#and also if im mathing this right and i read as much as i expect kyself to

[straykats]

okay reading again is making me very happy but also a little stressed when im not reading bc im not in that state of like. detachment. like. im in the here and now and not ... idk, lost to time and place and enjoying myself??

#im rereading chain of gold and iron before i read chain of thorns #i need maximum emotional impact #and also if im mathing this right and i read as much as i expect kyself to #i'll be able to read chain of thorns on my days off so i wont be at work waiting to read #ie im hoping to read all 3 books before next thursday

[jbird-the-manwich]

What are you most proud of this year?

oOo that's a hard one. maybe my grimoire system. I did write a file format and a handful of text parsers for it, and I've not designed a memory optimized data format with a functioning import/export entirely from scratch before, so I guess that counts as a milestone!

Also, not as polished, but the last few nights between sleeps and sickliness ive been working on learning the 6502 architecture, and so far my first from-scratch project is a geomancy chart generator targeting the Nintendo, - it's damn near finished, though this is all that's visible from where I left off last night, I do now have a functional (if vram buffer agnostic atm) interface and input system. the underlying code is based on the algorithm Agrippa detailed in Of Geomancy, rather than the usual and computationally very different "init a pseudo random from system time and thats it, thats the program" approach generally employed in divination through digital means - and I feel like that might be the bug in the soup that is digital divination - that it is simply not in general implemented in software in a way that accurately models the process. But with the right algorithm im confident this can be changed >:] also lookit these cute ass graphics:

I've developed a lot of theories over the years about digital divination and how it might suck less. this has lead to designing and now, implementing, a lot of new algorithms that are computationally just plumb off the wall. but as math and low level programming goes, it doesn't get lower stakes than my silly little pseudoscience, so, that's been hugely fun and very good for the winter blues.

I'm also still very much in the design phase for it, I have a few ideas for implementation, but once I have more software ready *to* test, I'd like to integrate quantum randoms and see if that alters the subjective "correctness" of the readings I subject myself to. I expect it won't, but I could be very wrong, and while my first experiments will likely feature QRNG devised by reading noise across a busy internal circuit, I do have to admit there is something very compelling to the idea of using a light sensor to grab ambient photons as raw data for true randoms that are processed and presented by software but originate from outside the system itself, shaped and altered by external circumstance *before* reaching the system, rather than being the result of a purely deterministic, and often repeatable or otherwise low quality number generator, usually one that ships with the standard library, and which is the whole backend of most divination apps but is where the least design effort seems to occur.

sorry for the book lol I guess I've a lot to talk about!!! <3

[ch3rryc4ndy]

Only Way Pt. 3

Relationship - haechan soft!dom x fem reader

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Summary - barley passing math class, Your mom

insists on getting you a tutor. She ensures you her best

friend's son which you've had an irritating past with

would be the perfect fit for you. After a few sessions he

learns of a way to motivate you like no other tutor

could.

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Warnings - 18+ MINORS DNI. Includes language !

Masterlist

My date with hyuck was perfect. We went to a coffee shop near my house and learned a lot about each other. He’s way more caring than I expected, I can tell he loves physical contact I guess that’s his love language. we haven’t got to see each other in a few days due to the over flow of work we both got but sooner or later we’d see each other again.

I walk out of math anxiously as I just turned in my math exam . Our professor would be giving us our grades in a few days so all I can do is wait in agony… I hope I pass this exam I want to get my first A in math EVER. I’ve gotten A’s in all tests and exams expect math…

My phone dings notifying me that Karina just finished class. I look down at my phone in confusion as I see haechans name pop up “ hey y/n it’s haechan, how’d the test go ? “ I read as I roll my eyes in a chuckle “ good, well I think I did good but who knows…I said that the last time. Also how did you get my number? Why are you in my contacts? “ I reply. “ Karina helped me with that “ he reply’s.

After our last session I honestly got motivation from his proposition but quickly lost all of it after I realized it’s really just sex…I mean what if he’s bad ? Just because he knows how to use that tongue of his doesn’t mean he knows how to fuck. Also I shouldn’t let sex motivate me to do well, I should be doing that on my own!

“ hey babe “ I hear Karina squeal from behind me “ hey rina, how did you get haechans number into my phone?“ I ask “ oh he told you that… well I ran into him while I was buying you some coffee and I got his number for you since I know you aren’t one to ask. Once I met you after that I put his contact in your phone and didn’t worry about it since you never check any of you contacts” she smiles “ weird much “ I chuckle as we hug each other tightly “ you are welcome my dearest y/n” Karina coos “ come over babe I have so much to tell you “ I say as she drags me along. “ of course, tell me all about that sexy tutor of yours “ she winks.

We make it back to my place and to my relief see no one’s home “ I’ll be right up babe I’m going to get some snacks “ Karina hums as I make my way up stairs. I hear my phone ring and see hyucks number calling “ hello ? “ I reply “ can I come over right now ? “ hyuck asks eagerly “ I’m sorry haechan Karina is over right now and I want to spend some time with her alone, we can hang out tomorrow if you want.” I sigh.“ Y/N TELL ME ABOUT THAT HAECHAN “ Karina yells out as she bursts into my room.

“ bye hyuck I’ll see you tomorrow- or text me if you want to “ I blurt out and hanging up the phone. “ KARINA I WAS ON A CALL WITH HIM “ I yell as I feel myself get red from embarrassment “ oh and how was I supposed to know that? “ she replies with her arms crossed.

“ sooo how is he “ she coos as we lay on the bed “ he’s kind of too good to be true….. There’s something he’s hiding for sure I’ve never met a guy like that “ I reply “ oh you need to stop being so paranoid, he isn’t like jeno y/n… he won’t treat you the way he did” Karina sighs “ and how do you know that? He was friends with jeno, what if he’s just lying to me to prove a point to jeno “ i mutter out as I start to feel convinced by my own paranoia.

“ y/n what motive? What point would he prove? Stop over thinking this “ she reply’s slightly agitated “ oh jeno would gladly do something like this, stop acting like he wouldn’t “ I chuckle “ I’m not saying jeno wouldn’t do this but why would haechan? He has no reason to do any of that “ she replies “ I don’t know….im sure many people want to please jeno for his status or money I mean he buys all his friends so much stuff who says haechan isn’t doing it for that “ I sigh

“ y/n stop it! Enough of this negative talk, tell me the good! How is it when you’re with him” she groans “ I didn’t tell you but we made out and he gave me head “ I say nonchalantly “ WHAT??!!l Karina yells loudly “ AND YOU DIDNT TELL ME THIS BECAUSE?” She says as she smacks my arm “ ow! “ I laugh out as she sits there mad.

“ so you guys didn’t actually fuck right “ she asks “ no….he said if I passed my next exam he would reward me, it kinda motivated me but now I’m realizing it’s just sex and that shouldn’t motivate me “ I reply “ well that would’ve gave me a lot of motivation “ Karina chuckles “ but was he good? “ she asks as she winks “ oh he amazing…… I’ve never came that quickly, not even with myself “ I groan

“ looks like my girl finally found someone to spend time with “ Karina chuckles as she hugs me “ I think he’s a good person y/n, I did my research and I didn’t see anything bad on him. He’s only dated one person and he got cheated on so I guess both of you just need someone to genuinely love “ she sighs “ I don’t do love Karina you now that “ I reply

“ sureee y/n “ Karina hums “ I’m serious “ I reply with my arms crossed “ and look who's calling “ Karina coos as my phone rings and haechan’s name pops up on my screen “ it’s fine he can wait “ I reply as I see Karina grabbing  my phone quickly from my hands “ GIVE IT BACK “ I yell as she gets off the bed and runs into the bathroom “ please Rina don’t say anything weird “ I plead as I hear her talking in that tone she uses when she’s up to no good.

- haechan pov -

“ hey haechannn y/n’s been telling me so much about you but be honest with me, do you like her in a I want to fuck her or I want to love her kinda way “ I hear Karina blurt out “ I- hi karina “  I respond “ so are you going to answer “ she groans “ KARINA IM NOT PLAYING GIVE ME MY PHONE “ I hear y/n’s muffled yells threw the phone

“ Both if I'm being honest “ I reply in a smile “ good, she’s a little hesitant with you for reasons that will probably hurt that ego of yours but if you hurt her you will not see the last of me “ she threatens “ what would hurt my ego “ I scoff  “ well y/n is worried you’ll suck in bed or even using her to get back at jeno or something, I know y/n has a lot in the little mind of hers she's quite the over thinker “ karina replies.

y/n thinks I wouldn’t satisfy her? I don’t blame her for thinking that honestly, it just makes me want to do the job right even more. Why would she think I’d use her? FOR JENO? That son of a bitch? I have respect for her and myself to not be in the same vicinity as jeno. “ she can think what she wants about me in bed she’ll be finding sooner or later. Also I would never use anyone to get back or prove a point, y/n is the first person to treat me like a person “ I sigh. A high pitched squeal echos through the phone “ Karina please “ y/ns voice echos “ well it was nice talking to you haechan, please treat her well “ Karina giggles.

- y/n pov -

I hear Karina unlocking the door as I stand in-front of my bathroom door with my arms crossed. “ I approve of that one“ karina chuckles as she hands me my phone and lays back on the bed “ what did you say…” I reply in a sigh “ nothing that you haven’t said already, don’t worry!! “ she replies in a smile “fine” I sigh “ I can’t be mad at you “ I laugh as I hug her “ you better have not said anything crazy….I couldn’t really hear you it sounded like you were whispering or something “ I reply

“ oh I was, you DONT need to hear my conversations “ she giggles “ rina….I have a feeling you said something crazy” I sigh “ mmmh maybe but let’s watching the movie “ she groans.

- time skip -

It’s been a few days since Karina coming over and I’ve been bombarded with messages of haechan pleading to come over, I don’t know why I’ve been making excuses when in reality I wanted to see him and always stayed home I had no reason to lie lied on why I couldn’t see him in person.

“ mom Im home “ I blurt out as I walk into the kitchen “ hey honey I just finished up making some food for you since I know you’ve been working hard on that test of yours, have you gotten your results? “ she asks “ they came in today but I’ve been too scared to open them “ I chuckle nervously “ come on honey open them! “ she replies as makes her way towards me “ ok…” I sigh. I unlock my phone and go to my class grades “ I GOT A 98% “ I squeal as my mom pulls me into a hug “ WE HAVE TO CELEBRATE! let me call jaz to thank haechan for helping you “

“ there’s no need to mom “ I reply nervously “ JAZ y/n passed her exam CAN YOU BELIEVE IT! A 98%! “ she squeals “ yes yes come over “ she adds “ mom no Can we just celebrate on our own “ I whisper but my pleads go unheard “ ok see you soon! “

“ I’ll be back I need to go get some more bottles of wine, open the door when jaz and haechan get here okay” she smiles as she grabs her things to head out. “ ok mom” i smile waiting for her to step out of the house. As soon as she closes the door I run upstairs and throw all my mess into my closet and trying my best to look as clean and organized as I could. I grab a black mesh dress and some Dior pumps, throwing it on and straightening my hair as fast as possible. I feel myself start to sweat and run towards my deodorant and perfume spraying on my neck and wrists.

“ make up make up “ I mutter as I look around my room for my small bag of makeup “ AH “ I yell as I place it on my desk and put some mascara and gloss on. I hear the doorbell ring and groan as I haven’t finished but try and make myself as presentable as possible. “ perfect “ i sigh as I place my things back in place and make my way down stairs.

I open the door to be greeted by jaz and haechan both smiling at me “ congratulations! I know how stressful it was to pass that pain of an ass class! “ jaz smiles as she hugs me tightly “ yeah I’m glad I’m glad I did well, thanks to haechan “ I smile looking at him “ your mom went out to buy some wine didn’t she? “ jaz replies “ yeah she did but she’ll be back soon” I reply “ hi y/n “ I hear haechan purr from behind me as he looks at his mom and sees her to occupied with the food “ good job in the exam, I know you could do it” he smiles as he pulls me into a hug and buries himself into my neck causing a quiet whimper to escape my lips. 

“ you look gorgeous as always “ he whispers into my ear “ thanks “ I smile as I step back and take in his outfit. I smile slightly as I see a black button up hugging his chest accompanied with some black slacks “ isn’t that funny you guys look like a couple with those matching outfits! “ jaz chuckles from behind us. I awkwardly laugh as I make my way toward the stairs “ I’ll be in my room jaz, haechan do you wanna come? “ I ask nervously as I look back at him “ sure “ he replies following close behind me.

“ you two are up to no good “ we hear jaz chuckle. “ why have you been ignoring me? “ haechan asks as he shuts the door behind him “ I’ve been busy” I reply “ and with what exactly? “

“ and thats your business because? “ I sigh as I turn on my tv “ if you don’t want to see me just say that y/n don’t lead me on “ he replies angry taking me by surprise “ n- no I do want to see you I’m not leading you on it’s just I was nervous to…I have no idea what Karina said to you and I have a feeling it was kind of embarrassing. I would never lead you on hyuck I can’t lead people on when I have feelings for them “ I blurt out anxiously.

“ you have feelings for me mmh? “ He smiles as he leans onto the pace next to me “ yeah I do “ I reply confidently knowing rejection was better than hurting myself in the long run.

“ good to see that the feelings are Mutual” hyuck smiles.

- Pt. 4 coming soon

#haechan #haechan fanfic #haechan smut #kpop smut #nct dream #nct smut #nctzen

[suffarustuffaru]

✨

Give you and your writing a compliment. Go on now. You know you deserve it. 😉

AA this is the last fic writer ask question fr :o again it took me a while to get to all of them pfft but i appreciate them a lot!! this question especially is really sweet wkdndn but yes!! and hope anyone reading my answers to these questions found it interesting at least pfft

hmm…. compliment….. im a MAJOR stickler for detail :O i literally cant turn my brain off i have to get EVERY detail i can right whenever possible wjdnd. not that im always right bc im very much not but i try very hard to be!! and i absolutely adore trying to put a lot of detail and nuance into things in my work esp since i focus on characters mental thought process so much hah. i try very hard to do a lot (or at least i consider it a lot widjdj) of research :o for example i wanted to write astrea fic so i devoured every heinkel and reinhard related side story possible and now they give me intense brainrot. cries. since i write a lot of character study i HAVE to look at everything possible before i finish a fic or ill cry inside if i miss one (1) detail i couldve taken into account hah. so i do think im a hard working writer :o !! analyzing things for fun especially when i admire a work of fiction runs in my blood wjdnd it just Happens. i try my best!!

as for um. that one crack treated seriously gluttony if fic i did once (selfcest…). is it accurate to who gluttonybaru is as a character? no in the sense that hes written purposefully in that fic to be like. pushed to his Most Extreme. but also i did try to at least be kind of accurate bc. i combed through SO MUCH of arc 6 and the gluttony if to write him fr 😭😭 there was TOO MUCH analysis in that fic thats why its got a novel length wordcount HAH. hes always had a hate love relationship with “natsuki subaru”….

uhhh uhhh oh yeah something else vaguely related to this that just came to mind—for example my multichap pride otto fic has me like really wracking my brain bc pride otto has screentime for exactly 0.2 seconds (im totally good at math) so its like. i wanted to like analyze how he most likely thinks and what sort of behaviors he has and how hed even react in All the new shenanigans im putting him in. but im also working off of 0.2 seconds of screentime so i had to also go and look at how main otto thinks and try to make Many Educated Guesses on how otto goes from point a (main otto pre-meeting subaru) to point b (the otto we see in pride if). which is something i do every time i focus on an if character in general anyway HAH bc i think it gets easier to understand if versions of characters, no matter how different they seem from their main route selves, once you examine who their base character is and THEN you look at the if events and how its warped them away from their base character. if that makes sense. i think its really fun hah.

i also recognize though that it wouldve been maybe Easier to make pride otto in my fic a little more. dead inside. empty. bc i know that ive been writing a lot of his anger and irritation hah. and it wouldve made sense for him to be a little more tired kind of dead inside in his internal dialogue!!! but i figured that i might as well go a little differently with it to yes maybe subvert expectations a little bit (and bc. ok after arc 8 Confirming Many Things About Otto, no way pride otto wasnt angry at some point. fr.) but also bc. you know when a person whos been in a traumatic situation they couldnt escape for so long is forced to change themselves to survive? if that person manages to finally escape its like. now they gotta try and unlearn any trauma related lessons theyve learned now that the danger is over bc what helped them survive is now maladaptive bc the danger is Over. thats kind of how i approached the fic fr T^T but also i try so hard to write pride otto as the jaded ass he definitely is. theres so much jades in him for sure. (this sentence totally makes sense.)

oh!!! uh uh one small detail with pride otto—when characters have titles, he will almost Always call them by their title in both internal and external dialogue. reinhard is sword saint and julius is the greatest/finest knight and felix is blue, etc etc. otto is well. 1. emotionally constipated 2. distant from others 3. Going Out of His Way to distance himself from others 4. hes very fixated on power and hierarchy and 5. he is Very aware of the role hes played in crushing each knight in the knight trio. main otto Absolutely feels guilt even as hes being ruthless. i figured pride otto likely at least Used to feel guilty. if hes not still guilty deep down.

#ask #this. answer turned out way longer than i thought oops but then i started blabbering about analysis things. im a nerd HAH a massive massive #nerd #yeah i like analyzing if characters fr!!! so fun seeing how they changed over time…. #its also a fun challenge bc when u read the if most of them are like. ok aside from the greed if ln that actually goes into detail how #subaru changes over time so its like you know more gradual. with many of the other ifs we see him post-drastic change from main route so u #kinda have to connect the dots?? its fascinating!!! and if u dont look closely u could be confused on How characters changed so much. but it #makes sense once u squint a bit methinks. #gotta love pride if otto fr. ottos always been an edgy bitch pride if ottos just open about it with his black suit and dead inside charm #ALSO I STILL HAVE TO FINISH THE EX NOVELS IM WORKING ON THEM SLOWLY OK I GOT TWO DOWN GOT A FEW MORE TO GO

[you-can-be-what-you-want-to-be]

Ok so I finally read who’s afraid of Alexander J Newell bc… not a single person said what they were actually accused of. Not only is the article unreliable but even if it’s 100% true almost none of it is a big deal? Like no one has broken it down yet so I’ll do a small thing saying why it’s not legit and then explain the “issues” that the article actually talks about

Reasons it’s not accountable

1) the “journalist” does not have a degree of any kind

2) this is posted on a site that allows anyone without any verification or credentials to post. It is also seemingly the only place they’ve posted any news articles

3) they work with the competing company and repeatedly compare them

4) go between pounds and dollars throughout the article to skew numbers in their favor

5) they use the word allegedly every other sentence. You should k ow if it’s actual or alleged before starting a a smear campaign

6) (the biggest one imo) not a SINGLE rq source is named except by pseudonym. I don’t believe that dozens of people were willing to call out Harvey Winsting and Trump but that not a single person can talk about their job sucking in normal ways

7) state easily checkable misinformation like them paying minimum wage when they actually pay above that and the living wage (sad those aren’t the same thing but that’s neither here nor there)

8) the writer is 20 which is apparent if you read this and have ever had a job. At that age my brother quit a job bc his raise was less than a dollar amount within the first year, like all jobs. That was Taco Bell. Im not saying the journalist is on that level but think how much you knew about jobs at the time. I was convinced if I didn’t have the drink cart at the retail store done on time I would be fired instantly on the spot instead of nothing happening. I knew nothing. It’s about experience.

Now RQs alleged (their words not mine) crimes:

1) they pay minimum wage. Considering this started out as an unpaid venture between friends in a disco corridor of their house wouldn’t be bad. But also easily proven untrue

2) people joining were under the impression they wouldn’t have to follow the rules on their contract and that the rules were bendable and then they weren’t. It’s a contract guys.

The big issue with the contract is they want to make money back and ad revenue and such doesn’t make a lot. If they take 50% of everything (what they’re asking) and lent you $1000 it would take 62,500 downloads (most shows don’t break 20,000) for them to get their money back that they gave you if my math according to their own numbers is right. A real evil thing for them to do to pay you and your workers paychecks as well as a budget to make the thing you want and then dare to want to break even or heaven forbid profit.

3) you can’t leave a contract early. Again. It’s a contract. That’s how that works in an adult job. Also they’re mad they can later on use the product to advertise for themselves. Like “from the producers of” type of stuff and other general intellectual property stuff. Not great but if they’re paying to have it made it makes sense halfway through they don’t want you changing networks. You don’t start a show on Disney and end it on Netflix that’s just not how the world works. They bought the product, you don’t pay for someone to build a house and then Act like it’s reasonable they want to take it after.

4) that layoffs exist and happen sometimes? Unfortunate yes. Considering how normal that is and that half the article is about how bad RQ is at making money it should not be a surprise. When a company follows laws such as “pay workers” and doesn’t have the money to do it the solution is “have less workers” sorry to say.

5) that money from productions goes to services used to make those productions (acast)

6) that volunteers exist

7) they aren’t good at advertising their own shows

8) this is actually legitimately not great but again not horrible. They expect people to work 16-20 hours a week and they end up working a WHOLE 24 a week. This is in many places known as a part time job.

9) they think the show will pay more than it will but the Patreon doesn’t get enough and when it does they were still bad with ads so the projected amount was bad. They still get that living wage it’s just not the bonus they planned for. Everyone who works in retail or any job that involves making plan that you don’t account for bonus in your budget.

10) if you try to talk to management there’s a waitlist but if you try to talk to your projects team there’s no issue. Almost as if management runs 50+ projects and the project team only runs one 🤔

11) they’re hands off and let you do their thing. I’m not kidding this is a point in there that’s supposed to be bad

That’s about it. Like no it’s not a utopia or a fun thing where you do whatever and get free money. You can unfortunately tell it’s written by a 20 year old because they think a company ALLEGEDLY holding people to their contracts, paying minimum wage for a part time job, wanting to make money, and not knowing the exact amount of hours they’ll have for you or the amount of money a project will make for your bonus is worthy of writing an article about and being scandalized.

Before believing something check sources. If you don’t want to do that, at least read the article before deciding that somethings horrible and evil. There isn’t any dodged workers comp or wage theft or anything seriously upsetting. If the lack of any named sources or credentials or the fact it’s a competing network or the use of the word alleged 1000 times and the rewrites and misquotes other people have brought up don’t mean anything, then at worst this is all true and you might be asked to work a few extra fully paid hours a week and get paid minimum wage at a part time job and have to follow the rules you agreed to with little bonus. Oh no. I wonder what that’s like, what a nightmare.

#rusty quill #tma #who’s afraid of Alexander J Newell

[tonberry-yoda]

HIII, idk if i'm doing this right bc i'm new to tumblr 😭😭 but i wanted to request a hxh romantic matchup thing, feel free to give me some underrated characters bc i like them 😓😓

i'm agender, my pronouns are he/they and i'm gay!! IM ALSO AUTISTIC

MY PERSONALITY DEPENDS... when i want to talk to people (and it's with people i know) i'm usually really loud and yell a lot, but if i spend too much time talking i get tired of interacting with people and just want to be in silence JBEVJWMDBEB

ALSO I'M REALLY REALLY ANXIOUS IN PUBLIC SPACES, like i literally hide my face behind my hair and walk looking down bc i don't want people to recognize me 😓😓

I love talking about my interests and showing stuff i find/make to my friends

I like drawing sometimes, learning about things i think might be interesting, I ALSO LOVE LANGUAGES (not really learning languages, but learning ABOUT them) AND I REALLY LOVE MY DOG

I just wanted a S/O who has a nice sense of humor, is really agitated sometimes but can be quiet and calm when they want to. I also wanted someone who is very patient bc i get angry really easily and i don't want to get in a fight with them ☹️☹️

i don't really know my love language, but i wouldn't have physical touch with anyone besides the person i'm dating bc in my mind you can't even hug people you aren't dating????? i would really like someone who likes to spend time with me and touch me like cuddling and stuff

THATS ALL I CAN THINK OF RN, THANK YOU FOR READING THIS!!!!!!

hi there!!!! dude i literally have the PERFECT character for you frrrr. so im just gonna hop right to it!

the character I chose for you is...

KNUCKLE BINE!!

literally THE most underrated character and my personal favorite fr so here you are

he's also super loud and yells all the time, so because you two are really close the room you guys are in can get really loud and full of laughter super fast lmaooo

but after a good loud session, the two of you will go dead silent and just hang out and everyone is like... uhhhhh

when you're out in public, knuckle will tuck your hair behind your ear and tell you how good you look, but will respect that you get really anxious

please talk about your interests because he is all ears

he loves hearing you talk about things you love

and listen to him too because he also loves talking

teach him new stuff and he is so down

he will go on rants for hours about math and stuff, so please just smile and nod lmao

HE LOVES YOUR DOG TOO

i literally picked him majorly because of your dog

your dog is obsessed with this man like expect your dog to be glued to him whenever he's over

they will cuddle on the couch and you have an album on your phone of how cute he is fr

he is loud and aggressive, but such a sweetheart, so i thought it fit you really well

and he never fails to make you laugh fr

he also never wants to get in a fight with you, so you two will always take a 20 second break away from each other before coming back and having a conversation

be patient with him and he will be patient with you

this man LOVES to cuddle

he does prefer little spoon, so please cuddle his giant body fr

he will always press little kisses on your cheek

you and him will definitely fall asleep on the couch with your dog and it's super sweet

a lot of the time you guys aren't super chaotic and instead are just together cuddling and spending time together

it's super sweet fr <3

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@tonberry-yoda

#i really hope you love it #writing #fanfic #fanfiction #my writing #<3 #matchup #matchups #knuckle is my fav so thank you lmao #knuckle #knuckle bine #knuckle x reader #knuckle bine x reader #hxh #hxh x reader #hunter x hunter #hunter x hunter x reader #knuckle hunter x hunter #knuckle bine hunter x hunter

[capcavan]

AFTG tfc ch1 Re Read by cavan

(i do not remember any details so its almost like im reading it first time lmao) tumblr does not give me read more cut off option so deal with this i guess sorry #CavanrereadAFTG if you need to block it chapter 1 "She'd beat him to the hell and back if she saw him sitting around and mopping like that" is quite violent way to phrase "she woudl be displeased to see him .." so was neil casually beaten by his mom or we only on page 4 of neil backed up trauma management and im already thinking about scene where this boy will finally brek open and admit how much he wants normal life and not having to hide his emotions and you know live a little without this whole batman personal covering his face already hit by brain made connection about how exy is what took rikos life away from him and how it's the thing that kept neil alive through the worst of his here i am making it about this little cunt already but what else were you expecting of me?

learning new things about English language always nice! neil "its cool my mom died i can finally stay in one place for a bit" how had this boy not murdered this woman himself is beyond me fr ,, please go away" neil wymack already adopted you just haven't got the adoption papers yet I wonder if Janie Smalls is taller than Andrew Minyard "her best friend found her bleeding out" okay but - who is Janie's best friend is it one of foxes? what if it's seth ? Makes sense for it to be seth nvm friend explained to me that potential recruit means she was not at palmetto at the time " Typical of a fox " see riko would make amazing fox that's boy self destructive af in all of my head cannons

broadening my vocab nice nice Notorious for their tiny size i know it's bc there only 9 of them but i will stay believing it is bc everyone is short math time, had not seen kevin in 8 years neil is 18-19 now so he was 10 ok will remember Neil: i need to be very sneaky about my past wymack: do you need a pen? neil: i can't play for you because you signed kevin day wymack: ....... ??????? I LOVE HOW ANDREW WAY TO SAY HI IS FUCKING CRUSHING NEILS LUNGS AGAINST HIS SPINE ????? forgot how radioactive they are bc of how cute they are welp things align riko broke kevins hand andrew beat up neils internal organs for no reason at all! i love when all my ships are fucked up

assailant here is the word i keep using but spelling "assultant" lmao , man im learning so much ,, Andrew was blamed for kevins recent transfer" - kandrew is strong with this one ppl in universe just assumed kevin fell in love on first sight and they ARE RIGHT

i cant tell if im here to study cannon or english but like i know what those words mean but i don't know their definitions does that make sense? OH THIS IS SO CUTE I WILL DRAW THIS FUCK YES LETS GO he slammed motherfucker with his own racket dfghsdjfhgg Hernandez is literary the only normal person over the course of those 3 books andrew *assults someone as hello* wymack: Andrew's a bit raw on manners / my dude with this reading speed it will take me half year to go through those books but im having actually a lot of fun here neil: i already said i can not sign with you wymack:OK BUT YOU STILL NEED TO EXPLAIN WHY KEVIN DAY IS THE ISSUE HERE did kevin heard it lmoa i wonder if kevin heard the ,, do you need a pen - YoU sIgNeD KeViN DaY no wonder kevin was bitch to neil he thought the lil bitch hated him on the start lmao Andrew was only here because Kevin day never went anywhere alone here you go with your raven programming <3 YEARS SINCE THEY'D WATCHED NEIL'S FATHER CUT A SCREAMING MAN INTO HUNDRED BLOODY PIECES Kevin / Dark hair and green eyes, black number 2 neil saw that number and wanted to retch He and his adopted brother Riko Moriyama wrote the numbers one and two on their faces with markers, tracing them over and over anytime they started to fade. ok so were they drawing their own numbers? it sound like kevin was drawing his number too also this is the only mention i think of riko being reffered to as kevin,s brother in the books anyway I have case to make assuming kevin and riko were doing those numbers form young age pre 10 ... it just makes sense the system they use would be Arabic not roman i just can't imagine small kids knowing roman numbers when they were neglected in nest i think this is best case i can make for it. friend provided proof that in book the four tattoo neil get's is introduced as "4" so ok arabic canon moving on Riko nad Kevin were inducted to national court 1 year pre aftg story starts They were champions and neil was a jumble of lies and dead-ends on one hand it's funny how desperate they all are to sign neil on other hand i deeply believe they just see the desperation in his eyes, we know that neil wants it and those contact lenses do not hide it , they know that he wants to say yes, they are just confused about what the fuck makes him say no (kevin's bitchiness) or at least i would make this be the case if neil didn't just got assaulted and if they didn't literary phrased it as ,, we are not living without you signing this" like .. kidnapping with extra steps much ???? playing like he has everything to lose is not excuse for you all to harass this poor man like that OK HOLD ON A SECOND "He'd remember the scrimmage interrupted by that man's murder"

what man what murder the man nathan butchered for them? did nathan murdered someone during game?

WHAT HAPPENED

the moment kevin would start looking at him funny- he already is ngl im only on page 12 and i just hate neils mom i have no phrasing for it but the fact that every choice neil could make for his happiness is meet with ,, mom would be sooo mad" is really frustrating to read about... what is the point of even being alive for this boy fr???? i wonder if theres any specific place they would have been safe it? kind of would be fun to have au where neil and his mom go to japan and end up getting protection form yakuza F BOMB 1 F BOMB 2 COMBO fuck i love those characters so much okay like all of them It's about second chances, Neil. Second, third, fourth, whatever, as long as you get at least one more than what anyone else wanted to give you"

David "idealistic idiot" Wymack wymacks sincerity is what lets foxes trust him , wymack is the first adult in their lives that understands Savge yank of her hands in his hair here we go fuck he has so much guilt over trying to live a little this is so un fair "I'm sorry"he gasped out between wet coughs. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry"

#aftg #all for the game #tfc #the foxhole court #nora sakavic #neil josten #kevin day #andrew minyard #riko moriyama #CavanrereadAFTG

[creabirds]

the lovely @albonoooo tagged me to share my 10 favorite reads of 2023. oh boy, here we go.

so far i've read 61 books this year (which is below my goal grrr but whatever. when life hits you or something) so it's a tough decision. these are in no particular order:

once there were wolves - charlotte mcconaghy | a really haunting novel set in the scottish highlands revolving around a woman who is working on a project to rewild wolves to the area. the writing is brain-meltingly beautiful. please look up the content warnings tho!

middlegame - seanan mcguire | i do not know how to explain this one except it is absolutely brilliant??? about a boy and a girl with very special talents in language and maths, respectively (and they're not in love!). and like, alchemy and human experimentation. it's very weird but alas, i love weird books

girl, woman, other - bernardine evaristo | a beautifully interwoven story about the lives of twelve black British women (& other) that explores family and love in such a compelling way!!! it certainly didn't win the booker prize without reason

bunny - mona awad | if you like weird things this is the book for you. also if you enjoy unreliable narration, (toxic) female friendships and dark academia. it's a girl's right to be weird and slightly cult-ish

yellowface - r.f. kuang | i cannot make this list without mentioning r.f. kuang bc she is the loml. this book is not my favorite by her but it was certainly a banger, as always. if you're interested in topics of post-colonialism and systemic racism you should never miss out on her books

the deep - solomon rivers | magical alternate history about a mysterious mermaid population in a vaguely post-apocalyptic world. lovely portrayal of culture, (shared) memory and generational trauma

she who became the sun - shelley parker-chan | just another asian-inspired fantasy to add to my list of favorites because i just love them so much. this one was so fun and has queer and nb rep!!!

none of this is serious - catherine prasifka | i didn't really ENJOY reading this bc it kept calling me tf out the whole time. if you, like me, find yourself living in existential dread, the anxiety of a small rabbit being chased by lions, and a crippling social media addiction, this will be a fun one to get through

the raven cycle - maggie stiefvater | i've just finished my THIRD reread of this series in 5 or so odd years. yes it is that good. if you haven't read it GO NOW. it's ya but i promise it's not very ya-ish. paranormal fantasy / magical realism / legends and the most likable cast of characters you will ever see (did you say: where can i find ya books with female mcs that have a personality? the answer is HERE)

her body and other parties - carmen maria machado | i've never really read a short story collection before so this was an interesting experience. i loved some of them more than others but they're def worth a read, some even mind-boggling

sorry for rambling but if you truly expect an english major to not go on a rant about books you've been sorely mistaken

if you ever need book recs please feel free to slide into my inbox/dms i am a walking library

tagging @wanderingblindly @grubbyraccoonhands @drivestraight @maxcuntstappen and whoever wants to do it im not sure who of you reads books besides slurping down fanfic like its melted gummybears so uh.

#tag games #crea.txt

[buggbuzz]

Hii :). I know it’s a bit of a random question but I’m thinking of becoming a biology major and since you are one of those would you mind sharing a little (or a lot) about what it’s like?

YESSS OKAY!!

technically i'm a biotechnology major, so i'll have some more specific requirements, but right now i'm still in the general biology stage, so it's pretty much the same.

things to note:

if your college is anything like mine, you're gonna need to do biology AND chemistry for a little while. you'll also need to have your math classes covered; pre-calc was my last math requirement, and yours probably will be too

colleges! like! to! scam! you! for example, i'm working on my associate's right now, a "two year" degree. EXCEPT they set the curriculum up for FIVE semesters instead of four. pre-calc was required for bio 1 and chem 1, and i needed to do three bio classes and four chem classes in order. no matter what i did, i'd still have to do more than four semsters. my point? be prepared for stupid stuff like this. plan out all of your semesters to the best of your ability ahead of time so you can avoid being put in a tight spot. check your major's class requirements to make sure you know what you have to do. enroll in your classes the second they're available. and, you'd probably benefit from taking bio, chem, and math ap courses in high school.

biology is a LOT OF READING and it moves VERY QUICKLY!! so much reading. and if you're like me, and you don't really have an issue with reading a lot of dense biology material, don't get cocky. try to stay on the ball and study your textbooks at an even pace, not in huge last-minute bursts; your brain will get overwhelmed and fried REALLY fast.

i've found that one of the best ways to memorize biology is to understand each concept from multiple angles, and to understand how all the pieces go together. other good techniques are remembering interesting little tidbits, making analogies for everything, and connecting things you learn to other things you already know.

biology is also very visual and reminds me a lot of a rube-goldberg machine. think about how all the different moving pieces fit together. drawing out all the diagrams, looking up information about things mentioned offhand, and looking up extra diagrams and images can help a lot. of course, this is coming from an artist and a visual learner, so take that with a grain of salt. (on my instagram i have two different story highlights of my note-taking method! i have a lot of drawings and strategic methods there, so it might help to take a look)

as you can expect, the labs are really gross. i've got a stomach of steel and think parasitic worms are cute, so i'm a lot better off than most people, but even i hit my limits sometimes. you're gonna be shoving your fingers into organs and getting body fluids and fecal matter all over your fingers. also, the smell is unfathomably horrible. i'm serious about that. i've never smelled something so horrible in my entire life. also also im pretty sure the preservative fluid is toxic when consumed, so don't, like, put your mouth on anything dead.

make friends with your classmates, especially your lab partners! having eachother's backs and being able to comfortably collaborate will do your grades, stress levels, and lab performance all a huge favor. scientists are actually really easy to make friends with, too (at least biologists anyways). if you start chatting about different cool biology things you can make friends pretty quickly.

a lot of the practical things in lab are actually more complicated than they look. i went to an art high school and took ap bio after covid, so all of the few experiments we actually had ended up being dried up or cut from the curriculum. the only thing i had real experience with was microscopes because i actually have one at home. so, my first actual lab in college i had to trap a planarian in a slide with a dip in the center, and i shattered like four slide covers trying to set it up (SO FUCKING EMBARRASSING 💀💀💀). it also didn't help that everyone else had actually taken bio 1 in college and had experience with lab equipment already, yeesh. you pick it up fast, though.

you eventually start learning about organ systems. let me tell you something, it is such a goddamn mindfuck to learn about how your body works as its working. you feel like a sentient AI learning about circuitry and programming for the first time. it's pretty useful, though, as far as medical things as concerned, both physical and mental. you're kinda forced to be more aware of your own health.

still, im ecstatic that i'm majoring in bio. absolutely the best thing EVER. i learn something new every goddamn day, and this fall im taking a GENETICS CLASS, my ABSOLUTE FAVORITE THING. i absolutely recommend majoring in biology.

#buzzing #asks #definitely-not-julio #long post #WAS THIS LONG ENOUGH FOR YOU LMAOOO #buggie's nerd stuff

[lilredghost]

babyyyy!!! im so sorry i am late, college started so i had to shift to the hostels and its so hectic but also so fun here(its so much like the colleges u see in movies like soty i didnt expect this college to be like that im so glad im here) and there was some issue with the wifi in my room so no ao3 for 3 weeks </3

i am in in LOVE with all the times obikin kiss, its so so soft and sweet, obi's trusting anakin with himself its so cute!!!!!!!

also CINNAMON OH MY GOD IT TASTES SO GOOD I CANT BELIEVE U MADE ANAKIN TASTE LIKE IT I LOVE U

(As much as he loves the scruffing, it’s not exactly conducive to Obi-Wan having a discussion.)

(Or thinking at all, really.)

oh my god me too pls i cant think after reading this u will be the sole reason im not studying before my math quiz

His hope is to extend that feeling to other parts of his life, someday, but for now Obi-Wan will stick to brushing and braiding his husband’s hair with all the care he can muster.

oh he is so oblivious oh god oh please tell me they both know the other person loves them before they separate pls

(And this, Obi-Wan has done before.)

(He is, perhaps, an expert in doing things quietly.)

sjdvhvjkdv pls pls red stop killing me im dying over here

(Anakin would deserve it too, is the thing. He'd deserve whatever he asked for.)

baby pls send him to therapy pls i love him but he is unwell™

But the day has been long and fraught, and he would like to believe that he can be happy too.

maybe anakin is the therapy, mandatory sessions for the both of them??? i'll tie them up back to back in a room until they talk

in public interest i would like you to know that u have officially ruined my plans for studying today as this fic will be bouncing around in my head on a pogo stick. i want to distill this fic and use it as an iv

Baby!! I'm glad you're having fun at college and not, like, a giant crisis 🙌 but no ao3 for 3 weeks sounds like hell 😭😭 My sister's wedding was just this last week (and you know big Indian weddings-- I'm exhausted) AND I resume college next week so it's pretty chaotic over here too.

So happy you liked this chapter 🥰🥰 I wanted to get through my whole outline of events instead of cutting the chapter in half (but also it took so long that maybe I should have cut it, lol). Obikin kissed so much that I'm amazed they got anything else done honestly!!

Obi-Wan is sooo brave for taking these leaps of faith, I love him so much. He makes a resolution in the next chapter (though it will be a bit hard for him to act on):

The most important thing is this: Anakin still doesn’t know what he is. The second is this: He cannot be allowed to find out, or Obi-Wan will lose him. Anakin may have married him for reasons Obi-Wan will never know, but being an alpha is surely a nonnegotiable part of that. Unless… Unless Anakin loved him. If Anakin, perhaps, were in love with him, the way Obi-Wan is in love with Anakin, then perhaps he could tell the truth. Perhaps he could be held and kissed and accepted in his entirety, as though he weren’t a failure of an alpha, a failure of an omega—

Baby hasn't even figured out that Anakin is already in love with him, or that Anakin doesn't give a shit that he's not an alpha. It's just so hard for him to detach his designation from his sense of self worth 🥺😔

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And yes I made Anakin taste like cinnamon!! I only decided that an omega's slick tastes (mostly) the way their arousal smells like halfway through, so I'm SO GLAD that I gave him a good scent and not like. Something weird, idk. Some things smell good but I do not want them in my mouth. Also I'm not sure if you remember this post but it sure does lend a whole extra layer of meaning to it 😂

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The scruffing I'm so absolutely obsessed with and idk why! Obi-Wan's emotions have been so out of control in these last few chapters, and it's such a sweet way for Anakin to lend him comfort, while also being hot as fuck in the right circumstances. I need him to pavlov Obi-Wan into getting horny when he scruffs him.

(Also please study for your math quiz baby, the sex will be there to reread when you finish 🙌)

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Isn't he so fucking stupid?!! Anakin will tell him he loves him but I'm not sure yet how much he'll believe it (the outline gets pretty loose post-Tatooine rn).

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(And this, Obi-Wan has done before.) (He is, perhaps, an expert in doing things quietly.)

OK this was literally like one of my favourite lines in this whole chapter ❤️❤️ It's so indicative of Obi-Wan's character and also the absolute root of their relationship problems. Obi-Wan is holding himself back from telling the truth, from telling Anakin he loves him, from biting him, all while Anakin is doing the same, because neither of them wants to scare the other away. (It also just hasn't occurred to Anakin that he hasn't said he loves Obi-Wan yet. He's so focused on holding himself back physically that he forgets about the words.)

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Obi-Wan needs therapy soooo badly, poor thing. I love him but he is definitely unwell™. I don't want to say he's blowing things out of proportion (these feelings are obviously real and he's struggling with them a lot), but they are absolutely a byproduct of the way he keeps spiralling. He'll be feeling sky high one minute and then he'll crash to the ground again in the next. Some of this is his depression but also his hormones are out of wack because his supressants are failing!! 😬

I've been trying not to fall into that rut of "romantic partner cures depression magically" by having Obi-Wan slowly, like, rebuild his support system (Feemor and his friends), find an identity outside of being an alpha and being emperor (like that same thing from earlier about detaching his sense of self-worth from his designation and his job), indulging/discovering hobbies and interests (anthropology, embroidery, time with his friends), and showing vulnerability to others (Anakin is a big one here, but Karishma was an important milestone too).

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On one hand I understand it's imporant to study but on the other hand !!! This fic also bounces around my head on a pogo stick 🤭🤭 I always love to see which things you noticed and which things you liked because it gives me so much motivation to keep writing, thank you!!! 🤗💕💕

#I think it took lots of people time to get around to reading this chapter because of all the fics from the subanakin fest tbh #it's left me sooo behind on reading fics lol #obikin #emperor obi-wan au #squick: a/b/o #also I tried breaking up the reply with dashes but I'm not sure how well it worked. it kind of feels more chaotic to me now #imjusttoofunky #asks #also did you just start your first year of college or did you like move or something?? 👀 sounds like a really cool place to be!

[formula-fun]

“Not a happy story”?????????

I was already really worried the last time you said the last chapter was going to be so full of angst. Now I’m just really really worried at the possible sequel.

Forgot to say hi first lol. Hi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Though I suppose overall for me who is a “life sucks so much already I’m not reading angst in my spare time”, rreereading your story so many times has sort of trained(?) me for it, because I kind of know that sitting through the pain only gave me such sweet intimacy later.

Or maybe we just have different understanding of angst? Because for me once they have established the foundation of trust that “no matter what happens we are going to be here for each other, for the championships, the pregnancies, the parenting, the long-distance relationship and the so sweet life together” , then is just growing into themselves, growing up, and growing stronger. Not to mention even if said foundation was not acknowledged out loud (yet?) they are still actually actively trying to baby trap each other hahahaha.

So I was just sort of doing rereads and calmly waiting for the next chapters, now you say the sequel(if it happens) is going to be not happy?????? They have a baby! That’s grounds for a happy story(in fiction) right???? Right??

Haha in truth I’m just ready for anything you decide really.

Hopefully your projects are coming along better, I studied finance and maths which were in no way as stressful as architecture, and I still jumped between “if they want my (tuition) money they would let me graduate right?” “What was I thinking picking this subject my brain is not built for this” and “just let me die” most of the time. Of course you would pull through!!!!!!

Xxxxxxoooooooxxxxxxooooo

Hahha helloooo!! i love that my askbox is known to be a place to say hi now dkdfjdfkjdjk dear random person somewhere in the world we are at the same stoplight and i am waving at you from my car <3 This got super long so ill put a cut line

Hmm so I think maybe angst was the wrong word then! its not gonna be a happy story in the sense that the plot wont be 'max and charles live happily ever after with a baby', theres still going to be some shit going on. Ur 100% right that there's always sweetness scattered in within that, it's not just angst for the sake of angst, and they'll at least be able to outright support each other in the sequel without like jumping through hoops to quantify what they are to each other or whatever. So in that sense maybe what i mean is more that it won't be a fun fairytale epilogue kind of vibe, there will still be stuff they need to figure out?

also this is going to sound so pretentious im so sorry but the first two fics are heavily heavily written around the idea of gender. if you cut max and charles out of the entire rest of it it's just a story about two equals who love each other and are trying to find a common language to communicate that, but once you add in gender roles and expectations and judgement it all becomes this huge fucking mess even though the core of it is something so simple. the sequel is probably going to be kind of similar, but more along the lines of defining what a family is to them outside of their own expectations or trauma. so ya sorry to summarize theres room for intimacy and happiness and love and all that but there's also a heaviness if that makes sense. Kinda like what we have now

they also have just basic issues honestly. newborns cant really fly so max cant travel with charles for a lot of the beginning of the season. charles wants to be home as much as he can but he's kinda torn between his family and his job. they miss each other! the baby misses her mom!! kinda screws with everyones head a little, especially max who grew up without a mother! they try their best but its just hard sometimes my friend

and thank youuuuu honestly that's where i'm at with school rn!! we had 3 more hours of presentations yesterday (had to do the project over the weekend) and literally as soon as the last group was done we got assigned 3 versions of a 5 floor apartment building which we have to present tomorrow? this on top of the essay due today, the other one due thursday and the third one due next tuesday??? me and my friends just looked at each other in silence and apparently we were all fantasizing about dropping out djfkdfkjdfj they're trying to weed out our class rn though and im sorry but if admin want me gone theyre going to have to kill me

anyway thank you so much my dear!!! im sorry this is one big long ramble but hopefully it answered your questions!!

#writing tag #if i had words #im sorry if this doesnt make sense i literaly JUST woke up

[justsomeoneintoomanyfandoms]

hi! may i request a romantic matchup for star rail, tears of themis, and bungou stray dogs please?

my name is twyla, i go by she/any pronouns, i’m acespec but im ok being matched with any gender. my mbti is intp or istp

appearance: i dye my hair pretty often throughout the year but right now it’s black with magenta pink highlights, exactly like draculaura but with a wolf/butterfly haircut and short/baby bangs. i have brown eyes and i’m quite curvy. i usually dress in a bold alternative style and occasionally academia, my style is really all over the place and depends on how im feeling but i’d say im pretty fashionable and often go out looking like a mall goth HAHA.

personality: im super chill and laid back, nothing really bothers me nor do i show it. im very patient with other people even when im annoyed by them. i come off as very monotone and stoic and i have really dry and sometimes offensive humor that would honestly get me cancelled by twitter in a matter of seconds. i joke around a lot and i usually have trouble taking things seriously. im kind of scatterbrained and get bored easily, and am always seeking some form of entertainment or mental stimulation. i’m definitely a realist too and i don’t expect much out of anything nor do i hold strong opinions or beliefs. im autistic+suspected adhd and that sometimes affects how i interact with others.

likes and dislikes: im honestly super nerdy and really interested in science and math like astrophysics, i love learning how things and the world works. im an astronomy nerd (not astrology/zodiacs im so sorry i kinda hate it with a burning passion) and i love astrophotography and stargazing. i read a lot of encyclopedias and watch documentaries about things i find interesting. im not really sure about the rest of my dislikes honestly, maybe just crowded spaces and rollercoasters

hobbies: a lot of things but i like to read and draw, research stuff, and sometimes cosplay. ive mentioned i liked stargazing and astrophotography too, and photo and video editing. i also play a lot of VN or rhythm games.

thank you!!

Hi Twyla! Your current hair sound awesome! I was a big Monster High kid so it's good to hear there are still fans out there. Thank you for your request! I hope you like your matchups!

In Honkai Star Rail, I match you with...

I'm not super familiar with Arlan's personality yet so hopefully this isn't too out of character!

Arlan's not super into science stuff but he does pick up on a few things working on the Herta Space Station. He'll also try his best to keep up with whatever you're telling him about whatever scientific field has caught you interest.

Would enjoy stargazing with you. The space station is the perfect place to do that anyway and Arlan knows all of the best spots to stargaze from.

His favourite part of stargazing with you though is watching you while you explain everything you know about each constellation. He can't help it. He just thinks your pretty while talking about things you're passionate in. Don't mention the soft smile or the blush on his face...

Your sense of humour balances out Arlan's more serious nature. He likes your jokes but often won't visibly react to them. Later, when he's alone in his room, he'll think back on what you've said thought the day and have a bit of a chuckle to himself.

In Tears of Themis, I match you with...

Marius pays close attention to your interests so he can make you artwork based on them. From paintings of your favourite constellations to sculptures of your favourite cosplays, there's a new art piece being gifted to you every couple of months.

Loves your sense of humour. He can't really make those sort of jokes due to his position (no need to make more scandal than there already is) but he loves it when you make them.

Marius absolutely plays rhythm games with you. He's fairly good at them so he might give you a run for your money. He will let you win on purpose sometimes...

Already has a fairly large collection of books so he's sure there are some on astronomy in there but he'll also buy you astronomy books and encyclopedias whenever he sees on you don't have when he's out.

Marius is definitely the type of person who has hired a observatory for the evening. With just the two of you there, it's nice and quiet and you have access to all of the telescopes.

You can look at the stars and he can watch you. He's happy when you're happy so seeing you enjoy yourself as a result of something he's done means a lot to him.

In Bungo Stray Dogs, I match you with...

Junichiro is another one who will listen to everything you have to say about your interests! He's hanging on every word.

He often feels like one of the less interesting members of the Armed Detective Agency so he's always on the look out for new hobbies and interests to pick up.

Stargazing dates! He'll pack a picnic with your favourite food and drinks and will take some blankets and pillows so you stay warm and comfortable for as long as you want to stay there.

I also see Junichiro as someone who would take you on carnival or arcade dates (avoiding the rollercoasters and the majority of the crowds of course). He'd try to win you some prizes but he'd also love to play the rhythm games with you.

Time spent with Junichiro is always guaranteed to be fun and mentally stimulating.

#writing #fanfic #matchup #matchup request #request #honkai star rail #arlan #tears of themis #marius von hagen #bungo stray dogs #tanizaki junichirou

[volfoss]

hi sorry im like. so so mad about media so im putting this silly rant abt the witcher under the cut <3 spoilers for ummm the books or smth but i dont think my mutuals are into this so 👍

So i just hit Blood of Elves (the 3rd book) and met Triss. so not only did she literally SA/take advantage of geralt (as is the fucking pattern in these books w women towards him and the author and the plot treating any time geralt gets in this position as haha funny so many hot women want him :/) but she is um. absolutely fucking horrible. it is so confusing to me how so many fans love her (because even if you've only played the 3rd game, she LITERALLY point blank jokes with him about how people will no longer take advantage of him since he no longer has memory issues, and when he asks who was taking advantage of him, she was just like me :3. like its never elaborated on its just a fucking joke because we <3 feminism in this series!!) but if you've read the books it just becomes more clear how shes treating him. its a really disgusting pattern of behavior where most of his lovers either treat him like a freak and a mutant (which is sure soooo funny when hes treated like that by normal citizens) or just like a sexual object for them to use, with no regards to his consent. and by god triss has embodied both of those so so badly, where shes just nonstop either lusting after him (when he shows literally NO interest in her at this point lmao) or just treating him like shit. shes constantly guilt tripping him about ciri which is so fucking frustrating bc all the stuff shes bringing up under the guise of haha epic feminism moment is handled SO badly. she basically forces femininity on ciri who is like. barely 12 or 13 by this point (if my math is right) and who literally asks if triss will turn her into a boy and who is more than happy with dressing in male clothes. but triss finds this an absolute travesty that ciri literally has a diy haircut (or one of the men did it for her bc its mega crooked) and takes it into her own hands to turn her into a super pretty polished girl like. adjacent to beauty pageants but fantasy medieval. it is um. incredibly frustrating to see all of this and how triss consistently tells geralt his parenting sucks and that ciri shouldnt be with him (despite the fact ciri only feels safe around him and he does a rly good job parenting in his own way. like its not traditional bc he IS a cringefail adoptive single dad but its also like it doesnt need to be and he cares about her safety so much but wtv) and that he just overall sucks as a person. but we r supposed to root for the two of them to get together as in most of the games, she's the primary/most fleshed out romance option. and its like i do NOT expect ppl just playing the games or watching the netflix series to read the books but its also like she is genuinely really bad to him a lot, just talking down to him and it is actually um. very interesting bc geralt as a character is very emotionless a lot of the time (some of this is due to him being a witcher but some of it is just his personality or the trauma hes endured) but the increase of him just being upset or silent and resigned has increased tenfold in just the first 100 pages of this book. its so so frustrating to see esp after seeing how bad yennefer was treated, i really hoped triss would be better. but in every single way she's been worse.

#twist rambles #hi. sorry the mental illness is exploding im literally having to pause reading so much bc it is making me so angry. #i love seeing at the point where i gave up on being coherent w capitalization like. no one is going to read thru this but consider i need #to get the frustration out basically so <3 #guy thats like haha i would never just rant abt this on main <3 and then does so hours later bc the frustration is just so bad. like it + #could be such an amazing series but the way women r handled. bad. #ask to tag #sorry im just ough. i needed to get this out so i could keep trucking through reading. but its literally just like?? the feminist thing for #triss to do is obviously just make sure ciri knows the female beauty standards and its so :/ #the stuff w geralt isnt even like. everything im putting in this silly rant bc i legit do not remember all of it bc the horrors r just + #stacking and multiplying nonstop lmao. its just been really frustrating bc im mainly reading this for ciri and geralt but the romance + #subplots have been fucking HELL. anyways sorry for the long post under the cut etc :)

[itsyaboymrtom]

ADLUTS PLEASE DO NOT READ. IM A MINOR AND THE CHARACTER IS LIKE 15 AT THE TIME IM WRITING ABOUT SO PLEASE DONT READ UT MAKES ME UNCOMFORTABLE

Just posting this bc I figured I wanted to have it somewhere. Just some fluff for the start of a relationship with Murasakibara <3

Warnings: x reader, fluff, not proofread bc I wrote this as my practice writing for an English assessment

Your friendship with Murasakibara Atsushi had always been different to your other friendships. You two met at the start of the year in your shared math class. You got there somewhat early, picking out a desk somewhere in the classroom. All of you were first years at high school, and you didn’t have any friends attending the school, so instead of socialising you doodled in your workbook while you waited for class to start.

By the time class had started no one had taken the seat next to you. Not that it mattered too much, you didn’t expect to rock up on the first day of school and be the most popular kid there, but some company would have been nice.

A knock on the classroom door takes you out if your thoughts. The door opens and the tallest man you’ve ever seen walks through the door, ducking so he doesn’t hit his head on the doorframe. He had long hair and the expression on his face made it look like he would kill everyone in that classroom for an extra moment of sleep.

“Mr Murasakibara, you’re late.” The teacher said, staring up at the giant man in front of them. “Take a seat.”

He giant boy starts walking towards you and takes his spot in the empty seat next to you. You can’t help but stare at him a little, not only is he massively tall, he’s also very well built for a highschooler. He almost looked like a real athlete.

“You okay?” You hear him ask. You look up to meet his eyes.

“What? Oh- yeah I’m fine, sorry. First day back at school, I’m tired from having to wake up so early. I’m Y/n, by the way.”

He grinned. “I’m Murasakibara. And looked on the bright side, at least you actually made it out of bed before class started. I couldn’t even do that, got chewed out for being late.” He said, reaching into his bag to grab out some snacks.

“We’re allowed to eat in class?” You asked.

“I dunno. Probably not, but I’m hungry. Want some?” He offered, and wouldn’t it be too rude to turn him down?

So that was the start to your friendship with the large scary purple guy. Outside of basketball with Himuro it turned out he had no real friends at school, so the two of you spent a lot time together.

“Y/n-chin, did you hear about the new bakery that opened up not far from school? Muro-chin said it’s within walking distance of school, we should check it out.” Atsushi said to you while you two walked through the halls.

“That sounds great, are you free after school?” You ask, and he nods in response. “Perfect, sounds like we have a date then.” You say with a grin

“A date?” Murasakiabara said, pausing in the hallway.

“Um uh sorry, I didn’t mean it like that, it’s just an expression.” You begin to ramble “I didn’t mean that we should- you know-“

“Would you like it to be a date?” Atsushi asks. You turn to him, face bright pink.

“Would you Atsushi?” You asked, and he nodded in response.

“I’d like that a lot.”

You smile either delight. “Then it’s a date! I have languages, see you after school then”

Atsushi smiled to himself as he saw you disappear down ether hallway, a rare smile across his face.“I’ll see you then.”

When I tell you that languages session was the longest class you’d ever taken. It felt like years before it was finally over.

You stood by the school gate, playing with the straps of your bag to occupy yourself until you saw a man two heads taller than every other student walking towards you. “Are we ready?” you ask with a smile, and he nods as you two head off in the direction.

After a few minute of walking in silence Atsushi pipes up. “Um, Y/n-chin, this is a a proper date right?”

“I hope hope.” You day with a smile

“Can I hold your hand while we walks then?” He asked, facing away from you as he said it, clearly embarrassed.

“I’d love to.” You say, grabbing his hand while you two walk. “Oh my god you hands are giant,” you say, brining your hands up close to your face so you could measure them against each other properly. “How do you exist with hands so big?”

“How do you exist with hands so small?” He asked, turning the question nack into you.

“Very comfortably, thank you very much.” You swid. “Oh, I think we’re here.”

The two of you go stand by the counter, staring at the display of cakes and pastries in front of you. “They all look so good, it hard to pick just one.” You say.

“Then don’t. I’m definitely eating more than one.” Atsushi said.

“Some of us don’t have unlimited snack budgets.” You say, shoving him lightly as you tease.

The two of you eventually decided on what you were having and went to sit down at the table with your treats.

“Slow down Atsushi! At this rate you’re going to finish all of yours before I even get halfway through mine.”

“But ‘m hungry.” He says, mouth stuffed full of eclair. On you face you feign a look of disappointment, but the bright smile on your face and light blush disgiungere your features gave you away. You couldn’t help but think Atsushi looked so happy like this, so cute like this.

The two of you stayed at the pastry shop for quite a while that afternoon, even long after both of you had finished your deserts. You talked about everything there was to talk about; school, home, classes, but when the conversation shifted to basketball the mood changed.

“I’ve heard from Himuro that you’re like- one of the best basketball players in Japan for our age group.”

“I am. When you’re built like me it makes the sport pretty easy.” He says, “Almost boring. But I prefer that to actually facing a challenge- I hate loosing.”

You couldn’t help but laugh slightly. “What’s so funny?” Atsushi asked.

“Sometimes you feel like a sulky child. You spend so much time training at the basketball club, surely you have to enjoy the sport to do all that.” You say. Atsushi remained silent, seemingly deep in thought. “I wanna come along and watch your next game. I’ve never seen you play before, I wanna watch a miracle in action.”

“You really don’t have to come if you don’t want. Basketball’s boring while playing it, j can’t imagine how much worse it must be from the stands.”

“Nonsense, if you’re playing how could I ever get bored? I don’t know all t ha much about basketball, but I wanna cheer you on!” You say enthusiastically.

Atsushi smiled. “I guess I’ll have to actually try next game, I wanna impress you.” He says, causing you to blush and hide your face.

“Don’t say stuff like that, or I’ll go red as a tomatoe.” You say with a pout, moving your fingers out of the way of your eyes so you could still her him.

“Y/n-chin? This is a real date right?” Atsushi asks, and you give him a confused look in response.

“Yeah? We already said that.”

“So we can do things people would normally do on a date, right?”

The look on your face only grew more confused. “What are you getting at Atsushi?”

“Can I kiss you?” He asks, his eyes meeting yours, and though his face didn’t show much expression you could see light pink coating his cheeks.

His question caught you off guard, it’s something you definitely weren’t expecting him to ask. Can he kiss you? What are you even think of course he can! You wanted nothing more in that moment! “Yes, yes yes of course Atsushi.you say, scotching your chair around so the two of you were sitting closer together.

You gently placed your hand on his cheek and Atsushj smiled in response, before his eyes fluttered shut and he leaned into you, your lips meeting. Your first thought was that he tasted like custard tart, and your second was more focused on how much you loved the feeling of his lips against yours. He was being so gentle, as if he thought you were so delicate if he made a wrong move you would shatter. And with the size and strength difference between the two of you perhaps he was right.

Eventually your lungs forced you to pull away, and you could see Atsushi’s eyes lazily flutter open. He looked so flustered. You knew he wasn’t exactly a player, you couldn’t once think of a time he’d told you about a past partner of his.

“Have you ever dated anyone before?” You asked.

“Why, am I so bad at kissing you could tell?” Atsushi said, and you scrambled to apologise.

“No no no, you’re a great kisser, incredible actually, and you taste like custard tart. I was just curious because we’ve been friends for about a month now and you’ve never mentioned anything about any exs.”

“My friend Kise set me up with a girl in middle school qnd we dated for a whole 4 days, but I haven’t had any other partners outside of that.”

“Well let’s add to that then. Atsushi, if you’d have me, I’d like you to be my boyfriend.”

“Only if you’ll be my partner too.” He says, smiling in response. “Coming to this bakery was the best decision I’ve made in a long time.”

#knb x you #knb #murasakibara atsushi #murasakibara fluff

[girlbossdean]

tag time <3

hii besties i was tagged by rain @queerstudiesnatural and rye @believerinsamwinchester

rules: answer these questions and tag some blogs you are contractually obligated to get to know better.

name: alexa

star sign: scorpio babyyy (also gemini rising and sagittarius moon)

height: 5'3 / 1.63 m

time: 19:30

birthday: Nov 11th put it in your calendar besties i expect attention <3

favourite bands/artists: i am horrible at choosing favorites but taylor swift, abba, lil nas x, maisie peters, dua lipa, marina, halsey, megan thee stallion, madeline juno, olivia rodrigo, and conan gray to name a few

last movie: the hannah montana movie, my friend was feeling nostalgic and it was very fun

last show: watched heartstopper again last night for embarrassing reasons and it still slaps on the second rewatch

when did i create this blog: late summer 2015 so like a year after creating my main

what i post: i’m a tagger and cheerleader first but a shitposter and sometimes poet second

last thing i googled: “stacey’s mom” because i wanted to know when it came out since i couldn’t believe my mom didn’t know it

other blogs: my main is @eyeslikelaserpointers, my taylor swift blog is @illicit-gay-affairs and other blogs i may or may not have will remain a mystery

do i get asks?: sometimes and they’re mostly little love notes from my wife or iconic images from tali and i’m very grateful for both <3 i’m generally always happy to be talked to by anyone

following: i follow 550 blogs

average hours of sleep: it used to be between 7 and 8 but now it’s closer to 6 and it shows tbh

instruments: i used to play the recorder as a kid if that counts

what im wearing: grey sweatpants and a tshirt from high school with my name on it, also cute pink socks

dream job: i’ve always kind of wanted to be a secretary or someone’s assistant but i’m more likely to end up a lawyer or judge in which case i’d like to do employment law and help protect workers’ rights

dream trip: not much of a traveller tbh cause it’s very stressful but i definitely wanna go back to London for closure (and generally go to England to visit my wife <3) and i want to travel to the US and Canada again to see my family and some friends

nationality: uptight bread enthusiast who’s always on time you do the math

favourite songs: yeah no i physically can’t do that, best i can do is current most listened to on spotify: family line by conan gray, veuve by paula hartmann, paracetamol by gregor hägele and buzzkill by baby queen

last book i’ve read: i recently finished the girls i’ve been by tess sharpe and now i’m reading lolita but if we’re talking fanfic i just reread according to all known laws of life by sobsicles which is always a delight

top 3 fictional universes i’d like to live in: every fictional universe would probaby stress me out but maybe like one of the barbie fairytail movies or the good place........honestly tho take me to supernatural world i can deal with anything if i get to hug cas and tell him he’s loved

tagging my wife and some other beloved mutuals, sorry if you’re already been tagged, and of course there’s no pressure to do this <3 god knows i almost never do tag games i’m being tagged in and i immediately forget who i’ve tagged

@mrcowboydeanwinchester  @goatiel @emeraldcas @faithdeans @seffersonjtarship @destielgaysex @knifelesbianjo @roublardise @migraineurdean @justafictionlover @castiellesbian @eileenguy @mishasfingers

love you all <333

#god this was long thank god i like talking about myself #also yes i'm mostly doing this to get to know my wife better sue me #tag game #girlblogging

[manifesting-mari]

Morning Pages 2/8/2023

I’m working on developing my trust for the bigger energies that hold this world together. To trust that i am part of this divine puzzle and i am safe and protected. The systems of oppression have programed us to believe that we are inherently unsafe. The systems that are in place perpetuate the survival and fear when they are fully capable of supporting the health and safety of all. I am no longer interested in adhering to that prediction of reality. I’m in the business of changing the way we allow ourselves to be treated. This is the healing. We no longer allow the systems to separate us. We no longer look at ourselves at separate. We are one whole

I am looking at that last paragraph through my own experience and also through the experience of the collective. We already are connected, and the 3D world makes us think we are separate. Because we are separate in this dimension. Its part of it. Its part of the experience we signed up for. 

I like what Val said on You Made It Weird. Something like “we are someone, some of the one. And we are awesome, some fo the awe.” the interconnectedness is something that i feel very easily and i definitely need to work on my boundaries on that. How do i protect my container? I need to do David’s class again. Maybe i’ll do that today.

Taking that walk with Jordan last night was really healing. Im grateful for the honesty i feel and I’m grateful for all the feelings that come up around them. The butterflies and the squirmy wormies. Last night i noticed the part of me that was judging him. And like, my judgment was that he was a weirdo, and i like weirdos, i am a weirdo, but then i felt a part fo me that thought “this isnt cool” or like “this isn't smooth” it was interesting, the more i felt into it, i could feel this ungroundedness that i look for in male partner. I look for that in male partners because i am not connected with my root. My sense of safety came from my father and i didnt realize how much i turned to men to feel safe. Its ok for me to express when i feel unsafe. And its ok for the people around me to feel unsafe and let me know. And we share how we feel, not to make it go away necessarily, although that is a symptom of this practice. Us expressing we’re both feeling unsafe allows us to support each other through our feelings of unsafety.

There is a song that came up on this playlist called “I Am Woman” and its really hitting me right now. Its on a root chakra playlist and the lyrics for this song are in red. I wonder what the weather is like today. I know later this week its gonna get close to 60. I might go to the beach on that day and sit out in the sun. When i think of my new job i get mixed emotions, mostly because i really enjoy and value having flexibility with my schedule. But this is only a necessary evil until the wedding work starts. 

Interesting how i use the word evil. I still have a long of negative feelings around work like this. Im wondering what that is. There is a whole lot of judgment around a typical 9-5 job or basically any job that is required to give 40 hours. 40 hours is a whole lot. Id rather work 20 hrs a week. 

I think today is the day to flesh out whatever thing i have in my head. Do a practice run of it and get it launched by March. Work it through in March. Record the classes, and then offer it as a grab and play for april. With “guidance hours”

I feel the part fo me that is scared to start this and that is saying that no one is interested. There are people who are interested. Manifesting Mari’s School for Wayward Adults. This is a school for adults who are in a transitional phase and looking to do something different than the system expects. 5 subjects. Reading, Writing, Science, Math, Arts/Music. 4 weeks. 2 offering times. I feel like im getting caught int he details and i need to get more specific on the person who would be a good fit for this class. I think this course is good for people who are working on self discovery

What was the thing i was trying to figure out. Oh. manifesting for disorganized attachment. The law of attraction is hard for me because there are so many different kinds of options that im open to that i cannot commit. The release and surrender had helped me a lot, but im still trying to integrate and process. 

Im feeling very disconnected. Schuyler’s class really helped. Maybe i need to listen to David’s classes too. I should also reach out to Naomi or Ezra. i just feel so weird. I wonder if i should talk to jordan about shame around body and vices. The shame is not actually mine, is it? Like i dont think im doing a bad thing or guilty of something. But i do feel that little bit of me thats like “I’m a bad person and i am a temptress, a seductress, a siren,and a succubus.” im not bad for smoking. Im not bad for being fat. Im not bad for not being attractive. I am not bad for accidentally hurting someone. I am not bad. I am a conduit for love, honesty, and authenticity. 

I want to get better at speaking my truth and being who i am. I am no longer trying to be someone different and trying to get to this wild point. Well i am. But i know my route will bring me home first. Bring me to myself. Bring me to the pure power of I Am that is the strongest power in this 3D world. You cant change someone who is sure of themselves. I used to be sure that i was a piece of shit. Now im sure im not. Now im sure that i am a loving, kind, and forgiving. I am forgiving with myself and with others to the best that i can. Sometimes being forgiving with myself and others can be a challenge, but i give myself grace and patience and allow myself ot heal on its own time. Healing is not my business. I am in the business of freedom, stability, exploration, and expansion. 

Ok. starting now i am living in the present which is a paradise of abundance. I am tuning into what i know is here. I am being present and tuning into the magick that is here. I  am tuning into th empower that is here. I am tuning into the love that exist and i amplify it. I am tuning into what the universe has and i amplify that which is authentic. I amplify that which i am able to. I am powerful and stronger than i think. I know i am powerful. I know i am strong. I know i am smart and capable. I am intelligent and witty. I am safe and protected. I am supported by the earth and i am supported by the divine. I am supported through love. I am a powerful human. I am a powerful medium. I am a sensitive psychic. I am a strong container and conduit for the divine. I am working for the greatest good for all and for the harm to none.

I am dedicated to connection. I am the heart. I am the bridge between the higher and lower. I am a goddess of this lower realm. I am a co creator with the divine and the universe. I am open and i am ready for my roles. I am brave and i am strong. I have all the tools i need. I give myself space and time. I have patience and trust. 

I am part of this positive change in this world. I am the change that i want to see in this world. I am embodying the practices. I am ready for the next step. 

Im gonna take LSD

#morning pages #the artists way