#I'm taking it a day at a time

[fuwaprince]

👉👈 Hi friends! I have a long, serious post made just for you(!) that isn't full of spoilers, smut or mooning lawn gnomes. Please read if you can, this is a 💥 mutual aid request 💥

It has been a horribly painful and long while as most people following/keeping up with me know. and in a few days I'm going to be down $1500, which is basically all my fucking $

I can't afford Christmas for anybody, which sucks and I'm very sorry. I can't even take care of myself and haven't been, which also sucks and I'm very sorry

Landlords spontaneously raised rent on me more than halfway through this month as punishment for not getting to my house chores and not communicating, to be totally honest with you. I feel ashamed and awful about it but I didn't want to clean the place while multiple ppl living here had tested positive for COVID and kept walking around unmasked... I am not fully vaxxed because I've been too depressed to get any kind of necessary medical care done and I didn't want to catch COVID in the middle of my finals week for the semester. I woke up to being angrily and rudely bitched at first thing after the last of my finals (I passed at least). It wasn't a humanizing text. Fuck the mistreatment though. Rent is now almost doubled and it won't be lowered

There was no room for negotiation and I truly believe they've resorted to pricing me out of living here because the group of renters psychologically tormenting me wasn't effective (actually- putting a picture of my rapist on the fridge rly was super effective in getting me to isolate myself in my room all day and so was outing me as trans to the transphobic ass neighbors.... But I didn't and still don't have any place better to move out to, like the way they were hoping I would. Yes, I have looked and BEGGED btw)

I want out of here NOW, but I can't leave. I tried and had to come back because it was the best option. I can't afford to stay in a motel/hotel/BnB just to get away from them for a day or two during Christmas. I don't have any friends who I can spend the holiday with either. During the semester, I resorted to convincing classmates with keys to locked buildings to let me crash in them while they worked at night and I would leave before anybody showed up. Now that school is out, I can't do that. I don't have any family I can reach out to for support or friends who I can depend on for immediate help. I have been crying day in and day out for weeks. I have records of it posted throughout my blog. Literally crying for days on end. I'm being so fucking transparent

All that lump of text is to explain to whoever is out there, who might be listening and willing and able, to please consider helping me, if and ONLY IF able. I know times are tough and if you'd rather use your $ for other reasons or just don't have any to spare, don't sweat it and take care! 🫂

I've thought about what I could do for a long time and have helped myself how I can. It isn't enough. I've applied for so much assistance. Been approved and been sabotaged by my inhumane mom (who does not love me) via stealing my legal documents and letters and hiding them for months. My mind jumps to grim places but I'm clinging for dear life to whatever hope I have left that says things will get better. I wish I knew somebody with a business that I could work for. Part of me feels so fucking terrible for asking for help because I feel like a waste of all your resources. I feel like I shouldn't ask, like I really do not fucking deserve help, but there are friends online who care, who I know mentioned being interested in helping in whatever ways they can

So to the people who care to seriously me, I'm ready to accept it: please send me nice words to get through this and feel less alone. It feels pathetic to ask but I would love a nice letter. A nice card even. Kind words of any kind would go a long way. It means more to me than food. I have felt so broken and every day feels like a test to figure out how badly I actually want to live

I'm also leaving my cash app and paypal here in case anybody would like to do more than what I'm comfortable asking but probably very likely will inevitably need very very soon. I will be left with fucking nothing and I will have no idea what to do once rent is paid

Thank you to those of you who have sent love, offered to listen and heard me out. I really wish it wasn't so hard to survive. I'm trying to feel better knowing there are people out there who are also without help and hoping the best, but it doesn't make me feel any better or comforted tbh. I just wish the help was there for us. I wish there was a place to go for spare love, care, compassion, empathy, kindness, humanity, generosity... I need that more than I need $. Call me stupid but that's what I live for. I don't live for paying to survive in terrible conditions. I live for love and to smile with friends

I hope to write back to the friends who have already been so kind as to message me soon btw. I'm sorry for not replying sooner. Your overwhelming support is sincerely sweet and sometimes I cry because I can't believe people are so nice (to me???). It'll give me something to do that doesn't make me feel like dying! :') so thank you thank you thank you *fist bump*

Hope you're all doing as well as you can and that somehow things get better. Hope anybody else struggling like me doesn't make the mistake of isolating like a sick and dying animal. You deserve love. You deserve support. Don't be like me. Have the courage to reach out to the people who care about you for help as early on into your emergency as possible. Don't let your situation snowball because you spend so long trying to figure out if you're worth it!!! This Random Tumblr user is here to tell you that YOU ARE. Sending my infinite everlasting unconditional love. Be nice to yourselves. Be nice to each other. Fuck the hateful assholes who wish I would just kill myself already. Tell your friends you love them. Happy Holidays!!!

And here's a single picture of a mooning lawn gnome at the very end, as a treat! I told you this post wasn't full of it.... It just ended with it 👉👉

#i decided i rather write a help post rather than a suicide note or my own obituary #sorry to ask for your attention AGAIN #mutual aid #important #help #i'm very sorry #mutuals can all kick my ass once for not abandoning me during these times #i wish i had a $ goal but i do not as of now #I'm taking it a day at a time #doing my very best and trying so damn fucking hard.. please help #i rly would just like to escape and have my own tiny place one day.... some place i can live and love happily in #i was on the steets earlier this year and living out of my ex's car. i do not want to go back to that out of desperation #i have been through so much just trying to survive in place where i don't feel like i belong or welcomes me #i need help #babbling

[unforth]

Gentle reminder that very little fandom labor is automated, because I think people forget that a lot.

That blog with a tagging system you love? A person curates those tags by hand.

That rec blog with a great organization scheme and pretty graphics? Someone designed and implemented that organization scheme and made those graphics.

That network that posts a cool variety of stuff? People track down all that variety and queue it by hand, and other people made all the individual pieces.

That post with umpteen links to helpful resources, and information about them? Someone gathered those links, researched the sources, wrote up the information about them.

That graphic about fandom statistics? Someone compiled those statistics, analyzed them, organized them, figured out a useful way to convey the information to others, and made the post.

That event that you think looks neat? Someone wrote the rules, created the blogs and Discords, designed the graphics, did their best to promo the event so it'd succeed.

None of this was done automatically. None of it just appears whole out of the internet ether.

I think everyone realizes that fic writing and fanart creation are work, and at least some folks have got it through their heads that gif creation and graphics and moodboards take effort, and meta is usually respected for the effort that goes into it, at least as far as I've seen, but I feel like a lot of people don't really get how much labor goes into curation, too.

If people are creating resources, curating content, organizing the creations of others, gathering information, and doing other fandom activities that aren't necessarily the direct action of creation, they're doing a lot of fandom labor, and it's often largely unrecognized.

Celebrate fan work!

To folks doing this kind of labor: I see you, and I thank you. You are the backbones of our fandoms and I love you.

#unforth rambles #this wasn't really prompted by anything #I'm just sick and tired and distractable #or i should say it wasn't prompted by anything recent or that happened now #like no one has disrespected me #but as i hit the point that it's regularly taking me an hour plus every single day to queue things for the danmei art blogs #i just think of all the times people go WAIT YOU RUN ALL OF THOSE??? BY YOURSELF??? #like i just don't think a lot of people realize how much work it is to really do background fandom labor long term #and i appreciate places like rec blogs and networks and events and just everyone #y'all are awesome #thank you so much

[egophiliac]

now that I can think semi-coherently again...whooooo's ready for Friday WEEHOO

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #stage in playful land #stage in playfulland #i've only had gidel for a day and a half et cetera you know the rest #guidel? gider? ah yes. what's that romanization. my favorite game #i'm gonna go with fellow and gidel until something official comes out i guess #anyway HEY it's spooky carnival time where everybody wears hats and then probably turns into puppets or something! i'm excited! #yuu and grim are probably going to be there also which means it doesn't canonically take place during glorious masquerade #which is unfortunate because that really is the most hilarious possibility #ace and deuce in unison: ugh you won't BELIEVE what happened while you were gone #these boys cannot just have one nice day without someone trying to take over the school or destroy all magic forever or something #such is life in twisted wonderland

[mobius-m-mobius]

Sometimes our emotions get the better of us. You can say that again.

#mobius #loki #lokius #mcuedit #lokiedit #marveledit #loki spoilers #cafeteria scenes my beloved 🥺💖 #another day waking up reeling at the thought of meeting a person unconditionally accepting of your entire past present and future #and becoming someone who seeks growth from wanting to offer that back to build an equal partnership for the first time! #the way mobius openly likes and accepts all the things about loki everyone else tried to hide or push down oh i'm so emo ;;;;; #maybe i'm overdoing my emoji use while giffing them this season BUT they haven't looked at each other with anything except heart eyes so #take it up with them and their choices 😂 #owen wilson #tom hiddleston #loki s2 spoilers #marvel #owenwilsonedit #dianagifs

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Lan Wangji Goes To Lotus Pier AU: Part 3: Enveloping Feelings.

(Part 1, Part 2, Part 4 (soon))

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #lan wangji #Yungmeng Jiang training arc AU #I wanted to try out a different paneling style for this one - sorry I'm a day late! (there will still be a post tomorrow to keep on track) #The original 3 panel comic idea was fine but the point of this new schedule was to take time to push myself a bit more. #I was taking a look back through some comic artists I felt inspired by #and I really loved how Lynda Barry fills her gutters with patterns and doodles! #Obviously I'm not going as absolutely wild with it as she does but it was a great exercise! #I truly think the gutters are the most important and most overlooked part of any comic. There's lots going on in that space. #It's the same with timeskips. The implied movement between moments that we don't see changes depending on how wide that gap is #You're here for the funny tags so here's some that ties this time talk together: #I think LWJ was thinking about that second note from day 2 but it took him 7 days of hazing to commit it to paper. #I think he sends it a day later and immediately regrets it. Chasing down the messenger and everything. #You know if something actually happened to his brother he would never ever forgive himself for putting the bad vibes out there. #Third time skip was the hardest because there was so many possible flavours of jokes here. Day 8/9 was a personal favourite. #day 14 was also funny (week by week). I think the debate on 'how long does lwj take to catch feelings' is more or less: #'how long does it take for him to arrive at a particular stage of grief and yearning (and awareness of it all) #This is a symphony. There is an act by act structure. Every day he is fighting to keep his old sensibilities. He is losing so badly. #(I'll be returning to the main comic soon but there is more of this AU to come!)

[ariadne-mouse]

Time to get emotional about the lighting of the beacons

also props to the many folks in that chain whose job it is to hang out in the cold by a massive pile of firewood they can't use

#op #the return of the king #tolkien #lotr #i didn't capture all of them here but you can see the shift from day to night to morning again #we see the exciting highlights but I appreciate that a signal process like that would take time! #and now i have to go to bed or I'm going to be up until 3am watching the remaining THREE HOURS of this extended edition #lord of the rings

[aquanutart]

#zelda #legend of zelda #ocarina of time #link #linktober #day 13: phantom #aquanutart #actually i meant to do this for day 2: temple but ... #i guess i could really stretch it and say it's day 15 favorite character (oot link) #i listened to the forest temple music while working on this until i couldn't take it anymore #i hear it in my head when i look at this #the haunted paintings are so cool. this temple is amazing #i love how it's not dark and claustrophobic all the time but also has these bright outdoor areas that are eerily overgrown and abandoned #and then it whiplashes you into stuff like the twisted hallways. it's so cool #i'm not really into spooky/scary stuff but eerie with a sense of implied history and mysteries from years ago? go for it #also the wallmasters teaching us all to deal with anxiety in adulthood #(that is: sense its lurking presence; dodge it when it falls; slash it apart but dont let it split into smaller ones that run away from you

[asukachii]

Where Our Blue Is

(I don’t like putting watermarks so, PLEASE, if you want to post this gif somewhere GIVE CREDITS! Also, don’t use it in edits/videos. Thanks~)

#jjk #jujutsu kaisen #jjk edit #gojo satoru #geto suguru #satosugu #gif #my animation #asukachii #if you saw this on friday no you didn't. #i posted this on friday but then noticed a mistake and deleted it super fast #since the rendering takes about three hours i just took my time orz #i was planning this for valentine's day but here we are #''where our blue is'' the title of jjk2 first opening! ''ao no sumika'' #i like the new cover btw #i saw some discourse on twitter but i find it pretty #gojo's smile seems so sincere and his eyes are smiling as well #his dimple ; v ; #the snow... the camellias... #i swear i'm not deleting this anymore #i'm unsure of when I should post things and that's why i delete multiple times... what day. what time. dunno.

[steddielations]

We all agree Steve has the biggest praise kink ever, he absolutely does, but in the meantime, Eddie’s just getting off free, walking around openly saying that flattery works on him

Let's talk about how Eddie ‘hides behind his hair and holds back a smile at the smallest compliment’ Munson, would be fighting for his life dating Steve 'holds hands during sex, randomly says you're beautiful, turns on his charm like a secret weapon, confident sweet talker no matter how lame he looks' Harrington.

Eddie's probably used to people being entertained by him, but not being endeared, and now he has Steve fucking Harrington winking at him after Hellfire, looking at him like he’s something special even when he's sweaty and has Mountain Dew sticky fingers, casually saying, "Why did they ever call me the King when you look that good up there on your throne, hm?” It’s a miracle Eddie isn’t constantly falling to his knees. Sometimes Steve’s compliments get Eddie so flustered that he just has to hide his face in Steve's neck and bite him.

#steddie #eddie munson #steve harrington #steddie headcanon #steddie headcanons #mp #eddie munson headcanon #steve harrington headcanon #steve x eddie #i'm an 'eddie can dish it out but he can't take it' truther all day long #don't get me started on how both times steve tried to say something nice to eddie he brushed it off like no no lets talk about YOU handsome #it's because he was already close to folding after watching steve's bat fight and he would've simply fell to his knees if #steve sweet talked him after that

[hyakunana]

Daily Hotel Krat: Yelp

#lies of p #lop #neowiz #pinocchio #sophia monad #polendina #fanart #comics #i first planned to post all pages in one go but i thought better and naaah im gonna spread them through the week #as I type here i'm taking days off and use my time here to draw for myself more #also i 100%ed LOP this week 8DD extra hyped for whatever neowiz is planning!! #me before my trip: im not gonna bring my vg w me so i can actually rest and draw #me here: i miss playin

[knifearo]

"asexual discourse" is so funny cause dude that's not discourse and it's never been discourse. it's not an argument and it's not a conversation bitches are just yelling at us unprompted and then making up people to get mad at 😭

#exclusionists will act like they're in the fucking trenches when they're posting #as if they're not taking the time to walk into someone else's community without provocation and start being nasty. #saw a post the other day that was saying smth aphobic and was like 'it's true and we should be allowed to say it' #babe nobody's Stopping you. you can say whatever the fuck you want. #thing is though that when you say shitty things. people don't typically like it <3 #anyway die mad sorry that you fell for heteronormativity and amatonormativity and assume both to be the norm. #i'm gonna keep creating community with other queer people and you are more than welcome to go off and die alone <3 #also if you're fr going into ace discourse in the year of our lord 2024. jesus fucking christ get a hobby #aromantic #aromanticism #arospec #aroace #aspec #talking #asexual #ace discourse #ace exclusion

[screwpinecaprice]

Just a silly guy, with silly silly thoughts.

@glowweek Day 2

Casual | Surprise

A casual surprise?😬😬😬

#Hooooo boiii this lad is about to get funky. #He was internally screaming the whole time. #It's in my core memory as a connverse fan. I'm never truly going to let this up I believe. haha #Our boy really one day went out there wanting to get married as a teen like a true classic Disney princess. 😭 #It was honestly endearing but sad and also pretty embarrassing. 😔 #Secondhand embarrassment aside. Steven is pretty much lucky in the romance department. Which. Deserved by the way. With all the other #crap he had to deal with. #connverse #Steven Quartz Universe #Connie Maheswaran #SU #my shiz #comic #SU comic #glowweek #connverse week #I have no idea if whatever Connie is spouting are actuallt true in real life. Good thing this can be chalked off as just a thing in their #fictional world. #Also I'm glad part of that was covered by Connie's body because I had to take a few notes from chat GPT to add in her enumerated rambling. #I had to make the glow bracelet float like that because I couldn't draw his hand holding it quiet right in that angle. #And yea that size difference is no error. That's how small Connie's wrist is compared to his hands. Or at least something like that. #teal

[fizpup]

valentine, you're a horse ❤️

#my little pony #mlp g3 #wish-I-may #wish-I-might #ok so. I'm gonna ramble for a sec #normally when I post on valentine's day I complain in the tags about being single. but I won't this year! #I've recently realized I'm definitely somewhere on the aromantic spectrum. and that I'm perfectly content without a partner #in the past I've described myself as 'emotionally unavailable' or having 'commitment issues' but neither of those things were ever true #I'm a very loving and loyal person! #I've always been extremely affectionate with friends and family but unable to have the same level of love for potential partners #unsure if I'm just demisexual/demiromantic or actually aroace but I'm definitely not the default settings type of gay lol #I'm a big fan of romance and sex in fiction! but irl? 😅😬 idk about that fam! idk! #hypothetically I would like to have a gf one day and maybe fall in love but now I understand why that may not happen #or atleast is gonna take a while. and that's fine :) #tldr; if your top song on spotify last year was Cupid by Fifty Fifty it's time to do some soul searching lol #happy valentine's day!! 💕

[gazspookiebear]

Ugh I'm so sleepy. Eepy man. Enjoy this shit I cooked up in ten minutes.

You wake up, only to find yourself just as tired as you were a few hours ago. Your eyelids are heavy, and you're fighting back sleep with every blink. Exhaustion wracking your body with every movement.

You feel Simon groan and sit up next to you.

"Mmm... five more minutes?" You mumble sleepily, shivering at the sudden lack of warmth.

"'M sorry love, we've gotta get up"

"Please? I'm so tired..." You whine quietly

"Negative," he says, chuckling at your miserable pout.

"Please, Si?" You say it so sweetly. The nickname you rarely used. His weakness.

A moment passes before you finally hear a response.

"Fine."

You grin, knowing that you've won. He lays back down and wraps his arm around you, pulling your back to his chest. You close your eyes and sleep quickly overtakes you.

Of course, it was never just 'five more minutes'. Simon called your work shortly after and informed them that you wouldn't be coming in today. However that works.

#I'm actually so tired it's unreal #Dying out here #Ofc I didn't get to take the day off. I have to suffer #Who knew exhaustion was what would make me write smt #That's crazy #Got less than 2 hours of sleep #Which actually normally doesn't bother me #But I guess it adds up over time #*shocked pikachu face* #If only I had a Simon in my life #simon ghost riley #cod x reader #ghost x reader #ghost x gn reader #simon riley x reader #simon ghost riley x reader #simon riley x gn reader

[daily-odile]

exhaustion

#set post loops odile looping au but feel free to apply anywhere #odile loops au #isat #isat odile #in stars and time #isat mirabelle #isat spoilers #thinking like. odile overexhausting herself; because she no longer knows how much the human body can take before collapsing #because wishcraft allowed her to function without sleep for hundreds of loops #made while i was super sleepy at work... projecting my exhaustion #day 50 #ok yeah nevermind i keep missing days. gonna go through asks whenever i'm ready for it #does odile putting her hair down post loops teal's design? well I'm attributing it to her anyways

[linterteatime]

Guys...i don't think this is the worst thing i have drawn yet

#invader zim #deltarune #hollow knight #portal #portal 2 #glados #iz zim #noelle holiday #troupe master grimm #utdr #fanart #my art #Uhhhh top 4 favorite characters in the weezer album cover #because i wasn't feeling very normal the other day when I drew this #anyways I'm gonna go missing for a couple of days because the other stuff i want to draw will take me some time #so don't like #make a party in the house while I'm out and stuff y'all