#i have no other coping skills

[unimportantweirdo]

⚠️⚠️TRIGGER WARNING⚠️⚠️

oh i've relapsed hard

i haven't scratched myself in so long but when i'm experiencing intensely strong negative emotions i immediately lean back on self harm

#tw self harm #trigger warning #major tw #im truly sorry if youre reading this #but i had to tell someone #and im sure as shit not telling anyone i know #i feel like im mourning a part of me which sounds fucking ridiculous #but my phone and the shit on it is so so important to me #i just wanted to dig my nails into my palm to stop me crying in public #and its escalated #im genuinely surprised im not bleeding #i have no other coping skills #cant break anything cant hit anything cant hurt anyone else cant scream #cant do anything #so ill just scratch myself instead #sh trigger warning #tw sh

[flappyhappystim]

Any sensory issues you have are valid. You aren’t being too “sensitive” or “over dramatic” because you experience sensory overload. You aren’t being difficult if you can’t touch certain textures or handle certain situations. People that don’t experience it have a hard time understanding it but please don’t let them convince you your sensory issues aren’t valid.

#I had to leave somewhere earlier tonight #because they were doing loud drilling on the automatic doors #and making an awful rattling sound #I nearly had a meltdown #and had to use a lot of coping skills to get away #and it just made me think about how often people with sensory issues #aren’t taken seriously #so i wanted to say this #in case others have been made to feel bad

[dogboner]

personal growth is crazy because it seems like nothing has changed until you're crying because you don't want to die. you learn something about yourself that ten years ago would have actually killed you, and now you're thinking about what you can do to heal and make peace with it. nothing may have changed to you, but to the person you were however long ago, you are the "it gets better"

#guy who's very proud of how well he's handling things rn lol #anyways personal time: #but idk man i kinda remembered smthn from my past n #like. if it wasn't for how much effort i've put into my mental health n coping skills #n my support network now #idk id be in a much worse place. #so i'm gonna forgive myself for not really sleeping last night #n having a hard time with my bpd feelings n emotions #because fuck man! i'm doin really good actually! #growth doesn't have to be oh man i'm never ever sad anymore #it's just. idk i don't cry because i Wanna die anymore #sometimes i have an intrusive thought of suicide #and it makes me cry because i DONT wanna die. and i know those thoughts are not good or needed #but i'm not gonna beat myself up for having them. i'm just gonna be patient n gentle w myself #n give myself time #n everything will be okay(: #bc it is okay! it's in the past and i'm safe now. and i wanna make other people feel safe too #growth starts w baby steps. n that's why it's so hard to recognize in yourself a lot of the time #it goes slooooooowly. for me at least lol. #mine #despite everything i am happy because i know my life now is one i love (: and one im actively trying to better for myself

[eldritchmochi]

its absolutely hilarious to me how much of coping skills involves feederism as a kink considering how much i personally hate eating

#mochi rambles #mochi presents coping skills #like yes i have disordered eating problems that did NOT get better with the whole gut tumor saga thing #and in fact got substantially worse #and also got worse because of the whole weird allergy thing meaning i cant just stick frozen food in the microwave #eating has always been tedious at best #if not downright miserable and supremely stressful #frankly its rood that i have to do it several times a day #SEVERAL times a day i have to eat like every three hours or so #its bullshit #and yet it is one of the most pervasive kinks in coping skills #amd has shown up in several other fics in one way or another

[sylvies-kablooie]

love when people say "our kids are going to have to deal with (insert problem of the capitalistic hellscape we live in here)!" like heh. maybe YOUR kids, perhaps. my 3 large dogs and i will be facing our own and unique challenges BUT ai disinformation complicating their research projects will not be one of them. because we'll be playing fetch. i'll need to teach them not to chew on disposed vapes littering the sidewalk.

#the other day my brother was scoffing at me because i don't eat meat and he said “what will YOUR kids have for thanksgiving?” #i was like. this is not a problem i intend to deal with. also thanksgiving will have fallen out of fashion by then obviously. #what a weird hill to die on. very strange interaction. anyway! #wait hold on. now i'm pondering. there was that time back in high school when i was in therapy for Big Life Problems #and i was begging the therapist to please share coping skills please dear god #and she interrupts the session to ask me if i plan on having kids #HEY. I WAS A KID. WHO NEEDED HELP. WHO TF CARES ABOUT MY FUTURE HYPOTHETICAL BABIES. #makes my whole body cringe to think about #anyway! that's where i stand on the matter #another chapter the series i like to call “shitpost but it's autobiographical” #juni rambles

[longeyelashedtragedy]

i feel really sad. just squashed under the heavy weight of sadness

#it's the way that no matter what i still can't see any happy endings for myself... #it's one of those days when i just want to disappear forever and none of my coping mechanisms are working #i know part of the reason is that i have to return to the extremely literally trauma triggering job on tuesday #i'm going to try to get transfered to a new (again) location to finish out my 'contract' plus i do like the skills i learn at my job #if they won't transfer me i will have to quit and i've never quit a job before #there's other things going on too though. idk. just hate that my life's turned out like this #but from what i've seen with my particular combination of mental issues #i've been punching above my weight almost my whole life #i hope this isn't the limit #brain stuff

[galedekkarios]

is gale actually the worst guy alive or do people just have personal issues that give them a complex whenever someone else is a master of their craft and confident about it 🤔 hmmmmmmm

#im sorry but i literally never found him to be abrasive bc yes an archmage and chosen of mystra and wizard and the designated Lore Dumper #is going to be more knowledgeable than you and that's fine LMAO #and him knowing abt the tadpoles isn't him being an arrogant know it all it's just him letting the character know what's at stake #and also the others given that some of them don't know that or feel pressured to act (see: astarion and wyll) #and re the sorc vs wizard stuff.. again... someone that has to go to school and study the art Is going to #be more learned and well read than someone that doesn't #someone that was an archmage and lover to magic itself and a child prodigy etc etc IS going to #know more like . cope #i just never found him to be horrible or as annoying as people say bc i don't take offense to confidence or prowess or info dumpers? #early access is a different beast. but official release gale? the guy who shares crazy life stories every time? and is trying #to bond with your character every chance he gets? and who doesn't admonish your character if you fail to channel #the weave and instead is a good enthusiastic teacher to your character? who has a reasonable reaction to your character #not taking him seriously and is super appreciative when they do? like. L + skill issue + get over yourself + it's really not tht serious #+ i'm telling tara + i'm also telling morena + smiting you smiting you smiting you smiting you smiting you smi #this dude was mentored by magic itself. he was taught by magic itself. he made love and was ''loved'' by magic itself. he was its chosen. #he was in contact with legendary wizards by the age of eight. he cast a spell using blackstaff. he was conjuring things #as early as a toddler. if his early access prowess is still canon then this dude was able to lift entire buildings #and battle beholders super easily and after the game he rebuilds half the city using his magic. #and so on and so forth like i'm sorry to say but gale really is that bitch and he's not an awful person for Knowing that and trying to #make that known so that he can have a purpose in the group like. hello. for the love of god hello whats not clicking 😭 #and i'm not saying he's a humble precious bean i'm just saying that final release gale can be pompous and puffs himself up #but it's not like there's no merit to what he's saying LMAO #🤦‍♀️ anyway.

[gxlden-angels]

I think it's so funny that I stayed mentally in the church for so long cause the pastor would go on and on about how anxiety stemmed from doubting the lord or whatever and I still ate that shit up as if I wasn't constantly shaking, crying and throwing up from anxiety like a neurotic chihuahua on caffeine from like 7 years old onward

#I'd literally have panic attacks in the church because I'd get anxious about being anxious #and I'd start crying and sometimes threw up #sometimes in church sometimes in the morning while getting ready #and I was like 'if only I was a better christian! *vomits profusely* I just need to believe more!' #One time I was actually sick with the flu or mono or something and I got so anxious about getting sick in church/getting others sick #that it made me throw up more and I had to sip on water to regulate myself enough to not keeping vomiting #it was fuckin wild poor baby soup needed some love and care #I don't throw up *nearly* as much and I think it's because my anxiety is better genuinely #I thought I might've had a digestive disorder or something but I've been so much better since learning better coping skills #I'm not like. great yet #but I'll get there #ex christian #religious trauma

[volivolition]

[guy with chronic pain voice] i should draw pain threshold

#chemi chats #pain thresh save me. save me pain thresh. #its truly like. sure i'll find pleasure in the pain what fucking else are you supposed to do with a life full of constant bodily agony. #the alternative is suffering. the alternative is wallowing in feeling bad and sad all the time and im fucking sick of feeling this way! #so sure! i like the pain actually! whatever!! hurt me more!! bring it on! i'll feel every pain ever whatever! can't get worse than this! #if you completely own it. if you're in pain and you /want/ to be in pain does that lessen the suffering?? does that make it easier to cope? #just some thoughts about him hkjgh i worry for that guy sometimes. chronic pain havers are really going through it. #pain thresh who are your friends in the group? you and endurance are buds probably. empathy maybe? emotional pain </3 #oh composure too maybe. buddy you need more friends. its hard to talk to people when you have chronic pain though. like when will you get #tired of me constantly saying ''im in pain''? because even while im holding back the full enormity of my pain i still say it a lot. #its hard to concentrate on other things and good fucking god it hurts; goddamnit you said it out loud again. you need to find friends who #are willing to be patient with you even when you ''complain'' a lot about the same thing all the time. usually other people with pain hgfij #on a secondary adhd note i should absolutely go through bdg's unraveled videos and pick out quotes that fit the skills lmao #pain thresh's is ''hey you know the crash test dummy that we throw against the wall violently? it would be cool IF IT COULD FEEL PAIN'' #ency is one of the fun facts from the ''i read every halo novel'' probably hkjh and i could pull something from the sports one for phys? #hkjh anyway thats it folks hkjgh hugs and blowing kisses for everyone

[wormieapple]

the one thing i will never forgive sam for is the fact that he lied through his teeth to dead kevin’s gosht that he’d get over his shit. to kevin???? poor dead kevin???? ur gunna lie to???????

#i 100% get him needing space to deal with his emotions and the betrayal #cause it was a betrayal of his trust that ended with kevin dead #but it’s also proof that sam can’t properly communicate his emotions for shit #like i genuinely do not get when people say he’s the emotionally mature one of salmondean #no he is not. he regularly conflates his emotions with facts and it regularly imparts his judgement #in the exact same way dean does. #the difference is that dean knows what he’s feeling and actively refuses to talk abt it #he also mostly expresses his emotions via anger cause he doesn’t have any coping skills #but sam just pushes all of his emotions onto other people by projecting and trying to therapize others for HIS issues #which can be at the detriment to the people he’s doing this to #it’s the bad people do bad things show so this is a net neutral to me this just drives me nuts #spn #supernatural #sam winchester #kevin tran

[bugmistake]

once again so angry that it took so long to start being taken seriously about being autistic. like i would go into therapists and basically rattle off symptoms of autism that i was experiencing and i'd be brushed off bc i have friends and like talking to them!!!!! LIKE!!!! HELLO??????

#I COULD HAVE SPENT SO MUCH TIME WITH COPING SKILLS!!!! #i could have understood WHY i got overwhelmed so quickly when other people didn't #i could have understood WHY i felt like a little alien piloting a spaceship playing pretend as a person #i could have understood WHY i felt so strongly about my interests like!!! #I FELT LIKE A FREAK!!! I WAS SCARED!!!! I SPENT SO MUCH TIME BEING SCARED!!!!!! AND I DIDNT HAVE TO!!! #IF PEOPLE HAD JUST LISTENED TO ONE TEENAGER!!!!!!!

[inniave]

finally got that second opinion surgery consultation scheduled. i'd thought well maybe i can get away without it but the pain is getting worse again :/ consult is mid-may so it's just a matter of pain & ptsd management until then

#though i think i'm doing a little better ptsd wise this time around because it's a woman doctor #which is still scary but not the same yk #she's the only woman jaw surgeon in town though???? i looked and looked and looked #there's like 20 men :/ #anyway #using every coping skill in my book #and i do have a nice little getaway planned at the state park between now & then so i'm looking forward to that #get to just sit and watch the lake #and i'm doing all my somatic trauma processing i can as the feelings/flashbacks/sensations come back #and hoping that maybe this can lead to a resolution of some of these things #even if it's hard #my brain will dissociate rather than deal with but we've done so much grounding work cant dissociate to same degree so kinda #being forced to actually process & work on #which is really fucking scary #but i know there will be an other side #and maybe things won't feel so heavy once we get there

[tyrantt00]

Google how do make game run good on okay-ish pc

#rant #i can stomach games playing at 20 fps but i wish robocop game would hit at least 30 like #idk i have my settings all on low like i dont know why its chugging so hard. maybe letting it chill overnight will fix it <cope #also re4 remake runs really good on my pc. meanwhile re2 remake and re7 (sometimes) do not so i actually dunno what the problem is #like my specs have to be decent right its a prebuilt idk exactly what i have but if re4 remake can do it well why cant other games? #im also just really bad at first person aiming so im struggling to play robocop for that reason but i think thats a skill issue and my fault

[wellnoe]

tbh like. on top of being inarticulate being frustrating. i am also frustrated by my complete inability to actually gauge things like emotional states on any helpful scale.

#like. ok i did recognize that i was having a bad time earlier this year #but like. i dont think i really know how to process that in any real way. or quantify that against other times really #truly what makes a bad time. bc looking back i am not impressed by my emotional maturity or coping skills or whatever #w.me

[dandyshucks]

praying that this one artist i watch livestream doesn't ever look at my chat history bc i feel like I look really weird through it 😭 I have immense anxiety among other issues so I'll usually only manage to work up the nerve to send One (1) random msg in chat at some point during a stream and then immediately feel like I have done smth terribly wrong (even if I am just agreeing with everyone else in chat ???) and not be able to send anything else the entire rest of the stream

so my message history would just be like... one completely random comment per stream and nothing else and I feel like that probably looks really really strange fjfkdl

#its so awful bc I'm like... good at talking to ppl usually #or i CAN be good if I have the energy to do so #but a lot of my conversational skills revolve around asking ppl abt themselves and not saying my own things #bc thats all I've ever been able to do my entire life fjfkdl nobody has ever rly asked much abt me or taken an interest in me and my things #so when it comes to having my own opinions or ideas or whatnot... that's terrifying to try to communicate to other ppl fjdldl #it just sucks so bad bc i think i could get along very well w many ppl if i just... didnt feel like the worlds worst person to be around #today and yesterday have been difficult so my brain is biting me rn fjfkdl idk what is wrong w me these past couple days fjfkdl #there is no real evidence for it but i feel like everything I've said and done the past few days has been awful and wrong and mistakes ough #it will be okay fjfkdl it will pass eventually like it always does shfkdl it is just a matter of coping thru it and how long it'll last #sorry for a weird vent for this blog dnfkdl im just panicking a little for no apparent reason fjdksl #vent // #dandy.cmd

[hyah-lian]

this just ain't my week for projects huh

i just get in the flow and suddenly all the distractions and all the 'gotta go do this now, no i didnt tell you before but just go do it now'

#its rly testing my frustration tolerance/coping skills #i just cleaned my space to work after getting mad at cleaning for days urighuadrgh #its fine #it will be here when i am back #i can even have a cookie or whatever. and i dont need to wear anything fancy i can go as i am #i can keep drawing links when i get back #its just fhiaergherog because like. i want to use these works in my portfolio for commissions and jobs too and i been #struggling with finding work hguiaordhgo ok i gotta go its fiiiinnnneee #the activity is not the issue its the transitioning from one to the other and back again