #i might or might not be shaking #anyway #pls be nice #trackinghappily #trackinghome #hlcreators #1dsource #1dficlibrary #hltracks #allwaswell16 #1dficvillage #larry stylinson #fanfic #fic ref #larry fanfiction #ao3 feed larry #writing #mine #yourlarrysource #hljournal #hlsource

[halogalopaghost]

TIL that you can assign an AO3 next of kin to control your account in case of your death???

#ao3 #this is actually really neat #I had a will at one point that included passwords and usernames specifically for my sister so she could manage certain social media #including my fanfic accounts #if anything happened to me #I need to update it it's been like...idk a decade #who makes a will when they're sixteen you might ask #ppl who want to be dead I will answer very seriously while shaking my bottle of SSRI like a baby rattle

[the-holy-ghosted]

god i miss when this artist posted (<- is the artist)

#the heron speaketh #having a frustrating evening. #i keep promising fun things but i might just have to post something simple and self indulgent before i get in gear again #i have ideas but nothing will fucking posess me enough to actually sit and work on it i just keep picking and picking at things #this sounds pathetic oughhg woe is me but there are like. almost 450 of you. who followed for art. and i DONT POST #shaking myself by the shoudlers would you just draw please

[welcometogrouchland]

[ID in ALT] I've made posts before about Talia/Dick co-parenting Damian moments (will never happen but let me dream) and this came to me in a vision. Took me ages to finish for some reason 😭 and then even longer to post

#dc comics #dc #damian wayne #dick grayson #talia al ghul #batfamily #dc robin #nightwing #anyway. yes im a self-indulgent ''dick as damians secret third parent'' truther #like i DO think it's way more complex and nuanced than the schmoopy affectionate fan portrayal of it #they're brothers they're father and son they're partners they're the dynamic duo except only in past tense etc etc #but consider! I'm not immune to schmoopy affection in fanworks. it compells me despite itself #anyway it's technically not that crazy when it comes to dick and damian. they hug! often! at least they did #it's not as big a leap to these types of scenarios #also talia ''somewhat absent for complex reasons on both her and damians part but very loving and loved by her son'' al ghul #you will always be famous to me #son of the demon origin...bwahhh #anyway. someone made a comic kind of like this/like a post i made abt this topic #but way funnier bc dick and talia starting trying to beat each other up #so go look at that as well #anyway. it's been a somewhat difficult few weeks so I'm. desperately trying to take it easy #i got some reading with me (first vol of kevin smiths GA run that i found second hand and jaimes BB run vol 2!) #so we'll see how far i get through those. considering there's demons in my head telling me to re-read things (LET ME OUT!!!) #when i finish GA and BB i do plan on rereading robin 2021. as a treat to myself #it's a run I've really warmed up to as time went on #I'm keeping up w/ the current b&r run even though it is. admittedly very slow w/ some weird dialogue #i read it for the damian content more than anything. also nikas back so that's neat :] #idk I have a feeling that after absolute power shakes out we might get some more creative team switch ups #so if anyone at dc is interested in taking over the reigns on b&r...that could be very neat #(it's me they should hire me. please DC i have ideas listen to my red hood pitch PLEASE-)

[jeeaark]

Greygold: Hey Shadowheart, do you know a way I can get Lae'zel to be more open to sharing? In general o-of course-

Shadowheart applying another layer of lipstick: Say no more Bu, I gotchu

But look. LOOOK. As a first playthrough, sometimes the insatiable need to explore and experience as much as possible happens. So let's just say that became Greygold's uhhhhh. Let's call it ~a character flaw~

Nobody is perfect, not even Greygold. Sometimes. Relationships can get bumpy! and confusing!

#bg3 #bg3 spoilers #shadowheart #lae'zel #greygold #I KNOW IT'S POSSIBLE FOR YOU TO SHARE LAE'ZEL #LOOK WITHIN YOURSELF #*shakes the stubborn githyanki* #YOU WERE SOMEHOW ABLE TO SUCCEED WITH A 6 POLYCULE RELATIONSHIP IN MY ORIGIN STORY PLAYTHROUGH I BELIEVE IN //YOU// #everytime I draw something my brain worries might be too dumb I have to tell myself 'well I thought it funny'

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

obsessed with the prospect of Howdy Figuring It Out via the neighbors enjoying non-food items

#i have a vivid image in my mind #of him seeing this #then going through his entire shop studying every product #and realizing. Oh Shit. Barely Any Of It Is Real. Im Selling Props. #(or something akin to props since i doubt hed jump to that conclusion first) #also the image of him pouring Woodchips and Sawdust outta a cereal box into a bowl #and then sitting there having a breakdown over it #is Insanely funny #hes just cradling the bowl a la blobfish meme.... #scribble salad #welcome home #and then afterwards he's like 'fuck it!!! might as well sell soap as mash! rat poison shakes! who cares!! nothing is real!!!' #thats my brain's version of events until canon proves otherwise <3

[aether-weather]

lmao gay hedgehogs get grimaced

#thoam #issue 7 #yes those things around shadow are dark gaia spheres i just didn't want to take the time to make sure they looked right lmao #might need to edit this to make the grimace shake on the floor and walls more pronounced...but for now you get the picture #i rise from the ashes to post this shit #dex draws #also came up with an art tag!! yippee!! #sonic the werehog #shadow the hedgehog #sonadow #the longer i look at this the more disappointed i am in myself #anyways i'll shut up now

[decolonize-the-left]

(to preface this, i am white. figured i should make that known off the bat) i wanted to come bounce an idea off of you that i've been rolling around in my head for a bit. i have this pet theory that, for the population ill call here "white progressive queers who know very little about poc and racism", a large underpinning of this group's interaction with poc is a Fear of Fucking Up and more generally, moral purity thought. they (maybe even "we"- im still hopefully learning myself) get so paralyzed by this idea and line of thinking that goes something like this: "1) since i know nothing about poc & racism, then 2) clearly in discussions about these topics, i will fuck up and say something wrong or perhaps even Bigoted, which if i did 3) makes me an Irreparable Ontologically Evil Racist, hence 4) i should just be quiet and never ask questions/speak on these topics" which then results in said White Progressive Queer and those around them never learning. i wanted to know what you think abt this and tell me if im on the mark or not

also thank u for the work u do on this blog, ive found so many helpful resources through you

You're right. In my experience that's exactly how it is.

I want to add tho: yes they're uncomfortable that they might fuck up and be considered racists sure, but a huge part of that stems from the massive inability to place the discomfort where it belongs. Which is with their own guilt.

Instead they blame the conversations for making them uncomfortable.

And let's take some worthy notes here: this is not how white people feel all the time. Because white people are not uncomfortable making these fuck ups in front of other white people.

So it's not that the conversation is uncomfortable. They are made uncomfortable. And they are made uncomfortable because even when discussing anti-racism they step into the role of oppressor (the little fuck ups or accidentally bigoted comments) so naturally and God forbid other (not white) people can See how easy it is.

My advice for white people that are like this (that nobody asked for) is

Your fuckups do not define you but how you react to them does

Listen, respect, learn

That's it. That's the whole list. Say something bad? Apologize, but don't over-explain yourself. Ask how to fix it. Google how you fucked up so you understand why it wasn't okay. Google again to get idea of how your fuck up hurts people. Google some more to make sure you don't do it again. Go to some safe space and ask some clarifying questions. Listen, respect, learn.

Maybe the people you fucked up with don't forgive you and that's okay, they don't have to. But YOU won't ever make anyone feel bad or less than in the same way ever again and that's what matters.

Having one less person making racist comments matters even if it's a struggle for that person to get to that point.

I need y'all to understand that none of you are gonna just wake up being suddenly perfect anti-racist allies. And we will literally never ever have allies like that if y'all refuse to even sit with your own discomfort.

•°•°•

This weird morality issue white people have over looking racist is also just such a non-problem. Like if y'all want a PoC perspective: white people are already being racist ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯ ....we Already see y'all as racists. And also I'm gonna experience racism anyway so I'd rather it be because someone was just being ignorant on the path to anti-racism.

Y'all are so worried about how shit Looks that you can't be bothered how really things are? Like you're so afraid of looking racist you'd allow yourselves to continue being actually ignorant and casually racist. And to avoid what? Being uncomfortable for a minute? Being called-out? A mean comment?

We are trying to stop hate crimes and genocide. Like that's what we are dealing with okay. Accountability for your actions is an acquired taste but I think y'all can handle some discomfort considering.

#every time im confronted with the idea that white feelings are why BIPOC are being killed daily i get umhinged tbh #like i might die if i call the cops cuz YOUD feel bad if you talked about racism? AND YOURE JUST KEEP NOT DOING IT?? WHY #asked #answered #sorry #some asks just like #do this to me #white people like this make me wanna shake them back and forth viscerally #whiteness

[ls-tbl]

Some silly class doodles (with the MOUSE GAHHGAH EXPLODES weeps agony)

Hes OKAY guys TRUST ME

#its funny bc i refuse to use refs and afterwards when i notice something off #i never forgive myself and it bothers me for the rest on time #im a little obsessed #the urge to scream and shake and yell and GO CRAZY IN THE TAGS #I MIGHT!!!! #but i will spare you. for NOW #i actually love this game and fan content sooo much ohh my god i might blow up #mirage ultrakill #v2 ultrakill #my art #ultrakill #dect

[front-facing-pokemon]

#spinda #AAAHHHH YES!!! our belovèd spinda. from their café!!! probably one of my favorite minor characters from pmd sky #whom i don't even think was in the original explorers games. i think spinda's café was exclusive to sky. if i'm remembering correct #ly. or maybe that was shaymin village. i know shaymin village was for sure but maybe it was just that and not both of them. either way #have a delicious drink and allow the flower of conversation to bloom! i could quote spinda all day. he had “hopes and dreams” before toby #ever did. THAT'S ALSO like i had no idea what spinda's pronouns were. i kept trying to figure it out because i talked about him quite a lot‚ #but no one in game ever talked about him. to mention his pronouns? turns out. there's ONE line of dialogue where the post office fucker in #shaymin village mentions him and calls him a he. i think that's the only time spinda is referred to in the third person with a pronoun #i believe it's when they're talking about like. how you can send gifts or whatever and pick up the characters' responses at spinda's café #which is still a really fucking good feature. of any video game. SEE WHAT I MEAN spinda and their café is just an incredibly good Thing #it's to the point where my home wifi network is named “Spinda's Café Wi-Fi” because i love it so much. so if you're ever runnin around #and you see a wifi network by that name… it might be me! you never know! or… it could be the real deal. the real spinda's café is somewhere #nearby…! ugh. i wish. i would go there immediately #not even to mention all the other shit about this pokémon that's really good. like that they never walk in straight lines or whatever #their little dance. it's just. huUGHKLJKAHJVDHJHDAJSVGD i love spinda. a nice pick-me-up after the underwhelmingness that was grumpig #shake it this way… shake it that way… and stir it all around… and it's done!

[underdark-dreams]

I will simply pass away. This morning I woke up to a cameo from the lovely Mr. George Taylor of Rolan reading Mr. Darcy's final confession monologue from Pride & Prejudice:

(Please ignore my name at the beginning)

How am I supposed to ever recover from this!!

#hands are shaking #running around my house #mr george taylor you are a gift! #i will never emotionally recover from what this cameo has done to me #i might cry #bg3 rolan #bg3 #george taylor #rolan bg3 #rolan

[sorrelpaws]

GOTTA KEEP THOSE RECEIPTS, DAWG

#rick and morty #morty smith #rick sanchez #GUYYYYSSSS #SEASON 7 EPISODE 6 RICKFENDING YOUR MORT MIGHT BE ABOUT THE ROY EPISODE #GUYYYYYSYSSS #i wish i could properly convey to you the genuine meltdown i had when i put two and two together #i was out of it for like a solid 30 minutes i was #like old joke but this was seriously a category 5 autism event like im so serious #well anyway. im cool now(lying) #i made the colors kinda eyestrainy because i wanted it to have an arcade vibe. cause you know #also the floor has that one 80s pattern. just for the lolz #to rlly drive in the arcade thing #edit i also want to add that rick is very tentative about touching morty right now #i just want you to know how much rick wants to give him a little shoulder touch but actually his hands are shaking a little bit

[pinstripe-doodles]

iz

#pins doodles #another one id finished a while ago #im convinced this is a different waistcoat to the one he had last series but i might be getting paranoid #it feels so much more difficult to draw....... anyway there was an attempt and im NOT gonna stress about it #this was for fun !! [shakes self] no stressing !! #ofmd #izzy hands

[nyctocollective]

friendly reminder that plurality is caused by trauma. trauma is defined as an event that has a severe negative impact on oneself. there are going to be dark parts of plurality that no one wants to talk about. the brain created you to cope with what it went through. it's okay to have parts (or wholes) that have “twisted” desires, attractions, innerworld or external relationships, sexual or emotional needs, etc. other people might call you disgusting, evil, immoral, but it's just part of being traumatized. it's going to be unpleasant or unsightly.

read the tags.

#shout out to our multiple pairs of siblings who fuck because of the shit our mom and dad put us through with our sister #shout out to our child alters that would put themselves in dangerous situations with irl adults if we didn't healthily satisfy them #because of what our dad and various friends much older than us did to us #shout out to our various alters with non-con fantasies‚ whether its having it done or doing it‚ because we were accused of doing it to our #family and having it done to us before we were even double digits #you might think we're disgusting but this is how the brain copes #being groomed is not an experience you shake off easily #being manipulated and abused is not an experience you shake off easily #15 years of being groomed is going to make our brain do some “twisted” shit #am i scared of posting this because a friend of mine has this account? yeah. but whatever im sure itll be fine hahah. #system #did #did system #actually did #cdid #plural system #sysblr #osdd #did osdd #osdd system #endos dni #plurality is a trauma response xoxo

[blacksailsgf]

so sorry to do this i'm literally so embarrassed but the money in my bank accout won't sustain me & my family for the next couple weeks or so. it's too tiring to enumerate but i just need to pay the bills esp the electrical bill (100 usd when converted :/) & groceries & transportation to work for i think 3 weeks because by then i'll have my 2nd monthly cutoff pay at work which will be enough to make it until my savings pick itself back up again. i don't want to name an amount but keep in mind i live in the philippines so a dollar will be a big help already. sorry again for asking & also thank you if you do end up helping out in any way !

pypl is @ bmntmyr

#shaking with dread with helplessness with grief etc #i might delete this out of shame later who knows kjhsdlfkj :(

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

spontaneously starts scribbling him Differently Every Time

#CONSISTENCY IS DEAD AND I STRANGLED HER #a very long time ago. im just whaling on a corpse at this point #consistency may be dead but she's also my wife. is that anything #anyway HOWDY HOWDY HOWDY #howdy brain Activated Tonight #i dont know how to draw him! it might seem like i do! i dont! hes fuckin Shaped in such a Way! #the last one was actually the first #i will never be able to replicate it. its what i Want #scribble salad #welcome home #howdy pillar #shakes him shakes him SHAKES HIM #his hair is a bitch to get even remotely right... #ill pin it down tho! ill streamline it! eventually! #every time i look at him my brain essentially goes 'he can get fluffier.... the Volume....'