#blink blink is this depressing

[icarusalatus]

List five things that make you happy, then put this in the inbox of the last ten people who reblogged something from you, get to know your mutuals and your followers <3

:0 i didnt see this because ppl rarely like or rb from me so i never look at the notifs tab for it !! sorry !

ive actually been thinking about this recently so i actually have at least one answer off the top of my head, which is

1) my black long-sleeved shirt. it reminds me very strongly of the outfit worn by the first (and only) character i, as an autistic person, actually saw myself in and felt comforted by. so after finding it tucked away in a box recently and making that connection, wearing it is just like. :3

2) music! whoever said "if art is how we decorate space, music is how we decorate time" hit the nail on the head, and i'm very invested in audio stimuli, so. if you have any music recommendations, please 🤲 any genre any language . the 2 songs circling in my brain like little fishes rn are Oh No! by Marina and Heaven's Gate by Fall Out Boy

3) makeup (but specifically eyeshadow). ive been playing around with makeup recently when i feel bad about how i look because it makes me feel better, even just to rim my eyes. i used to be insecure about my interest and style in it as a transmasc but now i just dont care

4) the wrap i had for dinner :) and the leftovers >:)

5) this ask ! sorry it took me over a month to see it 😭 i really wish i was more connected in this community, but genshin fandom is just so big! my last main fandom was small enough i knew basically everyone at least peripherally, and i dont really know how to make friends in this one. its nice to have any kind of interaction

thank you for the ask 💕

#if my bestie were a Thing i would list them too but actually they are just my little guy in my pocket #V if u see this ily. and ur next bucko #blink blink is this depressing #im not this much of a black hole usually i swear but its 11:47pm and ive been doing a lot of introspection #i think i have like. 5 followers and im pretty sure they also all follow you so #ill send this to the ones who havent gotten it yet

[goddidntdothis]

cause and effect

#eva i understand you… #if i got to a party and saw yulia sitting there without blinking #dressed like a grampa & talking about the inescapable laws of logic like some kind of depressed columbo #i would too fall in love #eva yan #yulia lyuricheva #pathologic #pathologic fanart

[juriyuna]

had to put together a quick translation for this scene in yuu's MSS because it made me laugh. children can be so merciless

#magia record #yumeno yuusa #momoe nagisa #i couldn't screencap it because nagisa blinked but yuu gets the depressed purple cloud effect when she says ''h-how terrible!'' #between how sad she gets at being told her magical girl form looks like a monster and the way she asks nagisa if she meant that nicely #i'm glad to know that yuu must think her magical girl outfit is cool/pretty instead of scary #something about the ''oh. that's okay.'' is really funny to me #my TLs #(someone else is translating yuu's MSS and there's the 29udon video as well but i wanted to do this anyway)

[drawnfamiliarfaces]

who needs therapy when you can just draw an old cartoon character in some ✨outfits ✨

jackie chan outfit meme & tumblr ad outfits & its almost impossible to find the source of the blue outfits but probably from korean artist

also me realizing that me drawing First weirdly evolved:

template taken from this post but also blank ver. under cut for anyone who wants it ;)

#rc9gn #rc9gn first ninja #first ninja #randy cunningham 9th grade ninja #im depressed and tired so drawing first helps ;) and i kept giggling cause it seems like a just blinked & and suddenly im drawing first ver #different from when i first started drawing him & seeing/drawing him in segsy jackiechan pose and fishnet outfits really hit it home #i swear it felt like i didnt change that much. just exaggerated already existing features but he feel so different lol #and also i forgot how much like a white ass pastry noodle aisan twink he looks in og references. at least compared to how idraw him now

[asexual-pancakes]

Trying out my new gouache

Day 1- "schlatt" study

#Istg my reference of him blinked while I was painting this at 12am #I don't even watch his videos #Why am I drawing him of all people as a coping mechanism of my seasonal depression #jschlatt art #jschlatt

[touchd0wn-boy]

he does anything but play guitar up there

#still sorting through my pics and videos. the post concert depression is real #blink 182 #tom delonge #blink world tour 2023 #september 9 2023 cologne #uploads

[chrliekclly]

i firmly believe in this conspiracy theory that there was an episode that got scrapped this season to make room for the celebrity booze episode BLINK TWICE IF U KNOW SOMETHING…. please

#the man doesnt blink mom! #the man doesnt blink! #ask #anon #ramblings #s16 #im not a person who knows things sorry if i gave u tht impression smhow lol im jst sort of ther #we had 8 eps last season too tho right? my guess is its jst th new normal. depressing new normal. #i heard a costume designer on a diff set way b4 i got hired s15 like 'im doing sunny next. heard only 8 eps this season' nd was crestfallen #it might jst b wat theyr doing now #lets pray for s17 ig

[margaritadaemonelix]

oh to love and be loved by yuezun

#cang lan jue #love between fairy and devil #xiao lanhua #clj #edit: to everyone saying this was one of her best outfits. this is precisely why i drew it. it is THE best xlh outfit #i started drawing this at about 11:30 pm after ranting about the royal scandal series to the discord server for three hours #and then i blinked and it was 3:30 and my lineart was done #take a stimulant and a depressant at the same time to achieve Shrimp Time (like shrimp colours but for time) #(don't do that) #marg's drawing board

[peachjooce]

she already says this around ~5 LP, but she only says the last part when you're married

#nikki plays rf4 #txt #i love how subtle her depression is touched upon #like a blink and youll miss it #because she tries so hard to be happy... ;_; #like the difference between her dialogue between not marriage and marriage just punched me in the gut #MAN... #maybe i should hold off marrying her for a few months so i can forget 30% of her event and have a good cry about it again

[take-a-dip-in-the-deadpool]

I don't think they realized when they wrote that song how much of their fanbase currently has crippling depression 

#blink 182 #one more time #one more time blink 182 #depression #crying #crying at work #true story

[beneaththemasks]

shout-out to my psychiatrist for not telling me I'd experience abstinence from quitting my antidepressants :') yikes

#/depression #/medical #I blink and my whole body receives 10000 damage in the form of electrical shots

[fazcinatingblog]

Wait since when does James wear a glove

#James aish #beautiful boy #Carlton were mean to you Jimmy #i want to say he's copying Nat but no it was an elbow sleeve that Nat wore #nat drives James' car and finds a glove in the glove compartment and thinks he's having an affair with Travis Cloke #'jim when did you join Collingwood?' #'oh ah would've been around 2016' *nat does the maths* 'so you knew Travis cloke!' #'um yeah Nat everyone knows Travis Cloke he's---' 'a well respected member of the gay community?????' #nat starts fuming and worries he's losing his boyfriend to Travis cloke #'what does that big oaf have that i don't????' nat fumes #james comes home and there's several horses and donkeys in the kitchen #'nat??? did you leave the back door open again?' James calls out warily looking at the animals in his kitchen #nat comes running in to the kitchen 'oh i forgot to stir the soup' and #'babe there's donkeys in here' James says slowly and Nat flashes a grin 'yeah aren't they great we're having pumpkin soup your favourite' #'i haven't had pumpkin soup since Brisbane days when i was depressed eating cup a soups-- wait did you find my pocket profile from 2014???' #nat blushes and quickly throws a tea towels over his scrapbook of James Aish mementos #James starts leading the donkeys out of the kitchen and Nat's like 'wait Jim i thought you were into this thing' #'no definitely not' James retorts and takes the animals outside #he comes back and Nat's like 'babe i can't pack mark between three opponents any more I'm sorry' #James blinking confusedly 'i don't want you to do that you might get hurt' #'but...' nat says frowning 'what is it about Travis that you're into I've been racking my brain all day---' #'Travis?????' James said 'you mean coyler that tea drinking weasel who---' #Nat quickly pushes his cup of jasmine tea across the bench #'no babe i love you and your tea drinking i didn't mean it's just that Colyer-- he microwaves his tea' #'oh okay' Nat said 'yeah totally ok now back to Travis Cloke' #'Travis Cloke?????' james cries 'i haven't thought about him since i found that guernsey in your wardrobe signed by David---' #'i grew up a tigs fan Jim' #'oh phew i thought you were cheating on me with David' #'is that why you tried to grow a moustache that week?'

[elderemorune]

I'll See Ya When I See Ya

I've grown up, and I didn't even notice. It was such a gradual shift, from only caring about games, my friends, my girlfriend, and what cool new thing I was going to make next. I was trying a bunch of different forms of art to see what I could do, writing, painting, sculpting, none of it good, but I didn't care. I was a kid.

Before I even realized it, I was 30. Living in a house, trying to have kids, caring about politics despite promising I'd never care about them. I was so focused on growing, on becoming a better person, that I never stopped for a moment to consider what that meant, what parts of me I was leaving behind.

Then, despite my best efforts it was taken away from me. My sister and her husband needed room for their kids, and the state asked us very nicely if we'd consider leaving the house.

So we did, and here we are in Seattle, in a shitty apartment, doing shitty work while I put my wife through school, knowing that she's going to do amazing things when she graduates.

And other than her, only one goddamn person had the decency to thank me.

I guess this is growing up.

It's putting down your toys, not even knowing you'd never have time for them again. It's abandoning the carefree creativity of childhood and embracing a more structured approach to creation. It's your mom putting you down for the last time.

It's realizing your parents are humans too. It's understanding that one day, they'll be gone. It's considering how that will feel, thinking you're prepared, and of course, being wrong about that.

It's lamenting the fact that you're aging, that you're going to die.

It's worrying about taxes, what people think of you, and if you're going to make it to your next paycheck.

I miss being a kid. I mourn for my childhood, what could have been, what was. My heart breaks for the little boy sitting in his room and playing with his toys alone, scared of what will happen when his dad comes in and sees the mess. The little boy who didn't understand why nobody liked him. Whose peers found him annoying and pretentious when all he wanted to do was be friends with them. Who was hated by teachers and admin alike because he was 'too smart' but they couldn't figure out what to do with him, so they punished him.

All he ever wanted was to be loved. To be understood. It took a very long time to find the right people for that. I'm forever thankful to my wife and my best friends, because without them I would't be who I am now.

But it's so much more than that, too!

Growing up is also realizing that you're so much more than just a kid. Understanding that you have power, a voice, the ability to change things for the better. It's learning how to communicate with others, making new friends, reaching new heights!

Here I am, on the cusp of my next birthday, planning to go party for an evening because I've never done that. And that's growing up too. Experiencing new things just because, or making spontaneous plans. Meeting new people. Evolving as a human.

I don't know when I looked at my childhood self and said "See ya when I see ya", but I saw him today, and fuck did it hurt.

I guess this is growing up.

#blog #journal #childhood trauma #emotions #adulthood #blink 182 #i guess this is growing up #depressing shit

[valos-venus-doom]

One day you're young and hopeful naive and then the next you relate to "Adam's Song" a little too well.

#blink 182 #adam's song #depression #suicidal #anxiety #sad girl shit #nihilism

[ode-of-odr]

#◾ i blinked and the world was gone — ooc #◾ how the song twisted you — visage #man's neck muscles alone could support the weight of the world and my depression

[cirmet]

Therapist: you have depression

Me: (smugly pulls out Uno reverse card)

Therapist:

#me: 😐 #‘oh’ #relatable memes #hot memes #old meme #random memes #memeoftheday #meme of the week #meme of the day #tumblr memes #dank memes #funny memes #fresh memes #dankest memes #memesdaily #blinking guy meme #depression memes #therapist memes #therapy memes #my memes #uno reverse card #uno reverse card meme #txt meme #original meme #cirmet