#but i’m too nervous :( fuxk

[motheyes]

wah how did i get here 10 minutes early

#i hate being early #i’m pretty sure i can go in and sit on the couch #but i hear voices in the office and i don’t wanna be rude so #i’m just crouched outside the door 😭😭 #i’ll go sit there when it’s 5 minute till #that’ll be fine #ik the door is open for a reason like i can go sit in there #but i’m too nervous :( fuxk

[tortoisebore]

Fic recs?? It’s so hard to find good stuff😩

i’ll list a few of my recent favs, but first i’ll give u some tips & secrets ab how i find new fics 🥰

my first & biggest source—i snoop on everyone’s bookmarks. like everyone. if i read a fic i liked, i check that author’s bookmarks. if someone comments on my fic, i check their bookmarks. if i come across someone talking ab fic on the tl, i go to their ao3 and check their bookmarks. i’ve found so many great fics just by snooping on what other ppl are reading 🫶

my second most-used tactic: searching for tags & using filters. if i’m looking for something specific, i search the tags/pairings i want and make sure to exclude things i don’t want (i.e. i don’t usually want to read jegulus, so i make sure to exclude that pairing in my results. same goes w tags/ratings/warnings u don’t want). i’ll sort by date, kudos, and hits separately, and add anything that sounds interesting to my bookmarks to sort through later. ao3 really has the best filtering and tagging system out there, but a lot of times we don’t use it to its full capacity! if you want to read something specific there’s a very good chance someone has written it, you just need to search and filter your results so that you’re not just seeing the most recent stuff! (i also filter by word count a lot too bc i’m not always in the mood for something multi-chaptered or something that will take me multiple days to finish reading)

last, sometimes i’ll go into the main pairing tag i’m looking for and sort by kudos/hits/date/whatever and jump to like….the 30th page of results. there’s sooooo much stuff i miss just bc it gets lost in the flow of new/popular fics, so jumping to random deep-dive search results will help you find new stuff & come across fics & authors you haven’t seen before 💞💖💘

now here’s some of the stuff i’ve been enjoying lately!! 💞💖💘💕

love by the seaside by viwrites

this was very cute and a great quick read! remus is a disgruntled painter/barista recovering from a toxic relationship & sirius is the sweet, dashing stranger that he meets by accident on the beach one day. lots of early-morning coffee runs and nervous flirting with some christmas fluff as a treat

hurling crowbirds at mockingbars by wrappedup

y’all know i am typically NOT an exes to lovers kind of girlie. i find this trope very hard to read most of the time bc i am a huge baby, but this one was a quick read and the plot was overall very sweet! remus broke up with sirius & left the country out of the blue almost 10 years ago, and then comes back to town with a fiancé. sirius learns very quickly that he’s still hurt, and remus learns very quickly that he might have jumped the gun all those years ago.

in the dark there is discovery by lynxindisguise

wolfstar pirate au!! need i say more!!

disarm you with a smile by five_ht

listen to me. look me in my eyes. this is explicit as fuck and i encourage you to read every single one of the tags carefully. seriously read all of them. it will not be for everyone but like….,oh my fuxking god. sirius steals remus’ phone number while hanging out with his friend (remus’ niece) one day and starts sending him increasingly suggestive texts anonymously. it’s all fun and games until sirius starts to catch feelings & remus starts to get curious ab who he’s been talking to.

in the centre of a circle by moonheavens

reccing this again bc I HAVEN’T CAUGHT UP YET BUT IT’S SO SO GOOD i’m going after the latest chapter as SOOOOOON as i have the time this week 🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩 sirius lives with the lupins and is very much in love with remus. he consults various people for advice.

#u ask tortoise answers #anon #fic rec #wolfstar fic rec #plus some #ao3 tips

[strandnreyes]

I’ve never sent in a prompt to anyone before, I’m nervous and excited because I fuxking love your writing!! So here goes Crab Blossom and Myrtle, pretty please? 🥹

Crab Blossom - Stop. You need to rest.

Carlos lost track of time somewhere between leaving the reception and the second time he pressed TK into the mattress and heard his name cry out from his husband’s lips.

It has to be closer to morning at this point and Carlos should be exhausted, but he doesn’t want this day to be over just yet. He and TK haven’t said anything to each other in a little bit, content to simply exist in each other’s space as they trade lazy kisses and constantly wind and unwind their fingers together.

Every time Carlos’ fingers brush against TK’s ring, he finds himself smiling against TK’s lips.

When TK’s kisses become a little more purposeful and he slides on top of Carlos, Carlos drops his head back to the pillow.

“We should stop and get some rest,” Carlos whispers.

“Why?” TK asks, toying with Carlos’ necklace. “Our flight doesn’t leave until the afternoon.”

Carlos raises a brow. “And you have nothing packed yet.”

TK purses his lips and Carlos is powerless to do anything but lean up to kiss him again. Carlos can feel TK smiling like he knows he has Carlos in the palm of his hand and Carlos can’t even act like that’s not true.

“Do I really have much to pack?” TK questions with a gleam in his eye that means trouble. “I can’t imagine I’m going to need a whole lot of clothes…” he trails off, running his hand slowly down Carlos’ side.

The metal of his ring sends a shiver down Carlos’ spine and he’s mentally calculating what time they actually need to get up tomorrow. They can probably get away with staying awake just a bit longer.

Carlos winds his arms tighter around TK’s waist, creating space between his legs for TK to settle. “The hotel lobby generally has a ‘no nudity’ policy,” Carlos tells him.

TK hums. “Tragic,” he whispers, ducking down to kiss Carlos deeply again.

Carlos finds himself getting lost in it, and then TK’s ring presses into Carlos’ cheek like a beacon for all of his attention and he wonders when these symbols of their love proudly displayed on their hands are going to feel natural, when he’ll feel like he can’t remember a time when they didn’t wear them. Carlos hopes the thrill of it never fades, though.

“Hey,” Carlos murmurs, nudging TK back just enough to look him in the eye. “I love you.”

TK’s responding smile feels like it was made just for Carlos. “I love you too, husband.”

Husband, Carlos thinks. Once a pipe dream; now his to have and to hold.

#tarlos #911 lone star #flower drabbles

[rodeoxqueen]

Bitter Water.

Dante x reader.

Premise.

“Come here sweet girl.”

Dante was a passionate lover. But you had the one. Until you didn’t. In your heartbroken lust, Dante bears his heart to you.

Dante found you at your door. It was one of those typical situations, fucking your old fuck buddy after “the one” leaves you.

How old were you two? Fuck, he met you when you were in your twenties and god did you look good. He figured he’d joined the 27 club back then, now he was happy to know that the “dirty thirties” was a good look on him.

You were doing your PhD and you’d tell him all about your field of study in your buzzed and shy little self, sitting so close to him in that cocktail dress. Your friends, who he’s sure he’s seen on the magazines, partied as their irresponsible younger selves behind you two. That was the first night he took you out of that absolute mad house. He fucked you, a stranger,into familiarity, your legs wrapped tight against his waist. Until you said his name so intimately against his cheek.

“Hey.”

Your voice was like an old favorite song to his ears, not often heard but appreciated when it came on to fill the air.

“Hello.” He dragged out, arm propped against your doorframe, his figure casting a shadow from the streetlights.

You stared blankly, drinking in his presence. You seemed nervous, like there was something you wanted.

The moment of silence snapped as you laughed nervously, wine glass gracefully in hand.

“Where are my manners, come in come in.” You waved.

Your apartment was neat. Not in the way his brother was, with white walls and minimalist furniture. No. It was neat like it lived around you. Mail scattered on a dining room table next to wine bottle, and a phone.

He bet if he tapped on the screen, there would be a picture of you and your boyfriend.

Dante hated that name.

His name.

He had stopped seeing you after you became exclusive with him.

Or, you tried to ghost him and he made you admit you didn’t want to see him anymore.

You never kept secrets from him, sweet girl. Even if it were better if you did.

But Dante didn’t mind seeing your posts of him, as long as his thumb was over the picture of that guy’s face.

“Would you like something to drink?” You offered with a spare glass in hand.

“Sure.” You turned around.

Seeing that he was there, you and your boyfriend were finished.

Fine with him.

He tapped the screen of your phone while you weren’t looking.

Just as he thought, your old lockscreen came back on. A picture of your dog.

Speaking of who, a series of paws clicking against the floor lead to Dante petting said dog.

“Hey boy, it’s been a while.” Dante chuckled as you walked over with a half full glass of wine.

That lounge robe looked too good on you.

Thank god for wine.

Next thing you knew, you had called up Dante. Gina told you not to.

“Girl you need familiar dick because you’re hung up on Max.”

“What the fuck is familiar dick?” Her comment damn near made you choke on Pinot Noir.

“What I mean is that you need to get a rebound! Fuxk him!”

“He dumped me two days ago don’t you think I need some time to be alone?!”

Gina sighed.

“Darlin’, he’s short you can’t be that devastated.”

You scoffed, wiping away at your face.

“Well whatever! I’m not calling up anyone it would be weird to just pick up the phone and dial an old fuxk buddy.”

A bottle of wine later had both of you began scheming.

You scrolled down past old hook ups, Gina naming people you should try to hit up.

You stopped at that name. A devil emoji next to those five letters.

“Dante.”

Gina was your best friend. This beautiful intelligent girl with two degrees and a baby on the way. Despite how she always had her shit together while you didn’t, she sure had some terrible ideas.

“(Y/N)-“

“No. Not happening.”

You dismissed the last text he sent you, which you never responded to.

You know I can fuck you better than him.

That was two years ago.

He was still on your social media, liking your posts but never commenting.

Even on pictures of you and your now ex-boyfriend.

“Come on, you remember what he said, why not just prove him right.”

“Because it’s weird.” You moan.

“Come onnnn.” Worst he can say is no I’m happily married with three kids and a mortgage. Oh wait, that’s never gonna happen to him.”

Ouch.

Dante.

The hottest man you ever slept with. And the best fuck you ever had.

Many actually.

But he wasn’t the greatest guy. He had his faults.

Some of them had lead you to the same point Max did. Crying and drunk on the phone with Gina.

“He wasn’t good for me then, what good is he now?”

Gina sighed.

“Do you want to get over him? Get under him.”

Good god could she get to the point.

You dialed before you could stop yourself.

To be continued.

#rebound #devil may cry #devil may cry headcanons #dante #dante headcanon #Dante x reader #reader is educattteddd #female reader #Dante x female reader

[its-inevitable-lupe]

Idk what the fuck to do. I’m tired of pushing this whole thing to the side for years. Im not mad at her at all. I’m not who I was all these two years of healing. I’m tired of never getting to see this person EVER and making it ok. I’m tired of how passive I was and was never really clear and nor with good intentions until literally my last ever message with her has got to be my most real one not because she’s right about me.. but because I took ownership of my behavior. I let her go. It is the end of that. She deserves to live her life…. But I’m so selfish I want to insert myself in it. Anyways.. She didn’t need to be begging and be behind me after we stopped because she DID that for a long time……. SHE put up with ME. I was the one who all this fucking time had to redeem myself and improve… she Never asked me to change. Maybe love her… show more and i excuse my behavior and i know my trauma and head made it difficult.. but SHE accepted me as how I was even if it was absolutely shitty and she compromise her emotions.. i did not. this is not like some crush or someone random you can’t get over… it Far more. The birthday message she wasn’t suppose to read was real. She liked it. We talked. And I messed up because I was still very upset at someone who didn’t deserve it. But also I can’t invalidate my sad feelings. Yes she fucked up a few times but come on. What was my intentions of sending things which I meant but how manipulative when I was running around and not sorry for how I treated her. Or even acknowledge what I had caused. It’s like I expected her to come back and be here to be sorry. It’s like I wanted her to listen to me and as of matter more. And I was always the most spoken, and was a very close person in general.. so how I can expect things from her. I didn’t know how she truly felt… she wasn’t very outspoken and maybe because she didn’t want to lose me and me be upset and leave her. But so many damn mistakes we made and I swear We met too EARLY. I hate that. I will always hate that. Because she is someone I would want to have the best relationship… be real. And feel good and deep and so personal… like literally the fuxking love of your life. And the love came TOO SOON. Not remember our many first times and moments as bad memories.. although I do not remember much literally….. or anything but the feeling of Something I had with her seem massive and unforgettable that I still every fucking morning and fucking night.. I think of fucking Vitoria…. And I HATE IT. So much. I want to think of her like the first time we called and how nervous she would get….. or how she would pretend to kiss me. Or just look at me…. And how she would cry because she really loved me.. which I still will never ever get how she felt that much for me. And I can’t get over her because I really fell in love with her when I for one was Never trying to… and second I was avoiding. The more I push away.. the more I just become confuse. I’m done.

#my thoughts #v

[suckmybigtoeoikawa]

Blackfem!reader playing UNO with inarizaki🧎🏾atsumu begging Aran and the reader to play while Aran is just like “👨🏿‍🦯”

Girl yess 💀💀 this should live in my head rent free (idk if your into kpop or stray kids but this reminds me of them for some reason Felix and Chan playing Uno 💀)

Playing Uno With Inarizaki Boys

(This song is bussin 😩)

*****

It was a random sleepover being held at the the twins house, they wanted their whole team to be there. And you being the manager had a free pass in too.

“We should play Truth or dare” Atsumu says out of boredom.

“Uhm sure I guess” Suna says, still looking at this phone

“Okay who’s going first?” Atsumu looks around the circle of boys and then his eyes land on you.

“Y/nnnnn~” he says dragging your name

“Yessss” you says copying him

“Truth or dare”

The whole team looks at you and leans in AYO BACK TF UP.

“Uh- dare?” You say it as a question and the whole team goes: “OUUUUUUUUUU”

The only calm ones there are probably Aran and Kita. You looked at Aran so quick- homeboy even felt bad for you 😤✋🏾

Atsumu adjusts him self but laying on his stomach and resting his head on both of his hands. “I dare you to suck my feet”

Atsumu had a crush on you, matter fo fact the whole team did, ig this was his dumbass way to show that he liked you without telling you.

“Atsumu... baby-” you start

He started blushing when you said ‘baby’

“-go sit in the corner”

You could see his face just getting redder and redder.

“I’m not playing this game no more” you say

“NOO NOOO IM SORRY, IT WAS A JOKE”

He had the audacity to hug you after 😐🔪

“We should play Uno” Hitoshi says, breaking the awkwardness.

“Okay where are the cards at?” Aran says

“Lemme get them” says Osamu making his way out the living room.

- 10 minutes later -

It was just a mix of weird and “sus” comments like:

“Your gonna get your cheeks clapped, Osamu”

“AYOO PAUSE”

Kita was ofc monitoring the game because he was afraid someone Atsumu was gonna cheat, he didn’t know this but he was literally the mom of the game.

“Ren it’s your turn” Kita says

Ren puts down a 4 and Kita is next

The game was running smooth and all until you guys reached the point in the game where people started have only 2-3 cards left. It started getting more aggressive 👀👀👀. You probably was thinking that they was playing spades or gambling with the way they was throwing them cards down on the table.

“PICK UP FOURRRR” Atsumu yells

“MAN FUCK YOUUUU!!” Suna yells back

Probably the most emotion you saw out of Suna in a long minute

The game was so intense you thought someone was gonna start fighting. And Ik your wondering what happened to Kita,,, well Kita had to sit out towards the end

He was so tired of all of them

And your probably still wondering what happened to Aran, well Aran was still playing too, just staying calm. At one point the game got so heated you had to put your hand on his hand to show that you were lowkey nervous.

“What these niggas doin-“ you whisper to Aran

“Chile” he says like a black mama

Now all in the end Osamu won and Atsumu wasn’t having it. He was ready to throw hands

“ATSUMU GET OFF”

“NO YOU CHEATING I HATE YOU”

“WHAT THE FUCK, JUST TAKE THE ASS WHOOPING AND SIT THE FUXK DOWNN”

Their mom came in and shut the whole thing down, they was being far to loud. The whole team was just watching like

🧍🏾‍♀️🧍🏻🧍🏻🧍🏻🧍🏻🧍🏾🧍🏻🧍🏻🧍🏻🧍🏻

Chile they wanted a rematch so you, Aran, Kita and Suna sat out, they really thought-

“Come on guys we won’t hurt each other anymore, please play 🥺” Atsumu says, while Osamu has the same desperate look in his face but with a big ass scar on it ✋🏾

If you wanna continue playing, you can but girl just know it’s crazy, pure chaos, that’s what it’s like playing with the Inarizaki boys

******

Just forget the fact that I literally went on Hiatus😃 I didn’t forget about writing I be on this app all the time but stuff just got really draining and it still is and I ah wont been feeling motivated to write yk, but I hope your enjoyed the story <3

Masterlist

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#headcannons #haikyuu headcanons #aran headcanons #atsumu headcanons #kita headcanons #osamu headers #suna headcanons #aran imagines #Atsumu imagines #kita imagines #Suna imagines #Osamu imagines #aran x black reader #atsumu x black reader #osamu x black reader #suna x black reader #kita x black reader #aran x reader #osamu x reader #atsumu x reader #Suna x reader #kita x reader #haikyuu x reader #haikyuu imagines #inarizaki #inarizaki headcanons #inarizaki imagines #SuckMyBigToeOikawa #haikyuu x black reader

[imagining-supernatural]

The First Date

Part 2 of Seventy Percent

Series Summary: When you left on your trip to Vegas, you’d planned on letting loose for one last weekend before heading back to reality and getting your affairs in order so your best friend wouldn’t be left cleaning up your mess when your cancer finally ended your life. What you hadn’t counted on was waking up married to a celebrity who has a knight-in-shining-armor complex, connections with an oncologist, and amazing insurance…

Chapter Summary: Your first date with Sebastian is breakfast, then off to the courthouse for an annulment!

Word Count: 1571

“So, uh, according to this website,” you started as soon as Sebastian walked out of the bathroom with a towel secured around his waist. And you definitely did not check him out. You had to stay focused on the annulment. “Um, we should be able to file what’s called a, uh, complaint for annulment at the courthouse if we’re actually married.”

“What’s this?” He sauntered over to the bed and picked up the marriage certificate you’d set on the corner of the bed. “Well, looks official.”

You nodded. “It could also just be a paper, you know? My best friend took a calligraphy class one summer because of that one Relient K song about college kids. She could write this. I figured I’d wait for your input before calling the courthouse to see if it’s legit. You know, didn’t want someone to see your name and get Twitter-excited.”

“Good call.” His voice was soft, as if surprised.

“If it is legit,” you continued with your findings as he searched around the room for his clothes. “Then I’m pretty sure we meet all of the requirements for annulment…” he bent over to pick up his pants and you trailed off at the muscles that flexed in his calves and the—Nope! Annulment. You turned your attention back to the website. “We got married in Nevada, which is one. And considering we don’t remember it, I’d say we were drunk enough that we meet the mentally incompetent or unable to understand what we were consenting to standard. It might be kind of hard to prove that, though,” you muttered.

He laughed. “I don’t know about that. I was looking through my phone and I’ve got some great drunk texts I sent and some pretty blurry pictures of us. One in front of Elvis.”

“Oh god. I got married by Elvis? Drunk? In Vegas? How much more fucking cliché can this get?”

He just shook his head and grinned. “Why don’t you take your turn in the bathroom. I’ll call my lawyer and see what he can do.”

With a nod, you stood up. “Feel free to use my laptop. I have everything secure I need. Oh, and I have a charge cord for Apple and Android over on the desk, so if your phone needs a charge, go for it.”

“You talk a lot, you know that?”

“Yeah. I’ve been told that. It gets worse when I’m nervous or stressed. I’d apologize for that, but it’s not really a character flaw. Just you know, what makes me me.” You made the conscious effort to keep your mouth shut for three seconds. “So, yeah. Feel free to the laptop and charge cords. I’m gonna put a door between us before I embarrass myself more.”

The door closed on his laughter and you took a deep breath. As you let out your breath, you whispered, “Shit.”

You tried to enjoy your shower. You really did. Usually you could shut your brain down and relax.

Not fucking today.

By the time you were done, you could have sworn you were even more stressed out than before.

In an attempt to calm your nerves, you sat down on the toilet seat and unlocked your phone. Sebastian mentioned pictures from the previous night. Maybe you had a few. But, your first order of business was making sure you didn’t drunk text anyone something that you would regret. You weren’t much of a drunk texter, but last night was anything but normal.

Luckily, you’d only texted your friend, Jasmine, a few times.

*Girl these mojitos are fuxking expensive

*hella good tho

*so mdndu hit ppl here

*gon get some f real

She’d texted back that she was glad you were having a good time and reminded you to drink water and be safe, and that was the end of your conversation. Nothing out of the ordinary.

Next up: pictures.

And, boy, did you take pictures. The first few were of you and random people in a club. You had vague memories of those people. You had bonded over… something? Something told you it was mojitos, since all of you had a glass of mint and lime in your hands.

Then you got to the ones with Sebastian. Horribly taken selfies mixed in with blurry photos of whoever was performing on the stage. The background in your selfies changed from the club to a restaurant to some sort of brightly lit up sculpture. Finally you got to your own Elvis pictures.

It wasn’t the wedding you’d ever pictured for yourself, but it was the only one you would get. Even though it would last for less than a day, ideally, you were strangely glad that it had happened. Once you found out about the tumor, you put your love life on the back burner. Not that you ever really put much focus on your love life to begin with. You had plenty of other shit to sort through before you pulled anyone else into your toxic mess of a life. And then, once the chemo didn’t work and reality set in, you made peace with the fact that you would never get married.

If you had a bucket list, one more item would have just gotten crossed off.

Your eyes drifted over to the ring you’d set on the counter while you were in the shower and reached over. It was so much bigger than any ring you’d seen in real life. A huge diamond was nestled in diamond encrusted halo knots, set atop a braided band of yet more diamonds.

It was beautiful.

With a hard swallow, you slipped the ring back onto your finger, admiring it. There were only a few minutes left that you would have it. Only a few minutes to soak this in. This ring was far too expensive to keep.

You took a breath before standing and opening the door to rejoin your temporary husband.

“Hey.”

Sebastian looked up from where he was seated on the bed with your laptop in front of him. “Hey. So I called my lawyer and he called a colleague who found out that we are legally married.”

“Awesome. He give you tips on annulment, then?”

While Sebastian filled you in on what he’d learned, you started picking through the mess of your hotel room to fill your purse with the necessities. His voice was soothing, helping to calm your nerves.

“Alright,” you said, once he was finished. “So we just need to head over to the courthouse?”

He nodded shallowly. “Let’s grab something to eat first. What kind of a husband would I be to not take my wife out the morning after we got married?”

“Breakfast then annulment.” You nodded thoughtfully. “Have to give you props, Seb. This has got to be the most creative first date I’ve ever gone on.”

You fiddled with the ring in your pocket while you waited for Sebastian to show up outside of the hotel. Leaving the room ten minutes apart just added to the strange feeling of this whole thing, but it was necessary to try and keep everything out of the press. The two of you walked down the street once he joined you.

Mundane chat of everything you saw filled the space between you until you arrived at the restaurant where you were quickly led to a private table.

Then came the awkward small talk. You found it easier to hold a conversation when you were walking. Something about the motion was calming. Once you stopped moving, you had two switches. One was talk until the other person put duct tape over your mouth and the other was to not say a single word. After your babbles this morning, it seemed you were all talked out, so you looked over the menu in near silence. You two would throw out a comment here or there about a certain dish, but that was it.

Then the waiter came with water and coffee, then left with your orders and menus.

“Coffee,” you breathed, adding your cream and sugar as quickly as you could so you could burn your tongue by drinking it too soon. After the first sip, you nearly moaned at the feeling of caffeine waking up your every atom. “Fuck, I love caffeine.”

After a moment more of awkward silence, Sebastian broke it. “I don’t think I ever asked what you do. Where you work.”

“I work at data security firm.”

“That’s why you let me at your computer. You had all your private stuff hidden away.”

Your coffee cup was lingering at your lips when you smirked. “I think you saw enough of my private stuff last night, don’t you?”

The blush and sputtering that resulted from your risky joke was well worth it. But he recovered quickly and a spark flickered in his eye. “Does it really count if I don’t remember? It’s too bad that the only thing we’ll remember from our marriage is trying to end it.”

“That’s what makes us special.”

Now that the ice was broken, conversation flowed easier. The topic of your cancer didn’t come up again, and you got away from talk of your upcoming annulment. By the time you were finished eating, you felt more like you were talking to a friend. Not a celebrity. Not a one night stand. Not your soon to be ex-husband.

A friend.

Time for them to head to the courthouse and end their marriage...

Part 3: The Burning Question

#sebastianxreader #sebastian stan x reader #bucky barnes x reader #bucky x reader #buckyxreader #sebastian x reader #marvel fanfiction #mcu fanfiction

[hinaegifestival]

Author/Artist/Editor: @undertheseadrawings

For: @asteroidtaker

Ship: Hinaegi

Prompt: First meeting/I saw you crying

Notes: I kind of went a little overboard and used two of the three fanfic requests in one pfft. I hope you enjoy it, I sure enjoyed writing it!!

Naegi sighs gently. He was wandering around the school during lunch time. And unfortunately for him, he had forgotten his lunch. He knew if he went and sat with his usual friends they would give him we of their lunch. But he didn't want to bother them. He wasn't hungry anyway. 

Not much had happened on his walk, a few people came up and talked to him. But not many. Nargi was walking near the fountain when he could have sworn he heard small whimpers. 

Was there a kitten or a puppy? There seemed to be a lot of them nearby these days. He looked around his area. None that he could see. He began walking around the fountain. The whimpering and sniffling got louder and louder as Naegi got closer. Soon enough he found someone sitting on the ground, head in their arms. They must have heard Naegi's footsteps because they looked up at the boy. His eyes were big and full of tears.

"H-hey, I heard you crying… are you okay..?" Naegi was unsure of what to say. He wanted to help this boy, but didn't know how.

The boy looked away as he quickly wiped his years away.

"I-I'm just f-fine…" His voice was shakey. He was clearly not okay. Naegi crouched down next to him, getting a closer look at him. The boy had dark brown hair and was wearing a black suit, seeming to be some sort of uniform. The other boy took slight notice of Naegi now crouched next to him. He turned his head back to the younger male.

"I don't know you, and you don't know me. But maybe if you talk about it, it'll help?" Naegi tilted his head in a questioning manner. The older boy didn't seem convinced in the slightest. But he sighed, and said

"Well it couldn't hurt…" Naegi smiled softly at his reply. The other took no mind to it as he stared of into the distance. "Well… I'm a reserve course student.. I'm not- hic -talented like all the others.. like Nanami-san… sniffle sniff I don't deserve her kindness. I just wish I had a talent… I'd do anything for one.. I'm just poor talentless Hinata Hajime..." He sighed as he finished, making it even more clear he wasn't happy with his current situation.

Naegi took it all in, he himself had felt inadequate next to everyone else. He got in out of pure luck and everyone else was here because they deserved it. He placed a hand on the other's shoulder.

"You don't need a talent, Hinata-kun. I don't have a talent either. I got in out of pure luck. You deserve to be happy just like all the others. You have great characteristics to be proud of, I'm sure of it!" Naegi beamed at Hinata, who stared at him like he was insane. Naegi removed his hand and balled them up excitedly.

"You are worthy of love. Just because you don't have a talent, that doesn't mean you can't be loved or even liked. You have to have hope, Hinata-kun!!" He stood up, towering above the other ahoge-bearing teen. He held out his hand for him to grab. Hinata hesitantly grabbed it, bringing himself up to his feet. It turned out that Hinata was much taller than Naegi.

Naegi held out his arms, not wanting to make the other uncomfortable by hugging him. But also seeing if he did want the comfort from a hug. Hinata inches himself closer, wrapping his long arms around Naegi, and Naegi doing the same.

They stood there for awhile. 

And Hinata cried for longer on the shorter boy's shoulder, after Naegi convinced him that it was okay for him to cry. Soon enough Hinata pulled away.

"I'm sorry to have caused you so much trouble…"

Naegi shook his head furiously.

"No, no!!! It's alright!! I'm always happy to help people!"

Hinata looked awkward. He rubbed his right thumb over his left hand, trying to ease his nerves.

"Well uhmm… can I know your name to thank you..?"

Naegi takes a second to process what he said. 

"Ah!! Yeah sorry! I'm Naegi Makoto! Nice to properly meet you!" He grinned happily. Hinata have a small smile back.

"Yeah," he began. "Nice to meet you too, Naegi-kun. Thanks."

Naegi nodded.

"It's really nothing, but I think we'll become great friends!!" Hinata only chuckled and nodded in response.

Naegi waves goodbye as he leaves once lunch is over, he had stayed with him the rest of lunch. They had grew closer to each other. They even exchanged numbers to call and text on the phone.

A few hours after Naegi got home he sent Hinata a message.

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7:43

Naegi Makoto : Hello, Hinata! This is Naegi! I hope you're doing better than from lunch!

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On Hinata's side of things, he felt his phone buzz. He pulled it out of his pocket. He smiled gently and shook his head at the message he found.

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7:44

Hinata Hajime : Thanks, Naegi. I'm doing much better now. Not perfect. But better.

Naegi Makoto : That's great!! We should hang out sometime, hanging out with people you like helps mental health!

Hinata Hajime : That'd be nice.

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A few months went by, and they started hanging out lots. They even met each other's friends. Nanami was very nice and caring and Souda was… interesting. Naegi got closer to Nanami as well, she was good to talk to. Anyway, Hints and Naegi hung out quite a lot after school, they (tried) to help each other with homework, went out and got coffee some mornings during the weekend, etc. 

Just normal friend things.

…

...But then why did Naegi's heart always race around him..?

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"Naegi-kun?"

Naegi basically screamed at the call of his name. He had been so lost I'm his thoughts and fantasies that he had forgotten he was sitting at lunch with Fujisaki, Owada, and Ishimaru.

The trio gave him a look of worry. Well. More so Fujisaki and Ishimaru.

"Naegi-kun! Are you okay? Your eyes look distant!!!" Ishimaru, loud as always. But considerate.

Naegi took a second to process what had happened.

"...Ah! Yeah, I'm fine. Just thinking about something."

"W-what is it that you're thinking about to be so lost in thought?" Fujisaki asked timidly.

Naegi paused, he felt his heart begin to race and his cheeks warm up. Why were they doing that?

"My friend… uhm- Hinata Hajime."

Fujisaki looked like he was going to say something, but closed his mouth and shook his head, choosing not to say anything.

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5:19

Naegi Makoto : Hey, can I talk to you about something? It's about Hinata

Nanami Chiaki : sure. what is it?

Naegi Makoto : So. Have you ever noticed how whenever Hinata smiles his eyes sparkle?

Naegi Makoto : Or how when he laughs he looks away and then back at you?

Naegi Makoto : And when he moves his hair out of his face he can never get the few strands out of his eyes.

Naegi Makoto : Or how he repositions his tie when he's nervous?

Nanami Chiaki : …

Nanami Chiaki : naegi…

Naegi Makoto : Yeah?

Nanami Chiaki : i think

Nanami Chiaki : you have a crush on hinata.

Naegi Makoto : Oh.

Naegi Makoto : Oh no.

Naegi Makoto : Oh fuxk.

Nanami Chiaki : don't curse

Naegi Makoto : Sorry, Nanami.

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Naegi took a deep breath. It had been over a month since he figured out he liked Hinata, thanks to Nanami. She had somehow convinced him to tell Hinata. She even canceled her and Hinata's lunch gaming thing that day so he could confess.

"Do you really think this is a good idea, Nanami-san? What if I mess up, or if I-"

She put her hand on Naegi's shoulder, and gave a small smile.

"...You're going to do fine. Just go and do it. It'd be rude to go back now."

Naegi supposed it would be rude if he candles now… he nodded, Nanami letting go of his shoulder as he walked over to Hinata.

Hinata soon realized he was nearby and called out to him.

"Hey! Naegi-kun!"

Naegi could have sworn his cheeks were literally on fire by how hot they were.

"A-ah! Hey Hinata-kun, how-how are you?" Naegi smiled sheepishly up at Hinata, who was met with a smile of his own.

"I'm fine, thanks. Nanami-chan said you wanted to talk about something?"

Oh no. His heart was beating so fast he could hear it pounding in his ears. Maybe this wasn't such a good idea? His mind was racing. Words flooded out of his mouth before his mind even had a say in the matter.

"I-I really reall-really, really like you, Hinata-kun.. and-"

"I like you too, Naegi-kun! Was that all?"

Naegi shook his head. Hinata was really dense at times. He placed one of his hands hesitantly on Hinata's shoulder

"No, Hinata-kun. I mean I have a.. c-crush on you..."

Hinata took a few seconds to process what had just happened. Taking in the real reason why Nanami had canceled the gaming during lunch that day and why Naegi's face was so red and why Naegi kept stuttering so much.

"I..."

"I-I'm sorry- this was a bad idea, I think I should ta-take my leave now-"

Naegi turned to leave but Hinata grabbed his wrist before he could take three steps.

"N-no it's fine. I like you too."

Naegi smiled as tears began welling up in his eyes. He wrapped his arms around the taller male.

"H-hey!" Hinata basically squeaked. But Naegi didn't care. Hinata sighed and wrapped his own arms around him hesitantly.

Nanami nodded and pulled out her phone.

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1:21

Nanami Chiaki : mission hinaegi has been completed

Kirigiri Kyouko : Thank god. I don't think I could have handled one more rant about how Naegi wouldn't be able to confess his feelings.

Nanami Chiaki : i dont think i could either lol

Kirigiri Kyouko : Lol

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#hinaegi #Hajime Hinata #Makoto Naegi #hinaegi holidays 2019 #very cute!!! Love the wingwomen XD

[figgyblossom]

im SO fuxking excited y’all

after a decade+ of moving place to place with two dead pcs, tomorrow i will have the means to access and transfer the hard drives of said-pcs!!!!

both laptops died at different points of my (first & 2nd attempts at a) college career, and I’ve just been lugging them around hoping to find a way  to get inside

and now I have it!!! or will!!! in less than 24 hours!!!

I’m trying not to get my hopes up TOO high, like what if they’re completely blank or the files have been damaged or.. idk!

BUt also if that isn’t the case, there’s going to be so many papers, stories, tv and movie downloads.... MUSIC!!! ohmygod

also now I’m just having emotions and thoughts about how much and how fast technology changes and the kinds of tools people have (fairly) cheap nd easy access to..

idk

I’m just really nervous excited abt what I’m going to find

Maybe it will be in he middle of the two and mostly underwhelming, but I’m just excited to *know*

#cest moi

[proveraaaa]

21st January 2022

>>00:51 pm<<

I’m so fucking nervous for next week. It’s the only thing I think about and I cannot stop being able to think about it. There’s only two kinds of outcomes from that test date and if I get the one I least hope to get then I will ultimately being fucking pissed out of my mind. It’s taken me 4 years to do. Four fucking years. I hate it. Why the fuck is it obligatory.

But I need to think positive. I mess up here and there but I can do it. I believe I can do it. If no one can then who will right?

My anxiety has been over the fucking roof with this shit and my mind and heart doesn’t let me sleep. I’m trying to atleast cry it out but I cannot cry. Is this normal? Trying to cry stuff out but something holds you to stop crying but you pain instead? I’m trying not to go on my phone otherwise I would go on social media platforms to take my mind off stuff but my eyes hurt too much to do that.

I think it’s time to stop being fuxking lazy and commit to my religion. I think it’s why I’m in this kind of pain honestly. I hate my fuxking lazy distraught self. I’m just good for nothing. Why do I even fucking exist in this piece of shitty world? But then I look back at my family. Hopeless and young. And they depend on me. The fucking fat lazy bitch who doesn’t get shit done. I’m so fuxking stupid.

[liv324]

Waking up in my Dream Life

I woke up with a dreadful calling of mom saying “GIRLSS TIME TO WAKE UP ITS 9″ Oh how i hated those words, i was so tired. All I wanted to do is go back to my amazing dream! My dream life to be exact ! So I fell right back to sleep not caring about my "real life"... next you know I'm woken up again but with a satisfying smell.. it smelt like pancakes and bacon !! I wondered to myself did my mom make some good breakfast for once or is it all in my head.. suddenly I hear my annoying alarm go off , I snoozed it. I noticed i had a different phone. I was confused because the rest of my room was the same. I had my cheer accomplishments on one wall and my collection of my ceramics crafts on my dresser. So when I got up I put on my pink Nike slides and headed toward my door cuz boy was I hungry! Tht smell really got me up. When I opened the door I gasped! "Wtf where am I?" I questioned to myself. I looked around the hallway which was sooo different like I mean DIFFERENT. The mirror on the wall was gone. Lulus crate was not existent. And The bathroom was 2 doors down from my room instead of across my room. I lowkey got scared so I quickly went back to room with my eyes closed to hopefully go back to where I from. But when I opened my eyes my room was totally different! It was my dream room ! It was beautiful!

I spinned around my room so happily and on my door there was a mirror it showed me and screamed in happiness when I looked at myself.. I was beautiful and perfect in my eyes. I was still wearing the same thing from when I got up but my body was totally different.. I was literally slim thick my stomach was flat my boobs were perky and my ass was toned. My hair was straight and a nice brown color instead of streaky blonde highlights. I was so happy. I opened my closet to see what I had and I hate such cute clothes! I grabbed a cute floral dress and some cute sandals and went out the door to find a bathroom. When I saw an opened door I looked in and it was a bathroom so I stepped in then I got pushed out from some boy. "To slow hun" said the Mike and he slammed the door in your face. You were shocked on who you saw but lowkey mad at what he did. Aria came behind you and said "Why aren't you using your own bathroom Eve?" You turned around and looked at her happily "Oh I umm I don't know actually I'll be right back" you said while you go back to your room and try to find the door to your bathroom which was in the corner of your room. When you went inside the bathroom you took off what you had on and examined your new improved body . Your skin was flawless and tan no dark areas just one color. You took a quick rinse off and you didn't have to shave anything was already shaved for you from a previous time. So once you got out of the shower you fixed yourself up and put some light makeup and brushed out your hair and put on your cute outfit . You noticed your stomach was growling so you grabbed your phone and headed downstairs for breakfast. When you checked your phone it's said you had 2 missed calls and 15 missed messages. I didn't know who they were from but shortly I found who the 2 missed calls were from. So I headed downstairs to be greeted with a great smell of food and my parents and my siblings and ZACH DEMPSEY!! I didn't know why he was there but hopefully it's what I think it is.

When you looked into Demseys eyes you couldn't help but smile. You loved the kid from his daring eyes to his toned ass. "Hey babe I called you a couple of times to let you know that ur mom invited me for breakfast I hope Thts fine" said MY MF BABE!! "Of course honey it's fine" said my mom.. "yah of course Zach" I said smiling. I sat right next to Zach and grabbed some pancakes and a sausage. We ate all together which was super nice. We all talked and laughed. Zach grabbed my inner thigh which caught me off guard. He was watching me suck on my sausage before biting into it and zach whispered in my ear saying " you know what else you can suck if we leave rn?" He looked at me seductively and I looked at him smiling and I nodded my head and told my parents "we have to go because we are gonna be late for school". I stood up and grabbed my babes hand and he dragged him off his chair and we headed to the door. "Okay be careful now" my dad said and then mike stopped us at the door to give my backpack. "Hey where are you going so speedy fast" he asked all nosy and shi .. " to school now beat it mike" I clapped back. When we headed out I saw Zach's BMW waiting for us.. he opened the door for me like a gentleman.. I was soo excited for what was gonna happen next.. Dempsey speeded away and I was holding his hand on the way to school. I was lowkey getting impatient because cmon it's zach and all I could think about was pulling his damn pants down and sucking the life out of him. Zach saw how impatient I grew and he grabbed my thigh and kissed my cheek and whispered in my ear "we are almost at our spot" those words killed me. "OUR SPOT!" We had a spot!! I was so excited! When I looked out the window I noticed a lot of trees and a nice big lake. This must be our spot I thought to myself. He stopped the car in front of the lake. I was getting nervous cuz this would be my first time giving head tht Ik and I didn't know what he was gonna do to me.

Zach grabbed my neck and pulled me into a deep kiss and then I got up and straddled him on the car seat.. he kissed down my neck and took off my dress revealing my bralete he removed tht too and started sucking on my nipples the sensation was amazing i literally rolled my head back.. it feels like iv done this before but in this life. It was great. He gave me a hickey on my neck and whispered in my ear saying " You are so hot babe.. please suck my dick" you giggled at tht and you pulled the seat further so you had room to go down on him. You accidentally put ur hand on the wheel to get steady and a loud honk came on. We both got scared and jumped he grabbed me and I looked out the window and I was pretty sure i saw someone out there I saw a blue jacket in the distance but zach started laughing and i looked back at zach and started to laught still curious who tht was out there . He kissed me again and then I got back into the mood. I went down on the car floor and pulled down is pants and his huge cock flew out and my eyes grew wide I was surprised how big he was I was lowkey scared I couldn't handle it but idk how but myself just started going at it and I  did it really good cuz zach was definitely pleased and I heard his cute ass moans. And it made me smile but I was shocked on how good I was doing .. he busted in my mouth but I didn't mind cuz he tasted so good. After tht session was over I put back my clothes on. And I  kissed zach and left a little mark on him as well. After We headed to school.

When we got out of the car he held my hand. I felt secure and happy with him. And everyone was looking at us. When zach opened the doors to liberty hs he yelled " what's up my boys !!!" Looking over to Justin,Bryce,Jeff,Monty,and Steve mf Harrington! I couldn't believe he was friends with them but I mean look at Steve he is so hot with his hair and tht blue liberty high varsity jacket on.. I would fall for him in a heart beat but I snapped out of it and remembered I had a great boyfriend. And then I looked back at Steve and he gave me a wink. I was surprised he would do tht especially in front of ppl. And I heard a few familiar voices from a far calling my name. I turned to see who it was and it was my best friends. Spencer,Emily,Hannah,Aria,and Ali... I walked to them and they grabbed me in a huddle "hey eve are you okay ?!" "Is everything okay?" They asked.. I was super confused on why they were saying tht .. "yah ofc why ?!" I asked super curious but nervous as heck. "Oh no she doesn't know yet" said aria .. "wtf is going on!" I asked "ummm so there is pictures going around with you and Steve at a party hooking up" said Emily "I don't think zach saw yet cuz someone just uploaded them like 20 mins ago" said spencer.. I was so scared at what zach would think cuz I honestly don't remember anything tht happened tht night.. they showed me the photos and they were crazy bad.. I looked over and saw Bryce showing zach the photos.. zach looked at me disgusted.. I tried to go to him but he walked Away. I was no confused and hurt.. I went to class and he was in the same class. I saw him and he looked down mad and hurt. Ppl were looking at me disgusted and some jealous looks tht I got both super hot guys. I sat down and I kept looking at zach to think of what I should say after class.

When the first period bell rang I watched him pack his stuff up and I quickly got up and grabbed his arm letting him tht I had to talk to him. "Zach please listen.. let me talk" I said . "Evelyn you fuxking lied and cheated on me there isn't much you can say" he said. "No the thing is i don't even remember doing those things with Steve like at all.. i would never want to hurt you Zach" I told him. "The thing is you still hurt me and Idk if I can forgive you for this" he said. " No babe please ! I honestly don't even like him and I don't remember a damn thing!" I explained. "Well it doesn't look like tht on those photos" he said walking away. I tried to hold back my tears but I couldn't and I ran to the bathrooms and went into a stall and wiped my tears away. When i was doing so I heard girls giggling and talking. I ended up listening to what they were saying. "I can't believe that Evelyn girl got caught cheating on her hot ass boyfriend" said one girl. "She is so dumb to think that she wouldn't get caught!" Said another girl. "Well let's hope Steve Harrington knows what he's doing to stay out of this drama.. he is so hot and shouldn't be with a girl like Evelyn.. it's literally not fair I mean like almost all the guys at liberty try to freaking hook up with her.. I guess she made that mistake with Harrington" both girls giggled and walked away. You heard everything and that made u cry even more but then you realized tht your the hot shot at the school and shouldn't care what ppl think. All I cared about was getting zach back !

After school I tried to find Steve cuz I had to talk to him and get some answers .. I figured he would be up at the field practicing so I went up and there and I saw him along with many other guys I even saw zach and his face said it all .. he look bummed as ever and it hurt me to see him like .. so as I waited for the practice to be over I grabbed steves attention and I called him over. He saw me and got super happy to see me and ran to me.

"Hey beautiful wanna finish where we left off last Friday ?" Steve said

"Steve what are u talking about and why is all this happening?!" I told him

"Wdym I thought this is what you wanted..clearly you wanted me tht night. And I honestly don't know who took those pics and posted it. But all Ik is tht I want you with me" Steve said as he got super close to my face and tried to kiss me. I pushed him off

"Steve I'm sorry but we can't do this, I can't do this! I love zach and I don't want to hurt him anymore" I said to Steve

"Fine whatever do what you want be with him but Ik deep down you want me." Steve said and running back to the locker rooms. I stood there thinking to myself. After I gathered my thoughts and my belongings I headed to Zach's car to wait for him.

When I saw zach heading to the car my stomach started to hurt cuz i was soo nervous on what was gonna go down .

"You ready to go" he said bluntly and got in the car

"Uh yeah but zach can I please talk to you" I said

"What about ? I told you there isn't much to say" zach said

"ZACH I LOVE YOU AND I DONT WANT TO EVER HURT YOU AGAIN!" I yelled to get in his head.

"Eve Ik you do. And Ik you were beyond drunk and I forgive you.. just make sure it doesn't happen EVER again !" He said . I was so happy he said tht .. I gave him a kiss and closed my eyes to rest.

When we got to my house he asked me if I wanted to go to a party.

"Hey babe before you go there's this party tonight at Bryces. Do you wanna go ?" He asked

"No thanks babe I rather spend it with you. If your down. I checked the movies that are playing at the crestmount and there's a good one i think you'll like" I told him

"That sounds way better babe! I'll pick u up 7" he said . I agreed and kissed him goodbye.

[kazzeyy]

I was talking to my mom about bts lol as ususal. and I was trying to explain tae like...yeah nams is the most bookish and super intelligent and tae has trouble sometimes putting his thoughts into words and stumbles through sentences and isn't the best writer (I don't mean for songs, I mean when they do those little prompts for each other or something he'll usually only write like 2 generally uninspired sentences) but he's super passionate about intellectual topics!! Like art and learning English and I'm sure there are other things too. And his letter to jimin for bv2 was actually really emotionally resonant and you can tell it meant a lot to him to write and give to jimin bc he was so nervous about it and honestly it's the most I think he's written at once that I've seen? Anyway tae isn't obviously an 'intellectual' and he plays too many fuxking video games (read a book, boy!!!), but he's really developed emotionally and his mind is really open to new ideas and appreciative toward the arts and learning!!!! And he's smart just not in the way nams is. And I think the fact him and nams are so close and relate to each other shows that they are not wholly on a different intellectual level.

#anyway I love him and will defend him with my life!!!! #bts #tae #rapmon #kim taehyung

[jaggvrarchive]

☀ ❤ ✔ ❝❞ ♋ ☢

send ☀ for a good morning text

jagger → indigo: i know it’s 6 am and i shouldn’t expect you up for a while but good morning!!!! jagger → indigo: i’m going for a run but i’ll probably show up later with bagels jagger → indigo: nvm i’m definitely bringing bagels 

send ❤ for an i love you text

jagger → indigo: despite all this bullshit i’m not going anywhere, okay? jagger → indigo: i love you, indigo savas, as fucking crazy as you make me i do, and i always will 

send ✔ for yes of course you can text

jagger → indigo: this is literally the worst time to send me nudesjagger → indigo: but please do 

send ❝❞ for a long winded text

jagger → indigo: you know those days, like weeks sometimes where shit just sucks?? nothing goes right and you kinda feel like dying because that’s the week i’m having lmao. there’s just stress coming from literally every direction in my life whether it be from my parents, my coach, stupid fucking bowie, school it’s just getting to be too much jagger → indigo: that being said, can i come see you before i have a nervous breakdown 

send ♋ for a fucking sext

jagger → indigo: remember when we were talking about the thrill of having sex with the possibility of getting caught? there’s this new display of boards at tidal jagger → indigo: in case you wanna get over here and test it out

send ☢ for a fucking drunken text

jagger → indigo:  i’m sosoosossooooo fuxking sick and tired of beign at a party wiwht you but not actucklly being WIth you jagger → indigo:  i jstu want to kis su in public and shit i hateeeeee this so much indi fUck

#savasge

[ja3minz]

That Mark somno fic makes me weak in the knees it’s so fuxking hot being dommed by Mark omg pls write more Mark I’m literally wet thinking about it 😰😰😰😰

dom mark rise up because as much as i love clumsy, soft nervous mark who’s too scared to pull your hair too hard and whines when you grind on him .....

dom mark who knows your body so well, who has no problem grabbing you by your thighs and yanking your body towards him so he can bury his face between your legs? holding your hips down and swatting at your clit when you’re squirming too much? 🥴

#.asks #dont be afraid put some more! #should i tag this with everything #its kind of a headcanon so like #mark lee smut #mark lee headcanons #nct dream smut #nct dream headcanons #nct 127 smut #nct 127 headcanons

[survivorinternational]

Episode 2 - "I couldn't believe I heard God wrong the third time" - Sluggy

Jacob: I have no idea for the video Me: I have an idea Jacob: its shit oh okay... give us a better idea before you shut mine down would you? 

So for the past 2 days ever since we won the reward challenge and got the chance to get a clue to the hidden immunity idol, the info had been passed around among everyone in the tribe that it was on the beach. I was waiting for the next opportunity to search for the idol because I know everyone's gonna go for it, and today I was busy beforehand and couldn't search for it until 4 hours after the challenge. But the first day I came here God told me specifically it was at the beach and in the headlands, it just wasn't on the cliff. So i go there and search and search and i cant find it, and im about to give up... 

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...and something falls on my lap, I open it up and here it is. The hidden immunity idol. I couldn't believe I heard God wrong the third time. HAHA! I'm so grateful for this. After all the Asians having idols in the psst seasons of survivor man. 

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So this sucks but I have to keep this idol as hidden as possible even from my closest allies. It's gonna be a big target on my back and if its possible i dont want to use it all the way until the final time I can use it. So even though Michael and Jacob asked about it, I couldn't tell him and err I don't want to lie anymore so it's definitely tough :( Whatever it is I have to keep humble and continue to stay under the radar. 

This challenge will take a lot of confidence which I completely lack but I will do my best and everything what I am asked to. I am kinda pressuring Vilma into being the director/editor of this since I know she is into stuff like this but I might have put too much pressure. Will try to work something out better in that regard. 

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Ginger's constant bullying of the ghost of Emils will get him into deep shit.

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This challenge has been a real coller coaster for me. I hate filming myself in videos but seeing the confidence Vilma (and others) have is really inspiring. We are doing "Toy" by Netta which is a pretty fun song to lipsync to. I am not the best but I am having fun with it and getting some exercise in the meanwhile. I will still undoubtebly hate any of my bits but at least I have the courage to participate and do my best. 

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About hour of recording myself. I shall not edit it from a cringy mess into a slightly less cringy mess. Wish me luck.

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I do not know if it is because I am slightly slick but I am editing my clips into a more coherent structure and my stomach genuinely hurts from cringe

A week in and I received my 1st message from Dean/Dylan :D how lucky. I also have slightly more newfound time coming up in the next few days so I can spend more time building trust with Tyler, Stephen and Dean/Dylan

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I just saw Tyler's part in the music video. How can 1 man be that hot. Like wtf did he do to get those kinds of genetics. I'm so fucking jealous rn. This confessional will contain no actual substance, just me shit posting about how fuxking AWESTRUCK I am at this man. Go to 2:15 of our music video to see... Damn! 

Right so this day was um interesting. I highly doubt i'll cover all the boring ass t but watevs. Ok SO, we had our first cheeky little game talk with Michael who much to my recent surprise is like 33 years old. pop off grandpa. Love him tho. So we had a fun little chat about who we liked, highkey like Stephan the most but didnt want to say that cause he had already said Stephan seems distant, so i pretended i was chill with other people just to be fun :). ANYWAY, he wants to create a majority with Jacob and Dean but honestly like no, those kids r the REAL crackheads. I want to work with Sluggy and Stephan so it was a tee bit awkie for me. But i smiled and waved anyway cause thats ALL im good at. If Michael was to try and create a majority with those 4 i'd highkey flip 🤭. Dean was just... how to put this... slop, and im not having slop in my house MY APOLOGIES. While planning for the challenge he was annoying and then throughout the challenge he was annoying. OK SO i am NOT mean and this challenge is clearly AWKWARD for everyone and everyone is being out there BUT deans video... like i used two seconds of it. Im sorry my love i dont know how to introduce that pillow possession story line into the video... . I think half way through he needed a nap? and started having night terrors, geez i hope he's ok. RIGHT anyway. I finished the video, i hope my editing and also telling everyone that they're part was really helpful and easily the best will grant me safety regardless! O also Jacob told me the idol clue BUT i dont know whether to believe it or not   :((( so he says its at the beach, im like well what was the actual clue? was it cryptic? then he said 'you inhaled smoke and it was hidden there' wtf u mean THAT was the clue. Absolutely not, get that SLOP out of MY face. RIGHT but i looked at the beach anyway to NO PREVAIL. Michael and Jacob both told me where they looked tho ;) Throwback to last confessional where i didnt think i was making an in roads with people, well i THINK i could be much better off now! Jacob says he only really talks to Stephan which is GOOD because i want Dean out and i thought he was close to dean. Also Jacob starting having game talk to me which was a HOOT because i thought he DIDNT like me. obviously my piercing eyes got the better of him. Im close with Stephan, Jacob, Michael and the singaporian one. OOPS thats all of the tribe but Dean. I've been whip whop wheaving my way through these relationships as best i can and forcing myself onto people without them realising. All i need is 1 or 2 STRONG connections and ill smile :) O also Jacob said i was hot and asked if i was single! LOVELY, amazing LOVE compliments, will use this child if need be but if he's trying to use me, sucks for him because im self conscious and DONT believe his compliments anyway. I THINK im setting myself up in a mildly good position, just gonna be more pal'y. I hope people LIKE me. 

We gave our best but our Basic White Boy music video is totally gonna lose, and I’m taking some responsibility for that too. I knew we should’ve chosen something gayer.

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1KBaGOCmiwLknXyQoaaeyqZ0isdVOFUV2/view here are my clips :eyes:

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I am not saying I am aiming for it, but I am totally aiming for most confessionals. So fun story here. Whole summer not a single time I was bitten by a mosquito. Then this survivor starts. What is survivor known for? Tropical islands with mosquitos and such. So I was riding my bicycle yesterday and sat on a bench for a bit to rest up. 5 minutes. I sat for 5 minutes on this damn bench. 7 mosquito bites all on my legs, 3-4 split. I was fuming. Apparently that opened the pandora's box of mosquitos because I have been bitten 4 more times since them. I am full of hate. In other news: http://prntscr.com/od5qry This is really nice to see. Vilma's the best <3

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I CAN'T STOP TYPING IN ALL CAPS OUR VIDEO IS SO GOOD HOLY SHIT

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my life is now a meme 

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oh wait it already was

CURRENTLY FREAKING OUT BECAUSE!!!!!!!!! IM EDITING THE MUSIC VIDEO BUT LIKE I HAVE SUCH LIMITED TIME!!!!! I ALSO HAVE TO BE FORTY FIVE MINUTES AWAY FROM MY CURRENT LOCATION IN AN HOUR AND THAT MAKES I ONLY HAVE FIFTEEN MINUTES TO EDIT WHICH I DEFINITELY CANNOT FINISH IN TIME. ALSO HAVING HUGE FUCKING PROBLEMS BECAUSE MY OLD METHOD OF DOWNLOADING VIDEOS IS NOT WORKING!!!!!!!!!!! AND IM REALLY FREAKING OUT ABOUT IT LOL SO IM SCREEN RECORDING OUR VIDEOS BUT I ALSO DON'T HAVE THE ACTUAL AUDIO FOR AMERICAN BOY AND IM STRUGGLING TO DOWNLOAD IT I MIGHT NEED TO BUY IT ON MY PHONE LIKE FUCK FJLKDJASLKFAJDSKL THIS IS SO DIFFICULT AND IM TRYING TO KEEP IT TO MYSELF INSTEAD OF WORRYING MY TRIBE MATES BUT OMG WHY I HATE MY LIFE 

I feel so guilty that I didn’t help my tribe with this challenge, I really hope we win! If we don’t win honestly I will probably just tell them all they can vote me off- I hate to go without a fight but they all participated in the video and I feel like it would be the fair thing to do. Hopefully we don’t have to worry about that and my tribe wins!

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Me putting my life on the line for my TRIBE? Must be the drugs this is not really in my character but I feel really bad and want them all to thrive

I spent my entire day doing that music video and I'm gonna cry if we lose and go to tribal again ughhhhhhhhhh. I really tried my best and am super proud of my tribe mates too they did a great job. I really like the video.

Yes! Another win for Ala Mai! I'm loving this tribe and loving this game! I want to get to the merge with as many of my tribe mates as possible because we all have very similar timezones so I need that in my game. 

I am so happy we won the challenge ! I offered the Toy idea but then couldn't participate myself because of real life reasons ugh. My tribe tho did an AMAZING JOB and Im glad we chose Netta 

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Ok so just now I have realized these are not the during-game published confessionals. So I'm gonna confess: I was so fucking nervous not to be able to participate in the video challenge. I wanted to take part and it's risking eviction if we lose. On the other hand, I kinda knew I would be fine even if we lost. First, I offered the song for the tribe. Second, my alliance with Vilma and Veni is controlling the tribe, I have Clash from the side and we got majority. So I'd probs be fine anyway. Glad we won tho ! 

Uh I’ve been so busy for the past few days I can’t socialise and am very worried 

Day 4: Video editing challenge. This will be fun. Make a music video. Tribe chat is just going in circles with choosing a song. Song is finally chosen, Lonely Dance. Its a strange song, would have prefered something more campy or darker but oh well. I dont have time to do a video edit, i also want to take a back seat of this challenge. Searched for idol, No luck but i now have a good list of where to look narrowed down to 3 locations. Think im going to trust Tyler more. 

http://prntscr.com/odkz7k

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idk if i made a confessional about this but holy shit Lord is in this 

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I realise I spam so many messages to people at once. Shoutout to Vilma for always replying (although slowly) to every single one

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Quiet day today, barely spoke to people. Please no swap.

Well I'm sad to go to tribal this early, but it's probably needed. I didn't like my participation in this challenge but I was really short on time, it sucks but oh well, at least Ruthie told us to vote her and hopefully it isn't a hard vote 

Whew! Thank god we won immunity. I honestly think we tried so hard so it felt nice to be recognised for that (and by we I mean those of us who actually helped out with the challenge......). Vilma worries me a bit. I really like her and she gives off a great energy but I feel like she could use that to lead a big alliance further down the line. I definitely won't be targeting her anytime soon and hopefully I can get in that alliance at some point, but she's someone to keep an eye on.

Hello this round was boring we had shitty judges yet again woo we lost immunity woo now we have to look like bad people and vote ruthie out because shes sacrificing herself woo

WE WON!!!!!! NO TRIBAL!!!!! FUCK YESSSS And the judges were so nice to me I legit almost cried I love everyone ughhhh my heart Music video challenges are so amazing I don't care if what placement I get anymore we made that video and that's all I care about really I hope we're swapping soon! 

Okay so whew I had tribal for this game and I was nommed in a BB game so it's been a busy day today! I thought I might play my idol no matter what tonight, but Ruthie has been going through some stuff and volunteered to be voted out. Unfortunately it is uneventful for the viewers and for the hosts but I hope it is nice and easy and I can save my idol for later. Also, tribe swap anyone? Idk I haven't really clicked with anyone yet...Wow my social game sucks I'm sorry hosts, give me comps I can win, ty.

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Why I think Jikook is realest

Okay first of all, I'll tag the Fck out of all the things so that even vkook shippers can get a hold of the harsh reality

BTW, I'm warning u cause this is a rant(well 90% is)

First of all: Jikook has no hetero explanation,dont fcking include that comparing bullshit because Jikook itself can explain themselves just by their own actions. WERE ALREADY AT THE 21ST CENTURY,AND THEYRE HUMANS TOO SO DONT THINK THAT ITS IMPOSSIBLE FIR THEM TO BE GAY.

2nd of all: TO THOSE WHO'RE TRYING TOO HARD TO SHARE AND SPREAD CANCEROUS SHITS ABOUT JIKOOK BEING FANSERVICE OR SOME BS LIKE ITS A ONE SIDED LOVE THEN CAN YOU PLS EXPLAIN WHY JUNGKOOK ALMOST KISSED JM FIVE FUCKING TIMES, WHY HE LOOKS AT JM WITH MORE ADORENESS AND PASSION THAN THE REST OF THE HYUNGS.? WHY DID HE FILMED JIMIN THE MOST INSTEAD OF THE BEAUTOFUL PLACES IN JAPAN, WHY DID THEY WORE MATCHING OUTFITS THAT HAS A ROMANTIC MEANING. WHY JUNGKOOK WEAR A RAINBOW CLIP IN HIS TIE. WHY DID THEY SHARED A ONE ROOM IN JAPAN THAT HAS ONE BED AND TRANSPARENT GLASS BATHROOM -NO EXPLAIN THEIR ACTIONS, THEIR OVERALL EXISTENCE. THERES A LOT TO POINT OUT BUT MIND TO EXPLAIN THEIR ACTIONS INSTEAD EITH A SCIENTIFIC AND PHYSIOLOGICAL EXPLANATIONS THAT CAN RIGEN YOUR STUPID CLICHE "JIKOOK IS NOT REAL? "

Don't disregard their feelings, don't ignore their subtle showings. You're one of the reasons why I bet sometimes makes them nervous or sad. they're humans too, I bet if they saw one that disobjectifies their relationship then they'd think that coming out is the least thing that they'd ever do

ARE YOU EVEN AN ARMY? OR JUST A VKOOK SHIPPER?

And last of all, how does it feel to see Jungkook closer with anyone other than the one who you want to be? Can't relate

If vkook is real then jungkook must be cheating with Taetae so fuxking hard, and vmin would have been in a damn dramatic situation and conflict but why can't I see that? Why is that, instead dog seeing that I see Jikook and Vmin being close instead?

Do you ship vkook just because of their looks and personality? Just to tell you, Jimin made jungkook out of his cocoon, don't turn the tables cause I've seen a lot of vkook shippers making Jikook things their own. Even jeonlous and satellite Jeons created by Jikook ARMYs

Pathetic asf.

Vkook isn't even worth comparing with Jikook in a romantic way, real talk

And btw, I'm not the person who initiates things and comments long ass things with rants cause I give less fucks but then I found a unique thing and interesting thing in Jikook. You can't get on me, once I type I know my point is always right

I'm not being bashful and boastful but the way to reality is not always the positivity and the only thing that we can point out as to why is-its because it depends on the matter that makes someone act like how they should be.

#vkook #jikook #kookminworld #kookmin #bts #lgbt #ships #vmin