#feels rather nice

[kiwiplaetzchen]

#finalgirllx #🥝🍪 #ask #I am not sure what “smorch” means #but mah Darling #mah little Boo #mah Bae #don't be sad #I boop your nose with all my might #my love goes deep #as deep as Bobby shoves his toothbrush in his mouth #which is way deeper than healthy #but Bobby loves the feeling #of clean teeth #naturally #running your tongue along a smooth texture #up and down #again and again #feels rather nice

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

License to Kitty.

#dungeon meshi #izutsumi #marcille donato #chilchuk tims #I still stand by my tags on the Izutsumi character study piece I did in January - but I will repeat myself on a few lines here: #I *really* love this character. I love that all of the dungeon meshi crew are complicated and have difficult to love components. #But Izutsumi is a particular kind of hard to love. I foresee a lot of people being turned off by her abrasiveness and lack of teamwork. #She is very self-centered and openly goes against what the party agrees on. #She's a picky eater in a story that is 50% about eating good and healthy food! #It is in part about her growth but admittedly even *then* she remains rather true to her self-centeredness. #Even though she isn't as nice or funny or compassionate as the others...Izutsumi is still someone worth loving. #Even the more difficult people are someone worth loving. #And those people in turn are people who have something and someone they love. #She may be a girlcat but she is the most human of them all. #I hope that if you are an anime only watcher and are feeling put off by her at the moment; you'll give her a chance. #By the way: *yes* I worked very hard to draw that skateboard pose. It was worth it. #EDIT: HAPPY 500th POST OF POORLY-DRAW-MDZS!!! What a comic to commemorate the milestone with!

[positivelyadhd]

i have been reading through the diary I kept from ages 14-17 and realising how helpful it can be to keep a record of how you're feeling at different moments.

not only is it helpful to write down and process how your feeling and give yourself time to truly think about it, it's nice to have something to look back on. to not just remember how you felt about a certain situation but to actually have yourself from that time tell you.

and also, from an adhd perspective, it's really lovely to have reminders of things I'd almost entirely forgotten. it's easy to think that your life right now isn't interesting, but in 5 years time? to know what songs you were listening to or book you were reading or even that Thing that you were so worried about but now you can't even remember the details. it's nice to have a physical reminder that time passes and things really can get better.

#i think part of whats makes it so special to me is that (like it is for a lot of people) those ages where so *much* #and i was so stuck in my head and socially anxious and i feel like those years of school rly shaped who i am now ect #but id kind of forgotten? its become a blur emotions over time and its nice to see it clearer #but also how i changed? and to read into it and see what i did or didn't write #im also a big fan of the inner child and doing things for your younger self and its a lovely gift to have her speaking to me directly #also if you want to journal i highly recommend doing it in a normal notebook rather than a pre planned one #it gives you the freedom for it to be whatever you want with none of the pressure #recovery #tips

[youngchronicpain]

Like yeah, I'll never have a pain-free day in the future. I will experience pain every day for the rest of my life. But! I also will laugh with my family. I will create beautiful things. I will share beautiful moments with my partner. I will experience the bands that I love releasing new music. Things will get worse and maybe get better and it really sucks that I hurt so much but there is still so much good waiting for me. And I'm really glad that I'm still here to see it.

#chronic pain #a positive thought #which is nice because I feel like I've felt rather negative lately #things are looking up :)

[ryssbelle]

Poppy for N2 au, it took me so long to make her design cuz I didn't really know what I wanted to do only because I feel like her design is pretty perfect.

But then I just thought about fun outfits to give her or outfits that I would find comfortable if I was wearing them and it all came together.

Poppy here is pretty much the same as here movie counterpart, as nothing really changes on her end of things other than having more insight on Branch through his brothers, and through Lief. Shes also a bit more understanding a bit earlier on because of it but it doesnt do much to change her own character arc I would say.

Bonus

Part of Poppys design was based off a design I had made for previous rulers of Troll Village/Tree

Namely Queen Protea who I designed as Poppys grandmother

Named after the Protea flower which part of her design is based off :D

In the context of this Au Protea was the one who conceptualized the tunnels while her son, King Peppy, was the one to follow through after her death

#my art #dreamworks trolls #trolls #trolls 3 #trolls au #trolls band together #trolls branch #trolls poppy #trolls oc #trolls oc lief #trolls oc protea #its really hard to mess with poppy at least in the context of this au cuz like i said nothing really changes on her end #whats changed in this au was just stuff on Branchs side of things #Poppy can witness these things but she herself isnt really changed by them #she of course would have more insight on Branchs life through his brothers and the addition of Lief as a character #but idk if that would fully change her approach with him other than what ive displayed #where shed try to relate to branch rather than trying to force him to relate to her #which would then most likely make her more understanding going forward than she was in canon #im still figuring her out #also since im in the tags and nobody really reads this #i feel brave enough to say #that secretly #ive been kind of sort of #posting a fanfic of this au under the name not the only one #on ao3 #and thats where Protea comes from #its not well written in the slightest #but its just for fun and practice so in my mind it doesnt really have to be entirely #but i am having fun with it #so if you see this and check it out please be so very nice to me please

[smile-files]

she then started wiping his face with a handkerchief, confused

#dandy's doodles #welcome home #welcome home poppy #poppy partridge #welcome home wally #wally darling #kin #i have been so awfully sneezy lately!! oh dear!!! #i would rather like to be tucked into bed with a bowl of soup by sweet ol poppy... #just her taking care of me would make me feel better :) #for the record i have been okay!! above all my cold has just made me tired and runny-nosed #aside from that i'm alive and well and perfectly capable of going to work at camp #which is great!!! but of course the sooner this cold goes away the better #anyway. poppy is rather fun to draw isn't she? she has such nice colors and textures :]

[im-still-watching-anime]

trucy: hang on polly you have a hair on you—oh, it’s long and…blonde. again.

apollo, internally: oh my god they’re all going to think i’m STRAIGHT and that i’m sleeping with a WOMAN

trucy, athena, and wright all thinking: oh that’s for sure klavier’s :/

#ace attorney #klapollo #aa incorrect quotes #apollo justice #klavier gavin #take apollo’s tone as you will #because sometimes people assuming i’m straight is like the actual worst thing you could do to me😤 #but sometimes i feel like a secret agent😏 like yes😏 hello fellow straights😏😏 #also i like the idea that apollo is just SO intent on minding his own business #that he doesn’t even realize that everyone he knows is gay #like he’s so smart if he thought about it he’d realize immediately but like man is too busy thinking about law for that sorry #so he’s just habitually ‘hello fellow straights’-ing them and they are ALL confused #me projecting tbh i’d rather die than let most coworkers know absolutely anything of value about my life😤 #which works until one of them IS actually nice and chill and cool #and then they get blindsided when you finally reveal that you actually DO have a personality lol

[stuckinapril]

I’m finally biting the bullet and contacting a therapist today after being ambivalent ab it for so long… this hellsite has its many disadvantages but one thing I can say is it has truly helped me be less scared of pursuing therapy. Silver lining etc etc

#And to be clear I have nothing against therapy. I’ve seen it do wonders for other people #I think the reason it’s a point of defeat (just a little) for me to be like ok. I need a therapist. Is bc I’m admitting to myself that I #need one to begin w. And I get it’s not healthy but I always liked to think I could handle anything by myself #That was even the whole point of this blog. It was supposed to serve as a conduit for these feelings #And I’m not saying I don’t have a support system. I do. I have many wonderful friends #But I struggle to be vulnerable at all tbh and whenever I am I’m guilty ab it bc #I understand so many people have busy lives & I feel like an emotional burden on them by venting #Despite them telling me that it’s totally fine. Obvi a therapist is literally paid to listen so no guilt there #And I think that’s what I need #I’m not like on the brink of a psychotic break or anything but it’s just little things. I think it’d be nice to sit in someone’s office for #One hour a week and just go. That did bother me actually. I am tired actually. I do feel that way actually. #Rather than just burying my feelings w school and a busy schedule #I don’t think therapy will make me any less of a workaholic anytime soon but it’ll at least allow me to slow down one hour a week #And also not bottle shit up so fuckin much #But ya all of this is to say I’m drafting the email to her RIGHT now . #Starting the day off strong by oversharing on tumblr dot com

[dethkrypt]

⟡ metalocalypse × charles' hands . ( requested by anon )

episodes & other appearances : dethkomedy . mordland . dethhealth . doublebookedklok . doomstar requiem . army of the doomstar .

#gifs #my gifs #gif #metalocalypse #dethklok #20fps #metalocalypse gifs #mtl #charles offdensen #not done in typical stimboard format because i feel like #these scenes deserve a nice 16:9 rather than an ugly square crop #charles foster offdensen #army of the doomstar #doomstar requiem #dethkomedy #mordland #dethhealth #doublebookedklok #s1e3 #s1e8 #s3e3 #s3e10 #flashing #flashing gif

[inkskinned]

it's hard for me to hold anger. it is a terrifying emotion to me - i flinch so easily. i don't like how quickly it spirals out of control. i feel selfish when i cut people off, stand up for myself - i feel like i am making mountains out of molehills.

any time i lash out, i wonder: am i turning into him? i give people too-many-chances, telling others: well, i might have overreacted. i shut down. bite my tongue. i hate that, at some point, i can be goaded into reacting, into letting go. i hate who i am when i'm angry - someone mean, quick-tongued, willing to cut to bone.

i am angry about what happened to me. i am angry about the ways other people saw what was happening and allowed it to continue. i am angry for the ways it was excused. for the ways i never got an apology, nor should i ever expect one. i am angry i let myself get used. i am angry for the ways i wasted my time and the ways i let myself be fooled. i am angry knowing - you don't care what you did to me. i am angry knowing - you'd rather burn apart our connection than actually consider my feelings.

i feel this anger tangled, brewing, constant - that i will never be able to reach a peace about it, because the anger just bristles, flaring in the center of it. i'm terrified of it - what if this is who i really am, and everything else is just veneer? if i really want to main & hurt & tear down until i have rendered the world into ice?

any impulse i have for self-preservation has become shadowed in a strange selflessness instead. maladaptive, i give and give and give, worried that i might be mistaken for someone who would take without asking. i owe so many current friendships to people who accepted my apologies and who gave me second chances - who am i to ever deny someone the right try again? when in the back of my head the kicked dog snarls a warning - she is lying - i turn my head. i tell the dog to shush. i tell the dog not to bite. i say we lie too sometimes. i say we will try to be honest and good and whole and if we are very-perfect, we'll never have to fight. i would rather lie down and accept the blow than be the one wielding the knife.

my sister sighs on the phone with me last night. you always go too far with patience, and let too many people use you.

i am worried i am a creature of extremes. that if i unleash, i will spill out, fill the room with smoke, destroy everything. i sigh too and tell her: well, but i don't wanna be mean.

#spilled ink #poetry #warm up #this is kind of hard to communicate but i'm tryna say this thing about like #how anger can be super protective #but if ur a trauma survivor #it's a super complicated emotion to feel #bc it can feel really dangerous #and also as someone with mental illness #im ALWAYS worried #''im taking this too far'' #also as an adhd kid like our fear of perception is SO SO SO raw #so like... i'd rather come off too nice and adaptive #than mean #even tho there's. nothing mean about setting boundaries or #reacting to the ways people hurt you #alas ..... my brain doesn't understand this

[st4rstudent]

name doodle

#clemart #ttcc #toontown corporate clash #mac opsys #brian ttcc #prethinker #i did this in like maybe 20 minutes normally i wouldnt tag it so much but im feeling rather shameless tonight #anywyas had this idea in my head but i didnt feel like actually drawing them in a situation #the operating systems (like windows and mac) are probably named different in tt but i think its funny if they weren't #toons who blatantly stole their name from something else #sorry kind of off from my usual style i just like having fun with this brush it has a nice feel. sometimes you just have to have fun

[booasaur]

Ted Lasso - 3x07

Bonus:

#tedlassoedit #ted lasso apple tv #jack danvers #keeley jones #jodi balfour #juno temple #ted lasso 3x07 #jack x keeley #femslash related stuff #heh this is all just so funny #like this is an actually really nice little resolution to their arc this ep #the conflict raised and keeley being super straightforward about it #and jack actually reacting rather petulantly at first #but quickly able to acknowledge the point and agree to do better #all done with good humor and affection #and the little double twist with it being ''just'' a croissant and then a ring in it #lovely #but at the same time--not to keep repeating myself but it feels hard to really enjoy them #feeling like there's such a hard expiration date stamped on them #and that's aside from everyone ready to read this all in the worst way possible :o

[babacontainsmultitudes]

Also... Post-canon lovesong... If you even care... "Is Sparrow still with Rebecca?" that part is a choose your own adventure babeeey~

#Posts for like 3 friends maybe #but sure I'll tag it #dndads #lovesong #See regarding Sparrow and Rebecca... #Hm. I've always had mixed/complicated feelings there. #Like I think the love was there (I do ship it I do) but maybe this wasn't meant to be a forever thing #Or in another lifetime it could have been #Or they just needed some change of sorts! #Like heh. You know. Opening up the relationship. #Specifically to let a certain wet cat inside #In the divorce scenario though well I like that for Sparrow period cause I just want to see him choose himself for once? #And. Controversially. I rather like Rebecca and Lark together haha I think they're quite cute frankly. #But open relationship and/or polycule is nice to think about too- #They're both poly but haven't figured it out yet your honor. ESPECIALLY Rebecca. #Or at the very least they would thrive in *some* kind of queer relationship structure your honor #this is my truth ok #sparrow oak garcia #nick foster #nicky freeman #rebecca swallows oak garcia #And I will keep the not so safe for work tags tooo myself

[midnight-mismanagement]

I watched season 3 and rewatched season 1 and 2 of the umbrella academy and what I can gather is:

Five (season 1): Denial, anger

Five (season 2): Bargaining

Five (season 3): Depression, acceptance

#usually he's a colourful fruit salad of denial anger bargaining depression and more anger though #season 3 five just makes me especially sad though #like he was done #he could retire #have a nice road trip #figure himself out as a person for once #breathe a little #but nope #and he still explores all options until he finally gives up #cause he would rather die with his family all together rather than a sad lonely old man in a tube #or at the mercy of whatever reginald had in store for them #but even at the very end he still can't shake the instinct to protect his family #and beats allison to the last sigil in the floor and figures out the sigil in the first place #also jesus what was season 3 I feel like I had a fever dream lol #the umbrella academy #five hargreeves #tua #im not saying he passed through these stages instead they just layered on top of each other like a sad gooey cake

[demonslayedher]

It's the heroic return of Mui-kun in a ponytail! But while I was drawing that, I was reminded of how much I liked having Shinobu wear Tamayo's hairpin in this AU. In either AU I have enjoyed cropped-hair!Mitsuri and wanted to see how she might do braids with her new style.

#I was starting to feel ill from a week or so of not drawing #I am healed now #Mui-kun was the one with braids and flowers in his hair in that fate-swap AU #but I rather like this simple ponytail look for him #he's and genius and can figure out how to do it one-handed #he can prove he's more talented than Giyuu #and not a copy-cat #even if Tengen was the trendsetter for a cut of a different kind #anyway #my nice art #tokito muichiro #tokitou muichirou #kanroji mitsuri #kocho shinobu #kochou shinobu

[aroaessidhe]

2024 reads / storygraph

Bitterthorn

gothic fairytale

set in an imaginary German town where every generation, the monstrous witch in the woods steals someone away to be her companion, never seen again

follows the daughter of the duke, lonely and grieving her mother, who offers herself up as the witch’s newest companion

she assumes she’s destined for something horrible, but is mostly left alone in the old castle, and tries to find out more about the mysterious witch & what happened to the previous companions

eerie and atmospheric

#bitterthorn #aroaessidhe 2024 reads #kat dunn #I liked this a lot! some nice atmospheric writing. #I liked the MC’s interest in geology and ecology! Though maybe that could have been expanded upon. (flirting via rocks tho? cute) #The fairytale influences are done in an interesting way #and of course I love weird [spoiler] stuff #i feel like. it could have been set in a fantasy world rather than the real world because the #handful of mentions of real world events were like. either go into more detail about this or just don’t mention it lol #not perfect but i enjoyed it