#and then keep it to yourself

[sunspill]

Ok just to be very clear the long lived mayfly StargateAtl clexa thing is INCOMPLETE in that it is not fully in prose, if that makes sense. Ch2 onwards has scenes or snapshots written and then also has exposition dumps in italics to explain what was planned for the story so the scenes and snapshots make more sense.

I tried to finagle the chapters so it was a decent mix of both, but thats what it is. I completely understand if that's not someone's thing and they would prefer to skip it, which is why I tried to explain it in the chapter notes of chapter2. Its not in the notes for chapter1, because ch1 does not have any of the non-fic exposition notes.

Its not my job or within my power to make sure readers look at the chapter notes. I added the incomplete tag so people coming in to ch1 will know going in. And I've already gotten some really lovely comments so I thank everyone who gave it a chance even tho its weird.

Psa over!!

#i was a bit rude to a commenter #but like idk if im old or wrong but #imo sometimes you read a fic and then theres a choice the author makes or whatever that you dont like and you smash the back button #and then keep it to yourself #like i have never once thought i should tell the author its their problem i wasted my time by chosing minute to minute to continue reading #even if im annoyed which could be just me i suppose #if you care that much about reading completed fics then use the ao3 filter tool? #i could just be being a bitch tho

[flame-shadow]

hey did you know??? that if you stop stretching and maintaining mobility in your body then it goes away?? things get tight and you can't move the way that you used to??? and when you decide to try getting a stretch routine going that the first week fucking sucks because you keep going 'damn i used to be able to do this no problem' and then you have to switch gears and be kind to yourself and just focus on getting better from here instead of berating yourself for dropping the good habits in the first place??? and your body never stops aging so you gotta keep taking care of it and sometimes you gotta take care of it extra in certain areas because of things that happened when you were younger and it's boring and sometimes hurts but it's so necessary???

i am yelling this at myself right now i am going through An Experience (trying to get into a routine of body maintenance again for my physical and mental health)

#rambling #and idk but like if this incentivises you to do some stretches too then that's great! remember to be kind to yourself #but im mostly directing this at myself because i was thinkng about these things while doing a 15 min stretch routine and i feel silly #but silly is okay as long as i keep going #edit: haha wow this post blew up. im gonna tag it with a few things to maybe help me find it later if necessary #sisyphus #body maintenance #popular post

[endusviolence]

Rowling isn't denying holocaust. She just pointed out that burning of transgender health books is a lie as that form of cosmetic surgery didn't exist. But of course you knew that already, didn't you?

I was thinking I'd probably see one of you! You're wrong :) Let's review the history a bit, shall we?

In this case, what we're talking about is the Institut für Sexualwissenschaft, or in English, The Institute of Sexology. This Institute was founded and headed by a gay Jewish sexologist named Magnus Hirschfeld. It was founded in July of 1919 as the first sexology research clinic in the world, and was run as a private, non-profit clinic. Hirschfeld and the researchers who worked there would give out consultations, medical advice, and even treatments for free to their poorer clientele, as well as give thousands of lectures and build a unique library full of books on gender, sexuality, and eroticism. Of course, being a gay man, Hirschfeld focused a lot on the gay community and proving that homosexuality was natural and could not be "cured".

Hirschfeld was unique in his time because he believed that nobody's gender was either one or the other. Rather, he contended that everyone is a mixture of both male and female, with every individual having their own unique mix of traits.

This leads into the Institute's work with transgender patients. Hirschfeld was actually the one to coin the term "transsexual" in 1923, though this word didn't become popular phrasing until 30 years later when Harry Benjamin began expanding his research (I'll just be shortening it to trans for this brief overview.) For the Institute, their revolutionary work with gay men eventually began to attract other members of the LGBTA+, including of course trans people.

Contrary to what Anon says, sex reassignment surgery was first tested in 1912. It'd already being used on humans throughout Europe during the 1920's by the time a doctor at the Institute named Ludwig Levy-Lenz began performing it on patients in 1931. Hirschfeld was at first opposed, but he came around quickly because it lowered the rate of suicide among their trans patients. Not only was reassignment performed at the Institute, but both facial feminization and facial masculization surgery were also done.

The Institute employed some of these patients, gave them therapy to help with other issues, even gave some of the mentioned surgeries for free to this who could not afford it! They spoke out on their behalf to the public, even getting Berlin police to help them create "transvestite passes" to allow people to dress however they wanted without the threat of being arrested. They worked together to fight the law, including trying to strike down Paragraph 175, which made it illegal to be homosexual. The picture below is from their holiday party, Magnus Hirschfeld being the gentleman on the right with the fabulous mustache. Many of the other people in this photo are transgender.

[Image ID: A black and white photo of a group of people. Some are smiling at the camera, others have serious expressions. Either way, they all seem to be happy. On the right side, an older gentleman in glasses- Magnus Hirschfeld- is sitting. He has short hair and a bushy mustache. He is resting one hand on the shoulder of the person in front of him. His other hand is being held by a person to his left. Another person to his right is holding his shoulder.]

There was always push back against the Institute, especially from conservatives who saw all of this as a bad thing. But conservatism can't stop progress without destroying it. They weren't willing to go that far for a good while. It all ended in March of 1933, when a new Chancellor was elected. The Nazis did not like homosexuals for several reasons. Chief among them, we break the boundaries of "normal" society. Shortly after the election, on May 6th, the book burnings began. The Jewish, gay, and obviously liberal Magnus Hirschfeld and his library of boundary-breaking literature was one of the very first targets. Thankfully, Hirschfeld was spared by virtue of being in Paris at the time (he would die in 1935, before the Nazis were able to invade France). His library wasn't so lucky.

This famous picture of the book burnings was taken after the Institute of Sexology had been raided. That's their books. Literature on so much about sexuality, eroticism, and gender, yes including their new work on trans people. This is the trans community's Alexandria. We're incredibly lucky that enough of it survived for Harry Benjamin and everyone who came after him was able to build on the Institute's work.

[Image ID: A black and white photo of the May Nazi book burning of the Institute of Sexology's library. A soldier, back facing the camera, is throwing a stack of books into the fire. In the background of the right side, a crowd is watching.]

As the Holocaust went on, the homosexuals of Germany became a targeted group. This did include transgender people, no matter what you say. To deny this reality is Holocaust denial. JK Rowling and everyone else who tries to pretend like this isn't reality is participating in that evil. You're agreeing with the Nazis.

But of course, you knew that already, didn't you?

Edit: Added image IDs. I apologize to those using screen readers for forgetting them. Please reblog this version instead.

#transgender #trans history #transsexual #transphobia #Magnus Hirschfeld #holocaust #holocaust denial #book burning #j.k. rowling #jk rowling #just in case you missed what i mean by all this: go fuck yourself anon :) #trans people have always existed #and we will always exist #if you really wanna pick a fight with me over well-documented history then you better bring in some sources to back your shit #queer history #queer #lgbt+ #lgbta+ #lgbt #lgbt history #edit: i finally got around to those damn image IDs. i am so very sorry for totally forgetting that's my bimbo moment of the month #also real quick i thought about adding an image of the actual building but the only one i can find has a Nazi parade in front of it #it was taken the day of the book burning raid and honestly if i were to include it then i'd add it to the first few paragraphs #and i think the story's better told when you uphold the hope Magnus Hirschfeld and all the researchers he worked with had #also keeps being brought up: yes Hirschfeld was a eugenicist. it was a popular belief set that was only discredited after WW2 #Hirschfeld died in 1935. he literally didn't live long enough to see science turn against those beliefs and practices #considering how he changed his mind on transitions i like to think he would've changed his mind on eugenics too if he'd lived

[stil-lindigo]

lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

--

no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

#cw: suicidal ideation #cw: suicide #cw: self harm #cw: mental health #cw: depression #i made the balloon the main representation of my self destructive urges for a reason but im not going to explain it #i tried to keep a lot of the details in this vague #it would be my worst nightmare if this comic encouraged someone to hurt themselves #so. please dont #for a long time even the thought of making this comic felt so insipid and narcissistic #with the state of the world as it is #having the only threat to your life be yourself felt so privileged and trite and shameful #but doing this comic made me sit down and process things in full #and im just. very grateful i didn't give in to my thoughts back when i sincerely felt i'd be more useful to the world dead #i also feel the need to say that this wont represent everyone's battle with mental illness. its unfortunately different for all of us #there is no fix-all #and im afraid this might be one of those comics that either resonates a lot or misses the target by a mile #i made it for myself foremost. and now that its done im glad i did it #thank you for reading #and please stay alive #stillindigo art #stillindigo comics

[akimbohimbo]

“i chose her because i couldn’t imagine we’d ever be friends” oh buddy. in 4 years you are going to be so down bad for this girl that you'll give up immortality for her

#percy jackson #not to mention literally keeping yourself alive by *just* remembering her name and walk thru the literal pits of hell for her #percabeth #pjo #swagapino speaks

[selfhealingmoments]

#one day at a time #take your time #keep moving forward #keep going #mental health #self reflection #be yourself #self improvement #new life #self help #letting go #inspirational quotes #new beginnings #positivity

[taffywabbit]

reminding myself there are no truly "bad days", because every single day, someone somewhere in the world has taken a photo of an extremely tiny animal and shown it to someone else, and that's very good actually

#buny text #bless the people who take photos of incredibly small baby bunnies and post them on line. they are what keeps me going #when i was running the bunnieswithVGM twitter it was like. genuinely a healing experience getting to look at rabbit photos regularly #i highly recommend looking at pics of very small rabbits and thinking to yourself 'you tiny fucking thing. how do you exist' #it's very important and also fun. and then you can share those images with a friend #the tiny fucking animals on the internet are free and you can take them with you

[seawaveleo]

mhm… sure… “completely normal and sane”…. yep

#(keep telling that to yourself etho LOL) #(thank you hoffen for the affirmation quote lol) #ethoslab #hermitcraft #hc s10 #hc10 #mcyt #fanart #digital art #waveleoart

[dnpsuck]

DIL HOWLTER IS BACK - Dan and Phil Play: The Sims 4 #65 (October 22nd, 2023)

#dan and phil #phan #dan howell #phil lester #amazingphil #daniel howell #danisnotonfire #dapg #danandphilgames #if you notice any difference in coloring between gifs #keep it to yourself fr..... #gif* #gif*dnp

[may12324]

Eadaz and her queen

#eadaz uq nara #eadaz #tpotot #the priory of the orange tree #queen sabran #samantha shannon #sabran #ead #my art #i started reading this book 3 years ago and got a third into it and stopped #im now rereading it and enarly finished it and omg! #its so good! #its so slow the first third and then suddenly everything happens all at once #in a good way #anyway #if you find yourself reading the book and you get stuck #keep going!<or get the audio book! #its worth it~!

[stuckinapril]

I genuinely think that any change in behavior starts w telling yourself that your worst days, worst performances, just worst moments in general aren’t who you “truly are.” It’s all about unlearning any thought process that essentially chalks up traits you aren’t proud of to “this is who I really am” “in reality I’m lazy” “in reality I’m just a bad person” bc not only is that never true, but it impedes your efforts to try to do better as well. Anything we struggle with has roots in things like childhood trauma, thoughts you’ve been fed before, your upbringing…. but never that you’re inherently a bad person. What I’m learning this year is that a lot of us doing better & being better & improving really comes down to self-talk—to disavowing the very notion that deep down we’re simply bad.

#Bc how do you work on “this is who I am” #It’s like a self fulfilling prophecy #If you keep telling yourself this is just who you are then every time you improve you’ll feel cognitive dissonance and self-sabotage #It’s important to operate not from “this is who I am” but from “this is what I’ve been nurtured to be but I can change that”

[goldenhand9107]

buck unintentionally coming out to the rest of his family via showing up with his mouth covered in soot after making out with his firefighter boyfriend is the most camp thing they could have ever done i cannot fucking believe this

#also Margaret i fucking saw that look #KEEP IT TO YOURSELF #911 abc #911 show #911 #evan buck buckely #evan buckley #bucktommy #911 spoilers

[triona-tribblescore]

TW// Abuse implication

Thinking about possible Vox and Angel's interactions and how they'd go down. Theres such a unique mix of hatred to each other and common ground with their different experiences with Valentino, has me thinking.

Also just want to clarify I love Vox's character a LOT but ofc obv don't sympathise with him or think he is any way shape or form a decent individual, cant with stupid toxic dumbass x

AND IF YOU SEE ANY MISTAKES OR TYPOS NO YOU DONT- (i was so tired when drawing it forgive me TwT)

#Man though the ANGST potential!!!! #vox and angel are in such different situations #but they have one thing in common that keeps them really close #val #and like we all know vox is super jealous #even though vals a dick #i just think the way they would go about interacting is so so interesting #ALSO THIS IS NOT HATE TO VAL OR VOX i think they are really well written and I love how shitty they are #but also no apologizing for them either ygm? :> #SENDING LOVE AND KEEP YOURSELF SAFE OUT THERE. 🤍🤍 #hazbin hotel #vox #angel dust #hazbin hotel vox #huskerdust #voxval #hazbin #hazbin hotel fanart #tribbleart #<3

[ratfest]

the world is full of beauty that can’t be captured in photos or picture books!

#i long to see your bright smiling face... #as you experience such wonders for yourself! #one piece #egghead #jewelry bonney #bartholomew kuma #op bonney #op kuma #BAWLING MY EYES OUT #SNOT GUSHING OUT OF MY NOSE #I LOVE DAD/PINK DAUGHTER DUOs #this goofy shonen manga keeps emotionally affecting me #why does this keep happening to me

[triflesandparsnips]

Just saw someone ask for someone's irl age in their bio for "safety" or some shit and--

Friends, I'm telling you: this is the internet. There should be no expectation of access to your personal information.

Say nothing! Or if that doesn't work for you, fucking lie. Use a pseud! Say you live in a snail's shell off the coast of New Brunswick! Answer every info-gathering question asked of you with a different, less comprehensible answer! Tell anyone who says you've got to put your real age in your bio that you're 85, ta ever so, and they're very rude to bother you with this!

But your first step to internet safety is to say nothing.

Make it harder for bad actors to find you, manipulate you, or steal all your shit.

The good actors won't fucking ask.

#internet safety #please don't tell me SHIT about yourself in your bio unless you are CHOOSING a PUBLIC LIFE #and if you're choosing a public life CHRIST I HOPE YOU'RE KEEPING SAFE THERE TOO

[ofswordsandpens]

I know Percy's desperately trying to escape the godly world but not only do I think the gods aren't going to leave percy alone once he's in New Rome, I also think Percy's in the situation now where he can't refuse at all because like, if he was in the mortal world at a mortal college he at least would be able to try and be like "sorry I can't do a quest right now I've already used up my three excused absences this semester try again in the spring :/" but in New Rome? They will be like "Percy! It is an honor to be hand-selected for a quest. And by the gods no less! Stars above, you should be grateful! I don't know what your little greek camp has taught you but here in Rome, we respect the gods' requests. Your absence will be excused. Now go."

#and any god that wants Percy Jackson for a quest just learns they have to file a request through the school and they've got him #¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #also the hilarious dichotomy of loathing your transfer classmate #because he's missing class every other week because the GODS keep giving him quests and the professors HAVE to excuse it #while you yourself have never ever even met a god #but also knowing that if you hang around percy it means your chance of meeting a god just skyrockets #pjo #percy jackson #mine #new rome