#my spn thoughts

[norahastuff]

You know what gets me, is that it wasn’t just Dean’s life that Cas saved. I mean, sure he did do that, but even if Dean had died, Chuck could have easily brought him back to keep forcing Dean to live his fucked up story. But by telling Dean all the reasons he loved him, Cas made Dean see the reality of who he really was. Hell, even when Chuck thought he was beaten, he still lay there on the ground smiling, content in the knowledge that Dean was the character he’d always wanted him to be. The ultimate killer.

But Dean had listened to everything Cas said. Not only that, he’d fucking internalised it. That’s not who he was, and nothing Chuck could do would change that. Cas had set him free.

So, yeah. He saved him.

#what a perfect line #jesus #15x18 #15x19 #destiel #november 5th #my spn thoughts #spn

[were-all-idjits-here]

Sam or Dean extremely flustered by badass, couldn’t-care-less-what-you-think-of-me, punk reader in black leather with piercings and tattoos galore

Bonus points for Sam because that’s not really someone you’d expect him to fall for

Also bonus points for Dean cuz that’s also kind of his aesthetic and we usually see him sweeping women with girlier aesthetics off their feet, but not usually a fellow punk

#supernatural #dean winchester #sam winchester #dean winchester x reader #dean winchester imagines #dean winchester headcanon #sam winchester x reader #sam winchester imagines #sam winchester headcanons #supernatural x reader #supernatural imagines #supernatural headcanons #spn #my spn thoughts

[postmodernmulticoloredcloak]

The thing that really gets me? Is that, when you’re watching The Winchesters, you know that it looks and feels like Supernatural would look and feel if Jensen Ackles made it (because it is). And i love it! It’s warm and a mixture of gritty and mystical and lights have a slightly otherwordly glow to them (the glow of unreality and death, with its dream-like quality) and there’s an almost Tolkien-like quality to these abandoned bunkers and objects curated by people who don’t exist anymore and whom anyone hardly remembers, like an ancient civilization that knew how to keep evil at bay but whose memory has almost entirely been lost (the world has changed...). Information is found and shared on paper. It almost feels like the choice of subject, with its 70s setting, is almost an excuse to get rid of screens and online search engines and give Supernatural a vintage feel back, that Americana fairytale flavor it always wanted to have.

And now that I’m typing this out, I’m fully processing that the show is shot as a tale. The story of Mary, John and the others is not simply ‘happening’ in front of the audience’s eyes, it is being told, and it is shot as such! The warmth, the glow, the story-like feeling are there because that’s how the story is being told.

And now I’m having thoughts that inhabit that area between the accident and the purpose of Supernatural’s making. Because as Supernatural progressed, the visual quality of it became colder, brighter, sharper. Information was on the internet, shared on smartphones, with little romanticism left to the whole process. Of course this was due to out-story reasons, but it works in-story too. The story was being told by Chuck in an increasingly controlling, claustrophobic way. And the way it felt lost gentleness, lost charm.

And now Dean is narrating, and suddenly the visuals are very Dean. Soft, warm, intimate. Vietnam looks like Purgatory. The characters look beautiful and graceful. There’s a loving quality to the whole thing. Out-story, it’s Jensen’s love for the show, and the love for the show of all the other people involved in this. The care and respect they have for the show. In-story, it’s Dean’s love for what he’s talking about, his care and respect for the subjects of his story.

It’s only been one episode but I’m already in love with this show.

#my spn thoughts #spn meta #spnwin #spnwin 1x01 #spn

[angelfishofthelord]

spn body horror because cas' body is not a body to him. its something else entirely. he's scratching his back constantly one day and dean is like whats wrong do u have a zit like a giant back zit and when they get to the motel room cas starts scratching even harder and sam is like do you have a rash or smthg like do you need some tea tree oil cream and cas sits down on the bed and jerks his entire spine out and tosses it aside and then lays back with a contented ah. dean throws up

#cas is like ill put it back obviously it was just annoying me rn #sam gingerly picks it up like ok where do i put this now #my spn thoughts #spn body horror #tw body horror #tfw #spn crack

[supernaturalkickparty]

I just think that Sam listened to Stone Sour/Slipknot. I think he connected a lot with House of Gold and Bones volumes 1 & 2.

The bloody angle, the symmetry

Your cheap adhesive isn't holding me

My mouth is a gun I can shoot, I can show you the truth

And I don't need a reason to lie to you

No pun intended, no punishment

If I offended you, you needed it

Ideas are the bombs in your mind, a fissure in time

If you don't have a weapon you can't have mine

I can bleed if I want to bleed

I can fail if I feel the need

This face is my last confession

This life, it feels like a prison

Oh, I'm not afraid

I'm giving into grievances again

You're looking at an absolute zero

I'm not the devil but I won't be your hero

The catatonic, the sacrilege

Your primadonnas are a privilege

My god has a need to react, it's as simple as that

It's better just to settle than face the facts

I can bleed if I want to bleed

I can fail if I feel the need

This face is my last confession

This life, it feels like a prison

Oh, I'm not afraid

I'm giving into grievances again

You're looking at an absolute zero

I'm not the devil but I won't be your hero

One thing that I can't stand

Is when the minutes fight the second hand

I'll waste a lifetime's worth

Just to cling to one more day

No fucking quarter, no premiums

The world is stuck in delirium

Man is a four-letter word, it's really absurd

The hate isn't fake, it's just inferred

Oh, I'm not afraid

I'm giving into grievances again

I'm down to absolute zero

Another zealot with the weight of the fucking world

Oh, I'm not afraid

And I will let you down as I hold you in

You're looking at an absolute zero

I'm not the devil but I won't be your hero

#ash rambles #my spn thoughts #sam winchester #Spotify

[ohnoitsthebat]

SPN fandom asks that @jaytwo sent me. Sorry, bb, I accidentally deleted it the first time :(

fluffy headcanon🌸: Dean gets a cold; the worst one he's ever had. The cold escalates into a flu, leaving Sam to take care of Dean and force him to eat, drink, and take his meds. During this sickness, Dean becomes quite clingy and whiny, and Sam finds himself sleeping in Dean's bed with him every night, holding Dean close to his chest while he runs his fingers through Dean's hair and kisses the top of his head, while they watch an action or horror flick. And although Sam knows that he'll probably get sick, too, he doesn't care, because this allowed him to finally take care of Dean for once.

angsty headcanon☂️: Sam doesn't survive in Red Meat, despite Dean's best efforts. Unable to bring him back (no amount of bargaining or deal making is successful), Dean immediately goes back to the bunker and starts researching the ways he can bring Sam back (like Neil did in Children Shouldn't Play with Dead Things). He ignores all warning and potential consequences, because a life without Sam is not one worth living. And Dean knows that what he brings back won't be Sam, not really, but he doesn't care. He'd rather have this version of Sam than not at all.

crack ship🎡: Dean/Ketch (it's a long story, okay? but the idea of them together cracks me up)

favorite friendship☯️: I want to say Sam/Dean, but I feel like that's too obvious, so I'll say Dean/Benny. I loved Benny, and he deserved better. I wanted him to be close friends with Dean.

#asks #fandom asks #spn #spn asks #thank u so much bb <33333 #spn headcanons #my spn thoughts

[that-one-ao3-writer]

Basically what's happening, right?

#i know im late but let me enjoy #titanic #russia #stock market #supernatural #destiel #spn #never thought i would come back to this but #10k #my friend made me do this

[calibrationneeded]

Dean giggling and twirling the landline cord like a schoolgirl: “no you hang up~”

Cas: “ok.” *disconnects the call*

*uncontrollable Dean sobs*

#idk it’s late #gotta get my Destiel thought out or I’ll explode #supernatural #spn #dean winchester #castiel #destiel #shit post

[ozonecologne]

💖 star walkin 💖

Lil Nas X painted in Photoshop, ~20 hours

#my art #not spn #lil nas x #this took way longer than i thought.... i like the way the textures turned out though!!!

[norahastuff]

There’s a lot to like about The Winchesters, but I think one of the reasons it hits so hard for me is that it solves my biggest problem with the finale. Personally, I don’t have a problem with tragic endings. The season 5 finale of Spn has a tragic ending, and I think it’s a wonderful feat of storytelling. Aside from the fact that 15x20 tried to pretend it wasn’t tragic and tried to make it seem like Sam and Dean standing alone on a bridge in Heaven was a happy ending, what I hated most about the finale was they had to flatten Dean into a two-dimensional caricature of himself to do it. Aside from maybe the revelation that Dean stood outside Sam’s apartment at Stanford for hours trying to psych himself up to go in because he was nervous Sam would turn him away, there was no moment in the episode that Dean felt like the complex, nuanced character we had come to know and love over the past 15 seasons. He had no desires or characterisation beyond pie, car and Sammy. There was no sign of all the growth we’ve seen from him, no hint of his own needs, wants or sense of self. I mean, he wasn’t even allowed to interact with his own heaven before Sam showed up. Even after his death, he was never allowed to have anything that was just his. 

Look, I’ve said all this a hundred times before – if you look at my 15x20 tag, it’s basically just this sentiment repeated over and over again – so why am I saying it again now? Well, because The Winchesters is fixing that. The mission Dean is on is all his. It’s not about Sam, or pie or whatever surface level bullshit that finale tried to boil Dean down to. He’s going back to the past, he’s meddling in something insane because he sees value in it, and in the process going on a journey to understand himself better. His narration makes it pretty clear that through this quest he’s learning to contextualise his own life and feelings better. The past presents the future, after all (full disclosure, that’s an Ugly Betty episode title that I just really loved and use far too often in casual conversation), and one of the biggest hang ups in Dean’s life was that he was given this mythologised version of events and expected to believe them. Mary was this perfect saintly mother who sat at home baking cookies all day before she was brutally, and through no fault of her own, ripped away from them. John was the perfect mild-mannered husband and father who only slid into anger and obsession after he lost his perfect wife. 

Eventually Dean realises that none of that is true. Mary couldn’t cook. She was a hunter. She was involved in the circumstances that brought about her own death. She was a complicated person, and in the end he got the chance to see that knowing the real her, flaws and all, was infinitely superior to believing the white-washed fairytale about the perfect martyr that John created after she died. There’s also the fact that John was never the perfect husband or father, even before Mary’s death. We get maybe one reference to that in Spn, how in Dean’s heaven in season 5 he remembers John and Mary fighting and John moving out for a few days, but not much else. The focus is very much on how John turned into a neglectful parent and an angry man after Mary’s death. But The Winchesters is working hard to dispel that lie. John always had this anger in him. Mary even calls him out multiple times on how he’s using her and their relationship as an excuse to avoid his issues. She straight up uses those words. There are also references to how raising your kids to be soldiers and being their drill sergeant rather than their parent is one of the worst things a parent can do to their child. 

Anyway, as interesting as it is to see all these things addressed in the Spn universe, what’s so damn satisfying is seeing Dean realise it. Dean’s on a mission to learn more about his past. To understand that our parents and where we come from shapes and moulds the people we become, but it doesn’t have to define us forever if we don’t let it. By accepting his past and finding out the truth about who his parents truly were, he can accept himself and move forward, free of whatever baggage that had been dragging him down for so much of his life.

And the greatest part about all of this, is that Dean’s the one driving this story. It’s not God, or his father or even his duty to take care of Sam which dictated so much of his life and his choices before. This is about Dean’s choices and who he is as a person and what he wants. It’s funny because as little as we saw John Winchester in season 1 of Spn, he was very much the spectre hanging over the story, and the search to find him is what drove much of the plot throughout the season. Much of what his sons were doing was in reaction to him. And now in The Winchesters, Dean himself is the spectre that’s been hanging over the season. He’s the one making the big moves and steering the action. He’s the one everyone, friend and foe alike, is looking for. He’s the one who gave John the note and put this whole thing into motion. After the ending of Spn took away so much of his agency and everything that makes Dean Dean, he’s finally getting it back and then some.

I’m excited to see how the season’s going to end, but I’ll forever be happy that this show gave us Dean being his own person again. He’s the one picking the music this time.

#the winchesters #spnwin #my spn thoughts

[destiel-wings]

Dean Winchester & hug dynamic analysis

I was thinking about how whenever Dean hugs someone he's almost always the one hugging the other and how this links to his psychological trauma of always being the caretaker of people, making himself bigger to protect them.

Because that's how Dean sees himself, as a shield for others, and then I thought about how Cas actually is the shield, and he's HIS SHIELD, specifically, the only one who's really there to protect HIM, which is why it hits so much when we see this:

The way Cas wraps his arms around him, trying to protect him with his whole body--that he'd use as a shield and give up in a second if he could spare him from any pain and save him.

(for context: Dean was about to go use the soul bomb on Amara there, it was a suicide mission)

Bobby is another one that hits, he hugs him as the big hugger because he's his father, he loves him and he's actually here to protect him (and Dean LETS him -barely, but he lets him *and Cas* - in a way that he doesn't let Sam)

I watched a compilation of Sam & Dean hugs to check if i was right about it, but it's almost always Dean the big hugger with Sam, except when he's about to die or Sam sees him alive again after losing him.

Even then, Dean mostly tries to hug Sam as the big hugger anyway, with at least one arm, like a way to comfort him, making him feel protected, like his body language is saying "I'm here, I'm okay, I'm still strong, i can still protect you" (because their real father failed and Dean thinks it's his job).

He rarely lets himself be the little one hugged with Sam, unless he's barely conscious. Which is why it kills me so much more now that in this moment (s14, when Dean was going to lock himself in the Ma'lak box cause he was possessed by Michael) and Sam has a desperate breakdown and punches him (to stop him) he forcefully hugs him as the little hugger, the way Dean always kept him, like a way of saying "I still need you to protect me, please don't do this to yourself".

In the scene below he gives Sam his blessing to do a dangerous (possibly suicidal) mission, and one of his arms is down, but the other one tries to stay up--he's forcing himself to do it and he struggles because he still wants to protect him, but (as the seasons progress) he slowly becomes more prone to let go.

So in this view the hug dynamic becomes an indicator of how Dean sees Sam (and himself) and his protector role, how adult and self sufficient he considers Sam, and how much he lets people around him take care of him, lowering his walls and letting himself be hugged.

This is also why i think hugs from characters like Garth or Charlie are so special, because they're just like us: they see Dean and they just know that he needs to be hugged a lot, and that he's not used to it, so they just go for it-- and it's so normal and kind and spontaneous that Dean's just not used to it-- he doesn't know how to respond (especially with Garth, at the beginning, but as the seasons progress, he learns to, and he even initiates the hug eventually).

I love the hugs where they're 50/50 (one arm up, one arm down both), feels like they're equals, both taking care of each other. I feel like with Sam and Dean, this indicates a healthier dynamic, because Dean lets go a little of the role that was imposed to him and manages to see Sam as the strong individual that he is. But the same applies to 50/50 hugs with other characters, like with Cas, where I feel like it testifies how equals they feel in terms of being fighters, there's a show of respect of each other's strength that transpires by the gesture (which is even more astounding considering that Cas is literally a powerful angel).

And just to end on a destiel note, I'd like to note the possessiveness and protectiveness of Dean (rightfully so) whenever he finds Cas after he thought he had lost him, and how that translates into his body/hug language:

#dean winchester #spn #dean winchester character study #spn analysis #dean winchester analysis #dean winchester & hugs #dean studies #destiel #deancas #body language #hugs #dean winchester hugs #castiel #sam winchester #sam & dean #sam & dean dynamics #dean x cas #psychology #my thoughts #my interpretation #my analysis #spn gifs #dean winchester gifs #Youtube #long post #but it's mostly many gifs #no that's not true i also wrote a lot (but it's little paragraphs in between more gifs than the mobile app allows) #(I did it from the website to cheat) #(i hope it doesn't lag too much)

[postmodernmulticoloredcloak]

Random ass post of the day but. Like. The "a few months in hell were actually 40 years for Dean" thing was stupid. A few months of nonstop torture are, like, enough. It's torture. It's torture perpetrated by a demon specialized in torture. In a magical setting where anything is possibile because the victim can't pass out or die since they're already dead. I promise you a few months are enough to be driven to desperation and do anything to make it stop. It's torture. By definition you will do anything to make it stop. That's literally the point.

Making it last for thirty years until he breaks makes it unrelatable to the viewer because of the unrealistic scale. I had not even lived thirty years when I watched season 4. But a person can picture being tortured for months. Being tortured for months 24/7 is a scale a human can comprehend... and plenty enough for a human to psychologically shatter.

(Not even counting the fact that the actual torture was the next stage. The whole point was so make him go through something he could not withstand so he would break and get to the actual stage of the torture process, while making him believe that he was weak for not being able to do something impossible. The non-withstandable nature of the torture was a feature not a bug. You don't need thirty years of that.)

#my spn thoughts #spn

[angelfishofthelord]

dean says sorry you had to spend all that time in the empty and cas goes oh it's ok i'm sure you did everything you could to get me back and sam and dean look at each other

#dean is like i prayed....? #cas goes oh you PRaYeD did you #cas actually wouldn't be bitter about it but i am so #every time cas died there was basically zero attempt to get him back #smh #my spn thoughts

[strawberrryangel]

dog dean afternoon but cas is in it and dean can’t stop following him around. gets all mopey and whiny when cas is gone. whimpers when cas doesn’t give him attention. follows him into the bathroom and cries when cas shuts him out.

#i’m on this episode in my rewatch lmao #my puppyboy dean thoughts are taking over WHO SAID THAT #destiel #supernatural #spn #dean winchester #castiel #spn rewatch #strawbsposts

[sunglassesmish]

awkward family reunions with one person who was presumed dead and another who was resurrected from the dead

#my gifs #destiel #spn #spnedit #spn 12x01 #i have mentioned this before #but before i started watching the show i watched destiel compilation videos #and i watched this in one of them and i thought cas was meeting dean’s girlfriend

[opheliasam]

god he (dean) used to be so different my chest hurts

#early seasons dean was such a complex character who was ultimately good. seemingly careless bad boy who actually cared ! so much ! too much #he was perfect early seasons dean my everything <3 #like this was such a healthy and good conversation im actually breaking out in hives #he used to be so good and sweet and thoughtful !!! he was willing to offer himself up for blame make to make sam see the truth !! #he couldn’t stand for sam being wrongfully sad or guilty he wouldn’t allow for it he needed for him to be okay #later seasons dean would never do that...Especially IF it was his fault like the man fr forgot how to apologise/ take accountability #early seasons spn #early seasons spn my beloved #spn #samdean #sam winchester #dean winchester