#books i’ll never finish

[communistkenobi]

I’m reflecting on cesaire’s work again and one of the little flourishes he does in discourse on colonialism is that he says the west will have to answer for its crimes against the human community. and I especially love this line because he’s using the same bourgeois universalising language that the imperial core so often does (“human rights” “freedom and justice for all” “spreading democracy across the globe”) but as a cudgel against the west, to reframe the human community as all those who lay outside of it. anyway I think everyone should read discourse on colonialism

#I need to brush up on my post colonial reading I’m not as well read as I’d like to be #once I finish my coursework I’ll have more time for reading shit I actually want to read lol #like I’m reading so much stupid bullshit that does not matter for class #genuinely useless theory that I will never pick up again #I want to finish orientalism in particular. one of the most didactic books I’ve ever read #like said’s writing is like every sentence restates his central argument. It’s an unrelenting book in a really compelling way #Interspersed with him talking fine grain shit about a bunch of European intellectuals I’ve never heard of lol #book club

[clearancecreedwatersurvival]

Never seen a homoerotic rivalry I wouldn’t ship.

#except bakudeku maybe I just never watched far enough in bnha to care but. idk. bakudeku did not spark joy #anyway I’ll just tag a couple recent ish fandoms for me #obviously since I got into one piece I was immediately like ‘oh yeah I get this’ about #zosan #I think technically these two count just based on how their dynamic works #fengqing #could tag just about any ship from haikyuu tbh but I’ll just go with the main duo and leave it at that #kagehina #the pairing that really started this for me though (and sorry to wizard book mention but I gotta be honest) was of course #drarry #now that I have added that tag obligatory: terfs fuck off okay moving on #hmmm. does griddlehark count. or are they just codependent homoerotic frenemies. #there’s some nebulous dividing line between All That and plain rivalry #I would tag harrianthe but I still haven’t finished harrow so like. I can’t confirm that personally yet. #after some reflection on another post I have decided to include these two because I think their dynamic counts #matchablossom #caitie speaks #animanga #shipping #tropes

[lost-in-time-marie]

It was a grey and overcast afternoon, as I sat outside breathing the cool, humid air, ripe with the heavy rain soon to come, and I thought to myself, there is still pain in my heart, but for the first time, I feel like I can live with it.

~K.

#lit #writing #poetry #prose #spilledink #spilled ink #excerpts from my life #spilled thoughts #excerpt from a book i'll never finish #spilled writing #excerpt from a story i'll never write #excerpt from a book i’ll never write #excerpts from my heart #excerpt from my diary #excerpts from my mind #excerpts from my writing #excerpts from my journal #excerpts #depressing shit #mental illness #mental health #toxic relationship #relationship #codependency #love #~K. #rambles #ramblings #excerpt from a book i'll never write #writers on tumblr

[daydreamerdrew]

Dragonfly & Dragonfly-Man (2019) #1

#I’m into the unhealthy sidekick thing right now so I’m going right to the Ahoy Comics stuff #I started this book years ago but never finished it #and it’s been long enough that after this I’ll reread The Wrong Earth before reading the later-published stuff for the first time #ahoy comics #chip andrews #richard fame #my posts #comic panels

[sailforvalinor]

@kanerallels I saw a copy of The Thief Lord (a book that I started in middle school and never finished) at the used bookstore for like $1.50 and thought of you so of course I bought it. Idk when I’ll actually read it but I’ll keep you posted

#I also told you I would read valiant started it and then didn’t finish and I feel TERRIBLE 😅 #I think the issue was that I tried to read it on ebook and I’ve never been good at that. I’ll try again and keep you posted (it was no #fault of the book itself from what I’d read it was quite good) #I also got an adult novel that I had no idea that JK Rowling had written called The Casual Vacancy #and a really pretty copy of treasure island for my brother (it has a glossary of the pirate lingo at the beginning of each chapter!) #and black hearts of battersea by Joan Aiken which I had never heard of but sounded intriguing

[jerichomere]

THEY REMOVED THE MYSTERIOUS BENEDICT SOCIETY FROM DISNEY PLUS 😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡

#jext #the mysterious benedict society #tmbs #tmbs disney #I guess I’ll never finish season two #I didn’t even like the show compared to the books but shows shouldn’t just get scrapped like that

[kazscrows]

Six of Crows Reread🪶

Chapter 46: Pekka

I know this chapter happens but I cannot for the life of me remember anything about it

So this should be fun

Like reading it again for the first time

Poor Nina already sounds worse for wear because of the parem…

Pekka describes her as jutting bones and dark hollows, trembling hands…

She leaned against a giant Fjerdan with a shaved head and grim blue eyes. He was huge, probably former military. Good muscle to have around. Where did Kaz Brekker find these people?

Wait Matthias is bald—

When did that happen??

And Kaz just knows how to find the right people

It’s called making friends.. sort of and being kind.. ish

He’s also just a little lucky

The little canal rat had managed to make it to the Ice Court after all.

It was a good thing, too. If not for Kaz Brekker, Rollins would still be sitting in a cell in that damned Fjerdan prison waiting for another round of torture – or maybe looking down from a pike atop the ringwall.

This is the last time Pekka will think Kaz ever did anything to be glad about

…he’d seen him around the Barrel a few times. The boy had come from nowhere and been a slew of trouble since. But he was still just a lieutenant, not a general, a terrier nipping at Rollins’ ankles.

You created him Pekka

Ooh flashback to the ominous prison cell scene

“Hello, Brekker,” Rollins had said. “Come to gloat?”

“Not exactly. You know me?”

Rollins had shrugged. “Sure, you’re the little skiv who keeps stealing my customers.”

The look that passed over the boy’s face then had taken Rollins aback. It was hatred – pure, black, long simmering. What have I ever done to this little pissant? But in seconds the look was gone, and Rollins wondered if he’d imagined it altogether.

Ha- there and the gone again

“What do you want, Brekker?”

The boy had stood there, something bleak and mad in his gaze. “I want to do you a favour.”

It probably took everything in Kaz not to kill him right then and there

And then he offers him a favor on top of it!

“Why the hell would you help me?”

“You weren’t meant to die here.”

Somehow it sounded like a curse.

Oh it is

Just wait for Kaz’s vengeance…

And the Wraith-

“I owe you, Brekker,” Rollins had said as the boy exited his cell, hardly believing his luck.

Brekker had glanced back at him, his dark eyes like caverns. “Don’t worry, Rollins. You’ll pay.”

Yes, yes he will

Man we probably won’t get something like this on screen anymore

Will Pekka even be at the ice court?

Why did they already do Kaz’s revenge plot in the show???

Ughhh

He stood in the middle of Rollins’ opulent office looking like a dark blot of ink, his face grim, his hands resting on a crow-handled walking stick.

Wow this description of Kaz

He’s a stain in Pekka’s “kingdom”

Kaz just casually asking Pekka for two hundred thousand dollars (kruge)

He offers his shares for the club and fifth harbor too and it’s obviously painful for him

So maybe it’s not so casual actually

It’s weird how the show has flipped this all around

Pekka already has fifth.. he got the club.. it’s already been destroyed..

I don’t get why they did that

It’ll be… interesting to see what they do in the spin-off now to say the least

Rollins leaned back and pressed his fingers together. “It’s not enough, you know. Not to go to war with the Merchant Council.”

“It is for this crew.”

“This crew?” Rollins said with a snort. “I can’t believe you sorry lot were the ones to successfully raid the Ice Court.”

“Believe it.”

Kaz, if not saints, what do you believe in?

My Crows

SaB s1e7

“Van Eck is going to put you in the ground.”

“Others have tried. Somehow I keep coming back from the dead.”

“I respect your drive, kid. And I understand. You want your money; you want the Wraith back; you want a bit of Van Eck’s hide—”

“No,” said Brekker, his voice part rasp, part growl. “When I come for Van Eck, I won’t just take what’s mine. I’ll carve his life hollow. I’ll burn his name from the ledger. There will be nothing left.”

Just like when he eventually comes for you

Such a banger quote

Kaz really has never had a bad track

Pekka Rollins couldn’t count the threats he’d heard, the men he’d killed, or the men he’d seen die, but the look in Brekker’s eye still sent a chill slithering up his spine. Some wrathful thing in this boy was begging to get loose, and Rollins didn’t want to be around when it slipped its leash.

lol it’s already too late for you Pekka

When he held out his hand to shake on the deal, Brekker’s grip was knuckle-crushing.

“You don’t remember me at all, do you?” the boy asked.

“Should I?”

“Not just yet.” That black thing flickered behind Brekker’s eyes.

“The deal is the deal,” said Rollins, eager to be done with this strange lot.

“The deal is the deal.”

Watch your back Pekka…

Or don’t

Actually don’t

RIP (Rest In Pieces)

“What’s with those gloves he wears?” the bruiser asked.

“A bit of theatre, I suspect. Who knows? Who cares?”

Or you know… it’s just Kaz’s greatest weakness.. his greatest shame…

Rollins reached for his watch. It had to be about time for the dealers to change shifts, and he liked to supervise them himself.

“Son of a *****,” he exclaimed a second later.

“What is it, boss?”

Rollins held up his watch chain. A turnip was hanging from the fob where his diamond-studded timepiece should have been. “That little bastard—” Then a thought came to him. He reached for his wallet. It was gone. So was his tie pin, the Kaelish coin pendant he wore for luck, and the gold buckles on his shoes. Rollins wondered if he should check the fillings in his teeth.

I am CACKLING

No one got one over on Pekka Rollins. No one dared. But Brekker had, and Rollins wondered if that was just the beginning.

“Doughty,” he said, “I think we’d best say a prayer for Jan Van Eck.”

Oh it’s definitely only the beginning

And you better save your prayers for yourself

Rollins straightened the knot of his pinless tie and headed down to the casino floor. The problem of Kaz Brekker could wait to be solved another day. Right now there was money to be made.

And that’s what we call a very big mistake my friends

What an idiot

Thats the end folks! Six of Crows finished!

Crooked Kingdom reread… coming soon…

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#that wraps my reread review of book one! #thanks to everyone who has read these!! #it’s been a long time coming! #really I never thought it would take so long I didn’t mean to abandon these for over a year… I’m just glad I came back to finish! #maybe I’ll link the first crooked kingdom reread once it’s out #we’ll see #anyways thanks again!! #six of crows #shadow and bone #kaz brekker #inej ghafa #kanej #jesper fahey #wylan van eck #nina zenik #matthias helvar #pekka rollins #jan van eck #leigh bardugo #grishaverse #crooked kingdom #soc #reading #books #shadow and bone netflix #kazscrows #kazscrowsreadssoc

[regulusdays]

wdym to write a fic i have to actually write it? like put words togerher? not just create playlists and random plot explanations on a doc? i have to write it write it??? who decided that??? it’s so unfair?!?!

#i’m trying but i just can’t put words together #they just don’t fit!!!! #aghhhhgghh #this is making me want to scream #and it’s such a good idea for a fic i love it #my pinterest board has so many pins in it and i have literal 40 pages doc explaining the plot #and another 40 pages one with research i did for especifics #but how do i put it all together?!?!? this is so hard whyyyy #i’ll probably never finish it but i’ll leave a tag here because i actually love the name #it’s just the name of the book it was inspired by but Regardless #fic: the devil to pay in the backlands #!!!!! and it’s ‘cowboy’ marauders #marauders #marauders era #cowboy marauders #writing

[robertsbarbie]

You being a Luke fan makes so much sense for you but I would like go know the extend of fanhood. What are your thoughts on him?

short answer: luke has never done anything ever in his entire life

long answer: my perspective is a lot wider now than when i initially read the books, i think i held a similar mentality, but i also was 12 years old and in love with him so that is biased. but i find his character fascinating, i think the fact he is 19 in the first book is fascinating (my entire life i thought he was maybe two years older than the others until i re read), i think the way his character’s story was written and how he was interlaced with the other characters could not and will never be better. that being said i do think he did a lot of things that were wrong (homeboy did commit mass murder, and like he is AN antagonist of the series), but i will never think he’s a bad guy.

i think luke being 19 and the way his story was written ALL of it makes sense, there’s true no malicious intent and that’s seen time and time again where he pauses almost (even as he’s being controlled by kronos) and is like “… but my friends” which like is just another thing that ties his similarities to percy as if they’re two paths. but back to him being 19 and mad at his dad 19 is when you age out of a lot of stuff, it’s a weird transitional period and he had to do it alone after feeling abandoned by his father (the titan headquarters being where luke got his scar and started his villain origin story>>>>> cinematic) in a place where he watched people constantly die, where his best friend died, where he was constantly in danger like that’s a lot! no wonder resentment grew! and it’s like at the end of the day like just wanted to be safe with his friends and feel seen. which i think is the main point of the first series you see it with the minor gods, you see it in the camp games (silena my absolute beloved trying to get people to take aphrodite kids seriously), you see it with the “Big Three”, you see it with rachel elizabeth dare, calypso, you see it even at percy’s first school like it’s everywhere!this concept of being seen and not just cast aside when convenient and i think luke was used as the archetypal symbol for that. and like it finally clicks for percy in the last book and he sees the point of it all and like it drove me insane while rereading but while percy gets bitter about luke and hates him and can’t stand that annabeth still feels for him i truly believe he never loses his compassion for luke and the life luke could’ve had if not for the life he did

and idk i just love him so much not for the terrible things he did but because he was literally just a kid who was fucked over by the system

#i think his story is very human #and i think a lot of people are like ‘he’s never done anything wrong ever!’ i mean no #he very much did things that were wrong but it’s WHY he did them #it’s percy in those same circumstances #it’s him not being wrong but doing wrong #it’s him wanting to protect annabeth at all costs #it’s missing thalia it’s him thinking he’s showing percy mercy in the first book by trying to kill him with a scorpion #instead of doing it himself #it’s all of it! #sorry this was insane i just have thoughts #i also haven’t finished my re read of last olympian so give me until then and maybe i’ll be more coherent #mutuals: catherine #ask: imhereonthekitchenfloor

[elnotwoods]

being successful with adhd: 25 tips to manage th-

#a book by me #that i’ll never finish #because adhd #i love having a rotten brain that doesn’t fucking work at all #ain’t that fun? #adhd #just adhd things #auadhd #my destiny is to never accomplish anything and be sad in life i guess #el rambles #mental health

[spiciestmarinara]

Aaaaaahhhh! It’s tiiiiiiime!

#Jonathan sims #family business #I actually need to finish Vincent Price’s book about art appreciation first or I’ll never go back to it #but then I will read this #kind of have a fiction-nonfiction trade off I started last year

[hazelcephalopod]

So I’ve gotten back into reading TGH and reached chapter uh… I’ll put that later. Anyway here’s the summary—

“They go to Stedding Tsofu to find a Waygate. Waygate is firmly blocked by Machin Shin. Their journey seems for naught. But at least we get more Loial lore, and learn Ogier women just arrange the marriages and tell the men who they are marrying. Mat -full cringe failboy he sometimes(often) is- says human men would never let a woman boss them around like that. Rand mutters about Mat being wrong. Everyone else presumable at least side eyes him. Because he is wrong. Verin is right there telling everyone what to do. Rand remembers the woman’s council bacually betrothing him to Egwene before he knew what was happening. Fun times. They realize they have to use a portal stone to get to Fain. The Ogier happily show them the portal stone nearby -anything is better then the Ways. The boys keep insisting they are not ta’veren or Dragons or Aiel anything like that. Everyone nods and then ignores that and talk about them being ta’veren and how they’ve basically got no choice but to live in their wake. Rand is reminded again he can in fact channel, in fact doing so with little resistance after being asked -possibly s first? He is also unnerved meeting several Aiel women. Because they tried to kill them and also well… damn does he look like them. Aka “The ever increasing eroding of Rand denial copium receives several serious blows in a few days.”

I’m currently mid Ch 37 “What Might Be”, portal stone icon I believe.

Oh! And just for fine to cover it… Also Fain delivered that Horn, Turok was like “you’re probable lies amuse me for now. Perhaps I will give you to the Empress. Let me describe the terribleness of the royal court. Nvm you’re way too eager about that.” And Fain is just internally grinning and steepling his fingers like “ah ha. Yes give me more information. Give me more access to your leaders. You play right into the plans I have made and am making right now. And will make in the future.” Hilarious.

also…

I’ve decided that Hurin is a lil bit of a dipshit simp. Yes he has sniffing powers. And a wife. And children. But he’s a Gilear if you will. Also probably brain mushed by ta’veren a bit. Selene didn’t show up! (Good) Oh and how deeply I am not looking forward to the parts of Mat featuring “a tale of his sad little misogyny even if it often makes him look foolish. Still a bit too cringe” -at least that’s my fear. We shall see.

#wot book spoilers #Series of many thoughts on twot #<- block/filter to stop seeing these #Now I’m: the short version #am I back? Idk. We’ll see #For now uh. I have the first six books and need to get thru them so I think I’ll just give my final thoughts initially #maybe later I’ll expand more. Sry. Not as fun but who knows I might have a couple longer ones mixed in #Otherwise I’ll never finish Takes so much more time to do those Tbh things are picking up I want to be sink into it Long form takes me out #Tgh spoilers #The great hunt #the wheel of time #wot #twot book spoilers #long post #Wheel of time

[sonnettohara]

I’ve just written the most emotionally devastating ronnett scene of my life and now I just have to get my shit together enough to write the rest of the story it goes in

#I’m such a slow writer bc I just write the chapters I care about and never finish the book #i literally have only like half the first chapter but about 15 separate other scene #yell at me enough and maybe I’ll finish is

[look-at-the-stars-tonight]

I ran this morning AND wrote some AND made art and I’m so proud of me

#didn’t get any of my actual office work done oopsies #but in my defense it’s a Friday and also I did allot time for it I just ended up not doing it #anyways still proud of me!!! guys art is so so important and I know that and I preach that but I haven’t been doing it #and I just picked up a blank sheet of paper and did it #and is it good or anatomically correct? no but it was so FUN #and I’ve been working thought Tim Clare’s writing stuff and it’s been GOOD #I like this new series of exercises a lot better than the couch to 80k #they’re. the same honestly and I don’t actually care about his commentary all that much #maybe I’m just more present or more invested in them #I only ran for 15. min and then I had to call my brother to pick me up because the heat was gonna make me pass out :/ #but also I TRIED #I fucking tried today #also did u know running is utterly miserable. #runners high is def a thing #felt amazing afterward #but holy shit it’s awful in the moment #my roommate ran a 25k recently and I talked to her about it and she said it never gets better #which is. not very encouraging #but also I Want To run as much of this 5k as I can #maybe I’ll be dead after but it’s fine I have a couple days to recuperate before the eclipse #WHICH IM ALSO EXCITED SBOIT. I’ve never seen a total eclipse before #goddamit my brain jumped to too many places #delete later #anyways. if u didn’t u should acknowledge ur accomplishments today #even if they didn’t feel like much #now I’m gonna go read a 115k fanfic that’s gonna wreck me #that’s my treat to me #I HAVE ACTUAL BOOKS TO FINISH. but NO. THIS is how I’m spending my time. and it’s fine I’m valid #I’ve been talking to all the lesbians about running too #and they’ve been so encouraging too!! I love my coworkers and very distantly related coworkers sm

[katnissgirlsmakedo]

well kaz brekker could never be cassel sharpe. not to me. for one simple reason and it’s that i didn’t know kaz in ninth grade 🙄 and perhaps even more importantly. leigh bardugo is not as good a writer as holly black. but that is neither here nor there. xoxo beth

#like ok cassel was there with me through the time i stepped on a nail and my uncle died and i had to go to band camp and then start high #school all in the span of a month. so. he literally saw ninth grade band camp. aka hell on earth. #that’s the kind of bond you can only form with a book character at 14 #kaz your lame ass could never be him!!!! #sorry for being a hater. not my fault i formed a lifelong attachment to holly black at 13 #girls my audiobook expires at 3am if i don’t finish i’ll fucking cry fr…. #⚖️

[sadgirlautumn]

Every time I decide to reread a book my mom asks me if I ran out of new books in a very concerned way and it’s kinda sweet

#I’m rereading the lost hero right now (which I don’t particularly like lol) in order to read the chalice of the gods #I never finished house of hades and I don’t remember what happened in the mark of Athena at all #i remember the start of son of Neptune but not much else #anyway I explained that to my mom and she was like ‘well why did you buy chalice of the gods if you knew you had to reread books you didn’t #really like’ and then I had to explain how I was dumb and didn’t realize I’d have to reread HoO #anyway I’m just hoping maybe I’ll like it better now bc I think the main reason I didn’t like it when I was younger was because the books #are 500+ pages and had longer chapters than I was used to at the time #autumn rambles #audie reads