#I'm really not

[scificrows]

Today I'm thinking about this:

Or Miki was a bot who had never been abused or lied to or treated with anything but indulgent kindness. It really thought its humans were its friends, because that’s how they treated it. I signaled Miki I would be withdrawing for one minute. I needed to have an emotion in private.

And about how Murderbot slowly starts calling its humans its friends in Exit Strategy, tentatively at first:

Were they my sort-of human friends? My clients? My ex-owners, though legally that was only Dr. Mensah. Were they going to see me and yell for help, alert security?

but also more confidently later:

Maybe that was why I had been nervous about meeting Mensah again, and not all the other dumb reasons I had come up with. I hadn’t been afraid that she wasn’t my friend, I had been afraid that she was, and what it did to me.

The only tag I can access on Ratthi is a partial that says my human friend. That’s strange and unlikely, but the pre-catastrophic-failure version of me seemed sure about it, and I don’t have anything else to go on.

and Mensah confirms this at the end of the book too:

I just want you to know you already have options here, and I expect you’ll have more offers for your services or advice as a security consultant. And that you have friends here you can discuss things with, whatever you decide to do, or wherever you decide to go.

The thought that a bot could see its humans as its friends (and because they treat it as a friend too) made Murderbot so emotional in Rogue Protocol that it needed a minute to process it. And later on in the series it starts to understand that its own humans are its friends too - and how much they care about it and that it can go to them for help if it needs them and I just. I think I need to withdraw and have an emotion about this in private too.

#i'm so normal about- #actually no it's fine i'm not #i'm really not #also just. remember in NE when arada tells three that a lot of people will be very grateful if it can help get murderbot back safely #and three is like 'huh i have read about this in the helpme.file and accepted it as truthful but it's different actually experiencing this' #'the humans really care about this secunit and will not abandon it although we are made to be disposable????' #because ugh idk #this feels like a parallel to murderbot and miki #the way murderbot is like 'humans like this bot and treat it with kindness so it actually thinks the humans are its friend????' #and now it has friends of its own and this new secunit looks at the way murderbots humans care about it and goes '?????' #and there's something so beautiful about that #i wanna cry #the murderbot diaries #murderbot #𓄿 #long post

[insomniacirl]

I just really need to point out that Charlie Slimecicle is a man KNOWN for his acting skills (In JRWI and just a multitude of videos and streams where he's created lore), his narration skills, writing skills, etc, etc.

Case and point, he managed to make thousands of people become genuinely emotionally attached to a Minecraft egg and his character of the grieving father, going through all stages of mourning and becoming murderous in his grief- in about a weeks time.

And his acting on Just Roll With It and the places where he really gets to shine through with those skills are just fucking incredible obviously.

NOW IMAGINE CHARLIE SLIMECICLE ON THE GEN LOSS SET. ON THE SET FOR AN ANALOGUE HORROR. WHERE HE CAN ACT. AND PLAY A PART IN A FUCKING AWESOME HORROR SERIES.

#Slimecicle #Ranboo #Sneeg #Generation Loss #Slmccl #The Lostfield Incident #The Social Experiments #Gen Loss #Genloss #I'm so normal about this #I'm not #I'm really not #My brain was like #Imagine an animated house burning down and the flames are shifting between their two different drawn shapes at like 10fps #And there's just a little guy running around in circles inside the house and he's going at like 45fps #And he's making garbled screeching noises #Etc #That's kind of how my brain felt #Anyways though #Moving on

[guessilllive]

ship dynamics/hualian

I laughed the entire time while making this. Especially the first one lmao. It's becoming my new screensaver

#hualian #tgcf #ship dynamics #xie lian #hua cheng #Hua cheng is a simp #i think i'm hilarious #I'm really not #Might do more for other ships #inspired by art #The artwork is mine #The og ship dynamic art is not #fanart #memes

[bcbdrums]

Soul Eater manga spoilers if you care about that.

This is a series of random screenshots (up through where I've read so far, ch. 70-something) that specifically show us certain characters' ages.

There is also a panel where Liz declares she's "two or three years older than [Black Star, Kilik, and Patty] but that's not so much what I'm focused on here.

So this is all mostly for me... But just clarifying things that are obvious in canon.

Spirit was 18 when Maka was born. Maka was born the same day the academy took in Black Star. Black Star is 13 at the start of the manga basically.

This means Maka is 13 when everything starts and Spirit is 31. Also Sid was 12(!?) when he took in Black Star.

I'd love to have more character ages, but this is what we know.

#soul eater #spirit albarn #maka albarn #sid barett #sid barrett #black star #black*star #and now to NOT ramble on and on about spirit and stein's relationship #and what these facts about maka's birth means for what was going on between them #save that for another post #i'm perfectly normal about them #i'm really not #franken stein #stein #spirit #death scythe #crossstitch

[gay-robot-boyfriends]

I'm normal about him. c:

#I'm not #I #I'm really not #send help #colored sketch #my art #Zero #help

[meganechan05]

ngl I did headcanon Morf giving Rita a little kiss on the head before falling asleep at the end of episode 29. Just the way they were positioned and how Morf's hand was on Rita's head made me believe she gave Rita's head a little smooch to make it feel better ( ；∀；)

#i love them so much ( ；∀；) #my babies #I'm not ready for episode 30 #I'm really not #sometimes i wonder how intentional TakaMina is with queercoding all the characters #then again he loves HimeRita art щ(゜▽゜щ) #but yeah #give Rita their throuple! щ(゜▽゜щ) #kingohger #king ohger #ohsama sentai kingohger #rita kaniska #rita kanisuka #himeno ran #hymeno ran #morfonia #himerita #ritamoru #himeritamoru #doodle #kingoh doodles

[samantha-and-her-chaotic-desires]

hey y'all

sorry about the recent reblogs on familial f/o stuff. rn I need it.

YES I am very aware that Alastor from Hazbin Hotel is a psychopathic killer. I still see him as a comfort character and a fictional father to me.

idk I just want him to kinda...hold me. hug me tight. hum or whisper things to me that are sweet lil things. forehead kisses. just words of affirmation rn.

Alastor save meeee—

#sorry I dont seem energetic #I'm really not #life happened and I'm hurting cuz of it #but it's whatevs #original post #samantha screeches

[tadaxii-i]

Regulus has the most gorgeous elegant showstopping singing voice ever and Sirius is a frying pan, I'm not sorry.

#i'm really not #i don't make the rules #marauders #regulus black #marauders headcanon #james potter #harry potter headcanon #jegulus #sirius black #starchaser #harry potter #wolfstar #remus lupin #such is life #and life is such

[yourelosingains]

Me when someone says that byler is going to be unrequited:

#byler #byeler #byler memes #meme #why do I think i'm funny #i'm really not #byler is canon #byler is endgame #byler is real #mike wheeler #will byers #mike wheeler is gay #will byers is gay #mike x will #will x mike #stranger things meme #i just know it will be requited #trust me it will be

[getvalentined]

Man. I love Pillowfort.

I love being able to have discussions with people where we don't really agree but it doesn't feel like a fight or a game of oneupmanship, and where there isn't the risk of things getting lost in the shuffle of threads and reblogs and tags.

I love being able to say everything I mean to say without having to limit my language or truncate anything and increase the risk of misunderstanding that's already inherent to text communication.

I love being able to go "No I get that, here's my reasoning, we're both right!" and not feel like I'm about to get told to kill myself.

I love being able to have a conversation without worrying about getting super triggered because ad-hominem aggression is the exact opposite of the tone of choice for users there.

I wish I knew how to get more interaction there, because it almost always feels like I'm the one starting and finishing conversations, but that's not something the platform itself can change. I wish I knew how to get more eyes on my art, because most of the people I've interacted with there with regard to my work are pretty cool and I think it'd be nice to build some deeper connections, but that's not something the platform itself can change either.

As a platform, Pillowfort is so good. It's just so sincere, it harbors such a clear opportunity to communicate with people, it doesn't reward bad actors with engagement-based boosts. The whole environment is just so good.

I really love Pillowfort.

#pillowfort #pillowfort social #it is a shame that it's so quiet for me #but that's nobody's fault #it's not a good platform for ME #like as a creative #I dunno why #it just isn't #and I've gotta be okay with that #because it's a good platform as a platform #and I really appreciate that it exists #I almost tagged their tumblr account on this #so they'd get to see it #but they tend to reblog things like this #and I don't want anyone thinking I'm trying to get pity #because I get so little interaction over there #I'm not #I'm really not #it's a lovely platform #and I hope it continues to succeed #and I hope it succeeds enough that it isn't down to the wire #every couple months #even if it's not for me #it's worth supporting #it deserves to be successful

[jademint2581]

imagine a mishima-sensei art blog that reblogs people's art and compliments it, also gives art advice and encouragement to anons in-character

#i open my mouth and it's this #i'd probably run a blog like that if i was overly confidednt in my abilities to be an art teacher #i'm really not #oh my gosh it'd be cute to have an art teacher on tumblr roleplaying as mishima

[alabyte]

Just so you know:

The music theme that plays at the beginning of episode 14 on Mount Tantiss, where we are shown Crosshair in captivity, is called "The Good Soldier".

And it also contains Crosshair's leitmotif, but this time it's much, much more subdued and blurry.

#Just got my hands on TBB S2 soundtrack #I was having a good day before it #i'm not okay #I'M REALLY NOT #crosshair tbb #tbb crosshair #crosshair #tbb #the bad batch #sw #star wars

[coockie8]

wait theres actual medical reasons for a nose job?

Uh, yeah? I'm sorry, were you genuinely under the impression that breaking your nose into pieces and putting it back together had only cosmetic purposes?

#I'm not *trying* to be condescending here #I'm really not #but this is baffling to me #like a deviated septum is very much a thing people can have that impacts their ability to breathe #my sister has it #and you can tell just by looking at her nostrils; one is like pinched closed #the surgery to fix this is a septoplasty; one of the surgeries known as a ''nose job'' #rhinoplasty is typically used for cosmetic purposes and the septoplasty for medically necessary #the combination of the two is *typically* what you'll do to someone with a broken nose to put it back together #but both are ''nose jobs'' #''nose job'' pretty much just refers to any surgery you do on the nose

[rainycoat]

Can't get over the fact that people think I'm intimidating

#Like enough people have told me so so far but pleaaasr #I'm really not #But I also kind of really enjoy being called intimidating #Makes me feel cooler than I am

[walmart-miku]

This scene fucks me up so much more knowing what I do now about Yosano's backstory.

The first time I watched this scene I thought the deaths she'd seen were medical related like in a hospital and from the murder cases the ADA would get. No. IT'S FROM WHEN SHE WAS ELEVEN AND KEEPING SOILDIERS FROM DYING.

The line "OUR PATIENTS' LIVES JUST SLIP THOUGH OUR FINGERS" goes hard as FUCK knowing what yosano had seen, had done.

#The whole yosano vs kajii fight is so good #I think that's prob when yosano became my fave #The while fight is just yosano being an absolute girl boss #Wait no #The while episode is her being a girl boss #Also I love how she told kajii off about death and science #Like lemon fucker what the fuck do u know about science hmm? #Also do you see the sorrow on her face as she talks? #The way she's angry at the end of it? #How her anger is directed at kajii but also at tachiharas brother for not valuing his own life? #I'm so normal about yosano #I'm really not #But if I keep saying it then it might be true one day #Also I was watching a react to bsd s4 yosano backstory vid #And the dude was like #“What an epic backstory for such a bland useless background character” #First of all #Fuck u dude #second of all #This guy just can't appreciate that yosano is a feminist a girl boss an icon a survivor a veteran a doctor a queen #I know he prob did it for the haha funny of it and for views #But also the guy was simping over ranpo #And u can't really simp for ranpo if u don't respect yosano #Ranpo is the whole reason the ada has yosano #And ransano siblings is real #smh #bsd yosano #bsd kajii #bsd #bungou stray dogs

[justalittlebluetiefling]

Imogen is the main character of campaign 3. Taliesin has confirmed. 

#hey this is a joke #i promise i am joking #4-sided dive #critical role #hahaha at me saying i'm not going to liveblog #i'm really not #i am trying to focus on other things at the same time