#aaaaaaaaah not deserving

[starfoam]

//I'm still thinking about Lorelei, indulgence, and her fear of being a burden

#NO BUT BECAUSE TO LO THE ULTIMATE INDULGENCE *IS* INTIMACY #NOT JUST SEX (but it does include sex) BUT. PHYSICAL CONTACT. TRUST. THE SIGHT AND SMELL AND FEEL OF ANOTHER PERSON. #AND HOW TO HER THE THING THAT KEEPS HER UP AT NIGHT AND GNAWS AT HER CHEST IS LONELINESS AND TOUCH STARVATION #BUT THAT *REQUIRES OTHER PEOPLE* AND SHE CAN'T BRING HERSELF TO ASK FOR WHAT SHE DESPERATELY NEEDS #FOR FEAR OF TRAPPING SOMEBODY IN SOMETHING /THEY/ DON'T WANT THROUGH OBLIGATION #SHE LOVES SO DESPERATELY AND DOESN'T THINK SHE DESERVES TO ASK FOR IT AND I #AAAAAAAAAH

[a-la-rascasse]

Happy birthday CHRIS AMON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (20/07/1943 - ∞) ⚡

Christopher Arthur Amon was born in Bulls, New Zealand, in a family of wealthy sheep-owners and he was their only child. Growing up on the family farm, he learned to drive at a young age: with the help of a farm worker, at only six years old, he learned to drive the tractor. After finishing his school years, at 17 years old, Chris' fascination with speed manifested itself: first he got his flight license and later he persuaded his father to purchase his first ever car, an Austin A40 special and took part in small local races and hillclimb competitions (and used to practise a lot on the family farm). With his family's support, he later bought a Cooper and then a Maserati 250F; but his talent started shining when he started driving the Cooper-Climax T51 (the same that Bruce McLaren used to win his first ever grand prix). The talented young Kiwi caught the attention of the English driver Reg Parnell, that asked him to join his team back in England, and subsequently a chance to enter in the world of Formula 1

Following a series of tests for the team Parnell, Chris made his debut at the Monaco GP in 1963, but luck didn't seem to be on his side (not even at his debut race ffs): his teammate's car, the French Maurice Trintignat, developed a misfire, so he had to take Chris' car. He stayed with the Parnell team until Reg's sudden passing. In 1965 Chris found himself without a seat so, fellow Kiwi Bruce McLaren, managed to get him to join Ford with him as a test driver, a very important step in his career. In that same period of time, he sporadically raced for different teams, but always as a replacement. But in 1966, he would go on and score his biggest achivement of his career: partnered up with Bruce, at the wheel of a Ford GT40, the two Kiwis won the prestigious 24 hours of Le Mans.

His recent success, put Chris under the spotlight and of course it attracted a lot of offers, but the one that appealed the most the young driver, was the one he got from Enzo Ferrari to drive for the Scuderia. As a Ferrari driver he really managed to show his driving skills, gaining a lot of podiums, but never managing to score a win: he often got let down by his machinery or suffered accidents, and not only in Formula 1, but many other competitions (12 hours of Sebring, 1000km of Monza or Nurbirgring); but in 1969 Chris won the Tasman Series driving for the Scuderia Veloce. After his stay with the Italian team, Chris made what was to be the first of several moves to smaller and newer teams like March, then the French Matra, the Italian Tecno and even tried to create his own team in 1974, the Chris Amon Racing, but unfortunately the car wasn't competitive enough, and later decided to abandon the project. His last F1 race would be the infamous '76 German GP, driving for Ensign: he retired from the race after he stopped to rescue Niki Lauda from his burning Ferrari, he later stated that he saw way too many drivers die in similar conditions and that he wanted to act. After rescuing the Austrian driver, Chris refused to restart the race, Morris Nunn, the team boss, decided to fire him for that, giving Chris a good reason to retire from F1, and go back to New Zealand.

In 1977, after being persuaded by Walter Wolf, he briefly took part in the Can-Am series, but later left his seat for the young and promising French-Canadian driver, Gilles Villeneuve.

After retiring he went back to New Zealand and for a long time dedicated himself in running the family farm, and later in the 80s he would appear test-driving cars in a TV programme called Motor-show. In 2016, Chris would pass away of cancer, at the age of 73.

Despite Gilles being 'discovered' by James Hunt, it was Chris that pushed Ferrari to sign the young driver, after witnessing his talent during the Can-Am series, stating that "No problem, take my word for it…this is your man".

About his 'bad' luck, Chris often stated, on several occasions, that he competed for a decade and a half in Formula 1 and survived some serious accidents, whilst others, including many friends, suffered serious injuries and death, so he actually never considered himself unlucky.

Despite not having won an official F1 race/World championship, he scored 11 podiums and he's regarded as one of the best drivers to have graced the sport, underlining once again that talent is what makes the difference.

#tw death #happy birthdaaay chriiiiiiis aaaaaaaaah!!!!! #ngl I have such a soft spot for him he's such a sweetheart!! #I feel a bit guilty for this wall of text but chris deserves every essay ever!! #(bruce and gilles.. can you leave me alone for two just two seconds?) #they live in my head rent free #chris amon #<3333 #classic f1 #f1 #formula 1 #retro f1 #f1 1960s #f1 1970s #f1_bdays

[ventique18]

Source

Aaaaaaaaah look at them!! Look at them! They're all so CUTE! SO PRECIOUS OMFG. This is twst's version of the spring bunny events that a lot of gacha games use, and once again I am in AWE of how classy Yana-sensei spins themes that are originally supposed to be fanservice. God I love twst. The boys really deserve being cute and silly like this!

I'm definitely gonna pull on this banner unless Malleus miraculously brings another banner with him. 🤭

(My boy Silver looks so fitting in those pastel military clothes ngl. Sebek should've matched with him 🥹)

#twisted wonderland #deuce spade #epel felmier #ortho shroud #twst silver

[howi99]

How did tram RNJR first react when they saw jaune with penny head/broken body? Did they think he was going crazy?

Ruby: ... Jaune? Why is your bag so uh... Big?

Jaune: *sweating* I didn't do anything illegal!

Ruby: ....

Jaune: ....

???: *muffling voice from inside the bag* Hello friend Ruby!

Ruby: that voice... It's almost like... *Goes behind Jaune to open his backpack*

Jaune: Ruby, wait!

Penny: *just a head* SALUTATION!

Ruby: AAAAAAAAAH!!! *Faint*

Jaune: *facepalming* Good job Penny.

___

Ruby: So you are telling me you've been repairing Penny since last week!? Without me knowing!?!

Jaune: To be fair, with the exception of Ciel, general Ironwood and Penny's dad, no one is supposed to know she is still alive.

Ruby: But she is my friend! I at least deserve to know she was fine! *Look at Penny decapitated head* ... Relatively speaking.

Penny: Do not worry friend Ruby! Friend Jaune is doing his best to repair my body so i can be combat ready!

#jaune arc #rwby #rwby au #answer #jaune is a genius au #ruby rose #penny polendina

[nell0-0]

Well now Rei and Akari is in Masters(with Rei confirmed to be the protagonist and also having amnesia though obviously not nearly as bad as a certain conductor) and there was foreshadowing to Volo arriving. Seems there’s definitely the chance to get warden Ingo at some point!

Aaaaaaaaah!!! Them!!! I haven't been very active lately nor logged in Masters so this was a nice surprise! Thanks a ton for letting me know! And heck yeah, Volo. I'm looking forward to the Twink™ arriving.

I really thought it would have been Akari the protag, but maybe it was to distance the Dawn/Akari thing since they already have Dawn as the Sinnoh champion. Who knows. At least the Rei MC lovers will get more content with him, he deserves it.

I really hope they do something with warden Ingo, it would be a shame to let such an opportunity go. But, then again, I think that if they do, it will be after they have introduced most of the Husui cast to the game.

#asks #talk tag #haven't been feeling well lately but this definitely improved my mood #thanks for letting me know <3

[howlingday]

If Nora is kagura.....then Jaune is Gintoki

Jaune: (Looking through binoculars) Hoo hoo~! What a total babe~!

Jaune: (Notices it's Winter) Ah, nevermind. It's just a she-wolf.

Jaune: (Hit in the face by an ice bird)

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Clover: (Grabs Jaune's hand) Take your hand off my shoulder.

Clover: (Twists) You won't be able to fix your mistake after I throw your ass in jail.

Jaune: Oh yeah? (Twists back) Throw me in jail?

Jaune: JUST TRY IT!

Jaune: (In jail) ACE-OPS!

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Yang: No! That's all wrong! The hand signs for Fireball Jutsu go like this, you moron! Dad! Tell Jaune how wrong he is with his hand signs!

Jaune: No way! She's the one who doesn't understand hand signs!

Taiyang: You're both wrong, and morons! You're wasting time with your squabbling! Plus, the hand signs are supposed to be like this!

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Ren: Jaune, we got it done. It took a lot of running around, but we were able to get your jail sentence reduced.

Nora: If you maintain your good conduct, you'll be out in two years! No time at all!

Jaune: Two years, huh? Heh, that sounds...

Jaune: LIKE TOTAL CRAP!

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Jaune: Well, let's all be careful while skiing downhill. (Pushes forward)

Winter: WHY ARE YOU RIDING THE GENERAL?!

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Emerald: I know it might be asking a lot, but... could you help carry Cinder's coffin?

Yang: (Strikes shoulder)

Jaune: (Yanks elbow)

Yang: Ooh, sorry. My shoulder's suddenly been dislocated.

Jaune: Yeah, and I just broke my arm.

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Jaune: OBJECTION! The items presented by the prosecution are clear forgeries with no relevance to the case! And to prove it, I'll gladly examine every second of every video!

Ren: YOU JUST WANT TO WATCH PORN!

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Cinder: Well, if you want to kill him, then be my guest.

Jaune: (Kicks)

Oscar: (Falls off the stand) AAAAAAAAAH!

Cinder: WHY DID YOU KILL HIM?!

Jaune: YOU TOLD ME TO!

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Jaune: Guys! Guys! Check it out! She's talking about me!

Weiss: (On TV) I promise you'll get exactly what you deserve this holiday season~!. The perfect present for the perfect man~!.

Jaune: The perfect present? Y-You mean like a love letter?

Weiss: Keep an eye out for a bright red~...

Jaune: Bright red~..?

Jaune: (Stabbed in the neck through the TV)

Weiss: Rapier.

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Nora: (Flips Jaune's mattress, Climbs in) Mm... Yes... This'll do just fine. I can finally sleep.

Jaune: (On the floor) I hope you never wake again.

#rwby #gintama #jaune arc #winter schnee #nora valkyrie #my answer #my answers #lie ren #weiss schnee #clover ebi #yang xiao long #taiyang xiao long #cinder fall #oscar pine #emerald sustrai

[whispangleblogger]

I am so hyperventilating right now. Endless Summer, the Girls finally go on their well deserved Vacation. Babylon Rogue Madness inc.  All the amazing Cover Art... AAAAAAAAAH oh my god, just ignore me, i’m having a Moment here.... again... 

[alec-not-alright-wood]

Late Night Convos as SoC characters

(except they‘re all with @fantasticangelrebel)

Nina: The bar is low

Jesper: It‘s pretty much in hell right now

Jesper: Doing pole dancing with Satan

Jesper: We should probably sleep now

Wylan: Yes

Wylan: BUT FIRST

Jesper: LEMME TAKE A SELFIE

Wylan: …

Jesper: Sorry continue

Jesper: AAAAAAAAAAAH

Jesper: WHY CAB‘t my fingers Tyne

Jesper: AAAAAAAAAH

Nina: How‘s it going?

Jesper: VSJDIWIEGWJEKEHW

Jesper: DO NOT

Nina: Okay okay

Nina: itfs fynr

Nina: HE LOOKS DEHYDRATED

Nina: YOU THINK THAT‘S HOT???

Inej: I LIKE MEN WHO ARE SUFFERING LEAVE ME ALONE

Wylan (about Kaz): Bro needs to go for a walk

Matthias: I think he needs more than that

Matthias: Maybe an exorcism idk

Wylan: I tried to sleep by putting on Animal Crossing music, BUT NOT EVEN THAT HELPS

Wylan: ANIMAL CROSSING NEW LEAF 1 AM TONE HOW CAN YOU FAIL ME LIKE THAT

Kaz: If anyone gives you a hard time you could give me their address

Nina: Anyways, what are you up to right now? Except planning Kaz‘s funeral

Matthias: Bold of you to assume that he‘d deserve one

Anika: Don’t you want something on top of you?

Kaz: The ground

#mutual shenanigans #incorrect soc quotes #six of crows #kaz brekker #inej ghafa #jesper fahey #wylan van eck #nina zenik #matthias helvar

[sugartherat]

Beautiful Person Award. Once you are given this award, you're supposed to paste it in the ask of people who deserve it. If you break the chain, nothing happens, but it's sweet to know someone thinks you're beautiful inside and out!

:>

AAAAAAAAAH

[fullsunstrawberry]

OH MY GOD.

LOVE.

THAT? THAT SHIT YOU JUST POSTED? THATS FUCKING BEAUTIFUL.

Im not even joking when I say im giggling, crying, swinging my legs, rolling on the floor. The boys helping him, especially Jiung as a waiter😭 that is so CUTE? And ofc he'd watch harry potter😭 And dont even get me started on THE PILLOW FORT i havent built one in ages i need to do that again but AAAAAAAAAH and like everything😭 you've outdone yourself with this fic and i would like to have a kim jongseob delivered to my house asap.

~🌿!

(Dont forget to eat and drink, and treat yourself to some snacks, you deserve them!)

IM GLAD YOU LIKED IT!! i need to build a pillow fort now 🤔 i was kicking my feet and giggling when i was writing it 😮‍💨 im definitely gonna write for p1 more after this semester ‼️

(i’ve been eating very well!! and even drinking a lot of water <3 hope you are too!!)

#🌿anon #means a lot #<3 #love yah <3 #ask and replies

[copepods]

liking cwilbur and ccrimeboys as an older sibling myself makes me insane. like yeah i can’t help but try to impress you even if i don’t feel i deserve your admiration. despite everything you still look up to me and i don’t understand why. yeah you annoy me a lot of the time but i’d go to the ends of the earth to keep you safe. just. AAAAAAAAAH

#text #mcyt #dsmp #CWILBUR…..MY SWEET CHEESE………

[em-writes-stuff-sometimes]

I read that they’re trying to make blood and cheese an accident. And that they’re trying to soften rhaenyras death. And that helaena’s gonna be killed off early and the small folk aren’t gonna rebel because they loved her. Fuck ryan and co. Fuck the blacks. Daemon’s hot but fuck him too.

Anyways thanks bye 💖

Aaaaaaaaah, no! I don't want B&C to be an accident, I want Daemon to be a bad bad man. That will shit me right off if they go that route. I wouldn't mind Rhae's death being a little less awful, I already know it'll scar me for life, BUT Helaena deserves to have her full arc played out the way it does in canon.

I love the Blacks as much as I love the Greens - if they are going to make these changes, there better be some damn good pro-Green changes too. And not just for Aegon or Aemond, but for the Green women. Fuck those bois. I want Helaena and Alicent to get the quality treatment they deserve. And I want Rhae and her family to get the good treatment too. I want them to be given EQUAL precedence, is my point.

I'm going to relax for now, hope for the best, and see what happens. I was a sceptic when the series was first announced; look at me now. It's been my whole identity for nearly a year, lol.

#fandom asks

[ashlingiswriting]

chp9 was so scream worthy, I might have gawked a little (a lot) the mikey flashback + confession to richie at the end and the fire motifs throughout?? your mind is so gorgeous I wanna read it all and therefore commentary if you may!!

“you’re mikey” all the way up to “that just makes it his pyre, but he’ll never see it.”

aaaaaaaaah thank u so much @justficsandstuff! i’m beyond thrilled that you caught the fire motif & honestly so thrilled that you’re still reading at all!

commentary below

x

you're mikey.

fuck you.  

so fucking selfish, he says bitterly. it’s as close to hate as you’ve ever heard from him. but you’ve gone so far, you’re not stopping now.

richie, what the fuck do you want from me?

you know what i want! his voice goes quiet when he adds, did really you think there’s anything that could keep me away from you for five fucking years?

you know what he means.

can’t put words to it, can’t accept it, can’t fucking bear it—won’t—but you do know, you know exactly what he’s trying to say to you, what he’s trying to give.

you don’t deserve it, but it’s not for you anyways, it's for michael. it's all for michael, and it would be beautiful if it wasn't such a fucking waste to love a man when he's dead. richie’s gonna throw everything he has onto the fire in the hope that it will quench the flames. that just makes it his pyre, but he’ll never see it.

i don’t want to ruin it by overanalyzing, but. some thoughts. (proceeds to overanalyze)

↠ we’re reaching a point in this fic where you could play a where’s waldo type of game, but instead of looking for waldo, you’re looking for times that richie or julie say i love you to each other without actually saying those words. this is one of those times.

↠ mikey’s emotional presence is heavy in this scene. sometimes he’s present in ways that are sometimes totally natural and inescapable for richie and julie, but sometimes they manipulate or narrativize his presence for their own reasons, probably without even realizing it. julie can’t deal with love, so she decides it must all just be for mikey. richie can’t deal with the resentment and grief he still feels about mikey’s suicide, so he puts it off on other people, including julie at times. to be fair to him, she is pretty directly paralleling mikey, so he has some cause.

↠ this is the moment julie decides to go nuclear. she doesn’t want to, but once she processes did really you think there’s anything that could keep me away from you for five fucking years? she knows it will take everything she’s got—cruelty, lies, the whole shebang—to get him away from her. it’s a panic/survival response that she’s not 100% conscious of.

#justficsandstuff #correspondence #diky #<3333333 i love my readers dag nab it #ask games

[mebiselfandi]

you are infinitely precious to me mon chou

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZM2ymYPQ2/

Hi K🥰🫶

Have you considered my tiny heart can’t take this huh K?

Why are you mini web weaving in my asks??? I WILL CRY! You’ve sent me so many songs now I have a whole playlist of them😭🥹🫂

I was so so sad when you sent this and I was like:

Literally zero chill just incomprehensible sounds of me yapping to the universe. Like what did I do to deserve this🥺

The flowers were so pretty, the lil you’re note was adorable the song sent me into overdrive and the TikTok killed me. I died and I came back to tell you I love you so so much. You’re lucky we ain’t together cause I’d literally never let you go. Clinging tight like a koala while you’re grocery shopping and making cookies🐨

Anyway it’s been in my drafts a long time but just know I saw it several times a week and this was me everytime:

Omg she’s sending me such sweet things I don’t really know hot to respond to cause I’m overwhelmed with AAAAAAAAAH *kicks feet and twirls hair on my imaginary tree swing*

Seriously though I am kissing you forever and you’re one of the best friends I’ve ever had also those flowers are almost as beautiful as you

#mon amour🧩 #fwis

[dumbass-404]

DL!Jason character exposition / explanation

content warning discussion of bad mental health

Jason’s mental health problems really kicked up around his freshman year mainly because he broke it off with Forest Scouts and his friends (he kept all his eggs in a basket). The transition into high school may have had a part in it, if only because people expected him to be more independent (parents and teachers) when he was isolating himself (His grades are fine, he’s the type to not need to study that much. He’s putting minimal effort into school and skirting bye with B’s and C’s, but he doesn’t have the numbers to brag about). He stayed in his room 24/7, and boredom is your enemy when you have issues and internet access. He spent a lot of time browsing gore and triggering tags on now-X (iykyk) and destroying his self-image, because Obviously if he’s doing this, he’s a degenerate and doesn’t deserve love. Repeat cycle of self hatred. 

That summer he did something that sparked a “recovery” period, but idk if you know this, recovery is fucking terrible when you don’t tell anyone you’re doing it. He got the job to help change things up, and tried to “pull himself together”, but he had his fair share of relapses. He also didn’t try to make friends, under the assumption that he didn’t deserve them until he got better, which is NOT HOW THAT WORKS. He gets frustrated with himself and thinks he'll never improve, and while it's not much, he does gets slightly better with the change in environment (not being stuck in your room does WONDERS for you). Just not as much as he "should be". So.

Come around to junior year (start of fic), he’s still going through the motions of recovery with no support system. He’s been in the same situation for so long, that he believes its never going to change until he leaves for good. Aka going to college. He may not have the grades or extracurriculars (or motivation) to go anywhere ‘good’ but it’s his only option. There’s no choice, he’ll go anyway he can, he just needs to LEAVE. Once Jason gets friends and pulls himself further out of the hole, he starts thinking about the future in less vague terms (mainly because Craig has a ranked list of colleges and talks about it constantly, and Vanessa is going to community college but that's way too close to home for comfort for Jason, and aaaah, aaaaaaaaah), but he thinks he’s too far gone to change anything, so why try now? 

Bleh. He makes me sick. 

#i am lifting dirt #Half of this is projection the other half is plot #I love torturing characters

[revnah1406]

Heya! As promised, here's a sketch I drew of our beloved Sparrow! Love her sm!

Enjoy ⊂⁠(⁠´⁠･⁠◡⁠･⁠⊂⁠ ⁠)⁠∘⁠˚⁠˳⁠°

OMG KHUSHIIIIIIIII!!!!! 💖💖💖💕

NO FUCKING WAAAAAYY!!!! 🥺🥺🥺🥰🥰❤️❤️

ENGICNCKDNCIF AAAAAAAAAH LOOK AT MY GIRL!!!! SHE LOOKS SO FUCKING BEAUTIFUL IN YOUR STYLE!!!

I swear... I'm at class right now and I slapped my mouth so hard that some friends looked at me with a weird look. HAHAHAHA BUT I DON'T CARE THIS IS FUCKING AMAZING AAAAAAAHHHHHHH

I can't stop looking at it!!! What did I do to deserve this!! 🥺💖💖✨

You're just amazing my dear! 💕💖

THANK YOU SO SO MUCH!!!!

#thank youuuu #I'm gonna protect this sketch with my life #I will protect all the drawings of my mutuals with my whole life #you got mail! 💕