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noctivague · 2 months

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Pick a Card: Which patterns or beliefs do you need to release?

I still have a few free readings to go through but I felt like doing on of those pick a card/pile reading because ngl I consume a lot of them recently and they surprisingly work..?

Topic of the day is: Which patterns or beliefs do you need to release?

I don't care about likes are reblogs, but if you could tell me what pile you got and if it resonated, that'd be great!

How does it work?

Look at the picture, select the one that draws you in the most and go read your pile. Take what resonates and leave out the rest. These readings are meant for multiple people so all details might not resonates with your situation.

PILE 1

Cards: 9 of Swords + 7 of Cups; 3 of Cups + The Ocean; First Light: "Beginning a new Cycle" + Aletheia: Truth

There is an intense sense of inner worry, tension and despair, might even keep you up at night or give you nightmares. You have a tendency to daydream or over-focus on various things as a way to distract yourself from the situation. Like a magpie going for one shiny thing to the next, never feeling fully satisfied or stopping to settle mentally anywhere. You running away from your feelings as a coping mechanism and indulging in escapist tendencies.

The pattern in question seems to be excessive indulgence, may be partying. I see something that involves more than you, in any case. Perhaps you are using relationships/social stuations or substances. Either that, or I'm getting that some of you might be stuck in a toxic relationship or some kind.

I see you drowning yourself in harmful behaviors or situations in order not to face your emotions, over-relying on your ego, in other words, staying on the surface of the waters of your self and avoiding to look inside the murky waters.

The advice on how to release is to accept that a new cycle is starting, which implies the death of something old and rotten and the beginning of something new. Face your fears of the unknown and embrace the new cycle you are called to step into. Winter is melting away and spring is just around the corner, as long as you're willing to step into it!

You need to reconnect with your deeper self, face your own truth in order to embrace a life of authenticity and a greater sense of health (mental, emotional and physical). How are you lying to yourself? Don't make excuses, don't gaslight yourself. There is a sense that you not only need to realize that, but you also need to make a act of truth. That can be changing your behavior or acting towards something that's good for you.

PILE 2

Cards: Temperance (reversed) + 8 of Wands (reversed); 7 of Wands + Kairos "Mythical Time" + The Threshold (reversed) + The Lovers (reversed); The Chariot (reversed) + Wise Leader "You are a beacon for others"

You are currently feeling completely depleted and in need of a good rest. You also feel like there is no movement in your life, that you are stagnant, unmotivated and exhausted. You balance is out of whack and no matter what you do it seems you can never bring your energy levels back up.

The pattern to be released is your stubbornness to fight through everything with sheer willpower alone, which is not possible since your inner fire is depleted. You are also in some way trying to prove other people something but it's suffocating you. There is a sense that you are fighting against the timely order of things, that you are not accepting that some things take time and patience to progress and change. You are being asked to change your ways but there is a great rigidity coming from you when it comes to that. The Lovers here I think indicate a choice of you to do things differently that you are refusing to make, which causes disharmony and imbalance between the different parts of yourself. Perhaps the core issue is also you trying to keep a balance between you and other people, but it's a very toxic situation because you are sacrificing yourself in the process.

You can face this pattern by releasing your underlying fear of failure that is pushing you to run yourself on overdrive. There is also a sense that you are indecisive and struggling to make the choices that will bring back into balance (also indicated by the Lovers). I get the sense that your restless energy is making you run around in circles, completely wasting your sense of direction.

The overall advice is to grab the reins of your life, be your own leader and stop trying to please others and compare yourself to unattainable standards. You need to take care of yourself first and foremost, listen to your own rhythm. Life is not a race and you've got time to figure your shit out, but you need to heal yourself first.

PILE 3

Cards: 2 of Wands + Queen of Wands; 7 of Swords (reversed) + The Temple + The Underworld; Page of Cups (reversed) + Choosing your Path "All is possible" + Wondrous Universe "Walk in Beauty"

Just a heads up but I feel like this is the spiritual pile.

Your current situation is that you are seeking something that is missing, be it some type of truth about yourself or the universe. However it seems you are not in possession of your own power and you are looking in the wrong direction. The Queen of Wands is a really strong card signifying personal wisdom and power, but in this position, it's like you don't see it and you're giving it away. The cat is the only one who's looking forward so I get that deep down you know that something is not right, but it's buried deep within in the darkness.

When it comes to the pattern at hand, it seems you are not listening to your own inner voice and relying too much on external advice which might be misleading. Again, with the Temple I'm getting that you are looking in the wrong direction, that you are not listening to yourself and your own guidance but rather focusing on something that is untrue for you. Perhaps even you are relying on your spirituality too much and it's making you lose touch with your physical life. The Underworld signals being in denial about the warning signs about this situation and that you are avoiding walking on your own path.

The advice on how to release that pattern is to stop over-relying on external spiritual wisdom. You might need to detach yourself from a negative influence.

Remember that you are free and that you should not accept the rules and expectations placed on yourself by others. You need to move forward and embrace the infinite form of goodness of life that you seem to have forgotten. Reclaim your power. There is beauty all around and within you and it's time to see it. Reconnect with the wonders of life, of nature, of love in all its form. Only then you'll be able to move foward again.

PILE 4

Cards: Justice + The Sun + Ace of Pentacles (reversed); The Moon + The Mirror; 3 of Pentacles (reversed) + Ascending the Mountain "Keep going forward" + Wise Leader "You are a beacon to others"

It seems you are struggling to make a decision and seizing the opportunities offered to you. I get a sense that you are overly positive about something in a slightly delusional way and you are struggling to have a balanced outlook on your situation, which is making you miss out on something else that's actually beneficial for you. The Sun is usually a super positive card but in this context, I feel like the light is so bright that what you see is becoming hard to see and out of focus.

What needs to be released is signified by the Moon, which again speaks of illusions cast by yourself and your beliefs. This is also shown by the mirror. Mirror can shatter and distort reality, so I think this is really speaking of something you're currently doing or believing that is not real. You are failing to see the truth of the situation.

The way to release that is to realize that you need to be willing to open up, be truthful with yourself and learn from your mistakes. All hope is not lost though, far from that! You have the strength to carry through, you just need to find the determination to move forward and put in the work and diligence. You might not make a linear progress and feel like you're making three steps forward and two steps back, but you must continue regardless.

Don't hold back and honor your truth. There is a well of wisdom within you but you need to be willing to tap into in, be brave, and make the decision to shatter the lies you either tell yourself or are being told. At the end of the day you are the one in charge, you are the one in power, but you need to learn to be truthful, authentic, and make informed decisions.

#pick a card #pick a pile #tarot reading #pick a picture #pac reading #pac tarot #pick an image #tarot

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kitorin · 10 months

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what a time.

contents. 2.084k words, hurt no comfort, gaslighting, angst, doubting reality, really toxic in general, middle and high school au, unestablished relationship, nudity (kind of??)

Annoying.

If someone were to ask you about Michael Kaiser, that's how you'd answer.

Other valid adjectives were insufferable, irritating and infuriating. And honorable mentions went to vexing and exasperating.

He's always been that way, talkative and you'd daresay even clingy, from the day you first met him, in the middle of class amidst chaos and excitement.

"Hey."

"Hello?" Entering high school was already scary enough, you certainly did not want to deal with your social awkwardness and an unfairly tall blond man you've never spoken to before.

Despite starting it, he didn't continue the conversation, cerulean, unreadable eyes only staring. It was unsettling, and was beginning to make you a bit worried.

His lips curved into a mischievous smirk, before walking away.

Needless to say, he was weird.

That odd interaction from him, was the initiation of whatever peculiar relationship the two of you had.

"How do you like your coffee? You seem like someone who likes it really dark" He turned around during math class randomly just to ask you.

"May I squish your cheeks?" A bizarre request which you didn't even answer to since you were too shocked to respond.

"I shall not let you people ruin their innocence." A peculiar announcement after realizing you didn't understand sexual jokes.

You weren't exactly close friends. You didn't text each other outside of school or sit with each other every single class. Not once have you ever hung out outside of school.

Yet he still lingered on the boundaries of friends and lovers.

It's a vivid memory, hard to forget. You and your classmates were lined up against a wall, waiting for a teacher.

"Hey y/n." Your teeth bite your lip nervously at the inevitable conversation that was going to occur.

"Yes-?" Kaiser barely gave you an opportunity to respond, as you're now pressed up against the wall, long arms trapping you.

He didn't say anything. Only maintaining eye contact with you, sapphire boring into your soul. You don't say anything either, as the rest of the class swoons over this dramatic gesture.

The awkward atmosphere remains, and the first instinct you had was to slap him. Out of surprise he cupped his cheek, but still laughed joyfully. It wasn't necessarily hateful strike but rather a flustered one.

But even then he came crawling back to annoy you.

"I hate him." You tell your friend after another period of dealing with Michael's clinginess. This time, he was asking you what you'd do with a million dollars ("Go to Japan, theoretically that'd be the best because of currency conversion rates.") and started an argument about whether a million dollars was truly a lot or not with the surrounding classmates.

"Why's he so obsessed with you? It's been like this since forever." Given that your friend was also in the same class as both you and Kaiser they witnessed his behavior first hand. "He's so weird."

You hum with agreement as you watch him run off to Ness and the rest of his friend group.

It's been years, years of his clingy attention and affection towards you (or as your friend labelled it, 'obsession').

Years, yet you still find yourself pondering why, why act like this, why you? Why were you receiving this treatment? He wasn't this nice to people unless they were close friends, typically he'd rudely dismiss others. You had better things to worry about, such as the transition to university and what you were planning to do with your future, yet the question of why remained strong in your mind.

It's not like this behavior made things any easier for you. In fact it was only amplifying your confusion.

It's stuffy inside the fitness lab, with the constant slam of weights and chattering (of your PE classmates). Nothing particularly exciting happened in here, all you did was workout whilst gazing into the glass panel, which exposed the contents of the cycling room. Gazing wasn't even the right word, you were zoning out, paying no attention to the world around you.

That was, until you noticed someone exposing their stomach inside the cycling room, with someone else reaching out for their abs. Of course it had to be Kaiser.

The event pulled you out of your daze, the boy with Kaiser having an embarrassed and flustered expression, while yours was pure shock. You did not want to see that. Nor needed to.

As if the situation wasn't weird enough, Kaiser pushes the boy aside, all while maintaining eye contact. As per usual, his aquamarine eyes still evoked that unsettling emotion within you.

And then. His hand grasps the rim of his jacket and shirt, slowly lifting up.

You're quick to realize what his intentions were, and immediately cover your eyes, to save yourself from embarrassment and discomfort.

It's been hours since then. Difficult ones.

You're now in bed, and supposed to be sleeping soon, but the curiosity and panic of your thoughts won't permit that.

Something's clearly wrong. Michael Kaiser's antics were always burnt into your mind due to how memorable they were, but never before had they consistently replayed.

Now you're the odd one. Why couldn't you stop thinking about the incident in the fitness lab?

Why would he do that?

What if, you didn't look away-?

You face plant into your pillow, disgusted at the possibility of wanting to see underneath.

What is wrong with you. You hate him. A lot.

But no matter how long you spend rambling about how annoying he was and your loathing for him, it wasn't legitimate or spiteful hate. It's not the kind of 'hate' you experience because of the harsh education system or any of the bullying that occurred here. It was more, more like...

You can't put your finger on it. And that's another thing you really do hate. The difficulty of fully comprehending and understanding Michael Kaiser's actions and intentions.

That, genuinely frustrates you.

An attempt is made to stabilize your breathing and to quell the violent pounding of your heart, and it fails. Badly.

And you're back to the incident in the fitness lab, almost dying of curiosity of what the hell was going on in Kaiser's head.

As a response your face burns, the warm sensation causing you to bury your face in the pillow, as if it'd eradicate this new emotion of yours.

There's no point in avoiding it now, but as you slowly realize what may be going on, a mix of dread, embarrassment, and surprise churn inside of your stomach.

You, like Michael Kaiser, the Kaiser who had been obsessing over you ever since the start of middle school...?

And as if the universe was transpiring against your confusion and denial, you began to recall moments with him.

The small ones, where he'd ask about your younger siblings with great interest, as well as wish for their success of getting into classes for the academically gifted. Or how he'd try to convince you to play first person shooter games with him and Ness (you declined due to not having the right devices for video games).

The grander ones too. Like the tense kabedon (he was probably feeling great about himself as you panicked during those few moments), or that one time outside of English.

The half exposed corridor engulfed with cold wind, as the open hallway provided the (always) beautiful view. The coast was on display, waves of ultramarine and navy regularly swallowing the sand, with dots of boats bobbing up and down with the currents. The rest of the view was adorned with the residency nearby, clouds decorating the sky and the sun shying away behind said clouds.

It felt great, as you hurried to English. It was easy to feel at peace, with the wind caressing your hair and face, the cool sensation juxtaposing the warmth of your uniform.

But that tranquility was soon disturbed, as you heard Kaiser yell, shamelessly, as if he didn't care about anyone else hearing.

"y/n l/n, I love you !"

The claim had flustered you so much that your legs ended up walking as fast as possible, wanting to avoid being caught blushing and stuttering. A cheeky giggle followed his bold exclamation.

It's his fault. Not yours, you simply tried to exist normally, go to school normally, and be educated normally. It's his fault, not yours, he's the one who's been spending his time on you.

You've calmed down. At least that's what you've convinced yourself, but your heart still beats ever so intensely.

Maybe it wouldn't be too bad to reciprocate his affection?

Sure love was foreign to you, but after all the endearment from him, it was only proof of how good you are together, right?

The idea of giving into liking someone was uncomfortable, in fact it was almost horrifying.

But isn't that the point? Vulnerability is scary but the risks of love are supposed to be fruitful and worth the effort.

"Look, are you sure you meant something to him?"

Kira, an old friend asked, skeptical of what you told him. This year you had gotten closer, and decided it was a smart move to tell him, given that they were both on the soccer team which could've helped. But your prediction was sadly incorrect.

"Of course I do, I just don't know what happened to him recently and wanted to ask, but I won't ever get a moment with him alone."

With apprehension and timidity strangling you, you found it difficult to approach him without letting others know of the conflicting emotions within you. Frustratingly, Kaiser was never alone.

"But are you sure?"

His doubt only tightened the anxiety suffocating you. Why wouldn't an old friend of yours believe you?

"Of course-"

"Are you really sure though, you're overreacting, it's not like you were in love."

"B-" But he said he loved me. Obviously, it was a while ago, but the all the interactions between you two weren't mere fragments of your imagination.

"Look, you must be going crazy, you're remembering stuff wrong. And I'm sorry, but the other day he told Isagi that you were all his."

You weren't sure whether to feel heartbroken at the possibility of you being simply delusional, or the last part of his statement.

But there's no way you were crazy, nothing was wrong with you. You could accept a one sided crush, but this?

You didn't make anything up. You know that really well, but the chance that you're simply just mentally deranged scares you. Because, what if Kira's right? That meant all that time with him weren't real, that you're only someone in the background, remaining unloved.

You ignore that thought. At least try to. Because you couldn't have imagined that sort of attention from another anyways, and you deserved to have your story heard, and not to start struggling to understand reality properly.

You feel like a fool. A pathetic one.

Because no matter how hard you clung onto those heart warming memories, it didn't change the bitter coldness of your current reality. It's not like you were trying to force reciprocation, you just wanted one thing. Closure.

It didn't even take long. Years of you and Kaiser seemed to disappear, without explanation, and it was his fault.

The swooning and fangirling over you two dissolved to shocked "Kaiser's spoken to you before??"s and your friendship dissipated into nothingness; mere classmates who never talk.

It hurt. All of it did. The death of your relationship with him, and how no one seemed to remember. The fact that you went from a significant part of his school life to a background character. While you were in pain, he was living life as if he'd never met you.

Before you knew it everything had changed.

The begging for school help and academic compliments became unnecessary insults and shit talk of calling you a bitch for having high standards for your grades.

Hours of badminton and admiration of your skill harshly converted to dismissal of your presence and abilities.

Playful declarations of you being his soulmate turned into him inflicting huge discomfort with his insensitive words.

The passionate "I love you" had disintegrated into nothing, turned into ashes of mere acquaintances and distant classmates.

The unserious "I hate him" had become a genuine one, real hate blossoming within your soul and hurt forever blemishing your heart, as you watch him remain completely unscathed, grinning ear to ear as if nothing happened.

#blue lock #blue lock x reader #bllk #bllk x reader #michael kaiser #bluelock #alexis ness #michael kaiser x reader #michael kaiser x y/n #michael kaiser x you #hurt no comfort #michael kaiser angst #michael kaiser blue lock #michael kaiser bllk #angst #oneshot

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lynmars79 · 23 days

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Spahr & Costigan

Now that we've finally properly met Olga Costigan, it explains much about Jonas. I do hope some of the "clarity" he received is "this was a toxic, abusive relationship" (the thrown plant, the "look what YOU made me do", what struck me as gaslighting about how the Fleit situation went down) and how that unwittingly affected his own mentorship of Phineas, among many other things.

It feels like he's finally seeing her clearly for the first time, which is what he came for just not expecting this outcome.

Yes, Jonas was there during the Fleits' Breach. He does know what happened. As he now is questioning everything he thought he knew, after everything that happened on Midst, those memories are very re-contextualized, I think.

Jonas has a sense of right and wrong, we've seen it--but his conviction to that sense has been warped by the Trust and the authorities over him (which we definitely saw in the Arca in S2 E13).

Much like how Phineas looks for an authority figure to tell him what to do and to grant him approval, Jonas tends to bend to authority, to the rules, of what's considered proper and good for the Trust. He's not considered another way before.

Until now, when the very system he fought to uphold threw him under the bus. When he's seen horrific acts committed in the Trust's name by its most devout adherents. And realizing he's never questioned it, because it never affected him, or his own account.

And how is that Valorous?

Also we finally know what happened to Fleit Jr's parents. It's interesting they were considered in Breach, given the wealth of Valor the family has. They couldn't simply leave; that'd be an embarrassment for Milton Senior. Was Magdalyne involved in the Breach network herself? It seems likely, and she's certainly not the only Upper Trustee to get involved.

And that incident five years prior led to S1 E3 with Ginsberg. It led the Trust to Midst and the Breach activities there (I want more of the transcript the appendices hint at!), perhaps even explaining why such a high ranking Notary like Imelda would be sent, a woman who seems harmlessly peppy and sweet, but has an uncanny ability to learn personal details and a ruthlessness of her own (I have more on her for later). So many things tying back to early episode events, lines, hints that had no context...and now a spotlight is being shown on them to tie it all in.

And Jonas, finally, seems to be connecting those dots as well.

#Midst #podcast #midst spoilers #midst podcast #Jonas Spahr #Olga Costigan #Magdalyne Fleit #lore #backstory #character analysis #scheduling this cuz I'm ahead

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bokatan · 9 months

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💖 Sweetjane for both Reed and Mercy?

Send a 💖 and I’ll tell you what a relationship would be like with my character

Reed:

How likely they are to enter a relationship with them:

1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6* | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10

They more than likely wouldn't explicitly enter a relationship unless Sweetjane proposes it. Reed's the type that'll play chicken with relationships indefinitely because he has commitment issues and putting actual titles onto relationships is scary.

Would they…

Make the first move? Yes | No

Say “I love you” first? Yes | No | Maybe

Reed would likely say something along those lines unintentionally or without realizing it, then backpedal hard if questioned about it.

Cheat on them? Yes | No

Be the jealous type? Yes | No

Plan the dates? Yes | No

Initiate the first kiss? Yes | No

Remember anniversaries? Yes* | No

He’d remember anniversaries, but it's not intentional and he doesn't make a conscious effort to do so.

BOLD WHAT APPLIES:

Their Relationship Is:

PUBLIC Displays of Affection:

Reed would be more openly affectionate if there wasn't concern about fraternization rules and all that.

PRIVATE Displays of Affection:

Do they stay together?

the "something" keeping them apart is Reed's commitment issues that cause him to take off whenever he thinks he's getting too attached or if there's Too Many Feelings involved. Pretty much the only things that'd probably resolve this and give them a chance at staying together would be 1: Sweetjane sits his ass down and they have a very long come to Jesus chat about his issues or 2: Mercy gets involved.

Mercy:

How likely they are to enter a relationship with them:

1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10

Would they…

Make the first move? Yes | No

Say “I love you” first? Yes | No

Cheat on them? Yes | No

Be the jealous type? Yes | No

Plan the dates? Yes | No

Initiate the first kiss? Yes | No

Remember anniversaries? Yes | No

BOLD WHAT APPLIES:

Their Relationship Is:

They'd technically be dealing with the same fraternization rules mentioned in Reed's given that they're all in the Railroad, however 1: Mercy doesn't care and 2: Mercy's a tourist while Reed's an agent, there's probably more leeway since Mercy's working as a volunteer and messenger there rather than as an actual agent.

PUBLIC Displays of Affection:

PRIVATE Displays of Affection:

Do they stay together?

If they were to split up, they'd still be friends afterwards - I don't think they'd intentionally break up though.

#ask games #thank you!!<3 #reed tag #mercy tag #reedxsweetjane vibes #mercyxsweetjane vibes #reedxmercyxsweetjane vibes #ship: reed x sweetjane #ship: mercy x sweetjane #ship: reed x mercy x sweetjane #bleu: sweetjane

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catgirl-catboy · 1 year

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Everyone asked everything and now I'm here, asking Danganronpa Another (2 counts too) like it is not a fangame of another game lol.

Danganronpa another: 1, 2, 6, 8, 10, 12 and 23

1.) the character everyone gets wrong

I already mentioned it, but Nikei comes in first place, and by a longshot. He's not actually a loveable, slightly perverted ditz, thats an act to make you drop your guard. He's quite intelligent in how he manipulates the group, and is arguably the heart and soul of the operation. Mikado is OP, but he does not have enough social skills to get 5 people to work together long enough to pull that shit off. I feel like Yuki would not have fallen into despair without him planting that seed of doubt in the group. (also, he was 100% behind the motive videos, since that doesn't seem like Mikado's M.O at all.)

2.) a compelling argument for why your fave would never top or bottom

Don't really have one, since there isn't really enough fandom smut for me to notice trends?

People uwuify Nikei so much, so maybe bottom Nikei is part of that? Could just be his facade though. He's so good he manipulated most of the audience.

6.) which ship fans are the most annoying?

I've got to say Hibiki x Setsuka. Do I ship it, yes! Are most of the fans woobifying Hibiki to the point of making her OOC and hating on Kanade in an unfun way. Also yes.

8.) common fandom opinion that everyone is wrong about

"Mikado is abusive to Nikei, you shouldn't ship them!!!"

you do realize Nikei is also bad, and their relationship would likely be mutually toxic? Nikei was going to KILL Yuki to get to Mikado. You know that, right? If it was anybody else, that'd be called Yandere behavior.

10.) worst part of fanon Honestly, the fact that Teruya gets the Toko treatment. It is so hard to find Dra content with Teruya's canon personality.

(As in, his character is vastly different between the two games he's in, and people exclusively characterize him like the second game.)

the second worst thing is human Mikado. He's Mikado, but a normie. You could have done so much more with him, and you didn't.

12.) the unpopular character that you actually like and why more people should like them I wouldn't say Kanade is unpopular, just controversial. I hate that fans completely ignore what a piece of shit she is (affectionate) or completely ignore everything else about her. Can I enjoy both aspects of Kanade? Please?

23.) ship you've unwillingly come around to

Sorako. I shipped Yoruko x Setsuka my first playthrough, and Sorako fans are annoying about how canon their ship is. I like the dynamic, but I still think its overhyped.

Also, Yoruko's character revolves around Sora too much for my personal tastes. Let her do things! Either that, or explore the dependency issues she's got.

#ask tag #ask game #crowtalks

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zeglythofficial · 3 months

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Unshiping couple anon here.

Let's call this couple A and B so it'd be easier to follow along with it.

A being the female and B being the male. They met in a TV show but never got together in it, but were very close friends that'd constantly say how much they loved each other.

Once the show ended a bunch of stories of them being an item started coming out and a part of the fandom did what fandoms do best and started invading their privacy and doing a bunch of shit they definitely shouldn't do like hacking their phones, making fake news about them up and so on.

Well, after a fake news that broke talking about how she was disappointed that he allegedly ask to meet other women he was obviously angry and made a story telling point blank he and she were never bf/gf and that they never got together which BTW is a lie but that's besides the point

After that people starting say incredibly abusive stuff about him, telling to k*ll himself, wishing that he'd die and all that horrific stuff.

Months have passed since that happened but another fake story broke that started the whole shit again, and yet again she didn't say anything, do anything and the only thing she did was let her fans know she was taking action but I know for a fact that isn't because of the hate he's been getting but ro save face.

I know for a fact they are in a situationship behind the scenes, but the more I think about it the angrier I get about the fact she knows most of her fans are doing this shit and still constantly interacts with them and tries to compare us (the known shippers with this sort of people).

And I know they are also in different places of their lived, which is fine, she just started her influencer career while he had an established career already, but I get this sinking feeling that she's just so comfortable in his love for her that's she's stringing him along even if she doesn't realize it yet.

Do I necessarily think she should say something to her piece of shit fans who keep haressing someone she once called her friend? I don't know, bur she's been constantly disappointing me for months now and I don't know if I'm exaggerating or not

Hi Anon, I read this a few times to try and give my honest perspective.

A and B sound like a young couple? Maybe age gap? You mentioned A was an influencer so I’m assuming she’s on the younger side?

Either way, it sounds like A is letting this fake drama carry on for attention? Some people thrive in drama because it keeps people talking about them. It could be A doesn’t know how to address it and is tired of everything so she’s letting it continue without addressing her fans? A might be scared of the hate coming towards her if she tells her fans to stop

Sounds like B doesn’t really like her if he denies being in a relationship with her? It sounds like they have an on and off again type relationship which is toxic. And her fans are fueling drama by not having any boundaries. B might be disappointed and angry with A, more hurt about the situation.

Unfortunately this is typical fandom drama.

So I would advise you to:

1. Slowly distance yourself from the fandom and drama to leave permanently. Since the TV show ended, the fandom will naturally die down anyways and the real shippers will remain.

2. Temporarily leave the fandom until the drama is over or A and B officially end their situationship so at least you have closure. Take a break mentally if you need to.

3. Maybe not the healthiest advice but find a new fixation. I’m serious. It’s easier said than done but put your energy into something else/ a different fandom

4. Accept that you no longer like A so her nonsense doesn’t disappoint you.

To me, you’re no longer a fan of hers and you’re sad / angry about it because you thought she was better than what she’s currently doing.

The disappointment will pass eventually. I don’t think you’re exaggerating - your feelings are very valid.

#my answers #off topic

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icharchivist · 10 months

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it's unlikely but maybe Lucilius turning on Belial like that could prompt him to finally join up with the crew in the same way Beelzebub did when Belial turned on him, especially if everyone ends up realizing how fucked up his situation is and trying to rescue him from getting obliterated by his abusive crush--

god imagine if Belial had enough self respect to actually do that. alas.

Though one way i could see it is if they frame it as Lucilius going out of his mind a little, like, corrupted by something. Granted he would have treated Belial all the same otherwise, but if Lucilius does it even more because of another reason, Belial could team up with the crew temporarily in order to "find a way to bring Faasan back to normal".

("but Belial he still hits you back to normal" "yeah but still :(")

But the whole crew trying to have Belial realize he's stuck in an abusive relationship thanks to this initiating incident would be nice, esp if they manage to get rid of what "corrupts" Faasan and he's just as abusive as ever. I could see it being a moment where Belial is like, recoiling, thinking of joining the crew.... and then his bad habits just get the better of him again and he switches side again.

Except this time the crew has seen him trying to be better and just catches on on his toxic habits and perhaps therefore it can leave a door opened for Belial to come back if he questions the abuse long enough.

I'm going with that idea bc if Lucilius is just regularly abusive i don't see it being a wake up call for Belial, he's so used to it 😭

But just something SLIGHTLY off to force him to seek for something better enough that it actually makes him reconsider his normal? That could work.

That'd be nice at least 😭

#ichareply #ichafantalks gbf #anonymous

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redd-luna · 2 years

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Prompt number 30 for cc!Dream (Please open the door)

Cc!Dream x female!Reader

T.W. - Panic attacks, swearing, implied past abusive relationship (please let me know if I need to add something else )

Tagged: @mcytwheeze

Angst to fluff

Pronouns: no specified

Notes: I am actually so nervous, this is my first story and hopefully I don't fuck it up

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I was visiting my parents, they didn't live in Orlando however, so I had to take an hour long roadtrip. It was their wedding anniversary after all, the least I could do was go and visit them. Hugging my boyfriend Clay, better known as Dream online, I reassured him saying "I'll be back soon alright." Smiling he nodded, but still added "If you're not back by six then I'm coming to get you" I simply sighed and shook my head, despite this I had a lovesick grin on my face. He had no idea what he did to me, did he. Kissing him on the cheek I finally left our home. Taking a deep breath I got into my car, turning on the music I couldn't help but smile as the first song that came on was "Mask" by Clay himself. This was going to be a fun ride.

(Time skip)

Halfway there, I realize that I completely forgot to buy a gift for them! Now my parents aren't materialistic people, but, quite frankly it'd be rude for me to not buy them a gift on their bloody anniversary. Looking around I found an crystal shop. That'd be perfect! My parents like to check horoscopes and they loved to tell me the meaning of different crystals.

Quickly parking my car, I entered the shop I looked around for the shopkeeper. After a couple minutes I found an old lady dusting the shelves, "Excuse me" I said to grab her attention, she looked at me and smiled "could you show me some orange carnelian and rose quatrz?" She nodded, the crystals were beautiful, while the lady went to fetch the crystals, I admired the area around me, it was breathtaking. Mrs. Choi, as it said on her nametag, returned fairly quickly, bringing me two beautiful sets of necklaces, both had an orange carnelian and a rose quatrz. I nodded quickly "how much will that be"

After paying for I started to return to my car, however I saw a person I hadn't ever wanted to see again.

Nathaniel. My ex.

He was standing at the entrance of the shop.

Now some may say that it's normal for you to bump into your ex every once in a while. But our story wasn't one I ever wanted to relive.

Our relationship was......toxic to say the least. I was always alarmed and flinched the moment someone even came close to me. Clay had helped me out of that mind-set, but that had taken almost two whole years. If I were to think back to how bad it was, I'd probably ease myself back into that mind-set, another thing I never wanted to happen.

I tried to hide my face as I neared the exit, but unfortunately I wasn't lucky. "Y/N?" A voice questioned, cursing under my breath, I decided that my best bet was acting clueless "Oh hello there! Do I know you..?" I said, trying my best not to sound monotonous or scared. "It's me. Nathan, you remember me right baby?" I had to physically refrain myself from cringing at the all too familiar pet-name. When Clay said it, it felt normal, when Nathaniel said it, however, it felt insincere, sickly sweet almost. Scratch that, it was definitely sickly sweet, emphasis on sickly.

"I'm sorry but I think you're mistaking me with someone else" I said as politely as I could. His expression morphed into anger. "Listen here you bitch, you know who I am, and if you had any common sense, you'd return back to me. After all, I'm the only one who loves you." He said, ending his sentence with a smirk. The sentence almost made me want to pull his bright red hair out. "Sir I'm sorry, but like I said I have no idea who you are. Now please move." I said, pushing past him. Right as I was about to exit the store a hand came in contact with mine "Last chance baby...." He said in a sing-song voice. I jerked my hand away from his grasp and gave him a hard glare.

Tears started forming in my eyes. I couldn't pin point any emotion I felt, the only thing I knew they weren't good. I entered my car, on the point of a break down and began fumbling with my phone, the second I managed to open it, I called the first contact I could even slightly make out. The person on the other side picked up after two rings "Y/N?" it was Clay, and I immediately became a bit calmer, but not enough to stop my break down "I- C-Clay-" I couldn't even form a complete sentence, I was crying too much. "Hey hey hey, breathe with me okay, Y/N/N" I nodded, even though he couldn't see me. I tried to level my breathing, but it seemed impossible, I tried to forget about my previous interaction with.....him. "Okay, can you tell me where you are?" He questioned, I could faintly hear a door slamming on his side "I-Um-I'm near a crystal s-shop uh" "Okay just talk to me okay, I'll be there in 15 minutes." "I-Its half an hour away though?" I said, confused. "Be there in 15." He stated.

He kept his word, 15 minutes later, I had significantly calmed down. I heard someone knocking on my car door. "Hey Y/N, please open the door" He said smiling I nodded, while unlocking it. Telling him what happened was easier in person, by the time I was finished, he seemed like he wanted to hit something, or more specifically, someone. Taking a deep breath he stated "I'm coming with you to your parents house." I knew for a fact he wouldn't budge so I simply nodded. My parents loved him so that wouldn't be an issue. It was an interesting anniversary to say the least.

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Holyyyy-

Why the hell did that take so long. I think it's pretty obvious I got lazy at the end but oh well

#dream smp #mcyt fandom #fanfic #dream x reader #x reader

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im weak for scenarios where the boys lust after a teacher!reader. Epel's the sort of boy that'd use his adorable looks to make her lower her guard and then..you know ;) ;)

I am equally as weak too, Darling (╥﹏╥) I can feel it in my KNEES.

Warnings : Non-Consensual Touching | Yandere | Toxic Manipulation | One-sided Teacher-Student Relationship

He’ll definitely pull that one stunt he did in Chapter five where he pretends to be all vulnerable and weak just so he could take advantage of Darling’s weakness.

Like— Yume can definitely see Apple boi purposely failing his class to catch Sensei Darling’s attention. It’ll either be you who approaches him about it or Epel himself if he’s impatient enough. With just a few tears and pitiful sniffs here and there, Darling Sensei will instantly be alert and comfort him about it. He’ll eventually get you to teach him afterschool, going to your office sometimes unannounced and becoming a full-blown teacher’s pet. He’ll listen to you talk religiously with a beautiful smile that never leaves his face, and even asking for a few questions just so he could scoot closer to you and feel your skin against his.

This behavior would only get worse in the time of his birthday as of course, you’d be invited but oddly enough— I don’t see Epel doing anything DURING the party. The real time where this boy shines his desires is right AFTER the celebration where he’ll personally invite you to his room. You’d have no choice on the matter, he was begging for you to come and teach him that one principle in alchemy since he has an exam next week! Maybe it’s just your teacher’s intuition and morals, but you just can’t ignore a struggling student, especially on his birthday. So, you get in his room, noticing subtle details like how neat and quiet it is as his roommates where nowhere to be found, but not noticing how Epel had to cover his mouth to hide an excited smile as he swiftly locked the door with a silent click.

You don’t know when or how, but you would soon notice that this little study session doesn’t seem as...normal as before. For one thing, Epel doesn’t seem to be listening to you anymore and with his cheeks resting on his palm, you initially thought that he was becoming sleepy. But when you were about to call it a day, you instantly noticed how much his eyes were burning into you. He’d smile like before once you started to call out for him, but it was obvious that there is definitely something off about him. “Sensei, are you going already?” He’d ask as soon as he noticed a shift in your breath, his tone disappointed with his eyebrows scrunching together in sadness.

You gulped, knowing how weak you are when it comes to a student’s puppy eyes. “Yes, but maybe we can continue this tomorrow? You should get some rest.” This was when you started realizing how rushed you sounded like, your tone of voice was too similar to someone who just wants to leave this place as soon as possible. You sincerely hoped Epel didn’t notice, but of course, it didn’t seem to escape him at all as he placed a hand over yours as soon as you tried to stand up from your seat.

“You’re leaving...? Already?” He’ll pout his lips, eyes shining as if tears were about to come out soon. “But we still haven’t gotten to that part yet, Sensei.”

Now, that got you confused. Part? What part? You’d rack your head for what he was talking about and how that confusion shows upon your expression so clearly just...amuses Epel to the core. I feel like this would be the point where he wouldn’t be able to keep up the weak boy facade anymore and lets out a condescending snort, still trying to cover his mouth. “Cute.” He’d say, which would instantly catch you off-guard as chills ran up your spine. But whether he slips up or not in that moment doesn’t matter, all you need to know is that he’s prepared for it and now that you’re in his room, you’re not leaving until you give him that one present that only you can give.

He’ll trap you; he won’t even let you move an inch from where you’re seated and you wouldn’t be able to because he’ll move faster than you can expect. Capturing your lips before you could even think was his first move, putting his hand on each of your shoulder to keep your body down and viciously attack you with his tongue. You’d probably widen your eyes and try to move away, struggle, or anything that can get you out of this dangerous situation but Epel knows how to use the advantage he has. He knows how you won’t hit or use magic against him because that’s not the kind of person you are, you won’t ever hit a precious student of yours. The whole world will judge you for it, and your pride wouldn’t allow that.

But still, you’d be understandably dumbfounded by what happened and Epel will absolutely take advantage of that, giggling ever so elegantly to mesmerize you even more. “The truth is...I’ve liked you for a long time now, Sensei.” He confesses, a line that he obviously had practiced over and over again as he takes off his suit and unbuttons each one skillfully. “That’s why, I want you to continue taking good care of me.”

You can’t protest, not when he begins to sit on your lap in a reverse manner, seductively wrapping his arms around your shoulder. You gulped as nervous sweat forms on your forehead, scared to how outsiders might perceive a student like Epel clinging into such a dangerous position with his teacher. You can tell him to stop or get off, still trying to be as professional as you can but the only response he gives you are those small, wet kisses on your cheeks and lips. Epel has no intention of hearing you out, shutting you up by indulging in your lips deep once again but this time his hands travels your body, slowly pulling your outfit down to reveal some skin. He’ll grab the hand that was pushing him away and guide them towards his chest and down to a more...dangerous place where a teacher like you should never touch.

You’ll panic because of this, trying to pull your hand away from his crotch, but his grip was awfully strong and tight. One that you never would expect someone as fragile-looking and feeble as Epel to have. “Hey, Sensei...You’ll help, won’t you? You’ll take care of me, right?” Epel asked again and just when you could describe his eyes to be that of an innocent fawn, his expression suddenly twists into that of a smug individual. “I mean...You have to, right?”

It was as if he just couldn’t keep up the act anymore, his voice deepened to a lower volume, giving it a sardonic feel upon reaching your ears. “You’re...already touching me this much, Sensei.” He said in a sickeningly sweet tone, a blush was painted across his cheeks but he was clearly mocking you for falling for such a cheap act. He leaned forward once again, wrapping one hand around your neck with a wide, egoistical grin on his face. Lovesick eyes burned deep into you with no intention of letting you go any time soon, an expression that made you sweat profusely that you just can’t help but gulp in response. “...Aren’t teachers supposed to be the to take responsibility for their own students?”

“Hey, Sensei...Isn’t that just the right thing to do?” He whispered as he was quick to clear out the evil in his face and brought out the good boy persona that you were so used to. But now that you have met his other side, you can’t help but feel how just as unstable this side of him as the other one...It wouldn’t even be a full stretch to say that this superficial expression might be the one who’s even more dangerous. “Sensei...Please teach me.”

“What do you really want to do?”

#twisted wonderland #yandere twisted wonderland #epel felmier #yandere epel felmier #yandere #Birthday Crumbs (Epel)

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Thoughts and Reaction to Lies!

It's another long one because so much happens in this episode! The episode starts with Marinette trying to figure out a "secret" within the grimoire. Literal first thought was that this "secret" may be the key to waking up Emilie. It's obviously going to be of huge significance later, anyway. By looking at that piece on Adrien, it does appear Adrien has an amazing life. And really, that's what a lot of people think. That's the point of featuring him. A life of a celebrity is pretty amazing, really interesting and fascinating. But it's also filled with a lot of stress, chaos, loneliness, etc. But viewers rarely ever see it. As for Marinette, while Adrien has said things about what his father allows that makes him sad, we haven't ever heard him complain to her in any way about that lifestyle. To her, he's a guy whose father has him busy with activities (interesting ones at that) and very rarely ever lets him spend time with friends. I love how this episode parallels Truth! But Adrien's POV. My boy has an episode centered around him, finally!

So we know her standing Chat Noir up is because Luka came by reminding her of a date she forgot she rescheduled. You know she's extremely distracted and stressed when she can't remember a date with Luka or a patrol with Chat Noir, or remember that she planned them at the same time. It's really not her fault, and I feel so bad for her that things are becoming so difficult. "No messages, but don't forget my cheese!" LOL this is perfect. Plagg has to get that reminder in wherever he can! The Chat Noir appreciation was so wholesome to see awww, I bet so many boys in Paris look up to him, so sweet x33 Mr. Banana, Chat Noir, and the man who frequently is Mr. Pigeon just chilling on a bench in the park together. What a scene! lol But Chat wanting them to be akumatized so he could see Ladybug. Big oof. He's going to get his wish, a few times over. Careful what you wish for, Kitty! "A glass of milk as usual, mister Chat Noir?" Okay so when Chat's down, he goes to that bar and has a glass of milk. Or more if he's having a bad day. Awwwww. If you think about it, Adrien probably isn't allowed to have milk. With the fat content and all. :/ Kagami lying to her mother and Nathalie/Gabriel just to spend some time with Adrien. Considering how difficult their lives are, that's pretty impressive to be so brave. Not too fond of the lying part though, since there's not a noble reason for doing so. But I can understand it. We found out Kagami's real passion: drawing! Which is pretty cool. That's one thing Kagami and Marinette have in common that'd make them good friends. Very sad how her blind mother tells her she's not good enough. That just tells you what she thinks of her daughter and what she wants her to do with her life. She's afraid she'll pursue the arts rather than something practical, so best shoot down any thoughts of being an artist now. And then, like with all episodes that have Kagami in them, this is where I start to dislike her. "I want to draw the real you, on the inside." Adrien makes various model poses, none work for her as she knows they're just him being a model. Then he actually poses as himself. A silly, goofy cat having fun and being happy. Adorable. "What do you think of... CAT?" deathglare "No, this is absolutely not natural." "Yes it is. I promise, this is really me!" "NO! This is you when you're acting like a clown!" Adrien looking hurt, "But maybe when I act like a clown, it's really me." Then she takes his hand, (gently) pushes him back up against the wall, her hands on his chest, "That way, that's who you really are." What way? Her telling him how to be is who he really is? He stammers, looking very uncomfortable. "But are you sure?" "Yes... you are perfect." Then she leans in to kiss him, while he's still looking uncomfortable. Right here, she's trying to tell him who he is. What kind of relationship is healthy and a good one one at that, when one side is trying to tell the other who they are, how they must act, etc? That's toxic. Keep in mind, after this scene, during Truth's attack. He found out that Ladybug actually in fact loves (said she prefers) the humorous, "clown" side of him. Yes, she only knows it as Chat Noir for now, but she actually appreciates and loves Chat for who he is. Kagami doesn't love nor appreciate that side of Adrien. Which is a very big and important side of him. We knew this in Ikari Gozen, she couldn't stand the thought of Chat Noir being compared to Adrien, pretty sure she even seemed offended by it if memory serves. But it's laid out more in Lies, it's more direct. (Marinette's done this too in the past, but when she's done it, her tone's more like pssssh please! while she looks off to the side, like she's mostly just telling herself that, to convince herself, rather than believing it.) Kagami thinks she knows Adrien, knows that him being funny and a clown is not the "real" him. Acting like she knows him better than he knows himself. Thinking he's perfect. That was a very hurtful thing to have said and you can see it in his expression the same kind of pain and hurt

he gets a lot. I also want to talk about how watching her back Adrien up against the wall like that and leaning into kiss him made me feel particularly uncomfortable. While they might have a little thing going on, he was clearly not comfortable by it and it just did not sit well with me. This entire scene was riddled with red flags. Adrien smiled at the end of that on his way out, yes, but having someone tell you you're perfect would seem like a compliment to you, wouldn't it? The one you like thinks you're perfect, thinks the facade you put up is perfect and anything less isn't okay with them. That'll end up so well! The almost kissing scenes this episode literally had me like

I'm sorry, I just feel so very uncomfortable by them, I can't help it. xD Just before Chat Noir sneaked up on Ladybug, he almost kissed Kagami right? And yet here he is, being a bit flirty, saying he's missed her on patrols. I also want to point out she tells him to stop with his stupid jokes, because she doesn't want to accidentally hurt him! She could've hurt him by scaring her like that. While she likes his humor, they're only problematic if it puts himself in danger or distracts them from fighting an akuma. "I promise I won't forget our patrols anymore." The looks that passed between LB and CN here is just so cute! OOOF as Luka walks away sad because Marinette had to run off, here comes Adrien, about to do the exact same thing as Marinette to Kagami... Now Kagami's not as accepting of him running off as she was just a little while ago.

Even Andre's like, what the heck was that?! His expression watching Adrien run off made me laugh, I had to share it. I was wondering how Adrien got to the boathouse before Marinette did, as it made it seem like Adrien was there long before Marinette was. He just ran in and started playing along where they were. Good lord, he has a lot going on too, doesn't he? Only difference from Marinette here is Adrien has a built-in and believable excuse he can tell his friends. Kagami's forceful "Adrien, it's time." "Five little minutes?" *shakes head sternly* Who does this remind you of in Adrien's life already? Is this what a good girlfriend, what a good friend would do? And here again is the pattern we see a lot with Kagami. She manipulates situations so that they can spend time together. Adrien wants to spend time with his friends AND girlfriend at the same time. Rehearsing for their band, it looks like. He rarely ever gets to spend time with others, be a normal kid. But no, she drags him away early, making it sound like they had to leave, but it's just her wanting him to herself. When he couldn't go to New York, oh well that's unfortunate you're sad, but we can spend more time together now, isn't that great? It's about what she wants, not what he wants or what's best for Adrien. She spends more time with Adrien (not counting Ladybug spending time with Chat Noir here) than anyone else does by the looks of it, and she doesn't even know him at all. It's really sad. Adrien still carrying around Marinette's lucky charm bracelet in his pocket x3333 This never fails to make me happy. But oof that boy's seriously going to lose it one of these days if he's not careful! There's something different about seeing the Ladynoir scene on the roof that we got in Truth, but from Adrien's perspective. Something about it feels like it means more to me, idk. Adrien gets caught in a lie, saying he lost something but found it. Kagami asked what it was, holding Marinette's lucky charm behind her back. He says it was the lucky charm Marinette gave her, as he's scrambling in his pocket to pull it out seeming a bit frazzled, but realizes he actually in fact lost it (again! he says). But Kagami caught him in that lie, showing him that she actually had it.

I'm not sure if he's so shocked because she actually had it and wonders how she got it, or if he looks like that because he just got caught in a lie. But the way his eyebrows raised a little makes it seem like he's surprised she had it after all and was testing him the whole time. I've always hated the way sometimes someone when in a relationship will test the other one like this. Really not fair in Adrien's case at all. Things aren't always as they may seem. And here's the thing, she's admitting to him that she's lying just to be with him. She lies all the time. Adrien caught on that she was lying, but didn't really understand why I don't think. Earlier in the episode he says, "What are you hiding, Kagami?" he didn't know her purpose for it. Now she says, "We're both liars, the difference is I lie to be with you. You. You lie to get away from me." Which is a yes but actually no situation. It's not that he doesn't want to be with her, it's that he needs to get away temporarily. It just looks really, really bad. Getting off track from that conversation briefly, but that scene where the akuma goes off into the night, with the blurred city lights that becomes clear. Just wow. That shot is beautiful, I can't help myself from playing it back and admiring it. I'm also totally digging the new transformation music! it gives me 90s vibes and makes me happy. Seeing Jagged after Truth is just completely different xD "I fear nothing, I am an artist! I still hold to my fans." Both Roth: "Wrong, you lie to them about your age!" "That's not Rock and Roll!" Had me rolling!! Jagged sure is something XD Chat just up and about to cataclysm the sphere, thinking he'd be okay because he doesn't lie. Except he lies all the time to protect his identity and get himself away from people so he can transform. xD Silly Kitty. The drone as a Lucky Charm is super cool! In Truth, Chat Noir said a truth about how he felt about Ladybug. In Lies, he tells lies to Lies to get her attention. "My name's not Chat Noir! I'm not a superhero! I hate Ladybug! And I think Hawk Moth should've called himself Panfly! It's funnier! Oh, I was about to forget: my favorite dish is cabbage with white sauce! Yummy!" Cabbage...with white sauce... as a dish. Is this like, a real fancy dish or something or is this boy being completely starved? o.o CN: "There are only two more liars left in Paris, and one of them knows how to turn his attention." LB: "No, wait! Don't do that! What if I'm mistaken?" "You know what? I trust you." he lets go, sacrificing himself again "Chat Noir, no! Don't do that! You're crazy!" "Yes, crazy for you, m'lady." Says softly, sadly, "No, you're just crazy unconscious." This ENTIRE scene right here. The love, the trust, the pain in this scene. It's so beautiful and well done that I can't stop getting emotional from it and gushing! Everything's on the line from that decision, and the trust he has for her, the faith he has in her really helps her know she can do what she needs to do. She's always doubting herself, and he's always there to say he doesn't feel that way at all, and it gives her that confidence and courage she needs. The moment Chat Noir is okay, the first thing Ladybug does is run up and smack him, grabbing him anxiously saying "Seriously, you need to stop doing this to me!" The girl is stressed seeing her partner sacrifice himself time and again! IF THIS BOY DOESN'T REALIZE JUST HOW MUCH SHE CARES ABOUT HIM AT THIS POINT, I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY. Any fan that still thinks Ladybug doesn't love Chat Noir and thinks poorly of him, clearly does not understand it at all. My Ladynoir heart is SO HAPPY! I was thrilled with them in Truth, but this is a totally different level. I'm almost in tears with how happy I am. And then I noticed something. I don't know if it's anything or not. But Chat Noir says to her, "Yes, but it's because I find that angry look of yours irresistable." and Kagami turns around to look at him, only him and never Ladybug. Just watching him. Which is a bit... odd. "Ahh, Ladybug..." he sighs. After what

just happened, I don't blame him! x3 These two are honestly fire. When D'Argencort has to step in to keep Kagami from hurting Adrien during fencing... Doesn't matter how upset she is, that's gross to physically take it out on him to the point a teacher has to intervene. Kagami tells Adrien she knows he's hiding something, but that he's sincere, too. But when he asks if they can't be friends then, she responds, "How can you trust someone who lied to you?" and finally gives him back the lucky charm. Ever since Gorizilla, I've been worrying of him losing it for good! Glad she gave it back to him. I've said it already, but he's really going to lose that thing if he's not careful! "When I'm ready to see you again, I'll let you know." and she just leaves. I get she's upset, he's been lying to her to get away when he's with her and all that. But this is worse than what happened with Lukanette. Luka wanted to actually know what was going on, he asked Marinette about it directly. She told him honestly, it's the one thing she can't tell him. Kagami on the other hand never actually asked. During one of the scenes when he was spacing out, she asked what was the matter is all. All she's cared about is that he's lied, and now that he's lied she can't trust him. Doesn't even want to hear him out, not that he'd explain it to her. Kagami doesn't even want to see Adrien for awhile now. At least Luka's more understanding and isn't as harsh being in the exact same situation. This poor boy... But it's also for the best. Marinette and Adrien both after breaking up with Luka and Kagami, decided to transform and meet up to just be in each other's company. They're both sad, but not especially so. "Do you know what the difference is, between us and the rest of the world, m'lady? We can't be completely honest with each other. We have our secrets, and sometimes we have to lie." Ladybug frowning hums in agreement. But at the same time, they both turn to each other and say happily "But we know we can trust each other!" finishing with a pound-it! IT'S JUST SO BEAUTIFUL AND MY HEART IS HAPPY After Truth, where Luka and Marinette were so sad and having a hard time, I really needed such an episode with such good Ladynoir! It really looks like the story is going in a really good direction, in my opinion. x3

#ml #miraculous ladybug #miraculous tales of ladybug and chat noir #ml season 4 spoilers #ml spoilers season 4 #ml spoilers #lies spoilers #adrien agreste #ladynoir #ladybug #chat noir #it took me HOURS to write this up so sorry it's late #if I could only pick one ship to ship in the entire show #it'd be ladynoir #if you couldn't tell

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thetriggeredhappy · 3 years

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currently reading persistence for the fourth (fifth??) time and like, no joke I could write an essay on it but I'm not here to do that in your askbox because that'd be weird but I just wanna say I fucking love this fic so much. scout has a very Bad Romance by lady gaga vibe and I appreciate his and sniper's dynamic so much. for like the first half of the fic it's teetering between FWB and something that could end up being seriously unhealthy/toxic for scout if sniper were a less caring/in-tune partner. he's put in a difficult position where he could very easily take advantage of scout even by accident and scout would let it happen for the sake of not being alone. same anon that sees bpd symptoms in your interp of scout and it's most prominent in this storyline. and then sniper? gosh, get you a guy like that if you can because even though I think his handling of scout's issues early on could have been better, sniper is pretty out of touch emotionally and he really did try his damnedest when he started to realize just how bad scout was doing. love it love it love it. as much as a I wish there was more content for that storyline, I think where you left it off really was just *chef kiss* and some stories are better off if you leave them on a note like that. aight gonna stop word vomiting all over your inbox now have a good one

i can’t stress enough anon that you’re literally not being weird and i appreciate the hell out of you dude

and yeah persistence as a fic is very much just like. living in the weird grey area of boundaries that happens with just, having trauma or baggage in casual relationships. like, being from sniper’s point of view the whole time especially, the majority of the fic revolves around this question of whether it’s scout’s responsibility to communicate even if it’s difficult or almost impossible to do, or sniper’s responsibility to push him to open up about his boundaries even if that risks hurting scout in the process. like, how do you express that it’s hard to be vulnerable without vulnerability? doesn’t refusing to talk about something speak for itself? saying what is and isn’t okay with you is already a really personal experience, and telling someone what makes you uncomfortable is, in a sense, giving them a playbook of ways you’ve been hurt and how they could hurt you if they really wanted to. mortifying ordeal of being known and all that.

and beyond that there’s this recurring situation in the fic of both of them trying to figure out how much they’re supposed to care. to scout, sniper caring so much about not hurting him and crossing his boundaries is a pretty meaningful thing, but to sniper, it’s not even a question, it’s what he would want to do for anyone. and to sniper, this recurring thing of scout wanting to spend time with him outside of just sleeping together starts to tread into relationship territory, but to scout it’s just the most obvious next step after a while—how could he do anything else? why wouldn’t he want to get to know sniper better the longer he knew sniper, and why wouldn’t he want to spend time with the guy? so over the course of the fic, sniper and scout both have to acclimate to the basic standard the other one wants—communicating boundaries and hanging out together, respectively—while also dealing with the weird vibes they’re getting from each other and trying to figure out how it’s *supposed* to work. hell, it takes them a chapter and a half to even ask the other one if they’re exclusive.

one thing in the fic that i needed to stress was that while sniper didn’t always know where specifically scout’s boundaries were with things, he would never even dream of crossing one on purpose. over and over, scout puts himself in situations where he’s extremely vulnerable, and anyone who didn’t care about him could easily take advantage of him and hurt him pretty badly in the process. and sniper never does—and more than that, he very much notices that this is a recurring thing, even if it’s obvious to him that scout doesn’t. and he keeps trying to watch scout’s back when it’s increasingly clear that scout doesn’t always have his own best interests in mind.

like, it’s just a fic about grey areas. because sniper doesn’t want to hurt scout, and scout doesn’t know that he doesn’t need to get hurt, and sniper tries to give him opportunities to back out of stuff and scout doesn’t always take them when he should. neither of them is necessarily in the right or in the wrong, and maybe sniper should be more patient but at the same time he deserves to stand up for himself when scout starts pushing his buttons for the sake of pushing them, and scout is allowed to be hurt and have his emotions but that doesn’t give him a free pass to do and say whatever he feels like. neither of them is perfect, or even necessarily good, but they aren’t hurting each other on purpose and they wanna stop hurting each other and they wanna get on the same page, even if they both kinda suck at it.

anyways yeah i have a lot of feelings abt the fic overall and could probably keep rambling abt it, i promise i’ll write the essay if you don’t anon

for ppl who haven’t read it yet it’s over here, i should note that it’s got a lot of adult content and that most chapters have trigger warnings attached to them after the first two, keep yourselves safe it’s important

#shut up me #everybody talks #my fanfiction #i have things i would change abt some of the fic in terms of events and ordering them but overall im happy with it #i appreciate that like. its a fic that can help people?? is the best way i can put it #lots of like. visceral feelings attached to it yknow

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