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mokutone · 5 months
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Hi, just wanted to check in if you were readimg your aks : ) I hope you're doing ok and having fun !
i read every ask i get! some of them have typed responses waiting to be posted, but i've made a deal with myself that im not going to post any new content of any substantial quality until i get some real life obligations handled 😭 ty for your well wishes! i hope ur doing okay and having fun too
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mokutone · 8 months
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Are you okay there, friend?
I am alive! Thank you for your concern, it's very kind of you to wonder after me This has been a pretty hectic summer with a lot of responsibilities, and new challenges cropping up. I DO have a lot of asks to answer and kindnesses to thank people for, and I'll hopefully be getting to them soon.
Thank you again for asking, and sorry for the delay in responding! I hope u have a good day 💚
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mokutone · 9 months
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have so many yamato kakashi in my feed so...
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mokutone · 9 months
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ALSO I AM LOVING YOUR ART SO MUCH, SEEING IT BRINGS ME SO MUCH JOY, I JUST ADORE IT AN ENTIRELY REASONABLY AMOUNT
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Also, i love you for your dad jokes, i nearly fell out of the chair laughing so hard at the gift and present one. You are a kindred spirit🤝 AND ALSO: You definitely give me a vibe of a mixture of Yamato and Gai. They are both such amazing characters, i adore them so much, you have Gai's excitement and joy and Yamato's shy kindness? Anyways, u are awesome❤️❤️❤️ AND ALSO ALSO (sorry for the many asks, i am bit very scatterbrained today😅🤣): Your meta and analysises make me wanna chew on my phone, they are so GOOD, I LOVE THEM SO MUCH Mentally picking up every word and devouring it
kgjsdhgksdjgh thank you for your enthusiasm! that's very sweet! no worries about the additional asks, but i'm combining them all into one post to make answering easier thank you! i'm working on my sense of humor :^) dad jokes are a great place to start with, like puns, they get a big and silly reaction out of people when you do them well
your reading of me is interesting! that is the way i try to behave, especially on this blog where my interactions are few and so curating my presentation is a lot easier. in the practice of day-to-day life, I think i'm probably the most like sakura 😅 with a little yamato in there for transmasc and standoffish flavor
and thank you! i'm glad you enjoy the way that i look at things! i try to dig into the angles which interest me most, and to share what interests me about them
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mokutone · 9 months
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I love reading your thoughts so much, you have a captivating way of writing, especially your post on testosterone, i just. Am in love with it
Kissing u on the forehead, hope you have a lovely day❤️❤️❤️
hey, thank you! that's really sweet of you to say! i'm kissing you on the forehead too :) mwah mwah!! 💚
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mokutone · 9 months
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Quick illustration of me seeing your response
HEHEHEHE!!!!!! OH YOURE SPOILING ME!!!!!! thank you for putting me in the position of might gai :^D!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm so flattered
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mokutone · 9 months
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your art makes me wanna start testosterone
i can't read tone well, so this is either an incredibly touching ask, or an extremely funny one, and in the absence of confirmation: both!
i'm in a chatty mood, so i'll share some thoughts about testosterone and my art.
i liked being on testosterone a lot. i had an IM injection every two weeks (on tuesdays!) and because that's a sizeable dose every 14 days that slowly disperses, it can cause some mood fluctuations (every other friday i would have a crisis about not feeling like the world had a place for me in it) but even those were far more manageable than the ones that would come with my previous and current monthly hormone cycle (every month i spend a solid week thinking the world will never have a place for me in it)
It gave me a patchy little bit of scruff on my chin and a whispy mustache under my nose that still struggles on, despite adversity!
It redistributed my fat a little bit, but that's long since gone back to pre-T shape.
it lowered my voice! that hasn't changed :^)! even if i never go back on t, that won't change. it was the thing i most wanted, and its the one i'm most grateful for. Pre-T, I didn't speak much. I'm getting better and better at talking and getting more and more comfortable communicating with people because of it.
having been off t now for 3 years, i don't pass anymore—not as a cis man, or a cis woman, certainly not as anything approximating straight. if people look at me and see anything, i'd hazard a guess that they see me as A Queer (the noun—for all it's complicated connotations).
i'm not surprised that my art might make somebody want to start testosterone! a lot of my art was made out of the aching grief that came with being kicked off of testosterone, and how neatly that loss of autonomy over my own body knits in with yamato's loss of autonomy over his own.
how my body started doing things i disliked, how i didn't have the support necessary to access the healthcare i needed—how my inability to give myself what i needed made me feel as though i were trapped inside of myself and abandoned (by both myself and the world at large)
when i write comics about yamato as a trans man, i don't take away his testosterone, because that hits a little too close to home for me. for Ninja War Town Reasons, he has plenty of access to all the HRT he could ever need and nobody questions his need for it—instead, i project my own horrors onto the way Danzō defined his identity for him as a child, the way that Kabuto and Obito dehumanize him as an adult in their war efforts, and reduce him to the thing his body holds (the Mokuton). I give him a kneejerk compulsion to dehumanize himself (out of a feeling that he has a duty to his community to do so) and I give him a slow-growing resistance to that impulse (which comes out of a feeling that the people he loves would frown upon seeing him reduce himself like that)
it's dysphoria! it's not gender dysphoria, but it's a loss of self, and a need to reclaim it. it's a war between the hollow shell of a thing he thinks he has to be, and the vibrant and messy person beneath it that he is. it's a desperate need to say "this is who i am—only i can say it"
I enjoyed HRT a lot. it was a really useful tool in helping me feel like my body was my own, that i didn't have to fight it, that we were the same entity. It's not the only tool, but it was a really good one, and one day I hope to use it again.
(as for the being off of it—it's unpleasant, but i'm enduring! being somebody who now doesn't really pass as anything has put me in a weird and interesting position, where I'm constantly having to declare myself to people, because nobody knows what to make of me on any front. they don't know if i'm a man, a woman, nonbinary, nor even what age i am (Augh!!!!) it forces me to be brave and vulnerable more than I'm comfortable with—if I tell somebody I'm a man, there's no way that they will believe I'm cis, but I'm not about to recloset myself—and I don't think I could at this point anyway.)
(there's something fascinating about the position i find myself in, and while i'd leap back on t the moment that an opportunity presented itself to do so, i do feel like i'm experiencing something interesting and important in this weird zone i find myself in)
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mokutone · 9 months
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thank you @depressedhatakekakashi for the ko-fi!!! :^D i chose to draw you a gai doodle!!!
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mokutone · 9 months
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Ok so like… I sent you an ask a little over a year ago to gush about how you’re one of my all time favorite blogs, and how you pushed me to draw more. Well, it’s a year later and I’ve been doing a ton of art and I’m continuing to study art in college (even though I was previously unsure about my major since I was feeling kind of burnt out). Anyway, I just wanna say thanks a ton for just being generally cool and awesome, and here’s a long overdue quick yam doodle, since I believed in my last ask I promised I’d sketch him for u.
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(May be a little janky since I rarely do pencil sketches anymore so I’m a bit rusty)
WAAAHHH!!!!!! thank you!!!!!!!!!! that's so sweet—I'm so glad you took the time to tell me this, and I'm glad that you're feeling up to drawing more!!! mwah mwah i am kissing u on the forehead. i hope that you get what you want out of your studies, and that your relationship to your art flourishes!!!
and thank u so much for this drawing of yamato!!! i love him!!! he's so cute...i love how u drew his nose and eyes especially!!!
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mokutone · 9 months
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this might be a dumb question, but I was wondering how ko-fi works? Will you be able to see my legal name with PayPal? is there a way to hide that from whoever I donate to, or donates to me? I would like to tip something but am worried about my real name getting out there
thanks 😀
that's not a dumb question at all!
yeah, if you donate via kofi using a paypal personal account, paypal will use the name attached to that and share that name with the person you donated to, which is probably going to be your government name. if you don't want anyone seeing that name, then yeah, it's probably best not to donate using paypal on kofi—and that's entirely understandable. i do want to say personally, and i know this is the case for many others, but as a trans person my policy to seeing a name in paypal is to ignore it because frequently a government name isn't the person's living name, yfm? i only acknowledge names people actively introduce themselves as, such as calling themself in conversation or a name they use on their blog, you know? i do my best to ignore or forget the rest
but to reiterate, in terms of privacy concerns: yeah your government name, if visible on paypal (which it probably would be on a personal account) will be used in transactions and if you want that to remain entirely secret, then kofi might not be the best option :(
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mokutone · 9 months
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there is never too much art. there is never "everyone depicts this scene/character so if I depict it, it won't add anything" yes it will. no two people will do the exact same piece of art even with the same prompt. so paint or draw or sketch or write your favorite character or scene from your favorite movie or TV show. there will always be someone who wants more of your art and more of what you have made and there is never too much art
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mokutone · 10 months
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mokutone · 10 months
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🤝
If you could change one thing about your favorite character's story (that has NOTHING to do with shipping) what would it be?
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mokutone · 10 months
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If you could change one thing about your favorite character's story (that has NOTHING to do with shipping) what would it be?
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mokutone · 10 months
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thank you @depressedhatakekakashi for the ko-fi! i hope you enjoy the Sai doodle :^D
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mokutone · 10 months
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This isn’t a question but I just wanted to say I throughly enjoy your blog and your posts are delightful. I love the transgender positivity in your drawings! Your art style is absolutely wonderful.
:) ! thank you, i'm glad you enjoy my artwork, especially the trans themes thruout! it is my duty and privilege to love and relish in my own transgender joy, and to share it with those who want to witness it.
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mokutone · 10 months
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did i fucking ask
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