#i simply could not handle it

[caterpillarinacave]

For the yes/no ask game: if it became popular to change the color of your tongue to interesting patterns and all your friends were doing it so you got curious and asked around about it and a close friend shared that all they'd done was take a pill and let it dissolve in their mouth and then a cool new color appeared and they asked if you'd like to try it and you figured why not so you take a pill home and follow the friends instructions but as it dissolves you don't like the feeling so you spit it out into a cup and leave it by the sink and later your friend is curious about how it went but you being embarrassed that you didn't go all the way through with it lie and say you did it but nothing has happened yet and your friend just nods and says it can take a few days but something in their tone actually makes you pause and look at them more closely for a moment but aside from looking a little tired nothing else seems amiss so you move on but later you notice a strangeness among more of your friends and even people outside of your friends, an odd anxious quality to their words, a way of speaking as if they know you even when they don't, the only connection between them all being the interesting patterns and colors their tongues have turned, and by the end of the week you feel as if you're losing your mind and on top of all the strange behavior around you your tongue has been itching like crazy and a fear that these two facts may be related haunts you so you make a doctor's appointment deciding against discussing the strange behavior around you and just sticking with the physical problems and as you explain the itching sensation and admit you may have tried the new pill everyone's trying so maybe you're just allergic and the doctor hums and asks if the reaction started during or after you completed taking the pill so you admit you didn't finish taking it and the doctor nods and says this is a common experience among users who don't let the pill completely dissolve and suggests you take another pill this time letting it go through the whole process which you think is odd advice but the doctor is a professional so you assume it must be sound and as you leave you realize the doctors tongue is purple which sets off all kinds of alarm bells in your mind so now you're sitting at home and in front of you is the pill you'd spit out before still in the cup only it no longer looks like the pill you'd taken but seems to have sprouted out like some sort of fungus taking over most of the cup but seems to be dying without any further sustenance and now you feel certain something incredibly concerning is going on but you still aren't sure what but as you look for answers you take note that whatever this is it is everywhere and there isn't anyone to turn to but you you still reach out to a few people, scientists or other people who have been questioning the new fad, but before anyone responds you still have to go to work and pretend things are fine and one day you get an email back from someone you had contacted saying they agree that things are weird and they have a bunker in the middle of nowhere that they and some others are going to and they're offering to let you join them while the group tries to research what's going on and hide away from whatever is happening. Do you leave everything and accept their offer?

Yes.

#Explantion in tags #this one took me awhile. yes is under the pretense the person can show me their tongue #and can prove theyre all scientists and not murderers yada yada #part of the reason i would go is becuase i would feel so anxious standing around i would have a heartattacke and die #the biggest thing would be my family #however as the tongue people havent turned i would warn my family exstensivley to not take the thing #i likely would not tell them about the fungus because if that got out it might anger the tongue people #though to be transparent #if they were getting aggressive and it was a zombie apocolypse thing? i would take the pill #i am very anxious #i simply could not handle it #but HOPEFULLY #we could figure out whats happening determine if its really dangerous and come up with a fix #so even if my family did get into it that would be the most effective way of helping them #i like these

[o-wild-west-wind]

GOD there’s something so tragic about how all the horrors Ed fleetingly alluded to in s1 were so, so real. They were passive references, even sometimes jokes, when everything was bright and silly and hopeful. But when the lens is shifted everything takes on a new weight.

I mentioned it before but I can’t stop thinking about this line: “these past few weeks have been the most fun I’ve had in ages…years…maybe ever.” Ed meant that with his whole heart!!! His fall is all the harder because he was the highest up he’d literally ever been.

It’s just wild to think of the framing of this show because typically comedy implies that these characters live in a consistently comedic universe but it really is just that one blip in time up until this point. Ed and Stede’s solo stories are inherently tragic and yet when they come together they create a shared comedy universe. The meta use of genre in this show makes me CRAZY

#i actually need to stop thinking about this show I simply don’t have the time #I can’t though :) #some things are too powerful even for adderall to handle #which speaking of I really wish I could give Ed some #ofmd #ofmd season 2 #ofmd s2 spoilers #ofmd spoilers #our flag means death #edward teach #ofmd meta

[donutdisturblivball]

finding out that michael sheen possibly reads and writes fanfic is simultaneously both the best and worst news of my life

#now of course he could have simply been joking full stop #but until he clarifies i WILL simmer in fear and uncertainty that any user i come across could be The Michael Sheen silly actor™️ #the implication that he requested an invitation from ao3... that he could leave comments and kudos…that he is a silly little guy in the #trenches with the rest of us……. #i dont think i can handle that. #but on the other hand… #ONE OF US! ONE OF US! ONE OF US! #good omens #good omens s2 #ineffable husbands #(divorcees) #aziraphale #crowley #michael sheen #fanfiction #ao3

[girl-hwat]

SOMEONE UPLOADED A CLIP FROM JAMIE AND ZOE IN TALES OF THE TARDIS

THEY HOLD A RECORDER AND JAMIE SAYS

“i missed him everyday of my life”

CAN YOU HEAR ME LOSING MY MIND

#tales of the tardis #second doctor #classic who #doctor who #jamie mccrimmon #zoe heriot #AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #i actually jumped around my hotel room #i don’t know if i could handle the rest #maybe that’s why it’s not available in my country #i would simply #spontaneously combust #twojamie

[queenofthequillandink]

Controversial opinion about the Watcher streaming service, apparently: This was a really exciting announcement that everyone was so excited to shit on that y'all may end up killing Watcher altogether.

I'm going to try to be really clear about this, because I don't want to dismiss valid concerns, so here we go.

Watcher came to us and they said, "We want to make our best content for you. We don't want you to be the product we have to sell to advertisers, we want you to be an audience that we can take on the coolest journey we can make. But that takes money that we can't get from YouTube revenue." And I honestly thought this was a perfectly logical and reasonable direction to take the company so Watcher could continue to exist in its best possible form.

Are there things they could have stated more clearly? Yeah, especially that their YouTube library would still be available and what would happen to people who were already patrons of the channel.

Do I understand why people would be upset about potentially losing access to Watcher? Of course. It's an amazing company making amazing content, and not everyone can afford a streaming service. They did openly encourage password sharing, which I happen to think is very cool of them, but some people would still lose access and that sucks.

But I truly don't understand how "We want to make amazing content and keep our amazing team, and that needs a budget that YouTube just can't give us" turned into "Wahhhh give us your money, we want it all" to some people. I think it's worth remembering that Watcher is a small company with a small team, not a streaming giant looking for one more way to milk an extra cashflow opportunity.

I truly hope that Watcher making everything free on YouTube on a delay because people yelled loud enough doesn't shoot them in the foot. Because I think they make great content and I think they deserve to be paid fairly for it and pay their staff fairly for it. Content creators aren't factories; they don't have to churn free content out for you forever. If Watcher becomes untenable because Ryan, Shane, and Steven can't make good content and make enough money to live off of at the same time, it will simply vanish. And I'm sure some of the same people yelling about the streaming service will yell about that too, if it ever happens.

I don't know, I just didn't think, "We're trying to make the best possible content for you," deserved this much of an outcry.

#i KNOW some of y'all pay for dropout #you think they could make 3/4 of those shows if they were still mainly on YouTube? #like brennan #shane is simply unmonetizable when he acts like himself #at least to advertisers #they'll be able to handle heavier topics on ghost files without self-sensoring to stay ad-friendly! #they can take risks with their shows and know they have a solid income to rely on! #they can say fuck! #can't wait for the hate mail to roll in for this one #original #watcher #watcher entertainment #watcher tv #also it's definitely not the ONLY factor to the outcry #but i cannot help but think that it's not NOT a factor that the majority of people we've seen on watcher are poc

[shikai-the-storyteller]

There are SO many cool interactions and lore things we can look forward to now that Rubius says he'll come back to QSMP (not only as an angel / demon, but potentially as a human too!), but that little detail reminded me of something:

Even though q!Vegetta and q!Rubius were mutually interested in each other wayyyy back in the beginning of the series, as an Angel / Demon, Rubius said he can't have relationships with humans because it's against the rules.

But a bit ago on stream, Rubius said that he's thinking about having a "human" side so he can build and do more things on the server as a regular player. I'm excited because this means he can have more casual interactions with people and we can see him interacting with his friends more (and he can experience The Horrors), but also...

I think we're in for some very interesting drama in the next few weeks.*

* ( Assuming Rubius doesn't get harassed off the server by toxic shippers and weird fans of the Eggs again. Please be nice to Rubius and welcome him back kindly, he's a very cool guy and his character is SO interesting )

#Full disclosure: shipping stuff always comes second (or dead last) to fun random interactions and dumb bits between friends #I'm more excited about Rubius coming back PERIOD #but u know. the potential for some Rubegetta crumbs or full-course meals is a fun little bonus for yours truly #i talk #qsmp talk #Anyways like I said #god forbid I see anyone being freaks about Rubius again because it'll be ON SIGHT #''But FooIi//getta is-'' I Simply Do Not Care #I don't care about fictional ships I want Rubius to interact with his friends on the server without fans being freaks about it #(I'd like to reiterate I have nothing against that ship I'm just very tired of seeing people being weird to Rubius because of it) #(because they think he ''gets in the way'' or whatever) #I will say that's one massive advantage Karmaland had over QSMP #characters could flirt or make out or bang or whatever and fans would just laugh it off because It Wasn't That Deep (usually) #I think a lot of the younger fans (...and many English fans...) need to adopt this mindset #I'm looking forward to seeing how Vegetta handles it though because knowing him... it'll be very interesting... #<-- I say this knowing full well they're just going to be their normal idiot selves and I'm so glad about it #I miss seeing Vegetta and Rubius interacting they're so funny together and they have a beautiful friendship #I do have my head in my hands listening to them talk sometimes though LMAO

[whatsfourteenupto]

No but for real tho how did y’all live with the end of season 4 for fifteen years? I mean like fuck

#I’m serious if I had watched that in real time #and seen both Donna and Ten get such horribly awfully tragic endings #I would simply have died #I would genuinely have had to walk away from doctor who #the very THOUGHT right now makes me want to rip out all my feelings #you have no idea how serious I am I can’t handle that kind of ending #you didn’t even KNOW they’d get a happily ever after #you had no silver lining #your only consolation was what? #rose and tentoo? #could not have been me #I salute all of you Jesus Christ #fucking hell #this is where I confess I’m a complete newbie

[thebirdandhersong]

sometimes (very often) I just sit there like ?????????

#mother has asked once again in all seriousness if i'd consider mr knight if he were to ask me out a second time................ #mother the answer is you couldn't pay me enough money to do that. i'd literally rather be single for the rest of my life #between mr knight and the engineer boy ive learned quite a lot about what i'd like/DEFINITELY would not like in a potential boyfriend #and personally. PERSONALLY. i can't do this no more <3 i CANNAE HANDLE that kind of anxiety sadness insecurity confusion! #the anniversary of the day i wrote mr knight a ten page (occasion: valentine's day) love letter for the first time #and received a random Facebook meme and two weeks of radio silence in return is coming up and i must say #that kind of experience is enough for a girl to put her foot down and declare: that's enough. i can't do this no more :-) #anyway father too was like well all things considered mr knight's not the worst option. he's okay. he could turn out okay #to which i say. father. i may seem and feel desperate at times but i'm not THAT desperate. #no offense to mr knight he simply isnt the right person for me and im simply not the right person for him #i wouldnt be offended if he said you couldnt pay me enough money to date her again either (well. maybe a little. but still)

[fellhalcyon]

“so, are we... like that?” “yes.”

eternal yesterday, ep3.

#as i did the last gif i noticed the little mouth thing they both do in tandem #the little kind of lips-tucked-in trying-to-contain-a-huge-stupid-grin thing #and i just !!! #i simply cannot handle this!!! #when i tell you this scene made me so fkn happy #even with the very hesitant barely-there kiss #because it tracks! it's pretty clearly mitsuru's first kiss and could very well be koichi's too! #(i know when i kissed someone for the first time i literally punched them. in the mouth. with my mouth #which was not nearly as funny or as cute as the tsundere memes make it sound) #they're just so SOFT for each other #they are so GONE #emotional chemistry through the ROOF #also: does it rain this much in japan for real #eternal yesterday #eternal yesterday ep3 #eternal yesterday spoilers #eien no kino #koichi x mitsuru #yamada koichi #oumi mitsuru #eternal yesterday my beloved #eternal yesterday gifset

[halogalopaghost]

#IM SO STRESSED IM SO STRESSED #I feel like I'm not handling ANYTHING well rn #so many people have symptoms that are WAAAAAAY fucking worse and they're like. working full time jobs and being a parent and shit and #I'm like waaah oh no I have body aches and chronic fatigue looks like I'll have to be unemployed and never do anything ever 💀 #how am I gonna live?? like. my parents are taking care of me and I'm so fucking glad but #SOMEDAY THEY WONT BE AROUND and that stresses me out so bad #I'm 25 years old and I NEED my mom every day if not physically then emotionally because I'm a little bitch baby that can't do anything for #herself. im having a hard time feeding myself I'm having a hard time keeping my living space clean #I'm not taking care of anything except the dogs sometimes and my lizard and she's not getting as much attention as she used to #I need a job and I need to be able to suck it up and DO THINGS but I feel like I'm not the person u was anymore #I was strong and I could push thru things and make myself do things and now I can't???? I just lay on the fucking couch!! and feel bad abtit #is it the tism. is it the ADHD. what about the chronic depression. how bout the fibromyalgia? #and the thing is that ALL OF THOSE THINGS ARE MILD #I don't have severe pain (yet). #I just can't handle it I don't WANT to handle it #so. shoutout to my mom I guess because if it wasn't for her I simply wouldn't be alive #I feel like I've never been happy!! why can't I just be content and be happy!!!! #I have no fucking reason to be unhappy!!!!!!

[epic-and-kitty]

so awhile ago, I answered an ask from @itsmaddienow about Twist being sentimental and being fascinated by small smooth round objects like rubber balls and marbles because of her time in the clone facility that she was born in

I just realized that this means she'd still have that fascination while being raised by the Salmonid camp. (Literally like a week after she escaped so even with memory loss the fascination would stick)

Guys.....

Eggsitter Twist 🥺

Just her delicately cleaning Golden Eggs and making comfy nests for them when they hatch and just playing with the eggs as they grow and that makes any spawnling hatched in her care super attached to her because they got way more attention than usual for eggs and OMG Twist would be a big sister to like half the camp

I need to fuckin draw this omg

#splatoon #Kitty mumbles #Oc Twist #Salmonids #Also considering she was recovering from a grievous wound then watching eggs would be very easy on her recovering body #Since spawnlings are very much a 'care for themselves' type of baby #Twist would simply be watching and caring for the eggs while recovering #Farm work and fighting would be too rigorous for her at that point #But she could handle caring for inanimate eggs #She'd probably only need help when they started hatching #Splatoon OC #I love twist so much you guys #Best eggsitter EVER

[currentlyonstandbi]

until capcom proves me otherwise, this is my interpretation of leon throughout the entire film

#dont get me wrong okay i loved the movie #and i could watch these guys get up to hijinx and shenanigans for another 10 films #BUT it being marketed as a sequel to vendetta really had me believing they would follow up on Leon's state of mind in that film #and what is clearly a massive struggle with alcoholism and depression #especially considering he seemed to be fine in this film from what we saw in trailers #so at least some sort of reference or indication as to how he seemed to be doing so much better all of a sudden #but there was none of that #other than Dylan's offhand comment in his speech about Leon being 'all burnt out' from the endless missions he's being dragged into #so i am now choosing to believe he is simply not okay #and that maybe he's managed to get a handle on the drinking but this man is still deep in the throes of major passive depression #and that's that on that ! #@ me about it capcom u cowards #resident evil #resident evil death island #re death island #re #death island spoilers #leon kennedy

[musicalchaos07]

sorry I killed Ao3 by actually posting my bad

#they simply could not handle jonathan and nancy fighting #which same #I do find it funny that like I tend to update right as ao3 goes down #like my timing is impeccable

[altschmerzes]

still working on this ‘fuck a ‘forgive your abuser’ arc’ 3x11/3x12 fix it fic and it’s like 13.5k gd help me

#gav gab #ted lasso spoilers #writing liveblog #I SIMPLY HAVE A LOT TO SAY #i worry it's turning out like....... preachy or Not Characterful or whatever #bc i truly don't want it to just be a psa about why this shit sucks #and i truly don't believe a lot of how that was handled was In Character - AT LEAST NOT THE WAY THEY DID IT #(i can believe ted could make a mistake like that is what i mean but the narrative Did Not frame it as a mistake) #(as something he said because he was clouded by his own baggage - WHICH IS FINE but that is Not how they portrayed it) #(and i believe the other people in jamie's life if they knew that had happened would uh) #(have SOME THINGS to say about it) #(and in general no we will not be endorsing 'being abused made you who you are (positive)' no sir not on my watch) #anyways #i truly am operating by what i think is In Character and an Engaging story to tell #(i.e. it's jamie trying to force himself down the 'forgive your dad or at least Try To you know For You!' path and uh #having a bit of a breakdown because of it) #but i worry it's gonna Come Off Badly yknow #anyways kicks this tag ramble under the couch #i'm writing it anyway because frankly i need it after all of that abuse apologist mess #and i'm continually bothered by a lot of people also saying that the forgiveness thing was Fine and Good but actually contacting james #was where they drew the line #bc im like no that was. also a really fucking shitty thing to have happen #if it had JUST been the 'forgive. For You.' thing? it would still suck #bc that was a very fast interaction with ZERO nuance or awareness of how fucking loaded and brutalizing forgiveness as a concept is #to a LOT of abuse victims/survivors bc of the way it's been weaponized against us #if you mean 'let go and put it down/stop carrying it/be free of it/etc' then say that. forgiveness is just too far gone for me at this point #abuse ment

[spearxwind]

what if i made a CD ocean au for adri...

i keep considering it and then not doing it bc i i feel like itll either go really well or really bad.

I am also really indecesive with what to do for it because... its hard to decide on just one possibility (and I dont think i can handle having many sjhjkd)

I used to have a whaler au for him where the funny gimmick was that he was a regular shitty guy, and I do enjoy that but that feels like itll get boring really fast outside of a few funnies (and I REALLY dont want people to be weird about him if hes 'weak')

I also did make a pirate au for him wayyy back in the day that i never properly shared where hes a ghost haunting a ship and i did like that concept but it never rly went anywhere its just something rly swag i came up with and it also would not fit in CD (would be more of a potc type vibe)

and lastly... I could make him just a shapeshifter in CD as well. but I dont know which way to go about it because yeah hes a snake but idk which way to go about the design or vibe either. I def wont make him into an eel I have two of those already x) but like yeah I cant decide if i should go with a completely new kind of vibe or if i should try and keep him close to what he is bc theres so many ways i could approach both ideas houghhh

#thunderclap #aggghh decisions decisions #not being able to properly do AUs for a few years has got my creativity in that sense rly stagnant #i really want adri to be in CD at the moment simply so I can draw more of him dkjfhjd but yeah its hard to handle for some reason #i wonder if i could make the HR gang a hunting crew or something actually... HR ocean au #i need to get HR brainrot again so bad but idk how to do it besties. the ocean keeps pulling me back #also im supposed to be working on an essay thing but ive been at it for like 8 hours straight today im so tired fr but i want to finish it. #miserable kinda day but i had a lot of fun yesterday so it balances out

[movietonight]

* says the saddest thing this lady has ever heard in her life * was it something I said????

#sorry I simply had to share this clip its so funny #a circle of children #David Ogden Stiers #mash #yeah I am tagging this with mash I want mashblr to perceive this scene #I don't know what my favourite part is #the fact that he is totally oblivious he ruined the mood for her by talking about Sad Things #the fact that they are having a private conversation about a student in front of all the other kids who can hear them #or the fact that they apparently caught a wild duck and handed it over to children in a special education programme to handle #sir this is a wild animal it could bite those kids #or the fact that this is obviously not actually a wild animal in real life