#but a lot of my conversational skills revolve around asking ppl abt themselves and not saying my own things

[dandyshucks]

praying that this one artist i watch livestream doesn't ever look at my chat history bc i feel like I look really weird through it 😭 I have immense anxiety among other issues so I'll usually only manage to work up the nerve to send One (1) random msg in chat at some point during a stream and then immediately feel like I have done smth terribly wrong (even if I am just agreeing with everyone else in chat ???) and not be able to send anything else the entire rest of the stream

so my message history would just be like... one completely random comment per stream and nothing else and I feel like that probably looks really really strange fjfkdl

#its so awful bc I'm like... good at talking to ppl usually #or i CAN be good if I have the energy to do so #but a lot of my conversational skills revolve around asking ppl abt themselves and not saying my own things #bc thats all I've ever been able to do my entire life fjfkdl nobody has ever rly asked much abt me or taken an interest in me and my things #so when it comes to having my own opinions or ideas or whatnot... that's terrifying to try to communicate to other ppl fjdldl #it just sucks so bad bc i think i could get along very well w many ppl if i just... didnt feel like the worlds worst person to be around #today and yesterday have been difficult so my brain is biting me rn fjfkdl idk what is wrong w me these past couple days fjfkdl #there is no real evidence for it but i feel like everything I've said and done the past few days has been awful and wrong and mistakes ough #it will be okay fjfkdl it will pass eventually like it always does shfkdl it is just a matter of coping thru it and how long it'll last #sorry for a weird vent for this blog dnfkdl im just panicking a little for no apparent reason fjdksl #vent // #dandy.cmd