#because of guilt

[idontknowmyownmind]

When I was scrolling through my fyp, a new manhwa recommendation gave me an idea for RokCale lol

I do not really remember because I accidently tapped the home button before I look at the title 😀

I might be wrong but let's prettend I'm close to the truth

So, the story is about the ml who is born different, with red eyes, and people believe that he is the devil in the prophercy or something but the fl doesn't believe it

They are knights that had achieved many accomplishments together

In the end, the ml is the devil and kill the fl and fl told him that she will love him no differently even though she know the truth earlier

Idk what happen next...

Well, ml as Roksoo and fl as Cale

Roksoo is overthinker and has a habit to came to a conclusion that satisfied himself, whether it's true or not

Cale is someone who is open with his feeling toward Roksoo

He know Roksoo's bad habit and always make sure that he know that Cale loves him for who he is

But Roksoo believe that it will change when Cale know the truth

The ending is the same, Roksoo killed Cale and poured out what he has been thinking, 'accusing' Cale that he must be disgusted with him now

But rather than angry, Cale smile through his blood and cupped his check

"I'm sorry for not trying hard enough to let you know that I love you, I will always love you, Roksoo, for who you are."

Roksoo is speechless but Cale keep talking

"I have my hunch that the gossip is not really a gossip after all. But I found myself doesn't care about it... you are Roksoo, someone I came to love with my whole heart. I know the time we spent together is not a lie. I'm sorry for not being able to lift your doubt about humans, about me. But please... please don't doubt my love for you.. "

Cale cough up more blood and idk how to write Roksoo's reaction... someone help me describe it 'cause I'm really lost here 🥲

In the end Cale still died

#og!cale henituse #cale henituse #trash of the counts family #kim rok soo #au #trash of the count's family #rokcale #this is sad #sad end #do i kill roksoo? #by him doing suic!de? #because of guilt #or let him alive? #oh my..

[supposedlyahuman]

tw: Examples of reblog bait/people trying to guilt others into reblogging stuff. I am not actually saying the things below, they're just examples that I have seen.

I fucking hate when people say stuff like this. Especially when it's on a generally good post with valuable information. On the one hand I want to share that information because it could genuinely help someone; on the other, I don't want to spread this type of guilt-tripping and shaming and potentially trigger someone else like me. It's a lose-lose situation. No matter what I do, I am going to feel guilty. No matter what I do, I will feel like a terrible person. It sucks and I just wish people would stop doing this. I know it's shocking, but it is actually possible to make an important and useful post without guilting everyone that sees it into sharing.

#in general i just don't reblog anything that tries to guilt me into reblogging it #there have been so many times where i consider reblogging something and then see people saying the stuff above #and i automatically move along because i can't handle interacting with that sort of thing #moral ocd #serious #my thoughts

[tawaifeddiediaz]

you know what boils my blood.

over the last 2 weeks, i've seen countless patients walk into my urgent care center, symptomatic for so many things, refusing to get tested for covid and flu, citing that they don't want to knowingly bring it to their holiday tables. i had a patient tell me, verbatim, "i don't want to test for covid, because i don't want to be the asshole who brings it on a plane."

i understand that - i understand that holidays are times where people look forward to meeting loved ones that they might only see once a year, or where they get a break from the hectic back and forth of their lives.

but here's the thing - whether they get tested or not, they will bring whatever they have to their holiday tables. it's pure recklessness to know that you're sick, and walk into someone else's house spreading the disease.

today, january 2, i saw 91 patients, many of them who have tested positive for covid and flu. many of these patients are the same ones who didn't want testing 3 days ago, until their events were over, and now, they will have to reach out to everyone they know to let them know that they were positive because they were showing symptoms well before their event.

the next week or two? we're going to see many, many more, all people with symptoms that started around christmas. these are the only two viruses we test for rapidly in our office, but they are potent and can be fatal in many people.

so here's why i wrote this post, and maybe it's a little late, but - if you care about your loved ones, please get tested if you know you're sick. it doesn't have to be at a clinic if you don't want it to, because the over-the-counter tests work just fine too (if you test within 5-7 days of symptom onset). just...please don't try to run from the knowledge that you might have covid, because immunocompromised people, elderly people, people with co-morbidities like asthma, pregnancy, diabetes, etc...many of them may not recover. and they may not be sitting at your holiday table in the future because of it.

#zee rambles #this isn't to guilt trip anyone #but im so so tired of people coming in and just refusing testing because they want to see grandma or whatever #and on top of that people are avoiding vaccinations and all that too?? #we all lived through the pandemic - everyone saw how many people unfortunately passed away from it #now because of vaccinations and some amount of herd immunity we're finding milder cases in healthy people #but that doesn't mean its gone #that doesn't mean it doesn't have long-term repercussions even in healthy people and that doesn't mean people aren't still dying from it #honestly i just needed a lil rant #and if this helps at least one person??? im all for it #also i can't sleep so here we are spilling thoughts into the voidddd

[beybuniki]

alternative universe where there are TWO epic fail sons in the todoroki familiy

#i cant get into itttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt but dabo/toya and shoto goign through the same thing and toya being overwhelmed #because he hasnt worked through his own abuse yet so how is he supposed to be of any help to little shoto aoughhhhh lets throw up together #so much projection and resentment and guilt and unfair and immature beahvior we're all walking on egg shells in that beautiful house #bnha #todoroki toya #dabi #todoroki shoto #saw this pose and wanted to make it about the todoroki brothers holding hands i need them to hold handssssssssss #toya au

[loriache]

"I've been waiting for ages for somebody to unmask them."

This moment tends to elicit negative reactions in a first read through, and I've got some opinions about why where Kabru is coming from here actually makes a lot of logical sense. So I thought I'd elaborate on that.

I think people hear this and go, "He thinks they must be hiding something because they gave money to someone? What a cynic." Or "he dislikes them because they did charity?? What's wrong with this guy!". And obviously, a lot, a lot is wrong with him. But I think this makes more sense than it seems at first glance! What people evaluating this judgement miss is why Kabru is paying attention to Laios and co to begin with.

Kabru knows of the Touden siblings because (he's a little bit of a stalker-) he is keeping an eye on all the relevant parties in events developing on the island, in order to be able to guide them to his preferred outcome. This includes adventurers because they are the ones actually exploring the dungeon! He's well aware that something as minor as internal tensions between party members could be key to the historical events that are developing. (He would love the assassination of Archduke Franz Ferdinand.)

His desired outcome is that whatever the rewards are of breaking the dungeon's curse, whether that's kingship or the ancient elven secrets of dungeons, are claimed by:

A) a short lived person

B) Someone who will be a good, effective leader and/or use those secrets and the power they carry wisely, with foresight, and to establish a political bloc for short lived people.

The person he can best trust to do this is, of course, himself. But due to his PTSD regarding dungeons and monsters, he's not able to develop the necessary skills to conquer the dungeon. Once he realises this, he starts looking for someone else who he can support to that end.

But most of the adventurers don't have any intentions of conquering the dungeon, don't have the skills, or are unsuitable in other ways. In fact, it seems like some potentially suitable people are the Toudens. There are a lot of good rumours about them going around - they actually seem to have a very positive reputation! That's what Kabru means when he says "unmask".

So when Kabru is observing something like them giving money to an old comrade from their gold-peeling days, he doesn't consider it a problem because "they're giving money to this person who doesn't actually need it" or because they must have some dark secret if they act superficially nice. I think he actually understands this situation and what it implies about Laios (in particular) perfectly well.

Laios and Falin gave money to an old comrade who got injured and couldn't work. That person then healed up but kept taking their money. Then he used the money to start smuggling illicit goods to the island.

The key is that for Kabru, the problem here is the same as with the corpse retrievers - people using the dungeon's resources to fuel dangerous, selfish, or violent pursuits cause problems for the island, attract more criminals and people with motives other than breaking the curse, and increase the chances of the whole situation ending in tragedy.

Kabru is willing to work with the Shadow Lord of the island if it gets him to his goal - he isn't scrupulous - but the criminal element of the island increasing is something he sees as a major issue.

Also, when you're evaluating someone as a candidate for power, riches, secrets, potentially kingship - then being curious about how the money you give to people is going to be used is kind of a relevant trait!

Interpersonally, Kabru's actually very easygoing - I mean, Mickbell isn't exactly an upstanding guy, is he! But Kabru likes him and they get along well. These traits wouldn't be a problem at all in a friend, or a comrade, or someone Kabru was confident he could use. But he can't get a handle on Laios, and Laios is someone who has the potential to be a major player!

On Laios' end, this is the same as with the marriage seeker who joined their party. She kept asking for things and he gave them to her, because he tries to be nice to others. He even gives her money! It's the exact same thing.

That's fine, but it became a problem because he basically wasn't interested in her motives, didn't notice she was trying to manipulate him, and it also didn't occur to him that the other party members would notice or be affected. We can assume the situation with the gold peeler is the same. When Kabru says that "It's not that they're bad people, they just aren't interested in humans," he isn't wrong.

The extent to which this is true of Laios is linked to his autism imo, (because it isn't just disinterest - he genuinely isn't able to notice nonverbal cues that people are lying to him or have ulterior motives) but to a greater or lesser extent I think it's a very common trait. Most people aren't actually that interested in other people who aren't close to them. Kabru is the weird one here. It isn't an issue except as a leader - which is why we see an immediate comparison to the Island's Lord, because that's how Kabru is evaluating them.

And disinterest in/lack of ability with people to the extent Laios exhibits it, it does, actually, make him a worse leader... it's just that as we see in the story, people can help him out. The rest of the party tell him the marriage seeker is taking advantage of him so he tells her he can't give her special treatment anymore. They're pissed and it's a crisis point - he couldn't have recovered their trust without Marcille and Falin - but that's exactly the point. With Marcille and Falin, he was able to recover their trust.

And he has other good traits that make up for it, such as his intelligence, strategic knowledge, open-mindedness and sense of fairplay.

Kabru doesn't disqualify Laios as a candidate based on what he sees about him from afar, though - he still tries very hard to get close to him, obviously hoping that if he manages he can steer Laios to defeat the dungeon and make up for his lack of people-skills in the aftermath. (Which... he does eventually achieve that goal!) He completely fails until the events of the story, so... definitely I think "They just aren't interested in humans" could also partially be a stung reaction to Laios' complete disinterest in him.

Anyway, that's my read on what exactly Kabru's "issue" with Laios is. Obviously, once he does find out what Laios' true nature is like - about his love for monsters - he develops an entirely new set of fears about Laios' priorities. But since Laios kept that a secret until the start of the story, he has no idea of that yet.

Given all that, I think it's interesting that he says that he doesn't think that the Toudens are suitable to defeat the dungeon, and that he's hoping they'll turn out to be the thieves. As some of his few potential candidates, people who he thinks may play a big role in the island's future, you'd think he'd hope they would be good people!

I suppose it's better, in his eyes, because it means that he's involved in something "interesting". They haven't just had their stuff stolen by regular criminals (boring, puts them further away from his goal) - they've been caught up in the beginning stages of "a historic event". The desperate and dwindling group forgetting morals in their quest to retrieve their lost comrade probably appeals to his sense of melodrama. Because he also just... loves drama.

Despite it being "uglier than anything he was expecting", he still pursues Laios as the person he wants to conquer the dungeon pretty much as soon as it becomes clear that he won't be able to do it himself and they are out of time. That's because... well, to be fair, there aren't any other options. And he fits standard A: he's short-lived!

and Kabru still hopes he can fit standard B, too, and be persuaded to use the power he wins for good. No matter how many nightmares he has about Laios, or whether he thinks about killing him. He doubts him, but ultimately he puts his faith in him and seems happy after the manga's ending that he made the right decision.

#dungeon meshi #dungeon meshi manga spoilers #dungeon meshi meta #kabru of utaya #laios touden #labru #laios x kabru #dunmeshi #og post #kabru is such a big picture thinker. and he evaluates people more than he judges them imo #the hater jokes are funny but the people he judges most harshly arent laios and co. they're people like the island's lord. #but you don't see that as clearly because he isn't interested in the island's lord. he understands him. finds him contemptible but useful. #whereas laios lives in his brain rent free because he WANTS to understand him but doesnt quite. #even though he sees the elves as a major threat to his ultimate goals and dislikes the way they treat short lived races #he still understands and evaluates mithrun as an individual based on his own merits #he's one of the characters who is least judgemental in that sense because while he's always making judgements and evaluations #he's also constantly revising them whenever he gets more information #my beautiful machiavellian prince <3 #it's genuinely a really laudable way of understanding others imo. #the only problem is that because he's driven towards his goals by his PTSD and survivors guilt #he pushes himself into situations (the dungeon and also interpersonally) that trigger him or even just upset him #without regard for what he authentically wants or his own wellbeing.

[astrolavas]

your worst nightmares

#keep brainrotting abt hunter and luz. GAHHHH sillies #the owl house #toh spoilers #hunter toh #luz noceda #hunter noceda #toh #watching and dreaming #toh s3 #toh art #my art #fanart #hunter #luz #toh hunter #wad #wad spoilers #the owl house season 3 #hunter fearing he's going to become like belos in ttt. luz thinking she IS as bad as belos because of all of her guilt and self-blame now... #luz dressed up as belos. the hunter in luz's dream being dressed in his s2 pre-hollow mind outfit....... thoughts #that scene with hunter on the floor in luz's nightmare.... that whole setup in GENERAL.. i know that shit'll be devastating #(i feel like the hunter in luz's dream is not ACTUALLY hunter like maybe the hexsquad is MOSTLY just luz's pigmant of imagination or sth) #(and the real hunter is either having his own dream or y'know. just vibing doing sth in real life) #(but if the dream!hunter thinks luz rly IS belos. if the whole HEXSQUAD thinks she's him... despite her trying to tell them she's not.. agh) #begging for them to have one good day cuz MANXJJSK #need a comeback of their first talk in thanks to them but this time it's truly them comforting each other #reassuring each other. knowing that NONE of them are similar to belos in any way #gah #also thinking of that flapjack-shaped rock in the background and how if it's luz's nightmare then it might be a manifestation of her guilt #which means that she also somewhat blames herself for flapjack's death. man i can't do this

[theparallaxview]

I feel like both internet liberals and leftists have a tendency to reverse-Great Man Theory Ronald Reagan at the expense of any insight into the history of his policies or the conservative movement that led up to him.

#YOU CAN’T JUST BLAME EVERYTHING ON HIM WITHOUT TACITLY ABSOLVING COUNTLESS OTHER MONSTERS AND THE WHOLE FUCKING SYSTEM OF ITS GUILT. #IT’S DEEPLY INDIVIDUALISTIC AND ARGUABLY ANTIHISTORICAL. #Anyway this is because I saw a post that blamed him for the US backing brutal regimes in the global south under the guise of anticommunism. #When that famously started back in the post-WWII era and has its roots in Monroe Doctrine ideology. #FYI I fucking hate him but he’s a part of a larger picture. #(Anyway I study American politics during the Cold War with a focus on the rise of the far right.) #original content #100 #500 #1k

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Custody Battle: START

[First] Prev <--> Next

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #jin guangyao #jin ling #wei wuxian #jiang cheng #lan xichen #Jiang Cheng did NOT care to talk to anyone else. He just straight up hones in on finding his nephew. #Jin Ling has had a tummy ache from all the guilt though. Look at that face. You have to be nice JC. #The third panel should have had a more chaotic energy. But onwards we go! #I feel like I have seen very little about the shared custody relationship between JGY and JC. #It's pretty evident that JC has had a large role in raising Jin Ling. As too has JGY. They also seem to have a very familiar banter here. #JGY has 'the nicer parent in the divorce because he only sees the kid(s) every other weekend'. JC is dealing with everything else. #Anyways. This is how xicheng-ers can still win. Jiang Cheng is the 4th in the 3zun polycule. #He might just not know it yet.

[hamletthedane]

Shakespeare: I will create two teenage characters who are explicitly proto-postmodern examinations of the nature of character and fate within fictional narrative. I am their creator and - like their parents within the narrative - I exercise complete control over their fates, no matter how much they struggle against it. They are born like Athena from my mind and doomed to die by my pen, by my complicity in the narrative negligence of them, by my own actions and wishes-

Actor: cool, what's their names?

Shakespeare, father of twins named Judith and Hamnet: uhh…. Juliet and Hamlet.

#obsessed with the Juliet/Hamlet parallels #And how they’re victims of narrative #romeo and juliet #hamlet #shakespeare #willy shakes #these plays are not Shakespeare’s therapy sessions nosiree #dealing with the grief of a child’s death by writing stories where teenagers die because of their parents’ lack of care…. heartbreaking ngl. #the guilt and anguish and horror is just leaking out of the page

[floofery]

Eventually, everyone leaves.

...do I drive them away?

Some birthday art for Basil... angst .... yummy

Bonus:

Pov its ur 17th but your ever-present guilt that follows u wherever you go is still haunting you

Another version:

some speculation in tags!

#omori #omori game #omori basil #omori fanart #omori art #omori sunny #omori kel #omori aubrey #basil omori #I headcanon that hed feel like . this awful guilt from sunnys eye that #weighs over his shoulders ever time he sees Sunny #“you did it” poster but its arrows pointing to the glass eye #and aubrey sometimes turns into this. horrible mess of a monster ect from . the bullying #kel simply a smile when basil looks at him because thats all he was for four years #thank you for coming to my ted talk #my art

[milo03co]

I was born sick but I love it

#wwdits #what we do in the shadows #wwdits fanart #guillermo de la cruz #religious guilt #VAMPIRISM AS A METHAPHOR FOR QUEERNESS AND RELIGIOUS GUILT BECAUSE OF THE WANTING OF IT #Guillermo de la Cruz fan art #wwdits s5 #vampire Guillermo

[igura]

profane thing, ashes on the earth, you are redeemed

#aragorn #boromir #aramir #lotr #myart #a kissy from aragorn will wash all guilt all sadness clean #i can’t think about them too long. anyways #quotes the exorcist (2016) because nobody will stop me <3

[runningwithscizzorz]

I feel a deep sense of anger and grief for Palestine. I’m angry at God, at the world powers donating to those who are killing civilians, angry at people looking away and encouraging you to worry about yourself when people can’t even walk down their streets without being attacked. I’m angry that my friend donated, only for it to be stolen and taken by the soldiers abusing Palestine. I’m angry that I can’t do much of anything but tell you to at least CARE about the people being bombed and slaughtered. Please, if you can’t do anything please just CARE about these people and listen to their stories. Hold them in your hearts at the very least. Don’t pretend they don’t exist or just brush it off as “its been going on for centuries, there’s no point in stopping it.” I want to do more, I want to make people care and love those who need it, rather than continue spreading anger and hate.

These are real people I’ve drawn. Keep the people of Palestine in your heart at the very least please.

#two of my best friends had to run away from their homes because they were Muslim #it was too dangerous for them to stay #but in leaving they also had to leave behind large parts of their families #they tell me about their friends and loved ones that have died and how empty they feel to it #that they also feel a deep sense of hopelessness and guilt at not being able to help #I have a friend now who teaches me about the qur’an and how it talks about having peace and not being afraid in times like these #so please DONT BE AFRAID TO SAY SOMETHING #Please talk about this with your friends #please educate yourself on what’s happening #please please please just CARE about the people of Palestine #even if it’s scary and even if it hurts you #do it for those who don’t have a choice to be afraid or hurt #free palestine #palestine

[buggachat]

this is so horrible

This isn't even new for him. Gabriel did basically this same exact thing in Collector three seasons ago, faked a breakdown in his office and made Adrien believe it was all his fault. This is so consistent with Gabriel's methods of abuse/manipulation, and I already knew Gabriel did this shit, but seeing it again like this and with the dialogue really drives home how absolutely despicable and purposeful this all is.

Gabriel isn't just talking about the friends pushing food on him. He could've chose to say "why don't children respect me!" or "this suit cost so much!" or "i was so embarrassed in front of all the other parents!", but he didn't. He chose instead to talk about Adrien's conversation with him in the kitchen that morning, the one where Adrien very reasonably mentioned that he was uncomfortable being a virtual personal assistant. Adrien didn't even push it. He just mentioned that he was uncomfortable and then kind of moved on from it.... and this is what Gabriel saw as a fitting punishment for Adrien asking a question. To fill Adrien with such intense guilt and shame while shouting things like "Maybe I wasn't meant to be a father!"

Like, this is traumatizing, right? Adrien is witnessing this, and Gabriel knows that Adrien is witnessing it, in fact, Gabriel is only doing it because Adrien is witnessing it. Literally no excuse. This is just pure 100% emotional abuse, flat out, with zero way to sugarcoat it.

#ml spoilers #ml s5 spoilers #illusion spoilers #also i keep thinking about adrien going ''sure dad i'll have bananas!'' in passion when he apparently doesnt even like them #and this scene almost recontextualizes that for me because wow. adrien is absolutely Trapped now into pretending like Gabriel is an A+ star #father with zero faults. adrien is afraid of rocking the boat at ALL. #because the moment he even so much as implies that something's wrong then Gabriel will take it as an excuse to fill adrien with #extreme guilt/shame #fuck you gabriel fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you

[gophergal]

a meme specific to my interpretations

#gopher rambles #tf2 medic #shitpost #team fortress 2 #tf2 memes #emesis blue #my interpretation of blu team is just as clones with falsified memories that have altered their personalities #all of them are less volatile than their red counterparts but are a less effective team #this is especially noticable with Blu Medic (Friedrich) who is basically just emesis blue medic because I think it's funny #so basically this is Catholic Guilt Medic vs Agnostic God Hater Medic. Red Medic (Ludwig) believes that if god is real they're mutual hater

[beybuniki]

bakudekurody team up mission whennn

#theres some lore but im not bringing out my laptop to type it all just know theyre in europe again and deku's close to fuckjng up #their mission because hes silly #which is ooc but idgaf i think 18yo deku deserves to take things less seriously #deku also guilt trips bakugo into meeting rody its the leasg he van do after ruinkng his life middle school ! #bnha #midoriya izuku #deku #bakugo katsuki