#but no seriously what do I even do now

[helpimstuckposting]

I’ve spent the entire day reading a steddie fic I don’t think I’ll ever recover from, it’s a core memory, I don’t even know what to do with myself now

#I guess I’ll???? #do the dishes???? #make dinner????? #I’m lost #the fic is slither by mixaddams btw #it’s so fucking good oh my god #stranger things #steddie #steve harrington #eddie munson #stranger things fic #stranger things fanfiction #but no seriously what do I even do now #helpimstuckrambling

[lilybug-02]

Pain is a great motivator…

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—Full Series—

Meanwhile Toriel:

(Loud noises don't wake her up usually.)

Artist note: I’m so proud of this :))) I know it’s a lot of dialogue and reading, but dialogue is grueling work for me. I’m glad with the art and for the amount of pages I made in such a relatively short time span -w- page 5 was super fun to work on. A lot of blood, sweat, and hours here... :) The backgrounds were a big bore tbh, but I finished them! Yippie!

#CHARA WTF DO YOU MEAN “COMPUTER”???? #lol i hope you guys dont hate me for what im doing in the next update. #IS THAT A MAC OS??? #Yes......owo'' #Kris and the Gang are LITTLE now. I've pixelated them and turned them into little game characters! #FINALLY!! #I never thought I would be going so far in the story to explain WHY Kris pulls out their SOUL and opens Darkfountains even when they killed #Berdly in Chapter 2. Pain can make people do horrible things. #Uhhhhhhhhh anyways. :3 I hope you liked it! I made this post a little too long for my liking and didnt get it out when i wanted too- #but thats okay! As long as people enjoy it :) #bread #art #deltarune chara timeline #deltarune chara timeline comic #seriously though #long post #man am I glad I switched over to the limited color palet! It helps me feel alot more relaxed uwu #This is....way over 16 hours of work q-q #chara #asriel #susie #kris #asriel dreemurr #kris dreemurr #kris deltarune #susie deltarune #deltarune #comic #my art

[hiddenbarinapocketdimension]

This morning sucked. Woke up at 7 on less than 5 hours of sleep to bake over 50 Eccles cakes. Didn’t have like half my ingredients. Bought more only to realise I still didn’t have them all. Burnt myself on the syrupy filling. Printer died on me as I was trying to get a printing job done. Forgot to have lunch I was so excited. Locked my car key in the boot. Waited an hour in the sun in all black to make sure I didn’t get a parking ticket whilst trying to get said key out. Got stuck in traffic for half an hour only to find I’d just moved under 100 metres. Accidentally had the thermostat cranked up to 40C the whole journey. All of this, just to get to a screening.

Then when I got there….

Shrimp emotions. The atmosphere was incredible. Got there 3 hours early. Immediately bonded with people, and it just felt so warm and exciting. I passed round the Eccles cakes in its little (very large) Antichrist basket. We all counted down with the timer waiting for the episodes to start. The episodes were amazing, and I have to thank @neil-gaiman for making this season come true - it was everything I hoped for and more, and I think that’ll be the case for pretty much everyone. I wouldn’t trade this experience for the world, even if I had to live through this morning 20x over.

Trust me when I say you’re not prepared for season 2. No one is.

Anyways here’s a picture of the cakes in their basket:

#good omens #good omens 2 #good omens screening #neil gaiman #like seriously I put like 10 hours into making these cakes so I’m so so happy they went down well. #I hope everyone that was there liked them #its my dream to one day give Neil Gaiman one of my home baked Eccles cakes #anyways #I even got a little poster! I’m gonna treasure it #thank you for making such an amazing thing that has literally shaped my outlook on life and become one of my favourite pieces of media ever #now that I’ve seen eps 1 and 2 I REALLY do not want to Wait to See #mr Neil Gaiman you are insane for this plot #it’s so fun and I never know what to expect #primepremiere #goodomens2 #EDIT: I WAS NOT PREPARED I WAS DEFINITELY NOT PREPARED

[uncanny-tranny]

Good news! You aren't required to make your hobbies and passions "marketable." In fact, your crafts, hobbies, and passions don't even need to be public if you so choose. You don't have to spend all of your energy becoming perfect if you aren't enjoying the process. You are not a product, you are a person, a creative, and your work also does not need to be a product.

#positivity #yet another post that's like... thinnly-veiled as being for myself #i find myself freezing with anxiety when i think about the things i used to do (writing especially) because... #...i had felt this force to make it ~content~ and ~marketable to an audience~ and it was so fucking daunting... #...it felt like being a gladiator in a coliseum #even now i fight the urge to equate being marketable to being acceptable and worthy of admiration and praise #i wish i hadn't burnt myself out of writing by doing this because i'm simultaneously grieving my writing and hating it #and it sucks the life out of what makes you feel like a person and it takes the art out of art #so be free! pist your art or don't! you are beholden to nobody!!! #(obviously this is not the case for professional artists who rely on their art to keep them alive) #(and i criticize heavily the idea that audiences are entitled to an artists labour) #(i understand that this isn't universal and if it doesn't apply to you then you don't have to take me seriously) #(if you are a professional artist or what have you i hope you are able to feed and house yourself off of that career!) #(i hope you are able to live a happy life and be able to keep loving what you're doing)

[thatorangedrank]

Little is Alyx 👎🏻

Little is Penny 👎🏻

Little is a reflection of Ruby in Vol.1 and is a physical representation of “healing your inner child” 👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻

#like seriously Little reminds me more of Ruby than Ruby herself right now #I relate to Ruby so much in just needing to be ok for everyone all the time for things to be stable #when WBY is talking about how they bring her up by saying ‘we count on you’ and ‘you can do it’ and that’s basically what I heard growin up #my therapist once told me that you have to be the friend and caretaker for that little girl who always had to be ok #that she is still inside of my heart and that I’m the only one who can be there for her now #and something about… making sure my inner child feels safe reminds me so much of Ruby’s relationship with Little #also Little’s mannerisms are just … so v.1 Ruby it’s just uncanny #’I want to help even though I may not know how’ #that’s blind Ruby optimism if I’ve ever seen it #rwby #rwby spoilers #rwby9 #rwby volume 9 #rwby ruby rose #rwby v9 #rwby volume 9 spoilers #rwby theory #ruby rose

[frogtrenchcoat]

everytime i remember almost no-one in the fandom seems to think guillermo de la cruz is ace i get so mad. it's partially about my own expectations bc watching the show i just sorta assumed everyone would bc it's so very obvious to me. like you can't tell me he was tryna come out as gay at that table lmao. he would not feel the need to make it into such a thing, they never expected him to be straight. coming out as asexual however? to these sex-obsessed vampires? of course he'd feel the need to explain and justify himself with a long speech, if he didn't they wouldn't believe him, they would not understand it as a real possibility. there's plenty of other stuff too that i don't remember specifically enough 2 talk about. also it just seems like poor media literacy to me. i can't say that with certainty cuz i don't actually know the writers' intentions either but to me it's rly just canon that he's ace. i know queerbaiting is an issue and we need explicit representation and in my ideal world he is explicitly stated to be asexual in a future episode of the show but im also a strong believer in not needing characters to look at the camera and state their identities for them to have those identities as a written part of their character.

#i feel insane!!!!! every time i think about this i feel insane!!!!!! #b4 i looked at the fandom i seriously thought this would be accepted as basically canon by the vast majority of people!!!!!! #i viewed it as canonical subtext! but now i feel like i just deluded myself into believing my headcanon is canon????? #it's barely even subtext tbh! actual subtext im very bad at (take everything literally on account of the autism) #this is textual implication! how r people not seeing this am i insaaaane #what we do in the shadows #wwdits #do tags show up this far down #guess we'll see

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

every time i rewatch the miracle aligner music video i am just flabbergasted. FLABBERGASTED. like. they really chose to make it like THAT. and by 'like THAT' i am specifically referring to:

1) “an attempt to extract the truth... approximately" *cue rosepetals and intense eye contact*

2) THIS being the opening shot of the two of them

3) miles legitimately spending the first minute of the entire video blatantly checking alex out

4) literal rainbow lighting around them

5) endless hand holding and twirling

6) that moment where miles's hand reaches ever so reflexively for alex's neck

7) the fucking closing scene?????????

#i mean seriously #jesus fucking christ #you'd think i'd be immune to this mv by now but if anything it just gets worse every time i watch it #absolute INSANITY #also don't even get me started on their dorky little coordinated mating dance #and the fact that they probably practised it themselves messing about in dressing rooms or one of their living rooms or something #also #incredulousness aside for a moment #i love this video so much for how much fun they're clearly having the whole way through #like how much it's just *them* messing about and being their idiotic selves with each other #but yeah #i'll never be remotely normal about the fact they planned and performed and approved literally every moment of insanity here #i mean for real #there's just no way they didn't know exactly what they were doing with this #milex #miracle aligner #milex gifs #tlsp #the last shadow puppets #lulu posts #my gifs

[platykool]

im back

#bungo stray dogs #bsd #fyodor dostoevsky #nikolai gogol #bsd fanart #my art #what do you mean I wasn't gone #but I think it's been a while since I've posted anything #I'm slowly getting back to making elaborate drawings in color and all not just doodles #well these are doodles but #It's been a long time since I've really allowed myself to take the time to properly draw #I didn't have the time to really get seriously into it because of school #the school drained me of all my vital energy I'm not even being dramatic this time ugh #uuuh it's been a rude end of school year but now I have time #I will be able to rest and I really want to get back into drawing #the motivation is slowly coming back I think #so have these for now ! I'll post some other stuff later #take care everyone <3<3

[oatflatwhite]

guys i can't even. describe the way i'm feeling right now. but @ifapromise made art of the clegan fic i wrote for her and i'm incredibly thankful and blessed and deranged (see below the cut)

read the fic in the gold room!!!

#*muffled screaming audible from australia to canada* #mota #masters of the air #fanart #clegan #buck x bucky #hbo war #john egan #bucky egan #gale cleven #buck cleven #LIKE??????? WHAT DO I EVEN DO NOW???????? GO BACK TO MY GODDAMN UNI WORK??????????? #nice things <3 #liz.txt #like seriously what do i. do.

[ahoyimlosingmymind]

do you think Fitz and Keefe recognize each other anymore?

#is that the same boy you grew up with? #is that still the first friend you felt safe with? #does he look more tired than usual? #when was the last time you spoke about anything seriously? #can you remember it? #is this the same kid who you played bramble with? the same kid you bonded with over parents with expectations too high to reach? #do you look at each other now and wonder what happened? #(even though you both know what happened.) #does Keefe notice that Fitz's smile is a little less than perfect now? #does Fitz notice Keefe hasn't styled his hair? #do they recognize each other? #when they see each others rage #do they go “yeah. I know that kid. I'm also that kid.” #Fitz vacker #keefe scencen #kotlc #angst #friendship #fictional characters #kotlc meta

[deus-and-the-machina]

you know the contrast between how Vergil is presented vs thinking too hard about Vergil’s story is pretty funny. Man’s reputation is this iconic badass, the pinnacle of what video game rivalries can be, the coolest guy to play as, the guy who breaks every game he’s added to,

and then you go to the story and like. man’s lost his free will and autonomy at 19 and then came back a fractured man half of which was a lovecraftian eye beast the other half of which was a chronically ill goth man. and then he reunites and hes in like his 40s now I believe but legit the last time he was actually in a game where he wasn’t being mind controlled when he was 19 which is both sad but also thinking about how this guy who’s considered one of the top badasses of gaming has never really lived life outside of being a teenager.

Anyways this is the secret comedic potential of post DMC5 for Vergil because not only has the human world probably changed a fair bit in terms of technology, if he’s sticking around Dante he’s gonna actually have to learn in depth how taxes and grocery shopping work. Amazing.

#thinking about dmc seriously for the first time in a while...I never stopped the occasional canary reblog but hmmmmmmm #like I imagine post 3 Vergil was probably similarly doing mercenary/demon killing work to get money like Dante was and thats sorta shown in #the novels. but like before that when he was a young young kid just post attack he was probably just living feral in an alleyway or smth #with just the yamato prolly similar to how v at the start of visions of v was. that child mugged and dumpster dived ok #point is while obviously he got to a place where he wasnt like. broke and homeless by the gilver era hes probably not had to think much #about money besides it buys me food and clothes mans was confused by one goaland power and yada yada while guess what buddy now you're #gonna be consumed by adulting. I dont even think he'd be that bothered by Dante not paying the bills at first but once he settles into human #living and gets a firsthand experience of what a cold shower when the heating is off feels like he is ON his ass about it #he pretends hes sooooo above human concerns until he has to live them lol and nowhes in charge of devil may crys finances prolly #nero taught him how to do taxes I bet #devil may cry #vergil sparda #vergil

[dazais-guardian-angel]

this torture we're going through with the anime must be divine karma for slandering Bones all this time...... they said "oh, you don't like how we adapt things? you say the manga does it better?? okay then, well now there is no more manga. it's Bones or bust, bitches."

#bungou stray dogs #they really said now either you get the story from us or you don't get it at all 😭😭😭😭💀 #screaming crying throwing up shaking HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO CARRY ON FOR THE NEXT WEEK LIKE EVERYTHING IS NORMAL #NOT KNOWING WHAT THE FUCK 'TWILIGHT FAREWELL' MEANS #NOT EVEN A FULL WEEK BUT FIVE DAYS CAUSE THE PV ALONE WILL END ME #seriously though how can i be okay with getting canon content for the first time in the ANIME #they already do terribly with content that ALREADY EXISTS #HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO FEEL GETTING /NEW CONTENT/ THROUGH /BONES/ #i guess looking at it another way though...... i should be glad if they deliver me some fucking hope a few weeks early #like obviously i'd rather none of this have happened and have gotten to this point in the last episode in the manga first #but since it did turn out this way....... if good things happen i'll take it i can't complain at this point just GIVE ME HOPE #mexican standoff with bones now that there's (basically) no manga content left like 'so it is down to you and it is down to me' #bones at the end of the fucking bsd world: 'never thought i'd be fighting side by side with a bsd anime hater' #me: 'how about side by side with a friend?' #bones: 'aye i can do that'

[screwpinecaprice]

She probably wears men's pants.

#College Connie #This what she wears to Uni I bet. #Okay but seriously. I'm kind of a cheapskate and I take some hand downs from my taller younger brothers. The pants do last longer #than the ones from my sister and Ma #connverse #connie maheswaran #steven quartz universe #my shiz #skedoobles #steven universe #They're suppose to be holding hands on the bottom right. And I never looked back on it even if I could have cleaned it up. #The yellow parts were actually justa cut out page from the same sketchbook. I just colored them in Medibang just because. ( ⁠•⁠ ⁠ʖ̫⁠ ⁠•⁠ ⁠) #Sometimes she borrows Steven's skirts tho because they all have deep pockets? #Idk why I think that's the case. But it's my headcanon now.

[silver-horse]

it really annoys me that during Astarion's confession scene there isn't a dialogue option to just say "I knew you were dishonest from the beginning" there are multiple shocked/surprised responses and that's especially ridiculous given the fact that he is now even more fake sounding than he was in early access.

#seriously... they made it so obvious... right from the beginning.. he seems very fake in a lot of scenes #even the generic clicked on him dialogue.. in the start it has two versions... one over the top happy smiling ''what can I do for you?'' #other times he is looking extremely sad and just says ''yes?'' ... and these two go back and forth ... one or the other if you click on him #bg3 #astarion #baldur's gate 3 #and all of his romance lines are super cheesy fake...very bullshitting the other person...which always bothered me in EA but now it works #and when we start the romance there is an option to say ''you shouldn't do this just because you owe me something'' which he shrugs off #(and honestly kudos to them for including that line... later on I would have felt weird if I didn't pick that dialogue at the start) #bg3 spoilers #bg3 mine #my thoughts #my posts #my post #textposts #text post

[artistfingers]

one thing i didn’t expect was that my voice changing on t would mean i’d essentially forget how to speak in a comfortable register

#it’s seriously weird (in a good way) but its like #speaking in ways that used to feel natural now. don’t feel natural ? #and instead I get all dry/scratchy #which is Something because my default Phone and Work Call voice now feels….. a bit forced and difficult #but like. I don’t know what to do instead 💀 #trying to find where to pitch my voice…. is kinda hard because I still expect everything to be the same and it’s… starting to Not be #anyway ! #this Sunday will mark 1 month on t #so that’s pretty damn cool #getting to here has been a whole journey and a half and it ain’t even over yet #my life and stuff

[incorrect-ikevamp-quotes]

Oh we are so BACK

When I tell you I saw this and died. HELLO?????

I keep hiding my face lahshjsdhjgfsaf HE HAS NO RIGHT. NO RIGHT AT ALL BEING THAT SEXILY INTENSE AAAAAAAAAAA

Anyway, I should probably try to make some attempt at describing the event since. If I don't I'll just be barking/crying/hiding my face for the next twelve hours.

Basically--and I'm not sure this is going to be across the board, but it held true for Napoleon and Sebastian at least--each suitor has a birthday event this year instead of a separate story. Comte's won't be released until tomorrow, but they have posted a preview.

From what I gather, he talks a little bit about himself and reveals parts of his past that haven't come to light in the game yet. There wasn't really enough to convey a coherent narrative beyond attending a party, but the line displayed here does get across the larger theme:

Comte: (I don't need momentary pleasure or ephemeral affection any longer. Now that I know love, there's nothing but you.)

He talks about how the aristocracy have thrown parties and extravagant celebrations for his birthday for most of his life. But none of it has ever really made him happy, largely because he knows that they are attempts to strengthen and broadcast power relations within high society. While I don't think he means it's entirely devoid of well wishes, I do think he sees it as a nexus of influence--and thus, by nature, impersonal. And honestly, I don't think he's wrong about that; the higher the echelon in social standing, the more it requires performance to maintain the position.

That being said, there is a fascinating flashback where he remembers a pureblood telling him about how falling in love with a human is an experience of another caliber entirely. My understanding is that Comte was still a fairly young vampire at the time, so he didn't really understand what the person was getting at. It seems like the other pureblood was trying to convey the difference in feeling, perhaps the fact that humans are more grounded in accordance with how they live--the reality and necessity of change.

After reading this--and the recent 5th bday story--I can absolutely see how change is something Comte has a complicated relationship with. He's known a certain way of life for so long, has constructed a sensibility of distant, rational maturity. After all the heartbreak of his youth, and two very acute traumatic events in his life, I can see why he'd be so afraid of broaching any kind of proximity with another person. Because on some level it's so much easier not to put your feelings on the line, to never have to fear devastating loss. And that's to say nothing of the worry of being unable to measure up on behalf of another person, of letting them down.

I'm so excited to see the rest of the contents, but something about the preview made me equal parts giddy and enamored (all I do is kick my feet with excitement LOL). I think what gets to me with Comte is that he truly does love companionship as a place to rest, a place where he can be honest about himself and his feelings without fear of ridicule (and the same goes for MC). In a world increasingly obsessed with surface level performances of power, status, and emotion, it's hard not to feel his exhaustion to the core.

Also, because these lines at the end more or less destroyed me in the best possible way:

MC: ...The you who had nowhere to belong no longer exists. In much the same way...Abel, I belong to you. Comte: ... Comte: I wish I could say to myself all those years ago, the me who kept indulging in such paltry things. Comte: Until you meet MC, you will never know love... The warmth of MC in my arms filled me with such joy I was near tears. (I don't need momentary pleasure or ephemeral affection any longer. Now that I know love, there's nothing but you.) The moment my lips found hers, the sweetness lit a fire deep in my body. Comte: These cute lips that melt against mine, the heat of your skin, the love that envelops me in your embrace--always leaves me so deeply in love with you.

#ikevamp #ikemen vampire #ikevamp comte #ikevamp saint germain #ikevamp spoilers #LETS GO ABEL UNPACKING ALL THOSE COPING MECHANISMS #**pats the couch next to me** CONFIDE IN ME #but in all seriousness i really do love how raw his relief and happiness feels #to have spent all of those years trying to subsist on emotional crumbs and numbing himself #and mc is so real for just gathering him in her arms and holding him tight QUEEN MOOD!!!! #i really really really love that general recurrence in his stories too #of how he always feels so isolated and out of place even when he's surrounded by people #yet all it takes is mc saying 'you belong to me--just as I belong to you. you're never truly alone :>' #to make him both overjoyed but also unhinged with so much love for her--to feel alive #also man........MAN..... #him looking back at who he used to be vs who he is now #im so caught between memeing like 'you know what that is? growth!' #but also lowkey weeping from the fact that he feels loved enough to look back and fully admit it wasn't quite happiness #that he was just surviving the only way he knew how--not really living #ABEL THE THINGS YOU DO TO ME #CMERE LOVER BOY #comte propaganda #fangdad propaganda #baguettosaurus #literally october was always my favorite month but its even better now that it just becomes a comte-loving festival for me #truly all the joys of monsterfking all tg