#eldest born

[muskaanayesha]

I am the eldest daughter, which is to say that I am a sponge that absorbs all the trauma of the household. Life is spilt milk and I am a kitchen cloth burnt at the edges. I am falling apart at the corners, threads coming away, rips and ripples like I am torn and trembling in an ocean of nothingness. I am the eldest daughter, which is to say that I emphasize with everyone. The love of my life marries someone else, and I find myself hoping that he loves her the same. My brother wishes death upon me and I toss and turn in my sleep over the tears I saw in his eyes. Life is an accidental fire and I am water. I attempt to stop a tragedy I did not start, to go blindly into a catastrophe that I cannot halt. I am the eldest daughter, which is to say that I am silent in my needs. My father asks me what I'd like to eat and I say that I am not hungry. I will chew on my guilt and swallow my pride before I even think of asking for anything. I buy myself a sweet and nothing tastes as bitter as it. Life is a metaphor for debt and I am drowning in the desire to be as insignificant as possible. I demand nothing and nothing demands me.

#desi women #poets on tumblr #women writers #authors #poetry #spilled poetry #literature #poetic #writeaway #booklover #daddy issues #mommy issues #eldest sibling #eldest sister #eldest daughter #eldest born #immigrant parents

[seaweedbrain404]

foreverever - leanna firestone // becoming the lastnames - will wood // thumbs - lucy dacus // matilda - harry styles // summer child - conan gray // mirrorball - taylor swift // eldest daughter - isabel pless // oldest brooke alexx

#eldest sister #eldest daughter #web weaving #web weavings #family #on family #eldest child #eldest born #eldest sibling

[amuseumofmoments]

Exposing myself when I'm in my poet arch

#poetry #spilled poetry #depressing poem #literature #eldest daughter #eldest born #eldest sibling #eldest sister #original poem #poemsbyme #flaws #flaws and all #antithesis #god complex #sad but beautiful #sad poem #sad poetry #sadgirl #sad prose #heartbreak #self conscious #heart wrenching #im cryin #hypocrite

[dyslexic-dyspraxic]

I don't think there is enough acknowledgement of the trauma of being the eldest because from a very young age, you are made responsible for people frequently not that much younger than you and it is expected from you, your feelings, plans and considerations be damned

If your parents aren't there, you can't just goof off and have fun because you have young children to beware of and make sure they are safe, even though you, yourself are still a young child

You learn to do the chores first and are the one expected to do them and then they don't really care as much about your parents doing the chores because well you're already helping out

If you go anywhere with your family and you decide to go the loo, a small gift shop or anything just on your own and your sibling decides to come with, well know you're responsible for them and you have to make sure they're behaving and they know what they're doing and they're okay

And in all of this, you never really get the choice to say no, your parents have made plans with the expectation that you will be looking after your siblings, so if you say no, you will be inconveniencing them, you'll be ruining their plans, so you just have to say agree, and rearrange your own plans because the parents can't be responsible for their own kids

And it is very traumatising because this is ingrained from a very young and completely expected of the oldest, people go 'oh they're so mature' and celebrate when the oldest sibling is seen looking after their younger siblings but it is a weight on the eldest because they didn't consent to their parents having kids, they haven't consented to looking after their siblings, and they are still a child themselves

These kids are carrying the weight of looking after someone else from the day their younger sibling is born, no matter how young they maybe, you see it even in siblings with only a year between them

These poor kids are bearing responsibilities adult themselves struggle to deal with, and yeah they aren't doing all the parenting but they constantly feel responsible for their siblings, they constantly feel expected to look after someone else, and they're just kids and we celebrate the way they are treated, we celebrate them taking responsibility and they can't escape the trauma

#eldest #siblings #family #family dynamics #eldest sibling #eldest sister #eldest brother #eldest born #oldest #oldest sibling #oldest sister #oldest brother

[marisatomay]

blah blah blah aging tumblr population etc etc if you are ever visiting a family that just had a baby, and you know that they have other small children, bring a little something for each of the other kids. it doesn’t have to be anything fancy but, even the most charitable, well-behaved child starts feeling left out and lonely after the nth visitor brings gifts and attention for their parents and new sibling and, either isn’t there for them at all or the only engage with them about their baby sibling, especially since their parents have probably been completely consumed with the new baby. make their day and they will remember that bit of kindness and attention from you forever.

#like i still remember when my brother was born my sister and i were bored shitless in the hospital and really lonely #because all of the attention was on our parents and nate #or if people did even say hi to us it was just to ask if we were excited about the baby #but when my aunt visited before even saying hi to my parents she came right up to emma and i and gave us each a beanie baby #she’s the eldest of four so like. she Understood. #and that meant so much to us skjfkdjdjkfdkdkdk #yes this happened in 2000 yes i still remember it what about it!!!!!!!

[loopholes-blog]

I’m so close to relapsing. I feel like the world wants me to join in its misery or be forgotten. I am only remembering the times I felt a part of counter culture. It’s hard to remember the times I felt reward for following in my family’s footsteps. They treat me like I am far behind them in life. When actually none of them know what it is like to be 23 this day in age. I am used to forging my path. It is hard to be a trail blazer like everyone else I know and witnessing the wide open space that follows it’s direction.

#personal vent #eldest born #sin #trying not to relapse #personal

[waitineedaname]

#fma #fmab #i don't often do silly polls but im gonna set this one at a week bc the fma fandom is not the Most active in the world #pride fma #greedling #greed fma #wrath fma #do i tag them as the bradleys. i guess so #selim bradley #king bradley #anyway i think all these options are so funny #pride is the terrifying eldest sibling of the homunculi but he has to spend all day pretending to be a fifth grader #greed is two hundred but suddenly has to experience being a teenager which must be WILD for a dude who was born an adult #and wrath is the baby sibling but is an Old Man who should've retired but he was too busy doing Evil Schemes

[malecftmaxrafe]

Happy father's day to them.

#lightwood bane family #malec #magnus banes #alec lightwood #max lightwood bane #rafe lightwood bane #the mortal instruments #the eldest curses #born to endless night #tftsa #the land i lost #gotsm #the shadowhunters chronicles #cassandra jean art #cassandra clare

[rarepears]

Tywin "I am ready to marry my daughter to anyone who's going to become king" Lannister

Vs.

Shen "Wifebeam every male" Yuan.

AKA the Shen Yuan is born as Tywin Lannister's eldest son (before the Lannister twins are born) AU

[More in #Shen Yuan is born as Tywin Lannister's eldest son AU]

#Shen Yuan is born as Tywin Lannister's eldest son AU #svsss #scum villain's self saving system #mxtx #svsss ideas #svsss au #shen yuan #shen qingqiu #game of thrones #tywin lannister

[nanasketchdump]

Being an eldest daughter sucks because everyone else is allowed to struggle with things and find things difficult except you

#eldest daughter #first born daughter #oldest daughter

[muskaanayesha]

Watching the eldest daughter take on the second mother role in a family (cannot interfere, it's a canon event)

#desi women #poets on tumblr #women writers #authors #poetry #spilled poetry #literature #poetic #writeaway #booklover #mommy issues #daddy issues #eldest born #eldest sister #eldest daughter #eldest daughter core

[seaweedbrain404]

sometimes i think i cope well with how my parents treat me as an eldest child but then my boyfriend will tell me that he’s having a drink with his mam for her birthday and that she loves hearing him talk and complain about work and my heart shatters just a little cause it really could be different

#i’m sure a lot of it is my fault for being closed off but they’re the reason i’m closed off in the first place #eldest daughter #eldest born #eldest child #family #on family #web weaving #ig #idk what else to tag

[amuseumofmoments]

For all the eldest daughters, overachieving girlies that constantly need validation. I see you and I hear you. You're and always will be enough

#poetry #literature #spilled poetry #poetrycommunity #eldest born #eldest sister #eldest sibling #eldest daughter #the eldest curses #overachiever #people pleaser #sad poem #melanchaholic #heartfelt #relatable #original poem #poemsbyme #depressing poem #depressing shit #sadgirl #sad truth #sad thoughts

[mightbemod]

I made this because I've seen multiple fanarts of Jonathan with all the later jojos as kids, and they usually make Johnny a kid too! But Johnny is also an old man with his many descendants and now must feel the burden of fatherhood

Children featured from left to right: Kei Nijimura, Dragona Joestar, Jodio Joestar, Yoshikage Kira, George Joestar III, Joseph Joestar

Bonus:

#i made this entire drawing just because i wanted to draw baby jodio with that fucking hairstyle #i only remembered after coloring that dragona was born male and probably wouldnt have afro puffs or pink clothes but whatever #gender affirmed baby #jodio being the problem child #george is johnnys son btw for anyone who forgot. yes thats what he looks like #i only included the descendants that we saw the appearance of idk if i missed anybody #on one hand i thought gyro would be bad with kids #see sugar mountain spring. but also hes the eldest of his siblings so #modmakesart #jojo's bizarre adventure #jojo no kimyou na bouken #jojolands #jojolion #jojos bizarre adventure #jjba #jjba art #jjba fanart #fanart #johnny joestar #steel ball run #sbr #jojo part 7 #jojo part 8 #jojo part 9 #Kei Nijimura #Dragona Joestar #Jodio Joestar #Yoshikage Kira 8 #George Joestar III #Joseph Joestar

[murderballadeer]

#soapbox #my dad was 42 almost 43 when i (his eldest child) was born

[bluetalepost]

i would never be a therapist because that's who i've been all my life. i wonder if i would ever let myself be a mother.

#feminism #poetry #feminist poems #feminist poetry #feminist writing #writing #feminist thoughts #eldest daughter #eldest sister #oldest daughter #oldest sister #older daughter #older sister #eldest child #eldest sibling #first born #firstborn #first born child #sisterhood #sisters #sibling dynamics #eldest daughter syndrome #therapist friend #unpaid therapist