#I'm going to die alone

[flavorlessbeans]

I'm shaking and moving around because some guy puts on a hot british accent and speaks into the camera like he's about to kill me in a sexy way. WHY IS THIS HAPPENING? WHO IS THIS GUY AND WHY IS HIS NAME DANNYPHANTOMEXE

#Hot British men #My one weakness #I'm going to die alone #danny phantom exe #I love this and sorta hate it

[dreamingofillusoryplaces]

I think I was just meant to be sad and alone forever.

#me mine #me #me txt #me text #so sad #so lonely #I'm going to die alone #I suppose there are worse things #I'd just like to know true love for once #where is my Gomez?! #where is he

[hellokittyuzi]

It’s like none of my family/friends and I can be close anymore. My brother is the only person in the world who ever really understood me and now I don’t know who he is. The only thing I can do is continue to bury myself in work and pretend nothing else exists until I die

#it's always a choice between interpersonal and academic obligations #i'm going to die alone

[fuckyeahstufficareabout]

What I want in life is so far off from what I'll ever have and I want to fucking die

#I'm worthless #I'm going to die alone #depression #loneliness

[csinickstokes]

Time for my weekly breakdown about dying alone because no one loves me and never will 🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃

#anxiety #i'm going to die alone

[truessences]

I'm a little lit and I feel a little lovey lol send me asks!

#stranger things #mileven #mike wheeler #Austin Butler #I'm going to die alone #Oscar Isaac #Michael B Jordan #movies

[keroseneskin]

Omg! Just got my heart broken by a second person in the last two months! I love being single and in my late twenties!! This is so much FUN! Isn't this just an absolute blast?!?

#I'm going to die alone #melodramatic shit posting round 2 #here we go again #like why do they never even want to try #why do they all say I'm exactly what they want #BUT #there's always a but #and i just don't get it #like what is wrong with me #??? #personal #mine #me #spilled ink #love #keroseneskin #spilled words

[knifearo]

being aromantic is like. hey btw you're going to live a life that is the culmination of most of society's worst nightmares. sorry lol ✌️ but then you turn around and take a really good hard look at it and it turns out that living in that nightmare is fucking awesome and you get to wake up every day and take that fear that other people have and laugh and hold it close until it's a great joy for you instead. and being happy is a radical act that you define instead of someone else. and you're sexy as fuck that's just a fact of life i don't make the rules on that one

#aromantic people are just sexy i'm not making the decisions here it's just facts #course ur hot as fuck. it came free with the aromanticism #being sexy is just default settings for aromantic people 👍 #hope this all helps. anyway i'm on my 'i hope i die alone <3 i can't wait to die alone <3' kick rn #i think the existential fear that people have of Not Partnering specifically is so. well. #obviously that shit is strong and it is SO awesome to be free of it. #realizing you're aro and you don't Want a partner can be such a hit to the solar plexus #cause society says that's the only thing that'll make you happy. so either you go without that thing or you force yourself #into doing something you don't want which would make you unhappy anyway. #so you think it's a lose lose situation and you have to come to terms with what amatonormativity presents as the worst possible situation #but then! whoa! turns out personhood is inherently valuable in and of itself and romantic partnering is just a construct! #and that nightmare is now your life to do with as you please... define as you will... structure as you want... #best case scenario. is what i'm saying. #every day i wake up ready to spit all that amatonormative rhetoric back in life's teeth by being alone and being happy #and it's so fucking satisfying. every day. #fucking JUBILANT being by myself. and i love being a living breathing 'fuck you' to the romantic system #you need a partner to be happy? oh that's sooo fucking crazy guess i'll go be miserable then. in my perfect fucking dream life lmao #yeah obviously it's the worst possible outcome on earth to die without a partner. so terrible. can't wait for it :) #aromantic #aromanticism #aro positivity #aroace #arospec #sorry to bitches who are sad about not having a partner. i could not give a fuck though get better soon #you couldn't EVER pay me enough to go back to a mindset in which my inherent value wasn't enough by myself. #FUCK that shit. absolutely miserable and a bad life outlook in general. like genuinely do the work w/ amatonormativity and get better #life is something that can be so fulfilling whether someone wants to kiss you or whatever or not #i'm on antidepressants and i have people i care deeply about. what the fuck would i need a partner for lmao

[briefchaoscheesecake]

#miss my girl #She's my everything #i'm going to die alone

[emmajadebarr]

#I'm going to die alone

[spiritof2020]

Ladies, if you are needing that someone special in your life hmu. Because if I even get a hint of feelings for you someone else will come in and sweep you off your feet.

#i'm cursed #depressing post #me irl #I'm going to die alone #lonely

[skrunksthatwunk]

thinking about how eiji's a pole vaulter and how ash talks about eiji "flying" and how eiji's associated with bird imagery and how eiji's free (unlike ash) and how eiji comes in on a plane and leaves on a plane and how ash cannot fly, ash cannot be free, how nyc is ash's prison, and how ash is the leopard who dies climbing the mountain, unable to live at such elevation, how he was trying to reach the sky and be free but was always stuck to the earth, how he chose to die instead of climbing back down, how he chose to die where he could see the sky and hope and freedom almost like a bird with eiji's letter right in front of him rather than letting everything go wrong and ruin it once again, how eiji's a failed pole vaulter anyway, how a bad fall ruined his career and grounded him (physically and emotionally), how it took flying to america and meeting ash and needing to save him and skip for him to try flying again, how he landed hard and harsh and still the thought of that escape compelled ash to protect eiji at all costs because if he could fly that means something to him, even if he doesn't think he can fly, how eiji is the manifestation of his hope and how when he breaks and asks eiji to stay with him a while he folds himself over his legs and weighs him down and traps him and grounds him, how ash fights like hell to keep eiji alive not because he thinks he can be like him (hopeful, flying, innocent), but because he makes him forget the gravity of his situation, and so he can see eiji fly again. how he wants to see him escape. how eiji is a bird and ash is a wildcat and how ash never once saw eiji as prey. how eiji never saw ash as a predator. how it is eiji's naivete that first endears ash to him, how it is his freedom and flight and removal from darkness and his ability to leave that darkness that really roots eiji in ash's blood as something essential to him keeping on living in this hell of nyc. how it is that distance from the violence and that hope for the future that ash chooses to surround himself in as he dies. how ash dies in a dream because he feels more than anything that he can't fly like eiji, that he can never leave. how his violence is a part of him and will be forever, how it weighs him down. how he wants to enjoy the view from the mountainside rather than looking up from the ground below. as if they can both fly. as if he is with him up there and not grounded. eye-to-eye with what he can't have, seeing eiji's homeland: the sky. how he dies trying to reach the top because he couldn't take retreating and trying again. how ash, tired and tired and tired and convinced it will go on forever if he crawls back down the mountain, chooses to close his life deluged in eiji, in eiji's insistence that they can fly together, in eiji's hope for him and for them, in eiji's beautiful dream. how ash dies without trying to realize that dream. how ash, in dying, destroys it.

#banana fish spoilers #I'M HAVING A FUCKING MOMENT #mutual reblogged exactly one (1) piece of ash fanart and sent me on A Multiple Hour Long Thing and now im rewatching it lol #yes i am only on episode 2 yes i am still going to write big long analysis posts ANYWAY #whatever hope this makes sense. anyway #banana fish #okumura eiji #ash lynx #asheiji #hhhhh i can't believe i've only watched this twice in like what 5.5 years?? sheesh #anywayyyyyyy i care about them a lot ok. god #and yes i DO kinda have beef with the decision to kill ash off at the end but it really does say so much About his character #that he chose to die in the way that he did even though he's been throwing his life away since episode 1 #dying in peace in comfort in solitude rather than in some chaotic battlefield.... ough...... in the peace eiji alone could give him..... #anywayss i relate to ash a little more than i should so. this one's for us cool guy bottoms up #edit i uh.... i forgot it was a leopard.... in the story..... but whatever it doesn't really affect the symbolic meaning it's just embarras #ing that i forgot >;/

[bmoharrisbankofficial]

am still obsessed with the bit from nope (2022) where em goes "so i was talking to my therapist about how dad made me feel unworthy and less than and--" and oj goes "you see a therapist??" and then em pauses and goes "i fuck one occasionally! anyways i was telling her--"

#nope 2022 #emerald haywood #oj haywood #em haywood #for the people who say they wish theaters had subtitles: they do! not every screening obvs but look up your local theater and type in #'on screen captions [movie name]' and it will give you a list of showings with subtitles #usually there are 2 to 3 during a movie's run; i'm going again on wednesday bc there's a screening with the captions #nope 2022 spoilers #nope spoilers #i am so in love with these siblings they are so good #also i love when black lesbians survive films holy shit #i was so worried she was going to die based on (waves at the past several decades of media and how it treats black women and sapphics #let alone characters who are both) #i love and cherish my little lesbian so much

[chronurgy]

In my feels about how Gortash abso-fucking-lutely ruined Durge's life. Just fucking destroyed it. But that's also the only reason they have any sort of chance to make something different for themself. He's the only reason they even have a chance at a happy ending (even though it's a happy ending that he can't be in)

#enver gortash #dark urge #dark urge x gortash #durgetash #bg3 #Thinking about how my durge had just resigned themself to being miserable and alone and hating the world for everything it #Couldn't or wouldn't give them. For being so fucking boring. They had their magic and that was everything they needed. But then #In sweeps this motherfucker who talks to them and understands them and is just as smart as they are and then suddenly #They have dreams again. All the wants they thought they'd ground into dust years ago come back with a vengeance #It ruined them! If they'd just been able to live in the same furious and miserable detachment as before Orin never would've gotten to them #If they had never started feeling alive again then they never would have begun to balk at the idea of dying on their father's altar #Because who cares about dying when you're already buried six feet under? But when you're alive? Maybe you don't want to die #Maybe you want to live. Maybe you have other things to think about besides Bhaal's bloody love and your siblings' resentments #And that's when they get you #Ughhhh I'm going to be fucking sick #Vesper

[zebratimw]

Spirit animal SQH

#svsss #shang qinghua #but mainly I'm just here to vague post LMAO I don't like to vague post its not very effective in terms of venting but #but basically I guess I'm becoming hyperaware of my like... cognitive dissonance codependency and derealization ee #also my general laziness ig and where it overlaps into executive dysfunction or whatever like I may genuinely have some issues but #I am also a lazy son of a bitch jfjfkgkg and i need to figure out how to figure it out so I can work on both in more effective ways hhggg #oh yeah but basically the thing to remember for later is the silence in the call and the immediate unmute and chat activity once I left #I should remember this and stop interacting I think? I should try to give em space I think I'm being too clingy or something #or maybe my own silence is too awkward and dampens the call? I was kinda just spacing out and not doing anything so I get its kinda weird #LMAO so I should just like try not to be in call for those times mm #I just like being in call with my friends jdhfkg but I suppose its not very good either #I overindulge I suppose another friend pointed it out to me before too haha but fjfjjt its just easier than facing bouts of dread by myself #eehh and that's why I gotta do something about my Metnal Ailneses hfjfj but ngl I don't really know how to go about it... #I get embarrassed looking stuff up djfnfkg and half the time I don't even know what to look up I just draw ?s and I give up #I suppose I also have commitment issues too but that ones not new which is an issue of itself aaaaaaaa #man idk idk I just don't really get it I guess djdjfjf and I've got existential dreads and think maybe it doesn't really matter whats wrong #cause there's no point to fixing them because ultimately I'm gonna die alone and a failure anyways? so like ehfjgkg idk #its depressing and I know its like sabotage cause my brain is being a little silly a little goofy and its not a shared sentiment #with the better half of me and the entirety of my friends but yknow its just ee harder sometimes to believe in the optimism ig #and i can talk about it somewhat normally and without like having a ✨️break down #but yknow djfjgkg I'm very emotional a person ya? I think sqh is relatable for gods sake 💀 #irrationality sentimentality nihilism and existential dreads... wanting to die because living is too hard despite all my hopes for living... #just the ol regulars yknow? #and another thing... do I talk to my friends about these things? I vent them out here a lot but what do I really want? #I'm not strong enough to keep it to myself clearly but I'm also too proud to share these thoughts? I dump them out in the open and for what? #whenever someone reaches out with concern and care I don't respond in kind and refuse to elaborate? #so like what do I want with this? I guess I want someone to know I'm going insane half the time I'm awake? but not do anything about it? #that's pretty unfair I guess... and stupid I think I do want to share my thoughts with someone but I'm too scared of the ramifications #and that my pride can't stand the fact I might be looked differently by my friends even tho the image they have of me is already quite silly #man.... idk.... I'll come to conclusions myself and do nothing about them so I guess that'll happen again aah idk idk idk

[depressiv]

ⁱᵗˢ ᵃˡʷᵃʸˢ ʷʰᵉⁿ ʸᵒᵘ ⁿᵉᵉᵈ ˢᵒᵐᵉᵒⁿᵉ ᵗʰᵉ ᵐᵒˢᵗ ᵗʰᵃᵗ ⁿᵒᵇᵒᵈʸˢ ᵗʰᵉʳᵉ

#i wanna d*e #i wanna die #i wanna kms #i wanna cvt #feeling alone #die #im going to kms #i want to kms #ready to kms #kms #alone with my thoughts #im so tired #tired of this shit #i'm tired #mentally tired #tw self destruction #bpd thoughts #depressiv #depressiv's indirects #self destruction #bpd life #bpd mood #depressing shit #sorry for being depressing #sad thoughts #sad quotes #depressing quotes #tw depressing stuff #tw depressing thoughts #tw sui ideation