#and if i dont at the moment of me posting then i do later on and its horrible and i hate it

[7roaches]

sorrry ppl who donr follow me for utmv dtuff & sorry canon-strict ppll but nm & killer r soo incredibly important to me can u imagine being the embodiment the literal proof that there is bad and pain in this world or being the loowest of the low & then you have a silly bestfriend who u loveclove love lovr love so mjch & ur so fucked up u dont know where u end & your reluctant life purpose begins but u have a silly bestrfriend who wraps your wounds and youure all he reallyneeds & hes all you really need do you get it. do you get it. do you get it.

#cool posts #delete later maybe #utmv #nightmare sans #killer sans #‘they hate eachither in canon’ I DONT CARE 🔥🔥🔥 ‘they only like being evil’ I DONT CARE 🔥🔥🔥🔥 #actually thats not true i do care that they r evil & i do think theyre evil & like being evil #theyvhate eachother sobmuch they love eachother so much they r indifferent to the other theyvwoukd kill eachother for a greater purpose #they have to see eachothers faces every day for decades mimicing some memory of the past they get to see eachothers faces every day with the #warmth accumulated over being obligated tonsokeone for so long hed saw off his arm if he was chained to him hed take a bullet for him & he h #as before and will again and agoan and again #DO YOU GET IT. DO YOU GET IT. DO YOU UNDERSTAND #i have have have to draw this out words arent enough i canr explain clearly enough they r such deep in depth characters to me. #just interpret everything i say as correct #its also 1am. but i canr forget this i have to type it out even if its shittty #what daydreammjng every wakng moment for 6 years about 2 guys does to a mf #i also think this applies no mayter how u interpret their relationship #ok ok ok i’m ok im fine im normal im so normal im done

[gifti3]

happy bday to me! 🎂🥳🎉

for this very special day i wanted to list and compare the presents and interactions i got in the mobile games ive been playing consistently lmao

under cut cause the pics are big

Time Princess A letter with 10 golden tickets, 100 stamina, and 10000 coins

Obey Me! Nightbringer 1 UR+, UR, and SSR Joker each 3 Demon Vouchers 30 Karma Points 200 AP 30000 Grim 50 Devil Points Along with a bday video, birthday calls from the characters throughout the day and a UR guarantee for a 10 pull There's half-off on Devil Tree unlocks There's also special birthday dialogue in the Surprise Guests: -- the first Surprise Guest I did gave me 30 more Devil Points -- and you can press anywhere on the boys and get max hearts :]

What in HELL is Bad They haven't implemented bday stuff yet so nothing (´。＿。｀)

Twisted Wonderland A Happy Birthday from the character you have set as your favorite card and a Tenfold Key Set (for rolls)

and last but not least.....*drum roll* 🥁🥁🥁 Love and Deepsace! Special Happy Birthdays from each guy which include them singing happy birthday to you :3 Birthday Dialogue on the home screen Presents from each one (items you can use to decorate their desks) 500 Diamonds 5 Empyrean Wishes 1 Bottle of Wishes: SSR 1 Energy Capsule: Powerful And 2 birthday stickers

#so whb is technically in last place but since its a newer game ill let it pass this year #so time princess is next in line for last place #its a fine gift but since they dont have any characters saying happy birthday it doesnt do much for me #nightbringer kinda surprised me! #i was expecting a call and some devil points #but this is a lot more then i expected :3c #also i go crazy for free UR+ Jokers #i was thinking of adding regular obey me but decided to skip it since i only really just log in for dailies for the most part #(and i dont even do that everyday if im not feeling it) #also theyre practically the same minus the calls (but i have the old ones that i havent listened to yet still) #twst was cute nothing too crazy #(thank you for ur presence lilia) #i liked love and deepspaces happy bdays from the characters a lot because they sang lmao 😭 #also i feel very special from them saying all this nice stuff about hoping that i get what i want and that i stay healthy and stuff dwsiiws #it feels like obey me has more in character interactions BUT when i think it about it more #deepspace has the models actually hand you gifts #also the moment you have with the characters feels more personal #but tbf theres more obey me characters and you do get those calls throughout the whole day! (also they give more stuff imo) #so i cant really pick which one i liked more :d #dutp #obey me nightbringer #twisted wonderland #love and deepspace #im now 26.... #oh jeez #long post #still doing the same shit i was doing in middle school uashusha (i mean playing dating games) #my personality has refined over the years tho #anyways im gonna celebrate tomorrow with my family :] #this is the end of my post tho ill probably post about the asmo phone call later

[dungeons-and-dragon-age]

old sketch i found! ofc Zevran is the one who does Kala's tats lol

#i think it's interesting how easy it is for me to draw kala's face but then zevran's is just a big mess hflslfd #p sure that was one of the reasons i never finished this lolol #not a fan of how it looks but i dont show these two off enough so i'm yeeting this in here #im love them many...... #oc: kalagna brosca #my ocs #my art #zevran #also i noticed that so far zev always ended up hanging around & bonding w my wardens post game xD #well ok in kalagnas case they were already tight during the blight but still #also i. will do the asks sooner or later. just having a branfog moment rn..

[superbellsubways]

ilove feeling self conscious all the time its so fun and awesome

#/sarcasm obviously #i always feel really embarassed about every single thing i post #and if i dont at the moment of me posting then i do later on and its horrible and i hate it #iam so tired of getting vagueposted about it makes me want to hide away forever #on one side i like drawing and posting whatever i want no matter how ooc it may be #on the other side i feellike everything i post regarding certain characters is cringe and everyone judges me for it in silence LOL #the brain is so silly and loves to make me feel bad no matter what i think #anyways #sorry for venting (?) on main ijust needed to get this outof my system somehow

[spectrearia-archive]

ugh been stuck in a pretty bad art block for a while now. been kinda picking away at the journal a bit, but both writing and drawing has been so difficult for literally no reason.

not for a lack of inspiration, though - my mind has been buzzing with ideas and concepts that I'd love to put into art or writing... so I really don't know why I can't just. Do That.

hopefully it'll clear up soon. I just want to be able to create again, gosh darn it >:c

#everything feels like white noise in my brain #like. ideas are there and so are the Feels #but the moment I try to actually? make something out of it #my brain just kinda short circuits #dont know why #its so frustrating #lol also i noticed my follower count on my art blog has been plummeting. by a Lot #i know numbers arent everything and it's probably just a bot purge #but it still feels kind of disheartening to see #kinda doesnt really make me feel like it's worth posting stuff #even if i do eventually manage to get something creative done #delete later #spectre says

[sandbearer]

trans girl kaeya... thoughts and opinions...

cracking my knuckles okay so i never actually thought abt it until i started following u but i do think its rlly interesting... personally i think of her as bigender but thats heavily biased bc yk. im also bigender. BUT i think it also makes a lot of sense like...kaeya fr is both a man and a woman at the same time to me. but yah tgirl kaeya... i think that adds some more layers to his relationships (or at least how i view those relationships) w other characters like klee amber rosaria and lisa. yes being a big brother is cute but yk sisterly bond w klee is so special thru that trans lense...and also amber rosaria and lisa r transfem in my mind so i feel like lisa is kind of like a mentor to kaeya, amber is her bestie and rosaria is her gf. generally theres a lot of women/girls in kaeya's life so theres a lot of people for her to be inspired by or make him think like hey... maybe...

#now im thinking abt it i feel like thered be a lot of sort of. egg cracking moments like. #lisa might say something abt her gender and that kinda makes kaeya go ! but he kind of brushes it off like maybe its nothing... #then amber comes out and kaeya supports her ofc but yk as she watches amber transition etc shes like woah i kinda want to do this too #i feel like rosaria enters the equation a little later once kaeya's come out to a few people/kind of accepted herself #and shes probably trying to figure out what her gender means for her sexuality and all that complicated stuff and it starts to click when #shes around rosaria. so rosaria talks abt her own experiences and stuff #and whenever kaeya has any like. issues he'll ask lisa or amber for advice #yah. thank u for sending this ask im rlly coming around to the idea...when i first saw u tgirl kaeya posting i was like oh cute but i dont #rlly see it </3 but now...oughhh i kind of love it #she's still bigender to me but the specifically transfem view on that is so excellent wah #karasu no kotae

[didsomeonesayventus]

find myself thinking about the emblem paralogues and like. really cute throwbacks to iconic chapters of FE history and all but when in the narrative are these supposed to happen and also like. man these are meant to be bond deepening faux skirmishes but if you're playing with permadeath on. woof if someone dies. and some of these are a bitch of a fight too I am looking at you Leif.

personally I think post chapter 20 pre chapter 21 is a good spot to like. narratively chunk them all in. something something alear wants to prove themselves something something pilgrimage spent further establishing and deepening divine right or whatever

#katie rambles #like its kinda wild man 'let me put you through one of my grimmest fights of my game to prove we're besties <3' #some of these emblems are unhinged. #like they're not all hard but i'm looking at like. leif and micaiah and ike. at eirika. #who have fights that are in eirika's case the final map iirc?? #or the other three who imply it was a really grueling ordeal of a fight #im not too familiar with their games so i cant confirm but like #its kind of. weird to think about #and the kind of tough love imparted in I Won't Hold Back #also post chapter 20 being most of them. save marth. i think is a good choice in terms of narrative plopping #because again it feels like alear. challenging the info they recieved. proving their worth as DD #proving themselves before they face marth again. i let you down but i am ready now. wiser than i was. #like i enjoy the idea of retellings of the story later on in divine canon as a ordeal of tests meant to pick alear up from that low moment #and yet they dont need to prove themselves to marth. who always believed in them. #(they do marth has a paralogue but shhhhhhhh) #ANYWYAS justt. thinking about emblems and trials and really weirdly intense mock battles in narrative context

[todayisafridaynight]

whoever left the nice comment on my Subsitute Fathers fic im goinvnlnkwj clkj i hope both sides of your pillow are cold tonight and i hope you get a free meal and a thousand dollars

#snap chats #PLEAAAAASSSSEE IT MADE ME SO HAPPY TO WAKE UP TO READ ITTTTTT #im still Doom And Gloom these days so it was a really nice thing to see in my emails.... #ESPECIALLY when ive been arguing with myself whether to delete the fic or not the past couple weeks #i always have that problem: ill post a fic and then an hour or so later i'll really want to delete it #i try not to but sometimes the demons win and i do BUT BUT BUT its moments like these that convince me to keep my stuff up #words dont describe how happy i get just by havin one person be really happy with what i wrote like UGHJVALJ im happy youre happy :) #in any case... enough sappiness..... im going back to drawing sappy middle aged men....

[strwbrymlkshake]

Why can't I be satisfied with everything? It needs to be perfect to me and I can't accept anything otherwise :(

#mine #oh boy here we go. guy last post was about has been pretty cool and i got flustered around him a few times #but i feel bad bc. i need m o r e he isnt insane enough he isnt making me go absolutely crazy i want to be satisfied but im NOT im sorry #like its quite honestly the most attention acceptance etc ive gotten but its not ENOUGH he doesnt die whenever i send a selfie #im never satisfied WHY i have unrealistic expectations !!!! i hate my brain killing and violence and death etc #i get crushes on guys who want nothing to do with me but then when one actually wants me its not enough? what is wrong with me #thrill of the chase? i cant accept being loved? what is it brain. christ almighty. im not doing anything like deliberately yandere related #anymore im just being generally incomprehensibly mentally ill 🙄 still trying to find a therapist but idk how on earth ill explain that #ill update this post tomorrow with more insanity but for now i am the sleepy tired #// ok its now 3 days later i dont feel like making another post. i think i was just having a mental illness moment as always #because he does make me insane. hashtag girl. im trying to be the smartest and calculated i have ever been with a relationship in my life #like im thinkin about it so hard bro. the future n shit. how would this relationship go. im so scared ill do something wrong its preventing #me from doing things RIGHT. im sad becaude i flipped out today over even imagining him being upset with me a little #so i was really embarrassed and it put me in a weird mood for the rest of the night but he reassured me he doesnt hate me or want me to die #every one aaalways says theyre different. i can only hope this one is telling the truth. i dont know what ill do if he isnt. #well i need to stop whining about fictional scenarios and focus on the good stuff in reality. i get along with him very well and he #is very niceys to me :3 he doesnt think im fucking insane or stupid for overreacting. i feel very comfortable gossiping and talking w him #every long time blog viewer of mine reading this like ah shit here we go again #but thats what im here for. i guess. just have to keep doing this shit until something good finally happens to me romantically hngh #i feel so strange because i have wanted and yearned for a relationship but now that i actually could have one im like WAIT #I DIDNT THINK ID GET THIS FAR 💀💀💀 bruh. and he doesnt even think im stupid hes respectful to me he checks in on me all the time #like perhaps the only person to ever actually almost match my energy in a romantic sense. there was [redacted] i guess but he didnt love me #he listens to me talk about my problems he doesnt think i complain or overreact too much. all the ridiculous cringe shit i do #he doesnt mind it. its nice to be able to be myself. and im really proud of myself for not rushing into a relationship right away

[trashmuis]

Sometimes when I see myself in the dim lighting of the bathroom at 3:30am, reflected in the dirty mirror, I realize I might actually have pretty features. It's crazy...

#idk. i never think im ugly or anything but sometimes i forget how others might see me as pretty #and when i see it even for a moment in myself i am surprised #so... i took this photo just now. because i can. it's stupid. i dont need to post this #and i might delete it later. but. for now. im just happy to post myself #the girl behind the slaughter #yeah im wearing a breaking bad shirt what of it #i gotta get ready for a convention in 3 hourssss i need to go back to sleep #im gonna be one tired Chop Top smh #me #my face #real quick btw do you think id look cute with bangs??? im considering it but idk

[sunsetcorvid]

(hey tags have vent stuff in em)

gee things seem to be getting better i think im doing okay!!!

one week later:

#might be a venty post #i need to go back to the doc to talk about my meds #this week has been. kinda shit and im frustrated at how easily ive been getting pissed at stuff and going back into old habits #well not NEW but i only recently finally getting better at not doing them and then i had a. moment last night so yippee #genuinely feel drained and shit and i want to get myself to do the things i need to do but i cant and its frustrating #every time i try to do schoolwork or stuff like that i just cant and find myself plunged back into my interests because my brain just cant #handle stress apparently #one small stressful thing and its burying yourself again!! enjoy the dull feelings after having a meltdown because your dad asked you to #make a list of schoolwork #me omw to fight god #anyways if any of yall read this this is just me saying that if my posts are a bit spread out or i just dont post my usual stuff its that #and if im not posting splatoon its probably because my brain wants constant distractions and changing so its really switching between sonic #and splatoon rn #anyways love yall i hope i can some shit sorted out soon #vent post #tw vent #gonna delete later #miles posts

[pepprs]

#to translate this post: someone liked this post i made (on the upper left) on AUGUST 28 having a moment of self awareness that i was running #away from my whole life and not moving or learni ng to drive or anything. it is now march 8. it has been almost 7 months. and i have made #basically zero progress. and there is nothing stopping me but me. i could read the drivers manual and whatever whenever i want. but i am not #doing anything. and i don’t know how to get myself to start. #purrs #i know it’s a cop out excuse but i truly do think it’s covid. i think being in lockdown for a year and a half made me just let go of any #sense of progress. made me scared to take steps forward. and i mean i did bc i lived on campus for a while after that but it’s like.. EVERY #part of my life is stagnant rn it seems. and it’s not just me it’s my siblings too. we’re all getting older but none of us is trying to move #out or gain our independence in any way and my brother isn’t even looking for jobs even though he needs one. we’re all just getting older #but we’ve lost (or maybe had knocked out of us by covid and our mom being so strict) any sense of moving ipward and spreading our wings. #forgotten we have wings at all. and ive done important things like going on a house tour or traveling with my besties (<3). but i have only #made it to page 8 of the drivers manual and i truly do not want to read the rest of it. i have only been on one house tour and im longing to #move out but how much am i really because i can’t bring myself to schedule another tour and start searching for a new home in earnest. #i just come home every day UTTERLY exhausted and spend all my free time trying to process or rest. and im not making room for myself to use #my wings. and it’s truly terrible. why are we all okay with living like this. my younger self would be HORRIFIED if she saw how much i had a #atrophied since graduating and moving back home. my brighton self would be HORRIFIED. i told myself i wouldn’t and then it’s exactly what i #did. and ik im being harsh and ive spread my wings in some important ways during this time but… these are so obvious. such low hanging #fruit in some ways. bc any 16 year old can take this test and pass it so why can’t i at 24? why won’t i let myself? dont i want a nice cozy #home i make my own where i can eat what i want and sleep when i want and have control over sounds? then why am i not running for it? #delete later #i am wasting my youth i am wasting my youth i am wasting my youth 🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑 my one precious life 😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃 #also LMFAOOOOO the next tag on that aug 28 post was that i need to get a new campus id card… guess who hasn’t done that either ♥️

[thebadtimewolf]

hey

do yall know any genuine rose tyler stans that are actually upset about how s1 rose was treated as an equal AND a love interest but as soon as s2-s4 rose was treated more as a equal BECAUSE of her being pideonholed as only a 'i can do things too! see!' archetype of love interests that it took two other characters to be treated as an actual equal? like why did ten thru donna said that he needs an equal and that what the dr needs an equal??

rose was already an equal in season 1. its established bts that rose was an equal to ninth doctor? but now why didn't that sentiment continued on with ten? what happened?

like martha is treated like an actual equal because the dr in the past have always hated themselves, reflected back at them, but still shared the joy and comradarie during a joint adventure with said version of self. like even the time lord victorious two parter book - 8 was flirting and 10 flirted back but at the end of the day - both of em can carry themselves without the arrival of the other, leaving the eyerolling and mild disgust or disinterest aspect to ninth dr when he shared a room with them. like the dr not wanting to "date" martha even though he literally in text trying real hard to pull the wool in both ur qnd his own eyes is essentially him trying not to fuck himself.

donna is - in an almost wish-fufilled in what the dr missed from the master - considered an equal preestablished since season 3 guest appeared and fully in season 4. shes seen as a pea in the pod like the dr master rani and romana - keeping up with that specific lot of em without going thru the 'but im better than you' alien egoist rhetoric that the time lords fall to in times of upper handedness. she can manipulate she talk fast she tech-savvy yet people-grounded BUT she makes sure the respect isnt temporary and doesnt lord it over people because everyone is great and without that person, the whole system can fall apart.

because so far, it doesnt feel that way. like are yall not mad that tenth doctor gave rose up?

after seasons of build up and getting shot and everything? the funky alien eldritch being in a mask of an earth lookin boy that had a chance to man up and show feelings when the opportunity is very in your face given to him to do so in a space where he could do so and — he just gave her up? all that moping and whining and when given what he wanted, he just went: no. here. i need an equal and i have donna so im giving you what i TEN think you want as an equal in me and thats him. BUT NINEROSE ARE EQUALS SHE NEVER SAID SHE WANTED HIM HUMAN BUT RATHER HIMSELF AS HE IS.

its like fridging rose but worse. in s2-4 you made her in memory of someone else that ALWAYS treated her as an equal instead of actually continuing on with that with the next face. death wouldve been more forgiving and thats not a great thing to come to a conclusion to. The one that really treated you as both a love interest AND equal is dead, and now you're married to the discarded imitation of the one that only typecasted you as a love interest.

tentoo should be mad abt this too but this aint about him, this is about yall and the rose tyler connundrum.

i wouldve settled for her having the hand - settling for the hand if that hand turned into ninth doctor (like full on christopher eccleston doing donna impression everything) instead of what we got - which was dust. it made more sense that way. because then the dialogue narrative - the doctor's excuse - wouldve been more well recieved. Does it need saying would have more weight if Eccleston played a NineToo whispered i love you because you know it was well meant. Genuine. Its coming from someone that always treated you as an equal and also getting that i love you and not just - oh the human i love. i miss them not because i treated them on equal terms, its strictly because i only love them - no equality at all

like yeah chris wasnt going to return but hes a movie actor - hes used to green screen. he couldve sent a video message in a leather jacket and let it be done. like we couldve had nine saying i love you to rose on doomsday like do you get what im trying to say like. like tooth and claw if it was nine and rose both wouldve been like 'oh look at that a werewolf transformation!' And not what. we got. LIKE DO YOU SEE WHAT I MEAN

#tv: doctor who #c: rose tyler #c: ninth doctor #c: tenth doctor #{no because im tagging because i want genuine responses and not ANON HATE I WANT ACTUAL DEPH ANALYSIS} #{i dont think i have a tentoo tag. if i did i forgot} #{but i ship the dr with everybody including every TARDIS i see} #{but like i dont ship 10rose or 8rose. like those should be n' stay as platonic SO GLAD 8ROSE IS CANONICALLY PLATONIC thats drdonna LOVE IT} #{like 10martha is more appealing because that man flirted outwardly to her in front of a class and main hospital chief} #{meanwhile 10rose got deleted waste.of.time hand holding seasons 'we had to cut for time' professional sayin IT WAS A WASTE OF TIME} #{THEY CHOSE DUST INSTEAD OF THE FOOD NINE GAVE US FOR FREE WITH LATER 98% DISCOUNTS} #{so yeah but um yeah} #{but like yknow make a comprehensive argument: also goal here non poc ppl TRY NOT TO BE RACIST IN YOUR WORDS} #{i know how easily tempted you are as soon as you see martha and ten in the same sentence let alone the same post: check yo self} #{like 'oh rtd might bring to rose' he might kill her and its feeling and more like hes going to just to appease tories} #{because billie is VERY MUCH not a tory aka conservative so yeah do YOU see why i dont rose back but the moment} #{like he killed off 9 and that was probably due to him being antiroyalist so i IM RIGHTFULLY WORRIED FOR OUR GURL} #{IF she returns as rose tyler. if she returns as the interface THE MOMENT AS SHE IS WELLKNOWN FOR i wont have anythin to worry abt} #{as well as bts conditions but LIKE👀 the worry is there the worry is prevalent present and here} #{she need to come back with tentoo and mia in tow: linked arms handcuffed to each other SOMETHING THAT CALMS ME} #{i dunno who they'll cast for mia i dont care BUT MIA BETTER BE IN TOW WITH HER ON SCREEN IF IS MISS ROSE COME BACK} #{its to calm me.}

[cubedmango]

i owe my life to the ppl posting spoiler clips but also they gotta stop doing it so close to movie release i cant handle it

#cherry magic spoilers #(aka movie spoilers in tags so dont read if u dont want those) #my post #saw this rlly short one just now and . . ok i knew abt it already but Seeing it. Is An Experience #ill yell about this properly later on but . the way we get So much insight into the charas from just that short a clip #kurosawa going 'do you regret it' after adachi doesnt have the magic anymore is so . Ough . my guy........ Please....... #HES SO . . DID U FORGET THE EP12 ROOFTOP !!!!!! STOP BEING SAD #and then adachi saying 'im fine with it. as long as i have you' BEING A CALLBACK TO THE ROOFTOP AAUUGSHSHJSJD #THE GROWTH THE LACK OF HESITATION THE CONVICTION #and then the back hug and kurosawa smiling . ...... instant KO moment for me #thats all the clip had so idk if they talk more abt it like in the manga but it would be nice #cant wait to be destroyed by actually watching this scene in the full ha ha ha :)

[old-stoneface]

im listening to the audiobook for making money (ive read the book but it was a couple years ago now) and my review is that the antagonists for this book are my least favorite out of all of the city books ive read. they completely lack charm and theyre mostly just horribly annoying

#plus some of the later books (most books post-thud) dont really catch my attention like the others do.... #my reasoning for this is that most of the interesting dynamics are removed by that point #and it comes down more to a good main character plus a good antag and a whimsical plot #which is alright but not what made me fall in love w the books in the first place #i think maybe im just a fan of the city watch 🥲 every time one of them shows up im like YAYYYY ITS MY GUYS #angua and vimes and carrot in particular get this reaction but the occasional cheery makes me soo happy #i really do need to bite the bullet and speedread through raising steam . and just get it over with #sam.txt #discposting #moist is just such a showstopping character he has so much going on he can run a plot by himself #he barely needs an antagonist. however i do love the dynamic between him and spike #because. well. theyre vv adjacent #vetinari is another who is VERY charming on his own but he does need vimes to have true interesting development #ohhj... (dawning realization) the early city watch books are good bc theyre introducing crazy relationships #and the later books have phased out the more complex stuff. so less insane vetvimes moments #and zero carrot/angua stuff #SAD!!!! #im hiding all this in the tags bc i dont feel like stating my opinions directly #i dont know exactly how unpopular these opinions are but i do know that my opinions are not widely held

[frecklystars]

i want a day off i want a day off i want a day off i want a day off

#i cant sleep im so . angry that im doing a closing shift when im not supposed to be #😤😤😤 #delete later #vent #if i request! a day off! MONTHS in advance! and it was accepted! #then i should be able to keep it!! #instead of them calling and saying oh sorry! we changed it #even though #i dont #work #for you #any #more #!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #im sorry to be a pain in the ass w/ the vent posts lately i promise ill be fine after today #im just so fed up man. i have so many stress hives. and i havent had those in *years* #im having nightmares and im sleeping almost every moment that im home #because the stress makes me so so so tired its like all my energy is completely sapped #all the changes happening in this job when ive JUST started it 2 weeks ago #whats the most stressful is i cannot ask for help bc its just Me alone all the time now #just me and annoying drunk customers :( #so when theres a problem i just have to go 'uhhhhh' and wing it #and its easier for someone to scream at me bc we are not in public #the other day a lady SHRIEKED at me because we do not allow cash back #as if it were in MY control. as if I get paid to sit on my ass and make these decisions #i hate this job. i think i will always hate this company #i like this building more than my old one but i still want to quit #at first i was like 'hey maybe i can tolerate it' but no. i fucking cant #if they didnt make all these changes all of a sudden then yeah maybe i would #but lotto? and remodeling? SIXTEEN HOUR SHIFTS STARTING AT 2 IN THE MORNING?