#anyways i think i have npd

[sk3l3t0n444]

ok read all of the tags before coming at me

#i just wanted to talk in the tags #but like part of me hates that theres so much positivity for cluster b disorders #no no no hear me out #like i dont have empathy and im better than everybody because of it like i dont give a fuck if im “still a good person” #like no bitch im the best at being the worst and everybody should hate me because im better at being worse than they are #anyways i think i have npd #also all the positivity helps me sometimes like when i feel like im destined to be nothing but a shit person #but rn i am better than everybody else and if you agree with that then im hoing to tell you to gtfo #cuz i have to be the only one who is right in thinking im the best #and if you tell me im not better than everybody that will just fuel my ego because that proves that im right and youre wrong #i should not be allowed in public lmao #usually its not this extreme but like im a little fucked up rn #i keep trying to save people who dont think they need to be saved and it makes me angry as shit #like IK hes 28 and can handle shit himself but i need to fucking save him because he wont help himself damnit #if you want things done right you have to do them yourself #and so ill march my ass all the way ovwr thwre and save him myself #i wanna go tf to bed now #anyways i am on a damn high rn just from my own ego and i love it <3 #anyways imma go to bed now #good night queers and peers

[viveela]

A style comic I just had to get out of my system

#veearts #south park #stan marsh #kyle broflovski #stan x kyle #stankyle #stanky #style #sp fanart #fan comic #taps my fingers. for those who read tags hi hello #ill only say it here but me and my friend thought this up #we concluded these two have the craziest npd/bpd relationship known to man #but we believe they can make it. trust #but yeah this was drawn/written w that coding in mind #I think I did fairly well they're cute but disorderly #my heart goes out to them #again I swear they'll be fine but it's rough. aren't most things tho?? #whatever anyways long live style

[foolishnpd]

hey maybe i'm not a narcissist i'm actually just objectively a cool person who's smart and right about everything and very very talented

#lilyroaring #actually npd #actually narcissistic #narcissistic personality disorder #cluster b things #like no i'm not delusional i'm just CORRECT #i'm hot. i'm smart. nobody can tell me otherwise #because it's TRUE #SUCK ON THAT #everyone tells me that anyways why should i think it's not true #like i wouldn't get all these compliments if i WASN'T great #so like #i don't have an ego. an ego has me

[theokusgallery]

i have bad news for anyone who expects mental illness to be family friendly

^ yeah!

#thats a pretty good summary of it. #ask #anon #arsenic #ok ill rant about the au and mentall illness— nick's not diagnosed with anything. doesnt mean he doesnt #- /have/ anything. #mostly im thinking npd and bpd but this dude just. is not self aware at all. nobody ever told him. oops #im also giving him low empathy because i'll give low empathy to any character im obsessed with #(read: im projecting) (same way im making sunny trans. have i ever mentioned sunny's trans in this AU) #anyway. sunny's autistic but ive said that one before #nick is a psychiatrist's wet dream i think. #for the record i dont think people with npd or bpd are evil. im not evil. my friends are not evil #this AU doesnt exist to be good representation! sorry #anyway narcissistic abuse is not a real thing and aspd was made up by psychiatrists who thought that surely people being violent- #- means they're mentally ill. they based the diagnostic criteria off of criminals. the dsm is made up and none of this is real #i could rant about the way PDs are treated for hours. do NOT give me an opportunity to do so #this AU is not good rep but if someone starts calling nick a psychopath or a sociopath i will bite ! #omori #rant

[eclaire-went-bam]

scrolling thru narc abuse truthers blogs is so fucking funny bCS DO YOU GUYS KNOW WHAT THIS TERM EVEN MEANS ???❓❓❓❓❓❓

HELLO 😭😭😭😭 DELUSIONS PF GRANDEUR????

delusions of grandeur are ALSO present in mental illnesses like SCHIZOPHRENIA and BIPOLAR DISORDER. PSYCHOTIC DISORDERS !!! me when i claim i've experienced schizophrenic abuse

also idk y'all i also have psychosis and i think i can say pretty confidently that when i'm experiencing genuine DELUSIONS of grandeur, i don't care as much of maintaining my image because yes i do genuinely believe i'm an incarnate of god so why would i need other people's opinion???

me when i tell someone experiencing psychosis that their symptoms (grandiose delusions) are NOTHING compared to ✨my✨ experiences

#GUYS AM I STUPID ??? AREN'T DELUSIONS OF GRANDEUR LIKE. #gENUINE SERIOUS DELUSIONS WHERE YOU BELIEVE YOU HAVE SOME SECRET POWER OR ARE #iNHUMANELY SPECIAL IN SOME WAY ??? #RELATED TO CELEBRITIES TYPE STUFF ??? #like i'm no doctor and i'm sure it's different between people but i'm 99% sure delusions lf grandeur aren't just #“i think i'm a bit superior to others so i'm gonna put extra effort into my image to prove it” #if someone you know are experiencing delusions of ANY kind (even grandeur!) your instinct should be to make sure that they are safe #true story from me. once i was experiencing delusions of grandeur and believed i was god and proceeded to try and break my arm because #i believed it wouldn't affect me #when i'm experiencing delusions i should not be allowed on a roof because i will want to walk off to prove i can walk on air #does this person know what a delusion IS????? #idk but in my experience these delusions specifically don't involve a lot of caring about self image because you already wholeheartedly #believe in your own delusions anyways #i genuinely laughed so hard when i read that and it's not even funny #npd #tw abuse #npd positivity

[goldpilot22]

hi, does anyone have links to posts with advice on respectfully writing characters with NPD? (or just, have any advice on doing such?) I'm working on planning out a story and I want one of the characters to have NPD, but I want to portray them respectfully and without stigmatizing the disorder, and there's not much (useful, non-stigmatizing) resources out there about NPD in general. (I've done some research already by reading NPD resources from the community on tumblr, so I think I have a basic understanding of how the disorder affects people who have it and how the stigmatized portrayal of it is inaccurate, but I'm looking for advice specifically for writing a character.)

more specifically, what I'm looking for advice on is what the character's point of view and internal monologue could be like, and how to portray a character with NPD who is in a position where they're accepted for who they are and their emotional needs are being met, and info on how Autism and NPD might interact in a person who has both. (I might add on to this post later with more details on what I've got for the character so far.)

[don't make ableist / stigma-perpetuating comments on this post or I'll block you. be respectful.]

#npd #actually npd #(<- I don't have npd myself but I'm using the tag because I'd prefer advice from folks who do) #narcissistic personality disorder #writing advice #psii.txt #this post is brought to you by: Spite. and me getting really fuckin fed up with all the stigmatized portrayals of npd in media and online #do not mention 'narc abuse' on this post or I'll block you instantly. my position on the concept is that it's not a thing. #no disorder or neurotype makes someone capable of any special kind of harm. end of discussion. #anyways #yeah #btw if this post gets too much reblogged I might turn off rbs just in case. I think I have replies allowed from anyone though

[urproblematicfav-arsonk]

Something something Willy telling "his kid" that he hated them because they represented his own failures and loss. Willy and Ron having a lot psychologically issues in common(npd/autisim), Willy after being isolated and unable to mask properly resulting in him having multiple Ron-isim moments and coming across as Weird™. Despite having multiple people throughout his life try desperately to love the trauma/personality disorder out of him it never really went anywhere. Willy keeping a mirror with his dead uncles name on it and keeping the lure that his son used to kill him.

Something something the doodler manifests as your own traumas and what you are most insecure about yourself. How much of Dood looks like Ron and how much of Dood looks like Sparrow

#i have complex thoughts on this but dont wanna properly write it out because i am bad at articulation outside of my own head for some reason #anyway part of the reason willy hates ron is cuz ron is almost entirely incapable of masking correctly and willy resents that #both willy and ron have npd and autsim and i stand by that #look me in the eye and tell me ron “whos ur daddy now” stampler isnt a narcist #also sparrow and norm parallel willy and ron #sparrow doesn't like normal cuz norm doesn't/cant mask #norm is unapologetically himself and more often then not doesn't register anything else as an option #sparrow sees this as a sign that normal won't be able to ya know be a normal functional child and adult #and i think there's resentment because lark and sparrow were also unapologetically themselves and that refusal to bend or change #resulted in the world ending #even tho the problem was them never getting proper help for their antisocial behavior and not the lack of masking #the twins are sociopaths and the samplers are narcists discus #dungeons and daddies #dungeons and daddies s2 #dungeons ans daddies s2 spoilers #dnddads s2 #dnddads s2 spoilers #willy stampler

[angorwhosebabyisthis]

me: hermes is a painfully accurate example of how some ways of defending yourself against certain kinds of insidious emotional abuse, gaslighting, ableism, and therapy speak can warp you into a person whose learned helplessness and lack of perspective can result in doing really shitty things, and who passes that abuse along in different forms (hi meteion) + lashes out in disproportionate ways + can be deeply hypocritical.

me: as a disabled person in a society where our systemic mass murder via pressure into government-sanctioned suicide is on the rise, the ancients' society is beyond fucking upsetting to me. i have zero sympathy for anything to do with them pre-apocalypse except for the effects of living in that system.

me: that said, they are a good opportunity to remind oneself that there are children in that burning building; that a society being fucked does not mean they deserve to be wiped out; and that that does not mitigate the harm they do, nor mean that its victims are not allowed to be angry or resist it, including the victims inside it.

me, booboo the fool: oh, this youtube essay about hermes looks interesting--

#final fantasy xiv #ffxiv hermes #heeeellllllppppppppp #i haven't even been looking for discourse in fact i have been trying to avoid it #i just wanted hermes meta and every other site i've so much as glanced at for it so far has been This #hermes is so so fucked up and so interesting #and Relatable in so many ways which simultaneously are incredibly validating; and can make for an uncomfortable look in the mirror #and people trying to like. diagnose him with NPD and say he's The Worst Ever Actually and is basically 'they all hated me' goob #while saying things like 'i can't be ableist i have depression' #and while accusing anyone who says the ancients did anything actually wrong at all of being anti-indigenous genocide apologists #is so much. it's So Much. oh my god #anyway i have been greatly enjoying this game and it is incredibly refreshing to see this kind of thing represented and called out lmao #FFtag #ffxivtag #genocide cw #abuse cw #abuse denial cw #abuse apologia cw #gaslighting cw #ableism cw #the salt files #(also god don't get me started on hyth/lodaeus people who do this Love Him and Think He's Super Sweet and Gay) #(when he is a horrible person in specific ways that make my skin crawl right off my body. the way he talks about meteion jesus christ) #(if your blorbo is fucked up that's fine but GOOOOOOD GOD) #warning: worm grass #endwalker spoilers

[butchdykekondraki]

wait wait while we're being snarky, shoutout to psychotics, shoutout to narcs, shoutout to sociopaths, shoutout to people w hallucinations, shoutout to people with ptsd, shoutout to people with did, shoutout to people with osdd, shoutout to people who have mental disorders that cant be viewed as "quirky", shoutout to people w ocd, shoutout to people with bipolar disorder, shoutout to people who dont have a "good" or "normal" mental disorder.

#[jay] #me when i have npd bpd ptsd did and a crippling anxiety disorder #anyway BEGGING you guys to reblog this #i dont even want clout i just think people need to be appreciated

[loveofastarvingdog]

i think something that always rung hollow to me when people discuss abusers is how they often turn them into something subhuman. something that never feels guilt and never is kind and never is gentle and doesn't ache with love. but i have seen a deep and abiding cruelty come from people who i know to hold a vast and sincere well of love. cruelty does not necessarily mean the absence of love. and in the same way, love will not always mean the absence of cruelty. of malignant anger. but it does everyone a disservice to say you cannot be cruel if you love, and you cannot love if you are cruel

#timothy's txts. #sorry if i'm wording this weird #and also i'm not sure how to word this while acknowledging the very real experience of loveless people who are no less human for not #experiencing love #i think they have been pathologized in a similar way to people with npd and antisocial personality disorders etc #but yeah. i'm just trying to say that saying abusers don't feel love will cause people to think some people aren't abusers. just because #they know that the abuser does love or does good things or is kind or etc etc etc #ask to tag #anyways. thinking about cruelty and love and how they don't cancel out. they hold hands

[widevibratobitch]

visiting my mother. idk what i expected lol

#everyone is fucking dying from cancer now #(except for the one who should be lol my grandma's cancer is benign turns out. #worst person ever award goes to me as always but if someone should die it should be her. there. i said it. #they never should have tried to save her from that stroke) #anyway it's unfair af and my mom doesn't deserve this but again. im the worst person ever but i cant fucking deal with this #i cannot be someone's emotional support. least of all hers. when im in this mental state myself. #obv i should never ever have children. but if i do. id rather fucking kms than cry in front of them. never ever ever ever. #call me a heartless bitch ig but at this point i think ive really stopped caring #i wish this wasnt happening to us i wish i were never born or at the very least i wish i had any siblings #with whom i could share the responsibility. but i dont. im fucking alone man. completely and utterly alone in this. #its all on me and im not up to the task and i hate that its asked of me in the first place. #spoiled ungrateful little brat alert but i just cant. cant bring myself to do this cant bring myself to truly care i genuinely feel nothing #i cant bring myself to stop being selfish in this. who tf knows maybe i do have npd it would explain a lot lol

[gloriousmonsters]

hi hello just saw everything everywhere all at once and i am experiencing the temporary euphoria of remembering that in a fragmented and chaotic universe we must search for wonder make our own meaning and most importantly be kind

#anyway i'm also exhausted and i'm going to bed #i had to stop my therapist from saying my mom had 'narcissistic tendencies' when i was describing some shit she did in the past today #and be like 'um actually i have '''narcissistic tendencies''' so could we please Not' #obviously she was not initially buying it when she asked 'why did you think that' but I did outline the things that had resonated with me #why i self dxed and how it was a hugely important tool for making sense of the way my brain worked #and therefore figuring out how to effectively try and improve #and touched on the 'it sucks that people are forming clubs to call everyone they don't like a narcissist' and #'if you say someone with a PD doesn't do (x) good behavior you're basically saying a PD is a life sentence and not just information #about how your mind/personality tends to work' greatest hits #and she did seem to agree with a lot of what I said #and seemed to understand when I said I just straight up didn't want to talk about my parents being mentally ill #because what mattered to me was how they chose to act #and not what may or may not be a contributing factor #and ultimately she said she appreciated that I'd spoken up and we could look into dx stuff for npd if I wanted #(which I don't know if I do want! but I feel like it's a positive-ish thing for her to bring up) #so overall it was scary and exhausting but I was pretty happy with how I handled it #and it had me already thinking a lot of Big Stuff about self-improvement and sense of self #and learning to find hope and not just stew in misery or stagnate in 'this is the way things are' #and then the movie hit and it was just the perfect movie to watch today #genuinely a masterpiece god tier acting and effects never a dull moment #and listen i just need everyone to try and be kind to yourself and others ok we need it #believe that you can be okay and you are okay and spend a little time with something or someone you love

[foolishnpd]

I make a concerning post, but do not explicitly ask for or even expect attention for it

and then when I get no attention I just want to curl up and die because nobody loves me nobody cares about me I'm better off dead oh god

#lilyroaring #npd safe #tw suicide #I guess I should just beg for attention #or be more concerning via lying #or actually doing something concern worthy #I do sincerely despise lying... #I don't want to beg for attention #I just expect it when it's not warranted #and then feel awful for not receiving it #it's just proof #that I'm not loved #that I have no reason to be here #nobody cares if I live or die #unless I'm actively trying to die #I can't expect everyone to drop everything to care and love me just because I'm having some mild thoughts #nobody has the energy for that #and if they tried. I'd probably think they were faking concern anyways... #it's not like concern or pity would cure me anyways #it won't stop me from wanting to die #I might get a temporary high for a while from the attention #but in the end. the lack of it always hits 10x harder than getting it

[some-teeth-in-a-trench-coat]

Extremely incoherent tired ramble I think mostly about what the heck does empathy mean and I can't have npd right (<- doesn't remember if he actually confirmed you can't be high empathy and have npd or just got confused by something but still probably just being mentally ill in unrelated ways)

why do narcissist memes need to be so relatable like I'm high empathy unless I've gravely misunderstood what empathy is? I think that's gotta be one I don't have right ?? my brain is just still disorder hoarder mode because it still hasn't realized we already got the validation of knowing we're genuinely messed up that we were craving years ago (which was mainly "yes you're plural actually no like legit you're not making those guys up and yeah no that stuff was trauma you are not just mysteriously messed up without trauma there was definitely trauma what part of being terrified every single night for most of your childhood did you think was not traumatic") what was I talking about uh empathy is like just interpreting information to the best of your ability and then feeling things based on that interpretation like it can be incorrect just like you can read words wrong and react to what you think you read and like empathy makes you feel what you interpret other people as feeling to some extent right? and it's like analogies and metaphors in how it requires you to map one situation onto another in order to interpret it and lacking knowledge about one of them will make it much harder to understand just like I don't understand what it means to not understand metaphors to the point of struggling to communicate without the use of analogies in case that wasn't obvious but that's what empathy is right like it's not telepathy it's just interpreting and reacting to information?? I have that I can interpret information and then I react like just now I thought what if a child was sad for some reason and I almost cried bc hypothetical child is sad and that's incompatible with the thing isn't it someone who's better at humans than me please explain good night

#sfw #personal #I'm sleep deprived and don't know how humans work and I'm bad at ????? something I don't know what I was saying #but I'm posting anyway because uhhh I can't think of an explanation that isn't basically quoting npd posts?? #but I can't say them that's uh illegal because I don't have npd so if I say those things it's because my brain decided to pretend to have it #because like I said it just hasn't caught up yet with the yeah we don't need to have all the disorders we got the answers we needed #you don't need to make up more answers or questions and I don't know what I'm talking about anymore I'm gonna stop talking #and go to sleep and think way too much about how disappointed I'm gonna be looking at the notes tomorrow #and overanalyze that thought in a familiar spiral of “why are you making this up?” “because I'm right” #at least this time I'm not pretending I'm not in a spiral for years chasing my own tail insisting my tail isn't real but a squirrel #what am I even saying I'm sorry good night

[eclaire-went-bam]

ppl, especially low/no-empathy ppl, who talk to ableist anti-pd cluster b abuse believers with the upmost patience & understanding are so crazy (/pos) for that because what

how do y'all sit there and level w/ them just. so much.

i know it's kind of necessary bcs even if they don't listen to us anyways, they're only gonna think we're 10× worse if we don't walk them through the spiel w/ hands held (which we're not even owed to do anyways) but like i can hardly see myself doing it

so like

respect

#y'all should be honoured y'all got My respect specifically .... /silly #cluster b #tw ableism #npd #bpd #aspd #hpd #narcissistic personality disorder #borderline personality disorder #antisocial personality disorder #histrionic personality disorder #low empathy #no empathy #narc abuse #obligatory Is Not Real #maybe i could do it ?? i tried to level before when explaining it to ppl on a different app but even then i was still kinda pointed #but it'd be exhausting. #i'm gonna be honest i think most of these sorta posts or replies are mostly for Our community anyways since #i don't think i've Ever seen anyone change their stance on this no matter how it's conveyed #so i'm sure people go into these discussions knowing that too #i mean if anyone does have any examples feel free to tell. Curious #but yea i guess a lotta ableists have those same self-insulated type of beliefs as your average conspiracy #“anyone who tells you otherwise is wrong for x y & z reasons. if they say literally anything contrary to this they're trying to team up & #manipulate you. these people whom you have never interacted with in your life prior to this. they're in kahoots w ur abuser to validate the #abuse. just trust me on this bro“ type stuff #“don't trust pw/pds bcs they're pw/pds” circular reasoning #didn't mean to basically type something that could be a whole new post in the tags but like whatevs

[cirusthecitrus]

Horde prime for the bingo sheet

My favorite character, everybody

I colored the "everyone but me is wrong about them" only because I want to take this wonderful opportunity and (very politely) appeal to spop and spacebat fandom! May be an unpopular opinion but

PLEASE STOP CALLING HORDE PRIME A NARCISSIST thank you ^_^

The word you are looking for is self-centered or selfish, or egotistical - literally any other word is good!

Narcissists are people with narcissistic personality disorder (or NPD) - and it's already a highy stigmatized and demonized disroder. So please don't misuse this word, real people get hurt

It is abelist to call every self-absorbed fictional villian or literally any bad person narcissist, since it only reinforces the stigma and this stereotype that people with npd are all dangerous evil abusers and manipulators who are incapable of love, sympathy and literally any goodness

It is no way an attack on anyone btw! Just trying to raise awareness a bit, cause this word does get misused a lot, and not many people know about it, that's all!

And one can still headcanon HP as a narcissist! It is still an interesting take on the character! But when ur only reasoning is "he's manipulative abusive cult leader and believes he's god" - then we might have a problem. That's not a narcissist, that's your typical evil villian of the week who wants to take over and then destroy the world just because he can

It may sound silly, or unimportant, especially after 2 years since the finale of the show, plus it's Horde fucking Prime, but it's not about him anyway, it's about real people

#ask memes #ramblings #spop #shera #horde prime #spacebats #horde clones #spop meta #?kinda #i myself am not cluster b and don't have npd btw #this topic just caught my interest and i did some research #so people who are actually npd be free to correct me! #edge lorde #i'm so sorry i took ur lighthearted ask and turned it into a rant gofgfgpfp #i'm so scared to post this gpfpgofpg but i don't think many people will see it anyway