#THE TRUAMA SURE IS GENERATIONAL

[freestyle-crocodile-trashpile]

Cod X male reader !! Mabye the characters scolding the male reader and the male reader has bad memories from childhood and the scolding triggered their truamas and the male reader tries to avoid COD characters

[A/n:Ooo this one is interesting. Thank you for requesting]

Summary:they scold you causing you to remember bad memories from your childhood

Type:short scenarios: Valeria X M!Reader: König X M!Reader: Woods X M!Reader: Gaz X M!Reader: Ghost X M!Reader

Version:Mw2, Cold War

Woods

He didn't mean to be to hard on you, you were just not paying attention and almost got killed. He was scared. Woods did everything he could to protect you and you still just didn't listen, he had to scold you. But now he's regretting it. Adler was the one who noticed, he seen how you would nervously look at woods and then look away quickly like a scared child, how you would make sure he wasn't talking to you and did your best to hide yourself from him. When woods noticed he felt horrible, and tried his best to talk to you but it was hard. When he finally learned why he corner you to apologize, he had to or he'd never live it down and feel guilty for the rest of his life.

Valerie

She's hard on people, everyone knows this. She isn't nice, or caring towards people. Of course you were at expectation, in private of course but still everyone could tell she was nicer to you and cared more about you, until she scolded you about something small. She didn't notice, like woods. And it wasn't until you wouldn't come to bed, she waited and waited for what felt like an eternity but you never came. She finally got you down to her office to talk to you and she could see how you struggled at first, this was the first time she was genuinely patient with someone. Valerie let you calm down then talk, then she felt like shit. First she didn't notice her own boyfriend feels upset and scared of her and now she's realizing she made you have to remember bad childhood memories? She felt horrible and made sure to make it up to you.

Gaz

Now Gaz isn't one to yell at people, or scold, just anything like that in general. It's usually Price. But Gaz was scared and worried and it just it happened because you were being reckless, yes, Gaz loves you, but God you scare him sometimes. After he had scolded you he went straight to his room to calm down and if price can notice that Gaz is upset, he can notice you too. While Price was taking to Gaz you were no where to be seen, which would have worried Gaz but he currently was focused on Price and his emotions. After Price was done talking Gaz sent out to find you, but he couldn't find you. It wouldn't have worried him if soap didn't run up to him asking where you were. Now the fear hit him. He spent the whole time looking high and low for his beloved boyfriend worried something happened to him. When he found you, he crushed you in a hug, apologizing. He didn't let you talk more focused on getting his apologize out there. He never found out about your past due to his apologizing.

König

He felt bad a second after he scolded you. You wouldn't even get a chance to leave as the bad memories flooded your head, König pulled you into a hug directly after and apologized for scolding you and how he was just scared. He could tell you were still upset and you explained how you can take time away from but he needs you to know that he's sorry, he really is, he'd be upset too if someone scolded him like a child. If you did avoid him after his apologize, it'd hurt him but he wouldn't try and stop you. Instead watching you from afar sadly until you came back to him.

Ghost

Now Ghost he's done some scolding and he never feels bad for the person be scolded. Same goes for you. He wouldn't scold someone for no reason, so he'd just watch you avoid him and honestly he'd probably make it worst. Mainly because he'd think your only avoiding him because he scolded you, not because of the past. So eventually he'd corner you and tell you that you shouldn't avoid him because of a little scolding and to get over it since it wasn't a harsh scolding. Which might make the simulation worst. Soap would came to Ghost a few minutes later, pissed off. Soap would process to yell at Ghost in his heavy Scottish accent about how bad he hurt you and accidentally say why Ghost hurt you so bad. And no soap wouldn't let him talk. Ghost would wait for you to finally come around him so he can apologize.

[A/n:sorry Königs is so short. I hope you enjoyed]

#cod könig #cod ghost #cod gaz #valeria cod #cod woods #cod cold war #cod mw2 #cod modern warfare #cod x male reader #cod cw #call of duty mw2 #call of duty #call of duty cold war #mw2 headcanons #mwah

[theglassesgirl]

Idk Edred thinking he defeated The Evil™️ so easily and without much fanfare gives weight to the idea that The Evil™️ and this endless cycle of reincarnation is DESIGNED to be un-winnable.

Cuz what happens AFTER the warriors defeat The Evil™️ every cycle? Do they just….live a few more years? Because I doubt they give their vessels back their lives which may be why Edred wanted to prolong fixing Copernicus?

Because though I agree Dimitri is who is making it difficult for Edred to remember certain things like his past life w Melinda and certain information about their mission, it’s still doubtlessly EDRED at the helm.

It’s EDRED who considers Emma to be preventing him from being with Melinda. Like Mel, he tells Winston that Emma’s BODY “isn’t his anymore” —- if the warriors are only around long enough to defeat The Evil™️ every century or so, why would both Melinda and Edred be so cruel to Emma and Winston? Shouldn’t quasi immortal HEROES be more forgiving and generous to the vessels they inhabit? They’ll see each other again in a generation, won’t they?

Again, something about the reincarnation just isn’t right.

To me, it makes me suspect that the warriors just..:LIVE in these bodies they steal for a long while until their next death and rebirth. There’s no URGENCY to Edred wanting to defeat the Evil™️, no moment where he laments that his time w Melinda is brief this time around, nothing.

Because he’s still gonna be with Melinda provided he can properly expel Emma and have poor Winston fuck off. That’s why he’s not INTERESTED in helping Emma, like Winston asks him to here.

He’s interested in helping MELINDA. Because as soon as he does that, he gets to be with her for a few years, regardless if they have to be fighting The Evil™️ or not. It’s a…selfish incentive for the heroes to have. I think it’s MEANT to be selfish.

Emma, like Winston, points it out here that Edred left her to the wolves (haha) at the ship but is suddenly very caring now that Melinda is more prominent.

It’s one of the many ways they’ve shown to be out of touch, on top of not caring about innocent people they hurt and collateral damage, because they have the excuse of THE GREATER GOOD to act so recklessly and selfishly if all they want in return is to be together for a short while until the next cycle. Without caring whatsoever as to WHY the Evil™️ keeps coming back.

That’s also why Melinda is upset at Emma, she forced Melinda to confront Truama that she probably just represses between defeated the next Evil™️ and being the Edred. Again, I thinks the warriors are being encouraged to be so tunnel visioned about this.

Idk if any of this made sense but that’s why I think Edred presumably being so sure he Defeated The Evil™️ was so anticlimactic.

#toonami #unicorn warriors eternal #unicorn: warriors eternal #this didn’t post during toonami I’m gonna SCREAM #anyway if this ends up not mattering come Thursday lmao but something is amiss!!

[haveyouseenthisskeleton]

i need some nice angst-fluff (?) rn.

how would the skellies reason to an s/o whose generally scared of a lot of touching or romantic gestures because of past sexual truama, but instead of living in fear all their life, they're slowly trying to become more and more comfortable with skellyfriend.

Undertale Sans - He respects that. He would never push you though, he's not even a big fan of physical touch in the first place. He can see you're making huge efforts, but he doesn't want you to do it for his sake. He's fine with no touching just as well.

Undertale Papyrus - It's hard to hold back for him when you're showing him a bit of affection, but he's happy it's getting better and better. He's cheering for you, and can be a little pushy, but he's happy you're trying to get over your past traumas.

Underswap Sans - He lets you move at your rhythm. It's ok if it takes time, he's happy already with the small progress you're making. He doesn't want you to feel like you have to touch him to make him happy though. He chose you for who you are.

Underswap Papyrus - He's almost crying every time you're touching him, really. He can see how hard it is for you, and he won't stop congratulating you for every little progress you make. He's glad you're coming around.

Underfell Sans - It gives him some courage to do the same. He's not very comfortable with these things either, so you're both learning. It's slow, but he likes it this way.

Underfell Papyrus - His eyes turn googly every time you're touching him lol. He tries to hide it, but really, he can't. You can't stay serious more than ten seconds when he's looking at you like that honestly. He can't help it. He's so shocked he's losing it.

Horrortale Sans - Oh well, his reaction is the same as you just looking his way: he starts to purr like a tractor, happy to have attention. Oak is really not difficult. He's just happy you're coming more and more to him.

Horrortale Papyrus - Willow is still a bit shy with physical touch so it's for sure gets him every time, transforming him into a blushing mess as he realizes you're only doing that because you trust him a lot. He's a bit overwhelmed right now and he might cry, not gonna lie.

Swapfell Sans - It helps you find out Nox can turn golden retriever like when you're petting him, literally leaning onto your lap for more. None of you are used to being touched, but someone definitely likes that a lot. You have a new superpower between your hands it seems.

Swapfell Papyrus - He draws crosses where you touched him to make memories together. It's weird, but it's kinda working. Except after some time, Nox begs you to convince his brother to take a bath because it's not possible anymore, he stinks bad. Rus refuses, pretending he's just jealous.

Fellswap Gold Sans - Urgh, he guesses he can make an effort and comes to you as well. Wine doesn't like physical touch as well, and he's a lot more demonstrative in his disgust, growling and stiffing. He tries to follow your example, but, uh... Yeah, there is still work to do lol. You're not going to have a hug before a decade or so xD

Fellswap Gold Papyrus - He's dying for more physical touch and he's literally vibrating every time you're touching him. He's probably not the best match for you though as Coffee is very needy and struggles to respect boundaries. He would definitely be too much to handle in that case.

#undertale #underswap #underfell #horrortale #swapfell #fellswap gold #sans #papyrus #undertale ask blog #undertale asks #undertale imagines #undertale headcanons

[anti-endo-haven]

Tw: slight in depth of ramcoa talk

Sorry i really wasn't to put in black in white but that smth I comly do as well as taking perceived Rejection out of hand.

The reson why I make theory's on things such a CDD or dissative disorders is bc I'm actively studying psychology. And wanting to specialize in dissative disorders, personality disorders and mood disorders. When I am a psychologist. I actively try to open my view on others view but sometimes I come at with with hate due to my own disorders whitch is smth I'm actively working on before I help people with their problems.

With that being said. The whole point of this theory isn't really to say that osdd2 is your system hood to be exact but it is a explanation of why your system formed.

As for osdd2 being ramcoa related I sya this bc in the dsmv osdd2 is defined as "identity disturbances due to prolonged and intense coercive persuasion" the examples it gives is "brainwashing" "thought reform" "torture" whitch I belive is what ramcoa stands

As for why I said the did is formed by truama is a theory. In the dsmv it does not state in the diagnostic criteria that you need truama to be a diasosed with DID but it does state in cormid disorders that DID is very cormid with PTSD. Whitch means that theory is very well supported. all of the cases reported Have childhood PTSD. Whitch is means it even more supported but due to mental health being a under reshered thing I assuming the reason why psychologist still call it a theory that I can only be formed due to truama is bc they haven't look into things such a genics. Whitch if you studied any other disorders is a very common thing that it's also a theory.

As well not only that but I've head people call it a theory multiple times "the theory of structural dissoation" I think it'd called.

Sorry if this comes off rude. Black and white or anything else like that I promise I'm trying not to and I'm rereading everything before I send it to make sure.

But OSDD-2… won’t be the exact reason why a system has formed. Not every system or dissociative disorder will be linked back into OSDD-2. OSDD-2 also doesn’t have alters from what I know.

All dissociative disorders have identity disturbances. Just because OSDD-2 has some related to brainwashing, mind control, and torture doesn’t mean it’s “the RAMCOA one.” It strikes me as getting rid of those that still fit RAMCOA without mind control or torture. It isn’t just programming, torture, and mind control. Even TBMC isn’t just programming, torture, and mind control.

The reason why I don’t like the theory is because it doesn’t seem like every survivor is being seen and is getting rid of those survivors that have DID or OSDD-1 or aren’t systems at all. That’s primarily why I don’t like it.

The DSM-5 is also outdated, here’s a PDF for the DSM-5-TR.

Also… dissociative disorders are NOT comorbid with other dissociative disorders. That’s why there’s OSDD-1, OSDD-2, DID, etc. You can have a personality disorder that is comorbid that also deals with dissociation, but not two dissociative disorders together.

Even if you genuinely are wanting to study psychology or already are, the “theory” can still spread misinformation.

I’d also really like to comment how DANGEROUS asking RAMCOA survivors things for a Google form can be. It’s not something you should do because that can be used against people. It’s wrong.

The brain can only fragment with trauma, which causes alters. PTSD is comorbid due to it being a response to trauma such as is dissociative disorders.

Even with the topic of genetics, I do not see how a fragmented mind can be genetically passed on. It takes trauma for a brain to fragment and have alters.

I’d like to request no more asks from you as I’ve also blocked you based upon the Google forms you’ve made and just in general.

#anti endo #endos dni #did system #system #actually did #osddid #traumagenic system #did plural #endos not for you #actually traumagenic #did plurality #osdd plural #osdd plurality #ramcoa system #tw ramcoa mention

[parental-unit-of-chaos]

Lines drawn in Charcoal : Jason Todd x Male Reader.

This will be the frist writing I've ever posted online, so I hope at least some one enjoys this. @n0cturna1-m3 here ya go!

Cw: mentions of scars, childhood truama, past truama in general, body image issues and self image issues.

Living in a safehouse with Jason has a roommate had it's ups and downs, no matter how many years you've know Jason. It was no secret he had been through a lot, only a small drop of that pain he's shared. Most he keeps in his head, if to remind himself he is still alive or to torture himself to stay in control. You were never sure.

That's what made scenes like this sobering, reminding you that he's still the sweet Jason under all the walls he built up. The Jason that no matter how much he tries to hide it, to cage it, he has a heart bigger than himself. This morning, Jason choose to spend in his favorite reading spot. Slumped in the red padded chair that caught his eye, while walking past the antique store. The thought of leaving the chair or even moving an inch, melted away has soon has your fluff ball decided to join him.

The cat had falling asleep purring hours ago; Jason's attention was only focused on the book that he was half way through. And where were you? You were sat on the couch with your sketchbook and charcoal pencils, capturing each soft and rough line of the handsome man.

Making sure to get every detail and proportion right; his sharp jawline, the soft lines of his lips, his brows knitted in concentration. More importantly how relaxed he was, where he wasn't on edge and paranoid. That the next corner he turns someone will be someone with a gun pointing at him, or worse, someone he cares about.

During one of the times you were looking down at your sketchbook, Jason finally pulled out of the fantasy world he was so engrossed in. Probably from the not so subtle sound of the pencils dragging in short or long strokes on the paper.

' Whatcha drawing now?' he inquired, with his own hypothesis that you were drawing the fluffy croissant in his lap. 'Just my world' you replied causing a sign to leave Jason's lungs at how cryptic the answer was. Sure it still could very well still be the cat, you drew the little whiskered demon everytime she was still. With the vague answer though, it could be a sketch of the city, to your favorite food.

' Ya gonna give me any hints or am I gonna have to geuss on my own?', Jason knew you loved when people tried to geuss what you were drawing. He also loved the weird ass guinea pig like noise that came from your throat, when someone didn't geuss correctly. 'the sketch is of a living thing' now you were intentionally being vague to draw out the game.

' Let me geuss, is it the ball of fluff in my lap? That for some reason, you took one look at, and named spleens??', Jason interrogates with a humored toned. The unique chuckle coming from your vocal cords, was he needed to hear to know he was wrong. 'for the record I explained why I named her spleens, when I first brought her home with me. And Nope! It's a human, a handsome and strong one at that'.

Handsome and strong? Jason had to think harder with that answer; my world, handsome and strong. Was it a trick answer and you were referring to poetry? 'Atlas??', he replied, perplexed. His answer was met with more of a laugh this time, he assumed he got too far away from the answer. You laughing frustrated him,' Fine, enough of the game. I give up, who are drawing?'. He didn't care about winning anymore, just wanting to know the answer.

' It's you', the answer and smile you gave was so simply, but it cut through Jason deeper and with more weight than of of the League of assassins' blades ever could. Him? Your world? Handsome and strong? Jason couldn't see where you were coming from, or more so his insecurities wouldn't allow him too.

This had to of been a sarcastic answer and you actually drew someone else, it has to be. He's seen himself in the mirror, he knows he's not anything but disgusting. He's not handsome, his body looks like a living corpse, all the damn scars that covered his body. The walls felt like they were closing in, there was ringing in his ears. His image, his face, his body changing in the mirror being distorted. Taunting him, proving that no matter how much he tries to move on from what joker did to him, he'll never be anything more than what Joker made him. The memories of his biological father screaming about how much hates him, Batman -

' Jason!', your worried voice and your gentle hands touching his face, with the other on his arm brought him back to the present. He hadn't realized he had been shaking or the panic that exploded out of his chest. 'Breathe, you're going to past out if you don't. Focus on me, follow my pace of breathing.', he did has you said syncing his breathe with yours.

Once Jason finally calmed down fully you asked why he just had a panic attack, 'You don't have to share all of it, you can just give me the cliff notes'. He doesn't know what he did to deserve someone so understanding. 'When you said those things about me, my thoughts got the better of me. Reminding why I can't be any of those things', he stated still a little shakey.

'Do you want to see what I see you had?', he was hesitant, no he was scared to see it, but your voice sounded so reassuring. He trusted you,' If you think it would help, then yes', you gave him the finished sketch. His mind didn't allow him to believe fully that someone could see him like this, he looked normal, he looked so happy. You held his hand and flinched, like he was still on fight or flight.

'When I see you, I don't see you has your trauma or a victim. I see you has a survivor. You aren't who you are, because of joker or anyone else. You made yourself who you are, despite what happened to you.', you took a breathe giving that chance to look him in the eye.

'I read somewhere that in some Asian cultures, when a plate breaks they mend it back together with gold.', Jason felt like he couldn't breathe, he didn't know what to say. 'You aren't something that needs to be fixed has if you were brand new, that's not how truama works. But if let me, can I help mend those wounds with gold? To help build you back up?' Jason couldn't stop the tears that welded up and fell down his face. He pulled into the strongest hug he could muster, he never knew he need to hear those words, until you said them.

You let him cry has long has needed, he's been holding those emotions in for so long. He finally answers the question in a shaky voice, so small you almost didn't hear it.

'yes'

#i am sorry in advance #jason todd #jason todd x gender neutral reader #jason todd x male reader #hurt/comfort #Crow!Writes

[tv-gh0st]

That goddamn Tree

First week Time immediately noticed something off about Wild. Well honestly Wild was just off in general, waking up in a post apocalyptic hyrule with no memories of who you are or your past life then spending three years adventuring and learning everything from scratch so you can fight a creature known ad Calamity gannon will do that to someone. Ofcourse thst was simply the bare minimum, time could tell and most of the others didn’t even know all that. But that’s not the point. What is it? Wild didn’t fucking sleep.

You see Wild kept asking for watch, Time ofcourse wouldn’t allow this. At first he just seemed adamint to take watch, posibly he craved feeling usefull that wouldn’t be new to the heros sipirt, or posibly craving feeling safe yet again not something new time would be dealing with. What is new though? Not being able to get him out of a fucking tree when It was time to sleep. It was the third day of Wild asking for watch which Time very obviosly refused, he needed sleep all of them did it was solid logic. So why the hell did Time get woken up by Sky for what he thought was second shift just to be told Wild wont come down from a tree. He wished he would have woken up Twilight or Hyrule  Time knows that he scares Wild, but he was up and so was Wild, neither of which should have been. 

"Wild please whats wrong. He heard some shuffling of the tree but nothing more. "I need words kids" nothing, at this rate he'd be up all night trying to get this kid down.(and this was deffintly not going to help with the whole, kid being scared of him thing) the whole joke might be that hes an old man but he does infact need sleep like one. But guess  who doesn’t, Twilight. Okay so waking up Twilight might make him grumby but the kid will only ever get close to Twilight, that also might be a bit of a lie. He loves Wolfie, not so much Twilight, but hes still better with Twi then him. 

"So the cub wont come out, like at all?" Time shook his head. "He likes you" 

"he likes wolfie" ofcouse Twilight would not want to, that’s almost all he talks about, how the kid wont get close to him. "Then turn into Wolfie, he loves you" luckily he agreed and walked off. 

Comeing in quitly as to not wake up the others could be a bit of a struggle at times, but wolfie was now next to time looking up at wild in the goddamn tree refusing to even face him. "Wild Wolfies here!" with a bark to confirm Wild turned around so fast Time thought he was going to fall down. He saw Wild grabbing at Wolfie seeming to be at war with himself in weather he should go down and be with Wolfie or stay up there, Time had no idea why Wild was even even up there, I mean he they all had there little things, weather it was truama based or just something they were used to but Wild not sleeping and just being in a tree every night unforntunitly would not work, hell if Wild wanted to sleep in the tree Time would let him at this point. Sure hed rather him sleep on the ground with everyone else, keep everyone in just one spot ya know. But hell if he could get him to sleep that be a win for Time. Wolfie kept barking at Wild jumping up on the base of the tree, he eventully got Wild to reach a hand down where Wolfie gently grabed it in his mouth. It was almost like the two were having a conversation through body languge, hell maybe they were Wild seemed much more comfrtoble with animals annd well in trees. It took like 30 minutes but Wolfie finally got Wild to climb down, well more like fall down but ya know hes down and that’s all that matters. Wild seemed tired so Time decided to let him rest hopefully sleem(On the ground) and talk about this in the morning, also he despretly wanted to sleep and was in no way awake enough for this conversation. 

It was now dinner time now, they had a whole day of traveling everyone exept Wild was exahsted(He loved walking through just nature) and Wolfie was here sitting with Wild a bit away from the group, Time figured now was a good time for the conversation, it was evning but no one was seddling down to sleep yet. Time went to sit next to Wild down just one the ground Wild was just leaning down on Wolfie seemed like he was relaxing but when he got closer Time saw how wide Wilds eyes were as they darted around the camp almost watching over it worried something would jump them. "Hey Wild" he saw him stiffin up lifting himsef up from Wolfie who also stiffend up a little bit much less then Wild though. "its not bad, its just about last night, Im going to need you to sleep as best as you can okay, you don’t need to keep watch, no one has failed watch before everyone is very carfule, and were all gonna need to sleep so we can be at our best for traveling and fighting." Wild just stared at him blankly, Hylia above how did he go from looking borderline fearal to nothing at all. Time didn’t know what else to say so he stood up to leave. "just think about what I said, we all want to help and portect eachother Wild." the blank stair again. 

It was a small whisper he didn’t even know if Wild said it but it surprised evens scared Twilight for a second. "Twi when do you think I can do watch again"

#lu #linked universe #linked universe fanfic #lu fanfiction #lu wild #lu wolfie #lu time #lu twilight #poor time #he just wants to sleep #hes an old man #wild is just on a fucking tree #fanfiction #fanfic #ao3 writer #ao3 fanfic #ao3 author #read on a03 #ao3 #ao3 fic

[mstudi0s]

📩 - Boundaries

a written essay

What are boundaries?

📩 - Boundary :

anything that marks a border. It's a real or imagined line that marks the edge or limit of something or the limit of a subject, principle, or relationship.

📩 - Discussing Boundaries :

This is what the dictionary defines as a boundary. Not only are boundaries used to mark off territory, such as the lines between states and the edges and borders of cities or towns, but they can also be used to represent limits and restrictions within relationships.

We often hear the word boundary used amongst connections with people. Whether this be family, friendships, lovers, or other. Being able to understand how to use boundaries is a great way to keep people at a distance to protect yourself. Not only is it good for that, but it's a good source of self-discovery and understanding where your limits lie and what you're comfortable with or not comfortable with.

In today's essay, I'm going to discuss just a few things that I've learned when it comes to boundaries and my understanding of this topic. I'll be discussing things such as how to have boundaries, what it's like dealing with people who don't respect your boundaries and the misunderstanding and generational trauma that people before us having lacked boundaries caused.

‼️ Disclaimer: Anything I write here is based on my research and experience. I am not claiming to be the all-knowing person of how to live your life or a professional therapist. These are just a few things I've learned along the way, and I'm compiling into one post. ‼️

📩 - Topics :

People Who Push Your Boundaries

Generational Truama From Parents Who Had No Boundaries

My Struggles With Putting Up Boundaries

How To Have Boundaries

📩 - Part 1 :

People Who Push Your Boundaries

I've noticed that we live in a society where people think that they can cut corners or push you to your limits. I'm sure most of us have had experience with the parent who always asks us what we're doing on our phone and who we're talking to? As well as a past lover who felt it was okay to treat our body as if it were their property.

This is never a pleasant experience and is part of the contribution to why boundaries are such a controversial topic for some reason. Many folks who act in this behavior have either never been taught boundaries themselves or they see boundaries as something to take lightly instead of seriously. Sometimes, this is a combination of both.

Unfortunately, there are so many people that are like this, and as much as we can sympathize and empathize for the way that they are acting it does not change the fact that they are still causing harm. By continuously showing time and time again through their actions that they don't plan to change and you forgiving them each and every time is only hurting you and it's encouraging the cycle to continue.

📩 - Part 2 :

Generational Truama From Parents Who Had No Boundaries

For some people, this was a common phrase you heard growing up, "You're my child. You don't get to hide things from me." or "You're mot allowed to have privacy." I know that this is definitely something I heard often.

What I have come to understand in why parents do this is mostly because of how they were raised by their own parents. You see, our parents come from a generation where being emotional was considered "weak," and if you had any mental deficiencies, they were just brushed off and seen as excuses. It was a time of how dare you talk back to your parents, and children were meant to be seen, not heard.

All these things combined have bred a generation of parents that don't understand boundaries or how to use them because they never were able to themselves. This has led to a lot of generational trauma and displacement that many of the new generationa are trying to heal. I believe some parents feel that since they never had privacy or boundaries why should their kids have any, and their way of fighting back is to control and displace their trauma onto us and others.

📩 - Part 3 :

My Struggles With Putting Up Boundaries

Boundaries were definitely always a struggle for me, especially given the fact I dealt with parents similar to the ones I've discussed in my previous part. Never being allowed to say no had turned me into a chronic people pleaser. Where I became so desperate to want to be liked by everyone that I would put myself in situations that were at the expense of me in order to fit in or feel like I was loved and wanted.

I remember often just not standing up for myself or even asking for my needs because I felt like such a burden and that the way I felt was not important. I thought everyone else was allowed to have wants and needs and say no, but me.

It took me some time to finally get over that, and even to this day, I am still learning how to.

📩 - Part 4 :

How To Have Boundaries

I want to start this off by clarifying that having boundaries takes time. This process is a marathon, not a race. Especially if you were someone who was never allowed to have boundaries for so long. I don't want you to leave this thread being hard on yourself and beating yourself up because you feel incapable of standing up for yourself in the ways you imagined. Everything that I just discussed in this entire post was something that took me time to understand and learn.

A good way to start off by having boundaries is by learning how to say no, and this can look like not going out that night or even just telling a friend you don't like xyz. This is the foundation for building up your confidence to then have other boundaries and how to actually be firm in them. Another thing to remember is no is a complete sentence. You don't need or have to explain yourself.

Another way to have boundaries is to get clear on yourself. On the things that make you feel safe and what doesn't. Learning yourself will allow you to teach others how to learn you too and how to adhere to your needs and wants. Make a list of all the things that you are ok with and what you aren't and then with either friends, family, or even a lover; discuss to them these things and make it very clear to them all the things that you comfortable with and what you aren't.

One other thing is don't allow people to just endlessly disrespect your boundaries. Make sure that there are consequences to their actions. Whether that be, you no longer want them in your life or you revoke access to certain parts of you with them. This can look, however you see fit, but make sure that there is a consequence. This is because doing so and following through with what you say will teach and cement to those around you that you are not playing and you mean business.

📩 - And with that being said. Thank you so much for reading through this full thread. If you did, let me know in either a note or comment what other long threads you'd want me to do next. Thank you for all the support and have a blessed day bbys.

The End

#manifesting #affirm and persist #affirmyourlife #affirmdaily #loa #manifesation #loassumption #law of assumption #boundary #boundaries #standup #self respect #selfcare #selflove #self worth #psychological #psychology

[keefsteef]

Is it weird that I wish there were more interviews of Al or Ed talking about growing up multiracial? There's probably a lot of truama there on the subject for them (especially the times they grew up in Amsterdam and the the US) but it's such an interesting part of their history. Like the part in Monk's book where in Amsterdam they had family visit and there was a clear divide between the Dutch and Indonesian parts of their family and a whole lot of tension in the room but the boys were so use to it that it didn't phase them. I read that and kinda felt it cause I'm also biracial and times are different sure but I still feel some unspoken tension when both sides of my family (rarely) are together..

Don't get me wrong! I don't want Alex to talk about something that's personal or by now he probably figures doesn't matter anyways, like not like that.

In general I feel like on the surface a lot of people don't realize how diverse Rock and Roll has been in the past, there's quite a few multiracial and POC musicians, at least more than I think someone who isn't into the genre would have thought

Not weird at all! I also wish there were more instances where they talked about it 😔 it'd be so interesting to get the experience through their side of the spectrum. That's why I'm so sad he most likely never will, but Alex writing a book would be so 😩😩😩, I'd give up an EYEBROW FOR THAT!

I'm also biracial and felt that part of the book too 😭 it's so... awkward watching the different cultures clash but still have to 'tolerate' each other if that makes sense.

I do also think lots of people aren't aware of their heritage, or choose to sort of just...brush past it. Pretty similarly like they do to Freddie Mercury! And you're right, Alex is probably thinking "who the hells gonna care if I talked about it" 😭☠️ BABE WE WOULD CARE...

Rock is definitely very diverse and I believe it always has been, it's just when the diversity isn't in the limelight, people jump to the conclusion it never existed.

Thank you for the ask, maybe I can use my manifestation powers to get alexander to do a crumb of an interview 😩 I remember when I was whining about him needing to post on his birthday and it happened, so we'll see 👺💔

#asks

[candeathbereal]

I wanna talk about the mutable moons now because as an aries sun and virgo moon I must come first so let’s do this right.

DISCLAIMER: I will be talking about my own trauma so if you do not feel comfortable reading about that it is fine to just not read either the virgo moon part of this post or if you would prefer you can just stop reading. I don’t want anyone to feel obligated to do something if they do not feel comfortable with it.

Flexibility is their Forte

Let’s start with explaining what it means to have a mutable moon in the first place. Since the moon in some way represents our emotions which is something you cannot control you can only control how you act upon them for the most part. And the mutable modality is all about being flexible and generally just vibing. Now if we look at the mutable signs (Sagittarius, Virgo, Gemini, and Pisces) most of them are not associated with expressing a wide range of emotions. I even include pisces because honestly out of the water signs they seem to be the least expressive of their emotions from what I have seen at least. Now imagine having a modality not really known for their emotions inserted into the one placement which is all about emotions. You get an interesting emotional state. Now for the most part I associate mutable moons with truama but that is not always the case. In fact I’m pretty sure most of the people who have a mutable moon aren’t traumatized or even grew up in an abusive enviroment, but it just seems interesting that most of the people who I have met with a mutable moon happen to have had a rough life starting in their childhood. I just wanted to preface that first because I don’t want anyone to get the wrong idea of what I will write in this post from here on out. Now let me go into the specifics for each mutable moon.

Virgo Moon

You know how sometimes you mess something up and you feel horrible so you either give up or strive to do better? Imagine giving up not being an option most times. That is what I feel it is like as a Virgo Moon. Now I’m sure different aspects can influence how you go about or even what you take more to heart. Now I personally have this worry about not being good enough which I have had since I was a child but my mother wasn’t really the criticizing type like I have read some post on virgo moons and their childhood. Instead I was raised by a mom who I felt responsible to take care of emotionally. I felt I had to prioritze her emotional needs over mine and I think that is how the idea of not being good enough manifested in me. It was less my mom being upset with me but instead of her using me as an example of greatness when she was scold my siblings for something like low grades or soemthing like that. It even got to the point where I felt resentful of myself to some extent for not helping them more. It was weird to me because my siblings had very decent reasons for not getting a’s and b’s on every report card. I won’t go into that because that is a very personal thing to them. Anyways this shaped me to be very critical of myself along with others because I even subconsciously feel this intense drive to be better so I need others to be better as well. Because honeslty I like being around people who are better than me but idk if that has to do with my virgo moon per say but I figured I’d include that just in case. Anyways it is not to say that people with virgo moons are inherently bossy or assholes by how critical they are of others, because I think judging others can be expressed in different ways. And I put virgo moons as more judgy than critical but depending on their mercury and mars signs would change how they express that judgement onto others so they could become hypercritical of others…

Sagittarius Moon

I LOVE SAGITTARIUS MOON I think it has somewhat to do with my sag mars but ehh. I do wish you guys would stay a realist as opposed to “optimistic”. Because I think some of you go through the stage of life where you’ll believe that any negative emotion or negativity at all will ruin your experience of life in some way. When really you could just be avoiding enjoying life without the dichotomy of sadness and happiness. Without dealing with the painful emotions the happy moments will not reach the potential they could have had. But of course not all of sag moons have had that mindset.

Moving on, I love sag moon energy they give off because they will be the person who interacts with basially anybody even if the person seems kinda unapprocable and I think it has more to do with childhood experience or even the idea that it’s better to go off the energy a stranger gives off rather than the physical things they are doing. The other placements a person has could modify in the way they act upon this idea tho. Honestly I have met a couple of sag moons with leo placements who are very outgoing and very popular. While at the same time I have met sag moons who are more to themselves but still popular in some way.

For instance, I remember meeting one of my friends in my sophomore year of highschool (Sophomore year is the 10th year/grade for my non-american readers). Anyways the teacher basically made us into groups and I got paired up with them (along with my childhood friend and someone who turned out to have gone to the same schools as we did but somehow I never met them before that point). I felt this burst of energy just from talking to them and we became friends. I had a short crush on them but eventually those feelings converted to platonic feelings i guess. Weirdly enough, I didn’t figure out they were a sag moon till like a couple years ago, and things kinda clicked for me, because before I thought I became friends so quickly with them because of their gemini sun. Honestly both gemini suns and sag moons are my instant friends most times. I love gemini placements but sag moon have a special place in my heart.

PISCES

I am just to say this I don’t have much experience with pisces moon so I will mostly say meh things, but if there is anybody with a pisces moon I would love to hear from you. Now pisces moon is still a water sign at the end of the day so although it isn’t as intense as scorpio or cancer (imo) pisces is still more connected to their emotions than the other mutable moons. I feel like pisces moons probably have this disconnecting from reality vibe to them. Pisces is connected to Neptune the expert in fantasy. Now this isn’t to say they can’t be realistic it just seems like most times they choose to avoid the reality of their emotions sometimes. Pisces is the sister sign of Virgo so unlike Virgo pisces doesn’t go rationalize their emotions or take on other people’s emotional problems to avoid their own.

Gemini Moon

Gemini moons is by far the oddest moon sign I have read about. Like bruh I love gemini placements as you know but somehow any small change in placements can change so much about a person with a gemini moon. That’s not to say every gemini moon doesn’t share similarities tho.The thing is I have only really seen a little bit of gemini moons truly exist in the same space as me. Oh also apprenlty I would have been a gemini moon if I was born on my due date. Which would have rougly been 4/20 (yes yes haha weed reference but also hitler’s birthday and the anniversary of the columbine shooting is not a birthday even newborn me wanted. They just knew something wasn’t right about me being a taurus sun with a gemini moon) but honestly I am glad I decided to be born two weeks early. It’s funny to me when i found that out because my friend since childhood is a taurus sun with a gemini moon and I love her to death. She is family to me, but we are definetly two different people from how we were raised to our looks.

Anyways moving on enough about me. Gemini moons like any gemini placemnt is truly a moment by itself to have. Without something to ground a gemini placement though they tend to be seen as flaky and all that jazz. I said “tend to be seen as” rather than they are flaky because realistically speaking flaky is not how I would describe them. I can see why other people would see them that way tho. Are gemini moons confused about their emotions because they have a tendency to change yes, but I kinda think that is all mutable moons. I think gemini moons just tend to express it around people more if that makes any sense. I have seen gemini moons that talk about their emotions in the funniest of ways.

They are the sister sign of sagittarius so let’s get somewhat into that. Sag moons and Gemini moons both don’t enjoy conflict the difference is that Sag moons need to have somebody learning from this conflict but gemini moons try to ease the tension (unless they have water placements because oof I worry for you guys). I’ll give an example of what I mean. Let’s say there is an argument between two people and sag/gemini moon just happen to be there. It could go something like this.

A: Pineapples should not be on pizza, pizza is meant to not have fruit on it.

B:Pineapples are delicious and food should not be restricted.

Sag moon would be more along the lines of “What I think A is trying to say is that they do not want to be forced to eat pineapples on pizza. Now is that to say we can’t put things on our pizza that weren’t originally intended to be on it. That can go from person to person, but what I think B is trying to say is…” (honestly imagine a teacher trying to educate the class on something lol) Now a gemini moon would go more along the lines of insert funny joke here “blah blah hehe run away.” I am sorry but I can’t really explain the difference that well but I hope you guys got what I was roughly trying to explain.

That is about all I got for now. I am going to research more about astrology and I might edit this post as I learn more.

#astrology #astro #astro posts #astro observations #astrology observations #mutable moon #Virgo Moon #virgo #pisces #gemini #sag #Sagittarius #sag moon #sagittarius moon #pisces moon #gemini moon #wow #mutable #mutable signs

[your-local-uwu-artist]

💯 HUNDRED POINTS SYMBOL — share three random facts about your oc that others may not know.

🌴 PALM TREE — does your oc have a green thumb? do they enjoy gardening?

🤍 WHITE HEART — what are three of your oc's neutral/questionable traits.

🥪 SANDWICH — what does your oc's typical lunch look like? do they usually eat lunch?

😓 DOWNCAST FACE WITH SWEAT — is your oc open-minded or stubborn? are they inquisitive or do they prefer to keep to their bubble of knowledge?

(Any ocs you want :>)

*rubs hands together* >:DDD

💯cassette: 1. despite having a sense of smell, cassette has no sense of taste 2.in (in universe) early designs for cassette, charri originally wanted cassette to be reminiscent of Ichigo/mew strawberry 3. Cassette has limited ability to experience physical sensations, and is currently "little kid making slideshow to convince parents to get them a pet" style trying to get charri to update him

💯charlotte: 1.Charlotte technically has like, dissociative amnesia, which is to say a lot of her childhood she doesn't remember properly due to truama 2.Charlotte is like genetically(?) a very, not powerful but like healthy(?) vampire, this is to say she requires less blood than most to be fully functioning (including magical abilities) esspecially less to be able to regenerate/fast healing, she also is less to prone to hunger, and more resistant and responsive to solid/human foods, and has greater potential for magical abilities 3.Charlotte's original (human) hair color was a lot more saturated and light blue than grey

🌴button the kinda guy to buy a cute airplant and not even manage to keep that alive

🤍charlotte: 1. I mean she's a vampire, she has literally killed people, yes for survival but Charlotte isn't very 'mercy-ful' to her victims, thats not even acknowledging that like, she very much could have avoided killing anyone. She's definitely somewhat sadistic. 2. what really makes 1 questionable is she's not like, horribly regreting said actions, she's very apathetic bout it and while she understands that 'killing people is not good actually' she just sorta doesn't care, while she doesn't go out of her way to harm others she would do it again with no guilt 3. she's not very nice to Jim (the boo that is likely the ghost of one of the staff from the manor) Jim literally wants only the best for her and tries to take care of her and Charlotte sorta pushes him off and generally is really insensitive towards him

🤍kaiya: these are def less questionable considering they all improve greatly post-character arc but still 1. Kaiya's kinda a jerk sometimes, very 'not like the other girls tm' she generally doesn't assume the best of people or give them the benefit of the doubt. 2. she's sorta possessive over those she does deem her friend, like doesn't like a friend of hers being friends with people that aren't also her friends, and isn't past taking advantage of a friend's kindness. 3. Kaiya is always complaining about problems she's caused for herself, Kaiya can't get past her pride and stubbornness even when it would be for her own good, she refuses to admit when she's wrong even when she KNOWS she's wrong

🥪Sunny and Daisy having picnics and lunch dates where they eat various fruits and berries and whenever they have pokebeans sunny points out their heart-shaped nfjksnfadfa. screw it ima share their favorite foods from like the foods that are in pokemon games. sunny's favorite berries are nomel and belue, Daisy's are lum and haban. their go-to drink from the lil pokemon center cafes alola has would be pinap juice for sunny and roserade tea for daisy. There's also those restaurants with z-meals throughout alola. but i'm pretty sure the options are just 3 different meal sizes. Though the battle buffer in hau'oli city does have options, Sunny would get hoen ramen and Daisy would get the rindo salad. Sunny would pick a sour malasada even over a mythical malasada, and Daisy would favor sweet and bitter malasadas. Sunny likes yellow pokebeans the best and daisy likes orange. Daisy's been to multiple regions and has talked to Sunny about all the food he should try if they ever visit. I think it'd be cute if they visited galar together, in which Daisy would like sweet bean medley curry and Sunny would like sour coconut curry. Out of sandwich recipes from paldea Sunny would like tropical sandwiches and Daisy would like smoky sandwich or noodle sandwich.

🥪Button's love for apple juice is almost irrational, like the guy will go through lengths to acquire apple juice. fnkajdak Button really likes Onigiri and seafood but in all honesty his day to day lunch is just instant microwave noodles

😓Kaiya is very stubborn, she doesn't like being talked down to at all and she feels like letting others teach her new things is like admitting their supeirior to her, this is a big part of her arc sense another character in her story, Suika is very much a mentor type character (while kaiya's the magical girl protag, suika is the 'leader')

😓Button used to be leaning to the stubbron side but post-angstera he's very open, they're also the type of person who's just absolutely mind-blown and excited and curious about the simplest things

#yumehocshi #kaiya tag #button tag #kyuchat #sunny and daisy <3 #charlotte tag #cassette

[larkawolfgirl]

Honest Feelings (DBZ)

Rating: General Audiences Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply Categories: F/M, M/M Fandom: Dragon Ball Relationships: Videl Satan/Son Gohan, Piccolo & Son Gohan, Piccolo/Son Gohan Characters:Son Gohan, Videl Satan, Son Pan, piccolo mentioned Additional Tags: Queerplatonic Relationships, Heart-to-Heart, addressing gohan's truama, videl being the number 1 wife that she has become

Summary: Videl asks Gohan about his feelings for Piccolo.

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Gohan and Videl had just moved into their new home after their wedding. Hercule had of course visited to celebrate since he had bought the house. It made Gohan want to celebrate as well.

“Hey, Videl?” he asked as they worked together on washing the dishes.

“Yes?”

“I wanted to invite Piccolo over tomorrow to celebrate us moving in.”

Videl put the plate she was holding in the drying rack. “That sounds great. Why don’t you invite everyone then? At least your parents and brother.”

“Well…” Gohan rubbed the back of his head with his wet hand. “I kind of just wanted a quieter visit. You know how my family gets.”

Videl giggled. “Yes, I do. You sure keep rowdy company, not that my father is much better.” She turned away from the sink to direct a smile at him. “But isn’t Piccolo also your family?”

A grin spread over his face. How had he lucked out finding a wife as good as her? He tugged her into a hug and lifted her up. She giggled at his enthusiasm and returned the hug.

“You really seem to get me.”

“I couldn’t call myself your wife if I didn’t try.”

Gohan continued to invite Piccolo over. He invited the rest of his family as well, but he reached out to Piccolo the most frequently. Other people would probably find it strange, but he felt closer to him than his actual family. He had spent a long time with only Piccolo for company, and he seemed to understand Gohan more than anyone else, possibly even more than Videl did. His father would never understand why he didn’t love fighting and near-death experiences. His mother would never understand why he felt the need to fight at all or why he had wanted to actually play like a normal kid rather than constantly studying. At least Goten seemed to enjoy playing and fighting and didn’t actually hate studying, but there was a gap between them. Gohan had experienced things that he didn’t want to burden him with. Piccolo, on the other hand, knew exactly what trauma Gohan had experienced. He didn’t coddle him for it, but he also didn’t make light of it the way his parents did.

Perhaps that was why he felt more at ease around him. He also just enjoyed spending time with him more. When he was with his parents, old resentments whispered whether he liked it or not. For all the harsh training Piccolo put him through, Gohan didn’t resent him for it the way he did his father.

Piccolo was also one of the most responsible people he knew. That’s why when his and Videl’s daughter, Pan, was born he trusted him the most to babysit.

Piccolo was over more often than anyone else after that. This was because he was pretty much always available, but Piccolo also loved Pan, and Gohan enjoyed watching the two of them spend time together. Gohan also just enjoyed being able to spend time with Piccolo himself.

It felt more like home when he was there with him, Videl, and Pan.

This wasn’t necessarily fair to Videl, though. It was her home as well. He was actually surprised she went along with his whims as long as she did. Finally, she confronted him about it.

It was in the evening after dinner. They were sitting on the couch and he was lifting Pan up and down to make her giggle.

“I’ve been meaning to ask for a while. You seem very close to Piccolo.”

“Yes,” he said. It sounded like there was a deeper meaning to her question which troubled him. “He’s like an uncle, you know?”

“Yes, I do,” she said, folding her hands in her lap. “I just can’t help wondering if it’s more than that.”

Gohan set Pan down on his lap. She reached her little baby hands up attempting to pull his glasses off. He laughed nervously. “What are you talking about? What more could there be?”

Videl gave him a serious look. “I just feel like you two are closer than that. How should I say this, closer than family, I mean.”

“I…” he paused, gulping. She couldn’t mean..? “I’d never cheat on you!”

She shook her head with a small smile. “Of course, I know that,” she said calmly. “I just…I just feel like your feelings for him are stronger than you admit, that’s all. I’m not mad or anything.”

“Really?” Were his feelings stronger? He had never really let himself analyze it. As a kid, he had always idealized Piccolo. He had been like a teacher and guardian, but what was he now? He was like a friend or family member, but really, Gohan felt differently about him than anyone else. He was family, but somehow closer than that. It definitely wasn’t the same feeling he had for Videl, though.

“I just want to understand, that’s all. I don’t mind that you two are close, or even that he’s over all the time. I just want you to feel like you can be honest.”

“I haven’t been hiding anything, though.”

She put one hand on his thigh and the other on Pan’s head. “I know that. I think there is a lot you don’t let yourself look at, though.”

She was probably right. Some things were just too hard to look at. Having strange feelings for an alien much older than him at a young age would definitely be one. Would it be so strange to think that he had pushed those feelings aside knowing that his mother would have killed him if she found out and then blocked the memory out? Stranger things have happened to him.

But if that was true, then what did he feel now? It wasn’t like he wanted to go kiss Piccolo.

At least, he didn’t think he did.

Besides, he already had Videl, he didn’t need more than that.

She was reading something from his face. “Take your time.”

“I don’t know,” he told her honestly. “I guess in a way I do love him. It’s not the way I love you, though.”

She nodded and squeezed his thigh. “That’s what I thought. You should probably tell him.”

“No! That’s weird!” he panicked.

Videl chuckled. “Maybe, but aren’t all of our lives weird?”

He scratched his cheek. “I suppose.”

“It doesn’t have to change anything. I just think you’d feel better being honest.”

He took a breath, noticing that his chest did feel a bit lighter just because of this conversation. “You know, I’ve always wondered if Piccolo was even capable of those sorts of feelings. Namekians in general, you know?”

“I suppose you will just have to find out.”

Gohan took her hand in his. Pan bounced her own hand on top of theirs. “I really don’t deserve you, Videl.”

She smiled. “Yes, you do, silly.”

Leaning in, he kissed her. “I love you.”

She pressed her forehead against his. “I love you, too. Strangeness and all.”

#piccolo x gohan #gohan x videl #dbz #dragon ball #dragon ball super #dragon ball z #gohan son #videl satan #my writing #fanfic #fanfiction

[anti-katsuki-lounge]

We going to talk about how BkDk stans also have this TERRIBLE habit of assuming that if you hate their ship you're homophobic? Like there Iida and Shoto as options a whole class even of other options but yeah sure let just assume they don't exist as options for Izuku. So if you hate Bakugou with Izuku you must be against gay ships.

Like no, I'm not homo I just don't like Bakugou with Izuku because he bullied him for TEN YEARS. But sure let's just ignore the truama, the abuse, and his general asshole behavior. Because CLEARLY Izuku doesn't mind he just a soft boy- Completely ignoring that Izuku has been shown to have a low self-worth still.

I do not DENY the relation they have, but I will reject the idea that they could ever have a healthy relationship in canon. That's my opinion and it does NOT mean I'm homophobic. You're just bias and think your ships the only valid one and want to infantilize Izuku.

They really do treat Izuku like he fragile and can't do anything like have they SEEN Izuku?

Agreed. Ironically most people I know who hate BkDk are part of the LGBTQ+ community themselves AND ship Izuku with males such as Shoto and Tenya. These people are definitely not homophobic.

#anti katsuki bakugou #anti bkdk #anti bakudeku #anti bakugo katsuki #anti bakugo #anti bakugou

[lucindarobinsonvevo]

What would you say are the differences between Funbus era Elle and Bower era Elle? Would you say the personality and/or characterisation is noticeably different?

I actually think about this kind of a lot >.>

I just want to be clear, I think that it is good Elle changed between Funbus and Bower era, because she went through a series of just awful life changing events and in fact it would be worse if she stayed the same.

Anyway.

I think F!Elle was a lot more emotionally open than B!Elle, and a lot more trusting of those around her. B!Elle always sees the worst in people -- Especially those she loves because she loved Robert, and he betrayed her in the worst way he could have so now she thinks that if her own triplet can do that to her, then what's stopping Donna, or Paul, or Lucas or whomever from doing that to her also? (that's my interpretation anyway)

F!Elle also does whatever she can to get out of work, while B!Elle works three jobs seemingly for fun. B!Elle is notably extremely competent compared to F!Elle. She gets solve the mystery of Zeke, which was cool I thought.

So, this is one that annoys me. Elle is presented as someone who doesn't like the outdoors in bower era, which is just canonically incorrect, because she actually loved the outdoors in Funbus, and was a noted horse rider like Cameron. I'm not sure what the purpose of this change was other than to create more random drama for Elle and Lucas. Sigh.

I think Elle also lost her edge for manipulation in the Bower era, sometimes. Like, they made her so emotionally inept that she can't manipulate people anymore, she has to rely on manipulating situations.

But, in the bower era Elle is also a lot more mature then Funbus, which would make sense because she's older and she's learned a lot since she was 19. I think it is good for her, because it allows her to set some boundaries with Paul (elle/paul funbus evil team up you will always be famous) and assist Donna where needed. F!Elle was quite childish for 19, which was on purpose to invoke a more 'Daddy's little Princess' personality. Which she also lost. Not in the sense she is no longer Paul's baby because she will always be that but in that's no longer how she views herself.

Overall, I would say the thing Elle lost most between Funbus and Bower era was her fun. in Funbus, she was such a fun character. She lost that, and became very serious and morose. Not a bad thing, just something that I really miss if I watch too many Bower episodes in a row. Her attempts to be fun in that era are just so pathetic. Elle was a party girl ratbag teen. She's canonically been drinking and sneaking out since she was 14. I hate to agree with Lucas on anything, but she did get kind of boring in 2009.

One scene I thought WAS out of character was her particularly cold reaction to Bridget's death compared to her B2B era response to Bridget being injured. It bothers me how little empathy she had here, because previously, Elle was very empathetic to those who have lost a family member. Carmella, Riley, Janae when Stingray's wall was threatened, that sort of thing. Elle is NOT a very empathetic person generally speaking but this lack of compassion just felt both out of character and so jarring to me. So, yes, I do think Elle was noticably different in the Bower Era. I think plenty of that can be chalked up to her character evolving due to undergoing massive truama and never dealing with it -- But also, i think plenty of it was just bad writing because they didn't have anything else to do with her.

Bower Era Elle is not all bad. I like when she has moments where it's like the old Elle is shining through but at the same time, I think a lot of characters (Libby, Steph, Paul, Susan, Toadie etc) went through a similar dark period at the start of the Bower era. I think Elle being the last bastion of Funbus (all other characters who were grandfathered in, except Paul who is kind of an anomaly on his own here) makes it much more apparent to me, than like in Steph, who had been trapped in her own steady decline since the breakup with Toadie, or Susan who was more or less just buying into her own hype at times

Hope this is what you were looking for!

#to be clear to me 2009 is sometimes like watching my best friend be trapped in a toxic relationship. thats what elle/lucas makes me feel. #i don't think it's all bad. I think that her emotions about kate taking Paul's attention are actually very good #and her willingness to think paul would murder his own sister is a great callback to robert #when she manages to get away from lucas i find her bower era self to be a sort of natural follow on from b2b #except for the factual inaccuracies which annoy me. like perfect blend is free. #mitzianswers #thanks for writing in! #< been forgetting to add that lately lol

[imadethisaccountforaheadcannon]

Mostly Megaman/sun & moon Should I genderbend the sun and moon show version of moon

among other things I made a genderbended version cause it's funny and moon reminds me of Artemis but at the same time she's not the same as that version but there's gonna be some unwanted flirting

Also my version pretends to be a guy which now that I think about it is a bit stupid she does it so she gets the credit and clout which for girls is harder to do.

But the sun and moon version I'm not sure would it just be a added bit of stress or would everyone sharing eachothers heads unanimously agree not to mention that moons a girl or just moon not caring what others think and just not hiding shes a girl in the firstplace.

Also the girl hiding think is only briefly mentioned my version of Sun doesent get it but he's fine with letting moon pretend to be a guy moon littrally just told them that she puts on a guy voice cause of ""No simping in the daycare,,. I tried to think and write about whatever early life truama to get moon to conclude she rather be a guy

Okay and next I'll likely be crossovering these two jesters with megaman (I think I might have the rules being so different between universes covered) but I've just been having trouble picking intros

The most completed one is Doctor Doppler finds them (Or maybe just moon and lunar) In stasis but think their mechanaloids due to how the reploids discriminate against the robots of classic era and them obviously not being robot masters (One of the reasons they don't have to follow the robotmaster rules) but this time not being a robot master backfires of them.

Doctor Doppler ties up moon while he's stile unconscious and does immunity experiments on him/her cause which mostly involve watching them fight off the maverick virus. Doctor Doppler only finds out about them only after their infected and moon spends most the time tied up and sick.

The one that's just a picture right now is protoman falling outta the daycare sky right in front of moon in the middle of the night or something first reaction is ""who's this MOFO,,. So not much different then the Sun and moon show moons reaction They do becoming friends later.

Frankly I allways wondered how Sun and moon in general would react to Wily or someone else kidnapping them (Except the SAMS version I think he'll just nope out on them mostly)

Okay last one only a bunch of words on my deviantart but one modern day either eclispe beat the crap outta sigma for clearly trying to do something to a sleeping moon and this was before lunar came along or maybe Monty could as well since I do believe he's their secret guardian I think he'll definately get mad if some stranger comes after them.

And X and Zero are throwing a silver the hedgehog and going to the past to stop eclispe showing up as a giant fusion monster and wrecking their time and timeline. Note to self have one of them kill moon and lunar with him finds out that made eclispse pissed enough to do what he did in the firstplace especially since moon would likely be helping X and Zero and then undoing it threw timetravel.

And a note so many ideas so little practise also I've only seen very little of the othershows so I might not consider them a part of this AU if I do go with the SAMS route also things need to be more dire in that case.

And to be honest I wouldn't be surprised if Golden Freddy/the government/ their creator was waiting for them to deal with their eclispses before swooping on them with the massive creation conspiracy behind them.

And honestly I think its better for this version of moon to stay a guy there would be another layer of complexity might be to difficult.

#Megaman #FNAF_Sun_and_Moon #FNAF_Sun_and_moon_Show

[froggierose]

Time for an old Seraph to ramble.

It's been a long time since I've just sat down and rambled onto a blank phone screen so here we are; I'm tired. The deep, ache, kind of tired. The Kind of tired where you're at the end of your rope, even though all you have is alittle further, but Jesus christ you're just-you're so fucking tired-you can't. You can't reach. It's so close, but you can't fucking reach, except-yes you can, you've reached farther before. And there are people there, waiting to take your hand to pull you the rest of the way, because you're not alone. You never were, and you're gonna be okay. You're gonna be so okay it's crazy, you're gonna be so okay - you didn't know you could be this happy, because you've survived all the moment you've felt this way in the past. Sure, this is your biggest wall yet but you're so fucking strong, and I believe in you. You've climbed farther than this, and on less support, you'll be okay. And I will be too. It's just really hard to remember that sometimes, yknow? Sometimes it's hard to talk over the anxiety and heart ache of purposefully choosing to end a budding generational Truama before it ruins more people. And that's okay, because of course it's hard, you're carrying other people's problems and sorting them out so you can know why you are the way you are, so you Don't end up like them, and hurt yourself or your family. And you're doing a good job, just keep pushing, you're almost there. I believe in you.

#Angus rambles #Vent #text post #text tag #This is really personal but feel free to rb if it helps you <3 #I know it helped me

[pepa-brainrot]

Safe

 Armida (oc) x Pepa x Félix

hurt/comfort 

trigger warnings: very brief mention of sexual assualt, refrences to past absive realtionship, light discriptions of selfharm (scratching) and blood. Panic attacks/meltdowns. general truama

It’s here!! I’m both very excited and very nervous. Please Please let me know what you think!! I’d love to hear what you think :)

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Armida sat on her shared bed. She had the day off, however Pepa and Félix did not. She was alone for the day. Maybe any other day she would be fine, but no one seemed to remember what day it was.

Ten years.

Ten years ago her boyfriend.. Carlos.. had sexually assaulted her in their small shared bedroom. She told herself she was over it. That he no longer had a hold on her, but she was lying. And the worst part was.. she missed him. 

He was her first love, and through all of his faults she was happy with him.. for the most part. She was willing to forgive him for everything, because who else would love her? And then she met Pepa and Félix and everything changed. She thought that maybe.. she could be loved right. But that didn't take away her feelings for him. She still cared about him after everything. 

Now sitting on the edge of the bed, only half dressed, Armida couldn't help the choked sob that left her. She immediately clasped a hand over her mouth, anything too loud and her loving daughter was sure to hear. Her whole body shook as she tried to get some sort of a hold of herself. She couldn't stop it. A loud awful sob escaped her. She knew instantly she was caught, curling into herself,she waited for the inevitable knock on the door. It took a total of five minutes, which felt entirely too long and too quick. 

"Mami?" 

She hated Dolores's gift. She hated that she could always hear her breakdown. She hated that her own daughter had to deal with it. Another knock, Armida guessed the Casita wasn't letting her in. She silently thanked it for that. 

"Mami? Please.." 

She couldn't bring herself to answer, hoping foolishly that Dolores would give up if she stayed quiet. But her body betrayed her with another sob. She dug her nails into her arms in retaliation. 

"Mami,, I'm going to get help ok? It will be ok-" the last part sounded more like Dolores was trying to convince herself. Armida just dug her nails deeper and deeper. She didn't even notice the blood start to trail down her arms. She backed herself up to the very end of the bed, putting her back to the wall. 

She didn't even know how long it was until she heard knocking again. She didn’t even respond at this point, all she could do was sob as she tried to breathe. She had moved from digging her nails into her arms to straight up scratching them, leaving long harsh lines and breaking skin. She didn't even respond to the door flying open, nor Pepa's frantic voice. Only responding when Félix put a gentle hand on hers.

She jumped, frantically trying to get away from them. They let her distance herself, until she eventually figured out who they were.

"Hola mi vida.." Pepa said softly. There were already tears forming in her eyes. Armida looked between them before letting out another sob. She leaned forward and instantly was scooped into Félix and Pepa's arms. The moment she could breathe enough to speak she did.

"I-im sorry!! I'm.. s-sorry. I.." she hiccuped, feeling like she was choking on her own words.

"Shh, amor, Mida shh" Félix gently whispered as he ran his hand through her hair. She trembled between them, unable to stop herself.

They held her like that for a while, until her sobs slowed down. Then Pepa pulled away, putting a hand on her cheek.

"Amor,, " she looked her in the eyes, she looked so heartbroken and lost. "We need to get you cleaned up ok?" She asked, knowing she still needed time before she could tell them what was wrong. Armida gently nodded. 

"Should we run you a bath?" félix asked, making her turn to him with slight fear. She hated the look he gave her. 

"I,, I don't think I c-can,, with,,,, y-you" she cringed as she said this, expecting him to blow up at her. He gently put his hand on her cheek making her look at him.

"Amor it's ok,, go with Pepi, I'll clean up the bedsheets" at his statement she looked around just noticing the mess she made of their bed. In her movement she had gotten her blood everywhere. Her eyes widened as her breathing picked up. 

"Hey hey hey it's ok, come on Mida,, let's go get you cleaned up ok?" Pepa quickly said, moving to pick up the small woman. Armida let her, sinking into her lover's arms and breathing her familiar scent. Pepa carried her to the bathroom before setting her down looking over her arms. She sighed.

"I need to go get some of Julieta's food, ok mi vida?" Armida only nodded, looking ashamed. Pepa placed a kiss on her forehead before quickly going to find her sister, asking Casita to watch over her lover. 

She returned just minutes later with a small arepa. She handed it to Armida who shivered before taking a small bite. She practically forced herself to swallow and looked over at Pepa, her arms healed. 

"Good job mi amor, gracias" Pepa thanked her with another kiss, this time to the cheek. Armida only nodded back before standing up. Pepa started the bath as Armida started to undress what few clothes she had on.  

Pepa helped her into the tub, which she had scented with lavender. Armida took a breathy sigh as the warm water took over her body. Pepa carefully lifted Armida's arm and started to clean off the dried blood that still remained. She paid extra attention to Armida's hands and under her nails. She wanted to get rid of it all so as to not possibly trigger Armida later. As Pepa worked to clean her, Armida remained generally unresponsive, and Pepa could tell she was starting to slip into dissociation. Still she talked to her, softly telling her what she loved about her, and about her day. 

Pepa finished up and went to wash Armida's hair, as she knew her wife particularly liked it. Starting out slow she gently started to massage the soap into her hair and couldn't help but smile when she felt Armida lean into her hands, finally responding.

By the time they were done, and Armida was dry and redressed, Félix had already finished changing the sheets. 

"Hey there Corazón, are you feeling better?" Félix approached slowly. Armida gave a tiny nod, before leaning slightly forward, her way of telling Félix he can embrace her. So he did. Her small frame fit in his arms nicely, and he was honestly just happy that she was ok. That she was here, with them. Safe. He slowly moved to scoop up the small woman, despite only being a couple inches taller. He carefully carried her back to their bed, putting her down and then getting in next to her. Pepa got in on her other side. “Talk to us Mida, we’re here” félix whispered looking into her eyes as Pepa wrapped her arms around her from behind, placing her chin on the top of her head. She felt Armida shudder. 

“I just.. T-today… I-” Armida sighed, trying to explain but not wanting to say it aloud. She didn't want to cry again, but she could already feel tears threatening to fall. She looked away from Félix. They didn't push her, waiting patiently for her to finish. She sighed and started again, “Today is… ten years since.. C-Ca- him” She couldn't even say his name. Not wanting to see their reactions Armida shut her eyes, thus letting some tears slip down her cheeks. She felt Pepa tense up behind her. 

“Amor.. I- we- are so sorry- we should have known-” Pepa started, but Armida shook her head, eyes still closed. She felt Félix put a hand on her cheek and Pepa pull her a little closer. 

“It.. it’s just-” Armida stopped herself, not sure she wanted to tell her partners the truth. She could feel her chest tighten and her breath quicken. Félix was quick to act.

“Mi vida, stay with us. You're safe here. You're with us.” Armida leaned toward félix a bit, and put her forehead to his. She took a minute to focus on his warmth. His hand that had moved from her cheek to her shoulder. His deep breathing. She then turned her focus to Pepa. Her arm and body pressed against her back. Her breathing was faster than Félix, and Armida could feel that her heartbeat was fast, but it was comforting in its own way. Because it was her. She was here. She was here between them, and she was safe and loved and ok. She was ok. 

“I.. I miss him-" Armida finally confessed. She felt Pepa tense up behind her, and the temperature drop. 

"..what?" Pepa asked as she removed her arm from around Armida and sat up. Armida looked at her panicked. Above them, the dark cloud that was already there was getting bigger, heavier. 

"Pepa-" Félix started, but Pepa shook her head.

"No. No-" She paused for a minute before she got up from their bed and left the room as the cloud finally opened up, pouring rain on her as she went. Félix sighed and sat up as well. Armida whimpered, struggling to breathe for what seemed like the tenth time today. Her chest ached. 

"S-she- she left.." she choked out quietly. "She..s-she hates me!" Félix once again scooped her into his arms. She didn't respond to his touch.

"Cariño no-" Félix tried to start but Armida pushed away from him.

"Then- then why did- she is upset- I knew.. I knew I s-shouldn't have- I-I.. I fucked everything up!!" Armida wailed as she pushed away from Félix further, curling up in on herself once more. She couldn't breathe. She hated herself. She knew, she knew she was terrible for missing him. She was terrible and Pepa left her. 

She started frantically scratching herself again, and this drove Félix into action. He grabbed her hands, pulling them away from her. 

"N-no!! Don't touch me!!" Armida tried to pull away but he held his grip on her. "D-Dont- get off me!" She cried, shaking her head. Félix hated it, but still he didn't let go.

"I can't Armida. I can't let you hurt yourself" Félix replied gently, and after a minute Armida stopped struggling. She sat there and sobbed as Félix held her hands. 

Pepa came back maybe a half an hour later, raining and thundering, frantic to apologize. She had makeup smudged down her cheeks. By this point Félix was sat up on the bed with Armida curled up in his lap. When she saw Pepa she flinched away from her, and Pepa's heart broke, rain pouring harder on her. She sat down next to them, far enough so that they wouldn't get rained on, and looked at Félix unsure. He gave her a look of sympathy, and nodded.

"Armida.. mi vida please look at me-" Pepa's voice shook. It took her a second but Armida looked up at her. "I'm- I'm so sorry, I acted before I thought. I didnt- I didn't understand. And I took it personally." Armida didn't say anything, part of her was still waiting. Waiting for Pepa to yell and kick her out. Pepa sighed shakily and continued, making sure to look Armida in the eyes as she spoke. She wanted her to know she meant it.

"I'm not mad at you Mida. And I love you so so much. This isn't your fault. What happened wasn't your fault. And while I didn't understand at first, I do now" Armida looked at Pepa for a minute before starting to cry again. Pepa panicked, thinking she made things worse.

"I- I love you. I do!" Armida sobbed. Her voice was quite rough at this point, hoarse from her long day. 

"I know Armida, I know. I'm sorry I made you think otherwise" Pepa said softly. Armida took a breath and outstretched her arms towards Pepa like a child. Pepa immediately brought her small wife into her arms and let out a relieved sob. After a minute Pepa pulled back to pepper Armida's face with kisses, making her smile for the first time all day. Félix watched them and smiled softly as he moved to join them. He ended up pulling them down so they were all laying in bed again, surprising Pepa who let out a yelp. Armida giggled quietly, making both Pepa and Félix's hearts leap. They both smiled as they cuddled closer to her. Armida fell asleep between them. She was safe. 

#strawberry fics #woah new tag #Armida Madrigal #fic #encanto #encanto oc #oc #pepa madrigal #felix madrigal #pepa x félix #pepa x felix x oc #encanto x oc #encanto fic