#i am very anxious

[notdelusionalatall]

#new year's eve anxiety #fuck this bullshit #i am very anxious #because #people are driving drunk #at this time of the year #and i don't like it one bit #also #can #my #family #shut the fuck up about my self harm scars #i don't wanna hear shit #like #don't harm yourself in the new year #ugh #anxiety #i am actually anxious #my hands are shaking #i have achieved nothing #lol #memes #boo hoo #poor me

[haredjarris]

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#baby’s first real protest today #shameful that I’m 30 and it’s my first #but better late than never #i am very anxious #but obviously it’s the right thing #and it’s not about me or my feelings

[dyrewrites]

I dunno if it was you guys, but it seems the marketing worked and I sold some stories.

I am all a flutter.

#that is not hyperbole #i am very anxious #but in a happy way #thank you whoever you are

[demiklo]

Hey I am live playing Furquest! A rpg story rich game about furry creatures! " Come watch us live: twitch.tv/demi_klo

#indie games #furquest #furry #animal #roleplay #twitch #envtuber #vtuber #twitch stream #anime #i am very anxious

[deweydecimalchickens]

On Saturday, me and my 72-year-old mother and my agoraphobia and my OCD and my social anxiety and my veganism and my extremely rudimentary language skills are going to Japan! AAAAAAAAAAAA! Via Dubai, where I will do my very best impression of a heterosexual who is not carrying prescription brain meds, has never had gay porn on her phone, and has no strong opinions about anything! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

My brother moved to Japan in early March 2011, with classic timing, scaring the hell out of my parents in the process (Osaka is nowhere near where the earthquake hit, but we didn't know that). I've never been, on account of the above factors. This is the first time the borders have been open to tourists since my dad died, and my mum can't go on her own.

I have enough Covid vaccinations to satisfy border control, which is not enough for any actual immunity, a situation I consider insane and terrifying. Tests and masks, tests and masks. I'm actually on the SARS chapter of David Quammen's 'Spillover' right now, because I think knowing stuff is understanding stuff and I don't know how to be happy. My mum at least has had a recent booster.

Gomennasai, Igirisujin desu - I'm sorry, I'm English

Chotto no Nihongo ga hanasemasu - I can speak a little Japanese

Nihongo ga amari hanasemasen - I don't really speak Japanese

Niku to sakana to tamago wa tabemasen - I don't eat meat, fish and eggs

Kore wa yasai desu ka? - Is this vegetables?

Kyou kara saraishyuu made Japan Rail Pass o ni mai onegaishimasu - Two Japan Rail Passes from today until the week after next, please.

(The only Arabic I know is as-salaam alaikum/wa alaikum as-salaam, and I'm fervently hoping it won't come up if I never step outside a flight connection in an international airport.)

#Japan trip #I AM VERY ANXIOUS #We're all just winging it #Some of us extremely badly #Learning Japanese

[caterpillarinacave]

For the yes/no ask game: if it became popular to change the color of your tongue to interesting patterns and all your friends were doing it so you got curious and asked around about it and a close friend shared that all they'd done was take a pill and let it dissolve in their mouth and then a cool new color appeared and they asked if you'd like to try it and you figured why not so you take a pill home and follow the friends instructions but as it dissolves you don't like the feeling so you spit it out into a cup and leave it by the sink and later your friend is curious about how it went but you being embarrassed that you didn't go all the way through with it lie and say you did it but nothing has happened yet and your friend just nods and says it can take a few days but something in their tone actually makes you pause and look at them more closely for a moment but aside from looking a little tired nothing else seems amiss so you move on but later you notice a strangeness among more of your friends and even people outside of your friends, an odd anxious quality to their words, a way of speaking as if they know you even when they don't, the only connection between them all being the interesting patterns and colors their tongues have turned, and by the end of the week you feel as if you're losing your mind and on top of all the strange behavior around you your tongue has been itching like crazy and a fear that these two facts may be related haunts you so you make a doctor's appointment deciding against discussing the strange behavior around you and just sticking with the physical problems and as you explain the itching sensation and admit you may have tried the new pill everyone's trying so maybe you're just allergic and the doctor hums and asks if the reaction started during or after you completed taking the pill so you admit you didn't finish taking it and the doctor nods and says this is a common experience among users who don't let the pill completely dissolve and suggests you take another pill this time letting it go through the whole process which you think is odd advice but the doctor is a professional so you assume it must be sound and as you leave you realize the doctors tongue is purple which sets off all kinds of alarm bells in your mind so now you're sitting at home and in front of you is the pill you'd spit out before still in the cup only it no longer looks like the pill you'd taken but seems to have sprouted out like some sort of fungus taking over most of the cup but seems to be dying without any further sustenance and now you feel certain something incredibly concerning is going on but you still aren't sure what but as you look for answers you take note that whatever this is it is everywhere and there isn't anyone to turn to but you you still reach out to a few people, scientists or other people who have been questioning the new fad, but before anyone responds you still have to go to work and pretend things are fine and one day you get an email back from someone you had contacted saying they agree that things are weird and they have a bunker in the middle of nowhere that they and some others are going to and they're offering to let you join them while the group tries to research what's going on and hide away from whatever is happening. Do you leave everything and accept their offer?

Yes.

#Explantion in tags #this one took me awhile. yes is under the pretense the person can show me their tongue #and can prove theyre all scientists and not murderers yada yada #part of the reason i would go is becuase i would feel so anxious standing around i would have a heartattacke and die #the biggest thing would be my family #however as the tongue people havent turned i would warn my family exstensivley to not take the thing #i likely would not tell them about the fungus because if that got out it might anger the tongue people #though to be transparent #if they were getting aggressive and it was a zombie apocolypse thing? i would take the pill #i am very anxious #i simply could not handle it #but HOPEFULLY #we could figure out whats happening determine if its really dangerous and come up with a fix #so even if my family did get into it that would be the most effective way of helping them #i like these

[yourstormthlaylirahh]

Everything is yellow and as soon as you step outside it smells like smoke

#its got me on edge #i know the fires are farther north but i have strong strong fears about my house burning down #i am very anxious #journal

[rotturn]

first flight down one to go

#im in Houston and the airport customs line is. so long #our next flight is meant 2 begin boarding in 20 lmao i dont think we'll make that #i am very anxious

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

anyone else have multiple traumatic memories associated specifically with holidays/family vacations? because that is a topic I never see discussed in all the So You Had A Shitty Childhood, Now What? self-help books i've been reading. but for me, it was a significant thing. and the more i think about it the more it seems like this would be an (unfortunately) common experience. would be grateful to hear if this matches other peoples' experiences...

#not a shitpost #serious post #ask to tag #tw trauma #cptsd #c-ptsd #and if so we should TALK about it #because it means there are a whole group of survivors out there whose mental health regularly worsens during holidays #like i know i am most certainly not the only person who feels an undefined Dread hanging over christmas/my birthday/july 4 etc #bc too many shitty things happened during those times and now my brain is hypervigilant bc traditionally these are the Danger Times #and this seems like it would be particularly common for survivors of abusive/dysfunctional households (aka most people with c-ptsd) #because holidays/vacations typically mean 1) the whole family is together/being forced to interact #2) and undergoing external stressors e.g. travel/relatives aka 'outsiders' visiting/routines & coping mechanisms being interrupted etc #3) there is social pressure for this to be a Fun Family Bonding Experience which only highlights the cracks in the foundation #and exposes the common Everything Is Fine/We Are A Happy Family lie #4) the cognitive dissonance of feeling tired/anxious/stressed/afraid during a time when you are 'supposed' to be Making Good Memories #and then everyone is angry/tired/anxious/triggered and things boil over and something or someone goes Very Wrong #weird that i'm posting this in october when halloween is...sort of the ONLY holiday i have only good and happy feelings towards #i got lucky there #also i have positive feelings towards Labor Day but that's for socialist reasons

[starryarles]

i will be playing stardew valley for the first time now,, my happy place,, i hope it goes well

#i am very anxious #u can tell #whrbrk

[demigods-posts]

canonically, percy isn't aware of the crushes people have on him until it's too obvious to deny — like when annabeth kissed him, or when nico straight up told him. and since percy isn't aware of rachel's crush on him until the beginning of tlo, that means there was a point in time when rachel was actively trying to get with him and he had no idea. and it's not even his fault lol. he just only saw her as his good friend and just thought her advances were her being friendly. i just have to see this in action.

#percy jackon and the olympians #pjo #pjo text post #pjo headcanon #percy jackson #rachel elizabeth dare #just imagine rachel taking percy to an expensive event and holding his hand #and percy's all: #'oh my friend is probably anxious of big crowds. let me hold her hand because friends help each other in their time of need🥰' #or rachel taking any chance she gets to grab his bicep or touch his shoulder #and he's all: #'rachel is a very affectionate person. it's cool tho. so am i when i'm around people i care about. rachel is such a cool friend🥰' #i desperately need someone to write a fic or sum lol

[basedandradpilled]

i bought a venus flytrap today what should i name her?

#i am very anxious #gonna take a bath and assess if i need medicine #my post #personal

[realbeefman]

stacy is sooo interesting because she's in love with house but knows that they will never ever be able to have a healthy, stable, sane relationship because they're too similar so. she finds house-lite instead and marries him and. essentially moves on with her life! and is successful in this because she's a moderately well-adjusted person!

wilson, in contrast, never manages to escape the inevitable, in spite of his best efforts to find a house-lite of his very own, because he's an absolute fucking freak and ends up glued to house to the bitter. bitter end

#yeah im too sleepy to revise this. UNFILTERED posting wooahh #some may b shocked but i do actually read thru most of my posts several times to make sure i didnt accidentally write mein kampfe 2 #recently ive come to the realization that i am in fact not an incredibly chill person #and that the constant paranoia and fear in which i live my life is actually PROBABLY a symptom of severe anxiety #like damn. ive always known that im pretty prone to depression but ive preetty much always been aware of that #my mom is a chronic depressive so i know the symptoms i know the signs i have a pretty good arsenal of healthy coping mechanisms #UNFORTUNATELY mommy's mental health problems did not help her not abuse me as a child #so i ended up being a terribly anxious kid who was constantly being screamed at and told i was overreacting (because i was. because i had #a severe anxiety problem that was making me react irrationally.) to everything all the time #which is you know. it is VERY difficult to deal with a mental health problem when you arent aware you have a problem! #its incredible how much. better. my life has gotten since i figured this out and started actively trying to work out what triggers it #and being able to like. realize 'oookay. there is an Issue here and it needs to be overcome' #instead of just beating on myself constantly for not being able to do things without feeling sick or getting breathing problems! #anyways. trauma dumping in tags is over now! #house md #hilson #greg house #james wilson #stacy warner

[wh0re-behavi0r]

I know this is something white people in the fandom may not think of but you should consider the race of others you talk to online. Even when their race isn't in their bio.

I have had multiple instances where even when people know my race, there have been extremely ignorant things said.

Please listen to POCs when they feel as though there is some racial bias. Please don't get defensive or think any mention of "race" or "racist" is going too far. We are all raised to be prejudiced, so if someone is finding that in you, reflect and work on yourself.

#fandom #911 #i know ppl dont listen and in this fandom they continually ignore shit but #and im beating a dead horse but i am feel very uncomfortable and anxious

[unexpectedbrickattack]

babpy.

#pizza tower #peppino #arts #mine #happy pride; heres a little otter for u #hes like very early 20s here #happy and unbothered before the Horrors happened #it is NOT his 30s bc he needs to exude raw dilf energy by that point #but for now he is anxious and sweet and awkward #not that i dont draw him like that already but its like 10x here #its PALPABLE #okay mwah i will hopefully come back w more than just sketches that mean nothing skjfsdjkfdhfhsk #i have LITERALLY been on this commission for WEEKS i need someone to take me out back and put me out of my misery i swear #im going to finish the lines TODAY like i cant be this person i cant keep coming back to this fucking comm w no progress ill simply Die #its like singlehandedly preventing me from doing anything else; its making a mental block waaaaaaaau #but i feel like i am breaking through it today. at least i HOPE i am sdkjfsdjkfjsdkf #um if u are still here ilu. send me some anons; i want to be chatty but the messages i have feel like i need to respond w essays #and i literally. cannot. #at least until i get my head screwed on properly again

[ind1c0lite]

(Basic context is that AU of Duel Desinties where the phantom impersonates Phoenix to get him found guilty of Clay's murder, I talk more under the cut abt it jkhlj)

-Basically meant to be a parallel to turnabout trump, cause if you can have ONE boss get found guilty of murder, why not a second one?

-OK basically: everything in DD happens normally until like- a day before clays murder, Phoenix gets yoinked by the phantom somehow (he is still alive, just being held captive), Phantom is still Fulbright, but they've decided to be silly goofy (target Phoenix and get him found guilty of murder, escape police custody and then murder phoenix and make it seem like Phoenix accidentally died while on the run, thats why they didn't kill phoenix right away unlike the real Fulbright) there is an imposter amo-

-I dont have the logistics as to how this affects solving Metis's murder, and how it effects what evidence is used n whatnot and turnabout for tomorrow as a whole, so im just going nuts HGJKHLJ

-Originally I was actually imagining this taking place during turnabout for tomorrow and I wanted that case to be apollo v klavier instead of phoenix and edgeworth and thats why klav is in here instead of Simon (I decided that Simon got badly injured and couldn't stand in court for the retrial, so klavier was asked to step in)

-The courtroom bombing still happens the same way it does normally, but Apollo decides to take up the case again instead of taking a leave, instead of like, you know, healing from the traumatic event that just happened, turnabout countdown still happens as well

-Apollo and Athena do not find out about the phantom's existence until well after this trial, so they have no idea that Phoenix could've possibly been replaced, though simon, after hearing about the trial, might be suspicious about whether or not that was the real Phoenix

-The Phantom had been not only keeping an eye on Simon for a while, but was also stalking Phoenix and Edgeworth after they both started looking into UR-1, so they were able to impersonate phoenix so well that not even his own daughter thought that anything was up (though while Trucy did find him a *little* bit off, but she figured that it might've been the bombing that caused him to act ever so slightly weird, so she didn't pay much mind to it until she heard about his confession in court and realized it might've been because he possibly, ya know, killed someone)

-it's pretty much just switching Athena being framed for murder with Phoenix, and instead of the trial ending on a cliffhanger, it continues on (probably with Klavier insisting on it) ending with soloman being found innocent and Phoenix being declared guilty

-There's a couple days inbetween the end of the cosmic turnabout and the start of turnabout for tomorrow, so Athena, Apollo and Trucy all get a little bit to process the fact that "oh god my boss/my dad killed someone" (simons execution date is pushed back a bit in this au) and they probably get to talk with Klavier and eventually a lil bit with Simon after he gets out

-Im not sure how it all winds down in turnabout for tomorrow (Phoenix escaping and being at large is basically the perfect cover for the phantom to resume being fulbright for that trial) but they do eventually realize that the phoenix who confessed wasn't the real one and now there's a search on going to find out where the real one is being held captive, hes fineeee just ready to take a week long nap and a good vacation (along with every other waa member)

-I dont have anything else to add on rn but if you want to add something or just throw in a scenario feel free to!! this idea has been bouncing around my head for like a month now and Im very happy to finally show yall it

#ace attorney #ace attorney dual destinies #apollo justice #athena cykes #klavier gavin #phoenix wright #copycat au #indys art #apollo faints like- 0.5 seconds after the verdict is called which is very understandable #Apollo and Athenas horrible no good very bad court trial #and klavier isn't fairing any better tbh HJGKHL #no one is doing well at all and it gets worse before it gets better hjgkhl #Im both very excited but also TERRIFED posting this #I rarely try to actually write actual serious dialogue for characters cause im not a writer-so im hoping it's like- halfway decent HGJKH #I may be anxious as hell but Im going to be very brave and post this instead of- not doing that HJGKHL #I also tried to push myself a bit with this one so I included more panels to work on and coloured it #I like how it came out though!! #I hope u enjoy <3 #also if something doesn't make sense blame it on the fact that I wrote the caption and these tags at like 2:30 am