#It like. doesnt hurt you its just annoying and it hurts

[roe-and-memory]

as i sound like a broken record, i still cannot stop thinking about lightning with his freckles and rosacea and sally with her chronic arthritis + circulation issues in her hands… i offer you: more projection at the expense of lightning mcqueen and sally carrera

sally has a picking issue. it comes with her ocd, she cannot help it for the life of her, but her knuckles and backs of her hands are always sort of a mess of dry skin. no matter how many creams doc prescribes her to avoid stuff like this (along with the idea of a possible infection getting into those little cuts and gashes), it never works. it brings her a sort subconscious comfort that pisses her off when she realizes shes doing it.

at some point she tries wearing gloves to avoid it, but it just made her hands itchy and uncomfortable and she spent the entire day in an uncomfortable state of sheer anxiety. it drives her NUTS that she cant stop, but its literally just a godawful habit she cant get rid of.

sometimes it takes holding lightnings hand, or trying to divert her mind from the easy way out of her anxiety to be able to properly handle it and actually stray away from it, but in times of high anxiety (particularly races) doc will have to repeatedly remind her to stop hurting her hands and instead focus on something else. his reminders work sometimes, but it usually takes a few to fully stop.

lightning, on the other hand, does something similar but not as harmful to himself — rather the shirt hes wearing or the jacket he has on.

it becomes some kind of instinct to just. Chew. on the hem of the neck of his shirts when hes thinking or when he zones out. he doesnt always realize hes doing it, but he Most Definitely has a couple shirts with holes that he May or May Not have accidentally on purpose put there for comfort. because yeah, its a comfort thing too.

he finds it kind of annoying, but he’ll also instinctively pull part of his shirt over his face to think better. it sounds ridiculous, but it somehow ends up working out for him. when all else fails, chew on your shirts, apparently.

a lot of the time he also does it because Clothes are too tight. like he genuinely cannot stand the feeling of his shirt on his skin sometimes, so he’ll just do his best to Remove that feeling, and it just so happens to find its way over his face like a really bad mask.

#cars 2006 #cars fandom #lightning mcqueen #pixar cars #cars headcanons #memory’s headcanons #doc hudson #sally carrera #autistic lmq #ocd sally #guh i love projecting on them so much #how i look sharing my own habits evenly between them #theyre silly goofy #perfect couple even

[aaronymous999]

Me when I fucked up my T-shot last week and accidentally used the thick needle instead of the little one when injecting myself so now I gotta get my mom to carefully read me instructions when I’m giving myself my T injection

#tw needles #tw needle #cw needles #cw needle #testosterone #hormones #transmasc #trans man #transgender #heres your lesson baby transmascs who want T #DONT USE THE THICK PINK CAP NEEDLE TO INJECT YOURSELF YOU WILL BLEED #It like. doesnt hurt you its just annoying and it hurts #i also accidentally gave myself a lower dose #gonna keep telling this story in 10 years when im a teacher educating my transmasc students #idk how estrogen works but if it works like this you too transfems #i was really tired when i did it TO BE FAIR #also so tempted to learn how to make sims 4 cc to give my sims t scars because like most people dont scar from needles but i always have #like i still have red dots on my arms from my depo shots and i still have my t shot dots

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

LOVING your fantasy au, has Home tried to attack or steal the soul of anyone in the party without Wally's permission? What happens then?

not really! i think when Wally first joined there must've been at least One instance where a Neighbor went down, and Home was automatically like "oh cool free snack" and Wally had to shut that shit down quick

but after a nice explanation of "these are our friends / they're off limits" then Home (begrudgingly) backed off. at this point in time Wally & Home are already close enough that Home somewhat respects Wally's wishes

#they don't like Wally's friends very much tho lol #it takes them a veeeeryyyy long time to warm up to the neighborhood #and it isn't until after the Reveal that home outright starts liking some of them #i like to think that home finds sally & frank amusing #doesn't like barnaby tho due to how barnaby keeps saying 'MY best friend or MY little buddy-' #and acts like there is no one who understands / knows / is as close to wally as barn is #home just... gets a little territorial! and lowkey views wally as their uh... not property but its a similar vibe #there's a bit of an ownership thing going on which is understandable! home is wally's patron! thats Their lil warlock! #like even in the big 'wally is a warlock and hey home exists' Reveal #when home is eating just. So many people and wally's friends attack them #home pretty much ignores the neighborhood. it's watching them soooo unimpressed and vaguely annoyed #but it doesnt eat them and tries not to hurt them! wally asked home not to so home won't! #wally loves and cares for them so home has to put up with it! #rambles from the bog #wh fantasy au #home when wally decided to stick around: NOOOOOO NO WHAT ARE YOU DOING NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO #hard cut to home seething as wally sits at a campfire listening to terrible singing and laughter & tries to chime in #they had a good run of just the two of them on the road. seeing the sights #wally spending most nights curled up on home's (house-form) floor instead of in a tent #sighhhhh those were the times... OH WELL-

[tianshiisdead]

im happy my post is garnering discussion but honestly i wasnt around for 2018-2021 fandom on tumblr and i was mainly talking about how its kind of silly to get mad at people for portraying colonizer countries as mean, or calling it demonization and stuff. like its okay not to like personally portraying ur fav characters as mean or part of the state, but getting irritated at the fact that it exists or is popular imo kind of misses the fact that this… is the state and nation personification fandom. and its hard to say its not canon when canon did once portray the characters in uniform and at times involved in their state activities… like the early strips discussing western imperialism in china is literally ‘china being bullied by the allies’ ‘france wanting to grope china’ ‘china being treated like a maid’ etc etc like they were very much. the state LOL also china and japan’s canon relationship, as much as I have my issues with it, has an entire thing about china being stabbed by japan… i do feel like hetalia started out as a history nerd’s history exploration that blended humour with ‘what i find cute’ with satire etc etc, which inevitably involves illustrating the personifications as vessels of state and culture, and although the modern strips have deviated quite a bit… well, different people will approach this series for different reasons, right? Whether its serious or comedic content showing the characters as mean or imperialist or unpleasant, it’s not something that deviates too far from canon (if we take all canon eras into consideration) nor is it surprising given how history laden the topic is.

#diary #hetalia #hater tag #also have some issues with some things being called drama… #like i know some of u think of me and some others as drama stirring little devils #honestly i dont enjoy drama that much but ill become upset when i see things that i see as racist or insensitive… #because im of the opinion that this fandom requires extra sensitivity given the subject matter. #let people have fun #but #also be careful yk? i guess for me personally im always trying to be careful #when im out of my depth i try to talk to ppl with better understanding while doing my own research #and if ive written or expressed antyhing bad (which i certainly have even on this blog many times before) #i try to change my stances with new info… and like #this is important to me and its important for me to read ppls thoughts bc. #i know what its like to be treated racistly and dismissed. or to have things and history precious to me twisted #but anyways rambling aside… i guess what i want to say is i understand it seems annoying but #if you post something insensitive… and someone gets upset… then thats just how it is. hetalia is sensitive #again ive definitely posted bad insensitive things. ive been told im acting out of line. #and it sucks. but… sometimes you have to understand ur own irritation doesnt outweigh the hurt #and listen a little #sometimes i like things that i then find are insensitive or cruel. and id rather not engage with it than dismiss peoples hurt… or something #honestly i keep most of my whining private i promise JLKFHDJGLKFH BC FOR THE MOST PART I THINK I CAN TELL THE DIFF BETWEEN #when i have a real issue and when im just nitpicking #so i keep my more petty whining or basic stuff private #but if i see something egregious then i dont want to be quiet #and if a friend of mine (esp if theyre a kid) is upset or hurt by racism I dont want to be quiet

[definitelynotnia]

im sorry i have to rant im so fucking pissed

my exams end on 19th and I have to get rid of some books and buy some books which are quite pricy online so I had planned on going to college street on 20th and selling my books and buying the new ones at a cheap price and i was frankly really excited about it because all I get is a one day break to relax bcz i have to start studying for entrances from 21st so all I have is 20th and i wanted to spend it at college street and then get some food and basically have like a solo date kind of thing.

and i was so so excited about it i told my boyfriend about it like 500 times bcz i kept forgetting i've already mentioned it and it was literally on my mind a lott so i kept bringing it up and ik it seems like not a big deal cz i can just sit at home and chill too but i literally do not get to go outside my house. like- the last time i went out was new years eve and after that the only time i've gone out is to school or to give my boards that is it. my mother has some weird like problem wiht me going out like even if i tell her that i just want to go to our terrace for 5 minutes just to get some fresh air she won't even allow that she'll be all suspicious and like sTaNd In ThE bAlCOnY aNd TaKe FrEsH aIr like she herself doesnt leave the house (and blames it on me and my brother ???? when have we ever stopped you bro, she said I HaVe To Be HeRe To KeEp An EyE like im 18 i dont need to be watched 24/7 stop blaming me for choices you put upon yourself) and i just feel so suffocated ALL THE TIME i feel so overstimulated and im so sick of rotting on my bed and i dont want to wait for some birthday party or friends meet up to be able to leave my goddamn house i just wanted to go and have a fun day and get me some books thats it.

anyway so initially the plan was that my mom would go along but something came up so she wanted to postpone it to 21st and i didn't want to bcz i'd already be missing 3 days bcz of my boyfriends birthday, holi and my brothers birthday (all of which are important and i dont want to miss which makes me the villain apparently bcz i should "adjust" and cancel my "parties" instead of trying to stick to my plan bcz that makes me too demanding and selfish apparently) so i suggested that ukw why dont u go do ur thing which came up and i'll go to college street by myself...which is when the solo date idea came which i had really wanted all along but didnt bring up bcz i knew she'd say no but now there's a valid reason for me to go alone so like, its a pretty easy fix i can just go alone but noooo. First of all,

I've been to college street multiple times before so its not like its an unknown area to me

im going by metro which is quite safe

im going when there is stark daylight and i will return home much much before it gets dark and im literally 18

she never lets me go anywhere alone, not even take ubers alone if i want to get back from somewhere my bf has to come drop me everytime and then go backwards to his house which is so so so stupid and i never get to go out alone unless accompanied by family or by a male friend, so obv when i said i'll go to college street alone she refused to let that happen and started screaming about how 'if its so important to go on 20th bcz u dont want to miss a day of studying then cancel ur 'parties' and study then' and i was like no its not about missing a day its just that there's a very easy and logical fix to this problem which is i go alone and its not inconveniencing anyone so why cant i just do that but she will not listen to that bcz im 'adamant' and 'everything has to be according to me' bcz i found a viable solution to the problem. so instead of letting me just go she was literally ready to pay much more money and buy the books online, like.....why cant i just go bro??? (and she keeps telling me im a waste of her money bcz i will amount to nothing in life and my education was a failed investment or wtv so like now why are u wasting more money??? im literally trying to save the money that u 'waste' on me so just let me ???)

anyway i called my dad last night and told him and he was super ok with the idea he said its a good idea that i go alone and that he would speak to her but then today when i asked her if dad spoke to her she said yes, we'll go on 20th and i was like .....we? so apparently she CANCELLED her previously immovable thing for which she wanted me to cancel my 'parties', she cancelled that and agreed to go with me on 20th just so that i dont get to go alone- like ???????????????? what is ur problemmmm

so obv i was super annoyed and i went on a whole ass rant about how i literally struggle to even cross roads bcz i dont know shit about basic travelling bcz all my life ive been in a car and its a running joke with all my guy friends that i 'cannot navigate' and 'dont know any places' and obv??? if im never allowed to go anywhere then how tf will i know the places- the only places i know is bcz recently i've been paying a lot of attention and asking my dad stuff about what roads to take to reach certain places and when i go out with my friends i kind of try and learn a bit but thats it i've only ever gone alone completely alone to two places which is my beauty parlour thats 5 minutes away from my house and one bazaar one time that was 2 bus stops away, thats it. thats my extent of public travelling alone. and now im supposed to go to a whole new STATE for college and i cant even call myself an auto without struggling. and like- is this not a basic life skill??? like ok yeah its not rocket science and i will probably figure it out even if i start later in life but why not now? most of my guy friends literally go everywhere alone, why not me? and my dad agreed with all of this but my mom was just like "you'll be in the hostel only, no need to go out of the campus" like ARE YOU FOR REAL????????? and she's like "if u want to learn skills learn how to cook" like ok yes i will also learn how to cook for sure but i wont have a fucking kitchen in the hostel but somehow cooking is an urgent skill i should learn but going places by myself is unimportant bcz i should just never? leave? the? hostel?

anyway after much screaming and shouting my dad gave up and just cut the call bcz he doesnt want to get into an argument with my mother and my mother was being all suspicious like why do u hAvE tO gO aLoNe AlL oF a SuDdEn even though i literally explained why i want to do this alone but she doesnt think thats valid. so she refuses to let me go and i asked her for one reason why i shouldnt cz usuallt its always "no u have exam what if smthn happens" but now i literally dont even have exam so whats ur excuse now? streets will always be unsafe forever so "what if smthn happens" is not a reason to never let me go out without a man so just gimme one reason and she couldnt give me a single reason she just said "i said no, thats it".

and now she's gone off about how im useless and blah blah and "high maintainance" bcz i want books and "everyone else (some pishi's son) just studies online" and so the whole option of college street is apparently now cancelled and she's trying to set up a whole ass kindle account (half the books i need arent even available as ebooks) just because i wanted to go by myself.

#in our house kids dont stay outside past 6:30pm'' but now all of a sudden its fine for my brother to play #till 10:30 at night #she literally stopped me permanently from going down in the evenings since i was in class 7-8 #this is why ive never had any friends outside of school bcz she wouldnt let me leave ths fucking house #and now that my brother is in class 7 #he's allowed to be out playing with his friends till 10 freaking 30 #he comes home an hour late sometimes...45 minutes and almost always at least 30 minutes late at NIGHT and she says nothing except like #one sentence #yeah im only the villain i only keep u locke #up in the house its all my fault #this is just so damn unfair #like literally insulting #im not a child what is her problem #what sort of fucking solution is 'never leave the hostel' like ok even if i do that what happens then??? after i graduate? #i'll be a 24 year old who doesnt know shit about going from one place to another without a man present] #and then this woman preaches how she 'always raises her son and daughter equally' like srsly shut the fuck up #my whole life i've been told abar late?'' #and for me bcz i would come home 5-10 minutes late nd i did it maybe once or twice she made me completely stop going down to play #5-10 minutes late from 6:30 wherein he comes an hour late from 9 fucking 30 #and this sounds so stupid bcz im an 18 year old now and i dont give a fuck abt how long i got to play but its just unfair dude #with me it was always smthn or the other either exams or she gets miraculously sick every time i want to go out to play #im not even kidding she did a whole “i have fever and ur going to leave me like this and go play?” on me one time bcz i was adamant abt goi #after months of not being able to go bcz of exam or smthn or the other #she did not have any fever it was fucking bullshit #and how am i supposed to help with ur imaginary fever anyway im literally 12 #its so fucking annoying man and then if i say anything at all she'll go on a tirade about how #like YOU DO THOUGH??????? im sorry ur feelings are hurt bcz i said you do smthn that u LITERALLY DO #istg not even 2 days ago she was having a fight with my dad abt how he should teach my brother to learn how to cycle so that he can go buy #groceries #i can cycle

[trans-estinien]

people really love to conveniently forget trans men exist when they talk about feminism. or if they dont they make us out as also part of the problem as if we somehow are able to have the same amount of privilege as cis men. absolutely wild

#“not all men” is a valid statement because its fucking true #like guys. seriously. not every single man is evil #feminism isnt about putting men down its about raising women up to be equal and getting rid of gender inequality #sorry im seeing a massive uptick in people hating on trans men for being men lately and its fucking stupid #like yall are doing a great job at making me feel ashamed to be a man who likes men. awesome thanks guys #i dont normally make posts like this but its been rattling around in my mind for a few days now #its always put out like. all men (trans or not) are Inherently Evil and all women (trans or not) are Inherently Victims #which is absolutely the stupidest shit ive ever seen #and they also leave out anyone who doesnt fit into the man/woman dichotomy. and if they dont its always seen as woman lite #which is also stupid as fuck #not every nb/agender/other person is feminine asshole #anways. case in point. can we stop demonizing masculinity while also discussing the effects of misogyny and the patriarchy please. #because both of those things are very real and very much do hurt people #but im sick of people lashing out at trans men as if the problem magically doesn't affect us anymore because we are men #because guess what! newsflash! it affects trans AND cis men too!! #i shouldnt have to explain it should be obvious but like. im tired man #sorry ill forever be annoyed at women who just hate every single man who dares breathe in their direction because they COULD be an asshole #if you hate someone because of their gender no matter what gender it is i Do Not Trust You #anyways thanks for coming to my ted talk. replies are off cause i dont want to argue with people i just want to express my opinion

[leovaldezdefender]

do you think Leo is a misogynist

nope and i'm not just saying that because he's my favourite character. calling leo a misogynist is just objectively ridiculous; the most "misogynistic" behaviour he ever exhibits is flirting awkwardly and thinking of himself as a casanova but even then when he gets put in his place it's not like he gets angry or violent or even all that upset. it's clear that his flirty behaviour is just another coping mechanism that can manifest negatively like, say, his bullying frank. he's best friends with piper, is intimidated by annabeth, and becomes close with hazel and reyna. all characters with which he has completely normal and meaningful interactions with. frankly i don't get at all how people see him as some raging misogynist—the most he has is a minor sexism problem that is typical of most teenage boys, one that even percy has.

tldr; no. nothing leo does is ever that serious.

#leo valdez #heroes of olympus #this is an ask with suspiciously good timing considering what i saw on twitter today #which i think ill post about actually. just to be a hater. #anyway yeah nothing leo does in hoo is ever bad enough to be classified as misogynistic #the most his behaviour does is slightly aggravate the girls #and he doesnt have any inherent discriminatory beliefs about women #compare that to for example sylva1n—another character i love who is most definitely more of a misogynist #HIS actions actually result in far more serious consequences compared to just annoying girls slightly #(the women he dates actually get emotionally toyed with and hurt) #and HE actually has beliefs about women that are hurtful (though he admits that its nonsensical) #but those beliefs influence his actions and how he treats women around him #now leo? doesnt do either of those things. of course because its not the point of his character like it is to sylva1n's #so consequently its just not something about leos character to. yknow. worry about. #like i said: at most he's just got a case of the teenage boy flirt combined with “whoa strong women exist?” #but the idea that he actually hates women is. laughable lmao. #ricks not capable of writing that kind of protagonist #anyway anon i am SO sorry for this rant. holy shit. #i even threw a fire emblem character into the mix im sorry fksjsks #in my defense you asked me about LEO VALDEZ and also im a sylva1n liker so i have lots of thoughts about misogyny in characters #but yknow apologies are due anyway 🙏 forgive me #ask #thanks for the ask :] #riordanverse #meta

[hecksupremechips]

Actually cry so goddamn hard when I think about Shinjiro Aragaki healing and being loved and having to learn to be okay with himself and being taken care of

#writing him has just been like. OOOOWOEOEOEOOE i piss tears i cant handle this shit this gay ass shit #i came up with an idea for just like a cute short one shot i wanna do soon and hnnnghh im so emo about it #very healing its like very hard to write some of the shit im gonna be writing cuz basically #some of it is just a little too real man and while i crave the angst and the drama i am just like #AND THEN EVERYONE HOLDS HANDS AND ITS OKAY PLEASE DONT CRY PLEASE #and ive mentioned how shinji has accidentally become nb to me now because i just kinda happened to write him that way without meaning to #and now another thing im noticing is that in my fic hes kinda bpd coded #it definitely wasnt intentional but now im accepting it as truth no one can stop me #i just really need him to be happy its more important to me than anything else man i need it for me #and he needs to be gay with aki they need to kissy and i think its funny cuz even in the parts where shinji is mad at aki and pushing him #away its like. he kinda has it bad lol and its clear he feels no actual hatred towards aki but more just self deprecation because he doesnt #feel good enough and like idk i just think about their respective roles in society like #aki is an honor student star boxer hero very attractive very kind very popular got adopted by a rich family #hes going places you know meanwhile shinji is a drop out who never had a family ever hes homeless hes sketchy hes on drugs #his reputation couldnt be any worse and he just leans into it and feels he has no future and hes worthless garbage #and aki could literally have anyone he wants you know he has an army of girls pining over him but he doesnt want them #HE WANTS SHINJI AND NO ONE ELSE HE SPENDS YEARS CHASING AFTER HIM #and shinji HATES it hes trying so hard to push him away and be the crusty delinquent and make aki see how worthless he really is #but aki just doesnt stop he loves him so much makes me sick SICK #and shinji really loves him back hes like not gonna shut up ever about aki hes like either doing it in a gay ass annoyed way #or hes like ‘haha omg aki is so cute though hes always trying so hard to be tough but hes just so sweet and gentle you know i hope he #doesnt push himself too hard if he got hurt id fall apart hes so silly i hope hes eating good i desire him carnally’ #yeah sorry gamers this is just a pairing i cant be normal about they mean so much to me personally the fate of the world rests upon them

[heartyearning]

for some reason you have to be 23 to get a tooth implant so i NEEEEEEEEDDDD this one tooth to hold out for a year and a month. but on the other hand i kinda want it out of my mouth. but am i brave enough (hashtag girl) to live with a very visibly missing tooth. is the question.

#tmi if tooth or body stuff freaks you out but the reason i have that tooth there is because it was stuck in my gums #and i was still freaking it with my babytooth but also there was this experimental surgery that would be free #if i did it before i turned 16 #where they basically pulled the baby tooth excavated the tooth from my gums then took the roots out (? is that how u say that?) #and then see if it fuzed with my jaw bone or not. Dear Reader It Has Not. #its literally hanging on by the grace of god and also my gum alone #which is like reasonably enough it would not be that big of a deal if my tooth hadn't started eating itself from the inside out #like ok i get that this is all very gross stuff but listen i live with this and i genuinely am wondering if i should just get it pulled #cause there is like. a hole in my tooth. like from the top. and the top ridge of said tooth is fully exposed on the outside #(its also understandably quite wobbly btw) #and anyway its just nasty cause stuff gets stuck and also the teeth neighbouring it hurt sometimes bc the gum's pulled back #and its a bit yellow and super visible in my smile and like i could just get it pulled. #and then i'd have to tough it out for a year and however long it'd take me to finance the replacement. or i'd grow not to mind it #and keep it like that forever. #IDK. im just getting tired of it and all this is brought on by the simple fact that i think a bit of broken tooth is stuck in the gap #(doesnt hurt obv bc its DENERVED thats the word in english its denerved but it is like annoying)

[bojackhorsemanobviously]

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#there's all this talk in the show about the power he had over people but none about the women who had power over him #note im not saying that it excuses his shit either im just saying the eshow never really holds the women accountable #as a woman that annoys me #esp as one with a mom who has often made me feel worthless #i also found the writers to get way too insecure in s5 about how people viewed their main character that they felt the need to double down #give mc a sympathic backstory and will feel bad for him what were they expecting? #heck i felt kinda bad for beatrice and i dont hate her but her dad sucked you cant help but pity her esp as an old lady #angela diaz #scary women #she was so damn convincing #for a show about accountabiity its justall on one mans shoulder and it just doesnt feel like it was that fair shrugs #dont believe me? #ana his publist sexually assaults BJ #this is ignored and brushed off as if it never happened #beatrice his biggest abuser next to his father is given the sad old lady treatment that he acutally ends up being kind too #diane fucks pb who is with pickles and is mostly absolved of any wrong doing on her end #pc agrees to work with vance gets bj to a doc that gives him the opiums and does nothing to stop him from hurting gina #angela is gay the whole time and still fires herb then berates and offers a man who is mentally unstable more alchhol #it also felt tacked on in ep 10 of s5 to me like it came of super insecure #oh he def did shitty sshit that is unforgiveable but it felt like they were just throwing a bunc of random x//a/s to double down

[toytulini]

god i really went THREE FUCKING YRS without getting sick i was being so goddamn careful but then my parents got smth and foolish me, didnt step up the level of precaution i was taking around them, and lo and behold, im almost definitely sick

#toy txt post #grumping #AS SOON AS I HAVE TO GO BACK TO WORK AND DONT HAVE ANYMORE DAYS OFF TOO. GOD. I GUESS ILL FUCKING ASK TOMORROW #IF THEY WANT ME THERE OR NOT. obviously i will be wearing a mask. just. augh #the annoying part is i WAS taking precautions around my parents. wearing a mask around them. etc. #but foolish me let my door be open cos the room is a little warm. so their air conditioner just blasted all their Sick Air right into my #fucking bedroom ig. i have a hepa filter running all the time but it wasnt enough ig #and like. you know. at night when they were in bed id dare to be unmasked outside my room. my mistake ig #i ate food they made. i was wearing a mask around them but not the best mask i couldve cos that one does hurt my nose after awhile #i was wearing a mask around them but i wasnt likiting contact as much as i shouldve. they kept opening my door and coming into my room #before id gotten up so i couldnt get a mask on in time. etc. see. all on me i shouldve known better/s #idk. just. frustrated. i try to take my silly little precautions in a way that not fucking obtrusive to them #cos god forbid. god forbid i ask them to like. idk. wear a mask if theyre going to come in my room while Actively Sick. #or like. not be All Over The House Coughing. idk. fucking whatever. im the unreasonable one i know. my symptoms are not currently that bad #dont know if its covid #doesnt feel worth bothering to do a rapid test cos i keep hearing theyre not picking up new strains anyway and who fucking knows #idk! #i should try to get a little more sleep ig #feels like ill be okay im just fucking. mad

[dayurno]

What is the thing you disagree with in most fanon portrayals of Neil?

i used to think it was because neil was shoehorned into 'feminine' roles (whatever i thought that may be, looking back) and ultimately changed as a character to fit whatever the narrative required of him, but now that i am older and (?!) wiser i do believe my original feelings towards the ever mythicized ooc feminine neil were born from a place of rejection for gender non-conforming people, and an overall aversion to the idea of femininity (arguably one of the most important aspects of who i am, true then and true now) being tied in any way with sexual expression and preference.

i will say this. i think the knee-jerk rejection of saying 'not all gay men are feminine bottoms!' to content where one of them is, in fact, a feminine bottom, is not unlike lesbians in my own community who protest to the idea that all lesbians are man-hating hairy dykes (and try not to swoon just at the mention!). we reject gender non-confomity; we don't want it to represent our communities. we want to be one of the good ones. i'm a lesbian, but i'm not like those masculine dykes. i'm a gay man, but i'm nothing like those hyperfem sissies. fandom had come to a point where we genuinely thought conformist gender expressions were somehow lacking representation; we sincerely believed the idea that a couple made up of two masculine, gender-conforming men were somehow closer to the real deal than a couple where one of them was either feminine-presenting or had traits that can be associated with femininity.

i lived with this idea for a long time, until i started frequenting queer spaces in my area and realized that actually, in the material world, where i live, where you live, effeminate gay men do not have it easier than their masculine counterparts. the idea that they can be 'over-represented in media' is null. my feminine male friends don't allow themselves to be seen out on the street in so much as a crop top. one of the most common dealbreakers in dating apps for gay and bisexual men is gender non-conformity. a lot of arguments against feminine men who prefer to bottom in media is that 'no gay people are like this', but that is just patently untrue; my best friend in the whole world is a feminine-presenting gay man with a strict preference for being in the bottom. a girl i bought a beer for was a stone top, hyper-masculine, touch-me-not butch. for queer people, gender presentation and sexual activity cannot always be cleanly separated.

i guess (and sorry for how long this is clearly i have Thoughts) my ultimate point here is that i let my own personal disagreement with how neil is portrayed to convince me that there is something wrong with him (and, at large, any male character) being portrayed as someone who is feminine, or has strong sexual preferences, or has personality traits traditionally associated to femininity. i think that is never, ever, ever a solution for anything. there is never going to be a time where we would be right to shun and scoff at content written about gender non-conforming characters, even if they are not canonically gnc. do i still think neil is written in ways that go directly against how his personality is portrayed in canon? yes, but that is a personal opinion, and not something i should try and rationalize in social justice terms, if you get my point. i can just not like it. and i don't. no hard feelings involved :)

#asks #sorry i realized i didnt actually answer much of ur question re: neil but its because i truly think #i would be a massive hypocrite if i sat here and told you i think people are wrong for writing neil in ways similar to how i write and thin #about kevin #of course i think sometimes stuff is ooc and bad and their personalities are altered drastically to fit within #what the writer considers to be feminine #but ultimately that is just annoying. it doesnt hurt anyone and it certainly is not any worse #than fics where they are hypermasculine sadist doms #does that make sense? i can just not like it. but i am in no position to say it shouldnt exist #yes its bad. but bad things still have the right to exist. such is life #neil

[ugetelynx]

If you’re gonna send nasty shit to my friends/mutuals (or even just friends of my friends) behind an anon message, come send it to me. I’ll entertain the attention you want for shit’s and giggles. But leave the people alone for a harmless opinion on something that no one is forcing you to agree with.

#I literally hate that I have to say this when I have a splitting headache right now #but genuinely if you’re gonna send shit to someone just cause they don’t like a character you do #send it to me instead stop fucking harassing random people on the internet the block button exists for a reason #learn to fucking use it #I literally get unreasonably upset when some doesnt like luis or interprets him wrong #but you don’t see me harassing people for no reason #its annoying and yeah it can hurt when people rightfully criticize or hate your fav but that does not excuse harassing them #literally fuck off

[housewifebuck]

tell me a funny story :)

idk if this is a story technically but off the top of my head here is something funny my cat does (obviously it is going to be about my cat): Annie is very affectionate and loves me and thinks I am her biological mommy BUT she hates being held. but because Bothering is my love language I still pick her up for snuggles all the time just to annoy the hell out of her. and bc she is such a good good girl no matter how much I bug her she never takes it out on me or struggles or anything but the second I put her down she will run to whatever other cat (or person) is closest to us and just start whaling on them bc she has to let her aggression out somehow and its so fucking funny they'll just be sitting there minding their business and she runs up and starts swinging on them for absolutely no reason

#I know this lowkey makes it sound like I abuse my cat but please trust me I love my cats very much #they are all so so used to me being super annoying to them 24/7 and they just put up with it #and she doesnt actually hurt my other cats she doesnt use her claws she just punches them #I guess if I have to add this many disclaimers to something maybe it is not as funny as I think it is #but its funny to me. you didn't specify if you wanted a funny to YOU story or a funny to ME story #so....your bad if anything #asks #office hours #catposting #cherry does this also but not every time. with Annie it is every single time without fail

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#ay ay ay. now that the soul crushing project is done ive elected to spend the week managing data #which is decidedly more chill than what ive been doing for the last month but also isnt not doing anything and it isnt getting stuff done #for when i have to move. so thats annoying. and ive been drawing again at least but i can feel the escalation in my controlling behavior #so its now very frustrating trying to draw anything. coloring is gonna take a million years rip. #also suddenly everyone wants to b social rn? like tomorrow my boss is organizing a thing with an old lab mate and this weekend a #collaborator is having a retirement party. and next week my lab mates wanna do a trivia night. and i kno that i should go to these things. #and i will try but i really dont want to go to any of it. mostly for driving reasons but also im a husk of a person rn. but the more #devastating thing is that uh next week one of the kids i grew up with is getting married to a rich girl lol. and like we werent that close #bc i was and am such an asocial freak but after the wedding my parents r picking up their new camper and camping their way across the #country with my sisters. and im sure someone probably told me the dates of these things at some point but if u tell me dates i will #instantly forget them. so thats. ya kno. happening over basically the next 2 weeks while i have to kill myself over measurements for a #different study i dont care abt. and like. its fine. ill see them mid may for a different planned trip. it just makes me kinda sad #a product of living halfway across the country i guess. im just inherently more disconnected to everyone. i would suspect thsts semi #intentional subconsciously. u cant b upset abt not being able to connect with ppl if you create enough physical distance that u never see #them in the 1st place. u cant misunderstand me if i make myself absent and unknowable. idk. i was explaining to my mum that i didnt realize #the timeline and she was like. understandable whatever u wanna do! and idk y that upsets me so much. i guess its just that i dont want to b #doing this. its causing me pain but dont kno how to articulate it in a way that makes sense. whatever. my mouth hurts. my lips r so chapped #that the irritation is spread past my lip line. probably doesnt help thst i keep rubbing at it lol. anyway things r still annoying #less soul crushing thsn last week but still frustrating #unrelated

[ladysophiebeckett]

the kaling criticism is crossing the line into misogyny and no one’s being careful. 

#i have a very complicated relationship with mk #bc i am at the end of the day---fond of her #but ive seen and read--for years--mind you--- #south east asian girls and women rightfully critique her about how she portrays her indian female characters #and indian ppl over all #and the pattern she continues to follow in terms of fictional romantic relationships #(the white guy thing) #and theyre not wrong to be bothered by it #theyre not wrong to be offended\annoyed\hurt by it #that kind of criticism is valid #but this v\lma thing has gotten out of control #its getting very weird #its reaching 'i hate when women ruin things' territory #yes shes a producer and had a hand in picking writers but ultimately this is the show hbo streamer wanted #so dont over pile on just the one 1 person #that being said....i watched the first ep of v\lma and i really didnt like it #i didnt #so im just not gonna keep watching #if ur a childhood fan dont bother with it bc its not for you #its for the average viewer thats doesnt care #do i wish that MK would grow past certain types of jokes? yes. is she? no. #she is very comfortable in certain patterns of her writing #the same way tina fey is comfortable in hers (mean girls movie\mean girls musical\mean girls musical movie) #among other patterns i wont get into #i dont expect much fm mk. just like i dont expect much fm fey. #and both have large fan bases so my post wont do any damage