#i doubt anyone is even reading this

[lunicho]

gunwook i am not your strongest soldier :(

#this post is literally not about anything specific at all #but the brainrot for him is really really bad im so distraught rn #why am i in distress over a man ive never met #being a kpop stan is so weird cuz wdym #anyways wookie :((( #imma answer asks cuz the universe is tryna tell me to get to those zb1 asks i asked for #i doubt anyone is even reading this

[5ummit]

AO3 Ship Stats: Year In Bad Data

You may have seen this AO3 Year In Review.

It hasn’t crossed my tumblr dash but it sure is circulating on twitter with 3.5M views, 10K likes, 17K retweets and counting. Normally this would be great! I love data and charts and comparisons!

Except this data is GARBAGE and belongs in the TRASH.

I first noticed something fishy when I realized that Steve/Bucky – the 5th largest ship on AO3 by total fic count – wasn’t on this Top 100 list anywhere. I know Marvel’s popularity has fallen in recent years, but not that much. Especially considering some of the other ships that made it on the list. You mean to tell me a femslash HP ship (Mary MacDonald/Lily Potter) in which one half of the pairing was so minor I had to look up her name because she was only mentioned once in a single flashback scene beat fandom juggernaut Stucky? I call bullshit.

Now obviously jumping to conclusions based on gut instinct alone is horrible practice... but it is a good place to start. So let’s look at the actual numbers and discover why this entire dataset sits on a throne of lies.

Here are the results of filtering the Steve/Bucky tag for all works created between Jan 1, 2023 and Dec 31, 2023:

Not only would that place Steve/Bucky at #23 on this list, if the other counts are correct (hint: they're not), it’s also well above the 1520-new-work cutoff of the #100 spot. So how the fuck is it not on the list? Let’s check out the author’s FAQ to see if there’s some important factor we’re missing.

The first thing you’ll probably notice in the FAQ is that the data is being scraped from publicly available works. That means anything privated and only accessible to logged-in users isn’t counted. This is Sin #1. Already the data is inaccurate because we’re not actually counting all of the published fics, but the bots needed to do data collection on this scale can't easily scrape privated fics so I kinda get it. We’ll roll with this for now and see if it at least makes the numbers make more sense:

Nope. Logging out only reduced the total by a couple hundred. Even if one were to choose the most restrictive possible definition of "new works" and filter out all crossovers and incomplete fics, Steve/Bucky would still have a yearly total of 2,305. Yet the list claims their total is somewhere below 1,500? What the fuck is going on here?

Let’s look at another ship for comparison. This time one that’s very recent and popular enough to make it on the list so we have an actual reference value for comparison: Nick/Charlie (Heartstopper). According to the list, this ship sits at #34 this year with a total of 2630 new works. But what’s AO3 say?

Off by a hundred or so but the values are much closer at least!

If we dig further into the FAQ though we discover Sin #2 (and the most egregious): the counting method. The yearly fic counts are NOT determined by filtering for a certain time period, they’re determined by simply taking a snapshot of the total number of fics in a ship tag at the end of the year and subtracting the previous end-of-year total. For example, if you check a ship tag on Jan 1, 2023 and it has 10,000 fics and check it again on Jan 1, 2024 and it now has 12,000 fics, the difference (2,000) would be the number of "new works" on this chart.

At first glance this subtraction method might seem like a perfectly valid way to count fics, and it’s certainly the easiest way, but it can and did have major consequences to the point of making the entire dataset functionally meaningless. Why? If any older works are deleted or privated, every single one of those will be subtracted from the current year fic count. And to make the problem even worse, beginning at the end of last year there was a big scare about AI scraping fics from AO3, which caused hundreds, if not thousands, of users to lock down their fics or delete them.

The magnitude of this fuck up may not be immediately obvious so let’s look at an example to see how this works in practice.

Say we have two ships. Ship A is more than a decade old with a large fanbase. Ship B is only a couple years old but gaining traction. On Jan 1, 2023, Ship A had a catalog of 50,000 fics and ship B had 5,000. Both ships have 3,000 new works published in 2023. However, 4% of the older works in each fandom were either privated or deleted during that same time (this percentage is was just chosen to make the math easy but it’s close to reality).

Ship A: 50,000 x 4% = 2,000 removed works Ship B: 5,000 x 4% = 200 removed works

Ship A: 3,000 - 2,000 = 1,000 "new" works Ship B: 3,000 - 200 = 2,800 "new" works

This gives Ship A a net gain of 1,000 and Ship B a net gain of 2,800 despite both fandoms producing the exact same number of new works that year. And neither one of these reported counts are the actual new works count (3,000). THIS explains the drastic difference in ranking between a ship like Steve/Bucky and Nick/Charlie.

How is this a useful measure of anything? You can't draw any conclusions about the current size and popularity of a fandom based on this data.

With this system, not only is the reported "new works" count incorrect, the older, larger fandom will always be punished and it’s count disproportionately reduced simply for the sin of being an older, larger fandom. This example doesn’t even take into account that people are going to be way more likely to delete an old fic they're no longer proud of in a fandom they no longer care about than a fic that was just written, so the deletion percentage for the older fandom should theoretically be even larger in comparison.

And if that wasn't bad enough, the author of this "study" KNEW the data was tainted and chose to present it as meaningful anyway. You will only find this if you click through to the FAQ and read about the author’s methodology, something 99.99% of people will NOT do (and even those who do may not understand the true significance of this problem):

The author may try to argue their post states that the tags "which had the greatest gain in total public fanworks” are shown on the chart, which makes it not a lie, but a error on the viewer’s part in not interpreting their data correctly. This is bullshit. Their chart CLEARLY titles the fic count column “New Works” which it explicitly is NOT, by their own admission! It should be titled “Net Gain in Works” or something similar.

Even if it were correctly titled though, the general public would not understand the difference, would interpret the numbers as new works anyway (because net gain is functionally meaningless as we've just discovered), and would base conclusions on their incorrect assumptions. There’s no getting around that… other than doing the counts correctly in the first place. This would be a much larger task but I strongly believe you shouldn’t take on a project like this if you can’t do it right.

To sum up, just because someone put a lot of work into gathering data and making a nice color-coded chart, doesn’t mean the data is GOOD or VALUABLE.

#ao3 #ao3 stats #psa #my words #fandom #I doubt anyone is even going to read this but I needed to get it out of my system and at least try to stop this from spreading #if you know me #you know I get Big Mad about misinformation #don't take anything at face value #do your own research

[science-lings]

okay this has been going through my mind for days and I have to get my thoughts out before I explode

Disclaimer, this is not talking about a specific artist/person and would never condone or participate in anon hate or online bullying for any reason but especially this one. 

I get why people are mad about Link being portrayed as this buff, hypermasculine, tall guy. I am too (again don’t fucking attack people over it though) and it seems like such an infuriating way to change the character just to fit into some ideal of hypermasculine attractiveness or to make a ship fall into a more hetero lense by making him a decent foot taller than whatever girl he’s being paired with. 

The world of video games and action movies and every form of media ever is extremely saturated with male characters that are swole and manly and whatever other descriptors people are trying to push onto Link that don’t fit into his actual character. There are so many characters out there that already fit this male standard and having a clearly androgynous elf guy was like a breath of fresh air. 

Link was literally designed to be a character whose lines on gender were blurred, ‘a girl with a masculine touch or a guy with a feminine touch’ so that anyone could project themselves onto him. His physical design in botw/totk was specifically made to be feminine enough to wear a certain outfit to pass as a woman (which includes a nearly mandatory cutscene where he puts on the clothes and blushes after being called pretty, like you have to be blind to think that its an experience that he doesn’t like at all) and in totk there are a bunch of outfits made for Link that are blatantly gnc, ones that are practically dresses, include nail polish and lipstick, you can even dye his hair bright and vivid colors and that’s half way to giving him new pronouns. The whole reason Linkle isn’t included in more mainline loz games was because her existence would force Link into a gender dichotomy, if there's a clearly female version of the main hero, that means the main hero has to be a man, and they would rather abandon a potential reoccurring character than make Link conform to a gender binary. 

So pardon me when it feels disingenuous and even malicious for him to be morphed into these clear masculine ideals, where he towers over any female romantic partner (even when in canon he is regularly depicted as noticeably shorter than her) or even in m/m fanworks he’s really beefed up, perhaps to make the scene feel more gay or something. 

Perhaps it’s because his more twink-y/ femboy body type is so heavily sexualized (though obviously when people are sculping abs on him it’s totally not because they’re horny about it) and that’s an issue in itself that bothers me. But it’s just so tiring to see one of the very few popular main characters who is short and feminine and androgynous be molded into just another bland muscle-headed action hero over and over and over again. 

I’m not mad at the creators for portraying him differently than how I like him portrayed, I’m mad because we really do get so few characters like him in good popular media, and to be honest, I really like him the way that he is. I love that he’s tiny and has long hair and has the option to dress any way the player likes. It seems a little distasteful to make him taller than a female love interest just because that’s how straight couples have to be, there’s just never been a real straight couple where the guy is shorter than the girl, that’s just Impossible! (/s) 

#i doubt anyone read this all i just needed to get it off my chest and this felt like the best place to do it #again i don't think it's a reason to bully or even just say mean things to people over their portrayal of link #but i get why it's so frustrating to people #like... link is lowkey a hero for trans guys who aren't tall and aren't ending up as masculine as they had hoped #but he's still exceptionally capable and he's still there to be an image for people who see themselves in him #idk this is just a rant #rant #zelink #loz #botw #totk

[horsemeatluvr23]

the juppet !! i just realised he is jerma posing i swear that was unintentional...... i spent so long digging thru muppet concept art and looking at old puppet designs just to end up doing a rly simple drawing but. i love joehills!! i have only been watching them for like 4 years but their videos r so special to me :3

#i would love to do a more complex drawing inspired by muppet concept art at some point... just wanted to give myself a bit of a break #i've been spending So much time on these drawings every day n it's not really sustainable for me to be spending multiple hours every day #when i have so much work i should be doing...... but i rly enjoyed this silly little muppet even if it's v simple for my standards #tbh i'm surprised i even made it this far into the challenge.. we're like two thirds in ?!!?! #i've only ever completed an art challenge once and that was inktober in 2018... and those were SIMPLE drawings #my standards are a lot higher than they were 6 years ago... but also there's extra pressure because i'm posting these #and i know i don't Have to post them but. it's a way of keeping myself accountable because i am terrible at that without outside motivation #omg why do i always ramble So much in tags this is ridiculous i'm so sorry if anyone actually reads these.... #anyways i rly hope my people drawing skills r improving.. #i doubt there will be noticable difference but i hope i feel at least a little more confident by the end of this #hermitaday #horsemeatluvr does hermitaday #horsemeat gallery #joehills #joehills fanart #joe hills #joe hills fanart #hermitcraft #traditional art #unedited sketchbook drawings 4 the win (i've given up on scanning n editing these or even taking them in proper lighting... too much effort) #i'm just a little guy

[popponn]

call you later; 2.

notes: what if you didn't pick up their call? they left a voicemail, in their own ways. so we still got uh... aryu chigirin and im considering reo. idk who else will come later but i had fun writing this!! character: itoshi rin, bachira meguru. [ part 1 : isagi, sae, nagi ]

itoshi rin

What did you do? This guy is the type to only left anything if it’s urgent, about nii-chan, or about football. Other than that high chances are they are actual death threats and you are not an exception.

Though, he can not deny that you are sort of his favorite in a way—won't admit that to your face too, though. That’s why he even bothers calling you and not just left a message or tell some poor soul to call you instead. While he probably feels a bit irked that you didn’t pick up, he will save the nagging when he finally met you face to face later. And even then, most of teammates will clarify that rather than nagging it’s more like his way of asking for your extra attention. It’s adorable, if you ignore the fact that the next movie night will definitely without a doubt would have to be a horror movie night just to cheer him up. Prayers and thoughts, if you dislike horror.

The message he will left is exactly like him, in a way. Rude, doesn’t have many words, but if you squints you could hear what sounds like a caring nosiness. While he isn’t the type to suddenly get clingy because of one unpicked-up call or thing about it too much, call him back soon as you can even if he didn’t say or rush you to do so. Would never say it to your face, but having you around him calms him down a lot and that includes your voice.

“Where are you right now?” Rin sounds like he was angry, as usual. “You better not be picking up problems left and right or I swear I will—”

A background noise that sounds like a chirpy teasing interrupted him, reminding him not to be so scary, which Rin replied with a snarling growl, “Shut up! And that wasn’t for you—I got a match so you better fucking watch it and fucking message me where you are while you are at it. I will get you home later so you better wait for me or else…..that’s all. Later. Next time don’t just go somewhere without telling me, stupid.”

bachira meguru

Do you know how long of a voice message can someone left on an unpicked up call? If you don’t you will find out soon.

He probably would not really question why you are not picking up, but mostly because whenever you got separated he will always call you in the most ungodly timing possible just for chatting. Somehow. So, at this point, it has become more of a norm for you to not pick up and just call him again later. He is not being nosy, it’s just more of how he expresses his love—sharing literally everything with you. This has led to several one-sided awkwardness from your part between you and some of his teammates, but hey Bachira Meguru’s Hottest Soccer Gossips is a very important segment in your daily life with him.

Which being said, yeah, get ready. He will talk into the phone as if you were there replying to him—and indeed he always manage to predict how you will react. Listening to his voicemail during work is a good replacement for podcasts and such as in case you are bored by them. Though, sometimes, when he is in a rush and have to keep the message shorter than usual, it’s really sweet! He rarely manage to remind you to call him back though, as it feels like norm for you to do so. Don’t forget it, so you don’t get a Bachira Meguru species asking to be carried around for the whole day on the next holiday. He has muscles and those things are not light.

“So, so, so!” Meguru began with his chirpy voice, not leaving any greeting as usual. “Today Isagi and Chigirin kind of clowned and I really, really want to tell you that story—but I gotta go fast, so I will tell you at home later, okay?” Meguru worded out each word in a rushed manner, akin to an excited buzzing bee waiting to run somewhere with skips in his steps and ball for him to dribble.

“Last night I dreamt about Zico so I will definitely win today! But I also dreamt you were there bundled up because you got a fever. Not like I’m complaining if I get to take care of you with my specials, but stay healthy, ‘kay, ‘kay?” Meguru said, jokingly yet dotting. Then, immediately, he continued, “Oh, well! That’s all—I will call again later or you could! So, see ‘ya, Lovely! Love you! Muuuach!”

#bllk #bllk imagines #blue lock #blue lock fluff #bllk x reader #bluelock x reader #itoshi rin #bachira meguru #itoshi rin x reader #rin itoshi imagines #rin itoshi x you #itoshi rin fluff #bachira meguru x reader #bachira x reader #rin x reader #bachira meguru fluff #i will really miss writing scenarios after this #its fun but the prompt augh im terrible at coming up with them #does anyone even read my notes in tags #i doubt it so hey the abyss who is reading this any ideas o great lord of chaos #blue lock scenarios

[purplink8]

Hate to burst anyone's bubble but I don't think L would've revealed his face to Light if the latter wasn't Kira. The Kira case was the only case in which L shows his identity to anyone besides Watari because it's the first time he (and his authority) has been challenged like this (with the majority of the Japanese task force leaving since they can't trust L coz of the FBI incident).

If Light weren't Kira and went on to become an NPA officer like his father, he might work with L on some cases together but that doesn't mean L would've revealed his identity to him, however intelligent this particular NPA officer may be.

Like I ship Lawlight very much and I'm not (in this post, that is) referring to anyone exploring the idea of non-Kira!Light with L in their AUs as bad (I like those AUs too), but let's remember that it wouldn't be plausible if we're going by canon. Even if Ohba said somewhere that they'd work together if Light weren't Kira, I'm sure he didn't mean working together as in face-to-face.

#that doesn't stop Light from being L's most favorite detective in the NPA tho #but i doubt that L would show his face to him just because Light's a genius like him #again i am not attacking anyone loving the idea of non-kira!Light & L working together (i'm one of those people; hi) and #reading (hello again) or writing about it in AUs #but that's not canonically plausible? #i can only think of one scenario where it's plausible #it's when L & non-Kira!Light are working on a case that's even bigger than the Kira case which requires showing your identity #anyways if i'm wrong feel free to correct me! #death note #light yagami #l lawliet #musings #p

[mono-socke]

Day 30: Deactivation

There. It's done. All prompts have been fulfilled! (if you count the crack post for day 8 as a proper entry)

thanks to @the-squiptionary for the prompt list!!

and also thanks to the two that were hyping me up on my day 29 post!! you're the best :>>

#be more chill #the play #squipril #squipril 2024 #me doing art #yes it is a surprise for me too that i managed to actually do this #the first two weeks were easy #during the third week a bit of laziness was kicking in #but i still managed to do just fine #and then last week i had a major gay panic physically restraining me from doing anything productive for a couple of days #(which was pretty unfortunate) #(not only for squipril but for everything i was (supposed to be) doing) #but then i was like 'okay no. i said i'm doing all the prompts so i have to do them' #yeah #somehow managed to do that #oh well #doubt anyone's even reading my tags at this point #if so #hi #how are you #? #have a great day!

[sarahreadstoomanycomics]

I’m amused by this  guy not being amused at Dick making jokes about his near death experience.

#dick grayson #batfam #robin #like dick even says why he does it too #and this guy is still just like not funny >:( #why am i sitting here re-reading batman family idk #also this guy does have a name which i do know but i really doubt anyone cares

[utahimeow]

i rly think writing is what i’m meant to do

#i know im not incredible or anything but i am pretty good #i think the only reason i get good grades in my college essays is bc my writing sounds smart bc i suck at actually making a point lol #i just get such a rush from writing a really good paragraph or description or whatever #and i dont really get that anywhere else #i wasnt a sporty or musical child or anything but ive been writing since i was 12 #just wish i wasn’t such a perfectionist so i could do it more often #ok anyways i doubt anyone will even read thisndknddnd #꒰ char chats. ꒱

[hexeratii]

Self Portrait I drew in front of my mirror ฅ⁠^⁠•⁠ﻌ⁠•⁠^⁠ฅ

#art #drawing #doodle #artwork #illustration #sketch #self portrait #my art #sketchbook #sketchbook drawing #mirror drawing #pencil sketch #pencil illustration #self portrait drawing #portrait drawing #mechanical pencil #this would not be possible without my trusty 0.03mm mechanical pencil #ty graphgear #not sponsored I just enjoy the razor thin lines I get from my absurdly thin mech pencils #ew I probably sounded so gross and cheesy in this post #I swear I'm actually an emo bad bitch #Now that I posted this drawing I'm noticing all the little mistakes like the warping on my desk chair and how rushed the hair is lolololol #would you believe me if I told you that the most difficult part of this drawing aside from the arm was the sketchbook #I can easily falsify clothing folds and they don't have to be extremely accurate to still look believable #but godamn it was really hard for me to get the angle of the sketchbook and the loose paper in the back etc etc #This probably doesn't even look all that impressive to most and it may be cringe to be this happy with the result but what can you do #I doubt anyone will read these tags anyhow lolol this is just free vent space #oh and if you are reading these #thank you #also you just lost the game HAHA

[icradledyouinmyarmstm]

Hey would anyone still read new klance fanfic by people who have never before written fanfic? Asking for a friend

#see said friend has too many hc to count #and who am i kidding #i have too many to count #and honestly it won‘t even be neccesarily good fanfic #and it will probably be like… very… very… slowly written #but #i think it would be cool to try it out #honestly if the answer is ‚i doubt it‘ or ‚probably not‘ that‘s genuinely understandable #especially coming from an avid fanfic readers perspective who mainly reads from like the same 5 people most of the times herself #so im actually just checking vibes here #(and if i really wanted to i might just do it anyway even if it‘s neither perfect nor read by anyone) #vld #voltron #klance #keith kogane #lance mcclain #fanfiction

[orcelito]

Wild that anytime I post an update a lot of people read it and are even excited about it and have their own thoughts and reactions to it that I'll never know.

Comments are only the very tip of the iceberg with it. And I am Very grateful to commenters for letting me in on it. But in the same way that I'll be excited with my friends when a fic we love updates, it's likely that Other people enthuse with Their friends when my fic updates. And it's just so strange. An experience I'll never have access to.

Everyone's relationship with my fic is unique. So many different people with so many different circumstances and preferences... and the number of people that have told me that my fic is one of their favorites, some even saying it's their Favorite favorite... every single one of them have their own relationship with my writing.

It's just interesting to me. I think and think and think on my writing. I have my plans for basically the entire fic, the way I want it to end already thought out, all the major plot beats and the relationship progressions, All of that thought out. I love my writing so very much, but I'm on the inside looking out. This is my mechanical horse, and I'm in here laying out the groundwork and pulling levers and constructing limbs, puttering away making the horse move. Forever and always, my relationship with it will be more intimate than anyone's, and yet more clinical. Because I know it better than the back of my own hand, but I'll never have the experience of reading it fresh. Of reading it without knowing everything that's going to happen from now to the end and beyond. I won't have the thrill of the plot twists I have planned, the delight at seeing things progress, the horror at seeing things go wrong...

This is my mechanical horse, and I'm making it move.

I just always wonder what it must be like to see it from the outside. I hope to others that it's a pretty horse.

#speculation nation #itnl shit #didnt mean to write this much about the concept but i really am so... #jealous almost. id love to be able to read my fic as a reader. #because it's tailor made to my tastes Exactly. #and i know it's good writing. i surprise myself even sometimes with how good things end up. #it's never a doubt in my mind that i'll make things good. even the harder things . while bringing trepitation . i know i'll figure them out. #the relationship a fic writer has with their own fic is so... yeah. intimate. but still somehow emotionally removed. #but thats how it goes with any art piece i think #the creator sees all the bits and pieces that went into it. remembers the thoughts as they made it #they know their work better than Anyone Else. but they'll never be able to experience it like an outsider. #is my fic helping someone through a rough breakup? is it something someone rereads when theyre sad? #is it a fic that people stay up way too late reading? the fic that someone discovers and consumes all within a day? #that voracious love. ive experienced it many times with other fics. but i can never experience it with my own. #but in the end. that's okay. i will just continue to do as i wish with it. and maybe people will continue to like it. #it is my goal to make a fic that people will never forget. what that may mean differs depending on the person. #i want it to be the best fic it can be. and i will make it so with every brick i lay down. #puttering about for days and weeks and months. it's Most of what i think about. it's my impact on the world. #and it's sitting for 3 hours after work in the storage room writing until im shivering but Satisfied with a productive writing session #it's writing some of my most emotional scenes while sitting for an hour on the toilet #no one else knows what the toilet written scenes are. but I Do. such is my relationship with my fic. #(the focus in the Quiet Rooms cannot be underestimated. the bathroom is indeed one of the Quiet Rooms lol) #& man. ive rambled so much now. but i just love my fic so very much #i'll never be an ITNL reader. and that's okay. because i'm its writer. & that's a status that No One Else can boast. #even those people who state that it's their Favorite favorite cant rival the intimacy of my own relationship with it. #I Am Its Writer and that means so very much to me. #i... really do love my fic y'all

[possesseddog]

why don’t the siblings talk about their SEKAI’s?

To everyone who is close with their siblings (including me) it probably felt a bit weird that the pro sekai siblings never discuss their respective sekai’s (especially the tenma’s). here are what i think the most likely (non-meta) reasons are:

Shinonomes:

The empty SEKAI is Mafuyu’s, and as much as it has become all of N25’s, it would be a betrayal of trust to air her business like that. As stubborn as Akito was about street SEKAI during VBS’s main story line, I think he just forced himself to think of the place as Not a Big Deal very quickly to justify not thinking about what it’s presence means. He also isn’t aware that other people can be brought into SEKAI’s, so proving it would be difficult.

Also, biggest thing, the Shinonome siblings are the type to not share personal stuff unless it is absolutely necessary.

Hinomoris:

Shizuku never wanted anyone to worry about her idol career, and telling Shiho about the SEKAI would be doing precisely that. She also takes her role as an older sister pretty seriously, and tries to be a supporter instead of supported. Shiho would rather die than open up to her sister. In all seriousness, telling her about the SEKAI is wildly out of character, and if she did, she would have to open up about all the stuff that happened with L/N.

The both of them also do not know you can take others into SEKAIs.

Tenmas:

This is the one I struggled the most on. These two are incredibly close, so the fact that they haven’t told each other about their SEKAI’s is strange to me. Here’s how I see it.

Tsukasa works incredibly hard to make sure Saki doesn’t worry about him. Although wonderland SEKAI doesn’t really tell WxS a lot of lore, he knows it’s rare for one person to single-handedly create a SEKAI. I think, even when he didn’t remember his true feelings during the main story, there were red flags subconsciously going off in his mind, reminding him that this is a worrying situation to be in. Even after he finds his true feelings, to tell Saki he was in emotional turmoil in the past? Unthinkable. She would be devastated that she did nothing about. (Also his mental health is declining atm so it’s not like he wants any more attention drawn to it.)

But what about Saki? She was the first to figure out her feelings, was ecstatic about the Miku Dimension. Tsukasa knew about Honami and Shiho cutting her off, since they wouldn’t be visiting her in the hospital. She has the least to lose out of everyone.

However, looking at this from the perspective of an older sibling, I would be absolutely fucking terrified if my brother told me he was going to another dimension where I could not follow and was made up of his and his friend’s repressed feelings. Whether or not he had a SEKAI, i think tsukasa would lose his mind in worry if he learned Saki had one. (I also personally think he doesn’t know how bad it got between L/N or he would be a lot more protective.) Saki never wants to make him worry about her, ever, despite him basically making that his whole identity.

TL;DR: emotional repression, everyone would worry about each other, and half of them have no clue you can bring outsiders into the SEKAI

#I’m ignoring the lives #I don’t even know if they’re canon #also part of me doubts that anyone could go into a sekai #but there’s nothing in canon to dispute it (as far as I’ve read #project sekai #prsk #tsukasa tenma #saki tenma #tenma siblings #ena shinonome #akito shinonome #shinonome siblings #shiho hinomori #shizuku hinomori #hinomori sisters

[cloud-somersault]

I literally can't stand the way this stupid chapter went down. Chapter 7 has been a pain my ass the entire time, I can't even look at it without being pissed. And now posting it has left everyone confused, and I hate that added on confusion, as if this AU didn't have enough going on

I know it's not a big deal, but I hate disorganized things. I think it reflects badly on me and makes me look like I don't have my shit together, plus I deadass cannot stand what I wrote!! Even now!!

Ugh, can we all collectively forget about this...stupid reordering of chapters. I'm so pessimistic about it, and I'm glad I didn't delete it, but it's hard to see the silver lining right now

#constellations fic #this is such a huge fuck up in an otherwise crisp chapter release schedule #im a week behind. and now im doubting everything #i hate that people dont know whats going on even with my notes #because it's going to be confusing. to everyone. i cant expect people to remember chapter titles #or the order of them. most don't even read them #for people to remember is a big deal but like #with how spread out updates are. thats wishful thinking #i honestly dont expect anyone to remember anything. when they do I'm so surprised #i just wanted to make this as easy as possible #and I'm so fucking tired #i can't do long things like this anymore. there were too many elements #this is why i thrive with longass chapters #doing it this way is such a pain. it's not for me

[layla-carstairs]

Cassandra Clare writing the pre-tlh short stories and then forgetting about them & what they had established as canon when actually writing the last hours is my villain origin story. like it makes me so violent. and I get things change as the writing process goes on but imo as an author you have a responsibility to abide by what you previously wrote & published. you don't get to pretend that it just never happened.

#it's cheap & annoying & takes away from the final project #even just some acknowledgement would have fixed the problem! #like with James being the 'leader' of the Merry Thieves when in the short stories it was very well established that was Matthew #or how James was the one who really hated Alastair #and Thomas would always defend Alastair which meant having conversations about Alastair nearly impossible without upsetting someone #there's countless examples of this it makes me want to pull my hair out #as for something like the family tree. I would have rathered cc just explained the situation to us fans #like just *tell us* the family tree was written before tlh was really a thing & because of that it's not canon anymore #there wasn't really a need for an canonical explanation (especially since it was so random) #I doubt anyone but fans cared about it anyway #by fans I mean hardcore fans who don't just read causally. like ones who get her newsletter/follow her on tumblr and twitter etc #the last hours #chain of gold #chain of iron #chain of thorns #james herondale #cordelia carstairs #lucie herondale #matthew fairchild #thomas lightwood #alastair carstairs #christopher lightwood #anna lightwood #jesse blackthorn #grace blackthorn #the shadowhunter chronicles #tsc

[lovinnelily]

Y'all do know you can't make Jason be NOT white without changing his whole character, right?

For other characters, yes, because their physical appearance are not that influential in their story, on how they are viewed by people, on their personality formation — you can have a black/asian/indigenous/arab/brown/latino/etc Nico and yes, the hate he gets will have a undertone of racism but at the same time nothing significant on his story, motivation or personality will need to change. This is also true for other characters: Clarisse risks repeating the "aggressive WoC" stereotype but the character itself doesn't change.

This isn't true for Jason, whose main character trait is how he is perceived by others and how he showcases himself to others based on that perception. (specially with how little effort Riordan put on him besides making him perfect-er Percy who's somehow also weaker and less important than him).

Let's not pretend a black, Arab, indigenous, Asian, Latin man, etc, in the USA would ever be treated with the universal reverence Jason gets from New Roma, you can't have the illusion of perfection and most of all, of invincibility they have about him when you see him suffering racism or xenophobia in the middle of a mission. Nothing in his life has ever gone wrong, that's his image, destined to be king, he is supposed to have no weakness on his peers eyes.

He is not trying to prove people wrong, he is trying to prove them right; he isn't worthy despite their prejudice, on the contrary, he only tried to make himself worthy to fulfill their expectations. He can't be a woman or an immigrant or have a visible disability or any other thing that strays him from a perfect ideal by western society standards, and be that same character.

#Different from the other white character in the series he was never questioned or doubted #There's a presumption of perfection with no exceptions that society doesn't give to us (women poc immigrants visible minorities in general) #His privilege (handsome white man with no visible disability son of Zeus etc) also prevented anyone from worrying for his well being #This illusion/expectation of him having no weakness/being untouchable pushes himself too far and clouds his judgment. #I headcanon he didn't even consider the possibility of myopia because that wouldn't fit Jason Grace Son of Jupiter so it wasn't an option #And you think it'd be the same character after facing racism? Because ain't no way he'd be praetor without going through racism #I think I'd love him nonetheless since I'm very weak to the whole golden boy tearing himself to save the world but it'd be a new character #jason grace #I know racism in USA is different from here but I know how different a “non-racist” white person treats me and treats my white friends #Also for him to not be an entirely different character if PoC would be incredibly disrespectful and racist on its own #It would fail to recognize the difference in how we are read (and written). I hate that a lot. #I remember that when Cody told Brandi “I see no color” she told him “then you don't see me” and that's so fucking striking #We ARE different. treated differently. if you act like you don't see it then you also turn a blind eye to the violence that comes from it #This is straying from my point I got a bit heated banalization of things I care about usually does that to me #Point is please don't change Jason on the very few things that man actually bothered writing about him #I actually think this is true about Octavian too. A lot of what he is allowed to do would not be possible if he weren't a white man. #Same for Rachel Elizabeth Dare. I mean you can work around making her poc but it will truly be pushing A LOT #Let's put it this way: a woc doing a street performance is perceived very differently from a white woman doing a street performance. #Specially in the eyes of cops #Pjo