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𝕭𝖗𝖔𝖐𝖊𝖓 𝖍𝖊𝖆𝖗𝖙𝖘 ( lyney x reader angst )

Note: so since the request only said angst I decided to go with angst no for comfort ( not sorry tehe) some minor spoilers for the first Fountaine archon quest if you haven't completed it yet ! As always criticism appreciated!

Requested by @heartsbyvalentina

thanks a lot <3 I'm sorry if this isn't what you exactly had in mind or if you wanted more angst with a happy ending T-T

TW: neglect, drifting apart, hurt no comfort, lyney is fatui because I love how much there is to explore with that. Not proofread :( so might be grammatical errors.

Your POV

The past few weeks had been tough. These days it seemed like lyney just didn’t have time for you at all. You had always known about his …..work. The one he didn’t talk about in public. He had told you when he confessed to you because he didn’t want your relationship to be founded on a lie. And you had understood. You were ok with the fact that he might sometimes not have time for you because you knew he did it all with good intentions. But these days it had become worse. Between his missions that had seemed to increase in quantity and his preparations for his show at the Opera, you couldn’t even catch a glimpse of his face properly. Lyney was up before you and returned long after you had fallen asleep. No more dates, no more him having silly magic shows just for you, even the way he talked to you seemed distant these days. You had tried to talk to him but he was always in a rush and put it off. Today, you decided you were finally going to confront him. 

It was way past 3 in the night when you heard the bedroom door creek open. Lyney entered and he was shocked to find you awake. “Why didn’t you fall asleep dear, you know how important sleep else you'll get dark circles on your beautiful face, mon amour.” Even now he was trying to sweet talk you. The grim look on your face didn't budge, “We have to talk about something, lyney. It seems as if these days we never even talk properly. I miss you. I understand you have certain duties but I can't go like this. It feels we are more like roommates than lover these days.” His face darkened. And yet he didn’t say anything. “You can talk to me about it, at least tell me what's wrong so that I can at least understand. Please lyney, I love you, I want this to work, I WANT US TO WORK. But not if you keep shutting me out and pushing me away.” A look of guilt flashed on his face before he masked his features again. “I can't tell you what is happening. You know I can't betray the House. Not after all it has done for me. And I had been thinking about this for a while, but maybe we should take a break.” You looked at him in shock. He couldn’t be implying what you thought he was. “So, this is it huh you choose the House over us?” He slowly nodded his head as he avoided your gaze. “I'm sorry mon amour but I have duties I cannot ignore, and you are a distraction. I hate that it had to be this way, but the House comes first.” You couldn’t believe him, you felt sick like you were gonna collapse. The tears in your eyes stung, threatening to fall. And so, you did exactly what he asked you to do, you walked away. 

Lyney’s POV 

He watched you as you walked away, keeping his own emotions at bay. He loved you, he truly did, but he could not risk you getting hurt. Not with the upcoming ‘plan’. Everything was going to finally begin, all the big plans they had set in motion. It was finally time. So, he had to let you go, both for your own safety and to make sure he was ready to sacrifice whatever it took for the plan to succeed. He had recently discovered that he was chosen to be ‘Fathers’ successor. That would put you in so much more risk. He could not do it to you, let you carry this burden. You deserved someone who could give you a safe life, not someone like him. For a second, he let himself wonder what it would be like was he not from the House, if he was just a normal Fountaine citizen. But alas, wondering gets you nowhere, because he did have duties, duties to the House, to ‘Father’, and duty to save the people of Fountaine. “For the greater good”, he repeated I his mind, over and over again, as he watched you walk away from his life.

End note: it seems I got carried away. Initially, I was gonna do a simple argument, but this idea struck me and I just had to write this. I love the lyney and the house and now he's probably the next harbinger ( he mentions the successor thing in his character story!) if it wasn't clear this is roughly around the time right before the archon quest starts hence the mention of his upcoming show at the opera!!! the plan is referring to the big fatui plan with the tampering of the Oratrice and Childe getting arrested. it is probably a very intricate plan and hence I wrote it like this. hope you liked it<3

#lyney x reader #genshin x reader #genshin angst #lyney angst #reader insert #genshin impact #genshin imagines #genshin fanfic #fatui x reader #house of hearth #lyney x you #ania.writes

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Could you do a Diluc x reader (one sided on readers part) and she sees he falls out of love with her (inspired by La gata bajo la lluvia-Rocío Durcal) make it as angsty as you can!! 🥲🤲

𝓛𝓪 𝓰𝓪𝓽𝓪 𝓫𝓪𝓳𝓸 𝓵𝓪 𝓵𝓵𝓾𝓿𝓲𝓪

(Diluc x g/n reader angst Songfic)

Note: finally finished this. it feels maybe a little repetitive at the end but I'm still satisfied with it overall. the lyrics might be a bit off because I had to get the translation for it and that might not be totally accurate! Anyways enjoy and criticism and reblogs are appreciated!!!! requests are open!

TW: nothing much just angst no comfort, not proofread :<

“My love don't worry I wont bother you, and I know there's a torrent running through your mind”

He was different, ever since he had come back. You could feel the distance between you two. The words left unsaid, the late nights at the tavern, the times you woke up in the middle of the night and he wasn't in the bed, the way his smile strained when he looked at you. It had been quite some time since you guys went on any dates, or even just sat down to eat breakfast together. The distance between you two expanded every day and all you did is watch, watch as the love of your life drifted away from you.

“Don't fear there's no reason ,I don't blame you for the past.”

You watched him build his walls.. He quit the knights. He pushed Kaeya away too. When he had told you that he needed to go away from Monstadt to clear his mind, you had thought it would be fine, that he just needed space after his father's accident. And though you wanted to be there for him, if he wanted to mourn alone, you would respect that. “I'll be waiting for you when you come back, no matter how long it takes”, you had told him. It took months, and he returned but also not at the same time. It was as if he had aged decades in that time. He was no longer the Diluc you that had fallen for you. You had smiled and hugged him, tears falling from your eyes, and he had hugged you back too, but his embrace no longer felt warm. You had held hope, maybe things would get better, he just needed some time, things would return to normal. And now, as you sat in the empty room you and him shared, it finally hit you, things were never going to be the same. 

"Love, I know, honestly don't say anything. If you see any tears, I'm sorry I know that you didn't want to make an injured cat cry." 

You were going to end things with him. It wasn't because you didn't love him anymore. No, far from it, you loved him too much, and he, didn't love you enough. Not anymore. But you knew he didn't want the same hurt you. Even after everything you knew he was still that kind boy you had fallen for, the one who would rather stay with you even when he didn't have feelings for you anymore just so you won't get hurt. But you couldn't do that to him. To chain him down. Maybe this was your last gift to him, your last act of love. You were going to let him go, even if it would tear your soul apart to do so.

“Love, if one day , we see each other out there, invite me to a coffee and make me love”

You stood in front of your house, with your bags packed, the rain falling on you. It made your heart clench. The memories you had with him flooding your mind. You felt like a cat in the rain, left outside, with no purpose or home. Because that is what he was to you, home. You had left a letter on the table, breaking it off and telling him to not look for you. It had hurt so much to write those bitter words, but for him you'd do anything. You were going to leave Monstadt and go far away, so that you could not convince yourself to change your mind. Maybe one day you’d return, when both of you have grown and his wounds wouldn’t hurt so much anymore. Maybe he would finally let you nurse them. Let you in again. Maybe one day you would be home again.

#ania.writes #genshin x reader #diluc x reader angst #diluc x you #diluc x y/n #diluc x gender neutral reader #diluc angst #genshin angst #genshin impact angst #genshin impact x reader #diluc ragnvindr #genshin diluc #genshin fanfic #genshin impact #diluc x reader

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Self-aware AU for Kaeya?

Note: Sorry this took time I had college stuff and I also wanted to complete Kaeya's hangout first? and I think that was the right move because it actually has a lot to do with fate and I think that inspired me a lot while writing this!!!!!

CW: nothing much?? a bit of yandere? minor spoilers for Kaeya's story. not proofread so might have spelling and grammar errors

As usual criticism and reblogs and highly appreciated ! please guys if you genuinely think some part can be a bit better i would love to know as i am trying to improve my writing!!

The day that kaeya realises that he was part of a video game, I think he would be very conflicted.

All his life he has tried to defy the ‘Fate’ of Teyvat and tried to overwrite his destiny and to suddenly discover that all his life is essentially planned from beginning to end for other people to ‘play’ and seek enjoyment?? Something about it infuriates him so much

But once he calms down and reorganizes his emotions, I think he would slowly start planning ways to break out of the prewritten story.

Subtly trying to get you to make certain choice in the story, trying to influence your actions.

If he cannot write his own destiny then he will make sure you will do so for him.

In his obsession to influence you I think he might slowly even start to get attached to you.

It feels wrong yes but slowly he realise you are essentially the only person in this ‘world’ who knows all about him, his conflicted family background, his relations with Khaenri'ah, the choice he would have to make, the sometimes questionable methods he uses to enact justice.

You and the only person who can see through his mask and maybe eventually when youre playing with just him he would slowly start letting his guard down.

However complicated the relation between you guys might be with him being trapped in a game and all, there is something so comforting about you knowing all parts of him and still loving his character or him being your favorite.

He doesn't want to admit it but kaeya actually do longs for genuine affection, especially after his father abandoned him, his adoptive father died and his falling out with diluc, the only person he was truly close to, you have one again ignited that warm feeling inside his chest.

Now depending on the scenario I can even see him becoming slightly obsessive, maybe if he sees you take his artifacts for some other character, or playing with someone else more.

Maybe he would try to force your game to choose him so that he gets to spend more time with you.

He might look for ways to reach you outside the game, after al he is slowly getting impatient having to wait everyday for you to log in. He thinks he he can become aware of you and of the game then there might be some way to escape the game reality??

He might also try to use your outsider knowledge of the games secrets to change the fate and basically use it to his advantage??

He might even add new voice lines in your game as if trying to talk to you, slowly changing his idles maybe even try to comfort you if you are sad. You would be confused at first, but Kaeya will not let you get away from him now.

You have given him a new purpose and advantage in his life and he will make sure you never leave him.

Self aware kaeya would both be angry at the predestined nature if the game and also grateful because now he can use it to his advantage to try to change the fate of Teyvat using knowledge from your archives. He is unsure about how to cope with the fact that he might be essentially just a fragment conjured by someone's imagination but at the same time meeting you was the best thing in his life and one day he will find a way to break out from the simulated reality of Teyvat and this game. After all Kaeya is nothing if not unrelenting and ambitious.

#ania.writes #genshin x reader #kaeya x reader #self aware genshin #self aware au #Kaeya au #kaeya alberich #genshin kaeya #fanfiction #genshin impact #kaeya x you #kaeya x y/n #kaeya hcs #teyvat

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hello, can I make a Hurt/comfort request for Honkai Star Rail please? (Tw, Self Harm, Religious Trauma)

Jing Yuan finding reader walking around outside in the snow in the middle of the night, only wearing a white shirt, shorts and a large blanket scarf. (The shirt has specks of red, due to self harm).

Reader has had multiple breakdowns back-to-back in secret due to reliving religious trauma (ie. Being forced to pray and participate in services of the church that hurt them for the sake of work) and since they've had their major mental breakdown (self harm) are now out of it (kinda sad-yet-giggly mood in the self destructive way, thinking that they don't deserve good things and will never be 'clean' despite showering repetively (catholic guilt x100)) and now playing with the snow with their bare hands.

(If your not comfy, feel free to decline since it's pretty heavy, If you do the request thank you very much!)

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Note: Thank you for the request! I wrote this in a bullet point style instead of an actual fic because that felt better. Also I didn't focus too much on the religious trauma as I have had very little interactions with Christianity and was not brought up catholic so I don't have a lot of knowledge on the subject and I didn't want to misrepresent a heavy issue! I used more vague religious trauma, hope you like it!!! Also whoever requested this if you ever need to talk you can always talk to me!! take care of your mental health!

Not proof read!!

TW: This is a heavy piece. Warnings for self-harm, depression, mental breakdowns, religious trauma, blood. Please do not read if you think this might trigger you or make you relapse. Your health comes first, take care of yourself <

Jing Yuan found you wandering alone at night in the cold, your white shirt covered with specks of blood, eyes lifeless.

He said nothing as he gently carried you inside the house you guys shared, putting you down on the bed as he went out to get the first aid kit

He gently and expertly cleaned and dressed your scars and gave you some medication.

As a soldier he was no stranger to blood or wounds, so I think he would be very calm. At least, on the outside. On the inside he would be panicked and worried for you, but he understands that it would help you more right now if he was calm and gentle.

He has dealt with soldiers who have depressive episodes and trauma breakdowns so he would be very good at gently calming you down, making sure he doesn't trigger you more, continuously asking you if what he was doing was comfortable with you.

He would be very patient if you want to talk about it. And when you do open up to him about your religious trauma, he would be very patient as you tell him everything. He wishes he could go in the past and stop all these things from happening to you but for now he will assure it will never happen again. He will personally be your bodyguard and prevent anyone from your past who hurt you from reaching you again. You don't have to be religious any longer, he will respect your choice, encourage it even and if anyone dares to question your decision they will have to face the wrath of the general of the Cloud Knights.

He is mad at himself for not noticing the signs of your breakdowns sooner, and he tells you in the future you can come to him whenever you think it's getting bad again. He might even offer to help you use some kind of physical training as another outlet whenever you feel the urge to self harm creep up on you again, after all, he understands it's not as simple as just asking you to stop. 

If you share with him about you feeling self destructive and feeling as if you don't deserve good things, he will give you constant reassurances all the time about how much he adores you and how much you mean to him. Even if you sometimes become self sabotaging, Jing Yuan is prepared to fight for you until you give up and finally accept that you are good enough. And he is not a general who likes losing, mind you.

He would reassure you that you have not done anything bad and that you are not “dirty” or anything. Most of what religion brands as sinful is just normal human behavior, so he will slowly help you overcome your guilt and feel better !!

Overall, Jing Yuan would be extremely patient, calm and gentle with you. He understands healing is a long process, so good thing he has all the time in the universe, being long lived and all. He will help you every step in your journey and will always be there for you !

End note: Thank you so much for requesting! Also feel free to request heavy topics. I know a lot of writers feel uncomfortable by them but as a person who has had their fair share of mental health struggles I would always love to write comfort fics! It makes me incredibly happy if my fic helps someone through a episode, as even I have had fics like that for myself in the past!! 

#ania.writes #hsr x reader #jing yuan #jing yuan x reader #honkai star rail #hsr jing yuan #hsr #angst #jing yuan angst #self harm #blade x reader #dan heng x reader

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Rambles

this idea has been floating around my head for a while

Tw: some depressive thoughts , talks about chronic and mental illnesses. not proofread.

So like how a lot of ffs have a mortal turned fae reader and it got me thinking what if the mortal was someone with like either a terminal chronic illness or someone with depression or something of sorts.

imagine a person who has accepted their fate of early death. They do not think they would live long. someone who never had to come up with aspirations and goals in life because they always assumed what even is the point.

and then suddenly they are given a near immortal life span. if you went through your whole life with no purpose, having already came to terms with well the fact that there was no time left for you and suddenly, that's all you have. time . so much time. what do you do then. how to you find purpose, how do you find motivation.

and what if the reader is mated to someone. so not only you have so much time, you have this person who would feel everything you feel. suddenly the thought of harming yourself to gain control isn't viable because it directly hurts other people.

I have long wanted like a deeper dive in how a mortal would be affected and have trouble accepting fae life. I know sjm tried to do it a little bit with nesta???? but I felt there were so many things she never explored and I think its a missed opportunity.

#azriel x reader #cassian x reader #rhysand x reader #eris x reader #lucien x reader #helion x reader #acotar x reader #acotar #ania.writes #sjmaas

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La gata bajo la lluvia ( Diluc x reader angst)

Sneak peak to my upcoming fic!!!

note: also thanks whoever let me know about this song its peak angst writing background music!!!

You could feel the distance between you two. The words left unsaid, the late nights at the tavern, the times you woke up in the middle of the night and he wasn't in the bed, the way his smile strained when he looked at you.

But you had held hope, maybe things would get better, he just needed some time, things would return to normal. And now, as you sat in the empty room you and him shared, it finally hit you, things were never going to be the same.

#diluc x reader #diluc x you #genshin x reader #ania.writes #diluc angst #genshin angst #diluc x reader angst

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Hey there! I heard that asks are open. I actually have a Obey me request since I saw that under the fandoms you tagged. I'm in my Simeon and Barbatos fangirl era rn, was wondering if you could write them motivating reader?

Like reader being upset so they leave positive post it notes on the mirror or encouraging good morning text to remind them that they love them.

If you can't take this request that's alright as well ^^.

Have a good evening 👋

Note: Thank you so much for requesting! Also love the lyney pfp <3 and since there weren't any specifications I took it like reader has been having a stressful week and hence the encouragement! I hope you like it!! any criticism is appreciated.

𝓘𝓽'𝓼 𝓫𝓮𝓮𝓷 𝓪 𝓻𝓸𝓾𝓰𝓱 𝔀𝓮𝓮𝓴

( gn!mc x simeon and barb )

TW: talks about feeling a little mentally exhausted

You had been having a pretty bad week. It was nothing that serious, but you just have these moments sometimes when suddenly everything seems like it takes too much energy, and you feel this constant sense of dread in your gut. 

Simeon

He would instantly notice the change in your behavior, no matter how much you would try to hide it. Angels are more sensitive to people's emotions, but even more so for you because of how much he cares about you. He would see how you don’t seem as cheerful when you guys spend time together or that you looked mentally drained all the time. But he knows it's hard for you to talk about it sometimes. So instead, he starts leaving little notes for you everywhere. Little sticky notes on your mirror reminding you that he thinks you look pretty no matter what you wear, notes on your fridge reminding you to eat and take care of yourself, messages every morning telling you how much he loves you and how excited he is to meet you at RAD today and spend time with you. He would be there to help you with your homework and other tasks and encourage you through them too, like telling you how well you're doing! Simeon is an angel, so sometimes it might be hard for him to relate to you having these negative thoughts. But he still wants to be there for you. He will stay by your side and when you’re ready to finally talk about it, he will be right here for you. <3 

Barbatos 

Now he probably realized how you were feeling because he used his powers. He constantly checks your future so that he can always protect you from an upcoming danger. So, when he saw that you might be having one of those weeks soon, he was prepared. He already talked to lucifer into letting you skip your chores for some time. He would sent you handmade meals every day, making all your favorite meals and they would always have a little note in them telling you how much he loves you, that he misses you, he is going to take a holiday soon so that you guys can spend some time together and reminding you to take care of yourself. Even if he has a duty to the demon prince, you are the person he will always find time for. He would send you little good morning and good night texts telling you how proud he is of you. Barb will always be here when you finally want to talk about it. He is such a caring s/o <3 

#ania.writes #simeon x reader #barbatos x reader #obey me x reader #obey me shall we date #obey me simeon #obey me barbatos #om! barbatos #om! simeon #fanfic #self insert

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Are there any Jem girlies ( gender neutral) on tumblr idk why I started having some major TID brainrot and kinda wanna write some drabbles about Jem and will and honestly the whole cast. I love them <3. so if anyone wants to request!!! please do

#ania.writes #the infernal devices #jem carstairs #will herondale #cassandra clare #the shadowhunter chronicles #herongraystairs #tessa gray #infernal devices #fanfiction #requests open #writing requests

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Sick day ( x your fav character)

note: this is more like a guilty pleasure self comfort fic tehe!!!

GN reader and character! no specific body parts or skin colour mentioned! English is not my first language so constructive criticism is appreciated

TW: none really just slightly detailed talk about sickness?

You are pretty used to getting sick. You have just accepted the fact that your immune system is shit and that's just how it is. But every once a in a while you get so sick that even moving out of bed hurts. Today, it seemed, was one of those days.

You were so sick, every part of your body hurt, you couldn't stop coughing, you had no appetite and it hurt to even just lay in bed. Your partner came home and when they didn't find you waiting for them in the living room, they came inside looking for you. They saw you on the bed , all the colour drained out of your face and clearly in a lot of pain and rushed towards you. They went and fetched you some medicines and offered to help change your clothes and give you a bath. Now, they are sitting by you, slowly stroking your head, fingers gently wearing through your hair, and they place small kisses on your head. 'I'm here for you and you're gonna be fine', they say and read you your favorite book as you slowly start to fall asleep, cuddling with them. It feels nice and you can feel your whole body relaxing in their presence and you already feel the pain start to fade.

"I love you, my love get better soon, till then I'm right here for you."

"I love you too"

As you slowly drift off to sleep , you think, maybe getting sick isn't that bad after all, as long as they are here to help you through it. <3

#ania.writes #genshin x reader #acotar x reader #kaeya x reader #ikevamp #my writing #x reader #fanfiction #self insert #obey me x reader

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hi! I wanted to make a request if you may （＾ω＾）

What if mc was three triplet children?

i just want some cute fluff with any resident with three cute (and mischievous-) triplets kids if you may (^.^)

(You pick with who but can they be from the mansion resident?)

hey whoever requested this I just wanted to clarify before i started writing, did you mean the mc was triplet like has two other siblings or mc and a resident have triplet babies together!!!

also this is related to ikevamp right??

#ania.writes