#and I feel awful

[sagecielle]

I am only a bit embarrassed to say I was in a beau cosplay for a photo-op with the group, the staff asked me if I wanted to put my wooden staff with my bag - I said no, because it was strapped to my chest with ribbon and hot glue, so what could go wrong?

Immediately (accidentally) slapped Liam in the face with the end of my staff

The embarrassment was endless but I guess, a canon beau move??

(Liam was very kind about it, I wanted to die)

#critical role #beauregard lionett #caleb widogast #cr2 #this question made me laugh #and I feel awful #Sam dodged though #which feels real

[vizthedatum]

I hate I’m a horrible communicator

I hate how I am

I hate that I’m stupid and deserve to be discarded

I hate that I have feelings and needs but can’t express them

I hate not having a family

I hate not being supported or taken care of

#cw depression #cw self loathing #self deprecation #I’m really hurting #I’m so stupid #i’m so tired #it’s too much #and i feel awful #I wish I weren’t traumatized #I wish I weren’t autistic #I wish someone loved me the way I needed all the time

[helianskies]

so i have work. bearing in mind i have only worked for 8 hours, with minimal training in the admin stuff and ad hoc bits i need to do. today my coordinator is working from home m, and she messaged me at 10am, when i started, to say she'd call soon to help me get on track with tasks. it's nearly 12:30 and she hasn't called, nor seen the messages i've sent her in the meantime with queries about emails i could be replying to. my supervisor is also ill today. so i am the only one from Arts in the office. so i have no one else to ask for Arts-specific queries. and students keep turning up asking things or just updating me about things and idk what they're on about and it's like gimme a BREAK or gimme HELP

#stressed #in 2 hours ive done about 5 emails and the reports task which took all of 10 minutes #and i feel awful #because im twiddling my thumbs just re-reading the same emails over and over #._. #helia's ma adventure

[little-escapist]

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#fuck #tw depression #feel free to ignore #my mental state took a sudden nosedive in the last 30 mins #and i feel awful #more awful than i have in months #i just keep crying #and i'm not even exactly sure why #but i just feel so bad and lost and as if i just lost something or someone #this feels like unconsolable grief #only there is nothing to grieve #so i'm just so so sad that i can't stand it and i don't know how to help myself

[paterday]

I have a card that gives me free poutine from this one restaurant (most Canadian sentence ever) but it’s so far away and I just want to go home.. and there’s a poutine place by home.. but I’d have to pay for it…

#I could also just not eat any poutine but I haven’t eaten today #and I feel awful #and maybe it will make me feel better

[jaegerisim]

days were everything that can go wrong seems to go wrong <<<<<

#mf my day went from worse to worser #i feel like shit #its 12 am and i'm taking notes on some biology textbook I got memorize in 2 weeks time #someone send help #my eyes are itchy and head hurts #and i feel awful #like i wanna cry #and i wanna sleep #but the sleep dont want me #yk?

[wizardrights]

we have very little space in our apartment and my roommate doesn’t like the litter box in the living room and NEITHER DO I but we already have one in the bathroom and having it in my room was driving me crazy so anyway i got a litter cabinet and a deodorizer to put in it and i’m hoping so hard that’ll help with the frustration we’re having about it out in the living space. if anyone has any suggestions pls let me know. ugh

#i wish i could just live alone so i could just #put things places and not have to worry about other people feeling certain ways about it #but i couldn’t have it in my room anymore i just can’t #it was taking up space and bc of that things were blocking my closet #and because i couldn’t get to my closet i wasn’t putting stuff in my closet #so my clothes were piling up #and it was a big mess AND i had litter on the floor #like maybe if the litter cabinet works i’ll move it into my room #we’ll see #but rn i just needed it out #and i feel awful #but i need this #ugh #blah blah #personal #lmao this is boring but i’m Stressed

[meatyliver]

aughhdgehehehhe tags vent

#fuck fuck fuck #so i went to a flea mart #and i get like impulsive #and i steal these little button things #and this lady who was an owner #saw #and was like we have cameras so give back the shit i saw you steal #and i did #and i wanted to cry #like i am glad i gave it back so i wasnt guilty #but like #i dont want to tell anyone #besides internet whores who dont know me #and it was awful #i hate being impulsive #adhd #impulsive #no impulse control #idk its just been running around in myhead #and i feel awful #and never want to go back #like you stupid fuck (me #why cant i be normal #or not steal shit #like its a problem #and my therapist does not give me tools for this #ggrrrrrr #fuck #yeah #:(

[ariacherie]

I wish I could turn my mind off and stop thinking about cringe things I said in 2017, and stop thinking about people I hurt in 2019, and stop thinking about people I left in 2021. Because now it’s 2023 and I have to leave someone behind again and I can’t make this decision if I dwell on the past

#you ever have a rlly shitty friend? #I need to cut her lose because she’s dragging me down with her #i can’t take it anymore #and I feel awful #girlblog #girlblogging #girlblogger #sad girl #ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #I don’t toss around the term narcissist lightly but she exhibits all the symptoms

[chqnified]

Someone save me from the 92 unreplied to messages

#i keep procrastinating #and i feel awful #the only person i reply to is Alex atm #i just don't have the capacity to reply to anything else. #brain is broken

[sunnypogue]

confirmed: i am the worst patient ever and have been either napping or crying because i feel so awful

#my head is splitting #and i feel awful #and i still have to work.

[i-cant-unsee-the-horror]

Feeling a thousand feelings right now.

#photo #selfie #me #my face #i have a crush #and i just #want them to feel the same #and i feel awful #im sorry #picture

[cryoexorcist]

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#/ ᴇᴠɪʟ ᴍᴜsᴛ ᴄᴏᴡᴇʀ ɪɴ ғᴇᴀʀ / ooc #just woke up #and i feel awful #like cramping-im-gonna-cry awful #so ill be lurking #but idk how much ill do today #pls send nice asks though?

[mossmurdock]

god im gonna throw up im still not finished with the short story

#this is so so bad #and i feel awful #NOTHING MAKES SENSE LIKE IM STUCK IM STICK #HOW DO U EVEN WRITE?? #like what the hell was i thinking?? almost 1500 words and im not even really saying anything i feel like theres no substance here #im just putting words together and somewhat establishing a vibe and expecting for a Message to come up #oh my fucking god #what even is the poijt #tbd

[mkscatgirl]

I have a big presentation for a class tomorrow and I'm so anxious about it that I like genuinely can't do anything

#at least i have therapy the day after :^) #but like i woke up the first time at 9:30am and in now almost 2pm and i havent gotten up #i keep napping or like panicinb and going my phomd #because i cant focus or think about anythibg #and i feel awful #i hate this so much

[musesacquiredlikebruises]

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#my period is due literally any minute #and i feel AWFUL #like start and get this over with!!! im already tired!!! i already want to cry!!!