#i forgive you not

[killyjae]

Just some stupid Christian shit.

I'm a Satanist, and I've been a Satanist for pretty much 10 years now. I live in an extremely red state, and one of the worst ones. This is a real shithole that practically everyone I knew fled as soon as we all graduated, except for my ex who is just as psychotic as I am.

Anyway, I go to a pentecostal church sometimes just for fun. I'm respectful because the person who takes me was helped by the church with her addiction. She feels like god saved her, yada yada yada, good for her. No one there knows I'm Satanic, and the friend I go with is gay and he's probably the only one who knows I'm a lesbian. I keep my Satanism a secret because I could get in very big danger from the rednecks here who bring guns everywhere and pray for a second civil war. We all know religious freedom in this country is bullshit.

A couple weeks ago at that church, my friend cried because he was suddenly afraid that he would be judged by his painted nails, and he approached one of the reverends, and I followed. I intend to hear everything these people have to say. The reverend told my friend that he paints his nails because the gentiles and the devil pressure him to. Gentiles, pressuring a cis man to paint his nails in this society? Really? And they all, as a hivemind, told my friend that he needs to stop that and devote his life to serving god, and all I could do was silently watch and give no input, because rebellion is the biggest sin of them all to the church. They demand total obedience. I got to show my friend support when we were alone, and I brushed the ordeal off because, frankly, that's the shit I have to put up with 24/7 in this area. This is the norm for me. It wasn't until today that I realized how actually fucked up that was.

They claim to be a sanctuary, but they'll hound you if you're so different as to paint your nails. I won't even say what they told me about my septum piercing I wear with pride. I took everything they had to say with a fake smile. I've played this game my entire life, they can't hurt me. I will only smile and take it unless resistance is absolutely necessary, like if they were to hound my friend over something bigger, like his gayness. Then, I'll proudly stand against them in their own home.

I've gotten tame in my game against the church, now I just lie and smile, but when I was littler, I acted out against it. Now I work behind the scenes, but it was insane as a child. In a completely extremist Christian area with a small population, I was truly the one and the only one who actively said this wasn't right. I was regularly beaten as a child for my disobedience by everyone, so I was used to it. If it was the devil pulling me away from the church, so be it. The devil was pulling me away from my abusers, then. I was constantly told to fit in a box everyone knew I couldn't fit in, and if I didn't force myself to break myself to fit, then I was beaten and damned.

My psychosis which came from constant ongoing trauma was my punishment for my sin, a real sign that god hates me. I was only a child. A bunch of ungodly things happened to me at the hands of adults. I was only a child. And it was my fault. I'm broken and everyone hates me because I constantly rebelled. All I needed to do was obey to have a good childhood. But we know better than that. I think it was pretty hard and badass of me as a child to pretend I was a prince, I don't really know what for, and to take a marker to every Bible I was given, and write my own rules. My life is my own, and I'll gladly go to hell. If Christians go to heaven, then I want nothing to do with heaven. I am what I am, and nothing will stop that. I'm a rebel, and I will never fit your mold.

#trauma #abuse #religion #child abuse #homophobia #ableism #i TRULY understand #jesus christ #i forgive you not

[wolfythewitch]

i have so much rage in me one day i think i will explode. i dont think i know how to forgive as much as i know how to forget

#art #wolfy religious tedtalks #sketch #comic #i have such a huge disconnect with my emotions and i do genuinely think a lot of it ties back to religion #crazy how that happens #whats funny is i now have a lot of people i vaguely dislike but cant remember why. #crazy what happens when you treat forgiveness like an instruction and not a process

[the-phantom-peach]

🗣️ huh?? what do you mean I haven’t posted any Link signing propaganda yet??

#doodled a little comic bc I think the link/korok relationship is adorable #this is also pro-korok propaganda #anyways um #I used to hc that link signed in botw (for obvious reasons) #but after the calamity he gained more confidence in speaking #so now he only signs when he’s uncomfortable speaking around someone or just not in the mood to talk #sometimes he signs while speaking out of habit #thank you for coming to my ted talk #im sorry hes just so important to me IM SAD #I used to learn asl but now I forgot please forgive my mistakes OTL #the legend of zelda #legend of zelda #loz #loz art #Zelda #loz tears of the kingdom #tears of the kingdom #breath of the wild #totk #botw #totk link #korok #Nintendo #art #my art

[fiercebb]

How are we all feeling about Aziraphale’s last “I forgive you”? Does it mean I forgive you for kissing me to try to get me to stay, I forgive you for choosing this moment to reveal your feelings, I forgive you for not coming with me, I forgive you for kissing me period??? What?

I keep going back and forth on it and I NEED to hear what everyone else is thinking. Lay it on me, I’m open to new interpretations because everything hurts and I’m dying.

#good omens #good omens 2 #good omens season 2 #good omens spoilers #good omens 2 spoilers #good omens season 2 spoilers #i forgive you #crowley x aziraphale #crowley and aziraphale #aziraphale x crowley #aziraphale and crowley #ineffable husbands #ineffable idiots

[sketchy-scribs-n-doods]

the four horsemen of Queer Agony

#can you believe all four of these are canon and two of them have kissed. can you. #hannibal #supernatural #our flag means death #ofmd #nbc hannibal #good omens #good omens 2 #spn #good omens season 2 #good omens s2 #good omens spoilers #anyway. complex queer tragedy era go brrrrr #i mean ik that castiel got sent to superhell but bear with me #destiel #ineffable husbands #hannigram #blackbonnet #im also so incredibly unwell about the 'i forgive you' hannigram and aziracrow parallel i truly am #four horsemen of queer agony

[furiousdinosaurdestiny]

Ugh 😭😭😭

#michael sheen #good omens #good omemes #aziraphale #crowley #david tennant #good omens season two #good omens 2 #crowly x aziraphale #aziracrow #ineffable husbands #good ineffable omens #ineffable lovers #ineffable partners #ineffable spouses #ineffible husbands #i forgive you

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Soup solves everything.

#dungeon meshi #dungeon meshi spoilers #Senshi #izutsumi #chilchuck tims #laios touden #marcille donato #THE SOUP CHAPTER HAS BEEN ANIMATED #I have so many thoughts about senshi's backstory and how much that experience has shaped who he is. #This is such a powerful moment because it makes it clear how *stuck* senshi has been because of his trauma. #Up until now he has been a mystery! He's the chef guy! Don't worry about his apparent reclusiveness from society! #Don't worry about his intense need to make sure 'the young ones are fed'! #Senshi still has a lot of healing but this was the moment he could finally forgive himself. #This chapter is so important to me because sometimes you truly do need to face the most terrifying things to move past them. #This joke here is a bit too narrow to be funny for the masses...but mdzs fans know. #MDZS :handshake: Dungeon Meshi: Soup moment. #Laios and Jiang Yanli have a powerful magic call "Eat some soup and maybe you'll feel better' #That is also a spell you can cast upon yourself. Go eat some soup and you will feel better. Merry Soupmas everyone. #One more week of Thistle Thursdays....I'm not ready to say goodbye B*(

[thatonedudeinthecorner]

You’re telling me this ISN’T what happened in season 1 episode 1????

Is it hypocritical for Aang to be the one to call Zuko bald when he is objectively balder? Yes. Was this really funny to me? Also yes. God may forgive you for not capturing the avatar, but NO ONE will forgive you for that fuckass ponytail.

#memes #my crappy art #art #fyp #kay draws #atla #avatar the last airbender #avatar the last airbender art #avatar aang #avatar #sokka art #zuko art #zuko atla #katara #aang #zuko #sokka #atla fanart #digutal art #bald #spongebob #sokka and katara #Zuko season 1 #I think that if the gaang bullied Zuko on a united front they he would’ve been taken care of within the first five episodes #that boy has an ego fueled by a nonexistent honor and an uncle who tells him he looks very handsome today #no one will forgive you for that ponytail Zuko #and I really do believe this #digital art

[rowan-on-the-moon]

i love how the kiss was awful. i love how it wasn’t a show of love but a desperate, viscerally angry gesture to try to get aziraphale to see exactly what he was losing and what crowley has, from his point of view, already lost. i love how the kiss was awful.

#brb drifting into the arena of the unwell #‘i forgive you’ ok neil we need to talk #good omens #good omens season 2 #good omens spoilers #good omens s2 #good omens season 2 spoilers #good omens s2 spoilers #ineffable husbands #azirafell #aziracrow #aziraphale #crowley

[egophiliac]

don't think I'm not still deep in the episode 7 brainrot. because OH BOY AM I

(also one more extremely, obnoxiously self-referential thing, I'm -- I'm so sorry)

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 part 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 #twisted wonderland book 7 part 7 spoilers #and so ends the saga #(this time for real i promise) #malleus post-episode 7: shroud...i should have heeded your warnings...now tell me more about how i may hunt this elusive 'snipe' #alas poor puppies :( i'm glad they had a little aside about how they can fix them after this whole mess #let ortho have his dogs! #man i love that this has come down to malleus vs technology though #MY FAVORITE #ortho: you can destroy the shell that links me to this mortal world...but can you select the CORRECT DOWNLOAD LINK??? #malleus: (downloads a billion viruses and dies instantly) #also i'm probably the only one who thinks idia complaining about his own mental tartarus prison is funny #but there we go #idia has two modes and two modes only #he's either in the middle of a metaphor where he finally forgives himself for his brother's death and takes charge of his own destiny #or he's like 'fuck yeah i'm about to get isekai'd into the internet! (immediately falls over making dying whale sounds)' #wait no he has a third mode: actively suffocating because silver and sebek won't stop squishing him #look he's just delightful no matter what's going on okay

[cametotheshowinsd]

TAYLOR SWIFT: THE ERAS TOUR (2023)

#taylor swift #tswiftedit #tswiftgif #eras tour #taylor swift the eras tour #I'm eXHAUSTED #I dont think I ever made thIS MANY gifs in one set #I personally am proud of the choice I made on every transition gif in the middle #sorry speak now and acoustic section you're too short so I put you together in the obvious wrong order - for color arrangement purpose #forgive me :'p #userelena #userleah #btw - I made folklore teal...unintentional. who'd thought #flashing gif #flashing images #flashing tw

[huang-er-jiejie]

i. i just realised something about the kiss.

the way when aziraphale puts both of his hands on crowley's back, you can see them kinda shift so aziraphale isn't leaning. he held onto crowley for stability, and leaned in. pushed closer to him. he leaned forward. anyone ever says he didn't want the kiss im going to hunt you down because HE HELD CLOSE!!! HE KISSED BACK!!!!

EDIT: also im like WELL aware he kissed back i was even when i first watched it like its not a big revelation, its just that SOME people☠️ on TIKTOK☠️ KEEP SAYING HE WAS DISGUSTED BY THE KISS???? like i swear some people are watching a different show entirely

#HE KISSED BACK. ANYONE SAYS OTHERWISE I SWEAR TO GOD. #HE WANTS THE KISS!! ITS JUST THAT A PART OF HIM FEELS BAD ABOUT IT! #HE FEELS BAD FOR WANTING IT #even if they spent so long dismantling his belief of 'we're on opposite sides' #hes just always going to feel that way deep down #he wants the kiss. its just that why did it have to happen that way. #good omens #gos2 spoilers #aziraphale #crowley #anthony j crowley #aziracrow #ineffable husbands #azirafell #good omens 2 #'i forgive you' maybe in the way that the kiss can be seen as a temptation #like in the garden of eden #but crowley is the apple. he is the forbidden fruit

[the-phantom-peach]

Little Big Changes ✂️~

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CONTEXT~~

A long forgotten short comic I did for pre-totk/post-botw domestic zelink

I love Zel’s hair symbolism especially after altering her status as a “princess”and becoming a Hateno grade school teacher. She’d most likely still maintain some insecurities but that’s what our lovely knight was made for <3

Semi-connected to my previous Signing Link headcanon, Link speaks here for the first time post-Calamity and gets super self-conscious. But of course Zelda doesn’t mind and is happy that Link growing more comfortable after the events of breath of the wild

#I think I got lazy and didn’t finish or something like that #so please forgive my misspellings and asl mistranslations OTL #I hope you all enjoy it anyway <3 #the legend of zelda #legend of zelda #tears of the kingdom #breath of the wild #tloz #loz #totk #botw #zelda #princess zelda #link #zelink #botw link #botw zelda #totk link #totk zelda #totk zelink #botw zelink #signing link #loz art #tloz art #nintendo #asl #art #my art

[palipunk]

I’ve never seen anything like the press conference from the Palestinian workers at Al-Ahli Baptist Hospital in Gaza. They’re literally addressing the world surrounded by bodies on the ground. One is holding the corpse of a baby. I hope these images haunt every Zionist till the day they die.

#sometimes as a Palestinian you feel like you get used to seeing Palestinian death #in the homeland - in the diaspora - in our refugee camps - amongst family - everywhere #but you don’t. I cannot imagine the pain of gazan Palestinians. it is unfathomable #the world should be begging on their knees for the forgiveness of Palestinians in Gaza #palestine #free palestine

[heritageposts]

i saw the trailer for the new feel-good “anti-racist” US war movie about the carpet bombing of North Korea and started writing up something for this blog, partially inspired by the absolute shit storm i got for sharing that post i made with pictures of everyday life outside pyongyang

and then i gave up, because what’s the point? westerners can’t even handle a single picture of a north korean not looking miserable without screaming propaganda

meanwhile, there are no stories about the horrors of life in the ‘hermit kingdom’ that are deemed too outlandish to be believable. i can’t remember who said it, but it’s like the entire country has taken up permanent residence in the western imaginary as some silly little cartoon villain, where the leaders of the country does evil things for no discernible reason. they’re just silly and evil like that, and the citizens, of course, are silly, too. silly and brainwashed.

i watched a video recently of a tourists visiting an auto dealership in pyongyang, and the entire time he was just gawking at the employees and costumers, shoving his phone in their face, and confidently explaining to his youtube audience that everyone he’s interacting with are actually actors.

what level of dehumanization do you have to reach for that thought to even cross your mind? to think that the people you see before you are actors? that entire cities and shops are erected with to sole purpose that you, a western, will see them and be impressed?

what frustrates me the most is the casual cruelty that seeps into any mention of north korea, no matter how small. if north koreans are not being evil, they’re being silly.

a north korean newspaper reports that a group of archeologists in pyongyang have discovered an old rock carving with the words ‘unicorn lair’ (mistranslated), and the western press reports that north koreans now believe in unicorns.

a tourist at a hotel in hamhung is told by the receptionist to be careful at the beach: the waves can get high. that day the tourists goes to the beach, and there are no waves. she retells the story to her instagram followers, explaining that the poor woman at the hotel could never have seen real waves before because north koreans are probably never allowed to travel.

she adds a little teary-eyed emoji.

one of the cities i included in the post was sariwon, a densely populated city to the south of pyongyang. below are some pictures from its “folk customs street”, which was built to showcase old korean traditions and customs

here’s all wikipedia has to say about it

Built to display an ideal picture of ancient Korea, it includes buildings in the "historical style" and a collection of ancient Korean cannons. Although it is considered an inaccurate romanticized recreation of an ancient Korean street, it is frequently used as a destination for foreigners on official government tours. Many older style Korean buildings exist in the city.

it’s just north koreans being silly again. there’s no mention of what might motivate them to build a street like that — why the preservation of old customs, culture and architecture might somehow be important for the city

could it perhaps have something to do with how the U.S. air force dropped 635,000 tons of bombs, including 32,557 tons of napalm, over the korean peninsula during the war? the carpet bombings, which are now the topic of an upcoming hollywood movie about overcoming racism through warcrimes, destroyed an estimate of 85% of all buildings in north korea. some cities were entirely wiped off the map.

in sariwon they missed a few buildings, but not many — after an intense firebombing campaign the U.S. military estimated the destruction of sariwon to be at 95%.

none of this is mentioned on the wikipedia page for sariwon.

we destroyed entire cities. memory-holed the entire thing, called it the forgotten war. and now, 70 years later, we’re convincing ourselves that the people living in the ruins are actors.

and somehow the north koreans are the brainwashed ones

#forgive me lord for i am posting #to all the 'hate the government not the people' freaks in the notes #i'm coming for you next

[tempikotee]

the girlies,,, beautiful flowers

#ace attorney #ace attorney spoilers #dahlia hawthorne #iris hawthorne #aa3 #i forgot how to post this time #isnt that crazy #im still learning sobs #sorry iris i love you so much sorry for doing this to you #forgive me iris #sister iris #trials and tribulations