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http-angelite · 1 year

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♡ dating craig tucker hcs ♡

characters: craig (aged 16-17)

note: this is the other half of the request i promised for my ❦ anon ♡

➤ fem reader

craig texts you so often, almost all the time, even if you're in the same room. he'll send you memes that he thinks will make you laugh. and since he has a hard time verbally expressing some of his emotions, he'll text them to you instead of saying them out loud. it's easier for him, he gets to say what he wants to say, and you appreciate that he does try to talk about his feelings with you.

he'll text you if he is upset and needs to vent, or when he just wants to let you know how much he loves you, how pretty he thought you looked today, or about how amazing he thinks you are in general.

he often does this with notes as well. he'll write sweet notes and love letters for you and put them in your bag, your locker, or on your desk. almost every time he goes over to your house, he brings a note to hide somewhere he knows you'll find before he leaves. it always makes your day when you find one.

back to texting, he sends you so many pictures of his hamster, stripe, pictures of him and stripe, videos of stripe, videos of him with stripe. craig thinks of you both as stripe's parents. he calls her your baby and uses her as an excuse to invite you over.

"come over. our baby misses her mom."

he loves how well you get along with stripe. it fills his heart with so much joy when he sees you playing with her, helping to take care of her, and loving her as much as he does. it makes him wanna wife you up fr.

he'll see you kissing stripe and he'll just be like "we should get married."

he does his best to make sure that you never doubt his feelings for you, even when he has a hard time expressing them to you. he never wants to unintentionally make you feel like he might not love you just because it's sometimes difficult for him to show a lot of emotion.

craig will flip off anyone that bothers you in any way. if another guy flirts with you, he'll flip him off. if someone is staring at you, he'll flip them off. if you tell him that you dislike a certain person, he'll flip them off too.

he keeps the same energy when someone insults you as he does when someone insults stripe. he can and will beat a bitch for talking shit, no matter who it is. and after he kicks their ass, he will flip them off every time he sees them from then on.

he's the type of boyfriend to defend you no matter what. he doesn't care what you do to warrant ant kind of verbal or physical violence from anyone, he will not let them touch you.

"fuck off and leave her alone."

"dude, she fucking stabbed me."

"okay, and??"

bro holds hella grudges too. he will never forget it when anyone says/does anything remotely negative about/to you. he takes it more personally than you do, honestly. even with you make amends with this person, or they apologize, he still will not like them.

"why are you talking to him? he called you a stupid last year."

"oh, that girl? she's a bitch, dude. she yelled at my girlfriend a few months ago."

you guys are definitely the type of couple who will be jokingly mean and sarcastic with each other. he'll tease you, and you'll tease him. it makes you both laugh, and you're both so secure when it comes to how the other feels about you that you never question whether or not the other is actually trying to be mean. you both know that you're just messing around.

you and caig will also jokingly flip each other off occasionally as well and it's so funny when the people around you see this and are like "wtf?".

if you meet his family and can deal with all of them being lowkey aggressive and flipping each other off all the time, then you're with him for life, and he is not letting you go. his family also falls in love with you too, and, after some time, you'll become so close with them that they'll start flipping you off too and expecting you to do the same.

you guys might as well be married at that point, because you are now officially considered part of the family.

he rarely initiates PDA, but he's definitely always holding your hand in public, especially if you're in a large space or in a crowd. he's worried that, if he lets you go, you might wander off, and he'll lose you.

but craig will never reject any kind of affection you show him in public, no matter who's around. he doesn't want to tell you to stop while you're demonstrating how much you love him. kiss him, hug him, love him all you want, everywhere you go.

he's actually so honored that you like to show off the fact that you're dating him in front of other people. it makes him feel so loved and appreciated. he absolutely loves when he notices other guys getting jealous when they see that you're with him. feeds his ego so much.

in general, he has a hard time initiating any physical contact beyond holding your hand or occasionally kissing you on the cheek. he's ridiculously touch starved, however, and he is always craving any kind of touch you'll treat him to. it makes him sooo happy when you initiate physical affection with him. and, the more you do it, the more confident he'll become in initiating it himself.

he can get pretty cuddly in private. he loves to cuddle you at any opportunity he's given. one of his favorite things to do with you is to fall asleep and take a nap with you in his arms, or him in yours. he feels so special when you fall asleep on him, like you trust him so much that you feel safe enough to be in your most vulnerable state with him. it makes him feel appreciated, and it makes him want to protect you, to always make sure you feel safe when you're with him.

craig likes it when you play with his hair almost as much as he likes to play with yours. you are the only person allowed to touch his hair. he likes to brush your hair and try to style it, but he really only knows how to braid. if you leave the braids he makes in your hair he will be sooo happy! especially if it's in front of other people.

he normally hates it when people call him on the phone, but if it's you, he'll stay on call for as long as you want. if you must call him, however, he prefers facetime. it feels more to him like having a conversation in person, which is what he likes more.

he's kinda funny tho, because he hates calls, but he'll send you so many voice messages over text, and he loves it when you send him some back.

he isn't ticklish at all but he thinks it's so funny when you try to tickle him that you'll still get a giggle out of him. he likes to tickle you too, because he loves making you laugh, as well as being able to touch you and be so close to you while doing so. he'll be very sarcastic with you, as well, making jokes and messing with you just to hear your cute laughter.

craig gets jealous pretty easily because, although he might now show it, he's a little insecure. he kind of feels like you're out of his league, and you could easily find another guy who's better at opening up and showing you affection. you have to reassure him a lot because of this, but it's not like you mind most of the time.

occasionally, when he gets upset about anything, he'll have such a difficult time sharing his feelings that he'll bottle them up until he can't anymore. this sometimes results in him lashing out at you. caig is very chill most of the time, however, so this rarely happens.

you kinda have to work, especially at the beginning of the relationship, to take the time to recognize the small subliminal things he does or says when he's sad, angry, or jealous. but, after some time, it gets much easier for him to open up to you.

he has a love/hate relationship with you trying to comfort him. he obviously loves your attention, and appreciates it so much that you care for him and want him to be okay, but he also slightly feels like a burden when you have to take care of him emotionally. especially because he feels like he's not good enough at comforting you to return the favor.

sometimes he doesn't know how to make you feel better when you're upset. he's never really had to comfort anyone before, and he has rarely ever been comforted by anyone else (due to the fact that he doesn't often get upset enough to need comforting), so he's not exactly sure how to go about it.

he does his best, but sometimes he'll accidentally say things that make it worse, and then he has to apologize for them. he often doesn't understand why you get so upset about certain things, so he might be a little insensitive about it by saying that your feelings don't make sense, or that you're being dramatic. in his mind, he's thinking about it logically and feels like, if he can get you to do the same, it'll make you feel better.

it is rare, but there have been times where he's gotten so frustrated while trying to comfort you, either because nothing he was saying was helping or because he kept unintentionally making it worse, that he has raised his voice at you. but craig does his best to recognize when he feels like he's about to lose his cool, and if he does, he'll just leave you alone while you're upset until you both calm down.

craig also has a hard time telling when you're upset, even if you feel like it's obvious. and that sometimes makes you feel like he doesn't care, which isn't true at all. he just doesn't know.

he mainly resorts to just hugging you when you're upset, telling you that he love's you an that everything will be okay. occasionally he'll also hand you stripe hoping that she makes you feel better, because she makes him feel better.

he makes up for everything by being an amazing listener. after a few conversations, he learns how to handle these situations in a more affective way. he has learned to ask you what exactly you need from him. if you want a hug, if you want his opinion/advice, or if you just want him to listen to you while you vent.

he does really love you and want to help you, it just takes some communication for him to learn the best ways for him to help you. craig will truly thrive in a relationship with a partner that is patient and does their best to communicate with him.

ty for reading! sorry if he's a lil ooc. i did my best :)

#sp x reader #south park x reader #craig tucker x reader

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pillow4t · 6 months

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These are just my favorite/main headcannons tbh

• HEAVY on the they/them Moria

• Cassidy is a girls girl™ If he's out on a mission with (insert literally any woman in ow) and some creepy guy is hitting on her/touching her, he'll go over and defend her, pretending to be her boyfriend so they'll back down

•Trans Junkrat!!! Trans Sombra!!!!

•Roadhog had a wife and kids before he joined the AFL idc what anyone says

•Baptist calls lifeweaver "Flè mwen" which means "my flower" in Haitian Creole (I used a translator so let me know if I'm wrong <3)

•Pharah stole one of Cassidy's hats back in his blackwatch days when she was 13, she still has it (and sometimes wears it around the bass)

•Genji has a drink named after him at the bar he used to frequent when he was younger

•Junkrats mom spoke Arabic so that's why he gravitated to Ana when he was first around her, he hasn't told anybody tho

•Mercy loves to harp on Cassidy about his smoking habits like she isn't living off of coffee and cigarettes (and sometimes a bagel bc of pharah😌

•Cassidy got Ana a "I love my lesbian daughter" shirt for Christmas, he bought it as a joke, she wears it regularly.

•Junkrat can swallow something then bring it back up, it's a great party trick, he thinks, but it usually grosses people out. It's come in handy on missions tho

•When Sojourn brings Murphy to the watchpoint, she gets SMOTHERED with pets, kisses and love from everyone. The same thing happens when Brigitte brings Mitzi around.

•Symetera and Lifeweaver have completely opposite tastes in music so they were CONSTANTLY arguing about who gets to put on music when they shared a dorm (sym usually won)

•When Hanzo laughs he snorts

•Lúcio has real bad arthritis and his skates are more braces than anything, he also has knee, hand and back braces at the ready

•Tracer gets Emily a souvenir from every place she gets deployed to

•Zenyattas favorite color is Yellow

•JunkerQueen carries around hamster treats in her pockets when Wreaking Ball is with her "For when the champ gets hungry!" She always says(in reality she just thinks it's cute how hamsters eat)

•Torbjorn sometimes brings his (older) kids around if the original group of Overwatch is there, he trusts the others...just not with his kids and is really reluctant with Brigitte

•Roadhog has been teaching Junkrat how to properly write and read and it's really improved how Junkrat functions when they're not fighting for survival in the outback

•Illari is a jewelry girl, but she cant wear to much because it gets in the way of training/fighting, but her collection of gold accessories is off the charts

•Sombra took the username D.va on social media and finds it SO funny that Dva has to use a different variation of her gamertag

•I feel like Reaper still has the same sense of humor he did in over/blackwatch and will constantly make witty jokes to Widowmaker or Moria who just give him a blank stare, Doomfist usually finds them funny tho

•Kiriko and Genji literally cannot cook to save their lives and usually takes two of them to make a small microwave meal

•B.O.B had his voice box removed when he was working for Ashes parents and even after all the years of her offering him to get his voice back, he chooses to use sign language instead but the offer is always on the table, Ashe says

•Lúcio has a 10k DJ set up in his room, and gets violent if anyone tries to mess with anything, literally almost took Cassidy's other arm off when he moved a bunch of dials, he'll show you around the soundboard if you ask tho!

•Kiriko is Hanzo and Genjis Cousin (Asa is their mom's sister <3)

•Reinhardt snores. LOUDLY. Brigitte had to get him a sleep apnea mask so she was able to sleep in the same vicinity as him

•Reaper is from Michigan🫶🏻

•Soldier76 gets made fun of by D.va for being old, but the second he's like "me and Ana are practically the same age" D.va gets all defensive "you just called a woman old!"

•Mei and Tracer share a room, they both sleep better with company

•(Blackwatch)Moria and Genji had an anime night where they would watch 10-20 episodes of any given series they were on, but

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RAHHH OKAY I LITERALLY HAVE MORE LINER UP BUT I FEEL LIKE ITS ALREADY A SUPER LONG POST

But yeah :) I'm incapable of liking something a little bit so yeahhhh

#overwatch headcanons #overwatch #overwatch 2 #my favorite is hanzo snorting while laughing #hes my cutiepatooie

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uglypastels · 2 years

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Part 4 of Hell Diver!!!!!

[I promise the other requests are coming soon too but this story just comes so much more easy to me and I honestly needed a bit of an easy fix to get back into writing after volume 2 lol]

Stranger Things: taglist / Masterlist / Inbox

no explicit warnings. swearing. mention of shitty friends and strict parents

Chapter 4: Hamster Wheels

The rest of the day had gone by insanely slow. Most days had already felt like they took an eternity, but that Monday… was some cruel joke from the universe. The minutes just would not pass while the hours took on forever to finish. People around you were suffocating you. Not in the literal sense. Just in the "could everyone please shut up for a second so I can finally hear myself think!" insanity. Since lunch hour, all you wanted was to be alone, which was almost impossible in high school. And the feeling of guilt over what you had done to Eddie didn't make any of it any better.

Once that final bell rang, you stormed out of the classroom, speeding towards your locker to grab your jacket. If you were quick enough, you could get it and get the hell out of there before any of your friends caught on to you.

'Hey.' Well, it was nice to dream. You were, of course, too slow. Mary walked up behind you. Her smile was broad in the type of menacing way. 'We were gonna go get some milkshakes. Wanna come?'

'Uhm, no, I can't. ' Usually, you would never have even let the thought be put up for consideration. How could you say no to a milkshake that would most likely be paid for by some cute guy ha! But now, a place where all those people would be was the last place you wanted to step a foot in.

Mary raised a brow, hearing your unexpected answer. 'Oh. Got plans then?'

'Yeah, I got to study for the chem test.'

'That's not until next week, though.' Why couldn't she just let it go?

'I know, but I really need to nail this one or my mom will kill me, so I'd rather start early.' That must have done the trick, for Mary's whole demeanour relaxed. All your friends knew how overbearing your mother could get. She was that kind of tough love kind of parent, who really just wanted the best for you… even if it wasn't exactly what you had in mind for yourself.

That was why you had had to lie to her about why you had come back home so much later than agreed last weekend. For all your mother knew, you were at Stacey's for study club– it's what all of you had decided to use as a cohesive ruse in case your parents started asking questions among each other. If anyone needed an excuse or an alibi, study club is where it's at. You had never really found a use for it before, never having been much of a party person nor had a lot of guys asking you out, which your parents didn't approve of, but Eddie…

Well, you didn't have to think much about that. No matter how you would put it, there was no way that your parents would let you within a ten-foot vicinity of the guy. He was what they called a "degenerate". Those you had clear instructions to stay away from. And Hellfire… well, let's not even bother.

'Have fun then,' Mary said with the last twinge of a smile before walking away in search of her boyfriend's arm to hang onto. The second she was out of earshot, you let out a deep sigh and closed your locker again, letting your head fall forward and lean against it. The cool of the metal was pleasant to the touch, heavily contrasting the actual texture of the door as it had bumps and the edges in the slits were sharp, pushing into your forehead.

You bumped at it again, then again, but quickly stopped, feeling someone's eyes on you.

And when you turned around, they were hard to miss. The pair of puppy brown eyes, glancing at you from across the corridor. Eddie saw you as he walked out of the building. Had he been walking by, and you hadn't even noticed? Did he hear you talk to Mary again? Well, at least you hadn't been talking about him this time. There was nothing to worsen the situation anymore.

As you made your way outside, you wondered if you would ever get the chance to talk to him. Would he ever let you come over to his trailer again to talk about D&D? Would he still let you join the campaigns? Hellfire?

You hoped so.

By the time you reached your bike, you could see a cloud of dust practically trail behind the same van you had seen at his trailer. It drove off at high speed. If only you could get out of there so quickly… but the wheels on a bike still went waster than just your feet. Sure, you would have preferred to take your dad's car again, but you only got the keys for that on the weekends.

The road to the town library was a relatively simple one. It mainly was following the road leading out of the parking lot of the school, down Main and taking the third crossing to the left until you were greeted with the sight of the large and old building. Even if it had only taken you about fifteen minutes to get there, the scorching sun above you made sure you felt the energy be sucked out of you from the exercise. With deep breaths, you locked your bike again and walked up the small steps to the entrance.

Inside, the air was colder but not cold in any way. Even worse, it was stuffy, with no proper ventilation anywhere. You could practically smell the dust of the old books that no one had bothered to borrow in the past few decades.

You walked past the front desk, giving Doris a kind smile as you passed her workstation, as you knew exactly where you wanted to go.

For years already, the library had become somewhat of a sanctuary for you. A safe haven. Not from anything in particular. Probably just "life" in general. Whenever people started to feel like a bit too much, and you just wanted to get away, you would come here, grab the first book that sparked some kind of interest, sit in a corner, and read until it was time to get back home again. That is kind of how you found your love for all things fantasy. It was the purest way of escapism.

You walked straight ahead, through the aisles and aisles of books, to the section you had basically devoured already. Today, you weren't in the mood to search for something new. You needed something familiar that you could grab and go and get sucked into all over again. And you knew exactly where it would be.

Where it should have been.

'What?' you said to yourself as you mentally went down the alphabet repeatedly. M… N…O…P. It should have been there, that orange-yellow, almost gold, cover. It practically jumped out of the shelf, and yet… it was nowhere to be seen now.

You had almost given up the search when you noticed the familiar colour in a gap between books. Lying on its side, the spine called to you from the other side of the shelf, its neighbouring aisle. You had no idea what it would be doing there, but it didn't matter. It was there, and you could easily reach it.

With your hand already stretching out to it, your heart pumping with excitement to have managed to find the book, you almost scared yourself to death when suddenly you saw something else between that gap of books. The back of the head, looking at the books across, and locks of dark curly hair.

With a shriek, you pulled your hand away. It couldn't have been that loud, but in a quiet and almost empty library, there was no way he hadn't heard you, and you could just about see him turn in your direction before you knelt down. Keeping your head down, you walked as quietly as possible out of the aisle, hoping to get far away from that library section. Why was this happening right now? Why was Eddie Munson the only other person there with you? While all you wanted was just some peace.

Not that he wouldn't give it to you; he wasn't the problem. You knew you were. Your mind had already started spinning at the idea of "Eddie". Should you go up and talk to him? Or maybe better ignore him completely? The guilt from school, the same guilt and gnawing feeling in your stomach you had been trying to escape, was coming back even stronger. What was he doing there? Would he just take some books and leave, or was he planning on staying longer, like you? And in that case, could you let yourself stat as well? Maybe this had all been a giant mistake, and you should just go home, but no, this was your idea first. Even if you had no idea when Eddie decided to visit the library, you knew for sure you were the first to come up with that idea.

Yeah, you were spiralling, and it had taken less than a minute.

You had, however, made it over all the way to a different part of the building. The letters on the covers of the book had become all blurry in your head, the language not processing what the words were actually saying to you anymore. A feeling in your gut, or perhaps the vast acoustics in the room, told you someone was approaching, so you pulled out the closest book to you, trying to read the back cover of it as Eddie Munson turned the corner.

'y/n?' He seemed genuinely surprised to see you when you turned to look at him. 'I thought I saw you back there.' He smiled, making you remember to smile as well; your whole body had really started to feel miles away. You blinked slowly, before pushing out a smile and a sheepish laugh.

'Where?' You played dumb, and thankfully, Eddie went along with it.

'The fantasy section.' He cocked his head back in the direction of the bookshelves you had just escaped from.

'Uhm, no, I think you must have been mistaken. I've been here the whole time.' You went back to pretend-read your book. Eddie, still enjoying this little play you were putting up, took a step closer, letting his arm lean on the shelf.

'Are you sure? Because I could have sworn, I heard you.'

'Oh yeah? What did I say?' You had no idea where this cheekiness was coming from, as it really was not you, but Eddie was bringing out plenty of new sides to you.

'It wasn't so much words more like a–' he copied your little shriek, 'It kind of sounded like a hamster, if I have to be completely honest.'

'I do not–' you cut yourself off quickly, 'I do not think hamsters are allowed in here.'

'Yeah, that's what I thought, so then it must have been something else, shouldn't it?' He was coming closer and closer, his smile only getting bigger while your heart only started beating harder and louder. Eddie must have heard it by then.

'Well, I've just been here the whole time, so–'

'So you've said,' he chuckled, 'And I'm sure… The General Theory of Employment, Interest and Money' he peeked at the title of the book you were holding, and so did you, realising you had ended up in the Economics section of the library. Trying to hide your embarrassment, you looked back at Eddie as he continued: '-is a fascinating read, but I really think I had seen you back there.'

'What makes you so sure it was me?'

'I suppose it is a bit of a far stretch.' He was now entirely leaning on the bookshelf. 'I mean… we are the only people in here, so the chances of it having been you are… pretty small.'

'Ha ha,' you rolled your eyes, putting the General Theory back in its place. 'You still have no proof, Munson.'

'I guess I don't. See you later then.' He let his weight fall back on his feet as he straightened up, tapping the book he had been holding on the shelf before turning around. The bright yellow cover made your jaw tighten.

'Mhm, see ya.' You let yourself roam the Economics section once more, just waiting for him to walk away… with your book.

You waited a few seconds, but he didn't seem to be going away any time soon. He stood there, a few feet away, arms crossed with a big amused smile. So, you looked back at him, getting a bit annoyed now– you weren't even annoyed at him, just at everything in general. But you pushed it back when you gently asked: 'Can I help you with something?'

'No, no,' he shook his head, 'I'm good thanks. Was just wondering when you would ask.'

'Ask what?'

'For the book.' He showed it to you again, almost taunting you with it.

'Why-'

'Here,' he put it down on a shelf near him and started walking backwards. 'It's good. I'm sure you'll like it.'

'I know.' you reached out for it, unable to hide the smile from seeing one of your favourite books. 'Uh- but, thanks.'

'Don't mention it.' And with that, he disappeared into another aisle. You looked at the cover of the book, being greeted with the image that in itself had already brought so much comfort to you. As you walked between the shelves to your usual sitting spot, you let the pages slip through your fingers. It was a bit unconventional for a public indoor space, as you didn't go for one of the designated reading spots or one of the large desks in the middle of the room where people usually did their reading.

You liked to sit down in one of the corners of the library, around the biography section, where the books could quite literally embrace you from all sides. There was a window right above you, too, so the natural light was better than the artificial yellow glow from the old lamps. You sat down on the ground and started reading.

In a distant and second-hand set of dimensions, in an astral plane that was never meant to fly, the curling star-mists waver and part…

You read about ten pages, but quickly realised you had barely comprehended anything that was happening on the pages. The words flew into your mind and immediately left as soon as your eyes moved on to the next. If it weren't for the fact that you had already read the book a few times in the past year, you would have no idea what was happening.

The thought of Eddie Munson having picked out the same book you had wanted to read was occupying your whole being. And the fact he had just given it to you… it made you feel even worse about everything that had happened at school.

You couldn't just sit there and read, so you got up and started looking in the hopes he hadn't left yet.

You went through every aisle, turning each corner, hoping you would see him standing in all his Eddie Munson glory that you had slowly started to miss whenever he wasn't around.

Eventually, you found him at one of the large oak tables. A whole pile of books next to him, as he was scribbling away in a notebook and only looked up from it when you were standing in front of him.

'Hey,' you said, waving, for some reason.

'Hi.' he said, a bit unsure, not knowing what you had come for. He glanced down from your face to see you holding the book close to your chest. 'Done already?'

'Oh, no, couldn't really get into it today.'

'That's a shame.' Eddie looked down to scribble down some more words onto the paper. 'Do you want to–' he pointed at the chair opposite of him.

'No, I uhm, I just– wanted to apologise.' You held the book tighter for a bit of support as it let you focus on something besides Eddie's piercing gaze on you. The way he had his head, slightly crooked, in curiosity for your next words, made a warm and fuzzy feeling grow in your stomach. 'Since I'm sure you had heard what I had said at school, and that was really a shit thing of me to do.'

'You have nothing to apologise for, y/n. Heavy is the head that wears the popularity crown.'

'I'm not popular,' you scoffed, 'but that's not the point. I don't want you to think that I'm like, ashamed, or something, to be seen with you. You're a really cool guy. But people are so cruel and well, we are not exactly the types to usually be seen together, and then that is just fuel for others to be nasty, to either of us.'

'We are in two separate worlds, and you're scared that if we spend too much time together, those worlds will collide and will end in a giant disaster?'

'Sorta… yeah.' He had phrased it so much better than what you had managed to come up with while you had been searching for him.

'I get it. And I'm not mad, either way,' he said, closing his notebook. 'I get how it is; school sucks, and for what it's worth… I'm scared of my friends seeing me around you too.'

'What?' your heart dipped a few inches down to your gut.

'Yeah, what will they think when I start ditching them to hang out with the prettiest girl in school.'

A warm feeling crept up on your face, and you suddenly couldn't look directly at him. But your peripheral vision still let you enjoy the glimpse of his smirk at you, trying to process the compliment. Then, you needed to change the subject, so you looked at the books he had stacked up on the table. Most of them you recognised to be different Dungeons and Dragons manuals, giving you an idea of what he had come to the library for, but you still asked: 'What are you doing?'

'That is highly confidential and secret information, my dearest y/n, so I unfortunately can not tell you.'

'You're working on the next campaign?' The campaign he had told you to join. The excitement started bubbling up inside you.

'If I tell you, I'll have to kill you,' he whispered the words, already looking around himself as if the walls had ears. You doubted anyone in town would care what he had been up to and what he had written in his notebook, and perhaps you wouldn't even have cared if he hadn't made it so enticing to know.

'C'mon, there must be something you can tell me?'

'As the Dungeon Master, I have taken an oath to protect and keep the secrets of the world, and there is nothing you can do sway me to your dark side.'

'Nothing?' you quizzed, giggling at his antics.

'Nothing,' his dark eyes were so serious, yet you could tell he was having the time of his life right there. More thoughts interrupted your moment, that you quickly pushed aside. Flirting would not be the right direction for this. If it had been some guy offering you a milkshake, you would have gone for it, but you and Eddie seemed to be really hitting it off. Even after these very few interactions you've had with him, you could tell that a great friendship could come out of this, so there was no need to go and ruin this now just for a silly joke about the campaign.

Maybe, not even that deep down, you did want to walk across to him and pull him by the collar and kiss him, but those thoughts were quickly stomped down. He was a nice and good-looking guy. Obviously, you felt a slight urge to do it. But, it didn't mean anything.

'Ok, fine, I give up.' You put a hand up in defeat, 'I'll just have to wait like everyone else.'

'That you must,' he would have said something else, but he was suddenly caught off by a deafening thunder rumbling outside. You could immediately see yourself having to cycle back home in that storm. Where had it even come from? It had been a perfectly sunny day when you arrived at the library, but when you looked out from the windows, the sky was dark grey, and the rain was hitting the glass hard.

'Shit.' Was all you said in reaction to the thunder.

'What's wrong?' Eddie asked, looking up at you as you still had not sat down.

'Nothing, I'm just gonna have to cycle back home in that.' The once silent library had been entirely taken over by the rain pounding on the outside.

'I'll drive you,' he got up, grabbing his notebook.

'What?'

'Most people reply with a thank you,' he quipped, 'but you can put your bike in the back of my van, and I'll drive you home.'

'Why?' Your responses weren't getting any better, much to Eddie's amusement.

'Let's say it's an investment. By driving you home, I'll make sure you don't catch pneumonia or some shit and won't be then eaten alive by endless guilt.'

'I wasn't really planning on going back home yet,' you admitted, and you could have sworn Eddie's shoulders slumped lightly. 'But can I maybe join you here, for now?'

'Go right ahead.' And you took the seat opposite him, opening up your book again as Eddie returned to work. Every few pages, you would look up and see him work, flipping through the books around him, tapping his pencil on any surface in a random beat. At one moment, he looked up at you as you had been at him, thinking you were bothered by the drumming.

'Sorry,' he smiled, stopping subtly.

'No, you're good.' You told him, giving him a smile before going back to your own book. It was very pleasant, the two of you being together yet not. Joined at the table but separated by your own doings. He had his campaign; you had your book.

At some point, you got so into your book that everything else slightly faded away, and you were only brought back to the real world when ring-covered fingers tapped the top of the book spine. You looked up and met Eddie's eyes, as he leaned over the table to reach for the cover.

'What's up?'

'Just checking in,' he shrugged. 'Just let me know when you want to go home, yeah?'

'Mhm,' you nodded, 'but if you want to go now, that's fine. You don't have to wait up on me; I can just cycle home later.'

'That is pretty selfish of you, y/n– since you know how guilt-ridden I will be if anything happens to you– just to go and suggest that.'

You had no response to that, and so you continued your ventures on parallel sides of the table until the sun was starting to set once again, making the skies even darker than they were to begin with. The librarian walked up to you to announce that the place would be closing soon.

'If you're not planning on checking anything out, be a dear and put them back,' she told Eddie with a kind smile, to which he saluted. Almost a second after the woman left again, he was up on his feet, collecting the books in his arms. You were about to reach for his notebook to help him out, but he grabbed it quickly, taking it between his teeth, letting the pages flap about as he walked.

'I can help,' you told him, seeing how heavy the books seemed.

'Thank you, milady, but I shall go on this quest on my own.' None of the comedies you had watched in the cinema matched up to the comedic timing of Eddie having said that and almost immediately falling over by stumbling into the chair he had been sitting on previously.

'Are you ok?' You asked apprehensively as he regained his balance. With the notebook still in his mouth, Eddie's response only came out as a disgruntled muffled sound, but he seemed to be doing fine.

You hadn't finished reading your book, but it wasn't your plan anyway. You had just needed to escape for a little bit, so that had been accomplished… whether it was the actual act of reading of your companion in it…

Eddie put all of his books back, one by one, so you did so as well with yours. Obviously, you were done much quicker so you came back around into the aisle in which he was standing, and without a moment for protest, grabbed the top books in his arms.

'This shall be no solo quest, today, my good sire.' That was enough from you to leave him speechless. With a chuckle, he let you take the books; noticeably, they were all lighter than the ones that remained in his arms, but still. Somehow, it had become a bit of a competition to see which one of you would be done first. You only had one final book left to place, but it was on one of the highest shelves, just a bit out of your reach.

'Wait,' before you could ask what was going on, Eddie grabbed you and pulled you up just high enough for you to reach the shelf you needed. It had been a surprise, so the squeak sound that you had made earlier, which Eddie lovingly commented on its similarity to a rodent speech, came back up.

'Did you hear that?' Eddie said, putting you back on the ground. 'I think the hamster came back.'

'Hamster or not, I won.'

'Only because I let you.' He smirked, and you became very aware of your proximity to him. With your back against the bookshelves, you had nowhere to back away, and Eddie was so close that your chest was nearly touching his.

'Now, why would you do that?' You asked softly. There was no need to whisper. The library was soon closing, and you were the only ones still there. Not to mention, you hadn't exactly been quiet before either. But this situation called for soft, intimate tones.

'I'm not sure… maybe it's because I like your smile.' Now it was his turn to leave you speechless. A lump formed in your throat as you tried to process what he had said, which was even harder since he was so close. When he reached out to brush some hair out of your face, you had to suck in a breath. His calloused fingers only ghosted over your skin, but an electricity sort of spark shot through you.

'We should probably go,' you mustered out, 'before she locks us in.'

'Wouldn't want that.' Eddie's voice had also become much softer, almost a whisper. You could have sworn his eyes had, again, whisked down to look at your lips, and that idea made your head spin. It would only be even if you did the same for him now, right? Just a quick glance at his lips. They were perfect, just like the rest of him…

'Come,' he said, so close to you now you could feel his words on you.

'Huh?' You blinked slowly.

'Let's get you home.' and so, he took a step back. The emptiness between you felt personal, almost internal. Like by stepping away, he had actually ripped something out from between you. A bandaid ripping at your skin, leaving a weird tingly sensation behind.

Eddie's van was parked just behind the library, which is why you hadn't noticed it on your way inside. The rain had started to slow down, the lightning and thunder hadn't been heard for well over half an hour, but it was still pouring heavily. You grabbed your bike as quickly as possible, and Eddie had already opened the car's back doors and was waiting for you inside. He didn't wait, just grabbed the front of the bicycle and pulled it inside, then offered his hand to help you in.

'Thanks,' you sputtered out. The two minutes in the rain had been enough to thoroughly soak you, so you were definitely glad to take Eddie's offer and let him drive you home.

It was a short drive, in which you mostly tried to get some information out of Eddie on what he had been working on.

'C'monnnn, tell me something. Anything.'

'What would you like to know?' he asked as he turned a corner into your street.

'I don't know.'

'That doesn't really help me, sweetheart. You got to be specific, otherwise I could go on for hours and maybe not even tell you anything worth your while and we'd waste both our times.'

'That's impossible,' you laughed, 'You could never waste my time.'

Eddie clutched onto the stirring wheel, stopping the car as you near the house. Before you had started driving, you decided it would be the smartest thing not to drive up all the way to the front lawn, so your parents wouldn't see you step out of some "random guy's" dingy van.

'Maybe next time I'll let you hear all my secrets.' he put the van in park, and you thanked him again. Then, you both climbed out to the back to get your bike. Eddie opened the doors and jumped out, taking the bike out and again helping you make the little jump. His hand fit perfectly around yours, and even though you were standing quite steadily, neither of you let go.

'Hey uhm,' he said, the rain making both your hairstyles worse, 'just so you know, I'm really not mad… about anything.'

'I'm really glad for that.' you squeezed his hand, to which he pressed back.

'Just, promise me one thing, if you can.' He wiped the hair out of his face, and you did the same. The weather should have been getting better, but it really wasn't.

'What's that?'

'Promise not to run away from me again?'

I like you way too much to watch you walk away from me; that's what he had said when you were leaving his trailer. And how many times had you run anyway? Too many to count, which was too embarrassing to keep track. So maybe he just asked out of annoyance, but the fuzzy warm feeling was overcoming you anyway, which might have been a bit foolish since, in reality, you were freezing in the cold rain.

'I'll try.'

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tsfennec · 3 months

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Thank you for the tag, @freenarnian :D

Are you named after anyone? Kind of? First name, not exactly deliberately, but after my parents announced it some relatives assumed I was named after a great-great-grandparent because it's a variation on her name. Middle name is also my mother's middle name, and my older half-sister's, and several nieces', so it's a bit of a family tradition.

When was the last time you cried? Lol, earlier today while doing book club with my dad.

Do you have kids? None of my own, much as I would love to. But I am surrounded by many of them to whom I am an aunt and honorary aunt, and I love them all dearly.

What sports do you play/have you played? I haven't ever really Done Sports in any kind of traditional way? I did archery casually, fencing briefly (very much wanted to do it longer, but lessons just weren't in a viable location) and karate for quite some time, though, if those count.

Do you use sarcasm? Yes? Though when it's regarding any actual people I'm interacting with I try to keep it very gentle and lighthearted, not biting.

What is the first thing you notice about people? Hmm, I'm really not sure how to answer that. I feel like it depends so much on the context and the person?

What's your eye color? Blue!

Scary movies or happy endings? Happy endings, most definitely. I can appreciate some good scary elements, but I'm much less likely to enjoy a story if it doesn't have some form of happy ending.

Any talents? I have been told public speaking. :P Not that I enjoy it. I dread it immensely, in fact. But I am good at memorizing the basics of what I'm going to say and then delivering it without extensively referring to notes, so I guess I can manage it more naturally than most who don't do it regularly? More seriously, I suppose I could say writing or art or giving feedback on others' writing, but those all feel more like... skills laboriously acquired across great time and effort rather than talents, I guess?

Where were you born? In a hospital? Though very close to being in the car on the way there, lol.

What are your hobbies? Art, writing, and reading, mostly.

Do you have any pets? Just one cat currently! I've had more at any given time for a good part of my life (birds and snakes and fish and dogs and cats and hamsters), but not currently.

How tall are you? According to my doctor's office, 5'3", but that is measuring with shoes on. :'D

Favorite subject in school? Probably history or science? Though actually, looking back, I don't particularly remember either loving or hating much in school (other than writing, which was The Actual Worst, lol). I just loved to read, mostly.

Dream job? I mean, the ultimate dream would be stay-at-home mom, really. Barring that... I guess it would be either doing what I'm doing now but making money more efficiently at it, or working in some kind of zoo/animal sanctuary (yes, fully aware that that latter involves a very high proportion of cleaning up animal mess).

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zet-sway · 1 year

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It only took me like four months, but I finally answered the legendary @spookyvalentine's first 50 Shep questions.

50 QUESTIONS FOR SHEPARD

December Shepard | Part 1

1. Why did Shepard enlist? Any regrets?

Mom and dad are both military and she grew up with other military kids. Her mother basically told her she was going to enlist, and enrolled her in pre-military schooling programs. Her dad made her excited about it by telling her she could work on fighters.

She wishes she could have done more planetside traveling before she enlisted.

2. How does your Shepard feel about having a yeoman assigned to them in 2? And in 3?

Kelly assigned to her feels weird. On paper, Kelly is there to staff the ship like anyone else. But Shepard feels weird about it, like she's there to conduct some kind of undead performance review. Eventually, Shepard asks her not to ask intrusive questions, and they hash out how to best communicate and work together :)

3. What's their relationship with Anderson?

Dad. Actually, very dad because December's dad passed away before she enlisted. Anderson was on good terms with both her parents.

4. Is your Shepard any good at poker?

She's okay at it.

5. How well does Shepard know their crew? Not just the companions, but the folks making up the Normandy

She knew her crew on the SR1 very well and served with many of them on prior missions. On the SR2, she tries her best. Being resurrected and thrust into a whole new crew is exhausting - particularly because many of them don't have military backgrounds, meaning Shepard can't just fall back on second-nature alliance officer habits. The new team requires a lot of investment to bring everyone together in a cohesive unit.

On a personal "human" level, tries to know them as personally as is practical. In particular, she tries to find out what kinds of little things they enjoy so she can try and bring some small comforts on board from them (put that Cerberus procurement budget to good use lmao).

6. Initial reaction to EDI? Does it change?

At first, EDI answers a lot of questions with non-answers due to her code restrictions, and because of this, Shepard has a hard time differentiating her from a VI. Once these restrictions are removed, Shepard begins to understand that EDI has a will of her own, which is a little spooky at first. EDI's choice to side with Shepard instead of the illusive man does a lot to boost Shepard's trust in her.

EDI obtaining a body really helps Shepard fully realize her. Humans are funny like that. Seeing her moving and talking really drives home the understanding of her as an autonomous individual.

7. Does their love interest move into their quarters?

YUP. Shep and Thane really have a hard time keeping their hands off one another for a while lolllll

8. What is their reaction to the Alchera mission? And after?

:)))))) I wrote a fic about this!! Tldr there's a lot of introspection, a lot of silent tears, and a lot of throwing herself into work to forget about it (spoiler alert she can't just forget about it lol).

9. What type of fighter is your shepard? Do they fight with honor, or do they fight dirty

December would love to live in a world where "honorable" gets the job done, but it's not always that simple. Honorable is great until it means causing unnecessary deaths and risking mission failure. There's an exception to every rule. Sometimes you gotta fight dirty.

10. Does Shepard keep any pets? The hamster, fish, something else?

No pets. She's definitely a dog person, but keeping a dog in space is really hard.

Fish - yeah. But only after someone else agrees to feed them. She's keenly aware that bringing a whole entire living animal on board will require energy that she's already scraping the bottom of the barrel for.

Shep @ Cerberus: "Love the cabin, but a fish tank? Really?"

11. What order does Shepard pick up companions in me2?

I haven't given this too much thought honestly. In my longfic, Thane is recruited before horizon, but I never explain why. I'd probably have to write some manner of mission critical thing on Illium, or place Thane on Omega.

Actually, it would be fun to entertain the idea of Thane being hired to assassinate Archangel, Shepard going to intercept him, and somehow she ends up recruiting them both. But in any regard, Mordin is definitely a first pick from a strategic standpoint.

12. Does Shepard have any nicknames? What do they think of em?

Joker calls her "Big D" because he's joker and it's hilarious.

In basic, they called her "girl scout" because she was a stickler for rules, even when no one was looking (side effect of having a very strict mom). Since her family was military, more than a few people knew she had officers for parents. Drill Sargent gave her hell for it.

13. How does your Shep react to teasing/ribbing?

Rule number one is never let them see you upset. Her crew tease her constantly for being tight-assed and she just smiles and laughs. Ninety-five percent of the time she doesn't tease back - which is why it's a hundred times funnier when she does.

14. Any good at flirting?

N O P E. She'll find "work-related" reasons to keep interacting with a given person long before she'll admit that she's just doing it because she's got a crush.

15. What colors does Shepard prefer for their armor?

Standard issue red/black/gray. Fashion (or rather, her attempts at fashion) is for civvies lol

16. Is Shepard a drinker? History of other substances? Do they struggle with sobriety

She's an on again off again smoker. Not much of a drinker, and she says Cerberus had a conspiracy to prevent her from becoming drunk and risking the mission (she's bitter about it).

17. How does Shepard react to attention? Do they enjoy it?

Like most of us, she would like to be recognized for her accomplishments, but all she really wants is a thank you from time to time. She doesn't like crowds, and she doesn't like excessive displays of attention. Thane is very affectionate and at first it's overwhelming for her - but she grows to cherish it in private moments.

After the war, she hates giving public appearances.

18. Who’s the dream team? Which companions does Shepard fight best with and why?

ME1: Kaidan, Ashley, Garrus

ME2: Mordin, Garrus, Tali, Jacob, and later Miranda

ME3: Ashley, Garrus, Tali, Thane

Honestly, all of the crew is great, but these are the people she would want on her team if she were to become disabled during a mission for whatever reason. Folks she can trust to make good decisions in the absence of explicit guidance.

I would be here all day explaining the nuance of every pick, but suffice to say, Shepard has a preference for those with military backgrounds, and her trust is earned by others as time progresses.

19. Are there any companions your Shepard just absolutely cannot vibe with or relate to

This question broke my brain. I probably wrote and deleted at least 700 words. Tldr Shepard takes longer to trust some of her companions, but eventually she'd trust them all with her life.

20. Does Shepard enjoy looking for resources and upgrading gear, or do they see it as a chore?

She loves getting new gear lol but she hates planet scanning. She'd rather go down to the surface herself and look for it.

21. Do you have any AUs for your shepard?

Maybe a destiny 2 crossover.

I suppose there's my torchwood crossover, but that Shepard is a separate character entirely.

22. What’s the last thing Shepard ate before the final reaper showdown?

She had a cup of coffee and a cigarette. If she thought about it too hard, she wouldn't have been able to leave the ship.

24. Who does Shepard turn to for advice? For comfort? Who do they like to gossip with

STEVE CORTEZ. They were childhood friends and served on the SSV Hawking together. (I'm aware there is likely a big age gap between them but I'm ignoring this and saying they grew up together, with Steve being maybe four years older than her).

Liara too because she is so honest and empathetic and learning painful lessons right alongside her. Garrus is also great for grounding her when the hard decisions start to really hurt.

Feron, and Kasumi, Tali, and Wrex are the gossip friends lol

25. How emotionally articulate is your Shepard? Do they emote well?

Not very. She's more emotionally articulate than she thinks she is, but the words are uncomfortable in her mouth.

26. Does your Shepard have a romance? Who are they, and what drew Shep to them?

Thane :)))))))) she likes spending time with him because he radiates peace (even if he doesn't feel like he does) and gives her space for her thoughts. Thane is one of very few people she can enjoy comfortable silence with, and after a while, he feels more like a friend than a teammate.

They're unexpected pair, but they really do find time to understand one another and grow.

His stories of his life widen her view of her own upbringing, in a way. Though they have very different upbringings, they're similar in some unexpected ways. Being selected in one way or another, having a mountain of expectations placed on them at an early age, distant or unavailable parents and strict, minimalist lives. They're also an excellent match for cohabitating because they both grew up with disciplined lifestyles, so there's very little friction as far as their day to day private lives go.

Shepard isn't religious but she doesn't despite religion either, so there's a mental vacancy in her that his spirituality can exist in.

Their values are the same or close to it, at the end of the day. They both want to create good in the world, they both value inter-species cooperation (headcanon that drell in particular are like "why aren't all these idiots working together yet"), they both value the mental rigor of principles. By the time she meets him, they've been brought so low by their own traumas that they're ready to challenge their own unhealthy understandings of the world. They grow together.

However, these two chucklefucks danced around their affection for one another until Thane nearly died on the disabled collector ship. The thin atmosphere would have been fine if they hadn't needed to literally run for their lives when they discovered the trap. In the end, Shepard had to physically carry him back to the shuttle. After that, their feelings crashed into one another so hard Thane nearly left the team (he's like "Holy shit I'm so full of oxytocin for Shepard that I'm worried it's gonna compromise the mission).

It worked out in the end, and maybe one day I'll actually write that fic 🫠

27. Do they have any pet peeves?

Lots. And in basic training, she learned never to make them known, or people would find ways to use them against her.

In the alliance she was the one who would call you out for not wearing your uniform correctly. I read this quote recently that said something along the lines of "if you can't make these decisions when times are easy, how will you handle hard choices when the going gets tough?" A bit of a hard-assed way of looking at things and definitely gets her some eyerolling, but that's who she is - she's there to complete a mission and everything else is secondary.

If you don't care about getting the mission done in one way or another, it's a cold shoulder at best. At worst, a swift kick off the boat at the nearest stop.

28. What about hyperfixations? What’s the topic that will get Shepard rolling no matter the person or place

Engineering, spaceships, and the lack of adequate water pressure in the showers, the smell of whatever the fuck dextro shit Garrus has for breakfast every morning.

29. How active is Shepard? Are they hitting the gym, playing sports, or do they prefer quieter downtime?

She'd rather be in the field than doing paperwork. She counts on her morning PT to wake her up and make her feel human.

I honestly think she would do sports but I am so sports illiterate that I'm not sure how to elaborate on that point.

30. What will always make them laugh

Joke format: "If you (blank) when you (blank), you might be an N7." And basically any other "it's funnier if you're military" type jokes that she finds intensely relatable.

31. Who can always make them laugh?

Joker, Garrus, Ashley, and later, Thane. Anderson had some great ones too (all her good jokes came from him lol)

32. What do they do when they have hit their limit angry, just incandescent with rage

On a good day, "I should go." On a bad day, she's likely to say something she'll regret. Stuck in the field with no way to remove herself and self-soothe? She'll wind herself up so tight that she snaps at the crew to cut all comms chatter, or she'll find something to nitpick about. She's very uncomfortable to be around when she's mad like this.

33. What skills do they have that are a surprise to the people around them?

She can hotwire an atlas mech. In her first tour, she drew her own training diagrams by hand for ship maintenance newbies. She makes really great sunshine toast.

Also, any N7 can strip and reassemble their weapons quickly, but she's especially fast at it.

34. Got any tattoos?

Nope, her parents would have killed her tbh and now she simply doesn't have the time. If she had time she'd likely get her father's ship tattooed on her arm (a decision likely to upset her mother even after the war).

35. Which companions have they lost? How do they cope with it?

No one because I'm the author and I make the rules loooolll

Ok but she lost her father, whom she was very close to, when she was a teenager.

36. Do they like to style their hair, wear makeup and jewlery? How do they feel about getting dressed up?

December has zero fashion sense and she consistently prioritizes comfort and utility over fashion. Her closet is full of standard issue light duty uniforms. For formal occasions she'll wear her dress blues.

I kinda headcanon that semi-permanent makeup is very common in the mass effect timeline. I think she gets her eyes and brows done because she likes how they look but can't be bothered to do her makeup every day.

Her hair is just naturally Great because Shepard is in some ways a power fantasy for me and if I could change my fucking hair to require no maintenance, I fucking would oh my god Oh My God

Good luck getting her into a dress. It isn't that she hates them, they are just unusual and uncomfortable for her.

Cortez: "Shepard its exactly like those huge t-shirts you wear to bed except it's meant to be worn in public

Shepard: ಠ⁠_⁠ಠ

Later in life, she finds time to step outside her comfort zone

37. Got any bad habits?

Thane is big mad about her cigarettes. She quits for him long before he says anything but he's like "by amonkira's asshole, how could you do that to yourself"

38. Does Shepard do any activities with the companions and crew during downtime?

Before she died, she was more inclined to take leisure time. After being resurrected, she keeps busy busy to keep her mind off things. She really loves when people organize some kind of group thing on the ship, whether it's card games or movie night

39. Do they keep around any sentimental items?

On the SR1 she had a model of the ship her father served on. She looked for it in the ruins on alchera but didn't find it. Besides this, she keeps her original dog tags from before she died. The helmet she found on alchera is just a spare, because she was still wearing her helmet when her body was retrieved. She keeps that too, but it's in a box with the rest of the creepy reminders of her death that she can't bring herself to get rid of.

40. Does your Shepard actually like to collect model ships? If not, what do they display?

She looooooooves model ships. She will annoyingly point out errors in model ship design compared to real ships.

41. How is Shepard with a gun? What about hand to hand?

She's as adept in both of these as any other N7 would be. She tries not to fight anything hand to hand because most of the things she's fighting are bigger and stronger than her, and it makes sense to keep her distance. She's not especially great at stealth but she does know how to disable unsuspecting targets, break wrists, and chokehold most things with a humanoid neck (she doesn't know that choking a drell is especially difficult though lol). Her aim wasn't the best in her class, but it's good enough.

42. Favorite weapon?

Her favorite gun is the one that shoots where she points it, drops a heat sink when she unloads it, and picks right back up when she slams a new one. Reliable is the name of the game.

The basic bitch M8 assault rifle is never unappreciated in Shepard's hands.

43. Which version of the Normandy do they like best?

The SR1. The SR2 may be more comfortable, but she misses the days when she didn't know about the impending apocalypse.

44. Do they like to rotate out companions for quests? Who do they bring the most?

It's always about bringing the right people for the job. But she definitely does synchronize with some better than others. Garrus and Ashley, for example. Jacob and Miranda are also excellent picks.

The remaining crew are also great, but it takes time to cross the cultural divides and fall into the rhythm with them. I'm almost exclusively talking about communication here. Different species naturally have different speech and behavior patterns that initially cause some confusion, but can be overcome. For this reason, Shepard uses ""easy"" missions to test the waters with new crew members and work out how to best communicate with them.

45. Do they approve of curing the genophage?

Absolutely - but she's really counting on Wrex to reach a diplomatic solution to krogan expansion.

The decisions she makes in curing the genophage will impact the galaxy for centuries after she's dead, and Shepard is very aware of that.

In a way, she wishes this decision wasn't placed on her. She feels like she lacks the necessary years and cultural understanding of all parties involved. In her opinion, the issue should have been resolved a long time ago and she's actually bitter with Mordin for hiding his head in the sand for so long. It's horrifying to condemn an entire species to a slow and withering death. The salarians used them to fight a war, and when the war was won, refused to witness them as an intelligent species with a rich culture. Humans absolutely did not cause this, and now she's being made to solve a problem that's been festering for years.

46. Does Shepard allow the rachni to live in me1?

She tells the alliance that the queen "escaped." In her mind, the long term consequences of this decision absolutely warranted more serious consideration. But the rachni queen didn't just speak to her through a corpse, she touched her mind and sang to her. She sang to every person in that room, and to this day the Noveria fireteam remembers this in whispers. Shepard simply could not bring herself to drown her.

47. Does Shepard practice any kind of self-care?

Shepard will tell you she doesn't have the luxury of self care, but it's because she misunderstands the meaning of the question. To her, self-care is when you do something nice for yourself because you want it. She sees her wants as secondary to the needs of those around her.

However, she's clear about the difference between wants and needs, and she makes space to address her needs. She needs hygiene, food, sleep, and exercise. She's meticulous about her nutrition and her vitals. It's actually annoying to those around her, especially when she refuses to acknowledge the "little things" as important.

When was the last time she ate her favorite foods? The last time she took a break to do something that made her feel good? Indulgence feels shameful when she does finally cave. She runs away from the guilt by doubling down on work.

It's not enough to crush her, but it's enough for Thane to step in and show her she needs to be loved, too.

48. What abilities do they rely on the most in a fight?

Awareness and a clear head are more important than biotics, tech, and guns. Her team is counting on her to think four steps ahead.

49. What is Shepard’s happy ending? What’s the dream that keeps em going

It takes her a long time to figure this out.

The chase for Saren and Sovereign was a wild tumble of events that became utterly surreal the moment she was promoted to Spectre. In the early days, it was just a very crazy mission. It wasn't until after Virmire that she realized the scale of the threat they'd uncovered. It consumed her like nothing had before. Every amount of leisure she tried to take for herself was overshadowed by the doomsday clock in her mind. For her, the future was to defeat the reapers or die trying.

When she did die trying, she woke up again feeling raw, lost, and disoriented. The fight lost its meaning. She changed in ways she'd never imagined, and eventually found purpose in fighting for every person who had mourned her for the two years she was gone. It's an emotional tightrope she has to walk, keeping herself motivated without falling into the trauma of resurrection.

CW SUICIDE BELOW, PROCEED CAREFULLY.

In the end, she never imagined she would live to see the other side of the war. Her death on the SR1 really drove home the nature of her vulnerability, to the extent that she works with Miranda and Mordin to develop a "killswitch," so if she ever becomes trapped again without hope of survival, she can end it quickly. Similar to cyanide pills given to agents going behind enemy lines. Put simply, she never wants to suffocate alone in space again.

And this is why I've spent so long agonizing over my retirement fics. Once a happy ending is thrust upon her, she needs to figure out how to navigate a world she prepared everyone but herself for. In those moments, Thane is the one who keeps her going.

50. Is your Shepard indoctrinated?

This question keeps her up at night. She doesn't feel indoctrinated, but how can she really know for sure?

Maybe she is a little indoctrinated - maybe that's why she never prepared herself for peace.

(+1: what does Shepard smell like?)

Vanilla and heat sinks

#long post #i spent as much time editing this as i do my fanfics please help me i am mentally ill lol #december shepard #shepard

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willowistic22 · 1 year

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Hi hello can I request a rant about ikeshot 👀 Anything you want like headcanons and stuff I'm begging pls I'm so starved for ikeshot content you're literally the only person here talking about them

Ikeshot. Let’s talk abt them.

Since you didn’t really specify what topic you want me to go over abt them i’ll just give you my general thoughts in regards to them and just specific general details i like to consistently characterize them when thinking of au’s and such.

Firstly abt Hotshot. He’s Korean-American in my opinion. There wasn’t really any specific actor that inspired this hc (not even the korean newsies cast, i don’t really know that cast that well) but i feel it fits him perfectly. He was born in Korea to Korean parents and then moved to the states for both canon and modern era (i hv no clue if there were any Korean immigrants in New York in the time where newsies take place and no i hv no interest in finding out whether that’s historically accurate<3). I like to think he’s the youngest. He has 12 older sisters. Idk it just feels fitting to me. His actual name is Park Ryung-Gu and i’m following the usual Korean naming rule so Park is his family name and his given name is Ryung-Gu (idk how to explain how to properly pronounce it other than like saying ‘young’ but with an R at the front followed by ‘goo’. Also i’m not very adversed with Korean naming and culture in general so there might be a few errors i make despite alr doing some light research. Srsly i ended up watching a kdrama compilation just to find out how to pronounce that name If anyone reading this can correct me then feel free to drop an ask).

Seeing that he had lived his majority of his childhood in the states, he’s considered the most fluent english speaker in his family. He likes helping his mother cook especially when she’s making kimchi. Man loves kimchi and can live off of eating that one single dish for his entire lifetime. He likes tiny hamsters but also big dogs. He actually likes a lot of k pop but can’t dance to save his life. Also one of his fav k pop boy band back when he was younger made him question his sexuality. His main sport is basketball but he come from swimming parents so it’s important that he knows how to swim well, thus he was able to reach the six foot mark by the time he reaches sophomore high school and ended up growing to 6’6. He’s good friends with Spot and Albert (i hc albert moving to Brooklyn at around age 10 before moving back to Manhattan for middle school so). He’s usually the more reserved calm and collected friend and dare I say the tired friend. Not to be confused as the mom friend bcs that’s Spot. Anyways. In some au’s Hotshot to me is a pharmacist or a beauty chemist. Whatever it is, he majored in a chemistry field for college bcs he’s best at chem class back in high school. It just clicks to him for some reason compared to other subjects like biology or economics.

Ok now for Ike. He’s younger than Mike by like 13 minites and Mike holds that over him bcs older brother duty™️. However Ike is taller than Mikd by like 1.5 inches which he holds over him bcs younger brother duty™️. Pretty sure it’s alr widely known that their names are Michael and Issac so yeah i stand by that fanon but i personally think their last name is Alvarez. In some au’s i hc them hving a little sister a year younger than them while other times i don’t. They are Cuban-American. Their parents along with their siblings are Cuban immigrants and gave birth to the twins in America. Ike is autistic while Mike is neurotypical. Throughout his childhood, Ike struggles a lot with sound and touch and regulating his emotions in general but he was mostly non verbal in his earlier years. The only other person he talked to back then was Mike up until like when he’s 8 or so was when he started getting better at his speech. Their mother in short isn’t the best person to be a mother. Safe to say it was for the best that their parents divorced when they were ten.

Ike was considerably the more reserved one between him and Mike but that doesn’t mean he’s not considered a troublemaker bcs in reality he still is. Despite still being able to joke around, he’s quite uptight. When he’s trying to regulate his anger he usually turns to boxing which is smth his father taught him back when he found out the twins were being bullied in elementary school. It serves as a great sport but also a great outlet to let out his anger. He’d punch a punching bag or ask Mike to spar with him. He’d dare to say that without boxing he might still not know how to regulate his anger in his adult years. However he’d say his main sport was soccer since that’s what he played in school teams. That does turn Ike to be a bit feisty, especially when he’s being disrespected. He doesn’t always go for the first punch, only as an act of self defense. Anyways, i hc him majoring in some sort of engineering field. Like he’d get a phd to research environmental engineering (renewable energy and all that stuff). He loves to learn actually and has an interest in technology + environment. He also loves cats. He has a brown cat named bear.

Now how did they ended up together you may ask? They met as a friend of a friend of a friend. Sorta. So while obtaining their bachelors degree, Ike has had bad luck with relationships. All the guys he’s ever liked are… terrible to say the least. He swears off dating until he gets his bachelors. Around his senior year, his good friend racetrack higgins just so happen to have a boyfriend from brooklyn named Spot who was also good friends with Race’s best friends and also Ike’s good friend named Albert. Spot and Albert also had a friend named Hotshot. One night when they were all going out to celebrate them nearly graduating, Ike and Hotshot met for the first time. Ike wld be lying if he said he didn’t find Hotshot to be attractive and Hotshot can’t deny he thought Ike was cute. However nothing happened and they only ever met every now and them in a big friend group setting. And ike was true to himself when he says he’ll put a hold on dating until he gets his bachelors (talk abt academic validation lolz definitely not self projecting here) in the middle of them obtaining their master’s degree, things start to escalate between them. They actually started seeing each other on their own and hv a fun time. When they finally gotten around to a confession (after being pushed by their friends to do it ofc) they started going out and took things slow to see where this was heading. As it turns out, they were a perfect match and ended up becoming more confident and srs with each other.

Hotshot and Ike are both reserved in their nature. Mostly calm and collected but can last in a fight if provoked. They’re not the most sociable person and it takes awhile for them to come out of their shell. So meeting and being comfortable with each other was great. Ike likes that despite the strength Hotshot displays, he is still kind and gentle to others. He’s very caring and sensitive. He gives Ike a sense of peace and security. He also gives the best hugs. Hotshot adores Ike for how careful he is at everything and how supportive he is. Ike is loyal and kinder than he lets himself believe. Ike always tries to better bcs he never really thought he was very great at displaying his affection when really Hotshot feels plenty loved by him. He loves how smart he is and how fun he can be when he’s comfortable but will also defend him till the end when he’s being wronged. He gives Hotshot a sense of comfort and warmth. He’s also feisty which is smth Hotshot finds to be quite cute in an affectionate way.

Ya so uhh… this was kinda messy but i appreciate the ask dude. Hope you like it:)

#if only i can just wrige faster #and hv more time #i cld get this one multi chapter fic out #and feed us ikeshot stans #damn college admission seasons #newsies #ikeshot #ikeshot newsies #ike newsies #hotshot newsies #headcanons

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fortunemars · 4 months

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Random thought:

Aphmau Mulan au

Aphmau is Mulan and she runs away from her family (who I would love to be some goofy characters lol like imagine Brendan + his wife [they have horses too!!] But idk anyone who wouldn't be important to her actual arc outside of the home, maybe Donna and Logan) to fight in her fathers place* in the war between phoenix drop and okhasis.

*maybe if Donna and Logan are the parents then Logan was worried abt going out to fight bc he'd be revealed as a werewolf and yk how people are ... Donna and Logan have a fight cause Donna doesn't want him to go but Logan doesn't want the soldiers to come and take him away in front of aphmau who I'd imagine is remake!aphmau aka very clueless and very socially unaware. Aphmau hears this and though she doesn't know how to fight, she decides to leave because she feels guilty for being such a problem to them. She always wants to help, she wants to make people feel better, and she'll do anything for the people who care for her.

Anyway, aphmau leaves w/horse and mushu (character tbt*) tracks her down and goes "hey bro, maybe don't do THAT" and aphmau (after attempting to murder mushu) goes "I'll do what I must! This land and it's people has given me more than I can give back, I need to do this for them!" And mushu goes "well okay that's fine ig, ill teach you what you need then!"

*would be really funny to have Dante here, don't know why but he's the right amount of "girl are you crazy???" And "i will do anything to protect you" for this role. Anyone else have a good idea?

The two scramble to the army spot (maybe brightport?) And shit hits the fan. I have a weird amount of ideas for this considering I'm not planning on writing it so feel free to steal the idea or add to it!!!

Questionable character list:

Mushu: Dante (?)

Mulan: aphmau

Mulan mom + dad: Donna and logan

Mulan's horse: aphmau's horse in the "I got turned into a werewolf pup (gone wrong)" episodes (the one that Garroth's horse makes fun of)

The cricket: I'm considering making the cricket just. Be a cricket. For the funnies. Even better? A hamster...

Li Shang: this one I'm debating, ig it's up to what ship you like?? Personally Garroth, Aaron, and Laurance could all work here, its up to the dynamic you want.

Shan Yu: Zane... But also maybe shad (lmao shad yu) because either could work!

#aphmau mcd #aphmau #aphmau minecraft diaries #crossover #mulan

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girltomboy · 6 months

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Having a pretty sweet and relaxing time at my parents' house. Taking some time off to visit them was a good idea. Their new house looks and feels lovely, although the yard/fence/general exterior are not yet totally finished (obviously the interior was a priority so they can move in lol) which was a bit disappointing because I expected to spend a lot of time sitting outside in the sun 😭 but those are just my own selfish delusions, the weather is gloomy anyway so the best option is to sit inside and revel in the comfort and safety of the house. I thrifted a cute Sailor Moon hoodie (I've never watched Sailor Moon lmao) and a sweatshirt in the exact shade of blue I've been looking for. I also got a pretty & comfy wind jacket in a sky blue shade, a Minolta vintage film camera that only cost me 6 euros, and some modelling clay (been wanting to make a little hamster for my coworker 😁). I miss hanging out with my boyfriend for hours - lack of privacy is preventing me from doing that, but I'm having a nice time with my parents too.

I've been having these super weird dreams ever since I got here, literally every night. And not to sound weird, but hear me out: I think it's because of the mirror that's facing the bed in my parents' new extra bedroom. Like, I did read a lot about room arrangement and how the mirror placement will influence the mood of the room, but that didn't really apply to me much, because there was also a mirror hanging on the wall facing my bed in my childhood bedroom, AND one "behind" the bed, and that hasn't caused me any weird sleep experiences. Maybe the two mirrors facing each other and sandwiching the bed cancel out the bad feng shui? BUT I also have a mirror facing my bed at my apartment, and generally I'm fine, save for a few weird dreams every now and then. That's just me and my brain. But here my dreams have been wild and weird ever since I arrived lol. And a lot of them are related to the things I see and read during the day - unusual for me. Normally my dreams are super random.

Anyway, enough about sleep and dreams. Today in my waking hours I will be reading, maybe doodling a bit, rummaging through some boxes and bags for my old college stuff - books, notebooks, and other objects, and also going outside to chill. I realized I barely went outside ever since I got here (the absence of a fence will do that) and I briefly walked to the back of my parents' yard this morning while on a call with my bf, and it was pretty pleasant, especially thanks to the walnut tree that shed a lot of leaves and basically created this bed of leaves curtained by the bare branches hanging low. It was so cozy and fresh.

Btw my parents went to church and returned saying my aunt asked about me, so I told them she should come over (no one came to visit ever since they finished the house, which is bizarre; apparently my stepdad's brother and his wife - my aunt - were taken aback by how similar it looks to their own house, which is true to an extent, but it feels like such a petty reason to refuse a visit to your BROTHER'S NEW HOUSE, considering you are supposedly on good terms no beef? 💀) and my parents were like "No, you should come to church this afternoon". I reminded them that I don't have any "nice" (AKA acceptable by the church's unspoken & unwritten superficial standards 😛) clothes here, to which they (my mom) replied "then wear your jeans"??? Lmao I mean in any other context this would be reasonable, I've seen people come to church in casual clothing and it's a normal thing for someone who just wants to go to church, it should be common practice. But unfortunately the people in this church turn attendance into a fashion show & contest, gossip fuel, and ego stroking party. And I really don't want to gather like any attention whatsoever from anyone there tbh. And there's also this tiny detail called ummm I don't want to go 👁️👄👁️ so yeah terrible idea. I told them I don't feel comfortable with that suggestion, so they dropped it for now. So I'm just gonna go about my day.

#gaining some weight has helped me grow out of all the church clothes i still had here 💪#and im also sexier like win win win wins on all fronts here

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blue-eyed-bloodstains · 11 months

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What is the most annoying noise you can think of? other people’s dogs barking all hours day/night, loud equipment especially like lawnmowers and stuff, baby talk (like adults doing it, not the actual baby), loud as fuck creaky doors/floors when trying to be quiet...

When you dance to a song do you dance more with your head or your hands? head

Do you like the feeling of flour? not really

Do you feel the water in a pool before you get in, or do you dive right in? always feel and slowly wade in

Last time you walked around naked, or in a towel? been a long time

Have you ever switched names with a friend, and made someone believe you? no

Have you ever touched a squirrel? no but my fiance wants to and wants to own one :P

Do you have a fear that’s sort of uncommon? the dark...reason why I say it’s uncommon is for people my age (31 aka adults) it’s more common for kids and they usually grow out of it. mine is a literal like panic attack level phobia/fear.

Have you ever had your hands stuck together by glue, or something else? I’ve had em tied together ;) but no

Whats better, candles or incense? depends on the mood. love both and both have really good scents

How often do you make simple spelling mistakes? barely ever I’ve always been an ace at spelling and grammar

Do you know anyone with a common sounding name but its spelled differently? yeah a few...Jon without the H, Ronni without an E at the end, Alexzandra with a Z...

Which situations are you usually in, when u tend to zone out, or space out? a lot actually cause my mind goes a mile a minute and distracts me easily or times when I’m triggered and distract myself by tuning out as much as I can...

In your school which was higher most of the time, the students or grades? lol I didn’t really know many people so I’m sure they were all partying but I wouldn’t know personally, so grades

What letter does the state you live in start with? P

Whens the last time you’ve smelled a skunk? it’s been awhile but we have a lot of wildlife around here so you’ll smell em occasionally while driving

How many pets have you had in your life time? oh god okay...umm 2 garter snakes, 2 hamsters, 3 guinea pigs, 2 parakeets,1 hermit crab, 3 cats, 2 dogs. and rarely ever were there that many all at once together, most were always split timing and places

Which teacher was the most hated in school? nine times out of ten? everyone hated the vice principal or principal...sometimes office staff. but most of the actual teachers were cool as shit for the most part

Which parent do you get your eyes from? mom

Do you currently have some kind of alcohol in your fridge? unfortunately yes, half a case of his beer which I CANNOT TOUCH. PERIOD. and it’s driving me fucking nuts.

What kind of headphones do you prefer? earphones, I’ll rarely wear noise cancelling headphones to really block out music more than earphones do but usually earphones especially in public.. headphones are always at home.

Whats the last thing you had to take responsibility for? the usual...being a fuck up that should be dead a lonnnng time ago...

Do you ever untie your shoelaces, or do you just slip your foot in? I rarely wear sneaks with laces, usually have slip ons but when I do have laces, I untie em when taking em off and tie em when putting em on

Do you have anything on your fridge? umm a few magnets, nothing on top of it

If you added three years to your age, how old would you be? 34

Whats the cutest pair of pj’s you own? I really don’t have PJs, especially like a set of em...usually just wear a shirt and boxers to bed

How easily do you get grossed out? not by too much, it takes a lot to really turn my stomach

Would you rather be inside, or outside? inside

Have you ever fallen asleep on a trampoline before? no

How often do you roll up your pantlegs when your wearing pants? only while at home and I’m overheating from one of my major illnesses to try and cool off..never in public

#survey #about me #random #bored

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suckitsurveys · 2 years

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What is the most annoying noise you can think of? My brother in law’s voice and the fucking gross throat clearing thing he does.

When you dance to a song do you dance more with your head or your hands? I do everything with my hands, including talking and dancing.

Do you like the feeling of flour? Sure.

Do you feel the water in a pool before you get in, or do you dive right in? I like to test it out.

Last time you walked around naked, or in a towel? Yesterday after I showered.

Have you ever switched names with a friend, and made someone believe you? I think once in grade school we tricked a sub.

Have you ever touched a squirrel? I don’t think so...I know I touched a variety of rodents/small animals once at a wildlife show. I can’t remember if there was a squirrel. I do know I pet a skunk and a racoon though!

Do you have a fear that’s sort of uncommon? Not really.

Have you ever had your hands stuck together by glue, or something else? Yes.

Whats better, candles or incense? I like both.

How often do you make simple spelling mistakes? I’m very clunky when I type, so I make a lot of typos, but I catch them like 95% of the time.

Do you know anyone with a common sounding name but its spelled differently? I can’t think of anyone.

Which situations are you usually in, when u tend to zone out, or space out? Whenever my brother in law is talking.

In your school which was higher most of the time, the students or grades? Haha.

What letter does the state you live in start with? I.

Whens the last time you’ve smelled a skunk? This morning.

How many pets have you had in your life time? Two birds, two mice, a hamster, a dog, 6 cats, some fish.

Which teacher was the most hated in school? I don’t remember.

Which parent do you get your eyes from? My dad’s eyes but my mom’s color.

Do you currently have some kind of alcohol in your fridge? Yes.

What kind of headphones do you prefer? Actual headphones. the ones that go in your ears are so uncomfortable.

Whats the last thing you had to take responsibility for? Something at work.

Do you ever untie your shoelaces, or do you just slip your foot in? I slip my foot in.

Do you have anything on your fridge? Oh yes, a ton of stuff.

If you added three years to your age, how old would you be? 35.

Whats the cutest pair of pj’s you own? I have this tank top and leggings set. The pants are black with purple bats and the shirt is purple with black bats and it says “stay spooky.”

How easily do you get grossed out? Not very.

Would you rather be inside, or outside? Depends.

Have you ever fallen asleep on a trampoline before? Nope

How often do you roll up your pantlegs when your wearing pants? Never.

#surveys

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latefrequencies · 3 years

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HAMSTER DAD PRIDE FLAG

based on the rings i made for my boyfriend and me to celebrate being hamster dads (that is, two guys in a relationship who have a pet hamster, thus making us hamster dads).

the orange is for the hamster, the blue is for being dads, the mint is for love, both between the hamster and the dads and between the dads themselves (or the love of the dad for themself, if this is a single dad situation)

I made the orange version after I made the beige version. the beige is the color of my hamster but i changed it to orange for general use because that’s the classic hamster color. but if you want to use the beige one, you can.

this flag is intended for anybody who identifies as a hamster dad (i.e. a pet dad where the pet is a hamster) but is especially for mlm who are hamster dads, especially mlm in relationships with each other where they see the hamster as their child (as is the case with me and my boyfriend that led me to make this).

this flag is completely lighthearted but since pets do mean a lot to people, and hamsters are a popular pet...maybe someone who’s a hamster dad will see this flag and like it.

#this has been a self related post #pride flags #pride flags: mine #mine #hamster dads #hamblr #gay #mlm #i can make a hamster mom and hamster parent one if anyone likes

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sscoutregimentss · 3 years

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i know we as a collective society believe in gamer! eren supremacy. and yes, this is a good take. however, may i introduce to you: normie/fuckboy/jock eren with gamer/nerd gf. thoughts under the cut (safe for work, pg-13, also slight snk spoilers for season 3 and up!)

see, eren isnt necessarily a fuckboy. in fact, hes very loyal! he doesnt really think that way about any girls or guys except you. but hes popular romantically and had a reputation for sleeping around before he met you (not that theres anything wrong with that but ya know word travels fast across campus). plus, cmon the dude is in a frat, super hot and has a tongue piercing. he cant blame anyone for thinking he is a fuckboy bc he exudes the energy.

you are kind of the complete opposite. you dont really enjoy parties and you keep to yourself. you're a total wreck when it comes to flirting and your kinda oblivious to whenever people like you. you dont have many friends and are a bigger fan of 2d people than 3d.

either way eren finds you so so so cute. he first approached you at one of his frat parties. your roommates convinced you to come after she said that someone (read: connie) had a dance dance revolution mat, but you kinda just stuck around in a corner staring at your cup once you lost them. he looks you up and down-- your outfit was pretty cute, a short plaid orange pleated skirt, dress shirt, orange cardigan and black beret laying neatly upon your head. and your face... he couldn't help himself but try to talk to you. you were really anxious because wahhh scary sports guy you dont know but he was kinda instantly comforting? in a way? and he was freaking pretty. he looked like a final fantasy character--long haired characters were your type. the rest was kind of history.

a lot of people are shocked when they find out your dating bc you two are so different (some people are surprise eren “dates” at all) but no one dares question your relationship when they see how much eren dotes on you. he has so many polaroids of you in his wallet-- from the many arcade dates you bring him on where you decimate him at almost every game, you awkwardly posing in the hentai section of bookstores, or just candids of you being intensely focused on a puzzle in a game. whenever you guys go out to eat and somethings wrong with your meal, he'll send it back (in a polite way, of course, but hes still assertive.) or if you buy like a figurine and its misisng something hes marching up to the cashier stand for you. he always has an arm around your waist or is holding is hand in yours. sometimes you just cling onto his arm and rest your head on it (hes comfy!!!!! and you are always tired) your both pretty clingy, but you get kinda awkward when you two are around people you know so he just kinda subtly holds you as to not make a scene. its nice. hes comfy.

youve got dual monitors, a pc you made yourself, rgb keyboard, the whole nine yards. all your consoles are up to date and you keep a handheld system on you at all times. you spend most your weekends watching anime and movies and tv shows and your shelves are piled high with books and comic books. eren literally does not understand any of it. when you told him you built your pc he goes "you made all those microchippy things? youre soooo smart babe". when you talk about some of your weirder or more complicated animes he nods along but honestly he gets so lost ("so like, lemme get this straight, the kids dad's wife ate his mom?" "yeah but like she was turned into a titan so she didn't realllllly know it was the dads wife, but like she literally walks past this titan shifter so i think she knew." "thats crazy.") and he will never understand the point of otome games when hes literally right there. he actually has a really bad habit of getting jealous of characters you have a crush on but you just find it funny. sometimes he gets an ego boost when they look like him because even if they look like him he is actually real so they can suck it.

hes rlly supportive tho. erens a rlly passionate person and he loves you a lot so he pours a lot of passion into what you do. if you are into esports/fps games hes cheers you on all the time and does all the raging for you ("BABE THAT GUY IS STREAM SNIPING! HES STREAM SNIPING YOU HEY ASSHOLE STOP CHEATING OFF MY GIRLFRIEND" "eren he cant stream snipe me because i dont stream" "oh i thought that just meant cheating"/"WHAT DID YOU JUST CALL HER?" "eren its okay i can just report him" "NO NO LET ME AT HIM IF HE WANTS TO CALL YOU A BITCH I CAN CALL HIM MUCH WORSE" "um guys im gonna mute my mic for a second if you need me text chat") if youre into cozy games he likes to watch you play and gives you ideas on where to put things. like in minecraft he makes you put a second bed for him even though he doesnt play and he helps you name all your pets. you get a little less intense with cozy games so you sit on his lap and he lets his hair down puts his head on your shoulder and points at where you should place stuff. he still rages though? this is eren jaeger we are talking about. ("aw, she wont move to my island." "WHAT? who does that little ugly squirrel think she is? you think youre too good for MY y/n's island? i'll shave your unibrow off. then we'll see what island will want you" "leave hazel alone! shes cute!"/"dude that hamster guy with the glasses looks like armin" "graham? what? armin doesnt even wear glasses" "no no look at it more" "oh shit youre right") rpgs/otome games are kinda a wild card with how he acts. if its an otome game and the character looks like him he is more into helping you out because it reaffirms to him that you find him good looking but otherwise he is just sulking and calling them annoying ("princess y/n... i know im just a servant, but i want to be with you forever!" "pft. get a load of this guy. clingy much?" "its romantic! youre jealous.")

one of his favorite things to do with you is cuddle and watch anime. usually he lies his face on your thighs or chest while watching and you play with his hair or he holds you in his chest and you play with one of his hands while the other goes behind his head. he grew up on some of the classics like naruto sailor moon one piece pokemon and dbz but he never got super into it until he started dating you. you put him on to soooo many good shows (cartoons, anime, and live action) hes both a crier and he is a get-angrier(?). he gets mad on characters behalfs and you have to pause the show so he can rant about how annoying someone is or he feels so bad for someone so he has to take a minute because hes tearing up. he likes slice of life anime because the friendships <3 theyre so wholesome and they remind him of him armin and mikasa but he also likes shounen because it is entertaining to watch fights. he gets really into them actually. he also has this really bad habit of whenever there is a character with no parents or a dead mom he goes "oh same" or "welcome to the club buddy" under his breath. when theres a cute couple in an anime you both like guys get matching keychains of them unless one of them dies because he thinks its bad luck. his favorite animes are haikyuu, your lie in april and code geass.

you are equally supportive of erens volleyball career. you know all the rules because sports anime and you actually find yourself really liking it in 3d as well (it is lacking in bromance and screaming but you let it slide). you go to all his games and he always texts you before his practices. has a habit of kissing you before games and one day after he kisses you go "gg ez win" as a JOKE but then they like decimate their long time rival marley university and get into nationals (is that a thing for volleyball idk sports) so hes convinced its because you did your "gamer magic". now every time after getting his good luck kiss he interlocks your pinkies and you go "gg ez win" and he goes “yes.” because to this day he doesnt know what it means (he thinks googling it is like breaking the magic)

okay im gonna stop while im ahead BECAUSE I COULD TALK ABOUT THIS ALL DAY I MIGHT JUST GO AHEAD AND WRITE SOME ONESHOTS....

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captainshadowgirllostfan · 2 years

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I’m sorry Young Sheldon’s lack of continuity and it’s excuse of Sheldon just didn’t know, misunderstood the situation, and was just basically wrong about everything will always annoy me. Why you ask? Because the moments where he becomes fragile, where he breaks down and spouts out some childhood tidbits of his are so genuine and seemingly traumatic for him, that I’m like seriously?

You’re just going to sidebrush the fact that this character seemed bothered that he could never relate to his father because his father wanted him to be into football, hunting, and archery when he would’ve preferred to do science.

You’re going to sidebrush the arguments his parents had that he listened to but apparently “misunderstood” when his dad was shooting up his mother’s china or when his mother prayed for the will to not grind up glass in his father’s own meatloaf?

You’re going to sidebrush the fact that his mother said that his father once fought a bobcat for a stick of liquorice?

Or the fact that his father after getting angry at the Dolphin’s win, wanted to shot the television and actually did. (I hope this gets shown in Young Sheldon).

Or how Sheldon used to cry after hearing his parents argue and how his mother admonished his father to stop yelling because Shelly’s crying and George Sr answers “He’s upset because his name is Sheldon”.

Or how Missy mentions that Sheldon created a Death Ray against the neighborhood kids who used to pick on him but instead pissed off the neighbor’s dog (I believe this might’ve been off-handedly mentioned in Young Sheldon though when Georgie asks one of the neighbor’s to buy a snowglobe and again when Mary confronts Brenda and Herb about their dog and Brenda mentioned I think the Death Ray)

Or how he messed with her Easy Bake oven and it fizzled out her eyebrows so that her mom had to scribble on eyebrows when she entered the second grade (the series happens a bit later when Sheldon is 9 years old so I guess this could be excused but god that screen rant article annoyed the hell out of me).

Or how he created a CAT scanner and tried to use it on her hamster Snowball but ended up killing Snowball and suffering radiation burns. How about that saying that came about after that incident, “Not a Snowball’s chance in a CAT scanner”. That saying is NOT even mentioned in the entire series!!!

Or how he tried to bring free electricity in his own neighborhood only for the Feds to come and ruin his project... (though actually I think they did try to make an episode... an episode probably exist of this actually so there’s at least that)

Or how he messed with the staircase for an experiment and broke his father’s clavicle.

And how he had to go to boarding school (which was never shown in Young Sheldon. It just shows him going to high school with his older brother).

Or how their dog Lucky got run over by a truck.

Or how Sheldon asked for a centrifuge for his birthday and got a dirt bike instead and was so upset about it that he came to hate birthdays. They don’t even show him hating birthdays! Just that he didn’t want to attend a birthday party. What about his own birthday? His and Missy’s?

Am I missing anything else? Please be free to add more if anyone can think of anything.

The point is, Young Sheldon is a good show, but it sucks as a prequel in my opinion. It’s retconning so much.

Exhibit 1, Sheldon’s family which is hinted to be poor IS NOT POOR. They are middle-class.

Exhibit 2, young Sheldon for some strange reason is dressed up like he’s a young version of Bill Nye or Urkel instead of the superhero tees that’s shown throughout the series and we know how neurotic scientist does not like change. Why is he dressed up like a middle-schooler as an adult but like a grown up (a dorky grown up) as a child?

Exhibit 3, George Sr is shown to drink a lot but no where does it indicate that his drinking is causing problems to the family aside from the fact that it’s eating their finances. It’s hinted that George Sr’s drinking has caused problems in his marriage with how much Mary wanted him to stop. In Young Sheldon, Mary barely tries to do anything about George Sr’s drinking.

Exhibit 4, Mary in Big Bang seems exasperated by Sheldon’s neurotics, in Young Sheldon, she indulges them (though it is likely she changes her methods of dealing with Sheldon later on...)

And again like I mentioned, it doesn’t bother to show the scenes mentioned by Sheldon. Instead it deliberately tries to make it like he’s got his personal memories wrong. He. The guy with the eidetic memory who can remember what people wear and Penny’s menstrual cycle and also when Howard and Leonard made a pact to never date Priya. Like wth is with this show. I’m sorry as a Big Bang fan...Idk how you can like Young Sheldon without ignoring the fact that it’s a prequel. Because it’s a great show, but it sucks as a prequel.

#anti-Young Sheldon #Young Sheldon #Young Sheldon is great when you watch it as an AU #The story is great #but it sucks in continuity #tooo much retcons #this is just not my Sheldon Cooper #Young Sheldon is just boring #I mean as a person #the show is great #Mary Cooper #Missy Cooper #George Sr #George Jr

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The Rooster Sunrise motel and the roots of the narrative at the sunset of the story. A masterclass in Dean characterization

If I didn’t care / more than words can say / if I didn’t care / would I feel this way? / If this isn’t love / then why do I thrill? / And what makes my head go round...

This song plays as Travis comes in to check at the Rooster Sunrise motel - late in the night, later than the motel technically allows checks in. Metaphorically, this episode happens later than it should. Everything happens later than it should. Dean defeats the monster too late, after it gets Travis dead. They’re running a case when they should actually be preparing for the ultimate showdown against God. Dean tells Sam the truth about Jack too late. The very episode is “out of place” in the season - I mean, purposely so - because it gives us a “old style” hunting case in a season where hunting has lost its original purpose in the narrative but has taken a different purpose, as a sort of caricature of itself, as we’ve discussed about before.

This episode is a last. Okay, we haven’t seen the next few yet, but this episode has a specific function, and it is to be the last traditional hunting case of the show. It’s about the past, and that’s why it can happen now that hunting can no longer exist, not really. This season, we have never had real hunting cases. Fake ones, weird ones, ones that just felt off -- obviously because the story is no longer working the way it did before. Chuck’s “hamster wheel” has been fully revealed, and the narrative can no longer function in the old way.

And this episode happens as... a sunset, actually. Or better, both sunrise and sunset because it shows us, in parallel, the beginning and the end. The first case Dean and Sam work together, and what is essentially the last, at least the last with the traditional formula - a monster of the week, a motel, a gross place, a civilian saved, some choking, some yeeting across a motel room, you know how it goes.

(The elephant in the room is the sun/sunrise imagery across the show, especially relevant after the latest episode brought back the Gas’n’Sip logo, of course, but let’s talk about something else here.)

There are many echoes in the episode. 2x11 Playthings, a case in a hotel that involved children. 11x16 Safe House, where a case was run both in the past, by Bobby and Rufus, and in the present, and involves a monster’s nest and visions. Of course 1x18 Something Wicked, where they defeat a monster that targeted kids after an attempt when they were kids had failed to get rid of the monster for good, and where we also get flashbacks of them as kids. And many other little references and callbacks. A pretty major one (*rubs hands together*) is 10x19 The Werther Project, where something supernatural causes hallucinations that make the victim kill themselves; Dean also almost stabbed himself back then. (Cuthbert Sinclair again... bless.) Oh, well, the pilot itself, where Dean and Sam comment that they make a good team. And then Carver-era secret and lies, of course.

And 14x13 Lebanon. (Yes it gets its own paragraph...) Dean smashing the stone in the ring, making the monster disappear, parallels straight to Sam smashing the pearl, making John disappear. The other monster of the episode is John, of course, who drops the kids in some motel alone while he gets “out of reach” when Dean tries to contact him on the phone (callback to season 1, when they kept trying to call John on the phone and he never answered, not even when Dean was dying or they were in their old house in Lawrence and terrified). John only appears as an invisible figure driving the car, symbolically driving their lives (all this “killing God and getting free” is nothing but a mirror to getting free from John’s influence, right). Callback to 9x07 Bad Boys, where we also see a younger Dean and we also deal with the weight of the lifestyle John placed on him, in an episode that features a literal ghost of a parent. (Heck, we even had Dean stealing food - in 9x07 he was caught by a policeman and brought to the boys’ house, now Caitlin jokes about arresting him.)

As 1x18 Something Wicked, we are presented with how growing up among monsters and hunting cases impacted Dean as a kid. Interestingly, Sam tries to reassure Dean in both episodes, telling him that he was just a kid and he shouldn’t be too hard on himself. In 1x18 he had ruined John’s hunt and put Sam in danger (of course the implication is that John put them in danger by using them as bait and expecting a child - addditionally unaware of what was going on - to watch after a younger child), now that he didn’t tell anyone about the nest because it was too horrifying to share that with other kids (of course, he’d also been a kid and shouldn’t have had to investigate a child-killing monster, so the implication is again that John shouldn’t have left them alone and unable to reach him in case of danger. It’s so telling that the episode has Dean discovering the bodies of dead kids while Sam is playing with another kid - although, of course, the game also turns terrifying soon).

So it’s an episode that has it all: the ghost of John Winchester, the way Dean’s parentified role impacts negatively his relationship with Sam (the episode establishes a connection between Dean shielding Sam from the horror of the monster’s nest and Dean essentially shielding Sam from the horror of the latest Jack news, it’s always about Dean feeling the weight of a responsibility to Sam because he’s Sam’s caretaker, even if he ostensibily mentions Billie’s plan and stuff as the reason of his silence), and of course the theme of FEAR.

I’ve been screaming this from rooftops pretty much since I’ve been here on tumblr - fear is the interpretative key to Dean’s character. Since season 1. Since the beginning. (You’re scared. It’s okay. I understand. See, when I was your age, I saw something real bad happen to my mom, and I was scared, too.) Many posts have been written about how anger is a secondary emotion, when the narrative ostensibly had Dean be “angry”. Dean has dealt with fear almost his entire life, and this episode basically works as an asterisk to the season. Hey, we’re having everyone comment on Dean’s anger! Including Dean himself! He says he doesn’t know why he has these outbursts! Well, we do know. Little reminder here now... he’s scared. And he’s scared because he cares, because he loves so much, and when you keep losing what you love you are scared, scared of losing more and more, stuck in a hamster wheel of losing and losing and losing.

In fact, if losing Jack will stop the hamster wheel, he’s fine with it, because as long as they’re stuck in the wheel they’ll lose Jack again anyway, they keep losing everything over and over, Jack and Cas and everyone. In this episode he mentions funerals of hunters, friends, how they couldn’t even attend all the funerals of people they were close to. There were so many. They’ve always been so surrounded by horror and fear and death. He just wants it to stop. (Of course the plan cannot work, just like the immersion therapy method didn’t work for Travis. Well, poor Travis’ idea of facing his fears to overcome his trauma worked very well on paper, just like Billie’s plan seems to be the best option on paper, but we still have a few episodes still to see...)

This episode is an exploration of the motives of Dean’s behavior, and it spells them out very clearly. John’s abuse and neglect, the forced parentified role he had to take towards Sam since a too-early age, the nightmarish horrors he had to see (while shielding Sam from, which reminds me of the infamous scene about Max’s childhood...), the neverending chain of losses with its baggage of fear.

Dean wants - needs - to defeat Chuck, just like Travis needed to face his fears and overcome his trauma. Because Chuck means hamster wheel. And the hamster wheel isn’t just a theoretical lack-of-free-will thing. It’s not just about a philosophical/theological concept. It’s about the very real cycle of horror and fear and loss that Dean has spent his entire life in. It’s about a pile of dead children, both a metaphor for his brutally ended childhood and a very concrete example of what has been haunting him for so long.

His apparently “okayness” with Billie’s plan is not out of a revenge thing or lack of forgiveness towards Jack (of course we can add millions of words about Dean’s relationship with Death). His okayness with killing Amara is... well, only partly about punishing her for, as he sees it, toying with him. His anger is because he feels so much. If I didn’t care / more than words can say / if I didn’t care / would I feel this way?

#my spn thoughts #spn meta #spn 15x16 #spn spoilers #dean and trauma #dean and john #dean and fear #dean and anger #parallels #spn

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lovers alone wear sunlight (chapter 1)

Summary: Adrien is drowning in loneliness, losing two friends in a matter of weeks and feeling like his lady is getting farther away from his reach each day. Ladybug is drowning in responsibilities, crumbling under the duties of a guardian and Shadow Moth’s relentless attacks. Maybe, they can offer a safe place to each other. Post-Queen Banana.

Notes: It’s my first time participating in a fandom event like this, I’m excited to fulfil these prompts. Since I don’t have a lot of time, I picked ten prompts to write a ten-chaptered fic and I’ll post the chapters on the day of each prompt. Happy Ladrien June for us! Today’s prompt is Day 1: Private Island. @ladrienjune

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When Adrien was young, he dreamed of going to a private island.

It started when he was around six and watched Lilo and Stich for the first time on family movie night. He remembered relating to Lilo a lot even then, because he also didn't have many people to play with and that the red-headed girl reminded him of Chloé, his best friend, when she was in one of her worst moods. He remembered pestering his parents for months to get him a dog that he could name Stitch, so much that his mother hushed him away when his father’s mouth drew a thin line and how he made Chloé cry when he said her “badness level was unusually high for someone her size” after she threw a tantrum because of a grass-stained dress. But most of all, he remembered begging to go to the beach.

“Please, mom, please.” Adrien had insisted to his mother for, perhaps, the thousandth time that day. “Why can’t we go to the beach?”

“Sweetheart, don't whine.” His mother had admonished softly, lips quirking into a smile and placing her warm hand on top of his head. “Your father and I just think you’re too young to travel.”

“But I just wanna go to the beach with you!”

“And you will. After our trip to Tibet, I’ll talk to your father, okay? We won’t even go to just any beach. My family has a private island we can go to on vacation,I’ll even invite your aunt Amelie and you cousin Félix to come!”

“Promise?”

She had laughed then, a sound that was fading more and more from his memory. “I promise.”

He had spent the whole time parents were way planning as much of the trip as he could, with Nathalie. They had been in a good mood when they came back, but said they would be too busy to travel soon. But his father was content to promise him the trip once enough time passed and his mother started to help him plan too, even scheduling a date that was sooner than Adrien thought it would be. This would be good for her, he had thought, the sun would help her look less pale than she was lately. It wasn’t meant to be, though, as a week before it his mother simply collapsed, coughing and wheezing and gasping for air so desperately that Nathalie had to drag him to his room, face red and wet, as his father went to the hospital with her.

And now she was gone and he didn’t even know how.

It doesn’t matter right now. Adrien shook away those thoughts, focusing on the task at hand and setting down the drink on the picnic blanket.

“So, Plagg, what do you think?” He asked his kwami, spreading his arms out to the decorations.

“I think it’s dumb.” Plagg said, floating lazily by his side. “Not even a cheese platter? If I was your girlfriend, I would just leave.”

“Good thing you’re not her, then. And she’s not my girlfriend.”

“If you say so, kid.” He didn't need to look to know that the kwami was rolling his eyes. “I’ll be in my sanctuary if you need me.”

With that, Plagg fell into his cheese-filled trash can.

“Good night for you then.” Adrien called out, chuckling a little.

“Well, good night to you too, handsome.” He hears a good-naturedly voice say from behind him, turning around quickly.

There stood the love of his life, his lady in red and black. Thankfully, it didn’t seem like she noticed Plagg, too busy taking in his room. He had dimmed the light in the room, but only enough so it made the place look cozier, and spread out a blanket on the ground with bowls of fruit and two cups filled with clear liquid and topped with colorful little umbrellas on it. The sound of crashing waves was coming from the computer, mirroring what happened in his heart whenever he saw her.

“My hero.” He breathed in awe, loving the way her cheeks pinked as he did. Then, a small smirk grew on his face. “Like what I did to the place?”

“What is all this for?”

“Well, you said Shadow Moth’s attacks were stressing you out.” Adrien said as he motioned for her to sit down on the blanket. “So I, your emotional support civilian, improvised a private island here for you. Just drop your worries and enjoy a nice Agreste-sponsored fruit bowl.”

She giggled and he wished he could file it away in his mind and repeat it over and over again.

“Isn’t it a bit much, Adrien?” She said, picking up her cup and fiddling with the little umbrella. It was something she did a lot, he found out from spending time with her somewhere she could let her guard down, occupying her fingers with anything. Her brilliant mind didn’t rest.

“Too much? I didn't even bring out the sand yet.” He said as he sat near her, relishing her chuckle. He relished joking around with her. His sense of humor was, of course, her favorite thing about him. “But really, nothing is ever too much for you, Ladybug.”

Her eyes softened. “Well, we can’t let all this go to waste, can we?”

Ladybug picked up her cup and raised it in his direction, so he mimicked her and they toasted before sipping their drinks. She made a surprised sound.

“It’s coconut water!” She said, taking another sip. “It’s really good.”

“I thought it would fit the theme better.” Adrien said, grabbing a piece of mango and chewing carefully. It wasn’t everyday he could eat something out of his diet plan. “I’m happy you like it.”

“Honestly, this makes me nostalgic. Not that I have actually been to a private island or even somewhere we can just eat tropical fruit, but I haven’t gone to the beach in years. If I ever want to swim, if I even have time, I just go to the pool.”

He remembered the last time he saw her swimming, doing nervous laps in her aquatic form around the pool they went to after their disastrous movie session, trying to pretend everything was fine. It was hard to picture that stressed out Ladybug with the one stuffing her cheeks with fresh pineapple on a blanket in his room.

“I have never been to one, too.” Adrien confessed. “I don’t have a lot of time for swimming, imagine going to an actual beach. Last time I even went to a pool was because of a commercial shoot and the producer tried to pretend the pigeons he got were doves.”

“Ah, Mr. Ramier’s last akumatization. I didn’t know you were shooting something there.”

“Yeah, it wasn’t going anywhere, though. But at least I got to see Marinette, my friend from school, so that was nice.”

“Ah- yeas, I mean, yes, nice.” Ladybug said, wiggling like she did every time he mentioned Marinette. Trying to not give away that they know each other, maybe. “So, what made you think of ‘private island’ when trying to get a relaxing idea?”

“Well, when I was young, I got completely obsessed with Lilo and Stitch, it drove my parents absolutely insane. I wanted to got to the beach so badly that my mother promised that we would go to her family’s private island for our vacation. But she got sick, so we never went.”

Ladybug didn’t say anything, just offered her hand to him, which he took and squeezed. They spent a few minutes in silence, just listening to the sound of crashing waves.

“Maybe we could go after, you know, everything.” Adrien said.

“Go to the private island?”

“Yeah, after you and Chat Noir defeat Shadow Moth. We can go and live off fruit for a month.”

“I don’t know if I can live off fruit for that long.”

“We can think of something else.”

“I could use lucky charm and get us a fishing rod.”

“I’ll learn to cook fish then.”

“Deal.” They laughed quietly after this.

“We can get a hamster too.” Adrien said, eyes shining as he looked at her. He knew it was probably never going to happen, but was glad that she was humoring him.

“Do you think a tropical island is a place for a hamster?”

“Anywhere is a place for a hamster if we give it enough love.”

“Fair enough. Name ideas?” His mind flashed back to brunch at the Dupain-Chengs and a wailing Marinette shouting about a hamster named Loneliness.

“No abstract concepts?”

“It would be hard to call it that, can I shorten it to Nac?” He bumped her shoulder and she failed to contain her cheeky grin. “Okay, so Melancholy and Vindication are out.”

“Were you really considering these names?”

“Sometimes. Do you have any suggestions?”

“Hummm… Let’s name it Chat Noir.” She choked on air at this before letting out a few huffs that could be laughter.

“Okay, why would we name it after my partner?”

“So you won’t miss him when you’re there, my- er hero.”

“I might just take him with me then, just so I don’t miss him.” Adrien wondered if he should be happy that she wanted to take Chat Noir or sad that she didn’t want to be alone with Adrien anymore.

He chose happy.

“It would be purrfectly fine with me, my lady.” He teased.

“Nooooo, you sound just like him when you do that.” Ladybug said, dropping her face in her hands. She missed how Adrien froze in place. “Honestly, you would get along a little too well. I don’t know if I want to be your third wheel.”

“You could never be anyone’s third wheel, Ladybug.” He said so earnestly that she stared at him, flushing so much her cheeks matched her suit.

They laid down after that, gazing at the ceiling and listening to the sound coming from the computer. They haven’t let go of each other's hands since that moment, he noticed absentmindedly, but she wasn’t saying anything, so he would enjoy it while he could. It startled him, sometimes, how he felt during these quiet moments. From the beginning, he loved her with the intensity of a thousand suns, like he would burst from how much affection he felt and the only way he wouldn’t explode was by telling her all the time.

He still loved her like that, of course, and some days it overwhelmed him. But what he learned from the last weeks of her coming to his room and just spending time with him: reading while he does his homework, listening to him playing the piano, watching a movie and just resting her head on his shoulder… In those moments, he felt something different, comforting. It was a bit like putting his hand in the sunbeams that Plagg likes to sleep in mid-afternoon, not hot, but a soft-warm that made you feel at ease.

It was funny. Nino teased him at times that he was too nice, so he and Alya started to call him a sunshine boy. Marinette didn't seem to agree much (“What? No, I don’t think you’re like a sunshine, you’re not like the sun at all, I don’t orbit around you all day- I mean, you’re more like a star- wait, no, that’s not what I meant-) and he thought she was right. How could he be anything like sunshine when he was holding a ray of sunlight in the palm of his hand?

“Hey, Ladybug?” Adrien said and only noticed that she had her eyes closed when she opened them. Soon she would have to go home to drop her transformation and let her kwami rest and get back to her mysterious civilian life. But it didn't matter, because right she was here, her hand in his.

“Hum?”

“I thought of a name for our hamster.”

“Not Chat Noir anymore?”

“No. Not Chat Noir anymore.” He said, squeezing her hand. “How about Sunspot?”

She blinked at him sleepy before her face broke into a warm smile.

“I love it, Adrien.”

#ladrienjune #ladrienjune2021 #ladrien #ladybug #adrien agreste #my stuff #lovers alone wear sunlight

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