#i know im late but let me enjoy

[that-one-ao3-writer]

Basically what's happening, right?

#i know im late but let me enjoy #titanic #russia #stock market #supernatural #destiel #spn #never thought i would come back to this but #10k #my friend made me do this

[taikk0]

the unspoken broflovski family curse

#added the doodle late oops #taikko art #dont ask me what happened to my old sketchy painted ish style when i first started making sp art #did you know?? that i enjoy?? not? hurting??????????? #its south park let me take it easy ugh finally i can draw in a style thats easy rottmnt artstyle kicked my ass #'why is kyles son wearing a different outfit?' i headcanon that kyles daughter is actually wearing hand me downs from him!! #i desperately need confirmed names omfg #I LOVE CHARACTERS WITH BARELY ANY CHARACTER TO THEM!! IT MEANS I CAN DO WHATEVER I WANT!! #me when i get to slap personalities and headcanons on characters that were on screen for less than a minute <3 #i need to read peoples headcanons on them please im so uncreative and i need to eat i am NOT self sustaining #south park #south park art #south park fanart #sp fanart #sp art #sp fandom #south park fandom #south park post covid #sp post covid #post covid #kyle #kyle broflovski #sp kyle #south park kyle #pc kyle #post covid kyle

[kenmaiii]

after two years i finally draw the favorite

#my art #still learning honestly. idk how to explain it but some medias youre so fixated on and obsessed with u instantly want to draw everyone #for me dunmeshi has always been the opposite. series and characters i enjoy sm i cannot bring myself to pick up a pencil #for some reason. it got a lot worse once the anime started airing idk. simply forcing myself to get some of my energy out. in a way #dunmeshi #dungeon meshi #thistle #dunmeshi thistle #thistle dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #>_< series i was into since late 2021. yet u wouldnt know that unless u follow my side twitter account. sowwy ig #i do this with a lot of franchises honestly. cannot bring myself to draw even if i think abt the characters constantly. ie skip to loafer #u will nvr catch me calling this guy sissel sorry. save that name for Mr. Ghost Trick. another thing i. also. dnt talk abt. which i adore #i need to get better at talking abt and expressing myself for the things that i enjoy. ive been wanting to draw laios for a good #while too but im scared. for some reason. u-u should nvr let a white man do that to me honestly. #for now i'll thistle tho. maybe we will get kabru namari or mithrun next from me >_< i have to talk myself into it #i think the closest way i can explain why i cannot bring myself to draw for some series is that i dnt want to mess up somehow #like 'ilu so much [character] what if i cnt draw u the way u deserve even tho i love u sm what if its not enough.' <- leaves it to sm1 else #tbh [scratches head] i prefer the version with less coloring ^-^ but i realize the one thats more colored would get more eyes on it... hm

[awkwardtickleetoo]

Ler!Sapnap Week Day 1 - Antsy

heyyyy……… in the midst of a we’re so over… came an indescribable… we’re so back…. (kinda)

so!! this is a fic for @sleepy--anon ‘s ler!sapnap week!!! woooo!!!! i know it’s a little bit late, but better late than never, right?? and i have two other ones for ler!sap week coming out as soon as i get them finished so it’ll basically be like its on time <3

this is for day 1’s prompt which is antsy!! make sure you check out the original post here, and make sure you show sleepy your love and support for putting this week together in the first place!!! thank you so much sleepy for working so hard to make this a thing, i am very excited to read what you and everyone else wrote, and for you to see what i have planned :D without further ado, let’s get into day 1!!

ler!sapnap, lee!dream, 1.3k words

enjoy!

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“Dream?” Sapnap called out as he walked in the front door of their home, phone camera pointed at the floor.

“Yeah?” Dream’s voice called back to him distantly, a layer of nerves apparent in the word.

“Clay?” Sapnap called again, his tone more teasy and knowing as Dream stepped into the room, a wide smile and anxious expression on his face.

“Oh god…” He grumbled, fidgeting with his fingers and slowly stepping closer to Sapnap.

“He's here,” Sapnap confirmed Dream’s suspicions, making his smile grow wider as he groaned, throwing his hands over his face and bouncing on the balls of his feet. Sapnap chuckled at his reaction, smiling at his already flushed cheeks as he dropped his hands down by his sides and looked over at Sapnap with wide, anticipating eyes. “Are you excited?” He asked, adjusting the camera in his hands, still keeping it pointed at their shoes, not wanting to overwhelm Dream by shoving a camera in his face during such an intense moment, even though he was aware it was recording.

“I am… very nervous!” Dream said, voice high pitched and wavering, taking in a shaky breath and falling into nervous, fluttery laughter afterwards. Sapnap laughed fondly at his reaction again, his eyebrows furrowing at how excited and downright adorable his best friend was acting.

“Nervous and excited!” Sapnap supplied helpfully, reaching out to rub his palm over Dream’s forearm to comfort him, swinging his arm side to side to release some of the tension he held in his body. Dream laughed, light and breathy, the butterflies clearly bubbling up in his chest, showcased by his unsure voice and antsy movements, unable to stand still. He nodded at Sapnap’s words, tapping the toe of his shoe against the floor, then his heels, then hopping up and down a few times all together, his shoes squeaking against the floor with his anxieties.

“I’m nervous, but I’m excited, I’m– I’m doing… excited hops,” Dream explained, continuing his hopping in place, biting his lip to hold back his cheek-splitting smile. Between hops, he stayed on his toes, bouncing up and down on the balls of his feet, trying to loosen himself up and calm down his tense body. Sapnap cooed fondly at him, squeezing his arm where his hand still rested, unable to hold back the feeling of what could only be called cute aggression he was feeling for the other boy. How could Dream be this adorable? It was just unfair.

“You’re so fucking cute, Dream,” He said, unable to help himself, yanking Dream closer to him by his wrist and looping his arm around Dream’s waist. Dream squealed at his actions, letting Sapnap tuck himself into his side and rest his hand on his hip, breaking out into giggles.

“Shut up, you,” Dream replied, but he wrapped his arms around Sapnap’s shoulders, resting his cheek on Sapnap’s head. Despite everything, his body relaxed in Sapnap’s hold, the comforting hug being exactly what he needed at that time. He had never been more grateful to have someone like Sapnap in his life. He would be sure to tell him that once everything settled down more.

“I can’t! You just– you’re just like– I don’t know! You’re just being so cute, I hate you!” Sapnap expressed, tightening his arm around Dream and squeezing him tighter, giggling and looking up at Dream as he broke into soft giggles again. “Fuck, I just like– I wanna, like–“ Sapnap stammered, unable to find the right words to describe how he felt, instead deciding to progress with actions. Suddenly, he latched his hand onto the spot above Dream’s hip, squeezing the spot mercilessly and holding Dream close against him so he couldn’t push away. Dream gasped, his whole body tensing again, letting out a squeal as he flinched away from the feeling, but found himself going nowhere at all.

“AH– no! Nononono, noho!” Dream protested, pulling his arms back and pushing at Sapnap’s shoulders, leaning away from him to try and shove him off, but his arm was too firm around his waist. “Sapnahahap!”

“I can’t help it, you're just too adorable!”

“Stohohohop!” Dream shook his head at the feeling, loose curls falling over his face. Sapnap giggled at him, pushing his arm further around his waist, the tips of his fingers able to reach his lower tummy, scratching and wiggling just outside his belly button over his thin shirt, making him squeal. He tried to twist away, arching his back and sucking in his stomach as he pushed back into Sapnap, but Sapnap didn’t budge. Dream pushed at Sapnap’s arm, smacking his hand lightly as he tried to pry it off him, but his attempts were futile due to his weakened state, and all he could do was squirm in Sapnap’s arms as his little hops returned.

“Aw, where you goin’, cutie?” Sapnap pulled Dream closer, his side pressed into his chest now, and pressed the back of his other hand into Dream’s opposite hip to keep him in place, as much as he could without letting go of the phone he was still holding.

“Sahahap–! Thehehe– the vihideohoho!” He reminded, attempting to push the phone away instead, his laughter turning hiccupy when Sapnap pulled his hand back and turned Dream more, now able to grab onto his other side and squeeze above his hip there as well, keeping the phone out of his reach.

“Oh, I know, George is gonna love this,” Sapnap teased, pulling Dream backwards into him as he continued to tickle him to pieces.

“Nohohoho!” Dream protested, his legs growing shaky from having to lean due to the way Sapnap was holding him, and he stomped his foot on the ground to try to regain some stability. Sapnap decided to take pity on him, stopping the tickling and pushing forward to help Dream stand again, keeping his arm around his waist as Dream caught his breath.

“Okay, okay, I’m done. You were just being so cute I couldn’t help it. You understand,” He explained, going back to Dream’s side once he was stable again and hugging him properly, the way they’d started. Dream scoffed at his words, rolling his eyes, but he hugged Sapnap back tightly anyway. “Besides, you can’t say it didn’t loosen you up.”

“You’re so dumb,” Dream replied fondly, earning a soft hum of ‘mhmmm’ in return from Sapnap. He pressed a soft kiss to Sapnap’s head, and they stood in silence for a few moments, before Sapnap seemed to remember that he did, in fact, have a reason for coming inside, and they probably shouldn’t keep George waiting much longer.

“Alright,” Sapnap whispered as he pulled back from the hug, adjusting the sleeves of his hoodie and switching his phone to the opposite hand, making sure everything was still set up to continue recording for George. “C’mon, cutie, let’s go outside,” Sapnap said, reaching up and fixing a stray few pieces of hair that were out of place, slightly tousled from his movements.

“I need a minute! I need a minute, let– let me collect myself,” Dream said, his nerves coming back in full force, his eyes wide and unsure as he let out a soft breath to try and relax.

“That’s okay! Take your time! This is a big day. We’ll wait outside for you, as long as you need,” Sapnap reassured, rubbing up and down Dream’s arm as the other boy placed a hand on his stomach, seemingly trying to quell the butterflies that arose inside very quickly.

“Okay, okay…” Dream nodded, and Sapnap nodded as well, patting Dream’s arm before turning to walk towards the door. “Hey,” Dream said before Sapnap left, looking at him with a soft smile when he turned around. “Thank you. For everything,” He said quietly, and Sapnap smiled back at him just as fondly.

“Of course. I wouldn’t wanna do this with anyone else.” And with that, Sapnap made his way back through the front door and outside to wait with George, bringing the camera back up in front of him, ready to continue on with the beginning of the rest of their lives.

#ler!sapnap #lee!dream #cals writing #sleepy anon #sleepy’s ler!sapnap week #sleepy thank you again for your patience #i know your week kinda got ruined but i really appre you sticking through everything and letting me still add on even if im late to it #we really really appreciate you <3 and i hope you like this #i think it turned out really cute :( #i love dreamnap and i love meetup dteam so much #face reveal dream you are like a precious baby deer to me #just learning how to walk….. #i hope everyone enjoys this!!

[ronkeyroo]

ɴᴏᴡ ʏᴏᴜ ʀᴇᴀʟʟʏ ᴍᴀᴅᴇ ᴍᴇ ᴀɴɢʀʏ 🩸

#tw; blood #tw; injury #tw; gore #felt really bad lately so that translated onto some bungled up wolf bois #i hate how the art compositions made it look as though they fought/react to each other i PROMISE they did not and it was unintentional T_T" #they will never hurt one another like this #im so sorry vilkas and farkas thank you for letting me edge you up abit T_T #im still feeling unwell so please please forgive me for not being so talktive #i do have art to upload still but i feel so guilty when i leave folks on read... #in the past id just dissappear and not upload anything but i know people enjoy my art and i dont want to take that away from them... #thank you so much for being patient with me...i hope you enjoy these two looking messed up and still godamn hot #bloody awoogas #farkas #farkas skyrim #vilkas #vilkas skyrim #the companions #wolf twins #my art #skyrim art shenanigans #ronkeyroo #jorrvaskr #skyrim #tes #tes fanart

[rubyreduji]

im sorry not to be all like "woe is me" but do yall genuinely understand how disheartening it is to work really hard on a fic and love a fic be exicted to share it only for it to get 68 notes in 24 hours while the random photos you posted of the same member you wrote the fic about gets 94 notes in 8 hours

#i know it seems so stupid #but ive already had a shit day and this actually making me feel worse #i love writing i dont want to take a break but interaction has actually been awful lately #and it feels terrible #i love everyone who loves my fics #and im super fortunate to have so many followers #but i still cant help but let this get to me #i know writers shouldnt write for interaction #but it also i want to share my writing and have people enjoy it #and thats not happening #so what even is the point #i dont know #i really dont fucking know

[dayurno]

i'm kinda curious about jean and wymack's relationship now

how did the father react to his son's elopement?

hes sooo fine with it (grinds teeth) its not like we all didnt expect it (wrings hands) kevin knows what he's doing (kicks rock) as long as hes happy (looks at the sky) kayleigh give me strength

i think kevjean's elopement happens very out of the blue. there's not a proposal so much as there's a moment where it dawns on them when they're tipsy and giggly. here's how i think it happened

jean into kevin's mouth: let's get married next month

kevin: next WEEK

jean: tomorrow

kevin starting to look around: TODAY. Now. give me something to make a ring out of

it was really a spur of the moment! it's the kind of throwing-responsibilites-out-the-window elopement kevin will panic about hours later when they're legally married and in a plane to the french countryside, but by then its already done and jean is just very good at distracting him about the consequences. they stay around 3 months unperturbed in their countryside domestic life honeymoon until andrew shows up at their cabin with killing intent because what the FUCK kevin day we thought you got KIDNAPPED*

*they (andrew, neil, wymack, abby, possibly jeremy) knew kevjean eloped but they figured a month would be enough for a honeymoon. in the second month they start to get worried and ask stuart to track them down

#asks #kevjean #I CAN SEE IT SO CLEARLY. andrew at the door with a shotgun like im gonna go in and im gonna find them dead as hell #then he opens the door and kevins fucking. feeding rabbits or something #watering plants. chopping onions. jean is working the fields #its such a face crack moment to me i really enjoy thinking about it oh andrew.... #neils there too but hes a secret attack hes just waiting for andrew to give him the cue #when he doesnt neil bursts in ready to shoot and kandrew are having tea in the kitchen #neil: so no kidnapping? kevin: no sorry. guns outside please #anyway jean comes back a little later and they watch kevin gently clean his face with a wet cloth then scold him for working out so late #and to avoid the sun more often jean you're going to FRY out there #and they're so flabbergasted. it's SO WEIRD #andrew on the phone to wymack that night: he wasn't kidnapped but i can't say he hasn't been brainwashed. ill let you know later

[binders-and-beanies]

Doin bad again folx

#might delete later I’m just wide awake and miserable #summer bill came out today and it’s $7100 not including housing which will be $2400 #literally dunno how im gonna pay for that and my dad is. adding to the emotional turmoil of it all #not able to get a loan at least not before the bill is due #able to get aid luckily but again who knows when or how much #my bday is tomorrow and for months I’ve been like please just let my bday be a good day i need one #i need some hope. not that I haven’t had good experiences lately bc I have. but nothing that lasts #nothing i get to feel good about for more than a day before a new problem drops #I need to enjoy my birthday without feeling this deep dark dread and fear and fucking guilt and hopelessness #I have fun plans for today And tomorrow and I’m grateful but honestly stressed about that too #bc it’s gonna be a lot + bc of all I need to do outside of that #+ I don’t get to spend my bday w friends the way I want like I have one friend Maybe coming w me #my bday is supposed to feel celebratory and instead it feels like absolutely forcing some illusion of choice or joy in my life #on top of it all. the most peaceful I usually ever feel is in bed w my partner and now my body won’t even let me hold or be held by them #currently laying next to them not touching them so I at least don’t keep them up w how physically miserable I am rn #I’m literally always physically miserable at this point and it feels like spring is never gonna come and provide any relief #but it’s like can I at least be cozy w them. nope instead I’m wide awake facing various horrors #despite being permanently exhausted and falling asleep in class after 40 ounces of coffee #Im just. so fucking unhappy in life rn dude I don’t want life to be like this forever with the constant threat of it getting much worse #fucking shred of joy in this godforsaken world: the sleep noises they r making rn #mine #txt #vent post #suicidal ideation tw #<- cry for help

[arunneronthird]

What have you been listening to? Looking for music recs to expand my library :)

ive been obsessing over 2000s indie rock for a couple months now for no specific reason so if ur into that i keep replaying two door cinema clubs first and second albums, specially this is the life and come back home, the pidgeon detectives album broken glances is also pretty nice, merriweather post pavilion by animal collective, i had the blues but i shook them loose by bombay bicycle club, asphalt meadows by death cab for cutie (its the newest album! love the rest too)

#this is what ive been listening to lately but i really enjoy 70s and 80s rock and alt rock #modern punk and post punk revival are my favorites i think #and i do enjoy electronica and indie pop as well #so if u have recs let me know! im busy lately so i dont have a lot of time to find new stuff

[sad--tree]

also currently trying 2 talk my mum in2 doing a trip in august to see family out west who i havent seen since i was single digits in age and like. i genuinely for realsies want 2 see those aunts n uncles but also...... i kinda really just wanna see metallica live. this is just a 2 birds 1 stone type of situation. srry 2 my aunts n uncles. yall r at least 55% an excuse 2 go out there in the first place.

#WHYYYY couldnt i have gotten in2 metallica LAST YEAR #WHEN THEY ACTUALLY TOURED THIS PART OF THE COUNTRY #im like. 40 years late 2 the party. ive literally always thought they were overrated assholes. NOW look at me 🙄 #id say its an age thing but actually im sure there are still ppl my age and younger 4 whom metallica is their Gateway Metal Band #and actually one of my biggest gateway bands was a7x. which ppl call(ed?) metallica ripoffs. so who knows really #i managed 2 come around on liking death metal b4 i got metallica 2 click 4 me. probably not the standard Metal Subgenre Journey #real talk tho i get stuck in these music modes where i only listen 2 a narrow slice of things for weeks on end #and i have been in a 24/7 metallica lockdown for like at least 3 fucking weeks already LET ME OOOUUTTTT #the only concession ive been able 2 wrangle from my brain is a sprinkling of megadeth of all fucking things #Yet Another Band ive only just learned 2 appreciate but actually rust in peace is a fucking banger so thats ok i suppose. #still. would be nice perhaps. to maybe listen to any of the 10 million OTHER types of music i also enjoy. sometime soon pls brain. 🙏

[obey-me-headquarters]

I'm usually not one for brats. Firstly, I just find it absolutely adorable when a sub is tripping over themselves trying to be good. Secondly, I like praise and taking care of a sub too much. And thirdly, I think I'm just too much of a tease to really be a good brat tamer.

But since I saw some brat content on the tl today let's just lean into it lol.

I think every demon bro has the potential to be a brat, I just think they brat in different ways.

Lucifer definitely scolds you in public, and tries to act all superior to you. Because he absolutely loves to be brought down back to his level in private. If he's ever being a bit of a hard ass he just wants to get his ass smacked.

Mammon definitely sneaks around. He pretends to steal your stuff and that he sold it, when in reality he just has it hidden in his room. He acts all innocent too, like he can't believe you're even angry. I feel like he definitely likes to be out smarted when he's being a brat. He likes to caught doing something bad, and explained how you caught him and why what he's doing is bad. He likes to feel small and that you "won" something over him before you punish him. It also let's him know what exactly he did wrong, as he always hates go be blamed things he didn't do, having you talk through what he did wrong and why you're angry makes him feel safe and that he can trust you.

You might say that Levi is too nervous to be a brat but that's where you're wrong buckaroo! Well, you're half wrong. I feel like if Levi really, really wants to be a brat, he can be one. At first I feel like he would just try to disobey you as a way to be a brat. But since, Levi is Levi, he didn't really tell you he wants to be a brat and have you punish him. So when you're normally very obedient, but shy sub starts saying "no" and making a fuss, you stop tbe scene and ask him if he's ok. Levi learns that life is not a hentai and if he needs to talk to you if he wants a scene to go a particular way. But I feel like once you have the ground rules down, Levi likes to be a brat quite often. Playing the game I noticed that Levi actually seems a lot more confident in texts than when you're face to face with him, so I feel like a lot of your bratting scenes start with him being huffy or demanding through text, and you having to find and punish him.

Satan is like a cat when he's bratting. As in, he will very obvious do a Bad Thing right in front of you, like a cat knocking off a glass of water. I feel like Satan would create rules with you, just for him to break them. He's disobedient by nature! He loves creating rules with you and then thinking of all the ways he can creatively break them. You said he wasn't allowed to cum by himself? You said nothing about him *touching* himself, so surely him slowly jacking himself off is fine, right? You said no touching himself, but technically he's not touching himself, the fucking machine is fucking him all on its own. I can't tell if he would rather you out smart him and punish him, like Mammon, or prefer being told "because I said so". Like, on one hand, being told "because I said so" in response to "why are you punishing me? I technically didn't do anything wrong" is *so* infuriating, but that's why Satan loves it so much.

I feel like Asmo is always a teensy tiny bit of a brat, unless he's getting *exactly* what he wants, but I feel like he would only really feel the desire or need to brat when he feels like you're not giving him enough attention. So like. Twice a week lol. His go to method of being a brat is texting you photos of him jerking off. Just the idea of you getting so angry, and so horny that you have to track him down and punish him yourself gets him going so bad. I feel like he would suggest a "no touching" rule, but literally always break it, but only tells you he broke it when he wants to be a brat lol.

I'm not really sure what brat Beel would be... I definitely think he's a little shit and not as inoccent as the fandom loves to portray him. I just don't think being punished would really do it for him? Idk. Whenever Beel does something bad in game, he usually feels extremely guilty about it. When he doesn't care, like when eats someone's food, he just shrugs it off and says he was hungry. None of these reactions give me something to work with..... although I do feel like Beel would be attracted to someone with power. He likes it when you get all high and mighty and bring out the leather and whips (even if they only tickle him), so if you're a brat tamer looking for something like that, I think he'll be more willing to be a brat. I feel like when Beel is bratting he'll either intentionally eat your labeled food, or just silently be a little shit toward you. He moves the glasses way up to the top shelf, where only he can reach, and similarly sneaky things. Until eventually you catch on and "punish" him, or he'll come clean if he's too impatient.

Belphie is definitely, 100% a brat lol. Like Asmo, I feel like Belphie is always a little bit of a brat. Even when he's getting everything he wants lol. But, at least in the beginning of your relationship, I feel like Belphie would act like even the most gentle of punishments is this big, cruel thing. Belphie was bratting and talking back to you so you edged him once? Belphie didn't expect you to be a *sadist*. But I feel like over time, as you keep punishing and punishing him (because mans could never just. Not be a complete little brat), Belphie would work up a tolerance until you're caging his cock and putting weights on his nipples. I feel like he would also really really enjoy scenes where he's the "powerful Demon" and you're the "helpless little human" who puts him in his place.

I talked about Barbatos being a brat before so I wouldn't make a whole section for him. But I do feel like Barbatos is a very self assured brat. As in, he doesn't believe anything you could do to him will have any affect until you got him chained down and begging for mercy. He's very cocky that way.

If I were to twist this into what *I* specially would do if I were any of these boys brat tamer...... I would definitely make them beg for them to punish them. The second any of them would beg for mercy, or get all teary eyed, or try to convince me that they weren't bratting and don't deserve a punishment. Then huh, I guess you don't baby boy! :D

Fluff up their hair and plant a kiss on their forehead before asking if they want to watch a movie. Watch the confusion on their face spread as they realize that all the hard work they did to be a brat and show me what a bad boy they were is gone.

Watch as they fumble and say that they might, in fact, did something wrong and might need a correction, only to look at them dumbly and repeat the same words they said to me. You said you didn't want to be punished right? That you *weren't* a bad boy? And now you're talking of punishment? Don't be silly! If you're a good boy then you don't need your ass to be smacked red, your orgasms to be ruined, or your ass to be pounded, right? Watch as they slowly, and shyly admit that they were being a bad boy. Force them to admit all the bad things they did, that they *want* and *need* to be punished. Not giving in till they're on their knees, begging to be punished.

And when I do punish them, and they're being for mercy, I look down at them with an odd look on my face. Saying that they chose this, that they begged for it. That I was willing to let their little mistake go. That everything that happens to them right now is because they wanted it.

Idk about you. But that's what I would do lol.

#*busts down door* #IM BACK!!! WHAT YEAR IS IT?? #yeah sorry yall for going kinda mia with my posts lately. i dont really have a reason? #like. i wasnt busy. i had stuff i could have written about. i just. didnt feel like it #i felt like every post i was making felt like pulling teeth and didnt want to force myself to make content #i wanted to enjoy writting and not feel like i had to post all the time #who knows. maybe ill go mia again. maybe ill start posting regularly. im just kinda vibing at the moment #away. lets actually tag this thing lol #obey me #obey me cast #obey me lucifer #obey me mammon #obey me levi #obey me leviathan #obey me satan #obey me asmo #obey me asmodeus #obey me beel #obey me beelzebub #obey me belphegor #obey me belphie #brat #brat taming #my post #obey me dom!reader #tbp masterlist

[scaredofmyocs]

I love it when i accidentally stay up on the night im supposed to be catching up on sleep it totallly doesnt make me feel horrible all week long

#talk post #i love this blog i want to live here #I cant!!! i just cant!!! go to bed at a normal fucking time istg #but noooooo the wild grinders wiki no some stupid bullshit no one has ever cared about before #WHEN I DONT GET ENOUGH SLEEP MY MENTAL HEALTH GETS WAY WORSE!!!!! IF I DONT FIX IT WE ARE GOING TO GET TOO SILLY #(yelling at a mirror) #seriously bothers me tho that Im always worried about how intense my negative feelings have been lately #and im like “oh ill just get more sleep” and then immediately fuck it up the next night making me tired all week #making me feel SO bad in the mornings and at night and increasing my paranoia and other such thoughts #and in trying to tune it all out just forget about it again leading to me fucking it up again #this is a bit dramatic its only happened 2 weeks in a row #but that feels like a lot because thats like 10 nights where i felt like i blinked and i had to wake up and go to school #and not only deal with my shitty social skills but the results of said thing #and also try to fight the thoughts that are like “this shits pointless im not doing this” LIKE PLEASE pretend to be normal for one year #and also that one teacher i have who demands every students attention while he teaches like i already finished the work sheet shut it #like i do well in that class just let me do what i want im not being distracting like girl i have at least an 87 dw about me #PLUS most of the time im not even on my phone he just really wants me to look at the board but girl as i said I ALREADY DID WHATS ON THERE #i feel like i never get to relax but i do all the time so i dont know what i mean #i keep saying “its ok as long as i can bury all my thoughts and just keep going while filling what free time i have with things i enjoy” #but things only work for so long #i hate the passage of time #anyawy erm wrong my guitar is in my mind (stupid ass guitar riff) #walks over to my bed and trips on the way falling asleep on the floor #ramble #hit post

[carcinized]

i have srsly had irl queer people make fun of me for being queer + liking sports and tell me that is like, not gay or something. like ok just say youre chronically online. womens soccer is the queerest thing i have ever been a part of hands down. also youre an awful person

#tobin talks #ITS ABSURD. HOW CAN YOU BE THAT MEAN #this was when i was 15 so maybe thats why. but like..... its so awful. like 15 yo's always gonna act like that #but come on. lots of us online are older than that. we could be better and NOT teach this behavior to 15 yo's #because you know they learned this shit online. the specific person who did this to me was most active on tumblr. #not even tiktok or twitter this was a tumblr gay. begging you guys to change the culture 😭😭 #this goes for more than just sports obvs its about general pushing stereotypes #which is how you get queer people sacrificing parts of their identity in order to be accepted into the community #as opposed to sacrificing the queer parts of their identity to be accepted into queerphobic communities? #like tell me how thats morally sound. accept ppl as they are and not just for things theyre systemically discriminated for?? #be a nice fucking human being?? #the queer community can tear each other apart lately i wish we would go back to the pure love of it all #bc like for me it is not worth it to be close with most queer people anymore. my friends are mostly all cishet #because guess what even though they dont understand my queer identity at least theyre not assholes about my entire personality otherwise #its so awful Like. can we all agree to not be cliquey #you dont have to be a paletable aesthetic gay. you dont have to be chonrically online and never go outside. you dont have to not drive #you dont have to be bad at math. what other fucking stereotypes are there man #its so fucking stupid!!!!!!!!!!!!! like 'let people enjoy things' goes for all things not just online stuff like this is a two way street #yes non online/gay/neurodivergent people should be kinder about 'cringe' interests. but hey that doesnt mean we get to be dicks to people #with more common interests or like... idk man im talking in circles here. but god when did the lgbtq+ community turn into a clique #do this do that if you dont we'll ignore that part of you or actively make fun of you for it. #STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 #non rebloggable im just ranting here this is not one to rb. but like. ITS SO AWFUL AND MEAN. STOP

[boomingsmile]

who gave sharp the audacity to be so kind, loving, sweetest person. D:< no amount of words i can put up will ever be able to contain the vibe he has; i desperately need a drink with him and i dont even drink and he doesn't even exist!

#smiletalks #ipeak #that man............... #that man instantly turns any of my ideas into a therapy session; hang on i wrote a fic in tags again #im working on a fic and it has 4.4k words chap where it's just him and mc talking through some ministry related topics #she s been down lately because interrogations took a toll on her despite not leaving a slightest shadow on her marks #sharp isnt pleased she used studying as a method for coping with everything #and it didnt escape him mc didnt want to think farther than her owls or rather the day she will leave the school for the summer break #WHICH HAD CAULDRON OF THE PROBLEMS POTION OF ITS OWN #tldr; mc is an incredibility tough for her age but crucially inexperienced to hold up the pressure put on her #and the amount of decision making #gurl is tired #let her sleep bring back the happy-go-lucky kid she used to be #WRITING FICS IN THE TAGS AGAIN. #idc ill keep on so sharp is wlling to save the day #“She might have grown up faster than her peers -- which shouldn't at all matter for her inner child still enjoys pumpkin fizz and snidgets” #“Although her penchant for brandy worries me. Why would a 16 years old young witch need so much?.. DOES SHE SMUGGLE UNDER MY WATCH. PEEVES? #“nvm turned out she has a granian somewhere; evidently it was stolen by poachers and kept in misery until taken into her care.” #“Also the reason her shoulder was dislocated a couple of weeks ago; *dares not mention he needed its hair; gets it for birthday as a gift*” #*doesnt know what to do absolutely flustered and loosing it but thanking mc she sent a package rather than handed it after class* #*or hed refused it or talked a way out of such a convenience* #*FAVORS MUST REPAY* #*his turn of not accepting refusals now* #“Always a pleasure to have students with high standards for discipline. Although. In her case -- someone needs to keep an eye on her.” #“We had a talk. Talks. We needed to be sure we'd pestered each other enough with 'silly questions for obvious answers' as she had put it.” #“I am up for the responsibility; her inverted sense of danger makes her jump at your presence Matilda I am so sorry I couldn't fix it in -- #“-- in a few months. I truly mean an apology but neither of us should worry atm as her summer has been delegated to Mrs Sweeting.” #“I won 30 btw. Oh. Ask Dinah. Or Mirabel. I'm not disclosing until you know full details but I do wonder what were your suggestions.” #“........Thinking on it now how miserable I'd become should she chosen your nephew. Seeing is believing; she put up quite a play.” #“Until she blew everything up like an erumpent but I wouldn't say more. So.”

[lunarharp]

a random draft where i was ramblingg about witch hat & art to myself for myself :)

rare time i feel like actually going off about the thing i’m having fun with right now in more detail ... but not on twt where strangers might try to discuss back at me lol sorry but that is scary. (not that you even have the room to soliloquy on there)

i love how there's characters for varying types of artists to relate to. people like agott who have been adept at drawing from a young age but feel overwhelmed by feelings of not meeting their expectations. and are driven mostly by feelings of wanting to prove their worth..

people like oru who have always been around the art but now are burnt out from commissions and wondering just what they're drawing for... and ones i relate to the most personally like coco and qifrey, who started drawing at an older age to the skilled people around them. like coco i'm so happy that i'm in the world of drawing(/magic) now and excited every day but also weighed down by fears that i'll never get to what i where i need to be after starting at this late stage and also whether i'm really cut out for this....

and like qifrey i only started drawing after a narrow escape from trauma... i started drawing to make sense of what my life is now, just as he was invited by beldaruit to become a witch because it was the only safe path he could take. (although i've not been through anything quite like what he's been through... ouagh)

and there’s tetia who just wants to draw to make other people feel happy about what she’s made, to have fun, and spread hope and happiness and gratitude. who feels so happy whenever someone thanks her for what she’s created - i understand now how it feels to want to thank them for thanking her and how making art, when you get a meaningful response, can be a truly warm communal type experience. but you do need that response - her overwhelming happiness when the dragon thing was happy and she said it was the first time she’d ever felt fully appreciated for her magic and it made her soooo happy. she had been drawing until then, but it was the last puzzle in place to make her realise the breadth of what magic can be for her.

and riche who is determined to not lose the “her”-ness from her art, doesn’t want to learn new techniques and become more regular and orthodox in style if it means she feels she’s losing something... i get that!!! precious autistic-coded child... the ways we feel about our art differ depending on our own mental landscapes. hahhhh... shirahama said she began this series because she was having a conversation with artist friends about how it feels like drawing just really is magic. i mean..... it is.

i think writing feels like magic too, and i’m glad i can do both now. any creation is total magic. i’ve drawn scenes that were in my head and that’s let other people see them and if i can trust their comments about it, has moved them in some way or at least let them imagine a scene or a situation that they wouldn’t have imagined otherwise. but it’s different from just telling someone about it. when you draw something, or write something it really exists now - outside of you. THAT’S SO WEIRD.

i liked drawing a lot of takarazuka things (before i realised i got kind of burnt out drawing all this transcore stuff that people were not exactly responding to because it’s so niche and weird lmao) but drawing fanart for something that also ONLY exists in art is so special. it’s not acted by real people. like.. they’re just little people that someone drew and now i draw them too. total magic. and she gets up and draws them every day the same as me...

i love that a manga isn’t just art, it’s storytelling too. doing both writing and drawing at the same time - it feels like such a perfect and fascinating combination of skills and facets of creation. i’m better at writing than drawing, so i don’t feel like i can express my original stories well enough in comic form just yet. but i might just get there.

the world is so confusing and overwhelming and terrible every day. only creation is something i can understand. sometimes i can’t understand it - when i feel REALLY bad, it’s definitely like, what’s the point. and i wish i had more things to experience at present than just creation - i want to be outside and just feel and be as well as create. and at some point i’ll definitely stop posting my creations online. but creating has become something that i don’t need to understand the reason for it - so at those times when i wonder what the real point to any of this is.... lately, i usually still create anyway. just as you’d still breathe and sleep even though you’re hurt and confused by the horrors of the world. it’s becoming how i express myself. i find myself drawing pretty much every day because it’s part of how i make sense of shit now and i naturally want to do it. not doing it is painful.

i hope this magic continues. i hope it becomes far more wonderful than i can even imagine from here.

and i won't lose.

#things really are different if you start drawing in your mid/late 20s or onwards. #you haven't developed your idea of yourself as an 'artist' at the time your brain was developing your identity. #but reading something that is basically saying- it's not too late and you have your own magic that only youan do... is so heartening. #also the manga is very gay. it's not THAT shockingly original and fascinating a story- but like... #i just don't know many ongoing fun series with interesting lovable characters where there are also major representations #for disability race queerness etc. #esp if tetia is trans. shirahama-sensei you can tell me... #MOSTLY IM LOSING MY MIND AT WHERE THE SERIES IS GOING LIKE I AM SCARED. my theories are dark and i fear for qifrey SOMEONE HELP HIMMM.. #ONCE AGAIN LET SOMEONE HLEP YOU YOU QUESTIONABLE AND TRAGIC GAY LITTLE SKIRT MAN #i hate that i had to just let my fic be so short. I CANT WRITE ANY MORE RIGHT NOW...i would have to make up so much plot stuff #bc orufrey CANNT happen they cant freaking KISS until so much is sorted out between them which requires the plot moving forward and.. #AUGHHH !!!! sensei please just tell me what happens please please please please please please please please please #the next chapter looks hella plot-ful but STILL..it's going to take YEARS..i just want to know if qifrey IS GOING TO SURVIVE THIS SHIT !!!! #if the brimhats [redacted] then he'll [redacted] and THEN WHAT IF [redacted] has to [redacted] I FEEL LIKE SENSEI'LL DO THAT !!! SCARED #SURELLLY she'll have [redacted] have to [redacted] but i dont think shed go as far as [redacted] ?????? #i plan to go to japan next year if possible anyway but what if it's too early for an anime-fuelled merch section in animate. please #this is like the first new and non-zuka thing i've been hyperfixated on for years. i need official qifrey and oru items. I need the items #once again i feel weird putting my personal feelings and theories on the internet to an audience of nobody but once again we will die. #am i going to be on my deathbed thinking 'oh i shouldn't have happily gone off about witch hat on tumblr that time how embarrassing' no. #do you know how worthwhile it is to enjoy something. and to basically avoid other fanworks for the most part so you're just surrounded #by your own pure and enjoyable feelings. #i actually went to a local queer art place yesterday and like. man i was very different to them but #there are people somewhat like me out there huh. somewhere. i'm going to make zines and art and express my world. even if just a bit. #literally why would you priv reblog something like this i think there is something wrong with you? i feel better about myself now #i will find the ones like me not the ones like you <3

[krystal-prisms]

Absolutely obsessed with the like 12 different plots going on in the early episodes of the Magnus Archives. Jane Prentiss. The priest and the hill house. Jurgen Leitner. Gerard Keay. That moving company. The weird table. The various allusions to other cases. Absolutely enamored with this podcast

#my bs #tma #the Magnus Archives #i know im late to the party just let me enjoy myself