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capriciouswriter207 · 5 months

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The Terrors Beneath Deepfrost Citadel: a dnd-campaign

Get ready for “The Terrors Beneath Deepfrost Citadel”: a Decked Out 2-inspired Dungeons and Dragons campaign.

Many years ago, an adventurer by the name of Thaddeus Holsten opened the Black Mines and built Deepfrost Citadel - names familiar to any who aspire to be adventurers themselves. After tragedy struck, the mines were blocked off, the Citadel stood empty, and Thaddeus Holsten himself vanished.

Year after year, adventurers arrive in the former mining town of Hermilthan, sitting at the foot of the icy mountain where Deepfrost Citadel and the Black Mines are located. To find the treasures buried in the mines or hidden within the Citadel’s walls, or to discover the fate of Thaddeus Holsten. But anyone who enters the Citadel to start their search, disappears without a trace and none walk out alive.

Do you have what it takes to brave this dungeon? Or will it eat you alive?

This module contains:

An original thrilling tale of terror that leans closely and expands on official lore

Adventure for characters levels 3 through 7

Five distinct and dynamic levels to explore

Up to 18 different maps

Awesome magic items, based on the original dungeon’s artifacts

Unique Hermit-inspired NPCs and creatures

All in a fancy PDF and a less fancy but no less functional google doc!

For all your Decked Out 2 dungeons and dragons needs, all these resources are freely available following this link.

The Dungeon is ready for its next victim…

(This module is inspired by and based on Decked Out 2, a game made by TangoTek during Hermitcraft season 9).

#tangotek #hermitcraft #decked out 2 #terrors beneath deepfrost citadel #I can't believe I finished this #rather - can't believe i finished this in the span of two months #hyperfixation hit me hard #maybe this'll help me refocus on my other works #anyway - i am very proud of what i have accomplished and i'm sharing it with the world now #do with this as you please or take what you like for your own games and whatnot #i released it into the world what you do with it is out of my hands #capricious writings

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straydog733 · 6 months

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I just need to share with you one of the stupidest writing choices I've seen in a long time.

(Spoilers for The Gilded Age S2 Premiere)

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So The Gilded Age is not a good show, but it's a not-good show that I'm going to watch every second of. It's by the guy who made Downton Abbey, leaning into all his worst habits, and it's trash in incredibly tacky outfits. But anyway, in Season 1, they have this character named Peggy. She's a young woman, from a Black Elite family in New York, ambitions to be a journalist, but also some mysterious secret that she's keeping all season. It's eventually dribbled out that she had a baby who died at birth, but when someone tries to blackmail her for her scandalous past, turns out she was married at the time (to a lower class man her father didn't approve of, but married nonetheless), so she can be pitied, not scorned. After the baby died, her father paid her husband to fuck off and annul the marriage. This was a few years ago, and Peggy has been trying to find the midwife who delivered her stillborn, to talk to her and get a bit of closure.

PSYCH, BABY'S ALIVE! Her father paid the midwife (what must have been an absurd amount of money) to kidnap his grandson, foist him off to another family, and tell Peggy her baby died. The first season ends with her and her mother heading off on an adventure to find and reunite with her boy.

So this plot was very unpopular and got the show a lot of criticism. It was boring, it was a scandal with all the scandal removed, it was a retread of a Downton plot, and it took Peggy away from the actually interesting stuff about New York black high society and black journalism at the turn of the century. So how best to respond to these criticisms in the premiere of Season 2?

PSYCH, BABY'S DEAD AGAIN! We start the season after a time skip, in which time Peggy has managed to track down her three year old son, gotten in contact with his family, and almost reunited with him...only to learn he died of scarlet fever six months ago. The season starts with them having learned this a bit ago and already in mourning, because the show creator refuses to put anything interesting on screen, and by the end of the episode she is determined to leave her parents' home again and basically return to her non-baby Season 1 plot.

And I just can't get over the fact that they double-killed her baby. I get wanting to write out this stupid plot, but there are ways to do it that don't feel like a shaggy dog story and bury a vibrant character in mourning for the season premiere!

Andrea and I have been plotting alternatives, and it would have been SO easy: have her meet the kid, realize he's a happy toddler with a loving family, and that she doesn't want to tear him away from that to be a single mother (which a character on Downton did twice with the same baby, so you'd even be attoning for a previous sin!). "Oh my darling son, I am glad to know you, and I will make you proud of your mother's accomplishments as I take the publishing world by storm!" Then you never have to show the kid again, can throw in a line every now and then about her visiting, and she can still do her fun plotline! Boom, fixed it!

It is all just brain-bendingly stupid and I needed to ramble and share the joy. And as a reward for getting to the end, have a ridiculous costume photo of an unrelated character:

#the gilded age #downton abbey #julian fellows #they double-killed her baby

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hooked-on-elvis · 21 days

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Hello there! I am a fan of your blog and I appreciate the depth you provide when your posts include text. You are an eloquent writer and as an English major, I can appreciate that in anyone!

Anywho, I was wondering what is your favorite era of Elvis and why? Mine is 50s E, going back to ‘53 pre-fame. He was just a young man with stars in his eyes and music flowing through his veins. I loved his zeal for God and the Bible (especially as a Christ follower myself), his passion and work ethic, his devotion to his family, all those things. Many of those tenets remained with him at the time of his passing but unfortunately, I do believe he was a case of being swamped by his fame (as has happened to many big stars). From what I’ve read, I do believe he was on his way to reworking his life in ways that returned to his roots reminiscent of 50s E, where he was more free and relaxed in accordance with his fame.

That being said, ‘68 to 70s E has my heart when it comes to music. He accomplished the variety I believe he wanted from the start, and was fleshed out in his individuality. Heh, this was a book and a half…thank you for reading and I look forward to your response!

TCB and TLC! 💜⚡️

First of all: 🥹🥲 Thank you for your kind words and compliment, dear. I'm glad I can do some good enough work when talking about Elvis' career and life because I think as much zeal Elvis had for God, like you mentioned, not comparing him with God but I do have the same zeal for him. When friends like you compliment the things I share in my blog I like to think Elvis is somehow proud of the little things I do while researching his career and sharing what i found out in a the clearest way I find to even tho I'm still studying English just like you. I try to do the best I can, I take a lot of time writing and rewriting but even so sometimes I know I slip in my writing. Anyhow I'm very pleased to hear my flaws don't come in the way of what I'm aiming to do. Helping to spread information about Elvis' rich career and life story with the more people I can reach. Thank you for sharing your feelings with me. You have no idea how I feel honored.

I can relate to your feelings about Elvis in many ways but there isn't an easy answer from my part, friend. Sorry if I may ramble too much in my answer but here goes my thoughts/feelings:

We, Elvis fans, love all of his eras anyway but we all have our favorites so, being specific, I love late 60s and all about 70s Elvis the most, specially 70s Elvis, and that's because of his voice, which was so much deeper and intenser than when he was young (naturally and because he worked hard for it too), and because of his repertoire as a musician, the country songs specially — also because of his latter movies which are my favorites.

Back in early 60s Elvis' voice was pretty much matured already but his repertoire, even tho I love it, is not my favorite in comparison to the 50s and 70s ones. There's too many ballads in the early 60s and I prefer the country songs Elvis performed in the 50s and 70s the most, as I said. I can't deny his looks in the 70s has something to do with my favorite Elvis era too. Late 1970 to 1972/1973 in my favorite period of Elvis' appearance, but as for his personal life, the 70s is not my favorite Elvis era at all, as you can imagine and I think we all can agree on this.

The way he was emotionally damaged in the course of his career is something we cry about every day, as fans. The fame pressure, better saying the need-for-profit business pressure that was put on him, took some of his shine away even tho he still had plenty to give, and he did, until the end of his life. The misfortune to him was becoming a prisoner of his phenomenal fame, "swamped by his fame" as you put it, but he loved the fans, he loved performing, he loved the spotlight on him, he loved his work, loved music to no end, and that's something we can trust to comfort our fan hearts. Elvis had a pretty good life, not a perfect one, but he was happy despite the problems he faced, the problems of human life that each of us have to deal with at some point in each unique ways they are presented to us, periods of deep sadness, hopelessness, anxiety, and so on. Even tho we will keep continually fantasizing that EP had never went through such problems in his life, our precious boy. I always like to enhance this: Elvis was not a sad "old" man by the end of his life. He had days and days. Life was not that exciting as it was for him in the 50s but, even tho not fully satisfied with life and with his career (the things he felt it lacked for him to accomplish), he was happy, he was in good humor most times, and he made many, many, MANY people happy (as helped many too) until the last day of his life, as we know — he still does so now in afterlife… here we are as a living proof.

By the way, one of the things I love the most about 70s Elvis is the way, even tho in his soul he could be in deep sorrow at times, he always found a way to make people laugh, even at his own expenses with self-deprecating jokes, for example. It's funny how he did this. Elvis was a special soul.

And yeah, the way Elvis loved God and the way he was never shy to show it is one of my favorite things about him too. I love to think he conquered his 3 Grammy Awards for his gospel albums, even tho it's sad he never conquered one for his secular music ones. He was proud of praising the Lord with the talent he always spoke proudly He had given to him, and winning awards from it I think made him feel the Lord was happy with the way he lived his life.

So, I guess my definite - tho not very specific - response to your amazing question is: I love 50s Elvis the most concerning his personal satisfaction as a performer, and I love late 60s, specially 70s Elvis the most concerning his work. I love him most of all, and everything he did, in different levels.

I warned ya', my answer wouldn't come that easy but that's how I feel. It's not easy to explain but I guess you can understand a little how I feel about Elvis now.

Thanks for your question, dear, and for you taking your time reading my content and being so kind and generous in sharing your thoughts with me and being interested in my feelings as an Elvis fan like you. Thank you for sharing your feelings about him with me (with us all) too! I love how we share the same kind of perceptions about El.

All my love to you, dear. A big, warm hug. 💖

TCB and TLC!⚡️

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trash-bats · 5 months

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I don't often share messy art WIP's, but this is a bit of an ambitious piece I'm nervous about & could maybe use some input from my DF followers over here.

A couple weeks ago, I started what was supposed to be a simple "Trash Bat" illustration of Davey. Instead of just putting some generic trash can or dumpster in the scene, I got the idea to cover a landfill in a bunch of easter eggs. This ranges from old & new merch, references to music videos, old gig posters and ticket stubs, and more obscure things like a page of "Unearthed: The Unused Lyrics of Davey Havok" from the Under the Rose magazines & Jade's iPod (RIP) with titles of unreleased songs on the screen.

The idea is like...yeah, this stuff will one day end up in a landfill, and maybe some of it is things the band don't relate to anymore or don't see the value in. But from the perspective of a fan lovingly filling this scene with these totems, this pile of "garbage" is more like a shrine. Many of us fans will still see the value in everything they've done, even the things they toss aside or that won't see the light of day. He's our Trash Bat, and his trash is our treasure.

I know it looks like a literal damn mess right now -- I'm going to go in with lineart and mess with the contrast more to make certain things pop and make things as detailed as I reasonably can. I originally intended the piece to be b&w, but I'm considering adding some color to help certain things in the pile be more recognizable. I'm also gonna swap out the Death of the Party shirt for the more general AFI skull shirt Davey has also worn during recent performances & do a bit more work with lighting/shadow.

I'm a very nervous artist who has often intimidated myself out of working on ambitious pieces, but this is a piece that has suddenly become important for me to get right. Words alone cannot capture how much this band means to me & for years I've wanted to do that passion justice through art, but feel like I haven't yet accomplished that. Last year was the first time I shared AFI fan art that I tagged Davey in on Insta, and getting a like from him - multiple times! - was pretty mind-blowing for me. I'm grateful for the support I received on those Havok Doll pieces, but I'm not particularly proud of them. While it was a fun concept for me, I feel like the doll idea was more successfully explored by people who can make actual real custom dolls, like Dolly Havok on Insta. I might still go back to it because I really did want to immortalize more of Davey's range of fashion over the years, but there's also so many other things I want to explore in art & with my love for AFI & related projects.

ANYWAYS, if you see this and have any recommendations for anything else that could be lovingly added to the trash pile or some constructive crit, please let me know! I want this piece to be a real love letter to the band's history, and I'm trying to represent as many eras as I can. I'm going to try taking my time with finishing this & bounce between this and other projects to try to avoid burnout (which I am QUITE prone to), but I'm excited to hopefully see this idea through & I hope others enjoy it.

#can you tell I'm anxious about this :3 #WIP #my art

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deepslumbrrr · 3 months

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Hello Again + About My Book...

Good morning, good afternoon, and good evening, my friends. It's been a while, huh? What a year it's been!

What's that? It's only February, you say?

Well, it sure is! And what a year it's been! Longest January of my life, I tell you.

Anyway, I'm popping in today because I want to talk about my book, The Smallest Sapling. Been a long time coming, eh?

There's a lot that I want to talk about, so if you're interested at all, details to follow below.

So, first and foremost, I want to thank everyone who has ever shown any interest in my writing career. My first book was exactly that—my first. There's more to come, but that's for later. For now, I have some information to share about my debut Fantasy novel.

Even before it was finished, a few people approached me with questions. They wanted to know the process. They wanted to know how exactly one writes a book in [Current Year].

Well, friends, I'm here to give you some news:

Writing the book is the easy part. Everything else? Ha, well... not as simple, I'm afraid. I'm thankful for the challenges I faced, however, and the lessons I learned from them.

Let's start with some stats:

As of today, February 1, 2024, I have sold twenty books, whether they were digital e-books or physical copies (paperback or hardcover).

And in totality, this is how much money I've made from my book in that time.

This might be well and good, until you consider...

...I've spent almost as much money on advertising the book itself!

I'm unsure if this is normal for new authors, especially those who self-publish. I'm unsure because, naturally, I've never done this before now. I wanted to take some advice from others before jumping into the deep end, so to speak. Sink or swim; learn as you go! That was my thought process.

I will say, however, that I am very proud of my work and what I've accomplished so far! As I said, I've learned quite a lot. I want to share what I've learned with all of you, especially those who have approached me and spoken to me about wanting to write a book themselves. I'm the first of my friends and acquaintances to do something like this, and I'd like to be a lighthouse for anyone lost at sea.

In a separate post coming soon(?) I want to talk about the writing process itself. That is to say, how to write a book, how to self-publish your book, and I'd like to share advice with my friends, contemporaries, and anyone else who is interested!

And, in the end...

Writing this book was, honestly, not very profitable at all. However, I'm not discouraged in the slightest. This is what I expected, after all.

Something important I learned: I am a little shy when it comes to just talking about my book to other people, even off the web. I know I didn't advertise as much as I could have. That 20 could have been a 30 if I was a little more assertive and little less shy.

This is also why most people try to go the traditional route when it comes to publishing their novels. They get big companies to do the heavy lifting for them, which is commendable, but just as perilous!

(More on that later!)

But whether I made ten dollars, or one dollar, or even no dollars, I don't regret it one bit. The journey is far from over, and I love, with all my heart and soul, every single step I've taken so far. It's a winding path, and my head is held high, and I'm chasing the sun.

I wonder what's at the end?

Let's find out together.

Until next time ❤️

#writing #slumbrrr #writeblr #aspiring author #first book #my first book #insights #statistics #stats #books sold #lighthouse #learned #the smallest sapling #alex ruiz #fantasy book #fantasy #new book

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expirisims · 4 months

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Hello All!

So...I've been on a bit of a hiatus once again! I have been super busy in my personal life as always. I am hoping to get some play time soon, I've been really itching to open my game especially while my manuscript is still with my betas for a few more weeks. Anyway, I have some plans!

For my Sims game, I have been really wanting to make another world, or maybe more...I don't know, I'm too indecisive. I have been toying with the idea of making a roadless village type island, possibly resurrecting my old Pickerling Cove world I started ages ago and did not complete, and a new idea that ties into my real life a little bit. I started a world years ago and it corrupted so it was never completed, however, I found some of the old builds for that world from before the corruption that I have tested in game. I'm thinking of remaking the original concept and using those old builds where I can. Some of them unfortunately will be quite impossible to use because of the terrain, however, I am wanting to incorporate interiors that I am planning to make in 1/6 scale for my little one's doll town. Yes, I have an entire hidden doll city planned in our playroom...and I've been watching too much Youtube in my free time lol! Anyway, I'm thinking that building the various cafe's, apartments ect in Sim World will help me make design choices for the compartments I have planned in the window seat, coffee table and bookshelf in our playroom.

I have also started sewing some clothes for my kiddo's dolls because we have mostly rags left over from my childhood, modern Barbie clothes are simply not the same as they were when I was a kid and let's just say it's a good thing the majority of my kiddo's Ken dolls have molded on underwear! That being said, I would love to share pictures with you all, but I don't want to clutter up Simblr's with non sims stuff so I am planning to open a second page for sharing my crafts! As long as Tubmlr still exists that is.

I know this is already long, but I wanted to at least share my last played day in Redwood Harbor (from months ago) below the cut as I haven't shared pictures in a LOOOONG time! Thanks for sticking around to read this and I hope everyone is doing well! Now on to the pics!

I don't remember exactly what was going on, but I do know that Antonio is still working nights and Joanna is getting VERY pregnant so once I get back into game she may go into labor by the end of this rotation!

Woohoo! Jody has learned to walk! I'm going to be honest, the Sims toddlers wear me out so I have never really tried to get their skills accomplished until my Redwood Harbor save, lol! Quite proud of my little sims!

Looks like it was off to the winter festival the next day! Antonio works nights and Joanna is on maternity leave already...aaand of course, they left Jody to fend for himself while they went ice skating!

Left over salad it is for dinner...Joanna what are those shoes you're wearing with that outfit!!??

OMG!! Really!!?? I'm pretty sure these two are going to break up again so I'm not sure how this is going to work out!

Time for bonuses! Better luck next year Joanna, maybe you won't be on maternity for most of the next year so you can progress in your career, fingers crossed the sims in this save seem to be very fertile.

Have I mentioned how much I LOVE playing this save?

#sims 3 #ts3 #ts3 world stories #sims3 gameplay #ts3 worlds #ts3 gameplay #updates #redwood harbor #joanna mccabe #antonio mcallister #jody mccalister #terrell thigpen #alyson farrell #upcoming projects

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adventuringblind · 11 days

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6, 25, & 28 please lovely <3

ps .. you deserve all nice things and i am very proud of you for whatever you’ve accomplished (even if all you’ve done is just keep breathing). you always have people in your corner, even if it’s through a screen <33

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CRYING REAL TEARSSSSSSS! Y'all are to nice to me T_T

Say three nice things about yourself (three physical and three non-physical). I hate it here so I'm gonna brag

I got my associates degree at seventeen free of charge through dual enrollment so I am accomplished Ig

I somehow understand Spanish despite not being fluent... I blame my mom speaking it all the time but never explicitly teaching it.

I'm good at chess! I was a nerd and made boys cry at tournaments when I was younger. My parents have actually recordings of it.

Thunder thighs save lives!

My hair is nice depending on the day

My lips are kissable n my humble opinion.

What’s the best personal gift someone could give you (playlist, homemade card, etc.)

This might sound kind of silly, any kind of engaging conversation. Like, I love when people pick my brain about things. It makes me so happy that somebody wants to know my thoughts on something.

On a more physical level, I'd say a playlist. I like when people share their music with me because I know that can come with insecurity. I remember being told by my peer group growing up that I wasn't allowed to play my music at hangouts because it was strange. It makes me happy when someone trusts me enough to show me a song they like or a playlist they've made!

Hugs or hand-holding?

Both! My love language is physical touch. Mainly because if I am giving to you or letting you give it to me, it means I trust you insaid space.

Anyway...

Hand holding is something I got used to growing up since I don't look blind but am. My mom and dad needed a way to tug me out of the way of poles or other people. I get yelled at by strangers because I would walk right in the way of things. Shopping was also a pain since I had a tendency to lose sight of my mom even if she was just a bit further down the aisle. Holding onto somebody just became safety for me.

Hugs are different because that's more of a choice. Sometimes I'm to overstimulated to hug back and just lean into somebody else. Or, I hate being suffocated or touched by people when I didn't ask for it unless I already trust said person.

So while handholding is safety, hugs how you know I like you.

#🌻.anon #Ren's.thoughts

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feline-evil · 4 months

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Its da freaking new year baby

I mean it turned new year like 13 hours and thirty minutes ago for me i was just busy and didn't post here at the time. Anyways.

2023 has been A Lot for me! On one hand my wrist issues finally fully caught up to me and it's one of the first years i've not been able to draw as much during which has been. Very hard. It's been a year of health issues and my body kinda failing me in a lotta regards so it's not been great on that front. But it's also the first year i got to meet my boyfriend in person, twice!!! And realise how much more beautiful and kind and loving life can be, and how much i wanna survive onwards and upwards and do wicked gay shit with that man in future years, it's the year that being so loved has given me the courage to make BIG FUCKING RISKS and plan for BIG FUCKING CHALLENGES in upcoming years, and thats awesome. I couldn't be the man i have been this year without him, i really couldn't. I'm so grateful to finally have a partner and friends and love and gentleness, it is something that was so sorely missing in my life and it is something that's keeping me going even in the darker months.

It's also the year i took risks in other stuff too, which i never could've done without my bf's support, and now i've been able to work on so many things for The Hotel Podcast and thats fucking AWESOME?? I GET TO MAKE STUFF FOR THE SHOW I LOVE?? I did the artbook and we got to do the second calendar which ruuuuled, i made a postcard, i've done some other stuff ;), i made a 3d background and learnt some video editing for it; i've accomplished so much even against my body and wrist failing and i feel so so proud of that, and no matter how things go i wanna keep trying to do more. I feel like i'm finally showing what i can do. I hope people can see how much effort and will goes into what i do, i hope it pays off and that you enjoy it!

I wish i could say i left this year on a high note due to all that good that's happened to me and i mostly am absolutely. But in all honesty i also went to sleep last night filled with a palpable dread, this past week i realised someone close to me has, without getting into it to a degree i'm not willing to share online, gone down a pipeline to become a person i'm not comfortable with while i've been busy elsewhere. I went to bed knowing that either 2024 would have to be a year of potentially risky confrontation, of running, or of begrudgingly resigning myself to making sure i isolate anyone i care about away from. This. So thats a shadow hanging over me at the moment, and is one that has soured my week a little. I don't know what 2024 holds in regards to sorting this, it's a little scary.

I am going to be 27 this year, in February! And as i get closer and closer to thirty i realise that (while time isn't running out for me, for any of us) i really would like to move on into thriving rather than just surviving the years, and that part of that thriving needs to be transitioning and becoming independent from my parents. Of course the former is complicated due to the fact i am not able to be out to everyone in my life and even just starting the path to transitioning would out me and potentially destroy a part of my life that has been there for 26 years. There's also of course the fact i live in the uk and transitioning here is going to be a ten year waiting list if i'm even lucky and they deem me trans enough to transition l o l. So as you can imagine, thats complex and hard to figure out! On one hand i should start the process asap BECAUSE its such a long process here, but on the other hand i don't know how to handle my own safety and comfort in regards to being out to those i currently am not, and i'm not sure how my mental (and honestly physical) health would handle the fallout. The latter is complicated of course due to being broke, uneducated, physically and mentally unwell and a myriad of other factors; we don't live in a world where you can afford a home or to feed yourself anymore! So! Yknow!! Unlikely i'll be moving out anytime soon!

What i am doing at least is trying to thrive where i can, like dandelions growing in cracks the pavement may be unyielding to me at this moment but i can find the soft dirt inbetween; transitioning and independence may not be possible right now but i can continue to do my work and try to succeed there, i can make my room better for me (which i have done with finally getting a new bed after the one i had since i was a child grew no good), i can spend more time doing what i love out the house (visiting places, seeing my boyfriend, ect ect), and i can take what i can when i can. Maybe i'll try to learn to drive this year! I'm not sure i trust myself on the roads, but maybe i can learn to. And all of this is progress towards those final goals, even if i can't so much as step on the first rungs of the ladder towards them yet. I also take solace in knowing that for every dark cloud over me that makes my life feel so uncertain and hard to make it through there is incredible sunshine too; that even if the year is hard and cruel as they so often are i will still be loved i will still have friends and i will still get to smile. And that even if i can't accomplish big goals, a lot of small goals accomplished over many many bad years will build up, and one day i'll be free. And that's something.

My first hope for 2024 is THAT MY HEALTH GIVES ME A BREAK, NO MORE HEALTH SCARES PLEASE, and that perhaps i'll be able to even get some answer's and help for my physical health. My second is that my courage pays off and i succeed at flying alone for the first time to the states to be with my love! My third is that the year is kinder, and that i can make more art, maybe even regain some of the independence i had when my wrist was ok enough to let me do art as a job. My fourth is that i laugh a lot, and smile and have joyous moments with loved ones and indulge in what i love with unabashed and unashamed joy! And my fifth is that i get to do good for others, because even if i can't get out, even if i have to survive instead of thrive a little longer, i can at least try and help when i can.

Happy 2024, my chest hurts, my joints ache, but i'm still kicking and i will continue on forever. Bastards aren't getting free of me yet, i'm persistent. I haven't even ridden every rollercoaster in the UK yet.

#jay talkin #yeah sure fuckit lets overshare on jan 1st. lets get it all out our system there we go #happy new year everything is scary and possibilites are endless #but im really grateful for so much 2023 gave me i am so so so lucky

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myretransitiondiary · 5 months

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Morning gaming sesh of call of duty. Rudegrrl2667 on twitch if y'all are interested haha. Anyway. I'm posting a pic rn because I have like... *Knocks on wood* perfect skin RN and I have no idea why. I haven't been avoiding the foods I'm allergic too (turns out I'm mildly allergic to wheat, corn, beef and whey I found out super recently). I've been going to doc appointments because very often I get small hive-like occurrences around my nose and also on my back that last for weeks and sometimes even months.

I wish I knew how to get rid of the hives or whatever they are for good but unfortunately they are unpredictable and seem to have no rhyme or reason no matter what I've been eating or not eating (I've tried cutting foods out and also not, and still it's unpredictable). But today is a happy day because they aren't around! First time in months. Interestingly, my father also has issues with his skin and rashes on his face occasionally. Anyway, my skin is doing crazy good rn and I have no clue why lol.

Gratitude is important. I have so much to be thankful for in life. I've experienced a lot of bad in my life, yes. But also so, so much good. I'm so proud to come from the family I come from. I'm so proud of all of them and I feel proud to carry the same last name. I want to start accomplishing things. My family are doers. I need to start doing.

I got a seasonal position at Nordstrom at the perfume counter, it's a short term gig but it's kind of adorable. Looking forward to having something to do and making some money in quite a bougie atmosphere tbh haha.

I have to admit, I struggle with holding down jobs. I don't get fired, but I have moved jobs many... Many times. I have had bouts of panic and depression that pop up without warning that makes me want to give up which has lost me my fair share of amazing job opportunities. The knowledge of this is a little painful. I just want to do well and feel successful in my life and it seems like that is the one thing I cannot seem to achieve yet. It's not like going on disability is actually an option either, I've thought about it from time to time. It's just not enough money to live off of ultimately. Idk. It's definitely the biggest hurtle in my life, or has been.

My partner has been kind enough to support me while I've been out of work this time. I don't know what I would do without her honestly in so many ways. She shows me so much love and support, I often hope that I am doing enough for her in return. My partner is a newly transitioning transgender female (mtf). I love her and support her journey fully. I didn't regret transitioning the first time myself. Being Joey was an extremely important part of my journey to becoming who I am today.

Everyone is allowed to regret transitioning if they want to. I'm not saying you can't do that or feel that way. I just.... Don't believe in encouraging that way of thinking. If I had a child who ended up transitioning, I would want them to know that they should love themselves no matter what their human bodies look or sound like. Just because I don't look or sound how I would have if I hadn't transitioned to be a man, doesn't mean I'm not beautiful just the way I am now. I just wish we all wanted to love ourselves and wanted others to do the same no matter what.

God. Sometimes I wish I could give my partner advice when it comes to the next two years of transition for her.... I would tell her to stop waiting to live. Stop... Waiting to "arrive" at the perfect you. Let transition happen to you while you're living your life fearlessly. We are never done "cooking" as I like to say. So just go out and live like no one is watching 😭♥️

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Hi Lena! I was wondering, which of the characters are most popular among your friends/family who have played shoh?

Hi anon, you might find this a bit weird, but I have never shown ShoH to any of my friends or family--they all know I'm working on a game, but I won't tell them what the name is or anything about it! 🥹😂 This is my modus operandi as an author and has been since I was young... I'm an extremely solitary writer, to the point where my professors and thesis directors would comment on it: even when I was in grad school, they knew I just sort of put my head down and did my own thing once left to my own devices, and that's when I do my best work! My creative process just tends to be really introverted and independent: I know what I want to accomplish and, while feedback always cheers and motivates me, I don't feel inclined to share with my non-writer loved ones until the whole thing is done! Even my editor and agent are aware that I don't talk about or share snippets of in-progress stuff; they just get the whole behemoth in its finished form at the end, or they get nothing! 🤣

So I don't talk about what I'm working on or show it to anybody in my offline social circle until it's completely finished and published! I can't explain exactly why, but I hate talking about my work or am very shy when it's the main topic of discussion (except in workshop/class/professional settings), especially when it comes to friends and family--even though they are beyond supportive, loving, and encouraging! It's a me thing, not them. So I avoid sharing it at all costs until it's done, set in stone, polished to its best form, and there's nothing to influence/change/doubt anymore because it's out there and pretty much out of my hands! (For example, I don't think I could write Chase or Tallys's thirst trap FWB routes as freely if I think there's even a chance of, like, my little sister or something reading along as I write it, so I just treat them as completely separate, divorced worlds and do whatever I want with total freedom until it's too late to worry about it!) It's worked out so far!

The only one who really knows about Shepherds is my partner, but he hasn't read beyond the Prologue because he always gets stuck reading the first chapter of something and then having to wait literal years on the edge of his seat until I'm done with the whole thing (this is happening with my current novel, too); because I always want to see his reactions to the final product rather than being "spoiled" while it's a WIP! But that means he gets teased with a really tantalizing beginning and then has to wait on agonized tenterhooks until I decide to end the torment. 😃 The only exception was when I was writing We Have Always Been Here: after several months of writer's block and tearing my hair out over it (and before I'd gotten my agent or editor), I finally caved and asked him to read what I had, we hashed it out, and I had an epiphany and completely burned that draft to the ground and started over. (Its main premise was fundamentally flawed, hence the writer's block: if you've read WHABH, you'll be interested/similarly mortified to know that the first version had aliens in it.) Then he read the new manuscript before I submitted it to my agent, and then read the book again when it came out, so in the end he had read three versions of the same story by the time it was published. So there were no surprises left for him, which wasn't as fun for me! He was thrilled to do it, but I wanted to see his awe and excitement and 'wow!' reactions when I was finally finished and proud of the final product, not when I was in the weeds with a draft I was ultimately going to slaughter anyway. 😂 So for Shepherds and everything else moving forward, I'm not letting him read anything until it's done!

We have joked here and there about livestreaming his reactions when he finally gets to read the whole thing for the first time, because I just know he's going to be shook and his reactions are always the best 🤣 I've kept all the big story details quiet to really get the most out of his patience, so he will be going in pretty much completely blind... All he really knows is that Blade's stock was initially the highest among fans, and his character went 👀 when meeting Tallys for the first time, but I truly don't know what else will happen with him beyond that... I'll be sure to keep a log when that time comes, if people are as curious as me!

Thanks for your question!

#me #personal #writing #Shepherds of Haven #We Have Always Been Here #long #long post

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Good day Noelle ♥️ I hope your day has been treating you well and that you'll be able to rest after work 💕

I just want to share a few pics of Nemo :3

She sleeps a lot today and I'm a bit worried, but her appetite is still here, so I'm guessing that she sleeps because she wants to 👀

Also, I haven't gave you the picture of my henna yet the other day.

I helped with the work for the wedding of my mother's friend's eldest son.

In our culture, only the ones closest to the family (relatives mostly) that's going to have the wedding is allowed to have these kind of hennas, so it's a bit embarrassing for me to do one but my mom's friend insisted since I helped a lot with the preparation and she also already considered me as her daughter uwu

It was fun and also a bit touching for us because it feels like my older brother is getting married :') I'm also very happy for them because everything went well during the wedding ceremony ♥️

Makes me wonder how my ceremony will be in the future... Not that I have anyone in mind to marry though 😂 Would be nice if someone like Satan is real :')

Anyway, that's about it! I hope Nemo's sleeping pictures made your day and that you'll be able to relax and enjoy some of your favourite coffees ♥️ Life is hard and we feel like giving up for trying so hard, but I assure you that it will get better in the future. It will.

Just like me and Levi have faith in you, you have to believe in your self potential too. You'll get what you want and what you deserve one day. You can do it, Noelle 🌻

You're my ray of Sunshine ✨

Thank you so much, Han!!! I’m glad I had two days off work, but they went by so fast I feel I barely got anything done! Though my birthday is in a couple weeks weeks, and my mom and sister asked me if I wanted to go out to eat. I haven’t eaten in a restaurant since December 2019! I worked until 11 pm or 1 am depending on the day so I didn’t get many opportunities. Then Covid happened 😔 I can’t decide if I should or not!

Nemo is absolutely adorable!!! I love seeing pictures of her 🥺💕 they always bring a smile to my face! I hope she’s doing okay too. Kittens love to sleep and probably need plenty of rest while they’re growing. She looks so comfortable and happy sleeping on your bed!

That looks amazing!!! And how sweet of them to include you. I’m sure they appreciated you helping out! I hope one day you find your Satan too✨ you deserve all the love in the world, and whoever you marry will be very lucky to have such a wonderful person at their side ♥️♥️♥️

I used to work weddings! It was always interesting to see the decorations.

Aw, thank you so much 😭 you’re going to make me cry with your kind words!!! I never know what to say, but they mean so much to me, and I’m glad I have an amazing friend like you who believes in me. I believe in you too, and am proud of all you’ve accomplished! We can get through this together and achieve our dreams even if it’s at our own pace!

I love you, Han, and I’m always cheering you on and here to support you when you need me ♥️

#me #asks

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Hi hi bestie!

I'm studying nursing cause I would like to be a Pediatric nurse practitioner. It's gonna be a long and hard road 😔

I also wanted to ask your advice on writing. I currently have 3 WIP. I have not added anything I've written to my tumblr yet. How did you get over the idea that people may not like your work?

I know having people hate on your work can be discouraging :/

I'm still writing my fics and editing. I have one for Bakugo (the loml), Kuroo (the other loml) and Sukuna (the feral demon loml). The Bakugo one is actually really close to being done, just need some final touches and editing. The Kuroo and Sukuna ones are like at the beginning and I still have to find a direction to go in. Any advice you may have is appreciated!

-🐧 anon

Hey!

A pediatric nurse practitioner?! That sounds awesome! While the road may be a long and difficult one, the finish line is the most rewarding and satisfying part! If anything, you should believe in yourself! You are your biggest advocate, always! When I made the decision to go back to school for English and Creative Writing, I was nervous and scared because I didn't do well when I did my first round of college. I had an average 2.0 GPA and even fell below that a couple of times. I failed a class and then eventually gave up. This time around, I've made the President's List every term and had a 4.0 GPA 4/6 terms this year :) When you're ready for your journey, you'll accomplish every goal you've set. Not only that, but it'll be the best road you've taken so far, I promise!

As far as writing for Tumblr goes, I had to talk myself into it. I've always enjoyed writing drabbles and even wrote some for One Direction ten years ago, but we don't talk about that... I've never shared this side of my writing with anyone ever before and I was very nervous to post my first drabble, but they were accumulating on my computer and I felt like I had nothing to lose. I wanted people to enjoy reading my stuff just as much as I enjoyed writing it. I also wanted feedback because I've always been pretty proud of my artform, but felt like I needed work. I think I felt better about doing it, as well, because no one would know who I am. Now, the overall lack of interaction I get can be lonely and make me feel bad sometimes, especially because I see how much most creators interact with other creators and readers.

Also, when I first came to Tumblr I had a couple people be very mean to me, lol. If you scroll down far enough, you will see that. I nearly deleted my Tumblr altogether and gave up, but here I am! You can't get rid of me that easily!!

But anyway, I've been writing since I was about 10-years-old and my best friend has read a lot of my "traditional" stuff, but she doesn't know I write smut for Tumblr. It's a hobby I have always been embarrassed about, but when I witnessed just how large the community on Tumblr is for smut, it made me not feel so bad about it.

As far as advice? Hmm... Find out what you like first. I like writing plot, so that's why all of my drabbles have some type of plot. Some people don't like to write plot, and that's okay, too. Once you figure out what you like to write, just let the words flow onto the page. I'm pretty detail oriented (which isn't always a good thing) so I tend to write every single thing that is happening. Here are some good things to remember!

Punctuation is very important. If there is one thing that bothers me the most it's lack of punctuation when I'm reading or incorrect punctuation.

Don't force dialogue. Dialogue is meant to be as natural in writing as it feels when speaking to someone. I usually say my dialogue out loud to myself (aside from the dirty stuff, hehe) to make sure it makes sense.

Write for you, not for others! I write because I enjoy it and I enjoy seeing people react to it!

Lastly, this might just be me, but I tend to write for the characters that I feel I understand the most. That's why most of my drabbles are Tsukki, Suna or Suga. I feel like I can capture their personalities better than any other characters and want to stay true to their canon selves.

If there were a way to anonymously submit documents to each other, I would totally suggest that and read what you have! I know you said you wanted to remain anonymous for now, so I'd like to respect that. I'm always open to give feedback on whatever, even the smallest of things.

I hope that wasn't too much to read :') I just started and kind of kept going, I'm sorry!

#penguin anon <3 #I'm on my computer #so #no emojis today #lol

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deepestperfectiondragon · 1 year

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The beginning..

I spent a long time trying to decide on what to make my first post about, & I figured I would do an introductory blog as most of my posts will be journal entries anyways. For starters, my name is Jewels, and I am currently a 21 year old student living in Canada. I have struggled with my mental health since I was around the age of 13, and have been diagnosed with BPD, chronic depression, multiple eating disorders and anxiety since then. I must admit, I have come SO FAR since then, but I've found myself stuck in this spot between not okay/okay lately. I know I've done well, but I feel like starting a new journey revolving around finding myself, connecting with my inner spirit and truly expanding my mind is the next step for me. I also know a lot of people struggle in silence as I have for many years now, and thought a blog to share my own thoughts with you guys would not only help me but maybe help others as well. I am truly excited to share my journey with you guys, and I am 100% open to advice, as I am totally new to this whole blog thing, and completely SUCK at this whole life thing bahaha.

Lately, life has been throwing curveballs left right and center for me. A lot has changed, and I don't think it's planning on slowing down anytime soon. I have never been good with change, good or bad. Let me give you a quick backstory to what has been going on lately. So I was just in a very toxic relationship (on and off) for 5 years. I met him when I was turning 16, and I thought I was just absolutely in love. LMAO. Anyways, it took everything in me to leave, as he was my comfort zone no matter how bad the actual relationship was. But when I got accepted into college, I almost had this awakening that I had to move on with my life, start growing up and finding out who I truly was. So here I was, fresh out of a relationship, starting college, and I honestly was extremally happy and proud of myself and what I was about to accomplish. I had started talking to this guy who had been a good friend of mine since I was 14/15, and he honestly swept me off my feet. He took me on dates out of the city I live in, started spoiling me and treating me like no one ever has before in my entire life, and I just knew that this was going to be amazing (it's been 2 months now since, and I couldn't be happier with him). I have made so many positive changes in my life lately, lost some relationships along the way that yes hurt, but also made me realize I'm better off without, and most importantly started my journey to loving and finding myself again. Taking care of myself and the people who matter most to me has never felt so good, and I hope I can stay on this path of realizing my self-worth. I have also started using crystals and spiritual healing as a way of forming a positive bond with my mind, body, and soul. Life has been great since, and I can't believe I'm even sitting here writing those words. I'm not going to lie and say I haven't had some hard moments, because there still have been many, I've just found it easier to get back up quicker than before.

#self care #self improvement #living with bpd #spiritualawakening #self healing #mental health #mentalwellness #journal #breathe #self worth #self love

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ackermans-freedom-inc · 2 years

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thank you so much for doing this!!! these letters are so lovely <33

To: [email protected]

Your work is stupid. You know why? Because your work makes you have this obnoxious trips that keep my boyfriend away. They're very stupid. Racist even. Have you heard of latinophobia? This is it, and now you're a victim by proxy. Get well soon.

In all seriousness, I do lowkey hate it. I'm so glad you get to fly on first class and they're giving you good food, but I can't help but miss you a lot today, Porco. I'm not sure why-- maybe I dreamt about you and I don't quite remember it. All I know is I wish you were here right now. I have put on one of your sweatshirts and while it does help, it's not enough.

I do not want to make you feel guilty by any means. It's only a week after all, but I'm feeling needy as I write this. Valentine's is coming and while I know you'll be here by then, I can't help but think what if your trip gets longer? What if there aren't flights available? What if--

You get an idea.

Anyway, I don't want this to be long. Just know that I miss you. That you're the best thing that ever happened to me. Of course, I am proud of the things I've accomplished, but meeting you? Getting the chance to love and, oh, /be loved/ by you? Fucking amazing. Nothing will ever compare.

I long to have you asleep in my arms again. To be lulled to sleep by your steady breathing and now that whatever life may throw at me, I'll never have to face it alone. That you're always by my side, holding my hand through the tough times and getting drunk during the good times. I'm so lucky to have a man like you in my life, mi amor, mi vida, mi cielo.

Thank you for never being afraid of my fire, of my drive-- fuck, you even make me feel stronger. More powerful. Thank you for never asking me to be less of myself. Thank you for loving me not for what I can offer, but for what I am. Thank you for loving me so much, it inspires me to be a better human.

Have a safe flight and only flirt with the hostesses if you think they will give you a free drink or something <3

Yours, as I now only know how to be,

Allie

A/N: wfoiuehsglehwrg @6ird6rain allie im love u sm 🥺 thank you for sending me a letter! Happy Valentines Day!!

Heya baaaby

I know, I know. Work sucks. What kind of job doesn't let me take my wifey with me. Rude. You know what? I thought about quitting the moment I get back. But then, baby, you might have to say goodbye to those fancy snacks you like so much, you know, the ones you don't share with me? Truly. I am the one keeping this household supplied with snacks. What would you do without me.

Maybe when I'm back you can tell me about that dream you had. Was it...spicy? I am waggling my eyebrows at you here. Please imagine it.

I know you're doing that thing you do when you worry, so let me spoil my own surprise just a little. IM FLYING HOME BAABY!!! I managed to put on the ol Porco charm with the clients, and guess who gets to come home early! YAH BOI!

I already texted you my flight details, so don't worry too much okay? You can keep the sweatshirt on in the meantime, you know how much I like to snuggle you when you're all bundled up in my stuff. So damn cute I tell you. So damn cute.

If I knew you'd go soft on me when I am leave for a week, I should volunteer to go on business trips more often! I like this mushy gushy you. But really baby, I missed you sooo much! The hotel beds smelled weird, not like you. The blanket was also way too big. Its not the same when I don't have to wrestle you for it. I even tried hugging the pillow to go to sleep, but its not the same without you. Next time, I'm requesting you come along with me for personal health reasons. Can't get good rest without you. You think they will let that fly? (HAH GET IT??)

I love you so, so much. I know I'm not good at the mushy, but I'm really so lucky to have met you. Who knew, that all it took was a shitty coffee lid and a giant stain on my favourite sweater to meet the love of my life! It only took less than a week long trip for me to realize I am shit at living without you. I really am the luckiest, (and handsomest) man on earth to call you mine, and can't wait to be with you again!

Miss you so much. See you soon Dove.

Porco

P.S. I did flirt with the hostess. And she gave me a free drink and an extra bag of snacks! I had the drink already, but I'm saving you the snacks. Don't be too impressed, I know I'm good.

#WHY IS THIS SO MUCH FUN #WHY IS PORCO SUCH A CHEEKY GUY IN MY HEAD #I hope this is okay Allie 🥺🥺🥺#happy valentines day!#suz.writes.#porco x reader #Valentines Day Event 2022 #suz's inbox #sender - 6ird6brain

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Hi! Inspiration anon here. I just popped back in to elaborate that not only is your hard work and confidence inspiring, your attitude towards success is what inspires me most. Truly I want to reach that level of peace with myself, most of all. You're as in sync with your good qualities and your weaknesses and that is something I really look up to. You are confident but not a snob ( in fact quite kind ) which again, I really appreciate how you deal with that as well. And you also highlight how you have achieved dreams you had that has something to do with fandom, that is usually not how people define success but I'm so glad you're emphasising that as well. It makes me feel that working hard is not only so that I can take good care of my parents, buy things I want but it's also something for myself, that is only 100% mine. That I had dreamt of in my mind for ages, that it could also be for my younger self , who is the whole reason why I'm successful. Idk if that makes sense but I really appreciate your ideology in general. AND you're always so helpful whenever there's a difficult concept to explain as well!! That is every kind of successful I aspire to become.

So clearly, your hateful anon is wrong, not only morally ( to have sent hate for someone's success ) but also factually 😌

Hi bby,

God this is so beautiful and I need you to know this tells me a thousand time more things about the kind of person you are than about me. Kindness will take you everywhere in life.

I work really hard (like with my therapist) to be able to be proud of my accomplishments and not feel guilty. I am not in charge of how other people feel when they hear them. Those their own issues coming up. I really believe that the most humble way of dealing with insane elephant in the room kind of things is to be straight forward about it. Yes it happened. Yes it is a big deal. Yes I am happy about it. Doing the whole “it’s not a big deal whatever” is so fake to me. I don’t like lying. I do think the fact that I’ve hugged harry is a big deal. Why would I tell you otherwise?

Success is about not being afraid of setting up the goals you ACTUALLY want and then being willing to work for them even if it takes months or years. Nothing that is cool about my life came about without at least 2 years of prep. I am prepping 2024/5 now.

I also am very very aware of things I suck at. Confidence requires you to let go of some of these. I have absolutely no insecurity telling you all how bad I am at dancing, music, creative writing, art etc. It’s okay to be bad at stuff. No one is good at everything. And then there are stuff that I want to actually be better at and the first step is to be honest with yourself about being bad at it. And then making a plan and getting help. I reached a point in my anxiety for example that I did not want to live like that anymore. I got helped and my life is about a thousand % better.

Lastly, Einstein famously said that if you can’t explain a concept to your mother, you don’t actually understand it. And I live by that: people that refuse to share knowledge or are rude about it are not as smart as they think they are. It’s such a good feeling to share and help others, I can’t imagine not doing it. I owe my entire life to women that opened doors for me. The least I can do is keep doing that for others.

Anyway. You are cute and perfect.

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trexy225 · 2 years

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Three Hearts-Chapter 20: The Interview

(Authors note at the end, pls read!)

Summary: Olivia and Rosie are forced to look back and accept what they've done in a year, and what they will do in the future.

“Thank you so much for joining me Dr. Octavius, as you probably know already I’m Eddie Brock, a freelance investigative journalist working with 60 minutes to help people around the world get to know the brilliant scientist who solved fusion, prosthetics, and many many more. How does it feel to be regarded as one of the top scientific minds of the century?" He asked.

"Well I wouldn't regard myself as the smartest but, I am flattered by the compliment, really." Olivia smiled.

"I'm sure you aren't a little proud of your accomplishments." Eddie prodded.

"Well not all the credit goes to me, I owe it all to my team and Dr. Thorne." She gestured to her team, who were beaming behind her.

"Does some of the credit go to the weapons used to fight SpiderMan?" Eddie asked.

"I-I'm sorry?" Olivia stammered.

"Photographer Peter Parker took several photos which showed the Alchemex logo on The Prowlers gauntlets, as well as The Goblins firebombs, were you responsible for those weapons?" Eddie asked.

"Well since our technology is very advanced and durable I am sure that some items have been sold off the black market and-"

"Are you talking about Wilson Fisks alleged crime underworld?" Eddie asked.

"I have no knowledge of any criminal activity or any illegal weapons being made at Alchemex, our company is solely focused on making inventions to make the world a better place such as the fusion reactor, the prosthetic-"

"Wasn't your serum the thing that turned Norman Osborne into the green goblin?" Eddie asked.

"Yes, but it was the first-ever formula he took it against my wishes and-" Olivia argued.

"I think that's enough questions for today, Alchemex is eager to share their future products to create a better tomorrow, but for that to happen we need to cut this interview off shortly." Rosie blocked off the camera and escorted Olivia off the set.

“You can’t run from this Doctor! Are you or are you not responsible for the lives lost and the damage caused by Kingpin?” Eddie called out.

“Buzz off Brock!” Rosie snapped as they left the studio.

“Shit,” Olivia muttered.

“Shit is right Liv, how-”

“How could we have been so careless? Leaving the logo on.” Olivia complained.

“...I was going to say how were our weapons lethal?” Rosie said. “Are you seriously worried about our name being on weapons?”

“Yes! If we mess this up we lose our funding and I’ll never make my collider!”

“I can’t believe you-” Rosie muttered.

“Can we talk about this later?” Olivia sighed.

Rosie started to open her mouth to argue but was interrupted by none other than Wilson Fisk.

“Great job in there Doctor!”

“That reporter completely exposed us, Fisk, if-”

“I’ll take care of that reporter, you’re right he’s getting too close… About the accusations, they’ll blow over.” “I don’t-”

“I’ll have my team create some controversy, something with the Kardashians or something, the Alchemex logo will be obsolete.” He smiled down at them. “I didn’t think you would be able to do it, I really didn’t.”

“Just doing my job Fisk.” Olivia gave a strained smile.

“And because of that, I’m giving you and your team two weeks off! I’m going to the Mets game and Disneyworld with my family anyway and you’ve been working your asses off it only seems fair.”

“T-Thank you Fisk.” Olivia stammered.

“Don’t mention it, just keep on pumping out those weapons.”

Olivia nodded and started to walk past him, Fisk grabbed her arm.

“And Doctor?” He asked.

“Y-yes?” Olivia asked.

“Don’t hold back on those weapons, make ‘em lethal. I don’t like you two going behind my back like that, understood?” He growled.

“I understand,” Olivia grumbled, she shook Fisk off and she and Rosie hurried off.

“Well… What should we do?” Rosie asked.

“Well you have that trip you can go to with your family-” Olivia started.

“Yes well that’s not until a week, what should we do until then?” Rosie asked.

Toronto. Olivia immediately thought.

“We should go to Toronto!” Olivia offered.

“...why Toronto?” Rosie raised an eyebrow.

“I’ve always dreamed of seeing the Niagra Falls, my parents… said it was a waste of time and that I didn’t deserve to go…” Olivia winced at the memory. “But I do deserve to go, and I have the time! There are also a lot of museums I would like to visit!” Olivia changed the subject quickly.

“Well I agree, you do deserve to go see the Niagra Falls. I’m in. ” Rosie smiled, it was cute how Olivia wanted to go to Niagra Falls of all places, it was… unexpected.

“Really?” Olivia asked, surprised.

“Sure! Why not.” Rosie shrugged.

Olivia hugged Rosie, both turned bright red.

“Well umm… we should probably get home and start packing.” Olivia stammered.

“Yes, we probably should.” Rosie blushed.

When the two got home they started packing for their trip, Olivia pet Skippy Jr as Rosie packed the car.

“Should I tell her how I feel Skippy Jr?” Olivia asked.

Skippy Jr simply gave a meow, he didn’t really understand human love, he loved her, but not the way Olivia loved Rosie.

“What was that Liv?” Rosie asked.

“Oh nothing, are we ready to go?” Olivia asked.

“Yep! Let’s bounce.” Rosie slammed the trunk of their 2000 Subaru Outback which was filled with camping supplies.

“I’m happy we’re driving there, it’s so much better for the environment,” Olivia said as she got into the passenger seat.

“Especially after the electric modification, you made, using the kinetic energy from the wheels to charge the car? Genius. And I’ve already mapped out some amazing sightseeing as well as some tacky tourist spots to hit on the way!” Rosie unfolded the huge map, Olivia could see the route with a red pen and little notes. It was so sweet how much thought she put into this. Rosie started the car and the two set off.

“This is nice.” Rosie sighed as they got onto the highway.

“Yes, it is. I wish we did this more.” Olivia said.

“Did what more?” Rosie asked. “Just relax, spend time together not working our asses off on insane inventions nobody could ever dream of!” Olivia said.

“Where is this coming from? I remember you in college saying ‘I’ll rest when I’m dead.’” Rosie asked.

“I don’t know, it’s just we’re 31 now and what do we have to show for it?”

“Well we solved the climate crisis, homelessness, and-” Rosie started.

“But not my collider, and I haven’t bonded with my team as much as I wanted to,” Olivia said.

“You’ve given them a job for 13 years, paid maternity leave, full mental, physical, and dental health insurance, a 401k that sets them up for life, and pet insurance too!” Rosie argued.

“Yes, but I don’t know them on a personal level, and I feel so bad lying to them,” Olivia muttered.

“Well, change it,” Rosie said.

“What?”

“Yeah, change it. You’re the boss of Alchemex, we can plan dinner parties, a corporate party at the zoo I know you’ve been wanting to do that.”

“The animals there are so cute!” Olivia exclaimed.

“I know! They’re adorable!” Rosie agreed. “And you can space out these projects, help your team with the projects we actually care about.”

“That’s a good idea… But what about the collider-”

“Fisk has to legally allow you to start it in 4 years, right?”

“Yes… But the slower production of items? Look at me, I’m weak. I used all my skill points in intelligence, not strength.”

“...We could upgrade your actuators? And program them to know advanced combat maneuvers? And you could even take on Osborne, to show Fisk that he has no power over you.” Rosie suggested slyly.

“He would fire me-”

“He can’t fire you, you’re too valuable, and your team, even though you don’t know them as much as you want to, they’re still loyal to you. And you would still have enough money to start your own industry if he doesn’t cooperate. Liv, he’s been controlling us for too long, Osborne was too. It’s time you realize the power you have.”

Olivia was silent for a moment.

“You’re right Rosie. In two weeks, we’ll upgrade the actuators, and we’ll put those two in their place.” “That’s my Liv! You’re in charge, you’re the boss. Act like it!” Rosie said.

“But what about you? You’re amazing and I-” “Liv, no matter what, I’ll be by your side. I don’t want the credit, or the prestige, I want to help people. And as long as we’re doing that, I’ll be right here with you.” Rosie squeezed Olivia's hand, but no matter what the two told themselves, they couldn’t help but wonder if Kingpin was undoing everything they were working so hard to accomplish.

AUTHORS NOTE!

Yet again, thanks for sticking with me! It's a slow burn, but it'll pick up and I have the next chapter is pretty long and it's umm *cough* steamy, it'll be kind of a filler chapter with Rosie x Olivia moments, I mostly wrote it for us and like some easter eggs from into the spider-verse, if you're not comfortable with the next chapter I'll give a PG summary of it so y'all will be caught up, will also post another chapter for y'all.

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