#i don't remember feeling angry abt it at the time just sad but now it does piss me off. bitch what. i can do whatever i want to
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Second Chance
A/N: I don't know how this can end in a happy ending but... I'll try. I didn't even know how to start writing this request but I think I did fairly well and even better than I expected. I think I can do it better though but for now, I'll give you this. Short-ish and sweet. I tried to put everything into one fic.
REQUEST #14 (wattpad) @fredsdeath: HI!! I love all ur books especially the fred weasley book and uhm i was wondering if you could do my request abt how y/n pretends to have amnesia and not remember fred bc fred was her ex and broke her heart in their past relationship like happy emding or not its fine and this is just a suggestion its still okay if you dont do it tho :D
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They say that the first few months always feel like a true honeymoon and then the reality hits but it wasn't like that with you and Fred. It was different because the two of you were friends first before anything and that changed everything. You knew who he was, the good and the bad, as well as he did. The two of you had this undestructable bond, nothing in the world could break. It felt real, it felt true, it felt like a once in a life-time love and you believed that.
You did... until you didn't anymore.
There were moments of Fred acting ditant. Sometimes when you looked into his eyes, he wasn't there and when he smiled, it felt forced. You felt like you were too much for him so you took a step back as well, thinking that space was all that he needed. You were different than him however, you didn't want space, you needed reassurence that he is still the Fred that will hold your hands and kiss them randomly when the two of you are laughing or just sitting together. You believed that the Fred that walked down the hall, nagging you jokingly until you retorded a sarcastic comment back, pretending to be furious with him until he nagged you until you laughed- was still somehow there. You believed that the Fred who made your stomach cramp either from laughter or butterflies will appear soon. It's just a hard transitioning moment, now that the new headmistress is on. He's coming back... he's still Fred.
He wasn't though.
"What do you mean?" your eyes twitched and you couldn't figure out whether you were angry or sad. You kept looking at the ground, not knowing when your hands ripped themselves from his.
"It's not you, I swear, it's just-"
"It's you." you looked at him, your lip trembling but you refused to cry in front of him.
"It is..." he bit his lower lip. "I just don't think that this is it." he said and you refused to look at him. He forced a smile and swayed on his feet. "We can still be friends." he said, touching your shoulder playfully as if all of a sudden you will place a smile on your face, bright and jolly but you turned your head away, wiped the crocodile tear that fell from your eyes and looked at him.
"Who is she?" you said with a sharp cold tone.
"There isn't-"
"You never lied to me, Fred. Don't start now." you glared.
He looked at you and pursed his lips together. He looked away and you let out a laugh from disbelief.
"I had a feeling but I always refused to listen to it. You know why?" you paused. "Because my trust for you was bigger than my insecurities but you just made me believe I was going crazy for such a long time until you grew balls to tell me."
"I just kissed her once-"
"Oh-" you literally heard your heart break inside your chest.
"She KISSED ME-" he mumbled. "I swear, I didn't kiss her first, she just sort of leaned in and I pulled away and I didn't want to say anything, I swear because I thought it was nothing but she just sort of... I don't know... I couldn't stop thinking about it."
"So you want to slag around."
"NO!" he started to get frustrated, shaking his head. "I just- I'm lost right now. I don't know what I want."
"You want her."
"No-" he shook his head. "I don't know... maybe... I don't know."
"Fuck you." you said, slapping him hard on his cheek that it turned red immediatelly. "You just wasted fucking 8 months of my life." and with that you turned around.
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It's been a long year now since then and you knew her name... not that you truly wanted it but you heard of a short fling between Fred and Angelina Jonson. She was another good friend of his and you wished you figured it out sooner but you haven't.
You've cried. You did. More than just one crocodile tear. You've made a mess from your room and your roommates didn't really mind. They've been patient and graceful with you. They've also been a good distraction from your emotions and you were glad you weren't when Fred made his great parting with fireworks in Hogwarts that year.
You've put yourself together since then. You did and you've heard he's been with that woman, another woman, a few other women and you didn't want to hear none of it. Your friends kept telling you about it, despite you didn't want to. You heard about his shop and all of other things.
Now... well, now you've had your own appartment, which was quite hard with the economy but you wanted your place since you were an early teen. And to think of it, getting an appartment was easier than getting a job that pays well on your education. But it did. You've worked in a small bussiness, grammar checking documents that came in and out. Something close to an accounting. It wasn't what you wanted but it was something.
You haven't seen Fred in a year and a half. He was still on your mind though. He was. It was as if he put a chip into you that keeps rewinding time back to when the two of you were in love.
What you hated more was that you did move on but somehow he was still following you everywhere you went. You didn't see him anywhere and you knew that was a good sign but you were always on the lookout. Close to his shop, you felt anxious and you thought it over what would happen if he came out now and see you. You didn't know. You didn't know anything. Your brain turned off like nothing.
But that never happened and so you were okay with moving on.
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So how did you end up here?
How did he end up here?
The last thing you told him was that he should have fun with your replacement and he did... for a short time. It really infuriated him that you told him that but Angelina really wasn't the one either. He pushed it as far as he could but something didn't click with her. He didn't feel joy with her, he felt obligated to be with her but he grew tired of being with someone.
He told you he forgets people easily but why did seeing you hurt so much. It was like a sting into his heart- quick but short. He couldn't mumble a word when you stood there and there was no shine in your eyes, no glow on you as he remembered you. There was a smile but not as joyful.
You stood there... still beautiful.
He hated that. He hated that you were still beautiful- more than him... since always.
He turned his head away, not wanting to look at you anymore. He was furious- so darn furious. Why didn't anybody tell him about you?
"There she is!" Remus came over with his hands on your shoulders, gently and formally.
You smiled brightly at him because you adored him as a professor. He was the only professor who made a course feel important and interesting.
"She was my best student and she now works in a small company for accounting- a shame to waste your talents there."
Sirius, he stood up tall and mighty, almost king-like and you felt infatuated by his kingly presence. His eyes were cold blue but his look was warm and safe.
"Aren't you supposed to be in Azkaban or something?" you joked and he laughed.
"Been there, didn't like it much." he retorded back and a few of the group laugh. "She's been working for me too for a bit. Remus recommended her- just for a short time and she turned out to be trustworthy. I bet she went to Hogwarts with you."
Ginny ran to you into a hug immediately and smiled up to you... well not up anymore. She seemed taller than you by a few centimeters. The two of you always had a great friendship, despite Fred. She adored you and you adored her.
"I can't believe you're here!" she exclaimed and you laughed, hugging her tightly.
"Me neither. This man put me through hell."
"I did not." Sirius gasped.
"Don't leave him alone in this house for long ever again."
"We have so much to catch up!"
And you did. With the whole group. You did work with Sirius through Remus. You've never really met him personally, always through some Howlers, letters, some other secret forms of communication and he was always so arrogant through it. He had grumpy and sassy remarks and at first you were professional about it but through time you've had enough and returned the energy. It has mostly been with the documents you've been grammarly correcting. They had been reciepts from big, luxiourious wizard families and you could see in some of those reciepts which were on the bad side, which on the good and which were fleeding and unreliable.
You didn't know about the other participants except Remus, Tonks and Sirius. Soon you figured Moody was one as well when he trampled into your office, asking questions and now you've met others.
You've never been much of a leap of faith person but you've always had a strong urge to stand for fairness and justice. You've fired up when you had to, not knowing until you went to bed that night. Remus saw that in you and he knew that all you needed was a little push.
You've always been reliable and when you promised something, you didn't back out, even if you were extremely anxious. He knew you could never back out from this. A bit manipulating but well, that was the push.
You've looked at Moody with your mouth on the ground.
"Turn into Harry?" you looked at all the others, especially at Remus.
"You don't have to, if you don't want to." said Harry.
"No, it's not that." you laughed. "Couldn't we just turn Harry into some random Muggle and transport him?"
The others thought about it as it could be.
"No!" Moody shouted. "Would you think they'd just let some random Muggle with a stick in his boot let into the Ministry?" he growled at you, approaching you. "No- now dress up lil priss." and he shoved clothes at you.
You looked after him than walked to Harry. "Are you comfortable with this? Us... turning into you?"
He gave you a comforting smile. "Not really but a plan is a plan. My comfort is not really in question." he offered you a smile and you returned it, though you felt a bit sad for the boy, espeicially when others made awful comments about them.
What you didn't notice was the little peeps Fred was giving you when you undressed, easily unclasping your bra under your Harry shirt and throwing it in the corner.
George apperead in front of him as Harry, giving him a grin meanwhile Fred just put his glassess on and pretended not to look.
"You're with me little priss." one of the Harry's told you and winked at you.
As you walked behind fake Harry, you passed what you thought was Fred and he called out your name. "Hey, (Y/n)."
You turned around. "What?"
"Stay safe."
You looked at him and nodded, turning back to the fake Harry, feeling your heart beating fast. Not because of Fred... this was pure fear.
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Fred just turned back into himself, laughing with his father about the trip when Ginny told him about George. He was running into the living room, finding his best friend bloody on the couch.
"Shit, George." he came to his side.
"I'm howy." George whispered.
"What George?" Fred leaned in worriedly.
"I said..." George took a breath. "I'm holy now Fred."
Fred rolled his eyes and laughed from all the relief. "Only you can crack a joke about a blown up ear."
He looked up, smiling joyfully when the others smiled back, hugging him and George. It wasn't until two were missing. He looked around again. "Where are Tonks and (y/n)?" he asked but the others looked around and nobody was around.
"Remus is waiting for them, I'll go out and check." said Arthur but just as he was about to head out the door, Remus came rushing the door with you in his arms. His shirt was soaked in your blood, Tonks' hands as well.
"MOVE!" shouted Remus as Arthur cleared the table so that Remus could place you there gently.
"It came out of nowhere- I don't know who is was but she was blown off our broom and fell hard on the woods. She hit her head pretty hard." Tonks spoke quickly, like your life depended on it.
Ginny and Molly were right by your side, Remus as well. Fred just watched with his eyes wide open. Everything was gone, all the anger, all of it, out of his system. There was no room for anger, only regret and sadness.
"(y/n)- come on little priss, you have to wake up." Remus slapped your cheeks gently.
It was so sudden. You laid there calmly and like you were awaken from the dead, you jumped up and took a deep breath in.
"Where am I?!" you looked around, feeling your head pounding but everything was extremely bloody.
You heard voices around you but none of them were clear.
"You're safe-" you looked around but you recognised that voice anywhere.
"Professor Lupin? Where's Madam Pince my head is-" you were just about to say something when you started choking on your own blood.
Fred fell on the floor, just by George when he saw the sight.
Arthur saw the terror in Fred's eyes and shouted at the other. "GET HIM OUT OF HERE! ALL OF YOU OUT!"
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Fred had a whole review of your life together back in Hogwarts. Everything turned back- everything. The small things, the big things and he realised that not once did the two of you had a bad memory together. Not one but until he broke things off.
He was pacing up and down outside the living room. Ginny kept trying to calm him down but he was not consolable. Not until you were completely alright. Not until he comes back and you're breathing and smiling at him.
Finally Arthur came to Fred, only to Fred because he knew of their past together. His expression was grim but it wasn't something Fred could read at the moment. He had you in perfect image. Since always.
"How is she?!" he quickly asked and everybody stood up and listened as well.
"She's living and breathing." he said, putting his hand on Fred's shoulder. "Remus is great at taking care of people, so she's resting with George... however... she kept recalling back a few years..." he looked up worriedly. "She kept asking for Dumbledore and... McGonagall..." he continued. "Remus says it could be shock or some short amnesia."
"What does that mean, dad?" Fred asked but his father only looked away. "Dad!"
"I don't know really... only time will tell when she wakes up."
Fred burst through the door and found his two favorite people laying on the couch. It was odd sight becuase you were there moving your lips and looking at your roommate, fist bumping him.
"Samesiess." George shouted weakley. "I've always wanted a girl roommate."
"Ew." you said, laughing.
"Not like that- Merlin." George said. "If moving my eyes wouldn't hurt I'd roll my eyes right now."
"If I could have the strenght to move my hands I'd show you the middle finger."you replied and could hear him laugh, caughing.
Fred smiled from relief and walked confidently into the room. "Hey, you two are on bed rest, stop talking and laughing." he said, sitting at George's side first. He looked at you and you looked at him.
"George?" you said worriedly. "I didn't know you had a sibling?"
"I have eight of them... or seven... six... I really don't know..."
"I didn't know you had one that looks exactly like you." you furrowed your eyebrows and it was only for a joke. You've always wanted to play a joke but something in Fred's eyes.
Something in his eyes made him come towards you and look at you with the same look he did all those years. The same eyes that you prayed for such a long time ago.
"You don't remember me?" he asked.
And you haven't got any clue why you turned your head and mumbled no. You turned it away from him because you felt something hurt inside of you so much by having him looking at you so close. Your heart was tearing up inside of you all over again and you wished, you prayed, you said you never met him because that was what you truly wanted. You wanted that he never existed in your brain because it just... hurts so much.
"Please leave me alone." you said and kept shutting your eyes.
Fred backed away, terror in his eyes, his heart, rage? Perhaps shock- something was in his chest, burning up his throat. He didn't hear the pain in your throat or the tears that fell from your eyes when you turned away. He couldn't function properly.
"Fred..." he heard George but he just stormed outside.
It was as if something was spinning in his head. It was so horrible.
Ginny came after him, calling out his name, asking what is wrong.
"WHAT'S WRONG?!" he turned around, a big forced smile of disbelief, almost wicked-like. "I ALMOST LOST TWO PEOPLE THAT ARE IMPORTANT TO ME! BESIDES THAT ONE LOST AN EAR, THE OTHER LOST A BLOODY MEMORY OF ME- OF OUR WHOLE RELATIONSHIP!!!"
Ginny stood there. Usually she would shout something back but she just let him yell.
"Ginny- she-" he started to break down, falling onto his knees and pulling his long legs into a hug.
Ginny walked to his side and hugged him around the shoulders. "It could be temporary... she's just in a shock."
"She remembers George."
"How do you know? She just talked to him like she woud with another person."
"She wouldn't talk to me like this..."
"She would." Ginny added and Fred looked at her, letting a laugh.
"Yeah... she would... she was unpredicatable like that." he said.
"Why did the two of you even break up?"
"I don't know really." Fred mumbled. "But I don't know if I can live through her not remembering us... you know?" he looked at Ginny, then laid his head on her shoulder. "We used to have so much fun... when we were together. She was so snarky and confident..."
"She's always so happy and has such a good heart." Ginny added.
"Yeah... she was perfect and... I really didn't know we would work so well together but I don't know... I thought she would be a fling and I wasn't ready to commit- she just... she deserved so much better than me, I always knew that."
"What do you mean?"
"I mean... look at her and look at me." he lookd at Ginny.
"Fred, she looked at you as if you were the whole world for her, not because of your looks or it was because of your looks, I doubt that though but she didn't want anybody else. She wanted you." Ginny said and Fred looked at her.
"I don't know Ginny."
"You do know, Fred. You were the one who thought you didn't deserve her and with the way you were acting after the two of you broke up, just told me how much she hurt you." she continued without any filter. "And it wasn't that she hurt you... it was that you were furious that you fucked up a good thing."
Fred looked at his sister with a confused look. She didn't use that kind of language. "I don't know when you grew up so much, Ginny." he said and laid his head back on her shoulder. "But... if she forgot about us... and me... I don't know- she was the only person who really knew me and it was hard for her to trust me in the first place. When she did, it felt like I met the right person to feel safe with..."
"Like I said... we can hope that she does remember."
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You and George were laying in the darkness, both resting. You were glad the whole thing was over, even though you almost couldn't have made it out alive.
"Do you really not remember Fred?" asked George.
There was silence but you looked to the darkness beside you where George was speaking from. "I wish I didn't." you said.
"Why did you tell him then you didn't?" he asked calmly.
You turned your head back to the dark ceiling. "I just... I actually don't know... it was a joke at first..."
"I gathered that but he just saw two of people he cared about almost die in front of his eyes so I believe him for not catching it."
"Then he just looked at me with those eyes... like that he cares and I just... I don't know I wanted to make sure if he does or not so I just said no."
There was a small laugh from the other side. "Did you get your answer?"
"Kind of." you shrugged.
"(y/N)." he said in a serious tone. "He bloody loved you. You didn't know how he was when you weren't around. First he was furious, then he was frustrated when you didn't catch our fireworks, then he was melancholic for a while and all of a sudden he got an urge to go after every girl that walked into the shop- age appropriate to be clear." he stopped for a moment. "He cared, he really did- he didn't know how much he had lost until months later. Angelina couldn't compare to you. He wasn't as ambitious and happy as he was with you. He was absent and lost..."
There was a loud silence after that and you felt as if you have to say something in return. "I didn't know you could preform such long speeches."
You heard shuffling on the other side and suddenly something soft landed on your stomach. "Owww!"
"Shut up, we're both poor right now." he said and you laughed , throwing the pillow back.
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George was awake and walking. He was just getting suited for the wedding when Fred was tying his bowtie. He walked into the living room and saw your space empty. He looked around and tried to find any traces of your disappearance.
It wasn't until he heard a grunt from the bathroom and you walked out, pinning something into your hair. "Hey Ginny this bandage is so unnecessary-" you looked up and he was staring at you as you stared back. His hands were at the untied bowtie and yours were stucking a flower somewhere where your bandage was loose around your head.
"You remember Ginny?" he asked and you kept looking at him.
You let your hands fall down to your side and you took a few steps forward. "I do." you said and grabbed his tie and started to throw it around into a bowtie.
"Do you remember me?" he asked softly as he looked down at you but you kept your eyes on his bowtie.
You were silent for a while and started to twist it around to stay on its place. "I can do it better." you said and untied it again.
He smiled at that. "A perfectionist, you remember that." he said and he could see a smile on your lips. "Please, (y/n)..." he said and placed his hands on top of yours.
You finally looked up and found his eyes in such pain. You didn't think eyes so joyful could look that tormented. "I remember you Fred." you smiled softly, then looked back at the bowtie. "Just like I remember how to tie a perfect bowtie." you smiled and fixed it on his collar.
He breathed out a long breath of relief. He saw your hands leave his bowtie and he immedately started to fix your bandage and hair flower. "You're beautiful today." he said as he continued to tuck in the last peaces of the bandage before going to the flower. "You're beautiful every day."
You continued to look up, his slick and gentle hands touching your scalp and spreading warmth, even the memories you forgot existed. "I'm sorry." you said and he raised an eyebrow. "I always knew who you were..." you said and his hands dropped, still holding the flower that was supposed to go into your hair.
"You did?"
"I did." you said. "You were so close and you were just- and it really hurt- you really hurt me." you said, looking into his eyes, knowing yours were filling themselves with tears. "It was the first time I saw you so close after such a long time and everything came back- and it hurt so much I wished to forget you." you said, avoiding his gaze.
He didn't say anything. To be honest, he wasn't furious or in shock. "You could have done worse, really..." he gave an awkward smile and you laughed. He put his hand back up to your head and started placing it into your hair.
You only observed and as you did so, his hand fell to your cheek and brushed it with his thumb. The two of you were looking at each other, felt like a whole century since the two of you were looking at each other like this... and it felt like yesterday.
Time truly is an illusion, isn't it.
"Please, give me a second chance." he said, leaning his forehead onto yours.
"Fred..." you sighed.
"I know it's a lot to ask but please- I promise, I won't run away again like I did last time." he said, pulling back and cupping your cheeks. "We're special. I know you know... I know we are... please..."
You smiled, closing your eyes and feeling all this warmth, safety and love over your body.
Hope.
There's nothing wrong with having hope.
There's nothing wrong with second chances.
You looked up at him. "Second chance then."
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Obey Me! Headcannons ~
I have never and will never hide that I dislike Luci
BUT
I do have thoughts
This man is just constantly sipping a caffeinated beverage he needs it to deal with these mfs
He's a single mother of all 6 of his brothers
I think all demons have sharp teeth. His are the least sharp of the brothers and he is PISSED ABT IT TGURBODFK
Fav song is probably by Mozart. Basic ass.
I discussed how the om! chars would deal wirth being in mlp (pls dont ask) and Luci and Luna give me an evil grinch smile
I feel like he'd curse when angry
Idk.
Gay ass
Smells like pine trees or something
I think he'd have a fear of mascots
Like. character mascots.
Don't ask me okay
Smells like axe bodyspray and SADNESS
Am I WRONG????
We all love mammon but that man.... we know he uses axe...
Befriends the local crows.
There is so many he could be carried off
They all give him shiny shit to sell
Did everyone remember how he's canonically a model
He's attractive. Canonically.
Anyways, second-sharpest teeth of the bros
This is cannon (TO ME) but Mammon is just attached to MC like glue
"STOP FOLLOWING ME!!" "LET GO OF MY HAND THEN????"
He once tried to steal and sell some of leviathan's games
The cast took a while to come off :)
Fav song is something CUNTY ik it
Most girlypop aside from asmo (YTO ME!!!!)
He's great :D
He is so trans to me as a transmasc.
He has a main twitter and an alt twitter. Nobody knows abt the alt so he uses it to doxx ppl he doesn't like
I love Leviathan but I swear to God I don’t think he knows what deodorant is
“man for a guy who sleeps in a bathtub you really have no concept of hygiene”
How many Henrys has he had??? who tf knows.
Fav animal is SNAKES
Loves pokemon. his fav would be gyarados
He will assume anything except romantic intentions at all times
Autistic. As approved by my friend with the 'tism
He would be a brony
Lovable but a Bit Cringe
Has tied Mammon to a chair and forced him to watch stuff before
EXPERT at pirating shit
Would play Undertale.
Speedrunner !!
Would spend like the better part of a month to discover EVERY SINGLE glitch, bug, and exploit in a game to use it to is advantage
Has a sims 4 cc folder that's like 80 terabytes
He's my malewife and he's everything to me.
Would make a shiny living dex on every single Pokémon game
He has multiple cardboard cutouts of his waifus
Satan has an Ao3 account. He writes exclusively on his fav characters
His Ao3 tag has something to do with Sherlock Holmes fight me
He tweets in perfect grammar
He'd kill over a board game
Would cry over a cute cat video
WARRIOR CATS NERD
HE'S COME UP WITH WARRIOR NAMES FOR EVERYONE HE KNOWS AND THE CAT HE THINKS IS MOST SIMILAR
Lucifer got assigned as Tigerclaw LMAO
He would get into Leviathan's fandoms but only bc Leviathan forced him. He comes out liking the thing.
His favorite disney movie would be Aristocats
Loves Luigi
He became a cat person specifically because Lucifer is a dog person
He'd also be a brony
The one that can analyze media properly
His brothers use him to spellcheck their essays
He either watches video essays on YouTube or he makes them
Likes reading about witchkraft from the human realm, he finds it interesting
The one that taught Leviathan to make cardboard cutouts
Knows about 50 stray cats and has named them all
Constantly brags about how he has sharper teeth than Lucifer
Smells like a different scented candle every week
Has that stereotypical gay accent
He's zesty
He's girlypop but we all knew that
Listens to Ayesha Erotica
Goes like "GIRL you would NOT believe what Solomon did!!"
He spills all the tea all the time
King shit
He'd wear a dress in a heartbeat and he'd ROCK IT
He would cry over broken nails but not because of the pain it might cause, only because it looks ugly asf now
"I NEED TO CRY BUT MY MAKEUP WAS 40 GRIMM"
The one who painted everyone's nails
Will threaten you in order to paint your nails, but he will do a color you like
King at make up
Absolutely loves Ru Paul
Keeps trying to get Dia to set up a drag race, he's unsuccessful as of now
Strawberry is his favorite flavor
He's very physically affectionate but would absolutely respect boundaries i will kill you if you think otherwise
He would HYPE. YOU. UP.
Has gum on him 24/7
Also has tampons on him so he can give them to the homies who need them (like Leviathan)
IDK man I didn't used to like him that much but he's grown on me
VERY GOOD COOK because of course he is
Loves giving piggyback rides
Tall enough and beefy enough for you to sit on his shoulders
Would also let Belph sleep on his shoulders
He's a golden retriever. We knew this.
Surprisingly good at Just Dance
Not a dog person not a cat person but a secret third thing (he thinks cows are adorable)
Always spares bugs and spiders when he finds them
Cannot watch cooking shows, he's tried to eat the TV before
Loves going to movie theaters, will pay just for the overpriced popcorn
You can tell he genuinely loves you if he shares his food
Like he shares his food with MC and all the brothers are like "W. WHAT??"
Would INSIST you look great no matter what you look like
You will cuddle with him and Belph this is an Order
Smells like food-scented deodorant
He would be too scared to roughhouse with anyone, boy is too strong
Likes just picking people up and carrying them off
He's done this with Satan once and it actually calmed him down
Favorite show is Bluey probably
Favorite animal is a maned wolf or something
Would kill for a klondike bar
Sharpest teeth out of the brothers + bites as a love language
Every time he bites Leviathan it results in Leviathan squealing higher than able to be heard by humankind
Talks in his sleep. It is adorable thank you for asking!
Smells like Lavendar, vanilla deodorant, and a little bit of "hasn't showered in 2 days" hidden underneath
Drinks a lot of milk
Blueberry is his favorite flavor
Lucid dreams a lot
He does not believe dreams have meanings his are always either incomprehensible or if they did have menains have ones he really doesnt like
Would drink monster energy but he hates the taste of caffeine (he just like me forreal)
Gummies are his favorite snack
He gives off trans energy but i honest to diavolo can't tell if he's transfem or transmasc or neither i CANT TELL
He's girly pop in his own unique way
His DDD's ringtone is Emo Boy by Ayesha Erotica
He's neurodivergent to me i just dont know how
Chews on everything for sensory reasons
Spoiled. Because he's the youngest sibling ofc he is
Every time he drinks hot cocoa he puts marshmallows in it
He considers "barging into your room and scooching you over in your bed to cuddle" a sleepover
Alternatively he'll get Beel to bring you to their room
Hey everyone remember how he's canonically a yandere-
Anyways he's cool :)
#obey me#om!#om! swd#obey me!#omswd#obey me headcanons#obey me levi#obey me leviathan#obey me mammon#obey me mc#obey me shall we date#obey me x reader#obey me lucifer#obey me brothers#omswd belphegor#omswd satan#omswd asmo#omswd mammon#omswd leviathan#headcannons#kattwritesstuff#obey me beelzebub#obey me belphie#obey me belphegor#obey me x you#obey me x gender neutral reader
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KNOCK KNOCK 👁️👄👁️ PLEASE can i get a 3, 5, and 10 or 11 for jasper my best friend jas <33 OH AND a sneaky 15 >:3
THANK YOUUUUU JEZ ILY <3333
3. How does your detective personally feel about M’s pet name? And with it now being used unsarcastically in the Book 3 demo, has that changed?
It pissed them off SOOOOO bad in book 1 which is funny to me. But now they have more mixed feelings on it. On one hand, they like it now that it isn't sarcastic bc no one has ever used a pet name for them before (at least with any genuine affection behind it) but that also means Mason holds genuine affection for them which is scary FJDSKLF. Jas is fond of him but not in love yet since they take a long time to really form genuine connections with people. It's not really something that's much of a roleplay option (from what I remember. I have soup brain so it very well could be 💀) but in my mind palace, it is.
5. Saying that M has the carnival picture, how do you think your detective will react once they find out they have it?
Really depends on when it's revealed. At the beginning of book 4? Jumpscare, truly. While Jas is sentimental, they certainly didn't expect him to keep it. They probably wouldn't have at the time. So to see that he did would make them a little guilty but also some warm fuzzy feelings they're not all that familiar with. Later on though, they'd think it's endearing.
11. If on the Douglas route, what is your detective’s feelings on this? And how do you think M feels about this?
SOOO I think Jas is on the Douglas route? They don't really interact much with Bobby bc they think he's annoying jfdklsf and there's no prior connection. But they like Douglas even if he grates on the nerves every once in a while. But Jas is understanding of his situation with being the mayor's son and whatnot, and thinks that he has some potential. As for how Mason feels? I truly don't think he'd care that much bc it's purely platonic and it's not like he rly talks to Douglas 😭but i could be wrong
15. What is your detective’s relationship with Rebecca like? If they saw the conversation that she has with M before the end of Book 2, what would they think?
Abysmal LMAO. Jas tries to keep it as professional as possible but just seeing her keeps all those wounds open, you know? They can't forgive her, at least not at this point in time. Being neglected like they were really just... fucked them up (which showed more in their youth) and they hold that against her. It's just hard not to feel like that sad, angry kid again when she's around but they're usually able to keep it in check. EXCEPT for that scene in book 3 where you're getting ready to go the auction. Jas cried talking abt that birthday which was incredibly embarrassing for them since the team was listening 🚶🚶🚶
As for the conversation with Mason: her trying to be any sort of involved with their personal life would piss them off pretty bad even if she wasn't rly prying from what I remember. It's too little, far too late.
#get jas and deva in therapy asap 😭#but yea i think their relationship with rebecca is maybe the most interesting to me besides felix (who is like their first real friend)#i just think her character is rly intriguing#but yeah THANK YOU i need to reread again sometime soon#my ocs#jasper#ask
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Characters: Ace Trappola, reader
Pairing(s): Ace x reader
Genre(s): Angst turned fluff
Uni: twisted wonderland
A/N
• Based this on one of Ace's voicelines and yes it's the first line he said in this short fic.
• I don't recall any info given to us abt Ace's mom so this is my hc abt Ace's relationship with his parents (not canon)
• This was supposed to be yume but i figured turning it into (x reader) would be nice (. ❛ ᴗ ❛.)
• If any of you would like to ask anything to me with regards to this short fic feel free to drop by my asks!
"Shut up! You're the last person I want to hear that from!", Ace shouted loud enough for anyone to hear, though it was just you and him in the room. You were trying to comfort him when news came from his brother that their father would have to leave for a couple of years.
It was his father who watched over him til the age of 16. It was his father who would make him laugh or smile whenever he was taught magic tricks and sleight of one's hands. When mother wasn't there— he stops himself from thinking any further. It wasn't that he was uncomfortable talking about his mother ... It's just that he couldn't really remember anything about her except her smiles on old photographs.
You often wondered how the redhead would react when angry and it seems you got the answer to that burning question.
Red eyes glaring at you as if he hated everything about you but there was a tinge of sadness hidden in those eyes.
You lift a hand to place it firmly on his shoulder but he inched himself away.
"Ace ... I'm sorry. I was trying to—", you began but he turns his head away from you like a stubborn child.
"You'll leave eventually ...", he whispered under his breath. You finally realize why he said what he said ...
He was afraid.
He was afraid of you leaving.
Why did you even tell him that it was all right and his father would be back in a blink of an eye.
Ace was thinking of you leaving and the situation with his father triggered the fear itself. He knew very well he'd never see you again once you left twisted wonderland.
He wouldn't hear your voice anymore. Wouldn't get the chance to laugh with you or discover new things or even develop the feelings he harbored for you ever since the series of events that occurred in and out of the university made you closer. Thicker than thieves. Though the only thief here was you. You stole his heart before he could even steal yours and he was perfectly fine with it.
But now the emotions he had kept in check started overflowing. Ace didn't know what to do. He was scared you would think he was overreacting or he was simply acting like a child.
The redhead slowly turned his head to look at the expression written on your face. He was expecting disappointment or any other negative expression known to man and fae yet here you are ... Looking at him with a soft smile on your lips.
His eyes widened, filled with confusion as to why you were smiling. You let your hands cup his cheeks as tears began to stream down your face.
"Silly. You silly boy.", The first words came out from your throat as you broke into sobs. You remember all the times he was there when no one was. All the times he made you laugh when you felt blue. Every single moment he held your hand in his or whenever he wiped away your tears.
Leaving twisted wonderland would not only affect him but you as well. He didn't know this. Yet.
"I won't leave you.", You continued as you wrapped your arms around his neck and pulled him closer. He let out a sigh of relief whilst he reciprocated the embrace by enveloping both arms around your waist.
"You'll ... You'll miss me if you leave.", He managed to say to which made you let out a laugh.
It was Ace's favorite sound in the whole world.
#twisted wonderland#ace trappola#twisted wonderland ace#heartslabyul#twst ace#twst ace x reader#ace trappola x reader#nyxcrappywriting
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Tagged by @mydoctor Thanks
Rules: list your ten favorite albums of all time and tag ten people to list theirs!
When it comes to music I would usually see a meme like this and start thinking of all the ways I could wax eloquently abt my favorite albums, but I am currently depleted of my ability to write atm bc i am mentally maxed out due to school, so here have the short version in no particular order.
The Black Parade by My Chemical Romance. Fell in love with mcr the first time I saw them singing 'I'm not okay' on mtv2, but it wasn't really until Black Parade that I loved every song on one of their albums. I don't skip a single one when I listen to this.
The Archandroid by Janelle Monae. Love Janelle's older stuff more than her newer music with this album at the top. It's just a mixture of exactly what I like. Weird, quirky, and profound all at the same time.
Figure 8 by Elliott Smith. This album has always been great writing inspiration for me. His music, but this album in particular, appears on many of my mental and also actual playlists for my blorbos.
Little Plastic Castle by Ani DiFranco. When I was 18, I saw this album ranked as one to buy by some music magazine and so when I saw it a few months later at a CD store in the mall (remember those? or maybe you don't, you're all probably younger than me) I bought it on a whim. It was a good buy from my many MANY impulsive music buys over the years, bc it started my love for Ani's music. It was also my first foray into music that was somewhat against my upbringing ie conservative evangelical christian. Since then, I've seen Ani 6 times in concert and it's always been a good show.
Feel Good by The Internet. This is just the type of R&B that I love. Like Janelle Monae, it's a little strange with 8-minute-long songs that take twists and turns until they eventually morph into a completely different song, but it's an album I can play from start to finish.
When the Pawn ... by Fiona Apple. One of the few albums I wish I could get on vinyl but it's just way too expensive to justify spending on something i could easily listen to on the CD I bought ages ago (or more likely listening to on spotify). This album has been there for me at my lowest. Sometimes hearing someone else sing about bad breakups and being angry and sad over someone who hurt you, helps you cope with all the times you've had a fight with your SO or had a friend who ghosted you.
The Suburbs by Arcade Fire. Really sad that Win Butler turned out to be a garbage human bc I love this album, but find it hard to listen to now, knowing the band's lead singer is awful. There were other ppl in the band tho (a lot actually, it's a big band) so I figure I'll still add this album to my list for them and to be honest to myself.
Apollo 18 by They Might Be Giants. Flood was the first album I bought by tmbg, but Apollo 18 is the album I can listen to all the way through with the song Narrow Your Eyes being my fav. Considering how weird their music can get, Narrow Your Eyes is a pretty straightforward break-up song on an album that also contains songs like The Statue Got Me High and Hall of Heads.
The Con by Tegan and Sara. Call It Off is one of my most played songs ever, but this whole album is good and was my introduction to them. This was one of the last CDs I actually bought before I started just downloading everything with iTunes and then eventually moving on over to Spotify and buying vinyl.
Blackout by Britney Spears. Good for working out to when I used to work out and I just really love the song Heaven on Earth.
Honorable Mentions: Exile in Guyville by Liz Phair, Bionic by Christina Aguilera, Absolution by Muse, OK Computer by Radiohead, Same Trailer Different Park by Kacey Musgraves, Hounds of Love by Kate Bush, Titanic Rising by Weyes Blood, and Actor by St. Vincent
I tag: @trashangel-dee @alphamano @bethanyactually @ladybender @selkiestorytelleracademia @theangrypomeranian @vanessarama @leaving-a-comment and @dj-osha
And anyone else who would like to do this. Even if we're not mutuals go ahead and tag me. I'm always interested in seeing others' musical tastes.
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[Magi reread] Night 50: Melee
...it kinda looked like he returned to the PokeBall
U don't fuck with Aladdin's friends
Something something point of view, also, agh, I love how mad Aladdin is
Uh oh
I was thinking abt other stuff, but I ended up having the Tison Village flashbacks, and now I'm just like : )
I'm trying to make sense of Kougyoku's body here, ngl...
Also, man, you really called them trash there. I forgot that, ngl
Ngl, really love it
Ughhhh, I love him
He really is good. It's tbh easy to kinda forget, that Alibaba is seriously good at swordplay
Yea
No, they kinda don't
Ghhh, she looks so menacing...
The actual first (near) Full-Body Djinn Equip in the manga
Absolutely horrifying
Uh oh uh oh
Quoting my friend Henry whom I've convinced to read Magi (hahahhaha): Deus Ex 7 Seas
(and suddenly I remembered and I'm just laughing here, they don't know, they don't know anything, and I'm just doing my best not to spoil things ahahahahahaha, this is amazing, it's like watching sb experience Puella Magi for the first time & get to the 3rd ep)
Moon. It's always the moon.
This (re)action will have consequences : )
HER LOOPS TURNED INTO A HEART XDDD
True, but also that's why I love it so much that he did. It does great job at humanizing Aladdin. A reminder that this mysterious & wise kid is still a kid. He gets angry, and he loses it a little when somebody he loves is hurt. And he's clearly not proud of himself, but by God it was such an authentic reaction from him. For all he knew before Sinbad spoke, Ugo could've been really dead. It's also so interesting to see, because usually he's the one to remind everybody to calm down. Like when Alibaba was panicking, Aladdin recalled the Kouga Clan & his experiences there, and he knew what was the correct course of action bc of that. But in this moment? In this moment he truly understood the feelings of the Kouga and of Alibaba, and probably many others. Baba's death made him realize what it meant to lose somebody, but in this moment he understood what loss can truly make you feel and do.
Oh man, she's so embarrassed
Also, it wasn't until now that I'd noticed Sinbad's hand is bandaged after stopping Ja'far's dart.
Lil tsundere
Bye bye ocean
: ' )
Agh
This is honestly so sad. Also gives you more context for Aladdin jumping into the fight against Kougyoku - Ugo is gone.
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i got unbaaaanned here's an ask: can i get a behind the scenes for (one of) your fav/s akekita scene/s you've written, any fic 👀 like, how did the idea come to you, or some fun fact abt the writing process... if you have anything to share ^^
Thank you for this!! I've been dying to have an excuse to talk about this stuff, you have no idea!
This wasn't exactly what you asked, but I thought I'd mention that people who have read my stuff in general point out my use of off-the-wall metaphors/similes. If anyone enjoys my little flair in doing this, I highly recommend reading the works of Peter Beagle! I shamelessly stole the technique from him and made it my own. I recommend starting off with The Last Unicorn (it's a classic for a reason), but any of his older works share a similar style (A Fine and Private Place, Folk of the Air). I'm not sure that I would be a writer today without him.
Anyway...
-Fun fact: Akechi is easier for me to write than Yusuke. I, too, am very angry inside and probably just need a hug lol It's cathartic. Although, two years of studying art in college actually helps with writing Yusuke, because I don't need to look up art terms.
-In Aesopica, the ending was highly inspired by my favorite Tokyo Ghoul fic, in which Kaneki turns the tables on Tsukiyama in the end (huge content warnings for that TG fic btw). I loved how satisfying the circular nature of it was and wanted to try something similar. I knew the ending I wanted to create right from the first chapter.
I cannot remember how I came up with the fruit bowl to both mark the passing of time, and the decay of their relationship. But go past me for coming up with that! My 2017 brain was the real mvp.
This is also my longest fic and you will not see me write anything this long again lol I just don't have it in me. Shout out to long fic writers, I'll have some of whatever you're snacking on.
I also remember this being something of a vent fic. I was sad and wanted to my faves to be sad together. While I do enjoy supportive akekit, where they both grow together, I also love when they just make each other worse.
-Sliced Halves, Light Syrup, please imagine me in the grocery store staring blankly at a can of peaches while concocting an entire fic. Writers are very normal people.
This is also my second most popular akekit fic. Fluff sells, I guess. I prefer my darker stuff tbh!
-After Aesopica, my personal favorite of mine is Psychosomatic. I'm shy about my love of organ-fondling since it's not a common thing to be into (there's not even an official ao3 tag for it lol), so I'm grateful to the person on the kink meme for prompting this. Knowing someone else was interested allowed me to put myself out there and write it. I re-read it not long ago just for fun, and it holds up. It's the intimacy of literally touching the insides of someone, you know?
-I'm scrolling through my akekit fics now and wow! I do not remember some of these? Who wrote these while I wasn't looking??
-Kilroy Was Here was going to be serious angst about Akechi forcibly kissing Yusuke so that he would no longer trust him, because he feels like he doesn't deserve trust, blah, blah... But the idea of Yusuke annoying the crap out of him before they got to that point was so funny to me that I had to run with it. If anyone was wondering about my sense of humor, this fic is it. (I am not funny)
-Born to be Posthumous 69 kudos harr harr... I enjoy this one even if it wasn't as popular as some of my others. I remember being depressed and angry and wanting to take it out on Akechi.
This is getting long now, but it was fun! Thank you again! Hopefully this wasn't too far from you asked! Most of my scenes just come to me as I'm writing with a basic idea in mind, so I just toss them in as I go. A humble chef tossing anything she finds in the fridge right into the soup.
Now that I'm back from my writing hiatus I definitely plan to bring out more akekit when I can!
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im talking about silly hex info i heard on witchtok again
i posted another version of this on tiktok too hopefully people are chill abt it
every now and i hear someone saying something about how you cant use salt in baneful magic and im just now processing that bc whaaaaatttttttt???????????????????????? salt????????????????? huh???????????????????????????????
spell ingredients have so much more potential when you think about why they could have the associations they do. metaphysical and physical properties are not isolated from each other. a big part of my practice is taking into consideration what items do for me physically, which is how I can find ways to use things like Tums and plastic in my workings. so what does salt do? its put in near everything to preserve it, it's absorbent, cleansing and its shape is useful to help roughly scrub surfaces, flavor enhancing, too much can damage a heart, some types are sharp, etc
AND REMEMBER NOT TO PUT SALT (except epsom salt thats fine) IN THE EARTH. ITS FUCKS UP THE SOIL SUPER BAD FOR A SUPER LONG TIME
and theres different types of salt too. maybe it depends of the brand but the celtic sea salt i have is pointy as hell. if you eat it raw (listen i have POTS okay) it will slice your tongue up and then dissolve as if it were never there. and yall dont think you can use that in a hex??????
im gonna drop some potential baneful uses for salt because its literally too easy (and remember to consider the people around your target. ex) abusers that feel bad will try to make it everyone elses problem so maybe find a way to protect potential victims)
every time someone is awful to you, put your anger, sadness, feelings of betrayal, into some salt. put all things you want to say to them in the salt. collect all the anger salt when you think it's gotten bad enough to the point you need to hex them, and use that in the hex. maybe you can pile it on top of a representation of them(the sharp celtic sea salt is good for this). or bake with the angry salt and gift it to them. BONUS: water can represent emotions, so get some water to represent their emotional state and dissolve that salt in there so your anger at them is now their anger at them and ideally it will either push them to change or torment them if they don't. and since its dissolved salt it will be a little harder for the target to identify a foreign influence
get a representation of them and scrub salt into it. celtic sea salt is good here too. this is good for very harshly scrubbing off their bullshit and bad habits or beliefs. yes this is cleansing your target. thats the point.
use it to bring out the qualities of like,, literally anything
salt sucks up water. water is very important. suck up their important water, (whatever you have the water represent, like energy, tranquility, resources, a certain emotion, etc ). let their well run dry.
use salt to set boundaries on your hex. contain where all the baneful energy is going so it doesn't spread to innocent people
remember how i said salt fucks up the earth. :))) if you wanna halt their growth for a long long time, represent them with a bowl of soil and salt it.
i adore salt and all her uses. she's in near everything for a reason.
im dissociating as i type this so if there's any typos dont worry about it
xx
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hey! im noodle, or Ellie, and i was tagged to answer some questions abt myself by the wonderful and very rad @theprocfilesystem, thank you so much!
relationship status: single and not at all looking. i don't know if i ever will be, tbh, mostly just because i don't see myself as the kind of person who would want to. but, since it's late, i'll go ahead and overshare that i do have a regular hookup going with my main gal lliJ (im left handed) that meets my needs for sexual expression quite adequately
favorite color: for a long time it was deep purple! it was my sadboy color for sure. now that im a girl, though, it just feels sad, so i decided my favorite color would be yellow! so, yeah, its yellow :>
favorite food: carne adovada, a New Mexican dish made with Hatch red chile and (usually)pork! red chiles are dried and ground, as opposed to the green variety, which is usually roasted fresh. sauces made with red chile tend to have a very dark, smoky flavor, and have a particularly exquisite spice to them. there are many varieties of a protein in a sauce eaten in/on some carbs, but a carne adovada burrito really stands alone, for me <3
the song stuck in my head: unfortunately, it's 'Hip to Fuck Bees'
the last thing i searched online: i had to start typing in the word 'etiquette' because i couldn't remember how to spell it, but the last actual search i made was 'wired switch controller'(im just gonna get the gamecube style one probs)
the time right now: 11 pm exactly
dream trip: honestly it's less about the location and more about me being somewhere with someone who knows the area and culture well. partially it's because i won't enjoy anything if i don't feel safe, and/or if i feel alone, and partially because i hate being a tourist. i just wanna be there.
something i want: ive wanted to get a PC for awhile, it's been years since i had one. it doesn't have to be super fancy, just something that can handle a half-decent DAW and, like, be able to play my metroidvanias (lone fungus is out now btw and it looks amazing!) cherry on top would be someone to help me get started using linux, bc windows and apple can both go fuck each other.
thanks again for tagging me UwU i appreciate u! i would like to nominate @star-crossed-animals , @spoopyscaryalien , @dominoscarsidedelivery and @zoeadrien but u dont have to if u dont want to! also if u wanna do these kinds of games but no one ever tags u, u always have my permission to say i tagged u :>
in addition i'm adding another question: whats a piece of media(book, movie, show, album/song, etc.) that you feel represents you or an aspect of you that you haven't seen a lot of representation for? i know it's kind of wordy, sorry. but for example, mine is bojack horseman. when i was deep in my dark times, there were so many things about myself i hated. i started watching the show around season two, and i saw some of those parts of me in bojack in a way i'd never really seen before in media. in diane i saw some too, as well as some of the things i'd forgotten i loved about myself, but it was mostly bojack. he is not a good character, or role model, and the fact that i related so much to him was disturbing, sure, but also strangely comforting at the time. as the show continued to air, i grew as a person. i never finished the last season. by the time it came out, my values had diverged so much from his that it was kind of hard to watch. and for all my mistakes, i'm so proud of who i am today compared to that lost, lonely, angry figure slowly torturing himself to death.
like i said, its late so im oversharing lmao anyways ty again and peas and love on planat earf ✌️
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skip this if you want
okay so fuck so hi
bit of a ventsies oh no :(((((((((((
so fuck
so basically
*to the tune of that one part in I'm a believer*:
AND THEN I KILLED MYSELF
and
lmao
okay fuck this is so unserious lmao
but like genuinely
I just need to fucking type for a bit and send it out to the world
because I'm a special frog
I eated today
I wish I didn't eated
because I'm a
FAT FUCK(tm)
and I feel all icky and I'm scared of gaining weight
BUT WHATEVER LMAO
I feel like when I'm just typing like this I can like actually like
B myself
I should do this more lmao
so
fuck
I'm just gonna keep talking till I run out of ideas - leave at any time
so fuck
uh
I feel like I overreact a lot lmao
like
I'm sensitive - that's my main chr trait
but like
yk?
NEways it just rlly pissed me off that
SOMEONE
couldn't keep quiet abt a game I'm playing and spoiled
what sounded like a rlly interesting plot twist
which sucks
bcz I don't rlly get to feel much excitement often
and it's like
my 3 emotions are Happy Sad and Angry
and I was really looking forward to playing this game
because it looked cool
and now it's ruined it for me
and I know I should get over it but like,,,,,,
LMAO NO
getting over it is for LOOOOOOOOSSSSSERRRRRSSSSSSSS
but wh8ever
my computer sounds like a jet engine
it pisses me off
lmao
so
fuck
lmao
I say so fuck a lot lmao
so fuck
I quit therapy
bcz fuck CAMHS LMAO
therapist was super fucking invasive
even when I made it loud and clear I didn't wanna talk abt
certain subjects(tm)
so fuck
shit did I mention I hate my body?
I should lose weight lmao
like a lot of weight lmao
like enough weight to kill me lmao
okay maybe not that much lmao
but I should totally start purging
or just eating less lmao
I have some marbles in a bag lmao
lmao
so
fuck
how long is this fuckin post lmaoooo
lmao
so fuck
I'm glad y'all don't know my
SUPER SECRET SIDE BLOG(TM)
b8sically that's where I put
The Shit(TM)
I'm kinda in my yandere era over there, it's cringe
but though I am cringe, I am free
or not, for we are all shackled by capitalism
but wh8ever
I kinda just post about BOO HOO LOVE ME
it's pure emotion compressed into word form
(cringe)
mayyyyyyybe I'll put it at the end of one of these if I do another
for only the most dedicated of readers
LMAO
I stole a bunch of shit from that therapy place b4
yk
I left 4 4evrsies
some toys
and this shitty game called Scridoodle or wh8evr
lmao
I have crippling insomnia and a fear of school
and I've lost my motivation
and I hate life
LMAO
so shit
I'm not gonna kill myself lmao
I'm too much of a coward for that
plus I'd miss sakkakukukukukukukukukuku(kuku)
I'm tired tho
I need to work on headspace
need to add an aquarium
lmao
okie dokies, that's all
buh bye, superstars
(ugh, I remember when I used to end my posts with that,,,,)
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4x11 until death us do part
flirty
BODY
toxic waste XD at least he has a water bottle, these idiots never have water bottles.
"forgot it" this is the saddest thing ever.
esposito just watching in disgust I love it lmao they are so in love & it's nauseating like he said but it's also so cute.
but the no solid food thing sounds dumb af.
JE: Well, I am looking forward to meeting some of Jenny's sorority sisters. I'm about to show them some of New York's finest. *does a dumb little dance*
KR: Good, then I guess you won't care that Lanie's bringing a plus one.
JE, looking sad af: Who?
KR: Uh, I don't know. She just RSVPed “plus one”.
JE: How can--? How can she already have a boyfriend? We just broke up.
KB: Don't worry, Espo, I'm going alone, so if the sorority girls don't work out, I'll dance with you.
Alexis wasn't invited as castle's family.
Castle is so right, if I have to die I'm going down happy. Unless I want to make less burden on the mortician bc I'm suicidal bc I'm a burden on ppl, then I'd probs go nakey.
ALEXIS?
birthday suit hit the fruit.
JE: *concerned about some medical guy named antonio*
KR: *yelling loud af out the window*
Ooh sexy classical music
ew castle: Coldest hearted creature on earth. She lures an unsuspecting male, takes him into her web, and then the moment they culminate, as soon as he feels the ecstasy of achieving his biological destiny, [shup] she opens up her jaws and eats him alive.
Ryan, softly saying to beckett: I'm glad I'm in a healthy relationship.
Ooh double identity! fun!
Lanie's phone records? is that illegal?
*chokes on the green toxic waste*
He's rly pretty btw. Nice tie, nice red vest, nice shirt+jacket+lapel pin. So many buttons on the cuff.
& then esposito at least he is wearing smth with a collar.
"I'll get you his name.." *eyes emoji*
He fell pretty hard too lmao.
isn't that dead in ASL?
Remember who killed markiplier & he died a billion different ways? Maybe that was a different episode...
Rick: Who's the date?
Lanie:
Rick: sry
"you dog" he says to the dead guy
KR: Ms. Franklin, i—it seems that you weren't the only woman that-- that Mr. Bailey was, uh… with [good word] in the hours prior to his death.
HF: Um, what you mean “with”?
KR: Was there another woman in the hotel room with you?
HF: I didn't think could get any more humiliating.
KR: Was that a yes?
HF: No, Detective.
KR: Thank you. Oh, and you should know that our M.E. has been able to determine that Mr. Bailey was, uh, wearing a condom both times, so that's… [I mean yeah at least you don't have an std]
HF: That makes it all better.
[Holly gives Ryan an angry look and he walks away. Holly calls after him.]
HF: Now I wished I pushed him!
Poor ryan, he is Not Eating All Fricking Week & esposito comes in with a donut (lmao cop stereotypes) this is so sad
remember that incorrect quotes? "did u eat my powdered donut?" 'no' "then what's that white powder on you?" 'cocaine?'
KR: blgahgh!
RC: Speaking of murder, what's the credit card for?
How is that a speaking of which?
KB: Yeah, well, you haven't heard what I would do.
RC: Yeah, I don't think I ever want to know.
LITTLE MISS HOMICIDE DETECTIVE
Beckett's eyes just Widen
My brother: hahaha look at Ryan. You can see his eyes go all the way around the room. *whisper yells* ryan, Ryan Riyaaan!!!
Look at ryan's pretty tie there. hehe.
How did they GET all these women? I thought he was just sleeping with them not actually dating them all... & he wasn't lying to them abt his name but he still could have been lying about everything else.
RC: That's a big month. Taking a leave from work and your girlfriends.
KR: And his apartment. *shakes evidence bags & his toxic water he's so cute omfh*
& esposito is wearing basically the shirt I wore the other day except I actually embroidered mine to look cool.
JE: That's a lot of cake.
Me: what?
KR: Why do you have to call it cake? I-it's money. It's a lot of money. It's about 60 grand.
That's a really good fake id...
Wow that really messed up the meeting lol
This man has a really really fancy tie but I don't like it.
lmao a wrench & an opened up paperclip? You want two paperclips or two wrenches hun.
I thought she was just jewish lol I didn't realize it was an airline insignia
woah former isralei military now that's experience
KR: Ahh. Jenny just texted me Lanie's plus one. Name is Toby Lang.
JE: What? All right. Let's check this punk out.
[Esposito types the name into his computer. Toby Lang MD pops up.]
JE: Doctor Toby Lang? The guy's the chief administrator at St. Samuel's Hospital. Big job.
KR: Lanie did her residency there, didn't she?
JE: Yeah.
KR, happygolucky: Good looking guy.
JE: *eyeroll*
KR: *looks down*
JE: Played college hoops at Kentucky? Groundbreaking cancer research, are you kidding me? Put me down for plus one.
KR: Jenny already did the tables.
JE: >:(
KR, immediately backtracking: What about her sorority sisters? *does that weird little dance brushing off his jacket*
JE: Dude, I'm not showing up solo when she's bringing Captain America over here. *jabs the computer screen*
KR, willing to upset his wife's placecards for his best friend: Okay. I'll talk to Jenny. But her mom is gonna need a name for that place card.
She said whom captions said who.
Perfect timing lol
They would not have done it where there were cameras right in front of it
These randos bested an ex-military flight attendant huh
Ryan is so smart:
KR: Hey, tech just got the plate number off the kidnappers car.
KB: I thought that the plates weren't visible on the ATM footage.
KR: Ah, they weren't. But I found a traffic cam up the block where they were.
I was also wondering where esposito was
KR: In the break room trying to score his plus one.
KB, through the wall: Espo! Let's go!
JE: *looks up at Beckett and his hand slips on the espresso machine, spraying his potential plus one with steamed milk. The cop squeals in surprise and Esposito hands her a napkin on his way out.* Sorry. I gotta-- I gotta go.
RC: Hey, relax, man. It happens to a lot of guys. You get a little exited, lose control of your steamer.
JE:
(poor muzzle control. At least they let him mkick in the door)
WHOA MOSTLY NAKEY OK THEN
Lol I remember getting so many black eyes & nosebleeds from my san dien guan.
classical music <3
exstalktion lmao
castle rattling off crews before they reveal they are "pickup artists"
12%...
oh wait this was back when milfs were not loved by tumblr
Pablo Barnes: Then I see that she's got a ring on her finger. She's a married chick. We stay away from married chicks.
KB: 'Cause you're so ethical.
(other room) Max Landon: pf! No. They're just trouble. But he doesn't care. He's all in on her.
Authorizing huh? I like how espt is taking notes for the case but is totally taking them for himself.
m-swing?
heisman?
Butterjob?
*ryan looks over at espt taking these notes, I think he's asking "what are you doing" with his hand*
Yank & chain reversal
Bailey ultimatum?
ew yucky
Holy crap it is a ledger & the prop team actually filled it!
zebra trap?
*boys get a little too close in the face*
(this scene from the transcript)
[23:54, INT. PRECINCT, BULLPEN - NIGHT]
[Castle flips through Mike's "ledger".]
RC: It's literally hundreds of women that Bailey slept with.
KB: Or so he claims.
JE: Seems legit to me. Most of these shots are pretty racy.
[Esposito leans in close to see the ledger over Castle's shoulder.]
RC: All with nicknames and dates. "June 9, 2010 Carnal Carrie. June 12, 2010 Mesmerizing Marjan."
JE: Mmm.
[Castle turns his head & ends up within kissing distance of esposito, then backs away from Esposito's face.]
RC: Whoa.
JE: Sorry.
KR: Really? This impresses you? These women are pathetic for falling for this guy. And Bailey? Bailey was just a--a con man and a liar.
KB: Thank you. At least there is one real man amongst us.
inconsistency with the book being open & closed but I don't care. it's fine.
RC: Beckett, when exactly did Ryan and Jenny start dating?
[weird how ryan is is last name]
KB: Mm, I think it was around 2009. She got him that ugly tie for their two week anniversary. [I remember that episode] So, I think Easter April.
RC: Meaning, by May 2009, they'd been dating a month.
KB, disinterested: Yeah. Why?
RC: ...
RC, uncomfortable: Bailey's May 20, 2009 entry.
[Castle flips the book around to show Beckett.]
KB: Oh, my gosh. That's Jenny.
[that's a big picture compared to the others]
RC: (whisper) Not just Jenny. "Gyrating Jenny".
esposito making eyes at work. so dumb sometimes. then again I'm a lesbian I was dating my first partner for a month before we realized it
JE: I think I like this place, partner. [calls him partner <3]
KR: Dude, you're a cop. This is a Midtown bar. Women here, they're looking for lawyers and bankers.
JE: I bank. [yeah bud, you use a bank]
*Ryan chuckles*
KR: Well, you are on your own. I'm getting married on Sunday. [he's so smiley]
JE: Exactly. So, this is your last chance to be my wingman, [yk that's cute] help me get a plus one. [ah yes]
KR: *drops his notebook in his lap*
JE: I think I'm gonna try an M-swig. [lmao from the pickup artists]
KR: Dude, you can't be serious.
JE: What, are you thinking butter job? [no esposito he was not saying you can't be serious about the m swing he was saying you can't be serious about this silly thing right before his wedding]
*Ryan bites his lips trying not to say anything*
ew writes really big like that? You probably go through notebooks hella fast then.
Castle doing dishes
lmao forbes top 400 no f'ing wonder
But these people aren't in his book so...
I feel like you /should/ tell ryan but big bro brought up what happened in m*a*s*h
If it's more than 2 you can't say both anymore. it's the 21st century people sleep with other people before marriage.
(reminds me of that incorrect quote I read for aftg: Nicky "what's your body count?" neil 'idk like 30' nicky "neil you slut" neil 'wait we were talking about sex? I'm a virgin.' Nicky "WAIT WHAT DID YOU MEAN BY 30?")
especially that early on, like... I mean they had a fortnightversary tie gift so they must have really liked each other but I thought "what if they were just dating a bunch of different people but kept coming back on a date with this one person so we decided to make it official" but that doesn't fit with the two week gift.
I mean I would suggest talking to jenny herself
goes by jd, so cute
RC: So, who was the wingman, the grandpa or the kid?
She's not just skipping out on her dad she's skipping out on ryan. except that she wasn't invited in the first place she's a plus one so who cares.
oh my goodness 2:30 in the morning? that's late af when you have work the next day!
At least esposito looks good in his bisexual layers, leather jacket, hoodieWAIT trans headcanon except for yk military but shush.
See? & that's how you carry your coat. Ryan is soooo pretty. He doesn't have an engagement ring tho rn which I think is cool ig bc he can wingman easier...
I am sure that I have seen this clip around so I don't feel the need to record it except that I do. Great fight scene but poor ryan he is starving.
you always email yourself, have you never had a job or been in high school?
corporate sexpionage
I think that the writer couldn't come up with a joke so had castle say "there's a penetrating enemy lines joke here" either that or they were all too dirty for tv.
pretty pretty sweater.
KR: The only reason you guys didn't run into her at Global Twelve Consolidated is that we're still holding her.
Lmao they were holding her & that's why she wasn't there that's literally what he said but I just found it funny
I can't wait for ryan to faint while on the case.
Is this lunch or supper chinese food?
lil bro just said gold frankincense & myrhhder should be a castle episode so now I'm goingto write a fanfic based on it.
I was just going to quote the first bit but then there was more & I could not find a good place to stop.
KB: There's too big a pool of possible marks that Bailey could have slept with.
JE: Yeah, uh…speaking of that. You know…Ryan's my boy, [<3]so I gotta tell him about Jenny and Bailey.
[Beckett gives Castle a look.]
RC: You only told me I couldn't tell Ryan.
KB: (sigh) Look, Espo, I appreciate your point of view, but the guy hasn't eaten in a week and a half, and after that doughnut incident, I don't-- [yeah she's right now is not the time to handle it, but then again I said they should tell jenny & she has also not eaten for a week & a half.]
*Ryan enters and stares at the Chinese food sitting on the table. He gingerly picks up a file from the center of the boxes*
KR: I'll just take these back to my desk. [bc he doesn't want to be around food, poor guy, brings up my DE days]
JE: Sit down, bro.
KR: What? *looks around* What? *sits down*
KR: Why do you guys look so serious?
JE: You should…eat something.
KB: Yeah. Look hungry. You've got the posture of a feral cat.
KR: Guys, I made a sacred vow to the woman I love…
RC: *moves a takeout box towards Ryan*
KR: Is that Mushu pork?
[Esposito continues chowing down the food.]
JE: (muffled) Yes. It is delicious. Come on, bro, just eat.
[Ryan grabs the food from Castle and digs in, groaning in pleasure.]
KR: (muffled) you're not kidding about this Mushu pork. Come on!
JE: Right?
KR: (muffled) Would you pass the spring rolls, please?
JE: Yeah. So… *passes the box*
JE: You know how we all love Jenny, right?
KR: Yeah, what about her?
JE: Well, it's just that…that ledger of Bailey's…
KR, interrupting: Hey, is she in that? I've been meaning to ask, but I have been having these--these memory lapses. [which is so not ok, esp for a detective] Mm, pass the fried rice?
RC: Yeah. *hands Ryan the box*
RC: So, you've known all along?
KR: No. I was telling Jenny about Javi's antics last night. [first names bc this was javi not esposito]
*Beckett gives Esposito a look.*
KR: And we got to talking about the case, and she told me that she met Bailey at a bar a month or so after we started out.
JE: She told you about that????
KR: (chuckles) Yeah. She had no idea that he was some kind of professional pickup artist. Ha!
RC: And you're not upset at all?
KR: I'm-- um… *looks around* it's not like we were exclusive. [points for the polyam o'ryspolly hcs.] Mm, is that Mongolian beef?
*Beckett smiles at Esposito and Castle's reactions. An officer enters. She hands Ryan a note.*
Di: Here you go.
KR: Thanks, Di.
*Ryan reads the note.*
KR: Oh! Get this. [he's been so happy since putting food in his mouth.] So, I've been trying to figure out where else Bailey might've been staying for the past month, and when we got onto his corporate spying for Global Twelve Consolidated, I looked into their corporate housing.
KB: That's-- a great idea.
RC: Yeah. Why didn't I think of that?
[yeah, esp since he's the one starving himself.]
KR: Turns out Mike Bailey has been checked into the Oaks on Park Avenue for the last month under his alias, Jake Hendricks.
KB: Well, what are you sitting around for?
*Ryan gets up quick & excited but hesitates as he reaches back for some food.*
KR: Uh, do you mind if I take a spare rib?
*Castle hands Ryan a takeout box.*
lil bro: maybe it's dr parish bc she deals with people who perish
First names but as someone with a mispronounced name I hate when they call him javieérre with three syllables & a big r instead of javyer' with two (& a half) syllables & a tapped r.
"yeah I bet" lmao
should have been the guy then it should have been the lawyer & then it was some rando.
Ryan eating a donut again <3 he's alive! & he is using a tissue to protect his hands<3
KR: haha, I'm just glad I'm out of the game.
RC: The games are only beginning for you, my friend.
KB: Hey, so what's up with your plus one?
JR: Oh, it's on. That's all I'm saying.
marriage love marriage love wedding I can't believe it I'm so happy for him
[Esposito stands with a gorgeous woman taller than he is (at least in heels). Lanie enters with her doctor date.]
JE: Lanie, hey.
LP: Hello, Javier. This is Toby.
TL: Pleased to meet you.
JE: Yeah, you too. This is Jody.
LP: Nice to meet you.
Jody: Pleasure. Excuse me, I need to find the ladies' room.
*Lanie watches Jody saunter off.*
TL: Um, you two talk. I'll get us seats.
LP: Thank you, Toby.
JE: Toby, huh?
LP: What do you mean, "Toby, huh"?
JE: I don't know, you tell me.
LP: You and I broke up two months ago. So, unless you thought I'd joined a convent, you need to take a step back.
[Yeah bud two months is not "we just broke up" but it is a short amount of time in some ways]
JE: So, you two serious now?
LP: Yeah, we're serious. About dancing. [I loooove dancing, that's how ogdoch got together, I know plenty of people who aren't lovers but are dance partners, I love going to Métis fiddle dances, I can't wait to learn more swing, I've had enough salsa but I could always go for more, I have hade more than enough ballroom dancing but I wouldn't mind more as long as it's fun...]
LP: That's why his boyfriend let me borrow him. Besides, I figured I'd need somebody to keep my company while you flirted with all of Jenny's sorority sisters.
JE: Toby's boyfriend? *points back to the doctor*
LP: And I seem to recall you here with the center for the New York Liberty.
JE: She's my cousin. I heard you were coming with a date, so I thought I had to have somebody… you look great, you know.
LP: Yeah, I know.
JE: Can I show you to your seat?
LP: That would be nice.
*Lanie takes Esposito's arm and they enter the church.*
they are so cute. I recently in my normal watch heard lanie mention the occasional booty call which I think is hilarious, & then a more recent ep was the valentine's ep & I think it was soooo cute.
they are not together? I can't believe it, caskett are too good together. Tho tb beckett doesn't look super great rn.
He looks so happy! & she snaps a photo! Ohhhhhh uwu uwu they hug & kiss but then castle & esposito are so boring barely even shaking his hand
He's getting married today! He is getting married to the love of his life (besides his other partner) & he is so happy & in love!
becks preventing him from turning around
esposito is one of the groomsmen I'm assuming on his right our left is nolan jenny's half brother but who the heck is the guy on the other side?
#castle 4x11#castle 4x11 spoilers#castle s4 spoilers#castle 4x11 quote#ryan's marriage episode#the pickup artist episode#HE GOT MARRIED#I also can't stop thinking of him saying itis n't like we were exclusive
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😭/tragiccomedia with maybe a bit of 😣, 💕⚔️ with Levi x reader
so I was thinking abt hw they're always expecting them to die on a mission bc of a titan and getting eaten bc they weren't fast enough or sth like tht and even tho it'll hurt, they're ready for tht right? but wht if levi finds y/n (tw:sui*ide) in their bathtub bleeding out after she tried to kill herself or maybe whn they're out on a mission she gets injured bc she purposefully doesn't move away even tho she coulda easily dodged and Levi notices and talks to her abt it later. Maybe he gets rly angry at first but then eventually gets sad/worried after he realises she's suicidal? Tht parts rly upto u, but I just want a happy ending. Btw, whether she's a cadet and in his squad or a squad leader herself, I'd just rly like her to also be strong and capable of taking care of herself and I feel like tht'll hit him harder whn he realizes it, than if she were weaker.
You mentioned it was okay to specify but it's ur story so it's upto u as long as it sticks to just the concept. Totally understand if u don't wanna write this but tnx anyways (and sorry if its long) 😄
it's cool hun! i hope you like it and thanks for participating!
also thanks to @levisgirll for your help!
tragicomedia + couple + canonverse feat Levi Ackerman
suicide, non-graphic implied self-harm, blood, suicide thoughts, anxiety delicate themes. please be careful about the content under this line, and if you reblog it, please tag the suicide and self-harm warnings!. for precaution. thanks
Screams.
That’s the only thing you can hear.
“Y/N!” someone yells. The titan’s smile is horrendous.
Is this the last thing you’re going to see?
Is not as your legs can’t move. They do move. You brain isn’t executing the orders. You don’t want to move.
You’re so tired. Tired of going out to expeditions, tired of hearing people’s goodbyes before every single mission. They know maybe they won’t return. Maybe you won’t return. Life in the Corps is just a bittersweet game of russian roulette. You’re not afraid, though. You keep your eyes fixed on the titan’s bloodthirsty ones.
Maybe you’ll be remembered as a martyr. The squad leader that sacrificed for the humanity. Maybe you won’t be remembered as a coward.
You’re not a coward. Stand in front of a titan, making visual contact, is not that easy. But, at the same time, stay still without even trying to kill it, knowing it won’t hesitate to kill you...
The titan leans on towards you. Its big mouth open, ready to eat you. You feel a hand in your waist and, as fast as possible, someone takes you far from the titan. You could recognize his body and his scent everywhere. Your hands hug his neck while you move fast between the trees. He stops near the entry of the forest.
“Are you okay?” he asks, his eyes scanning you. You nod, your hand searching his. Levi caresses it quietly. He looks to the distance, seeing all the red and black lights. He looks at you, serious. He’s angry. “We’ll talk about it when I arrive home. Go and wait for me.” He knows you need to be as far as possible from the battlefield, at least from now. You nod again and, pressing his lips on your forehead, he goes back to the mission as fast as he left it. You sigh, getting on top of your horse, heading back home. You want to take a bath while waiting for Levi, so you open the hot water in your bathtub and wait for it to fill. You have been living with Levi for a couple years now, since you two decided to formalize your relationship. You’re really thankful for him, even knowing he doesn’t deserve you. He deserves someone strong and independent, not a burden. He deserves a happiness you can’t give him.
The invasive thoughts start to be overwhelming. You feel how your lungs beg for air as you hyperventilate, the sound of the water falling in the bathtub making your head hurt. You close the water and get naked, leaving the ODMS and the blades near your clothes, on the floor. You enter with a sigh. Will Levi be back soon? You don’t want to bother him, but you’ll pay for his cuddles. He has been so nice to you all this years... Maybe is he going out with you because he feels like you need someone? Maybe he’s just being you pillar? The thoughts start once again, as noisy as before. You sigh, your head between your hands.
You don’t deserve it. You don’t deserve him. You don’t deserve happiness. You don’t deserve anything.
You lean over the bath to take your blades. They’re broke, a little part of it about to get parted of the principal body of the sword. You take it. It’s extremely sharp. Are you able to feel? Do you feel pain? Do you feel warm?
Levi entered home, the scent of your soap in the air. He starts to take his shirt off while he goes upstairs, his mind lost in how your body will hug his under the hot water, after a difficult day.
He didn’t know he’ll find your empty gaze waiting for him, red water dripping from the bath, a bloody blade in the floor. Levi runs towards you, kneeling in front of you.
“You are home.” You say. He turns your arm. Fortunately, you didn’t cut really deep, and it is just a couple superficial wounds, but enough to catch an infection because of the used blades, or maybe get dizzy for the loss of blood. He takes your naked body out of the bathtub, wrapping it softly with a towel, being careful with your arm. He leaves you in the bed, and then he runs towards the medical set he has home. He runs back to you. You’re sitting on the bed, your feet hanging from it. Levi looks at you, taking some bands out of the box.
“Why.” He says. He cleans your wounds quietly with some water.
“Why what?” you ask him. You know what is he asking. Why you didn’t move. Why you took the sharp blade.
Why, why, why, why. That’s the only thought in his mind. Isn’t he good for you? Is he making you feel bad? Is he not taking good care of you? Is he making you feel as if he didn’t love you?
“Why did you stay in front of it?” he asks, his voice just a whisper. “Why did you hurt yourself, love.”
His fingers caress quietly the cuts on your arm. Why did you do it? Maybe you just wanted to make sure you can feel something. Your eyes start to drop tears. Levi looks at you, concerned.
“I... I...” the words are stuck on your throat. “Why are you still with me? I only give you suffering.”
He kneels in front of you, your low gaze finding his. His hand is still around your wrist.
“Because I love you, and I care for you.” he says. He gives you a little sweet smile. “And I don’t know what could I do if you hurt yourself or give up, y/n.” he trembles just with the thought of being some minutes late. You could be so much worse. He tries to keep the tears away. “Please, keep fighting.”
“It’s difficult when you see how your soldiers die in front of your eyes.” you say. Reality hits Levi. You’re a squad leader. You have seen subordinates die under your commands. He knows that feeling.
“I know it is a nightmare, love.” he says. He takes your hand to his cheek. “But please. I need you.” Your heart shakes when you hear that coming from him. He takes your arm and kisses your wounds, so softly and sweet that they could heal just with the touch of his lips. One by one, with patience and tenderness, he kisses every part of the cuts you have.
“Don’t hurt yourself, please.” he asks, no, he begs in a whisper. “Please.”
His lips keep tracing the irregular cuts, one by one. Tears run fast down your cheeks, your wet hair also dropping some drops on the floor.
“I’m so sorry, Levi.” you cry. You don’t want to give up, you want the life you two promised under the roof of your first shared house.
“We will live outside the walls when this end. We will have a cat, and also form a family. We will grow old side by side.”
You want that. You want to reach that life, you want to exterminate all the titans to pay revenge for your fallen comrades.
“I know it isn’t easy, love.” he says. His hands are now putting a band around your arm. “I know it is difficult. But you’re strong.” he smiles quietly. You smile at him, a sad smile. He takes a ring out of his jacket. He turns it a couple times between his fingers before taking yours, sliding the silver ring on your ring finger. “I... I bought this.” he says. “Do you know the legend of vena amoris?” he asks. You shake your head. He puts all your hair in a bun, and puts you one of his shirts, taking the wet towel away. He sits next to you, taking your body next to his. His hand caressing the ring on your finger. “Supposedly, vena amoris is a vein we have on our left ring finger.” where he put the ring. “Traditional texts say that we have a vein that goes from our left ring finger...” his index traces a way from your finger to inside your arm. “... passing from your arm...” his finger moves on, reaching your shoulder and going down to the place your heart is located. “... and ends in your heart. It was a believing that this finger had direct connection with the heart. With medicine and all the advances, they discovered it isn’t true, but it has that symbolic presence.” you’re a little bit confused. “I want you to wear this ring in this finger, love. I want you to look at this ring and remember me, how I’ll be always caring and fighting for you and your heart.” you start to cry again, he’s such a pure soul.
"I'm so sorry, Levi." you cry. He pats your head soflty, a little smile on his face after he realized you changed a little bit your way of thinking. "I'm sorry you... you always have to be behind me, having my back. You always loved me in such a pure way. You always care for me, and I was always so selfish, I never thought what could you think if i did that to myself. I'm sorry, Levi. I'm really sorry, I..." He hugs you, taking you closer to him, letting you cry on his chest. Now, you feel shame. You feel disgust. You want to vomit.
“I’m disgusting.” you say. Levi looks at you.
“You’re not. You’re strong and you have been enduring so much. It is normal, people reach a limit. You should be proud of making it until now.” He kisses your head, right on your hair. “I’m proud of you. And I’m sure you’ll keep standing strong as the super human you are. But please, don’t hurt yourself.”
You take your face out of his chest. He looks at you.
“I want to see you as strong and beautiful as always, love. Don’t let this bring you down, hm?” you nod quietly.
You take your finger near your mouth, lips pressing quietly against the silver surface of the ring. Levi smiles.
“I’ll be always by your side, remember it.”
#tw: anxiety#tw: suidice#tw: death#tw: blood#tw: self harm#levi x reader#cookiefics 'movie event!#levi x y/n#levi x you#tw: dark content#levi ackerman#captain levi#aot fluff#snk fluff
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Any headcanons for the Dazzlings? Some people speculate that they have lived in the human world for centuries? Do you think this is true?
hm i don't have a specific timeline for how long they've stayed in the human world for, but i do think they've spent at least a decade there
i think equestrian time works faster than human world time, so maybe 1000 years could correlate to a certain amount of time in the human realm, who knows! semantics are blurry and i don't rlly think the creators cared that much
as for headcanons, i have a chunk here! originally i said a few and then.......... yeah read for urself :D
adagio and sonata are lesbians, aria is ace biromantic (these hcs might have changed since the last time i was asked abt what i hc their sexualities as!)
adagio can actually sing very well. she sung even when she didn't need to use her powers and she genuinely enjoyed doing it. she just hadn't gotten enough practice when her ambition for power overtook everything else, as she didn't really need the practice if she could just use her gemstone.
therefore, she teaches aria and sonata how to sing properly without the need for autotune and a repeated vocal track
they train into an idol group under the same company that flash gains a contract for; so they're basically his seniors!
adagio's really good at dancing
aria's good at lyrics! though, sonata scolds her for writing too many abt sad/angry shit and tries to get her to write abt more happy stuff
she wrote a happy song for sonata one time and sonata started crying (out of happiness)
adagio's the only one who paid any attention to flash during their time at chs and that was because of him yelling at pri twilight. i like to think she's able to tell how people are feeling when she's feeding off their negative energy
because of this, she recognises him whenever he's out. seeing him in admittedly slightly dangerous situations, she grows kinda fond of him and becomes basically an older sister to him, dragging him away from problems that are out of his control due to how intimidated people are of her
flash and her like annoying each other <3 she gives him life lessons and when he tells her that a boy made him uncomfortable she goes and punches said boy <33 flash also punches lesbiphobes and runs them over <333
whenever he's in a mood and calls her up all pouty, adagio "reluctantly" takes him out on a drive instead of him driving
they grow closer when they're under the same company and they do dance covers together!!!! they develop a rlly cute friendship
sonaria always give flash noogies even though he's taller than both of them
adagio find sci twi adorable despite disliking her pony counterpart and so she decides to also baby her. sci twi only meets her after chs, so when they're all properly adults and even though she's heard shit abt them: "adagio's not that bad :((", "that's bc she spoils you"
adagio is the type to hold grudges only on ppl who have actively wronged her. if they don't have much involvement in the wrongdoing she doesn't really have anything against them
aria holds grudges even if you've never got yourself involved in whatever was done. if you were there and she remembered you (or even worse, you reminded her of you) she probably won't like you
sonata doesn't hold grudges but she's got trust issues <3
sonata does flash's make up during some livestreams
and that's all i can think of right now!! sorry the majority of these are adagio i just love her a lot
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