#and i don't think peer pressure affects me as much as... some but it's also quite there. i want to fit in... kinda? not really? kinda?

[youngks-smile]

What I Want You To Know About Long COVID

Well lads, I've been suffering from Long COVID for over a year now. My life is at a complete standstill. I'm 25 years old and I'm too sick to go back to school, I can't work, I had to move back in with my parents and I'm still stuck here.

Here are just a few things I wish people knew about Long COVID, including things I didn't know myself until I got it.

COVID destroys your immune system. Yes, even if you don't have Long COVID. Are you getting sick more often now? When you get sick, does it last longer? There are many studies showing that COVID causes t cell depletion, even in mild COVID cases! T cells are how your body remembers how to fight off infections you've had before so losing those cells? Bad news.

Your initial infection can be mild and you can still get Long COVID. Right from Yale Medicine, "Most people with Long COVID had mild acute COVID." (This is also a good link for a basic Long COVID overview).

There can be a gap of time between when you "get better" from the initial COVID infection to the onset of Long COVID symptoms. Some people get sick with an initial COVID infection and never get better. Some get better and then weeks or months later start developing Long COVID symptoms. Long COVID symptoms can even fluctuate over time, can go away for months and then suddenly come back.

So many people have Long COVID and don't realize it. Do you feel more tired lately but no matter how much you sleep, nothing helps? Is it harder to concentrate at work or school? Can you just not think like you used to? You could have Long COVID and not even know it. Even mild post-COVID symptoms are still Long COVID.

COVID can do anything to your body. Long COVID has over 200 recognized symptoms and can affect basically any part or system of your body. There is no one mechanism or cause of Long COVID which unfortunately also means there's no one cure either.

The effects of COVID are cumulative. Each COVID reinfection increases your chances of developing Long COVID. COVID is also affecting your body in other ways, yes, even if you're otherwise young and healthy! "Repeat COVID-19 infections increase risk of organ failure, death".

Once you have Long COVID, repeat COVID infections will make your symptoms worse. "80% [of Long COVID patients] saw their symptoms worsen [from reinfection]. In 60% of people who were in recovery or remission from Long COVID, reinfection caused a recurrence of Long COVID."

There is a lot more I want to say about Long COVID but I want to keep this post at least somewhat manageable to read. Like how when COVID is contracted during pregnancy, those COVID-exposed fetuses have a 6.3-fold increased risk of motor developmental delays, or that another study found 50% of babies exposed to COVID in utero had developmental delays.

You need to keep caring about COVID, for others around you and also for yourself even if you're "healthy". Everyone is at risk. And don't forget 40-60% of COVID infections are asymptomatic, which is why masking even if you feel fine is crucial. The only way right now to not get Long COVID is to not get COVID in the first place. It's not too late, if you've stopped masking it's never too late to start again! I know it's easy to get distracted by things in your life that seem more real than the possibility of getting sick some time in the future, and the peer pressure to not mask can be intense. But it only feels less real or less important until your entire life is having Long COVID. Trust me.

I know this is a complicated issue, many people can't afford to stay home when sick even if they want to because of their jobs, there are disgusting policies trying to ban wearing masks, but please if you can. Keep masking. Masking works, masking saves lives.

This post got a bit longer than I wanted so below the cut is a non-exhaustive list of my Long COVID symptoms and some of my experiences as one of the "healthy young people" who got "unlucky". cw brief mention of suicidal ideation.

Welcome to the Thunderdome that is my body with Long COVID. Keep in mind these are just my experiences and symptoms, Long COVID can cause any range of symptoms at varying severities.

Dysautonomia: Exercise intolerance, Post-Exertional Malaise (PEM), fatigue, and heat intolerance. What do those things mean? Here's some specific examples. Absolutely terrible circulation I am so cold all the time but also, if I get a little too warm I will pass out. Eating hot food makes my heart rate spike, I sweat, my body feels heavy. Blood pooling and pins and needles in my feet when I walk. Don't even think about exercising past walking, it's impossible. I used to work out an hour a day 4 times a week and now walking up one flight of stairs makes my heart pound and I can't breathe. Can't take even just warm showers anymore or I will pass out. Heat rashes from being in the sun for 10 minutes.

Digestive issues: Honestly too many to name but: constant bloating, extreme nausea, constipation, slow motility, lack of appetite, just so much cramping and pain. I lost 18 pounds from Long COVID, as someone who was already considered underweight their entire life, and almost had to get a shunt put into my chest to deliver nutrients because I was nearly completely unable to eat. For the first 6 months of Long COVID, if I could manage 600 calories a day, that was a good day.

Histamine intolerance: Oh boy. My worst symptoms, I don't even know where to start with it. If you know Mast Cell Activation Syndrome (MCAS) it's very similar. I can only eat 19 foods. If i eat a single bite of something not on that list, it's 48 hours of absolute hell. Coughing, migraines, itchy eyes, such extreme nausea I cannot even describe it, panic/feeling of doom, racing heart rate, derealization, rash, uncontrollable muscle tremors. I only learned about histamine intolerance 5 months into having Long COVID so before that, I was experiencing these symptoms nearly every single day. Terrifying isn't even a strong enough word to describe how it felt to experience all this and have no idea what it was, how to stop it, or if it would ever stop. Really dark times.

Neurological issues: More of that derealization. Inability to concentrate. Anxiety. OCD-like symptoms such as thoughts getting "stuck" in my head, repeating 24/7 completely unable to stop them, genuinely felt like my brain had cracked open and I had lost my mind. Constant dizziness like I'm on a boat.

Sleep issues: I sleep like garbage. I have insomnia, I wake up dozens of times every night and every single time I sleep I have intensely vivid dreams. I can't sleep longer than 7 hours total no matter how exhausted I am. It is exhausting. I'm exhausted, I'm so so tired.

And finally. Just. Really intense suicidal ideation. My body, my health, my entire life has been stolen from me because someone else decided my life was worth less to them than wearing a mask or staying home if they feel sick. Before I got Long COVID, I was preparing to go to South Korea to teach English, then on to a PhD in neurolinguistics, I was supposed to meet my long distance partner and had already booked plane tickets when I got sick. All of that has been destroyed.

Most of us with Long COVID are stuck in a cycle of being extremely sick, then if you're lucky you'll slowly get better over months, just to get reinfected and go right back where you started or worse. Honestly, I'm not scared of dying from COVID. I'm scared of living for a long time, suffering from Long COVID the entire time. This isn't living.

I don't know how to end this now. I'm still fighting, I'm trying experimental treatments, I'm not giving up yet. I hope everyone reading this stays healthy and well.

#long covid #covid 19 #covid isn't over #pandemic

[priscirat]

thoughts on Shizuku’s relationship with everyone in l/n ?

(expand for words on thoughts)

THE MAIN POINT. the main point. shizuku is SO so grateful for leoneed and what they bring for shiho.

it is shown repeatedly thru stories that she asks each of them to look after shiho because she KNOWS she knows how happy they make her and how theyre a place that shiho can always come back to (the same way that she Is for shiho but she doesnt believe how important she is for shiho)

a part of me believes that ofc it is due to How shizuku is ofc. but shizuku never got to connect in such ways to ppl before highschool and airi and more more jump. she mentions that Already before being an idol ppl were put off by the 'gap' of her looks and personality so i always saw it as her being extremely lonely.

so when she sees that her younger sister Also has the tendency to be put away from her peers due to her personality. can you imagine how relieved she is when she sees three fellas always coming towards shiho and growing up with her. she actually so often mentions how glad she is that shiho is making friends when she hears that kohane and minori are ALSO friend with her later on. so leoneed being there for so long. my god she loves them. her little stars.

for each relationship separately now. First i want to state howwww badly i want prsk to Actually put more text in their relationships. we get bits here and there but its mostly from mouth to ear situation so i HOPE. that they get to actually hang More. anyway.

ichika. #pure heart class sweep. both have this very earnest way to be. especially to their relation to their skill and how they keep pursuing someone in hope to fine their own shine. i will say it for each one of them but. shizuku is so fond of her for that. i wish we got them to be more often together bc the comedy of them being a Bit too earnest in some situation would be Extremely funny.

saki. oh the heart in their sleeves girlies. i often think about how shizuku Also in some way was affected by their whole separation and how not seeing saki around while the three others were there. man. but they both love so so much the people dear to them and don't shy from telling and showing them and seeing them team up for shihos bday let me say Easily that it isnt the first and last time it happened. definitely think theyre the ones who might have the closest relationship.

honami. u ever think about how both of them were under this pressure of fitting the image that others had of them. and i truly. truly cant imagine the catastrophe that would happen if shizuku Learned about it. anyway. the. so much. caring. silent supporter. relearning Herself. they got so much in common and their moment in the same committee together where they got to. learn more about shiho in their own way. theyre so so sweet.

i think it is so extremely sweet that you can see a bit of shizuku in all three of them. little shiho mentions how much she admires and look up to shizuku. current shiho still does even if shes shy about it <3 but since her sister was such an important pillar of her life i think it tracks that all of her closest friends do reflect a lil bit of her in some way.

ie : ln are shizukus little stars. she keeps going to their rehearsals to bring them treats and cried when they formed their band and she keeps crying when she sees them grow on stage.

#anon #ask #anyway this is a mash of thoughts and hcs. bone apple teeth. #i saw this ask after a 3 hours walk into the heat i hope it doesnt reflect that too much (it will) #but yea i adore ln + shizuku i hope to write a whole relationship study about them some day #even if a lot of it will be from my hcs but. prsk ur free to give more meat on that

[littlealeta]

Vincent Brooks headcanons anyone?

Loves animals. Would probably like to have a cat someday, but at the same time, he's afraid of the responsibilities and thinks he would be a bad owner. Same with children. Is probably good with them, but doesn't want to raise one because he feels he would be a bad father.

Wanted to be a therapist/animal caretaker at one point, then became a tech engineer for some reason.

Gets pretty sensitive at emotional movies and romance stories (because they remind him of Katherine) and any animal/child dying. Would probably snap at whoever would harm them. Wouldn't be able to handle any cheating story.

Probably likes mysteries and puzzle games, seeing that he's good at solving puzzles and coming up with techniques. Probably prefers retro games to modern gaming. Same with movies and music probably.

For movies/tv/books, Vincent probably likes drama and coming of age stories. Especially ones where characters make mistakes so like Breaking Bad and Scott Pilgrim. Plus if they grow from them. Also some science fiction films like Star Wars, Star Trek, Interstellar.

Dislikes showing off his talent for the most part, like singing and dancing. He feels too insecure.

A bit afraid of PDA, which is why he doesn't show much affection to Katherine and gives her a shy kiss in the true ending.

I don't think he hugs people much, but if he does, they're probably darn good hugs. If he saw one of his friends crying, he'd probably hug them.

Got bullied in his childhood. Which is partly why he blocked out memories from his school days.

Was a fairly obedient, cautious kid who was probably often peer pressured by the more adventurous Orlando.

Dislikes thrills.

Probably grew up spoiled, which explains his immature behavior in the game.

Probably majorly depressed/su!c!dal after the cheating incident and would do anything to atone for it.

Sleeps a lot, even at work.

Often drinks until he vomits, passes out. Sometimes drinks the hard stuff like whiskey.

Smoked weed at one point and then switched to cigarettes.

Deals with roaches, ants, spiders and rats a lot. Which is terrible for him because he's afraid of them.

Sometimes is a bad cook

Misses hygiene days sometimes.

Got evicted from many apartments due to lifestyle habits

Wrecked cars a lot due to his scatter brain, which is why he doesn't currently have one.

Took weeks to think about because I was wondering what kind of music Vincent would be into. He doesn't strike me as much of a music person, although I can imagine he used to jam in nightclubs and discos back in his day. So he probably has a nostalgic fondness for anything electronic and disco. He still goes to nightclubs on occasion but doesn't jam as much. Probably also relaxes to downtempo and lofi.

That's all I have for now. I'll edit this if I have anymore. Does anyone else have anymore? Would love to discuss Vincent stuff.

#catherine full body #catherine game #Vincent Brooks

[dib-thing-wannabe]

The Evil and The Genius

Chapter Three: The Beginnings of Change

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(Evil Jimmy is mainly referred to as Jack in this fanfic and is wearing a maroon turtle neck, a black hoodie that has a large DNA strand branded on the front of it, a pair of loose black jeans, and a pair of dark grey tennis shoes instead of the exact same outfit that Jimmy has. Be warned that this chapter is easily the longest of the chapters so far. Also, incase you haven't read the other two chapters, this fanfic takes place a year after the show ended. Sorry about not having updated for so long, I ran out of words, aka lost motivation lol)

Today officially marks two whole months since Jimmy had officially started the process of trying to reform Jack, and since Jack has started living with him and his parents, much to both Jimmy's dismay and Jack's confusion. To say that it's also been a living nightmare for Jimmy is a severe understatement.

Despite Jack being confused as to why Judy and Hugh had decided to take him in with only a measly promise that can easily be broken, he still uses this to his full advantage, even going so far as to get himself comfortable with calling them Mom and Dad (as much as he can get comfortable, at least). He even gets to bother Jimmy every chance he gets with little consequences for it, as it just gets deemed by most adults and even some peers as 'brothers being brothers'! Like, for example, 'borrowing' Jimmy's things despite not needing to, going into his room randomly without bothering to ask first, mess with his friends whenever they decide to hang out at Jimmy's place, try to blow up the school with a nuclear hand grenade that was made out of scraped inventions and then blame Jimmy for it because he had left out uranium unattended, just the usual things that a sibling would do.

You would be extremely wrong and also incredibly stupid for even thinking that Jimmy hasn't wanted to kill Jack since day one of this new and unwanted chaos. Today, the chaos will mostly stay the same.. mostly.

Jimmy sat at the kitchen room table doing his homework, sighing occasionally as he stared down at the paper. Here he is, a super genius who has by himself made inventions that are more powerful than the government's, having to do understimulating work for something that he doesn't even need instead of doing anything that he actually wants to do.

Jack walked into the kitchen as he quietly hummed to himself, holding an Ultra-Lord comic book that Sheen had gifted him when he first came back. "Still doing your homework, whippy dip?"

"At least I actually do my homework when I first get it and not wait until the very last second, unlike you." Jimmy responded, not loosing focus on his work.

"Hey, at least I'm not wasting my time on something useless like that when I can be doing what I want instead. Besides, I don't break under pressure, so it doesn't affect anything when just I wait to do it." Jack sat next to Jimmy, putting his feet up on the table.

"Waiting? Like you have been waiting when it comes to reading the very comic book that's in your hand right now?" Jimmy responded, still not looking away from the homework.

".. Oh shut up, we both know that the comic has so many things that just aren't accurate when it comes to simple science, and it's irritating to read knowing that they could have done simple research to realize this." Jack threw the comic down on the table as he leaned back, hands behind his head.

"That's understandable, but you shouldn't continue to give Sheen false hope about you reading it sooner or later. He can be quite sensitive when it comes to all things involving Ultra-Lord."

"Ooooh, okay! Got it!" Jack pointed a finger gun at Jimmy as he chuckled, making Jimmy roll his eyes.

They both sat in silence for a moment before Jack lifted his hand and pointed his finger at Jimmy, slowly inching his finger closer and closer to Jimmy's cheek.

"Jack, don't touch me." Jimmy said, still not looking up from the paper, now having an even more annoyed look on his face.

"But I'm not touching you." Jack said calmly, now not moving a muscle. It's true, he wasn't touching Jimmy. He just held his finger veeeery close to him, yet not touching him still.

"Jack, stop that." Jimmy now demanded him, finally looking up from the paper but not directly at Jack still, instead just staring at what was infront of him instead.

"Stop what? I'm not doing anything."

"You know exactly what you are doing." Jimmy told him through gritted teeth, his eye twitching.

"Actually, You are correct! I do know what I'm doing! And that would be nothing!" Jack spoke in a smug tone as he continued to not move his finger away from or move his finger closer to Jimmy.

"DAD! JACK WON'T LEAVE ME ALONE WHILE I'M DOING HOMEWORK!!" Jimmy yelled out, turning himself towards the living room where Hugh is watching tv.

"I'M NOT DOING ANYTHING TO HIM, HE'S LYING!!!" Jack yelled out as well, finally moving his finger and hand away from him as to try and avoid getting in trouble for the third time this week.

"Settle down, boys! Jack, stop messing with Jimmy, and Jimmy, stop being so hard on Jack!" Hugh called out from the couch, not taking his eyes off the tv. Jack crossed his arms and huffed as he turned his back towards Jimmy, who rolled his eyes when his dad told him to stop being so harsh with Jack.

They once again sat in silence as Jimmy focused on his homework and Jack looked out the window. Suddenly, Jack's face had lit up as he noticed something, tilting his head slightly as he got more intrigued.

"What is Sheen doing now?.." He spoke quietly to himself, watching him through the window intensely.

"Probably nothing, Jack. How come you always watch him when you have nothing better to do anyway?" Jimmy asked, glancing up at Jack for a moment.

"His stupidity is entertaining to me. His thought process is so simple that it's also so hard to tell what it is that's going through his head." He responded as he rested his head in his hand, still watching Sheen.

"Eh.. makes sense." Jimmy shrugged as he spoke. Wanting to see just how far his idiotism went was originally how they became friends when they were young children, after all.

Jack continued to watch Sheen through the window, beginning to snicker. "Um, J-Jimmy?"

"What now?"

"Why does Sheen have the Freeze Ray 3.2 that you're still currently working on?"

Jimmy's heart dropped when he heard Jack's words, immediately looking past him to look out the window himself. Sheen was outside, carelessly and dangerously waving Jimmy's latest version of his freeze ray around in the air as Cindy and Libby are trying to physically stop him while Carl was seemingly pleading with them all to calm down as he tried to stay out of their way.

Quickly, Jimmy scrambled to get out of his seat, no longer caring about doing his homework as he sprinted towards the front door. "No no no nO NO-"

Jack, now laughing loudly and manically, quickly follows Jimmy out the door. "Oh, I gotta see this!"

"SHEEN!! PUT THE RAY DOWN!!!" Jimmy yelled and demanded at Sheen once he was outside and had him in his sights, causing Sheen to jump due to his sudden and booming voice, but immediately relaxes again as he saw that it was just Jimmy.

"Heya Jimmy! Heya Jack!" Sheen called out, waving at them with the ray still in hand, which Cindy was still trying to get out of his hands.

"Give me that, you dolt!" Jimmy quickly and surprisingly easily snatched the freeze ray from Sheen. "How did you even manage to get this in the first place?!"

"Well, your lab door was unlocked, and when I went inside I saw that your freeze thingy was out, so I thought I should show it off for ya!" Sheen says gleefully, as if he didn't do anything wrong.

"Without my permission?? Without even informing me?! Sheen, I swear, you could just simply stand still and it would still leave me bumfuzzled, that's how confusing your stupidity is!" Jimmy then sighed as he rubbed his furrowed eyebrows in frustration.

"Well, when you say words that aren't even real, it's hard to tell what your answer is half the time! So I didn't bother asking!" Sheen replied, crossing his arms as if he had a right to be annoyed with Jimny.

"It's a yes or no question, Sheen! If you hear either "Yes" or "No" in the sentence, then that's your answer!!" Jimmy yelled out as he turned away from Sheen and began walking towards his lab to put the freeze ray back.

In turn, Jack stepped closer to Sheen as he struggled to stop snickering. "A-and about that statement with him saying words that are supposedly 'not real', they are in fact real words, it's just that most simpletons like yourself don't know them."

Cindy then spoke out as she stepped in front of Jack. "Well, you can't blame Sheen for that one, because most people don't use the words that Jimmy always use!"

"Yeah, because most people are stupid and only use the words that everyone else use." Jack said casually, putting his hands in the pocket of his hoodie. "At least he's able to get creative with his words, even if only a few can fully understand him because of it."

".. Well, he's not wrong on that one." Libby admitted to Cindy as she put her hand on her shoulder, which caused Cindy to roll her eyes in annoyance.

Jimmy quickly made it back to the group once he put the freeze ray back in it's rightful place, mainly to make sure that Jack wasn't provoking anyone too much or running out of anyone's sight as to cause havock. He let out a small and quiet sigh of relief as he saw that Jack was being civil for now.

Jimmy walked over to Cindy's side, noticing his girlfriends annoyance and was about to ask what was wrong before he noticed that Sheen's face suddenly light up as he remembered something before he turned his focus to Jack and spoke up, his voice filled with his usual excitement. "Hey, did you finally end up reading that Ultra-Lord comic I got ya?! It's his first ever comic, so it should be easy for you to follow the story right now!!"

"Oh, no, no I didn't. Infact, I'm not gonna read it at all. I just can't stomach it's scientific inaccuracies for more than a few pages at a time." Jack shrugged his shoulders as he casually spoke his truth. Everyones besides Jimmy's breath hitched in their throats as the words escaped Jack's mouth, knowing how Sheen can be when it came to people insulting things that he's interested in. Jimmy shot Jack with an intense glare as his eyes dart between Sheen's and Jack's face, waiting for Sheen's reaction before doing anything about the situation.

Sheen's face dropped as he got a disappointed and betrayed look on his face before it suddenly lit up again as he got another idea. "Does that mean that you'll preserve it instead??"

Jack raised an eyebrow at the ecstatic boy before answering him, "Huh?.. Oh. Yeah, yeah, sure, why not-"

Suddenly, out of pure excitement of Jack essentially starting a comic book collection in Sheen's eyes, he picked Jack up in a tight hug, Jack's feet no longer touching the ground. Everyone else let out a collective sigh of relief, as for them, it's common knowledge that Sheen does this with anyone who's shorter than him as a way of showing affection.

Jack, however, was not at all aware of this, as he didn't even know that Sheen's strength had increased enough to so easily lift people off the ground since he got put in the dark matter dimension. Jack let out a small yelp of surprise as he got lifted so suddenly, a small blush of embarrassment appearing on his cheeks. After a second, he began to try and get out of Sheen's grasp, as he hadn't gotten physical affection that lasted for more than a few seconds for over a year and this sudden and tight hug overwhelmed him quickly.

"HEY!! LET ME GO, YOU DAMN HEATHEN!!" Jack screamed out as he kicked his feet in the air as a futile attempt of escaping. Being the clone of a super genius really did come at a cost: being short.

Sheen raised an eyebrow at Jack in slight confusion. Then, he smirked mischievously as he quickly saw an opportunity to get back at him a little for being an annoyance to him. He then began to swing Jack around in his arms as he laughed. "Awwww, but you're so light and soft! I don't think I ever wanna let go!"

Jack's kicking got even worse as he continued to try and get Sheen to let go, his face now red with embarrassment and anger as he yelled out, "I SAID LET GO, YOU IMBECILE!!"

Everyone besides Jimmy began to snicker at the seem, finding Jack's anger about the situation hilarious. Jimmy though wasn't laughing at all as he watched Jack struggle against Sheen. Dare he say, he actually felt sympathy for him at this moment. It wasn't uncommon for Sheen to do something like this to him too, and considering that he absolutely hated it even after getting used to it, he could only imagine how it felt for the one who was unaware of it in the first place.

Jimmy let out a small sigh before he spoke up, "Okay, put Jack down, Sheen, you had your fun."

"Aww, but why?"

"Because he clearly dislikes it, and will probably punch you in the next moment if you don't."

Sheen rolled his eyes as he dropped Jack on the grass. "Fiiiine, fine."

Jack groaned as he sat himself back up and rubbed his head, muttering under his breath, "Asshole.."

Jimmy went over and helped Jack off the ground, talking as he helped to brush off some dry dirt off of Jack. "Anyways, I need to go back inside and finish up my homework. See you guys later.. Oh, and Jack, try not to be a bother today, okay?"

Jack rolled his eyes as he nodded his head, clearly not going to actually listen to him. Jimmy glared at him, also know that he wasn't going to listen, but currently too tired to bother dealing with him. He waved his friends and Jack goodbye before heading back inside his house as to finish up his work.

A few hours later, Jimmy had finished all his homework, now watching Tv as he gave Goddard a quick check up on his joints. Jimmy glanced over at the clock on the wall, it reading 5:15 pm. It was.. strange. Jack hadn't come back to bother him or disrupt the house again yet, and his their mom was just about to start dinner! Not only that, but no one had called either of his their parents of him directly to complain about something that Jack did. It was.. strange, to say the least.

Suddenly, Jack busted through the front door and quickly slammed it behind himself, his back pressed against the door and using his body as to baracade it, panting heavily as he let out nervous laughter. Jimmy's eyes widened at his sudden appearance and look of panic.

"Wha- Jack?! What happened?!"

Jack let out more nervous laughter as he put up his hood and pulled the hoodie's strings as to hide his face, his hair horns poking out. "Weeeeeeell-"

Suddenly, there was loud banging on the other side of the front door as Jack yell out a small squeak, Cindy's voice booming through from the other side.

"JAAACK!! GET OUT HERE RIGHT NOW SO THAT I CAN KICK YOUR ASS!!!"

Cindy then began to attempt to break the door down entirely, prompting Jack to.. hide behind Jimmy??

"J-Jack?! What are you doing?!?"

"Hiding, what else does it look like?!"

"Why behind me?! She may be my girlfriend, but that doesn't mean that I'm able to physically stop her when she's this mad!!"

"I don't know, I'm panicking!-"

Then, Cindy was able to kick down the door, currently wearing a mint green sundress that had been drenched in a dark colored soda. Upon hearing the door slam into the ground, the two boy's jumped a little at the noise, Jack quickly hiding himself behind Jimmy more as Jimmy instinctively threw out his arms in a protective position. Cindy's pissed off and raging expression quickly shifted into a more surprised and slightly confused look at the sight of this, as she didn't expect Jimmy to have a protective instinct for Jack yet, though there was still obvious anger on her face as she panted slightly from chasing after Jack.

Jimmy then raised his hands in the air as he spoke in a calm voice. "N-now now, what just happened here? Why were you chasing after Jack??"

Cindy glared at Jack, who was peaking over Jimmy's shoulder as he tried to remain hidden from her sights, as she spoke. "He not only threw a full soda can at me, but he also slightly opened the can before throwing it, making all the soda pour all over me and ruining my new dress!!"

"Girl!! F-for, like, the fourth time, I didn't mean for that to happen!!"

Jimmy's eyes widened as he looked over his shoulder at Jack. For the first time ever.. he didn't mean to cause any trouble?? And it wasn't like he was just lying to get himself out of trouble again, as Jimmy had quickly learned all of his tells. This time, he was being genuine, even if it's being expressed in a more harsh way.

"Well.. what did you mean to happen, then?"

"S-Sheen asked me to pass him a soda, so instead of just walking towards him and handing it to him, I tried throwing it at him since he's such an annoyance!! But Cindy ended up walking into the cans line of sight at the wrong time! I-I'm not sure why or how it was opened though.."

Carl, Libby and Sheen quickly ran behind Cindy, all panting heavily from trying to keep up with the two. Sheen then raised his hand as he was still panting heavily. "I-It was me! I was the one who opened the can enough to where soda would pour everywhere! But it was meant to go all over Jack as he was grabbing it!"

Carl took a few puffs from his inhaler before he began speaking as well, still panting heavily as he spoke. "B-Both Jack's and Sheen's stories are true, I-I was a witness to both incidents!" Libby then raised her hand and held up two fingers as she continued panting heavily, silently saying that she seconded Carls statement.

Cindy's and Jimmy's eyes widened in surprise. Jack was.. innocent? He was genuinely innocent and he wasn't trying to cause any trouble?.. well, not for Cindy, at least.

Cindy cleared her throat as she tried to appear more calm and collected before looking back at Jack, who was still hiding behind Jimmy, though now looked less panicked and nervous due to the others vouching for him, even Sheen. "Well then.. I'm sorry about the misunderstanding, Jack." God, did that feel weird for her to say to him of all people.

"I-it's fine, I guess.. but giiirl, you need to learn to chill." Jack said this as he stepped out from behind Jimmy.

Cindy rolled her eyes as she mumbled under her breath, though didn't say anything about it, as she didn't want to end up proving Jack's point. "Whatever, I'm going back home, it's almost about time for dinner anyways."

The other three, still slightly being out of breath, followed suite, going back to their individual houses. Jimmy and Jack looked down at the broken down door for a few moments before Jack attempted to pick it up to put it in place, only to immediately struggle due to not having a lot of strength. Even if he's different personality wise, he still is a clone of a weak and short boy, after all. After a few attempts, Jack then gave up as he began walking towards his room as to be alone for the next 15 minutes before dinner was supposed to be ready.

"... You know.. I think that, albeit very slowly.. this reformation thing is actually working." Jimmy spoke up as he looked up at Jack, who was halfway up the stairs.

Jack froze for a moment before looking down at Jimmy, raising an eyebrow at him. "Oh, really? And how so?"

"If that very incident happened when you were first made, or hell, when we first started this reformation attempt, you would've taken all the credit for it happening, despite it being unintentional." Jimmy then walked towards the bathroom as to wash his hands, seeing that Judy was about to pull dinner out of the oven.

Jack stood there, frozen and in shock. Jimmy.. wasn't wrong. Unintentionally and unironically, he was very, very slowly being reformed...

"... Fuck..."

#jimmy neutron #jimmy neutron boy genius #nicktoons #nickelodeon #nicktoons unite #evil jimmy #cindy vortex #sheen estevez #libby folfax #carl wheezer #The Evil and The Genius au #The Evil and The Genius #TETG au

[aesterblaster]

Hi there! Lovely blog 🥲 I came across a post about Rin (and his jaded side), which inspired me to rant a bit myself. I apologise if this lacks distinctness - English is not my native language, I also write on the bus so it must be worse than usual. Lastly, I don't have the alchemy of the verb so I tend to write more mud than gold lol. Anyways, I'd like to say something about Rin's ego (I'm consciously using arguments that I haven't seen yet, so I'll say very little about Rin's material living conditions such as the role of his age, his personality, the social impact of being Sae's brother etc, his “brother complex”...)

Well, mainly I find there are many parallels to be drawn between Nagi's character and Rin's, especially when it comes to their relationship with soccer (incidentally, the discussion they had at the end of the Manshine VS PXG match highlights their common problem; they have no ego). No… in fact I would say that there is a fundamental distinction between Nagi and Rin (absence of ego versus negation of the ego). I'm going to use schopenhauerian elements here (lightly) by integrating them with Kojève's ideas (the most primitive to the development of his thought on history). I don't think this is Kaneshiro’s ambition (but Schopenhauer (SC) drew heavily on Buddhist (anatman) and Hindu philosophy, so why not...) but Rin deals with the suffering of the world (equivalent here to the abandonment of his brother, who initially served as the pivot around which his reality revolved) by sublimating his own interiority (ego); he erases his 'ego' so as to become a footballer (he disappears in his work). For SC, the aim of the work is to develop an intuition that proposes a division of the world (a feeling of strangeness in the face of the notion of existence), which in itself makes it possible to overcome its absurdity (of the world). Moreover, everything Rin enjoys revolves around the question of the place or confirmation of the self within its realm (horror films = quest to feel/ his favorite music evokes the inability to find one's place in the world + Ciguatera (one of his favorite manga) tells the story of a young hopeless man with no goal outside of getting a bike and his new friends who gradually build themselves up in the midst of adolescence). Besides, in the same way that the abandonment of the Self is achieved through sublimation (freudian) in the work, it is also achieved through "charity" for Schopenhauer, and in some respects we could compare this to Rin's attitude before Sae's return (complacency towards his team-mates’s play style but also the stoic behaviour that emerged following Sae's departure).

It's true that, in the past, Rin undertook every action symmetrically to Sae's (theory of mimetic desire, which partly explains his disproportionate reaction to Sae's new purpose), whether through peer pressure or "willpower", although these dynamics can be criticised, they enabled Rin to situate himself in the world (shared existence creates a sense of belonging). He was the brother of the best (“even if my brother is stronger, he is still my brother, he treats me like his brother, we are equal, perhaps equivalent, we share a common humanity”). Except that this repression of the ego comes into conflict with the desire or struggle for recognition after Sae's return when he challenges Rin's perception of their shared humanity. Sae rejects Rin's humanity by telling him that he didn't see any value in him other than his ability as a player (which Sae doesn't recognise at the time). At this point, Sae imbues Rin with the idea that a being IS based on the object of his desire (to be, you have to desire something that surpasses the "need". A position that Sae continues to defend, particularly when he tells Sendo that his quest was primitive, even animal, so much so that it focused on primary needs (reproduction/affection (family), security (good salary/ position in the national team)... during this exchange he clearly establishes himself as the authentic human (free) being compared to a bunch of animals or sub-humans (enslaved)). One’s humanity (unlike animality, low things) is defined by the victory of conquering the desire of another being (the recurring theme of bllk). Whoever achieves this on his own, is in a sense, the master and the vanquished is a slave (master-slave dialectic), and while the master obtains recognition of his humanity from the slave, the master does not recognise the humanity of the slave.

In this way, self-awareness becomes a function of the other's awareness of us, and Rin integrates (even if he fights against it) his inhumanity (animality, even) and his subordinate position in relation to his brother (he’s the slave). Therefore, they are no longer brothers since they no longer recognise each other as equals. As a result, Rin performs a double negation of the ego (more or less voluntary and/or undergone), first through self-denial (for the benefit of others) and then through non-recognition (Sae’s abandonment). In addition, this could explain his jadedness and the disdain that you pointed out in your susdite post, because the value of the recognition I receive is a faction of the value of the recognition I give to others. In other words, the master gets recognition from the slave but it's not adequate because he doesn't recognise the slave, so the slave's recognition is worth almost nothing (as for now Rin doesn't care about soccer or blue lock, the aristos/master in his microcosm is Sae (Isagi only in relation to Sae) and, as in ancient Greece, the aristoi only recognise each other. In this sense, Rin seeks to recognise his own existence in the approval of his master (someone he wants to be equal to) and not in his work (if we're talking materialism, in Marxian thought, work is a means for man to recognise his own existence in the world in a broader sense, Rin really does live in a microcosm, but that can be explained by other factors) using outdated or even archaic means (for the venerative connotation of the term). It's funny that it's during the u20 match that he thinks it's imperative for him to make his mark on history. Even if I doubt Kaneshiro's qualities in this area, I'm still looking forward to seeing Rin's evolution in the quest for his true "ego" or "personal identity"now that he's started it, and he's wondering (I don't believe in these things but it could be interesting).

That said, I apologise for the length (I did try my best to keep it short), grammatical errors, spelling mistakes and inconsistencies. I only hope that I have been sufficiently comprehensible. Thank you for reading if you happen to do so. Have a nice day 😁

woah this was a full on psych thesis. Thanks! It was pretty long but I do enjoy your points and connections. I def agree that to Sae, Rin is still attatched to sub par desires and his recognition means nothing. I wonder if Sae's edginess isn't fully due to trauma but also realizing how futile Rin's way of thinking is. He just doesn't know how to properly explain it without being rude as hell.

#bllk #blue lock #asks #blue lock manga #character examination #Rin itoshi #And no need to apologize!!!

[girlcatullus]

using tumblr as a makeshift diary in 2024

i have been using tumblr as a diary less and less... which saddens me, firstly because well, i am fond of this site (although i am not sure whether it consists of actual affection or it's just a case of stockholm syndrome), and secondly because if i have to be terminally online, i'd rather do some unhinged girlblogging and creating than mindlessly consume empty, meaningless content... this post has no specific direction by the way. i just wanted to say that i hope to leave smoking behind for good in 2024! remember how i quit smoking in june 2023? i went 4 full months without smoking and then i basically peer pressured myself into starting again, which was miserable for the whopping not-even-a-month-and-a-half of me being a smoker again. and even then i didn't smoke as much as i used to. which prompts me to think: how the fuck did i do that? 10+ cigarettes a day is absolutely untenable and it used to be my normal, especially spending all day in uni... during late november/december i basically went through a pack of tobacco, which in the days of my former glory i literally could blaze through in a week/10 days... got sick of it, bought another pack just so i could have social smokes, had social smokes with a friend of mine when she had me over, and then i smoked like. 4 more cigarettes between the 29th and the 31st of december. had my last during nye and threw away all my tobacco gear... and now it's been almost 5 days without a smoke.

i mean i already did the addict "baby's first week without smoking", that grueling, soul-breaking experience of going from 100 to 0 cold turkey... this time is much easier, because i've rarely gone over 5 a day during my nostalgic comeback to cigarettes. and you know what? i do get cravings and i'm a little irritable, but i am also enjoying it because... not feeling some sort of weight on your chest at all times is better than feeling some sort of weight on your chest at all times? and it really helps with the somatic side of anxiety? maybe i've outgrown that taste for mindless, small-but-regular-effort self-destructive behaviour that has accompanied me for all adolescence and early adulthood? if that's the case, then i'm happy. because i've figured out, or at least i want me to figure that out, that i'm still going to be myself, my own brand of weird, even if i don't engage in self-destructive behaviour. which yeah sounds crazy but it's true. i don't need to be depressed and physically struggling to be an artist or an intellectual (in fact, shocker, 2023 has been my most productive, most flourishing year yet when it comes to well, mostly poetry, and i completely owe it to being more stable and not hurting myself all the time). maybe my overarching 2024 resolution is to stop hurting myself all the time? maybe it is. maybe mitski is right and self-acceptance and self-care are way more radical because they are, contrarily to YOUR belief, the hardest path to take.

to a quitter's year, to weird shit, and to a manageable 2024 to you all. :)

#rant #diary entry #yeah this snowballed into a long ass post #if you're a mutual and have read this then i love you :) #also if we're not mutuals. i love you too

[icanseethefuture333]

omg hi, can u do a reading on doja cat please... why whyy was she in those racial in*el chatrooms 😭 do u think she was bullied for being black/biracial when she was younger and bc of her dad not being present or something? ugh and her groomer bf. ugh crazy bc she has so much potential and talent to be even bigger imo. ugh doja 😭😭

This is such a good question because I was just thinking about how much I miss Doja's Hot Pink era 🤔 that was such an exciting time to witness as a fan! Her Scarlet era would of been much more enjoyable for me if she wasn't involved in so many controversies. I used to be a huge fan of her, but Doja's atttiude lately is just plain nasty. To answer your question about my opinion and everything. I believe Doja grew up in the suburbs and most poc can tell you that living in predominantly white spaces it is very racist and you will encounter microaggressions on a daily basis. Doja said that in her youth she didn't really have many friends and her brother would tease her for it. So I believe her feeling the need to turn to the internet and everything for finding a safe space would make sense? People also forget to realize that Doja isn't just a black/biracial girl, she is also neurodivergent. When you're black, alt, queer, have adhd/autism, etc. People are gonna perceive you as "weird" or you don't "belong". So I do think her having a absent father + living around mostly white people could of greatly affected Doja's self asteem. However, I don't believe her past justifies her current actions to this day. I won't dive too deep into someone's personal trauma because it's not my place and it's not something I personally like to do because not only does it make me uncomfortable but it's also unethical and immoral, but I can do my best to do a reading on why... Doja is the way she is.

Doja Cat behind the scenes: Amala

Personality

I think the small bits of her we see on live is really how she as a person behind closed doors. When she's really enjoying herself and being creative, is just how she's always been. Doja could be a "geek" or a "nerd". She has niche little interests that are special to her and gets so excited to talk about it. So for example, if you mentioned an anime she's watching, Doja would like light up like a kid in a candy store. Another thing is I feel like her spirit in general is very youthful? She does have a quirky personality but it's not as extroverted as when she is "Doja". Amala is more of an introvert, in fact, I believe her being in public spaces makes her feel a lot of pressure. Doja is really a "all bark no bite" type of person. Being a troll online gives her the ability to do the stuff she's not confident to do in person. She doesn't really know how to set boundaries as well in person than she does online. "People pleaser". It's really hard for Doja to say no or not entertain people. I also feel like when she is "Doja" her behavior is crazy, unfiltered, blunt, wild, and the life of the party. She becomes a mean girl from a 2000s movie come to life but more unhinged. As Amala though, it's the other way around. She's the nerd and is the one who hopes to impresse all the other "cool kids", even her character Doja. I feel like she actually gets embarrassed sometimes by the things she does for attention. "Why did I say that? Why did I do that?" When it comes being alone and in her own space, it's something she's used to. I genuinely don't even think she has like a close friend or if she does its not that many friends she has. Doja really only has her pets for comfort, security, and protection. I feel that Doja has a lot of inner child wounds that she needs to heal from because there is a lack of balance between this character she portrays herself as and who she really is behind the scenes. I believe it could be causing her some sort of identity complex.

Shy

Introverted

Creative

Youthful

Struggles to set boundaries

Falls into peer pressure easily

Has trouble fitting in or making genuine connections with others

Enjoys artistic hobbies such as painting, makeup, & music

Pets or animals are significant to her, they provide a healing presence

Identity complex issues

Is only aware of her self attributes but not her self concept (I.E: Knows her name, job, likes, dislikes, etc, but does not know what her morals or values are)

Career

The contract she signed was not beneficial to her at all, so Doja Cat is pretty much stuck with it until it is over. Doja Cat began her music career in 2014 and didn't become famous until 2019. So it took a lot of determination and sleepless nights for her to get to the top. She suffered a great deal of anxiety during this time and was over worked by her label, which has caused her to have mental breakdowns in the process. Doja's rise to fame was inevitable due to her ability to portray a duality of being sweet but also spunky. I believe her label wanted her to have this "ingenue" persona, which did attract a lot of money and appealed to a younger fanbase. Doja was sick of this though and felt like her dreams were starting to slip away from her. Doja enjoyed this era and seeing the fruits of her labor come intro fruition, but she knew if she continued to play the role of a "good girl" she would soon fade in with the other female artists in the industry. "I am a grown ass woman and I am not a little girl anymore!". Doja's "Scarlet" era was to create drastic change for herself and others around, it was uncomfortable, but was necessary in her eyes. She feels more confident, mature, and sexy with this new look of hers and does not care if it is received well or not. Doja could have more creative control in career now.

Love life

Doja's song "Addiction" could be an accurate description of her love life. I feel like she suffered from a lot of disappointment and codependency is a pattern within her relationships. Her partners become a "coping method" for her and it's how Doja escapes from the world. I'm almost getting she may suffer past trauma (possible symptoms of PTSD). She could experiences age regression in certain aspects, which unfortunately makes Doja fall victim to abusive or toxic partners. She was vulnerable and has been taken advantage of in her relationships, as well as having her heart getting broken many times. Doja also makes a lot of the wrong decisions whenever she does attract a healthy partnership because of her fear of being hurt or being attached to the wrong person. Self sabotage is a big factor. I also actually don't believe the man she is dating now will be the person she will be with long term. He is more so a reflection of her trauma and she just has been attracting the same person in different fonts. Doja could potentially feel torn between two people she's dated or will be dating. One person is from her past that she rejected and one will be someone new. The person from her past misses her deeply and wishes they could start over. This will be a shock to Doja and not something she will be expecting. They will dote on her and put in a lot of effort to make her happy. They both share similar wounds regarding their parents and could have fear of an abandonment. With this person, Doja could find herself feeling very loving to her partner and wanting to never leave them. She desires to do right by this person and make them happy. I could see her having a baby with them as well, possibly a baby boy? Doja will discover a part of herself that is more nurturing and emotional. They could be a divine counterpart or they will cause a spiritual awakening for her.

Tinychat rumors

So this is silly... but Doja was in those chatrooms because she liked the attention and praise she got lol 💀. People would always praise her and give her compliments, so that's mostly why she was present. I also think Doja Cat was like someone's "discord kitten" if that makes sense 🤣? She had a big crush on someone there (Doja could of even wrote "cyber sex" about them?), but I don't actually believe all of the people in these chatrooms were necessarily racist (which I remember watching videos about this when it happened and Doja wasn't actually the only poc there, there was also a few other poc present, but the one where she was only talking to white people went viral). So were there racists? Yes. Was there incels? Yes. Was that her intention to talk all of these people though? No. She was just crushing on one specific peeson and they would invite her to these chatrooms who were supposedly friends of theirs. So Doja would just hang around to fit in and she has a bad habit of doing shit for validation from others. Which consequently led to the video of her saying the n slur in the chatroom going viral. Mentally I feel she was overwhelmed during this time and was regressing? She literally would behave like a kitten for this person and could tell they were getting bored of her. Now the person Doja crushed on (who I feel was most likely a admin or mod) didn't spew hatred or anything of those things, but he wouldn't speak up to defend any of the poc in those chatrooms. So that would mean yes, they are racist by default because they allowed it to happen. Doja got special treatment in comparison to others though because 1. She was famous 2. The person's "crush" (more like a pet I should say...). As far as it goes for how Doja was treating other poc, she was ignorant about a lot of comments she made and regrets it, she mostly knew stereotypes but didn't actually have the proper knowledge of what's true for other poc (I got a whiff of a stinky scent and I believe that's a sign for her knowing her behavior was really "shitty" and knows that her not knowing better is a bullshit excuse 😭). People literally told her engaging in these chatrooms would be bad for her image and Doja was just really in her delulu phase before shit got real. I feel like someone even came to her house uninvited??? and was like literally stalking her (how scary!). That was when she realized shit got real and it was not a cute little fantasy anymore. Her life could of been in really danger at one point. It took a lot for her PR team to fix this situation and make sure she didn't get canceled or become a flop overnight, as well as having to hire extra security for her.

#doja cat #ask #anon #celebrity readings #amala #tarot #tarot readings #tarot cards

[prowerprojects]

That post actually reminds me about one scene in Zootopia. Basically there was a childhood local bully that the main character got into a confrontation with that did leave a impact on her she didn't completely noticed until she meets the OTHER main character, who was the same species as the bully.

Come years later as an adult, she meets up with said bully again who clearly changed for the better, *is now business partners with her parents and apologized to her, saying he had personal issues to work out. (*This being really big as the parents weren't the biggest fan of the species either until their daughter's optimistic personality made them reconsider.)

__________

For Tails, it depends on how bad the bullies were and deep-rooted this affected him. If it was just the kids/only foxes or something that they got from their parents, were there some trying to befriend him but peer pressure held them? Was it just one village or the entire island? {One has to wonder if there were pre-Sonic travelers that were as nice or just as bad} Would Tails be willing to forgive; or rather start over? Or is the bitterness and anger still there, wanting to "fight back" when it couldn't before? Would he ever set foot on that island ever again?

Oooh I haven't seen Zootopia, but I know who the main characters are, so I think I understand the idea. I wonder how often people actually apologize for bullying. Like that post said, most people probably don't even remember that they were doing anything especially bad.

(Personally I would never want to face my childhood bullies again even if they became the best people in the world. Everyone who manages to make up with theirs is a stronger person than I am)

Anyway, back to Tails. This is really interesting, I think. If you were asking about my specific story, I could give you answers, but in canon, we don't know much. I've seen a lot of people hc that he was shunned from his village and had to survive in the jungle and if other people see him around, they'd beat him up, etc. Meanwhile I have him living with his aunt and cousins, at least, even if they treat him horribly (I already made Cinderella jokes about him before)

In Fleetway, it doesn't seem like there's anything other than verbal abuse. In aosth he gets weird comments, but by that time he's with Sonic already and gets kidnapped by robots on the daily so I'm not sure how to fit that here. In Sonic X, iirc, he gets held back while his invention gets smashed, (and I hate it here). In the scu he's being awfully vague about this whole situation (he does react strongly to people crowding him and calling him a freak).

I thought in the games it was more on the verbal side, too, calling him "Tails", and probably some worse things too. But then we got the Origins cutscene which has the bullies physically assault him by tugging at his tails. So there's that.

He doesn't bring up or reference his past in the actual games, which I actually think is good and in character. Tails doesn't like to talk about his issues, like. Sonic has no idea about his character arc in Adventure or what he was doing or feeling there. He clearly has issues in Colors and Lost World but he expresses them in a horrible roundabout way. Tails had to have a breakdown in Frontiers to actually open up to Sonic (he didn't tell Sonic what happened in Forces either before that). Tails might be more sensitive and emotional person that Sonic and a lot of other characters in the cast, really. But he doesn't like to be perceived as weak. He wants people to rely on him. So it stands to reason he wouldn't be openly sharing his past. I want to note that being bullied isn't an indication of weakness, but I also wouldn't be surprised if Tails doesn't want his friends to pity him. Sonic probably doesn't even know what was actually going on with Tails back there.

So yeah, those are all good questions that you're asking, which we most likely would not get the answers for... well, ever.

Personally I could see Tails being able to start over. (But only with the people who genuinely want to try with him too). He does have a tendency to stew in negative emotions but I don't imagine it's something he enjoys. The bitterness and the anger are probably still there, but I could see him making an effort to put them behind him to get closure. (It's often fun and cathartic to see your fave owning the people who wronged them, and I won't begrudge anyone for it, I just think this is what would make Tails happier)

#tails is a better person than I am #he would not make up with his aunt though that ship has sailed #it was probably just the village. the Island is pretty big I don't think Tails would have moved around that much #sonic #sonic the hedgehog #project.txt #tw bullying #tails #miles tails prower #tails the fox #project.ask

[gayday]

hey, that’s a really rude thing to say about medical transitioning. you have a say in what happens to your body, but you don’t get to call it gross when someone makes a different decision. how would you feel if someone called you gross for NOT having certain surgeries? asking for people to stop making art of it is beyond insulting, art depicts people as they exist. real people exist with top surgery scars. not only is it mean, it also recycles rhetoric that prevents ALL trans people from existing. nobody is glorifying medical transition, it’s only getting harder. if you want more representation of non-medically transitioning trans people, you can say that without dragging down your peers

thats not rly what i mean and it was more off a personal vent than anything so sorry it came off as some kind of attack, thats my fault i was gonna delete it cuz i know i worded it bad but i forgor but whatever ill share my thoughts

i don't like that medical transition is held on this pedestal to be "the only way" and those who don't want it are just an afterthought. It makes me feel alienated by not feeling comfortable with it, i don't like people who treat it like some intrinsic part of being trans, treating it like it's not something thats hard to get!!!!!

just because it's far from glorified in the wider world, doesn't mean it can't be glorified within smaller communities IE online transgender spaces

im not calling people gross for wanting it, idk rly what i was thinking but i think i meant more like, its gross and weird to me when people act like surgeries and medication are the only way to go. + i can think something is gross but that doesn't mean other people can't want it

im not rly asking people to stop drawing it, i know my opinion on it means dogshit nothing, more just an annoyance in that i dislike when people put surgery scars on a character with 0 consideration for what that means and how it affects them, like treating it like its just an accessory to mark a character as "trans"

im not telling people what to do, im telling people to stop telling/pressuring others what to do, even if its subconscious it holds weight, every meme and drawing that implies all trans men get top surgery or use testosterone has an effect

i can have my own opinion and feelings and it's not "preventing trans people from existing", it's about it making people think they should feel bad if it's difficult for them to get and makes them feel bad for not fitting the rest of their group instead of being free to do what they want.

I think it just causes unnecessary grief when you don't encourage people to think twice about what they really want for their transition.

+ i have irl legit trauma with this topic and it makes me feel kinda sick and disgusted so sorry bout not disclosing my trauma when i went to make a personal vent post at 3am

sry i wrote an essay i had a lot to say and didn't want to leave too much room for misinterpretation but there probably still will be cuz im shit at words, just try to look on the surface and not be too pedantic cuz im stupid and don't have the time or brain power to think of a counter argument based on every word in this right now.

#if ur the person i think i remember u r didn't u go on T at like 13

[howlingday]

Setting - Jaune is a stand-up comedian. Yes, again. This time, for his bit, he's asked for customly tailored outfit like his nephew.

Jaune: (Toddles on stage, Crowd applauds) Hello! I'm Adrian! Did you enjoy your quiet intermission from my uncle's funny show? (Crowd cheers) Am I cute? (Crowd cheers) Yeah, yeah, of course I am.

Jaune: But I'm also REALLY racist!

Jaune: Yeah, because all babies, without exception, are racist against anyone that isn't like them. So we come out naturally with a fear of those we don't recognize.

Jaune: And for all the parents out there going, "My babbies not racist!" I'M TALKING SPECIFICALLY TO YOU AND YOUR RACIST FUCKING BABY!

Jaune: But to be fair, it's not like anyone has given me an alternative to this method of thinking. Everybody from the shrines and altars to... Schnee Dust Company ads... They all pretty much reinforce the idea that different means wrong.

Jaune: Which is why I'm ALSO super homophobic! And that's kind of a bummer, because I actually find a couple of boys at my pre-school really cute. I've, uh, even fooled around and held hands with some of them, and everybody's made it pretty clear that's something to be frowned upon.

Jaune: But I also like girls, so I'm probably okay, so long as I, you know, put all my eggs into that basket. Save myself the ridicule of being ostracized by my peers and those above me.

Jaune: Aw, but I'm still learning! Being a little sucker for information~! Just CHWOOOOP! Really get that information and CHWOOOP! Make my own opinions. CHWOOP! CHWOOP! CHWOOP!

Jaune: And I'm not expecting to be, you know, protected from reality, but I do wish people would give me some context for what's going on. Words mean things, right?

Jaune: And words can mean different things for different people, based on that context. Words like, "hope," could bring only despair. "Settlement" might mean, "expansion" to an Atlesian, and "invasion" to a Menagerien. "Gluten" might mean a small selection on a menu of foods we can and cannot eat, and HILARITY for the rest of us!

Jaune: But I'm still a baby, so I'll probably, hopefully, do some compassionate research on these subjects so I can make the right decision on what matters that could affect both my life and the lives of those around me.

Jaune: (Sits down) I don't know... It's... It's too hard, sometimes, you know?

Jaune: (Looks down) I-I just don't know.... You know? I don't...

Jaune: (Sighs)

???: (Fusses)

Jaune: (Snaps his head up)

Jaune: ...Was that a racist baby?

Jaune: ...I didn't plan that. That just worked perfectly. (Chuckles) But it's hard being little, though, isn't it, baby? It's... tricky, and hard, and there's just... a lot going on. CHWOOM! Lot of pressure, and it's on you, and you just... never do enough.

Jaune: I want to be a successful grown-up, like everyone else around me. I want... I want to make my parents proud. I want to be happy. I...

Jaune: (Sniffs) I want to be a good person. Live in a big house with a wife and kids. Work a good job that I like. Because these are things that I was told MAKE a good grown-up, and I want that to be me. So that when I have a kid, they can... they can look up and be proud of me...

Jaune: ...

Jaune: ...I don't want to be one of those cliff jumpers who DON'T have a landing strategy! (Audience laughs)

#rwby #randy feltface #jaune arc

[theizzifromosaka]

Here it is! I'm starting my review series of Monster Girl media, and for the first entry, I'll be reviewing

Monster Musume: Everyday Life with Monster Girls

To be perfectly clear, this review will be foucsed on the Monster Girl aspect of this series. I'm not sure if my opinions on the actual show itself would be worth listening to, I'm not trying to sway anyone one way or another.

Monster Musume follows "Darling-Kun" as he adapts to life with a rapidly growing cast of Demihumans. They learn about Japanese culture, and he finds himself pressured to pursue a relationship with one.

Darling-kun, whose name I don't think we ever learn in the anime, is kind of a weird dude. Throughout the course of the series he sees a LOT of naked girls, and he NEVER gets used to them. Other than that he's mostly just one of those generic anime nice guys, though he's aware the girls like him, unlike most of his peers.

Moving on.

Miia the Lamia

The Classic

The most iconic and recognizable character from this seris, Miia is a Lamia (go figure) with a lot of affection for Darling. She gets jealous easily and can be very clingy but still manages to be one of the most reasonable girls in the roster. She tends to see every new girl as a rival for Darling's affection and at this point you've probably noticed her entire personality revolves around Darling. This is standard for all the girls in this series and any deviation from this is considered strange.

Lamia in Greek mythology was the queen of Libya who, as you do, had children with Zeus and incurred Hera's wrath. Hera killed her children and this drove Lamia to madness, she lived out her days eating children and became monstrous in appearance. The story of Lamia was kinda like the Greek version of the Boogeyman.

I always encourage doing your own research on these topics, and take anything I've said with a grain of salt.

I'll refrain from asking why an apparent reptile has breasts as I could ask that about most Monster Girls, but aside from that, why are her genitals at her waist? They should be at the end of her tail.

Papi the Harpy

God damn it.

Okay, so Papi's name comes from the Japanese pronunciation of Harpy (would be something like Haapi). She's a very childlike adult, which is apparently typical of Harpies. They don't completely physically mature so they're light enough to fly, and she's a "bird brain". She claims to see Darling as a big brother but seems to have no idea what that really means.

Harpies are also Greek, they were birds with features of human women. They were seen as undesirable, ugly and foul and yeah, all the boxes are checked here.

Okay, it's not fair to judge Papi on these terms. We ought to be judging the creator of the series here. Honestly if not for the constant sexualization I probably wouldn't mind her too much.

Centorea the Centaur

Double damn it.

She's one of them warrior women that acts all stoic "but hides the heart of a woman" or whatever. I don't care for her, and unlike with Papi, I think it's her fault this time. I don't like her character, and I don't like her design.

Centaurs, yet again, are Greek in origin. They're half horse half man and are named after Centaurus, the first Centaur. Pop culture depicts Centaurs as being a Warrior Race, probably stemming from Chiron, among the most famous Centaurs in Greek Mythology. It is speculated the image of a Centaur arose from people seeing horse mounted warriors and either misinterpreting what they saw or a Telephone Game effect eventually resulting in what we're familiar with today.

Her design is a perfectly passable Centaur besides her Serious Honkers. Her real set of Badonkers. She's packin some Dobonhonkeros. I'm sure you don't need me invoking a copypasta to tell you she looks ridiculous.

Suu the Slime

Oh baby a triple!

Another child coded character. Suu is a shapeshifter so she doesn't always resemble a child, but her mannerisms are harder to change. Throughout the course of the series she becomes more intelligent and capable, going from a shapeless blob to barely coherent to regularly speaking full sentences. Suu is like... THE Slime Girl too, the first case of the author coming up with a wholly original design.

I'm not actually sure if Suu is the first Slime Girl but her influence can't be ignored. Slime Monsters overall are a pretty recent thing, and hard to track the history of (by that I mean they don't have a Wikipedia article). Their origins can be traced back to many sources, including classic Monster Flick The Blob, the Gray Goo Global Catastrophic Scenario, Tabletop RPGs and Dragon Quest.

(in absence of a Wikipedia article)

Honestly Suu would be cute and endearing if she wasn't subject to so much fanservice. Her personality, as it develops, is very childlike, with no sense of tact and little in the way of a filter. In this case I think I'd prefer it if they made her MORE childlike, and I wouldn't mind one bit if she remained a shapeless blob the whole time.

Mero the Mermaid

it was Big! Scary! and PINK!

Mermaids in this universe romanticize tragedy, and that ends up being one of Mero's most defining features. She states outright to ease Miia's worries that she does not want to marry Darling, she just wants to be his mistress. She's very soft-spoken but occasionally says some weird things.

So Mermaids have a lot of history and multiple origins, ranging from Greek Sirens to misidentified Manatees to just disoriented pent-up sailors seeing a Thicc Fish. The story of The Little Mermaid is very influential, and the in universe reason given to why Merfolk romanticize tragedy so heavily.

Honestly Mero might be my favorite of the main cast, her taxonomy is vague, she states that her skin secretes mucus, she's got tiny little arms on her hips, and in the 11th episode she tries to drown Darling, which if you ask me makes her best girl by default. I lament that most of the time she just looks like a girl in a wheelchair, and I also have to mention the fin ears.

Rachnera the Arachne

Not so itsy-bitsy

Rachnera is perhaps one of the most fleshed out characters in the show, she has a backstory and is capable of a range of emotions. That said most of the time she's just horny. Her initial foster family greatly disliked her but tried to "put up" with her, and after an incident resulting in their daughter being injured they sold her to a shady man who wanted to sell her silk on the black market. She starts off not exactly fond of humans but in typical fashion a single interaction with the main character all but changes her opinion.

The Greek story of Arachne is about a woman who challenged the Gods and was turned into a spider by Athena. She won by the way, the moral of the story is the Gods are jerks I guess.

This girl is a mixed bag. On one hand she has motivations that don't involve the main character, but on the other hand she very quickly becomes a vessel for bondage fetish pandering. As for her design, I like her eyes, it's a bit overdone to represent spider eyes like this but that's for good reason. I also don't really like how if you erase her human parts you're left with kind of a dumb looking spider. Overall I'd rank her pretty low, but not the worst.

Lala the Dullahan

So no head?

Lala is only in the show for about one and a half episodes, plus gets some screentime in the OVAs. She's a Chuunibyou who claims herself to be Death and gives the rest of the cast quite the spook.

The Dullahan is from Irish mythology, originally referring to any headless spirit, but eventually invoking a Headless Horseman, said to use a human spine as a whip. The image of a Headless Horseman can actually be found in various parts of Europe, and even in the Americas thanks to The Legend of Sleepy Hollow, which is apparently where the Jack-O-Lantern head thing comes from.

This is probably gonna be a recurring point of friction throughout this review series but you can't just paint a girl blue and call her a monster. Given the monster she's supposed to represent in this case I suppose I can't fault them too much, but in my opinion painting her blue somehow makes the design feel MORE lazy. Other than that I could criticize her inaccurate scythe for not having grips but that seems to be an anime thing.

Overall I'd say this series has surprisingly competent worldbuilding, reason is given to why most of the infrastructure doesn't accommodate demihumans and, though shallow, the different cultural origins of the girls play a part in how they interact with Darling and each other. That said the girls' designs are all very safe and same-y, with the most out there design being Polt, a character that only shows up in one of the OVAs. If I had to pick a favorite from the main cast though, it would have to be Mero. Her little arms really sell her design for me, and her gimmick of wanting to live out a tragedy actually got a chuckle or two out of me.

Overall, would I recommend this series? It depends. If you're a fellow Monster Girl Connoisseur then the sheer influence of this series earns it a watch, and if you're the kind of person that enjoys a good hate watch, or if you like ecchi (no judging) then you could probably get some enjoyment out of it. Outside of those spheres, nah it's not worth it.

Next review:

#Monster Girl Reviews #monster girls #Monster Musume #Lamia #Harpy #Centaur #Slime #Mermaid #Spider #Dullahan

[if-loki-was-a-fox]

Here's some Exile AU Peer Pressure Duo rambling bc I haven't said any of this on Tumblr yet — CW for references to abuse, manipulation, trauma, and general unhealthy relationship and Exile Arc stuff

(as always, thank you to @proudfreakmetarusonniku for helping me come up with this AU and a lot of this stuff specifically)

So when exile!Dream discovers exile!Tommy's attempt to hide stuff from him and blows up Logstedshire, he also chops of exile!Ranboo's tail to make the punishment even greater.

e!Tommy, finally realizing that e!Dream isn't their friend (something e!Ranboo still doesn't realize btw) and being unable to properly take care of e!Ranboo's injuries, tells e!Ranboo to run and find e!Techno's cabin, hoping that e!Techno will take care of e!Ranboo and e!Dream won't care enough about losing only on of them to go after e!Ranboo.

So e!Ranboo is badly injured and just generally not doing great after ages in exile, losing their tail, and then running through the tundra in old tattered cloths, so after they pass out on e!Techno's porch they're unconscious/barley conscious for days while e!Techno (and probably e!Phil too) nurse them back to health.

e!Ranboo has no real memories of L'Manburg and hasn't for a while at this point, and by the time they recover from their injuries they don't remember a whole lot about Exile either (esp not with how traumatic the whole thing was). They do however, still have a lot of conditioning left over and a very messed up view on what friendship looks like thanks to what e!Dream taught them. (e!Ranboo absolutely starts trying to figure out what e!Techno wants and likes and doing that and only that to avoid punishment as soon as they wake up, given that they think that's just how relationships work)

So in canon DSMP c!Ranboo has a tendency to use gifts as their main friendship gesture (see, giving c!Timmy alliums, giving c!EmDuo gifts their first or second day in the tundra, and giving c!Techno the ax). This is exacerbated with exile!Ranboo.

For as long as e!Ranboo can remember, one of his two best friends would come by every couple days and take all the stuff he made in the meantime. As such, e!Ranboo thinks they don't deserve to own things and that it's a normal give up all their stuff to e!Techno, the actual owner of all their things. e!Ranboo basically repeats the "put your items in the hole" by giving e!Techno their stuff frequently and getting anxious when they have stuff for too long, something e!Techno doesn't initially pick up on and recognize as abnormal or a trauma thing (he's just overwhelmed by the excessive "affection" and unsure how to emotionally process it).

(One day, e!Techno makes a comment on this behavior and e!Ranboo reacts badly thinking they did something wrong, which is when e!Techno finally realizes that this is Not Normal.)

Also, an important context on e!Techno's part: e!Techno is initially very oblivious to e!Ranboo's trauma, but even as he starts to slowly uncover stuff about e!Ranboo's trauma and abuse, he assumes it comes from L'Manburg, given that L'Manburg is, in his eyes, the Corrupt Evil Government that exiled e!Ranboo and e!Tommy (innocent kids) and tried to execute e!Techno in front of e!Philza. On top of that, what little e!Ranboo does remember of Exile is that e!Dream was his friend, so why would e!Techno ever even consider that e!Dream abused them?

(anyways, if you couldn't tell already, this is very much an Angst/Horror type of AU. e!Techno here is very well set up to side fully with e!Dream against L'Manburg and generally be easily manipulated by him on an ongoing basis. There's a non-zero chance this AU ends with e!Dream getting his really messed up Big Happy Family that he so wants.)

#ranboo exile au #exiled ranboo au #also to clarify my characterkzation of e!Dream is heavily based on Metaru's characterization of c!Dream #manipulation #manipulation tw #abuse #abuse tw #trauma #cdream #endersmile duo #peer pressure duo #cranboo #ranboo #ctechno #technoblade #rambling about blorbos

[ideks-on-mars]

hello i am back with another request !! can you expand on your trans shirabu headcanon bc my period started and i am feeling very not good

I'VE BEEN WAITIN FOR THIS ONE 🤧

I will absolutely drown all of you in my Trans Shirabu hcs, I have had this hc since the minute I saw this little fucker

I love your requests, they give me excuses to scream about my favorite characters 💀

ANYWAYS TRANS SHIRABU HCS LETS GO

- Let's start from the beginning

- It started when he was fairly young

- Seeing his brothers play and have the time of their lives seemed so much fun. But when HE wanted to join them he was told to act like "a lady".

- So from an early age he was like "wtf I don't wanna be a lady this shit sucks" and honestly he's not wrong 💀

- He confronted his older sister on the situation first.

- She listened to him and was pretty understanding. She was a lady. She understood.

- "Well I personally have no idea what to tell you but maybe we could look something up."

- The internet is a wonderful place

- "What is a 'transgender'?" "Idk click the thingy"

- They clicked the thingy.

- Ik I'm not the only one who Googled the " I am gay?" quiz. I know I'm not-

- Kenjirō woke up the next day determined to be a new man.

- Everyone did notice how he was acting a little differently. Wearing different clothes, wanting his hair cut shorter and shorter each time. He'd take matters into his own hands if he didn't get the length he wanted and God forbid that ever happen.

- Local big sister was proud.

- Local big brother and little brother were confused but still like "fuck it, ok".

- Local childhood bestfriend Taichi was like "Ok what's going on"

- "It's nothing!" "I know it's not nothing. You're not even looking at me, you're looking at the ground."

- Kenjirō gave in eventually.

- "Fine. Taichi, I think I'm a boy." "Oh..cool."

( I do not want to hear comments about "Oh he peer pressured him into telling him" like yes. He did. That's what little children do 💀)

- Taichi started calling him K from then on.

- It was very special to Kenjirō and to this day he thinks it was a very big part of his transition.

- By the time he was 13 he had already played it off for such a long time. And his father was on trial for numerous reasons. Everyone in the family knew he was going to prison and they also knew that their family rep would be in tatters. Not that they cared. They just wanted the evil man gone.

- This is when he came out to him mom.

- " Momma?" "Hm?" "I'm a boy." "I know." "You what 😃"

- She continues to go onto a rant on how it was pretty obvious. Kenjirō actually thought it was pretty funny.

- "So you need a new name I'm guessing. What is it?" "Well I was gonna ask you for your opinion."

- She goes on to say that it wasn't her place to say and that she didn't even really have a say in his old name so it didn't affect her much.

- They gave ideas, and they settled on ✨️Kenjirō✨️

- His sister was so so SO proud of him. So was Taichi.

- His brothers were pretty much like "fuck yeah, we got another brother"

- However when school came along and his classmates see one of their peers just randomly turn into a boy, not everyone is gonna be mice about it.

- He got shouted at in the hallway. Some people threw their old papers at him. People are just dicks.

- Luckily, his school was a pretty nice place with good staffing. They provided him a new uniform. And instead of the girls volleyball team, he was put on the boy's volleyball team. The boys team were just glad they had such a good setter. In their eyes he was just like the rest of them. He was a boy, and he was skilled. This is an important aspect to their team and if you were mean to him then they would rain hellfire on you.

- He went to a different middle school than Taichi so when Taichi heard these stories he would be pretty pissed off but hearing that the volleyball team was cool he felt a bit relieved.

- So when Taichi got a Shiratorizawa scholarship, Kenjirō knew they "Yeah, I gotta go there with bestie"

- He got there through the entrance exam, like a king 🙄💅

- And of course, he attended the try outs with Taichi. The mf is just built different.

- Evil coach Washijō already knew about Kenjirō's situation and was highly skeptical. But when it hit him in the face that Kenjirō was not only skilled, but smarter than all these dumbasses running around his court. He realized he was his best bet when it came to good plays. Kenjirō was on board.

- Taichi made it too, wooooo 🥳

- However when it came to changing Kenjirō was like "nah" and changed in the bathroom. He didn't want people to question his binder.

- But he thought it was a little sus how Yamagata was heading towards the bathroom too. 🤨 Yamagata spoke up first.

- "So...where are you headed?" "To the bathroom..to change."

- They stared at each other for a good 5 seconds. Kenjirō just said Yolo and looked around to make sure no one else was around before he whispered

- "I'm trans"

- "BITCH ME TOO!"

- Kenjirō had never been more thankful to have someone in his situation cuz Hayato was not afraid of being open at ALL.

- They regularly borrow essentials from one another. They become close rather quick.

- Hayato keeps his secret for him. He understands better than anyone how it can be.

- Hayato is also a good source of advice too. He's a real one for sure.

- Now, let's talk about the one that should not be named. THE WEEK OF HELL.

- Kenjirō's SUCKS. Like it's out for his throat. He's pretty sure his body wants him to curl up into a ball and cry in the middle of practice.

- He brings pain relief medicine but he always takes it late so he has to wait those 10-15 minutes for it to kick in and they always feel like hours. Like damn could the clock move faster.

- Taichi definitely buys him a heating pad for when he's not at practice or school, so he can feel at ease in the dorms.

- He has his emergency bag (I think we all know what the emergency bag is) and if not then Hayato has his and is happy to cover for him.

- Once he came out to the team he honestly felt a lot better. Like they all understood the struggles he had but at the same time didn't treat him any differently.

- However, when word got out that he was Trans, that's when shit started getting a bit out of hand.

- People wouldn't go crazy but people would be like "Why is he even on the team?" "Is that allowed?" Just little things

- It started getting really bad when dudes would harass him. Things like comments on his body, or telling him that he had such a pretty face. But when he ultimately made it clear that he wanted nothing to do with them is when they would start saying shit like "Oh, he's probably only on the team because he let's the whole squad have a go at him 🙄" that's when it started going downhill.

- People even started to come for Semi because he was replaced by a "fake boy".

- He never let anything show, but some things really did keep him up at night if he's honest.

- But the people who were nice to him really overshadowed that.

- Little things like "Man, you're really brave" or "That must be tough, good for him". Even other kids coming up to him who are questioning themselves and asking him for some advice.

- It's lowkey very special to him.

- As he gets older the more he let's things go and he's really not scared to express himself. He's a boy, he was always a boy, and he will continue on to be a boy.

- He ends up getting top surgery not too long after he graduates from med school. However he doesn't get surgery down there because if he's honest it scares him. (Which is completely ok!)

- He's very happy with his body. He's surrounded by lovely people. And he's just completely content.

- I love him sm 🤧

#haikyuu!! #shiratorizawa #stzw #shirabu kenjirou #shirabu kenjirō #transgender #Trans! Shirabu

[the-reaplet]

So also like Salsa if you're interested who is Scourge? That green hedgehog guy everyone wants Zonic the zone cop to smooch (also is zonic a guy? Like a human?)

Thank you for your patience, Anon. First of all, Zonic isn't a human, but he is indeed a guy. He's a hedgehog, just like normal Sonic. Now as for your main question.

OH BOY HERE WE GO AGAIN!

First thing's first, I am not gonna go over the IRL drama that involves his original creator, Ken Penders. And I'm not really gonna talk about Ian Flynn either. That kind of drama is really something I couldn't care less about. I have 0 opinion on Ian Flynn's writing style for characters, and I just dislike Ken Penders in general.

Now! The big question! Who is Scourge? To answer that, we need to talk about Evil Sonic.

Scourge was a true blue "evil" version of the normal Sonic we all know and love. I say evil in quotes because back in the day when he wasn't green, he was a really lame villain. That is, if he was trying to be evil, he didn't really put his all into it. There is something to be said that maybe Evil Sonic never really wanted to be evil, and I subscribe to the theory that he was a bad guy due to peer pressure. Now, "Evil Sonic" (or Anti-Sonic) is from the Reverse World, where Bad Guys were Good Guy and Good Guys were Bad Guys. He led a group called the Suppression Squad (the Anti-Freedom Fighters), and he sought out to be king of his world. He was eventually arrested by Sonic Prime and Zonic the Zone Cop.

Fast Forward! Anti-Sonic had since escaped from jail. One day he teams up with Rouge the Bat and they go after the Master Emerald, which was guarded by Knuckles's father Locke. (Don't ask me about him, all I know is that no one really likes Locke because he's a bad dad.) Now, that day was Sonic's Birthday. Which means it was also Anti-Sonic's Birthday. So, to celebrate, he decided that he deserved a treat. He betrayed Rouge (who was already planning on betraying him so it's whatevs) and gave himself a power boost with the Master Emerald. The results being that he turned into the Mean Green Machine we know him as today.

Now, this is purely conjecture, and I have little to no proof of it, but I think that the Chaos Energy he absorbed affected him mentally. I think it drove him off the deep end. After being attacked by Locke, thus gaining his chest scars, he decided he was no longer just a copy of Sonic the Hedgehog. He gave himself a new name. Scourge. From then on, he was vicious. He was much more aggressive and a threat than ever before. And could've been downright lethal if the writers had the guts to show him killing people on-screen.

(One thing to note is that at some point, Scourge sneaks into Sonic's parents' home at night to get the jump on our hero, and he was confronted by his father. From there, we are given a piece of Scourge's past. His own father was a big time politician who was neglectful at best to his son. Scourge says that his father "just isn't", which implies a multitude of things. Some think he's dead, others think this was a comment on how he just wasn't a dad for Scourge. It's left vague, but this story seems to show that Scourge associates Peace with his father's neglect, making him bitter toward the idea of it.)

He was once again arrested later on, and the next time we see him, he's been the punching bag of the No Zone Prison. He was fitted with an inhibitor collar that took away his powers, his quills were shaven, and the Warden, Zobotnik, was putting him through "aggressive rehabilitation". He was having a horrible time. But, his girlfriend, Fiona Fox (who honestly deserved better than how the prime Freedom Fighters treated her), got a group together and busted him out. The last time we see him, he's returned to his home world, and Zonic notes that he could only hope he stays there.

hAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH. Hope that answers the question of who Scourge is. He's a really fascinating character, and I recommend you do your own research on him.

#ask the bean #salsa speaks #scourge the hedgehog #the skrunkly #anon really knows how to activate me kekw #lemme know if you have other questions #always happy to answer #bit of a #long post

[cartoonsaint]

i got a very sweet ask the other day with an anon's thoughts on my fics (presumably in response to my tags on this post) and i wanted to say thank you, that's really kind TToTT i'm no good at responding intelligently to people being sweet about my stuff but i appreciate it a lot, that kind of thing is a big boost for me. thanks for letting me know you've enjoyed <3

i am sorry if i made it seem like my issue was just w not getting comments or something; i understand when people have difficulty with that kind of thing, i also struggle with it. i actually just did a run of comments that i only just realized i've been putting off for, oh, six whole months, and i've got [REDACTED BUT EMBARRASSING NUMBER INDICATING MY INABILITY TO RESPOND TO THINGS IN A TIMELY MANNER] messages in my ao3 inbox i ought to get to so like: i get it. i tend to assume other people are also doing their best, focus on the comments people do leave, and try not to worry about ~the comments people don't leave~ too much.

but i do have a bit of an issue when people talk about fics with other people but don't leave comments on the fic itself, and that post shows that other fic writers experience the same thing. like the first time i rly grokked that people actually liked what i was writing wasn't from comments, it was from an artist i follow here on tumblr who brought up and complimented my fic on their blog... but hadn't left a comment on the fic itself. if i hadn't been on tumblr and following them, i'd have never known that someone had those particular thoughts about my writing, nor that they were coming from someone whose own art i respect.

idk. i don't wanna call it "life-changing," but it definitely was life-shifting to realize that people were reading my stuff and thinking about it, they just weren't using ao3's avenues to share those thoughts. i responded to that by 1) trying to get more involved with ~fandom spaces~, namely discord (i'm pretty bad at it, esp w individual messages, but i like to leave reactions on things in servers sometimes!) bc that seems to feel lower pressure to some folks if they want to let writers know their thoughts, and 2) putting in more effort to make sure i leave comments on ao3, too, bc if someone's writing affected me or made me think then i'd like to let them know.

i wasn't involved with livejournal (and only barely with ff.net) so i can't really speak to how things have changed, but i have come across the above behavior a number of times w my own work, and in discord groups i sometimes see people talking excitedly about others' fics but when i go to leave a (late) comment on ao3 i find few or none of them have commented. as someone who came to fan spaces pretty late, i find it odd-- it seems to me like one of the major boons of fanfiction is that the reader and author are peers who have the same level of ownership of the characters (i.e., essentially none) so can chat about it as equals.

like, we're all in the same mud pit playing with the same dolls. come on over, let me know how you feel about how i cut my barbie's hair, i'll tell you what i like about how you gave yours cat ears. oh, you used a hot glue gun on em to make em stick? that's awesome, i never would have thought to do that, how'd you avoid melting her hair? LOVE that you dressed her in the outfit from this other barbie, it looks so good! oh, you don't have a barbie yourself but you've been watching me act out a dramatic love confession between my two dolls and you're kinda invested? i wasn't planning on doing more w that storyline, but if you like it i can probably take another look; come on into the mud pit, come hang out.

i dunno. it's just something i've been thinking about lately. i've got no control over what other people do, but i do try to correct this kind of stuff personally when i see it, and i hope you all take the opportunity to do the same when you can. leave a comment on someone's work. let em know how their work made you feel, what meshes well with canon or your interpretation of it, what surprised you or made you laugh. it takes a few minutes but can mean the world to the weirdos spending hours of their time writing a story to share with you :)

#i'm NOT saying give ME a comment-- best case scenario someone reads this and gives a comment to someone ELSE #this applies to fanart and other fancontent too; if there's something specific u like about a piece and you've got the time let em know #i stick stuff in my drafts/q and go through periodically to add to the tags things that stick out to me #esp in a ~fandom i'm active in #like i love to see content for this. love to not have to be the one to make it. would love to encourage that #saint talks #long post #eh maybe #misc

[stinkyme]

Helloooo Stinky, how are you??

Hopefully you enjoyed your weekend and relaxed a bit! ❤️

I just discovered that after work, people can just disconnect!? Like they don't think about everything that happened and what else shit needs to be done. LIKE HOW CAN THEY PLS, I WANNA KNOW 😭😭

(lol, I know I'm an overthinking mess but I didn't realise that it's THAT BAD).

However I felt like shit these days and my only thoughts were about work and overstressing about a lot of issues, so I'm back at my need for fluff and comfort from the one and only Chuuya (where's this man when you need him, istg he's the only one I need)

I'm really snappy because I'm stressed out and I can't sleep properly or I wake up having nightmares about work. Imagine just telling this mf that I wake up at 6 am because I remember smthg that needs to be done at work. He'd get angry, not at me but at the job. He would have beef with all the managers I have at work. I think that at first he'd be annoyed but seeing it impacts a lot of his s/o life, and seeing her spiraling all over again he'd get concerned. Like really concerned.

"Doll, that's really not good for you, you can't keep going on like that"

He'd try he's best to understand why she can't unwind (good luck boy neither me nor my therapist can understand why I can't unplug after work).

Then he'd just start doing all sorts of things to get her out of the house and change environments. He'd keep reminding me "love, it's just a job, you can change it whenever you want". He'd give a lot of hugs and would stress a lot if sent out on a mission for more than one day and have to leave her alone.

(he's burning the place down for sure)

I'll probably spam you in the next few days with scenarios or ideas about this which come to my mind so I'm sorry in advance.

no need to apologize, feel free to send me anything! :D

I hope your weekend was good as well and that you were able to relax a little bit from everything that has been going on :) <3

I realized my reply will be long, so I will put read more LOL

LOLOL, as for work yeah, I used to be like that too, waking up and sweating myself over stuff, literally my mind was flooded with work 24/7 and constant anxiety as to what will happen. The thing is once you start working in more stable environment it's a bit easier to chill afterwards. Stuff will still happen, but it won't affect you as much because it won't be pure peer pressure on you only. So, I hope you will be able to find a place like that and slowly learn to disconnect and unwind. Job is job, it's something that ends once your shift is done, period. No need to let it exhaust you when you are not there, you deserve to have a chill time afterwards. Finding ways to unwind and relax, get out of your head is very important. Through walking, cooking, art - whatever you are able to do :) You can't unplug most likely because of a control issue. There is a belief that the more you think about it - the more in control you are, which you are not. Just let those thoughts pass like little leafs in the water and keep reminding yourself that you do not need control over work while at home :)

that's very true about chuuya!! he would also help you to find healthier ways to let out all the stress and anxiety after work and remind you how important rest is. Because if you are "resting" but worrying the whole time - it's not really rest at all. So, he would find some ways...maybe book you a spa day or make one at home, give you a nice massage, keep you occupied with movies or cooking or something like that! Before bed, he would make sure he cuddles you and gently takes care of you so you fall asleep first and he would deeefinitely have beef with your work place, probably giving them bad reviews while you are asleep and cussing them out in the comments LMAOO

#stinkyanswers #chuuya lover <3 #i hope you have been doing a bit better!! sending you lots of love and hugs :) <333 #and chuuya would take great care of you he told me btw :3 <3 #me and him are on our way to burn your workplace as we speak