#i guess im stuck here forever lmao

[dappledpaintbrush]

What do you think of the SPM villains as a whole? I'm going to make a wild guess and assume your favourite is Dimentio based off only my obvious mind reading intellect-

Please go into as much detail as your heart desires. I love this game a lot and hearing about it makes me very happy. It's my special interest, and I am deprived of obsessive rants over this game that aren't my own.

I hate dimentio fym. Let’s kill him.

LMAOAOAOAOAO but real talk: ANOTHER PERSON WITH AN SPM SPECIAL INTEREST?;?? WOOHOO!!!!! HIP! HIP! HOORAY!! we are now Blood Brothers

I apologize if I’m misinterpreting and you have already seen the post, but I have answered an ask before that is what you’re looking for- here it is! :3 I went into hefty detail on each member of Team Bleck. Trust me, it’s very long LMAOAO

HOWEVER… if you are not talking about just Team Bleck and are referring to the other villains as well- then…

Fracktail/Wracktail:

Fracktail has always. Stuck with me. First of all, his theme goes HARD????? Good lord, go ACTUALLY listen to it if you haven’t. It’s the equivalent of this

Anyways, Fracktail has always made me feel sad. And when I was younger, he scared me. It scared me that he died for something that wasn’t even his fault. Like dude usually when characters get brainwashed and they eventually regain control, they get a happy ending and stuff. Fracktail BLEW UP??? I personally just can’t stand it when characters reap something they never sowed- and this applies to characters as minuscule as Fracktail.

Now. Wracktail. He is. Interesting.

Both Fracktail and Wracktail are incredible examples of how INSANELY POWERFUL Ancient magic is, but Wracktail is a bit different. Wracktail refers to himself as a god multiple times. Is this actually true, or is he “making it up” or exaggerating? Were the Ancients capable of CREATING DEITIES? Were Grambi and Jaydes former Ancients who turned themselves into gods? Are the Pixls classified as gods? After all, both the Pixls and Wracktail are immortal unless harmed, and they were both created by the ancients. But if you can die from an injury, are you really a god? Or, like I stated before, is Wracktail not actually a god?Something else interesting is that Wracktail seems to be aware of Shadoo’s existence. HOW? Does Wracktail posses some kind of omnipotence? Did Shadoo reveal herself to Wracktail out of pity because they were both created and ruined by the Ancients? HOW. WHAT. WHY. Ugh I could go on FOREVER. It’s not that deep, sure, but it’s fun to ponder.

Bonechill:

Bonechill. Was. Wasted.

One of the MOST intriguing parts about Super Paper Mario is- and I’ve talked about this a lot- the extremely bold references to Christianity. Bonechill is a carbon fucking copy of Satan, and he was BOOOOOOOORRRINGG

WHY . WHY DID THEY WASTE THIS CHARACTER. WHY CAN YOU BEAT HIM SO FAST IT CAN BE TURNED INTO A GIF. HOW DOES HE KNOW ABOUT LUVBI BEING A PURE HEART?? Oh yeah, I know, BECAUSE HE WAS A FALLEN ANGEL, AND CLEARLY HE HAD TO HAVE BEEN EXTREMELY CLOSE WITH AND TRUSTED BY GRAMBI TO BE AWARE OF LUVBI’S ORIGINS. HELL, EVEN IF BONECHILL SPIED ON A CONVERSATION OR SOMETHING, HE STILL HAD TO HAVE BEEN VERY CLOSE WITH GRAMBI TO BE CAPABLE OF DOING THAT. IS THAT WHY HE WAS CASTED OUT OF HEAVEN? BECAUSE HE BETRAYED GRAMBI? YOU KNOW WHAT THEY SHOULDVE DONE? THEY SHOULDVE HAD A SCENE BETWEEN GRAMBI AND BONECHILL ABOUT THIS. BUT NOOOOOOOOOO MY NAME IS BONECHILL IM EVIL MWHAHAHAAH OHH IM DEAD DAMN NVM! FUCK.

But on a funnier note this part in KoopaKungFu’s let’s play always made me laugh as a kid

But What do you mean Bonechill was just. Standing there. I know nobody commented on it because this is a video game (it’s funny regardless LMAO). BUT WERE GRAMBI AND BONECHILL TALKING (I say talking, but this doesn’t mean they were calm about it) ABOUT THEIR PAST? OR DID THEY FIGHT BECAUSE GRAMBI IS INJURED. DID THEY DO BOTH? WHY. WAS . THE FACT. BONECHILL. KNOWS. ABOUT. LUVBI. AND. THAT. HE. WAS. A . FALLEN. ANGEL. NEVER. TALKED. ABOUT. MY BLOOD. PRESSURE. IS. RISING.

Blumiere’s Father:

I wish I could say a lot more about him, but surprisingly I’ve never gotten around to making headcanons for him/Blumiere. It’s crazy because you know that in his head he believes he is doing the right thing for his son and for the Tribe of Darkness as a whole. What kind of indoctrination did he have to go through to believe that KILLING somebody simply because she and his son loved one another was a rational and reasonable course of action. God I wish we knew at least a LITTLE more about him- but the minuscule amount of scenes he has makes his impact on the story that much more harrowing.

King Croacus:

I fw King Croacus heavy. My favorite drag queen of all time. God he’s so cool.

As somebody who is lore obsessed, I ADORE the fact we got so many details on the rulers of the Floro Sapiens. It’s something the developers did not have to do yet they did it anyways. Every time I walk through that hall in the game I read every single plaque.

It’s also? Really disturbing how we KILLED this guy? I know he comes back post-game but like regardless we did kill a guy who’s mind was deteriorating because of polluted water. Like that shit wasn’t his fault. He died for the faults of the Cragnons, who basically got off scot-free (unless you killed some of the brainwashed individuals). It’s an interesting metaphor for a variety of things that occur in reality.

Also, his theme is REALLY underrated. I know it’s simple, but I love it so much. King Croacus fans ASSEMBLE!

Francis:

When you’re trying to save all worlds but this fuckass Redditor downvotes you

Francis was one of the most genius parts of this game. Holy shit. I don’t even know what to say. He was so ahead of his time it’s actually scary. That whole chapter is one of the funnest parts of the game. All the niche references, the poking fun at Francis-like people, god it’s PEAK.

Something that’s interesting is that his Castle is implied to be where the Tribe of Darkness lived. Which is fucking hilarious. I personally prefer the idea that Castle Bleck was the old TOD home but that’s literally wrong. Carson said the TOD lives in a castle in the woods. Where do we see a castle in the woods. Uh huh. (I can get even more insane- the podium where Tippi’s cage was held. The podium that for some reason has a mechanism to hide it deep in the ground. Hmmm. A book can fit there. Can’t it. HMMMM) (I’m scraping the bottom of the barrel man somebody save me).

Also. Wokackness aside. Francis is terrifyingly smart. He created a PIXL. That’s something that I feel like is incredibly overlooked. How did he do that. How. ? HUH. ????????

Pixl Queen/Shadoo:

well you see uh

(no but seriously. I don’t even know where to begin. She’s one of my favorite characters in the game and we never ever get to see her. She’s heartbreaking. She’s devastating. She’s terrifying. She has nobody looking out for her. She is alone. But she fights so hard to be seen. She starts a war. She tries to kill every walking Ancient and the heroes of the Light Prognosticus. She screams and she cries and she begs and she pleas but nobody can hear her nor is listening. She is punished for being loved. She is punished for her wrath. She is still here in the form of shadows in the cracks on the Trial walls but is that even her anymore? She did not deserve to die so young, but that death was infinitely more merciful than all that occurred after. She was born to die. It’s why she is still alive.)

Big Blooper:

blooooop lmao

#spm #super paper mario

[beesfairlyland]

heyy bee!! i’m south asian too lmao. plus i was the one who asked the doubting ask!

is knowing you’re not the current illusion but awareness enough? like i don’t want to even lift a finger to do anything quite literally, i’m so you know done lmao. like i don’t want to try and work, do anything to honest. if i become aware of different illusion my current one asks “oh but nothing changed” so obviously it doesn’t see a change BC i chose one of many illusions in my stream of consciousness. but it’s all instant for awareness. so as soon i become aware of something? i (self) already has it. hope i’m correct

thank you!!

(can i be your 👿 anon)

Heyy cutiee!!💗

Ooohh glad you are south asian too!! Omgg i have soo much to speak about this lmao😭. Less goo!!

'is knowing you're not the current Illusion but awareness is enough?'

That is only what you have to KNOW....not just current Illusion but Everything in this world(unreal) exists because of YOU. There's no seperation between 'current Illusion' or the Illusion you become aware of when you close your eyes. It's all dream.

ONLY SELF IS REAL. Self is the observer.... experiencing this dream world.

'like I don't want to try and work, do anything to be honest'

Who said you have to do work or try anything huh? This is what your ego thinks that it needs to something to realise SELF.

Lemme tell you a secret.....YOU ARE NEVER NOT SELF!!

There's nowhere to reach...coz you are realised alreadyyyy. Only thing you have to do is drop all the labels you identify with. I promise it's this easy! All these thoughts are not yours. Whenever you have the urge to 'try' ask yourself who's the one thinking that it needs to do work? Does self need to do work...when it gives existence to Everything huh? NO....So just sit back and relax don't identify with this body or mind. Pay no attention. They shut up on their own.

'if i become aware of different Illusion my current one asks ...oh but nothing changed'

If you know that both are Illusions both are unreal...how can you rely on them huh? It's ego that feels like nothing changed. Uk why it didn't change coz you still identify with this body and mind. May be you just intellectually understand what's SELF but you don't KNOW yourSELF yet!! I'll tell you there's no shortcut to it. Ofcc the 'realisation' can be instant....but we've been identifying with this body and mind from yrs soo it's kinda 'hard' for us to let go if it completely.

You can never see yourSELF that's why you have to see/know what you are not! Peel off all the labels you've been identifying with. Drop every thought that you don't like.... it's your choice if you wanna be stuck in this loop of getting THERE. Guess there's nowhere to reach coz you ARE ALREADY THERE!!

Okayy lemme tell you about the ego that im experiencing rn.

Soo I've been dropping the identification from every thought. At first it was difficult to dis-identify with this ego. I was worried about her problems her misery. But slowly she realised that these are not of the SELF. she has been feeling neutral towards Everything. Few days ago this ego was feeling stuck she was like when the 'realisation' gonna come.... where's the 'progess'...when this dream gonna end...will i be stuck here forever bla bla but that too i knew this ego was feeling i let her but then i dis-identified with those thoughts....NOT MINE SORRY....I GOT NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU SOO BETTER BE QUIET IDC.

I kept dropping Everything which i didn't want...but just today she realised that the past memories the horrible flashbacks she used to get... they've gone Completely. I don't even think about my past anymore. And today only i had two 'success stories' (eww I don't like this word but didn't have better to tell that I had that 'progress' even when the ego was thinking she's stuck)

Soo i just wanted to tell you that even when this ego feel stuck you are still making that 'progress' just don't care about what ego thinks. I promise there's nothing more to 'do'.

Hope i helped you!🫶🏻(ofcc you can be my 👿anon)

-love, bee🧚🏻‍♀️💗

#non dualism #non duality #nondualism #nonduality #ask #self realization #realisation #advaita vedanta #consciousness #👿anon

[my-reality-my-rules]

OKAY I was about to give up shifting right? I had been going at it for what, 3 years now, and no dice for a LONNG time. like last night was my deadass deadass last night to shift and if I didn't, I would've fucked off and actually tried dealing with life here then something happened ya know. i was scrolling through yt ya know, as usual, and this super small creator releases a sub. I was probably gonna ignore it but it had a simple title, nothing better to do than shift today, and I was like valid and clicked on it. listened to it, felt a few symptoms but was like, yeah nothing new and continued on demotivated as hell right? well guess what, I didn't listen to any other subliminal that night, didn't affirm, didn't do a method, didn't do shit. just went to sleep a few minutes later and I FUCKIJG SHIFTED AND IM LIKE GIRL????? GIRL?????????

sub is here if you want it but like DAMNN > https://youtu.be/U8Q0-Ino6MU

I was in my dr for 3 fucking weeks bro, dont give up my fellow depressos because if I can do it, so can yall 🤩‼️

[thanks for this ask!]

THIS THIS THIS!!!!!

i haven't tried shifting with the sub you recommended as of yet, but I've had it downloaded already. i might as well put it to good use one of these days lmao.

this is a (super) belated reply, but I'm incredibly glad that you shifted! i suppose miracles happen when we least expect them. from another angle, it slightly(?) looks like some reverse psychology is also at play.

and don't give up indeed—it's hard, yes, but always remember that you didn't make it all this way for nothing. it has to count for something. even if it takes three years or longer for some, never forget that you started your shifting journey for a reason. even if you're stuck in a rut now, it doesn't necessarily mean it's going to be that way forever. it only takes time.

[update: the link's unavailable, so go here instead]

#shifting #shifting realities #reality shifting #desired reality #shift #shifting shenanigans #Esther's shifting posts

[shitouttabuck]

20 questions for fic writers

tagged by @thewolvesof1998 thank u bud i’m procrastinating packing and this was fun

1. how many works do you have on ao3?

seven!

2. what’s your total ao3 word count?

129,484 which is a fake number to me

3. what fandoms do you write for?

nothing has made me as insane in my life as network television procedural drama 911 on abc, so

4. what are your top 5 fics by kudos?

you can start a family who will always show you love

let the world have its way with you

my hearts over-pumping and your mouth is an ambulance

like a dog with a bird at your door

i like the summer rain (i like the sounds you make)

5. do you respond to comments? why or why not?

i try very hard to because they make me so happy and it’s unbelievably kind of people to take the time to leave them!!! However i sometimes leave it too long and then worry it’s weird to reply after like. a month. which as a fic reader i wouldn’t give a shit about so idk what my problem is!!!! i will reply i will just maybe take a hot sec to do it

6. what is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

i don’t have any i’m a happily ever after or bust kinda guy in my own head if nowhere else…… angstiest is probably the sound of love astounds me if only because it ends post-feelings realisation but still pre-relationship

7. what’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

they’re all so happy omg. i will say with great personal bias it’s my heart’s over-pumping but also i have. a sequel in the works….

8. do you get hate on fics?

no people have been very very very lovely but also sjjsjsjs i’ve not been here super long. the funniest comment i’ve gotten was on my first fic where someone was like i liked this but it is jarringly inaccurate as mcdonald’s in california doesn’t have a veggie burger option 😭 i cried laughing im so sorry to u americans. pls petition your local mcdonald’s to stock the mcplant it slaps

9. do you write smut? if so, what kind?

have written two e-rated fics….. it’s very fun but i don’t think i’m very good so i’d like to practice actually (maybe some sexy prompts after i finish the bed-sharing ones?) just the regular kind for now like i love buck and eddie desperately and am myself into a million things but i don’t know how kinky they would actually get in my own head. so just a little gross with it for now i guess

10. do you write crossovers? what’s the craziest one you’ve written?

nope!

11. have you ever had a fic stolen?

nope

12. have you ever had a fic translated?

no that would be SICK. @alliaskisthepossibilityoflove is podficcing bucket list fic which is so very cool of her!

13. have you ever co-written a fic before?

no omg i don’t know how y’all do it i’m bad at group projects but also this sounds soooooo fun. if also deeply stressful

14. what’s your all time favorite ship?

if that’s synonymous with most likely to get you institutionalised, uh. gestures around us. otherwise mulder/scully and i am just now right as i’m typing this realising i’ve never ever in my life actually read x files fic what the fuck. also steve/bucky but i haven’t read fic since 2017 probably

15. what’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

listen i have not written a word for x files au past that one snip i shared forever ago. i want to soooo bad i’ve talked about it to some of you very rabidly but. it does not want to be written and if it did it would have to be so fucking long which is very daunting to me. not saying i’ve put her in the ground yet but. we might need some necromancing

16. what are your writing strengths?

i think i’m pretty good at writing in character? mostly? sometimes i struggle with buck just because i think we’re very similar and i project a little and then have to go back and fix it lmao but for the most part i think i’m good at that! and i have a lot of fun writing dialogue

17. what are your writing weaknesses?

plot!!!!!! and pacing!!!!!!!!!!! also my inability to write non-linearly omg if i get stuck i just get Stuck i can’t jump ahead

18. thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

oooh i love it and would love to include more than the teeniest bits i have but i’m so conscious about it sounding natural and not stiff to people whose language it actually is (shout out and a million kisses to @eddiebabygirldiaz for fixing the spanish in i love you like a dog!!!!!)

19. first fandom you wrote for?

911 babey!

20. favorite fic you’ve written?

my heart’s over-pumping and your mouth is an ambulance !!! not just because it was the first fic i posted after joining tumblr fandom but. idk it is so so so special to me like it makes me so happy and when i think about it i’m like. hey u wrote that. good for u my dude. and also maybe i just associate it with meeting a bunch of you whjsjssjsj

tagging @callaplums @eddiebabygirldiaz @housewifebuck @rewritetheending @try-set-me-on-fire @onward--upward @anxieteandbiscuits @devirnis @athenagranted if anyone wants to do this i’m nosy soz if you already have !!!!

#tag game #if you see me posting later today. send me hate mail i need to pack

[punishedcrow]

UHHH I HAD A DREAM (maybe future fanfic? idk)

so uhhh i had a dream i was a guest at the Dimitrescu manor. first of all Lady D was letting me sleep on her big ass bed while she slept on he guest room and i didn't notice it until, well...

i had just recovered from a wound or sickness, something like that. and she decided to like personally bring me fancy wine and cheese to my bed. peak creepy "i took care of you when sick" kinda fanfiction shit.

ok so whatever, got drunk, started making out sloppy (for a very long time like i could one day write an actual fic of the entire thing) and she went to grab her strap. my brain is just fucking genius bc it collected my favorite parts of distinct fics and mashed them together. Alcina went "could you give me a hand, love?" and i went bonkers. my arms are short and her ass was fat, so she noticed my commitment there. then she goes "i got this adjusted for my size" and i almost died. when she was ready and got up to grab the strap, something cockblocked us.

it didn't even make any sense bc we were suddenly in a car in Romania, wearing robes like clearly got outta there in a hurry, driving up a parking lot building to go save someone? but then this someone betrayed us and went like "i actually cursed this whole place so now youre stuck here forever".

because we were so horny we were like "oh no we're stuck in this pitch black parking lot by some evil magic, guess we'll make out in the car!" so we started doing that. HOWEVER we left the strap home and i was like "no way im waking up before i get strapped".

to explain this next segment i gotta explain the magic curse or whatever was happening there with dream logic.

first: the curse this mystery person put on the parking lot was specifically at some gates that were blocking the ramps leading us out of the top of the building, to the bottom. you know parking lot buildings have ramps and all and if theres any gate on these ramps, they're gonna be at the top of the ramp because they wouldn't function otherwise. BUT, in this case, those gates were AT THE BOTTOM of the ramps. so basically my big ass brain was like "the curse was placed ON THE GATE but not on THE HINGES of this said gate" and bc the brain dictates the rules of that world unconsciously it was like yeah of course thats what it is.

so what i did was just drive the fuck through the gates, gaining momentum from going down the ramp and breaking the shit out of the gates' hinges. when we got out of there the car was barely working and i STILL HAD TO PARK. so you can imagine my horny ass REALISTICALLY DRIVING A CAR (context is that i haven't driven in like a year irl) and having a hard time doing it BECAUSE I WANTED TO GET RAILED. also i wanted to do it before sunlight/waking up because of her vampirism and me already knowing it was a dream at this point, SO I HAD LIMITED TIME.

in the end, i woke up right after parking and spent a hot minute feeling really frustraded lmao. oh and by the way, in the bedroom part, Donna Beneviento was watching it all happen through a doll's eyes because Alcina had asked me to basically "baby monitor" me when i was sick. Oh and we knew it. However, we also knew she wasn't behing the parking lot curse thing, so she didn't cockblock us. I have a slight memory that Alcina was aware that Donna was enjoying herself (?)

this dream was somehow a mix of the regular RE8 lore and Resident Lover's lore, so there's that. maybe if i ever muster the sanity to do so, i'll write a proper fic of this dream

#if anyone likes this shit and wants to write it feel free #i wanna write it as /Reader bc i think thats hot #anyways hope someone likes knowing this piece of my brain #RE8 #resident lover #lady dimitrescu #alcina dimitrescu #dreamposting #one time i dreamt #resident evil village #resident evil 8 #n/sfw

[crepuscularqueens]

tysm for the tag @sambambucky <3 <3 <3

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

27

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

193,604

3. What fandoms do you write for?

marvel (mostly sambucky but i've played around with other pairings), the magicians (penntin, queliot, wickoff), ofmd, and one black sails fic (despite that being my main fandom i guess lmao, it's so hard to write for because i can't make it better. i just have to make it worse. and boy do i have plans to make it Worse.) (also i do have an rnm fic, almost forgot about that! i would love to write more i just need the inspiration and motivation to hit at the same time lmao)

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

he kisses me softly to wake me up (by a wild amount, which i think was just luck of timing with that fandom blowing up overnight) flowers for the gentleman (first published sambucky fic. looking back on it it's like... cute but could be better. natasha is in it though) held by you (felled by you) (my fav of the ofmd fics i put up, personally) what you wanted (first of my tfatws series that accompanied the show. literally wrote each fic as the episodes came out, it was so fun and idk how tf i kept up with it) hear my name in your mouth and i'm done for (hahaha. yeah.)

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

i love responding to comments hehehe! bc i love getting responses when i comment on other author's fics idk it just feels so fun! and when you notice the same people commenting on your fics idk it's just. holding hands with all of you love you sm <3

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

omg uhhhh jinx i think mine also be a samsteve one lol. stuck in the bed where we lie bc i love writing angst but i usually resolve it? but they're my favorite tragedy forever.

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

hmmm i guess after it all calms down? resolution of my tfatws series

8. Do you get hate on fics?

not on anything that's still up teehee <3

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

it's mainly what i write haha oops

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

crossover is when there are characters from two separate medias in one fic right? not like taking characters from one universe and putting them in the other? if it's the first then... no not anymore. no further questions.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

not that i know of (i'm not like... overly concerned by the idea)

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

someone once translated a teen wolf fic i wrote into russain

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

no, but i am open to the idea of collaborating like that (i've done events where i drew art to accompany a fic which was really fun and i miss that event a lot)

14. What’s your all time favorite ship?

i am so so bad at picking favorites, but if you want to go by what i have the most fics and wips for it would be sambucky

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

i want to finish shores begging for big moons so badly im so sorry to everyone because. it was so so fun to write! and i had this big grand plan and knew how it would all work out and then.... i hit a wall and now it's been years and i cry for her every day. i could save her! i could do it! but i also need to reread it bc i can't remember the details anymore lmao. it's a daunting task.

16. What are your writing strengths?

i think like... rhythm if that makes sense? like i get into a groove of this is what is happening, here are the beats, this is the action and this is the dialogue and it flows so nicely and has a good rhythm to it.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

focusing. i get distracted soooo easily, what is that all about haha. ha.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

i love seeing it in fic! i'm always scared to include it bc i don't want to mess anything up, so i usually have it from another character's POV and that they don't know what's being said. which is a cop out, i know. i should probably be better about looking into translations!

19. First fandom you wrote for?

harry potter (i know. there is no need to talk about it)

20. Favorite fic you’ve written?

how do i choose! tbh it's a tie between i bit the fruit and holy water. don't read into that.

absolute no pressure tags for @dr-lizortecho @unwholesome-gay @verdanthoney @nymhciv !

#mine #thank you again for the tag jo :)

[treetownconfessions]

thinking about htf au where fliqpy is the demon entity creature thing of all time except he was such a menace that he got sealed up into dogtags and those got thrown deep into the jungle in a huge lake within it so hes basically trapped there forever. and flippys just a regular ass private and he knows the tiger bomb mission was just a massive setup to kill him and his friends but he cant do anything about it so the night before the mission he goes outside to look at the stars and the water all emo-like and miserably one last time because hes accepted hes gonna die and the spot he chose is literally the lake fliqpy was imprisoned and when flippy looks at his reflection in the water it distorts to fliq since he's looking back and starts talking to him and. flippys super sleep deprived and insane and its the dead of night so he doesnt even fucking care that his own distorted reflection is talking to him in the lake now and thinks hes probably just dreaming. and fliq asks him whats wrong and flippys like "im gonna die tomorrow :( cant do anything about it" and fliqpys like "yeah that sounds unfortunate. i bet youd like not-dying over dying right" and flippys like yeahi guess, and then fliqs like "i can do that for you! stick ur hand in the pond" and flippys like "what" and fliqs like "do it. Put Your Hand In The Pond" and flippys like fine, and puts his arm in the pond and has to dig around for a bit in the water to find the dogtags and when he lifts it out hes like "what is this gonna do" and fliqpys like "yeah that. that thing :) dont worry about it just replace that with your regular dogtags and everything will be sorted out. lol. lmao" and flippys like ok fuck it i have nothing to lose and does as he says and fliqs reflection is gone at this point so he heads back to his camp and falls asleep. he wakes up and literally nothing has changed and hes convinced its just a dream so he goes out 100% sure hes about to die today. and the tiger bomb mission happens the same with his friends dying and fliq appearing and flippys like Ohhhh. u WERENT just a figment of my imagination. and fliqpys like "yeah im here to take over your body as my own so i can properly free myself" and flippys like "oh. dont do that please" but fliqpys a massive asshole and kind of only tricked flippy into the events of last night bc when he saw flippy he realized he could switch out his physical inhabitance from the dogtags to him so now flippys fucking stuck with this murderous incomprehensible entity and fliqpy is originally only using flippy as a temporary host until he can create his OWN body and inhabit that (which will also probably kill flippy in the process once he leaves him) but theyre also in the middle of a war so hes like ok, i have to keep flippy alive until this war is over so he can keep being my host, and then when its done and we leave i can get to making my own form freely. but his plan goes south because. he falls in love with flippy and then is stuck between striving for the freedom hes been wanting and calculating for since the day he was imprisoned and staying and caring for this silly green bear whos shown him kindness hes never had before even in the face of betrayal and its not like he can do both because again itll probably fucking kill flippy so hes just so torn up over it and he doesnt recognize these feelings he has for someone seemingly so insignificant and. yeah

im going to die

#fanfic

[golbrocklovely]

i don't really have anything else to post so...

here’s more of colby’s tweets from 2020.

i don’t have proof that these are his tweets, but believe me, they are his.

if it’s bold and italicized, it’s someone’s tweet to him.

if it’s in (), that’s just me commenting lol

added bonus: if they have a * next to them, that means it's been deleted

~~~~~~~~~~~

April 3 - the mind can turn into a dangerous place when you’re left alone .. please take care of yourself

April 7 - guess i don’t even have to try in the mugshot trend

April 8 - can’t help someone who doesn’t wanna help themselves

April 10 - i miss going to the creepy haunted places , as weird as that may sound

April 12 - can quarantine be over soon so i can get more tattoos

the older i get the faster time seems to run away from me

i get stuck in these phases that i can’t seem to escape !

April 13 - scary kids scaring kids

why am i trending #samandcolbyleaked

April 16 - been wearing sweatpants 90% of this quarantine

April 18 - as soon as it’s past midnight my mind automatically turns super deep

April 19 - you’re gunna wish you were never born jake webber

April 22 - i miss having those conversations that make you feel like you’re on another planet .. out of this world

i just want it to be me and you vs the world

@/brycehall: im a baby faced man

RT

@/brycehall: twin tingz

(why didn't he actually retweeted it lol)

April 25 - you know what always makes me happy and never lets me down? chick fil a baby

@/andrearussett: oh yeah well WHAT ABOUT SUNDAYS COLBY

... shhhh

April 26 - sometimes we just take things too far

on way to the hospital

April 30 - im on focused mode right now

May 1 - i overthink everything i do

May 2 - anyone wanna move to madagascar or something and start over

May 3 - having a girlfriend in quarantine would actually be pretty nice

(i FULLY expected this tweet to be deleted lol)

never in my LIFE has anyone called me “coalbi” LMAO

fan: why does colby in blue jeans look so weird

@/tarayummy: petition for colby brock to never wear blue jeans again

thank you all for the kind words 🖤

May 4 - it’s so funny how i beat jake i’m super smash bro’s every. single. time.

@/jakewebber9: how about we settle this on twitch colby? then everyone will know how bad you suck at super smash #pikachurules #kirbysucks

sorry for the late reply, almost didn’t see your tweet i forgot i couldn’t see you in my verified tab

@/jakewebber9: you’re on, tubby

May 5 - throughout my life bands and musical artists i listen to have come and gone … but kurt cobain always seems to stick around

May 7 - i wanna see you try breaking down the walls i’ve built

May 9 - mental health over EVERYTHING

who wanna share a paopu fruit ?

fan: Wtf is that

other fan: It’s a fruit from kingdom hearts. The legend says if you share it with someone, then your destinies become intertwined. You both remain in eachothers lives forever.

forever

May 11 - fan: Corey you always put a smile on my face no matter what I'll forever miss you

i feel sick 💔💔💔

i don’t know what to say. you are the opposite of your saying “under appreciated” and i hope you know that man. i miss you this isn’t sitting well with me at all.. just can’t believe this is actually real. love you Corey. RIP my friend

(this is all so see to all these years later...)

May 13 - it’s so beautiful seeing everyone come together in this time corey lives within all of us now, part of our hearts forever.

May 23 - i don’t get why you keep hiding from me if we’re destined to meet

May 27 - i wish that we can do it again

you guys are the best thing that ever happened to me

May 28 - seeing you hurt hurts me

June 4 - seeing all of my friends come together to support this movement is the best thing

June 7 - fan: keep the stubble

okay

jealous of the people who can shave their head id be so damn ugly

@/andrearussett: what’re the odds u do it

you do it first then i will

who’s feelin goofy today

unicorns > ponies

June 12 - our time together never feels like it’s quite enough

June 13 - the amount of cringey things i’ve posted on the internet

Love For Hire at your service. there’s a new boy band in town

it took me 23 years to grow facial hair

June 16 - it’s been a long time since i’ve dived off a bridge where’s elton at

(oh how times have changed lol)

June 17 - please be kind to one another. we need it right now

some things never change huh

i love my true fans. thank you! i love you so much. i see you. i appreciate you with all my heart. always remember

June 19 - taking a break this week to focus on mental health. see you next friday

June 22 - i’ll never be able to fathom the unconditional love dogs constantly give. it’s such a beautiful part of life

June 23 - missed my flight hi texas

fan: @/colbybrock has truly changed my life and i will love u forever for that.

fans like you are the reason i do what i do

June 27 - fan: does @/colbybrock need anything? water, food, a pillow?

chipotle please

June 30 - you ever feel alone in a big group of people ?

#colby brock #cb tweets #personal #text

[occasionally-victor]

gem & impulse, I dunno, looking up a map i guess + gem explaining something to a crowd + some bodymarks (they are kinda like birthmarks and dont hold much meaning, i just thought it would be funky)

before i do anything actually related to the main plot i decided to do some exposition stuff

So, as i was saying in previous post, the relationship between Heliocross and Lunaris (i actually gave them names) regions are what i would describe as disconnected (even tho they are literally neighbours). It was a result of practically unresolved conflict from like 500 years ago which barely ended up in an official war (you could say that Sages basically dragged their Heads of Region to sign up a peace treaty). Im not going to say much about who was the baddie, it was pretty much the type of conflict that could have been avoided if the Heads weren't such stuck-up dismissive bitc- anyways. For some time after it was still really bad - people of both regions generally wanted to do nothing with the people of the other. It did mostly cool off with time, but unfortunately, the lands created by Gods were seemingly irreparably divided. For example, the biannual celebration of Equinoxes was no longer held (imagine New Year, but actually twice a year, and its like, the collaborative effort of both Heliocross and Lunaris. The March one (im not thinking of original names for fucking months) is more grand tho because its the The New Year, yknow?); some economics shit because most of the trading now happens through the third party (we will talk about the other region that is also there later tho); just overall unawares of what's happening on the other side of border. The only thing that stayed pretty much the same is whatever Sages are doing; and one if the things they are doing is ritual every solar eclipse (because yadda yadda moon close to sun) (i will expand on Sages later tho).

Talking about Heliocross specifically, one of the big problems here is hundreds of years of Not Admitting You Have Also Fucked Up about the whole thing. It's, once again, not outright hatred for Lunaris, but but ever since forever history books in Heliocross would mention mostly fucking ups from the other region. As of recent tho, it mostly now affecting the older generation, because those who younger are having access to less biased information due to the worlds equivalent of Internet (basically, how its it kinda irl now lmao). This also one of the factors of creation of special organisation [i will. create a name for it later. its not really important now anyways]. One of the main objectives it has is the rebuilding the relationship between Heliocross and Lunaris. That org is divided in two separate wings, one is more legal work focused (Usually related to traveling between regions for on or another reason. Its not illegal, but its really hard), the other is more social work leaning. Im not going too deep into that, neither into structure of it. I haven't thought of the name of it yet, but i made a logo:

Gem is a Managing director, concurrently is pretty much in charge of her department (her's is one of the ones that in the capital of the region). She also travels to Lunaria a lot (its pretty much part of the job). Impulse got spontaneously hired as "helper of Manager" (its supposed to be this vague). Those two are pretty much coworkers turned besties, since Gem insisted on dragging Impulse on various trips and visits.

#art #fanart #mcyt #hermitcraft #geminitay #impulsesv #oh to write a ton of exposition only for small but about characters themselves #i still have like 3-4 more exposition posts in mind lmao #i also was meant to post it yesterday but i fucked one art up so i had to start it from scratch #i also didn't reread the whole thing so if its incomprehensible - i also wrote it while being half asleep #i might do a next post with something like a map and just general worldbuilding #and i guess i have to give it a name now 😒 #honestly i thinking i will just name it Your Average Sun & Moon AU its kinda funny #YAS&MAU #yeah like that #i went to put au tag on my 1st post and i realised i forgot the fucking flower in gems hair goddaMIT #whatever i decided now that she doesn't wear it all the time adapt and overcome

[littlefallenrebel]

17 Questions 17 people

For once I am trying to do a tag game because I have way too many or these piled up skddj But thank you @kachulein for tagging me, i swear I'll do the previous ones someday :')))

Nickname: Soph, Soap, I don't rly have that many sjdh

Sign: Pisces Sun, Scorpio Rising, Taurus Moon

Height: Tall 186cm | 6'1 ft

Last thing I Googled: Hades PS4 because I am desperate and I want that game but Oy local gameshop confusing on whether they have the ps4 version or not djdjd

Song stuck in my head: Only Us by Miracle of Sound, reeeeally delicious haunting vibes right there 👌👌✨

# of followers: 370-something I think? I randomly lost like 200 followers earlier this year for some reason lmao

Amount of sleep: Roughly around 6-9 hours I think, depends, I tend to sleep late on weekends unless I have morning shifts

Lucky number: I don't really have one honestly sjdjd but maybe 4, I used to joke that number haunted me at one point 😂

Wearing: Comfy pyjamas because it's sleepy time yet here I am

Dream job: Full time artist/illustrator/graphic designer. Sometimes I still dream of being professional dressage or cross country rider

Movies/books that summarize you: Not sure if this like aesthetics wise or something but uhhh the PotC franchise, Grishaverse series , The Raven Cycle series, Priory of the Orange Tree, Gintama it's an anime but shhhh it shall be counted

Favourite songs: oh god there's so many and they change around often but here's some

I Am the Fire - Temperance

Only Us - Miracle of Sound

Light - Ancient Bards

Hellevator - Stray Kids

Soldier, Poet, King - The Oh Hellos

Say My Name - Ateez

Farewell - d'Artagnan

When I'm Old - Lawson

Diamanti - Temperance

VISION - Dreamcatcher

Fave Instrument: Uhh I guess guitar, flute, violin and piano

Aesthetic: Local mothman lurking in the bushes, sprinkled with goblin and witch vibes, lots of dark colors with shiny gold accents, crystals and other shiny things, mythical creatures, crows and ravens, pretty dice sets, sharp nails on bony hands, bones in general, also comfy, loose clothes and such and any pirate related vibes.

Fave Authors: Leigh Bardugo, Samantha Shannon, Neil Gaiman, Holly Black and uhhh I'm not sure about the rest

Fave Animal noise: I shall agree with Kachu and say the ferocious war cry of that rain frog 😂 it's absolutely golden. Such anger

Random: Okay what can I put here...I love DnD, even though our first campaign ended I still love my bard boyo to death and will forever continue to do so. I also recently found some tips on how to pull together a plot so I may finally have that done for my Moiraverse stuff 👁️👁️ I hope. Speaking of which I have been drawing them too a it more recently so I am happy about that. Idk if this was made for rambling but it shall do sjddj

Tagging: Okay so sadly I can't pull together 17 people but I'll try my best sjdhd

@http-peachie @my-me1ody @chop-chop-im-cookin-up-a-hotpot @procrastinatingdragonfly @imjaebae

#absolutely no obligation to do this but just for fun if you want to sjdj #God i haven't done tag games in so long i missed these honestly sjdj #tagged #mutuals #tag game

[treatbuckywkisses]

so much is happening i want to scream:(

the way my job gives me so much anxiety it's not even funny. that place is a fucking disaster. i get told im going to be part time and im out here working 40hrs a week, and i dont even get my second break usually like im supposed to. there aren't enough people in the department i work in and they pull people from it for other departments anyway. one of our team leads basically told us all our sections looked like shit tonight and he was going to walk us though it and make us tell him everything we did wrong. i was stuck somewhere else for most of my shift and couldn't work on my section, so when i tell you i was so scared dude you don't even fucking know lmao i literally cried because I'm still new and i didn't want them to think i did a bad job or im not cut out for it or whatever. and he never even showed up. he said it to "scare us into doing our work" and im so mad about it. i almost threw up for that ??

im so fucking tired and dehydrated and it's so hot in there i barely even eat on my lunch break and when i get home after my 8hr shift. i can't tell if im losing weight (unhealthy obvi) or if i have looked like this and didn't know lol so i just try not to look at myself if i can help it bc what.

i never really know what i look like, but when i do, it's ugly and i hate it.

also im working on moving into an apartment (i say 'me' but im not alone sgsksh) idk living is hard yk it's a lot and it's stupid and where my stuff is im not even staying bc sarah is a fucking bitch for no reason and i will hurt her feelings if she looks at me so yeah there's like so much shit happening and I'm so overwhelmed like hello i can actually only do so much pls why

anyways i am really tired and i want to cry and sleep forever and ever:( is this what happens when you keep things 'bottled up' lol

omg also? i haven't gotten my period yet like since April and im 🥴🤨 bc where is she yk and then im like babe you're literally a ball of fucking stress and anxiety please take a Xanax but back to stress im so worried i will get my period on my 8hr shift with nothing and i don't drive myself so that is like extra fun yk wow

the way i have never talked so much and i do it like this where nobody will read it sgskdgd this is who i am as a person irl though so congrats if u read this ig hello

also since I'm fucking word vomiting i guess and ive already come to terms with how nobody will read this, i hate this place. like tumblr i mean. idk it just like sucks to feel like you deserve more than you get yk and i actually am allowed to say that. my moodboards do not do nearly as good as i would like to think they would when i make them and it sucks. because believe it or not i start out thinking they're so pretty and the lack of interaction makes me doubt my own abilities and i hate that. and how I have so many "followers" with the amount of notes i get LOL what a joke actually. especially when they're also content creators. why are you even following me then yk like i only provide one thing and you don't even seem to like it so what are you doing here. it's annoying honestly. how can a content creator be the one not giving support. smh.

i think i need to go to sleep bc idk what i just said and if anyone reads this i feel like ppl will be mad at me so that's where I'm at lolllllll i h8 myself <3

#fayth using her blog as a diary #but fr this time #this is a diary entry #oops #tw body image #?? #body dysmorphia tw #kinda but I'm tagging it just to be safe ? #does that make sense #me asking like anyone will read this anyways LMAO #im too funny sometimes #will prob delete #again not like anyone will read it #so im out here talking to myself #lol #fayth rambles #ignore me #long post #actual bullshit nonsense

[blookmallow]

alright lets finish this

----

so. things came to a head and i finally hit a point where i had to commit to one side even though ive been kind of just playing by my own rules and helping whoever i felt like rather than taking any Side particularly

what i wanted the most was to take down the legion so ive been working mostly with the NCR. but i hit a dead end in both the ncr line and the house line (i dont trust him but i felt like being in mr. house's good graces was a wise move lmao) where everyone wanted me to destroy the brotherhood of steel. and i dont... really Trust them, and i understand they're potentially a formidable threat, but i didn't want to make enemies with them for that reason, and just, like, i don't know, i really don't see why murdering everyone in there unprovoked is a good decision. i couldn't justify that. the only thing they've ever done to me is threaten me and briefly bomb collar me into doing them a favor which, while admittedly fucking rude, who HASN'T tried to kill me for one reason or another around here, y'know,

so i decided in the end if i absolutely must decide between murdering a ton of people for no clear reason either because a rich capitalist dictator told me to or because an army known for not really being there for people when they're needed and kinda serving their own needs told me to. or, y'know, not doing that. i figured. we're not doing that

so i killed mr. house. which i don't feel great about. i don't really feel like i needed to do that either. i could've left him powerless but technically still alive but he said he didn't want that, so i guess i made the best choice i could given the options but it still kinda feels like murder with an unclear motive or purpose. don't love that for me

i don't understand why the securitrons didn't immediately turn on me this feels very passive aggressively threatening. i feel unsafe

OH NO VICTOR.... what did i do. did i do this? could i have prevented this? i don't know. i feel like this is my fault. im sorry victor

i feel like putting the ai specifically designed to say yes to everything/give unrestricted access to just whatever you ask him for in this kind of position is extremely reckless at best but what do i know. i guess we're doing this now

OH boy here we go

i didn't really want to go against the NCR directly. i was hoping to be able to do this to take out the legion myself, i know i have all those fucking robots right under caesar's camp, i saw them, i do not fucking understand why i didn't get to just unleash chaos and burn them all to the ground. i killed that one really dramatic officer but it didn't feel like enough

i guess in the end independence probably is the best for everyone. maybe my courier was able to make a difference. i had hoped to negotiate and work with the NCR but i guess this is where we ended up

also turns out new vegas has my video game ending pet peeve of when you finish the game you just go back to immediately before you did the Final Quest and none of that actually happened. if you want to keep playing you just get to be stuck in "technically i resolved all this already but since that's The End it hasn't happened yet" limbo forever. i fucking hate that lmfao

ANYWay. that's that. i also played dead money but i really really want to get going on my fallout 4 liveblogs so im probably going to focus on sorting through all that next

#lucy plays fallout nv #scooby dooby queue

[ninthtwilight]

sorting out Playlist Stuff.

HUGE spoilers under the cut. if youre stumbling on this and do not already know The Spoiler / have not finished reading you should skitter off. this is going to get really long so like buckle up.

here is the playlist itself. its private, but the link will let u listen if u keep it. tracks 3, 6, and 7 are loud. the final track gets loud at the end.

SO. this is a sayo / beato / shkanon centric playlist. some tracks represent one more than the others. it varies. here goes lmao.. WOW i hate tumblr text editing.

track 1: the entire fucking track honestly hits. but specifically:

wild animal, caught in natures stride / ill go rabid on sight, you cant run nor hide / you cant escape might longer / dont try to fly away + and i pray for love / all ive done / i pray for you / all you are

this is, to me, extremely like. early beato. the witch of the legend ! larger than life, cruel and unflinching. yet there is something underneath it all, something we dont know yet. theres a couple different segments of the song that remind me of the different aspects of sayo, which is neat.

track 2: really this one is just about vibe setting. to me it represents like that feeling of the story opening and unravelling the mystery.. before we reach the heart

track 3: aggressive and Loud. this is her at her most brash and ruthless.

youre a lot like me, im a lot like you.

ithink this one is pretty obvious, tbh.

track 4: the vibe begins to shift here.

i feel like a monster, feel like a monster / tell me im not, tell me im not

"who am i ?". something desperate and pleading. the heart, showing itself. 'please hear me'.

track 5: ohhhhh boy. go read all of the lyrics for it. its hard to pick a selectoin. but i went with this:

i dont love me anymore / and all my thoughts become a total jealous void / maybe next year, we'll implode / wouldnt that be nice, for a change ?

.. 6 years.

track 6: HARD vibe shift.

i've melted myself into this room i'm in / the things we see aren't the same / and / you can't see at all / you can't see it / you can't see it / you can't see

tht desperation to be aknowledged as real. as herself.

track 7: Pain Peko.

....YEah. between the title and the pure agony and crushing feeling this track brings to the table, it felt perfect.

and it always ends the same, with me in your mouth again / ill ride your coattails if i cant reach the rest of you

+

and i grew a hundred teeth to treat you like the food i eat / i break the plate, you wont stay ahead of me forever (and nobody could ever understand)

track 8: a few lyrics stuck out to me here:

i want this to hurt / i want you to tear me open / i want you to feel me underneath your fingernails + tell me you feel this / tell me you know my hearts alive / say you wanna tear me open again

"hurry and kill me quickly". the endless fighting between one another, but desperately just wanting to be understood under it all

track 9: we are reaching full sadness saturation quick after this one. this one is dripping a bitterness almost to me that REALLY reminded me of kanon specifically

alight is the flame / that lights my soul and casts me down to hell / i've got a lot of secrets i can't tell / i guess you too + so you're in love, so you're in love with me / i tell you, honest to god / you better move on

im not 100% on this tracks placement. it might scoot up higher. shrug. WE ARE NOW IN FULL SAD. HERE WE GO.

track 10: this song like hit me in the face when i first heard it.

embrace my body / pretend it wasn’t even there / it wasn’t even there + and when i lie awake / i can see figures in my head / (do you too) / if so can i ask / do i resemble any of them ?

You Know. You Know.

track 11 + 12: these are both instrumental ambient tracks. there is something about them that very strongly hit me. the quiet love and sadness within 11, and the aching gentleness of 12. absolutely beautiful works. a moment to breathe before the end

track 13: OHHH BOY.

just. the entirety of it.

look what i've done / now i'm the only one for you it gets so lonely, doesn't it? / i never expected this and we fall together / and we call each other / cause there's no one else to call

this screams ep8 to me. HARD. it felt like the perfect conclusion to this as a result.

there are a couple tracks that are NOT on sc that i would put in here. for exampl one is 'pathetic' by S:

did it mess you up ? this wasnt in the plan / i wish you werent trying to do this / you might hate me for it later + are you missing last year ? / are you missing me ? / so ive lost this game / please go away.

heavy ep4 "i dont want to do this anymore" "go rest. i will handle it all." energy imo.

anyway. yeah. theres my weird playlist. i want to make more for other characters too big time :0)

#why did my tag not work #rude. #🐴 txt #🐴 notes vault containment zone

[baekhvuns]

hi this is the very first time im sending you this. trying my best to stay behind my screen silently reading all your fics while giggling, crying, sobbing, weeping, jumping, twerking and probably throwing up too but i cant hold it back this time.

MISS MAAM BAEK YOU'RE LITERALLY THE BESTEST AUTHOR I HAVE EVER FOUND AND READ MY WHOLE LIFE NGL I JUST WANT TO BUY YOU STARS AS A GRATITUDE FOR WRITING SUCH BEAUTIFUL STORIES AND FOR BEING GIFTED SUCH SEXY BRAIN ILY SO MUCH!!!

im a freaking sucker for bodyguards i need one, i need THE park seonghwa i dont want any random bodyguard but maybe the newbie choi san is cool too i want to marry both- ahem.

lmao this gonna be such a long spazz, i guess? 😭 initial intention was to thank you from the bottom of my heart but then i suddenly remembered about memoir like holy fucking shit I REALLY LOVE THE WAY YOU PORTRAYED YUNHOS JOB LIKE THAT LIKE?!?*?/#/ does anyone get me i just want to scream i really love the way you write you're my idol :((

i have seen some asks about fake marriage wooyoung and yes please im on my knees for it AND ALSO F1 SAN OR I WAS JUST TRIPPIN SEEING THOSE ON YOUR ASKS??????? idk but im looking forward to it that i dont want to get out of my bed all i want to do is stare at my screen and wait for new ff notification from you <3

also, i am slowly getting into writing now and i literally see you as one of my best example in writing and i really admire you for that but the thing is i will get very lazy halfway because of stuck in choosing suitable words for my stories and then i tend to dump them like forever :( so my queen, if you dont mind i would like to ask for any writing tips from you ✨

idk how to end my spazz but ily so much!! thank you for being born, and for writing beautifully just the way your existence be <3

hi omg im yelling stOP, thank u for sending this in btw!! <333

MISS MAAM BAEK YOU'RE LITERALLY THE BESTEST AUTHOR I HAVE EVER FOUND AND READ MY WHOLE LIFE NGL I JUST WANT TO BUY YOU STARS AS A GRATITUDE FOR WRITING SUCH BEAUTIFUL STORIES AND FOR BEING GIFTED SUCH SEXY BRAIN ILY SO MUCH!!!

i had to take my glasses of to read this aND IM FBWMFHWKHDKW SO VERY FBWNFBDJ OVERWHELMED (in a good way) OVER THIS PRAISE IMRBQMJDKWJDKW BESTIE DBDBDH 😭😭😭😭🤚🏼

im a freaking sucker for bodyguards i need one, i need THE park seonghwa i dont want any random bodyguard but maybe the newbie choi san is cool too i want to marry both- ahem. /// lmao this gonna be such a long spazz, i guess? 😭 initial intention was to thank you from the bottom of my heart but then i suddenly remembered about memoir like holy fucking shit I REALLY LOVE THE WAY YOU PORTRAYED YUNHOS JOB LIKE THAT LIKE?!?*?/#/ does anyone get me i just want to scream i really love the way you write you're my idol :((

you want sanhwa both??? poly au??? 👁👁🤚🏼omg no pls i love this long spazz thank u for sending this in im vvv happy i received this,, the energy in this ask >>>> MEMOIRHWHDKWHDD iM BESTIE DONT SAY THAT LAST PART IM 😭😭😭😭😭

i have seen some asks about fake marriage wooyoung and yes please im on my knees for it AND ALSO F1 SAN OR I WAS JUST TRIPPIN SEEING THOSE ON YOUR ASKS??????? idk but im looking forward to it that i dont want to get out of my bed all i want to do is stare at my screen and wait for new ff notification from you <3

i got you bestie both of them will come soon!!!! YOU DID YES F1 SAN DBDBDB 😭😭😭 that is so sweet <33

also, i am slowly getting into writing now and i literally see you as one of my best example in writing and i really admire you for that but the thing is i will get very lazy halfway because of stuck in choosing suitable words for my stories and then i tend to dump them like forever :( so my queen, if you dont mind i would like to ask for any writing tips from you ✨

omg,,, pLEASE DO SEND YOUR WRITINGS HERE IF YOURE COMFORTABLE !!!!! id love love to read them omf,,, yes ofc sorry this might get a little long but in the tags also, there’s some tips! ill put the tags up as well!

— firstly,,, before starting anything u should make a mood board bc you have a vision of how the fic you’re writing will be like, it helps you generate ideas and all sorts!

— get a good plot! and build your fic around that, whether it be small scenes as fillers or the major ones! for ex : if the plot is etl, you can always make the member a) a bad boy and the y/n the good girl or his forced project partner b) a childhood friend who’s annoying and the y/n who has to deal with him

see now that can spew some ideas in your mind! how in the bad boy, you can make the member beg the yn for work so that they can pass + add their moments where they’re alone studying and how their interaction happens!

always also use time skip to make a pairings moments grow in a short amt of time! for ex : you and yunho started to meet more, from him knocking at your door at one in the morning to the two of you going to restaurants at night to try that one dish yunho begged you to eat.

or how you two kept poking each other’s sides just to mess with one another, in a library or actually be productive and do some work.

ill leave the rest in the tags bc in them all of it is there!

idk how to end my spazz but ily so much!! thank you for being born, and for writing beautifully just the way your existence be <3

thank you so very much !!!!! screaming crying at this entire ask ♥️ ♥️ ♥️ ♥️ ♥️ ♥️ ♥️ ♥️

#✉️ : ask #for writers !! #this tag will help hopefully ^^ !!

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Look I see your thirsty tags and I love them.

Ardyn lives in my brain rent-free, and I am physically ill if I look at him too long. It's been four years. Y e a r s. This man shouldn't have the effect he has on me after four years but somehow, I am sitting here grinning like an idiot making heart eyes at my screen anytime he appears. S e n d h e l p! :D <3

#i love this man with my whole heart and soul #anyways fun fact the ardyn dlc made me cry 3 times lmaooo #square enix didnt have to break my heart like that with him but they did #ffxv was my first final fantasy game #i actually was playing dragon age in the same room as my fiance when he was playing ffxv for the first time #so i was kinda half paying attention sometimes; id hear some lines and such #i need yall to know i heard ardyn speak but didnt see him so i was like 'oh okay well noctis called him a creepy old dude' #so im gonna picture an alfred looking guy #imagine my SURPRISE when i look over in AWE when watching the Leviathan battle #and see Ardyn and go OH NO HES HOT #i was attracted to him immediately and then i was interested in his story and found him to be an incredibly engaging antagonist #and then somewhere along the line i went absolutely feral over him #and i still am to this day #when they say you'll always hold your first final fantasy in a special place in your heart #they werent kidding #yes i love the story and the characters and the theme of brotherhood and friendship and love and yes its my jam #but also *ardyn* is my constant state of brainrot so #i guess im stuck here forever lmao

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#i guess get used to me venting more than usual as i undergo a month of intense stress #ill probably have to defend the 2nd week of july so ill have to have ny thesis written a week before #and i have to give 2 presentations within that week leading up to that #i am gonna be fucking dying lmao #i talked to my pi today and she was saying that we need to pair back my thesis bc its prob too much for a masters and im not getting my #N fix results back in time #and i was kinda pushing back bc in my head anything less than everything is unnacceptable #but like fine. ill just have to make it more interesting for myself #i may have said some wild shit in that conversation. im not sure. its hard to say how i come off sometimes #my i was like: if its not complicated enough ill just be sobbing into a word doc #but i gotta think of this more as getting the masters out of the way so i can have more flexibility in what i do #bc ill be sticking around for like a year after apparently #not sure how to feel abt that yet. i was thinking it was just half a year but idk #i dont wanna be stuck here forever #not that i dont like working in thus lab but i wanna see new things #idk i spent literally 6hrs sitting still and packing samples so im tried and have to do the same thing tomorrow #also havent decided how to fuck up my sleep schedule yet. i might shift to going to sleep at like 9 and waking up way early bc #im tired and its only 8. but then i also havent figured out how to structure energy from food either #at 24 youd think id kno how to do that but here we are #whatever. im still annoyed abt pairing back my thesis. i dknt want my title to be photosynthesis and diveristy without relating the 2 #but whatever ill just have to write the manuscripts afterwards #ugh im tired.... i wanna sleep but also im procrastinating working on stuff... #unrelated