#hope this makes sense bc it was more me taking a moment to geek out bc I love this idea so much

[conspirwbytheorist-inactive]

really enjoy coming to your blog bc there are so many good yang takes. i love seeing ppl loving yang. i noticed ren and jaune’s aura broke last ep but yang’s hasn’t despite her being low as well, still have the hope she’ll get her semblance upgrade soon too. Also thanks for the indepth answer for the “i burn pt2” ask i sent before. i really liked ur thoughtful response. ties pretty well with that post about her possibly being able to activate her semblance w the power of love and friendship

*blushes* Aww, thank you! <3 I'm glad you're enjoying it! (and that you enjoyed the "I Burn" speculation. I had a lot of fun sitting down and answering that one :D)

But, yeah! Personally, I'm hoping that we've got a little longer to wait for the full semblance upgrade. I still hold that a key moment for Yang needs to be her showing emotional vulnerability in front of people and allowing herself to receive comfort. And. . .idk. I think progress is being made. She didn't snap at Ren for calling her out on being scared and she finally accessed and articulated her pain at Summer's departure on screen (even if it was initially with anger at Salem, she got down to the pain underneath which is HUGE). But I feel she still has a bit of work left to do. Burying her emotions for the sake of others has been such a core part of her life and identity that it's gonna take a lot of hard work for her to get to that point. And. . .as nice as Jaune and Ren are, they aren't characters she's really been tied to much (aside from foiling Ren), so it'd feel a little weird? From where I'm at now (with my own biases) Right now I'm leaning towards her having aura being a detail to ensure the team has someone capable of fighting to get out of Monstra/maybe a 1v1 moment where she has to choose to value her own life?

That being said, maybe her accessing the pain of Summer's death and displaying grief about that instead of tamping it down could work? Salem recovers from whatever Oscar's blast is, taunts her again with a vision of Summer, she cries. Salem mocks her. Calls her weak (maybe in a parallel to Raven). Yang looks up, hair ablaze, cheesey but in the moment badass line about how this is what makes her strong. Bing bang boom, uppercuts Salem, punches through a whale, grabs like 4 people in her arms and escapes. Who knows? XD

Sorry, bit of a tangent there (been translating D&D dice to Yahtzee for fun and I'm making these 30 min of wi-fi/charging before the next blackout count). But, anyways, whatever it is I hope it's something that SHOWS how big of an emotional moment this is for Yang. Lets us have some lead up and focus on Yang's emotions (aside from the tundra and maybe with Blake before meeting Robyn she hasn't talked about or even hinted overtly at the processing she's been doing since V5 at all) for the pay-off at the end. Instead of it just kind of happening. And with how much is going on in Whalem, and the pacing we've seen so far in the JOYR segments, I. . .doubt we'll have much time for that kind of character moment/focus. :/

But, hey, who knows? I. . .certainly wouldn't complain if CRWBY managed to find an epic way to pull it off and leave us in tears. (they've managed far stranger things in the past). So long as the emotional gravity is there I'm sold.

But, yeah. It's a theory that's very dear to my heart. :) One that I recognize might not pan out, but with so much of her character's themes focusing on strength through vulnerability, contrast with Raven, need for Goldilocks to find "just right", etc. I think it'd be a really neat direction for them to go. Having her acknowledge that emotions are a part of her strength, just like intelligence is, and finding a healthy way to balance and love those two parts of herself without beating herself up over it. Idk, I just think it's neat!

#aaaaand time. #power's back off #sorry for the delay on this XD #been having a lot of downtime to think #hope this makes sense bc it was more me taking a moment to geek out bc I love this idea so much #anon #ask #it's a conspirwby! #rwby spoilers #yang xiao long #armchair speculation #crying here over my emotional support/processing character

[socheckitout-mikey]

This maybe kind of a dumb question, but say one of the greasers were to get married, what would everyone wear and how would everyone act?!

heya birdie! this isn’t a dumb question at all, but i had to really think about it. thanks for requesting it tho! my best friend @brideofcthulhu10 helped me with this one as i was stuck. so go show her some love, tho she writes for The Lost Boys! (: i hope you enjoy what i’ve written bc it’s a right mess! - mae

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One of the Gang Getting Married Hc’s:

° Alrighty, let’s be real, it’s either Sodapop or Steve who’s getting married first.

° Just bc Johnny’s too afraid to speak to girls after the whole Sylvia ordeal. Though he’d be a likely candidate if he found someone real swell!

° Two-bit seems like another likely candidate, though, in my personal opinion, he doesn’t seem to be incredibly serious about Kathy or likely to be the type to be serious and settle down any time soon. He’s definitely the flirtatious type and doesn’t take relationships too seriously, which is just Two-bit: Though I don’t think he’s the type to flirt and mess around with other girls out of being malicious, he just seems to be the type to not adhere himself to things like Sodapop or Steve. But with the right person, he’s serious.

° Dally is definitely out of the question, particularly at the moment. I doubt he’s looking to be tied down by anyone any time soon and the thought probably freaks him out a little. Though, that’s just my own personal opinion. To me, he just doesn’t seem like the marrying type, especially not atm.

° Pony’s just too young and awkward. I view him as the baby still, no matter how old he’d be. I’m not even going into more detail lol.

° And poor old Darry! He’s so busy and tired, there’s no damn time for him to look into dating! Even though he’d be psyched to if he could. But he never thinks about that sorta stuff because Darry’s a busy, grouchy man; and rightly so!

° I believe that Steve would be one of the first to marry because of the fact that him and Evie seemed to be quite serious in the book from what I understood. They’ve got a relationship that’s clearly going strong, and it must’ve lasted for awhile since at one point he got arrested and she cried about it, staying faithful. She also seems to be someone that Soda and the other’s get along with.

° But for this piece, I’m choosing Sodapop! Now, I know y’all will be thinking that he’d have some major trust issues after Sandy, and you’re honestly not wrong. He would!

° However, I think that Soda deserves a lucky break and for something to go right for him for once! So, let’s say he’s met his soulmate and everything’s just gone all swell! He’s popped the question in the most thoughtful and romantic way possible, bc it’s our Soda we’re talkin’ about!

° He’s gonna be nervous asf and Steve’s the one to calm him down bc let’s face it, he’s his best man! The little pep talks that’ll happen before it oh my gosh!

° Soda and the other boys are pretty casual, and honestly, I’m leaning towards it just being a smaller wedding. Sodapop wants people that you both love there: Nothing to spoil the event, and quite frankly, it goes perfect.

° The wedding probably occurs in a small local church if that’s what you guys have decided, but afterwards, you guys would probably have drinks and food back at the house, where everyone’s dressed a little more fancier than usual.

° Or the wedding is a small one in your backyard, but it’s still just as special.

° I note this just because they’re greasers and they don’t have much, but they know how to have fun and how to make this day special. It’s about the feeling, not about the material grandness of the day!

° At least that’s what you keep reassuring Soda with, because you can tell he feels a little guilty about not being able to give you what a Soc could. But that’s not why you’re marrying him, right? You’re marrying him because you both bring out the best in each other!

° Well, during the wedding, there was a lot of hollering and grinning from the boys, something that was making Soda blush up a storm!

° I mean, even Dally and Two-bit are taking it seriously. The pair dressed up as snazzy as they could, joking that they’re looking as fine as ever to take away the beautiful bride!

° Darry may or may not have had to hold Sodapop back from launching cake at them both.

° Ponyboy’s grinning from ear to ear! He’s geeking out so hard because he loves you to pieces and he’s never had a sister: So having you be more of a prominent figure in his life is going to make him really happy!

° Darry’s just so happy that there’s someone to calm Soda down and settle him out: Keep his head right on his shoulders. If that’s not the case, he’s happy that Soda’s got someone just as nuts as him! Though, he feels horrible for you because of all the experimentation that you’ll encounter within regards to food.

° Steve loves you big time! He’s gonna miss his best friend, but he’s happy that he’s marrying someone so understanding and amazing. You also get on very well with Evie which is a bonus!

° Johnny’s the first to get a dance with you after Soda, and he’s blushing the whole time. You’re probably the only girl that he talks to, but obviously not in that sense. He likes you so much because you’re always getting him candy and giving him a good cooked meal, a listening ear and comfort. He thinks you’re a really sweet girl and suit Soda.

° Dallas is happy for his buddy. Although married life isn’t too much his style, he’s happy to see Sodapop finally catch a break with someone who’ll treat him right. He constantly jokes that he’s gonna pick you up and it bugs Soda a lot but Dally’s only joking.

° Two-bit’s a people person, so he gels along with you quite well and makes you laugh so hard. You also make Two-bit laugh a lot. You’re both practically joined to the hip! Two-bit’s always flirting with you, but he flirts with just about anyone.

° Definitely the one who offered to elope to Mexico with you and got a curt smack to the back of his head by Darry!

° Alright, so the gang got you a really terrible fake gift for your married life which made you two end up laughing once they brought out the real thing. It was something practical and pretty expensive since they’d all pitched in to get you guys something good because you both deserve it. Soda cried like a baby!

° There’s a ton of dancing and it’s kinda cringe. The gang dancing together makes Ponyboy and Johnny want to crawl under the floorboards like; “OH MY GOD SODA STOP DANCING LIKE DAD!”

° Darry even dances and ya boii sweeps you off your feet and you’re kinda gobsmacked because who’s switched him out for the alien?!

° Idk what else to say really, they’re all just happy for you both! The gang won’t make anything dramatic, and any drama that does occur, it’s quick to be laughed over bc they’re all pretty laid back. They wouldn’t really let anyone else shit talk you guys.

° Besides, Two-bit’s there and able to diffuse any odd tension with a joke.

° It’s the best day/night of your lives.

° Y’all got so drunk oh my god.

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[andie-cake]

for the paulkins ficlets, perhaps a paulkins first kiss? and a very flustered paul?

I like the way you think, those are both Very Good Things. This takes place at that Halloween party I mentioned in Hold Me Closer, bc I feel very strongly about that hc. Gets a teeny bit spicy towards the end, but not like,,, actively smutty.

"For real, man, thanks for coming. You really didn't have to."

"And let you suffer through this alone? No way."

It was the day before Halloween, and Paul was very much out of his comfort zone. He was never the type to attend parties, and yet, here he was at Beanies after closing hours with a cup of booze-spiked raspberry punch in hand while a bunch of loud theatre kids mingled in the other room. He would've never attended an event like this of his own accord, and frankly he was stressed out of his mind.

But for Emma? It was all worth it.

About a week prior, Paul had arrived at Beanies for his daily coffee run/Emma visit, where she had told him that Nora was throwing a company party for Halloween. She'd explained that employees were allowed to invite a plus-one, and she- in perhaps the most uncharacteristically sheepish manner possible, had asked Paul to accompany her. An offer that he'd immediately accepted, after getting over his initial shock, of course.

The days came and went, and before Paul knew it, he was walking through the front door of Beanies side-by-side with Emma on a chilly October evening. The party had been exactly what he'd expected so far. Emma's theatre kid co-workers blasting loud music over the speakers and grinding on their dates, sugary punch that had definitely been spiked with cheap booze at some point, a few of the baristas in those store-bought "sexy costumes". Paul and Emma hadn't dressed up as anything, earning some lighthearted jeers from Zoey.

An hour or two passed, and Paul soon found himself getting a bit overwhelmed by all the noise. Emma had offered to join him in the break room, which had been surprisingly quiet and empty for most of the party. And aside from the strong smell of perfume and alcohol, it was a lot more peaceful than the main room. So there they were, sitting on the worn, olive green break room couch, talking about anything and everything that was on their minds.

Emma snickered. "Very gallant of you, Paul," she teased, taking a sip of her own punch. "You're a real knight in shining khakis."

Paul snorted, looking down at the aforementioned khakis that adorned his legs. "All things considered," he said. "This isn't so bad. I'm actually having an alright time!"

Emma looked him, eyebrows raised in surprise. "No shit?" she asked.

"No shit!" he affirmed.

"Even with all the noise, and theatre kids, and noisy theatre kids?"

Paul chuckled, nodding. "Yep," he replied, leaning back on the sofa in content. "I enjoy spending time with you like this."

He winced. Fuck, he hadn't meant to say that. Eyeing the red solo cup in his hand, Paul wondered if maybe he'd had a little too much punch tonight. For a moment, he hoped that Emma hadn't caught that little moment of emotional honesty, but her playful smirk as she looked at him suggested otherwise.

"What're you saying?" she asked, a teasing lilt to her tone. "That I'm the only reason you're having any fun tonight?"

"I, uh..." Paul muttered bashfully, his cheeks going warm. Jesus, why'd that cute smile of hers have to fluster him so? "Would it be a bad thing if I said yes?"

A small giggle escaped Emma, another thing that always got Paul's heart racing. "Nah, it's cool," she replied, reaching over and gently squeezing his knee. She then cleared her throat, looking down at her lap. "Truth be told, um... you're the only reason I'm getting any enjoyment out of this party at all, too."

Paul's heart jumped into his throat, its pace growing ever quicker. "R-really?"

"Mhm," Emma responded, averting her gaze with a small smile. "Honestly, if you hadn't agreed to come with me, I was probably gonna fake a fever or something as an excuse not to come, since Nora would've gotten on my case otherwise."

"O-oh..." Paul stammered, unsure how else to respond. Had she really wanted to spend time with him that much?

"Listen, Paul," she piped up after a moment, snapping him out of his thoughts. "I've been... thinking about this for a while, but, um..."

"...Yeah?" Paul pressed her, his voice small.

"I like you, Paul, like... a lot," she admitted, finally making eye contact with him again. Paul's heart must've skipped around seven beats. He couldn't even imagine how red his face must've looked. "And I wanna make our relationship a little more... something, I'm not really sure what to call it."

"...Intimate?" Paul proposed, probably sounding much more bashful than he should've.

Emma snickered, briefly averting her gaze once more before looking back up at Paul, her beautiful brown eyes perhaps the most gentle he'd ever seen them.

"Y-yeah," she agreed. "So, Paul... kiss me?"

As Paul's heart began to do a whole acrobatics routine in his chest, all he could do was stammer in surprise for a moment. Emma Perkins, the funny, clever, beautiful, amazing woman that he'd been smitten with for the better part of a year, wanted to kiss him. How was this his life? Despite his flustered state, he managed to utter one simple word that would seal the deal.

"Okay...!"

The noise of the party behind the door seeming to fade into nothing, Emma leaned forward slightly with her lips parted. After a split second of nervous hesitation, Paul closed the gap between them, easing his lips against her own. It started off slow, before Emma deepened the kiss, her tongue slipping into his mouth. Paul welcomed the extra passion, his arms moving to wrap themselves around her. One hand resting on the small of her back, the other entangling it's fingers in her hair. Smiling slightly into the kiss, Emma moved her hands as well, one to gently cup his face, and the other under his shirt to claw at his back. Paul bristled slightly at the touch, before allowing himself to relax at the sensation of her nails against his skin. After several seconds of pure, mindless passion, they pulled away for air.

"Damn..." Emma huffed, her hands still holding onto Paul. "If I'd known you were such a good kisser, I would've had that talk with you at least a week earlier."

Paul chuckled, his brain in a lovestruck daze. "Y-you too..." he said, not really comprehending how little sense that reply made in the context of what she'd just said.

Thankfully, Emma seemed to find his dopey lack of coherency amusing, and let out that beautiful, beautiful laugh of hers. "God, you're such a fucking geek..." she teased, leaning against him and letting her arms properly wrap around him in a hug.

Face still flushing like mad, Paul returned her embrace, letting himself come down from the pure, emotional high that was kissing Emma Perkins. Before long, Emma pulled back and looked at him, a flirtatious look in her eyes.

"So, uh... I've got a couple grams on me," she began, a smile creeping onto her face. "You wanna get high, and... I dunno... see where things go next?"

Paul's eyebrows shot up in surprise, his face heating up all over again. "Wh-what if somebody walks in on us?" he asked.

"Hey, I've walked in on Zoey giving Sam a full-on handjob in here during work hours-" Emma justified.

Paul winced. "God, ew."

Emma nodded. "Yeah, I know right?" she snickered. "But yeah, if she can pull that stunt and get away with it, then I think we'll be okay."

Paul thought over her words for a second, before replying with an enthusiastic:

"Okay!"

A look of excitement in her eyes, Emma began to rummage through her pockets for her weed. This, Paul thought, was not what he was expecting to happen at this party. But with the feeling of Emma's kiss still lingering on his lips, he definitely wasn't complaining.

#hatchetfield #paulkins

[gladiatortale]

My DEPRESSION BEATING, fandom obsessing, shit-tastic FANTASTIC year in review!

TL;DR: I’m fixing my mental health and figuring out WHO THE FUCK I AM one fandom filled day at a time! Thank you to everyone who’s been there for me along the way. xoxo

what’s up HEATHENS.

stating the goddamn obvious here, it’s been a HELLUVA YEAR. One emotional rollercoaster after another but we’re ALMOST DONE. I know things aren’t gonna magically get better the second it flips to 00:01 on January first, but I’m excited to put this year behind me, and (SHOCKINGLY) a bit sad to see it go.

It was a year where the whole world completely stopped, we realized what is really important, what is really worth fighting for, and took a GODDAMN SECOND to just breathe.

For me personally, the year (which I’m counting off from November 1st) started out UNBELIEVABLY SHIT. I had just been kicked out of the country I called home for the last four years (thank you Brexit), I had ZERO job prospects, my depression was the WORST it had ever been, and I just didn’t want to get out of bed in the morning. And in the beginning, the pandemic felt like salt in the wound, an extra kick in the teeth to my early twenties that had already “failed to launch.”

But I tried to embrace the madness, really take advantage of the world (that I always thought moved to fast) properly slowing down, and take time to try and become myself again. I wanted to figure out what I loved and try and become a bit more like the person I was before my depression got so bad.

I often say I became that Manic Trash Planet Lady™ you see in sci-fi adventure films; a bit zany to say the least, with a million ideas and a very eclectic fashion sense, but embracing the insanity as it comes...

*cough cough* audrey, get to the goddamn point!

Right. lol. THE POINT IS! 

I’m not 100% “healed”, I’m not sure if I think depression is a “oh look you’re officially cured! hooray!” type of disease, but this year I let myself ENJOY SHIT for the first time in god knows how long. I still don’t know “wHaT i WaNt To dO WiTh mY LiFe”, but I’ve got a better idea and I’m heading in (what feels like) the right direction. And most of all, I can look back and say I am better than where I was a year ago.

So I wanted to say T H A N K Y O U to the mad lads on this website that introduced me to the fandoms, shows, movies, fics... THE SHIT that made me happy this year and were there to be one (BIG) piece in my healing journey.

AND SO, with out further rambling ADO! Here are the highlights of the year marked by my ridiculous hyper-fixations and OBSESSIONS. Thanks for putting up with me ya fiends, xoxox

November 2019  The Arcana (Visual Novel)

I had just gotten home and I was in a LOOOOOOW place. Randomly decided to download this app when it came up and it proceeded to ruin my life (and my bank account...) for pretty much the rest of the year. It was exactly what I needed to get me through a tough time and I was thoroughly, horse-blinders-up-to-the-rest-of-the-world, OBSESSED. These gorgeous magical fiends ruined me and all I could say was thank you.

Joined the fandom: November 2019 Obsession peaked: Late November Obsession faded: December 2019; I started a new job AND my bank statement came in and I realized I had accidentally spent over SIXTY BUCKS on this stupid app. No ragrets, but I definitely started to phase out at that point. Fandom friends: Velma, (@lanavxds on insta) miss you girlie xx Fanfics you NEED to read: ‘Second Mistake’ by DeathBelle on AO3, because DAAAAAYUM SON. Favourite moments: Basically the whole of the Julian arc. That gangly himbo OWNED my ass for a month.

December 2019 Hazbin Hotel (TV Series)

Y’ALL okay here me out. Am I proud of this one? No. Is the show crass as hell? OOOOOOOOHHHH YEAH. Did my angsty ass love it at the end of last year? DAMN STRAIGHT IT DID. Goes without saying, but this is NOT FOR EVERYBODY, but it definitely helped me along the way to becoming more comfortable with myself and being open about being the massive geek that I always was, and watching things I enjoy regardless of what people say about it.

Joined the fandom: December 2019 Obsession peaked: Shortly there after. Fandom friends: None. Dipped one toe in fandom discourse and then promptly YEETED the fuck outta there. Obsession faded: January 2019. Still curious to see the full series if A24 actually ever does produce the whole thing, but I have def moved away from it. Fanfics you NEED to read: Haven’t read any. Maybe I’m a pussy baby piece-o-shit, but I DID NOT want to go down that rabbit hole, NO MA’AM. Favourite moments:

Discovering the Hunicast podcast. These guys are a riot and Ashley is a flustered GEM. Even if you don’t watch the show, go watch an episode of these fucking LADS just dicking about and your day will get better.

Watching the first episode with my partner and watching him realize his girlfriend is a total freak.

January 2020 Lore Olympus (Webtoon Comic)

*Officially* discovered this one thanksgiving weekend in 2019, but my Arcana phase was still raging pretty strong at that point so I didn’t really get in to it until later. EVERYBODY AND THEIR MOTHER NEEDS TO READ IT. It has everything and handles the reality sexual assault and it’s aftermath EXTREMELY well.

Joined the fandom: Late November 2019 Obsession peaked: January 2020 Fandom friends: KELLEY. MA GIRL XOXOXO Obsession faded: June-ish 2020. I’m like 10 chapters behind now, but I still love this story so much. Fanfics you NEED to read: SO MANY ON MY ‘MARKED FOR LATER’ LIST AAAAAH. I have to get to that... NEW YEARS RESOLUTION lol Favourite moments: Having a drunk conversation on New Years Eve in 2019 with one of my oldest friends from high school about how much she loved it too. Helped me see how popular fandom and fandoms, are especially after feeling like I needed to hide my enthusiasm through high school and uni. (THAT WAS A MISTAKE BUT I’LL GET THERE IN A MINUTE).

February 2020 Versailles (TV Series)

SO FUCKING GAY Y’ALL. Oh my god everyone in this show is so gay. Even when they’re not they still are a little bit. AND BEST OF ALL!! it’s very historically accurate (except for the demon satanic nonsense in season 3, what was that???)

Joined the fandom: February 2020 Obsession peaked: Like??? The SECOND I finished episode one. Fandom friends: none... WHERE ARE ALL OF YOU??? Obsession faded: March 2020. It was a fast and passionate love affair, what can I say? Fanfics you NEED to read: IF YOU HAVE RECS, GIVE ‘EM TO MEEEEE. Favourite moments: 

Showing the first episode to a friend of mine and the *ungodly GASP* that came out of her throat was... PRICELESS.

The ENTIRE throuple(???) relationship between the Chevalier, Philipe, and Palatine. PLATONIC/ ROMANTIC LOVE G O A L S.

March 2020 Yuri!!! On Ice (TV Series)

*deep breath* ...y’all knew this one was coming.

Was I ready for this show to ruin my fucking life? No.  Am I so glad it happened??? FUCK YEAH.

NEVER IN MY LIFE have I fallen off the deep end so quickly with a fandom. HOLY SHIT. This blog didn’t have much of an “identity” before, but I you said that this is a Yuri On Ice blog now I wouldn’t even be mad (nor could I really defend myself to the contrary... bc??? like??? just go LOOK at my archive). Craziest thing is I watched the first two episodes like?? a solid TWO YEARS ago, but I didn’t continue watching because I was just not in the right head space for all the love and silliness and positivity.

I could do a whole separate post about how much this show and how this fandom has changed my life (DON’T TEMPT ME I JUST MIGHT). But I’ll stick with the highlights for now ;)

Joined the fandom: March 2020  Obsession peaked: Has it peaked?? Went straight up and it still going lol Fandom friends: Sandra, my mentor, my queen @aeriamamaduck, my fandom ride-or-die. Thank you for taking this internet bby under your wing. RACHEL @idancewiththefairies I TRAPPED YOU HERE. MUAHAHAHA xxx Obsession faded: ON GOING. CAN’T STOP, WON’T STOP. Fanfics you NEED to read: jfc, SO MANY.

‘Until My Feet Bleed and My Heart Aches’ and ‘Of Bright Stars and Burning Hearts’ by Reiya @kazliin​ -- Rivals AU companion pieces. Longest fics I’ve ever read and JESUS CHRIST these two fucking SENT ME. Most popular YOI fics on AO3 for a REASON.

‘Tell Me Where Your Love Lies’ by @aeriamamaduck -- Royalty AU, trope-breaking ABO. Ah sweet, TMWYLL, how you’ve killed me over and over again. This BEAUTIFUL wip has SUCH amazing world-building idk where to start (Congrats on passing 50,000 hits!) EVERYONE GO READ IT.

‘Blackbird’ by sixpences -- WWII/Coldwar Spy Fic. I don’t have enough words to describe how amazing this is. It’s elevated to a higher plane beyond fanfic. Just go read it. Thank me later.

‘Zanka’ by rinsled05 @dreaming-fireflies -- The geisha fic that ruined me. *deep breath* AAAAAAAAAAHHHHH *gasp* I’m fine. lol I sooooo not ready for this fic. Holy hell, Aoyagi had my heart in his hands from the first chapter. “’Please’ [...] ‘Don’t give me hope.’“ FUUUUCK.

‘Echoes’ by Reiya @kazliin -- Future fic. First fic I cried at... BOI. I was NOT ready for this. Shouldn’t be surprised given the author, but MAN. “‘A love like that, a love like what they had together, it never leaves completely.’ Yuri spoke again, eyes still staring out onto the ice, lost in memory. ‘There are always echoes.’” JUST FUCK ME UP.

Favourite moments: Oh good lord, where do I begin??

Having two (count ‘em TWO) main characters with mental health issues (Yuuri and his anxiety and Victor with burn out and depression) and NOT MAKING IT THE ONLY ASPECT OF THEIR PERSONALITY. CLAPS FOR KUBO AND YAMAMOTO!!

Everything about Yurio (ESPECIALLY HIS RELATIONSHIP WITH YUUKO AND HIS GRANDPA), that tsundere motherfucker is too pure for this world.

THE KISS. THE PROPOSAL. MY HEART WASN’T READY. AAAAAH!!

This fandom *properly* introducing me to smut on AO3...

Thinking I was going to get Rachel to like the show... NOT being prepared for her to fall off the deep end and START LIKING REAL SKATING TOO!!

Staying up waaaaaay too late waaaaaay too often to plan out plot points for TMWYLL with Sandra. Love ya dearie.

The warm fuzzy feeling I get every time I think about Victor and Yuuri.

April 2020 Bungou Stray Dogs (TV Series)

I had a hunch I was gonna like this show considering ALL of the characters are based off of famous classic authors from around the world... what I was NOT prepared for was just HOW MUCH I was going to love it. HOLY SHIT. The art style? Love it. The plot?? Bonkers, but so fun. THE VOICE CAST??? AMAZING. Highly recommend to anyone who wants to get in to anime, great place to start.

Joined the fandom: April 2020 Obsession peaked: Probably this summer? But we have DEF plateaued in a VERY high place. Fandom friends: FIJI. MA BOIIIII @lil-1nsane  Obsession faded: Hasn’t. Hope it doesn’t Fanfics you NEED to read: So so so many. The smut in this fandom is *chef’s kiss*, but here are a few...

‘He Works Hard For the Money’ by CataclysmicEvent @cataclysmicevent2019​ -- Sugar Daddy AU. FUCK MAN. I was not expecting to like this one, but bloody hell. This fic grabbed me by the throat and WOULD NOT let me go. Praying for chapter 16! But the author is working on another STELLAR fic so I’m okay for now.

‘Everything or Nothing’ by CataclysmicEvent @cataclysmicevent2019​ -- University AU. FUCK THIS FIC. Started reading it as I was waiting for HWHFTM to update and BOI, this fic ROCKS. The alternating POV fits so well with the enemies/idiots-to-lovers vibe. Solid 10 outta 10.

‘The City Where Wind Blows’ by @raven-rein​ -- Cancer Death fic. *pained shriek* AAAAAAGUUUUUUUHHHH *gasp* aaaaaaAAAAAAHHHHHHHH, FUUUCCCCCCCCCKKKK MEEEEE. THIS FIC. Only the second fic I’ve ever cried to but I BAWLED MY GODDAMN EYES OUT. FUUUUUUUCK. I was not ready, never would have been ready. This is so tremendously well done, it killed me so beautifully, 

‘Haunted by Hatred’ by DeathBelle -- Canon compliant Soukoku. It is a CRIME that DeathBelle doesn’t have more BSD fics on her page, but this one is still brilliant.

Favourite moments:

THE CHUUYA-DAZAI MAFIA REUNION TEAM UP WHEN THEY FIGHT LOVECRAFT. Ooof. BOI. We love it.

The first three episodes. Soooo many break neck plot twists.

Every insane hypothetical conversation with Fiji.

Every time Atsushi or Tanizaki is on screen bc I LOVE THESE LIL BEANS.

June 2020 Trash Taste (Podcast)

Goddamn I love these chaotic lads so much.

As I became more and more comfortable with myself and my love for anime I stumbled upon these three goons, -- Joey, Connor, and Garnt, -- best known for there SUPER successful (mostly) anime YouTube channels. Even if you don’t watch anime, WATCH/LISTEN TO THIS PODCAST. The focus is mostly on their lives and the overall expat/immigrant experience, with a bit of anecdotal anime references sprinkled in. 

This show is both wholesome and heathenous in equal measure, and after having lived abroad for a significant portion of my (admittedly still quite short) life, it was such a breath of fresh air to hear people talk so openly about how living outside your home country is both wonderful and terrifying. They’re wonderfully candid about the fact that even if you love a place dearly, no where is perfect, and you WILL hate somethings about your new home even if the majority of the experience is fantastic. I cannot rate this show highly enough.

Joined the fandom: June 5th 2020, loved it from the first episode. Obsession peaked: July maybe? I was RELIGIOUS about watching the episodes as soon as they came out. Still watch every week, but less “on time.” Fandom friends: None :( but I have tricked my partner in to listening several times :) Obsession faded: It’s dimmed from where it was, but still going strong. Fanfics you NEED to read: NONE. NEVER PLAN TO. Hard and fast rule, I don’t read fics about real people. Characters played by real people, even that’s a maybe for me. But real-real people? FUCK NO. (some of my) Favourite moments:

Any time Garnt and Connor get into a big-brain-monkey-brain argument and Joey is just LOSING his GODDAMN MIND in the corner.

Bringing a retired Japanese porn star in the show for an honest conversation about consensual sex work and showing people can have more than one career in life.

Everything about the, ‘Are Online Friends Real Friends?’ episode. GO WATCH IT, it’s brilliant.

Garnt making “chotto-THE-FUCKING-matte” an expression

August 2020 Great Pretender (TV Series)

Spent most of the summer marinating in my BSD and YOI bubbles, until THIS BAD BOI came up on my Netflix recommendations. HOOOO BOI. This is some Anime Of The Year shit right here. Has a pretty original concept (Catch Me If You Can by way of Oceans 11-ish) but generally starts out like most other shounen (sans the super powers). AND THEN EPISODE FIVE HAPPENS. Not gonna spoil it but they TOOK THAT SHIT UP A NOTCH. Brilliant, even with a bit of an insane ending. GO WATCH THIS ONE.

Joined the fandom: August 2020 Obsession peaked: Pretty much as soon as I started watching it. Fandom friends: What’s up Fiji ;) @lil-1nsane Obsession faded: Naturally faded, but so glad I watched Fanfics you NEED to read: None so far! Little scared about this one, heard mixed reviews, but maybe someday. Favourite moments:

Edamame’s “madness arc” at the end of season 2. HOOOO BOY.

Laurent getting fucking WRECKED when Edamame punches him mid way through season 2, kills me every time.

Introducing my partner to anime with this show.

October 2020 Attack on Titan (TV Series)

RETURN OF THE KING. lol

In my quest to find an anime that I can watch with my partner, I turned on season 1 of this bad boi. Holy hell I forgot how much I loved this show, NO WONDER everyone lost their goddamn minds when this show first aired. I NEED to catch up before all the season four spoilers come to get me...

Joined the fandom: Winter 2016 Obsession peaked: Basically as soon as I started watching it. Fandom friends: None yet, but I know you’re out there... Obsession faded: 2017, JUST BEFORE SEASON TWO... I should have stuck around longer I know, but it’s slowly coming back. Reeeeeally need to catch up on seasons two, three, and four. Fanfics you NEED to read: GIVE ME YOUR RECS HEATHENS. Favourite moments:

Watching my partner FREAK OUT about Eren’s “death.”

EVERYTHING ABOUT POTATO GORL! lol

Getting in a conversation with a die hard fan after I hadn’t watched it in three years and saying... “Who’s that blond bitch that cries all the time?”/ “Armin?”/ “THAT’S THE ONE!”

November 2020... kind of. Figure Skating (Sport)

Okay this one is a bit hard to explain. 

I have been a DIE HARD figure skating for A LOOOOOONG time. My grandmother got me a hat from the 2002 Olympics in Salt Lake City and I remember watching even then. But I first became consciously aware of different skaters, my faves, etc. from about 2010. I vividly remember watching Plushenko skating in 2014 while on a school trip to Hawaii, and my friends laughing at me as I yelled at the TV.

But I didn’t TRULY get involved in the fandom side of it until this year. I had all this knowledge bottled up, but didn’t have any skating friends to talk to... UNTIL NOW. Super ironic that this happened in a year with almost NO skating, but I’ll take what I can get ;) Also did I stay up until FOUR-GODDAMN-THIRTY IN THE MORNING a few nights ago to stream Japanese Nationals on my phone??? YOU BET I DID.

Joined the fandom: Three times; 2002, 2010, and 2020. Obsession peaked: 2014? 2018? Idk it peaks any time someone does something amazing. Fandom friends: Rachel, my girl @idancewiththefairies​, WHY DIDN’T I INTRODUCE YOU TO THIS SOONER??? Obsession faded: Hasn’t. Won’t. lol Fanfics you NEED to read: NOPE. NONE. NOT GONNA HAPPEN. No fanfics about real people. Never gonna change that. (some of my) Favourite moments:

Tessa Virtue and Scott Moir doing THAT routine at the 2018 Olympics.

Rachel​ sheepishly admitting to me that Shoma may have replaced Yuzu as her favourite, and me being SO DAMN PROUD of her for growing and developing her own skating opinions apart from me.

Yuzu’s 2012 ‘Romeo and Juliet’ routine and Worlds. THE RAW FUCKING POWER OF THAT SKATE.

Plushenko, cheeky bastard, changing his 2014 Team Event routine AS IT WAS HAPPENING.

The worlds friendliest rivalry between Yuzu and Nathan.

Any thing the Shibutani’s do, and all they do to break up the stereotype that all of Ice Dancing has to be rOmAnTiC and SeNsUaL to be good.

Watching my early faves become coaches and the D R A M A.

Honorable Mentions:

Coco (Film): I watched this the weekend I came home and I owe this movie a lot. It is so sweet an heartwarming, and it a roundabout way it brought me back to Tumblr (needed somewhere to vent my feelings considering I watched the movie a solid THREE YEARS after it came out, Tumblr seemed like the place to go lol). Watched in again in 2020 and it’s just as amazing.

Jekyll and Hyde (All media): Loved this book from the first time I read it in my first year of uni. But in December 2019, my fandom understanding reached its PEAK. The musical?? The comic?? YOOOOOO.

Dear Evan Hansen (Musical): I have BARELY engaged in fandom discourse, but the MUSIC. She fucking SLAPS.

Sirius the Jaeger (TV Series): This show is such an underrated gem. It literally has so much; "dead” family drama? Eclectic international group of monster hunters? Cowboys and vampires?? Yes, yes, and YES. And the main character has the same Japanese voice actor as Atsushi from BSD!

Studio Ghilbi (Films): My love affair with Ghibli goes back to when I was about 5 and BEGGED my mom to take me to the library so we could rent Kiki’s Delivery Service on DVD. But that love has been FULLY rejuvenated this year when I went to the Ghibli Film Festival in New York City (ironically in the last week in February). If you haven’t seen them, go watch From Up On Poppy Hill, Whisper of the Heart, and The Wind Rises. Spoilers, you’re probably gonna cry.

If you’ve made it this far, THANK YOU FOR READING! 

And thank you to all the amazing people that made my 2020 not so horrible. Good riddance 2020, don’t let the door hit you on the way out!

#2020 #mental health #appreciation post #figure skating #studio ghibli #coco #attack on titan #great pretender #bungou stray dogs #trash taste #versailles tv #yuri!!! on ice #the arcana game #hazbin hotel #anime #fandom

[kyunsies]

things i love + appreciate about my closest moots  💖 (obviously no particular order bc you all hold such a special place in my heart)

i was going to wait and post this when i hit 400 followers but that has passed and i wasn't ready in time and i didn’t really know when to post this ;; so i’m just going to do it now to remind everyone that it is truly a blessing to be here in your presence :) i don’t want to get mushy ALREADY sdlkfjsd but pls know you all mean so much to me <33

@theyoungflexer — my person, my rock, chelle you’re super special!! we have such a quirky relationship that somehow works extremely well; idk how but i had this feeling from the moment we spoke with each other i was like “omg this gal is so funky and sweet!!” i was really excited to get to know you, and we’ve talked everyday without FAIL since we became moots :) v grateful for you chelle, you’re my home girl!! (even tho we live across the states hehe) 💘💗 also i just respect you on so many levels like the way you just attend one of the most amazing colleges in the US and is thriving?? not to mention your equally as smart brother also going to an amazing college too???????? speechless. ALSO BIG SHOUT OUT BC  you are also the reason for inspiring me to start giffing so,,,,,,literally wouldn’t be here without you GOD chelle i’m so mushy for you :’((((

@softhyungkyun — 1/2 of my mom friends!!! my monmomma, my calming energy in this chaotic world!! victoria, my sweet vic how i love u so!! not to mention the BEST canadabebe around 😘 truly don’t know what i would do without you hun!! do u know how special u are to me?? how much i loved ur lil bunny pics whenever u went on a run; your CONSTANT surveillance of my many typos; and most importantly your scalding of me whenever i show my ~alter ego nasty mädch who is a simp for kyun~ (huh?? who said that, certainly not me!!) i literally look up to you in so many ways, and i’m glad i have someone like you in my life 💗💘💖

@ckyunoirs — you’ve all seen it coming but my actual soulmate!! the best kyun soulmate ever 🥺 i honestly can’t remember how we became moots LOL but i just know i thought you seemed like an absolute sweetheart (which you are) and i was so nervous to talk to you!! i was like “ah omg she has so many anons and everyone associates her w kyun i would like to be at that level” but look at us now!!! we really do share the same (thirsting for kyun always 🤝) braincell and i love that i can tell you what’s on my mind always!! you are such a nurturing soul suni, always stressing how important it is to take care of ourselves 🤧 angel behavior i think!! i don’t even have to elaborate anymore bc i think (i hope) you know truly how much you mean to me suni!!!!! thank you for being such a great friend <33

@memehyungwon — nessa!!! my love whom i get extremely excited about whenever i see your name pop up in my inbox 🥺🥺 get yourself a nessa!!!! so sweet, so supportive, so kind, and just all around LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY!! the cutest, my emotional support bub really 💘💗💖💓💞 so much love for you, plus you’re a multi-talented queen with the moodboards + edits like hello you are LEGENDARY!!! also a multistan extraordinaire, what more could u ask for?? aaaand you call me your “cariño mio” like.......,,shush i’m sobbing just thinking of it 🥺

@pansynight — i think ezra is a fallen angel I SAID IT!!! srsly THE most supportive, trustworthy, and down to earth person in the whole wide world. such a hard worker i mean moodboards, audio edits, writing on the side sometimes, AND gifmaking???????? incredible!!! and is just as a hopeless romantic as i am (cue us crying over how much we love Love together,,,,,i need a moment 😭)!! one friend who i can feel totally comfortable + stripped down with 💙💙 did i already say supportive bc ezra is the Most Supportive Bub if you didn’t already catch that 🥺

@sohcean — bee!!!! a fairly recent moot but one i love very much nonetheless!!!! i looked up to you a lot akdbdjdkjdb like you were one of my “it” monsta x blogs imo hehe but i remember i tagged you in a post where an anon asked me who my fav blogs were and 🥺🥺 you sent me an ask something along the lines of “ty v much i’m glad we’re moots now!!” AND WHEN I TELL YOU!!! i was crying 😭😭😭 anyways, always checks in on me once in a while and you’re always super duper sweet and caring (and thank you for submitting sweet kyun pics occasionally; they are SO desperately needed);; plus you are so extremely eloquent with your writing -- when you post something particularly long i kinda just space out into dreamland  bc you just take me to another place with your words omg *chefs kiss* love ya hun!!! 💙💜💙💜💙

@burnitupmp3 — ah ADRY!!! honestly i was really scared to talk to you too for some reason DJFLSDJ but i think that’s bc you’re so extremely hilarious :’) but now that we are certified CLINGMATES 🥺 i literally thank my lucky stars for you everyday :( always and i mean ALWAYS supporting not only me but all of your other moots too ITS SO AMAZING TO SEE!!!!!! never being shy and always starting a conversation with everyone like i’m starting to get the feeling that maybe you DO in fact know every monbebe on this site HEHE but!!!!! grateful for you, if there is one singular constant on tumblr it's you and you're humor, kindness, individuality 💘💗 1/3 of my joobebes, but my ONLY rujoobebe :’) alSO TY FOR FEEDING ME J.SEPH CONTENT <33

@minhyukie — LISTEN if you don’t follow amy you’re missing oUT!!!! but srsly amy i’m going to get really mushy on you jfsdlkfj  🥺🥺 i’ve been following you ever since i made this blog in january (obvi bc u make High Quality content) and i just need to get this off my chest but when u popped in my messages telling me what i was doing wrong in ps about the smart object thing I LITERALLY SCREAMED I JUMPED OUT OF MY SEAT I MESSAGED @theyoungflexer AND WAS LIKE OMG OMG OMG AMY JUST TALKED TO ME!!!!!!!!! jeez like i was so embarrassingly excited :’D !!! man, am i SO happy we are moots <33 the best minbebe around, always providing me with advice and so many resources,,,not to mention we kinda (??) live relatively close-ish to each other so that’s also very cool LOL but srsly!!! amy you are such a backbone for the mbb community here and i look up to you SO much,,,smooches to u 💘💗

@leejooheons — aj!!! 2/3 of my joobebes!!! we are only recently moots but much like amy, i’ve been following you since the beginning of my blog’s existence!! gosh i look up to you in sooooo many ways and again LIKE AMY when i finally found the courage to talk to you i kinda freaked out when you responded LOL !! your gifs are absolutely AMAZING STUNNNG WONDERFUL; you inspire me to really improve my skills, and you always always ALWAYS give me such helpful advice all the time when i don’t even ask for it :( if anything i can't imagine how annoying it is to see me complain about all of my ps troubles but you still take time out of your day to always give me the best tips ever. and for that??? i’m SUPER grateful for all that you do for not only me but for monbebe tumblr too !!! 💘💗

@chaelight — fern!! my other resourceful monbebe moot 🥺 even though we don’t talk all the time, you, like aj, are always providing me with such amazing content advice!!! seriously idk why you all are so incredibly nice to me it’s so touching 😭 and just like bee, you also give me such a calming vibe; you’re just an overall delight to see on my dash because your content is SO well thought out too <33 love you fern!!

@joosgf — lulu!!! 3/3 of my joobebes who also takes the time to tag me in kyun content 🥺 we do not message often but :( omg you’re such a freaking cutie :( i knew i wanted to be your friend when i found your blog bc 1) everyone loves u and 2) you are so incredibly nice <33 i really hope we get to grow closer in the future!! you are so supportive even though we aren't close, and just know that you can always come to me for anything!! also i just love your adoration for our joober it’s SO SWEET, i love to see you geek about him bc it really is the cutest thing <33

@haoranghae — jill!!!!!!! my eastern standard time pal!!!!!!! <33 honestly i think you're the only moot where i DONT have to think about you being asleep while i’m up bc i know we’re on the same time schedule :’) my multifandom buddy who shares my love for victon and honestly a lot of other groups too!! surprisingly we don’t message often but like, i feel like when we DO talk we always pick up where we left off, if that makes sense? i always feel at home talking with you <33 and you’re so freaking SUPPORTIVE always saying nice things and going out of your way once in a while to pop in the inbox!! jill dear you are such a joy, thank you for being you 🥺

@morkyun — carly my sweet angel!!! one of my most precious fellow kyunbebes!!!! idk why you’re so darn SWEET TO ME!! just the sweetest; always asking how i’m doing, always crying over changkyun with me, always participating in ask games sdkjflskdfjslkf how can i ask for anything more than you?? super DUPER grateful to have u in my life, literally such a blessing <33 AND U HAVE ME IN YOUR BIO <33 IM MELTING PLS I FREAKING LOVE U!!!

@hohyuk — everyone LISTEN UP AS A TALK ABOUT ONE OF MY FAVORITE PEOPLE IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD!!!!!! my ma, 2/2 of the mom friends!! you aren’t as active as you were when i first started to talk to you (bc u are a wonderful working WOMAN) but gosh, you made such an impact on me ma :( you are such a caring and nurturing person like the only way i can describe you is motherly :( i remember we would always talk about our days + weekends bc we never really messaged a lot HOWEVER we would always touch base at the end of the week and catch up!! although we don’t talk that often anymore, i want you to know that you will always have a special place in my heart for being exceptionally kind to me 💘💗 and for that i am forever thankful for you ma!! love you!!

@kihyunsgf — kass my cutie patootie!!! we have been moots for a long time it feels!! ( i mean long for me since i’ve one been here since january lol) but you are such an amazing monbebe friend!!! we don’t really private message each other but it seems like we always participate in each other’s ask games so it’s always fun to get to know a little bit more about each other every time we ask questions!! you always reblog not only my work, but every other content creator moots’ works too and i just think you are an extremely supportive friend in general <33 thank you for always being so approachable and warm, and i hope we only grow closer as time goes on 💘💗

@kkyuns — okay aminah OMG so,,,,,,,,,idk if you even want me to consider you a moot yet or anything but 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 can i pls be your moot LOL srsly 🥺🥺🥺🥺 and if you don’t feel comfortable that’s okay and u can just consider this an appreciation post dksfjslkdjf but!!!!!! aminah i’ve already told you i’ve sent you so many asks anonymously and i only recently found the courage and come off bc i feel really comfortable whenever i talk to you <33 literally the KINDEST soul in the entire world;; you might not answer asks quickly ALL the time but you always find a way to make time for the people who look up to you and honestly?? that inspires me to be a kinder more gentler person!! my FELLOW NURSING GAL working your lil BOOTY off, a queen really :’) and not to mention one of the most TALENTED mbb gif makers on the entire planet i’m not even stretching that i truly mean it angel <33 thank u for making me (and others ofc) feel incredibly appreciated, and thank you for being a blessing to mbb tumblr :D

@changkynie — sian angel!!!! you have been with me since the beginning of this blog it seems like!!! thank you for always being my secretive cheerleader on my blog, i really adore you for that! you are such a cutie and you ALWAYS make time to send in little messages to both me and our lil family on my blog!! it’s really the sweetest thing; you are truly SUCH  blessing and i love waking up/falling asleep to your kind words <33 together forever bub i think <33

@tsunpan  (idk which blog you’re comfortable w me tagging so i’ll just do this one dsjfsjdf)—RATCH!!!!!!! i know a lot of ppl on your blog don’t know your name (and oddly enough i’ve never asked either bc i thought u wanted to be secretive LMAO) but then you plugged your twitter @ a while ago and u said it had your name there HEHE SO!!!!!!! i’ll keep it private :) but HOLY CRAP!! my actual first moot on here :( like my FIRST first moot ever :( says i’ve been following you for 8 FREAKING MONTHS!!!!!!!! and wow look how far we’ve come <33 i know i don’t message u as often as a should but just know i cherish this friendship like my life depends on it skdfjlksdjf and thank you for always indulging me with you’re changkyun writings (shout OUT to safekeeping kyun UGH my heart) + also sharing my love for mr. park junhee + ALSO being my astrology guru WOW u really do it all <33 ;; every time i message you i’m always like wow i wish i were as carefree and funny as my gal !! love you to the moon and back dear, thank you for putting up with me 💘💗💖💓💞

@monpabebe —lastly but CERTAINLY not least is my dear RIKA!!!!! again i have this running theme of being scared of the ppl i love LMAO but yes rika i’ve been following you too for a very very long time (i have actually sent u some anonymous stuff too hehe) but i think i fINALLY revealed myself when u mentioned your height!! SHORTBEBES OUT HERE PROTECTING EACH OTHER <33 but on a serious note, you are amazing :( i’m so glad i came out of my shell to finally talk to you; thank you for supporting my work, it means the absolute WORLD to me and thank you for also being a backbone here on monbebe tumblr as well :) i love seeing your interactions with your anons, it always puts a smile on my face 💘💗💖💓💞 whether you're arguing about tomatoes, geeking over shownu, or just giving your opinion on everything monsta x related, i always look up to you 🥺🥺🥺🥺 i know i don’t really talk to you often (bc i’m still a lil intimidated IM SORRY skdfjksd) but i would love for our lil friendship to bloom in the future rika!! :)

#mädch rambles #musHY POST omg but :') i just love u all so much idk #idk if this is weird like im sorry if youre uncomfortable w this sort of thing but idk when i reached 400 it just hit me #like wow ppl appreciate my mediocre content + are growing with me :) #PHEW #my sweet MOOTS <33

[shibalen]

hi !! can i get a romantic haikyuu matchup with ♫︎ + 𑁍 please? she/her pronouns, i'm pan, infp, with a libra sun+moon ! i'm introverted, very chill and free spirited, also very patient, to the point that i'm sometimes a doormat :/ i'm in touch with my emotions, i'm usually quiet but can get really talkative when excited. i get in my own head a lot and have a hard time asking for help. cursed memes and playful banter are my cups of tea, and i'm not easily flustered (but that's probs partly bc i'm kinda dense oof). 🃏 [1/3]

i do competitive debate and it's kind of my sport! i'm a theatre kid too, i absolutely love performing! i'm bilingual and learning french, i love classic books, philosophy, and cats. i'm a pop culture nerd! i speak very animatedly. sharing songs is a love language for me. i think i'm very supportive towards my friends, i don't always give advice but i always try to be there for them as much as i can (even if i nag them sometimes).🃏 [2/3]

i love writing analyses on media i like! i'm especially into stuff that has lots of themes and focus on character psyche, i like picking them apart. i also like fashion and playing uke! i don't have an ideal type for an s/o, all i ask is they understand when i'm super busy and need to be alone to recharge, but also know when to call me out when i'm trying to burn myself out lol. i like spontaneous, spur of the moment dates! this got long hshs but thank you sm and hope you have a great day !! 🃏 [3/3]

♡ matchup for anon

haikyuu: i match you with . . .

tetsurō kuroo !!

• i'm convinced you'd go great with Kuroo, and that you're exactly his type! relaxed and quiet yet fun, you'd catch his attention quickly.

• he adores your analytical, nerdy side but also your funny and free-spirited personality. definetly the type to playfully make fun of you for those traits to express his affection tho (until you point out he's just as much of a geek himself)

• being Kenma's friend, he has no problem getting you out of your head and laying out the facts. he'll help you focus on smaller goals to keep you from burning out. taking breaks is obligatory and if he's not there himself you guys will have video chats to take your mind off work. his dedication knows no bounds, trust me.

• boy is super vigilant about your health but not in an annoying naggy way. he sends you reminers to drink water and have a meal because he doesn't want his dearest person hurting herself (｡╯︵╰｡)

• you guys met at a debate competition. Kuroo didn't really want to be there but he was recruited by his peers to fill in for another person from the debate club who couldn't make it. he's always this kind, right?

• funny thing is that you never had an "official" debate but instead one in the corridor of the building the competition was held in. you were trying desperately to get a drink stuck in the vending machine when Kuroo came to your rescue.

• he taught you a useful hack how to get those things free but also teased you about not asking for help sooner you know he had to

• you ended up arguing over whether or not it was okay to ask strangers for help. it was dumb and far from any structured debate, but it was fun! Kuroo really had a bast seeing you switch from your polite ways to excitable chatter during your conversation and knew immediately he liked you.

• so, you exchanged numbers and social media before parting ways. getting together as an official couple no doubt took a while but that only resulted in a relationship that was all the more sound and comfortable for the both of you (*´▽`*)

• if anyone plans to take advantage of your politeness, Kuroo will just stare at them over your shoulder with that smile of his. i assure you no one is going to take advantage of you on his watch! "hmm? what was that you were about to say? let us hear it."

• you playfully tease each other on daily basis, light-hearted banter and snarky remarks, but by god when he tries to be the slightest bit more romantic you completely miss the point. rip Kuroo he's taken it as a challenge to make you flustered and will stop at nothing.

• you guys would have so much fun debating over everything from philosophy to ridiculous opinions such as whether cheese goes before or after the ham on a sandwich.

• gets all smug when you start being more talkative with him because you're showing a special side to yourself, hehe.

• has the s o f t e s t smile on his face when he listens to you talk !! like, resting his chin on his palm and leaning in, hanging on your each and every word while thinking how precious you are ♡︎

• can't forget about all the cursed memes you send each other in the middle of the night! not mention how you have entire conversations in them??

• it's completely all right if you don't have advice to give. when Kuroo's feeling down you being there is all be needs ♡︎ your presence alone is enough to remind him everything is going to be okay.

• !! sharing earbuds during bus, car and train rides !! change my mind. he especially likes it if you rest your head on his shoulder all the while, it makes him feel happy that you trust him so much. plus the fluffy intimacy.

• once he tried doing the same to you but he's kinda heavy so eventually you had to tell him to lift it. but in exchange, you let him lay his head on your lap. he actually prefers it that way now.

• such an overly dramatic couple honestly. if one of you starts acting dramatic, the other will jump the bandwagon no questions asked. yeah . . . your friends don't third-wheel on your dates much . . .

• your dates include shopping for fashion (imagine trying to style his hair to fit with the rest of his outfit but the last second it just goes poof), aimless "we'll figure out a date on the way there" drives, trying out funky science experiments from youtube, donating blood, pillow fort parties and childhood movie nights ♡︎

♫︎ music box

— Yellow by Coldplay

— Nicholas Sparks by Kinda Collective

— Sweet Talk by Saint Motel

— Backyard Boy by Claire Rosinkranz

— Dance, baby! by Pablo

𑁍 jewellery box

— favourite memory with you

afrer a big volleyball game victory Kuroo had decided to cofess to you. it was the perfect opportunity, he was feeling the most confident and ready. so, after the celebration with his teammates he invited you over to his place where you'd get some peace and quiet. however, before he got to say what he'd been agonising over for months now, you asked to play a song for him. you had written it yourself, especially for him, for this victory and your own confession! boy was absolutely shooketh but all the more smitten. he almost cried you were so perfect shh it was you both laughed as he said his confession right after ♡︎

— favourite activity to do together

i said it before and i'm gonna say it again: Kuroo loves playfully bantering with you. your wit never ceases to surprise him but it also gives him an excuse to throw an arm around your shoulder and get even closer to you ♡︎ as for actual activities i wanna say simply hanging out with you is more than enough for Kuroo because it's then when you're the most relaxed. it also leaves room for more spontaneous dates, your adventures are always new and exciting!

— favourite place to kiss you

Kuroo is a tease and will kiss you anywhere but the lips (or any other place you want him to). he loves giving you kisses but in most situations you might think he lives to see your pout or glare as he takes his time. in the end though, his kisses are the sweetest, meant only for you. in conclusion, i think his preferences very much shift according to yours.

— favourite nicknames to call you by

okay i know 'kitten' is very popular in the fandom, and i think since you like cats he enjoys calling you by it. but the nicknames he likes calling you by the most are usually in foreign languages, like 'chica' 'ma cherie' etc. if you like nicknames then do i have good news for you because cheesy ones as 'hunny bun' and 'boo' are also on his list!

— favourite thing about you

your sense of humour, among other things, is something Kuroo finds endearing about you! it's very similar to his own so he thinks of it as something that connects the two of you. also, the fact that you're in touch with your emotions is precious in his eyes. it's not common these days so you're a special treasure to him ♡︎

♡︎ runner up: Rintaro Suna

hihi! here i am doing requests hahahahaa . . . right. no excuses. i am terribly sorry for the wait so i'm trying to improve the quality of these in an attempt to make-up for the mega long wait. i sincerely hope you see and loke this!! stay safe and remember to be kind to yourself ♡︎

#len's matches #matchups #haikyuu matchups #🃏anon

[gffa]

spectral-musette replied to your post: Scattered Star Wars Thoughts: - One of the things...

     Hm, I did really enjoy Alliances, but at this point I feel like Treason might just be sticking with me more (I apparently really love Ar'alani???). I can definitely see your points about Alliances: my big complaint was that it didn’t have enough Anakin/Padme romance. I took it for Anakin being task-oriented, but now that you mention it, he probably SHOULD’ve been thinking about Obi-Wan more (I guess I was doing that enough for everyone?).       (continue re: Alliances) - But I didn’t take the Padme POV stuff about Duja to mean that she was particularly closer to her than any of the other handmaidens, just that their friendship was prominent in her mind due to the circumstances.

shadowsong26x  replied to your post: Scattered Star Wars Thoughts: - One of the things...

      i was talking about this a while back–i overall liked alliances, but it did kind of fall flat for me, too; in part for the characterization issues you mention (though i have more issues with vader than anakin/padme, but i can def. see where you’re coming from); but also bc someone pointed out to me that thrawn is kind of a sherlock holmes expy? and in alliances there’s no real watson analogue, so that dynamic is missing. and holmes sans watson can be insufferable. (cont)       whereas in treason, while it’s not quite the same as in other books, he has *way* more compatible people to bounce off of, so…idk, that’s part of it for me at least?

Oh, no, I apologize for this in advance.  XD  I just really have a lot of feelings about these books!  I loved that first Thrawn book so much, even knowing that Zahn had a tendency to write his OC as the most special ever, I was feeling pretty charitable towards the character because he was obviously going to lose on Rebels and I loved Eli in the book, and it was a nicely balanced book re: everything that frustrated me about Alliances. The thing that got me about Alliances is that I don’t think it achieved a very good balance about how to use characters like Anakin and Padme.  When Zahn writes more minor characters (like his OCs or like Arihnda Pryce) it works out because we’re not coming in with those characters having a huge established story already in place.  But Anakin and Padme have these connections that should have been coming up--this was set not that long before ROTS, right?  Why isn’t he thinking more about Ahsoka?  Why does he literally only even think about Obi-Wan like twice in the entire story?  I can buy that Padme’s thoughts were focused on Duja because she just died, but the way none of the other handmaidens ever seemed to be part of that tapestry just didn’t fit with how Padme handmaidens have always been a group.  Even Sabe’s relationship with Padme is littered with the other handmaidens being in and around them! And the final insult came when the book tried to kind of imply that it was Thrawn who got Padme to start thinking about how the Republic was maybe actually kind of terrible, which was mean to be a lead-up into her line in ROTS, “What if the democracy we thought we were serving no longer exists and the Republic has become the very evil we've been fighting to destroy?”  Thrawn’s supposed to be absolute shit at politics, that was well established in Thrawn (which takes place many years after this one!) but suddenly he’s canny enough during the Clone Wars to:  "Maybe what really troubled here was his suggestion that the Republic and Separatists all played by those same rules." In theory, it’s a neat connection to the events of the movie, something I wanted more of!  Connection to the rest of the established GFFA and the events in it!  But it gave me this really sour taste of how Padme’s story, her entire arc, as a politician who has an arc across the entirety of the TV show that’s at least somewhat hers, is actually inspired by Thrawn instead.  Thrawn, who’s supposed to be shit at politics. Add that together with how Zahn built up that Padme was a character who was about diplomacy, about talking to resolve issues, and in the end her big climactic scene was still shooting a droid with her blaster. Add all that together with how lackluster Anakin felt to me and I just was disappointed with Alliances.  I think @shadowsong26x really put it into clarity for me with those comments (THANK YOU FOR HITTING THAT NAIL ON THE HEAD), that Thrawn works for me when he’s the Sherlock in a Holmes & Watson dynamic, but then that follows that you just cannot put ANAKIN SKYWALKER into the Watson role because that downplays the competency of his character. Like, yes, look, I make fun of Anakin and point out all the ways in which he is a dumbass (largely because this helps me forgive him for all the monstrous shit he’s done, but also because it endears him to me and makes him so relatable to me) but when you write a serious novel and have Thrawn explaining electronic stuff to Anakin Skywalker?  No, get out of here with that.  Not unless Anakin is either geeking out on exactly the same level (NO, MAKE HIM GEEKIER BECAUSE HE IS!!!) or is like, “Yes, we all spent a semester in comm tech class, I get how it works just from looking at it.” or Zahn went even harder on the authority kink.  Because I do not believe, for one single second, that Thrawn knows more about machines than ANAKIN SKYWALKER. Thrawn works for me with Eli, because there’s a genuine sense of exasperation there, a genuine and justified sense of “what did you just fucking do?” when Thrawn gets him assigned to the Blood Crow, there’s an organic sense of growing affection between them, and Eli works as someone who is good with his own thing, but isn’t THE CENTRAL FIGURE OF THE SKYWALKER SAGA AND ONE OF THE MOST POWERFUL JEDI EVER.  I can see Eli being the Watson in that dynamic! I liked the hints of something really delightful going on there--that Anakin and Thrawn clashed with each other, that Anakin’s flying by the seat of his pants kind of style clashes with Thrawn’s need to control an entire situation to get the outcome he desires, that there were moments of hilarity when they snarked at each other (”Do you make a habit of getting captured?”  “NO!!!” was hilarious) or when Anakin’s authority kink was on display, but there wasn’t enough of that to balance out the other problems I had with the novel. (As a side note this is why I’m hoping that Zahn isn’t the one to write “what happened after Rebels with Ezra and Thrawn?” story, because I’m not sure I trust him to not try to put Ezra in the Watson role, when I don’t think that would suit his character.) Whereas, in Treason, Thrawn is being put in situations where the people he’s pinging off him can take more of a second fiddle role, where I can take enjoyment out of Thrawn outplaying them (which, yes, Anakin is not a great political player, but he has enough sheer raw power and enough tactical brilliance and mechanical brilliance that I need that to be respected).  That’s where Zahn’s Thrawn works best for me and why, when I went back to reread the first book, it still really worked for me even after I was crabby about Alliances.

#spectral-musette #shadowsong26x #anakin skywalker #thrawn #meta #novels #as always it's cool if others loved that book more than i did! #i hope there are people who did! #enjoy that book and flail happily about it and it'll make me feel better about it too! #nothing wins me over faster than someone just genuinely ENJOYING something they like #or seeing things in a kinder way than i did will pull me over far faster than anything #♥

[webheadedhero]

@vypcr​ made my spider-sense tingle: "if i tell you to leave me behind,  would you listen?"

more injury prompts bc reasons

  her question made him stop in his tracks, eyebrows coming together in a look of equal parts confusion and frustration. taking a moment as his voice lost almost all of it’s usual light tone. making sure that the answer wasn’t something that was going to change. “ no.” pressing his lips together and giving her a look, trying to figure out just why she was asking him that. opening his mouth a couple of times as he tried to say something. a bit of hesitation in him as he was hoping to not make her too angry. “ I--” he was finally able to get out, his voice returning from it’s serious tone earlier.   “ do you think you’re not worth saving?” letting the question sink in for a moment before answering her, “ because I do. I think--” shaking his head once, “ I think you are. so, no. I wouldn’t. I may not be an all star karate fighter, but I can still carry you if that’s what I need to do.” pausing for another moment, reaching his arm up to scratch a few fingers against the base of his neck. blushing as if he just said too much,

“ you can always call it a piggy back ride if that makes it less embarrassing. being carried by the lab geek--I mean.”

#vypcr #v; spiders have fangs too (cobra kai) #what is happening idk but i'm wingin' it

[toddsfall]

Let’s talk about Star Wars

SPOILERS SPOILERS SPOILERS (don’t say I didn’t warn you)

first off, the entire cast looked like a DELICIOUS SNACC PACK if you were attracted to any of them before and are wondering if they have somehow become more attractive the answer is yes. Yes they have. 

Rose is awesome, I love her (even though I have Thoughts about her storyline, more on that later) and if I see one more racist motherfucker on Twitter try to bend themselves over backwards trying to justify calling her ‘the worst character ever in SW’, ‘unattractive and fat’, ‘the worst part of the movie’ I am personally pulling the plug on the internet. Same goes for anyone trying to hate on Finn, y’all are really transparent and IT’S FUCKING GROSS. YOU RACIST ASSHOLES.

Hmm so anyway, I have a lot of thoughts and most of them will be rambly so come along this ride with me friends (I swear I’ll try to make clear & concise points)

Okay so I want to go right off the bat say that I have loved Star Wars since I was a wee babbie so I’m? going to? love it? always? so yeah, I know I’m biased (but honestly who isn’t? everyone reviewing the movie has their own biases attached to it sooo deal with it) 

The movie starts off with several action sequences which immediately pull us into the story, they got my heart racing from minute one and I was here for it. Also, I got goosebumps the minute I saw Leia/Carrie’s face and I stayed pretty emotional throughout the entirety of the movie. I think they gave her the respect she deserved, her legacy really shined through in every single one of her scenes (and her scenes were among the most memorable in the movie imo)

I loved how much the movie focused on characters. This was a story about people; 

how they can fuck up and fall off their pedestal (Luke); 

try their hardest and still fail someone (Leia and Han failed Ben, it’s sad but it’s true); 

how they can overcome their past and choose the light over and over (Rey was the main focus but Finn and Rose were definitely part of this theme as well); 

how they can feel completely abandoned and isolated and  become completely unhinged, unable to overcome their past and become completely bitter (Kylo Ren/Ben, listen I am not trying to sound like I approve of his actions but I really like how the movie delved into HOW people can become ‘the villain’ in a story, it was an unflinching take on how someone can have very legitimate reasons for becoming the way they am and it still in the end not justifying their actions at all. Idk, other people probably have a take different take on this but I for one found it kind of refreshing). 

This movie really delved into how heroes are people too, everyone fucks up. Everyone. Even the best among us. And we don’t all handle it so well (aka Luke completely abandoning everyone he’s ever loved to die, you could argue that was a pretty egocentric move and maybe that seems out of character - ask yourself if you’ll be the same person you’re now in 30 years now, especially if the current political climate keeps matching the pretty horrifying ones in sw- but it shows how disillusioned he’d become). 

However, in the end it felt to me like hope was still there. All these people, who have lost so much and who have fucked up in various ways (Finn wanting to abandon the rebellion, Poe leading them into a defeat, Leia failing her son, Rey possibly considering joining Kylo?/the darkness, Luke see above) still choose to stand up for what’s right. I know people thought the ending was a bit too cheesy (and I will come back to how choosing this ending will probably end up costing them later) but I loved it. I don’t know about you guys, but movies don’t always have to choose the dark route to end up good for me? Like, sometimes I just want to be entertained and escape into another world where it’s possible for heroes to be flawed but ultimately still good? maybe just me though.

So that’s what I loved most about the movie. Some of my fave scenes: (and I’m sure I’m forgetting some?)

I loved Kylo and Rey’s scenes (because heyyy they have similar experiences and yet are polar opposites, their dynamic has really grown on me! I don’t want them to end up together romantically but their climax will probably be the most interesting villain/hero confrontation in a while - that’s just my opinion thooo-) the scene in the rain, the hand touching and the fight in Snoke’s room were so emotionally charged I liveee

As I said, I loved Leia’s scenes (especially with Poe, god I wish we’d get more of that dynamic but :((( ) the scene with Luke at the end, not gonna lie that one got to me (I mean, it was going to be emotional bc of Carrie anyway but the weight of those last scenes, honest to god chills)

the scene where Admiral Holdo flies into the command ship was fucking MAGNIFICENT seriously, the silence? the visuals? fuck.

I want to go into a really detailed analysis of how the use of old motifs and themes from previous movies in the score carried a lot of the emotional weight forward, but I’d have to watch/listen to the movie again to fully carry that out with the respect it deserves so maybe another time. Just mentioning it because it’s still one of my favorite star wars things (and I know it’s said so many times before but you know what? the music is so good, it should still be mentioned in every single review. don’t do john williams dirty like this) it’s very subtle at times, but I swear I heard some of Darth Vader’s iconic march come through in Luke’s score in this movie? very interesting!! pls let me geek out over music internet I’m begging you

I already mentioned Snoke’s throne room but the moment you see Kylo deciding to kill him is glorious too (props to Adam Driver, seriously you can hate Kylo and I totally understand but attacking the actor - especially when it’s based on his looks, which most of you are wrong about jsyk I don’t make the rules, it’s just science his eyes look like a baby deer?? - is so unnecessary please don’t stoop to the level of those dudebros on twitter attacking rose? like, Kylo has enough bad deeds on his resumé it’s okay you can attack him for that, you don’t need to drag his looks into it so annyyywaay sorry for that tangent it just irks me)

BB8 being the reason while basically any of the resistance is still alive is so fucking funny I’m sorry if you hate it I love my dumb orange cat robot (the reunion with Poe? cleansed my entire soul)

Finn towering over Phasma and spitting out ‘rebel scum’ is Good and should not be forgotten also, speaking of good acting? the way John conveys the inner conflict Finn is going through so subtly is probably going to go unnoticed BUT IT IS GOOD AND I’M GOING TO SHOUT AT Y’ALL ABOUT HOW MUCH HE 5AND DAISY° HAVE GROWN TILL YOU GET IT THROUGH YOUR SKULLS

if we’re talking about Iconique scenes, the man licking the ground and saying ‘Salt’ was fucakfmlkdj so funny I can’t explain how fucking funny that was 

I’m not going to dwell too much on what I didn’t like because I believe there is such a thing as analyzing something to death and I don’t want to do that (besides, it’s really not hard to find criticism for this movie. People really out there comparing it to the Phantom Menace? Lies. Y’all really hate this movie huh? Too bad, I was thoroughly entertained and I loved it  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯)

I feel like most of my problems with the movie could have been solved with some changes to the plot. The critiques I agree with are

 the pacing was weird (how long was Rey on that island? it didn’t seem to be that much longer than the entire plot and subplots of the rebels trying to escape the ship, but that was at most like 20 hours sooo) 

the plot was pretty straightforward: conflict-resolution, conflict-resolution, conflict-resolution. I would have liked to have seen this shaken up a bit. The movie could still have focused on characters with higher stakes, more unresolved issues, messier plots. It was a bit too neat. I saw most of the ‘twists’ coming (e.g. kylo killing snoke, boy they really layed it on thick there) except for: leia charging in and shooting poe (heyoo that’s cinema baby), luke actually still being on the island (and something else but I’m completely blanking rn!)

 I think that’s why people don’t like the ending, it’s too neatly wrapped up in a bow (ignoring the fact that there are like 10 rebels left now? that’s seems like uuuh a problem) And while I like it from an emotional resolution point of view, I think the the movie could have done with more tension at the end. More tension, to keep you on the edge of your seat, wanting to immediately see the next movie. that was its biggest flaw imo

and finally - fair warning: I’m conflicted about this- Rose and Finn’s plot. Hooo boy, okay. So, I wanna say that I love them as characters but.. I don’t really want them to get together? idk remove all forced romance from your plot, writers. It will really help unclutter your stories I swear. (that said, I wouldn’t mind them in a relationship as long as it’s not to create tension with rey? or like any love triangle at all. Please leave that garbage at the door). Aside from that, I know people think their plot was the worst of the movie and I don’t think that. However, I think they could have done more with it. Shown more conflict! let Finn be the spark (and he is!! fight me!!) but also conflicted about joining the rebellion. Let Rose be completely torn up about her sister and let her be bitter dammit! They could have used more obstacles, their plot seemed mostly resolved by a deus ex machina (aside from Finn fighting Phasma - who I’m kind of wishing he didn’t kill cause I can sense she has sooo much more in her, honestly Hux is 100 times more boring, you have gwendoline RIGHT THERE FUCKERS USE HER) I didn’t mind the exposition of the filthy rich people planet (YESSS EAT THE RICH STAR WARS PLS SHIT ON THEM AS MUCH AS YOU CAN) but it just lacked.. spark. I hope their plot turns out to be important for the next movie, otherwise it was sadly something that could have been much greater (and it’s really uncomfortable to introduce two main poc characters and then basically have them contribute nothing to the main plot, hmm okay star wars I’m watching you)

I can’t/don’t have the energy to address everyone’s issues, but mostly I don’t agree with people being mad about characters (I think it’s clear I like the direction they’ve taken with most of them), the humour is a bit disneyfied but I really didn’t mind (it’s clear as day some of those cutesy aliens were in there for the money, money, money but like.. it be like that sometimes), I honestly don’t care about Snoke so I wasn’t disappointed his backstory was not a part of this, Rey NOT being a part of the great history before her is important to me (can’t believe I didn’t mention it with my favorite scenes, really regretting that salt guy now) even if they try to backpedal on it later that moment was beautiful in the movie (my space daughter isn’t important in the grand scheme of things but she so iiiiiis!!). All in all, I really liked it. It’s not my favorite movie (not even my favorite star wars movie) but it was damn entertaining! Here’s to hoping that the next movie will be the opposite of this very tight, contained movie. Give me the intergalactic class revolution I deserve (seriously, I hope that’s what Rose and Finn’s adventure was planting? might be idle hope, and I’m trying to keep my expectations low but it would be pretty cool right?)

#alethos #star wars #the last jedi #in case you're blacklisting things #which is now possible on mobile! #(and read mores don't always go through on mobile I don't want to spoil it!) #please if you have seen this movie come discuss things #this took longer than an hour to write please engage if you've seen the movie

[kibouzuru]

AU: Hope that Lies in the Truth

//in which mel says that ndrv3 still lies within the hpa original saga and naegi adopts like 15 kids

WARNING: MAJOR SPOILERS FOR NDRV3 ARE PRESENT

Something is wrong in the timestream. The Future Foundation has been getting reports that there are some attacks that aren’t distinctly done in the name of despair; rather they are done for the purpose of “continuing Danganronpa”. It’s like Komaeda but worse. To combat this, the Foundation sent out their best to try and find the root of the cause, as this new predicament isn’t going to help the rebuilding efforts.

As Naegi has realized when he went out on his first mission, this is one time where his reputation comes to bite him in the behind.

The kids he’s finding claim to know him. They’re literally fan-geeking out on him and responding in the creepiest ways possible when he tries to reason with them. And despite the evidence, no, they’re not with Enoshima, but they wouldn’t mind seeing her be revived “to let the show go on”. Cue them attacking the squad he’s been deployed with and him barely getting out in one piece.

What?

If Naegi can’t solve this case, then who...?

Essentially, there’s been appearances of the characters of NDRv3 in the current world. Due to mental instability (note that these are the pre-game versions of the characters), they think they’re actually in the show, and that’s making them cause chaos.

Since Naegi (and by extension the other survivors from the other games) will be instantly recognized by them due to the “show”, they’ve decided to take up false names to disguise themselves. Naegi’s false name is Shinjitsu Kuroba (黒羽 真実).

I actually haven’t figured out if there would be a need for physical disguise yet, if someone would like to help me with this I’d appreciate it .w.” all i know is that egg would wear gold contacts bc why not

The missions that the survivors now take are to find the NDRv3 kids and get them into custody so they can be properly questioned. Depending on who’s being captured at that moment, Naegi’s cover experiences various degrees of being blown.

it’s literally remnants of despair all over again can you tell how annoyed he’s starting to get lol

Whether Naegi manages to succeed in bringing some sense back into the kids or not is up to the partner blog. I do have a list of my own regarding who’s more likely to turn out better, so if you’re not sure feel free to check with me!

If the rehab is successful, Naegi ends up checking up on the kids a lot in their ward, taking the time to talk to them and make them feel more comfortable. If it wasn’t successful...well, the only thing he can figure is rinse and repeat until he can’t anymore.

More details to be added as I think of them!

Confirmed hits:

Shuichi Saihara ( @fabricated-tantei​ )

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[hunter-of-sorts]

Nice Dream

Request- Would it possibly be okay if you did a Charlie Bradbury story? like the reader and Charlie go to a LARP game for like maybe a convention or something and charlie shows the reader the ropes bc the reader has never been and they end up finding a case or something?

A/N- Um... It’s slightly different than requested, because things happened and ideas were formed, and I’m sorry about that but I hope you liked this anyway. It’s my first Charlie imagine so I’m sure it won’t be as good. I hope to do more stories of her since she more than deserves it! Tell me what you think! x)

Charlie x Reader

Word Count- 1766

“I can’t believe I let you rope me into this,” you say whilst trying not to smile.

 Charlie chuckled and elbowed you jokingly, “Roped you in? Me? Look at you. You’re having way too much fun right now.”

 “Charlie gave me this costume!” you said, almost as if protesting, but the truth of the matter was that you loved it. “Where did you even get this? It’s super detailed!”

 Though you said costume, it seemed much more than that. It could be taken for real armor. It was for a game you and Charlie played often called ‘Gears of War’.

 “A buddy of mine made it for me. I gave him your measurements and then sent this over,” she responded.

 “Oh okay,” you responded, but then you thought about it again, “Wait! My measurements? HOW?” you questioned.

 Charlie smiled, “Oh you know,” she said with a wink. “We’ve been together for a few months already. I was bound to find out sooner or later,” she said.

 “That makes no sense? Who in their right mind knows the measurement of their girlfriend in just a few months if ever,” you protested.

 She laughed, “I was kidding dude. My friend has my measurements and I sent him a picture of the two of us and he guesstimated.”

 “Oh...” you chuckled awkwardly. Luckily, you saw someone dressed as Batman so that distracted you. “Oh my god!” you said, trying not to shout. “That’s!”

 “Yup! See I knew you’d love this whole convention stuff,” Charlie said. “You want a picture with them?” she added, whilst taking out her camera.

 Your eyes widened, “I- I can do that?” you question. It probably looked funny to other people, especially in your armor, for you to be so flustered and excited.

 She laughed, “Yeah you can!” she started walking ahead of you and spoke with the man dressed as batman. She then waved you over.

 You tried not to look too enthusiastic as you walked over.

 “Nice armor,” he said.

 You smiled, “Thanks.”

 You stood next to him as Charlie pointed the camera at the both of you. “Say Jiminy Cricket Batman,” she teased, but you both said it anyways.

 “Thanks batman,” you say.

 “No problem,” he says as he walks away.

 You looked at Charlie, “And you said Hunter’s couldn’t possibly have fun at a con.”

 “What? Me? I’m pretty sure you’re the one who said it missy,” She retorted.

 “No- No I’m pretty sure it was me,” you said with a smug expression.

 “You wanted to go on a hunt today,” she said.

 You stopped walking, “Hunt?” you question. “What’re you talking about?” you inquired, not knowing what she was talking about.

 “What?” she responded?

 You chuckled, “You’re messing with me again Charlie?”

 “I would never,” she checked her watch and gasped dramatically, “It’s almost time!!!” she shouted.

 “Time for what?” you asked.

 “What do you mean for what? You promised you’d LARP!” she told you as she grabbed your hand and rushed through the crowds.

 “What? Really? I did?”

 “You’re really out of it huh?” she asked.

Before you could answer, you saw a bald man with blue markings, and for some reason you had the inkling to chase after them.

 “I’ll meet you there babe... I just... I have to check on something,” you say as you pull away from her.

 “Y/N no!” she shouted forcefully, but then she smiles as if that hadn’t happened, “Let’s just go or we’ll miss it.”

 “Charlie... I just... I really need to check this thing... I’ll catch up I promise,” you answer softly. You bring the hand she was still using to hold yours, kissed it, and let it go. You turned and chased after the familiar man. “That was weird,” you whispered under your breath. ‘That... That wasn’t the Charlie I know,’ you thought. Then you spotted the man, “Hey!” you shouted but he didn’t turn. It was hard to run through the crowd as they walked along. “Hey!” you shouted again, “Guy with the blue marks!” you added.

 He stopped for a moment and turned around. He was just a normal guy, and when you finally caught up to him, you didn’t know what to tell him. “What’s up?” he said.

 “Um... My girlfriend and I were kinda betting on what you were dressed as... can you uh clear that up for us,” you say, hoping he buys it.

 He nodded, “Oh... I’m dress as a Djinn, from these books called Supernatural.”

 “Supernatural... Why- What do they do?” you ask.

 He smiled, happy at your curiosity, “They pretty much put their victims to sleep and let them dream of the life they want so they could feed on them meanwhile. The only way to wake up from their poison is-”

 “To kill yourself...” you finish.

 He seemed surprised, “Yeah that’s it.”

 You smiled, “Thanks.”

 “No problem.”

 You face palm yourself, “To think my fantasy would be with Charlie.” Despite your situation you were still embarrassed. “Why couldn’t I have a break for once? This con was supposed to be... Wait!” you stopped in your track, “Is Charlie stuck with me too? Crap.”

 The more you ran to find something that’ll wake you, the more people crowded around you. You pushed through with all your might, but it continued to slow you down.

 At some point you made it to a small lunch area. You quickly headed for the kitchen. You looked for a knife and grabbed the closest one, pointing it at yourself.

  You gasp when you awoke from your dream. Tired as you were, you managed to clear your head, ‘Charlie isn’t with me,’ you said in your head. You remembered that she had invited you to a convention but you refused. You didn’t want to put her in any danger. Though you never really thought about why. Now you knew, it was because she meant so much to you.

 Now you had to, not only leave this place, but kill the jinn that you were hunting. Your hands were tied over your head and you didn’t have anything to help you cut it with.

 Luckily the jinn didn’t seem to be around at the moment. Your body still felt a little heavy so you waited. Even if the jinn did come, you had your boots on like you usually did. These boots were given to you by Charlie and here being the geek that she was, tried making boots she saw in a movie, with help of some friends of hers of course. The boots, if clicked together like in the Wizard of Oz, a blade would stick out of your dominant foot’s boot. If and when the djinn comes you could use the blade to stab him in his head, then take your time escaping.

 Just as you thought this, you heard someone coming so you closed your eyes and pretended to sleep. When he was close enough, you swung your leg, embedding it on the side of his head. You did so another time for good measure. When he flopped on the floor and didn’t move for a good ten minutes, you sighed. You then readied yourself. You pulled yourself up with the chains around your wrists and wrapped your legs around them, and untangled the chains or tried to. There was a lock on them, so you lowered your head toward your hands and removed one of the bobby pins you had on. With that you picked the lock and unlocked it. You then slowly lowered yourself onto the ground and left like nothing happened.

 Of course, you walked slowly, trying not to fall over, but you made it to your car. You drove over to Charlie’s house, because at one point she had given you a key so you could crash at her place whenever you wanted. Though, since it wasn’t actually your home, you never went in without her being already inside, but today was different.

 You unlocked the door, as you have several times, and flopped onto her couch. You fell asleep again as you waited for her to come back. You knew it would take a while because she went to a convention and would stay there until they kicked everyone out.

 Several hours later~

 “Y/N?!” you heard her shout, waking you up.

 You slowly opened your eyes and smiled when you saw her, but that joy was shortly lived since your body hurt all over. “H-ey,” you said as you sat up, though your voice came out dry.

 “Hey? Dude you’re bleeding!” you exclaimed.

 You looked at your arm, which you had bandaged, and blood was seeping through. “Crap. Bring me your sewing kit yeah... and maybe your first aid kit too.”

 She didn’t say anything and just rushed to do so. “Why didn’t you call me?”

 “Didn’t wanna ruin your fun,” you said softly.

 “You’re an idiot,” she responded.

 “That’s not something you say to someone that’s bleeding on your couch,” you say, trying to chuckle, only for it to hurt.

 “What did this to you?”

 “Something dead,” you responded.

 “Y/N...”

 You sighed, as you began sewing the cut closed. “A Jinn.”

 “Those are the guys with the blue marks?”

 You nodded, “Yup.”

 “Did it get you?” she questioned.

 “Yup. Had a nice dream,” you answered.

 “Only you would say that even though you could’ve died.”

 “It’s my job,” you responded. ‘Only you would get angry at me,’ you thought. You were pretty happy being with the real Charlie even though you weren’t together.

 “Dying isn’t your job-” she starts.

 “Yeah I know. Living is,” you finished.

 “That’s right.” She plopped down next to you and helped you clean the blood off. “So what did you dream about?”

 “Me and you went to that con,” you chuckled.

 “What? Really?” she said, trying not to smile.

 “Really...” you answered.

 “Of all things why that?” she asked.

 “Hm? I dunno. It might be cause I like you Bradbury, but who can really know?” you said.

 She chuckled, “Yeah.” There was a pause where none of you said anything. “Wait! What?”

 “What?” you repeated.

 “No- no- no- you can’t do that what? You like me? What? I didn’t even know you were into girls? Since when? What?” she rambled.

 “Doesn’t matter since when. You could do what you want with that information. I think I’m happy either way.”

 “Y/N you big sap!” she said and hugged you.

 “Ow,” you said, though you chuckled.

 “Oh sorry!” she shouted.

 You smiled and looked at her, her eyes met with yours, and you both smiled.

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DramaturgyFucker: Cameryn Moore @ Edfringe 2017

nerdfucker

a solo play with bad boundaries

An ode to geek love. A testament to passion. Everything is ready, right down to the polished pawns, but when one wrong move changes the game, a single-minded misfit faces a choice that could change her life. From the award-winning creator of Phone Whore comes this gripping new one-woman play that dives deep into obsession and will leave you breathless. Solo playwright/performer Cameryn Moore returns to Edinburgh Fringe with nerdfucker, her newest critically acclaimed play. Set after hours at a geek convention, nerdfucker is an unexpected tale of awkward passion, which is all the more wrenching for being so recognizable.  Audiences can look for sympathetic laughs and loads of cultural commentary amid the rapid unwinding of a woman on the edge of a troubling truth.

  nerdfucker will be at Sweet Grassmarket 4 (Venue 18) from Aug 3-27 (not  14th or 21st) at 19:00 (1hr) with tickets priced at £9. 

      What was the inspiration for this performance?

To be honest, nerdfucker emerged after I had written myself into a corner with a rom-com two-hander (1) I was experimenting on (2), and it was horrible (3). I knew I was going to trash the draft of the script, but I still felt there was something in there, and in desperation I took one of the more out-there premises of one of the characters—when asked what the weirdest thing was that she had ever done as a sex worker, she said, “I was a human chessboard once”—and I just… tilted it:What woman would be a human chessboard for free? 

What would she be getting out of that, if not money? What kind of situation would she have to be in? What would her background be? Where would the tension lie? When I followed that path, then I found this play, and I am so fucking proud of it, and grateful to it, that it hurts. Not a two-hander, not a rom-com, something else entirely that people don’t really expect.

FOOTNOTES

Lesson 1: I can’t write straight-up comedy.

Lesson 2: I don’t have to take other artists’ challenges, especially if they’ve been drinking.

Lesson 3: Kill your darlings as needed.

  credit: Tristan A. Brand

Is performance still a good space for the public discussion of ideas? 

Oh, yes! This is the place where the artists can present ideas as visceral, in-the-now moments, bypassing the exposition of discussion and going straight for those live-wire leaps in thought and feeling. 

How did you become interested in making performance?

I first started creating works for plus-sized dancers 16 years ago, because I had started dancing myself and was tired of feeling completely left out of the creative and performance part of the dance world. Over the course of 10 years, my works went into more narrative-driven pieces—dance musicals with a plot—and at the same time I began working as a phone-sex operator, and found myself wanting to write a solo play about that, because again, my experience as an actual sex worker was not really represented well out there in the performance world. 

When I toured Phone Whore and found that people wanted to hear what I had to say, and that I was good at it, a whole new world opened up. Part of my internal pressure to create my own works is that if I didn’t, there would be nothing for me to perform in, as a fat person. The roles allowed to us are limited and boring. I create the works and the characters that represent me, in some way, and what I want to see out in the world.

Is there any particular approach to the making of the show?

Once I understood the title character’s character, I took her into a defining moment, a situation that would possibly be one of her nightmares, and then followed her responses to the situation as it unfolded further. I had to be really clear about what the inside of her head and heart felt like, which was a challenge, because she’s a lot like what I was 10 years ago, 30 years ago. It wasn’t easy to excavate that, but once I was in it, I was in, and just had to stay there to write out what she would do or say.

Does the show fit with your usual productions?

Most of my shows so far—the ones that I’ve toured the most—have been autobiographical. nerdfucker is a fictional work (though heavily grounded in my experiences as a nerdfucker). That is significant, at least in terms of my experience of creating this show, but the audience wouldn’t know it, I don’t think. 

The part where nerdfucker really fits is how it brings the audience immediately and intimately into the world of the play; they have a role, even if they don’t know it walking in. It’s not interactive, in the traditional sense of the word, but it feels immersive. This is something that nerdfucker shares strongly with my most known work, Phone Whore: you’re not in the theatre, you’re in my emotional world.

What do you hope that the audience will experience?

I want the audience to feel a real empathy for the protagonist. She’s not a hero, she really is just doing the best she can. And I want the audience walking out of there, mentally reviewing every relationship they’ve ever been in and wondering, did I do that? Did someone else do that? What does that mean about me, or them, if we did?

What strategies did you consider towards shaping this audience experience?

 No fourth wall: the nerdfucker and the audience are in direct and frequent contact. Initially I set it up that way in order to layer on the tension for the protagonist, but it ends up making the situation very compelling for the audience as well.

As well as being a playwright/performer, Cameryn Moore is a writer, sex educator, and former phone sex operator. She has received awards at fringe festivals in Vancouver, San Francisco, Victoria (BC), Winnipeg, and Houston, and is bringing nerdfucker to Fringe festivals across the UK and Europe this year. Cameryn is the creator and frequent host of Smut Slam, a storytelling open mic night featuring real-life, first-person sex stories. She founded the UK Smut Slam circuit in January of this year, and will also be presenting a one-hour cabaret version of the Smut Slam throughout the Edinburgh Fringe. WINNER, ARTISTIC RISK AWARD – 2016 Vancouver Fringe Cameryn’s 2017 North American tour is supported by njoy toys and The Slutcracker (Boston). Her company, Little Black Book Productions, is a fiscally sponsored project of the International Sex Workers Foundation for Arts, Culture, and Education.

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