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[spinninwiththestars]

27/6 I've just finished packing for the Paris trip tomorrow!! I've been excited about it for so long - a whole week to just explore and have fun with my friends. YAY! Plus, me and Nick are sleeping in the same room!! I know we won't really be able to kiss and be couple-y much because other people will be around, but I'm hoping we get to sleep next to each other and just chat about silly random stuff all night... CHARLIE'S DIARY | HEARTSTOPPER VOLUME 3

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[alisonsfics]

red carpet premieres

pairing: kit connor x costar!reader

summary: after not seeing kit for a few months, you both are reunited at a red carpet event for heartstopper

word count: 2.1k

As you sat in the busy airport, your eyes were drawn to all of the chaos around you: parents struggling to calm their kids down, people in business suits rushing to make their flight.

You were at the biggest airport in New York, so you shouldn’t have been shocked. You were currently waiting to board your flight to Los Angeles for the red carpet premier of the newest season of Heartstopper.

“Hello hello hello,” you heard a chipper voice say beside you. You looked over and saw Will with his suitcase and an iced coffee in hand.

“There you are, I was worried you were going to be late.” You teased him. He jokingly rolled his eyes as he took a seat next to you. “And how long have you been here?” He asked you.

Your silence spoke volumes as to your answer. Will started to chuckle. “Fine, I’ve been here for two hours, but what if security had a really long line or if something went wrong?” You said, justifying your dedication to being early.

“See, you are and forever will be the mom friend of our group.” Will reminded you. You couldn’t stop the giggles that escaped your lips. All of the cast had decided that you and Kit were the mom and dad of the group.

This was inspired by two things. First, you both were the most responsible people in the cast. Second, you both were harboring some secret crushes on each other that everyone knew about.

“Speaking of, how is your fellow co-parent?” Will asked you. Your shrugged your shoulders. “I haven’t seen him in a while.” You told him, sadly. This was one of the reasons you were so excited to see him at the premiere tonight.

“As though you both don’t FaceTime everyday. We all know you both couldn’t stand to go that long without talking to each other.” Will continued to tease. You could tell that your cheeks were heating up. You were also struggling to keep the smirk off of your face because you knew every word he was saying was true.

You hid your face in your hands trying to hide the fact that you couldn’t keep a straight face.

“Yeah, you totally look like you’re not in love with him.” Will said, sarcastically.

You groaned with frustration. “If it’s so obvious, what am I supposed to do when Kit finds out? He’ll never speak to me again.” You told Will. He reached a hand out and placed it on your shoulder to comfort you.

“Hey hey, Kit would never do that. Plus, I know we tease you both about it all the time, but I really think Kit has feelings for you. He’s always smiling when you’re around, and when you’re not around, all he does is talk about you.” Will told you. He really wanted the best for you and Kit. You were best friends, and he knew how happy you and Kit would be together.

“I may have lied when I said I hadn’t seen Kit since the last time the cast was together.” You told him, honestly.

About two months ago, you and the rest of the cast had to film some promotional content for the show. After that, you had been in New York working on some projects, while Kit had been in Boston. You both had really missed each other and knew you had to spend some time together.

“What is this I’m hearing about? A little secret date rendezvous?” Will asked, shocked. You both hadn’t mentioned it originally because you were worried there’d be more teasing about you both being in love with each other. But, if Will really thought Kit liked you, you wanted him to know.

“It wasn’t a date or anything romantic. We both happened to have a day off at the same time, so Kit bought a train ticket to New York, and we spent the whole day together.” You told Will. A smile grew on his face, seeing how happy you were talking about Kit.

“Wait was that the day you were late to breakfast with me and you were all smiley when I asked why you were late?” Will asked you, started to peace it together.

You shrugged with a giant smirk on your face. “I was happy I got to spend time with my best friend, but it wasn’t a date.” You told him.

You both continued to talk about the reasons Kit did or didn’t possibly like you throughout the flight. If you were going to make a move on Kit, you wanted to be pretty confident he liked you back.

You both landed at the airport and got to your hotel room before the premiere. After you both got ready, you headed over to the premiere in your limo.

When you arrived, you noticed only Joe and Bash on the red carpet, so you knew you were among the first to arrive. Will gestured for you to go first, and you posed on the carpet for pictures. Things continued as normal.

You smiled for all the cameras and posed just like you had done a million times.

You heard commotion among the photographers. Then, you realized they were calling Kit's name. You looked to your right and saw Kit standing on the red carpet. He glanced your direction, and your face lit up. He instantly smiled at you and waved.

Without wasting a second, he jogged over to where you were standing. “Hi,” you said, at the pitch of almost a squeal.

Kit wrapped his arms around you, picking you up off your feet and spinning you around. You could see the speedy flashes of the cameras as they all took pictures of your sweet reunion.

“I’ve missed you,” Kit whispered in your ear as he set you back on your feet. “I’ve missed you too,” you replied, resting your hands on his arms.

He pulled you into another hug, and the cameras began furiously flashing again. Everyone would be talking about the pictures tomorrow and how you happy you both looked.

“I’ve been looking forward to seeing you tonight,” he whispered in your ear, then you both started posing together for pictures. His arm effortlessly slid around your waist, and it felt more natural than you’d like to admit.

You heard an interviewer calling your name, so you pulled yourself away from Kit. She quickly introduced herself as Sarah and began asking you questions.

“While we know you can’t tell us much about what to expect in season two, but do you have any favorite moments from filming season two?” She asked. You nodded along to her question.

“Oooo favorite moment? There was one day that we had to do a night shoot, so we were all a little exhausted. Eventually, Joe, Kit, Yaz, Will, and I got a little delirious and giggly. The group of us just couldn’t keep it together. We just kept cracking up and once one of us was giggling, we all just couldn’t stop.” You told her, smiling as you recalled the memory.

You continued answering her questions, slightly going into autopilot with the typical questions.

You felt a slight chill go down your spine. The cool evening air felt soft against your skin, but you couldn’t help but shiver a little. You subconsciously crossed your arms and continued answering questions.

You felt a warm hand press against the small of your back. You turned around and saw Kit standing there. He gave you a soft smile. “I don’t mean interrupt. I just wanted to give you this.” Kit said, placing his jacket over your shoulders. Your lips curved up into a smile at his sweet gesture.

Then, Kit walked away to go back to the interview he was doing. You slipped your arms into Kit’s jacket, warming up instantly.

You continued rotating between interviews and posing for photographers.

Then, they called all the cast members for a big group photo. You huddled together, and Kit magically showed up at your side.

“Hi,” you said, cheerily smiling at him. He returned your smile. His arm slipped around your waist. Your big group all smiled for the photo.

Then, confetti went off above your heads, shocking you all. Kit was in awe as you watched you smiling and watching the confetti fall.

“What?” You asked when you finally noticed Kit staring at you. He just shook his head and smiled at you. He brushed some hair behind your ear, then grabbed a piece of confetti that was stuck in your hair.

He placed the confetti in his palm and playfully blew it towards you. You giggled softly to yourself. After standing there for a while, the cast starting to walk inside to the party celebrating the premiere.

Kit placed his two hands on your shoulders, so he wouldn’t lose you in the crowd. Once you both made it inside, you spotted Will, Yaz, and Joe. You made a beeline for them, and Kit followed.

“Mom and dad are back together.” Joe cheered when he spotted you both walking towards them. Yaz and Will joined his cheers and smiled at you.

“Alright, enough enough,” Kit said, trying to calm them down.

“We just love seeing you together. You’re best friends.” Will added. When Kit looked away, Will winked at you. You frowned at him, signaling him to stop.

“I’m going to go get a water. I’ll be right back.” Yaz said, and Kit followed after her. “Will told me you were going to try to make a move on Kit tonight.” Joe said, wiggling his eyebrows at you.

You playfully hit Will’s arm. “That was supposed to be a secret.” You said, giggling. “Well, I’m excited for you both. You better tell me how it goes.” Joe told you.

You glanced over Will’s shoulder and saw Kit standing at the bar with Yaz. He met your gaze and smiled at you from across the room.

You continued talking to Will and Joe, then Yaz rejoined your circle. You turned, expecting to see Kit following her, but you didn’t.

Then, you saw Kit talking to a girl, who was leaning in really close to him. You instantly felt a pit of jealousy in your stomach. Will noticed where you were looking. “Hey,” he said, softly. He reached out to comfort you, but you pushed his hand away.

You started walking towards Kit, knowing you had to tell him how you felt before it was too late. The girl excused herself from him right before you got to him.

“Hey, there you are,” Kit said, smiling at you. He noticed the shift in your demeanor instantly. Normally, you were all smiles when he was around.

“So, I don’t know who that girl was, but I just really need to tell you something. I’ve been meaning to tell you for a while, but I’ve been terrified. You’re my best friend, and you mean the absolute world to me. You make me so happy, and in more than a friend way. The last thing I want to do is destroy our friendship, but I can’t keep this in anymore, so I’m sorry if I just ruined everything.” You confessed.

Kit just stared at you. You could almost see his brain trying to piece together what you had told him. Then, he cupped your face and kissed you.

It took a second for your shock to wear off, but then you kissed him back. Kit’s arms wrapped around your waist, pulling you close to him. His lips moved smoothly against yours.

Both of you felt like you were on top of the world. You had been waiting a very long time for this to happen.

You both pulled out of the kiss and had giddy smiles on your face. “Wow, I can’t believe we just did that.” He said, smiling down at you.

“In a good way or a bad way?” You asked him, double-checking.

He chuckled at your uncertainty. “Definitely a good way,” he said, pulling you back in for another kiss. Over your shoulder, you heard cheering from your friends. “Mom and dad,” Will cheered.

“I guess we have a few fans.” You said, as you both pulled away. He nodded his head. “They did kind of predict the two of us having feelings for each other.” He told you, grinning.

“And here they come,” you said, seeing all your friends walking towards you. Kit grabbed your hand, interlacing your fingers and giving your hand a squeeze. “You guys finally did it.” Will cheered, pulling you both into a hug.

“Mom and dad are finally mom and dad. I love you guys,” Joe added.

When you had imagined your first kiss with Kit, all the versions you could think of involved a quiet date with just the two of you. You definitely didn’t expect it to be at a premiere, surrounded by all your friends. But now? You wouldn’t have it any other way.

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[katelynnwrites]

Somewhere In The Haze (Got A Sense I’d Been Betrayed) | Ona Batlle

warnings: angst

word count: 2352

summary: your sweet dream with ona is over

chosen song: the great war by taylor swift

a/n: chapter 1/6 of you were bigger than the whole sky (you were more than just a short time)

It was the start of the end really, when you’d proposed to Ona only to have her turn you down and leave shortly after.

It had been a last ditch, desperate attempt to give the love of your life, someone you had once known like the words to a favourite song, the something she’d been searching for. Only it wasn’t what she was searching for and it brought about the loss of well, pretty much everything you had ever known.

Just like that the sweet dream (that you once thought would be your reality) was over.

******

You had just stepped into a cafe when your past makes the most heartstopping of moments, in the form of a rather clumsy woman who bumps into you.

It takes you less than a second to recognise her, all too familiar chocolate brown eyes meeting yours.

Ona was always a heartstopper for you but now when it was least likely that you would see her again? It nearly makes you fall over.

Luckily (or unluckily) for you, Ona is there to catch you.

‘You okay am-?’

It’s only because of your sheer embarrassment that your fellow Spaniard’s slip of tongue goes unnoticed.

‘Y-yeah I’m fine.’ You stammer, twisting out of her hold and stepping back rapidly.

Her hand on your back was bringing back too many memories so you cast a glance back at her and run.

******

Millie is the first person you call, shaky sobs punctuating your words as you tell her who you had run into.

The English woman comes over immediately, enveloping you in a tight hug and letting you cry.

She rocks you back and forth, murmuring soothing words until you exhaust yourself.

There’s no more tears from you, just a question that you voice fragilely, ‘Why is she back?’

******

That question is answered when you wake in the morning and find a text from the one person who used to be your everything (it hurt you endlessly that she still is despite all she had done).

(Ona) 08:17

‘Hola. Can we talk please?’

Sighing, you rub your temple before typing out an answer. This was going to backfire, you just knew it.

(You) 09:23

‘Ok.’

Ellipses appear immediately and you frown, wondering if she had been glued to her phone and waiting for your answer.

(Ona) 09.23

‘Gracias. Will that cafe at 11am today be alright?’

(You) 09.24

‘Sí.’

Once upon a time, you would have replied to her texts with a lot more words and a lot more enthusiasm.

******

It’s in the middle of summer that your fourteen year old self checks your phone to see a message from your girlfriend.

(Ona) 15.07

‘Mi vida do you want to come over? I miss you.’

(You) 15.08

‘Oni we just saw each other this morning.’

‘But yes I miss you too.’

(Ona) 15.08

‘Yes!’

‘Does this mean you’re coming over now?’

(You) 15.09

‘Sí.’

‘Is the other reason you’re so excited for me to go over because you need help with your homework?’

(Ona) 15.09

‘No…’

(You) 15.09

‘You sure?’

(Ona) 15.10

‘Okay yes but it’s science and you know how much I don’t like it.’

‘I’ll bribe you with kisses?’

‘Please mi amor?’

(You) 15.11

‘I knew it. I’m already on my way :)’

(Ona) 15.11

‘Muchas gracias.’

******

Now thirteen years later, you don’t text Ona to let her know you’re on your way.

You simply show up at the Barcelona player’s requested timing and settle yourself at a small table in the corner. It would be a big lie on your part, if you were to say you weren’t nervous.

This cafe is around the corner from your place (the place that you and Ona used to share) and you have been a regular here for years.

It was purely an accident that you’d discovered the little cafe but the unassuming neutral decor, book shelves and square tables set with mismatched mason jars holding two or three wildflowers was an environment that you had felt at ease in immediately.

This was the place you and Ona used to eat brunch at, when you had the rare day off.

It pulls you out of your head, when you see her standing in front of you, an anxious smile on her face as she softly asks, ‘Is this seat taken?’

Ona’s face was once as familiar to you as your own. You had known every freckle, every dimple (had even pressed your lips onto each one of them, once upon a time) that she had called hers.

Now, you didn’t. You haven’t even properly seen her face in almost three years. It was part of your ‘No Ona’ rule.

The ‘No Ona’ rule had been brought into existence one night after you had broken down sobbing when an Instagram post featuring Ona from Barcelona had shown up on your feed.

In summary, the ‘No Ona’ rule meant that you unfollowed her, the Spanish national team and Barcelona on all your social medias to prevent more breakdowns on your part.

It included your teammates not mentioning Ona as long as you were within earshot. It had also resulted in you taking down every post that showed Ona from your social medias (there were a lot. and they now resided in your archive because deleting them was an unbearable idea).

This removal of photos was reflected in your apartment too (those photos were in a box hidden deep in your closet because like the digital photos, you could not bear to get rid of them permanently).

So having not seen Ona properly in years, it’s predictable that you stare speechless at her for a moment, a moment long enough that Ona begins to look unsure of herself.

Shaking your head quickly, you gesture for the fullback to take a seat, still not trusting yourself to form coherent sentences.

‘Thanks.’ Ona says.

It seems that Ona too, can’t look away, her brown eyes fixed on yours as she sits.

She fiddles with the strings of her cream hoodie until she awkwardly breaks the silence with a tiny, ‘Hi.’

If it were in the circumstances of before (there would only ever be one before for you), you would have laughed at her cuteness.

In the after, you respond in like, giving her a quiet, ‘Hola.’

The painful silence resumes and you silently thank the waiter that interrupts to take your coffee orders.

‘I’ll just take a hot chocolate please.’

Ona’s lips quirk up into a smile once the waiter leaves, ‘You still don’t drink coffee.’

You take her cue, smiling slightly as you answer, ‘I don’t.’

‘How are you?’

‘I’m good.’

‘How have you been?’

‘I’m good too.’

Ona’s smile falters and you know exactly what she’s thinking because you’re thinking it too.

Fuck this is painful.

******

Conversations with Ona are your favourite thing.

Sharing kisses with her is a close second and laying with your head in her lap as she plays with your hair is third.

At sixteen and having all three with her in this moment, you think you might just be about to float with happiness.

‘Mi amor did you know that raccoons have feet that can rotate 180°?’

‘No I didn’t, thank you for sharing that with me baby.’

Ona plants a little kiss on your lips and you grin.

No matter what either of you said, it was never awkward between both of you.

******

The former Manchester United player swallows hard. She reaches her hand across the table before remembering and stopping herself.

‘I’m sorry for bumping into you yesterday.’ She tries.

‘It’s fine.’ You answer but an emotion you can’t quite describe flashes across Ona’s face.

‘No. No it’s not.’

‘No?’

Ona shakes her head.

‘I’m sorry. I had this all rehearsed but it’s coming out all wrong.’

She looks close to tears and you reach out to grab her hand.

‘Take your time.’

The Spaniard flinches but quickly recovers, bringing her free hand up to cover yours.

‘Gracias.’ She whispers.

Withdrawing your hand, you wait patiently for her to compose herself.

‘It’s been a while.’ Ona starts.

You hum in acknowledgement. (a while was a gross understatement, it had been forever)

******

Being separated from Ona was something you hated.

From the moment you met, you had never once been separated for more than a day. Except for the time you went on a family holiday to Italy and after Ona suffered her ankle injury in the U20 World Cup.

For the first, you had called whenever you could and texted pretty much constantly, to the point where your parents had joked that they should have simply invited her along.

For the second, being separated from Ona for three weeks was agony. You missed her so badly that if it wasn’t for your dedication to your teammates and your determination to win it for your injured girlfriend, you would have gone home to her.

Those three weeks without her had been forever then.

If you’d told your nineteen year old self that you would have spent the last three years apart from Ona, she would have been absolutely sure you were crazy.

******

It’s your turn to almost cry, blinking at the table in an attempt to keep the tears at bay.

‘It’s been a while and I-I’ll be in England for a bit. More specifically, I’ll be in Manchester for a bit.’

‘Oh.’ You stare blankly at her, wondering what possible reason she could have to return. It certainly wasn’t for you because you weren’t enough for her all those years ago, so why would you be now?

‘Escúchame please. I won’t be in your way, I’ll make sure our paths never cross if you want so. If I meet up with your current teammates, my old United teammates, I’ll make sure it won’t concern you.’ Ona rushes out.

‘Ona-’

‘I promise.’ She swears, without waiting for you to finish.

‘Ona you don’t have to do that.’

‘My friends, they’re your friends too and it would be unfair of me to keep you from seeing them just because we broke up. I don’t want us to have to be the kind of exes that have to geographically divide the city.’

The woman sitting across from you stares in shock. She hadn’t expected you to be so nice to her. Then again Ona should never have doubted you, your kindness knew no limits, even when she knew she didn’t deserve it.

******

‘Want to share my granola bar? We can split it in half if you’re hungry?’

The offer startles the smaller girl sitting beside you (in the years to come, Ona shoots up to become taller than you).

She looks up, brown eyes wide as she questions, ‘Are you sure? I don’t want you to be hungry too.’

‘I’m sure. I won’t be, I promise.’ You nod at her rapidly, willing her to accept the snack. All your other new teammates were eating too and you didn’t want the pretty girl with freckles to feel left out (you might have been only twelve but she’s the prettiest girl you’ve ever seen).

‘Okay.’ She shyly agrees and you smile, breaking the granola bar in two so that she can have half.

‘Gracias.’ She smiles, gently taking it from you.

In between nibbles of the small snack, you get her to open up and learn that her name is Ona and that she loves cheetahs.

******

It’s that memory that has you shocking Ona further.

‘Can we go on a date?’

Your ex nearly spits out her mouthful of coffee.

‘W-What?’ She chokes out.

‘Friend dates Ona. You were my best friend before you were my girlfriend. I’ve missed that. I miss you and if you are going to be in Manchester…I’d like to get to know you again.’ You clarify.

This was definitely silly, reckless (and possibly astronomically stupid) of you but you needed to try. You needed to understand why she left you like she did.

Your heart rate increases as you wait for her to respond. Here you were, putting yourself out again, risking your already broken heart.

******

‘Ona? Please just come to bed.’ You beg.

Your twenty four year old girlfriend was curled on the couch, staring unblinkingly at the wall opposite.

It had been like this for weeks now. Ona had pulled away and stopped touching you. She stopped kissing you, stopped talking to you and now, wouldn’t share the same bed as you (in the days to come, she stops looking at you).

You couldn’t sleep without her but like with each previous development, you respected her space.

Despite how much pain you were in, you gave her what she wanted.

There was no warning, no indication that she would start pulling away. It was just one less thing every day. (until eventually there was nothing)

‘Mi amor please. Please.’

Your voice cracks on the last word. There are tears falling down your cheeks now but your girlfriend doesn’t respond. She doesn’t even look up.

As you let out a sob and walk back to your bedroom, you come to the heartbreaking realisation that you’d lost her.

That was the night you really knew you had lost her.

******

Ona scans your face, looking for any sign of the anger and resentment that should be there.

Instead, all she finds is resignation, sorrow and hurt, under the anxiety that you show as you wait for her answer.

Above all that though, she can see hope. Hope that maybe, just maybe you could get to know each other again.

In an instant, Ona’s mind is made up. She can’t find it in herself to inflict any more suffering on you and this olive branch that you were extending, it gave her the chance to attempt to make things up to you (she was determined to do everything she possibly could to try).

‘I’d like that.’

The soft words and the matching soft smile on her face makes that little glimmer of hope that you have, glow.

Spanish Translations:

amor - love

hola - hi/hello

gracias - thank you

sí - yes

mi vida - my life

muchas gracias - thank you so much

escúchame - listen to me

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[raccoonbatz]

What happens in Paris // Tao Xu x F!Reader [ PART 1 ]

A/N: Welcome to my first non- oneshot! I just finished heartstopper season 2 and my unhealthy obsession with Tao came back and I became inspired by writing for this man, so much that I decides to make a multiple parts story this time! :) Keep in mind that english isn't my first language so sorry if some things are written wrong.

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Summary: Your typical enemies to lovers w/ kinda slowburn story!

Important: Elle and Tao are just best friends in this story. As much as I ship these two I just had to write this with y/n :) oh and it takes place in season 2, after the exams.

Warnings: Swearing, alcohol

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"Soo, you're excited for Paris?" Nick asked while softly bumping your shoulder as you walk towards the party.

"Yea! Very excited to be with my best friends in a country I've never been to." You said excited.

"Reminder, I am not your best friend." Someone said behind you. You turned your head and met with Tao's eyes.

"I didn't actually include you." You said and he scoffed. You rolled your eyes and turned back to Nick who chuckled a bit.

"I don't really get why you guys don't just get along-" Charlie said.

"Because she is annoying-" Tao said but you quickly interrupted him.

"Says the one who always has to intervene." You said.

"I don't do that-" He said.

"You literaly just did-" You said confused.

"Yea, you kinda do-" Elle added and he scoffed.

"Now she's turning you too?" He said playfully to Elle and she chuckled.

"Not turning, just stating facts." She says and you chuckled. Tao playfully rolled his eyes

You guys arrived at the woods party, where everyone was already dancing, drinking and partying. Elle waved to some of her new friends and walked towards them. Isaac was getting a drink with James and Nick and Charlie were heading somewhere deeper in the woods together which left u with Darcy, Tara and Tao.

"Let's get something to drink" Darcy said and u nodded.

"I swear Darcy if u get too drunk again-" Tara said and u chuckled.

"What are you talking about-" Darcy said and Tao snickered.

"That's what we're talking about, you don't even remember." Tao said

"Yea I mean, we love to babysit you the whole night don't get us wrong but-" You said but Tao interupted you

"Did you just agree with me?" He said with a smirk on his face.

"Tao, I swear if u don't get that stupid smirk off your face-" You said trying to intimidate him which was quite hard since he was alot taller than you.

"Then what?" He said, still smirking. Darcy and Tara looked at each other and sneaky blended with the crowd to get away.

"Then you'll-" You said but took a quick look around to see that you guys were abandoned. Tao looked around and realized the same.

"Those fuckers-" You said and Tao chuckled.

"They don't wanna be seen with you either." He said and you rolled your eyes.

"Then what are you still doing here hmm?" You said and crossed your arms.

"That is-" He says and paused for a bit. "A really good question" He added and thought for a bit.

"Goodbye!" He says and started to walk away. You sighed and turned around, walking in the direction you thought Darcy and Tara went in.

You walked towards the place where you could get a drink and grabbed a red cup and poured something to drink in it. U took a sip and quickly realized it wasn’t just soda.

“Ah, there you are!” You heard behind you and turned around.

“Ah, hey Tara!” You smiled but your smile quickly faded away remembering that they left you.

“Why in gods name did u guys leave me with that asshole?” You asked and they chuckled

“We know you like him-“ Darcy said and u spit out your sip that you were taking

“You guys are batshit crazy-“ You said and chuckled.

“Everyone knows” Tara added and u laughed

“The fact that u guys can’t feel the tension is insane!” Darcy said and you rolled your eyes.

“I don’t know which tension you’re talking about. The only tension I feel when talking to him is an angry one.” You said and took a big sip of your cup.

Darcy and Tara gave each-other a look while you looked at them confused.

“Is there something I don’t know?” You asked and they snickered.

“No- no no nothing to worry about-“ Tara said and u sighed.

“Nevermind then- Where is everyone?” You asked

“We have no clue-“ Darcy said.

The party went on for a bit. Charlie and Nick went home early because Nick wasn’t feeling well. Darcy and Tara also already left and Elle and Isaac were nowhere to be found. When you grabbed your headphones to listen so some music for the long walk home, u felt a tap on your shoulder.

“Ur still here?” Tao asked confused.

“Yea, I was about to walk home.” You said and wanted to turn around, but Tao stopped you again.

“You’re walking alone? Now?” He said and looked genuinely confused.

“Uh, yeah? Do you see anybody else with me right now?” You said and chuckled. Tao stood still for a second.

Then he hesitated for a second to say something.

“Spit it out dude.” You said.

“I know we don’t get along, but I also don’t want you to walk alone to your house.” He said and looked.. concerned?

“Uh-“ You were taken a bit back. He never said something nice to you.

“You want to walk me home?” You said confused.

“No- I don’t want to-“ He says and pauses for a bit. “But I would probably get killed by the rest if they knew I let you walk alone.” He added and chuckled a bit.

“Fair.” You said and softly smiled.

“Fine, we can walk together but-“ You said and paused

“But what?” He asked

“I want to listen to my music tho.” You said as you placed your headphones on your head.

“Perfect for me!” He says and takes out his earbuds and places them into his ears.

As you guys were walking home you caught yourself looking at Tao sometimes.

You never really noticed how cute he is.

#tao xu x reader #heartstopper #heartstopper x reader #Nick nelson #Charlie spring #elle argent #tara jones #darcy olsson #isaac henderson #tao xu

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💝Candy Heart Valentine Event 2024!💝

We're back again- WHOOO!

Heyo everybody! It's the sweetest time of the year; Candy Hearts time! Thank you so, so much to everyone who's participated in the sentence starters survey this year; it really helped me figure out what prompts to keep and which to change out! I truly appreciate it!

Another major thank you to everyone who's also sent in suggestions! There were so many good ones to pick from; and I ended up choosing a few from the ones recommended!

💝 Rules💝

- Send me a pairing (Platonic or Romantic) from the fandoms listed below along with a candy heart phrase (Sentence Starter) from the list! (Ex: ObaMitsu- True Love) and I will write a short dabble for it!

- The event will be open from January 28-February 13th, ending at 8:00 PM EST. I will make an announcement when prompts are officially closed!

-Multiple prompts are allowed! The limit is like- 5? Just be sure to send them in separate asks if you send multiples! (Helps me make sure I get them all :D)

- Dabbles will start coming out Feb 1!

- I do write “Character x Reader!” (If you want it to be platonic, please specify with “Platonic!Reader”)

-Multiple sentence starter requests are allowed!

- Requester’s Choice: This is essentially a blank Candy- you can pick whatever sentence starter you want for it! :)

-Please check my pinned post for any characters/ships/things I will and won't write! Thank you :)

~Candy Hearts and Fandoms Below The Cut~

💝 Candy Heart Sentence Starters 💝

**: Recommended by you lovely folks!

❤️ Be Mine: “Oh that is IT! Come here!”

🧡 Miss You: “When’s the last time you smiled?”

💛 True Love: “I could do this all day.”

💚 Cutie: “You can't hide from me, I can hear you laughing!"**

💙 XOXO: “Hey, do you like raspberries?”

💜 Angel: “What happens if I do this?”

❤️ I love you: "What a brave thing to say for someone so ticklish."**

🧡 Bestie: Requester’s choice: Pick your own sentence starter!

💛 Sweet Heart: “Oh? Is someone ticklish?”

💚 Cupid: “I’m gonna get you!”

💗 Say Yes: “Hey did you- give that back!"**

💙 Smile: “I didn’t know you were ticklish here!”

💜 Hug: “I just want a hug!”

❤️ Darling: “Do you want me to tickle you?”

🧡 Love bug: “What’s so funny?”

💛 Soul Mate: “Not there? What about here?”

💚 Sweet Pea: “Is this a bad spot?”

💙 Adore: “I haven't even touched you yet!"

💜 Kiss me: “Don’t stop? If you say so!”

❤️ Me + You: “No way! I didn’t know you were ticklish!”

🧡 Always and Forever: “Look how red you are! How cute!”

💛 I’m Yours: “You like being tickled, don’t you?”

💚 Puppy love: “Where are those giggles I love so much?”

💙 Only You: "Stop squirming!"**

💜 Hot Stuff: “Come over here and make me!”

🩷 Be My Valentine: "I know all your weaknesses!"**

❤ It's Love: "Hey could You...You Know?"

🧡 Babydoll: "Keep your arms up!"**

💝 Fandoms 💝

-Some of the fandoms on here will have **Limited Request** beside them. This means I will only be taking up to a limited amount of that fandom.

If the fandom is crossed out, it means all slots for it have been filled!

Big Windup

Black Clover

Blue Lock

Buddy Daddies

Bungo Stray Dogs

Chainsaw Man

Code Realize

Collar x Malice

Danganronpa

Demon Slayer **Limited Request**

Dr. Stone

Fire Force

Fruit’s Basket

Free! Iwatobi Swim Club

Given

Haikyuu!!

Heartstopper

Hell’s Paradise: Jirokuraku

Hunter x Hunter (Up to Greed Island arc)

Jojo’s Bizarre Adventure

Jujutsu Kaisen

Komi Can’t Communicate

Moriarty The Patriot

My Hero Academia **Limited Requests**

Piofiore (Dante's route; still working on others)

Pokemon **Limited Requests** (All Gens)

Rain Code: Master Detectives

Sk8 The Infinity

Spy x Family

Toliet Bound Hanako Kun

Tokyo Revenges

Vinland Saga

Yu Yu Hakusho

Thanks again to everyone! I'm so excited to see what y'all have in store! :D

#squiggily rambles #Candy Heart Valentine Event #chve2k24 #Let the event begin! >:D #I'm so excited for this AHH!

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Parents, Teachers, and Siblings in Heartstopper

Being a little older than the target audience for heartstopper, one of the parts of the show that stuck out to me from the first watch was the presence of the adult figures. In so many teen-focused shows, the adults don't exist and the kids are left to figure it out on their own, or the adults are only there to be some sort of obstacle or challenge to overcome. This makes sense as this is the part of life where we start transitioning from our family units to creating our own communities, but in heartstopper, there is a recognition that these adults still play a role in our lives.

Most people can easily name Nick's mom (aka Sarah Nelson) or the art teacher (Mr. Ajayi) and a lot has been written about them. They serve as real guides for Nick and Charlie respectively. I think the key quality they both share is they are listeners. When Nick and Charlie are there to talk, they put down what they are doing, and they listen. They answer the questions and give advice. They don't tell what to do. It's kind of the opposite of what we think the job of an adult is. It embraces the idea that these teens have reached a point where they have their own experiences and should be trusted to decide their own best way forward.

The one adult who sticks out the most, though, is Charlie's dad, Julio. He's in the show two times, basically as Charlie's chauffeur. But when he's there, he's really there. When he picks Charlie up from Harry’s party, he can see that Charlie is distraught, and what he offers is comfort. The hug and comforting words that he offers to Charlie are so gentle and kind. He doesn’t try to pry the information out of Charlie or fix his problems. When he picks Charlie up from the movies, he can see Charlie is in distress, but again, he doesn’t press. He opens the door for Charlie to share, and, when Charlie doesn’t, he respects the choice and gets Charlie away from the distressing situation. This sort of quiet, loving support shows a real respect and kindness in his parenting.

On the other hand, we see Charlie’s mom once, and it is kind of a non-event if you don’t know the rest of the story. But when you look deeper, you see the seeds of the dysfunction in their relationship. She’s completely oblivious to the obvious emotional tension between Nick and Charlie. Nick is literally standing in the foyer soaking wet without a coat or umbrella. Shouldn’t that register as odd or at least elicit a query if everything is alright? But it doesn’t. Instead, she feels the need to highlight the need to keep their meeting short and then chastise Charlie for not changing out of his pajamas first! It’s subtle but lays the groundwork for the strife to come.

Let’s talk about Tori, too. While Tori is only a year older than Charlie, she plays a big role in Charlie’s life and support system. This is an important positive familial relationship. She can tell when Charlie is going through something, even from him just staring at his bowl, and encourages him to name what he wants for himself. She’s subtle in her warnings and fierce in her need to protect him. This isn’t just typical older sister love. This is genuine care and support, and, as she’s more Charlie’s contemporary, she gets a real insight into why he needs this. Hers is the most informed and necessary adult presence in his life — even if she’s just on the edge of being an adult.

I want to also add Coach Singh briefly. She’s in the background of the action and manages to drop a line here and there. You see her really trying to make him a part of the team with her encouragement. She’s a little more prominent in her support in the comic, but there is one moment in the show that really stuck out for me. When Charlie goes to quit the rugby team, she is truly excited to see him. And when Charlie tells her he wants to quit, she really wants him to stay and asks if it’s the other boys. Charlie doesn’t really notice how she’s trying to help, though. She’s a subtle supportive character that I would guess will have more to say next season… if the comics play out onto the screen.

In conclusion, once again, I am impressed with how much Alice Oseman managed to fit into four hours of amazing television.

#heartstopper #nick nelson #charlie spring #heartstopper tv #heartstopper gifs #heartstopper meta #alice oseman #mr ajayi #sarah nelson #julio spring #jane spring #coach singh #tori spring

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Fandom Focus #42

Young Royals - After I binged this show it kinda took over my brain. I'm in deep, and I am loving it. Can't believe it took me so long to dive into it but I'm having a great time in this fandom so far!

Interview with the Vampire 2022 - It's a comin'! It's almost time for season 2, we've been fed with teasers and trailers galore and I am so freaking excited for this you have NO IDEA!!! About to be obsessed with this show again for a long time!

Six of Crows/Shadow and Bone - GUESS WHO MET KAZ AND INEJ?!!!! AND HAD A PHOTO WITH THEM?! AND GOT THEM TO SIGN MY COLLECTORS EDITION OF SIX OF CROWS?! It was so fucking amazing, and I got to ask Freddy a question at the panel - he confirmed Kaz is Wylan's father figure and he tried to embody that which I love! Yeah so been reading fics. Knee deep in love with this universe again.

Mary & George - I need to rewatch it. It's circling in my brain honestly. What a good show. Everyone go watch it now (for my USA friends it's coming out on Starz on the 5th, and might well hit pirating sites as well soon if it hasn't already).

Red, White & Royal Blue is still circling my head, don't worry. It will not leave me alone! Jurassic Park is also in my brain (and I may be doing a uni assessment to do with it too), and Heartstopper has a small corner too!

#fandom focus #fandom focus no.42 #young royals #amc iwtv #amc interview with the vampire #six of crows #shadow and bone #mary and george #mary & george #rwrb #jurassic park #heartstopper

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Orla Gartland Songs That Would Describe a Relationship with Max Wolfe - Max Wolfe Imagine [Gossip Girl (2021)]

Title: Orla Gartland Songs That Would Describe a Relationship with Max Wolfe

Pairing: Max Wolfe X Reader

Word Count: 2,463 words

Warning(s): insecurities, mention of sex

Author's Note: Because I found out that "Why Am I Like This?" by Orla Gartland was in Gossip Girl and I found that very funny because it was also in Heartstopper. Shit like that makes me chuckle. [side note: I've also been a fan of Orla for years, so seeing her get featured on so many shows is very exciting]

Also, if that song is playing over your scene, then I'm going to assume that things aren't going great.

**Not intentionally written in chronological order**

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Madison

Oh I've been thinkin' How you been, how you been? I told you Every single secret and you sat there silent I needed you then, now I need you again

It was early.

That was the first thing I thought about when I thought about that day. It was easily four in the morning, maybe four-thirty. I pulled my front door open because I could have sworn that something was out there making noise.

I found Max sitting on the floor next to my door. He had fallen asleep there.

I hadn't seen him in a few years at that point. Well, that wasn't true. I had seen him, but I hadn't talked to him. We had grown apart. I would always be able to pick his laugh out of a crowd, but I wouldn't be able to ask how his day was.

I knelt next to him and awkwardly pushed at his arm.

He fell over a bit but woke up in time to catch himself. It took a moment for his eyes to properly focus on me, but when they did, he offered me a lazy, tired smile.

"Hey," he said like he wasn't half-asleep on my doorstep.

"Hi," I replied awkwardly. "What are you doing here, Max?"

"I needed to see you," he explained. He sighed. "God, I missed you."

"Yeah, I missed you too... are you drunk?"

"Not anymore," he shrugged. "I was when I first got here."

"How long have you been out here?"

"Oh... I don't know. I just assumed. I tried to knock but no one answered."

"I was asleep," I ran a hand over my face. "Come on."

To say that Max looked like a mess would be an understatement. That wasn't meant to be an insult, but it wasn't a difficult conclusion to draw. His hair was a mess, his eyes were tired and glazed over, and his skin was pale enough to truly worry me. And that was all not taking his clothes into consideration, which were a complete mess.

He found a place to sit that was immediately in front of my couch.

"Do you want some water or tea... ibuprofen... a breath mint?" I listed as he did.

"I wanna talk to you."

I furrowed my eyebrows. "Why?"

"You're my best friend."

I bit my lip and looked down. "All due respect, Max, but we haven't been friends in a long time now."

"Well, that was a stupid choice on my part."

I chuckled but tried to hide it. "Why are you really here?"

"I told you-"

"No, I want to know what actually led you to my doorstep last night. How did you even know which place was mine?"

"Gossip Girl posted about your building for some reason... and your neighbor helped me," he explained. "Little old woman?"

That little old woman had been asking when I was going to find someone to settle down with. I thought it was just normal old woman talk, not that she would send a man that was clearly not in his right mind to my doorstep.

I just nodded in response.

"You didn't answer why you're here."

It felt harsh, but it was a good question.

"I got my heart broken and I didn't want to go home."

I took a deep breath. I had heard about Max and his new relationship. I think most people in this social circle had. I had been happy for him. He looked happy with them.

"Will you sit with me for a while," he asked. "Please?"

I hesitated for a moment. "Let me get some coffee. Want some?"

Max shook his head.

I grabbed a mug of coffee before walking over and sitting next to him on the floor. He leaned his head on my shoulder.

"We used to do this all the time," he muttered. "We'd make forts."

"Using that tall lamp from the corner of the living room," I added, grinning to myself. "Those forts were a work of art."

He chuckled and nodded. "We should make another one."

"Maybe later," I mumbled. "How about you tell me what happened? Those forts did use to be time for us to talk about drama."

"Yeah, when we were in elementary school."

"What's the real difference between then and now," I asked.

I heard another chuckle escape him.

It took him a while but after a few minutes, he started to tell me the entire story from the beginning. I was happy that he wasn't looking at my face. My eyes had gone wide in reaction to all the things that I had missed.

But through the early morning, there was this sense of familiarity and comfort. Even after so many years and so much happened, it felt so natural to sit with Max and talk.

It was nice to know that Max and I could still be so close after so many years.

Zombie!

Take your time Take your time Cause babe what's yours is mine All your drama and your trauma That you hide from the boys If I say that I'll stay Then I'll stay but I can't Sit here watching you wasting away

I sometimes felt like I went too far in the name of supporting Max through the rough patch he was thinking.

He needed a change of scenery. I let him stay on my couch in the living room. I knew that investing in that pull-out couch was the right choice.

I only wished that his change in scenery came with some kind of change in behavior.

We had had the conversation countless times. He would go out for the night and bring someone home. It was irritating how many times I had to tell him to not bring people in. I didn't want to listen to them, and I didn't want to see anything in the morning. It was just the wrong place for him to have a guest over.

It was another night of him dragging someone new through the door.

I heard them through the wall while I was hunched over a textbook at my desk.

I took a deep breath before grabbing a pillow and walking out.

"Hey!"

There was barely any reaction.

I threw the pillow as I yelled again, "Hey!"

The guy jumped off of the couch and looked at me. Thankfully, he was still mostly dressed. His eyes jumped between Max and me. I looked over at Max.

"We have had this discussion," I said. He just shrugged.

The other guy still looked incredibly awkward.

"Um, hi," he tried to shake my hand.

"Hi, please get out," I replied.

He grabbed his shirt and jacket. "It's nice to meet you. Max, you have my number, you can call me whenever-"

I snapped at the guy, "Get the fuck out!"

"Sorry," he mumbled before doing some awkward run outside.

"What the hell," Max asked after the door shut.

"I... Listen. I understand that you're going through a rough patch right now," I explained. "I really do. And I'm really trying to be supportive, but this... can't happen. You can't bring random people here. Okay?"

"I'm just trying to enjoy myself."

"Then go to their place," I shrugged. "I don't want to listen to you fuck someone on my couch. I have to be able to sleep before work and I need to study. I can't deal with the partying and the sex and all of it. I'm sorry, but this place isn't the right place for it."

"Listen, I am just having fun," he replied. "I am sorry that you can't find someone to have fun with. Just because you can't find someone that wants to touch you or want you, doesn't mean that I should have to suffer."

My eyes widened at the insult. It took me a moment to respond, "This is where you realize how fucking rude your statement was and apologize."

"I don't think it is."

I took a deep breath. "I... I offered a place to stay, food, kindness... and you're going to show a complete lack of respect and understanding of my boundaries? I shouldn't have expected you to be different than that little boy who abandoned me at the first chance of getting something more exciting!"

I stormed out of the room before he could respond. I slammed my bedroom door shut.

"Shit!"

I ran my hands over my face and sat back down at my desk. I tried to blink away any tears that formed. I knew that they were caused by anger and stress, but that didn't stop the embarrassment. I wanted to believe that Max and I were friends again. Believe that it be like the last however many years had never happened. But times like these made it really hard to believe that.

It was probably just over an hour before there was a knock on my door.

"I really don't want to talk, Max," I called.

"Please..."

I let out a sigh before pushing myself up and walking over to the door.

I opened the door just enough to look at him. I raised an eyebrow at him.

"I'm sorry," he said quietly. "You were right."

I just nodded.

"I promise that I'll do better," he continued. "I won't bring people here. I'll cut back on the partying. I... I know that you just want to help me. And I... I don't want to be the same guy who abandoned you."

There was a small pause.

Max went to speak again but I cut him off by stepping forward and wrapping my arms around him. I closed my eyes and let out a heavy sigh as he hugged me back.

"I'm so sorry."

I opened my eyes, ready to accept the apology but paused when I saw something over his shoulder. "Did... Did you build a fort in my living room?"

He stepped back with a smile on his face. "Yeah... is that okay?"

"Why did you build a fort in my living room?"

"I thought it was nice," he shrugged. "Like old times."

I grinned at it.

"Is it okay?"

"Yes," I replied, nodding. "Yes, it's okay. It's very nice."

"Come on!" he pulled me over to the fort that he had made over the pull-out couch. He held the blanket to the side so I could crawl in first.

I chuckled as he plopped on the couch next to me. "Not quite as roomy as when we were little."

"Just cozier than they used to be," he replied. He looked at me for a second. "I'm sorry."

I reached over and grabbed his hand. "It's okay. I promise."

He grinned again.

Changes started small. And this felt like a good small step forward.

oh GOD

If you always just laugh it off I won't be opening up We kissed on the bed It messed with my head Does that mean nothing to you?

"You've been avoiding me."

It wasn't a question. It was a statement. An observation.

It was a good observation on Max's part. He must have realized that when I sighed and closed my eyes for a moment.

"It's kinda hard to hide that when we share a one-bedroom apartment," he explained, a smirk pulling at his lips.

It was such a strange moment in my mind. It felt like I had my memories about Max in one place and then that moment sat out on its own.

I don't even remember what we had been talking about at the time. I remember that we were sitting on the pull-out couch that Max had been using. At some point, he moved closer to me. There was this long pause before he leaned over and kissed me. I pulled back in a matter of seconds.

The silence after that made my chest tighten. I got up and muttered out some long line of apologies before going to run to my room.

I spent days doing what I could to avoid him. Like he said, that was difficult in our current living conditions.

"You do know what happened was okay, right," he asked. "It's fine."

"No, no, it's really not," I said.

He chuckled. "(Y/n), it was a kiss. A quick kiss at that. That's it. It's not a big deal-"

"It is for me," I cut him off. "And I didn't want to have this conversation because I knew that this is exactly what would happen."

His eyebrows furrowed.

"I get that it may not be a big deal for you, but it is for me," I took a deep breath. "It's not just because there was a kiss. It's because it was you. I have some shit to sort through on my end before I can act normal again."

"I see."

I just nodded. "Now... please get out of my room."

"Yeah... no."

"Max, I'm being serious."

"So am I," he replied, stepping toward me. "I said it wasn't a big deal because I didn't want you to panic about it. Not because I saw it as nothing."

I bit my lip. I was not ready to have an argument with him right now. About anything.

"You are my best friend. We have been friends since we were kids."

There was an intermission in our friendship, but I had no interest in correcting him.

"I wouldn't do something like that if I hadn't thought about it before," he continued. "I may be a bit impulsive, but I'm not a complete idiot."

I couldn't help but wonder how long he had spent thinking about it. How many times had it almost happened without me ever realizing it?

"And... I haven't really stopped thinking about it since," he mumbled.

"Are you being serious," I asked. "I mean it. This isn't some screwed-up joke or some weird way to try to comfort me-"

"Kiss me."

I froze where I was. I didn't have a response. Not a verbal one or a physical one.

"(Y/n)-"

Like him saying my name flipped some kind of switch, I leaned in and pressed my lips to his.

This kiss, like the one before, only lasted for a few seconds before I leaned back again. I saw the smug grin forming on Max's face.

"Shut up," I muttered.

"Wanna go to dinner tonight?"

I paused for a second.

"I'd like to take you on a proper date."

"Oh," I mumbled. "Yeah, that... that sounds nice."

"Good," he cupped the sides of my face and kissed me again. "Better than avoiding me, isn't it?"

"Maybe," I shrugged.

"Maybe?"

"I could be convinced."

"Is that right?"

I nodded.

"I do enjoy a challenge."

I chuckled.

It was nice to know that I didn't have to hide anymore.

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Heartstopper season 2 play-by-play analysis

This would be the moment in the typical movie where the character comes out and gets the happy ending and love ever after, and everything is alright, right?

But coming out is a choice for some people, and not so much for others, and it's not always perfect, and love does not always conquer all, and sometimes love is not even part of your story...

And sometimes there are many more issues, and not so simple solutions, and things aren't always black and white...

I'm getting ahead of myself, aren't I?

EPISODE 6 - TRUTH/DARE

- Nick knew how to get to the café without consulting Google maps or anything, which means this is a place he’s been to before.

- Nick and Charlie letting go of each other’s hands as they walk into the cafe. And “would you feel better if I waited here?” Nick’s rotund and absolute “NO,” then, a little as if to make sure that Charlie knows it’s about himself being nervous and not about Charlie being imposing, he adds “No, please come with me.”

- “He used to visit every summer”, and it makes you wonder why he stopped. Then Stephane really has no idea how old his son is and how much time he still has before he graduates, because he’s not involved in Nick’s life. Any child of divorced parents knows that nod either means Martine is not interested in meeting Nick (and probably David), or Stephane is unsure of how to bring it up. Or both. “Perhaps someday soon,” means “I will put it off forever because I don’t want to deal with that.” Martine definitely had to do something with Nick not visiting anymore, and even David probably hasn’t stayed with him either. Yet David brings it up when we first see him. “Next time I’ll stay with dad”. Sure. (Even the fact that he mentions how their dad will react when he finds out Nick is bi, indicates that he still very much cares about his father’s opinions and thoughts, even when Stephane doesn’t seem to care much about his sons’ lives.)

- “I’m sorry, something came up and I can’t get out of it.” Did you even try, sir? Dad bails out, this was probably always inteded to happen, to have a very short meeting, just enough to not leave Nick hanging completely. But because he leaves money behind to pay the bill, he thinks everything’s okay.

- Nick’s face when he realizes that coming out to his dad won’t happen, at least for now. Not only did he not stay long enough to even bring it up, but he assumes he’s straight and talks a lot about him having lots of girlfriends, and Nick is probably thinking that it’s just going to be like David, or worse. (Considering that even Sara said some things, assuming that Nick was into girls exclusively, it’s not like he was sure that she would react so great about him coming out, but it’s clearly very different with his dad, who is never there but for whom he still had a lot of admiration and excitement about being able to meet up. He wants his dad to know him, to know about him, to be proud of him. Maybe there’s even a little of “look, dad, you’re not in my life, but look how well I’m doing anyway”. I don’t know, I’m not a boy, and my parents didn’t divorce when I was still a teenager.)

- New favorite friendship dynamic unlocked: Charlie, Isaac and Nick squished up in one bad trying to find Wally.

- Other new favorite friendship dynamic: the boys asking Tao for every single detail of his kiss with Elle. “But I kissed her that time.” “OH MY GOD NO YOU DIDN’T” “What does this mean???”

- Meanwhile in the girls’ room, the dynamic is much the same, but I love that we get to see it for both groups.

- Tara is so sweet, always making sure that Isaac doesn’t feel excluded.

- “So are we-?” Elle making Tao short-circuit with a kiss.

- Charlie deflecting Nick’s question by asking him about how he’s feeling. And Nick refusing to let him get away with it. “I know I’ve been stressed about coming out, but I don’t think I realized how stressed out you’ve been about it.” “I get stressed about everything, you’re nothing special.” “Charlie- It matters to me.” Classic Charlie humor deflection technique. Poor Charlie, he’s never in a million years imagined that he’d fall for someone who cared so much about him, and he doesn’t even know what to do with himself.

- Ugh, this whole interaction between the teachers is soooooooo perfectly off of the comic book page. Mr Ajayi fishing for info on Mr Farouk. Awww Mr Farouk… “Don’t think there’s an age limit on those”.

- "You flirting with me?" "Maybe." MISTER AJAYI‼ AAAAAAHHHH‼

- “They are gonna be a handful today.” Power of prophecy.

- “Thanks, I hate it.” “I knew you would.” Tara, if you don’t want it, I can take it off your hands. (Seriously, where can I get that t-shirt?). I think the pressure of giving an amazing gift is so overrated, why not get your significant other the worst gift ever? That’s amazing.

- Darcy taking the first step at talking about her feelings, thank god, because things between them have been horribly tense and all over the place… “I’ve got plans, big plans.” Oh shit…

-SO MUCH GREEN. Darcy and Tara matching tops, Elle’s whole outfit, Sahar’s vest, Isaac’s vest, Imogen’s striped sweater. And Charlie’s sweater is a big blue-greeny, I feel (and then later he wears the green hoodie). But I think it’s interesting that Nick is wearing blue now, both during the day and then at the party, on the episode where he comes out to more people. Everyone perceives him as heterosexual, so he has to fight that heteronormativity applied to him. He wears the color and defies what it represents.

- I am Isaac at the bookshop, wandering around with a huge pile of books, knowing that I won’t be able to buy all of them, but by all the gods I will try…

- By the way, here's Isaac’s reading list from this season.

- Have kids these days stopped saying “take a picture of me” but instead say “take a selfie of me”? As if the word selfie has replaced the word picture?

- It’s sad how Nick and Charlie take a selfie in front of Notre Dame(?), and they seem tempted to kiss, but then walk away, whereas behind them, Tao and Elle don’t have to think about it at all. Until they walk into the area full of pride flags, and Nick and Charlie can feel more comfortable walking with joined hands. But that’s it.

- The pile of books on Isaac’s end of the bed… I want them all.

- The recharging scene is so lovely. They are so soft with each other. Charlie getting all worked up from that kiss and Nick just says “We gotta go”. I hate you too, Nick, how dare you.

- “Everything has to be perfect for Tara, she’s a princess.” Darcy is feeling so guilty, but she’s terrible at making up.

- Tara’s face when Darcy brings out the booze… oh no…

- The fact that Ben just sneaks into the party, unnoticed, and he just meekly goes around, trying to pass under the radar.

- Seriously, is there any queer boy that is not into Charlie (except Isaac of course)? First Ben, then Nick, and now even James. If only Charlie himself knew, the power he has…

- Even though we already know where this is going with Isaac, James’s little face still breaks my heart. He was so smitten with Isaac… and that was his first kiss… and he probably thought they were two booknerds in love… and… *weeps*

- Wait, so if James hadn’t kissed Isaac just before, that means that his literal first kiss could have almost been his former crush during truth or dare in front of everyone???? Nightmare scenario…

- Isaac, baby… I have now cried every single time I’ve watched this scene, I wonder if it will happen every single time. My little ace heart can’t take it.

- Nick really doesn’t like parties, or he hasn’t liked parties since he met Charlie, because he prefers hanging out with Charlie. Why pretend to have fun when you could be happily making googly eyes at your soulmate in a quiet corner? (Again, with Golden Retriever twin Darcy interrupting).

- The contrast between the party room, full of color and shiny decorations, whilst Harry and his mate stand outside in the harsh blue light of the corridor (again, blue representing heteronormativity).

- Harry apologizes to Charlie and Nick but he sounds so insincere, he’s smiling the entire time like he’s not really taking this seriously, and it’s all made worse by his friend behind him smiling smugly. They really thought it would work… Charlie is not intimidated by Harry anymore, not even a little bit, and we love him for that. Slam that door in his face, Charlie, that’s my son.

- At this point, why hasn’t anyone kicked out Ben yet? You’d think everyone would be behind Imogen on this. Unless she really doesn’t care, of course, she’s over him. And he just looks kind of relieved that he has managed to not get kicked out, but also… is that a bit of bitterness that I sense, at the fact that Charlie continues to stand up for himself and ignore him completely.

- As the game of truth-or-dare begins, it feels like maybe Ben wants to fit in, wants to be a part of this group, but he’s not entirely comfortable, but he’s still there, following the dynamic, maybe hoping that he’ll just be… accepted? And not have to put any work into it? (Am I reading too much into this?)

- “Imogen got a boyfriend last year and she stopped texting me.” “Uh, no, you stopped texting me.” The way that Imogen sort of nervously pushes her hair behind her ear… is kind of… flirty…?

- One of my favorite moments that’s not in the comics, the Charlie-Tao kiss had me in stitches. It’s the cheeky way that Tao crawls over, and Charlie’s embarrassed delight and Nick and Elle’s delighted faces. I love them so much. (Can't believe no one had giffed that yet, or at least I couldn't find it, so I had to do it myself! Guys, I'm really bad at this stuff, help!)

- Who is this person stirring the pot??? Poor James, poor Charlie. But I love Charlie going resolutely “No, no way” when he’s dared to kiss Ben. And Ben resorts to his usual tactics of pretending not to know Charlie (Imogen’s face, knowing that something definitely happened between Charlie and Ben… that Ben is hiding something, and that Charlie very vehemently wants nothing to do with him).

- And you know Ben wanted to bump into Nick so bad on his way out. “Always making a scene…”

- “I know who it was.” He takes the leap, and he checks with Charlie and he knows that, whatever happens, it will be okay. Elle’s smiling, Tara is smiling, but Tao still looks a bit tense.

- I loved everyone’s reaction to Nick coming out, very chill and “oooh so you gave him the hickey?” And Nick looks so relieved, they both do. And James, precious James, asking if they want it to be kept secret… And then Darcy, of course…

- That whole hallway scene all the way to the room, it’s so sweet. Notice how they go from blue-ish lighting to yellow lighting, the color of happiness, their color. Nick envelops Charlie in the warmest hug and they just, ugh, so fucking cute… then the whole carrying him over his shoulder, I want to know how many times they had to do that scene, it’s so perfect. (Had to gif this one too, am I searching wrong???)

- The bed fight, the pillow fight, and then the conversation about not being ready to do anything more than kissing yet. Nick was so nervous, the way he wasn’t nervous when he was the one kissing Charlie’s neck. This time it was his boyfriend being sexy, it was his boyfriend taking the lead and getting him all worked up… he had to stop it, because he realized that he was starting to feel things that he wasn’t ready for at the moment.

- “Why are we like this?”… Like what? Like perfect? Like the cutiest patootiest of all?

- Tao wearing Elle’s glasses and teasing her, whilst Imogen and Sahar are cuddled up in the next bed… And Isaac… baby…

- “I have to be perfect for you.” “Darcy, nobody’s perfect.” Darcy saying I love you with vomit in her mouth and smeared makeup and a crumpled party hat on her head, whilst Tara looks immaculate in her tiara and gold weaved into her braids and her white sweater…

- Mr Farouk giving Darcy a break, like he’s maybe not so strict anymore (because of someone’s influence)…

- I DON’T KNOW HOW MANY TIMES NOW I’VE WATCHED THE TEACHERS GOING FOR IT BUT I’M SQUEALING AGAIN. AAAAAAAHHHH‼ CAN’T WAIT FOR MORE TEACHERS NEXT SEASON‼

- That whole Charlie and Nick talking and sleeping montage fixed my mental health, cleared my skin, watered my crops and fed my cows. I have watched it in an loop. It’s beautiful.

- They are finally sitting together in the coach! And so are Elle and Tao. Meanwhile Tara and Darcy...

- The post about Mr Farouk. Merciless.

- Meanwhile both Mr Farouk and Mr Ajayi looking a bit tense and unsure after...

- “Is it true you guys are dating???” They haven't even gotten back from Paris... News spread fast...

This episode is brought to you by Whatever the Hell Darcy was Drinking™.

#heartstopper #heartstopper season 2 #heartstopper netflix #heartstopper tv #nick and charlie #tao and elle #tara and darcy #the teachers

[moo9395]

ASAW - Day Six Post 23/2/2024

ASAW - Aromantic Spectrum awareness week.

https://www.arospecweek.org - Link to ASAW Website

Links to other days:

[1]---[2]---[3]---[4]---[5]---[7]

Day six - Aro media characters

Just a list of aromantic characters in media.

Sherlock Holmes

I know in the BBC series they hint towards him being alloromantic (and probably gay) but in the original book series he was pretty much confirmed to be aromantic.

"I have seldom heard him mention her under any other name. In his eyes she eclipses and predominates the whole of her sex. It was not that he felt any emotion akin to love for Irene Adler. All emotions, and that one particularly, were abhorrent to his cold, precise, but admirably balanced mind." The extract is from "A Scandal in Bohemia"

Alastor - Hazbin Hotel

Alastor has been confirmed by the creator of Hazbin to be aromantic which is obviously very exciting for the community.

Rosie is my favourite ally ever.

Alice Osman characters

Alison Osman themself identifies as aromantic (looked at that in another post) and has written quite a lot of aromantic characters into her books.

I've never read an Alice Osman book so I'm doing this based on research.

Georgia Warr - Loveless

Georgia is the main character of loveless and the book is about her discovering her own orientation while also meeting a lot of other people part of the aro community.

Jess - Loveless

Jess is an aromantic bisexual in the novel loveless. I can't find very much information apart from this online but I love that allo-aros are getting at least a little bit of the rep they deserve.

I've only included 2 here but there's other characters in Osman's books that fall under the aro spectrum including, Ellis (Georgias cousin) and Isaac in Heartstopper.

There's a serious lack of aromantic representation in media currently but hopefully more will come in the future.

If you want to know more about any of this, message me, drop an ask, comment, reblog whatever you want and I’ll do my best to help :)

Happy aro spec awareness week!

#aromantic spectrum #aromance #aro #aromanticism #aromantic #arospec #aro pride #aroallo #aspec #aromantism #aro positivity #aro week #asaw 2024 #aromantic spectrum awareness week #aro spec #aro spectrum #lgbtqia+ solidarity #LGBTQIA #lgbt pride #lgbtq #lgbtq community

[heartstopper-writes]

Main: @goldenretriever-nicknelson

Note: um so hi! I’ve never wrote for heartstopper before but I can’t seem to get it or Nick and Charlie out of my head so I thought I’d give it a go! Please be gentle with me I haven’t wrote anything in so long. I’m sorry if it’s terrible haha.

Word count: 1.5k

Pairing: Nick and Charlie

(also ft Tao, Elle, Tara, Darcy, Imogen, Tori and Issac)

Summary: Nick and Charlie with their first child in the future, that’s all. Fluff ensues. Imogen is their surrogate bc why not.

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“Nick, we are not naming our child after a marvel character!”

“What? Why not?”

The famous Nelson puppy dog eyes stared at Charlie who sighed with an amused smile. Nick’s face inched closer to his husbands, his head flopping onto Charlie’s shoulder.

“Because,” Charlie sighed, running his fingers through Nick’s hair and kissing his head. “I don’t want to name our child Stark. That’s not fair to anyone.”

Nick laughed, the smile lingering on his lips as he looked at Charlie scroll through yet another baby name website.

Our child.

It was surreal to Nick that he was going to be a father. Even after 8 and a half months of expecting it.

Last year after babysitting Tara and Darcy’s 1 year old, Charlie and Nick had mutually fallen in love with the idea of children of their own, many pictures of the other holding the baby and playing with him saved on their phone.

They had decided to go through the surrogacy route, wanting to be a part of every step of the process but it turned out a lot harder than they had expected. Every person that came along didn’t seem quite right and there was one woman who was even passively aggressively homophobic. Needless to say she was told where to go.

“What if I did it? What if I was yours and Charlie’s surrogate?”

Nick looked up at one of his long time friends from school, sitting across from him in the coffee shop where he had been going on about his problems. A smile lifted onto his lips before promptly falling.

“Imogen that’s- it’s a big ask to take on. Are you sure you’d be okay with it?”

Imogen took a sip of her frappe and smiled widely, coming to sit next to Nick on the booth seat.

“Nicolas! Of course I would! I would be honored. I am an ally after all.” She gave a wink before Nick wrapped her up in a tight hug, a laugh mixed with amusement and relief escaping him.

“I’ll have to talk to Char but thank you! You’re amazing!”

Nick felt his eyes well up with tears out of pure happiness, this could finally be it.

And it was.

Charlie was fully on board, thanking Imogen with a bouquet of flowers as Nick triple checked she was definitely okay with it.

She nodded and so their journey began.

Sometimes Charlie and Nick felt guilty because pregnancy had taken its toll on Imogen and most people around her but she assured them she was fine and that it was all going to be worth it.

Imogen had never been more right.

Nick woke up to his phone ringing at 2 o’clock in the morning. He knew the sound was different to his alarm but he attempted to press snooze anyway. He must have pressed the green button because a small, panicked voice came out of the speaker.

“Nick?!”

“Mhm?” Nick mumbled, still half asleep and jealous of the way his husband was still snoring on his chest.

“It’s happening.”

“Wha-?” His brain quickly caught on to what was happening and realized it was Imogen on the phone. “You mean-?!”

“Yes you idiot! The baby’s coming!” Imogen’s shouting was followed by a large groan of pain.

“We’re on our way!”

Nick shook Charlie awake, the panic and excitement starting to set in. “Char!”

“5 more minutes.” Charlie mumbled, burying his head into Nick who insisted on getting up which he never usually did. “Wha’s happening?”

“We’re gonna be dads!” Nick untangled himself as he got up and started putting his clothes on hurriedly.

Charlie’s heart pounded as he realized what was going on. He sprung out of bed and started getting dressed, in an even more panicked state than Nick was.

Before they got in the car Nick wrapped his arms around a stressed Charlie and kissed his cheek. They both instantly felt more calm. “Char, it’s gonna be okay. We’re gonna meet our baby today.”

Nick’s smile and touch calmed Charlie’s nervous rambles, taking a moment to breathe and cherish his husband before getting in the car and driving to the hospital where they had arranged to meet Imogen.

The next few hours passed by in a blur of nurses, doctors, screaming and Charlie nervously pacing and rambling. Nick however felt strangely calm like this is what he had been waiting for all of his life. Similar to how he had felt on their wedding day.

They were in there whilst Imogen gave birth, she almost ended up knocking Charlie out on accident and squeezed Nick’s hand so hard that he was sure his wedding ring had somehow pierced through his finger.

And then there she was. Their perfect little baby, crying at the top of her lungs and being wrapped in a small blanket once she was all clean. Imogen flopped back onto the hospital bed and sighed, a tired smile on her face as the doctor handed the baby to Charlie.

“Oh,” Charlie almost looked shocked that he was the first one to hold her but as soon as his eyes saw her there was nothing but pure love and adoration. “Hi.”

Nick wrapped his arms around Charlie and looked down at his daughter. His heart soared as he saw her, tiny and perfect.

“Hi.”

They couldn’t take their eyes off of her or each other. Their perfect little family. Nick wiped away Charlie’s tears, letting his own fall down his cheeks onto Charlie’s shoulder before he was passed their daughter by his husband.

“I think someone wants to say hi to her dada.” And at that moment she opened her eyes, staring straight at Nick who gasped at the sight of her.

“You’re beautiful. I think she’s going to have your hair.” Nick smiled, laughing with his husband as Charlie shook his head.

Even though they had mixed their sperm together so neither could be sure who was the biological father, Nick hoped it was Charlie.

“You’re just saying that because you like my hair.”

Nick laughed and nodded, gently placing a kiss on the tiny baby’s forehead. “I love her already.”

Charlie stroked her cheek with his finger and nodded in agreement. “Me too. I love our family.”

Nick was the first to fall asleep with the baby in his arms on the hospital armchair as Charlie took a quick picture on his phone. He admired his husband and his daughter, thinking of how amazing his life was now and never wanting this moment or feeling to fade away.

He kissed Nick’s head before hearing a tiny knock on the door. Tao peeked in quietly with a large assortment of balloons and behind him Charlie could see Elle, Issac and Tori trying to edge their way in to have a look at the new arrival.

“Can we come in?”

Charlie nodded with a finger against his lips, urging them to be as quiet as they can. Tao nodded and tiptoed his way in before bumping loudly into one of the chairs, waking Nick and the baby up.

Elle smacked Tao on the arm and apologised to Charlie and Nick before coming closer to get a look at the baby.

“Oh my gosh! She’s gorgeous!”

Nick smiled sleepily, greeting the rest of his friends as he gently rocked the baby in his arms.

No matter what he tried she wouldn’t calm down, the chatter in the room of visitors talking to Imogen and the new parents didn’t help. Elle offered to take her and Nick nodded, smiling gratefully.

In an instant the baby had calmed down in Elle’s arms. Nick looked at her bewildered.

“Okay you have to teach me how to do that.”

Elle laughed and smiled, patting Nick on the shoulder before going to show her expert baby skills to Tao.

“So has this little one got a name?” Issac asked after having his turn of holding the baby in his arms. She was now with Charlie who was attempting to feed her with Nick at his side. They shared a look of agreement and smiled.

“Alice Tori Nelson-Spring.”

Tori looked up from her coffee she had grabbed from the cafe and stared at her brother and husband. They both smiled at her, letting her know that it was indeed what she was thinking.

“You’ve always been there for me, Tori. I wanted Alice to know that her auntie would always be there for her too and without you I don’t know if I’d be here.” Charlie cleared his throat as his eyes welled up with tears before Tori could cross the room and hug him, something she rarely did to anyone besides Charlie.

She nodded in thank you and smiled to both of them before everyone else cooed at the sweet moment.

“Oh shut it.” Tori turned and glared at the others in the room but the pink on her cheeks and emotion in her eyes let them know she wasn’t all that serious.

“And of course her amazing aunts and uncles.” Nick smiled to the rest of the group who all smiled back and piled in for a group hug, careful of Alice in between them. Even Tori joined in.

It would be a busy time what with visitors including Tara and Darcy and grandparents to meet so Nick and Charlie cherished this moment with their friends who had been with them through it all.

They smiled at each other after the hug ended and shared a kiss, surrounded by the rest of their perfect family.

Thank you for reading! Let me know if you liked it and would like more of my writing!

#heartstopper fanfic #narlie fanfic #nick x charlie #heartstopper #fanfic #Nick Nelson #Charlie spring #Tao xu #elle argent #heartstopper fanfiction #Nick and Charlie fanfiction

[negrowhat]

GET TO KNOW YOUR BL MUTUALS

Tagged by: @yugiohio @wintersolaar @myfirstisthefourth @ommited-miscellaneously @gillianthecat AND @pharawee

This is my second time doing this one!

Simple, answer the questions. @ some people. Include the tag 'g2ky BL mutuals 2022' on your post so we can find everyone's answers!

what have been BLs that took you by surprise this year?

Triage the Series: It's literally the only series I've ever watched with a time loop and it was insane from beginning to end. Had me on the edge of my seat and I was very excited to see TaeTee together again after we got played by 2MOONS.

Ghost Host Ghost House: I didn't know what to expect, but damnnnnn not only was the series a tearjerker but also so freaking soft and romantic. You find yourself crying about the tragedies and then squealing about the romance budding amidst the pain.

Blueming: Such a refreshing series. It felt the most like what it was supposed to portray. It was so simple and yet damn near perfect. The series felt the least like a BL, kind of sidestepping a bunch of tropes and making them seem more realistic. IDK how to explain it. Hwang Da Seul is just really talented.

Secret Crush on You: Once you get past the cringe that is eps 1-3 then you start to realize that the series is kind of epic with great representation and support and dialogue. It's a relatable series with relevant content.

Takara-kun to Amagi-kun: I wasn't expecting to love those boys so much. It's another simple series that left a huge impact. They really showcased what a first real love is supposed to be like.

what have been BLs that you felt a bit disappointed with this year?

Check Out the Series: WHACK!

The Eclipse: It just didn't hit for me the way it hit for everyone else.

Coffee Melody: It started off cute! But became boring and the main character became annoying.

Fahlanruk: Again, started off cute, but Fahlan? I couldn't stand him. He demanded so much from Sherbet and forced his way into the man's life. I just couldn't commit to him.

Mr. Unlucky Has No Choice but to Kiss: I mean. It wasn't bad, it just didn't hold my attention.

what has been your favorite BL this year?

Love in the Air: Swooped in and took the #1 spot from KP. It really wasn't even about the plot it was more about the characters for me. PayuRain and PrapaiSky were just amazing couples. The chemistry was unmatched. ALSO NO ONE TOLD ME THAT THE ACTOR THAT PLAYED SIG PLAYED DR. SING IN TRIAGE! That man could act because the stark difference in characters left it impossible for me to notice.

Between Us: WinTeam FTW. I've been waiting for this series for a long time and it has not been disappointing. BounPrem have come a long way and it shows in this series.

KinnPorsche the Series: Originally I was only planning to watch KP for JeffGame, but then all that drama went down with the original production company and Game left so I was like NAH BUT THEN I SAW THE TRAILER?? This series is really what popped off Mafia themes in BL. I love some action and romance so I was not let down.

favorite BL couples (not just of 2022)

CaiReel, KinnPorsche, PayuRain, FighterTutor, PluemKevin, Phunnoh, AePete, TharnType, NubsibGene, DeYi, Hao Ting x Xi Gu, TangFei, Kurodachi, WeiLan, Wangxian, WenZhou, and Yu Zhen x Shi Lei. There are much more but we would be here a long time.

what's your non-BL favorite this year?

Kei x Yaku: I mean technically it's a bromance and I think the source content was a bromance too. The plot was thrilling and exciting and suspenseful. The chemistry was top notch. The action scenes were amazing. Like the entire series was 10/10.

Heartstopper and Young Royals 2: Queer content but not Asia-based so technically not BLs. Heartstopper has excellent LGBTQ representation across the board. It's sweet and funny and the tackle a lot of topics. Young Royals is on the opposite side of the high school queer spectrum. It's filled with angst and anxiety. Follows up with Prince Wille once he returns to school and has to be in contact with his ex-boyfriend again and the people that helped facilitate their breakup.

Gap the Series: I'm loving the girlies. Office romance between a newly graduated young woman and her seemingly untouchable idol/boss.

MMM that's really it, the only thing I watch outside of BL is reality TV and courtroom shows.

I've done this before so IDK who to tag this time. If you see this do it and tag me!

#g2ky BL mutuals 2022 #ghost host ghost house #kinnporsche the series #gap the series #love in the air #between us #triage the series #takara-kun to amagi-kun #blueming #young royals #heartstopper #kei x yaku #secret crush on you

[earlgreytea68]

Musings on Publishing

It used to be very popular for authors who published original stories but who “started out” writing fanfiction to characterize the experience in terms like this: “My fanfiction is like babysitting someone else’s kids, but my original stuff is like MY children.” The implication seemed to be that you had a closer, more enduring, lifelong bond with your original stuff (never mind this flattening of people’s relationships with children not their own).

I have no idea if authors still talk that way, because frankly once I became a published author I stopped listening to what people had to say about it. Because my experience of publication was so very much not what I expected it to be.

I’ll tell you a secret, which I can probably say now that I’ve ditched my agent and have no idea what I’m going to do in the future: I don’t think my original stuff is nearly as good as my fic, and I have much more of an attachment to my fic than to my original stuff. If we’re going to compare things to children, my fic is definitely much more my children. My fic is much more *me.* Every word you get in a fic is exactly how I wanted it to be, exactly how I chose it, exactly the things I wanted the characters to say, the mood I wanted to convey.

In my experience of publication, it is not that way. Maybe it’s not like that for everyone. I mean, I’m sure once you are an established author, you can do that. But maybe there are debut authors out there who, when they get edits back, just reject all of them and insist on the novel being published as they wanted it to be published. Maybe I should have done that. But I didn’t. As someone who has an aversion to editing but is told that it’s supposed to be a good thing, I made myself edit and edit and edit again, following all of the suggestions I was given. And at the end of the day, frankly, I hated the book. I couldn’t wait to never look at it ever again. I’m sure it’s better than I think, but it’s still not the book it was, or the book I wanted to write. It is something else entirely, some watered-down version of something, something that was stripped of all of my me-ness to make it fit into a marketing formula. You know the Fall Out Boy lyric, “I became such a strange shape trying to fit in”? That.

I think maybe it’s possible that some writers just assume that’s what the experience of putting a story out into the world is like? Or maybe not, maybe other writers have a much better experience than I did. I mean, I have to assume they are having much better experiences, because they all seem to keep writing and publishing, and they seem kind of happy doing it? I mean, a lot of them also complain a whole lot about having to write, which…does seem kind of like they don’t really like it, so Idk. This is all to say:

I’d been writing my whole life, and I’d been publishing stories for years before I was published. And I loved all of them. I put them out into the world so excited to share them, so excited to see what people said about them, so excited that people might love my characters as much as I did and want to cuddle all of them close. To this very day, I love writing, I love what I have written, and I love putting it out there. And I love and treasure what all of you have to say, but I write for me first. And maybe that makes me narcissistic, but actually, I think that’s a form of narcissism I think we could all enjoy more of: loving the things we create, doing things just for us. I was re-reading “Saving Sherlock Holmes” the other night because, well, let’s face it, I, too, have written gay boy with dark curly hair falling for school rugby star, “Heartstopper.” And anyway, as I was reading it, I was like, “This story is great!” Yay! I hope all of you love what you do for fun that much!

This is a long introduction to say that I had set a deadline for this summer to think about whether I wanted to try to get published again. As I mentioned above, I parted ways with my agent a couple of years ago, because I felt that she just wasn’t a good fit for me. Maybe I’d always had the wrong agent. I’m not sure she was at all fannish, and that was probably a problem when it came to representing my very fannish writing. But at the time I got an agent, you really didn’t talk about having come from a fanfiction background. When I was done with my first book contract, my editor asked me for ideas for future books, and I pitched some stories that were kind of ficcy in tone and shape, and I was told, flat-out, very bluntly, “Fandom doesn’t sell. Only Rainbow Rowell can write that way.” …Wow. It actually took me years to write anything for publication ever again after that, because I was kind of like, Well, if the market doesn’t want what I write, then I’ll just write it *not* for the market.

But I look around the market now and I think, That can’t possibly be true anymore. It can’t possibly be the case that editors and agents would still tell me that fannish stuff doesn’t sell. And the truth is, I’m very happy with my life and my fic and the way my writing is, but I also think sometimes, like, would it be nice to have some extra cash to help my niblings with their educations and stuff? Well, of course! Who wouldn’t like that? Would it be nice to share my writing with a little bigger audience? Just because I would want as many people as possible to get to cuddle my characters lol. Would it be nice to be E.L. James? Well, that’s a complex question, but probably yes lol

But I’ve been having a huge debate about whether to try to go for it again. Like, I really didn’t enjoy it, as I’ve said. And it didn’t make me much money in the end, either. I shouldn’t say it’s not nice to have extra money come in, because it is! But it was kind of like “I can take a long weekend vacation on this money!” Not “I can travel the world on this money.” I heard someone say once it was “buy a designer handbag” money. And that’s about right. So it wasn’t a ton of money, and it didn’t really make me happy, and so why would I do it again? And at the same time, I can’t deny that I look at some of the things that are out there right now and I think, …I could have done that. I could have done that *better.* (Kinda looking at you a little bit, Sally Rooney lolololol)

So I felt like I had two choices: I could start over and try to find an agent who understood my writing a little better. Or I could self-publish. And then I was like, …why not both?

I mean, I have enough stuff written to absolutely cover querying to agents and also trying to self-publish. So. Why not do both? Because there’s some stuff I have written that I’m like, “Okay, this I could handle editing and handing over to someone else and having it become someone else’s thing.” But then I have other stuff, like “Swan Song,” that I decided I wanted no editor to come anywhere near. Are there parts of “Swan Song” that could be better? Undoubtedly. But I suspect what would really happen to “Swan Song” is it would be slashed of 100,000 character-development words and I would weep at what happened to Matt Usher.

So, I think I’ve made a decision to use this summer to try to give BOTH a try. I’ll draft up a new query letter and start over with the whole agent thing with one of my novels. And I’ll come up with a self-publishing scheme for another novel. And I’ll see!

#long post #writing #personal

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I posted 2,167 times in 2022

56 posts created (3%)

2,111 posts reblogged (97%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@sevenpoints

@sequencefairy

@aimmyarrowshigh

@savvylikeyeahhh

@uneventfulhouses

I tagged 2,085 of my posts in 2022

Only 4% of my posts had no tags

#watcher - 193 posts

#ryan bergara - 151 posts

#heartstopper - 145 posts

#shane madej - 130 posts

#ryan and shane - 111 posts

#fandom is awesome - 108 posts

#spoilers - 89 posts

#l'art pour l'art - 87 posts

#amazing - 73 posts

#charlie and nick - 70 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#can i do it when i'm like 85 and in case i come out in a completely different time period it's fine cause granny was gonna die soon anyway?

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

Guys. Please. How do I unpin a post. 😭😭😭 I cannot figure it out.

8 notes - Posted August 21, 2022

#4

Saw The Batman.

Things that movie did:

make me hold my breath

make me cry

make me giggle and kick my feet in delighted excitement

it right

8 notes - Posted March 11, 2022

#3

Okay, so, admittedly I hadn't watched Goncharov until, like, yesterday. It's one of those films you hear about but it just never sounded like my thing, you know?

Anyway, I watched it because I found the whole "loss of identity" thing Tumblr has been talking about really interesting, especially with Sofia and Katya, but then when I saw it it really struck me how I hadn't seen a lot of this talk about Goncharov and he's literally Goncharov! The reason for the season, baby!

I think part of the reason we're maybe all eating this up right now is because it's it just loss of identity, it's active rejection of it. Not of identity as such but of a specific identity he feels locked into.

The whole chapter where he takes Katya home to the village and you get this sense that people there are both afraid of him but also kind of still treat him like the boy he was when he left? His mother is the only character I think we ever see call him "Luca"! You wouldn't even know the guy had a first name! (Sidenote, love that that was Scorsese's mom.) (Sidenote to the sidenote: have we considered Goncharov as fictionalised autobiography cause I have thoughts.)

Anyway, Goncharov in Posianna is Luca. He's very big fish in a small pond, or at least he fears that's all he's ever going to be if he stays - so he leaves for Naples back when, meets Katya (and Andrey!) etc etc - goes to Moscow - and then returns. But at every stage he keeps having to work harder and harder to convince people he's this tough guy, right? He keeps having to prove himself and not just to other people, but, I think, crucially, to himself! It's like a fake it till you make it in mirrorverse because there's this sense of this not being where he "should" end up (and then we also already know that the stuff with Andrey is still coming up and how that's gonna go). It feels like he keeps trying to make the mythos of himself bigger and bigger because he's measuring himself against some sort of weird ideal that keeps outgrowing him. And, like, who can't relate, eh, generation of "you can be anything!".

On that note - I find it really interesting that Katya is kind of his foil here. She starts in Moscow but she keeps yearning for smaller places, but then once she gets there, she hates it. She could never be happy in Posianna. She actually needs the bigger ponds. (And Sofia.)

Anyway. It's not a fully formed analysis or anything, just something that kept nagging at me while I watched it. And maybe I'm just projecting but I find the deliberate construction of the self vs. the "authentic" finding of the self an interesting thought.

10 notes - Posted November 21, 2022

#2

Multifandom December Fic Countdown

Yup. We're doing this again.

Look. This marks the 10th year I'm doing this. I can't not.

-- Whaaaat, I hear you say. How old are you?? Shush.

Tempting as it is, because I am weirdly competitive about the most useless things and also let's not lie, there's always a pet fandom, it feels weird to break with tradition in this, the anniversary year, and fandom-lock my prompts.

So, I'll be using @skepticbeliever-bookclub's lovely prompt list, but I'm opening the list up to any and all fandoms you've seen me reblog stuff for. If you want to ask for something else, just give it a shot! I may or may not treat Watcher requests preferentially on account of abovementioned competitiveness and favouritism but I'll try to hold back on that.

-- But wait, you say. There's only 24 prompts on that list! Correct, I say. I'm adding 7 wild card prompts for AFTER these 24 are done. So I'm giving definite preferential treatment to those 24 but the other 7 are entirely up to you on a first-come-first-serve basis.

I've also reblogged @aimmyarrowshigh's Hannukah bingo - if you give me a prompt that fits that either in combination with one of the 24 or as a wild card, I'm also giving it preferential treatment. As I am not Jewish (or even Jew-ish) though, I ask for goodwill and patience with my fills.

The usual set up applies: I'm not here for rape, abuse, or death fic in this month and I aim for about 1k per fill.

Any other questions, just shoot me an ask or a message.

Without further ado!

Candlelight

Ghost

Ring

Chestnuts

Evergreen

Cosy

Scarf

Hot Cocoa

Cold Toes

Hope

Quiet

Family

Joy

Cider

Snowman

Night In

Candy Cane

Tradition

Eggnog

See the full post

11 notes - Posted November 29, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Just a heads up: if you read Heartstopper fic, someone has been posting deliberately horrific stuff (so far I've only seen two stories) clearly meant to upset people to the AO3 tag. I'm not sure reporting them will go anywhere since it's all technically labelled correctly from what I can tell without actually reading it? But they also are arguably being homophobic in graphically violent fictional ways so. Maybe??? Hopefully they'll get bored of being a miserable person and simply leave.

Just, if you want to avoid seeing it, exclude the warnings (particularly rape, graphic violence, and death) from your search and proceed as normal.

18 notes - Posted May 24, 2022

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#tumblr2022 #year in review #my 2022 tumblr year in review #your tumblr year in review #that seems about right

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💝 Candy Heart Event 2023! 💝

It’s (almost) that time of year again!

Hello everyone! I hope y’all are having a great January so far! If not, I wish you good fortune and better times in the future! Last year  we did this and it was an absolute blast! I’ve been so excited to do it again this year with all of you, and here we are! Now with additional fandoms and sentence starters! :D

This was inspired by @tickly-trashcan​’s Boba Shop Event! Check out their blog for all sorts of awesome content!

💝 Rules💝

- Send me a pairing (Platonic or Romantic) from the fandoms listed below along with a candy heart phrase (Sentence Starter) from the list! (Ex: ObaMitsu- True Love) and I will write a short dabble for it!

- The event will be open from January 27-February 14th, ending at 8:00 PM EST. I will make an announcement when prompts are officially closed!

- Dabbles will start coming out Feb 1!

- I do write “Character x Reader!” (If you want it to be platonic, please specify with “Platonic!Reader”)

-Multiple sentence starter requests are allowed!

- Requester’s Choice: This is essentially a blank Candy- you can pick whatever sentence starter you want for it! :)

💝 Candy Heart Sentence Starters 💝

❤️Be Mine: “Oh that is IT! Come here!”

🧡Miss You: “When’s the last time you smiled?”

💛True Love: “I could do this all day.”

💚Cutie: “Why are you trying to hide?”

💙XOXO: “Hey, do you like raspberries?”

💜Angel: “What happens if I do this?”

❤️I love you: “You smiled at me- I think I’m in love!”

🧡Bestie: Requester’s choice: Pick your own sentence starter!

💛Sweet Heart: “Oh? Is someone ticklish?”

💚Cupid: “I’m gonna get you!”

💗 Say Yes: “Your so ticklish, aren’t you?”

💙Smile: “I didn’t know you were ticklish here!”

💜Hug: “I just want a hug!”

❤️Darling: “Do you want me to tickle you?”

🧡Love bug: “What’s so funny?”

💛Soul Mate: “Not there? What about here?”

💚Sweet Pea: “Is this a bad spot?”

💙Adore: “ Your laugh is adorable.

💜Kiss me: “Don’t stop? If you say so!”

❤️Me + You: “No way! I didn’t know you were ticklish!”

🧡Always and Forever: “Look how red you are! How cute!”

💛I’m Yours: “You like being tickled, don’t you?”

💚Puppy love: “Where are those giggles I love so much?”

💙Only You: “Hey could you...you know?”

💜Hot Stuff: “Come over here and make me!”

💝 Fandoms 💝

-Some of the fandoms on here will have **Limited Request** beside them. This means I will only be taking up to a limited amount of that fandom.

If the fandom is crossed out, it means all slots for it have been filled!

Black Clover

Blue Lock

Buddy Daddies

Bungo Stray Dogs

Chainsaw Man

Code Realize

Collar x Malice

Danganronpa

Demon Slayer

Dr. Stone

Fire Force

Fruit’s Basket

Free! Iwatobi Swim Club

Given

Haikyuu!!

Heartstopper

Hell’s Paradise: Jirokuraku

Hunter x Hunter (Up to Greed Island arc)

Jojo’s Bizarre Adventure (Parts 2-5)

Jujutsu Kaisen

Komi Can’t Communicate

Mob Psycho 100

Moriarty The Patriot

My Hero Academia **Limited Requests**

Pokemon **Limited Requests** (All Gens)

Sk8 The Infinity

Spy x Family

Toliet Bound Hanako Kun

Tokyo Revenges

Happy Valentines Day everyone! I’m so excited to do this again with y’all!

#Candy Heart Valentine Event #sentence starters #Valentine's day #Squiggily does a thing #I'm so hyped to do this with everyone ahhh! #Candy Hearts Vaelntine Event 2023

[0sincerelyella]

Self Care with Cormac hyde corrin

fic type: fluff

TW: none

requested: NO BUT ! i would love if people requested !! i enjoy writing very much and especially for cormac, and i love when people enjoy my writing aswell !!

Everyone has been feeling stress this time of year, but it was hard on Cormac. He had finals for school, He’s shooting for heartstopper again, and on top of all of that he has to direct his own short films for class. Cormac has had large amounts of stress on his plate.

Y/n had been by his side the entire time, and no matter how stressed he was he was he always had time for Y/n. She never asked for his time, never begged, only helped. She helped him direct his short films, she helped him study for his final, she even took time out of her day to visit him after a long day on set.

He knew she was just as stressed as he was, but she still did everything in her power to make sure he felt okay, and that his stress didn’t eat him alive. He felt like he owed her, without her he knew he surely would have broken down and done something drastic by now.

Cormac had decided he was going to repay her, for all that she’s done for him. Cormac set out a blanket on the living room floor, and a stack of blankets on the foot stool of the couch. he put some chairs to the side, and grabbed a tub. He took the tub to his bedroom, to fill it with what he had bought the day prior.

He filled it with a bottle of face mask, two pairs of slippers, two pairs of matching pajamas, the pirates of the caribbean movies, a box of oreos, a deck of uno cards, and a note he wrote the night before.

He brought the tub downstairs, setting it on the side table. He pushed the coffee table out of the way and smiled at his work. He decided that she would love it, and got excited. He knew she needed this, and he would do do anything for her.

The doorbell rang, making the excited boyfriend rush to it, glad his mother was away on a trip so that she wouldn’t question why he was being so, soft.

He opened the door, and there she was, his beautiful girlfriend, with tired eyes. She wore his hoodie, and a pair of his sweats. By the sight before him Cormac knew her day did not go as if she had planned. “Are you alright love?” he asked, pulling her into a warm hug

Y/n felt so, safe in his arms. “I failed my maths final after all that studying” she sighed, loving the feeling of his arms around her. “Awww, i’m so sorry, i know how many nights you stayed up to pass that final” he rubbed her hair, as she nuzzled her head into his chest

“Can we just, relax today? i’m so stressed” she said, he smiled, “yes, close your eyes” he told her, taking her into the living room. “I know you’ve been just as stressed as me lately, but all you do is put me first, and i’m so grateful for that” Cormac said, setting her on the couch. “i thought you could use a pick me up, a day to feel not so stressed out, so I’ve taken responsibility, as the best boyfriend ever,” he took Y/ns hands off her eyes. “too help you relax” Y/n smiled, all her favorite things in this living room, made by her favorite person

“I got stuff for us to make a fort, your favorite movies, Pjs and slippers, snacks, and face masks” he smiled, like a goofball.

“Cormac, i love you” she smiled, hugging him. he hugged back, and handed her the note. “Go change into your pjs, read it, and then come down and we can build the fort yeah?” She smiled again, and kissed him. He swayed there bodies back and forth, enjoying her.

She let go soon after, walking up the stairs to Cormacs room, she quickly changed into her pajamas, and opened the note

‘dear y/n.

I know that you’ve been stressed, and i’m so sorry i havnt been there, no matter how much you are tired you still make it your life’s purpose to keep me in check, and i love you for that, i love you for everything, i’m so thankful i have you in my life

love mac<3’

Y/n sniffled, her eyes welling with a few tears. She ran down the stairs, practically catipolting herself on top of Cormac. “I love you” she said, kissing his cheek. “i love you too” he said, kissing her forehead. “Wanna make the fort now?” he said, chuckling at the girl. She nodded

the next few hours they built the fort, and laughed, and watched movies. They did face masks, and chased eachother, and giggled.

They both needed a day to themselves

just the two of them, alone together, to love.

A day of self care with the person they wanted to spend the rest of forever with

#cormac hyde corrin #corrina brown #heartstopper #heartstopper comic #kit connor #kizzy edgell #charlie spring #harry greene #heartstopper cast #nick nelson #my crumbs #netflix #heartstopper fanfic #fanfic #my fic #fic writing