#i cant express what i MEAN

[itadore-you]

i was NOT letting twitter get me today with jjk 213 leaks I had to scroll like a mad man to find some normal fanart lmao

but I'm literally crying tears (humour = coping) SUKUNA STRAIGHT UP VORES HANA? WHAT?

#jjk spoilers #jjk leaks #jjk chapter 213 leaks #SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON?? #nah i cant even keep laughing when I keep thinking about what the FUCK he did to yuuji #gege how are you fixing this please #im not letting them let jjk get tragic-er than this #i literally am gonna go get amnesia at this point I don't want to remember this #times like these makes me wonder yeh but whats the point #NO LISTEN IM STILL TALKING jjk is great yeh but #BUT #at least lets have a bittersweet ending because I understand that in the world jjk is set in it is almost impossible to find any happiness #but like #i cant express what i MEAN #LIKE WHATS THE POINT #WHY AM I OBSESSED WITH MISERY?? #i cant pinpoint my feelings about jjk #maybe im too emotionally immature to keep reading idk idk #i might delete this after thinking about the chapter a bit more this was an instant reaction

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

biting is a love language biting is a love language Biting Is A Love Language-

#gee... how come barnaby gets to bite His best friend but i cant bite MY besties... so unfair... #obsessed with the mental image of wally latching on like a bulldog #and just. Not Letting Go. #he is Reciprocating. he is Expressing His Affection Barnaby Style. what do you mean hes Holding On Too Tight #idk i think id compliment barn's new earring. its a handsome little thing #the sillies.... #they continue to make me So fucking emotional <3 #scribble salad #welcome home #welcome home puppet show #name a better pair of best friends you caaaaaanttttttttt you simply Cannot!!!! #wailing sobbing eating glass etc

[lunar-wandering]

THIS FUCKING EXPRESSIONNNNN

#Monkie Kid #LMK S4 Special Spoilers #LMK Spoilers #Monkie Kid Spoilers #i wont say what this expression necessairly means cause im autistic and there some expressions that i still cant read right #bUT #i will say for me that it's either him finally piecing something together #OR. he honestly seems confused by his past actions #which if thats the case thats INTERESTING. does he not actually remember this happening this way?? #i have always been under the assumption that LBD might've messed with his memories a little. could this have been one of them?

[fightingwithallreality]

Album of Horses (1951) written by Marguerite Henry, illustrated by Wesley Dennis

#I AM SO HAPPY WITH HOW THESE TURNED OUT #like i really cant express the hours and months that came together as this one post #i learned so much about photoshop #i use photopia but you know what I mean #photopia #the one thing about wesley dennis that I will never get over #is the way he paints SKIES #like the clouds #the lighting #the pink and yellow and blues all together #the pastel colors just blending together to make the most nostalgic color pallets I've ever seen #wesley dennis #anyway #its tag time #album of horses #marguerite henry #horse art #horses #horse #equids #perfect for my horse blog #yee haw #arabian #equine #thoroughbred #horse racing #hunter #jumper #hunter jumper #fox hunting

[domsaysstuff]

Steve's kindness is, like all self-taught one, a mirage of borrowed expressions, a collage of habits picked from people he loved, a bit stilled but eager and well-meaning, sometimes a bit chopped at the sides, a growing want to let the good feelings out in front of the right people.

Eddie liked to sometimes watch him and find all the signs of other people in him, try to match them up to right people.

He would watch and think - this is Nancy's stubbornness to never give up on people and Dustin's loyalty, he would see him trying to give advice to Dustin and see Johnathan's akward pep-talks to Will. The way he would always try to have snacks for the kids screamed both Joyce's and Mrs. Henderson motherly kindness. His willingness to sit in silence, a steady presence, when somebody needed it shined with Will's warmth. How he fights for the people he cares about, letting his meaness be a defense for them all, a barier and a shield similar to Max's snark.

And whenever he found himself to be the matching person? It made him feel loved, so fucking loved and seen that he would choke on it.

Eddie sometimes would make a game out of it, to found the matching puzzle whenever Steve's kindness shone (and it was a lot of the time). It was always someone from the party and he would always find himself with a strange fond warmth whenever he realized who it was. And usually he was good at it, it wasn't really hard when he loved and knew all those people too

There were exceptions though. The first one was Robin and it wasn't for the lack of Eddie's knowledge and love for her and moreso because of the whole RobinandSteve being always so SteveandRobin, never really separate. Whatever was Steve's was also Robin's, their clothes, habits or sometimes even their smiles shone in the same way. They were mismatched in a funny melted together sort of way, his kindness was her and hers was his and it was hard to difference between the two when even they didn't know where one ended and the other began, they traded traits like they traded clothes, wore them bright pink socks with yellow soft sweater, a joke to cheer you up with a soft you can tell me anything in the same breath.

He didn't really knew whose kindness it was the innate one that must have been deep within Steve before he let it shine or Robin's. He didn't think it would really matter anyway, they would trade it between themselves like shiny cards anyway.

The other one was a smile. An unique one, one that Eddie swore he saw somewhere before and that lacked the freckles and a missing teeth except noone in the party had these two traits, at least not as Eddie knew them and he could never find that one puzzle. It was boyish and full of mischief, usually with a starry reflection in Steve's eyes.

The last one was a lift in his tone, the way he would make his voice honey-like sweet when he tells Robin her new haircut suits her or El's new shirt brought out her eyes. The intonation always made Eddie think of bubble gum and sugared summers.

He couldn't place the last two to nobody. At least not until Steve told him about Tommy Hagan and Carol Perkins.

Obviously Eddie knew about them, but Stevie didn't talk about how they are. But how they used to be.

"Sweet." he said while passing the joint they shared laying on Eddie's bed, pressed from shoulders to their ankles. "Carol used to be sweet, warm with the naive love only kids hold" Steve's eyes were looking out the window of Eddie's room, as if he could see the young version of them just outside playing childlish games. "and Tommy used to be wild. But not like bad wild, more like he was always chasing trouble, adventure. Like kids do."

And Eddie couldn't see it, not with how the world twisted them into different people, cruel. More cold, all sharp teeth and autumn's rain.

Except he could, he could in Steve's special smile and the sound of his voice, he could see it and he could see the love that Steve Harrington had for them.

"They're douchebags now," he said when Eddie voiced it out loud "but I did loved them once, sometimes I feel like I've never stopped, they just... Grew out of my love, grew into something I couldn't."

It should be strange, to love something someone isn't anymore, but to Eddie it just spoke of the way Steve Harrington threw himself into love, how he never really stopped loving and caring. It was admirable, it was so lovable and it was so Steve-like. Earnest in the sweetest way.

It made sense that Steve Harrington would love people even through his expression of it.

#idk what this is #i just kept thinking about how at some point Steve must have loved Tommy and Carol #and yeah some relationships are bad and you need to drop the people because they are as*h*les but that doesnt mean the love was never there #or that you don't sometimes feel the ghost of it when you think of them #And I think Eddie - just would watch the people he loves - would observe them and analyze them #cathegorize them or their habbits and expression into something a little cabinets in his mind #this is kind of shitty but oh well i've written it so now i'm bestowing it onto others #i'm trying to get back into writting because my laptop will be hopefully fixed soon and i'll actually could write then #but i cant so for now this ficlet is here #steddie #steve harrington #eddie munson #stranger things #platonic stobin #my writing #ficlet #dom's tumblr writing

[opens-up-4-nobody]

:-P

#the thing abt markers is that u cant erase the colors #i just wanted to draw narutos face smiling bc it should b smiling in contrast to all the grim expressions of the past #but then i made the sky a slightly sinister color and started adding red #i should have just left the red on the edges and not done the darker colors in the sky #oh well. im not redoing it #uzumaki naruto #senju tobirama #senju hashirama #senju tsunade #hatake kakashi #namikaze minato #tw blood #what does this mean? idk #naruto #is this boruto sky scraper erasure? yes it is

[ganondoodle]

a wild assortement of comic wip screenshots and a random doodle that i posted to twitter but not here

(this doodle here is of Raal (aka demise before he became a deity) but whatever happens here isnt anything 'canon', i just randomly doodled him to try a loosen up my painting style bc when i work on the comic i tend to concentrate too much of rendering it perfectly and i dont like that)

#ganondoodles #doodles #art #i am so very tired #too tired for tags #btw i do love and read every ask i get but damn i just dont have the energy to reply to most #and i feel so guilty #i wish i could make a warning show up when someone wants to send me an ask #that just says -yo i love and cherish and reread all asks but unfortunately have zero energy to reply but chances are it made me cry- #given the asks isnt mean spirited or straight up bots #which my impsoter brain sometimes still tries to make me think #like either woo look at all those people LYING to your face #but i have grown alot since those days and now its mostly just #so look what a nice and lovely absolutely beautiful ask this person send you and you disrespectful fool are not answering it shame upon you #thats most likely why i have been getting less and less and man i feel so bad #like when its asks about drawing advice i either dont know what to say bc i dont have any idea what im doing eihter #or bc i plan a giant response with a big ass illustrated tutorial even tho i know i neither got the time or energy for it #but still cant answer then bc wait you wanted to make a tutorial you cant answer it just like that #and when its a super nice compliment about my art i just #dont know how to express my gratitude and silently reread it time and time again never answering it bc then it would be gone from the inbox #;__; #alright falling asleep brain better not have written sth i will regret reading tomorrow #i think this is the longest tags i put on a completely unrelated post of mine #if you have read all these tags send me an ask only containing the name of your fav fruit and i will make you a little pixel sprite of it

[six-demon-bag]

#the last one: i am convinced raynor is a hydra plant bc she sucks so much #basically what her “”“”therapy“”“” consisted of was being mean to bucky #“wow cant wait until you snap and murder people lol” bitch what #his expression is hilarious tho #buckyposting #bucky posts are a weird mix of sad and dramatic and violence #bucky barnes #winter soldier #tfatws #the falcon and the winter soldier #mcu textpost #sixdemon textpost

[cringelordofchaos]

This comic sucks but

-Amy- "SONIC!" Now, listen to me for once!"

-sonic [expecting very rude words]- "°~~~~~~~~~~°"

-amy- "You made a mistake. But you wanted to protect us. That alone proves you're a good person. we're all feeling stressed, but I don't want all of us to just take it all on you, because i know you must be stressed too with all that's goin-....[insert more words of comfort here]........"

-sonic- "🥺"

#THIS IS RELATED TO -----> #sonic prime #specifically sonic messing up in sonic prime #the guy cant catch a break #normal amy somehow revives herself just to tell sonic to not be too insecure #jk i have a bigger story in mind but its irrelevant #my art #could this count as a ship comic? #everything can have ship potential soo #sonamy #although i dont even ship it that much loll #also sonic usually doesnt express this much emotion but he really couldn't hold it in this time. #sonic #sth #Sonic the hedgehog #amy rose the hedgehog #edit: what did i mean by “i have a big story idea in mind” i completely forgot what it was :(( #this is why you write down your ideas guys #soncic #amy #sonic & amy #prime

[honeysbunchesofoats]

I love that the end of my demon didn't show do dohee and jeong guwon living in their blissful honeymoon like was shown in the episode where he's trying to make sure she's always happy. *because* while do dohee has learned that being happy isn't a bad thing that should be feared, she is in a relationship that has the good and bad. we see her parents trying to make her childhood the happiest and as perfect as it can be because they know her dad will die in ten years. and madame ju hides all the bad things, and tries to keep do dohee happy under false pretenses. but now do dohee can finally be happy and also experience the ups and downs with someone she loves. she can feel like it's all real and it'll last since it isn't covering up something else

#once again i cant express what i mean #but this is close enough #my demon #do do hee #jeong guwon

[petz5]

grabs him by the scruff of his neck like a kitten

#ranma 1/2 #not putting this in my art tag i just wanted to post Something #U EVER THINK ABT HOW HIS MASSIVE EGO IS TOTALLY FOR SHOW #like def the result of genma telling him hes the best martial artist in the world one moment then that he's a disappointment the next #and how ranmas secretly terrified ppl will notice hes only good at one thing and then will see how worthless he rlly is and abandon him #(im not saying hes worthless i just mean from his perspective) #and thats why he has a total breakdown in the moxibustion arc bc hes CONVINCED if he cant do martial arts then no one will want him around #its also why its so important that even tho she cant think of anything else he's good at akane still tells him to stay or at least #let her go with him #bc she values him bc hes a person and she enjoys spending time w him. its not abt what he can bring to the table or whatever #what he brings to the table is his kindness and humor and care for others around him!! #anyway that arc doesnt cure his ego by a longshot but it did open the door for him to trust akane way more and share his insecurities #the other half (lol) of this convo could totally be abt desperately trying to live up to being a Manly Masculine Man #but 99% of the time he expresses genuine confidence in himself and not just his abilities its in girl form #i already made a post abt that a while ago #ANYWAY SORRY FOR THE FUCKING ESSAY

[mewtwo24]

I just watched s2 episode 10 in the english dub and I have to say. Nothing could have prepared me for Howard's delivery of that final scene where Xie Lian gets worked up about the truth coming out.

The just...sincerely agonized delivery of "That my words were the empty ramblings of a sad child!!" shook me to the core. The absolute self-loathing in that line, the raw emotion. The way concealing the truth was done to spare Lang Qianqiu but also at its heart was about Xie Lian's unresolved feelings of humiliation and shame, the way [redacted] did everything in his power to make Xie Lian lose faith in himself and the possibility of good prevailing in the world.

The way TGCF keeps me up at night, man...

#tgcf #xie lian #lang qianqiu #the runner-up line that devastated me too was: 'it's the least of what I DESERVE!!!' #i dont think there are words to describe how that made hua cheng feel knowing all that he does (from his time as wu ming) #legitimately its on the spectrum of mantis shrimp im guessing bc i can't fathom trying to put it into words either #the way xie lian won't stop punishing himself for wishing for better--for wishing for peace and collaboration--even 800 years later #the way he continues to take responsibility for all the wrongs others commit--the way he deems himself a failure -> #for things he simply could not change or did not purposefully incite. the way he won't stop punishing himself when things go wrong #i honestly cant get over how acutely xl feels like the result of gifted child syndrome #having all of these grandiose expectations placed on him and doing his utmost to uphold them at any cost #doing everything he can to the point of self-destruction to do the right thing #only to end up hated in the end when he proved to have limits--even as a god #and discarded despite his efforts; ultimately deemed worthless for not measuring up to what were impossible/rigged standards from the get g #and like . the way up to this point they made the creative decision to make xie lian's emotional range fairly static #not that he's unfeeling but that he doesn't tend to raise his voice or express anything extreme (for good reason) #until this precise moment where it all comes flying apart with so many old scars torn open #absolutely fantastic im on the ground #honestly i feel like i forget how difficult a decision this had to be for hua cheng #i mean naturally he chose this because he wanted xie lian absolved #and ultimately xie lian really does need to stop the self-flagellation--he takes it too far #but watching him tremble with fear haunted by the echoes of what he almost became #fucking cHRIST

[loyalhorror]

drives me nuts that people think sila is textually transmasc when he is very blatantly amab + either gnc/crossdressing or transfem. i'd argue that he identifies as a queer, gnc, crossdressing man given that alex still calls him "him" and refers to him as a boy/man, but i mean. there are also so many flavours of oldschool transfem, yknow.

"ladyboy" is a very specific term used against transfeminine and amab gnc people, ESPECIALLY in the context of sila being thai (because to my understanding thailand (among other places) has like. big issues with uhhh white people going there as tourists to exploit trans and crossdressing sex workers etc; i've really only heard 'ladyboy' used in the context of fetishizing southeast asian sex workers honestly, though i don't doubt it's used elsewhere too). the transphobia directed at him is SPECIFICALLY because he's being viewed as "a man in a dress". it's that flavour of transphobia.

i know everyone on this website loves to project transmasc headcanons onto every amab character but please for the love of god read the TEXT and consider the context in which it was written. and also consider that transfem people exist. sorry for how passive aggressive and catty this sounds, it's not directed at anyone specific, i'm just grumpy about this particular subject.

#rat.exe #sandblogging #sila duriyanga #if you want to hc him as transmasc then i mean. i cant stop you. but that isn't actually what's in the text #transphobia tw #transmisogyny tw #like i get it people saw the villain saying 'girlfriend' sarcastically and went 'oh hes misgendering him!' #but thats not. what it is. #it's about mocking his gender expression

[droodlebug]

i think most people need to expand their idea of art so dipshits can stop saying ai art is actually good for physically disabled people who cant do art. what do you mean when you say art? can we ask that question? if you say that word and all you mean is a pretty portrait or an oil painting, then you need to open yourself up.

art at a base level is just something you made with some kind of strong emotion – some kind of passion – behind it. yes a hyper rendered portrait can still be art. a sketchy pen drawing is art. a mess of colors making shapes on a canvas is art. painting a huge canvas in paintstakingly light layers of a single color so that the end result is perfectly smooth is art.

a song on the speakers in a store is art. an underground indie song you love is art. singing a single sentence song with small children is art. voice acting is art. beading is art. jewlery is art. decorating your home is art. making a house or a person in the sims is art. making dumb ass tiktoks can be art. stuffed animals are art. resin crafting is art. sculpting is art. making little dioramas is art. collecting and cleaning dolls and figures is art. meticulously organizing your desktop and phone layouts is art. getting bored and spraypainting a shelf a new color is art. writing about your favorite show, whether theories or as a fanfiction, is art.

technology is art. engineering is art. architecture is art. science is art. sewing, modding, dress up games, hoke renovations, dancing, singing, fingerpainting, cooking, cross stitching, baking, making a blog or an essay about something you love, or hate, cmor care about, dearly, rearranging store shelves, crochet, making people laugh, icing a box mix cake, the way scientists talk about their field, literary analysis, printing shirts, personalizing your car, sex work, editing a picture to print, scrapbooking, getting really into planners, putting stickers on your things. its all art

when i say ai art isnt art, and it isnt a good tool for disabled people to make art. im not saying you have to be like me, who is physically disabled, and fingerpaint or that you have to learn to paint and draw with your mouth or toes or whatever. i mean art is something you are passionate about, and you need to find the kind of art that speaks to you and lets you express yourself. if that means you push your disabled (or abled) body to draw portraits of people like yours truly, then thats wonderful. if that just is not your art, thats wonderful too. theres so much out there to try.

you dont have to limit yourself to the first kind of art that pops in your head when you hear the word. and always remember. it doesnt have to be good or marketable. it just has to be yours

#idk im just thinking about some notes i saw on an ai post #about another disabled person saying something like..m well i shouldnt have to learn how to paint with my teeth to make art #and i agree. but thats not an excuse to take advantage of a skeevy ai program dubiously using art posted online. #it just means you need to find your outlet. if you arent willing to find your workaround to paint then dont paint. find other art #its okay to be dissappointed about that. its not okay to choose to let that hurt other people #its okay to yearn for something you cant do. im shit at any kind of fiber art and it hurts my physically and i wish it wasnt like that #but i do just have to accept its not the avenue for me and that is okay #conversely it does cause my pain to sit up and paint and i cant always hold a brush without pain and using needles bends back my fingers #but its what i need to do to express myself. so i keep working witg it and finding ways to make it accessible to me #im just not willing to do that with crochet or knitting #if you arent willing to find ways to do it. then it is worth thinking about if its something you need and really want to do. or if its just #a nice idea and something that would be cool.

[scalproie]

I have my own gripes with the devil gene retcon in t8 but i genuinely do like what it says about jin as a character

#like. if it was him. ALWAYS him all along. well it means that all the destruction. all the violence. all the pleasure in all that- #well its smth that jin COULD be. and the more he rejects himself. the more hes like “no thats not me. that cant be me”- #well dj in turns mirrors that. im not you. i cannot be you. i will be all that youre not. #but when jin moves from “thats not me” to “that COULD be me. I wont do all that. but thats still me” well dj reflects that as well #bc dj IS jin after all. #and idk. i just like the thought of jin being more honest with himself and acting just a tiny bit similar to dj #not in an “EEEVIL” way but in the expressions and the morally greyness if you know what i mean #after all. dj is the proof that jin is- after all- his father's son #so yeah. after mulling it over. im quite fine with this retcon. makes jin more interesting than he was #(and similar to his dad which is a bonus. to meee) #tagging later

[redysetdare]

Y'know, Even if Soulmate AU's dropped the romantic angle I think I would still dislike them for the sole fact that they disregard the idea that people have free will. It's all about a predetermined destiny of always being with one specific person and idk about you but that idea feels...bad. it feels incredibly bad. i find the idea of people choosing each other to be so much more impactful and feel good than people who are destined to be together. It's the idea that somehow, out of everyone on earth, you both chose each other. you both chose you wanted to be friends/family/whatever. Out of everyone you chose them and they chose you.

#text #tropes #soulmate aus #fandom #red string of fate #idk what to tag this as #tbh maybe this is me projecting my fear of being forced into relationships or trapped in relationships i dont want to be in #i just wish people understood that 'it can be platonic too' doesn't automatically mean everyone will like soulmate aus #like yeah the romantic angle they all take def causes some issues #but people can have more issues with it than just that #idk im p sure i saw a post expressing this same sentiment before and i cant find it and maybe i reblogged it already #but i wanted to talk about it so made a post abt it