#is that the same boy you grew up with?

[ahoyimlosingmymind]

do you think Fitz and Keefe recognize each other anymore?

#is that the same boy you grew up with? #is that still the first friend you felt safe with? #does he look more tired than usual? #when was the last time you spoke about anything seriously? #can you remember it? #is this the same kid who you played bramble with? the same kid you bonded with over parents with expectations too high to reach? #do you look at each other now and wonder what happened? #(even though you both know what happened.) #does Keefe notice that Fitz's smile is a little less than perfect now? #does Fitz notice Keefe hasn't styled his hair? #do they recognize each other? #when they see each others rage #do they go “yeah. I know that kid. I'm also that kid.” #Fitz vacker #keefe scencen #kotlc #angst #friendship #fictional characters #kotlc meta

[inkskinned]

you're grabbing lunch with a nice man and he gives you that strange grimace-smile that's popular right now; an almost sardonic "twist" of his mouth while he looks literally down on you. it looks like he practiced the move as he leans back, arms folded. he just finished reciting the details of NFTs to you and explaining Oppenheimer even though he only watched a youtube about it and hasn't actually seen it. you are at the bottom of your wine glass.

you ask the man across from you if he has siblings, desperately looking for a topic. literally anything else.

he says i don't like small talk. and then he smiles again, watching you.

a few years ago, you probably would have said you're above celebrity gossip, but honestly, you've been kind of enjoying the dumb shit of it these days. with the rest of the earth burning, there's something familiar and banal about dragging ariana grande through the mud. you think about jeanette mccurdy, who has often times gently warned the world she's not as nice as she appears. you liked i'm glad my mom died but it made you cry a lot.

he doesn't like small talk, figure out something to say.

you want to talk about responsibility, and how ariana grande is only like 6 days older than you are - which means she just turned 30 and still dresses and acts like a 13 year old, but like sexy. there's something in there about the whole thing - about insecurity, and never growing up, and being sexualized from a young age.

people have been saying that gay people are groomers. like, that's something that's come back into the public. you have even said yourself that it's just ... easier to date men sometimes. you would identify as whatever the opposite of "heteroflexible" is, but here you are again, across from a man. you like every woman, and 3 people on tv. and not this guy. but you're trying. your mother is worried about you. she thinks it's not okay you're single. and honestly this guy was better before you met, back when you were just texting.

wait, shit. are you doing the same thing as ariana grande? are you looking for male validation in order to appease some internalized promise of heteronormativity? do you conform to the idea that your happiness must result in heterosexuality? do you believe that you can resolve your internal loneliness by being accepted into the patriarchy? is there a reason dating men is easier? why are you so scared of fucking it up with women? why don't you reach out to more of them? you have a good sense of humor and a big ol' brain, you could have done a better job at online dating.

also. jesus christ. why can't you just get a drink with somebody without your internal feminism meter pinging. although - in your favor (and judgement aside) in the case of your ariana grande deposition: you have been in enough therapy you probably wouldn't date anyone who had just broken up with their wife of many years (and who has a young child). you'd be like - maybe take some personal time before you begin this journey. like, grande has been on broadway, you'd think she would have heard of the plot of hamlet.

he leans forward and taps two fingers to the table. "i'm not, like an andrew tate guy," he's saying, "but i do think partnership is about two people knowing their place. i like order."

you knew it was going to be hard. being non-straight in any particular way is like, always hard. these days you kind of like answering the question what's your sexuality? with a shrug and a smile - it's fine - is your most common response. like they asked you how your life is going and not to reveal your identity. you like not being straight. you like kissing girls. some days you know you're into men, and sometimes you're sitting across from a man, and you're thinking about the power of compulsory heterosexuality. are you into men, or are you just into the safety that comes from being seen with them? after all, everyone knows you're failing in life unless you have a husband. it almost feels like a gradebook - people see "straight married" as being "all A's", and anything else even vaguely noncompliant as being ... like you dropped out of the school system. you cannot just ignore years of that kind of conditioning, of course you like attention from men.

"so let's talk boundaries." he orders more wine for you, gesturing with one hand like he's rousing an orchestra. sir, this is a fucking chain restaurant. "I am not gonna date someone who still has male friends. also, i don't care about your little friends, i care about me. whatever stupid girls night things - those are lower priority. if i want you there, you're there."

he wasn't like this over text, right? you wouldn't have been even in the building if he was like this. you squint at him. in another version of yourself, you'd be running. you'd just get up and go. that's what happens on the internet - people get annoyed, and they just leave. you are locked in place, almost frozen. you need to go to the bathroom and text someone to call you so you have an excuse, like it's rude to just-leave. like he already kind of owns you. rudeness implies a power paradigm, though. see, even your social anxiety allows the patriarchy to get to you.

you take a sip of the new glass of wine. maybe this will be a funny story. maybe you can write about it on your blog. maybe you can meet ariana grande and ask her if she just maybe needs to take some time to sit and think about her happiness and how she measures her own success.

is this settling down? is this all that's left in your dating pool? just accepting that someone will eventually love you, and you have to stop being picky about who "makes" you a wife?

you look down to your hand, clutching the knife.

#writeblr #this is a mashup of like 3 dates i accidentally went on lol #by that i mean that i was out with a woman on a date in 2 of these situations #and a man just. joined us. and we were too awkward to say anything while he tried to ''date'' me #& one was a longterm friend that i was like. you what???? #like he's nice he's a doctor and my mom was SO happy she was like raquel think about it #''it's a perfect love story you grew up together and reconnected as adults and like the same things and he's friends with ur brother #and his sister is one of ur close friends!!!'' #yes but alas. he is a boy . she only likes girls. can i make it any more obvious #anyway im tryna write about like the force of male attention being actually incredibly ingrained to women like we are SUPPOSED to like it #it's seen as the only important thing #even if ur gay #and it's a nuanced thing idk #and while rn i i.d. as lesbian #like .... it wouldn't be UNTRUE to say i am probably like ''cusp bisexual'' bc i CAN experience attraction to men bc like . #sexuality is fluid... #don't tell straight ppl tho bc they do not understand the concept that ppl don't necessarily need a solid everlasting label #they're like GET in the BOX #if ur gay & in boston i'm 30 and pretty please come kiss me. #(i usually only date older ppl sorry in advance tho)

[fossilfan39]

I actually do enjoy modern au jetko . I just have a very specific vision…

I might actually write something this time BUT FIRST☝️ I want to make one of these refs for everyone (cop out)

#jetko #Zuko in catholic school is. important TO ME….. #he has a shame about him you only see in boys who grew up in the Catholic Church #zuko would have Dyscalculia #hmmm I see jet as a good will hunting situation #<- not THAT genius but to the same effect. do you understand? #’she updates their father on zuko’ <- not because he cares but because she’s an instigator #<-keeps in touch in bad faith #Fabi art #modern au

[purplecatghostposts]

Rise Leo meeting the 2012 Gang except after like, less than a week he says something along the lines of ‘Man, I can’t believe that all versions of me and my brothers and our friends are queer!’ And the whole 2012 Gang FREEZES because none of them are out to each other because they just assumed they were the only gay in the group and Rise Leo was able to figure everyone out like THAT.

Cue Spider-Man pointing meme where they’re all like, “YOU’RE BISEXUAL AND YOU DIDN’T TELL ME?? WE COULD’VE BEEN TALKING ABOUT THIS ALL THIS TIME??” While Rise Leo is like “…You guys didn’t know?? Really??” Because they were all so focused on “Oh my god I’m gay… How do I come out to my family…” to notice that ALL of them are gay.

#rottmnt #tmnt 2012 #tmnt crossover #The Rise gang is all out to each other because Rise Splinter is a raging bisexual #While 2012 Splinter doesn’t even know he’s bisexual #(He is. Source? Because he has all queer kids.) #All turtles are queer. Not a single one isn’t #I just think it would be funny if Rise Leo pointed it out thinking it was like. A universally known thing only to find out it really isn’t #After that the 2012 Gang gets even closer and they all band together to watch queer shows together to heal their souls #‘2012 Gang is all queer’ applies to both Casey and April too. Neither of these people are straight #Afterwards they form a goddamn line outside Splinters door being like ‘Hey dad… I’m gay.’ one after another #and Splinter is supportive bc he loves his boys but he’s confused why they’re all coming out on the same day #So he just keeps giving personalized speeches to tell them he loves and supports them no matter what #And then later pulls Rise Leo aside like ‘My Alternative Son… I grew up in a very traditional household. I have no idea what a Bisexual is’ #So Rise Leo gives him the rundown so Splinter can better understand his kids #and then is like ‘Hm. this Bisexual thing sounds… Similar to how I feel.’ #and. yeah <3 #you get the idea #SB Speaks #SB Rambles #this got off the rails oops-

[tenebrius-excellium]

Thinking about Httyd...hot and perhaps too personal take: To me, Httyd was more than anything else a movie about emotional starvation. And Forbidden Friendship was the sweetest, briefest celebration of relief from that.

Afterwards, everybody basically told Hiccup to man up “because that’s just life” and I will never forgive Httyd2 and Httyd3 for that.

#httyd #wherethekiteflies #y'all keep forgetting that Hiccup grew up without a Mom. #In the same day he finds his mother; he loses his Dad. #and the third movie has nothing better to do than to make Hiccup let go of his friend because it's clingy or whatever #to keep the only stable; emotionally available being around that he has ever known. #he's painted as selfish and immature for wanting that. #Neither Astrid; nor Valka; nor Gobber understand Hiccup in the way Toothless did. #Hiccup is simply expected to go without emotional validation or the praise and intimacy he desires for his entire life #because taking responsibility is more important than feeling understood. or whatever. #this boy was granted Forbidden Friendship as the only real hug he ever received... from a dragon who chose him; who stayed with him; #who loved him; who didn't leave or bully or disappoint him. this dragon was the healthiest relationship Hiccup ever had. #and it was judged to be weak. to weaken him as a Chief. when his passion and compassion for Toothless and others were in fact #Hiccup's greatest strengths as Chief. it were those qualities; this sensitivity that made him amazing. #but the plot decided that he needed to become just like Stoick and Astrid and like the Valka who abandoned her dreams & hopes for "reality #how is desiring and needing emotional backup in life void of reality; weak; delusional and too idealistic? #shame on you httyd sequels for never granting this boy what he desired most. and that was honest; unconditional support. #analysis #httyd analysis #rant #hiccup

[animezinglife]

Boy moms are something else.

I get that moms will always see their children as their "babies." That's completely fair and to be expected.

What I'm a little less comfortable with is when your fifteen-year-old son who's over six feet tall is somebody you consider "too young" to stay home by himself.

My parents would toss the phone at me (landlines back then), make sure I knew where the guns were in case there was an intruder, tell me there was enough food to cook whatever, and say "have fun" when I was eight.

#boy moms #wtf #if I had a fifteen-year-old son I'd be WAY more worried about him having a girl over or throwing a party #SHE WON'T EVEN LET HIM COOK #WTF #this is how you raise a manchild #I don't know ANY boys who hadn't already been staying home on their own from around the same age I did that I grew up with #I love her but she also complains because her husband is the ONLY man out of our group who won't cook and clean #MA'AM YOU ARE REPEATING THAT CYCLE

[legolasghosty]

Toy Store AU!

I AM SO SORRY ABOUT HOW LONG THIS TOOK! I blame college.

ANYWAYS...

This is more of a toy factory(but like the fun kind) than a store, but that's the vibes I'm feeling. The Molina family runs a toy business, making super cool stuff from scratch rather than all that cheap plastic stuff that gets mass produced. It's a Molina family tradition that Ray married into(Yes Molina is Rose's last name, you can pry that headcanon out of my cold, dead hands).

Rose was the master of all things woodwork, and passed on many of these skills to her daughter. Their house has always been filled with little carved animals, handmade dishes, and lovely woodburned signs on the bedroom doors. Ray was slightly terrified when Rose started teaching Julie to carve pretty young, but it was mostly without serious injury.

Ray is better at the stuffed side of the toy world. He and Rose met when he was an apprentice in the stuffy workshop and she was learning the ropes from her dad. They fell slow and steady (Rose's parents shipped it from the beginning), even when Ray took some time away to act as the tour photographer for his friend, Trevor. Rose and Trevor ended up being good friends as well when they finally met!

Back to the present, Julie has just come back from a year away at boarding school. It wasn't anyone's first choice, but after Rose died, trying to be around the toy store was just too much for her. Boarding school was Tia's idea, as a way to give her some space to find herself. It helped some, but Julie comes home for the summer sick of being the girl with the dead mom. It's still hard to enter the workshop space though, so she starts working at the shop part of the business instead.

Enter Flynn, who got the cashier job back in January. The two of them become fast friends, bonding over stupid Karens, after hours restocks, and helping kids find just the right new friend. Julie discovers a surprising link between them, that being that Flynn is dating Carrie, Trevor's daughter. Trevor and Carrie hadn't been around much since Rose passed, so Julie hadn't seen Carrie in ages, but they start to get to know each other again through Flynn. It's sweet!

Alex grew up near the factory and he and Julie were super good friends as kids. They still are. Ray and Rose took a liking to him as well. So when he showed up one night when he was 16, explaining that his parents had found out he was gay and made it clear that they wouldn't be paying for anything for him outside of the roof he was 'allowed' to share with them, they quickly got him a job. He floated through positions for a while, doing well in most areas but just trying to find something that he really loved. He's settled at the moment as a delivery driver for the store. He likes the freedom of it, and how concrete it is. He's the best driver they have.

Reggie and Luke are partway into their first year as workshop apprentices. Luke mostly applied to satisfy his mom, who was angry about him not going to college, but he has discovered the fun of music boxes and maybeeee is slightly obsessed. Reggie has ended up in Ray's old position as the stuffy apprentice with his knack for tidy stitches and adding a bit of love to every single one.

Luke ends up poking around a bit in a closet of older models and stuff and finds some of Rose's music boxes(one of which has Julie's voice on it). He loves it and immediately goes to ask his boss/mentor, John, about it. John explains about Rose and how they all thought that Julie would follow in her footsteps as a woodworker, as she was one of the most talented he'd ever seen at such a young age, but how she hadn't been able to keep creating after losing her mom.

Not realizing that Julie is back now, at least for the summer, Luke gets sad but lets it go. And then she walks in on him listening to the music box in the break room a few days later. She kinda flips cause where the heck did he get that, and he goes on his whole thing about talent and art being something you have to let out. Julie ends up bolting into the workshop to get away. Luke is like, "Frick I came on too strong again didn't I..."

But who should Julie run into other than Reggie and Alex, who were packing up an order near the back of the space. And Alex immediately realizes she's having an anxiety attack and sits her down. Reggie grabs a big teddy bear for her to hug, and then ends up pulling Luke away when he comes in after her. After Julie calms down with help from Alex, Luke apologizes and they all just kinda... keep talking after that. And eventually Julie starts doing woodwork stuff again. The first thing she actually finishes is decal for Alex's bass drum with the logo of the boys' band on it. They all cry.

Andddd why must these always get so long when I do them? /nm

Anyways, hope you like it!!!!

#legolas tag #julie and the phantoms #legolas answers asks #jatp #also Willie is definitely around too #he's super good with electronic toys #and grew up in his uncle's toy store a couple of states over #but he bolted once he turned 18 cause uhhh... Caleb isn't the best boss... or parental figure... #but he had the skills still... so he just started working at the Molina's #he's still a little confused by the lack of disciplinary action if you don't meet the exact quota that gets set by someone higher up #but he is very much enjoying actually getting his lunch breaks #especially since he's managed to time them pretty well so he's in the break room at the same time as the cute delivery driver boy...

[your-stranger-halfblood-things]

____ is a sad, angsty, gay teen who got stuck in a world of hell and likes to play a fantasy game.

Was I talking about Nico di Angelo or Will Byers?

#they even have the same amount of letters in their first names #gay boys who fell in love with people that saved them #mind you they both grew up in very homophobic times #they both looked up to an older sibling at some point....sorry bianca #their music would probably be similar with rock and metal #did i mention daddy issues #stranger things #pjo hoo toa #nico di angelo #will byers #byler #solangelo #< target audience #dnd #mythomagic

[zozo-01]

the struggles of writing milo as a girl raised in the hood

#the eternal fight between writing milo as a reflection of the boys who i grew up with VS the fact that he was raised in suburban dahlia #“darlin's into hood boys” you're absolutely right milo and you should say it louder BUT I CANT WRITE THAT #no one will understand ;-------; #treading the fine line of new york and hood (there is no line he's very brooklyn to me) #its the same with darlin but w o r s t #head in hands #this is zo speaking

[baezdylan]

stranger things used to be about FRIENDSHIP!!! "friends don't lie" the show literally revolved around that phrase. like the whole thing doesn't even begin with will's disappearance, it begins with these four boys who love each other playing their favourite game, four kids with completely different personalities and backgrounds. st used to encourage differences and highlight unexpected similarities between characters positioned as polar opposites. breaking the age barriers. sharing knowledge between generations. refutation of either the "cool kids" or the "nerds" being superior to the other. the gradual symbiosis of those two worlds. FAMILIAL LOVE!!!!!!! the complex joy of being somebody's friend!!!!! the confirmation that yes, you can and are supposed to have more than one best friend. that's what the show was about. not... this

#stranger things spoilers #stranger things #i'm just tired #steve completely disregarding robin in nancy's presence?mike doing the same to will? dustin being the only one to care about eddie's death? #sorry that's not my show #dear billy was the best episode of the season simply because of that scene with max and those flashbacks #a lot of people are mad for all the right reasons but this is what personally bugged me the most #i'm glad the fandom opened my eyes to some stuff i didn't notice because of the privileges i enjoyed maybe? #but you can't convince me that eddie's death wouldn't be an integral loss for everyone back in s1 #and don't tell me it's because they grew up and romance took the front seat... it's not that #like... steve and dustin's final interaction before they go into battle? those weren't my boys... #the essence of the show is not what it was. i don't think there even is one anymore

[tecchan]

Good evening to everyone except the person who decided to have Haru disappear from the home screen after finishing the game

#no thank you!!! #that shit hurted #i actually teared up #he waved goodbye then faded away :(((( #i'm really stupid so kouichi's route left me more confused than anything #aniki is alive apparently??? #i feel bad for bunbun #i hated him at first because journalists are usually scum but then he grew on me #he's the sad wet cat of the game #ryu's route was my least favourite‚ then kouichi's‚ hiroyuki's and maki's is my fav #idk what my problem is with stuck up dudes with glasses who lost their younger sister to sex trafficking #first fujieda now ryu #kouichi's route had some great moments but the final rape scene + the fact kouichi thought haru might be his son the whole time is kinda... #not my cup of tea #also kouichi's son was kidnapped when he was 6‚ that's more than old enough to have like‚ recognizable facial features?? #how can he not know for sure haru's definitely not his son? #on paper hiroyuki's route seems like it would be my least favourite #two guys the same age who immediately get along with the bottom being a virgin blablabla #sounds boring when put like that but they turned out to be extremely cute and uuuh piyoshi has a really cute voice #boy was i glad to be home alone when playing his route because that guy is LOUD #i'm at 97% and am missing quite a few CGs so i'll go through it again then once i'm done‚ time for lkyt i guess #also want to go back to room n.9 real quick because i don't think i got 100% on it either

[boycentriccplot]

crying over this episode

#you dont get jt krabs is a penny pincher cause he grew up wearing rags and living in a shack. the first time he saw a coin he was wearing #a cardboard box #the kids in his school called him rag boy. the same kids made fun of plankton for being a nerd. they shunned them from the local #“stinky burger” place #they were the underwaters Eric Harris and dylan klebold #they're my everything

[alchemistdefective]

"Oooh, this one seems fun.~"

*Throws a 🛌 at... Rirune*

Send 🛌 for our muses to wake up in bed together after having had sex together for the first time the night before.

"H.... Ha... Ha..."

It... was the first time since the both of them actually did something like this. Intimately, that is.

Seiga, the very woman who he has grew up with as a kitsune, even all the way back to Gensoyko... and the only living contact from the place he has for a very, long time.

The hermit... one of the people who has been watching after him after all this time. It still felt so... surreal.

True, he did just recently become a three-tailed kitsune, and he couldn't control his kitsune urges after being not feeding for... well, so long, and without Lust to keep him in check, he...

Oh no. The woman is still next to him. The both of them were naked.

It... really did happen.

"Mi-... Seiga, I'm... I'm so sorry, a-are you okay? I told myself to go easy on you, but... I feel like I've gone rough. Way too rough. To repay you like that after you've been so nice to me, it's..."

He was a completely different person then. He was... wild. Rough. Aggressive. Using Seiga as if she was some kind of toy. And... he could still smell his own scent dripping out from her, and the surroundings.

"... I won't fault you if you don't want me around anymore. I'll get you some warm water, then you could clean up. I'm so sorry, I shouldn't have accepted your offer into using you as a substitute for feeding... I feel like a monster."

He... feels REALLY guilty.

#thathermitwiththehairpin #Were you expecting something fun Seiga #NO #(Now obviously we all know what Seiga thinks but) #(This is still the same little boy she grew up with after all :D)

[pennyserenade]

i ache for tigris snow because if the little boy who i loved more than anything and would do anything for turned into an evil dictator before my eyes i wouldn’t be able to breathe. she believed so much in what she thought was his innate goodness that she would’ve tossed her entire future out for him. she loved him dearly, to the point that she had sold her body so he could eat as a child. she wholeheartedly believed that he would save them with his intelligence, and she carried the weight of their family’s burdens so he wouldn’t have to. from his shirt to assuring him that she and their grandma’am were okay even after they had to sell the apartment, all she did was for coriolanus—and he turned into someone she hated, someone she wanted to die in the end. terrible

#misc. #this is actually my real and true living nightmare #and idk i think this dynamic was important bc it broached a scary subject #it’s something we see happen in our every day lives. so many women i know know little boys who grew up to be terrible men #no matter what kind of rearing the women in their lives do. sometimes the forces outside of them are too strong #and it’s scary bc this is so so so so common especially now with the internet #the other day my nephew came home from school and told me he didn’t like girls #and he wouldn’t tell me he loved me for about a month and i understand that’s just children for you #but at the same time — how did that happen? #he’s a wonderful child. the Best. the thing i’m most proud of #and yet it got to him too. it’s terrible #he’s back to saying i love you almost on a minute to minute basis now lol but it’s just awful to think abt

[terra-tortoise]

new wind boyfriends, hafod and hendre! goat herders turned wandering bards. hafod is a storyteller and hendre is a minstrel. theyre best friends but also in love theyre just not talking abt it yet

#flight rising #mistral jamboree #hafod #hendre #aethers #skydancers #my dragons #they both have goat eyes (: #they grew up together n were like. damn. do you wanna see the world #what if we explored the world and told stories to strangers and we were both boys #what if we said something so beautiful and profound as a means of reflection on the world around us and we were both boys #what if together we could evoke the same feeling of a sunset through music and word alone but we couldnt discuss our own feelings #and we were both boys #scribes

[woahajimes]

i feel such an incredibly frustriating yearn

#when i went to ecuador everyone was so warm #like strangers to you probably not since its dangerous and crime rates and stuff but the general love and care dynamics are so different #like im super anxious and closed up and im not very touchy nor do i say a lot but it wasnt ALWAYS like this and i thought oh maybe i just #grew up but also maybe i just moved to canada #like yeah canadians are super nice but friendships are so strict and dynamics are so like. idk its different #I mean there's obviously the fact that i havent' met a lot of people and that i am closed off and stuff but at least in my old school in #Ecuador friendships are the same and theres boy/girl friendships and its not romantic and hugs are normal and #ive messed up so many guy friendships because of that like im “oh my god yes new guy friend unlocked” and sudenly ive been sending them #mixed signals all along even tho im like yeah we chillin and ahhhhh #like #if i got shit wasted drunk here id probably get filmed and posted on the gc #but in ecuador i did get terribly drunk and i was with a friend (guy) and it was a pool party #this party i did not KNOW it was a pool party so i got thrown in with jeans and all but i got super drunk and everyone was kinda drunk and #there was a point in which he like sat me down and kept giving me water and like its just that care that #ah in canada it could never #at least not at this age i dont think #not at my school at least lmao #like in everything theres no judgement and theres a general friendship thats really good #god i miss it #but i never really had it #yk #like im gonna talk a little more abt this party k #it was the whole graduating year bc we're seniors and they all knew each other #nobody knew we were getting in the pool but by the time i got there EVERYOEN was in #like in jeans and school uniform and all #and people were like DRAGGING YOU #like it was all laughs and skjfhjkdhjjhkdhjkdfsjkhdsjhkdsfkjdfjkhdfs #like physically throwing you in the pool #obv no harm bc it wasnt deep but like everyone was just #like bridal style and wrestling and there were drinks and music