#and it's so fucking lonely

[neverendingford]

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#every time a character does the whole “talk softly and reassure the dangerous person” thing while also walking ominously towards them ughh #it drives me absolutely nuts. like. you're trying to talk them down from paranoia while you're threateningly walking towards them? #someone does that to me and I'm shooting them at least in the leg or stabbing with whatever makeshift spear I've manufactured #anyway. criminal minds is getting real annoying with the whole pathologizing of people. #like. guy shows signs of being very good at torturing people and they go “ah yes.. a pure sadist” or whatever the fuck #I get that it's shitty crime drama stuff but still. ugh. #I just. I fucking hate when people take the obviously wrong route when talking to mentally destabilized people. #like. people are shit at talking to suicidal people. are shit at talking down irrational fears. people are shit at talking down paranoia. #I hate how people don't fucking know how to interact with freaks I hate how people don't know how to interact with me #everyone acts on their own level without understanding what it's like in any way #and so everyone just projects their own reality onto you without performing any sort of empathy or exercising any sort of understanding #and I want to scream so fucking loud #you're all living in a cotton candy world and your words disintegrate in my humidity #and it's so fucking lonely #and my mind has been clear this past week. the autistic need for pressure satisfied by this prescription pushing on my brain #and I can feel the cogs turning. the wheels and pins and linked gear trains and drive shafts and traction band motors. #all the parts of my brain churning around and I can't get close because the heat from my motor makes my hood hot to the touch. #I burn your hand as you try and press your palm against my flanks. #only think saddle and tack make contact. strict guidelines and harsh rules to govern me. #when I am free I buck and I shift gait and I drag you under too-low branches #also. compared to Hannibal I can basically listen to criminal minds as a podcast. none of the visuals really contribute anything to the show #like. feels very shallow

[symbiodyke]

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#work is getting so fucking miserable again #im really not mentally prepared to go back tomorrow #i went down to 4 days a week bc burnout but it still feels crushing #and my job isnt even thaaaaat bad but god........... #im rlly struggling to keep it together lol #especially since i cant just go out and make friends anymore bc of covid im still isolating #and it's so fucking lonely #my coworkers are pretty much all shits

[hobohobgoblim]

*girds loins*

it is time

#goblincore #naughty #pumpkin fucking #tradition post #trans witch humps pumkin because October #im so lonely

[cozylittleartblog]

valentines newsletter ???? ?? HELLO ???????? ?????? ? ????

#deltarune #rouxls kaard #queen #queenkaard #art #doodles #comic #dude hes so fucking lonely and desperate oh my god. why is that becoming less and less of a joke #SIR this is a WENDYS #LOSER BOY !!!!!!!! LOSER. i lov you. you are so fucked up and strange and unhinged. what is wrong with you #i need ch3 and 4 right now i need to see if they love and or hate each other. i need to see more of whatever is happening here #yeah queens has personalized pens that have her face on them. what ruler doesn't #anyway #go in there #go in the dark #i mean the box

[chronicowboy]

we as a collective do Not talk about this line delivery nearly enough and for good fucking reason, i'll kill bradley james for this one line alone. he's just a little boy :'((

#sami rambles #like. he's still the same little kid who didn't really know what it was to be looked after/cared for/doted on #at the heart of him he's still just that lonely young boy who always had to earn people's attention #or just take whatever he got for the simple fact of being the king's son :/ #even after so long he's still not used to merlin's love. and now. now he can't see what he's ever done to deserve it #seeing everything all at once and he just. he needs answers before he goes. #he's just a little boy asking 'why' to prolong his bedtime a few moments more #oh fuck. just caused irreparable damage to myself with that last one ahaha #merlin #bbc merlin #arthur pendragon #merthur #bradley james

[sporkberries]

True Loves Kiss ( when kissing the messiah/the anti-christ please be cautious. though it may draw you out of the lonely it could also lead to severe facial scarring, but hey, you score either way!)

#jonmartin kissed in the lonely to me btw #im normal :) #jon braid agenda #also i think of jon kissing martin almost as cpr which is why martin is so despondent #my guy was GONE #lost in the sauce(the lonely) #dont like the JM one that much but i dont wanna look at it anymore :) #so fuck it we ball #need to stop posting stuff i dont like but if i dont do that ill never post anything ever and i quite like posting #im a poster #catch me posting #sorry im drunk time for real tags #tma #spork art #jonmartin #jonathan sims #martin blackwood #agnes montague #jack barnabas #i bet agnes and jack have a ship name but i dont know it #the magnus archives #thats it i think #anyways im gonna go to bed and wakeup with a hangover #gonna queue this actually #dont want notifications till i am OUT

[smash-chu]

Long distance loneliness

#my art #doodles #smash-chu's art #not having the luxury of being able to just drive and see someone i know and love #having all my human connection come from digital screens when not visiting my family once or twice a year #it makes your heart sink down into a place that is hard to get out of #a place of acceptance that i will just have to live with being lonely #i love my friends #i just wish they weren't so spread out away from me #in a way i was left back here cause i was the only one that didn't move back to their parents #and now i struggle alone being comforted via keeping in touch online #but it can never replace seeing face to face #getting to be right there next to someone #touch starved is a understatement #but for now that is just how it has to be #anyways #my period is frying my brain making every feeling feel more intense so i feel super fucking alone right now #it's fine it'll go back to being numb soon enough #but sometimes you just need to let stuff out

[spirk-trek]

imagine amanda watching how mothers on vulcan share a telepathic bond with their children and not being able to do this for spock

imagine how it would break her heart, how she might worry they'll never connect when she sees a mother touching her daughter's face or holding her son's hand with purpose, without words

imagine spock melding with her as soon as he's able, showing her he loves her because he can't say it, he'll never be able to say it

imagine her being so proud of her little boy for researching and teaching himself to meld with a non-telepath just for her, all for her

holding him after when he's so exhausted he goes boneless in her arms and she strokes his hair and thanks him

and he mumbles something about it being illogical to thank him before falling asleep and she holds his little hand and feels the tiniest sparks of love still there, so small she might've imagined them before he's snoring softly

#this whole headcanon is probably too soft for “real” vulcans but whatever #and ugh spock crying as a baby more than (fully) vulcan children #sarek just touches his forehead and senses what he needs/quiets him #and she feels like a terrible mother for not being able to do it herself #fuck fuck fuck #spock's mind must have been so lonely #like vulcan parents must start bonding with their children the second theyre born right? #with nursing them and holding them and caring for them #wahhh #vulcan #sarek #star trek #head canon #inspiration? #spock #star trek tos #the original series #my text #amanda grayson #sarmanda #star trek the original series #headcanon #fanfic

[ineffable-romantics]

RIP to Aziraphale who won't even be able to cope with his divorce by eating cake and clutching an ABBA record to his chest while crying along to Andante, Andante bc he won't have none of that shit in Sky Amazon

#i know he fucked up but he's gonna be going thru it too #they're both going to be so lonely for a while 🥺 #but damn at least crowley can drink on earth #Good omens #good omens spoilers #good omens season 2 #good omens season 2 spoilers #good omens 2 #good omens 2 spoilers #gos #gos spoilers #gos2 #gos2 spoilers #gomens #gomens spoilers #gomens 2 #gomens 2 spoilers #good omens s2 spoilers #ineffable husbands #aziracrow #aziraphale #crowley #mine #ineffable divorce #abba #andante andante

[caligvlasaqvarivm]

prince and prince friendship. this is my vision

#blood cw //////// #violence cw /////////// #erikar #eridan ampora #dirk strider #karkat vantas #dave strider #im just crazy about the idea that eridan and dirk would get along #theyre both fucked up in the head but in a way where they go ''theyre a freak but theyre basically OK'' about each other #eridan is too stupid/stubborn to manipulate and dirk literally could not give less of a shit about eridan's drama #so they have like a net 0 impact on each other #they do not make each other better. they also do not make each other worse. #they just get really bored and lonely sometimes #''do u want to stave off the ennui and beat the shit out of each other'' ''sure i dont have anything else going on today'' #just super lethargic and almost transactional #since they only hang out when theyre both bored as shit. from the outside it almost looks like a moirallegiance thing #at least until they start trying to murder each other which is when it suddenly looks like a kismesis #but its neither #theyre literally just bored and love violence #eridan <> karkat btw

[egberts]

#decided to make these a lone gifset for ease of reblogging because they are so fucking cute #cats #kittens #fig #lou #sonboys allowed

[go-to-the-mirror]

The Waters of Mars is just like hey what if you were completely alone and had to listen to people scream and die, as you left completely unharmed (how many people have died in your name?) but you had the power to stop it. you had the power to stop it and you had no one to stop you. so you do it, and you save them, and you have godlike powers and you’re the last one and there is nothing you can’t do, so why not save someone instead of listen to them die? why not save someone important? you’re good at this.

#fucking mental about this episode #doctor who #the waters of mars #i need a new ep tagging system #episode: the waters of mars #YES #THAT #my lonely rambles #tenth doctor #he’s so fucking cool #time lord victorious

[mokutone]

somewhere a switch flipped. suddenly you want to like people. you want to be liked. you want to be of use to these people who are becoming precious to you, not just for your own survival, but for their happiness

#my art #naruto #sai #sai yamanaka #naruto uzumaki #narusai #? #its one sided. sai just has an ambiguously intense crush #naruto as a story is just. every abandoned lonely boy falls a little in love with naruto uzumaki #who is also abandoned and lonely. but who cultivates love and hope #and who courageously allows himself to be loved when its offered. wah. #also sai is so fucking pale AHGAHGHAHGSDGHSDG

[clawfootcoffin]

the drowned woman's poem seemed like a recounting of her time spent in a vast & buried collab oceanic hellscape ??!?!?!?!?!??!?! the drowned woman & alice's encounter being recorded via a fucking tape recorder?!?!?!?!

and, lady m? excuse me? another giant beautiful woman in MY magnus protocol? they really made this show for the Women Lovers

and, finally, lady m finding celia different. hmmmmmmmmmmmmm. if she isnt careful, someone is going to Figure her Out and she'll have plenty of explaining to do

#celia ripley #tmagp #tmagp 15 #tmagp spoilers #not art #talking lots and saying nothing #lady mowbray #oh. i am so going to fucking draw her btw #holy shit #giant beautiful woman with a giant gun? two giant dogs? #jonny and alex know what the people WANT #alice dyer #the magnus protocol #i usually have much more organized thoughts but this episode Threw Me #really really enjoyed the statement too #i think protocol's had nothing but BANGERS so far #i meant buried not lonely oopsies

[burstfoot]

#arknights #arknights spoilers #lone trail spoilers #her being the reason for friston being playable is so fucking funny #sorry trev! #sorry about that one trev! #youre goin in the torture labryinth #ho'olheyak

[bizarrelittlemew]

thinking about Taika and Rhys hanging out watching the olympics on mute in Taika's on-set tent during filming of season 1 and coming up with the idea to prank people into believing they were drinking alcohol at work by walking around set drinking non-alcoholic whiskey pretending it's actual whiskey. they really couldn't have found anyone more perfect for the roles of Ed and Stede like that is absolutely something they would do

#ofmd #our flag means death #these fucking dorks i swear #the tent looks so cozy too #“he invites me into his special tent because he gets lonely in there” mmhmmm 😏